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Amy ๐Ÿช„
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Jul 21, 2022
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Resigned; a #YoonminAU "So stop. Stop bringing others between us!" Yoongi tries to take a hold of the omega, "stop making it about the other person-" Jiminโ€™s eyes flicker to Hoseok who is in Yoongiโ€™s car, worried eyes fixed on them, "yeah," Jimin sighs, "let's stop."

Jimin hugs himself, heavy rain pouring on him, "let's stop bringing the other person between two lovers." Yoongi reaches out desperately,"good. Okay, good. Now-" "Now let the third person go, hyung," Jimin thanks the rain for hiding his tears, stepping back, "let me go."
- The Yoonmin arc of RESTRICTED, the taekook au - Up for commission (check the price chart and then dm me if you want) amyungv999.carrd.co
โ™ค Commissioned โ™ค Will start from 27th
โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โœงโ…โœฆโ…โœงโ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€
The diary lies in the box of things Yoongi labelled as 'trash.' Forgotten by its owner. Harmless in its existence. Jimin picks it up, wipes the surface before opening it. He smiles when he sees it's Yoongi's college time journal. The pages messy with Yoongi's rants all over it.
There are lyrics written at the edges of the pages Jimin flips through. His eyes skimming over the lines as he goes. He pauses when he sees Hoseok's pictures. A few Polaroids. Taped on the pages. Yoongi wrote a few words under each. Jimin tries to move past. He can't.
By the time he comes to the end of the journal, Jimin has tears clinging to his eyelashes. He picks up the next diary, filled with just as many details and pictures. Until it stops. Until the day Yoongi writes he is going to ask Hoseok out. Then there's nothing for a few pages.
Jimin knows what happened that night. He knows what went down right after. He flips the page to see another entry after a week. The pages aren't messy anymore. They are kind of sorted. Kind of clean, butโ€ฆ lifeless. Not filled with colours and chaos. Silent. Sombre.
โ€œ๐ผ ๐‘“๐‘ข๐‘๐‘˜๐‘’๐‘‘ ๐‘–๐‘ก ๐‘Ž๐‘™๐‘™ ๐‘ข๐‘ ๐‘“๐‘œ๐‘Ÿ ๐‘š๐‘ฆ๐‘ ๐‘’๐‘™๐‘“ ๐‘Ž๐‘›๐‘‘ ๐˜ฉ๐‘–๐‘š,โ€ it says, โ€œ๐‘›๐‘œ๐‘ค ๐‘Ž๐‘™๐‘™ ๐‘ก๐˜ฉ๐‘’๐‘Ÿ๐‘’โ€™๐‘  ๐‘™๐‘’๐‘“๐‘ก ๐‘ก๐‘œ ๐‘‘๐‘œ ๐‘–๐‘  ๐‘š๐‘Ž๐‘˜๐‘’ ๐‘–๐‘ก ๐‘Ÿ๐‘–๐‘”๐˜ฉ๐‘ก ๐‘๐‘ฆ ๐‘ก๐‘Ž๐‘˜๐‘–๐‘›๐‘” ๐‘Ÿ๐‘’๐‘ ๐‘๐‘œ๐‘›๐‘ ๐‘–๐‘๐‘–๐‘™๐‘–๐‘ก๐‘ฆ ๐‘œ๐‘“ ๐‘ก๐˜ฉ๐‘’ ๐‘š๐‘–๐‘ ๐‘ก๐‘Ž๐‘˜๐‘’ ๐ผ ๐‘š๐‘Ž๐‘‘๐‘’ ๐‘Ž๐‘›๐‘‘ ๐‘™๐‘’๐‘ก๐‘ก๐‘–๐‘›๐‘” ๐ป๐‘œ๐‘๐‘Ž ๐‘”๐‘œ.โ€
Jimin wipes his eyes, reads the next few pages. Jimin notices how he is never really mentioned. Yoongi mentions him going out. Mentions the engagement. Mentions their new flat, but Jimin, his name, is never mentioned explicitly.
As if Yoongi refuses to let him in on his personal space. As if this is the only place Yoongi can manage to keep Jimin away from.
Yoongi mentions how suffocating some days are. He mentions often how alone he feels in his thoughts nowadays. Jimin can clearly see how those lyrics start to ebb off. As if Yoongi loses the inspiration with time.
Yoongi never, not even once, mentions Jimin by his name or acknowledges him. Jimin picks up the next few diaries and itโ€™s the same. Yoongi writes about himself. He writes about life, his life, and he doesnโ€™t mention Jimin.
Jimin is present as a shadow. A shadow that follows Yoongi and somehow engulfs him and takes him away from the sunshine he once had in his life. Jimin chuckles to himself, for the first time seeing Yoongi's side of the story. A story that is, to Jimin, his 'love story.'
Jimin puts all those diaries back in the box. He sits on the floor, between all those boxes, and finds himself tearing up all over again. He wipes his eyes when he hears the footsteps. He hurries to shove the box under the desk, where Yoongi kept it.
โ€œHey, they are here,โ€ Yoongi walks in, โ€œtell them which boxes they need to carry. The fragile ones are labelled, right? Did you do it, or shall I?โ€ Jimin shakes his head, looking around the empty bedroom, โ€œeverything is packed. Tell them to get these. We are done here.โ€
Yoongi looks around the bedroom, a small smile on his lips, โ€œit feels kind of weird to leave this place, you know? I rented it at the start of my college days. Now we are moving on, I feel like I am leaving so much behind.โ€
Jimin gets up, looks around the room, โ€œyeah. I guess, I am learning about your sacrifices too late.โ€ Yoongi frowns, โ€œwhat?โ€ Jimin shakes his head, โ€œthe new houseโ€ฆ are you sure?โ€ he looks at Yoongi, โ€œare you sure you want that?โ€
Yoongi tilts his head, confused, โ€œwe are engaged. Going to be married soon. We are supposed to share a house, Jimin. What are you talking about? Iโ€™m sure.โ€ Jimin looks away, eyes fixed on the window, โ€œwe can rethink the wedding. We still have time. Please, think this through.โ€
Yoongi takes a step towards Jimin, โ€œblossom,โ€ his voice is tender, โ€œare you worried that I will deny marrying you at the last moment? I would never do that,โ€ he takes Jiminโ€™s hands in his, โ€œI would never run from my responsibilities like that.โ€
Jiminโ€™s heart aches in his chest. He watches the man in front of him, and his heart stutters on its path. Jimin forces his tears to not fall when he steps closer to the alpha. He presses his lips on Yoongiโ€™s, slowly kissing the alpha, โ€œI love you, alpha. I love you so much.โ€
Yoongi kisses him back, his hands leaving Jiminโ€™s to hold him by his waist, โ€œI know,โ€ Yoongi sighs, โ€œI know you do. Now, come on, the trucks are waiting. We need to move the boxes. The men are waiting. We can't be late, come on.โ€ He turns, drags Jimin down the stairs...
Jimin never questioned it. He never really stopped to notice the other in his own haste to fix his dreams around Yoongi. His first crush. First love. Jimin never stopped to pick up on these signs. Now that he stops, the delusion starts to fade.
Jimin stops beside Yoongi by their car. He watches the alpha talk to the moving staffs, instructing them what to do and how to handle the boxes. Jimin leans against the car and watches how the locket Yoongi wears gleam under the sun.
A sunflower. Jimin knows itโ€™s a gift from Hoseok. From a carnival the two of them went to during their school days. Hoseok won two chains in a lucky draw. A sunflower and a sun. Hoseok still wears the sun, while Yoongi wears the sunflower.
Jimin feels the giggle burst out of him, tears rolling out his eyes. How was he ever so stupid? How did he never see something wrong in that? How did he never notice that Yoongi never stopped wearing it.
Sunflower to the sun. Always following the sun and nothing else. Eyes, existence, everything is only for the sun, nothing else. Jimin wipes his eyes, smiles when Yoongi turns to look at him, quirks an eyebrow at him. Yoongi comes to get in the driverโ€™s seat, Jimin joining him.
โ€œSo, we will stay the night at a hotel,โ€ Yoongi smirks at Jimin, โ€œorder in expensive wines and food and then tomorrow everything will be ready for us to move in. Okay?โ€ Jimin leans against the car window, โ€œtake me home.โ€
Yoongiโ€™s hand comes to settle on Jiminโ€™s thigh, โ€œhome? For now, you donโ€™t have a home, blossom. It will be done by tomorrowโ€”โ€ Jimin closes his eyes, the alphaโ€™s touch burning him, โ€œhome. My parentsโ€™ house,โ€ he looks out through the window, โ€œI want to go to theirs.โ€
Yoongi goes stiff. He risks a glance at Jimin and then back at the road. โ€œI am not staying at your parentsโ€™ house,โ€ Yoongi chews out, โ€œyou know I am not comfortable around them. I have already booked us a hotel, blossom. Just a night, letโ€™sโ€”โ€
Jimin shakes his head, pulls his leg away, โ€œI am not talking about you. I am going home for the night. I will see you tomorrow. Okay?โ€ Yoongi slows the car, โ€œwhy are you suddenly so adamant about going home?โ€
Jimin grits his teeth, โ€œI know you canโ€™t stand my parents, but they are my parents! I want to go to them, and why are you making such a huge deal out of it?!โ€ Yoongi frowns, looks at him, โ€œblossom, you know how they are! You donโ€™t like them either. Whatโ€”โ€
Jimin shrugs, โ€œjust take me home. I want to...โ€ I want to be away for you. As far away from you as I can. Jimin feels humiliated. The more he stays beside Yoongi, the more stupid he feels for never noticing. The more Yoongi reaches for him, the more uncomfortable he feels now.
Yoongi sighs, โ€œfine!โ€ he speeds the car, โ€œI never win against you and your stupid tantrums! Fine! Do whatever you want, I will just go along with it like I always do!โ€ Each word feels like a whiplash. It stings. It leaves Jimin feeling bruised. Jimin closes his eyes.
When they finally reach Jiminโ€™s house, Yoongi stops the car, โ€œgo. I am not going in.โ€ Jimin nods, unbuckles the seatbelt and turns to leave. Yoongi grabs his elbow, pulling him back. Jimin looks over at the man, confused.
Yoongiโ€™s eyes are focused ahead, his hand holds Jimin, โ€œI didnโ€™t mean it,โ€ he sighs, closing his eyes, โ€œthe tantrum thing. I am sorry. I justโ€ฆโ€ he looks at Jimin, โ€œI hate coming here. You know that.โ€ Jimin forces a smile on his lips, โ€œbecause they forced you to be with me?โ€
Yoongi frowns, shakes his head immediately, โ€œno! Of course notโ€”โ€ Jimin chuckles, looking away, โ€œnot sure what else they ever did for you to hate them.โ€
โ€œThey are terrible to you!โ€ Yoongi hisses, โ€œthey treat you like a baggage! Blossomโ€”โ€ โ€œJimin,โ€ Jimin sighs, โ€œthat name never really fit me. I donโ€™t like it,โ€ he looks at Yoongi, โ€œwhy do you call me that anyway?โ€ Yoongi looks confused, โ€œIโ€ฆโ€ he lets Jimin go, โ€œI donโ€™t know.โ€
Jimin nods, his hand on the door, โ€œyeah, you just started calling me that out of nowhere,โ€ he tries to keep his tone light, โ€œI never really told you, but I donโ€™t like nicknames. Just call me Jimin.โ€ Yoongi reaches for him again, โ€œis there something wrong? Baby, tell me.โ€
Jimin pulls his wrist away, โ€œeverythingโ€™s fine, hyung. Nothingโ€™s wrong. I will go now.โ€ Jimin gets out of the car, stops when he hears the other door opening. He turns to see Yoongi rounding the car. โ€œWhat?โ€ Jimin stares.
