Resigned; a #YoonminAU
"So stop. Stop bringing others between us!" Yoongi tries to take a hold of the omega, "stop making it about the other person-"
Jiminโs eyes flicker to Hoseok who is in Yoongiโs car, worried eyes fixed on them, "yeah," Jimin sighs, "let's stop."
Jimin hugs himself, heavy rain pouring on him, "let's stop bringing the other person between two lovers."
Yoongi reaches out desperately,"good. Okay, good. Now-"
"Now let the third person go, hyung," Jimin thanks the rain for hiding his tears, stepping back, "let me go."
- The Yoonmin arc of RESTRICTED, the taekook au
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The diary lies in the box of things Yoongi labelled as 'trash.' Forgotten by its owner. Harmless in its existence.
Jimin picks it up, wipes the surface before opening it. He smiles when he sees it's Yoongi's college time journal. The pages messy with Yoongi's rants all over it.
There are lyrics written at the edges of the pages Jimin flips through. His eyes skimming over the lines as he goes.
He pauses when he sees Hoseok's pictures. A few Polaroids. Taped on the pages. Yoongi wrote a few words under each. Jimin tries to move past. He can't.
By the time he comes to the end of the journal, Jimin has tears clinging to his eyelashes. He picks up the next diary, filled with just as many details and pictures.
Until it stops.
Until the day Yoongi writes he is going to ask Hoseok out. Then there's nothing for a few pages.
Jimin knows what happened that night. He knows what went down right after. He flips the page to see another entry after a week.
The pages aren't messy anymore. They are kind of sorted. Kind of clean, butโฆ lifeless. Not filled with colours and chaos. Silent. Sombre.
Jimin wipes his eyes, reads the next few pages. Jimin notices how he is never really mentioned. Yoongi mentions him going out. Mentions the engagement. Mentions their new flat, but Jimin, his name, is never mentioned explicitly.
As if Yoongi refuses to let him in on his personal space. As if this is the only place Yoongi can manage to keep Jimin away from.
Yoongi mentions how suffocating some days are. He mentions often how alone he feels in his thoughts nowadays. Jimin can clearly see how those lyrics start to ebb off. As if Yoongi loses the inspiration with time.
Yoongi never, not even once, mentions Jimin by his name or acknowledges him. Jimin picks up the next few diaries and itโs the same. Yoongi writes about himself. He writes about life, his life, and he doesnโt mention Jimin.
Jimin is present as a shadow. A shadow that follows Yoongi and somehow engulfs him and takes him away from the sunshine he once had in his life.
Jimin chuckles to himself, for the first time seeing Yoongi's side of the story. A story that is, to Jimin, his 'love story.'
Jimin puts all those diaries back in the box. He sits on the floor, between all those boxes, and finds himself tearing up all over again. He wipes his eyes when he hears the footsteps. He hurries to shove the box under the desk, where Yoongi kept it.
โHey, they are here,โ Yoongi walks in, โtell them which boxes they need to carry. The fragile ones are labelled, right? Did you do it, or shall I?โ
Jimin shakes his head, looking around the empty bedroom, โeverything is packed. Tell them to get these. We are done here.โ
Yoongi looks around the bedroom, a small smile on his lips, โit feels kind of weird to leave this place, you know? I rented it at the start of my college days. Now we are moving on, I feel like I am leaving so much behind.โ
Jimin gets up, looks around the room, โyeah. I guess, I am learning about your sacrifices too late.โ
Yoongi frowns, โwhat?โ
Jimin shakes his head, โthe new houseโฆ are you sure?โ he looks at Yoongi, โare you sure you want that?โ
Yoongi tilts his head, confused, โwe are engaged. Going to be married soon. We are supposed to share a house, Jimin. What are you talking about? Iโm sure.โ
Jimin looks away, eyes fixed on the window, โwe can rethink the wedding. We still have time. Please, think this through.โ
Yoongi takes a step towards Jimin, โblossom,โ his voice is tender, โare you worried that I will deny marrying you at the last moment? I would never do that,โ he takes Jiminโs hands in his, โI would never run from my responsibilities like that.โ
Jiminโs heart aches in his chest. He watches the man in front of him, and his heart stutters on its path. Jimin forces his tears to not fall when he steps closer to the alpha.
He presses his lips on Yoongiโs, slowly kissing the alpha, โI love you, alpha. I love you so much.โ
Yoongi kisses him back, his hands leaving Jiminโs to hold him by his waist, โI know,โ Yoongi sighs, โI know you do. Now, come on, the trucks are waiting. We need to move the boxes. The men are waiting. We can't be late, come on.โ
He turns, drags Jimin down the stairs...
Jimin never questioned it. He never really stopped to notice the other in his own haste to fix his dreams around Yoongi.
His first crush.
First love.
Jimin never stopped to pick up on these signs. Now that he stops, the delusion starts to fade.
Jimin stops beside Yoongi by their car. He watches the alpha talk to the moving staffs, instructing them what to do and how to handle the boxes.
Jimin leans against the car and watches how the locket Yoongi wears gleam under the sun.
A sunflower. Jimin knows itโs a gift from Hoseok. From a carnival the two of them went to during their school days. Hoseok won two chains in a lucky draw. A sunflower and a sun. Hoseok still wears the sun, while Yoongi wears the sunflower.
Jimin feels the giggle burst out of him, tears rolling out his eyes.
How was he ever so stupid?
How did he never see something wrong in that? How did he never notice that Yoongi never stopped wearing it.
Sunflower to the sun. Always following the sun and nothing else. Eyes, existence, everything is only for the sun, nothing else.
Jimin wipes his eyes, smiles when Yoongi turns to look at him, quirks an eyebrow at him. Yoongi comes to get in the driverโs seat, Jimin joining him.
โSo, we will stay the night at a hotel,โ Yoongi smirks at Jimin, โorder in expensive wines and food and then tomorrow everything will be ready for us to move in. Okay?โ
Jimin leans against the car window, โtake me home.โ
Yoongiโs hand comes to settle on Jiminโs thigh, โhome? For now, you donโt have a home, blossom. It will be done by tomorrowโโ
Jimin closes his eyes, the alphaโs touch burning him, โhome. My parentsโ house,โ he looks out through the window, โI want to go to theirs.โ
Yoongi goes stiff. He risks a glance at Jimin and then back at the road.
โI am not staying at your parentsโ house,โ Yoongi chews out, โyou know I am not comfortable around them. I have already booked us a hotel, blossom. Just a night, letโsโโ
Jimin shakes his head, pulls his leg away, โI am not talking about you. I am going home for the night. I will see you tomorrow. Okay?โ
Yoongi slows the car, โwhy are you suddenly so adamant about going home?โ
Jimin grits his teeth, โI know you canโt stand my parents, but they are my parents! I want to go to them, and why are you making such a huge deal out of it?!โ
Yoongi frowns, looks at him, โblossom, you know how they are! You donโt like them either. Whatโโ
Jimin shrugs, โjust take me home. I want to...โ I want to be away for you. As far away from you as I can.
Jimin feels humiliated. The more he stays beside Yoongi, the more stupid he feels for never noticing.
The more Yoongi reaches for him, the more uncomfortable he feels now.
Yoongi sighs, โfine!โ he speeds the car, โI never win against you and your stupid tantrums! Fine! Do whatever you want, I will just go along with it like I always do!โ
Each word feels like a whiplash. It stings. It leaves Jimin feeling bruised. Jimin closes his eyes.
When they finally reach Jiminโs house, Yoongi stops the car, โgo. I am not going in.โ
Jimin nods, unbuckles the seatbelt and turns to leave. Yoongi grabs his elbow, pulling him back. Jimin looks over at the man, confused.
Yoongiโs eyes are focused ahead, his hand holds Jimin, โI didnโt mean it,โ he sighs, closing his eyes, โthe tantrum thing. I am sorry. I justโฆโ he looks at Jimin, โI hate coming here. You know that.โ
Jimin forces a smile on his lips, โbecause they forced you to be with me?โ
Yoongi frowns, shakes his head immediately, โno! Of course notโโ
Jimin chuckles, looking away, โnot sure what else they ever did for you to hate them.โ
โThey are terrible to you!โ Yoongi hisses, โthey treat you like a baggage! Blossomโโ
โJimin,โ Jimin sighs, โthat name never really fit me. I donโt like it,โ he looks at Yoongi, โwhy do you call me that anyway?โ
Yoongi looks confused, โIโฆโ he lets Jimin go, โI donโt know.โ
Jimin nods, his hand on the door, โyeah, you just started calling me that out of nowhere,โ he tries to keep his tone light, โI never really told you, but I donโt like nicknames. Just call me Jimin.โ
Yoongi reaches for him again, โis there something wrong? Baby, tell me.โ
Jimin pulls his wrist away, โeverythingโs fine, hyung. Nothingโs wrong. I will go now.โ
Jimin gets out of the car, stops when he hears the other door opening. He turns to see Yoongi rounding the car.
โWhat?โ Jimin stares.
Yoongi comes to stand in front of him, โifโฆโ his eyes skim over the building, jaw tightening, โif you want,โ Yoongi lets out a deep breath, looking at Jimin, โif you want me to go with you, I will go. In there. If you want me to, I will.โ
Jimin shakes his head, โno. I don't.โ
Yoongi takes a hold of Jiminโs hands in his, โare you sure?โ
Jimin nods, โI am sure.โ
โItโs just a night, then you will come back to me, right?โ Yoongi murmurs, eyes searching Jiminโs face, โjust a night. Right?โ
Jimin nods, โyeah. Why are you making it a big deal?โ
Yoongi leans, his forehead resting against Jiminโs, โit feels like you are leaving, blossom. You feel like a goodbye right now.โ
Jimin chokes, โYoonโฆโ
Yoongi cups the side of his face, feather-like touch, โgood night,โ his lips press against Jiminโs cheekbone, โblossom.โ
Jimin shudders, โgood night, hyung.โ
โI will pick you up tomorrow,โ Yoongi kisses the tip of his nose, โfirst thing in the morning.โ
Jimin shakes his head, โI will meet you. I might sleep late. You donโt have to come all the wayโโ
Jimin goes silent when those lips meet his. Yoongi pulls him flushed against his chest, kissing him breathless. Jimin grasps the alphaโs shirt, trying to hold himself up, while Yoongi coaxes his mouth open into the kiss. Yoongi kisses Jimin till both of them are gasping for air.
Yoongi pecks Jiminโs lips, โare you sure you donโt want to come with me?โ he smirks, โI got us a suite with the city beneath us. Kind of wanted to fuck you against the window, you know?โ
Jimin pulls away, chuckles, โright,โ he steps back, โno, hyung. I will see you tomorrow.โ
He jogs inside the house.
Jimin sags against the elevator. He hugs himself, trying not to think too much. Trying not to let his mind make him believe that all Yoongi wants from him is the sex.
Jimin sucks in a breath, trying to erase the alpha from his mind as much as he can.
Deep inside him, he knows Yoongi was joking. He knows they didnโt have sex since the first time when Jimin got into heat. He knows Yoongi never touched him like that and the thought doesnโt help either. That thought makes it worse.
Jimin stumbles out of the elevator, his eyes taking in the living room. His mother is sitting by the couch, reading something. Jimin wipes his eyes. He is here after a year almost.
โMum,โ he calls, tries to force his nerves to settle, โhi.โ
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Yoongi stands near the window. His eyes on the slowly moving traffic. He sips the wine, leans against the cool glass of the window and sighs. Watches how the glass fogs up.
He looks down at the liquid in the glass, sloshes it, thinks.
Thinks how quiet the place feels. A quiet he wished for since he met Jimin. Jimin is loud. He laughs loudly. He invades Yoongiโs personal space, falls over him.
He is touchy, likes to hold hands, snuggles up to Yoongi whenever he deems fit. He kisses Yoongi any chance he gets.
Jimin is not like Hoseok.
Hoseok understood Yoongi. Understands Yoongi the most. Better than Yoongi understands himself. He respected Yoongiโs personal space. He lets Yoongi have his quiet. He always knew when to reach out for Yoongi and when to leave him alone.
Yoongi closes his eyes and Jiminโs face flashes across his eyelids. Jimin leaving tonight. So quiet. So closed off. So vulnerable for some reason Yoongi doesnโt understand.
But, Yoongi understands one thing. Jimin is not made for quiet. He is not made to look like that. Ever!
Yoongi chuckles, โcanโt believe the quietness I prayed for since I met you, when you are suddenly granting me that, I hate it.โ
He turns to face the room, leans against the glass, โcanโt believe the alone time is not as charming as I thought it would be.โ
He pulls out his phone, powers it up to stare at the wallpaper. Yoongi is never cheesy. At least, he likes to think he is not.
The cherry blossoms stare back at him. His wallpaper. He put it on randomly. Without giving it much, though. He slides the screen, dialling the number.
โHyung,โ Hoseok sounds alert, โwow, you are up this late?โ
Yoongi glances at the clock, โitโs just eleven?โ
Hoseok chuckles, โfor an oldie like you, itโs late. Whatโs up?โ
Yoongi closes his eyes, โwhat are you doing? Busy? At Namjoonieโs place?โ
โNo,โ Hoseok sighs, โJoonie will be late. He has some work or something. Why?โ
Yoongi smiles, โremember how we used to plan a nightout? At a pricy hotel? When we would not have time and be busy with college, we would plan a day away from all that busy life? You and me?โ
Hoseok chuckles, โare you at a hotel?โ
Yoongi hums, โwanna come over?โ
Hoseok laughs, โyou nutjob! Why are you at a hotel, and why am I invited? What happened to your house? Where's Jimin?โ
Yoongi shrugs, โjust come over. I will send the address. Bring some beer too.โ
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Jimin twists and turns on the bed, his eyes focused on the ceiling while he wills his mind to stop racing.
Itโs almost twelve. After having dinner with his mother, his father away on a business trip, Jimin is given his childhood bedroom to sleep in.
Only if Jimin can sleep.
He picks up his phone then, dialling the number he knows by heart now. He waits while the phone rings. On the last or so ring, itโs answered.
โHey?โ
Jimin lets out a breath, โhi,โ he curses himself, โI was justโฆโ
โ๐ ๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐จ๐ช, ๐ฅ๐ช๐ฅ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ด๐ฆ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฐ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ณ?! ๐ ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ค๐ข๐ฏ ๐ค๐ญ๐ฆ๐ข๐ณ๐ญ๐บ ๐ด๐ฆ๐ฆ ๐ช๐ต ๐ง๐ณ๐ฐ๐ฎ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ด ๐ธ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ธ!โ
Jimin freezes. His hand trembles where he holds the phone.
โWh-who is it?โ Jimin forces his voice to come out steady.
Yoongi chuckles, โhoba. I was feeling alone, so I called him up. He is a little tipsy on the wine, you know? Now he is on his โeverything is wonderfulโ stage. Wants me to see the tower.โ
Jimin clutches the duvet up to his chest, โohh. Right. Yeah.โ
Yoongi sighs, โhow is that house? Everything okay?โ
Jimin feels the tears trailing out from the corners of his eyes, โmum told me she missed me. Told me how she understands how tough it is for me. To marry you.โ
โWhat does she mean by that?โ Yoongi frowns.
Jimin shrugs, โyou know. How I never got to experience a dating life. How I think I love you when in reality itโs just my omega choosing you because you are the first alpha I spent my heat with. She thinks we should wait it out.โ
Yoongi is quiet.
Jimin turns on his side, โI thinkโฆโ he clutches the phone closer to his ear, โI think she is right. You know?โ
Yoongi sucks in a breath, โwhat do you mean?โ
Jimin bites down on his lower lip, feeling it hurt under his teeth, โI think we should rethink all this.โ
โYou want to postpone the wedding?โ Yoongi sounds confused.
Jimin lets out a shaky breath, โI want to call it off.โ
Yoongi curses loudly, โare you kidding me, Jimin?!โ he sounds angry, โthe cards are ordered for printing, the venue is chosen, the date is fixed. I have a fucking honeymoon destination booked. The relatives confirmed to attend, our friends took their leave. We canโtโโ
Jimin smiles, closes his eyes, โis it about the money? Or, your reputation? Which one you are always so afraid of losing? Your family name? I am always threatening your family name for you. No? Always bringing in a scandal. I am not made for you, it looks like, hyung.โ
Yoongi inhales deeply, trying to calm himself down, โlisten, Jimin. Listen to me. This is exactly why I didnโt want you to go to your house. This is exactly why. Your parents always manage to ruin things for you. Theyโโ
โI want an out, hyung,โ Jimin wipes his eyes.
โThis is not a playdate, Jimin!โ Yoongi growls, โitโs not going be just you and yourself all the time! I am in this too, damn it! I amโโ
โAre you?โ Jimin wonders, โin this? At all?โ
Yoongi curses, โwhat the hell are you saying?!โ
Jimin sighs, โI will meet you tomorrow. At the house. Letโs talk it out. I will see what we can do to lessen the blame on you. Yeah? Good night, hyung. Enjoy yourself.โ
He cuts the call. When Yoongi calls him back, Jimin turns the phone off.
Restricted, a #TAEKOOKAU [a/b/o]
โYou know, omegas aren't allowed to play here, right? This is a strictly alpha-only club,โ Jungkook rounds the table with a glass of beer in his hand.
The omega does not spare him a glance, โI know,โ he hits the ball, watching it fly off.
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โIs that a mating bite?!โ Yoongi grits out, his eyes moving from Jimin's exposed mark to his face.
Jimin fumbles, confused at first, terrified the next. He hurries to wrap the robe properly around himself, trying to hide the mark.
Yoongi marches forward, reaching for him.
Jimin gasps when Yoongi's hand clasps his wrist, pushing his hand away to take a hold of the robe. Jimin turns sideways when Yoongi pushes the robe off his shoulder to expose the mark.
Still healing. Still fresh. Still hurting.
Yoongi freezes, his eyes focused on the mark.
โIs this why you broke up with me?โ Yoongi whispers, his eyes fixed on the mark that Jimin hides again, Yoongi looks up at Jimin's eyes, โis this what you broke us off for? You started to like someone else?โ
Jimin stares, chill running down his spine, โwhat?โ
โโโโโ โ โโโโโ
Yoongi gestures at the mark, his face twisting with emotions Jimin doesnโt want to decipher, โthe damn mark, Jimin!โ his voice echoes in the room, โis this why you broke up with me?! You found someone else?!โ Yoongi gives a hollow laugh, โdamn, thatโs quick!โ
Jimin leans against the wall, tired eyes roaming over Yoongiโs face.
Yoongiโs face contorts, โjust,โ the alphaโs nostrils flair, he curses, โjust tell me you didnโt cheatโโ
Jimin laughs, throws his head back and laughed, โcheat?โ he giggles, โcheat?!โ his eyes glisten while the wide grin turns into a snarl, โout of the two of us, you shouldnโt worry about me cheating, Min Yoongi! Also? I donโt owe you shit! Get off of me! We are over!โ
Yoongiโs face hardens, โI didnโt cheat on you! I donโt know why you think so, Jimin, but I will take you insulting me, I wonโt, however, take you insulting Hoba. He would never do anything like that! You can trust him at least!โ
Jimin nods, โI know him. I know you too. You both love each other, and I came between that. So, why,โ Jimin shouts, frustrated, โcanโt you let me go?! I took the blame, the media is out for me. The scandal is on my family. My parents areโโ he looks away, โjust let me go now!โ
โWho is it?โ Yoongi chews out, โwhose mark is that?โ
Jimin shakes his head, โI donโt remember. I hooked up with a bunch of people after coming here. I donโtโโ
The growl makes him flinch. Jiminโs startled eyes find Yoongi whose eyes are golden now.
Yoongi closes his eyes, head hung low, trying to gain control over his wolf.
Jimin is about to reach out when Jungkook burst inside the room with Taehyung.
Jimin pulls away, looking at the two of them and back at Yoongi. He shoves Yoongi away then, walking up to Taehyung.
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Jimin can hear Sarang crying. He can hear Taehyung trying to shush the baby and failing. He waits before the phone starts to ring and tells Taehyung to call Jungkook.
Jimin walks out of the room to go to Taehyung and sees how the omega sits on the bed, hopelessly staring at him.
โWhat's wrong?โ Jimin frowns, โwhy can't he come here?โ
Taehyung shrugs, still on phone, โhe needs to go and pick Hobi hyung up. Yoongi hyung doesn't have a licence here and the cabs aren't-โ
Jimin looks at where Sarangie is nibbling on Taehyung's shirt, โright. She is awake.โ
Jimin wraps the shawl tightly around himself, leaning over the phone, โhey, Jungkook, I have a driving licence. I will go with Yoongi. You come here. The baby needs some rest. She is very fidgety since she got here. Come on.โ
Taehyung shakes his head, โno. No, no. You can't!โ
Jimin ignores him, โget his car running. I will meet you by the door, come on. Hurry up.โ
Taehyung watches Jimin leave, โyou don't have to! I can make Sarangie fall asleep.โ
Jimin ignores him, leaving the room.
Jimin hops down the stairs while fixing his shoes. He rushes down the lawn to the gate where the car is. Yoongi looks up at him, and Jimin stumbles on his way to the car.
โGet in,โ Jimin rounds the car, โquick.โ
Yoongi gets in, his eyes on Jimin. Jimin ignores him.
โYou are going to catch a cold,โ Yoongi murmurs, โyou are seriously wearing no warm clothes!โ
Jimin shrugs, driving, โI will stay in the car anyway. Just shut up!โ
Yoongi sighs, โI could have waited. You are literally in your nightwear, Jimin! Your fucking legs are bare!โ
โHobi hyung is taking a long ass flight to get here,โ Jimin murmurs, โI don't want him to wait for us because it's already too late, and he's here because we needed him here. Just shut up, okay? I will be in the car anyway.โ
Yoongi looks at him, โhe can wait a few minutes.โ
Jimin ignores the words, his eyes focused on the road.
โYou smell like the alpha,โ Yoongi whispers, voice low in the car, โyou still smell like that alpha.โ
Jimin can feel his stomach churn, โwhat?โ
Yoongi hums, โif it was a one-night stand, how do you still smell of him?โ
Jimin goes rigid, his hands tightening on the steering wheel, โI-โ
Yoongi sounds thoughtful, โif you just met him once, then how do you still smell of him? It's not normal. The mark is not healing either-โ
โI met him again,โ Jimin curses himself mentally, โtonight. Stop now!โ
Yoongi stills, โyou... met him again tonight? He lives here?โ
Jimin nods, โyeah. He does.โ
Yoongi chuckles, looking away, โwow, didn't know you would be into French guys.โ
Jimin takes a look at the alpha, โhe isn't French. Can you drop it?โ
โWhy him?โ Yoongi whispers, โwhy?โ
Jimin feels how his heart cracks, he feels the sheer pain shooting through his veins when he opens his mouth, โbecause I love him,โ his voice comes out hoarse, โand, I am doomed. That's all.โ
The silence is deafening. Yoongi looks at him, Jimin looks outside.
โHow fast can you fall in love?โ Yoongi wonders, โyou said you loved me. For a long time.โ
Jimin chuckles, โpeople move on, hyung,โ he sighs, โwe move on when we know our love is making the other feel burdened. We move on. I moved on. That's all.โ
Yoongi looks outside, โright,โ he looks down at his hands, โI guess,โ he shrugs, โI guess, I should be happy for you. Then?โ
Jimin feels tears prickle his eyes, he nods, โyeah. Blessings from an ex sounds about right.โ
โAn ex,โ Yoongi tastes the words on his tongue, โright.โ
Yoongi forces out a laugh, โsounds weird, you know? Your ex. It feels, I don't know,โ Yoongi looks at Jimin, โwe were planning the rest of our lives together. How did we come here?โ
Jimin smiles, risks a look at Yoongi, โwe started off wrong. We were all wrong since the start.โ
โShould have kept you as my first crush and love,โ Jimin chuckles, โnever went on with it. We were a disaster together. No?โ
Yoongi looks out of the window, โyeah. We are poles apart.โ
Jimin holds the steering a little tighter, โI should have stood up for you back then.โ
โShould have told my dad off for forcing you to marry me,โ Jimin takes a turn, eyes blinking fast to wipe away any moisture that threatens to roll out, โI will always blame myself for being so stupid. I came between the campus sweethearts. You and hobi hyung... you fit. So well.โ
โI was an idiot,โ Jimin shakes his head, โI should have told them that sex can just be sex and nothing more! I don't know, maybe a selfish part of me wanted to have my first love. Now I realize, in my haste of wanting my first love, I took away yours. I am sorry.โ
Jimin's voice cracks, โI can't bring back those years, hyung. I can't go back in time and fix it all for us, but trust me, every day I look at myself and think, if I get to, I will. I will take myself far away from the two people who always belonged together. I am sorry. I am!โ
Yoongi blinks, hastily wipes his eyes, โyeah, I know. I know you would. You are,โ he looks at Jimin, โyou know, I hated you. When it all started, I hated how manipulative you came off, and I hated how I got caught up on the web that I believed you spread for me. I believed it.โ
โFor a long time I would look at you and feel resentment,โ Yoongi looks at the omega, โfor a long time I will just try to not think about anything or my future or shit like that because at that point, it all felt meaningless. I was just going with the motion. I hated it all.โ
โThose dates you would prepare for, those night walks, those voicemails you would send, whining about me always being busy, I wasn't busy, I just didn't know how to face you,โ Yoongi closes his eyes, โI didn't know how to be with you and not feel that shimmering anger.โ
โMaybe that's why I hated your parents too. They reminded me of my helplessness. My failure,โ Yoongi watches the roads passing by, โI hated how I had to watch Hobi fall in Namjoon's arms for support and then for more. I hated it all, and you were the focus of it.โ
โI didn't do shit for you to love me, Jiminie,โ Yoongi looks down at his hands, โso I guess, I have no rights to be upset when you leave. I justโฆ I wish-โ
Jimin lets out a deep breath, โyou wish for all of us to stop hurting. You want us all to be happy. I know. Right?โ
โSo, it's happening,โ Jimin forces a smile on his lips, โyou are in the city of love, going to pick the love of your life up. Who is, by the way,โ he nudges Yoongi, โsingle now. This is the best plot for a romantic classic! You two are like the main leads! Coming together now...โ
โAfter so many hardships,โ Jimin shakes his head with a smile, โI say, you go and pick him up, or let him pick you up. Kiss each other and confess your undying love. Hey,โ he laughs, โconfessions in an airport. Another clichรฉ trope ticked! Do it, Min Yoongi, you deserve it!โ
Jimin's smile dims, leaving behind a soft one, โyou deserve it, hyung, so does hobi hyung. You two belong together. Just think of me and Namjoon hyung as the clichรฉ villains of the story-โ
โYou are not the villain of my story,โ Yoongi stops him, โyou can't be. Now I know.โ
Yoongi sounds tired, โyou are too good to be a villain, Jiminie.โ
Jimin sighs, looks away, โa good person for someone can be a villain for another, hyung. I am, at least, a bump in your way and surely one for hobi hyung. I just hope, down the road, he forgives me. If ever.โ
Jimin leans against the headrest, โnow go, pick him up. Tell him you missed him or shit like that and don't worry about me, hyung. I will find someone to be happy with. You know me,โ he closes his eyes, trapping the tears inside, โI fall in love easily. I will be fine. Trust me.โ
โYou already found someone,โ Yoongi looks at the omega, โI just hope he makes you happy because I failed-โ
โOne failed love taught me this, hyung,โ Jimin sighs, โmy happiness should depend on just me. I let you play with my emotions. I won't repeat that, and I will be fine.โ
โNow, go,โ Jimin waves Yoongi off, โhe is out there. Freezing probably. I will be here. Make it quick.โ
Yoongi hesitates for a few seconds before he pushes the door open and runs towards the airport. Jimin watches Yoongi go, tears slowly toppling over the rim of his eyes.
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โHow on earth are you so underdressed?!โ
Yoongi watches how Hoseok greets Jimin, eyes wide and horrified, while he stares at the other omega.
Yoongi shoves the luggage in the backseat and listens how Jimin giggles, tells Hoseok how he is fine and feeling quite warm inside.
Yoongi opens the door of Hoseok, nods when Hoseok smiles before getting in, and then he rounds the car to open the passenger side.
โWoah, woah,โ Jimin places a bag on the seat, โgo to the backseat. Hobi hyung is alone there!โ
Hoseok looks at them, confused, โuhh...โ
โIt's not like I am miles away, mimi,โ Hoseok laughs, โhe can sit on the pass-โ
โNo, no,โ Jimin shakes his head, โgo and sit beside him. Don't disturb me while I drive. Go on.โ
Hoseok sighs, waves Yoongi in, โcome here. He is stubborn. You know it.โ
Yoongi knows that.
Yoongi takes the back seat, looks at Hoseok, โthe flight was good?โ
Hoseok shrugs, โJin hyung booked it. He makes sure I get the best of things,โ he glances at Jimin and then back at Yoongi, โhow are you doing? You,โ he reaches to cup Yoongi's face, โyou look pale, hyung.โ
Yoongi's first instinct is moving away. He frowns, letting the touch linger while his eyes move to the driving seat.
โYeah,โ he shrugs, โI need sleep,โ he smiles at Hoseok, โsorry for hurrying you to come here.โ
Hoseok looks over at Jimin, โthat's okay. Mimi, how are you?โ
The question meets silence. Yoongi holds his breath, eyes on Jimin.
Jimin takes a look at them through the rear-mirror and smiles at the road, โI am good, hyung. I am thinking of picking up dance again. You need to guide me through it, I can settle down here. I think.โ
Hoseok leans forward, โyou want to settle down here? In Paris? Forever?โ
Jimin nods, โI do. I want to open a dance school, as you know. I told you about it. I just want to pick up ballet again, you know?โ
Hoseok smiles wide, โyou are so good at it.โ
Jimin blushes, โshut up.โ
Yoongi watches them talk, he watches how Hoseok and Jimin laugh and get along together. He watches how Jimin is so friendly with Hoseok. There's not an ounce of hesitance while he talks, and Hoseok is just as casual.
โI can help you with the basics,โ Hoseok hums, โfor sure.โ
The car comes to a halt in front of Yoongi's door, Jimin looks over at Hoseok, โI will take you to the studio I am thinking of renting for now. I don't know. I will just see, but do you want to come?โ
Hoseok nods eagerly, โoh, I would love to come. For sure!โ
Jimin nods, โI will go now,โ he smiles at Hoseok, โwelcome to Paris, hyung.โ
Hoseok laughs, โaahh, thanks. I am glad you all are here. I would be so bored otherwise.โ
Jimin looks at Yoongi then, smiles, โnah. Yoongi hyung would never let you be bored. Good night.โ
Hoseok watches Jimin go, โhe hides himself good, you know? His pain, the sorrow that he tries to not show,โ Hoseok looks at Yoongi, โI wish I knew how to be so mature.โ
Yoongi frowns, โwhat do you mean?โ
Hoseok sighs, โJimin. He is not happy. Can't you see?โ
Hoseok tilts his head, a rueful smile on his lips, โloving Min Yoongi isn't easy. Out of the three of us, I know it the best. He doesn't know the pain he tries to hide, it shows because I know how it feels to love someone and let them go. I did it once. I was him once.โ
Hoseok smiles, cups Yoongi's face with his one hand, โloving you was the best and worst feeling of my life. You ruin, Min Yoongi, without even knowing, you ruin. I,โ Hoseok looks at where Jimin went, โdon't know how he is so strong. I am not. I never was. He is very strong.โ
โHe thinks we will get together,โ Yoongi snorts, looking at where Jimin disappeared, โhe thinks we still love each other like that.โ
โI still love you,โ Hoseok nods, โbut, you don't love me anymore,โ he squeezes Yoongi's hand, โno matter what you make yourself believe.โ
Yoongi laughs, โI don't think I ever knew what love is until you, hoba. What are you talking about?โ
Hoseok watches him, a tender smile on his lips, โI taught you what love is, I know. But, I am not the love of your life. I never was. I know that too.โ
โHow do you know?โ Yoongi gets out of the car, slams the door to go to the backseat and pull out the luggage, โyou are speaking nonse-โ
โYou don't let your love go so easily like you did for us,โ Hoseok gets out of the car, โyou fight for something you claim to love. You know?โ
โLike Jungkook is fighting for Taehyung,โ Hoseok rounds the car, places his hand on Yoongi's back, โlike you are fighting for Jimin,โ he nods when Yoongi looks at him, โyou crossed the world to come to him. You don't realize it, do you? That you love him?โ
Yoongi snorts, stepping away from Hoseok, โI only loved you, Hoba. I don't care what you say, Jimin,โ he looks at the house, โhe was my responsibility. Since the start. You, I always loved you.โ
Hoseok curses, โyou are just too stubborn to see the present, hyung! Come on!โ
โThe present is,โ Yoongi glares, โit's fucking raining and you and me, we both are drenched. Let's get inside and stop talking about this. I don't need your opinion on my feelings! Okay?โ
Hoseok watches Yoongi march away. He sighs, following the alpha inside himself.
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โSo you are telling me Taehyung's life is at risk, and we need to move to a damn pack to get away from the ones who are trying to come for him?โ Jimin stares at Jin, โare you seriously suggesting we remove ourselves from this life?โ
โFor a few months, yeah,โ Jin nods, serious.
โAre you going to be okay?โ Taehyung asks that night, leaning against the bedpost while he watches Jimin pack the bags, โstaying that close to Yoongi hyung-โ
Jimin hums, โI just had to deny sharing a room with him. I did that. I will be fine, Tae, don't worry.โ
Taehyung snorts, โI worry. I'm glad you told him off about you two being mates.โ
Jimin smiles, watches how Sarang tugs at the shirt he folded, eyeing it. He puts the pile in the suitcase, sitting down with an exhausted sigh.
โThis mark is making me exhausted,โ Jimin sighs.
Taehyung looks at the mark, โit hurts?โ
Jimin shakes his head, โa mating bite, as much as I read, is like a new pheromone running through your blood. It takes time to absorb in the system and the alpha's presence, care and all that can sooth it. But we are not like that.โ
โSo it's kind of painful,โ Jimin looks at his hands, โI just hope it starts to fade soon. Otherwise, I have to start taking meds to get rid of it.โ
Taehyung frowns, โthose meds are not legal. You know that, right?โ
Jimin snorts, โI know. But, what can I possibly do-โ
Taehyung shakes his head, โthose pills are not safe, Jimin. You are not taking them. They fuck up the omega's cycle and creates problem during pregnancies-โ
โWhat pregnancy?โ
They both go still when they see Jin standing by the door of the room, eyes on them.
Taehyung recovers first, he gives Jin a smile and shakes his head, โnothing, hyung. I was talking about the pills I had to take during my pregnancy.โ
Jin hums, โoh,โ he then turns to Jimin, โI am here to talk to you. Can we?โ
Jimin nods, watches how Taehyung leavesโฆ
Jin turns to Jimin then, โlisten,โ he shoves his hands in his pockets, coming to stand in front of Jimin, โI am Yoongi's friend first and this thing you two have going on is not helping our situation. Are you sure you want to be there as my mate and not his?โ
Jimin nods, โyeah.โ
Jin lets out a breath, โJimin, whatever you two have going on-โ
โWe have nothing going on, hyung,โ Jimin assures Jin, โlike you, I am single. There is nothing going on.โ
Jin gives Jimin a small smile, โout of everyone, I understand you the most, Jimin. Trust me.โ
Jimin watches the man, โdo you?โ
Jin nods, โlike you, I let go of my love too. Just like you-โ
Jimin gives Jin a rueful smile, โno, hyung. The person you loved, loved you back. I am not lucky like that. I never was.โ
Jin sits on the bed, pats the space beside him, โsit.โ
Jimin sits, smiles when Jin's arm goes around his shoulder to pull him closer. Jimin leans his head against Jin's shoulder, staring ahead.
โI will try to be the friend you need,โ Jin murmurs, โduring this time, I will try to be the person you might want beside you. Yeah?โ
Jimin nods, closing his eyes with a tired sigh, โyeah.โ
Jin hesitates, โthe mark-โ
Jimin shakes his head, โnot his.โ
Jin breathes out a chuckle, โyou didn't possibly think I would believe it's a random dude's. Did you?โ
Jimin feels tears prickle his eyes, โhe believed it.โ
Jin's arm tightens around him, โhe is an idiot!โ
Jimin chuckles, peering up at Jin, โhe is your friend.โ
Jin looks tensed, โJimin, you should tell him. The bite can go wrong in so many ways. You should-โ
โHe never loved me, hyung,โ Jimin looks away, โI kept holding him back.โ
Jimin lets the tears fall, โI am a responsibility he is cursed with since the start. I don't want that for him anymore. I want him to be happy, and I am not,โ he chokes on those words, โI am not his happiness. I never was. Promise me that you won't tell him. Please? Promise me.โ
Jin watches him for a few seconds. His own eyes glistening. Then he nods, lips pressing against Jimin's temple.
โI promise,โ Jin whispers against Jimin's skin, โI promise I will keep it to myself. If that's what you want, then fine.โ
Jimin nods, โthat's all I want.โ
Yoongi gets out of the shower, thinking of the next day's event in his mind while he dries his hair. His eyes skim over the room, thinking what else he needs to pack.
His eyes wander over the window, and he looks at the house in front of theirs. For a second, he stills.
Jimin sits on the bed. Jin right beside him. His arm around Jimin's shoulder and his lips pressed against Jimin's temple.
Yoongi feels the needles pierce through his skin, his eyes stay glued on the two of them. Jimin then turns, face hidden against Jin and Jin pulls him closer.
Yoongi turns away when Jimin's arms go around Jin's waist, hugging the alpha closer.
He turns to look at himself in the mirror. His eyes focus on himself, and Yoongi lets out a curse when he sees the red hue around his irises.
โIt's just instinct,โ he whispers to himselfโฆ
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They all bow to the leader and his luna.
โNow,โ the leader, Yushik, tells them to stand up properly from where they were bowing, โintroduce yourselves. Someone do the honour.โ
Yoongi holds his hand up, โThis is Jungkook,โ he points at Jungkook, โthat is his mate, Taehyung...โ
Yoongi smiles at Sarang in Taehyung's arms, โthis is their baby, Sarang,โ he turns to the others then, โthis is Jin, you know him,โ he smiles at Hoseok, โthis is Hoseok, Jin's mate,โ everyone's head whips around to look at Yoongi with wide eyes.
