taekookau "I'll play a song for you, Kook." "A song?" "I wrote it 2 years ago, prepared it for your 18th birthday but..." "But what?" "Don't hate me, please."

Jungkook could never hate Taehyung. The younger furrows his eyebrows in confusion. Perplexion and a pinch of curiosity is written on his face as he slowly let’s go of Taehyung’s abnormally soft hand. Right, Taehyung needs both of his hands in order to play the guitar.

Jungkook already misses the silky touch of his best friend’s long, tender fingers in his.The room they lay in is dimly lit, solely by a lavender candle in the corner of the wall. There’s a faint wave of tension between them, as Taehyung stares nervously at Jungkook.

His eyes seem perturbed and Jungkook can’t bear spotting something that’s not utter gliss or serenity in his best friend’s eyes. Taehyung takes a long gulf of air. He looks deranged, unsettled and Jungkook wonders what deed would have affected his mood to such intensity.

Jungkook settles closer to his angel. He ruffles Taehyung’s hair, shifts in place and drags his body till there’s not one breath between them. Jungkook’s fingers walk absently through the black curls and a sense of serenity and comfort overwhelm his mind and heart.

“Sing for me, Tae.” The boy seems to relax under the soft touch. And then he touches the strings and it’s pure euphoria to listen to his emotions speak through the notes.

Taehyung plays the guitar with his heart out on the tip of his palm. Just one of the dozen things Jungkook loves about him. And then Taehyung’s deep baritone voice lashes out in the starry night and Jungkook melts.

➜⇢➤ He looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be. ➜⇢➤ Jungkook loses himself for a minute in the fragrance of his best friend’s soul, but then the lyrics register in his mind and it puzzles him.

Jungkook doesn’t ever want Taehyung to fake a smile, he deserves all the best. The worries fade into nothingness as the boy continues to sing, a note of nervousness cracking his voice. Still, Jungkook thinks it’s perfect. Taehyung is perfect.

➜⇢➤ I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about And she's got everything that I have to live without. ➜⇢➤ Jungkook faintly ponders over the identity of the girl featured in his song. He instantly hates her though, as she makes his best friend insecure.

➜⇢➤ He talks to me, I laugh 'cause it's just so funny That I can't even see anyone when he's with me. ➜⇢➤ Jungkook furrows his eyebrows dissatisfied. Who in the world dares to make Taehyung smile more than he does?

Jungkook prides himself in being the one and only Taehyung’s happiness preacher. At one moment, Jungkook realizes that Taehyung was/is in love with someone, a pang of discomfort protrudes his insides, the thought doesn’t sit right with him for some reason.

And that one individual did break Taehyung’s precious heart by the grief and agony Taehyung excludes as he continues to sing, eyes closed and fingers trembling on the guitar strings.

➜⇢➤ He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night. ➜⇢➤ Jungkook pouts and distances himself a bit from the boy with the guitar.

He clearly remembers spending all his nights with Taehyung: reading together, playing, cooking, walking, was Taehyung thinking all the time about someone else? Still, Jungkook tears his body back to the comfort of Taehyung’s thigh. It feels too cold without.

➜⇢➤ He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar. Jungkook’s heart trembles at the pain that Taehyung voices out with the verse, a silent cry of help. Jungkook hates the person his best friend sings about so much. How dare they not bless Taehyung with the love he deserves.

➜⇢➤ The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star ➜⇢➤ A memory suddenly pops out in his mind at the mention of a wishing star. It was his 18th birthday, they were laying on the rooftop of Taehyung’s house, Jungkook’s head neatly placed on the boy’s thigh.

They were young and so in love. Too bad not both with each other.

There was a fleeting flash of light crossing the sky right in front of their eyes. Jungkook proposed to wish on a star. It was his 18 birthday and Jungkook confessed to Taehyung that he might actually love her. Taehyung was silent for some time.

But then smiled graciously at the younger boy and told him he’s happy for him. A tear dropped out of Taehyung’s eye as he wished for the last time for Jungkook on a wishing star. Jungkook didn’t notice that. ➤ He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do. ➤

Jungkook can sense the exhaustion in Taehyung’s voice, as if he’s ready to give up on the unrequited love he harboured for so many years and that stripped him of a real smile. ➤ He walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe? And there he goes, so perfectly

The kind of flawless I wish I could be ➤ Jungkook’s breath stops because Taehyung’s words invade his mind: you’re so flawless, Kook, so perfect. Words whispered to him at every occasion, so that now it dawns on Jungkook. He should hate himself. He’s the one that broke Taehyung

Jungkook’s crying. Or maybe it’s his heart that is bleeding. ➤ She better hold him tight, give him all her love Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause➤ Jungkook cries a river by the time the final notes roll in. ➤He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar

The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do ➤ Taehyung opens his eyes. Jungkook closes his, because he can’t bear to look at him. “Kook” Jungkook cries even harder and louder as Taehyung’s voice cracks.

as if despite all the heartbreak and pain he went through, Taehyung wants to assure Jungkook’s comfort and well-being. “Don’t cry please, darling.” Taehyung closes the one millimeter between them and hugs his best friend tight. He doesn’t know what tomorrow will bring.

He has only now with Kook. And then Jungkook frees himself from the embrace, eyes puffy and coloured with tears as his lips tremble as well as his heart. “Why now? Why one day before my wedding, Tae?”

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