Yoongi comes to stand in front of him, โ€œifโ€ฆโ€ his eyes skim over the building, jaw tightening, โ€œif you want,โ€ Yoongi lets out a deep breath, looking at Jimin, โ€œif you want me to go with you, I will go. In there. If you want me to, I will.โ€ Jimin shakes his head, โ€œno. I don't.โ€
Yoongi takes a hold of Jiminโ€™s hands in his, โ€œare you sure?โ€ Jimin nods, โ€œI am sure.โ€ โ€œItโ€™s just a night, then you will come back to me, right?โ€ Yoongi murmurs, eyes searching Jiminโ€™s face, โ€œjust a night. Right?โ€ Jimin nods, โ€œyeah. Why are you making it a big deal?โ€
Yoongi leans, his forehead resting against Jiminโ€™s, โ€œit feels like you are leaving, blossom. You feel like a goodbye right now.โ€ Jimin chokes, โ€œYoonโ€ฆโ€ Yoongi cups the side of his face, feather-like touch, โ€œgood night,โ€ his lips press against Jiminโ€™s cheekbone, โ€œblossom.โ€
Jimin shudders, โ€œgood night, hyung.โ€ โ€œI will pick you up tomorrow,โ€ Yoongi kisses the tip of his nose, โ€œfirst thing in the morning.โ€ Jimin shakes his head, โ€œI will meet you. I might sleep late. You donโ€™t have to come all the wayโ€”โ€
Jimin goes silent when those lips meet his. Yoongi pulls him flushed against his chest, kissing him breathless. Jimin grasps the alphaโ€™s shirt, trying to hold himself up, while Yoongi coaxes his mouth open into the kiss. Yoongi kisses Jimin till both of them are gasping for air.
Yoongi pecks Jiminโ€™s lips, โ€œare you sure you donโ€™t want to come with me?โ€ he smirks, โ€œI got us a suite with the city beneath us. Kind of wanted to fuck you against the window, you know?โ€ Jimin pulls away, chuckles, โ€œright,โ€ he steps back, โ€œno, hyung. I will see you tomorrow.โ€
He jogs inside the house. Jimin sags against the elevator. He hugs himself, trying not to think too much. Trying not to let his mind make him believe that all Yoongi wants from him is the sex. Jimin sucks in a breath, trying to erase the alpha from his mind as much as he can.
Deep inside him, he knows Yoongi was joking. He knows they didnโ€™t have sex since the first time when Jimin got into heat. He knows Yoongi never touched him like that and the thought doesnโ€™t help either. That thought makes it worse.
Jimin stumbles out of the elevator, his eyes taking in the living room. His mother is sitting by the couch, reading something. Jimin wipes his eyes. He is here after a year almost. โ€œMum,โ€ he calls, tries to force his nerves to settle, โ€œhi.โ€
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Yoongi stands near the window. His eyes on the slowly moving traffic. He sips the wine, leans against the cool glass of the window and sighs. Watches how the glass fogs up. He looks down at the liquid in the glass, sloshes it, thinks.
Thinks how quiet the place feels. A quiet he wished for since he met Jimin. Jimin is loud. He laughs loudly. He invades Yoongiโ€™s personal space, falls over him. He is touchy, likes to hold hands, snuggles up to Yoongi whenever he deems fit. He kisses Yoongi any chance he gets.
Jimin is not like Hoseok. Hoseok understood Yoongi. Understands Yoongi the most. Better than Yoongi understands himself. He respected Yoongiโ€™s personal space. He lets Yoongi have his quiet. He always knew when to reach out for Yoongi and when to leave him alone.
Yoongi closes his eyes and Jiminโ€™s face flashes across his eyelids. Jimin leaving tonight. So quiet. So closed off. So vulnerable for some reason Yoongi doesnโ€™t understand. But, Yoongi understands one thing. Jimin is not made for quiet. He is not made to look like that. Ever!
Yoongi chuckles, โ€œcanโ€™t believe the quietness I prayed for since I met you, when you are suddenly granting me that, I hate it.โ€ He turns to face the room, leans against the glass, โ€œcanโ€™t believe the alone time is not as charming as I thought it would be.โ€
He pulls out his phone, powers it up to stare at the wallpaper. Yoongi is never cheesy. At least, he likes to think he is not. The cherry blossoms stare back at him. His wallpaper. He put it on randomly. Without giving it much, though. He slides the screen, dialling the number.
โ€œHyung,โ€ Hoseok sounds alert, โ€œwow, you are up this late?โ€ Yoongi glances at the clock, โ€œitโ€™s just eleven?โ€ Hoseok chuckles, โ€œfor an oldie like you, itโ€™s late. Whatโ€™s up?โ€ Yoongi closes his eyes, โ€œwhat are you doing? Busy? At Namjoonieโ€™s place?โ€
โ€œNo,โ€ Hoseok sighs, โ€œJoonie will be late. He has some work or something. Why?โ€ Yoongi smiles, โ€œremember how we used to plan a nightout? At a pricy hotel? When we would not have time and be busy with college, we would plan a day away from all that busy life? You and me?โ€
Hoseok chuckles, โ€œare you at a hotel?โ€ Yoongi hums, โ€œwanna come over?โ€ Hoseok laughs, โ€œyou nutjob! Why are you at a hotel, and why am I invited? What happened to your house? Where's Jimin?โ€ Yoongi shrugs, โ€œjust come over. I will send the address. Bring some beer too.โ€
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Jimin twists and turns on the bed, his eyes focused on the ceiling while he wills his mind to stop racing. Itโ€™s almost twelve. After having dinner with his mother, his father away on a business trip, Jimin is given his childhood bedroom to sleep in. Only if Jimin can sleep.
He picks up his phone then, dialling the number he knows by heart now. He waits while the phone rings. On the last or so ring, itโ€™s answered. โ€œHey?โ€ Jimin lets out a breath, โ€œhi,โ€ he curses himself, โ€œI was justโ€ฆโ€
โ€œ๐˜ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ๐˜จ๐˜ช, ๐˜ฅ๐˜ช๐˜ฅ ๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ ๐˜ด๐˜ฆ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ๐˜ธ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ?! ๐˜ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ ๐˜ค๐˜ข๐˜ฏ ๐˜ค๐˜ญ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ณ๐˜ญ๐˜บ ๐˜ด๐˜ฆ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ช๐˜ต ๐˜ง๐˜ณ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฎ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ด ๐˜ธ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ๐˜ฐ๐˜ธ!โ€ Jimin freezes. His hand trembles where he holds the phone. โ€œWh-who is it?โ€ Jimin forces his voice to come out steady.
Yoongi chuckles, โ€œhoba. I was feeling alone, so I called him up. He is a little tipsy on the wine, you know? Now he is on his โ€˜everything is wonderfulโ€™ stage. Wants me to see the tower.โ€ Jimin clutches the duvet up to his chest, โ€œohh. Right. Yeah.โ€
Yoongi sighs, โ€œhow is that house? Everything okay?โ€ Jimin feels the tears trailing out from the corners of his eyes, โ€œmum told me she missed me. Told me how she understands how tough it is for me. To marry you.โ€ โ€œWhat does she mean by that?โ€ Yoongi frowns.
Jimin shrugs, โ€œyou know. How I never got to experience a dating life. How I think I love you when in reality itโ€™s just my omega choosing you because you are the first alpha I spent my heat with. She thinks we should wait it out.โ€ Yoongi is quiet.
Jimin turns on his side, โ€œI thinkโ€ฆโ€ he clutches the phone closer to his ear, โ€œI think she is right. You know?โ€ Yoongi sucks in a breath, โ€œwhat do you mean?โ€ Jimin bites down on his lower lip, feeling it hurt under his teeth, โ€œI think we should rethink all this.โ€
โ€œYou want to postpone the wedding?โ€ Yoongi sounds confused. Jimin lets out a shaky breath, โ€œI want to call it off.โ€
Yoongi curses loudly, โ€œare you kidding me, Jimin?!โ€ he sounds angry, โ€œthe cards are ordered for printing, the venue is chosen, the date is fixed. I have a fucking honeymoon destination booked. The relatives confirmed to attend, our friends took their leave. We canโ€™tโ€”โ€
Jimin smiles, closes his eyes, โ€œis it about the money? Or, your reputation? Which one you are always so afraid of losing? Your family name? I am always threatening your family name for you. No? Always bringing in a scandal. I am not made for you, it looks like, hyung.โ€
Yoongi inhales deeply, trying to calm himself down, โ€œlisten, Jimin. Listen to me. This is exactly why I didnโ€™t want you to go to your house. This is exactly why. Your parents always manage to ruin things for you. Theyโ€”โ€ โ€œI want an out, hyung,โ€ Jimin wipes his eyes.
โ€œThis is not a playdate, Jimin!โ€ Yoongi growls, โ€œitโ€™s not going be just you and yourself all the time! I am in this too, damn it! I amโ€”โ€ โ€œAre you?โ€ Jimin wonders, โ€œin this? At all?โ€ Yoongi curses, โ€œwhat the hell are you saying?!โ€
Jimin sighs, โ€œI will meet you tomorrow. At the house. Letโ€™s talk it out. I will see what we can do to lessen the blame on you. Yeah? Good night, hyung. Enjoy yourself.โ€ He cuts the call. When Yoongi calls him back, Jimin turns the phone off.
I am an absolute idiot to forgot to attach it, but this story is a spin-off from Taekook au, 'Restricted.' Read it to understand the bits and pieces of Yoonmin up until Paris that's written there. x twitter.com/amyungv/statusโ€ฆ
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Restricted, a #TAEKOOKAU [a/b/o] โ€œYou know, omegas aren't allowed to play here, right? This is a strictly alpha-only club,โ€ Jungkook rounds the table with a glass of beer in his hand. The omega does not spare him a glance, โ€œI know,โ€ he hits the ball, watching it fly off.
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โ€œIs that a mating bite?!โ€ Yoongi grits out, his eyes moving from Jimin's exposed mark to his face. Jimin fumbles, confused at first, terrified the next. He hurries to wrap the robe properly around himself, trying to hide the mark. Yoongi marches forward, reaching for him.
Jimin gasps when Yoongi's hand clasps his wrist, pushing his hand away to take a hold of the robe. Jimin turns sideways when Yoongi pushes the robe off his shoulder to expose the mark. Still healing. Still fresh. Still hurting. Yoongi freezes, his eyes focused on the mark.
โ€œIs this why you broke up with me?โ€ Yoongi whispers, his eyes fixed on the mark that Jimin hides again, Yoongi looks up at Jimin's eyes, โ€œis this what you broke us off for? You started to like someone else?โ€ Jimin stares, chill running down his spine, โ€œwhat?โ€
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Yoongi gestures at the mark, his face twisting with emotions Jimin doesnโ€™t want to decipher, โ€œthe damn mark, Jimin!โ€ his voice echoes in the room, โ€œis this why you broke up with me?! You found someone else?!โ€ Yoongi gives a hollow laugh, โ€œdamn, thatโ€™s quick!โ€
Jimin leans against the wall, tired eyes roaming over Yoongiโ€™s face. Yoongiโ€™s face contorts, โ€œjust,โ€ the alphaโ€™s nostrils flair, he curses, โ€œjust tell me you didnโ€™t cheatโ€”โ€
Jimin laughs, throws his head back and laughed, โ€œcheat?โ€ he giggles, โ€œcheat?!โ€ his eyes glisten while the wide grin turns into a snarl, โ€œout of the two of us, you shouldnโ€™t worry about me cheating, Min Yoongi! Also? I donโ€™t owe you shit! Get off of me! We are over!โ€
Yoongiโ€™s face hardens, โ€œI didnโ€™t cheat on you! I donโ€™t know why you think so, Jimin, but I will take you insulting me, I wonโ€™t, however, take you insulting Hoba. He would never do anything like that! You can trust him at least!โ€
Jimin nods, โ€œI know him. I know you too. You both love each other, and I came between that. So, why,โ€ Jimin shouts, frustrated, โ€œcanโ€™t you let me go?! I took the blame, the media is out for me. The scandal is on my family. My parents areโ€”โ€ he looks away, โ€œjust let me go now!โ€
โ€œWho is it?โ€ Yoongi chews out, โ€œwhose mark is that?โ€ Jimin shakes his head, โ€œI donโ€™t remember. I hooked up with a bunch of people after coming here. I donโ€™tโ€”โ€ The growl makes him flinch. Jiminโ€™s startled eyes find Yoongi whose eyes are golden now.
Yoongi closes his eyes, head hung low, trying to gain control over his wolf. Jimin is about to reach out when Jungkook burst inside the room with Taehyung. Jimin pulls away, looking at the two of them and back at Yoongi. He shoves Yoongi away then, walking up to Taehyung.