Yoongi puts his arm around Jimin, โand this is my mate, Jimin.โ
They all stare at him. The entire pack is looking at them, and the leader and his Luna are watching them. Jimin grabs the hand around his waist.
Yoongi tightens his grip, โsay something and risk Taehyung's life.โ
Jimin shakes his head, โI refuse to let you lead me on anymore, hyung.โ
Jimin giggles, swatting at Yoongi's chest, โhyung! Not the time for you to do this!โ
He bows deeply, looking at the leader, โplease forgive him, sir,โ he gets out of Yoongi's grip, โhe likes to jest a lot.โ
Jimin takes a hold of Hoseok's hand, โthis is his mate,โ he slowly steps out of Yoongi's arms, replacing Hoseok there to come and stand by Jin, โand, this is my mate.โ
The leader arches a brow, โoh?โ
Jimin bows again, โsorry for the-โ
โIt is fine,โ the Luna smiles, โwelcome.โ
Yoongi watches how Jimin fits himself against Jin. He watches how Jin's arm goes around Jimin's waist and the alpha pulls him closer.
There is a sizzling feeing that burns in Yoongi's veins while he follows the leader to their houses. His eyes keep going to Jimin and Jin.
When Jimin starts to talk about his heat and Jin voices his worry about his rut, Yoongi feels the nausea hitting him. He feels like vomiting right on the spot. With a choked sound, he takes a step back, making an excuse while he runs to the hut selected for him and Hoseok.
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โHey.โ
Yoongi looks up at the door of the hut and turns away when he sees Jin, โwhat?โ
Jin hesitates before walking in, โlisten, about the discussion today-โ
Yoongi shakes his head, โthere is nothing to talk about.โ
โYes, there is!โ Jin sighs, โyou know there is!โ
Yoongi shakes his head, โno, there isn't. Listen, it's pretty clear that we are over. Whatever me and Jimin were, we are over,โ he watches Hoseok walk inside the room, โI am glad, if I am being honest. I never wanted to marry him. I am glad the weight was off of me. I am glad.โ
โI am glad how it worked out,โ Yoongi shakes his head, โI don't see why you are here or what you are trying to achieve now...โ
โSo, you are telling me it's okay if we share his heat?โ Jin stops when Yoongi's eyes shift to him, โyour eyes are red.โ
Yoongi snorts, โinstinct.โ
Jin tongues the side of his cheek, โit's ridiculous how you are denying it as if your life depends on it.โ
โHis ego hurts to accept that he likes an omega that was forced on him,โ Hoseok comes to sit beside Jin, โhis ego hurts to think he did exactly what Jimin's dad wanted.โ
Hoseok nods, โJimin's dad told him that down the road, he will forget me and fall for Jimin. He said that's how love is. Fickle and stupid. He said that's how an arrange marriage works, and Yoongi is no different. It hurts Yoongi's ego to think he did exactly that.โ
Hoseok leans back against the couch, โYoongi can't digest the fact that Jimin's dad was right about him and his feelings.โ
โThat's not it,โ Yoongi glares at Hoseok, โit's not what you are saying. I don't love him! Okay? This is just my wolf. It's habituated with Jimin.โ
โIt will get better,โ Yoongi stands up, โit will get better with time. Can you all give me that? I need some time to-โ
โMove on?โ Jin arches a brow, โmove on from what? The feelings you have for him?โ
โI don't love him!โ Yoongi thunders, โstop being like his dad. Both of you!โ
Yoongi storms out of the room, leaving Jin and Hoseok staring at his back.
Jin lets out a curse, โI came here to tell him we need to think of a way out of Jimin's heat without anything going wrong, but he is so stubborn! I swear!โ
Hoseok hums, โhe is more stubborn than Joon.โ
Jin looks away, โyeah. He is more stubborn than Joon.โ
Hoseok hesitates, โhow,โ he looks down at his hands, โhow is he?โ
Jin risks a glance at Hoseok, โnot good. He misses you.โ
Hoseok shakes his head, โdon't lie to me. Not when it breaks you to do so. You don't have to.โ
Jin looks away, โtruth can be heartbreaking, but it's still the truth, Hobi. He misses you. He developed feelings for you. You should know that.โ
Hoseok chuckles, โhow do you talk about us so emotionlessly when you and I both know, you love him. Still.โ
Jin smiles down at the floor, โI think you, out of everyone else, know and understand how I feel because you are in a same situation. No?โ
Hoseok's eyes whip up to look at Jin, and Jin nods.
โI can see it breaks you to talk about Yoongi loving Jimin. I know how it feels, Hobi.โ
Hoseok's eyes pool with tears, he looks away, โI can be selfish, you know? He was taken from me. He was snatched away from me. Not by Jimin. By his father. I can hold grudges. I can, but, who am I going to base it on? Who will I get back? This Yoongi is not mine. You know?โ
โThis Yoongi was not taken from me,โ Hoseok wipes his eyes, โthis is not the Yoongi I can call mine. This is Jimin's Yoongi. This is not the alpha that was taken from me. I might have him back, but it's not going to be the same.โ
Jin nods, โsame with Joon. I get you. I do.โ
Hoseok smiles, shaking his head, โhe still loves you. There's always going to be a part that still loves you. In him.โ
Jin looks at Hoseok, โyou have to know, that doesn't make me feel good. I never wanted you two to break up. I never-โ
They both jump when they hear the knock.
โIt is time for dinner,โ one of the pack members stand by the door, โget your friends and come to the pack house.โ
Jin nods, getting up, โI will.โ
Hoseok stands up too, โI will see where Yoongi went.โ
Jin nods, โyeah. I will wake up Jimin. He is taking a nap.โ
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At the head of the table sits the pack leader. Jin sits on his right and Yoongi sits on his left. Beside him is Hoseok and beside Jin is Jimin. Beside Jimin sits Jungkook and then Taehyung.
Yoongi focuses on his plate, eyes staying on the meal as they talk in a hushed tone.
โHow did you two meet?โ Yushik asks Yoongi and Hoseok, curious.
Hoseok chokes on his food and Yoongi holds out his glass, โwell, we are childhood best friends,โ he goes with the truth, โwe fell in love gradually. Then,โ Yoongi shrugs, โwe got mated and that's all.โ
Jungkook and Taehyung share the story as close to their reality as they can. Both of them blushing and trying not to match each other's eyes as they talk.
Then the leader looks at Jin and Jimin.
Jimin places his fork on the plate, smiles at Jin, โwe met accidentally.โ
He smiles at Jin, Yoongi watches, โI went into my first heat, and he was there to help me,โ Jimin looks at the leader and his luna, โI think it was love at first sight.โ
The luna, Byung, smiles at them, โthat's so sweet.โ
Yoongi feels the fire burn in the pit of his stomach.
Yoongi sips his drink, โor, maybe you plotted it,โ he feels everyone turn to look at him.
He keeps his eyes on Jimin, โyou wanted the alpha, and you ignored the thought of maybe him having a life, a lover, you just roped him into it. Maybe you were just selfish and obsessed.โ
Jimin goes very still. His eyes moving to Yoongi for the first time since the dinner started.
โWhat?โ he sounds winded.
Yoongi leans in, nods, โyeah. Maybe you were obsessed with him and thought this would be a great way to rope him in. Knowing him, he would never back away+
+from the responsibility. You said, 'fuck his lover or whoever he has, let me have what I want because I am a brat that way.' Maybe?โ
Jimin's face drops, his eyes hold Yoongi in place, โI was in heat. I didn't choose that. An omega would never choose to have a public heat!โ
Yoongi feels the anger leap at him, the old memories crowding his mind, those doubts pushing past his mouth before he can think them through.
โOh, but you did know it was late, and he comes to pick up his lover,โ Yoongi hisses, โyou knew he was there for that omega. Not you!โ
โNo, I didn't,โ Jimin grips the edge of the table, eyes glistening, โno, I didn't. I would not! I would never try to steal someone who is in love with another person! I was in heat, and it was my first heat. I didn't know better! I was out of my mind. It's not my fault!โ
โCould have stopped how it escalated,โ Yoongi growls, โcould have stopped your dad from taking away his dreams, plans and life from him!โ Yoongi knows his voice is rising, โno, you just played along because that would benefit you! Your daddy was helping you get what you wanted!โ
โNo,โ Jin speaks up then, his eyes boring into Yoongi's, โno. I went along with it because I lost myself. I was, out of the two of us, the experienced one,โ Jin speaks pointedly, โI had my ruts regularly. I kept my cool around the one I claimed to love, but lost it around him.โ
โLater, I felt guilty, of taking something so pure,โ Jin never wavers, โI felt like I owed that omega something because that morning, when I left him on that bed, sleeping, exhausted, I ran to my friend and cried about how I took something I shouldn't have. How I ruined it all.โ
Yoongi hates how Jin turns his narrative around to speak to him now.
Jin nods, eyes never leaving Yoongi's face.
โI wanted to take responsibility, and I am from a powerful family. A much powerful family than Jimin's and if I wanted, I would get out of it without a scratch.โ
โI didn't want to walk out, because no matter how I act, I am not an asshole,โ Jin's face contorts, โI made a mistake and I took responsibility. I can't blame him or his family for falling for him down the road, can I?โ
Yoongi grips the fork in his hand, โyou don't love him!โ
Jin smiles, โoh, but I do. If I let go of my grudges against his parents, his family, the guilt in me, the past anger of letting my loved one go, if I can be honest to myself now. I would know this, that I love him.โ
โAre you angry that they are mated?โ Yushik frowns, โwhy?โ
Yoongi looks away, noticing the others around him now, โno. I am angry that they are romanticizing something that was a mistake,โ he looks at Jimin, โthat will always be a mistake.โ
Jimin blinks, looking down at his plate.
The room is quiet. Everyone sits still.
Byung sighs, โif a mistake brings two soulmates together then, down the road, you can recall it and call it the starting of something good. You know? Love, if it finds its way to them, no matter how, is still love. If they can talk about that incident honestly, it's good.โ
Yoongi shrugs, โhow would you know it's love and not two people getting habituated of each other? How would you know it's love and not just habit? How can you love someone who took everything from you? Knowingly or unknowingly.โ
He hates how honest that last question comes out.
Byung gives Yoongi a small smile, โif the question is in the alpha's mind, then he already fell in love. Don't you think?โ the luna nods when Yoongi startles, looking at him, โif the alpha is asking that to himself, then he already feels something. Right?โ
โHe feels himself falling, and that's when the fight between his mind and heart begins. Otherwise, why would he think like this? He would be just hating the omega and be done with it. No?โ
Jin hums, โyou are right. Also, I have no doubt about my love for my mate. I love him.โ
Byung nods, โthen I think Yoongi shouldn't worry so much about you. It's not like Jimin is your mate, Yoongi,โ he chuckles, โlet them have their story and you enjoy yours. Yeah?โ
โYeah, now kiss and make up,โ Yushik laughs, โJimin looks really shaken, Jin, he might need a kiss.โ
Yoongi goes still. His eyes shift on Jimin who is already looking at him and Yoongi feels his jaw tighten. Jimin's face goes impassive, and Yoongi watches how he turns to Jin with a small smile.
There is something that passes between them, and Jin chuckles, cupping Jimin's face.
Jimin leans in, his eyes on Jin and Jin has his eyes fixed on Jimin.
Yoongi feels Hoseok's hand on his knee, squeezing it. Yoongi holds his breath, eyes moving on Jin and Jimin. He tries to tell himself that Jimin has done more. Got a mating mark. But seeing it still irks him.
Jin leans in first, eyes holding Jimin's and Jimin gives him a small nod.
Yoongi gets up, ignores how the chair topples over, โexcuse me,โ he bows to the leader, โI think I am not feeling well. I will take your leave now.โ
He stands up, turns and leaves the house.
The pack is located near the jungle. The moon is hidden behind the cloud, leaving the pack in complete darkness. Yoongi walks briskly. He almost runs to the direction of the jungle. He wants to be alone for now. For a few moments at least.
Until he can breathe again.
Yoongi hears the footsteps following him and feels like snapping. He feels his skin crawl with anger. Yoongi knows his eyes are red. His vision bloody as he walks, listens to the sound of water and follows it. It's a long walk and the footsteps follow him along the path.
Yoongi speeds up, passing the treeline, hoping he will be left alone.
Instead, his wrist is caught, and he is forced to stop on his track. He can see the waterfall. The urge to take a dip builds in him. Something to cool him down. Something to lessen the burn in his veins.
โI know you hate me, but what you did back there could have blown our cover!โ Jimin shouts, โwhat you did was so close to breaking our plan and putting Taehyung back in risk! How could you let your mouth run when you know-โ
โOh, I should always keep my mouth shut,โ Yoongi turns.
He ignores how Jimin does not cower under his blood-shot eyes. Yoongi takes a sharp step in front of Jimin.
โI should be silent and let you do whatever you want because that's how it is always, no?โ Yoongi hisses, โyou always do what you want to, and I fucking follow!โ
โI should have stayed and watched you rope another person in this game of yours,โ Yoongi crowds Jimin against a tree, โI should have stayed and played the good alpha that I am and-โ
Jimin snorts, no humour shows on his face, โoh, you are anything but good. You are horrible!โ
โYou put Jin hyung in such a horrible position!โ Jimin shouts, โhe has to talk to the alpha and ease the tension you left behind. How could you be so selfish! Learn from Jin-โ
โOh, shut it!โ Yoongi roars, โI am sure your little kiss pleased them enough! I am sure they liked it!โ
โI am sure you liked it!โ Yoongi kicks the ground, anger running through his veins like molten lava, โI am sure the leader is pleased enough! So do me a favour and leave me alone!โ
Jimin grabs Yoongi by his collars, tugging him back, โI left you alone! Ages ago! You prick!โ
โI left you alone when I left!โ Jimin's eyes sparkle blue, โI left you alone-โ
โNo, you didn't,โ Yoongi gives into the pull and stands against Jimin, โno,โ he grits out, โyou are still here, and I hate it! Let me move on!โ
Jimin snorts, โmove on? From what? We had nothing!"
โYou don't need to put in efforts to move on from something you were never into,โ Jimin's eyes shine bright blue, โyou don't move on from empty vows, lies and illusions. You just break free of them, and I freed you ages ago. You are free, Min Yoongi. To do whatever.โ
Yoongi laughs, a hollow and mocking sound, โyou think you freed me? Or, it was you who needed the freedom? To go around, experience what it feels like to date or have flings and shit like that. Don't blame it all on me when I always did what you wanted me to do!โ
Yoongi turns on his feet and speeds towards the waterfall. He dives in after kicking his shoes off. The cold water chills him to the bones, and Yoongi takes a dip. He stays under the water, willing it to cool him down.
It does nothing. He still feels the flame burn in him.
Yoongi breaks the layer of the water to come up and wipe his eyes. He combs his wet hair back, eyes blinking to settle on the omega who stands by the edge of the water.
Yoongi turns away, feeling the shirt stick to him now, โgo back. Your alpha must be worried about you.โ
The sound of the water rippling makes Yoongi hold back a curse. He looks over his shoulder at the omega.
โYour omega must be worried about you too,โ Jimin holds his chin out, โyou don't get to make it about myself.โ
Yoongi snorts, โeverything is about you for ages now, Jimin.โ
Yoongi turns to face the omega, โevery damn thing is about you. You make sure it's about you. You-โ
โThe amount of time you are wasting on blaming me for the past that I already accepted as my fault, you could use to win your omega back. You realize?โ Jimin steps closer.
The surrounding darkness is fading because of the fireflies. Yellow dots rush around them, illuminating Jimin's face for Yoongi and Yoongi can't breathe. His eyes roam over Jimin's face, takes in those blue eyes and trembling lips. Those tears clinging to those lashes...
The sound of the water flowing past them, down the river is the only sound except of the owls crying out time to time. The foxes in the jungle scream, announcing the hours of the night.
Yoongi steps closer, โseems like I am always doing what you want me to do.โ
Yoongi comes to stop right in front of Jimin, feels how their toes touch under the water, โtell me then,โ he murmurs to not disturb the silence of the jungle, โwhat do I do next to please you? Would you like it if I mate him? Is that it? Would you like to see us married now?โ
Jimin gives him a sardonic smile, โit's not me, you want these things with him.โ
Yoongi gives a laugh, โyeah? I always wanted to. Mate him, have a family. Knock him up-โ
Jimin turns away, โthen do it,โ he takes a step towards the shore, โand, stop making my life miserable!โ
Yoongi takes a hold of Jimin's elbow, jerking him back, โit's not me who is making your life miserable,โ he hisses against Jimin's ear, the omega's back pressed against his front, โyou are miserable to think things get back to normal just like that. Just like your fickle mind!โ
โEvery omega is not like you,โ Yoongi takes a hold of Jimin's shoulders, forcing him to turn and face the alpha.
Jimin still refuses to look at his face. Yoongi looks at the mark. The mark is raw, blood dried around the wound. The more Yoongi watches it, the more he burns.
Yoongi lets his hand move. He lets his thumb press against the wound, feels the blood against his thumb.
โEvery omega doesn't wear a mating mark from a random alpha right after making out with them,โ he hisses, โevery omega is not-โ
โAs easy as me?โ Jimin grips Yoongi's wrist.
Yoongi's face contorts, โhow could you?!โ his voice cracks, "how could you?! How could you?!โ
He crowds Jimin up against the boulders that create a small dam across the river. The water rushing around them, almost touching their waists as it flows...
Yoongi feels the tears roll out of his eyes, โhow could you just break it all apart like it meant nothing and move on so quickly?! How could you leave like nothing ever happened?! How could you let someone else mark you?! How could you kiss Jin, knowing he is my friend-โ
โWhat should have stopped me?โ Jimin arches a brow, โyou?โ
โI burnt my world to keep yours safe!โ Yoongi snarls, โI burnt myself to keep you warm! Did that mean nothing to you?!โ
โHow much is enough for you?!โ Yoongi screams, โhow much is enough to please you?! I ruined my dreams, hopes, future to keep yours intact! I did everything to keep you happy. I did everything to make sure you are safe! You are protected-โ
โDid you love me?โ Jimin chokes out.
โIf you loved me, you would know how much it hurts to hear I ruined my loved one's future, so they can keep me safe,โ Jimin sniffles, โyou would know how much it pains to hear they burnt to keep me warm. If you loved me, you would know how much it hurts to love you.โ
โWhat more do I want?โ Jimin reaches to grasp at Yoongi's shirt, โI want you to be happy. Why can't you let us go and see what's right in front of you? Hobi hyung and you are right here. Why are you ruining it? I don't see the point, you-โ
โIt makes me nauseous,โ Yoongi murmurs.
Yoongi nods, โthe thought that you are okay with me mating Hoba when this damn mating mark on you is making me lose my everything. I just want to know who is this person. Who do you trust so much to let them do this! Why? Did you leave me because of them? Who is it?โ
Jimin lets out a curse, โjust forget it, okay?! Why are you so hell-bent to make it worse-โ
โI want to curve this mark out of your skin,โ Yoongi slams his hand against the boulder, โI can't. It's killing me. Just tell me who-โ
โI don't owe you that!โ Jimin hisses.
โGod, tell me you know that person!โ Yoongi combs his hair back, frustrated, โtell me he knows there is a fresh mating bite! You need that alpha to heal it! It can get wound, Jimin!โ Yoongi curses, โit's like a Rabies wound. You are leaving it open, and it worries me!โ
Yoongi takes a hold of Jimin's shoulder, โif it's not treated or healed properly, it can kill you!โ Yoongi's face contorts, โand I can't sleep thinking about it! The wound is not healing! It's a wolf's bite, Jimin! You need to heal it! Who is it? I just want to find him for you!โ
โIt goes away with time,โ Jimin hisses, โcan you stop worrying?โ
โIt doesn't,โ Yoongi grits out, โstop believing the internet for everything! This is a wolf's bite. It goes away with the person! If a mating bite was so easy to remove, so many would have it! Don't you think?!โ
โYou have to understand,โ Yoongi presses his thumb against the wound in his frustration, โyou have to understand the alpha needs t-โ his eyes drop to the wound and Yoongi holds his breath.
Jimin frowns, โwhat?โ
Yoongi presses more against the wound, ignore the hiss Jimin gives.
Yoongi frowns, watches the blood against his fingertip, โthe blood...โ
Jimin looks at it, confused, โwhat about the blood?โ
Yoongi's eyes are bright red when they snap to match Jimin's curious and confused eyes, โthe blood smells.โ
Jimin lets out a sigh, โof course it does!โ
Yoongi shakes his head, looking at Jimin, โthe person smells of an alpha. Any alpha, but the blood,โ Yoongi holds his finger up, his red irises screaming murder, โit smells of the wolf.โ
Jimin feels his heartbeat screeches to a stop, โwh-what?โ
Yoongi steps closer, โit's mine.โ
Jimin inhales sharply, โno!โ
Yoongi keeps his eyes on Jimin, he sucks his thumb into his mouth, tasing the blood. Jimin holds his breath, and Yoongi's eyes glow while the alpha glares.
โIt's my blood,โ Yoongi murmurs, voice eerily quiet, โmixing with yours. It tastes like us.โ
โYou are going insane,โ Jimin laughs, trembles when Yoongi takes a step towards him, โthat's- that's not you-โ
Yoongi's brow arches, โis that so?โ he still sounds quiet, as if he is holding himself back, โthen let's test it, Jimin. Let me taste the mark. Let's see what happens.โ
Jimin presses himself up against the boulder, shaking his head, โno!โ
Yoongi stops in front of him, hovering over him, โwhy not?โ
Jimin fumbles for words, โbe-becau-โ
โWhat was the reason for you to hide it?โ Yoongi chews out, โwhat were you thinking? That I would never know?โ
Yoongi grips Jimin's hips, โwhy would you hide it?!โ
Jimin snorts, not matching Yoongi's eyes, โit's not yours-โ he flinches, eyes widening and mouth parting on a silent cry when Yoongi leans in, pushes the shirt aside and presses his lips against the mark.
It throbs with pain.
Jimin hisses, his hands flying up to grasp at Yoongi's hair to pull him away. The alpha crowds him against the boulder, lips pressed against the mark, while his hands tighten on Jimin's hips.
Jimin whimpers when he feels Yoongi's tongue pressing against the wound, โY-Yoon...โ
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Yoongi growls when the scent invades his senses. The blood lingers on his tongue. He presses in, lips moulding around the wound to suck on it.
Jimin crumbles, the pain intensifying, โwh-what are you doing? It hurts!โ
Yoongi curses, โit's so raw! Shit!โ
Jimin whimpersโฆ
He tugs at Yoongi's hair, pulling him away from the mark, โno,โ he shakes his head when Yoongi tries to seal his lips against the wound again, โI said, no!โ
Yoongi closes his eyes, inhales deeply to calm himself, โthe wound will only grow if you don't tend to it!โ
โI will get it removed,โ Jimin glares, pressing his hands against Yoongi's chest, โI will go back and have the operation to get it removed. You don't need to worry.โ
Yoongi pauses, โthe operation...โ
Jimin nods, โyeah. It's an accident anyway.โ
Yoongi's face goes blank, โoh.โ
Jimin snorts, โwhat? You wanted to add this to your list of another reason why I am your responsibility?โ
โWhy didn't you tell me?โ Yoongi hisses, โwhy didn't you tell me and how did this happen?!โ
Jimin looks away, โthat night... when we made out,โ he shrugs, โyou-โ
Jimin stops himself, gives Yoongi a small smile, โwhy do I need to tell you anyway? You are going to tell me I did this to rope you in. You will tell me how I manipulated you into this now,โ Jimin closes his eyes, tears spilling out of them, โI keep messing up. No?โ
โI am not doing one thing right,โ Jimin shakes his head, โI keep messing up, and I thought I will be able to hide it. Long enough for you to stop asking. Long enough for it to either get me or a solution to come forward. I would get it removed, but I had to come here.โ
Jimin shakes his head, โdon't worry about it, okay? I will sort it out. You don't have to think about it,โ Jimin looks at the shore, eyes fixed on the darkness of the jungle, โyou are not mated. I didn't bite you. So, you are free anyway. Just, ignore this conversation. Yeah?โ
โJimin-โ Yoongi stops when Jimin pushes him away, shaking his head frantically.
โNo!โ Jimin glares, slaps his hand down on the water, splashing it on them, โno. Tell me I am your responsibility one more time and I will do something to myself. I swear! I am sick and tired of it!โ
Jimin wipes his eyes, โI am an adult. Believe it or not, I am, and I can take care of my problems. I will deal with it. I will find a way. Please, I beg, don't tell me you want to find a solution-โ
โI don't plan on mating you,โ Yoongi murmurs, โI wasn't saying that.โ
โYou are not my responsibility, not anymore,โ Yoongi holds his hands up, โyou cleared it out. I got it. But, I did that,โ his eyes focus on the mark, โand I need to take responsibility of my action. So, I can help you get it removed. If you want. Do you want that?โ
Jimin eyes Yoongi, โhow?โ
Yoongi lets out a breath, โwe need to keep it healed. You can remove it anytime you want, but if it stays open like that, it will get infected. Just... let me heal it. Then do whatever you want. Yeah?โ
Jimin thinks, eyes on Yoongi, โhow?โ
Yoongi shrugs, โwash the wound and let the alpha lick it-โ
Jimin shakes his head, โno! No way in hell you are coming near me and licking me! Do you hear yourself?!โ
Yoongi arches a brow, โif we feel nothing for each other, it's just an act of help. You need to heal. Come on!โ
Jimin shakes his head, โno! I will find another way-โ
โThere's no other way,โ Yoongi sighs, โand, you know that. You would have found it by now if there was. You need to heal it. You need my help here.โ
Jimin snorts, โoh, you helped me into this!โ
Yoongi sighs, โI know.โ
Yoongi holds his breath, eyes on the omega who is clearly doubtful. Yoongi's eyes move from Jimin's face to that mark. Something flails its ugly head in him, spreading a sense of possessiveness through his veins that Yoongi abhors.
Jimin nods hesitantly, โfine, just heal it.โ
Yoongi lets out a breath when Jimin dips into the water, rubbing his fingers over the wound to clean it. When he comes back up, his white shirt sticks to him. The mark glistens with water and blood oozes out of it.
It should be an ugly sight.
Yoongi finds it fascinating.
He steps closer to the omega. His eyes on the mark that is a stark contrast against Jimin's pale skin. The wound is deep. Yoongi traces the uneven skin around it, feels Jimin's heartbeat against his thumb.
He leans, nose pressing against Jimin's skin, lips on the wound.
Yoongi holds back a growl when Jimin's hands grasp at his hair, fingers gripping those locks tightly.
Yoongi mouths the wound, presses the flat of his tongue on it to let his pheromones absorb into Jimin's skin.
Jimin lets out a shudder, fingers twitching in Yoongi's hair.
There is a sound of footstep and Yoongi growls, pulling Jimin flushed against him with his arms around Jimin's waist.
He eyes the shore, eyes moving towards the source. Yoongi lets out a curse when he sees the pack leader and the Luna coming towards the river.
Jimin grips at Yoongi's shirt, โshit!โ
Yoongi ducks, โshush!โ
Jimin glares, โthey can't see us like this! Yoongi-โ
Yoongi shrugs, โyou are not leaving!โ
Jimin's nails dig into Yoongi's biceps, โthey cannot see us like this! What will you tell them?! We will be kicked out!โ
โI think there is some tension between Jimin and Yoongi,โ Yushik speaks, walking down the riverbank, โthey look like-โ
โLovers,โ Byung hums, โI don't know. They looked like they had history together. As if they have feelings for each other.โ
Yoongi looks at Jiminโฆ
Jimin leans against the boulder, head tilted back against it. Yoongi presses closer when the footsteps come closer.
By the sound of it, the leader and the Luna are out for a night walk.
โThat's unacceptable!โ the leader growls, โthey know affairs are not tolerated here!โ
Byung sighs, โmy love, we just met them. Let's give it some time,โ they walk by the boulder's other side, โwe will keep an eye on them and if something is amiss-โ Byung looks at the river, he halts...
โWhat is it?โ Yushik asks, worried, โwhat happened?โ
Jimin feels terrified when they stop talking. His instinct kicks in, and he is clinging to Yoongi. His arms loop around Yoongi's neck, face burying against Yoongi's chest. Yoongi holds him closer, lips pressed against the mark and eyes sharp on the figures he can see vaguely.
Jimin bites back a whimper when the silence stretches, his teeth pressing against Yoongi's throat.
Yoongi holds Jimin against him, his muscles tensed. He knows he can't move because then the water will splash. He knows if the two of them leans over, they can see them.
Byung takes a step forward, and Yoongi holds his breath when their eyes meet.
Byung goes still, his eyes wide on Yoongi and then shift to Jimin. Yoongi keeps the eye-contact, pushing Jimin up against the boulder to keep him out of sight, but it's all futile.
Byung's jaw locksโฆ
Byung's eyes turn golden for a second, and Yoongi's gleam red.
โWhat is it?โ Yushik tries to walk around Byung.
Byung's eyes shift on Jimin who almost clings to Yoongi, trembling now, โlove,โ Byung murmurs, โcan you get me my shawl. It's cold here. I will wait. Yes?โ
Yushik hesitates, โlove...โ
Byung turns to smile at his mate, โI will sit here. Come back soon.โ
Yushik sighs, nodding, โI always tell you to take a shawl but you never listen,โ the alpha walks back towards the pack and Byung turns to them.
โCome here,โ Byung chews out, โnow!โ
Yoongi eyes him, โwhy-โ
โGet out before I call for guards,โ Byung glares, โyou are in no position to talk back to your luna!โ
Yoongi lets out a sigh and slowly moves to the shore. He lets Jimin up first and follows. They both stand in front of Byung.
Byung looks at Jimin, โWas he forcing himself on you?!โ
โWhat the fvck?!โ Yoongi glares, โwhy would I-โ
โHe is someone else's mate!โ Byung grits out, โhere in your arms. Looking terrified. What am I supposed to think?!โ
โHe is not someone else's mate!โ Yoongi hisses.
โโโ เผป โ เผบ โโโ
Byung gives Yoongi a long look and then turns to Jimin, โexplain what he said.โ
Jimin glares at Yoongi and then looks back at Byung, โwe...โ his eyes shift on the ground, โwe dated for a few months before I met Jin-โ
โDo not lie,โ Byung's jaw ticks, โnot anymore!โ
โWhat is going on, and I want to know in details,โ Byung arches a brow.
โI don't think we have enough time to explain with your husband coming over,โ Yoongi looks at the jungle, โhe will be here any minute now.โ
โMake it short,โ Byung hums, โpoint to point.โ
Yoongi nods, hums, โokay. Whatever the story you heard back there in the dining room, replace Jin for me, and you got the answer.โ
Jimin closes his eyes, holding his breath.
Byung holds Yoongi's stare, โthen... the mating mark is yours?โ
Yoongi looks at Jimin, โyes.โ
Byung scowls, โthen why are you two not together?โ
โHe loves someone else, the omega you know as his mate,โ Jimin murmurs, โand-โ
โAnd, he realized that after we almost got married,โ Yoongi chews out, โafter I mated him, which he didn't tell me, by the way.โ
Byung looks at Jimin and then back at Yoongi, โso, if you love Hoseok, why are you here?โ
Yoongi opens his mouth, closes it, opens it again, โthat mark is mine! If I don't heal it, there will be consequences!โ
โYou want to take the responsibility? Just that?โ Byung asks.
Yoongi nods mutely. Byung's lips twitch with amusement.
โI have never seen an alpha so passionate about their responsibility. I must say, you are a gentleman!โ he looks over at Jimin, โdo you want him to take respon-โ
โNo,โ Jimin shakes his head, โI want to remove this mark.โ
Byung gives Jimin a long look, โare you sure?โ
Jimin nods, earnest, โyes. I want to be free from this-โ
โCan we talk somewhere else?โ Yoongi cuts in, โhe is freezing, soaked and that mark is already making him weak. I don't want him to catch a cold because you want gossip.โ
A/N - Byung is a guy. 'Luna' is the position of the pack leader's mate. Address him with he/him, please. x
Byung looks at Yoongi, โyou are too outspoken for your own good. I can kick you out of the pack, you know?โ
Yoongi nods, โeven then, I would still say, let me take him somewhere warm. He is freezing, and I do not care what you do to me for trying to keep him safe.โ
Byung gives a slow nod, looks at Jimin, โgo to your house. I will meet you there with Yoongi. Get changed. I will be there.โ
Jimin looks up, โplease,โ he begs, โif you want to kick us out, do so. But, Taehyung... he really needs your protection. Please don't throw him out.โ
Byung sighs, โhe agreed to go along with your lies. Technically he is to be blamed too, but I know his position and I want to know where you stand. I am not going to do anything without thinking it through. So, go home, wait for me.โ
Jimin nods, bows, and turns to leave.
Byung looks at Yoongi whose eyes follow Jimin. Byung watches how Yoongi does not look away until he can't see Jimin anymore.
Then the alpha looks at Byung and Byung gives him a small smile.
โGo, I will join you,โ Byung hops off the boulder, โin a few minutes at his place.โ
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โThere is a hospital near our pack,โ Byung sits on the couch, eyes on Jimin who sits across from him, beside Yoongi, โwe go there for emergencies. If you want, I can book a slot for your checkup and then, if the doctor approves, you can operate the mark off. Do you want that?โ
Jimin nods eagerly, โyes!โ his eyes are wide with hope, โI would like that! I mean, that's the only thing holding him back from moving on-โ
Byung shakes his head, โthat's not the only thing holding him back from doing anything, Jimin. He is in no way tied to you. Mind you.โ
Byung looks at Yoongi, โyou are free to mate another person. I have had many experiences in this pack where the alphas run off to mate more than one omega. Until and unless you are bitten and held down, you are free to move along. You are not tied to him in any way. You know it.โ
โThat's why affairs before mating is prohibited here,โ Byung looks at the two of them, โthat's why we make sure the alpha and the omega, both are marked and mated. Otherwise, we omegas suffer the most. What's stopping you is your conscience. Right?โ
โBut, you don't have to worry,โ Byung looks at Jimin, gives him a small smile, โJimin here looks strong enough to hold onto his own. He sounds very level-headed. He will find a way. You don't have to worry, Yoongi. You can move on with your life. If that's all it is.โ
Yoongi hesitates, looking at Byung and back at Jimin.
Byung arches a brow, โan omega who, according to you, ruined your life, is giving you a clear shot at a second chance with the person you really like. Why aren't you taking it?โ
Yoongi looks away, โit's not that easy.โ
Byung frowns, โwhy is it not that easy?โ
Yoongi looks at Jimin, โI need to know what ticked you off. I want to know why you decided to leave. I want to know what went wrong because believe it or not, I was in that relationship too, okay? With you! I have a right to know!โ
โI read your diary,โ Jimin looks down at his hands, fingers grasping each other tightly, โI realized how suffocated you were since the start. I knew I was imposed on you, but I never knew to what extent. That day I realized to what extent. I was killing your dreams, you...โ
โYou read my diary...โ Yoongi turns to face Jimin fully, โyou read something I kept for myself. My personal-โ
โI stumbled across it,โ Jimin closes his eyes, โI was curious. I am glad I did, because,โ he looks at Yoongi, tears brimming in his eyes, โI got to know so much.โ
โI had to make it right,โ Jimin urges, โyou have to realize-โ
โMy life is not an infinity stone that you put it back in time and everything goes back to normal!โ Yoongi throws his hands up, frustrated, โtime does not go back like that! People don't reset like that, Jimin!โ
โBut they do,โ Jimin slams his hand down on the couch, โthey do when they never changed. You never loved me! You never stopped loving Hobi hyung! That makes it work! I was the hurdle and with me gone, things should fall in its right place! If you let it!โ
Jimin looks at Byung, โyou understand, right? What I am trying to say? I came between them and he never changed. He never loved me, then what is he trying to do still?!โ
Byung looks at Yoongi, โanswer him. He is asking a valid question here.โ
When Yoongi hesitates, Byung lets out a curse, โYoongi, answer this for me, do you still love Hoseok?โ
Yoongi glances at Jimin. Jimin is looking down at the floor.
โNo, look here and answer it,โ Byung sighs, โtell me. Do you love him?โ
โI will always love him,โ Yoongi murmurs.
Byung arches a brow, โthen I think it's time you let Jimin off the hook. If that's the case, then I don't see the problem. He did what was the right thing to do. Yes, it took him some time, but he did what was needed. He left you, so you can go back to win Hoseok over. Right?โ
โIf that's all there is, then let Jimin go,โ Byung gives Jimin a tender smile, โI am sure you will find love again, Jimin. People fear to think that love can happen more than once. But, trust me, love will find you again, and I hope this time the with the right person.โ
โIt doesn't make you fickle minded,โ Byung takes a glance at Yoongi, โit doesn't make you a liar for breaking the promise to love a person forever. Love is an emotion and sometimes we fall in love without us even realizing. I am sure you will find someone who would not +
+ hesitate to tell you they love you. I am sure you will find someone who you will love again too. I think,โ Byung reaches to take Jimin's hand in his, โJin can be that person too. You know? Or, anyone else. You don't need to rush it. Just know, this is not the end.โ
Jimin nods, eyes on Byung's hands around his, โthank you.โ
Byung hums, โI am sure you have a future plan, right, Jimin?โ
Jimin nods, tentative, โI want to dance again. I want to start my dancing school. Then, some day, I might find someone to settle down with. Have a kid...โ
โA family I never had,โ Jimin looks forlorn, โI think, what I always wanted was a family to call mine.โ
โAnd you will have it,โ Byung squeezes Jimin's hand in his, โjust not with Yoongi.โ
โI know,โ Jimin looks away, โI know that now. Knew that since reading those diaries...โ
Jimin looks at Yoongi, โyou should have told me, hyung,โ his voice cracks, โthat you had someone. How did you think that we will have a family when your heart wasn't in it? How could you think like that? It would never last! Imagine if the breaking point came after the marriage!โ
โYou would never be able to commit to it because I wanted something totally different from what you were ready to give me,โ Jimin wipes his eyes, โyou always knew that you would never touch me ever again, and I had all these plans of a proper family that I shared with you!โ
โWhat were you thinking?โ Jimin grasps at Yoongi's elbow, โhow could you tolerate so much pain when you knew you wanted a family with Hobi hyung and by doing this, you were letting go of that dream? It must have hurt so bad! Why would you do that? Just for responsibility?!โ
โIt makes me horrified to think we were about to get married, and you just let it all happen because you thought it's the only solution!โ Jimin curses, โall you had to do was tell me you had someone, and we would find a way. I would have talked to my dad! Got you out of there!โ
โPeople make mistakes, hyung, you don't punish them this terribly! We would find a way-โ
โI thought I had a plan,โ Yoongi murmurs, looking away, โthe news was everywhere. My family was dragged into it. I thought I had a plan of turning it all around. I thought that...โ
โDown the line I will find a solution, all I had to do was, get along with it for the chaos of the scandal to die down. I thought, down the line I will find a loophole and get the chance to break it all off.โ
Jimin stares, โthat'sโฆโ
Yoongi hums, โfvcked up. I know.โ
Byung frowns, โso, your plan was to go with the flow until you find something to blame everything on Jimin and run? Was that it?โ
โNo,โ Yoongi snaps, โmy plan was to stay as aloof as I can so Jimin realizes he deserves better and break it all off.โ
Byung rises his brows, โoh?โ
โSo, that's exactly what he did,โ Byung tilts his head, โthen, why is that bothering you?โ
โI don't know!โ Yoongi leans over, his head in his hands while he pulls at his hair, โI don't know, okay?! I didn't think it will take so long? I didn't think it will hurt so bad?โ
โI was planning for him to break it all off and when he did, it felt so weird,โ Yoongi hisses, โI never planned to lead him on. I always planned to be cold and void of any emotions, so he gets tired of me. I was just that. I deliberately tried to ruin his feelings for me.โ
โI told him to use scent-blockers,โ Yoongi grits out, โbecause I wanted him to know his scent bothers me. It's not the case. Far from it. I kept hoba's photo in my damn wallet when I barely use it,โ he snorts, โI never carry cash like that. But I wanted him to see it.โ
โI wanted him to know that he changed nothing, and he would change nothing, but, then I kissed him,โ Yoongi curses, โI kissed him, and it was the start of getting off the track. I didn't plan that! It was his birthday and he was so pretty,โ Yoongi snorts, โyeah, wellโฆโ
โYou kissed him...โ Byung looks at Yoongi and back at Jimin.
Yoongi nods, โyeah. I wasn't thinking! I,โ he looks at Jimin, โI wish I could say I regretted it. But,โ Yoongi shakes his head, โout of the list of things I regretted, kissing you isn't one of them. Surprisingly.โ
โI never spent hoba's heats with him, I could control myself around him just fine. I am not an animal, you know?โ he looks at Byung, โbut Jimin's heat triggered me. I regret sleeping with him when I was clearly more experienced. I always regretted that. In that sense.โ
โHe deserved to have a better first time,โ Yoongi looks away, face contorting, โhe deserved to have a better first kiss. A better first love! I tried to hold onto that thought, so I could push him away, and he would find someone better. Just like you said. I wanted that for him.โ
โI thought one day he will realize it, and he did,โ Yoongi's jaw locks, โbut, when he did, it hurt. Just like right now, you saying that he would find someone, an alpha-โ
โIt upsets you?โ Byung arches a brow.
Yoongi gives a sardonic smirk, โit makes me want to tear you apart.โ
Byung's eyes stay kind. His smile is kinder. He hums, nods to himself before looking at Jimin.
โYou can't change time, just as you said, Yoongi,โ Byung looks back at Jimin, โbut, you need to make up your mind. What do you want, because you are hurting him and Hoseok. Both.โ
โI don't think I can go back to Hoba,โ Yoongi looks away, โI don't think I-โ
โIs it because you can't or because you don't want to?โ Byung arches a brow, โbecause, you can surely go back to him. He looked like he still has feelings for you. You know? It will be easy, I think.โ
When no answer comes, Byung chuckles, โI am almost fifty, Yoongi. I am mature enough to understand what you are going through. You don't want to go back anymore. But, accepting that makes you think you are betraying a belief you had since you were a kid. So, you resist. Right?โ
โI am in no way looking down on your feelings for your childhood best friend, but, Yoongi, people move on-โ
โI think we should go,โ Jimin cuts in, โI don't want to talk about this because I moved past it. I don't need to know where he stands anymore. I am over it. For good.โ
Jimin looks at Yoongi, โyou wanted me to cut it all off. Take the blame, I did. I did exactly what you hoped for. So, now, all this talk is for nothing. It feels like I am forcing you to like me back and I have learnt the hard way that it's not possible. I don't want to anymore.โ
Jimin looks at Byung, โI don't need a relationship adviser. Not when there's no relationship to begin with. It's up to you if you want to get us expelled. I will take it. But, I refuse to sit here and listen to this. I will get the mark removed and set us free.โ
Yoongi looks at Jimin, โsee? It's all about you. You wanted me, you read my diary, you decided to run away, you hid the mark from me, now you want to end it all. You, you and you!โ
Jimin flinches when Yoongi shouts, his eyes wide.
Yoongi glares at him, โI am here too!โ
โThis is my life you are playing with!โ Yoongi jabs a finger against his chest, โthis is my feelings you are destroying! I am sorry, okay? That I loved someone before knowing you! I am sorry that I didn't switch like a bloody knob the moment I saw you! So fvcking sorry!โ
โI am sorry that I made a mistake, hell, I made a lot of mistakes, but so did you! You could have asked me if I was single or not before your daddy dearest hooked you up with me! You could have asked me about those damn diaries. You could have asked me! You could have asked!โ
โI am not a damn furniture you change the moment you don't like it!โ Yoongi growls, โI am not a damn thing you throw away the moment you think you are over it! I am damn person with feelings and you-โ
โYour feelings don't lie with me!โ Jimin shouts, โyou don't love me!โ
โLove doesn't happen in a day!โ Yoongi screams, โyou fool! Love doesn't happen so quickly! Even if it does, it takes time to grow to a point where a person feels confident enough to voice it! You are crazy if you think it's an instant recipe! It doesn't work like that!โ
Yoongi looks at Byung, โone day I come home to him leaving, and he doesn't even give me a reason! The next day he is calling off everything and storming out of my life just like he came. I feel used, confused and frustrated. I know he has a point, but what about my points?!โ
โDo you love him?โ Byung asks, โdo you see yourself with him?โ
โI planned my future with him,โ Yoongi whispers, โI was ready to marry him.โ
โThat doesn't answer anything, Yoongi,โ Byung sighs, โyou said it yourself, you think of him as your responsibility and nothing else.โ
โI can lie and tell you I love you,โ Yoongi murmurs, โbut I don't want to. I am not sure yet. But, you are leaving, and you have decided to leave, so I might as well say it. Because,โ Yoongi shrugs, โwhat is left for me to lose or gain anyway, right?โ
โI started keeping a journal because of how I felt for hoba and I couldn't tell him that. I kept it all in that journal. You saw it, you read it. You know how I felt. I was honest. Then we got together and slowly those lines started to be less frequent and then stopped.โ
โYou thought it's because I lost my dreams, or I never mentioned you because I didn't consider you a part of my life. No,โ Yoongi looks at Jimin in the eyes, โit's because I kept diaries solely for Hoba. When I felt my feelings were changing, my writings changed tooโฆโ
โI didn't feel like writing them down because these feelings were too raw for me to acknowledge them, forget writing them down. I was terrified of these newfound feelings, and I still am. I am not going to compare, okay? Hoba is my first love, but... I couldn't deny that...โ
โMy feelings for him were slowly starting to,โ Yoongi gestures vaguely with his hands, โI don't know how to say this, but when we just got together, I hated you. I hated coming home to you. I hated everything about you. My feelings for Hoba were so strong, I was blinded by them.โ
Yoongi curses, โbut, with time, coming home to you got easier. With time, the pain hoba's thoughts would bring me started to feel less and lesser. I started to look forward to seeing you when I reach home. Remember, how shocked you were when the first time I went to pick you up?โ
โI just drove there without thinking. I just wanted to see you,โ Yoongi curses, โI never liked nicknames. They are stupid, utterly cheesy and ridiculous but that day you had this stupid bouquet with you. Of some flowers and you kept smiling at it and I thought flowers suit youโฆโ
โI don't know when, but I started to cook for you, make sure you eat before you leave for college or work. I started to come home soon. I was keeping notice of your schedule. I didn't get the time to write anything because all these were new to me. I was learning a new person!โ
โI am sorry if I didn't get the time to put that feeling in my damn diary with eloquent words because I was too busy going through this shift that was wrecking havoc on my mind. I didn't want the change, but it was happening, and I didn't want to acknowledge it. Ever.โ
โI am not comparing, but falling for Hoba was so easy! I knew him since birth. He was my only friend for a long time. I was familiar with him, and he is like a comfort to me. But, you,โ Yoongi combs his hair back, frustrated, โI hated the idea of feeling anything for you.โ
โBut, I was, and it was horrifying!โ Yoongi looks away from Jimin, โI never wanted to love you, Park Jimin. I never planned on it. I would still tell myself you were my habit, I got habituated but, love is a habit too. You know? Choosing to love someone every day is a habit too.โ
โAnd, I didn't want to make that choice,โ Yoongi looks at Byung, his eyes shining, โI don't want to make that choice because it will never be good. Right? We were wrong since the start. We were doomed since the start, and it will only hurt us. Loving him is not going to be easy-โ
โBut you love him anyway,โ Byung whispers, throat closing around the words, โknowing it will hurt. Knowing nothing will come off it now, you love him anyway. Right?โ
Yoongi looks at Jimin, his chest contorting, as if someone is holding his heart in their palm, tightlyโฆ
Yoongi realizes with a start that maybe Jimin is. Maybe Jimin holds his heart in his palm. Without Yoongi's permission. He plays with it the way he wants. Maybe without him realizing it too and Yoongi knows it will break but he is tired of playing safeโฆ
โYeah,โ Yoongi whispers.
Jimin stumbles back, shaking his head, โyou don't mean it.โ
Byung frowns, โwhat?โ
Jimin grabs the neck of his shirt and tugs it down to reveal the mating mark, โit's his way of trying to do the right thing because he feels obligated now that there's a mating mark involved!โ
Yoongi gives a hollow laugh, both of his hands combing through his hair frustratingly, โmy god, you are so...โ
Jimin steps back, โI can't ever trust you! You agreed to marry me when you felt nothing for me!โ
Yoongi curses, โwhat do I have to do for you to trust me?!โ
โYou just called me names, you just said I am roping you into this,โ Jimin hisses, โyou just said I manipulated you into whatever we had. You canโt possibly think I will believe you now-โ
โHow about we do one thing,โ Byung chirps in, โhow about you two give this another chance?โ
Yoongi and Jimin look at Byung. Confused.
Byung gestures, โyou both clearly feel something for each other. Both of you do. How about you try courting? In the past, you both rushed into it and ruined it for both of you. How about this time you take it slow? A second chance?โ
โCourting,โ Byung smiles at them, encouraging, โold-fashioned way of an alpha gaining an omega's trust back. How about you try that? A time span where you two give each other a chance to walk up to each other, not dive into it head first. Huh?โ
Jimin looks at Yoongi, โI don't want anything to do with him. Also, my heat is due-โ
โWhat? You are going to spend it with Jin hyung?โ Yoongi arches a brow, eyes sparkling red.
Jimin hisses, โsay shit like that again, I will slap you!โ
Yoongi steps forward, โgo on!โ
Byung stands up, โenough! Both of you! If you donโt want to give it a chance, thatโs okay. Just stop picking fights with each other and try to be civil because otherwise, you are going to blow your cover, and then I wonโt be able to help you or your friend! At least, be civil!โ
Jimin nods, โI will be civil. I don't want to see his face anyway! Also? If I please, I can spend my heat with whoever the fvck I want! You get no say in this! If I want, and he agrees, I will bloody hell spend my heat with Jin hyung!โ
Yoongi goes still, his jaw ticking. He watches Jimin fume and then he looks back at Byung.
โThank you for not blowing our cover,โ Yoongi bows, โI will take your leave now,โ he looks at Jimin, โall the best on your new target!โ
Jimin and Byung watch Yoongi storm out of the room.
@/ksjinddy I WILL BE FOREVER GRATEFUL FOR SUGGESTING THIS SONG FOR THIS STORY.
This is the perfect song for this story. I am so in love. It's Hindi. Idk if there's an English translation but,
THIS IS THE OST of this story from now on โ https://youtu.be/A1fvWXogTLw
โI think we should talk,โ Jin comes to sit beside Yoongi.
โNo, we shouldn't,โ Yoongi busies himself with the preparation of the feast for that night, โI don't want to create a scene, Jin. Leave me alone.โ
โWhat is wrong with you nowadays?โ Jin curses, โyou are just so distant.โ
โIt's better than me feeling anything,โ Yoongi looks at the lights he is hanging around the field where the weekly pack gathering happens, โI don't want to end up losing it, Jin. Justโฆ let me be.โ
Jin gives him a disappointed look, โyou realize his heat starts tomorrow, right?โ
Yoongi grips the hammer in his hand, looking at the stand where he is nailing the wires, โwell, I am not sure why I need to know that.โ
Jin lets out a long breath, โthis pack knows I am his alpha. I will be locked in that damn house with him for these three days! Yoongi!โ
Yoongi shrugs, looking at the people roaming around, โwell, what do you want me to say? Enjoy? Do what he wants? See what he needs?โ
Jin holds his breath, โyou can't be serious.โ
Yoongi slams the hammer against the pole, โI am! I am very serious! What do you want me to say?!โ
โWhat should I do?!โ Yoongi barks, โwhat do you want me to do?!โ
โByung summoned him,โ Jin looks around to make sure no one is listening in, "I think they are talking about it. I don't know, Yoongi. Staying with him during this time will be a disaster!"
Yoongi looks away...
Jin shoves his hands in his pockets, desperate, โyou realize this is his second heat, right? He will be just as inexperienced! I am not sure itโs a good idea for meโโ
โAsk him,โ Yoongi looks at his hand, tightly gripping the hammer, โjust do what he says. Whatever he says.โ
โYou know what he will 'say,' in that state!โ Jin grits out, โyou know very well what his omega will say! I am an alpha-โ
โThen talk to him now,โ Yoongi shrugs, โask him what he says. If he wants you, go ahead. You don't need my permission. I am no one in this business.โ
Jin gives Yoongi a long look, โyou are ruinous. You know?โ
Yoongi chuckles, โI am ruined,โ he picks up the wires in his hands, โhe is ruinous. Excuse me.โ
He marches away from Jin. Leaves before the urge to tear Jin apart grows more. He leaves before his anger erupts.
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โByung can't do shit, not when Yushik thinks we are mated,โ Jin looks at Jungkook, Taehyung and Hoseok, โJimin is quiet. He didn't utter a single word, guys. I am so fvcking frustrated right now!โ
Taehyung looks at Jin, โwell, you can contorl yourself, right?!โ
Jin glares, โme controlling myself is not the problem here, Tae! He will be in heat! I am an alpha. Simply put, a knot! You realize that he will not be in his senses, right?!โ
โI talked to him,โ Taehyung bites his nails, โhe was quiet with me too. He just said, it will be okay.โ
โHow will he be okay when he will not be in his senses and I will be the only alpha-โ
โYou can be the last alpha on this planet,โ they all turn to see Jimin by the doorstep, โand, I can have my first ever heat, hyung. I would still not want you. I will be fine, trust me.โ
Jimin looks at Jin, โI will be fine.โ
Jin stands up too, โyou think so, Jimin. You remember what happened the first time, right?โ
Jimin nods, โI remember. That's why I am telling you, it will be fine. Calm down. Okay? Just control yourself, and you'll not be disturbed by me.โ
Jimin goes to his room, closing the door behind himself.
Taehyung looks at Jin, โyeah, control yourself. I will call you every hour. Make sure you pick up. Otherwise, I don't care who thinks what or does what, I will come and break the damn door. Trust me.โ
Jin nods, โfine!โ
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Yoongi sits by the waterfall. His eyes on the water while the night grows old around him.
It's almost two in the night, and it's the first day of Jimin's heat. Yoongi sits on the boulder, willing himself to go back home.
His muscles won't cooperate. He doesn't want to.
Yoongi lies down on the boulder, eyes on the sky. He feels the frustration seep out of him. Hot trails of tears silently roll out of his eyes to get lost in his hairline. He doesn't bother wiping them.
He counts the stars instead, trying to will himself to just stay put.
He watches the sky till he can't. Till he reaches for his phone and dials the number.
It rings. With each ring, Yoongi's heartbeat picks up. He thinks of cutting the call. Thinks of throwing the phone into the river.
โWhat?โ
The voice is shaken. Yoongi feels it in his core.
โHow are you?โ Yoongi watches the moon peeking through the clouds.
โWhy?โ Jimin coughs, his voice frail.
โAre you alone?โ Yoongi chews the inside of his cheek, feels fresh tears roll out of his eyes, โplease, be alone.โ
โYou are so selfish!โ Jimin hisses, โfvck you!โ
โJimin,โ Yoongi hears Jin's voice, โroll on your side-โ
Yoongi holds his breath, his eyes stuck on the sky.
Jimin moans, โlisten-โ
Yoongi chuckles, โno, forget it. Forget I called.โ
He cuts the call and sits up on the boulder. The voices echo in his head...
Yoongi prided himself in not losing it like almost all alphas did. He liked to think he was better than that.
But, he punches the boulder next to the one he is sitting on. He punches it until it hurts, bruises and blood starts to clot. Until it hurts more than his heart.
Until he can't anymore and then he dives into the water. The cold seeps into his bones, and he holds himself underwater. He swims till his skin is prune, and he can feel the cold almost freeze him.
Then he gets out of the water and goes home to Hoseok who is sleeping on the bed.
Yoongi watches Hoseok sleep peacefully. He walks up to the bed, eyes stuck on the omega, whose scent envelops him now. Yoongi leans against the bedpost, the voices still echoing in his ears, and his eyes are stuck on Hoseok.
This is the person he always wanted to come home to.
Hoseok stirs, turning on his side. He is wearing a T-shirt to bed and his boxers. The T-shirt is too big on him, almost falling off his shoulders. Yoongi watches how Hoseok slowly stirs, eyes fluttering.
โHyung?โ Hoseok sounds groggy, โI was waiting for you to come home.โ
Yoongi watches Hoseok sit up on the bed, the T-shirt falling off his one shoulder. Yoongi's eyes trail over Hoseok's figure. He ignores how Hoseok notices that too. He ignores how Hoseok's eyes roam over his soaked figure too.
The night is too quiet. They are quiet too...
Yoongi feels the anger shimmer through his veins. He watches how Hoseok's lips part, a silent gesture that maybe even he doesn't notice.
Yoongi does though. His eyes drop to those lips. He reaches out, hand cupping the side of Hoseok's cheeks.
Hoseok sucks in a breath, โYoon-โ
Yoongi leans in, his forehead resting against Hoseok's and Hoseok grips his wrist, eyes on Yoongi.
Yoongi's eyes closes, silent tears oozing out of his eyes, โall I ever wanted is right here,โ he murmurs, โin this room. This is all I ever wanted. You, like this. Waiting for me.โ
โBut, I stopped waiting for that dream, hoba,โ he breaks down, โI stopped dreaming of you. I stopped, gave up, left this dream and walked out into my reality. Him,โ Yoongi sobs, โhe became my reality and now that he is gone, I feel like I am walking into a nightmare!โ
Yoongi feels Hoseok going still against him, and he pulls away to sit at the edge of the bed, โI hurt him, I am hurting you, I am hurting myself,โ he holds his head in his hands, pulling at his hair, โwhy can't I ever have what I want? Why am I so slow to realize who I want!โ
โI want to buy that damn house,โ Yoongi sobs in his hands, โI want to go home to him. I want us to love each other slowly. I want us to be something,โ Yoongi looks at his feet, โbut, here I am. There he is. With someone else. It hurts so bad! It hurts so fvcking bad!โ
Hoseok crawls over to him, hugging him from the side, โhyung,โ his voice comes out heavy too, โbreathe. You are too riled up. Please, breathe. Okay? It will be fine. It's just a heat. Even if he is with someone, it doesn't mean anything. It's just a heat.โ
Yoongi shakes his head, โour entire relationship was based on him being in heat. How am I to forget that, and I can't,โ he looks away, โI can't-โ
โIt will be fine,โ Hoseok rubs Yoongi's back, โcalm down, okay? It will be fine. When he gets out of heat, talk. It will be fine.โ
Yoongi stands up, โyou sleep, okay? I will take the couch outside.โ
Hoseok holds Yoongi's wrist, โstay. It's okay. We can share a bed without it being awkward. Trust me.โ
Yoongi shakes his head, โno, hoba. I will take the couch outside. Just... sleep. Sorry for waking you up.โ
โAnd, hoba,โ Yoongi holds Hoseok's hands in his, โI never apologized to you properly. Because, maybe deep down, I always thought I will come back to you. Maybe I held onto that hope that one day I will just return to you, and it will be all forgiven and forgotten...โ
โBut, now I know,โ Yoongi's face contorts, โthat I will never return here. To you,โ he wipes Hoseok's eyes, shakes his head, โI will never be able to turn back to you. So,โ Yoongi lets out a breath, โI am sorry. For leaving you back then. Now. I am sorry for breaking it all off.โ
โI am sorry for leading you on, keeping you on my tail,โ Yoongi sniffles, โI know that he will never want me back, but I can't pretend to not want him anymore. I can't pretend that if he doesn't want it, I can be yours. I can't. I might as well move on from both of you.โ
Yoongi's lips tremble on silent sobs, โI just... I wish,โ he tilts his head, tears rolling out of his eyes, โI wish I didn't lose my best friend because of this stupid love shit!โ
Hoseok bursts into tears, โyou moron. You will never lose your best friend. He is right here!โ
โHe is not going anywhere,โ Hoseok reaches out to wipe Yoongi's eyes, โhe never will because,โ Hoseok cups Yoongi's face, โbecause he only has you too. Okay? Never doubt that.โ
Yoongi breaks, he throws his arms around Hoseok and gathers the omega in his arms, โthank you, hoba!โ
Hoseok hugs Yoongi back, just as tightly, โI will find someone better, you know?โ
Yoongi laughs, nods while tears roll out of his eyes, happy, relieved tears, โoh, I know! Someone way, way better. You always deserve the best. I never doubted that.โ
Hoseok nods, โgood.โ
Hoseok pulls away, wipes Yoongi's eyes, โnow calm down. Go and sleep. You look like a ghost of yourself. Come on. Rest. How long has it been since you last had a peaceful sleep?โ
Yoongi gives him a rueful smile, โmonths. Since he left.โ
Yoongi turns and walks out of the room.
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Jimin drags himself to the river after those three days are over. He ignores Jin's protests and tells the alpha that he will be back after he cleaned himself of the fluids all over his skin.
Jin had let him go, worriedly staring after him. Jimin ignored the alpha.
It's past midnight, so Jimin expects the waterfall to be quiet and empty. Just what he needs right now.
He almost drops himself into the water, sitting by the shore and letting out a curse when the cool water touches his burning skin.
Jimin lies down, eyes on the sky.
Jimin hears the footsteps and sits up. His eyes alert and on the jungle. He pulls the white, flimsy shirt he wore tightly to him and stares at the source of the sound.
The footsteps draw closer and Jimin sits in the water, feeling nauseous. He still smells of his heat.
Jimin's heart stops in his chest when the person rounds the corner and steps around the boulders lining the shone.
Yoongi looks up from where he was, hands in his pockets and black, sheer, shirt open till the last button.
They both freeze. Eyes on each other.
Jimin pulls his legs up to himself, arms going around them while he watches Yoongi.
Yoongi looks at him while slowly walking up to the river. The alpha stands by the riverbank, eyes fixed on Jimin.
Jimin can hear his heartbeat over the sound of the waterfallโฆ
โYou don't smell like Jin,โ Yoongi blurts out, voice carrying over to Jimin.
Jimin frowns, โwhy,โ he blinks, confused, โwhy'd I smell of him?โ
Yoongi slowly steps into the river, eyes on Jimin, โwhen I called, he was there with you.โ
Jimin's confusion ebbs off to realization.
โWhat?โ Jimin arches a brow, giving Yoongi a sardonic smile, โI should smell of his cum or knot? Is that what you are saying?โ
Yoongi growls, it tears out of him, โcareful! I am fvcking at the edge.โ
Jimin shrugs, โyou asked. I answered. What's your next question? How was he?โ
โMight as well tell me,โ Yoongi shrugs out of his shirt, throwing it on the nearest rock, โjudging by he is the first alpha after me.โ
Jimin leans back, his legs stretching out in front of him, โhe was better, actually. His knot felt better inside-โ
Jimin stops when Yoongi moves, his hand grabs Jimin's ankle, pushes it to the side and the alpha steps between his legs.
Jimin presses himself against the boulder he is leaning on, eyes wide and on Yoongi who is right in front of him. Yoongi's eyes are oozing fire...
โChoose your words very wisely,โ Yoongi grits out, โvery, very wisely, blossom,โ he hisses the endearment, โI am in no mood to play your games.โ
Jimin places his hands on Yoongi's bare chest, nails digging there, โwell, you asked. Am I supposed to lie? He was better.โ
Yoongi's arm goes around Jimin's waist, easily wrapping Jimin up in his arms, โyou don't smell like any alpha. At all.โ
Jimin arches his back, hand on Yoongi's shoulder now, eyes focused on those red irises, โand?โ
Yoongi's eyes trail over him, โand, there are no bruises...โ
Jimin shrugs, โsome alphas are not controlling, you know?โ he chews out, โsome likes it the other way around. Unlike some who are brutal and rough and doesn't stop to think it's the omega's first time-โ
Yoongi arches a brow, โwow, you remember a lot from the first time, I see.โ
Yoongi leans in, lips pressing against Jimin's ear, โhow about,โ he nips Jimin's earlobe, โI remind you how you were on your first time, and you might realize how I felt. Hmm? How about I make you remember how it felt to be mine?โ
Jimin sucks in a breath...
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โThe thing is,โ Jimin's nails dig deeper in Yoongi's flesh, his voice comes out tight against Yoongi's ear, โyou and I both don't forget. We never forget, and that's the reason we are here.โ
He watches Yoongi, โyou, with someone else,โ he looks away, โme with someone else too.โ
โI am not with someone else,โ Yoongi whispers, eyes stuck on the mark against Jimin's neck, โI am not with anyone else. I got out of it.โ
Jimin freezes in his arms, eyes slowly shifting on Yoongi, โwhat?โ
Yoongi nods, watching how fresh blood coats the wound, โyeah.โ
Yoongi leans towards the wound, โdid it hurt during the heat?โ
Jimin shrugs, โwhat do you mean you got out of it?โ
Yoongi lets his thumb graze the uneven skin, โtold him I can't pretend anymore. Told him I stopped loving him. Maybe ages ago-โ
Jimin pushes at his chest, โstop!โ
He shakes his head, pressing himself against the boulder to stay away from Yoongi, โdon't lie to me! Don't try to manipulate me into whatever you are planning!โ
Yoongi reaches for him desperately, โno,โ takes a hold of Jimin's wrist, โI am not playing a game! I mean it!โ
โDon't lie to me,โ Jimin glowers, โnot when it changes nothing! I am not going to go back to a person who told me I roped him into this. Not to a person whose first thought after hearing Jin hyung's voice was, I slept with him. Not to a person who doesn't trust me.โ
โYou didn't?โ Yoongi wonders, hand tightening around Jimin's wrist, feet moving him closer to the omega, โyou didn't sleep with him?โ
โI don't owe you the answer to that,โ Jimin grits out, eyes turning Azure, โI don't owe you shit!โ
โJust tell me,โ Yoongi begs, โplease.โ
Yoongi leans his head against Jimin's collarbone, voice coming out tight, โI can't stop thinking about it. I can't stop imagining you with him, or anyone else. Just...โ
โImagine what you put me through then,โ Jimin snorts, โput yourself in my shoes, and then we can talk.โ
โI never slept with anyone else since I promised to marry you!โ Yoongi growls, โwhat are you saying?!โ
Jimin glares back, โemotionally?! What about that? You were never present. You were never-โ
โWhat do I have to do for you to forgive me?!โ Yoongi slams his hand on the waterโฆ
โNothing,โ Jimin shrugs, โI am over you, Min Yoongi. I will book an appointment, now that the heat is over, and get this mark off me. You can do whatever you want. You are not my headache anymore. Now,โ he turns on his feet, โexcuse me. It's getting late and I am cold.โ
Yoongi reaches out to hold Jimin by his waist. He gets closer until Jimin's back is pressed against his chest. Yoongi presses his lips against Jimin's neck, feeling how Jimin tilts his head to the other side.
โPlease,โ Yoongi whispers, โgive me one chance. Last chance. Please.โ
โI wish I could,โ Jimin turns his face to look over at Yoongi, their faces inches apart.
A teardrop rolls out of Jimin's eye, โbut, I can't,โ he looks at Yoongi with pain clear in his eyes, โnot when I am mated to you. Not when I can't say if this is you or the mark talking.โ
โNot when I spent an entire heat in pain, emotional and physical, wishing it would stop hurting so bad. Not when the mating mark opened and it felt like my entire body was on fire. Not when your first thought was I spent it with Jin hyung. No, I can't. I can't do that to myself.โ
Jimin searches Yoongi's eyes, โI stayed awake every hour and wished I never met you, hyung,โ he lets the tears roll out of his eyes, โI let Jin hyung bring me food, painkillers and drinks and cursed myself for wishing it was you,โ he looks away, โI can't hurt myself anymore.โ
โI am getting this mark removed,โ Jimin wipes his eyes, โByung said he won't be able to come with me. Taehyung wants to, but Sarangie sleeps around the clock now, and I can't ask him to bring the baby to the hospital. So, I will go alone. I need some rest. Let me go.โ
Jimin watches him and Yoongi watches Jimin back.
โIs this your final decision?โ Yoongi asks, โyou want to remove the mark?โ
Jimin nods, โyeah,โ his throat bobs, โI want to move on.โ
Yoongi's eyes roam over Jimin's face, โfine. I will go with you.โ
Jimin frowns, โwhat?โ
Yoongi holds back his tears, โI always blamed myself for getting you into this,โ he nods, โI was there to ruin your life, I will be there to free you too. I will go with you. If that's what you want, really want, then I will come with you and be there.โ
Jimin watches him...
Then Jimin turns on his heels and gets out of the water. Yoongi turns away too, dipping into the water to let the tears blend with the tides. He comes up after a moment, combing his hair back and staring at the waterfall.
Yoongi swims to the waterfall, standing underneath.
The water flow is heavy, but not too heavy to push him away or hurt him. Yoongi stands and lets it pour on him while tears roll out of his eyes.
The water is not above his waistline. He stands and lets the cold water run around him.
The sound of footsteps on the water makes him look at the river, and Yoongi lets out a gasp when he sees the flash of white before Jimin slams into him.
Before Yoongi can understand anything Jimin cups his face, tugging him forward to press his lips against Yoongi's parted ones.
It's not a kiss. Not a proper one, at least.
Jimin is sobbing, his lips trembling against Yoongi's and Yoongi is still until he is not. He is reaching out to hold Jimin by his waist, crying himself.
He feels his heart breaking between them.
Because it feels like a goodbye.
โYou owed me that,โ Jimin whimpers into the kiss, โyou owed me a kiss where you fvcking felt something!โ
Yoongi pulls Jimin closer, kissing him deeply, โI always,โ he coaxes Jimin to open his mouth, โalways felt something.โ
Jimin bites down on his lower lip, โnot enough!โ
Jimin holds Yoongi while the alpha kisses down his throat, tongue pressing against the mating mark.
Jimin hisses, looking down to see Yoongi lick at it, trying to clean it under the waterfall, โI deserved to have a happy story to tell my kids about my mating, you know?โ
โI deserved to have happy memories with my mate,โ Jimin tugs at Yoongi's hair, pulling him away, โI deserved better!โ
โThen let me be better,โ Yoongi pushes Jimin up against the rocks, desperate, โour kids can learn that we still made it. Every first doesn't have to be happy!โ
โI am not having your kids!โ Jimin hisses, shaking his head, โI will not have your kids! I am just saying-โ
Yoongi kisses him again, pressing him against the rocks, โstop saying. Please. I beg, one chance! Jimin, just one chance! I will make your every memory a happy one!โ
โI don't know how to trust you with this mark on me,โ Jimin pulls away from the kiss, turns his face away when Yoongi follows him, โI don't know how to believe any word you say when I know you would do anything for your responsibilities, and you see me as one. For sure!โ
โI will take you to remove the mark,โ Yoongi murmurs, โand then, I will court you. How does that sound?โ
Jimin looks at him, confused, โyou know that if we get the mark removed then we can't mate until I want, right? It has to be my choice this time.โ
Yoongi shrugs, โI know.โ
Jimin tilts his head, โwhat if I never want you again?โ
Yoongi shrugs, โI would still want this. I would still take a chance over nothing at all.โ
Jimin watches him, โyou would do so much for nothing? I won't be easy-โ
โYou never were,โ Yoongi holds back a smile, โtrust me.โ
Jimin lets Yoongi come closer. The alpha's lips pressing against Jimin's mark. Jimin lets Yoongi kiss it, lets himself feel the soothing pheromones surround him.
โIt will not be easy,โ Jimin whispers, โpeople here still think we are mated to someone else.โ
โWe will find a way.โ
โDon't fuck it up, okay?โ Jimin whispers, โif you do, I will never forgive you again. I swear.โ
Yoongi pulls back to match Jimin's eyes, โI will not fuck it up. I swear.โ
Jimin nods, hesitantly letting Yoongi pull him towards the shore, letting out of the water...
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โYou will be fine?โ Yoongi asks by the treeline before they enter the pack's locality, โI can't follow you there.โ
Jimin hums, wraps his arms around himself, โyeah. I will be fine. Don't worry.โ
Yoongi nods, โI will go after you.โ
Jimin turns and slowly walks away...
Jimin gets inside the house and Taehyung is right there, by the bedroom. His eyes are on Jimin and Jimin watches how Jin is asleep on the couch.
Jimin walks up to the bedroom and gets inside, dragging Taehyung inside too, โlisten, I told him about the operation.โ
Taehyung looks at Jimin with worry colouring his eyes, โshit!โ
Jimin nods, โyes. I just couldn't hold it back. I wanted to hurt him by saying that, but instead, he agreed to come with me.โ
Taehyung goes still, โwait, what?โ
Jimin nods, infuriated, โnow I need to find a plan.โ
โYou need to get the mark removed, otherwise you can't get married!โ Taehyung hisses, โJimin! What were you thinking?!โ
โI wasn't, okay?!โ Jimin sits beside Taehyung, frustrated, โhe was saying things that I always wanted to hear, and I just couldn't hold myself back. I am so-โ
Jimin shakes his head, โhe can't come with me. I can't take anyone with me! I need to leave on my own, and then I need to do as we planned!โ
โWe don't need to go through with this plan,โ Taehyung shakes his head, โlisten, Namjoon will do something. We can just wait and it will-โ
Jimin gives Taehyung a look, โNamjoon alone can't solve everything. We need more people at our side. If I go through with this, my dad will be on our side, along with that alpha's family. You are not realizing, Tae. We need to figure this out as quickly as possible!โ
โI have brought enough shame to my family, you know?โ Jimin looks down at his hands, โmum kept saying how much dad had to listen from everyone when I decided to marry Yoongi and then when I broke it all off, our family suffered again. This will be a little payback.โ
โDad sounded so happy, Tae,โ Jimin blinks back tears, โafter so long, he talked to me. When I went to Byung's room, and he let me contact dad, he sounded so happy. I can do this, you know?โ
โYou are marrying a man you never met,โ Taehyung grips Jimin's hand in his, โplease!โ
Taehyung jerks Jimin's hands, making the omega look at him, โyou are marrying a person you don't know. You have no idea how he is. You just know his family is powerful and that's it! I don't need you to do this to save me, chim! This doesn't sound right! It's not right!โ
Jimin's jaw hardens, he glares at Taehyung, โI am marrying him because his family is powerful and by doing this, I am gaining a favour from my dad! My dad will now help me find this person behind you and I will get you out of this. Just trust me, okay?!โ
Taehyung feels tears brim his eyes, โyou shouldn't need a favour from your dad, you know? He is your dad. He should support you. No matter what.โ
Jimin shrugs, looking down at his hands, โI didn't act like his son either. I kept bringing shame to the family. Repeatedly.โ
โWho cares?โ Taehyung sniffles, โthey are horrible parents! Who cares?!โ
Jimin meets Taehyung's eyes, โI do. I left my house because I was so sure of him, you know? That he loves me and I love him, and I am making the right decision. Now look at me! Maybe they were right.โ
Taehyung shakes his head, โthey were never right! They were never right. Come on-โ
โNo,โ Jimin shrugs, โI will go through with this. I feel guilty of it all, you know? I ruined so much of my family because I let my heart decide for me. I am done with that. I can do this.โ
Taehyung looks at Jimin, giving up, โwhat did he say? Yoongi hyung?โ
Jimin's lips tremble, those eyes flickering away, โthatโฆโ Jimin looks over Taehyung's shoulder, โthat he wants a future with me. He wants to try.โ
Taehyung hears the heartbreak in that voice, โdon't do this.โ
โDon't let me be the reason you are unhappy,โ Taehyung sobs, shaking his head, โI will take death over that-โ
Jimin snorts, โat this point I am not even sure if I know what happiness feel like, Tae. If, by doing this, I can keep you safeโฆ the only person who matters, I will.โ
Jimin looks at Taehyung, wiping his eyes, โyou have a family now. Sarangie needs you. Jungkook wants a future with you, just as you want that. I would be damned if I let anything stop that. I can do this, you know? Who knows, maybe I will come to like the alpha,
yeah?โ
โYou already love someone,โ Taehyung begs, โthat someone wants to try... how will you ever forget that?โ
Jimin looks down at their joined hands, โI kissed him, you know? I know it was selfish of me, but I had to. One last time. I will keep his memories and I will be fine.โ
Jimin pulls Taehyung down beside him on the bed, โnow sleep here, hmm? Tomorrow I am leaving, and I don't know when will we meet again. Sarangie is with her dad. You stay here.โ
Taehyung lets Jimin hug him, lets the omega place his head on Taehyung's chest to sleep.