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Jimin can hear Sarang crying. He can hear Taehyung trying to shush the baby and failing. He waits before the phone starts to ring and tells Taehyung to call Jungkook. Jimin walks out of the room to go to Taehyung and sees how the omega sits on the bed, hopelessly staring at him.
โ€œWhat's wrong?โ€ Jimin frowns, โ€œwhy can't he come here?โ€ Taehyung shrugs, still on phone, โ€œhe needs to go and pick Hobi hyung up. Yoongi hyung doesn't have a licence here and the cabs aren't-โ€ Jimin looks at where Sarangie is nibbling on Taehyung's shirt, โ€œright. She is awake.โ€
Jimin wraps the shawl tightly around himself, leaning over the phone, โ€œhey, Jungkook, I have a driving licence. I will go with Yoongi. You come here. The baby needs some rest. She is very fidgety since she got here. Come on.โ€ Taehyung shakes his head, โ€œno. No, no. You can't!โ€
Jimin ignores him, โ€œget his car running. I will meet you by the door, come on. Hurry up.โ€ Taehyung watches Jimin leave, โ€œyou don't have to! I can make Sarangie fall asleep.โ€ Jimin ignores him, leaving the room.
Jimin hops down the stairs while fixing his shoes. He rushes down the lawn to the gate where the car is. Yoongi looks up at him, and Jimin stumbles on his way to the car. โ€œGet in,โ€ Jimin rounds the car, โ€œquick.โ€ Yoongi gets in, his eyes on Jimin. Jimin ignores him.
โ€œYou are going to catch a cold,โ€ Yoongi murmurs, โ€œyou are seriously wearing no warm clothes!โ€ Jimin shrugs, driving, โ€œI will stay in the car anyway. Just shut up!โ€ Yoongi sighs, โ€œI could have waited. You are literally in your nightwear, Jimin! Your fucking legs are bare!โ€
โ€œHobi hyung is taking a long ass flight to get here,โ€ Jimin murmurs, โ€œI don't want him to wait for us because it's already too late, and he's here because we needed him here. Just shut up, okay? I will be in the car anyway.โ€ Yoongi looks at him, โ€œhe can wait a few minutes.โ€
Jimin ignores the words, his eyes focused on the road. โ€œYou smell like the alpha,โ€ Yoongi whispers, voice low in the car, โ€œyou still smell like that alpha.โ€ Jimin can feel his stomach churn, โ€œwhat?โ€ Yoongi hums, โ€œif it was a one-night stand, how do you still smell of him?โ€
Jimin goes rigid, his hands tightening on the steering wheel, โ€œI-โ€ Yoongi sounds thoughtful, โ€œif you just met him once, then how do you still smell of him? It's not normal. The mark is not healing either-โ€ โ€œI met him again,โ€ Jimin curses himself mentally, โ€œtonight. Stop now!โ€
Yoongi stills, โ€œyou... met him again tonight? He lives here?โ€ Jimin nods, โ€œyeah. He does.โ€ Yoongi chuckles, looking away, โ€œwow, didn't know you would be into French guys.โ€ Jimin takes a look at the alpha, โ€œhe isn't French. Can you drop it?โ€ โ€œWhy him?โ€ Yoongi whispers, โ€œwhy?โ€
Jimin feels how his heart cracks, he feels the sheer pain shooting through his veins when he opens his mouth, โ€œbecause I love him,โ€ his voice comes out hoarse, โ€œand, I am doomed. That's all.โ€ The silence is deafening. Yoongi looks at him, Jimin looks outside.
โ€œHow fast can you fall in love?โ€ Yoongi wonders, โ€œyou said you loved me. For a long time.โ€ Jimin chuckles, โ€œpeople move on, hyung,โ€ he sighs, โ€œwe move on when we know our love is making the other feel burdened. We move on. I moved on. That's all.โ€
Yoongi looks outside, โ€œright,โ€ he looks down at his hands, โ€œI guess,โ€ he shrugs, โ€œI guess, I should be happy for you. Then?โ€ Jimin feels tears prickle his eyes, he nods, โ€œyeah. Blessings from an ex sounds about right.โ€ โ€œAn ex,โ€ Yoongi tastes the words on his tongue, โ€œright.โ€
Yoongi forces out a laugh, โ€œsounds weird, you know? Your ex. It feels, I don't know,โ€ Yoongi looks at Jimin, โ€œwe were planning the rest of our lives together. How did we come here?โ€ Jimin smiles, risks a look at Yoongi, โ€œwe started off wrong. We were all wrong since the start.โ€
โ€œShould have kept you as my first crush and love,โ€ Jimin chuckles, โ€œnever went on with it. We were a disaster together. No?โ€ Yoongi looks out of the window, โ€œyeah. We are poles apart.โ€ Jimin holds the steering a little tighter, โ€œI should have stood up for you back then.โ€
โ€œShould have told my dad off for forcing you to marry me,โ€ Jimin takes a turn, eyes blinking fast to wipe away any moisture that threatens to roll out, โ€œI will always blame myself for being so stupid. I came between the campus sweethearts. You and hobi hyung... you fit. So well.โ€
โ€œI was an idiot,โ€ Jimin shakes his head, โ€œI should have told them that sex can just be sex and nothing more! I don't know, maybe a selfish part of me wanted to have my first love. Now I realize, in my haste of wanting my first love, I took away yours. I am sorry.โ€
Jimin's voice cracks, โ€œI can't bring back those years, hyung. I can't go back in time and fix it all for us, but trust me, every day I look at myself and think, if I get to, I will. I will take myself far away from the two people who always belonged together. I am sorry. I am!โ€
Yoongi blinks, hastily wipes his eyes, โ€œyeah, I know. I know you would. You are,โ€ he looks at Jimin, โ€œyou know, I hated you. When it all started, I hated how manipulative you came off, and I hated how I got caught up on the web that I believed you spread for me. I believed it.โ€
โ€œFor a long time I would look at you and feel resentment,โ€ Yoongi looks at the omega, โ€œfor a long time I will just try to not think about anything or my future or shit like that because at that point, it all felt meaningless. I was just going with the motion. I hated it all.โ€
โ€œThose dates you would prepare for, those night walks, those voicemails you would send, whining about me always being busy, I wasn't busy, I just didn't know how to face you,โ€ Yoongi closes his eyes, โ€œI didn't know how to be with you and not feel that shimmering anger.โ€
โ€œMaybe that's why I hated your parents too. They reminded me of my helplessness. My failure,โ€ Yoongi watches the roads passing by, โ€œI hated how I had to watch Hobi fall in Namjoon's arms for support and then for more. I hated it all, and you were the focus of it.โ€
โ€œI didn't do shit for you to love me, Jiminie,โ€ Yoongi looks down at his hands, โ€œso I guess, I have no rights to be upset when you leave. I justโ€ฆ I wish-โ€ Jimin lets out a deep breath, โ€œyou wish for all of us to stop hurting. You want us all to be happy. I know. Right?โ€
โ€œSo, it's happening,โ€ Jimin forces a smile on his lips, โ€œyou are in the city of love, going to pick the love of your life up. Who is, by the way,โ€ he nudges Yoongi, โ€œsingle now. This is the best plot for a romantic classic! You two are like the main leads! Coming together now...โ€
โ€œAfter so many hardships,โ€ Jimin shakes his head with a smile, โ€œI say, you go and pick him up, or let him pick you up. Kiss each other and confess your undying love. Hey,โ€ he laughs, โ€œconfessions in an airport. Another clichรฉ trope ticked! Do it, Min Yoongi, you deserve it!โ€
Jimin's smile dims, leaving behind a soft one, โ€œyou deserve it, hyung, so does hobi hyung. You two belong together. Just think of me and Namjoon hyung as the clichรฉ villains of the story-โ€ โ€œYou are not the villain of my story,โ€ Yoongi stops him, โ€œyou can't be. Now I know.โ€
Yoongi sounds tired, โ€œyou are too good to be a villain, Jiminie.โ€ Jimin sighs, looks away, โ€œa good person for someone can be a villain for another, hyung. I am, at least, a bump in your way and surely one for hobi hyung. I just hope, down the road, he forgives me. If ever.โ€
Jimin leans against the headrest, โ€œnow go, pick him up. Tell him you missed him or shit like that and don't worry about me, hyung. I will find someone to be happy with. You know me,โ€ he closes his eyes, trapping the tears inside, โ€œI fall in love easily. I will be fine. Trust me.โ€
โ€œYou already found someone,โ€ Yoongi looks at the omega, โ€œI just hope he makes you happy because I failed-โ€ โ€œOne failed love taught me this, hyung,โ€ Jimin sighs, โ€œmy happiness should depend on just me. I let you play with my emotions. I won't repeat that, and I will be fine.โ€
โ€œNow, go,โ€ Jimin waves Yoongi off, โ€œhe is out there. Freezing probably. I will be here. Make it quick.โ€ Yoongi hesitates for a few seconds before he pushes the door open and runs towards the airport. Jimin watches Yoongi go, tears slowly toppling over the rim of his eyes.
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โ€œHow on earth are you so underdressed?!โ€ Yoongi watches how Hoseok greets Jimin, eyes wide and horrified, while he stares at the other omega. Yoongi shoves the luggage in the backseat and listens how Jimin giggles, tells Hoseok how he is fine and feeling quite warm inside.
Yoongi opens the door of Hoseok, nods when Hoseok smiles before getting in, and then he rounds the car to open the passenger side. โ€œWoah, woah,โ€ Jimin places a bag on the seat, โ€œgo to the backseat. Hobi hyung is alone there!โ€ Hoseok looks at them, confused, โ€œuhh...โ€
โ€œIt's not like I am miles away, mimi,โ€ Hoseok laughs, โ€œhe can sit on the pass-โ€ โ€œNo, no,โ€ Jimin shakes his head, โ€œgo and sit beside him. Don't disturb me while I drive. Go on.โ€ Hoseok sighs, waves Yoongi in, โ€œcome here. He is stubborn. You know it.โ€ Yoongi knows that.