Taehyung lets Jimin cry. He looks at the ceiling, his own tears falling, while Jimin tries to stifle his own tears.
When Taehyung feels Jimin is asleep, tired from his heat and the exhaustion of it all, Taehyung slowly slips out of the room.
He leaves the house in the darkness.
The pack is asleep, but the guards walk the roads, keeping their eyes on the surroundings and whistling as they go to alert the other guards.
Taehyung runs to the house, knocks as fast as he can and waits. The door opens after a few seconds.
Yoongi frowns, โTaehyung?โ
Taehyung walks inside, closes the door and leans against it, โyou need to listen to me very carefully, Min Yoongi.โ
Yoongi stares at him, confused, โwhat?โ
Taehyung takes Yoongi to the couch, sits down and pats the place beside him, โsit. We need to talk.โ
Taehyung looks at Yoongi when he sits down, โtomorrow, when you take Jimin to the hospital, no one will go with you, right?โ
Yoongi nods, confused how Taehyung knows that.
Taehyung's jaw hardens, โrun away with him. Don't come back here. Take him somewhere else.โ
Yoongi stares, โwhat?!โ
Taehyung nods, frustrated, desperate, โlisten, Jimin's dad is manipulating him, guilt-tripping him into thinking that if he marries the guy his dad chose, that asshole will help him find out who is behind me. Jimin, being Jimin, believed him. I don't.โ
โI don't believe any word that comes out of my dad and his dad's mouths! They are all the same, liars. That's all. He just wants his reputation restored and nothing else. He doesn't care how Jimin feels, and he knows after the wedding, Jimin won't be able to do anything anywayโฆโ
โSo, he is using me to get his ego restored,โ Taehyung grips Yoongi's wrist, โdon't let that happen. Don't let him marry that guy.โ
Yoongi gives a sigh, โyou absolute fool, did you try to stop him? Jimin?โ
Taehyung gives Yoongi a confused look, โyeahโฆ why?โ
Yoongi sits back, legs crossed, โdid he agree to that?โ When Taehyung says nothing, Yoongi curses, leaning forward, โyou absolute mishap, did you make him agree to stay here?!โ
Taehyung stares at the alpha, โn-no. He is running away tomorrow.โ
Yoongi lets out a breath, โgood.โ
Yoongi gets up, brushes his pant, โdon't stop him. I swear, Taehyung, do not stop him.โ
Taehyung grabs Yoongi's wrist, โwhat the hell is wrong with you?! You heard me, right?! He said you wanted him. He said you would want him, and now that he is marrying another guy-โ
โI am that guy,โ Yoongi turns to Taehyung, โI am that alpha,โ Yoongi nods when Taehyung gapes, โhis dad is a manipulative, power-hungry asshole. You are right about that. When I offered him partnership with my business and promised to clear his name in that scandal, he agreed.โ
โWhy are you doing this?โ Taehyung springs up, glaring at Yoongi, โwhy are you doing this?!โ
Yoongi looks at Taehyung, face impassive, โhis dad, your dad, people like them love their position, power and ego more than an omega son. You, out of everyone else, know that.โ
โI knew he already found a guy to marry Jimin off,โ Yoongi pushes his hands in his pockets, โthe alpha he chose has a criminal record. Drugs, alcohol, other omegas, whatnot,โ Yoongi looks angry, โhis dad didn't really care. The family was rich. He was ready to marry Jimin off.โ
โI couldn't let that happen,โ Yoongi looks at Taehyung, โso I reached out. Offered the deals, money, hell, I offered him my clubs. The amount was too much for him to deny. Also, the media knew we were to marry. Now, if we do, they can brush off that breakup as a mere fight.โ
โHe has to sign a contract to stay married to me for at least two years,โ Yoongi shrugs, โby then, I am sure he will hate me enough to want to be on his feet. I will stick with him as long as he needs me. As long as he is not financially stable, then we can divorce.โ
โHe will hate you for it,โ Taehyung lets out a breath, โhe will hate you forever.โ
Yoongi nods, โI know.โ
Taehyung curses, โyou are forcing him into this.โ
โIf I don't, you have no idea what awaits him!โ Yoongi glares at Taehyung, โyou have no idea how vile your fathers are!โ
Yoongi turns away, โJimin has nothing on his name. No power, no money, nowhere to go. He will fall into wrong hands. His own parents are wrong hands. I just want to keep him safe until he can be something on his own-โ
โWhat do you get from all this?โ Taehyung frowns.
โWhy are you doing this? Why are you going and giving up so much to keep him safe?โ Taehyung grabs Yoongi's elbow and turns him, โwhy are you going out of your way to keep him safe?โ
Yoongi looks over Taehyung's shoulder, โbecause... someone has to. Because I got him here.โ
โSay he is your responsibility one more time and I will punch you in the face!โ Taehyung swears, โI swear I will! Just choose your words very wisely, Min Yoongi! I swear-โ
โI love him,โ Yoongi whispers, โand, I want him to be safe. I want him safe, happy and independent.โ
โI want him far, far away from all this,โ Yoongi blinks back tears, โhis father, his mum, his family, relatives, those business associates, and,โ Yoongi lets out a shuddering breath, eyes find Taehyung, โme. I want to see him free and happy. I want him to feel happy. For once.โ
โI can't tell him the reason,โ Yoongi wipes his eyes, โhe will be he and try to sacrifice himself and find a way. For once, I want him to not sacrifice himself to make everyone else happy. For once, I want him to be happy, and if he hates me for it, I will gladly take it.โ
โYou know him,โ Yoongi takes Taehyung's hand in his, โyou know how he is. He will guilt-trip himself into thinking about others first. I am sick and tired of seeing that and being the reason of that too many times. Let him have it. Freedom. I promise, he will be free after this.โ
โOr,โ Taehyung wipes his eyes, โyou find out who is doing everything. I hold Jimin back from leaving and then you two talk and come to a solution. How about you stop deciding for him and let him decide for himself once? You go and help Joonie hyung find out the culprit!โ
Yoongi curses, โare you not understanding?โ he rubs his temple, โhis dad was never going to help. There's nothing to help, Tae. If it was so easy, I would figure it out. I have my men searching the culprit. We are coming up empty-handed. His dad was never going to help you!โ
โHe doesn't care you live or die,โ Yoongi grips Taehyung's biceps, โhe just wants his family name intact and his profit! He saw a chance and took it. He doesn't give a fvck about you or this. That promise was fake. Use your brain! He just wanted Jimin in his control!โ
โI have no other ways,โ Yoongi curses, โI have thought this through. Okay? This is not an impulsive decision. Trust me, if there was a way where I come out with Jimin staying with me, I would have taken it!โ
Taehyung looks at Yoongi, โyou are sacrificing yourself.โ
Yoongi shrugs, โjust go along with the plan.โ
โThis will break him,โ Taehyung sniffles, โwhen he sees you, he will make up a story in his mind and I know you, you won't tell him the truth. This will break him into pieces. He will never trust anyone again. Hyung, please.โ
Yoongi turns away, โsometimes you have to break completely to emerge as a totally new person. You know? Maybe he needs that.โ
โNo, he doesn't.โ
They both look at the bedroom and Hoseok glares at them.
Yoongi and Taehyung startle, eyes wide, as Hoseok walks up to them.
Hoseok glares at Yoongi, โno. He doesn't need to break more for loving you, for being from that hell-hole of a family. You need to tell him the truth. I don't care if you have to drag him down the aisle kicking and punching you, just tell him the truth! Then follow the plan!โ
โIf this is the only way, go down the path, but,โ Hoseok chews out, โlet him walk down the path knowing what he is working with! He deserves to know what you are doing because you are doing that to him! He deserves to know! If, after that, he tries to self-sabotage, stop him.โ
โDo not be like his dad in a different shell,โ Hoseok shakes his head, โyou want good for him, but keeping him is darkness is not good! Tell him this is what he needs to prepare for, and you never know, he might agree! For heaven's sake, stop being the boss all the time!โ
โIf you have to do this, do this, but make him aware,โ Hoseok holds Yoongi's elbow, grips it, โdon't break him like that, hyung! Imagine his state when he finds out you shook hands with his dad, who is shoving him into this contract! He will be devastated! Tell him!โ
โBe his partner in crime and not his dad's, my god!โ Hoseok curses, โshake hands with him. Tell him that this is the contract we both are going into, hand in hand and trust me, it will be better. Trust me, these two years will be better.โ
Yoongi stares, โbut-โ
Hoseok shakes his head, urgency clear in his eyes, โwith this plan, when you free him, he will fly away. He will be happy. But, if you choose to go with your plan, you will kill him tomorrow and then when you free him, he will be independent, yes, but dead. It won't matter then.โ
Jimin looks back at the pack, waving one last time at the others before he gets on the jeep beside Yoongi.
โYou would like to take the first turn,โ Yushik tells Yoongi, โthen you can ask anyone and they will point you to the hospital.โ
Yoongi nods, starting the jeep.
Jimin leans back against the seat, his eyes on the road while Yoongi drives them out of the pack. Yoongi's eyes follow the rear-mirror, and Jimin's eyes stay stuck there too. Until they take the turn and Jimin looks forward.
โThe right turn from here,โ Jimin mutters, โthat one.โ
Jimin frowns when Yoongi ignores the turn and the jeep moves forward.
โHey, they said the right turn!โ Jimin turns to Yoongi whose eyes are stuck on the road, โwhere are you taking me?!โ
Yoongi drives faster, his eyes on the road. Jimin looks at the alpha, terrified...
โThere's something you need to know,โ Yoongi speaks, his eyes glued on the road, โthere are a few things you need to know.โ
Jimin frowns, confused, โwhat?โ
Yoongi risks a glance at Jimin and then looks forward again, โI know about your escape plan. I know what you planned.โ
Jimin goes very still, his eyes focused on Yoongi, โwh-what do you mean you know about my plan?โ
Yoongi shrugs, โabout you planning to run away. Marry an alpha you never met. I know all that.โ
Jimin grips his thigh, nails digging there, โhowโฆ how do you know that?โ
Yoongi grips the steering wheel tightly, eyes focused on the road, โI am that guy.โ
Jimin doesn't say anything. He doesn't move. For a few seconds he just watches Yoongi and Yoongi lets the omega be.
Then Jimin lets out a breath, โsoโฆ everything you said last night was a lie.โ
โPartially, yes,โ Yoongi nods, โI am not taking you to remove that mark, Jimin. I am taking you to the marriage register,โ he risks a glance at the omega, โwe are getting married in an hour. Your dad is in Paris. My uncle flew in too. They will sign as the witnesses.โ
Jimin watches him, โand, you don't want me to remove the mark because that's your leash around my neck.โ
Yoongi takes a look at Jimin, his jaw tightening, โwell, to put it directly,โ he nods, โyeah. You can't stay away from me as long as it's there. I need you to stay with me.โ
โListen,โ Yoongi lets out a deep breath, โyour father decided to marry you off to a drug addict, drunker, alpha who is too fond of different omegas every night and gambling and whatnot. I-โ
โYou think you are saving me,โ Jimin gives a hysteric laugh, โyou think you are better!โ
Yoongi takes a turn to get off the high-way, โI don't care what you think of me. I need to do this to keep you safe-โ
โI can keep myself safe,โ Jimin hisses, โI don't need your protection!โ
Yoongi glares at him, โhe won't care if you say no! Are you understanding what I am-โ
โHe's a typical alpha,โ Yoongi slams his hand on the steering wheel, โhis family already wanted an heir and you know how alphas treat their mated omegas-โ
โOh, I am getting a taste of that,โ Jimin snorts, โtrust me, consent is overflowing here!โ
Yoongi curses loudly, โdamn it!โ
Yoongi parks the car by a deserted road that leads to the next town, he turns to Jimin, โlisten, the mark will be removed after the wedding. I am not going to keep you tied to me more than those two years. Jimin,โ his shoulders sag, โI don't want you to be in the wrong hands.โ
Jimin tilts his head, โwhat makes you think you are the right hands?โ
Yoongi shrugs, โI am not. I am just a placeholder,โ he looks at Jimin with something swirling in his eyes that Jimin can't decipher, โwhen the time comes, you will leave. I give you my word.โ
Jimin looks away, โwhy are you doing this?โ
Yoongi coughs, facing the front too, โbecause there's no other way.โ
Jimin blinks, turns his face away from Yoongi, โif this is the only way, why didn't you choose someone you trust and not yourself? Why you?โ
Yoongi shrugs, fidgeting with the steering wheel, โbecause I didn't want it to be someone else.โ
Jimin gives a garbled laugh, โI am sick and tired of this,โ he blinks, โwhat is the guarantee that after the wedding you will let me remove the mark? You can just lock me up-โ
โI am not a brute!โ Yoongi hisses, โI won't lock you up! I have it all planned. Just... please, I beg. Go along with it. Please!โ
Jimin leans back against the seat, โdo I have any other choice?โ
Yoongi hums, โthat alpha is a choice if you want. Whom your dad chose for you.โ
โI would take it,โ Jimin looks at Yoongi, resentment, heartache, sorrow fill those eyes, โyou know why? Because with that alpha, I would hate him with all my heart if he does me wrong. I can't,โ Jimin's face contorts, he looks away, โI can't do that with you.โ
โAnd,โ Jimin lets out a soft laugh, โyou keep doing me wrong.โ
Yoongi closes his eyes, the shooting pain through his chest makes him breathless. He takes a glance at the omega, and Jimin is curled in on himself, tears rolling out of his eyes.
Yoongi leans back against his seat, his resolve breaking, โI don't know, okay?โ he curses, โI heard the news, and it terrified me to think of you with that guy! Or anyone your father chooses for you because he will choose someone powerful, and I know his choices suck!โ
โAfter the wedding is done, no one cares about the omega's choices,โ Yoongi hisses, โthey will ignore your wishes and use you to produce an heir and force you to be a perfect omega who would hang from that alpha's elbow and be presentable! Like a show-piece!โ
โPark Jimin,โ Yoongi turns to look at Jimin, longing clear in his eyes, โyou are not born to be just that. You are not to be just that. I still remember the first time I saw you dance! You were so mesmerizing on that dance floor, I told everyone you will make it big one day!โ
โI was so proud of an omega I just saw,โ Yoongi looks over Jimin's shoulder, a soft smile on his lips, โyou were beautiful! So pretty and elegant while you danced. As if you were born for that! Born to be something huge. Someone on their own. Born to fly, spread your wings.โ
โI can't see them tear you apart like that,โ Yoongi shakes his head in frustration, โI can't see them cage you like that. You,โ Yoongi reaches to grasp Jimin's hand in his, โyou are not born to be a trophy omega, Jimin. So, don't settle for it. Please. I want you to fly. Please.โ
โBut, a butterfly can't fly at the first stage,โ Yoongi gives Jimin a tender smile, โyou need to be in a shell before you break out of it and leave. I want to be that shell for you. For now, let me be your chrysalis phrase. Then you can leave. I will let you. I promise.โ
โBut, you are not ready now,โ Yoongi shakes his head, โyou have no money, no means, no scopes. In this two years, get those. Take training. Do whatever you need to be independent. Then you can leave. I swear, I have it in my contract. You can sue me if I don't let you.โ
Jimin looks at Yoongi, troubled, โwhat do you get out of this?โ
Yoongi gives him a soft laugh, โsatisfaction. To see my butterfly spread his wings? To see the person I love find a life he actually enjoys living?โ Yoongi looks away, โto see you safe. I just want you safe.โ
Jimin feels goosebumps spread over his skin, the shiver running down his spine. He turns away from the alpha swiftly, clutching his hands together.
โBut,โ Yoongi lets out a sigh, โif you want me to take you to that guy, if you don't want it to be me, then... just tell me.โ
Jimin shrugs, โdrive.โ
Yoongi looks at him, โwhere?โ
Jimin bites his lower lip, โto the wedding. I,โ he gives Yoongi a look, โlet's get this over with.โ
Yoongi lets out a deep breath, nodding, โyeah,โ he starts the car, โyeah, okay.โ
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Jimin looks at the papers in front. The marriage registration office is empty. Except for his dad, Yoongi's uncle and the lawyers, along with the marriage officiant.
Jimin sits on the chair, in his old jeans and T-shirt. Yoongi sits beside him, wearing a dress shirt and pant.
The alpha signs the papers first. Yoongi reads them all carefully before signing each one of them. Then he slides it over to Jimin and Jimin stares at the sign of the alpha.
His lips curl in a sardonic smile when he thinks how he planned so much for his wedding and here he is...
With the same alpha, but nothing else is the same. Hell, Jimin doesn't even feel the same.
He feels nauseous. He stares at the pen and back at the paper where he needs to sign.
Yoongi watches him, waits, lets Jimin take his time. With a steady breath, Jimin picks up the pen.
He ignores the man who is recoding this entire thing. For memories, for proof, for whatever reason, Jimin doesn't care.
Jimin writes down his name, flips the pages to sign each one before he holds them out for the officiant to take.
Then he leans back, exhausted.
The officiant signs it, puts a stamp on it and smiles at them.
โCongratulations,โ he stands up, holds his hand out for the both of them to shake, โyou are now husbands.โ
Jimin shakes the hand in a haze, and Yoongi nods at the man with a tight smile.
Jimin's father pulls out a box from the pocket of his coat, โthis is,โ he speaks, โthe family ring for the alpha,โ he holds it out for Jimin to take, โput it on him.โ
Jimin takes the ring, looks down at the ruby shining up at him. The colour reminds him of Yoongi's eyes...
Jimin watches Yoongi's uncle hold out a box for Yoongi too. Yoongi takes it, plucks the ring out and stares at it for a few seconds.
Jimin hesitates, thinking how it must be made for Hoseok, โI don't think it will fit me.โ
Yoongi looks at him, โI made it for you.โ
Jimin blinks, โwhat?โ
Yoongi takes his hand in his, nods, โwhen we were to get married, this ring,โ he pushes it up Jimin's finger, โI made it for you.โ
Jimin looks down at the ring.
โThe stone reminds me of your eyes,โ Yoongi whispers, โpretty.โ
โCongratulations!โ Jimin's father smiles, satisfied, โnow let's take a few photos for the families and media. Yoongi,โ he looks at Yoongi, โdon't forget about the deal, yeah?โ
Yoongi nods, arm going around Jimin's waist, โI won't.โ
Jimin steadies himself for the camera.
โWhere are you two going next?โ Yoongi's uncle asks while they walk out of the court, โany plans?โ
Jimin's dad nods, holding out two tickets, โhoneymoon,โ he grins, โHeechul wanted to go to Greece. The tickets are for it. If you want-โ
Yoongi shakes his head, โnot now.โ
He looks at the two of them, โwe will spend two or so days in Paris itself and then go back to Korea. Honeymoon can wait. Right?โ
Jimin nods, โy-yeah.โ
Jimin's father shrugs, โas you say, Yoongi. See you then.โ
Jimin watches them talk, he zones out until the two are leaving.
Yoongi looks at Jimin, โI have to call Namjoon. See what he is doing. Let's go.โ
Jimin nods, โyeah. But, we can't use our phones. Those are left in the pack. The cheap ones they gave us to use in the pack, we left those too.โ
Yoongi shrugs, โWe don't need our phones anyway.โ
โOur phones can get tracked,โ Yoongi pulls Jimin towards the pavement, โJungkook is in the security team. He got a hold of our phones and wrote down all the numbers. We will call from the public booths.โ
Jimin ignores how Yoongi holds his hand, โand, money? Do we have enough?โ
Yoongi nods, โyeah. I got my uncle to make me a new account with a card. He left it with me. We can use that.โ
Jimin rolls his eyes, โsometimes I forget how insanely rich you all are.โ
Yoongi gives him a look, โyour father is rich too!โ
Jimin hums, โhe is. I am not.โ
Yoongi locks their fingers together, pulling Jimin down the pavement, โoh, your husband is loaded. You can stop worrying for now.โ
Jimin lets Yoongi drag him down the road, his eyes on the alpha, โmy husband...โ
The words feel surreal in his mind. Yoongi is his husband now.
Jimin feels breathless. His eyes follow his dance instructor and he is frankly mesmerized. The alpha moves with grace, swings his legs as if they are different from his body. Jimin feels his lips stretching on a smile when the man lands the perfect pose and bows at them.
It has been a week since his marriage. If Jimin can call it that. He registered for contemporary dancing and ballet. He registered as 'Park Jimin,' and makes sure to wear a scarf around his neck to not show off the mark that he is yet to remove.
Jimin claps, just like everyone else in the room.
โYou were so perfect,โ Jimin breathes out his compliment, moving along with the alpha on the beat, โmy God, I might never be as graceful as you are!โ
Sanghun blushes, gives Jimin a gentle smile, โyou are my best student though.โ
Jimin takes the turn, comes up to Sanghun, โyou are a good liar!โ
Sanghun laughs, quiet, reserved, โoh, but you are. You dance like your soul aches with the tune, Jimin. You make every tune come alive under your feet.โ
Jimin blushes, โthank you, sir. It means a lot from you.โ
The bell rings and they step back from each other, bow and Sanghun turns to the class to announce their next schedule.
Jimin goes over to the bench, picks up his bag, turns to the alpha to say goodbye when Sanghun looks at him.
โIt's raining,โ Sanghun frowns, โyou have a car?โ
Jimin chuckles, holds up his umbrella, โI will walk,โ he waves Sanghun off, โI don't leave that far away.โ
Sanghun shakes his head, โnonsense. I can't have my best student falling ill now, can I? Wait a bit. I will drop you off.โ
Jimin hesitates, looks at the watch.
It's almost nine in the evening. He looks at Sanghun and watches the alpha go towards the changing room.
โIt's really late,โ Jimin tries again, โI should not bother you.โ
โYou are not,โ Sanghun makes a face, โI know it's late. Let's grab some dinner, then I'll drop you off.โ
Jimin looks back at the window to see it's really raining heavily. He bites his lip, thinking if he should call Yoongi and tell himโฆ then he frowns to himself.
For the past one week, they have not really talked. Yoongi just comes home, makes dinner and goes to sleep.
Jimin shrugs, looks at Sanghun and nods, โokay, fine. I will wait here.โ
Sanghun hums, โI will change, and then we can go.โ
By the time they leave the institution, it's already nine-thirty.
Jimin gets home around eleven. He gets out of the car and smiles at Sanghun.
Sanghun gets out of the car, comes around it to stand in front of Jimin, โthanks for dinner, Jiminie.โ
Jimin's smile dims a little, that name bringing back memories he always tries to suppress. He shoves those thoughts at the back of his mind and nods.
โI should thank you.โ
Sanghun waves him off, holding out a rose, โI stole it from the table.โ
Jimin laughs, taking the rose from Sanghun, โyou are a dork. I never thought the cool alpha I am learning so much from, is a dork!โ
Sanghun smiles, โwell, it got you smiling.โ
Jimin hums, โit did.โ
Sanghun nods to himself, โI will see you tomorrow, Park Jimin.โ
Jimin nods, watches Sanghun get inside the car and waves while the car drives off. Jimin turns towards the house and slowly walks inside.
He closes the door behind himself and stops when he sees Yoongi.
Yoongi has a glass of whiskey in his hand, swirling it while he looks out of the window. Jimin frowns when he notices Yoongi is still in his office clothes. The shirt drenched, sticking to him, the trousers just as soaked. The coat is on the floor.
Jimin lets out a curse.
โCan't you change before you decide to drink?โ Jimin marches over to the coat and picks it up, โgod, you are dripping water all over the floor-โ
โWhere have you been?โ Yoongi keeps his eyes outside, voice void of any emotions.
Jimin throws the coat in the laundry, โclass!โ
โAre you sure?โ Yoongi takes a slow sip of his whiskey, โyou were in class till now?โ
Jimin drops his bag on the counter, loosening the scarf around his neck, โwhy are you suddenly so interested in my schedule?โ
Yoongi keeps his eyes outside, โwhat is that rose for?โ
Jimin looks down at the rose, a small smile twitching the corners of his lips, โit's a flower.โ
Yoongi turns to him then, โgift?โ his lips turn upwards, โby your teacher? That alpha?โ
Jimin nods, placing the rose on the counter, looking at it, โhe stole it from the diner.โ
โWas it a date?โ Yoongi's question catches Jimin off guard.
He turns to Yoongi with a frown, โwhat?โ
Yoongi's expression gives nothing away, he leans against the vast glass-window and stares right at Jimin, โyou two. Were you on a date?โ
For a second, Jimin just stares...
Jimin feels his anger pass through his confusion, and he is glaring at the alpha, โI don't know,โ he chews the words out, โalpha,โ he takes a step towards Yoongi, โI have never been on one! You tell me,โ he advances with each word, โyou are more experienced here. No?โ
Yoongi keeps his eyes on Jimin, takes another sip of his whiskey, โwell, you left the institution together. You came back almost at midnight with a rose. He dropped you off,โ Yoongi locks his ankles over each other, โcame out of his car to talk as if you haven't had enough...โ
โNo, I haven't,โ Jimin comes to stand right in front of Yoongi, โliving with you. In this gigantic house, alone, I haven't had enough. I don't owe you an explanation, Min Yoongi. If I feel like it, I will go on dates and I owe you nothing for it. Do you get it?โ
โYou said I am free to do whatever,โ Jimin snorts, โwhat? You didn't think I can try out things I missed out on? Like dates,โ his hands come up to grasp at Yoongi's soaked shirt, โlike an alpha doting on me? Like an alpha actually finding me charming enough to take me out?!โ
Yoongi takes another sip of the whiskey, his eyes on Jimin's face, โso, that's all it takes? One alpha to just notice you enough for you to let your guards down? A damn rose stolen from a diner-โ
Jimin lets out a laugh, โyou said I am free to do whatever. You said-โ
โI didn't say you are free to cheat on me,โ Yoongi whispers, yet his voice rings in the room, โI didn't say I will be a doormat for you to walk all over. You can do whatever you want, Jimin, career-wise. But, for dating, sleeping around, you have to wait till I let you go.โ
Jimin gives him a disbelieving look, โyou are not serious right now! You can't be! First of all, you are no one to judge me for staying out with anyone. You are still doing it. You have no right to assume the worst of me, but you are. Second of all, I am not your pet!โ
Yoongi's face stays impassive, but those eyes shimmer with anger, โI went there to pick you up to hear you left with another alpha. Which, by the way, the receptionist told me with a smirk as if it was a gossip I am too late to find out. About my own husband!โ
Jimin flinches when Yoongi throws the glass on the carpeted floor. It makes a dull noise before rolling away, leaving them both in the quiet afterwards.
Yoongi heaves a breath, โI refuse to be a joke because you want to act out or rebel right now, Jimin! I refuse to be a clown!โ
Yoongi takes a hold of Jimin's scarf, tugs at it harshly for it to come undone in his grip, โyou believe it or not, you are mated to me! Still!โ
Jimin feels naked. The mark throbs under Yoongi's gaze, and Jimin refuses to let the alpha see how it still hurts him.
โIn your damn ego and hurt, you are setting yourself up for more pain!โ Yoongi hisses, โthe moment you let another alpha touch you, the mating mark with start to act up. It's not a healed wound, Jimin! It will be infected and can easily escalate! Why don't you understand?!โ
โThe moment your body detects another alpha pheromones around you, or,โ Yoongi curses, looking away, โmixing with your pheromones during,โ he gestures...
โSex,โ Jimin nods, jaw hardening, โsay it. You think we had sex. Go on, say it!โ
Yoongi gives him a glare, โJimin...โ
Jimin shoves Yoongi, โno, say it!โ his voice rises, โyou think if it took this long, we probably fvcked. Yeah? Is that it? You think he took me somewhere, and we hooked up because there's no way an alpha can be responsible, and you don't trust me anyway. So, yeah, we fvcked-โ
Yoongi lets Jimin shove him, shout at him. His eyes stay focused on the omega and then Jimin has Yoongi pressed against the window, their eyes lock on each other.
Jimin heaves for air, his eyes red with tears, โsay it! You don't trust me. Say you think the worst of me.โ
Yoongi takes a hold of Jimin's wrists then, pulls Jimin in his arms silently and hugs him tightly.
Jimin stands still, his eyes wide and his nose pressed against Yoongi's neck.
โI didn't mean that,โ Yoongi whispers, voice clogged, โI just mean, the mark, Jiminie...โ
โIt will hurt,โ Yoongi whispers, lips pressed against Jimin's hair, โyou know it will. I know, it hurts you. I hear you up at night, treating it. You have to let me take care of it until we can do something for it,โ Yoongi rubs Jimin's back, โyou have to let me near you.โ
Yoongi looks at the omega in his arms, prepping kisses all over his face, โblossom,โ he urges with that one word, โyou have to let me take care of you. You can't do this alone. On your own. You are hurting, and you are scared, I know. I know. Please, let me do this right.โ
โI was just asking if it was indeed a date,โ Yoongi lets out a breath, โjust don't do something because you are not thinking right.โ
โYou said you refuse to be a joke,โ Jimin murmurs, โyou sounded like my dad there. As if, all you care about is your image. I hate that.โ
Yoongi closes his eyes momentarily, โyeah, for a second I really let my alpha take the wheel,โ he looks at Jimin, โit hurt to hear someone gossip about my husband. Sorry.โ
โIt wasn't a date,โ Jimin's shoulder sags, he hides his face against Yoongi's chest, โit was just dinner.โ
Yoongi nods, โokay.โ
Jimin lets out a breath, โI mean, I have no idea how dates work and he is not the person I would want to go on a date with-โ
โWould you want to go on a date with me?โ
Jimin freezes, his whole body locking, โ...what?โ
Yoongi nods, โyeah?โ
Jimin stares, โnow?โ
Yoongi nods, โyeah. Now,โ he looks down at himself, โI will change, and we can go for a long drive. You just had dinner-โ
โYou are drunk, no?โ Jimin frowns, โis this you drunk talking?!โ
Yoongi stares, โno! This is me sober talking. Go on a date with me.โ
โWhy?โ Jimin frowns, โwhy now?โ
Yoongi shrugs, โwhy not now? I want to have our first date, blossom. Please?โ
Jimin steps away from Yoongi, โwhat are you playing at?โ
Yoongi gives him a low chuckle, โI'll be back after changing. Wear something casual. Be here in ten minutes!โ
Yoongi changes into a white shirt and black slacks. He gets out of the room to see Jimin getting out of his bedroom.
Jimin is wearing a black tank-top, a red blazer over it and skin-tight black jeans.
Jimin hesitates, โdid I over-dress?โ
Yoongi's heart skips a beat, โno.โ
Jimin nods to himself, still conscious, โo-okay.โ
โWait here,โ Yoongi says and then jogs out of the house.
Jimin frowns at the closed door, hesitates and startles when the doorbell rings after a few seconds. He slowly walks up to the door and opens it to Yoongi.
โWhat are yo-โ
Yoongi holds out a leaf from the ivy that grows on the wall of their house, โI am here to take you out on our first date, Park Jimin.โ
Jimin's breath hitches, his eyes on the leaf and back at the alpha. Yoongi waits.
Jimin reaches for it slowly, โth-thanks.โ
Yoongi holds his hand out then, โsorry, that was lame.โ
Jimin shrugs, โI wouldn't know. Right?โ
Yoongi watches the omega put the leaf in his pocket, taking Yoongi's hand hesitantly. Yoongi holds on tight, leading Jimin to the car.
โOh, you look very pretty,โ Yoongi whispers.
Jimin's eyes widen for a second before he looks away. Yoongi feels air fill in his chest when he notices the red hue dusting over Jimin's cheekbones.
โYou look good too,โ Jimin murmurs, not matching Yoongi's eyes.
Yoongi opens the car's door for Jimin, โyou drive us. Yeah?โ
Jimin nods, getting inside the car, โwhere are we going?โ
Yoongi gets in too, โnowhere in particular,โ he smiles at Jimin, โjust...โ he chuckles, taking Jimin's hand in his, โyou might forget, blossom, but I have never been on a date either.โ
Jimin stills, his eyes on Yoongi.
Right. Yoongi was going to ask Hoseok out. But, they never went on dates.
Jimin's fingers twitch in Yoongi's grip, and he feels his heartbeat pick up speed.
โHow about Busan?โ Yoongi murmurs, โthe beach?โ
Jimin looks at Yoongi, โit's raining.โ
Yoongi gives him a small smile, โwould you call it romantic if an alpha kisses you on the beach with the sea at your feet and the rain over you?โ
Jimin's breath hitches, โwho told you the alpha will get a kiss?โ
Yoongi leans back in his seat, eyes soft, โhe wishes, blossom.โ
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The phone keeps ringing. Jimin frowns at it and tries to concentrate on driving. His eyes move to the device and back to the road.
Yoongi leans against the seatrest, โwho is it?โ
Jimin shrugs, โcheck for me.โ
Yoongi reaches for the phone, his brows furrowing, โDaejung...?โ
Jimin gives the device a quizzical look, โDaejung?โ he changes the gear, โwhy is he calling me?โ
Yoongi shrugs, โcheck? Stop the carโฆ?โ
Jimin glances at Yoongi and then back at the road, โyou pick up and see what he is saying.โ
Yoongi picks the call up, keeping it on speaker.
โHello?โ Yoongi asks cautiously, โDaejung?โ
โHe-hello, Yoongi?โ Daejung sounds panicked, stuttering and rushed, โYoongi, where's Jimin?! Where's Jimin?!โ
Yoongi's eyes find Jimin, alert, โuh, he is driving. Right beside me. Why?โ
Daejung curses, โshit, where are you two?!โ
Jimin turns a corner, โwe are going to Busan. Why?โ
Daejung's line is disturbed. The rain is picking up speed, and Jimin thinks the clouds are getting ticker because the darkness grows around them.
โGo back home,โ Daejung shouts, his line freezing, โtheyโฆ youโฆ for Taeโฆโ
Yoongi looks at Jimin, alarmed, โwhat do you mean, Daejung? What-โ
โTae... Jimin...โ Daejung sounds desperate, โgo back. Go back!โ
Yoongi blinks down at the phone when the call disconnects, โJimin-โ
โWhat was he trying to say?โ Jimin wonders, โhe sounded so frantic!โ
Yoongi shrugs, โjust turn back. Let's go back.โ
Jimin frowns, โbut, his voice was disturbed and the call disconnected. We don't even know what he meant.โ
Yoongi shakes his head, โhe was frantic, and he told you to go back. Turn back, Jimin. Let's go home!โ
Jimin looks at the one-way road, โfine, fine. We will take the next turn,โ he speeds up, hands grasping the steering wheel, โtry him again?โ
Yoongi nods, dialling Daejung again, โI am.โ
Jimin looks at the rear-mirror, there is only one car behind them. Almost right behindโฆ
Yoongi lets out a breath when Daejung picks up the phone, โDaejung-โ
Jimin sees the next turn and signals for the turn.
Then it happens too fast. One second Jimin is taking the turn, the other second the car behind them is hitting the side and lurching their car forwardโฆ
Jimin watches, horrified, how their car loses its balance and skids into the next lane. Jimin grabs the steering wheel, trying to get the car back on its line, when he hears it. The blasting horn and Yoongi's terrified scream of his name. He sees the blinding headlights.
TW// accidents, blood, wound
Jimin feels his head hitting the steering wheel, making his vision spin and fade out for a second.
The next second, he sees Yoongi's body, lurching forward and breaking the windscreen and rolling out of the car.
Jimin tries to scream, his voice lost somewhereโฆ
Jimin tries to reach out with his hand, but the last thing he hears is screaming and horns and sees the lights of other carsโฆ
โ๐๐๐๐โฆโ Jimin whispers in his mind, โ๐๐๐๐โฆโ his eyes try to focus one last time, โ๐๐๐๐โฆโ
It all goes black.
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There is a sound. A beeping sound. It's constant. It irks him. He tries to open his eyes, tell someone to stop that sound, but it keeps going.
There are voices, someone talking.
Jimin forces his heavy eyelids to blink and see who they are. The voices sound calm yet stressed.
Jimin tries to call them. His throat is too dry. He wants something to drink. He gulps, tries to move because his back hurts. It feels like he is sleeping for too long.
Jimin hears someone's footsteps. His eyes focus on the sound, and he forces himself to see.
A man walks in.
The man pauses by the door, his eyes widening for a second before he smiles wide, โoh, you are awake!โ
Jimin tries to say he is thirsty, but the man hurries over to his bedside, checking some machines Jimin can't really see or care about.
He sees two women follow him in.
โYou look fine, let me check you once,โ the man, doctor, says, leaning in too close, โcan you tell me your name?โ
Jimin frowns, his voice is too dry when he tries to speak, โP-Park Jimin.โ
The doctor breathes out, nodding, โdo you know what month it is?โ
A/N โ Your writer is terrible in medical stuff, so DO NOT search for reality or shit like that from this whole encounter and whatever is to follow. WE WING IT HERE, PEOPLE!
Jimin frowns, โAugust. It's August.โ
The doctor gives a relieved sigh, โyou remember what happened two nights ago, Jimin?โ
Jimin blinks, the memories slowly coming back to him. He hears the beeping sound intensify, but his eyes are on the doctor.
โYoon!โ he coughs, โYoongi-โ
The doctor picks up an injection, โhe is still unconscious. One of your friends, Daejung? Yeah, he came here to sign for you two after you were admitted. Your friends are outside. But, you need to rest for now.โ
Jimin sees the doctor push the needle in the saline bottle...
Jimin tries to fight the sleep, but it consumes him again.
โYoon...โ he drifts off to sleep again.
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The next time he wakes up, it's the same routine. This time, Daejung is there, along with Namjoon. Jimin falls asleep while crying about Yoongi.
The third time he wakes up, he feels a lot better. He feels someone caressing his forehead and combing his hair. When he opens his eyes, Jimin feels air fill his chest.
Taehyung's tear-soaked face stares back at him. Jimin tries to smile, reaching out for the omega...
Taehyung grasps his hand and presses it against his moist cheek, โMimi!โ
Jimin tries to sit up and Taehyung looks at the nurses for permission.
One nurse comes up to check up on Jimin and nods before helping the other nurse to sit him up with the help of the bed.
โWhen...โ Jimin coughs, feeling much better but thirsty, โwhen did you come here?โ
Taehyung holds his hand, โthe moment we got the news. I almost died hearing about it, Mimi! I had to shout at the pack-leader to let us go.โ
Jimin shakes his head, nauseous, โwhy...?โ
The door opens, Jin, Namjoon and Jungkook walk in. All of their faces are filled with worry and tension. They all stop when they look at Jimin, awake and talking to Taehyung and then back to each other.
โI had to,โ Taehyung wipes his eyes, โyou would do it for me too. No?โ
Jimin would. So he squeezes Taehyung's hand in his and looks over at the others.
โHow is Yoongi?โ Jimin murmurs, frowns when the three, along with Taehyung looks troubled, โwhere is he? How is he?โ
โHe woke up early this morning,โ Taehyung tries to smile, โhe is fine.โ
Jimin watches how they slowly come up to his bed, smiles at him reassuringly. But Jimin can see the tension, feel it.
โHow is he?โ he asks Jungkook, voice trembling.
Jungkook doesn't match his eyes, โhe is good. Talking to Hoseok hyung right now. He is doing really better.โ
Jimin stares at Jungkook, โwhat are you hiding?โ
Jungkook's startled eyes flicker up to him and the alpha forces a laugh out of his throat that sounds too hollow, โwhat? Nothing! He is fine! Ask anyone!โ
They all nod together, as if on cue. Smile at the same time.
โTell me,โ Jimin grips the edge of the bed, โtell me what is it?โ
Taehyung grabs his hands, shaking his head, โn-nothing! He is fin-โ
โLet me see him,โ Jimin feels the mating mark sizzle against his skin, the pain coming back, โlet me see him. Now! Let me see him!โ
He screams.
The nurses try to force him down on the bed, the others look terrified and Taehyung looks like he is in physical pain.
Jimin screams, his mating mark throbbing, โlet me see him! Let me see him! Let me-โ
โYou can't!โ Taehyung shouts over him, trying to hold him down on the bed.
Taehyung hugs Jimin to himself, sobbing as he watches the nurses strap Jimin's legs to the bed.
Taehyung presses his lips against Jimin's hair, โcalm down, please. It's not good for you to-โ
โLet,โ Jimin grips Taehyung's elbow, โme,โ he glares at the others, โsee him!โ
The doctor comes rushing while Jimin thrashes on the bed, trying to free himself.
The doctor waves them off, โyou all will give him anxiety attack! Stop it!โ he sits down on the bed, โJimin,โ his voice is soft, โyou have to listen to me very carefully. Okay? For Yoongi. Okay?โ
Jimin nods, grips Taehyung's hand in his, โI- I will.โ
The doctor gives him a painful but soft smile, โyour mate, Yoongi?โ he looks at the others and then back at Jimin, โhe took the hit of the accident the most. Idiot wasn't even wearing his seatbelt properly. So...โ
โWhen the accident happened, he hit his head and his temporal lobe was affected the most,โ the doctor squeezes Jimin's knee, โresulting in his memories fading. To a certain time frame. His brain froze before the last huge shock of his life-โ
โMating me,โ Jimin whispers...
The doctor gives a solemn nod, โthat was a shocking turn of event in his life. His brain took that incident like a hit, too. Now, his brain screeched to a halt right before it. He remembers leaving his house to pick up Hoseok. That's where he thinks he caused the car accident.โ
Jimin feels blood drain him, his body giving up against Taehyung. Taehyung gathers him up in his arms, crying silently.
โIs it permanent?โ Jin urges, his eyes tearful, โis he never gonna remember?โ
The doctor shrugs, โright now, we are running the tests. You have to wait.โ
Jimin gives a hollow laugh, โwe were going on our first date,โ he giggles, ignores how everyone looks at him with worry clear on their faces, โhe said, he hopes I kiss him. Hey,โ he grasps the doctor's shirt, โdo you see? How good my memory is? Do you know how it feels?โ
โDo you know how it feels to be in my shoes?โ Jimin throws his head back, laughing, โto carry all these memories of us alone from now on?โ he looks at Taehyung, โdamn, Tae. Call Daejung! Ask him, ask him why he brought me here? Why couldn't he let me bleed out there?! Ask him!โ
Jimin shudders, โwhy is it him who always gets to go away?!โ he screams, โwhy can't it be me, for once, who gets to be so oblivious and happy?! Why can't it be me who doesn't suffer for once?!โ Jimin curls into himself, turning in Taehyung's arms, โwhy is it always me?!โ
Jungkook takes a hold of the doctor, โrun those tests fast! You have to do something! Jimin is mated to him! We have to tell him-โ
โNo!โ the doctor stands up, โhe is too weak, brain wise, for him to know all this. You cannot tell him. Not now. Not until we get the results.โ
Taehyung holds Jimin to his chest, whispering sweet nothings in his ear.
Jimin feels the exhaustion pulling at him and the last thing he hears is Taehyung telling him things will get better. Yoongi can forget him, but his wolf will remember.
Jimin wants to laugh again.
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โWhen you see him, please don't mention anything,โ Jin whispers, walking along with the wheelchair Jungkook is pushing.
Jimin sits on the wheelchair, his eyes focused on the path, โI won't.โ
Taehyung is on his other side, holding Jimin's hand in his in a death grip.
Yoongi wanted to see him. When he heard Jimin was with him in the car, he wanted to see Jimin.
Their friends told him Jimin was in the dance class and Yoongi was giving him a ride.
Jimin holds his breath when the door opens, and he is pushed inside.
The first thing he sees is Hoseok sitting by Yoongi's side, talking to him softly. The next thing he sees is how Yoongi holds Hoseok's hand in his. Then Hoseok is looking at Jimin and those eyes are swimming with tears. Hoseok bites back a sob, looking away.
Yoongi turns to him.
Jimin holds that gaze. Yoongi's eyes flicker all over him before coming to rest on his face.
โJiminah,โ his voice is scratchy, โI am sorry. Whatever happened,โ he gives Jimin a rueful smile, โI don't know what to say.โ
Jimin breathes out a soft chuckle, โyou don't have to.โ
He looks at where Hoseok's hand is in Yoongi's clutch, โyou two made up?โ
Yoongi gives him a startled look, glancing at Hoseok and at Jimin, โwe,โ he blushes, giving Jimin a soft smile, โI asked him out here. Shitty place, no?โ
Jimin leans back on his chair, โyeah. Terrible.โ
Yoongi still looks at him with worry, โlisten, I am taking care of the bill, okay?โ he reaches for Jimin, lets his hand rest on Jimin's, โI can't apologize more if I tried. You have no idea how sorry-โ
Jimin gives a short laugh, โyou have no idea how sorry you should feel.โ
Jimin looks over at Hoseok, โdid he say yes?โ
Hoseok crumbles, visibly breaks.
Yoongi gives a soft laugh, โwhy would he say no? You walked in right when I asked him, you know?โ
Jimin snorts, โoh, that's not new.โ
Yoongi frowns, confused, โwhat?โ
Jimin holds Hoseok's gaze, โsay yes, hyung,โ he feels nothing as he speaks, โsay yes, because there's no reason for you to say no. No reason at all.โ
Hoseok shakes his head, โJimin-โ
โFor him,โ Jimin hopes Hoseok understands, โfor his sake, say yes.โ
Hoseok wipes his eyes, looks at Yoongi, โwe can talk about this later, hyung,โ he forces a smile on his lips, โwe will talk about this when you get better. I want my grand proposal and not one where you are in a hospital bed. I can't accept it,โ his voice breaks, โdon't make me.โ
Hoseok looks at Jimin, shaking his head, โI can't do this,โ he begs almost, โI can't do this. Don't make me.โ
Jimin feels his own eyes tear up, he shakes his head, โhyung,โ he looks at Yoongi and back at Hoseok.
Yoongi reaches to wrap his arms around Hoseok, โhey, it's fine.โ
Yoongi kisses Hoseok's forehead, โI will wait forever for you, hoba,โ he smiles, looks at the omega with a fondness that's so unfamiliar to Jimin, โI promise, you and I, we are made for each other. Even if we drift apart, we will find each other down the road, okay? It's fine.โ
Jimin smiles, tugs at Taehyung's hand to make the omega lean forward, โcan you ask the doctor,โ he looks away from Hoseok's troubled eyes, โif he can remove the mating mark?โ
Taehyung gives him a worried look.
Jimin nods, โlet's start all over again.โ
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Yoongi's cabin is plain in the hospital. The walls have a few framed paintings that lose its charm after a day or so.
Yoongi looks out of the window, trying to see the outer world, no matter how less he sees.
He just sees the sky, gloomy, raining almost all the time.
There is another building across from the hospital. It belongs to the hospital too. Maybe a lab or some other wards.
Yoongi watches how rain pours on it, soaking up the ivy that wraps so beautifully around the building. Yoongi's eyes trace each one of those leaves...
Yoongi watches an ivy leaf flutter while raindrops continuously fall on it. It bends, springs up and bends all over again.
There is an itch in his veins the more he stares at that leaf. There is a sense of discomfort that grows the more he watches the leaf.
Yoongi frownsโฆ
His eyes stay glued on the building. On that leaf and he feels the itch grow.
The door of his room opens and Yoongi startles, looking over to see Jungkook and Jin coming in with the doctor.
The doctor, Mr. Kim smiles at him, โhow are you today, Yoongi?โ
Yoongi shrugs, โfine.โ
Doctor Kim hums, sits on the stool beside Yoongi, โI got your reports, Yoongi. You are doing much better. We will discharge you in about a week. Is that okay?โ
Yoongi nods, smiles at Jin and Jungkook, โthank you.โ
Doctor Kim hums, โis there anything you want to tell us?โ
Yoongi shrugs, โhow...โ he fiddles with his fingers, โhow is Jimin doing?โ
Doctor Kim shares a glance with Jungkook and Jin.
Jin coughs, โhe is going to be here for a few more days-โ
Yoongi frowns, โwhy? I thought he was doing better than me?โ
Jungkook nods, โhe is.โ
โThen?โ Yoongi looks at the doctor and back at his friends, โwhat are you all hiding?โ
Jin sighs, โhe is removing his mating mark,โ the alpha's face contorts, โso... for that, he needs to stay longer.โ
Yoongi stops, blinks, โJimin...โ he leans forward, โwhen did he get mated?โ
Jin shrugs, โit was a lousy affair,โ he looks uncomfortable, โthe alpha left. So,โ he doesn't match Yoongi's eyes, โit's better to remove it and start anew.โ
Yoongi frowns, โwait, Jiminie got mated, and the alpha flew?! What the fvck?!โ
Jungkook tries to smile, โhe is fine.โ
โWho was it?โ Yoongi grips his duvet, โhow can he leave just like that?โ
Jin waves him off, โthat's not really something you need to worry about right now, Yoongi. Calm down.โ
โHe must be heartbroken,โ Yoongi looks down at his hands, โhow can anyone just leave like that?โ
Yoongi thinks of the omega, his eyes fixed on his hands, โJiminie... can I see him before leaving?โ
Jin shakes his head, โno,โ he gulps, looks away, โhe doesn't want to see anyone except for Taehyung. We all are making him feel irritated.โ
Yoongi gulps, nods, โI see.โ
Yoongi looks outside towards the ivy, his eyes tracing the lines of that one leaf, โI hope he moves on and finds someone better. He deserves it.โ
Jin chokes, when Yoongi looks at him, the alpha's eyes are moist, โsorry. Excuse me.โ
Jin walks out of the room.
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โIf he doesn't remember it, we have to remind him!โ Mr. Park thunders, โhe signed a deal with me and I will not hear a word about it!โ
Jimin clutches his father's hand in his, โplease, dad! Please! This is not the time! He is fragile right now. You cannot-โ
Mr. Park shakes his head vehemently, โI will not hear a word, Jimin! He forced me to sign the deal and I will be damned if I let him rob off of this opportunity!โ
โCalm down,โ Jungkook sits on the couch, his glare fixed on Mr. Park, โif he doesn't follow through, I will. Relax.โ
Jin nods, โyou won't face any losses, Mr. Park,โ he gestures between him and Jungkook, โwe will fulfil the deal Yoongi made. You keep your silence.โ
โWhat about the wedding certificate?โ Taehyung looks at Jimin, โlegally you two are still married!โ
Jimin shrugs, โdo something.โ
Jungkook nods, โMr. Park will have the profits of the deal and I will see if we can annul the marriage.โ
โOn what basis?โ Taehyung frowns, โyou need a reason.โ
Jin shrugs, โwell, we will find something. We have to.โ
Hoseok squirms, โwhat if one day he comes to know?โ
Hoseok shakes his head, โwe cannot erase everything, guys! He will see the dates! Two whole years went missing! He will ask questions! He will hear about it. He is from a prestigious family. He can search up the news! It's everywhere. We cannot just turn back time!โ
Hoseok looks at Jimin, โyou two's mating scandal is still on the news! You two's breakup was all over the news! You two are always a hot topic in this country. How the hell is he going to just never find it out? And, if he does on his own, from these sources, imagine the damage!โ
Hoseok shakes his head, โI know the doctor is saying we have to take it slow, but you all are totally shutting it off and that's not how it should be! What do you all want? To go back in time? For me to just accept him and get married and knocked up and what? Are you serious?!โ
Hoseok clutches the edge of the bed, โWhat? Now Jin and Namjoon will get back together because that's what Yoongi remembers?! Two years went missing from his life, guys, he will seek answers and are you all so stupid that you think he will never figure it out?โ
Hoseok glares at Jin, โout of all of us, you know how he gets when he is angry! I won't face that when he finds out! You have to find another way. Also?โ Hoseok risks a glance at Namjoon and back at Jin, โI don't deserve to be thrown into the mix like this. Think about me!โ
โSo, I get it that you want to remove your mating mark,โ Hoseok looks at Jimin, โI get it that you want to move on, but this is not the way. He will figure it out and then you have to face that wrath for no reason. Justโฆ find a better way. Tell him. I say, we tell him.โ
Taehyung nods, โI agree! We need to tell him everything! Slowly, but we need to feed him all the details. We can't just erase two years like that, guys! Come on!โ
โI will be damned if he calls me his responsibility one more time!โ Jimin glares, โso, whatever you do, not now!โ
Jimin looks at Taehyung, โI will remove this mating mark, and then we will tell him and then whatever happens, happens.โ
Jimin looks at the others, โhow does that sound?โ
Namjoon nods, โthe doctor said, we have to be very gentle and cautious. His brain is just recovering.โ
โWe can take our time,โ Hoseok shrugs, โfirst, let's tell him about the time. He thinks it's still twenty-twenty. Let's tell him about that. Then we can feed him little by little.โ
Jungkook shakes his head, โlet me discuss it with the doctor first.โ
โWhat if he says no?โ Taehyung frowns at Jungkook.
Jungkook looks down at the omega, โthen, we don't. No,โ he holds his hand up in the room, looking at Hoseok and back at Taehyung, โno, I don't care what you say, but if it puts hyung in danger, I won't let you do it!โ
โThat man in that cabin?โ Jungkook's voice chokes up, โhe raised me! I will be damned if I let you all ruin him because you want to hurry it and go back to your lives! It can be very risky, okay?! I need to discuss it. If the doctor says, it's not the time, it's not the time!โ
โIf the doctor says it will damage his brain, I won't let you do it!โ Jungkook shakes his head, โI don't care. I will bury the news of mating and whatnot, I will make sure never figures out he ever met Jimin like that. I will make sure to do whatever it takes to keep him fine!โ
Jungkook shakes his head, โthe doctor said we can tell him about the memory loss but feeding him all this at the same time and overwhelming him just because you all have your reasons, I won't let you. You all can act for at least a few months! I don't care!โ
Jungkook wipes his eyes, โI don't care. You all have your reasons, but to damage a man's already weak brain and to play with his health because we have our selfish reasons, that's not okay! He needs time to heal! Can we give him that?! Just... don't be so quick! Please!โ
โSo, help me, God,โ Jungkook stands by the door, โyou have to fight me if you think you will march in there and vomit everything to him just because you want to feel good and relieved! I was about to lose him,โ Jungkook's voice breaks, โI saw him like that... I...โ he sniffles...
โI refuse to lose him,โ Jungkook shakes his head, trembles where he stands, โI thought he would never wake up! I thought he would never be able to,โ he chokes, tears brimming in his eyes, โto...โ he sniffles, โso, all I ask is for you all to give him a few weeks at least!โ
โPlease,โ Jungkook looks around the room, โeither you all listen to me, or you have to physically fight me to get in his room because I am going to be there from now on. With him, and I will not allow you all to expose him to that much so soon! Choose.โ
โLet's talk to the doctor,โ Jin reaches out for Jungkook to take a hold of his wrist, โyeah? Kookie?โ his voice goes soft, โlet's talk to the doctor and see what he suggests. They are right too, bub, we can't keep him in the darkness forever. Let's discuss a middle ground.โ
Jin slowly pulls Jungkook in his arms, blinking back his own tears, โhey, he is like my brother,โ he sniffles, โdo you really think I will let anything happen to him? Let's talk and figure out a way. Until then, no one is going to his room or saying a word to him. I promise!โ
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โWe have to take it slow,โ Doctor Kim nods at the reports, โhe is very weak right now. We will have to be cautious. We will tell him about his condition first and how many years he forgot from his life. What those years took from him, that has to wait for now.โ
โLet him digest the fact that he lost two years of his life,โ doctor Kim looks at them all one by one, โthat's a huge shock, guys. Make sure you all give him time to breathe. Make sure you don't suffocate him. He is sure to feel a lot of emotions. Let him. Feed him slowly.โ
โGive him the happy news first. Likeโฆ Jungkook and Taehyung got married. They have a baby together. His achievements in these years. All that. Then you can move from there. Make sure to be gentle. Understanding. He is learning two years of his life, okay? Just treat him wisely.โ
โAre you sure you want to remove the mark now?โ Doctor Kim looks at Jimin, โI would suggest you keep it. Let him come back to an unchanged reality. Something he can find solace in. You know? Too much change can cause trouble right now. Is the mark healed?โ
Jimin shakes his head, โno. It's not.โ
Doctor Kim winces, โthen... then it must hurt.โ
Jimin shrugs, โwell, it does.โ
โHow long before we can tell him everything?โ Taehyung looks at the doctor, โhow long before he can digest it?โ
โAt least a few months,โ Doctor Kim sighs.
Jimin looks at the doctor, โis there a slight chance of him ever remembering?โ
Doctor Kim looks at Jimin, gives him a small smile, โ10%.โ
Everyone groans in the room.
Jimin nods to himself, โthen I am removing the mark. We can just not tell him we ever mated. Right?โ
Jungkook opens his mouth but Jimin holds his hand up, glares, โthe mark is on my body. I am going through the pain. I am bearing everything, and you have no say in it, Jungkook. I don't care what you think, I am suffering here! I am removing it!โ
Taehyung nods, โI agree.โ
Everyone looks at each other.
โWho is going to tell him about the memory loss?โ Hoseok looks at them one by one.
โI will,โ Jin nods to himself, โit should come from me. I will tell him. Justโฆ be there, you all.โ
โTomorrow?โ Jungkook asks, looking terrified.
Jin nods, โyes.โ
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โSo...โ Yoongi stares at Jin, โyou are saying I forgot two years of my life?โ
Jin nods, watches the alpha, โyeah. Two years and a few months.โ
Yoongi blinks, โthis is 2022?โ
Jin nods.
โWhat...โ Yoongi's heartbeat picks up, โwhat changed in these past two years?โ
Jin looks at Hoseok and Hoseok nods, fearfully looking at the machines beside Yoongi's bed. The doctor and the nurses are monitoring those.
Jin gulps, โwell, you bought a house,โ he forces a smile on his lips, โyou shifted there.โ
Yoongi looks at Hoseok, โwith you?โ
Hoseok shakes his head, โn-no. You just... you just bought a house.โ
Yoongi frowns, looks back at Jin, โwhat use I have of a house only for myself?โ
Jin's face contorted, โwell... you always wanted to settle down.โ
Yoongi nods, โand...?โ
Jin tries to smile, โyou earned-โ
Yoongi shakes his head, his eyes focused on Jin, โwhat did I lose?โ
Jin stops, โwhat?โ
Yoongi leans closer, โwhat did I lose?โ he takes a hold of Jin's hand, โin these past two years, tell me what did I lose?โ
Jungkook glances at the monitors and back at Yoongi, โa few deals-โ
Yoongi glares at them, his eyes turning reddish, โtell me,โ he hisses, โwhat did I lose?โ
Jin lets out a shudder, โyou have to calm down, Yoongi. You are too weak-โ
โDid I lose something?โ Yoongi whispers, his voice filled with hesitance, โor... someone?โ
Jin shakes his head, โno. No, you didn't. You didn't lose anyone. We all are here. No?โ
โYou are lying,โ Yoongi murmurs, โyou are lying.โ
Jungkook takes a hold of Yoongi's hand, โwhy do you think we are lying? We are no-โ
โYou are!โ Yoongi hisses, โyou all are! You are lying!โ
Yoongi shakes his head, his face setting on a glare before he looks at Hoseok, โhoba? Are we engaged?โ
Hoseok blinks, caught off-guard, โwhat?! N-no!โ he risks a glance at Jin and Jungkook, โno. We are not.โ
Yoongi looks at Jin then, โSo, there is someone else you are hiding.โ
Jin chokes on a breath, โwhat?! What do you mean?โ
Jungkook almost stands up, โno. No! There is no one! What are you talking about?!โ
Yoongi holds his hand up, his irises dark red, โyou see the tan line on my ring finger? I wore a ring enough for it to leave a tan line.โ
Yoongi chews out, his voice echoing in the room, โI hate wearing anything constantly! But, I wore this ring long enough for it to leave a mark. Where is it? My family has a rule of not wearing anything on our ring-finger unless it's a wedding or engagement ring. Remember?โ
Yoongi looks at Namjoon, Jin and then Jungkook, โI noticed the mark yesterday. Since then, I am trying to remember if Hoba has the mark, and he doesn't. None of you do, thankfully,โ he makes a face, โbut, I kept thinking. So, tell me. Who is it? What are you hiding?โ
Yoongi lets out a tired smile, โyou know, even with half my memory gone, I can out run you all. Just...โ he breathes out, โI will figure it out. Might as well tell me. I can take it. I swear. Are,โ he gulps, โare they dead? Were they in the car...? Tell me. Please.โ
Yoongi's eyes move from one to another, โtell me! Who is it?! Was there another person-โ he freezes, eyes slowly widening.
Jin gulps, grabs Yoongi's hand, โokay, calm down. Dude, calm down. Whatever you are thinking-โ
โJimin is mated,โ Yoongi murmurs, โhe... he is mated.โ
Jungkook looks at the doctor, โis he okay?!โ
The doctor stares at Yoongi, โhe is not forcing himself to remember these. He is just... connecting the dots. His brain is working fine.โ
Yoongi grabs Jin by his shirt, โtell me! I am tired of connecting dots! Tell me what's wrong!โ
โListen, I can't remember why and how and what went down for me and Jimin to mate! But, is that it?! Tell me! I can't remember that, but I think I said the right things-โ
Hoseok chokes on a teary laugh, โwell, you just left us speechless. Give him a moment. My God!โ
Jin coughs, โyeah. Exactly! I had all the templates planned on how to slowly feed you the details. Now I have to make those all over again-โ
โIs this in any way amusing to you?โ Yoongi bites out, โI am not finding this funny.โ
Jin shrugs, โI just... God, where to start?!โ
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โThe operation is successful,โ the doctor smiles at Jimin, squeezing his hand, โyour bond is broken now. You are recovering, and soon you will not feel any pain.โ
Jimin nods, a trail of tears rolling out of his eyes, โthank you.โ
Taehyung holds his hand, โMimi...โ
Jimin closes his eyes, โI am fine. Just...โ he bites the inside of his cheek to not sob, โI need a moment.โ
Taehyung feels his eyes tearing up, โtake as long as you want.โ
Jimin nods, trying and failing to hold back the sob that tears out of him, โit feels so weird, Tae.โ
โIt feels like I am finally closing my door on him and I feel like I am betraying him somehow?โ Jimin frowns, crying, โit feels like I am leaving him behind when he is not in his right mind, and I am like... leaving him when he needs me, but he doesn't need me, right?โ
โHow can he need me when he doesn't even remember me?โ Jimin sobs, holding Taehyung's hand, โhe doesn't even remember me...โ
โCalm down, mimi,โ Taehyung holds Jimin in his arms, โplease, calm down. You are exhausted and this is not going to help. Please, try to calm down-โ
A nurse walks inside the cabin, her eyes fixing on Taehyung, โyour husband wants to talk to you. He is waiting outside.โ
Taehyung nods, โyou can bring him here.โ
โNo,โ the nurse denies, โthe patient is weak after the operation. No alphas are allowed to see him for a day.โ
โGo,โ Jimin nods, looking through the window, โI need some time alone for myself.โ
Taehyung hesitates, โI will be right back.โ
Jimin nods, closing his eyes. Tears trail out of his eyes. He wipes them, trying to even out his breath.
Taehyung slowly walks out of the room.
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Yoongi sits on the wheelchair, too weak to move on his feet yet. He feels Jungkook anxiously hovering over him.
โCalm down,โ Yoongi murmurs, โI am fine.โ
Jungkook doesn't say anything right away, โjust... he is weak too, you know? You are, you both are. So, you should wait.โ
โHe removed the one-sided bond,โ Jungkook speaks in a low voice, โso, nothing is really binding you two together. You can take your time-โ
โI just want to know from him if that was the only thing binding us together or there was something more,โ Yoongi whispers, sitting taut.
Jungkook stops at the door of Jimin's cabin, โplease don't stress yourself out, or him,โ Jungkook looks at the door and reaches to knock on it, โplease take it slow. You both are weak.โ
Yoongi nods silently, watches Taehyung open the door, nod at Jungkook before letting them in.
โWait outside,โ Yoongi says, eyes on the omega who is sitting on the bed with the support of the pillows, โI will call if we need anything.โ
Taehyung and Jungkook share a look.
โBut-โ Taehyung stops when Yoongi holds up his hand.
โDo as I say,โ Yoongi rolls the chair inside.
Jimin looks pale. His eyes follow Yoongi while the alpha rolls the chair beside his bed.
โThis is too much effort,โ Yoongi tries to smile, โalso, I don't know how to navigate this shit.โ
Jimin's lips twitch a little, โyeah, they should make one with steering and all.โ
โNot sure if I would like to drive after what happened,โ Yoongi arches a brow, โor, you forgot that one?โ
Jimin huffs out a snort, โno, you took the forgetting role here. I remember.โ
The silence falls upon them. Their eyes on each other.
โIf you remember,โ Yoongi starts, โthen why didn't you try to remind me?โ
Jimin gives him a long stare, then he looks away, โbecause what we had, is not worth reminding.โ
Yoongi stares, โ...what?โ
Jimin nods, chuckles to himself, โwe, to be honest, had nothing going on.โ
โThe entire affair was, you feeling guilty for mating me, and trying to take my responsibility while I was madly in love for a long time before I realized one-sided love can't save a relationship and wanted an out. That's all frankly was there between us. Nothing else.โ
Jimin gives Yoongi a small smile, โyou frankly forgot only that part because, maybe, it was the most straining part of your life, you know?โ he looks down at his hands, โyour brain shut down on that part because that was painful for you. I think. I also think it's for the best.โ
โStraining,โ Yoongi nods to himself, โmaybe. It makes sense that I would want to take responsibility of what I did, but,โ Yoongi looks at the omega, โare you sure that was all? Why did we get married?โ
Jimin shrugs, โtold you. Responsibilit-โ
โWas that all?โ Yoongi begs almost.
He reaches to grasp Jimin's hand in his, โwas that all between us?โ
Jimin's lips quiver, he looks away, โyeah. What else-โ
โWhere were we going that night?โ Yoongi tugs Jimin's hand, asking silently for the omega to look at him, โwe were going somewhere. Right? Where?โ
Jimin gulps, โon a stroll...โ
โIt was past midnight!โ Yoongi frowns, โit was raining! You can't be serious. Jimin,โ he lets out a breath, โI am struggling to remember someone who is my husband! I can't do it if you don't help me. You are lying, and I don't know why, and it's-โ
Jimin fears that. He fears telling Yoongi everything. He fears opening up because he knows then Yoongi will again try to mend things together because he would think Jimin is his responsibility.
Jimin looks at the alpha and wants to scream that if not for those proofs, Yoongi would still want Hoseok. If not for those proofs, he would still want Hoseok and Jimin doesn't care where they were going or whatever the small development was, he is not sure if Yoongi loved him.
He doesn't know if Yoongi will ever get his memories back or not. So right now, this Yoongi woke up wanting Hoseok and this Yoongi is here beside Jimin now because he thinks he married and mated Jimin so Jimin is his responsibility and Jimin would rather die than accept it again.
โ๐ผ ๐๐๐ ๐ก ๐๐ฆ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐ฉ๐๐ก ๐๐๐๐ฉ๐ก, ๐ผ ๐ค๐๐๐ ๐ก๐๐๐ ๐๐ฆ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ก๐ฉ๐๐กโฆโ Jimin thinks, tears brimming in his eyes, โ๐ค๐ฉ๐๐ก๐๐ฃ๐๐ ๐ค๐ ๐ค๐๐๐ ๐ ๐ก๐๐๐ก๐๐๐ ๐ก๐ ๐ฉ๐๐ฃ๐, ๐ผ ๐๐๐ ๐ก ๐๐ก ๐ก๐ฉ๐๐ก ๐๐๐๐ฉ๐กโฆโ he wipes his eyesโฆ
โ๐๐ฆ ๐๐๐ก๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐ฉ๐๐ก ๐๐๐๐ฉ๐กโฆโ Jimin nods to himself, eyes on Yoongi's face, โ๐ฉ๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ก ๐ฆ๐๐ข, ๐ฆ๐๐ข ๐๐๐ฃ๐๐ ๐๐๐ก ๐๐โฆ ๐ฆ๐๐ข ๐๐๐'๐ก ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐, ๐ข๐ . ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ฆ ๐๐๐ฃ๐๐ ๐ค๐๐๐.โ
Jimin chuckles, โI have to say it, huh?โ
โI am having an affair with my dance teacher,โ Jimin murmurs, looking down at his hands, โso, you were pissed, and you wanted to leave me at my parents' because you were done with me, our marriage,โ Jimin looks at the alpha, โso, we were going to Busan.โ
โYou were drunk, so you made me drive and in your haste you forgot to wear the seatbelt,โ Jimin doesn't match those eyes, โwe were fighting in the car too. That's why the accident,โ he shrugs, โwe were not looking at the road. It's all a mess, really.โ
โSo, even in that drunk, pissed state, I remembered our safety to make you drive?โ Yoongi arches a brow, โand, where is this alpha of yours who you are having an affair with? Did he come to visit you after hearing about your accident?โ
โI decided to drive because I wasn't keen to die, you see,โ Jimin chews out, โalso, yes. He came to visit me. We both decided this is the right time to finally remove the mark and I did it. I am free from you, Yoongi, something I wanted for so long finally happened.โ
โSo, do me a favour and let me go,โ Jimin begs almost, โthis is life's way of giving us both a second chance. Take it! You were to get our divorce papers, I say you make that, and we sign and then-โ
โI didn't love you?โ Yoongi wonders, โduring our time together, did I love you?โ
โNo, you didn't,โ Jimin shakes his head, โyou can read your own diaries, you have those. You will see how you feel about me in those. Well, you will see where your heart was. Also, we didn't have anything physical going on, too. That's why I sought him out. For myself.โ
Yoongi nods, thinking something. Jimin waits with bated breath, his eyes following the alpha's hand when he reaches for the bag hanging from the chair's hook and pulls out his laptop.
Jimin blinks at the device, confused.
Yoongi opens it wordlessly, โI can't open my laptop...โ
Jimin stares in confusion, and he can't think why a laptop is important now.
โWhat?โ he stares at the alpha.
Yoongi nods, โthe hint is a heart but my name, hoba's name, your name, nothing opens it. Do you know the password?โ
Jimin blinks, โI am not aware. You never told me.โ
Yoongi bites his lower lip, thinking, โI have a few files I need to see, but I can't remember the password and no one knows. I changed it because the last one was my name. My own date of birth. But I changed it during this time period, and that's why I thought you would know.โ
Jimin frowns, โI have no idea. Why-โ
โI used to keep things important to me written in my files, notes, those are saved here and not on any drive. So, I can't open it with other devices and it's killing me. I need to see those notes. There has to be more details,โ Yoongi curses.
โDon't force yourself,โ Jimin shakes his head, worry clear in his eyes, โit's not good for your health. You should just rest-โ
Yoongi gives him a small laugh, โfor an omega who is having an extramarital affair, you do care a lot for me, I see?โ
Jimin freezesโฆ
Then he shrugs, โonce I loved you, madly,โ Jimin whispers, looking down at the laptop, โblindly. Of course, I care.โ
Yoongi is quiet for a few seconds, then he looks at the laptop again, โit doesn't make sense to me. None of this. At all. If I never felt anything for you, then-โ
He turns the laptop towards Jimin, and Jimin freezes.
โThen how come the wallpaper is you?โ Yoongi whispers, โwhy is it you?โ
Jimin stares at the photo, his eyes glued on himself. He feels his heartbeat escalate in his chest, his hands trembling in their clutch...
Jimin blinks up at the alpha, โI-โ he looks down at the photo, โI don't know.โ
โWhere was it taken?โ Yoongi asks, looking at the photo himself, โyou look so beautiful.โ
Jimin stares at the photo too, โI invited you. It was a competition. Right after we mated. But,โ Jimin frowns
โMated?โ Yoongi arches a brow.
โI mean, right after we shared my heat,โ Jimin shrugs, โbut, yeah. You said you won't come because you were too busy with work, and I was upset but,โ he frowns at the photo, โyou didn't come to the competition. Where did you get this photo?โ
โIt's not,โ Yoongi leans in to check, โit's not clicked by professionals. There are no watermarks.โ
Jimin snorts, โI am not popular enough to get professional photos of me. Also, the competition wasn't that big of a deal.โ
Yoongi stares at the photo, โso it's a personal click.โ
Jimin feels his heart squeeze in his chest, โI never saw this photo though.โ
Yoongi looks at him, โso... I did show up.โ
Jimin's eyes flicker over to him, โwhy didn't you tell me? I waited. I cried when I thought you didn't.โ
Yoongi's throat bobs, โI don't know.โ
Jimin chuckles, โyeah. You don't know.โ
Yoongi looks back at the photo, โdid I ever call you something other than your name? A nickname?โ
Jimin snorts, โmaybe trouble.โ
Yoongi gives him a look, โI am serious.โ
Jimin bites his lower lip, โwe were not that close. Ever.โ
Yoongi nods, opens his mouth to say something when the doctor walks in.
โSorry to disturb, he needs to go for an examination,โ he points at Jimin, โyou two can talk tomorrow again. You also need some rest, Yoongi.โ
Yoongi looks at Jimin who is already looking at him. He nods.
โI will be back tomorrow,โ Yoongi squeezes Jimin's hand.
Jimin pulls away, โyou shouldn't. I have nothing more to say.โ
โI might,โ Yoongi shrugs, nodding at Jungkook who comes to push the wheelchair out of the room.
Taehyung walks in then, nodding to Jungkook who looks at him.
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Yoongi stares outside of the window. The lamps are the only things he sees in the darkness of the night. He counts them, again and again. Anything to distract himself.
There is a knock on his cabin's door. He turns towards it and sees Namjoon walking in with a packet.
Namjoon stops by his bed, โI,โ he hesitates, โyou told me to bring you your phone as soon as I get it,โ he walks up to Yoongi, nodding to himself, โit came back from repairing. The lock is your fingerprint or face. So, this will open.โ
Yoongi takes the phone...
He opens the phone and stares at the blank wallpaper, โthe data...โ
โIs intact,โ Namjoon nods, โit was all saved in drive. So, thankfully, those are still there.โ
Yoongi nods, โthanks, Joon.โ
Namjoon hesitates, โJin will kill me if he hears I got behind his back to do this.โ
โHe doesn't want to overwhelm you like this, but he has no idea what a persistent as'hole you are,โ Namjoon glares at Yoongi.
Yoongi snorts, โwhat he doesn't know won't hurt him.โ
He opens the gallery to see his photos sorted by files. He starts scrolling.
Yoongi stops, his thumb hovering over the file name, 'blossom.'
โSince when I took interest in flowers?โ he wonders aloud.
Namjoon is over the other side of the room, pouring himself a glass of water, โno idea.โ
Yoongi ignores him, pressing his thumb over the file...
Yoongi stills when the file opens.
There are only four photos. One is Yoongi's laptop wallpaper. The other three don't look like Jimin was aware that Yoongi took those photos.
Yoongi stares at each one of them, trying to think what was he thinking when he clicked those...
Yoongi stares at those photos one by one. He doesn't force himself to remember why he clicked only four photos and what they mean but he looks at them for long.
Then he is reaching for his laptop to open it. He inhales deeply, before he types...
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โWhen was this?โ Yoongi whispers, stares at the photo of his homescreen.