Yoongi takes the back seat, looks at Hoseok, โ€œthe flight was good?โ€ Hoseok shrugs, โ€œJin hyung booked it. He makes sure I get the best of things,โ€ he glances at Jimin and then back at Yoongi, โ€œhow are you doing? You,โ€ he reaches to cup Yoongi's face, โ€œyou look pale, hyung.โ€
Yoongi's first instinct is moving away. He frowns, letting the touch linger while his eyes move to the driving seat. โ€œYeah,โ€ he shrugs, โ€œI need sleep,โ€ he smiles at Hoseok, โ€œsorry for hurrying you to come here.โ€ Hoseok looks over at Jimin, โ€œthat's okay. Mimi, how are you?โ€
The question meets silence. Yoongi holds his breath, eyes on Jimin. Jimin takes a look at them through the rear-mirror and smiles at the road, โ€œI am good, hyung. I am thinking of picking up dance again. You need to guide me through it, I can settle down here. I think.โ€
Hoseok leans forward, โ€œyou want to settle down here? In Paris? Forever?โ€ Jimin nods, โ€œI do. I want to open a dance school, as you know. I told you about it. I just want to pick up ballet again, you know?โ€ Hoseok smiles wide, โ€œyou are so good at it.โ€ Jimin blushes, โ€œshut up.โ€
Yoongi watches them talk, he watches how Hoseok and Jimin laugh and get along together. He watches how Jimin is so friendly with Hoseok. There's not an ounce of hesitance while he talks, and Hoseok is just as casual. โ€œI can help you with the basics,โ€ Hoseok hums, โ€œfor sure.โ€
The car comes to a halt in front of Yoongi's door, Jimin looks over at Hoseok, โ€œI will take you to the studio I am thinking of renting for now. I don't know. I will just see, but do you want to come?โ€ Hoseok nods eagerly, โ€œoh, I would love to come. For sure!โ€
Jimin nods, โ€œI will go now,โ€ he smiles at Hoseok, โ€œwelcome to Paris, hyung.โ€ Hoseok laughs, โ€œaahh, thanks. I am glad you all are here. I would be so bored otherwise.โ€ Jimin looks at Yoongi then, smiles, โ€œnah. Yoongi hyung would never let you be bored. Good night.โ€
Hoseok watches Jimin go, โ€œhe hides himself good, you know? His pain, the sorrow that he tries to not show,โ€ Hoseok looks at Yoongi, โ€œI wish I knew how to be so mature.โ€ Yoongi frowns, โ€œwhat do you mean?โ€ Hoseok sighs, โ€œJimin. He is not happy. Can't you see?โ€
Hoseok tilts his head, a rueful smile on his lips, โ€œloving Min Yoongi isn't easy. Out of the three of us, I know it the best. He doesn't know the pain he tries to hide, it shows because I know how it feels to love someone and let them go. I did it once. I was him once.โ€
Hoseok smiles, cups Yoongi's face with his one hand, โ€œloving you was the best and worst feeling of my life. You ruin, Min Yoongi, without even knowing, you ruin. I,โ€ Hoseok looks at where Jimin went, โ€œdon't know how he is so strong. I am not. I never was. He is very strong.โ€
โ€œHe thinks we will get together,โ€ Yoongi snorts, looking at where Jimin disappeared, โ€œhe thinks we still love each other like that.โ€ โ€œI still love you,โ€ Hoseok nods, โ€œbut, you don't love me anymore,โ€ he squeezes Yoongi's hand, โ€œno matter what you make yourself believe.โ€
Yoongi laughs, โ€œI don't think I ever knew what love is until you, hoba. What are you talking about?โ€ Hoseok watches him, a tender smile on his lips, โ€œI taught you what love is, I know. But, I am not the love of your life. I never was. I know that too.โ€
โ€œHow do you know?โ€ Yoongi gets out of the car, slams the door to go to the backseat and pull out the luggage, โ€œyou are speaking nonse-โ€ โ€œYou don't let your love go so easily like you did for us,โ€ Hoseok gets out of the car, โ€œyou fight for something you claim to love. You know?โ€
โ€œLike Jungkook is fighting for Taehyung,โ€ Hoseok rounds the car, places his hand on Yoongi's back, โ€œlike you are fighting for Jimin,โ€ he nods when Yoongi looks at him, โ€œyou crossed the world to come to him. You don't realize it, do you? That you love him?โ€
Yoongi snorts, stepping away from Hoseok, โ€œI only loved you, Hoba. I don't care what you say, Jimin,โ€ he looks at the house, โ€œhe was my responsibility. Since the start. You, I always loved you.โ€ Hoseok curses, โ€œyou are just too stubborn to see the present, hyung! Come on!โ€
โ€œThe present is,โ€ Yoongi glares, โ€œit's fucking raining and you and me, we both are drenched. Let's get inside and stop talking about this. I don't need your opinion on my feelings! Okay?โ€ Hoseok watches Yoongi march away. He sighs, following the alpha inside himself.
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โ€œSo you are telling me Taehyung's life is at risk, and we need to move to a damn pack to get away from the ones who are trying to come for him?โ€ Jimin stares at Jin, โ€œare you seriously suggesting we remove ourselves from this life?โ€ โ€œFor a few months, yeah,โ€ Jin nods, serious.
โ€œAre you going to be okay?โ€ Taehyung asks that night, leaning against the bedpost while he watches Jimin pack the bags, โ€œstaying that close to Yoongi hyung-โ€ Jimin hums, โ€œI just had to deny sharing a room with him. I did that. I will be fine, Tae, don't worry.โ€
Taehyung snorts, โ€œI worry. I'm glad you told him off about you two being mates.โ€ Jimin smiles, watches how Sarang tugs at the shirt he folded, eyeing it. He puts the pile in the suitcase, sitting down with an exhausted sigh. โ€œThis mark is making me exhausted,โ€ Jimin sighs.
Taehyung looks at the mark, โ€œit hurts?โ€ Jimin shakes his head, โ€œa mating bite, as much as I read, is like a new pheromone running through your blood. It takes time to absorb in the system and the alpha's presence, care and all that can sooth it. But we are not like that.โ€
โ€œSo it's kind of painful,โ€ Jimin looks at his hands, โ€œI just hope it starts to fade soon. Otherwise, I have to start taking meds to get rid of it.โ€ Taehyung frowns, โ€œthose meds are not legal. You know that, right?โ€ Jimin snorts, โ€œI know. But, what can I possibly do-โ€
Taehyung shakes his head, โ€œthose pills are not safe, Jimin. You are not taking them. They fuck up the omega's cycle and creates problem during pregnancies-โ€ โ€œWhat pregnancy?โ€ They both go still when they see Jin standing by the door of the room, eyes on them.
Taehyung recovers first, he gives Jin a smile and shakes his head, โ€œnothing, hyung. I was talking about the pills I had to take during my pregnancy.โ€ Jin hums, โ€œoh,โ€ he then turns to Jimin, โ€œI am here to talk to you. Can we?โ€ Jimin nods, watches how Taehyung leavesโ€ฆ
Jin turns to Jimin then, โ€œlisten,โ€ he shoves his hands in his pockets, coming to stand in front of Jimin, โ€œI am Yoongi's friend first and this thing you two have going on is not helping our situation. Are you sure you want to be there as my mate and not his?โ€ Jimin nods, โ€œyeah.โ€
Jin lets out a breath, โ€œJimin, whatever you two have going on-โ€ โ€œWe have nothing going on, hyung,โ€ Jimin assures Jin, โ€œlike you, I am single. There is nothing going on.โ€ Jin gives Jimin a small smile, โ€œout of everyone, I understand you the most, Jimin. Trust me.โ€
Jimin watches the man, โ€œdo you?โ€ Jin nods, โ€œlike you, I let go of my love too. Just like you-โ€ Jimin gives Jin a rueful smile, โ€œno, hyung. The person you loved, loved you back. I am not lucky like that. I never was.โ€ Jin sits on the bed, pats the space beside him, โ€œsit.โ€
Jimin sits, smiles when Jin's arm goes around his shoulder to pull him closer. Jimin leans his head against Jin's shoulder, staring ahead. โ€œI will try to be the friend you need,โ€ Jin murmurs, โ€œduring this time, I will try to be the person you might want beside you. Yeah?โ€
Jimin nods, closing his eyes with a tired sigh, โ€œyeah.โ€ Jin hesitates, โ€œthe mark-โ€ Jimin shakes his head, โ€œnot his.โ€ Jin breathes out a chuckle, โ€œyou didn't possibly think I would believe it's a random dude's. Did you?โ€ Jimin feels tears prickle his eyes, โ€œhe believed it.โ€
Jin's arm tightens around him, โ€œhe is an idiot!โ€ Jimin chuckles, peering up at Jin, โ€œhe is your friend.โ€ Jin looks tensed, โ€œJimin, you should tell him. The bite can go wrong in so many ways. You should-โ€ โ€œHe never loved me, hyung,โ€ Jimin looks away, โ€œI kept holding him back.โ€
Jimin lets the tears fall, โ€œI am a responsibility he is cursed with since the start. I don't want that for him anymore. I want him to be happy, and I am not,โ€ he chokes on those words, โ€œI am not his happiness. I never was. Promise me that you won't tell him. Please? Promise me.โ€
Jin watches him for a few seconds. His own eyes glistening. Then he nods, lips pressing against Jimin's temple. โ€œI promise,โ€ Jin whispers against Jimin's skin, โ€œI promise I will keep it to myself. If that's what you want, then fine.โ€ Jimin nods, โ€œthat's all I want.โ€
Yoongi gets out of the shower, thinking of the next day's event in his mind while he dries his hair. His eyes skim over the room, thinking what else he needs to pack. His eyes wander over the window, and he looks at the house in front of theirs. For a second, he stills.
Jimin sits on the bed. Jin right beside him. His arm around Jimin's shoulder and his lips pressed against Jimin's temple. Yoongi feels the needles pierce through his skin, his eyes stay glued on the two of them. Jimin then turns, face hidden against Jin and Jin pulls him closer.
Yoongi turns away when Jimin's arms go around Jin's waist, hugging the alpha closer. He turns to look at himself in the mirror. His eyes focus on himself, and Yoongi lets out a curse when he sees the red hue around his irises. โ€œIt's just instinct,โ€ he whispers to himselfโ€ฆ
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They all bow to the leader and his luna. โ€œNow,โ€ the leader, Yushik, tells them to stand up properly from where they were bowing, โ€œintroduce yourselves. Someone do the honour.โ€ Yoongi holds his hand up, โ€œThis is Jungkook,โ€ he points at Jungkook, โ€œthat is his mate, Taehyung...โ€
Yoongi smiles at Sarang in Taehyung's arms, โ€œthis is their baby, Sarang,โ€ he turns to the others then, โ€œthis is Jin, you know him,โ€ he smiles at Hoseok, โ€œthis is Hoseok, Jin's mate,โ€ everyone's head whips around to look at Yoongi with wide eyes.
Yoongi puts his arm around Jimin, โ€œand this is my mate, Jimin.โ€ They all stare at him. The entire pack is looking at them, and the leader and his Luna are watching them. Jimin grabs the hand around his waist. Yoongi tightens his grip, โ€œsay something and risk Taehyung's life.โ€
Jimin shakes his head, โ€œI refuse to let you lead me on anymore, hyung.โ€ Jimin giggles, swatting at Yoongi's chest, โ€œhyung! Not the time for you to do this!โ€ He bows deeply, looking at the leader, โ€œplease forgive him, sir,โ€ he gets out of Yoongi's grip, โ€œhe likes to jest a lot.โ€
Jimin takes a hold of Hoseok's hand, โ€œthis is his mate,โ€ he slowly steps out of Yoongi's arms, replacing Hoseok there to come and stand by Jin, โ€œand, this is my mate.โ€ The leader arches a brow, โ€œoh?โ€ Jimin bows again, โ€œsorry for the-โ€ โ€œIt is fine,โ€ the Luna smiles, โ€œwelcome.โ€
Yoongi watches how Jimin fits himself against Jin. He watches how Jin's arm goes around Jimin's waist and the alpha pulls him closer. There is a sizzling feeing that burns in Yoongi's veins while he follows the leader to their houses. His eyes keep going to Jimin and Jin.
When Jimin starts to talk about his heat and Jin voices his worry about his rut, Yoongi feels the nausea hitting him. He feels like vomiting right on the spot. With a choked sound, he takes a step back, making an excuse while he runs to the hut selected for him and Hoseok.
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โ€œHey.โ€ Yoongi looks up at the door of the hut and turns away when he sees Jin, โ€œwhat?โ€ Jin hesitates before walking in, โ€œlisten, about the discussion today-โ€ Yoongi shakes his head, โ€œthere is nothing to talk about.โ€ โ€œYes, there is!โ€ Jin sighs, โ€œyou know there is!โ€
Yoongi shakes his head, โ€œno, there isn't. Listen, it's pretty clear that we are over. Whatever me and Jimin were, we are over,โ€ he watches Hoseok walk inside the room, โ€œI am glad, if I am being honest. I never wanted to marry him. I am glad the weight was off of me. I am glad.โ€
โ€œI am glad how it worked out,โ€ Yoongi shakes his head, โ€œI don't see why you are here or what you are trying to achieve now...โ€ โ€œSo, you are telling me it's okay if we share his heat?โ€ Jin stops when Yoongi's eyes shift to him, โ€œyour eyes are red.โ€ Yoongi snorts, โ€œinstinct.โ€
Jin tongues the side of his cheek, โ€œit's ridiculous how you are denying it as if your life depends on it.โ€ โ€œHis ego hurts to accept that he likes an omega that was forced on him,โ€ Hoseok comes to sit beside Jin, โ€œhis ego hurts to think he did exactly what Jimin's dad wanted.โ€
Hoseok nods, โ€œJimin's dad told him that down the road, he will forget me and fall for Jimin. He said that's how love is. Fickle and stupid. He said that's how an arrange marriage works, and Yoongi is no different. It hurts Yoongi's ego to think he did exactly that.โ€
Hoseok leans back against the couch, โ€œYoongi can't digest the fact that Jimin's dad was right about him and his feelings.โ€ โ€œThat's not it,โ€ Yoongi glares at Hoseok, โ€œit's not what you are saying. I don't love him! Okay? This is just my wolf. It's habituated with Jimin.โ€
โ€œIt will get better,โ€ Yoongi stands up, โ€œit will get better with time. Can you all give me that? I need some time to-โ€ โ€œMove on?โ€ Jin arches a brow, โ€œmove on from what? The feelings you have for him?โ€ โ€œI don't love him!โ€ Yoongi thunders, โ€œstop being like his dad. Both of you!โ€
Yoongi storms out of the room, leaving Jin and Hoseok staring at his back. Jin lets out a curse, โ€œI came here to tell him we need to think of a way out of Jimin's heat without anything going wrong, but he is so stubborn! I swear!โ€ Hoseok hums, โ€œhe is more stubborn than Joon.โ€
Jin looks away, โ€œyeah. He is more stubborn than Joon.โ€ Hoseok hesitates, โ€œhow,โ€ he looks down at his hands, โ€œhow is he?โ€ Jin risks a glance at Hoseok, โ€œnot good. He misses you.โ€ Hoseok shakes his head, โ€œdon't lie to me. Not when it breaks you to do so. You don't have to.โ€
Jin looks away, โ€œtruth can be heartbreaking, but it's still the truth, Hobi. He misses you. He developed feelings for you. You should know that.โ€ Hoseok chuckles, โ€œhow do you talk about us so emotionlessly when you and I both know, you love him. Still.โ€
Jin smiles down at the floor, โ€œI think you, out of everyone else, know and understand how I feel because you are in a same situation. No?โ€ Hoseok's eyes whip up to look at Jin, and Jin nods. โ€œI can see it breaks you to talk about Yoongi loving Jimin. I know how it feels, Hobi.โ€
Hoseok's eyes pool with tears, he looks away, โ€œI can be selfish, you know? He was taken from me. He was snatched away from me. Not by Jimin. By his father. I can hold grudges. I can, but, who am I going to base it on? Who will I get back? This Yoongi is not mine. You know?โ€
โ€œThis Yoongi was not taken from me,โ€ Hoseok wipes his eyes, โ€œthis is not the Yoongi I can call mine. This is Jimin's Yoongi. This is not the alpha that was taken from me. I might have him back, but it's not going to be the same.โ€ Jin nods, โ€œsame with Joon. I get you. I do.โ€
Hoseok smiles, shaking his head, โ€œhe still loves you. There's always going to be a part that still loves you. In him.โ€ Jin looks at Hoseok, โ€œyou have to know, that doesn't make me feel good. I never wanted you two to break up. I never-โ€ They both jump when they hear the knock.
โ€œIt is time for dinner,โ€ one of the pack members stand by the door, โ€œget your friends and come to the pack house.โ€ Jin nods, getting up, โ€œI will.โ€ Hoseok stands up too, โ€œI will see where Yoongi went.โ€ Jin nods, โ€œyeah. I will wake up Jimin. He is taking a nap.โ€
_______
At the head of the table sits the pack leader. Jin sits on his right and Yoongi sits on his left. Beside him is Hoseok and beside Jin is Jimin. Beside Jimin sits Jungkook and then Taehyung. Yoongi focuses on his plate, eyes staying on the meal as they talk in a hushed tone.
โ€œHow did you two meet?โ€ Yushik asks Yoongi and Hoseok, curious. Hoseok chokes on his food and Yoongi holds out his glass, โ€œwell, we are childhood best friends,โ€ he goes with the truth, โ€œwe fell in love gradually. Then,โ€ Yoongi shrugs, โ€œwe got mated and that's all.โ€
Jungkook and Taehyung share the story as close to their reality as they can. Both of them blushing and trying not to match each other's eyes as they talk. Then the leader looks at Jin and Jimin. Jimin places his fork on the plate, smiles at Jin, โ€œwe met accidentally.โ€
He smiles at Jin, Yoongi watches, โ€œI went into my first heat, and he was there to help me,โ€ Jimin looks at the leader and his luna, โ€œI think it was love at first sight.โ€ The luna, Byung, smiles at them, โ€œthat's so sweet.โ€ Yoongi feels the fire burn in the pit of his stomach.
Yoongi sips his drink, โ€œor, maybe you plotted it,โ€ he feels everyone turn to look at him. He keeps his eyes on Jimin, โ€œyou wanted the alpha, and you ignored the thought of maybe him having a life, a lover, you just roped him into it. Maybe you were just selfish and obsessed.โ€
Jimin goes very still. His eyes moving to Yoongi for the first time since the dinner started. โ€œWhat?โ€ he sounds winded. Yoongi leans in, nods, โ€œyeah. Maybe you were obsessed with him and thought this would be a great way to rope him in. Knowing him, he would never back away+
+from the responsibility. You said, 'fuck his lover or whoever he has, let me have what I want because I am a brat that way.' Maybe?โ€ Jimin's face drops, his eyes hold Yoongi in place, โ€œI was in heat. I didn't choose that. An omega would never choose to have a public heat!โ€
Yoongi feels the anger leap at him, the old memories crowding his mind, those doubts pushing past his mouth before he can think them through. โ€œOh, but you did know it was late, and he comes to pick up his lover,โ€ Yoongi hisses, โ€œyou knew he was there for that omega. Not you!โ€
โ€œNo, I didn't,โ€ Jimin grips the edge of the table, eyes glistening, โ€œno, I didn't. I would not! I would never try to steal someone who is in love with another person! I was in heat, and it was my first heat. I didn't know better! I was out of my mind. It's not my fault!โ€
โ€œCould have stopped how it escalated,โ€ Yoongi growls, โ€œcould have stopped your dad from taking away his dreams, plans and life from him!โ€ Yoongi knows his voice is rising, โ€œno, you just played along because that would benefit you! Your daddy was helping you get what you wanted!โ€
โ€œNo,โ€ Jin speaks up then, his eyes boring into Yoongi's, โ€œno. I went along with it because I lost myself. I was, out of the two of us, the experienced one,โ€ Jin speaks pointedly, โ€œI had my ruts regularly. I kept my cool around the one I claimed to love, but lost it around him.โ€
โ€œLater, I felt guilty, of taking something so pure,โ€ Jin never wavers, โ€œI felt like I owed that omega something because that morning, when I left him on that bed, sleeping, exhausted, I ran to my friend and cried about how I took something I shouldn't have. How I ruined it all.โ€
Yoongi hates how Jin turns his narrative around to speak to him now. Jin nods, eyes never leaving Yoongi's face. โ€œI wanted to take responsibility, and I am from a powerful family. A much powerful family than Jimin's and if I wanted, I would get out of it without a scratch.โ€
โ€œI didn't want to walk out, because no matter how I act, I am not an asshole,โ€ Jin's face contorts, โ€œI made a mistake and I took responsibility. I can't blame him or his family for falling for him down the road, can I?โ€ Yoongi grips the fork in his hand, โ€œyou don't love him!โ€
Jin smiles, โ€œoh, but I do. If I let go of my grudges against his parents, his family, the guilt in me, the past anger of letting my loved one go, if I can be honest to myself now. I would know this, that I love him.โ€ โ€œAre you angry that they are mated?โ€ Yushik frowns, โ€œwhy?โ€
Yoongi looks away, noticing the others around him now, โ€œno. I am angry that they are romanticizing something that was a mistake,โ€ he looks at Jimin, โ€œthat will always be a mistake.โ€ Jimin blinks, looking down at his plate. The room is quiet. Everyone sits still.
Byung sighs, โ€œif a mistake brings two soulmates together then, down the road, you can recall it and call it the starting of something good. You know? Love, if it finds its way to them, no matter how, is still love. If they can talk about that incident honestly, it's good.โ€
Yoongi shrugs, โ€œhow would you know it's love and not two people getting habituated of each other? How would you know it's love and not just habit? How can you love someone who took everything from you? Knowingly or unknowingly.โ€ He hates how honest that last question comes out.
Byung gives Yoongi a small smile, โ€œif the question is in the alpha's mind, then he already fell in love. Don't you think?โ€ the luna nods when Yoongi startles, looking at him, โ€œif the alpha is asking that to himself, then he already feels something. Right?โ€
โ€œHe feels himself falling, and that's when the fight between his mind and heart begins. Otherwise, why would he think like this? He would be just hating the omega and be done with it. No?โ€ Jin hums, โ€œyou are right. Also, I have no doubt about my love for my mate. I love him.โ€
Byung nods, โ€œthen I think Yoongi shouldn't worry so much about you. It's not like Jimin is your mate, Yoongi,โ€ he chuckles, โ€œlet them have their story and you enjoy yours. Yeah?โ€ โ€œYeah, now kiss and make up,โ€ Yushik laughs, โ€œJimin looks really shaken, Jin, he might need a kiss.โ€
Yoongi goes still. His eyes shift on Jimin who is already looking at him and Yoongi feels his jaw tighten. Jimin's face goes impassive, and Yoongi watches how he turns to Jin with a small smile. There is something that passes between them, and Jin chuckles, cupping Jimin's face.
Jimin leans in, his eyes on Jin and Jin has his eyes fixed on Jimin. Yoongi feels Hoseok's hand on his knee, squeezing it. Yoongi holds his breath, eyes moving on Jin and Jimin. He tries to tell himself that Jimin has done more. Got a mating mark. But seeing it still irks him.
Jin leans in first, eyes holding Jimin's and Jimin gives him a small nod. Yoongi gets up, ignores how the chair topples over, โ€œexcuse me,โ€ he bows to the leader, โ€œI think I am not feeling well. I will take your leave now.โ€ He stands up, turns and leaves the house.
The pack is located near the jungle. The moon is hidden behind the cloud, leaving the pack in complete darkness. Yoongi walks briskly. He almost runs to the direction of the jungle. He wants to be alone for now. For a few moments at least. Until he can breathe again.
Yoongi hears the footsteps following him and feels like snapping. He feels his skin crawl with anger. Yoongi knows his eyes are red. His vision bloody as he walks, listens to the sound of water and follows it. It's a long walk and the footsteps follow him along the path.
Yoongi speeds up, passing the treeline, hoping he will be left alone. Instead, his wrist is caught, and he is forced to stop on his track. He can see the waterfall. The urge to take a dip builds in him. Something to cool him down. Something to lessen the burn in his veins.
โ€œI know you hate me, but what you did back there could have blown our cover!โ€ Jimin shouts, โ€œwhat you did was so close to breaking our plan and putting Taehyung back in risk! How could you let your mouth run when you know-โ€ โ€œOh, I should always keep my mouth shut,โ€ Yoongi turns.
He ignores how Jimin does not cower under his blood-shot eyes. Yoongi takes a sharp step in front of Jimin. โ€œI should be silent and let you do whatever you want because that's how it is always, no?โ€ Yoongi hisses, โ€œyou always do what you want to, and I fucking follow!โ€
โ€œI should have stayed and watched you rope another person in this game of yours,โ€ Yoongi crowds Jimin against a tree, โ€œI should have stayed and played the good alpha that I am and-โ€ Jimin snorts, no humour shows on his face, โ€œoh, you are anything but good. You are horrible!โ€
โ€œYou put Jin hyung in such a horrible position!โ€ Jimin shouts, โ€œhe has to talk to the alpha and ease the tension you left behind. How could you be so selfish! Learn from Jin-โ€ โ€œOh, shut it!โ€ Yoongi roars, โ€œI am sure your little kiss pleased them enough! I am sure they liked it!โ€
โ€œI am sure you liked it!โ€ Yoongi kicks the ground, anger running through his veins like molten lava, โ€œI am sure the leader is pleased enough! So do me a favour and leave me alone!โ€ Jimin grabs Yoongi by his collars, tugging him back, โ€œI left you alone! Ages ago! You prick!โ€
โ€œI left you alone when I left!โ€ Jimin's eyes sparkle blue, โ€œI left you alone-โ€ โ€œNo, you didn't,โ€ Yoongi gives into the pull and stands against Jimin, โ€œno,โ€ he grits out, โ€œyou are still here, and I hate it! Let me move on!โ€ Jimin snorts, โ€œmove on? From what? We had nothing!"