Namjoon walks over, looks at the photo and lets out a long breath, โit was when you bought the house where you and him were supposed to move in after the wedding. On the day of the house-warming party.โ
โHe was so excited,โ Namjoon's voice drifts off, โalmost begged us to gather the flowers you two got so he can click some photos...โ
โI didn't love him,โ Yoongi tastes those words on his tongue, โhe kept insisting I didn't love him. If I didn't, explain all this to me.โ
โIt's all perspective, you know?โ Namjoon murmurs, โmaybe he does believe you never loved him because you never showed him? Your actions or words didn't reach him? Maybe he believes what he is saying. Maybe he thinks you didn't love him, really. He has his reasons, you know?โ
โMaybe, now,โ Namjoon squeezes Yoongi's shoulder, โI don't know how to say this, but take the positive side of this accident. You can learn your side of the story with him. You can discover Min Yoongi in these past few years with him and how Yoongi felt with him too. No?โ
โMaybe the things that old Yoongi feared or hesitated to open up about, you and Jimin can learn now,โ Namjoon comes to sit beside Yoongi, โdiscover him with Jimin too. Because, you forgot, Jimin never knew. This is probably your second chance at starting a fresh with each other.โ
โHe doesn't want anything to do with me,โ Yoongi snorts, eyes tracing Jimin's face in the photo, โhe has an affair-โ
โDo you believe it?โ Namjoon wonders.
โI don't know any better, do I?โ Yoongi chuckles, โI don't even know myself, how can I know him?โ
โThen know yourself,โ Namjoon squeezes Yoongi's hand in his, โknow yourself and let him know you too,โ he nods at Yoongi, โif, after learning it all, he still lies-โ
โWhy do you think he is lying?โ Yoongi wonders.
Namjoon pauses, chuckles to himself, โbecause he is. I know.โ
โHe is my brother's best friend. I know him since he was a kid. He,โ Namjoon hesitates, โgod, he was so smitten with you since he met you, hyung. You have no idea. I introduced you two. I told Jin hyung how you were Jimin's first crush, hell, first love too...โ
โHe didn't know about you and Hobi,โ Namjoon murmurs, eyes on his hands, โhe would come to our house whenever you visited. Go so pink whenever you would tease him. He loved you silently. For a long time, hyung. He loved you from afar for a long time. Without expecting anything.โ
โA love like that doesn't chance, hyung. A person who loves you without expecting anything in return doesn't change so quickly. He loved you madly. I was always worried that one day you will break him, and you did. I hated you for that, but...โ Namjoon sighs, โyeah...โ
โMaybe he got tired of waiting,โ Yoongi whispers, โmaybe I drove him away, and I get it. You know? How long can you love someone before you realize they will never be yours, and you move on?โ
โForever,โ Namjoon whispers, โlove is destructive like that. I know.โ
Namjoon chuckles, โI know because I love Jin like that,โ his eyes meet Yoongi's, โI know because I don't care if Jin moves on or finds someone or what, but I know I will always love him. It's terrifying. It's horrible, but it's true. Some love lasts forever. You want or not.โ
โAnd, Jimin's love felt like that to me because I felt the same,โ Namjoon chokes out, โI felt the exact same for a person. I hated you because you reminded me of Jin, and I hurt for Jimin because he was like me. Is like me. We never moved on. We so desperately want to, though.โ
โSo, maybe I am selfish, but I want Jimin to have his first love,โ Namjoon whispers, eyes on the photo, โthat kid with starry eyes and blush high on his puffy cheeks as he looked at the alpha of his best friend's hyung's friend, I want him happy. He suffered enough. You know?โ
โSo, please,โ Namjoon holds Yoongi's hand in his, โlearn about the past you. About his feelings and if you can, love him because he suffered enough. Just because he loved you. He doesn't deserve it, hyung.โ
โHe doesn't want to though,โ Yoongi murmurs, โhe doesn't want to.โ
โIf Jin ever comes back to me, I won't accept him, you know?โ Namjoon murmurs, โI think, my insecurities will stop me. My anger, hurt will stop me. I will tell him to leave because how dare he leave me just because the society thought two alphas can't be together...โ
โI would shout at him, ask him why I wasn't enough, why our love wasn't enough. I will ask him why couldn't we just adopt a kid when the time comes. I will tell him to go away because for ages he made me feel like I wasn't enough, but I still want him to try. To win me back.โ
โDeep inside me, I still hope Jin will come back,โ Namjoon sniffles, โI still imagine scenarios where we will fight for hours before I let him hug me and I finally go back home. To him. I know Jimin feels the same. We want to fight you, make you realize how much you hurt us...โ
โBut, deep inside us, we still hope and imagine a future where we finally go home to you because we always wanted that, prayed for that. I know how it feels to be hurt by a person you love so madly. I know how Jimin feels. So, yeah. He will make it difficult, but please, fight?โ
โNo one will fight for me,โ Namjoon chuckles, โbut I want you to fight for him. I am selfish, hyung. I want to see at least one of us get their happy ending. Through him, I want to have a closure. You know? Try, hyung. Try to understand where he is coming from.โ
- I will go now. My hand hurts. lol
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โBusy?โ
Jimin looks up from where he is reading a book Taehyung left with him. He arches a brow at the man in wheelchair and shakes his head.
Yoongi slowly moves the chair inside, on his lap, he has his laptop and phone. Jimin eyes those things, curiously frowning at the alpha.
โWhy ask a question when you won't wait for my answer?โ Jimin marks the page and puts it down beside him, โwhy are you running around with your laptop?โ
Yoongi shrugs, โI wanted to talk.โ
Jimin folds his hands over his lap, โdamn, since when you want to talk?โ
Yoongi gives him a look, โI went through my phone last night. There are a few photos, I would like you to tell me where they are from.โ
Jimin frowns, watches Yoongi open his phone, โnow, how would I know where you-โ he stops when Yoongi holds out the phone for him, โthat's me.โ
Yoongi nods, โcan you tell me where this is from?โ
Jimin doesn't reach for the phone, he sits on his trembling hands, โyouโฆ where did you get this photo?โ
Yoongi shrugs, โI clicked it.โ
Jimin's eyes flicker over to him, โimpossible. We were not talking at that time.โ
โIt was the day,โ Jimin gulps, looking away, โNamjoon hyung and Hobi hyung announced they were seeing each other,โ Jimin looks down at his hands, โyou were upset. Rightfully so. I asked you if you would like to go on a cruise dinner party. You didn't want to come. Butโฆโ
โAt the last moment, you agreed because Jungkook and Jin hyung wanted to go too. We all kind of dragged you there. You spent the entire night on your own. Quiet, distant, upset. I don't think you were even looking at me for you to click that photo. I think someone else did.โ
โI have a note from that day the photo was clicked,โ Yoongi whispers, opening his laptop, โI keep notes of things that are important, or something I don't ever want to lose, I did it that day too. I-โ
Jimin chuckles, โwrote how much it hurt to know Hobi hyung was moving on?โ
Yoongi's eyes flicker over to the omega before he clicks on the note, โread it for me.โ
Jimin lets out a long breath before he takes the laptop, โwhy on earth... what are you doing?โ
Yoongi hoists himself up on the bed, his face scrunching up with pain, โmove. Let me sit.โ
Jimin stares, โare you allowed to move like this?โ
Yoongi shrugs, โI am an alpha. I heal quicker than normal. Remember?โ
Jimin shrugs, looking back at the laptop, โagain, between the two of us, you are the one in forgetting department.โ
Yoongi's lips twitch, โread it for me.โ
โ๐๐ฉ๐๐ก ๐ข๐๐ ๐๐ก๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ผ ๐๐๐'๐ก ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ฉ๐ข๐๐ก ๐๐ ๐ผ ๐๐ ๐ ๐ข๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ก๐. ๐๐ฉ๐๐ก'๐ ๐ค๐๐๐๐ ๐ค๐๐ก๐ฉ ๐๐? ๐ผ ๐๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ฉ๐๐. ๐๐ฉ๐๐ก'๐ ๐ค๐๐๐๐ ๐ค๐๐ก๐ฉ ๐๐?โ
Jimin reads the lines. His brows furrowing. He reads it again.
โWhatโฆ?โ
Jimin reads the lines again and again. Yoongi sits beside him, quietly watching the omega.
Jimin checks the date, just to make sure Yoongi is not making it up. Yoongi lets the omega fret over it, go through the lines one by one.
โI see,โ Jimin says at last, voice empty, โnext?โ
Yoongi shows his phone, โthe next photo was clicked after two months from that date. Can you tell when this photo was taken?โ
Jimin gives Yoongi an unimpressed look, โthat's me sleeping and like a creep you took a photo. Even if I look past that, how the hell am I to know?โ
Yoongi rolls his eyes, shrugs, โmy notes say, it was at the destination wedding of Jungkook and Taehyung. We shared a room, and it was the first time since your heat we shared a room.โ
Jimin looks at the photo, โyeah. Now that I think, yeah, those pillows are not mine.โ
Yoongi reaches to click on the dates to find the notes for that day.
He gestures for Jimin to read it. Jimin inhales deeply before he looks at the laptop screen with the same date as the photo.
Yoongi waits. His eyes on the omega who is reading the lines.
โ๐ผ ๐ค๐๐๐ ๐ข๐ ๐ก๐ ๐ฆ๐๐ข ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ฆ ๐๐ข๐๐๐ ๐๐ข๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ก๐ฉ๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐ก ๐๐ ๐๐ฉ๐๐๐๐ฆ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐.โ
Jimin grips the duvet, looking away from the screen.
Yoongi watches the omega, โwhat? Go on.โ
Jimin's throat bobs...
โYou didn't talk to me throughout the day,โ Jimin whispers, โkept your distant and I busied myself with the wedding. I tried to remember if I crossed any lines during the night and-โ
โIt felt like you were bringing spring in my life when I was not ready to move on from winter yet,โ Yoongi murmurs, โI wasn't ready to feel happy, but you were forcing me out of that state. I hated it,โ he points at the screen, โthe next note says that.โ
Jimin reads it, โohhh.โ
Jimin looks at the note, โyou were not ready...โ
โTo be happy, yes,โ Yoongi whispers, eyes on the screen, โit felt too soon. It felt like I was moving on from Hoba too soon, and I wrote how I feel like I am betraying him and what I thought was my first and last love.โ
โI felt frustrated that I was feeling anything for you and I guess, the notes speak volume about my conflict. You,โ Yoongi looks at Jimin, โI think my old self will agree too, that you were probably too easy to love, blossom.โ
Jimin chokes, startled, โdon't- don't call me that.โ
Yoongi turns the cursor towards the drive then. Opens a file that has two more notes with attached photos.
One of a group photo.
โYou remember this? You would. I am relying on my notes,โ Yoongi says, clicking one open.
โThe group trip after Tae's wedding,โ Jimin whispers.
Yoongi nods, โyeah. Apparently, we stayed at a villa and-โ
โIt was booked by Jungkook's dad,โ Jimin murmurs, โwe all spent a whole week there. Just the seven of us. It was,โ Jimin smiles to himself, โit was fun.โ
Yoongi smiles, โI guess, it looks like it was.โ
Jimin smiles, โI loved the river. It was right by the resort and I would drag Jin hyung and Tae there. We would enjoy the cold water. I can't remember I many times I splashed those two-โ
โYeah,โ Yoongi murmurs, โI guess you loved being there.โ
Jimin looks at the next photo.
โ๐ผ ๐๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ฉ๐๐โฆ ๐๐ฉ๐๐ก, ๐ผ ๐๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ฆ๐๐ข. ๐ผ ๐๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ฆ๐๐ข.โ
Jimin freezes.
His eyes stuck on the photo where he is giggling with Jin. He remembers Yoongi being around, but he doesn't recall this click. He doesn't care.
He reads the line over and over again.
* .ยท:ยท. โฝ โง โฆ โง โพ .ยท:ยท. *
Then Jimin is closing the laptop, his eyes closing too. He rubs his hands over his face before he opens his eyes and looks at Yoongi with a pained expression.
โYou woke up asking for hobi hyung,โ Jimin whispers, โwhatever you felt in the past, does that even matter anymore?โ
Jimin shakes his head when Yoongi opens his mouth, โno, hyung. I am not trying to pick up a fight. I am not trying to look past what you are saying, but you tell me, now, right at this moment, if you don't look at that past Yoongi,โ Jimin's voice softens, โdo you love me?โ
Yoongi opens his mouth, just to close it. He can't quite bring himself to say anything. Nothing true at least. Nothing he can say that will assure Jimin, he knows.
Jimin gives him a small smile. It's not rueful, it's not sarcastic, it's nothing resentful.
It's resigned.
โIt's like you are watching yourself through a screen and telling yourself just because that Yoongi felt like this, you should too,โ Jimin shakes his head, โhyung,โ his voice cracks with urgency, โI would never want that. I don't want that.โ
โAlso?โ Jimin points at the closed laptop, โyou might never go back to being that Yoongi again-โ
โYou are that Jimin still,โ Yoongi whispers.
Jimin chuckles, soft, โthat Jimin doesn't know how being loved by you feels like, hyung. Trust me. He has no idea. I have no idea.โ
โAll you need to know is,โ Jimin takes Yoongi's hand in his, โyou woke up feeling something for Hobi hyung, and I was just your friend and let me be that. Just that. I can't,โ Jimin gulps, โI can't be something more to you just because of a few notes. I can't.โ
โYou are forcing yourself to fit in the shoes you think is for you, but that's not how it works,โ Jimin pulls back, looking away, โthings ended between us for a reason, hyung. The reason is, you and me both deserve a new start. A fresh one. Let's have that. For now. Please.โ
Jimin reaches to cup the side of Yoongi's face, โyou are my first love, hyung,โ a single tear rolls down Jimin's cheek, โthat doesn't mean I have to be your last. Let it be. We both deserve a rest. We tried, yeah? Both of us. It didn't work. Maybe because we are not meant to be.โ
โOtherwise, trust me,โ Jimin smiles, rueful, โthe amount of times we tried, we would reach somewhere. It's just not meant to be. Us. Otherwise, why,โ Jimin's face contorts, he looks away, โwhy, out of every day, that night it had to-โ he stops himself, a sob tearing through him.
Jimin holds Yoongi's hand in both of his.
He leans to press his lips against Yoongi's knuckles, โI hope you find someone with whom you don't have to remind yourself to love them. I will pray that you fall in love again. Just as naturally as you did with Hobi hyung.โ
Jimin smiles at Yoongi, โnow stop going around with your laptop and give yourself a rest. Yeah? See forward. Let it be, hyung. Both of us are tired of walking around the same loop. Let's break out of it. We are not it, we never were.โ
โI don't remember you being so mature,โ Yoongi whispers, โI remember the teenager who I met at Namjoon's house. The boy who would trail me like a lost puppy. The boy whose dance was a talk in the college. Taehyung's friend. I remember you very differently, Jiminie.โ
โThat's me,โ Jimin smiles a little wide, โjust remember me like that, and I am fine. I had a crush on you since forever. That's that. Your junior. A lost puppy, yeah. I don't need to be something more. Please.โ
Yoongi watches him, eyes moving all over his face, โyou were happy.โ
Jimin blinks, โwhat?โ
Yoongi's eyes are shiny, โyou, the one I remember, were happy around me. I can't stand the thought that I did something to make you this,โ he gestures, โthis sad. Mature-โ
Jimin huffs, โI am older now, hyung. I can't be a kid for the rest of my life.โ
โI made you sad,โ Yoongi looks away, slowly pulling away from Jimin, โI made you grow up and out of the happiness you always carried with yourself. That's something I will remember.โ
Jimin pats Yoongi's back, โstop taking responsibility for everything. I am fine, I promise.โ
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Yoongi gets discharged from the hospital two weeks after Jimin does. Enough time for Jimin to pack up his things and move out of the house they were sharing, but the omega hesitates.
โI'll just stay to make sure he is getting a hang of everything before I move out,โ Jimin says.
Yoongi comes home to the new house. His wandering eyes taking in everything. Jimin stands by the door, welcoming the alpha, whose left leg is still in a cast. Jimin smiles when Yoongi points out the house is really huge, and they should get an elevator inside it for him.
โStay at the guest room,โ Jimin rolls his eyes, โno need to show off how rich you are.โ
Yoongi looks up at him, tilting his head to see Jimin while the omega wheels him to the guest room, โwhere do you live? Did we share a bedroom?โ
โNo,โ Jimin chuckles, โwe didn't.โ
Yoongi settles in pretty quickly. Busying himself with office work, learning about the past few years through his secretary and Jin. He works from home, cooped in his room.
The only time he comes out of it is when Jimin takes him out on evening strolls down the park.
The only three times Yoongi sees Jimin are these three times. Once, after his shower. Jimin helps him shower with the cast and change into his clothes. Then the omega leaves for the day. Comes back to take him out for a stroll and then they have dinner together.
โWhat?โ Jimin asks, busy buttoning Yoongi's trouser, โwhat are you staring at?โ
Yoongi stands leaning against the wall, โnothing.โ
Jimin squints up at him, โwhat is it? You keep staring?โ
โWell, sue me if I am staring at a pretty omega kneeling in front of me,โ Yoongi teases.
Jimin stops for a second before his cheeks are heating up, and he is swatting at Yoongi's stomach, โshut the fuck up, hyung!โ
Yoongi bites back a chuckle that turns into a soft smile, โwhat's your plan today? It's Sunday.โ
Jimin fixes the pant, stands up, โnothing fancy.โ
Yoongi lets Jimin fuss over his hair. He lets the omega wheel him back to his room and when Jimin turns to leave, Yoongi reaches to grab Jimin's wrist.
โWhere are you going?โ Yoongi knows he sounds a little breathless.
Jimin frowns, confused, โupstairs. To my room.โ
โSanghun hyung is coming over, we will go through some routines,โ Jimin counts on his fingers, โwe have a performance tonight. I asked hobi hyung to come over. Jin hyung might be here too. Jungkook too. I will be out-โ
โCan I come?โ Yoongi sees how Jimin freezes.
โWhere?โ Jimin gulps, eyes on the alpha.
โTo your performance?โ Yoongi asks, tentative, โI know you are dating the alpha and you or him might not want me there and all that, but I just...โ he shrugs, โI just want to see you perform. Once.โ
Jimin looks troubled, โwhy?โ
Yoongi shrugs, โI just want to.โ
Jimin looks away, โit's going to be a long night. I will go to the after-party with him and if you-โ
โI can be back on my own,โ Yoongi assures him, โI will be fine. You don't need to worry about me. Yeah? I will take my secretary with me.โ
Jimin cannot say no after that.
Yoongi finds himself in the audience, sitting with his secretary and staring at the stage where Jimin comes out with the alpha. Yoongi watches them.
They are performing tango, the beats are fast and catchy and the dance is intimate...
Jimin looks gorgeous in his white fit. His blond hair fluffy and curled are his face. His eyes never wavering from the alpha's who is clad in black from head to toe. Their eyes on each other. For a second, the alpha's lips move and Jimin breaks character, a smile on his lips.
Yoongi watches how the alpha's hand circles that waist, pulling the omega closer. His eyes flicker over to Jimin's face to see Jimin's lips parted, eyes on the alpha while the alpha smirks at him.
Then they are breaking apart, just to come right back for each other...
Sanghun buries his face against Jimin's neck, Jimin's back pressed against his chest as they move. Jimin tilts his head back, resting it on the alpha's shoulder.
Sanghun turns them next. Easily picking up Jimin and ending the dance with Jimin's one leg wrapped around his waist, the other outstretched.
Jimin's one hand on his shoulder and the other cupping the side of his face.
Their breathing heavy as the curtain drops...
Yoongi claps, watches how everyone stands up to do so. He leans back against his seat, eyes still on that closed curtains.
โSir, would you like to leave?โ his secretary asks then, โthe car is ready.โ
Yoongi nods, his throat bobbing, โyeah. Let's go.โ
โI will let Jimin ssi know before-โ
Yoongi shakes his head, eyes still on the curtain, โno, it's okay,โ he turns his eyes away, โhe must be busy. Let's leave. Let him enjoy the after-party. He already,โ his voice waver, โalready sacrificed enough for me as it is. Let him enjoy.โ
His secretary hesitates, looks at the stage and back at him before nodding.
Yoongi lets her wheel him out of the venue. He leans against the chair, eyes on the exit until they are in the parking. His guards are fixing the car to get him inside.
Yoongi thanks them mutely.
Yoongi frowns, leaning back against his seat while he looks at the roof of the car. The sting in his chest intensifies the more he thinks about the performance. He tries to reason it was just a performance. A practised skit for the audience.
Then he frowns harder...
Even if it was not, why does it bother him? Even if it was really them, as it should be, why did it matter to him?
Yoongi frowns, tongue caressing the inside of his cheek.
Jimin was dating the alpha, so it is natural that they have chemistry. It is natural that they look so...
โ๐๐๐ ๐๐ก ๐ ๐๐๐ก๐?โ
โ๐๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐๐ ๐ฆ๐๐ข ๐๐๐๐?!โ
Yoongi flinches. The words come like a thunder-strike. They flash across his mind and vanish just as quickly.
He sits up straight, frown deep. It feels like he can hear those words in his head. As if he lived those...
Yoongi feels like dรฉjร vu. As if he lived those words. As if what he is feeling is not new. He felt it. As if those words-
โHyung!โ
Yoongi blinks, eyes wide and at the person who is right beside his car. He stares at Jimin's face, still not sure if he is dreaming orโฆ
Jimin is still in his costume. He pants, steps closer to the car's window, and bends to look at Yoongi.
โOh, you,โ Jimin breathes out, โI was searching!โ
Yoongi blinks, โwell, it was over, so... I left.โ
โI told you to inform me!โ Jimin hisses, โwhat the fuck, hyung!โ
Yoongi rolls the glass of the window down, tries to smile, โyou shouldn't have worried, Jiminie, I am fine.โ
Jimin looks at him, eyes moving over Yoongi's face, โwhere are you going?โ
โHome,โ Yoongi murmurs, โI feel a little tired.โ
Jimin nods, stepping away, โyeah. Okay.โ
Yoongi reaches blindly then. He takes Jimin's hand in his, flips it and presses his lips against Jimin's wrist, right on his pulse.
Jimin goes still.
Yoongi looks up at the omega, โyou were so beautiful up there,โ โ๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐โฆโ Yoongi doesn't call him that, โprettiest.โ
Yoongi knows it's a gesture common between mated couples. A scenting tradition that he so selfishly took from Jimin. Yoongi watches how Jimin stands there, immobile. He holds Jimin's wrist in his hand still, rubbing his thumb over the pulse.
โI was?โ Jimin whispers, โprettiest?โ
Yoongi nods, โyou are.โ
Jimin blinks, takes his hand away from Yoongi's hold and clutches it closer to his chest, โright.โ
Yoongi leans back against his seat, โenjoy, okay? Don't worry about me. I will just go and sleep.โ
Jimin nods jerkily, throat bobbing, โyeahโฆโ
Jimin's eyes start to water then. He blinks, looking sideways to wipe his eyes.
โWhy did you come?โ Jimin whispers, taking a step away, โwhy do you always...โ his lips quiver, he sniffles, โshit, why can't you let me go?โ
Then he is turning on his heels and running away...
Yoongi feels the tears when they roll down his cheeks. He wipes them, looks down at his hand with a frown as his palm glisten. He looks up at the omega, who almost rushes inside the building.
โBecauseโฆโ Yoongi leans back in his seat, โthis Yoongi is falling for you too.โ
โWhere to, sir?โ his secretary speaks from the passenger seat.
โHome,โ Yoongi murmurs, closing his eyes while more tears spring out of his eyes, โtake me home.โ
He wipes his eyes. He would be damned if he blurts that shit out and ruin whatever Jimin has with Sunghun now.
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Jimin comes home exhausted. It's past two in the morning, and he almost drags himself inside the house. While he closes the door, he hears it.
The soft plucker of keys.
Jimin stands by the door, eyes on the silhouette of the man who plays the piano by the window.
Yoongi sits on the stool, leisurely moving his fingers over the keys of the piano. A glass of scotch sits idly on top of the piano. Jimin watches the alpha.
His shirt open till three buttons, the tie hanging loosely around his neck. He is still dressed in his evening clothes.
Jimin slowly walks up to the alpha. His eyes on the man whose eyes are on the piano.
Jimin stands across from him, watches how Yoongi doesn't stop playing. He watches how Yoongi's hands are so steady with the tune.
โWhat song is it?โ he asks, not sure if he should have or not.
Yoongi looks up at him, smiles a little, โCan't Help Falling in Love.โ
Jimin's eyes move across the man's features, โnever heard it.โ
โThat's a crime,โ Yoongi pats the seat beside him, โyou should be punished.โ
Jimin breathes out a smile, โand, how exactly that will happen?โ
โBy listening to me sing,โ Yoongi smirks, there is something glossy in his eyes, โby the end you will cry and beg me to let you go. Also, Presley will cry in his grave too.โ
Jimin's lips twitch, โyou are that bad, huh?โ
Yoongi nods, โterrible.โ
Jimin rounds the piano, โgo on.โ
Yoongi shakes his head, โno. I respect that man too, mcuh to ruin his song like that. Just,โ he leans to click on a button, โlisten to him singing it.โ
Jimin sits beside Yoongi, moonlight cascading down on them through the vast window. The voice fills the room slowly.
โOne day I will produce a song, and you can dance on it,โ Yoongi murmurs, smiling at the keys of the piano, โI can't dance with you, so... I hope the song-โ he stops when his eyes fall on Jimin.
Jimin's eyes are wide, his lips trembling.
โWhat?โ Yoongi asks, confused.
โ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ฆ ๐ผ'๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ฆ๐๐ข ๐ ๐ ๐๐๐, ๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐, ๐๐๐ ๐ฆ๐๐ข ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐กโฆโ
Yoongi's voice echoes in Jimin's ears. Jimin looks back at the piano, closing his eyes.
โWhat is it?โ Yoongi asks.
Jimin shakes his head, โno-nothing.โ
He tries to smile at Yoongi, โplay the tune for me, yeah?โ
Yoongi lets Jimin stop the music system, lets out a breath before he starts to play the piano. Yoongi's breath hitches when Jimin's head comes to rest on his shoulder. His eyes start to blur as he continuesโฆ
โDo you think people can be meant to be like that?โ Jimin wonders, his voice low, โlike a river flows to the sea? No matter what? Do you think,โ his voice wavers, cracks, โsomeone's love can be strong enough to bring their loved one back to them? No matter how long the route is?โ
โLike a river flows.
Surely to the sea...โ
Jimin sings the lines to himself, tastes the words on his tongue, โdo you think love can be like that too? No matter how far the distance, how long the path, the hardships, do you think they can meet at the end? Is that possible?โ
โSome things are meant to be,โ Yoongi whispers, blinks, โsome loves are meant to be.โ
Jimin looks at him then, โdo you think mine is one of them?โ
Yoongi freezes, โhuh?โ
Jimin looks back at the window, head resting on Yoongi's shoulder, โbecause... I still wait.โ
โIt's like a sea, I wait,โ Jimin's voice clogs, โhelplessly wait for the river to find its way to me. Wait for the river to push past the barriers, hills, deserts... pray for it to not lose its way and come to me. I keep waiting, hyung. It feels like I am waiting forever.โ
Yoongi tries to breathe through the pain that squeezes his heart. He takes Jimin's hand in his, watches, mesmerized, how his hand swallows Jimin's hand up.
He pulls it up to his lips, โthe river is born to find the sea, blossom. A river's only purpose is to find the sea.โ
โNo matter the hardships, no matter the distance, no matter the efforts,โ Yoongi knows his eyes are teary, โthe river pushes along to find the sea. That's the only reason it flows. The sole purpose it's born. It might take time, but the river always finds the sea.โ
โThen how come mine got lost?โ Jimin whispers, choked voice reaching only Yoongi, โtell me how long do I have to wait? Or, in our case, you are the sea who forgot this river because he has so many rivers flocking it, and he doesn't care if one doesn't reach him at all.โ
โBecause it feels like I was born with the sole purpose to love you and try my best to reach you while you don't even care,โ Jimin sobs, โit feels like I am running to you my entire life while you stay busy with the others. As if I am trying so hard to reach you when you don't-โ
โYou are not dating him?โ Yoongi asks, voice not above a whisper, โthe alpha. You are not with him?โ
Jimin stops, eyes watering some more, โhe,โ he looks away, โtonight, he asked me out. Tried to kiss me.โ
Yoongi's breath catches in his chest, โoh?โ
Jimin looks away, โit was so easy. He made me feell comfortable. It was a sweet proposal,โ his eyes close, โthen he leaned in and kissed me. Right on the lips.โ
Yoongi looks away, blinking faster. His hands ball over his thighs.
Jimin chuckles, โyou know what I did?โ
โI thought of how you asked if you could kiss me the first time we kissed after my heat,โ Jimin whispers, โhow you sought my permission and it's so stupid. It was not like he was forcing himself on me but,โ Jimin shakes his head, โyou asked. You waited for me to say yes. I...โ
Jimin chuckles, โwhatever I know about alphas, were based on knowing my father and Tae's father. I didn't grow up with a lot of expectation from alphas, you know? They were always this terrible, hideous things that terrified me. Then you came along...โ
โDifferent,โ Jimin chuckles, โyou were everything I have never seen in a typical alpha. Maybe that's where my silly crush came from. You were,โ Jimin shrugs, โlike, tonight he kissed me as if he knew why would I stop him? As if, he never thought of that. My permission.โ
โYou raised my standard, hyung,โ Jimin smiles, a lone tear rolling down his cheek, โthen made me realize, you were not common. You were hard to find and since then I am ruined. You know? Since then, I feel like I will never find someone who would be you. Ever again.โ
โMin Yoongi, you kind of ruined me for others,โ Jimin lets out a deep breath, โI guess, that's why I pushed him away,โ Jimin smiles, โrealized his proximity makes my skin crawl. I don't want him, you know?โ
Yoongi watches him, โyou left him there?โ
Jimin nods, โyeah.โ
Jimin wipes his eyes, โI should be moving on by now. It has been so long since everything crumbled. I should be over you by now, you know? I have no idea-โ
โLove doesn't have a certain expiry date, Jiminie,โ Yoongi chuckles, โit's not easy like that. It's not easy.โ
โI don't know how far I can run before I exhaust myself out of this loop,โ Jimin looks down at his wrist, โI don't know where on this earth I need to go to stop feeling this gut-wrenching pain every time I think of you. There is this part in me, that still hopes...โ
Jimin looks at Yoongi, โthis is how I always was. A nagging pest. Always begging you to love me. Pathetic, no?โ he looks ahead at the window, โalways hoping, praying, wishing you would love me and that Yoongi didn't. You don't. I don't know what I can do to move on.โ
Jimin stands up, frustrated, โwhy am I so pathetic?โ he wipes his eyes furiously, โwhy can't I just kiss him and finally feel how reciprocated love feels like? Why can't I just move on and not look back at you over and over again? What is wrong with me? What's wrong with me?โ
Yoongi takes a hold of Jimin's hand, โwhen you were breaking inside, in the past, according to everything I read, that Yoongi was breaking too. He loved you, Jiminie. He loved you just as much. You believe it or not, it changes anything or not, he loved you.โ
โTonight,โ Yoongi gulps, skin breaking with goosebumps, โthis Yoongi loves you too.โ
Jimin stills. His eyes wide, fearful, startled.
Yoongi nods, slowly, โI love you. Park Jimin, I am in love with you. Not because anything binds us. Not because you are my responsibility...โ
โNot because there's a mating bond,โ Yoongi shakes his head, โnot because I feel guilty. Hell, I don't remember shit to feel guilt. I just remember how you made me feel these past few weeks. You,โ Yoongi ignores how tears roll out of his eyes, โyou make it so easy to love you.โ
โI loved you when you stayed with me throughout the night the first day I came home because I couldn't sleep,โ Yoongi pulls Jimin to sit beside him, โI loved you when you cancelled your plans to help me settle here. I loved you each time you helped me shower. I loved you...โ
โEvery time you told me it will get better. I loved you when you took me on those strolls. Sat beside me to watch the sunset. I loved you each night when you sat beside me while we finished our dinner and talked until it was way past midnight. I loved you in bits and pieces.โ
โEvery time you smiled at me,โ Yoongi gives a wobbly smile, โevery time you giggled so hard you were falling off the seat. Every time you pouted because your cooking was too bad. I loved you. I loved you every time you told me to move on. I loved you each day. Every day.โ
โThat day, when Hoba came over, and you left, so we have our privacy,โ Yoongi chuckles, โI realized I was not the same person who woke up asking for him. I looked at him and realized I moved on. I realized, I moved on a long time ago. You have to know that, Jiminie.โ
โWhy?โ Jimin whispers, โwhy are you telling me this now?โ
โBecause that Yoongi didn't,โ Yoongi sniffles, โand, I refuse to be him.โ
Jimin's face contorts, โhyung...โ
Yoongi wipes his eyes, โyou don't have to accept me. I just want you to know that I love you. I love you.โ
Jimin gets up, a sob escaping him. Then he is rushing up across the hall to the stairs and sprinting up and out of Yoongi's view.
Yoongi turns towards the piano then, rests his elbows on the edge and holds his face in his palms.
It's a rejection. Yoongi knew it would come.
Still it hurts. It hurts terribly. Yoongi hides his face in his hands and lets the silent tears fall. He hunches over while tears run down his face to smear across his palms.
He doesn't know how long he stays there. Maybe hours. Maybe minutes. Then he gets on his wheelchair.
Yoongi turns on the music. The song he was playing. He keeps it on repeat and looks at the balcony. He slowly takes himself out on the open balcony. His eyes on the sky, clouds moving around. It's going to rain. Yoongi sits on his wheelchair, watching the dark horizon.
Yoongi sits there for hours. Sits there like a lifeless statue. Sits there, too numb to move. His eyes water while the horizon start to fade, the sun slowly peeking through the dark clouds.
The first droplet falls on the tip of his nose, Yoongi closes his eyes.
The rain slowly picks up, silently drenching him. Yoongi watches the sun, rising lazily. The horizon fading to a soft yellow glow.
โ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐ฆ
๐๐๐๐ฆ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ข๐ ๐ฉ ๐๐...โ
Yoongi hears the footsteps. He keeps his eyes on the sun, barely there.
โ๐ต๐ข๐ก ๐ผ ๐๐๐'๐ก ๐ฉ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ค๐๐ก๐ฉ ๐ฆ๐๐ขโฆโ
Yoongi's vision is blocked when Jimin rounds him, standing between him and the sun.
Yoongi doesn't look up at that face. He keeps his eyes on Jimin's abdomen.
Jimin doesn't utter a word either.
โ๐๐ฉ๐๐๐ ๐ผ ๐ ๐ก๐๐ฆ?
๐๐๐ข๐๐ ๐๐ก ๐๐ ๐ ๐ ๐๐
๐ผ๐ ๐ผ ๐๐๐'๐ก ๐ฉ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ค๐๐ก๐ฉ ๐ฆ๐๐ข?โ
Jimin slowly kneels in front of him, sits on his knees so they are eye to eye. Yoongi watches how mascara runs down Jimin's eyes, his makeup a mess.
Those eyes are puffy. Tears cling to those lashes. Those irises are red-rimmed. Yoongi knows he is not any better. He knows he looks just as drained.
Jimin reaches then, his trembling hand cups the side of Yoongi's face. Yoongi sucks in a breath, eyes still on the omega...
โ๐ฟ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ฃ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ค๐
๐๐ข๐๐๐๐ฆ ๐ก๐ ๐ก๐ฉ๐ ๐ ๐๐
๐ท๐๐๐๐๐๐, ๐ ๐ ๐๐ก ๐๐๐๐
๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐ฉ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ก ๐ก๐ ๐๐.โ
Jimin surges forward then, pressing his lips on Yoongi's and Yoongiโฆ Yoongi moves. His hands reaching out to hold Jimin.
Behind them, the sun is breaking out through the dark clouds, giving Jimin a halo like an angel.
Yoongi kisses Jimin with the urgency he feels deep in his bones. Jimin kisses him just as intensely.
The rain pours on them, soaking them both up while a new day begins around them.
โ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ฆ ๐ฉ๐๐๐
๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ฆ ๐ค๐ฉ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐, ๐ก๐๐
๐น๐๐ ๐ผ ๐๐๐'๐ก ๐ฉ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ค๐๐ก๐ฉ ๐ฆ๐๐ข.โ
Yoongi tugs Jimin up by his hands, on his lap, kissing him greedily. Jimin tries to pull away, hesitant, but Yoongi doesn't let him.
โYou are hurt-โ Jimin stops, arms on Yoongi's shoulder.
โDon't leave,โ Yoongi begs almost, โblossom,โ his voice cracks, โdon't leave me ever again.โ
Jimin looks down at him, face crumbling as he cries, โI never did. I can't. I tried. I can't.โ
โ๐ฟ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ฃ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ค๐
๐๐ข๐๐๐๐ฆ ๐ก๐ ๐ก๐ฉ๐ ๐ ๐๐
๐ท๐๐๐๐๐๐, ๐ ๐ ๐๐ก ๐๐๐๐
๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐ฉ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ก ๐ก๐ ๐๐.โ
โI love you, I love you so much,โ Yoongi murmurs against Jimin's lips.
Jimin sniffles, โI love you too. I love you more.โ
Yoongi pulls Jimin down for another kiss, โI think I love you the most.โ
Jimin kisses back, shaking his head into the kiss, โnot possible. Not at all possible, alpha.โ
Yoongi's heart flutters in his chest, โyeah?โ
Jimin nods, โI loved you since I was barely a teenager.โ
โYou are my first love,โ Jimin leans to join their foreheads, โyou are my first ever love.โ
โYou are my last,โ Yoongi whispers, holding Jimin closer, โyou are the last because I can't think of loving someone as intensely as I love you, blossom.โ
โWhat I feel for youโฆ it's terrifying, you know?โ Yoongi murmurs, seeking Jimin's lips out to kiss him again.
โI know,โ Jimin nods, kissing him right back, โI know.โ
* .ยท:ยท. โฝ โง โฆ โง โพ .ยท:ยท. *
Jimin is not used to this. The soft kisses before he leaves for the day's work. The homemade food when he gets back.
He is not used to a dotingโฆ husband? Lover? He is not sure how to brand Yoongi at this point. So he doesn't.
He just basks in the attention and love.