โ€œYou don't need to put in efforts to move on from something you were never into,โ€ Jimin's eyes shine bright blue, โ€œyou don't move on from empty vows, lies and illusions. You just break free of them, and I freed you ages ago. You are free, Min Yoongi. To do whatever.โ€
Yoongi laughs, a hollow and mocking sound, โ€œyou think you freed me? Or, it was you who needed the freedom? To go around, experience what it feels like to date or have flings and shit like that. Don't blame it all on me when I always did what you wanted me to do!โ€
Yoongi turns on his feet and speeds towards the waterfall. He dives in after kicking his shoes off. The cold water chills him to the bones, and Yoongi takes a dip. He stays under the water, willing it to cool him down. It does nothing. He still feels the flame burn in him.
Yoongi breaks the layer of the water to come up and wipe his eyes. He combs his wet hair back, eyes blinking to settle on the omega who stands by the edge of the water. Yoongi turns away, feeling the shirt stick to him now, โ€œgo back. Your alpha must be worried about you.โ€
The sound of the water rippling makes Yoongi hold back a curse. He looks over his shoulder at the omega. โ€œYour omega must be worried about you too,โ€ Jimin holds his chin out, โ€œyou don't get to make it about myself.โ€ Yoongi snorts, โ€œeverything is about you for ages now, Jimin.โ€
Yoongi turns to face the omega, โ€œevery damn thing is about you. You make sure it's about you. You-โ€ โ€œThe amount of time you are wasting on blaming me for the past that I already accepted as my fault, you could use to win your omega back. You realize?โ€ Jimin steps closer.
The surrounding darkness is fading because of the fireflies. Yellow dots rush around them, illuminating Jimin's face for Yoongi and Yoongi can't breathe. His eyes roam over Jimin's face, takes in those blue eyes and trembling lips. Those tears clinging to those lashes...
The sound of the water flowing past them, down the river is the only sound except of the owls crying out time to time. The foxes in the jungle scream, announcing the hours of the night. Yoongi steps closer, โ€œseems like I am always doing what you want me to do.โ€
Yoongi comes to stop right in front of Jimin, feels how their toes touch under the water, โ€œtell me then,โ€ he murmurs to not disturb the silence of the jungle, โ€œwhat do I do next to please you? Would you like it if I mate him? Is that it? Would you like to see us married now?โ€
Jimin gives him a sardonic smile, โ€œit's not me, you want these things with him.โ€ Yoongi gives a laugh, โ€œyeah? I always wanted to. Mate him, have a family. Knock him up-โ€ Jimin turns away, โ€œthen do it,โ€ he takes a step towards the shore, โ€œand, stop making my life miserable!โ€
Yoongi takes a hold of Jimin's elbow, jerking him back, โ€œit's not me who is making your life miserable,โ€ he hisses against Jimin's ear, the omega's back pressed against his front, โ€œyou are miserable to think things get back to normal just like that. Just like your fickle mind!โ€
โ€œEvery omega is not like you,โ€ Yoongi takes a hold of Jimin's shoulders, forcing him to turn and face the alpha. Jimin still refuses to look at his face. Yoongi looks at the mark. The mark is raw, blood dried around the wound. The more Yoongi watches it, the more he burns.
Yoongi lets his hand move. He lets his thumb press against the wound, feels the blood against his thumb. โ€œEvery omega doesn't wear a mating mark from a random alpha right after making out with them,โ€ he hisses, โ€œevery omega is not-โ€ โ€œAs easy as me?โ€ Jimin grips Yoongi's wrist.
Yoongi's face contorts, โ€œhow could you?!โ€ his voice cracks, "how could you?! How could you?!โ€ He crowds Jimin up against the boulders that create a small dam across the river. The water rushing around them, almost touching their waists as it flows...
Yoongi feels the tears roll out of his eyes, โ€œhow could you just break it all apart like it meant nothing and move on so quickly?! How could you leave like nothing ever happened?! How could you let someone else mark you?! How could you kiss Jin, knowing he is my friend-โ€
โ€œWhat should have stopped me?โ€ Jimin arches a brow, โ€œyou?โ€ โ€œI burnt my world to keep yours safe!โ€ Yoongi snarls, โ€œI burnt myself to keep you warm! Did that mean nothing to you?!โ€
โ€œHow much is enough for you?!โ€ Yoongi screams, โ€œhow much is enough to please you?! I ruined my dreams, hopes, future to keep yours intact! I did everything to keep you happy. I did everything to make sure you are safe! You are protected-โ€ โ€œDid you love me?โ€ Jimin chokes out.
โ€œIf you loved me, you would know how much it hurts to hear I ruined my loved one's future, so they can keep me safe,โ€ Jimin sniffles, โ€œyou would know how much it pains to hear they burnt to keep me warm. If you loved me, you would know how much it hurts to love you.โ€
โ€œWhat more do I want?โ€ Jimin reaches to grasp at Yoongi's shirt, โ€œI want you to be happy. Why can't you let us go and see what's right in front of you? Hobi hyung and you are right here. Why are you ruining it? I don't see the point, you-โ€ โ€œIt makes me nauseous,โ€ Yoongi murmurs.
Yoongi nods, โ€œthe thought that you are okay with me mating Hoba when this damn mating mark on you is making me lose my everything. I just want to know who is this person. Who do you trust so much to let them do this! Why? Did you leave me because of them? Who is it?โ€
Jimin lets out a curse, โ€œjust forget it, okay?! Why are you so hell-bent to make it worse-โ€ โ€œI want to curve this mark out of your skin,โ€ Yoongi slams his hand against the boulder, โ€œI can't. It's killing me. Just tell me who-โ€ โ€œI don't owe you that!โ€ Jimin hisses.
โ€œGod, tell me you know that person!โ€ Yoongi combs his hair back, frustrated, โ€œtell me he knows there is a fresh mating bite! You need that alpha to heal it! It can get wound, Jimin!โ€ Yoongi curses, โ€œit's like a Rabies wound. You are leaving it open, and it worries me!โ€
Yoongi takes a hold of Jimin's shoulder, โ€œif it's not treated or healed properly, it can kill you!โ€ Yoongi's face contorts, โ€œand I can't sleep thinking about it! The wound is not healing! It's a wolf's bite, Jimin! You need to heal it! Who is it? I just want to find him for you!โ€
โ€œIt goes away with time,โ€ Jimin hisses, โ€œcan you stop worrying?โ€ โ€œIt doesn't,โ€ Yoongi grits out, โ€œstop believing the internet for everything! This is a wolf's bite. It goes away with the person! If a mating bite was so easy to remove, so many would have it! Don't you think?!โ€
๐Ÿค๐Ÿค๐Ÿค ๐Ÿ’” ๐Ÿค๐Ÿค๐Ÿค
โ€œYou have to understand,โ€ Yoongi presses his thumb against the wound in his frustration, โ€œyou have to understand the alpha needs t-โ€ his eyes drop to the wound and Yoongi holds his breath. Jimin frowns, โ€œwhat?โ€ Yoongi presses more against the wound, ignore the hiss Jimin gives.
Yoongi frowns, watches the blood against his fingertip, โ€œthe blood...โ€ Jimin looks at it, confused, โ€œwhat about the blood?โ€ Yoongi's eyes are bright red when they snap to match Jimin's curious and confused eyes, โ€œthe blood smells.โ€ Jimin lets out a sigh, โ€œof course it does!โ€
Yoongi shakes his head, looking at Jimin, โ€œthe person smells of an alpha. Any alpha, but the blood,โ€ Yoongi holds his finger up, his red irises screaming murder, โ€œit smells of the wolf.โ€ Jimin feels his heartbeat screeches to a stop, โ€œwh-what?โ€ Yoongi steps closer, โ€œit's mine.โ€
Jimin inhales sharply, โ€œno!โ€ Yoongi keeps his eyes on Jimin, he sucks his thumb into his mouth, tasing the blood. Jimin holds his breath, and Yoongi's eyes glow while the alpha glares. โ€œIt's my blood,โ€ Yoongi murmurs, voice eerily quiet, โ€œmixing with yours. It tastes like us.โ€
โ€œYou are going insane,โ€ Jimin laughs, trembles when Yoongi takes a step towards him, โ€œthat's- that's not you-โ€ Yoongi's brow arches, โ€œis that so?โ€ he still sounds quiet, as if he is holding himself back, โ€œthen let's test it, Jimin. Let me taste the mark. Let's see what happens.โ€
Jimin presses himself up against the boulder, shaking his head, โ€œno!โ€ Yoongi stops in front of him, hovering over him, โ€œwhy not?โ€ Jimin fumbles for words, โ€œbe-becau-โ€ โ€œWhat was the reason for you to hide it?โ€ Yoongi chews out, โ€œwhat were you thinking? That I would never know?โ€
Yoongi grips Jimin's hips, โ€œwhy would you hide it?!โ€ Jimin snorts, not matching Yoongi's eyes, โ€œit's not yours-โ€ he flinches, eyes widening and mouth parting on a silent cry when Yoongi leans in, pushes the shirt aside and presses his lips against the mark. It throbs with pain.
Jimin hisses, his hands flying up to grasp at Yoongi's hair to pull him away. The alpha crowds him against the boulder, lips pressed against the mark, while his hands tighten on Jimin's hips. Jimin whimpers when he feels Yoongi's tongue pressing against the wound, โ€œY-Yoon...โ€
TW// blood/wound/cut
Yoongi growls when the scent invades his senses. The blood lingers on his tongue. He presses in, lips moulding around the wound to suck on it. Jimin crumbles, the pain intensifying, โ€œwh-what are you doing? It hurts!โ€ Yoongi curses, โ€œit's so raw! Shit!โ€ Jimin whimpersโ€ฆ
He tugs at Yoongi's hair, pulling him away from the mark, โ€œno,โ€ he shakes his head when Yoongi tries to seal his lips against the wound again, โ€œI said, no!โ€ Yoongi closes his eyes, inhales deeply to calm himself, โ€œthe wound will only grow if you don't tend to it!โ€
โ€œI will get it removed,โ€ Jimin glares, pressing his hands against Yoongi's chest, โ€œI will go back and have the operation to get it removed. You don't need to worry.โ€ Yoongi pauses, โ€œthe operation...โ€ Jimin nods, โ€œyeah. It's an accident anyway.โ€ Yoongi's face goes blank, โ€œoh.โ€
Jimin snorts, โ€œwhat? You wanted to add this to your list of another reason why I am your responsibility?โ€ โ€œWhy didn't you tell me?โ€ Yoongi hisses, โ€œwhy didn't you tell me and how did this happen?!โ€ Jimin looks away, โ€œthat night... when we made out,โ€ he shrugs, โ€œyou-โ€
Jimin stops himself, gives Yoongi a small smile, โ€œwhy do I need to tell you anyway? You are going to tell me I did this to rope you in. You will tell me how I manipulated you into this now,โ€ Jimin closes his eyes, tears spilling out of them, โ€œI keep messing up. No?โ€
โ€œI am not doing one thing right,โ€ Jimin shakes his head, โ€œI keep messing up, and I thought I will be able to hide it. Long enough for you to stop asking. Long enough for it to either get me or a solution to come forward. I would get it removed, but I had to come here.โ€
Jimin shakes his head, โ€œdon't worry about it, okay? I will sort it out. You don't have to think about it,โ€ Jimin looks at the shore, eyes fixed on the darkness of the jungle, โ€œyou are not mated. I didn't bite you. So, you are free anyway. Just, ignore this conversation. Yeah?โ€
โ€œJimin-โ€ Yoongi stops when Jimin pushes him away, shaking his head frantically. โ€œNo!โ€ Jimin glares, slaps his hand down on the water, splashing it on them, โ€œno. Tell me I am your responsibility one more time and I will do something to myself. I swear! I am sick and tired of it!โ€
Jimin wipes his eyes, โ€œI am an adult. Believe it or not, I am, and I can take care of my problems. I will deal with it. I will find a way. Please, I beg, don't tell me you want to find a solution-โ€ โ€œI don't plan on mating you,โ€ Yoongi murmurs, โ€œI wasn't saying that.โ€
โ€œYou are not my responsibility, not anymore,โ€ Yoongi holds his hands up, โ€œyou cleared it out. I got it. But, I did that,โ€ his eyes focus on the mark, โ€œand I need to take responsibility of my action. So, I can help you get it removed. If you want. Do you want that?โ€
Jimin eyes Yoongi, โ€œhow?โ€ Yoongi lets out a breath, โ€œwe need to keep it healed. You can remove it anytime you want, but if it stays open like that, it will get infected. Just... let me heal it. Then do whatever you want. Yeah?โ€ Jimin thinks, eyes on Yoongi, โ€œhow?โ€
Yoongi shrugs, โ€œwash the wound and let the alpha lick it-โ€ Jimin shakes his head, โ€œno! No way in hell you are coming near me and licking me! Do you hear yourself?!โ€ Yoongi arches a brow, โ€œif we feel nothing for each other, it's just an act of help. You need to heal. Come on!โ€
Jimin shakes his head, โ€œno! I will find another way-โ€ โ€œThere's no other way,โ€ Yoongi sighs, โ€œand, you know that. You would have found it by now if there was. You need to heal it. You need my help here.โ€ Jimin snorts, โ€œoh, you helped me into this!โ€ Yoongi sighs, โ€œI know.โ€
Yoongi holds his breath, eyes on the omega who is clearly doubtful. Yoongi's eyes move from Jimin's face to that mark. Something flails its ugly head in him, spreading a sense of possessiveness through his veins that Yoongi abhors. Jimin nods hesitantly, โ€œfine, just heal it.โ€
Yoongi lets out a breath when Jimin dips into the water, rubbing his fingers over the wound to clean it. When he comes back up, his white shirt sticks to him. The mark glistens with water and blood oozes out of it. It should be an ugly sight. Yoongi finds it fascinating.