โHow is he?โ Taehyung asks one day, both of them coming out of the court after the case's first hearing, โnow?โ
Jimin looks over at Yoongi who is now walking side by side with Jungkook, the cast finally off, โI don't know,โ Jimin sighs, โnew? Like a dream I fear?โ
Taehyung frowns, โa dream you fear?โ
Jimin looks down at his feet, โI am not used to happiness, Tae. It got taken away from me more than once. I fear...โ he gulps, โwhat if one day he wakes up with his old memories back, but he forgets these past few months?โ
Taehyung holds Jimin's hand in his, โthat's ridiculous, mimi,โ he squeezes Jimin's hand in his, โthat won't happen. Trust me. Okay? Just let yourself go. Live a little.โ
โYou are the one to talk?โ Jimin snorts, looks at Taehyung, โyou and Jungkook look distant too.โ
Taehyung looks away, eyes downcast, โhe asked, hinted, that maybe we should reconsider the marriage.โ
Jimin blinks, โmarriage?โ
Taehyung nods, โhe wanted us to get married again.โ
Jimin stops, โwell, what?!โ
Taehyung huffs out a chuckle, โI said no.โ
Jimin pouts, โwhy?โ
Taehyung gives him a look, โI am not sure, okay? I don't want to. Not yet. I am not sure if that's a good idea. Marriage is not a joke. I don't want to go wrong this time.โ
Jimin looks over at Jungkook, โdid he take it well?โ
Taehyung looks at the alpha too, โno, I guess.โ
โHe never argues,โ Taehyung looks away when Jungkook turns towards them, โhe just accepts whatever I say and then keeps it all to himself until his breaking point. Then he explodes. That's a problem. I wish he would just say when he wants to disagree.โ
Jimin is about to say something when an arm circles around his waist, โhi.โ
Jimin startles, looking at the source of the voice with his wide eyes, โhey.โ
Yoongi gives him a small smile, โlet's go. We will be late.โ
Jimin frowns, โwhere are we going?โ
Yoongi shrugs, โcome on.โ
Jimin looks at Taehyung, hesitating. Taehyung smiles, waves him off.
โGo, we will talk later,โ Taehyung pats his back.
Jimin follows Yoongi to his car, โwhere are we going?โ
Yoongi shrugs, โyou will see.โ
Jimin doesn't argue and gets inside the car. Sitting beside Yoongi.
โWhere-โ Jimin holds his breath when the car turns towards the same road they once took. His breath hitches when the car crosses the spot where it all went down. Yoongi holds his hand, giving him a small smile. Jimin looks away from the road, closing his eyes...
โIt's okay,โ Yoongi holds him closer, lips brushing against his ear, โblossom, it's okay. I am here.โ
Jimin nods, still hiding his face against Yoongi's neck to inhale the alpha's pheromones. He doesn't say a word throughout the ride until the car stops.
โI promised you a date,โ Yoongi's words make Jimin flutter his eyes open, and he is looking outside.
Jimin's eyes brim with tears, he holds the door of the car, โYoon...โ
Yoongi exits the car, rounds it to open the door for him. Jimin sucks in a breath, slowly coming out.
The sound of the tides and the fresh ocean breeze welcome him to the beach. Jimin feels tears brim in his eyes when Yoongi takes a hold of his hand.
โSorry,โ Yoongi murmurs, โit took us too long to reach here.โ
Jimin burst out in tears then, โshut up! Shut up!โ
Yoongi holds Jimin in his arms, pressing soothing kisses over his cheek and jawline, โI wish I remembered what else I promised. Thank you for telling me we were coming here.โ
Jimin looks at the man, sniffling, โyou are horrible.โ
Yoongi smiles, โcome on.โ
They walk hand in hand, the sun is setting over the horizon slowly. Jimin holds Yoongi's hand tightly, feeling the tides on his feet. Yoongi watches him while Jimin watches the sea.
โIt's so pretty,โ Jimin smiles at the sun.
Yoongi hums, eyes fixed on Jimin's face, โyeah.โ
Then Yoongi is rounding him, halting Jimin on his path. Jimin looks at the alpha curiously. Their hands locked together.
Yoongi leans in, kisses Jimin right on the mouth. Jimin sucks in a breath, still not used to these kisses. He melts soon, letting the alpha pull him close.
โI love you, Park Min Jimin,โ Yoongi whispers, โI love you so much.โ
Jimin feels the goosebumps on his skin, a slow smile curving the corners of his lips, โI love you too.โ
It's easy. It's so easy to let himself go when Yoongi looks at him like that. So in love. So in awe...
โI see you are the cheesy romantic type,โ Jimin giggles when Yoongi takes him to their destination.
Yoongi pulls the chair for him, rolls his eyes, โjust accept that you love it.โ
Jimin sits down, looks around the tent and looks back at the sea, โI do. Thank you.โ
Jimin accepts the drink, non-alcoholic, and the food the waiters serve him. He looks at Yoongi who slowly sips from his glass.
Those eyes are fixed on him. Jimin takes a sip of his mocktail, humming to himself before starting to eat.
The night is quiet around them.
The soft music plays. Jimin holds his breath when Yoongi reaches out, taking a hold of his hand across the table. Jimin looks at the alpha, whose eyes are already on him.
There is a certain intensity that leaves Jimin breathless. He looks down at his food, eating quietly...
โDo you like it?โ Yoongi asks, his thumb rubbing over Jimin's knuckles.
Jimin nods, wipes his mouth before looking at Yoongi, โI do. The food is delicious. Drinks too.โ
Yoongi nods, โand, this place?โ
Jimin looks around, โI love it.โ
โAnd, your alpha?โ
Jimin chokes, โhuh?โ
Yoongi's lips are curved at the corners, a little smirk plastered there, โwhat about your alpha? Do you like him?โ
Jimin rolls his eyes, cheeks flaming red, โhe is a confident prick. So, no.โ
Yoongi tilts his head, โno?โ
Jimin shakes his head, pinching Yoongi's hand, โno."
Yoongi stands up then, coming around the table to hold his hand out, โso, let your alpha appeal to you for a dance, blossom. Maybe you will like him better afterwards.โ
Jimin takes the hand willingly, letting Yoongi pull him closer, โI doubt that.โ
The song is slow. The beat is soft. Jimin lets his hands rest on Yoongi's shoulders, and Yoongi's hands are on his hips.
They sway side by side. Eyes on each other. Yoongi doesn't look away from Jimin's face, and Jimin just can't match those eyes, no matter how hard he tries.
โNow,โ Yoongi steps closer, whispers the words in Jimin's ear, โwho can't match whose eyes, blossom?โ
Jimin closes his eyes, face hidden against Yoongi's neck, โshut up.โ
Yoongi breathes out a chuckle. His arms tighten around Jimin, lips pressing against Jimin's jawline.
Jimin turns his head a little, their lips ghosting over each other. Both of them wait, for the other to take the initiative.
Both of their eyes find each other and Jimin feels how fast his heart beats. He feels how the alpha's grip tightens on him.
Then Yoongi is moving...
Jimin kisses shyly while Yoongi kisses ardently. As if he waited so long. As if he craved Jimin's kisses since forever.
They kiss each other breathless, kiss until they both have to pull away to breathe. Their foreheads joined. Both of their eyelashes soaked in unshed tears.
Jimin looks at the alpha, wiping his eyes. Yoongi tries to smile, taking a hold of Jimin's wrist and kissing him on his palm. Jimin sniffles, pulling Yoongi back in another kiss.
The song slowly moves around them, wrapping them up in a soft and warm cocoon till it ends.
Then Yoongi is taking a hold of his hand and starting to walk. Jimin follows, his eyes stuck on the alpha. Yoongi leads him down the path that's filled with rose petals and lanterns lining the sides.
Jimin watches how the staff bows to Yoongi and him, leading them forward.
Yoongi guides him to a door that leads to the inside of the resort, apparently the alpha booked. Jimin follows Yoongi inside, watching breathless how beautiful the room is.
He can see the sea from here. It's almost on top of the sea. Jimin walks up to the window in awe...
โThis is so beautiful!โ Jimin whispers, hands on the glass ceiling-to-floor window, โYoon-โ
Yoongi's arms circle his waist, lips pressing against his neck, โyou like it?โ
Jimin looks over at Yoongi, โyeah. Yeah. I do.โ
Yoongi nods, turns Jimin to face him, โgood.โ
โLet's take a bath,โ Yoongi murmurs, hands always playing with the belt of Jimin's pant, โyeah?โ
Jimin sucks in a breath, โbath?โ
Yoongi points to the side, โyeah. There.โ
Jimin looks over at the open bath, โohhh.โ
Yoongi slowly pulls back, โjoin me, yeah?โ
Jimin stares after the alpha. Yoongi takes off his shirt first, dropping it by the bath. Then he unbuckles his belt.
Jimin looks away until he hears the sloshing of the water. When he looks back, Yoongi is inside the bath, pouring himself a glass of champagne. The alpha waits.
Jimin slowly unbuttons his shirt. He ignores how Yoongi watches him, fingers trembling while he goes through each button. Then he shrugs out of the shirt and looks at the alpha.
โTurn away,โ he says pointedly.
โWhat?โ Yoongi arches a brow, โI can't see my own husband naked?โ
โNo!โ Jimin makes a face, โeither you face outside or I am not getting in.โ
Yoongi gives him a long sigh before he turns away to watch the scenery. Jimin slowly gets out of his jeans and pads over to the bath. He dips his foot in the water first and then steps fully in.
Yoongi is bobbing on the water, arms resting at the edge, while he sips his champagne.
โPour me a glass,โ Jimin nudges Yoongi for the champagne.
Their elbows touch, eyes meeting. Yoongi watches him while taking another sip, โright.โ
Jimin arches a brow, โwhat?โ
Yoongi takes a long sip of the champagne, reaches for Jimin's neck to pull him closer. Jimin's eyes widen, hands flailing until they find Yoongi's shoulders to hold onto.
Then Yoongi is kissing him, the liquid flowing from his mouth to Jimin's and Jimin whimpers into the kiss...
His hands tighten on Yoongi's shoulder while Yoongi's tongue licks inside his mouth. Jimin pulls back first, panting for breath. His eyes are wide on Yoongi. Yoongi takes him in, his eyes trailing over Jimin before it settles on his face again.
Jimin turns away quickly...
He grips the edge of the bath, eyes screwed shut while he tries to regulate his breathing. It's impossible when the alpha's scent is so thick in the air, pheromones surrounding him like a cloak.
Jimin feels Yoongi crowd him from behind, hands coming to rest on his at the edge.
He feels those warm lips press at the junction of his neck, right where his moon tattoo is. Jimin sucks in a breath, bowing his head when he feels those lips trailing down. He watches Yoongi's hands cover his on the edge of the bath, their fingers tangling together...
Yoongi's lips trail down the tattoos on Jimin's spine and Jimin feels goosebumps slowly making its way down his spine too.
โYoon,โ he bites back the moan that tries to escape his mouth when Yoongi goes underwater, the last kiss right between the dimples of his spine.
Then Yoongi is breaking the surface of the water and pressing himself back up against Jimin's spine. His hands rest on Jimin's hips, face buried in Jimin's neck.
โYou smell so good, blossom,โ Yoongi purrs, โso, so delicious.โ
Jimin tries to even out his breathing, โplease.โ
โ โ
โCan you feel me?โ Yoongi whispers near his ear, โcan you feel how hard you get me?โ
Jimin has no idea what he is supposed to say. He is not sure if he can speak at all. He looks at the alpha, his eyes vulnerable. Yoongi stops for a second, eyes taking in Jimin.
โBlossom...โ
โYou can say no,โ Yoongi nods, encouraging, soothing, โyou can always say no. If you don't want this, we can stop,โ he squeezes Jimin's hips, โyeah?โ
โIt's fine,โ Jimin shrugs, โyou already booked all this and-โ
โHey,โ Yoongi chuckles, cups his face, โI can be in you, and if you still say no, we will stop,โ he nods, assuring, โif you want to stop, we stop. I don't care what I did or how far we go. Okay? Just voice it and I will stop.โ
Jimin stares at the alpha, his eyes glistening...
He shakes his head, turns fully to wrap his arms around Yoongi's neck, โno,โ Jimin whispers against Yoongi's lips, โno. I want this. I want you,โ his lips press against Yoongi's, โI justโฆ I am not sure what to do. I haven't done this since my heat and even then, I wasn't fully-โ
Jimin's face is heating up while he tries to say it, โin my mind to, you knowโฆโ
Yoongi's eyes are on him, โI know,โ he kisses Jimin again, โand it's okay, yeah?โ his lips quirk up teasingly, โnot going to lie, that pleases the primal side of me.โ
Jimin swats him, โright!โ
Yoongi laughs, kissing Jimin again. He holds Jimin in his arms, crowding him up against the wall of the bath.
Jimin lets out a startled breath when Yoongi takes a hold of his waist and pushes him up on the edge of the bath. Water splashes all over the place...
Yoongi lies Jimin down on the wooden floor, hoisting himself up to hover over him.
โYoon,โ Jimin parts his legs, letting Yoongi settle between them, โwe'll catch cold.โ
Yoongi shrugs, โwerewolves, blossom. A little water won't break us.โ
Jimin sucks in a breath, nodding.
Jimin closes his eyes when Yoongi's hand wander down his body. Slowly parting his legs to feel between them. Jimin's c0ck twitches over his stomach. The pungent smell of his slick slowly thickening in the air.
โYou are wet for me,โ Yoongi whispers, fingers probing his entrance.
Jimin bites back a moan when one of those thick fingers slowly enter him, his inner walls gripping the digit. Yoongi leans down to pepper kisses all over Jimin's face while he pushes in another finger.
โShit, you are so wet, blossom,โ Yoongi groans against his mouth.
Jimin throws his head back, gasping for air, when Yoongi pushes in the third finger. His mouth falls open while the alpha's head bows to take one of his nipples into Yoongi's mouth.
Jimin's fingers tighten in Yoongi's hair, a few choked moans leaving his mouth.
Yoongi pumps his fingers inside of him, slowly working him open. Jimin sniffles, his insides churning.
โIf you,โ Jimin gasps out, โif you think,โ his fingers tighten in Yoongi's hair, pulling the alpha's face up to meet those eyes +
โI will have my first time on the floor, you are mistaken,โ Jimin whines when those long fingers press against his prostate, โtake me to bed, alpha.โ
Yoongi watches him for a second before he is surging forward to kiss Jimin breathless, โshit, you are so-โ he cursesโฆ
โI am so?โ Jimin asks, spreading his legs more.
Yoongi pumps his fingers harder, eyes wild on Jimin's face, โso hot. Sexy. Bratty,โ he leans to bite on Jimin's lips, sucking the lower one in his mouth, โso perfect.โ
Jimin moans, โgood. Now take me to bed.โ
Yoongi shakes his head, โnot before I make you cum. Come on.โ
Jimin squeezes his eyes closed, feeling those thick fingers move faster in him. Almost pressing up against his prostate at every try. It doesn't take long for him to reach his orgasm. Yoongi leading him through it.
Then Jimin is falling limp on the wooden floor, his breath caught in his chest. He feels Yoongi pull out of him, reaching for a towel to wipe his hand before the alpha wipes him too.
Then Yoongi is standing up, scooping Jimin up in his arms.
Jimin gasps, โcareful! Your leg-โ
Yoongi rolls his eyes, carrying Jimin back to the room, โyeah, yeah. Alphas are stronger generally and we heal faster too. Did you forget or what?โ
Jimin holds Yoongi by his neck, makes a face, โdone bragging?โ
Yoongi's lips twitch, โoh, I will just show you.โ
He puts Jimin down on the bed, climbing right after him. Jimin scoots up the bed, watching the alpha.
โHow do you want this?โ Yoongi asks, โthere are many positions-โ
โWhat is it, gymnastic?โ Jimin deadpans, โis this your dirty talk?โ
Yoongi stares...
Yoongi sits on his knees, eyes on Jimin, โI can't-โ he combs his hair back, a smile tugging at his lips, โokay, you suck at dirty talk too! I was just asking.โ
โI don't know?โ Jimin waves him off, โdo whatever. I don't know!โ
Yoongi rolls his eyes, smiling, โfine, goodness!โ
โYou suck at dirty talk, if this was that-โ Jimin stops when Yoongi kisses him mute.
Yoongi laughs into his mouth, โyou are such a brat. Continue and I will take you across my lap.โ
Jimin's eyes widen, โthat's-โ his arms tighten around Yoongi, โnot a bad idea.โ
Yoongi chokes.
โOkay, let's get into kinky stuff next time,โ Yoongi waves him off, pulling back to reach for the side table where his wallet is, โthis time let's keep it soft.โ
Jimin plays with his fingers, a playful smile he tries hard to hide.
โWhat?โ Yoongi rummages through his wallet.
โIf you are soft, I don't know how we will do it,โ Jimin bites back a laugh when Yoongi pauses and looks up at him with an unamused expression.
โSeriously, go on, and I will be soft forever,โ Yoongi pulls out a packet of condom, โgo on. You really help a lot, blossom!โ
Jimin giggles behind his hands. His eyes following the alpha as Yoongi puts the condom on. Then Yoongi is giving him a bored stare.
Jimin shrieks when Yoongi grabs his ankle and tugs it with force, almost dragging him forward so they are face to face.
Yoongi kisses him again...
Jimin goes silent, feeling how the alpha's scent spreads in the room. He inhales deeply, mewls when he picks up on his scent too.
Slick gushes out of him while Yoongi pushes at his shoulder to make him lie on the bed.
Jimin squirms, โthese petals were needed?โ
Yoongi shrugs, settling between his legs, โI told them it's like a honeymoon kinda thing, and they arranged the room.โ
โYou told them we will have sex?!โ Jimin lets the alpha arrange him, โeven before telling me?! So, those staffs knew and currently know that we are-โ
โI am starting to like the idea of a gag,โ Yoongi hums to himself, โthe more you open your mouth, the more alluring the idea gets. Huh!โ
Jimin clamps his mouth shut, โso, tomorrow we will walk out and do the walk of shame. I hate it here-โ
Yoongi slowly pushes in himโฆ
Jimin chokes on his words, his hands flying out to grab at Yoongi's shoulders. His eyes are wide on the alpha, and Yoongi looks down at him while he slowly bottoms out. Then Yoongi waits, giving Jimin some time to adjust to him.
Jimin nods, โyeah,โ he shudders, โgo on.โ
Yoongi slowly pulls out, and then he is slamming back in. Jimin curses, throwing his head back while he feels Yoongi fill him up so good. His nails dig into Yoongi's back, breaking the skin there.
Yoongi grunts, lips pressing against Jimin's neck, sucking there...
Yoongi controls the thrusts. Slowly building it up. Jimin holds onto the alpha, kissing him, whispering how good Yoongi makes him feel against the alpha's ear, pulling him down for more kisses.
Yoongi growls into the kisses, speeding up. Their moans and grunts fill the room...
The sound of skin slapping against skin, slick making the thrusts sloppy, the sound of Jimin's cries and Yoongi's grunts fill the room next.
Jimin bites back a whimper, his eyes squeezing shut, while he feels his orgasm building in him. Yoongi kisses him deepโฆ
โCome for me, blossom,โ Yoongi whispers against Jimin's neck, โcome for me.โ
Jimin does. With a sharp cry, he comes between them.
Then Yoongi speeds up, chasing his own release. It's not long before he is releasing too.
Yoongi freezes when his knot swells, slowly locking them in place. He looks down between them. Eyes wide and on Jimin.
Jimin looks blissed out, โwhat?โ
Yoongi frowns, โI-โ he gulps, โI wore the condom.โ
Jimin blinks, โyeah?โ
Yoongi bites on his lip, โI still popped a knot.โ
Jimin squirms, โis this the time you worry about that?โ
Yoongi shakes his head, โno, but-โ
Jimin pulls him down for a kiss, โI am exhausted. Can we fret over your knot tomorrow?โ
Yoongi tries to shake his head, โno- blossom. That's not-โ
Jimin closes his eyes, sleepy...
Yoongi lets out a deep breath, slowly fixing them so Jimin is on his side, and he is spooning Jimin from behind.
โJust curious,โ Jimin whispers over his shoulder, โhow long does it take for the knot to go down?โ
Yoongi holds Jimin closer, โa few minutes.โ
Jimin nods, โokay.โ
โ End of โ
Jimin pants, falling in Yoongi's arms after riding him to orgasm, โokay, that's enough. I can't move anymore.โ
Yoongi chuckles, his eyes on the horizon as it fades into a new day, โgood morning to you too, blossom.โ
โWe are not doing this for a month,โ Jimin complains...
โFour times in a night should be a record,โ Jimin speaks tracing patterns on Yoongi's chest, โyou know? I will brag about this to Taehyung!โ
Yoongi winches, โseriously could have done without his face popping up in front of my eyes!โ
Jimin swats him, โdon't think then!โ
Yoongi wraps the blanket around them, kissing the top of Jimin's head, โyeah, yeah.โ
Jimin is quiet for a second, then he peers up at Yoongi and Yoongi knows the omega wants to ask something.
He waits and Jimin waits too. Yoongi lets out a sigh.
โWhat is it?โ
โDo you think I should have waited before removing the mating mark?โ Jimin whispers, burying his face in Yoongi's chest.
Yoongi stills for a second, thinking, โwellโฆ no. I think, I think it should be mutual. I think this time I would like to remember it.โ
Jimin nods, playing with Yoongi's hand, โokay. Yeah...โ
Yoongi looks down at the omega, a small smile on his lips, โwe can do that for your next heat, you know?โ
Jimin looks up at him, โor, your next rut. Whichever comes first.โ
Yoongi nods, โyeah. Don't worry, okay?โ
โIf you get pregnant, you won't have heat for nine months,โ Yoongi whispers, โthen, we can do it on my rut.โ
Jimin pauses, โand, why am I getting pregnant?โ
Yoongi gives him a pointed look, โI told you about the broken condom.โ
Jimin sighs, waves him off, โyeah, yeah. Got it.โ
โWhat?โ Yoongi pinches Jimin's side, โyou sound dismissive.โ
โIt's just funny that you think you can knock me up in one try!โ Jimin giggles, โno disrespect. Just... it's tough.โ
Yoongi's lips twitches, โyeah, yeah. I know. Let's pray that I didn't.โ
Jimin frowns, โwhy? You don't want kids?โ
Yoongi sighs, โthat's not the case, blossom. But, we just started off. Do you think we need kids right now?โ
Jimin's lips jut out, โso... how long before you will be ready for kids?โ
Yoongi gives him a stare, โa year? Maybe?โ
โI want to be mated to you properly by the time we plan pups and all that,โ Yoongi pulls Jimin to his chest, snugly pressed against him, โyeah?โ
Jimin nods, burying his face against Yoongi's neck, โrelax, alpha. We are not pregnant.โ
Yoongi hopes they are not.
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โOkay, it's nothing,โ Jimin wipes his mouth, looks at his pale face in the mirror, โyou are just exhausted and it's nothing else. It's nothi-โ the nausea hits him again, making him double over the sink to empty his already empty stomach.
His head swirls, making his steps falter.
Jimin wipes his mouth, splashes some water on his face and sits on the toilet seat. His head hurts, he holds it between his hands and lets out a curse.
โOkay, let's do this,โ Jimin bites his lower lip, โit's just a test. It's just a test. It's just a test-โ he stares at the kit.
โNo matter how many times you repeat, it won't change it's a pregnancy test,โ Hoseok looks at him from the doorframe, โjust go with it, Jiminie.โ
Jimin glares at the omega, โwhat if it comes out positive?!โ
Hoseok blinks, โso? You will have a baby. So what?โ
Jimin holds his face in his hands, โI am not sure it's the right time!โ
Hoseok lets out a breath, โlet's not start panicking. Test first. When was the last time you had sex?โ
Jimin shrugs, โthis morning.โ
Hoseok gives him a deadpan look, โbe serious!โ
Jimin stares, โwhat? I had sex this morning!โ
Hoseok curses, โJimin! No matter what, you can't get pregnant this morning and have the symptom right after!โ
โYou asked when I had sex last time!โ Jimin gets up, pouting, โI was just answering you!โ
Hoseok glares, โjust do it!โ
โOkay, get out,โ Jimin pushes Hoseok out of the washroom, โI am not peeing in front of you!โ
Hoseok makes a face, standing right outside, โyeah, but you can vomit right on me!โ
Jimin slams the door on Hoseok's face, โwe were dancing!โ
Hoseok chuckles, โfine, fine.โ
After ten minutes, they both stare at the result.
โGo and buy me a few more kits,โ Jimin murmurs, eyes stuck on the two lines.
โThis one's faulty?โ Hoseok hovers over his shoulder, โlooks fine to me.โ
โIt says I am pregnant,โ Jimin whispers back.
โYeah, and?โ Hoseok frowns.
โGet me one that says I am not pregnant,โ Jimin elbows Hoseok, โgo on!โ
Hoseok blinks, โthat's not how these kits work!โ
Jimin glares at him, โI can't be pregnant! That's impossible!โ
Hoseok stares at him, slowly his eyes widening, โYoongi is impotent?โ
Jimin blinks, โno!โ
โThen why can't you be pregnant?!โ Hoseok throws his hands up, โI am not getting it!โ
Jimin glares, โbecause we always used protection?!โ
โAre you sure?โ Hoseok presses, โthink about it!โ
Jimin furrows his brows, โI think?โ
Hoseok stares, โwhat do you mean you think?!โ
โWe had sex too many times to keep count, but I think we used protection every time?โ Jimin shakes his head, โthis doesn't make sense!โ
โI will get a few more kits, but I think you are pregnant!โ Hoseok walks out of the washroom, โwait here. I will be back soon.โ
Ten kits stare back at them.
Hoseok leans on the counter, eyes flickering from the kits to Jimin who is staring down at the kits too.
โSo... you are pregnant,โ Hoseok murmurs, โall these kits are positive.โ
Jimin blinks, โit's not possible!โ
โAre you impotent?!โ Hoseok sighs.
โNo!โ Jimin curses, โcan you not? That's not the case!โ
โThen what is the problem?!โ Hosoek throws his hands up, โI am not seeing a problem. We should be hugging and laughing and calling our friends to tell them this now. Instead, you look paler than a ghost!โ
โHe doesn't want kids,โ Jimin whispers, grips the edge of the counter, โhe doesn't one pups right now.โ
Hoseok blinks, โwho, Yoongi?โ
Jimin nods, eyes squeezing closed, โshit, I should have gotten on the pills. I thought it's not important. Shit! Now what do I do?! Fcuk!โ
โWell, let's not freak out, yeah?โ Hoseok rubs Jimin's back, โhow about you sit down and try to relax?โ
โShit, what if he doesn't want the kid?โ Jimin sniffles, โoh, God, hyung! What if he agrees to keep it because of his responsibility-โ
โStop it,โ Hoseok sighs, โcalm down.โ
Jimin stumbles, lets Hoseok lead him out of the bathroom to the bed, where he sits.
โOkay, tell me, be honest, do you want the kid?โ Hoseok sits beside Jimin, โthen who cares what he wants, you keep it.โ
Jimin bites his lower lip, โI... I don't know?โ
Hoseok frowns, โwhat do you mean?โ
Jimin leans on his knees, holding his face between his palms, โI don't want to burden him, but I don't want to give up the baby either. I don't know.โ
โOkay, let's not decide for him,โ Hoseok waves him off, โyou need to tell him first.โ
โTell him and see how he reacts, okay?โ Hoseok rubs Jimin's back, โit will be fine, yeah? Jiminie, it will be okay.โ
Jimin gulps, โyeah. Yeah, okay.โ
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He doesn't tell Yoongi. Not when the alpha comes home. Not when they go to bed.
Not for the next one month.
@/shnarts_ thank you so much for this beautiful art! You have no idea how much I loved this. Any art made on my story always makes me feel so special, and this one is so gorgeous. I frankly have no words! Thank you so much, angel. I love you!
(I reposted with her permission)
โAre you okay?โ Yoongi asks, crowding Jimin up against the closet in their bedroom, โblossom, you are worrying me. Is everything alright?โ
Jimin shakes his head, โyeah, yeah. I am fine. Trust me.โ
Yoongi stares at him, โyou smell different, blossom. You know?โ
Jimin chuckles, nervously pulling at a shirt before he looks over his shoulder at the alpha, โI am good, Yoon. Don't worry.โ
Yoongi's arms slowly wrap around him, โblossom, you can tell me. Whatever it is, I should know, don't you think?โ
Jimin shakes his head, โnothing, Yoon.โ
Yoongi leans in to kiss Jimin on the lips, โfine, then,โ he trails kisses down Jimin's throat, unbuttoning the shirt Jimin is wearing, โlet's go to bed. We won the case. Let's celebrate. Yeah?โ
Jimin closes his eyes when his alpha's hands slowly travel down to hold his hips...
Jimin shakes his head, turning away, โno, Yoon. I am tired as hell. Let's go to bed. Please.โ
Yoongi watches the omega almost run to the bathroom with his clothes. He lets out a breath, frown deep.
When Jimin doesn't come out in a few minutes, Yoongi goes to bed.
It's the next morning. Jimin is fast asleep beside him. Yoongi gets up and goes to the closet to get some clothes for his jogging. He opens the drawer where his clothes are and frowns when he sees Jimin's drawer open a little, something preventing it from closing.
He opens the drawer to see the mess Jimin has made of the undergarments he keeps there. With a small chuckle, Yoongi starts to arrange them one by one. He eyes a few, thinks how Jimin might look in them, and carefully folds them into the drawer.
Then he sees it. An envelope.
It has a red cross over it. The hospital's name in a bold font across the white folds. Yoongi takes it, frowns and looks over at where Jimin is sleeping. He holds his breath while he opens the envelope to pull out the papers inside. He opens them to read.
โAbortion procedures.โ
Yoongi freezes. His eyes scanning the paper to see Jimin's name on the 'patient's name' block. He grips the papers in his hands, skimming through the lines to read everything written there.
Yoongi's eyes focus on Jimin's signature at the last page. Neat and confident.
Yoongi is not sure how long he stands there, his eyes zeroed on the papers. He is not sure how he misses the omega getting up and slowly making his way towards him.
He doesn't move when with a shocked gasp Jimin snatches the papers from his hands.
โWhy are you looking here?!โ
Yoongi stares ahead of him. At the drawer, his eyes stuck there.
โWhy are you going through my drawer?โ Jimin's voice trembles, โit's mine for a reason. You can't just-โ
โDid you go through with it?โ Yoongi asks, each word cuts the tension between them, โare you done?โ
Jimin falters, โI-โ he grips the papers closer to his chest, โlisten, you said you don't want kids now-โ
Yoongi looks at him, those eyes are bloodshot red, โdid you abort the pup, Jimin?โ
Jimin shivers, โYoonโฆโ
Yoongi turns to face him fully, โdid you do it?โ
โI signed up for it,โ Jimin whispers, looking anywhere but at Yoongi.
Yoongi stares at him, โthey didn't ask you for the alpha's sign? You are married.โ
Jimin bites the inside of his cheek, staying silent.
Yoongi snatches the papers from him, looking for the other signature.
โKim Namjoon,โ Yoongi reads, anger slowly igniting in his system, โyou,โ he looks over at Jimin, โyou registered him as your husband?!โ his voice rises, โyou realize when they do the document check, they will figure it out?! Forget that, Jimin, why did you do this?!โ
โThat's my baby!โ Yoongi screams, making Jimin almost jump, โyou don't go around me to abort them when you don't even tell me! What's wrong with you?!โ
โYou kept saying you don't want a kid!โ Jimin tries to reach for Yoongi, โyou always mention that. You kept telling me-โ
Jimin grips the hem of Yoongi's shirt, his voice shaky, โyou kept saying how big of a deal it would be for you and how you are not sure if you want that this soon. I got scared, okay?! I thought you will feel obligated, and I didn't want to put that pressure on you in this stat-โ
โStop thinking my parts for me!โ Yoongi shouts, throws the papers on the floor, โdo you hear yourself?! That's my baby! How dare you put Namjoon's name in that damn document?! How dare you decide for the both of us?! It's mine too! That's my baby too, Jimin!โ
Yoongi stumbles, rounds Jimin, โI can't even look at you right now! God, you,โ his face crumbles, โyou are- you-โ he shakes his head.
Jimin takes a hold of Yoongi's wrist, โYoon, listen to me-โ
โNo, you should make Namjoon listen to you,โ Yoongi jerks his hand free, โyeah?โ
โMake him listen to your trouble because apparently, he is more trustworthy to you than your own alpha!โ Yoongi thunders, โmade it look like it's his baby, make him listen to you. F'ck you! F'ck you!โ
Jimin shakes his head, โYoon, please. Listen to me-โ
Yoongi storms out.
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It's late night. Jimin comes back after helping Taehyung move out. He finds himself alone in the house when he walks in. Yoongi nowhere to be found.
With a resigned sigh, Jimin goes to sit by the balcony. The swing there, newly installed, moves while he sits on it.
It's almost an hour or so later when the main door opens. Jimin sits on the swing, body going taut. He holds his breath when he hears the alpha lock the door and slowly drag himself towards the stairs to their master bedroom.
Jimin stays where he is.
A few minutes later, Yoongi comes to the balcony. He doesn't sit beside Jimin like he always does. Instead, he stands in front of the swing, his eyes on Jimin.
Jimin is too scared to match those eyes.
โI punched Namjoon,โ Yoongi whispers, โfor the first time in my life.โ
Jimin sucks in a breath and looks up at the alpha. Yoongi is looking down at him.
โWhat?!โ Jimin feels nauseous.
Yoongi hums, looks away, โI am not the violent type. But, the thought that he went behind my back like thatโฆthen he was defending you and this decision. I lost it.โ
Yoongi shrugs, โJungkook had to struggle to pull me away from him otherwise,โ Yoongi lets out a long breath, โalpha instinct, I guess. He came off as a threat to my pup.โ
Jimin shakes his head, โhe was just trying to help. He-โ
Yoongi's eyes shift to Jimin, silencing him.
Yoongi then lets out a long breath and reaches out to hold Jimin by his arms, โtell me,โ his voice breaks, tears brimming in his eyes, โtell me you didn't do it,โ he shakes Jimin, โtell me you actually didn't do it. Tell me the baby is fine.โ
Jimin's vision blurs too, โYoon-โ
Jimin shakes his head, voice coming out in a whimper, โthey are fine. I couldn't do it. Not without telling you. I chickened out at the last moment. I was going to tell you, but I got so scared, and I kept thinking-โ
โThey?โ Yoongi's voice comes out winded, eyes a little wide.
Jimin takes his phone from the swing and holds it out for Yoongi after opening a photo. The sonogram stares back at Yoongi as he takes it.
Jimin grips the sleeves of his shirt, โwe are,โ his voice breaks around the edges, โwe are having triplets.โ
Yoongi chokes on a sob, โoh!โ
Yoongi looks down at the picture, his eyes trailing over the three dots. He traces the dots with his fingers, his eyes going from the photo to Jimin and back to the photo.
โThe doctor said they are healthy,โ Jimin bites his lower lip, โdoing good.โ
โI can't believe you took the chance from me to be there for our first sonogram,โ Yoongi whispers, tears rolling out of his eyes, โI can't believe Namjoon got to be there. I want to kill him.โ
โHe is important now?โ Jimin murmurs.
โOh, I am mad at you too,โ Yoongi whispers...
โBut then,โ Yoongi reaches to circle his arm around Jimin's waist, โyou are carrying three of my pups and already going to suffer enough.โ
Jimin glares, โis this what making the pregnancy enhancing to you?!โ
Yoongi shrugs, โlet me be a little rude. You hid this from me!โ
Yoongi then slowly reaches for Jimin's flat stomach, hesitates and looks at Jimin, โmay I touch?โ
Jimin's eyes brim with fresh tears, โyes,โ he breathes out, begs almost, โplease.โ
Yoongi slowly places his hand over Jimin's abdomen, sucks in a breath, โoh, lord...โ
Yoongi drops on his knees, lips pressing against Jimin's stomach, โhello, babies,โ he murmurs, lips slowly moving over Jimin's abdomen, โI am your appa,โ he whispers.
Jimin chokes on a sob, his hands slowly coming to rest on Yoongi's hair, caressing his face.
โI am sorry for greeting you all late,โ he presses soft kisses over Jimin's abdomen, โyour pa didn't tell me about you until now. We will be mad at him for a long time, yeah?โ
Jimin lets his nails scrape Yoongi's scalp, โhe is sorry, he swears.โ
Yoongi looks at Jimin, then back at his stomach, โI didn't want you to come so early. Your appa thought he wasn't ready but trust me, I would never turn my back on you or your siblings, when they come. I promise, I will try to be the best father you have. I swear on it.โ
Jimin shakes his head, โno siblings! We are not having more than three kids!โ
Yoongi slowly gets up, pulls Jimin flush against him, โwe will think about it later,โ his voice turns cold, hands tightening on Jimin's hips, โnow, we need to talk about your communication issue!โ
Jimin lets Yoongi sit on the swing and pull him down to straddle the alpha. Jimin looks at Yoongi with wide eyes.
Yoongi looks up at him, hands squeezing Jimin's sides, โmy memories are coming back in bits and pieces, blossom. You know that, right?โ
Jimin nods, gulps, โI-yeah.โ
Yoongi glares at the omega, โwhatever I seem to remember, there's always something common, and that's you hiding stuff from me. That's not going to cut it, blossom,โ he slaps Jimin's ass, โyou have to learn to talk your fears out with me. Okay? You can't shut me off like that!โ
Yoongi lets his hands squeeze Jimin's cheeks, pulling Jimin flush against him, โwhatever it is, whatever you are feeling, let me know. Don't think how I will react. Don't think how others will take it. Or how you think I will take it, just tell me. Please try to, okay?โ
Jimin nods, his arms slowly circling around Yoongi's neck, โyes, husband,โ he leans to press his lips against Yoongi's ear, โlet's start communicating now, shall we?โ
Yoongi nods, feels Jimin's hot breath against his neck, โwhat do you want, blossom?โ
Jimin bites down on Yoongi's earlobe, โthe doctor said it's perfectly fine to have sex during the pregnancy.โ
Yoongi's hands tighten around Jimin, โyou asked?โ
Jimin hums, โyeah. So... can we?โ
Yoongi looks at him, โthat doctor thought Joon is your alpha!โ
Jimin huffs, โthen what do you want? Me to go and ask him?!โ
Yoongi's eyes shift to golden, โdon't even try to go there, blossom, for your own good.โ
Jimin shivers, goosebumps breaking on his skin, โthen, come on, alpha. We haven't done it for a month almost. Please?โ
When Yoongi just glares at him, Jimin takes Yoongi's hand and presses it against his stomach.
โI am carrying your pups,โ he hisses against Yoongi's lips, โwhat more assurance do you need to know I am yours?!โ
Yoongi gets up then, holding Jimin by his ass, โis that so?โ
Yoongi slowly carries Jimin inside the house, โthen let me show you how angry you got me, blossom. Let me remind you that what you did wrong. Yeah?โ
Jimin ruts against Yoongi, kissing him breathless, โyeah, okay. Okay.โ
Yoongi closes the bedroom door behind them...
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โI want to have some chicken nuggets.โ
Yoongi stares at the omega and back at the clock. It's past two at night. He slowly sits up, looks at the omega, who is already pouting at him.
โBlossom, it's past two,โ he rubs his eyes, sleepy, โcan't we go tomorrow morning?โ
Jimin is three months pregnant now. His belly slowly filling up. Yoongi looks at the omega and notices how restless Jimin looks.
โI can go on my own,โ Jimin murmurs, petulant, โthe driver will get me there,โ he looks away, โyou just told me to ask you first.โ
Yoongi lets out a breath, a slow smile spreads on his lips, โfine,โ he swings his legs off the bed, โanything else, my lord?โ
Jimin's lips twitch around a smile, โand some ice-cream?โ
Yoongi nods, bows dramatically, โanything my blossom wants. I will be right back. Yeah?โ
Jimin gets up too, โI am coming with you. I want to go out too. Please?โ
Yoongi hesitates until Jimin is jutting his lips out. Something he learnt works every time on the alpha.
Yoongi nods, โfine,โ he wraps a jumper around Jimin's frame, โbut, wrap yourself up nicely.โ
โOh, I want another thing too,โ Jimin says while they make their way out of the house.
Yoongi stops, โyes? What is it?โ
Jimin reaches, wrapping his arms around Yoongi's neck, โa kiss?โ
Yoongi stares at him for a second before he kisses Jimin right on his mouth, โyes, sir!โ
The hoodie makes him sweat, but he is not comfortable wearing anything else. The yoga pants are scratchy against his skin too, he rubs his belly one more time before looking over at Yoongi who is smiling at something his secretary said. Both of them too busy working.
Jimin watches how the secretary looks at Yoongi. All wonder and starry eyes. His lips part to let his tongue wet his lower lip. Jimin's eyes skim over the tight jeans the man wore, the shirt is too flimsy for coming to the boss' house.
He keeps touching Yoongi while talking.
He is beautiful if Jimin can say so. Loud pink hair, glasses of a nerd that might be sexy to some, those full lips always so plump. That figureโฆ Jimin tries hard not to compare but so shaped and curvy.
Unlike Jimin, who is getting heavier day by day. Stretch marks all over him.
God, Jimin looks down at his feet and curses, even his toes are getting swollen. He watches how Yoongi stares at the secretary, Jeong, and listens to everything he has to say.
Jimin grips the side of the couch to get up. He already feels exhausted. He pulls himself up to leave.
He feels nauseous time to time. The heaviness makes his back hurt almost all the time. Jimin takes a hold of his stomach and tries to leave as silently as he can.
โShit, are you alright?โ Yoongi whispers, already behind him, โyou want me to carry you-โ
โNo!โ Jimin hisses.
โI will be fine,โ he waves Yoongi off, โjust get him out of here soon. You two's voices irk me,โ he hates how he comes off nowadays.
A little distant, a lot snappy. Yoongi never utters a word, but it hurts him and Jimin knows, but he can't help it.
โBlossom,โ Yoongi sighs...
โYou know he is here because I am not going to the office, right?โ Yoongi tries, follows Jimin with his arms outstretched around Jimin just to make sure, โhe just came here to drop by some files.โ
Jimin stops, looks over his shoulder at Yoongi, โis that a bother?โ
โUh?โ Yoongi arches a brow, โwhat?โ
Jimin gestures vaguely, โyou not going to the office, is that a bother for the two of you? Then, please, by all means, go. Don't stop on my account. I can manage on my own. I understand how important working with him might be.โ
Yoongi stares.
Jimin gets inside the bedroom. He goes over to sit on the bed, feeling drained. Frustration prickle his eyes, making him grip the edge of the bed.
โClose the door,โ Jimin tells Yoongi who stands by the door, โwhen you leave.โ
He grunts, drags himself up on the bed.
Yoongi walks in instead, much to Jimin's misery.
โDo you need me to do something, blossom?โ Yoongi asks, reaches out to touch Jimin, and Jimin swats him away.
โDon't touch me!โ Jimin hisses, โyou have done that enough! Now leave and let me rest! I am sick and tired of you!โ
Yoongi stops himself, โyou want me out of the house?โ
Jimin is not sure what he wants. He just wants to feel like himself again, wants to feel comfortable in his skin again. He shrugs.
โDo whatever, just leave me alone here.โ
Yoongi watches him for a few seconds, then leaves.
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โIt's hard for him now,โ Hoseok sits curled up on the couch, a mug of steaming coffee in his hands, โhis body is changing, his hormones are acting up, he is going through so much, Yoongi. He feels insecure.โ
โOf what?โ Yoongi frowns, โhe has nothing to be insecure about!โ
โHis changing body?โ Jin shrugs, sits behind Hoseok, โhis inability to do something as comfortably as he used to? He is probably seeing himself and your secretary and comparing how gorgeous the secretary looks-โ
โJeong is nowhere near as pretty as him,โ Yoongi frowns, โwhat?โ
โThen tell him that,โ Hoseok reaches to flick Yoongi on the forehead, โyou stupid alpha. Tell him that every day. Every hour. Tell him how beautiful you find him. Tell him how he makes you feel. Tell him he is-โ
โPrettier, if that's possible,โ Yoongi looks down at his coffee.
โTreat him to dates,โ Jin makes a thoughtful face, โtreat him to whatever he wants to eat or watch. Don't make a face, I know you don't, just saying. Take him-โ
โHe can't move from one room to the other without feeling nauseous,โ Yoongi gives Jin a look, โtake him out? Really?โ
โArrange those at home,โ Jungkook drops on the couch next to Yoongi, โdates don't have to be at an extravagant place. Arrange something at home for him.โ
Yoongi stares at Jungkook and back at the others, โthis kid is giving me advice now!โ
Jungkook rolls his eyes, โYeah, and?โ
โI had a kid before you did,โ Jungkook elbows Yoongi in the stomach, takes the cookie Namjoon holds out for him, โI am already ahead in this race!โ
โYou only have one kid,โ Yoongi counters back, โI already got three,โ he dodges the kick Hoseok aims at him, โwhat? I am winning!โ
Namjoon swats Yoongi on his back, โnot a competition!โ
โAlso, I will have longer time to have more kids, you are already old,โ Jungkook squints at him, โyou just watch!โ
โYeah, okay, keep telling yourself that!โ Yoongi rolls his eyes, โwe will see. I am already ahead!โ
โYeah, him and Daejung both are younger than us,โ Namjoon snorts, โthey have more chances of pups than we do, hyung.โ
The room goes quiet and Yoongi's smile slowly dims. The playfulness leaves him to leave behind a sense of ache for the younger who Yoongi sees as his brother.
Yoongi looks over to see Jungkook looking down at his coffee, jaw tight. He places a hand over Jungkook's knee and squeezes.
Jungkook looks up at him, those eyes are somewhat glossy. He breathes out a chuckle, looks away from Yoongi.
โNo, I am fine with just Sarangie.โ
Yoongi smiles, โshe is enough. For now.โ
Jin nods too, glares at Namjoon and looks back at Jungkook, โyep! She is more than enough.โ
Jungkook traces the edge of the mug, โI always wanted four kids, you know? Now... I think one is fine.โ
Yoongi's heart aches, โyeah...โ
โIf it's not with the right person, it's not worth it,โ Yoongi whispers, nods when Jungkook's eyes flicker over to him.
Jungkook gives him a small smile, โI might never have another kid then, hyung. You already won the competition.โ
Yoongi watches Jungkook get up to leave.
โYou had to bring Daejung in this!โ Hoseok swats at Namjoon, โwhat's wrong with you?!โ
โI was just trying to ease him into the thought of a future with him!โ Namjoon holds his hands up, โI can't see him and Tae go back and forth for both of them to hurt so much!โ
Yoongi gets up too, โyou can't ease into the thought of another person when you are still in love with someone else,โ he gives Namjoon a look, โlet him ease himself into whatever he thinks is fine. Yeah? Leave him to it. Anyway, I will go too. Jimin must be waiting.โ
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Jimin sits in the bathtub, the slow music plays in the room and the darkness makes him feel invisible, out of public eyes. It feels good. Jimin sips the apple juice, hums to himself while he leans back against the marble to watch the moon through the window right beside the tub.
Jimin traces patterns on the glass, smiles when he feels his muscles slowly relaxing. He rubs his hand over his swollen tummy and sighs to himself.
The sound of the bedroom door opening makes him flinch and sit up in the bath. Yoongi's voice carries over to him next.
โBlossom?โ
Jimin curses, tries to hide himself by turning away from the bathroom door when it opens. Yoongi turns on the lights.
โShit, don't!โ Jimin hisses, โturn the damn lights off!โ
Yoongi does as told, โyou are having a bath?โ
โYeah, now get out,โ Jimin tries to pull his legs up.
Jimin doesn't want Yoongi to see him like this. So heavy, so pale and stretch marks all over him. So chubby. He feels frustration build in him when the alpha walks in, slowly comes over to the bathtub.
Jimin looks up at the man over his shoulder to see Yoongi.
Yoongi is still in his office clothes. The black shirt is crinkled, the sleeves folded till the elbows. The tie is hanging from his neck loosely, the buttons of the shirt open till his midriff. He lost the jacket on his way here.
Yoongi kneels by the tub. Jimin glares.
โI don't get a kiss?โ Yoongi murmurs.
โYour secretary isn't giving you that?โ Jimin bites his tongue after saying that.
Yoongi chuckles, reaches to take a hold of Jimin's face, โdidn't ask him. Don't want him.โ
He slowly pulls Jimin to him, their lips inches away...
โIt has been ages since you last let me be near you,โ Yoongi murmurs against Jimin's lips, โI can't respect your boundaries anymore, blossom. Forgive me.โ
He kisses Jimin, holds him in place and kisses him right on the mouth. Jimin whimpers into it, grasping at Yoongi's shirt.
Jimin wrenches his face away from the alpha's and wipes his lips. He heaves for air, looks anywhere but at the alpha.
โYou have done what you wanted, now go,โ Jimin murmurs, protectively hugging himself, โleave me alone.โ
โNo,โ Yoongi answers right away, โI am not leaving.โ
Jimin looks over at him, โwhy not? What else do you want, and what can I possibly give you?โ
โDo you regret the babies?โ Yoongi murmurs, ignores how by leaning over the bathtub, he is letting his shirt soak up the water, โblossom?โ
Jimin's eyes are wide, glossy, โno. No!โ
โDo you regret they are mine?โ Yoongi leans closer, eyes holding Jimin captive, โis that it?โ
Jimin shakes his head, looks away, โI don't.โ
โThen walk me through it, blossom. What's wrong?โ Yoongi tries to make Jimin look at him, โwhat's wrong? Am I doing something wrong?โ
โI get you whatever you want, I go to bring you whatever you need, no matter what time it is, and I don't want to count those as something you need to be grateful about. No. But, I am just saying, if I still need to do more, tell me. If you still need something more-โ
โIn this chaos of me needing things from you, you stopped 'needing' me,โ Jimin whispers, looks down at the water, โyou don't need me anymore. Haven't wanted me in months. Am I,โ his voice wavers, โdo I look that heinous to you now?โ
For a minute, Yoongi stops.
โWhat?โ he whispers, โwhat did you say?โ
Jimin shrugs, looks out at the moon, โyou just do whatever I ask of you and that's all. You just... you stopped caring.โ
Yoongi sits up on his knees, โI stopped caring?! What the-โ he holds in a breath, โwhat are you saying? That's not-โ
โYou did,โ Jimin frowns, doesn't turn to match those eyes that bore on his face, โwhen was the last time you hugged me while we slept? When was the last time you looked at me like I was,โ he shrugs, โwell, I don't blame you. I am not desirable any more. I know.โ
โI don't hug you because you said that makes you feel suffocated,โ Yoongi forces himself to calm down, โyou told me to not look at you when you change, and you barely let me be anywhere near you throughout the day. Hell, you stopped taking off clothes in front of me.โ
โYou won't let me massage your feet or stomach like the doctor said,โ Yoongi grits out, โI want to throttle that servant of yours who does that for you! Do you know how hard it is for me to know he gets to touch you, see you like that when I am not allowed to?!โ
โHe is not a servant,โ Jimin frowns, looks at Yoongi, โhe works for me as a masseuse!โ
โAnd, he is just my secretary,โ Yoongi arches a brow, โworks for me as one.โ
Jimin glares, โhe touches you like you belong to him!โ
Yoongi glares back, โso does that boytoy of yours!โ
Jimin grips the edge of the bathtub, โhe has a mate!โ
โYou have a husband and carrying his kids!โ Yoongi reaches to grasp Jimin by his neck to pull him closer, โI have a husband who is carrying my pups! I don't look at anyone else when all I can think about is him!โ
โAnd, if you are talking about why I didn't want you in the past few months, it's because you won't let me touch you, Jimin!โ Yoongi hisses, โit's you who don't want that. You have no idea how much I want you. Damn, you have no idea how much I want you right now!โ
โYou look so fucking delicious to me right now,โ Yoongi leans to press his lips against Jimin's neck, tongue flat over the pulse, โso plump and pretty. Only for me. Because of me. You have no idea how much I want you. But you are six months pregnant! I don't want to jostle you!โ
Jimin bites back a whimper, stays quiet when the alpha starts nipping his throat. He watches how Yoongi unbuttons his shirt with one hand, swiftly shrugging out of that. He gets the tie off him, throws it over his shoulder.
Jimin lets Yoongi undress before the alpha sinks into the bathtub behind him. Yoongi pulls Jimin flushed against his chest. Jimin holds still, watches how the alpha's arms sneak around him to spread over his belly. So possessive in their hold on him.
โMine,โ Yoongi whispers against his ear, โmy omega. Carrying my pups. The prettiest omega I know.โ
Jimin's eyes flutter closed when Yoongi trails kisses down his shoulder. He arches his neck, looks sideways to let the alpha carry on.
โYou want to?โ Yoongi asks, โblossom?โ
Jimin looks over his shoulder, โyou sure?โ
Yoongi chuckles, โthat if I want you or not? Yeah. I do.โ
Jimin looks away, โyou don't have to force yourself-โ
โEveryday I set my alarm a little earlier than necessary,โ Yoongi whispers, โso that I can wake up a little early and...โ
โHold you to me,โ Yoongi presses his lips against Jimin's neck, โbecause that's the only time you let me near you. When you are sleeping. I hold you close and watch how beautiful you look while you sleep so peacefully. Then I get up to make you some juice in bed.โ
โI make sure your clothes are warm and there's no scent on them because you got so sensitive to any type of smell. I make sure to tell the cook to make you something with less spice. Then I get back to the bedroom and you are up by then, you look so comfortable at that moment...โ
โDrinking the juice while the duvets pool around you,โ Yoongi nuzzles closer to Jimin, โeyes blinking back sleep. God, how many days... how many days I wanted to go up to you and pull you in a kiss, but I know you won't want that. So, I kept my distance. I held myself back.โ
โI would come back from the office to see you getting massages from that guy,โ Yoongi's arms tighten around Jimin, โso many days I wanted to snap at him to leave. So many days I thought of asking you if I can do that instead-โ
โMy tummy,โ Jimin whispers, โit's... ugly.โ
โThere are too many stretch marks,โ Jimin feels his eyes pool with tears, โthere are too many blemishes,โ he wipes his eyes, โI can't look at myself properly in the mirror, how can you-โ
โThose stretch marks are normal,โ Yoongi whispers, โthey show how your body is changing.โ
โYou are carrying the weight of three babies all the time,โ Yoongi speaks in awe, โyou are so strong, and you have no idea how you make me feel whenever I look at you. If you want, I will show you how beautiful you are. Yeah?โ
Jimin looks over his shoulder at Yoongi, โI am?โ
โYou are,โ Yoongi nods, โcome on.โ
Jimin lets Yoongi pull him out of the bathtub, sit him down on the sink counter. Yoongi takes a towel, wipes Jimin down till his feet before he picks up the T-shirt Jimin kept for himself after the bath. He helps Jimin into it.
โWait here.โ
Yoongi goes to dress himself and Jimin wears the shorts he kept there too. Yoongi comes back in his grey t-shirt and joggers. He opens his arms, Jimin eyes him and quirks a brow.
โI'll carry you back to the bed,โ Yoongi gives him a gummy smile, โcome on.โ
โDon't,โ Jimin warns.
Jimin lets out a gasp when Yoongi picks him up, โyou will drop me or break your own back,โ he grabs the alpha by his neck, โyoon! Stop!โ
Yoongi carries Jimin back to the bedroom, rolls his eyes, โI am strong, for god's sake!โ
He slowly sits Jimin down on the bed.
Yoongi is about to speak when they hear the knock on the bedroom door.
โSir?โ the guy speaks, โare you done? Shall I come in?โ
Yoongi looks at the door and back at Jimin.
Jimin shrugs, โhe massages me. You know!โ
Yoongi glares, โnot anymore.โ
He goes over to the door.
โI will do it,โ Yoongi speaks, โyou can go to sleep.โ
The guy blinks at him, โare you sure? I mean-โ
โYes,โ Yoongi lets the word rumble out of him, โI am sure that I can give my omega a massage he needs. Go.โ
The guy nods, scurry away. Jimin rolls his eyes.
โYou are so-โ
Yoongi ignores Jimin's words and waves his hand. Jimin leans on the bedrest, lets Yoongi help him with a few pillows behind his back.
โI have read about this too,โ Yoongi lets him know, โnever massage a pregnant omega on their back or front. This is fine.โ
Jimin's lips twitch.
Yoongi goes over to pick up the bottle of oil, โI have read that the best oil is lavender, mixed with coconut.โ
Jimin nods, โthat's exactly what you are holding right now.โ
Yoongi nods, โgood! That guy is not robbing me off my money and my place for nothing then.โ
Jimin bites back a laugh. He watches Yoongi come up to sit in the bed. Their eyes match and Yoongi gives him a silent nod.
Jimin lets out a shaky breath, slowly tugs his shirt up to reveal his stomach. Yoongi's eyes flicker down, and Jimin holds his breath.
Yoongi reaches outโฆ
He traces the lines with his fingertips. Jimin lets out a breath, eyes stuck on Yoongi's face. Yoongi looks fascinated, his eyes trailing over the finger he uses. The alpha leans in, Jimin watches, feels, how Yoongi kisses his stomach, preps kisses all over it.
Jimin holds back a sob when Yoongi looks up at him, โI don't know what you are talking about, these marks make you prettier to me.โ
Jimin sniffles, bites back a whimper when Yoongi noses his stomach, rubs his cheek against it. Jimin reaches out tentatively to hold Yoongi's hair.
He combs his fingers through Yoongi's long hair, scratches his nails on the scalp. Yoongi hums, buries his face against Jimin's stomach, kisses him over and over again.
โI love you,โ Yoongi whispers, buries those words against Jimin's stomach, โand, I love our babies.โ
Jimin holds back a sob when Yoongi nuzzles him there. Then the alpha slowly sits up to pour a little oil onto his palm. He rubs his palms together and then Yoongi is slowly rubbing the oil down on Jimin's stomach. Jimin lets out a slow moan, closing his eyes.
Yoongi watches him.
As Yoongi's fingers work over Jimin's stomach, Jimin finds himself relaxing.
โYou are so beautiful!โ Yoongi whispers, โso, so pretty.โ
Jimin's eyes flutter, he looks at the alpha, โI am?โ
Yoongi nods, rubbing the oil all over Jimin's stomach, โso much. So much, blossom.โ
Jimin absorbs those words. Silently watches Yoongi massage him down till his toes. He lets Yoongi knead his feet, the pads of his feet. Yoongi works slowly, makes sure Jimin feels his muscles relaxing.
By the time he is done, Jimin is almost sleepy.
Yoongi places the oil beside their bed and comes up to pull Jimin in his arm.
โWas I good?โ he asks, lips pressing against Jimin's temple.
โYes,โ Jimin hums, snuggles closer to the alpha, โyou were so good.โ
โNice,โ Yoongi holds Jimin to him, โgood night, blossom.โ
โYou don't want anything for it?โ Jimin asks, voice suggestive.
Yoongi chuckles, โnot tonight. Sleep. We can do it tomorrow morning.โ
โAre you sure?โ Jimin arches a brow, โI can blow you.โ
โFuck,โ Yoongi curses, โtomorrow. I want to have you. Tomorrow.โ
Jimin blushes, โfine.โ
โโโโ ยฐโข โ โขยฐ โโโโ
Yoongi watches how Jimin thrashes on the hospital bed. He grasps Jimin's hand, feels the pain in his bones the more he watches the omega.
โJust a little more, blossom,โ Yoongi murmurs the same words helplessly, โit will be fine.โ
Jimin nods, face bright red, โit hurts, Yoon!โ
โIt will be fine,โ Yoongi rushes with the doctors to the OT, but they stop him, shakes their head, โbut,โ Yoongi begs, โbut, I am his alpha! I can stay-โ
โNo,โ the doctor shakes his head, โhis condition is too critical for that, Mr. Min. He might get infected. You stay here.โ
tw// Implied death in childbirth, mention of blood,
Almost thirty minutes later, the doctor comes out to talk to Yoongi.
โThe patient has high-blood pressure as of now,โ the doctor murmurs, โalso, the bleeding is excessive. We have only got one baby out. I am not sure if he will survive the other two.โ
Yoongi stares.
โWe will try our best,โ the doctor squeezes Yoongi's bicep, โbut, you have to sign a bond. Choose whose life we should prioritize.โ
โ๐๐๐๐, ๐๐ก ๐ฉ๐ข๐๐ก๐ !โ Yoongi feels the pain surge in his chest.
That cannot be Jimin's last words to him.
โJimin,โ Yoongi grips the doctor's hand, โget my mate safely out of there,โ his voice cracks, โI can't do this without him. I can't do this!โ
The doctor pauses, โI see.โ
Yoongi nods, wipes his eyes hurriedly, โdo anything, but bring him back to me,โ he feels his heart crack.
โPlease follow me, sir,โ the doctor, Mr. Lee, requests and Yoongi does. He follows the doctor lifelessly to his cabin.
The doctor sits him down, lets out a rugged breath and looks at him.
โSir, the patient is bleeding excessively,โ he starts, โI am afraid, it's out of control.โ
โWe couldn't do C-section because of his high BP,โ the doctor pulls a drawer open, the sound too eerie in that quiet room, โhe is weak because of the days' long contractions. He fell unconscious too. We are trying,โ he holds out a paper for Yoongi, โbut, you have to sign this.โ
Yoongi lets the paper fall in front of him, his eyes traces the lines. Those lines don't register with him.
His mind takes him back to another time.
He was just like this. Sitting in a chair, in front of another man. Mister Park. Asking him to sign the NDAโฆ
The memories surface time to time. He absorbs them and talks to his doctor about them.
Tonight it's the memory of the first contract he signed for Jimin. To not disclose they spent Jimin's heat together. To just say they were in love.
Yoongi stares at the page. He is in loveโฆ
โWhat are the chances of him surviving?โ Yoongi whispers, โwhat are the odds?โ
Doctor Lee gives him a long look, shrugs, โ5% maximum.โ
Yoongi grips the pen in his hand.
His mind is back in Mr. Park's office, him sitting where the doctor sits. Yoongi right where he is.
โ๐๐๐ข ๐๐๐ฃ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ค,โ Mr. Park had given him a small smirk, โ๐ฆ๐๐ข ๐๐๐๐ฉ๐ก ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ค๐๐ก๐ฉ ๐๐ฆ ๐ ๐๐.โ
Yoongi remembers being mad, โ๐๐ฉ๐ ๐๐ฉ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ค๐๐ก๐ฉ ๐ฆ๐๐ข๐ ๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ง๐๐๐, ๐๐. ๐๐๐๐.โ
Jimin worked with zero in the past. Yoongi picks up the pen, begging to the universe for a miracle.
Yoongi signs his name and begs for a miracle. For someone to guide Jimin back to him as always.
Becauseโฆ he realized ages ago, Jimin doesn't need him, he needs Jimin. To live.
His sign looks distorted, the lines too shaky. Yoongi sits on the chair while the doctor files the paper away.
โWe are trying our best, sir,โ doctor Lee sounds sad, utterly so, โtrust us. We don't want ill of our patient, either.โ
Yoongi nods, sits there lifelessly.
The doctor rushes out, ready to try one last time.
Yoongi looks at the world outside through the window, his eyes grazing the night sky.
The longing is like dรฉjร vu. It consumes him. Yoongi sits there and thinks he felt like this before. As if he is losing his loveโฆ
There is a part of him that feels like he felt this pain before. Of his blossom leaving him. It's not new. It's something he dealt with. Yoongi frowns, tries to remember if anyone mentioned of that before. Another time when Jimin's life was at risk.
No one ever mentioned that.
That feeling is old, it carries in his veins. The fear of losing the person he loves. It consumes him as if he once went pretty close to that fear and Yoongi tries hard to remember when, where, howโฆ
His brain doesn't recall, but the fear is there. Yoongi frowns at the window.
That grief that feels like it runs in his veins. For ages, years, decades, centuriesโฆ
โ๐ด ๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐ ๐ค๐๐ก๐ฉ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ฆ๐๐ข.โ
Yoongi frowns, feels the goosebumps on his skin. As if he hears that right now. As if someone said it to him before.
It's a whisper against his ear. In Jimin's voice. The heartache intensifies. Yoongi feels like the pain he feels in his veins is not new. He felt that before.
He gets up, shakes his head, โno,โ he frowns, โwhat the fuck are you thinking? That never happened. He never said it-โ
Yoongi smells the ocean breeze, feels like he can pick up on the scent of cherry blossom. Yoongi shakes his head, gets out of the room to follow the doctor. He walks down the aisle, feels that weird feeling in his mind. Still there.
Still right there.
Yoongi watches a team of doctor get inside the OT, pushing past Taehyung, who clings to that door.
Yoongi walks up to him, feels his friends right beside him. He keeps his eyes on that door, trying to ignore that nagging dรฉjร vu in his mind that still races.
โWh-what did they say?โ Taehyung stutters out, breaking Yoongi out of that spell.
โThe choice is a pretence, there isn't anything to choose,โ Yoongi murmurs, โthe babies are healthy so,โ he stops, looks like he stops breathing too, โso, they are focusing on getting them out.โ
Yoongi feels his heart break in him, that weird nausea comes back. He sways as if he is on a ship, underneath him the ship sways and Yoongi stumbles, almost falling backwards, but Jungkook is there, holding him up. His friends are all around him.
Yoongi gives a delirious laugh, sways on his feet before he leans over the door to support himself, โI just signed a paper that says it's okay with me if my mate doesn't make it. I,โ he giggles in Jin's arms when Jin rushes to hold him up, โsigned his death certificate.โ
Yoongi watch the OT through that small glass. The green curtain moves, the doctors moving around in a flurry of activities.
Through their moving figures and the curtain's gap, Yoongi sees Jimin's almost lifeless face.
His heart lurches to his throat, the fear intensifying.
It's not intentional.
He is not even sure what it means.
He is not sure why it comes out of his mouth.
But it feels like something so easy to utter. Something he said before.
Yoongi leans on the door and stares at that face.
โ๐๐ฆ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐โฆ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐.โ
Yoongi leans his forehead against the door, tears prickling his eyes. He grasps the doorknob. Hears how Jungkook drags Taehyung back to sit on the bench, but he doesn't move.
โI will leave with you,โ Yoongi murmurs, โor, I will go where they take you.โ
โAn alpha can't live without his mate,โ Yoongi whispers, โand, in some cases, it's not just a mating bite that holds the bond together, blossom, ours,โ he gulps, tears brimming in his eyes, โours feel like a bond for ages. I can't be without you. In any universe. Come back.โ
Yoongi stays there, waiting. It feels like he waits for hours. Hours before the door is opening.
Another nurse comes out, holding a baby in his arms, โa boy,โ he murmurs, his eyes glossy somehow, โwe will have to keep him in ventilation though.โ
Yoongi nods, watches him go.
He turns back towards the door, holds his breath while he waits. His body feels limp when after a few minutes he sees the last baby.
Another boy. He follows his brother to the ventilation too.
Yoongi feels Taehyung come to stand beside him, both of them holding their breath.
Yoongi feels Taehyung's hand seeks his out. They grasp each other's hands. Both of their palms cold. Their both stare at the curtain, the shadows behind it moves frantically.
Taehyung's grip on Yoongi's hand tightens, โhe will be alright.โ
Yoongi can't speak. He can't.
The others are right behind them, waiting just as breathlessly.
Taehyung's nails dig into Yoongi's palms. Yoongi mentally forces himself to focus on that feeling, otherwise he feels numb.
The doctor opens the curtain a little to get out and starts walking towards the door.
The doctor comes out, looks at them with tired eyes, โhe is still unconscious,โ a slow, satisfied smile lifts the corners of his lips, โbut, he pulled through. The bleeding was indeed heavy, but we managed to stop it. He will be in ICU for now, he, hopefully, will be fine. Butโฆโ
โBut?โ Yoongi urges, โbut, what?โ
The doctor shakes his head, โwe have to tie his tubes,โ his face looks remorseful, โhe can't carry any more pups.โ
Everyone looks at Yoongi and Yoongi watches the doctor.
โYou really think,โ Yoongi murmurs, gulps, โI would let him after this?โ
โI will never live this nightmare again!โ Yoongi shakes his head, โif I get him back,โ his lips wobble, โI was going to personally ask him to agree to tying the tubes. I don't need more kids! Three are enough! I just need him to be fine. He will be, right?โ
โHe will be,โ the doctor smiles, โdon't worry. I think you got a fighter in there.โ
Yoongi watches Taehyung wipe his eyes, hiding his face against Jungkook's chest. He knows he is crying too.
โYeah,โ Yoongi breathes out, โI got a fighter in there.โ
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He feels sore. His whole body aches, but the intense pain in his lower abdomen makes Jimin wince. He blinks, eyes fluttering open to welcome more darkness.
Except for the dim light of the lamp on his bedside table. He squirms, looks around the quiet room.
No one is there.
The fear is sudden. The confusion is right there.
Where is he? Where are his babies? What is he doing-
Jimin tries to shake his arm, and then he feels it. Something heavy on his arm. He looks down to have his breath caught in his chest.
Yoongi sleeps on his palm, his cheek resting on Jimin's palm while he sleeps. Jimin's eyes travel over the alpha's tired face. There are dark-circles around his eyes. That complexion is too pale.
Jimin lets out a small smile, thumb caressing the alpha's pouty lips.
Yoongi's lips part, hot breath caresses Jimin's thumb. He traces the lower lip, nail digging there.
Then the silence breaks around them. He hears the shrill cry of a baby. Jimin startles, his heart tugs in his chest. He looks around the room frantically.
โI am up, I am up,โ Yoongi murmurs, yawns and gets up, without noticing Jimin, โhere, baby, appa is right here, bub.โ
Jimin watches Yoongi go to the corner of the room where a crib is. The alpha leans down to pick up a bundle. Jimin's heart lurches to his throat.
Their baby.
Jimin tries to reach, say something. But his throat is dry, and he can't move his entire arm. So, he watches, helpless, how Yoongi walks back and forth with the baby. The small bundle wrapped protectively in his arms.
โYour pa will be up soon, okay?โ Yoongi whispers, โI know.โ
Jimin chokes on a sob, he coughs, startling the alpha. Yoongi whips around, the baby held tightly to his chest.
Jimin watches how the alpha's eyes widen, and then he stills.
Jimin tries to reach, โY-โ he whines, โYoonโฆโ
Yoongi stares, saying nothing.
โBabyโฆโ Jimin whimpers.
Yoongi startles, breaks out of his shock to rush over to Jimin.
โOh, my God, you are up!โ He panics, โoh, my god, you are awake! Wait!โ He presses the bell, twice, thrice, and then he sits down on the stool, โblossom. You are up!โ
Jimin stills when Yoongi almost grasps him in his arms, lips pressing against Jiminโs hair.
Jimin feels the pain in his abdomen. His entire body aches. He slowly wraps his arms around Yoongi, buries his face in his alphaโs neck to inhale his scent.
Yoongi keeps chanting โthank youโs and Jimin realizes the alpha is thanking him for coming back. Jimin remembers now. In that operation theatre, how the doctors were so worried. How painful the entire process was. He remembers them saying he is losing too much blood.
Jimin holds the alpha tightly, โI am fine. Yoon, I am fine.โ
Yoongi shakes his head, โlet me be. For a long time you werenโt. Do you have any idea how you made me feel?โ
Jimin smiles, tired, looks up at the alphaโs face, โsorry?โ
Yoongi cups his face, peppers tender kisses all over Jiminโs face, โI am sorry,โ his voice comes out hoarse, โfor making you go through this. Never againโโ
Jimin holds Yoongiโs hands, โcan you not? I wanted our pups. I,โ he looks over at where the crib is, โcan I see them?โ
Yoongi nods, โyes. But first, I need to call the doctors. Then you can hold them.โ
Jimin sits through it all. The doctors drawing his blood, sending it for tests. The nurses giving him a few injections. Asking how he is feeling.
At last, Yoongi lets him hold the babies. The alpha carries the babies up to him one by one. Carefully place them on Jiminโs lap and sits right beside him.
โWe have a baby girl and two baby boys,โ Yoongi whispers, smiles down at the babies as they squirm, โarenโt they pretty?โ
Jiminโs eyes pool with tears, โthey are,โ he sniffles, โoh, Yoon, we have our babies.โ
Yoongi nods, his throat bobbing, โour babies.โ
Jimin leans against Yoongi, his eyes moving from one face to the other.
He smiles and pulls them all to his chest. Kisses each one of them on their head.
They are his babies.
Jimin turns his neck to pull Yoongi down for a kiss too. His alpha.
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โDo you think we should talk about the mating?โ Yoongi asks one night, both of them cuddled together in their master bedroom.
Jimin lies on Yoongiโs chest, draws patterns on the alphaโs chest, โwhat about it?โ
Yoongiโs arm tightens around him, โhow I want to mate you?โ
Jimin smiles, buries his face against his alphaโs neck, โwe have three kids who are just three months old. I think you should trust me when I say, I am not going anywhere.โ
Yoongi snorts, โthatโs not the point and you know it.โ
Jimin hums, โwhatโs the point, then?โ
Yoongi pulls Jiminโs face up to kiss him, โyou know how I am almost there, right? My memories are recovering steadily, and I remember almost everything by now?โ
Jimin hums into the kiss, โand?โ
Yoongi shrugs, โI remember our first mating, and it was,โ he frowns, โI want to do it right, this time.โ
Jimin looks up at his husband, still a little winded from the sex they just had, โwell, we can do it. Are you sure?โ
Yoongi looks at him, eyes moving all over Jiminโs face, โI donโt think I will ever be more sure.โ
Jimin chuckles, closes his eyes while he cuddles up to Yoongi, โgood. Letโs talk it through tomorrow and set a date.โ
They go to sleep.
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โWhat are you doing?โ Jimin walks inside the home office of his husband, who is sitting on the carpet with a bunch of papers all around him.
A few scissors, glue and diaries are scattered around too. Yoongi looks up at him, startled, and then smiles with his gums out.
โThe babies are asleep?โ the alpha asks.
Jimin nods, โyes? Yoon, what are you doing?โ
โThe babies are asleep?โ the alpha asks.
Jimin nods, โyes? Yoon, what are you doing?โ
Yoongi shrugs, points at the journal, โjust something.โ
Jimin sits beside Yoongi, makes sure not to get glue on himself, โwhatโโ
He stops. Stares.
Yoongi flips through the journal. Showing him the photos he stuck there, writing a few lines here and there.
Jimin snorts, feels his eyes tearing up, โwhy are you looking at me? I didn't realize, either.โ
Yoongi traces the photos he has. A few more. He chuckles.
โLooks like I was always looking at you, blossom. You never noticed.โ
Jimin picks up those photos. Clicked in different occasions. By different people. One thing is common in each one of them.
Yoongi's eyes are always on him.
Jimin blinks back the tears that gather in his eyes, places the photos down while Yoongi flips the pages of the journal.
With each page, Jimin feels his heart break a few more times. He leans his head against Yoongi's chest by the time he sees the photo of him with the babies in his lap.
He lets Yoongi pull him closer, smiles at the photos.
Yoongi kisses the top of his head, โdo you like it?โ
Jimin nods, wipes his eyes, โI do. The babies can go through this some day and read how their pa met their appa.โ
Yoongi laughs, fixing the last photo on the journal while he thinks of the caption. Then he shrugs with a small smile.
โI don't need to make up lines for this one.โ
โโณ๐พ๐๐พ-โณ๐พ๐๐พ.โ
Jimin laughs, lets Yoongi pull him in a kiss while he giggles.
โMiniminies,โ Jimin laughs harder, โI can't believe you remember our friends calling us that.โ
Yoongi smiles into the kiss too, โI promise to never forget anything related to you ever again, blossom.โ
They kiss, their hands laced together, the photos and their memories all over the floor around them.
Some are scattered and some are saved into a journal they both know they will come back to. To revisit and to add more.
To add so many more.