He steps closer to the omega. His eyes on the mark that is a stark contrast against Jimin's pale skin. The wound is deep. Yoongi traces the uneven skin around it, feels Jimin's heartbeat against his thumb. He leans, nose pressing against Jimin's skin, lips on the wound.
Yoongi holds back a growl when Jimin's hands grasp at his hair, fingers gripping those locks tightly. Yoongi mouths the wound, presses the flat of his tongue on it to let his pheromones absorb into Jimin's skin. Jimin lets out a shudder, fingers twitching in Yoongi's hair.
There is a sound of footstep and Yoongi growls, pulling Jimin flushed against him with his arms around Jimin's waist. He eyes the shore, eyes moving towards the source. Yoongi lets out a curse when he sees the pack leader and the Luna coming towards the river.
Jimin grips at Yoongi's shirt, โ€œshit!โ€ Yoongi ducks, โ€œshush!โ€ Jimin glares, โ€œthey can't see us like this! Yoongi-โ€ Yoongi shrugs, โ€œyou are not leaving!โ€ Jimin's nails dig into Yoongi's biceps, โ€œthey cannot see us like this! What will you tell them?! We will be kicked out!โ€
โ€œI think there is some tension between Jimin and Yoongi,โ€ Yushik speaks, walking down the riverbank, โ€œthey look like-โ€ โ€œLovers,โ€ Byung hums, โ€œI don't know. They looked like they had history together. As if they have feelings for each other.โ€ Yoongi looks at Jiminโ€ฆ
Jimin leans against the boulder, head tilted back against it. Yoongi presses closer when the footsteps come closer. By the sound of it, the leader and the Luna are out for a night walk. โ€œThat's unacceptable!โ€ the leader growls, โ€œthey know affairs are not tolerated here!โ€
Byung sighs, โ€œmy love, we just met them. Let's give it some time,โ€ they walk by the boulder's other side, โ€œwe will keep an eye on them and if something is amiss-โ€ Byung looks at the river, he halts... โ€œWhat is it?โ€ Yushik asks, worried, โ€œwhat happened?โ€
Jimin feels terrified when they stop talking. His instinct kicks in, and he is clinging to Yoongi. His arms loop around Yoongi's neck, face burying against Yoongi's chest. Yoongi holds him closer, lips pressed against the mark and eyes sharp on the figures he can see vaguely.
Jimin bites back a whimper when the silence stretches, his teeth pressing against Yoongi's throat. Yoongi holds Jimin against him, his muscles tensed. He knows he can't move because then the water will splash. He knows if the two of them leans over, they can see them.
Byung takes a step forward, and Yoongi holds his breath when their eyes meet. Byung goes still, his eyes wide on Yoongi and then shift to Jimin. Yoongi keeps the eye-contact, pushing Jimin up against the boulder to keep him out of sight, but it's all futile. Byung's jaw locksโ€ฆ
Byung's eyes turn golden for a second, and Yoongi's gleam red. โ€œWhat is it?โ€ Yushik tries to walk around Byung. Byung's eyes shift on Jimin who almost clings to Yoongi, trembling now, โ€œlove,โ€ Byung murmurs, โ€œcan you get me my shawl. It's cold here. I will wait. Yes?โ€
Yushik hesitates, โ€œlove...โ€ Byung turns to smile at his mate, โ€œI will sit here. Come back soon.โ€ Yushik sighs, nodding, โ€œI always tell you to take a shawl but you never listen,โ€ the alpha walks back towards the pack and Byung turns to them. โ€œCome here,โ€ Byung chews out, โ€œnow!โ€
Yoongi eyes him, โ€œwhy-โ€ โ€œGet out before I call for guards,โ€ Byung glares, โ€œyou are in no position to talk back to your luna!โ€ Yoongi lets out a sigh and slowly moves to the shore. He lets Jimin up first and follows. They both stand in front of Byung.
Byung looks at Jimin, โ€œWas he forcing himself on you?!โ€ โ€œWhat the fvck?!โ€ Yoongi glares, โ€œwhy would I-โ€ โ€œHe is someone else's mate!โ€ Byung grits out, โ€œhere in your arms. Looking terrified. What am I supposed to think?!โ€ โ€œHe is not someone else's mate!โ€ Yoongi hisses.
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Byung gives Yoongi a long look and then turns to Jimin, โ€œexplain what he said.โ€ Jimin glares at Yoongi and then looks back at Byung, โ€œwe...โ€ his eyes shift on the ground, โ€œwe dated for a few months before I met Jin-โ€ โ€œDo not lie,โ€ Byung's jaw ticks, โ€œnot anymore!โ€
โ€œWhat is going on, and I want to know in details,โ€ Byung arches a brow. โ€œI don't think we have enough time to explain with your husband coming over,โ€ Yoongi looks at the jungle, โ€œhe will be here any minute now.โ€ โ€œMake it short,โ€ Byung hums, โ€œpoint to point.โ€
Yoongi nods, hums, โ€œokay. Whatever the story you heard back there in the dining room, replace Jin for me, and you got the answer.โ€ Jimin closes his eyes, holding his breath. Byung holds Yoongi's stare, โ€œthen... the mating mark is yours?โ€ Yoongi looks at Jimin, โ€œyes.โ€
Byung scowls, โ€œthen why are you two not together?โ€ โ€œHe loves someone else, the omega you know as his mate,โ€ Jimin murmurs, โ€œand-โ€ โ€œAnd, he realized that after we almost got married,โ€ Yoongi chews out, โ€œafter I mated him, which he didn't tell me, by the way.โ€
Byung looks at Jimin and then back at Yoongi, โ€œso, if you love Hoseok, why are you here?โ€ Yoongi opens his mouth, closes it, opens it again, โ€œthat mark is mine! If I don't heal it, there will be consequences!โ€ โ€œYou want to take the responsibility? Just that?โ€ Byung asks.
Yoongi nods mutely. Byung's lips twitch with amusement. โ€œI have never seen an alpha so passionate about their responsibility. I must say, you are a gentleman!โ€ he looks over at Jimin, โ€œdo you want him to take respon-โ€ โ€œNo,โ€ Jimin shakes his head, โ€œI want to remove this mark.โ€
Byung gives Jimin a long look, โ€œare you sure?โ€ Jimin nods, earnest, โ€œyes. I want to be free from this-โ€ โ€œCan we talk somewhere else?โ€ Yoongi cuts in, โ€œhe is freezing, soaked and that mark is already making him weak. I don't want him to catch a cold because you want gossip.โ€
A/N - Byung is a guy. 'Luna' is the position of the pack leader's mate. Address him with he/him, please. x
Byung looks at Yoongi, โ€œyou are too outspoken for your own good. I can kick you out of the pack, you know?โ€ Yoongi nods, โ€œeven then, I would still say, let me take him somewhere warm. He is freezing, and I do not care what you do to me for trying to keep him safe.โ€
Byung gives a slow nod, looks at Jimin, โ€œgo to your house. I will meet you there with Yoongi. Get changed. I will be there.โ€ Jimin looks up, โ€œplease,โ€ he begs, โ€œif you want to kick us out, do so. But, Taehyung... he really needs your protection. Please don't throw him out.โ€
Byung sighs, โ€œhe agreed to go along with your lies. Technically he is to be blamed too, but I know his position and I want to know where you stand. I am not going to do anything without thinking it through. So, go home, wait for me.โ€ Jimin nods, bows, and turns to leave.
Byung looks at Yoongi whose eyes follow Jimin. Byung watches how Yoongi does not look away until he can't see Jimin anymore. Then the alpha looks at Byung and Byung gives him a small smile. โ€œGo, I will join you,โ€ Byung hops off the boulder, โ€œin a few minutes at his place.โ€
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โ€œThere is a hospital near our pack,โ€ Byung sits on the couch, eyes on Jimin who sits across from him, beside Yoongi, โ€œwe go there for emergencies. If you want, I can book a slot for your checkup and then, if the doctor approves, you can operate the mark off. Do you want that?โ€
Jimin nods eagerly, โ€œyes!โ€ his eyes are wide with hope, โ€œI would like that! I mean, that's the only thing holding him back from moving on-โ€ Byung shakes his head, โ€œthat's not the only thing holding him back from doing anything, Jimin. He is in no way tied to you. Mind you.โ€
Byung looks at Yoongi, โ€œyou are free to mate another person. I have had many experiences in this pack where the alphas run off to mate more than one omega. Until and unless you are bitten and held down, you are free to move along. You are not tied to him in any way. You know it.โ€
โ€œThat's why affairs before mating is prohibited here,โ€ Byung looks at the two of them, โ€œthat's why we make sure the alpha and the omega, both are marked and mated. Otherwise, we omegas suffer the most. What's stopping you is your conscience. Right?โ€
โ€œBut, you don't have to worry,โ€ Byung looks at Jimin, gives him a small smile, โ€œJimin here looks strong enough to hold onto his own. He sounds very level-headed. He will find a way. You don't have to worry, Yoongi. You can move on with your life. If that's all it is.โ€
Yoongi hesitates, looking at Byung and back at Jimin. Byung arches a brow, โ€œan omega who, according to you, ruined your life, is giving you a clear shot at a second chance with the person you really like. Why aren't you taking it?โ€ Yoongi looks away, โ€œit's not that easy.โ€
Byung frowns, โ€œwhy is it not that easy?โ€ Yoongi looks at Jimin, โ€œI need to know what ticked you off. I want to know why you decided to leave. I want to know what went wrong because believe it or not, I was in that relationship too, okay? With you! I have a right to know!โ€
โ€œI read your diary,โ€ Jimin looks down at his hands, fingers grasping each other tightly, โ€œI realized how suffocated you were since the start. I knew I was imposed on you, but I never knew to what extent. That day I realized to what extent. I was killing your dreams, you...โ€
โ€œYou read my diary...โ€ Yoongi turns to face Jimin fully, โ€œyou read something I kept for myself. My personal-โ€ โ€œI stumbled across it,โ€ Jimin closes his eyes, โ€œI was curious. I am glad I did, because,โ€ he looks at Yoongi, tears brimming in his eyes, โ€œI got to know so much.โ€
โ€œI had to make it right,โ€ Jimin urges, โ€œyou have to realize-โ€ โ€œMy life is not an infinity stone that you put it back in time and everything goes back to normal!โ€ Yoongi throws his hands up, frustrated, โ€œtime does not go back like that! People don't reset like that, Jimin!โ€
โ€œBut they do,โ€ Jimin slams his hand down on the couch, โ€œthey do when they never changed. You never loved me! You never stopped loving Hobi hyung! That makes it work! I was the hurdle and with me gone, things should fall in its right place! If you let it!โ€
Jimin looks at Byung, โ€œyou understand, right? What I am trying to say? I came between them and he never changed. He never loved me, then what is he trying to do still?!โ€ Byung looks at Yoongi, โ€œanswer him. He is asking a valid question here.โ€
When Yoongi hesitates, Byung lets out a curse, โ€œYoongi, answer this for me, do you still love Hoseok?โ€ Yoongi glances at Jimin. Jimin is looking down at the floor. โ€œNo, look here and answer it,โ€ Byung sighs, โ€œtell me. Do you love him?โ€ โ€œI will always love him,โ€ Yoongi murmurs.
Byung arches a brow, โ€œthen I think it's time you let Jimin off the hook. If that's the case, then I don't see the problem. He did what was the right thing to do. Yes, it took him some time, but he did what was needed. He left you, so you can go back to win Hoseok over. Right?โ€
โ€œIf that's all there is, then let Jimin go,โ€ Byung gives Jimin a tender smile, โ€œI am sure you will find love again, Jimin. People fear to think that love can happen more than once. But, trust me, love will find you again, and I hope this time the with the right person.โ€
โ€œIt doesn't make you fickle minded,โ€ Byung takes a glance at Yoongi, โ€œit doesn't make you a liar for breaking the promise to love a person forever. Love is an emotion and sometimes we fall in love without us even realizing. I am sure you will find someone who would not +
+ hesitate to tell you they love you. I am sure you will find someone who you will love again too. I think,โ€ Byung reaches to take Jimin's hand in his, โ€œJin can be that person too. You know? Or, anyone else. You don't need to rush it. Just know, this is not the end.โ€
Jimin nods, eyes on Byung's hands around his, โ€œthank you.โ€ Byung hums, โ€œI am sure you have a future plan, right, Jimin?โ€ Jimin nods, tentative, โ€œI want to dance again. I want to start my dancing school. Then, some day, I might find someone to settle down with. Have a kid...โ€
โ€œA family I never had,โ€ Jimin looks forlorn, โ€œI think, what I always wanted was a family to call mine.โ€ โ€œAnd you will have it,โ€ Byung squeezes Jimin's hand in his, โ€œjust not with Yoongi.โ€ โ€œI know,โ€ Jimin looks away, โ€œI know that now. Knew that since reading those diaries...โ€
Jimin looks at Yoongi, โ€œyou should have told me, hyung,โ€ his voice cracks, โ€œthat you had someone. How did you think that we will have a family when your heart wasn't in it? How could you think like that? It would never last! Imagine if the breaking point came after the marriage!โ€
โ€œYou would never be able to commit to it because I wanted something totally different from what you were ready to give me,โ€ Jimin wipes his eyes, โ€œyou always knew that you would never touch me ever again, and I had all these plans of a proper family that I shared with you!โ€
โ€œWhat were you thinking?โ€ Jimin grasps at Yoongi's elbow, โ€œhow could you tolerate so much pain when you knew you wanted a family with Hobi hyung and by doing this, you were letting go of that dream? It must have hurt so bad! Why would you do that? Just for responsibility?!โ€
โ€œIt makes me horrified to think we were about to get married, and you just let it all happen because you thought it's the only solution!โ€ Jimin curses, โ€œall you had to do was tell me you had someone, and we would find a way. I would have talked to my dad! Got you out of there!โ€
โ€œPeople make mistakes, hyung, you don't punish them this terribly! We would find a way-โ€ โ€œI thought I had a plan,โ€ Yoongi murmurs, looking away, โ€œthe news was everywhere. My family was dragged into it. I thought I had a plan of turning it all around. I thought that...โ€
โ€œDown the line I will find a solution, all I had to do was, get along with it for the chaos of the scandal to die down. I thought, down the line I will find a loophole and get the chance to break it all off.โ€ Jimin stares, โ€œthat'sโ€ฆโ€ Yoongi hums, โ€œfvcked up. I know.โ€
Byung frowns, โ€œso, your plan was to go with the flow until you find something to blame everything on Jimin and run? Was that it?โ€ โ€œNo,โ€ Yoongi snaps, โ€œmy plan was to stay as aloof as I can so Jimin realizes he deserves better and break it all off.โ€ Byung rises his brows, โ€œoh?โ€
โ€œSo, that's exactly what he did,โ€ Byung tilts his head, โ€œthen, why is that bothering you?โ€ โ€œI don't know!โ€ Yoongi leans over, his head in his hands while he pulls at his hair, โ€œI don't know, okay?! I didn't think it will take so long? I didn't think it will hurt so bad?โ€
โ€œI was planning for him to break it all off and when he did, it felt so weird,โ€ Yoongi hisses, โ€œI never planned to lead him on. I always planned to be cold and void of any emotions, so he gets tired of me. I was just that. I deliberately tried to ruin his feelings for me.โ€
โ€œI told him to use scent-blockers,โ€ Yoongi grits out, โ€œbecause I wanted him to know his scent bothers me. It's not the case. Far from it. I kept hoba's photo in my damn wallet when I barely use it,โ€ he snorts, โ€œI never carry cash like that. But I wanted him to see it.โ€
โ€œI wanted him to know that he changed nothing, and he would change nothing, but, then I kissed him,โ€ Yoongi curses, โ€œI kissed him, and it was the start of getting off the track. I didn't plan that! It was his birthday and he was so pretty,โ€ Yoongi snorts, โ€œyeah, wellโ€ฆโ€
โ€œYou kissed him...โ€ Byung looks at Yoongi and back at Jimin. Yoongi nods, โ€œyeah. I wasn't thinking! I,โ€ he looks at Jimin, โ€œI wish I could say I regretted it. But,โ€ Yoongi shakes his head, โ€œout of the list of things I regretted, kissing you isn't one of them. Surprisingly.โ€
โ€œI never spent hoba's heats with him, I could control myself around him just fine. I am not an animal, you know?โ€ he looks at Byung, โ€œbut Jimin's heat triggered me. I regret sleeping with him when I was clearly more experienced. I always regretted that. In that sense.โ€
โ€œHe deserved to have a better first time,โ€ Yoongi looks away, face contorting, โ€œhe deserved to have a better first kiss. A better first love! I tried to hold onto that thought, so I could push him away, and he would find someone better. Just like you said. I wanted that for him.โ€
โ€œI thought one day he will realize it, and he did,โ€ Yoongi's jaw locks, โ€œbut, when he did, it hurt. Just like right now, you saying that he would find someone, an alpha-โ€ โ€œIt upsets you?โ€ Byung arches a brow. Yoongi gives a sardonic smirk, โ€œit makes me want to tear you apart.โ€
Byung's eyes stay kind. His smile is kinder. He hums, nods to himself before looking at Jimin. โ€œYou can't change time, just as you said, Yoongi,โ€ Byung looks back at Jimin, โ€œbut, you need to make up your mind. What do you want, because you are hurting him and Hoseok. Both.โ€
โ€œI don't think I can go back to Hoba,โ€ Yoongi looks away, โ€œI don't think I-โ€ โ€œIs it because you can't or because you don't want to?โ€ Byung arches a brow, โ€œbecause, you can surely go back to him. He looked like he still has feelings for you. You know? It will be easy, I think.โ€
When no answer comes, Byung chuckles, โ€œI am almost fifty, Yoongi. I am mature enough to understand what you are going through. You don't want to go back anymore. But, accepting that makes you think you are betraying a belief you had since you were a kid. So, you resist. Right?โ€
โ€œI am in no way looking down on your feelings for your childhood best friend, but, Yoongi, people move on-โ€ โ€œI think we should go,โ€ Jimin cuts in, โ€œI don't want to talk about this because I moved past it. I don't need to know where he stands anymore. I am over it. For good.โ€
Jimin looks at Yoongi, โ€œyou wanted me to cut it all off. Take the blame, I did. I did exactly what you hoped for. So, now, all this talk is for nothing. It feels like I am forcing you to like me back and I have learnt the hard way that it's not possible. I don't want to anymore.โ€
Jimin looks at Byung, โ€œI don't need a relationship adviser. Not when there's no relationship to begin with. It's up to you if you want to get us expelled. I will take it. But, I refuse to sit here and listen to this. I will get the mark removed and set us free.โ€
Yoongi looks at Jimin, โ€œsee? It's all about you. You wanted me, you read my diary, you decided to run away, you hid the mark from me, now you want to end it all. You, you and you!โ€ Jimin flinches when Yoongi shouts, his eyes wide. Yoongi glares at him, โ€œI am here too!โ€
โ€œThis is my life you are playing with!โ€ Yoongi jabs a finger against his chest, โ€œthis is my feelings you are destroying! I am sorry, okay? That I loved someone before knowing you! I am sorry that I didn't switch like a bloody knob the moment I saw you! So fvcking sorry!โ€
โ€œI am sorry that I made a mistake, hell, I made a lot of mistakes, but so did you! You could have asked me if I was single or not before your daddy dearest hooked you up with me! You could have asked me about those damn diaries. You could have asked me! You could have asked!โ€
โ€œI am not a damn furniture you change the moment you don't like it!โ€ Yoongi growls, โ€œI am not a damn thing you throw away the moment you think you are over it! I am damn person with feelings and you-โ€ โ€œYour feelings don't lie with me!โ€ Jimin shouts, โ€œyou don't love me!โ€
โ€œLove doesn't happen in a day!โ€ Yoongi screams, โ€œyou fool! Love doesn't happen so quickly! Even if it does, it takes time to grow to a point where a person feels confident enough to voice it! You are crazy if you think it's an instant recipe! It doesn't work like that!โ€
Yoongi looks at Byung, โ€œone day I come home to him leaving, and he doesn't even give me a reason! The next day he is calling off everything and storming out of my life just like he came. I feel used, confused and frustrated. I know he has a point, but what about my points?!โ€
โ€œDo you love him?โ€ Byung asks, โ€œdo you see yourself with him?โ€ โ€œI planned my future with him,โ€ Yoongi whispers, โ€œI was ready to marry him.โ€ โ€œThat doesn't answer anything, Yoongi,โ€ Byung sighs, โ€œyou said it yourself, you think of him as your responsibility and nothing else.โ€
โ€œI can lie and tell you I love you,โ€ Yoongi murmurs, โ€œbut I don't want to. I am not sure yet. But, you are leaving, and you have decided to leave, so I might as well say it. Because,โ€ Yoongi shrugs, โ€œwhat is left for me to lose or gain anyway, right?โ€
โ€œI started keeping a journal because of how I felt for hoba and I couldn't tell him that. I kept it all in that journal. You saw it, you read it. You know how I felt. I was honest. Then we got together and slowly those lines started to be less frequent and then stopped.โ€
โ€œYou thought it's because I lost my dreams, or I never mentioned you because I didn't consider you a part of my life. No,โ€ Yoongi looks at Jimin in the eyes, โ€œit's because I kept diaries solely for Hoba. When I felt my feelings were changing, my writings changed tooโ€ฆโ€
โ€œI didn't feel like writing them down because these feelings were too raw for me to acknowledge them, forget writing them down. I was terrified of these newfound feelings, and I still am. I am not going to compare, okay? Hoba is my first love, but... I couldn't deny that...โ€
โ€œMy feelings for him were slowly starting to,โ€ Yoongi gestures vaguely with his hands, โ€œI don't know how to say this, but when we just got together, I hated you. I hated coming home to you. I hated everything about you. My feelings for Hoba were so strong, I was blinded by them.โ€
Yoongi curses, โ€œbut, with time, coming home to you got easier. With time, the pain hoba's thoughts would bring me started to feel less and lesser. I started to look forward to seeing you when I reach home. Remember, how shocked you were when the first time I went to pick you up?โ€
โ€œI just drove there without thinking. I just wanted to see you,โ€ Yoongi curses, โ€œI never liked nicknames. They are stupid, utterly cheesy and ridiculous but that day you had this stupid bouquet with you. Of some flowers and you kept smiling at it and I thought flowers suit youโ€ฆโ€
โ€œI don't know when, but I started to cook for you, make sure you eat before you leave for college or work. I started to come home soon. I was keeping notice of your schedule. I didn't get the time to write anything because all these were new to me. I was learning a new person!โ€
โ€œI am sorry if I didn't get the time to put that feeling in my damn diary with eloquent words because I was too busy going through this shift that was wrecking havoc on my mind. I didn't want the change, but it was happening, and I didn't want to acknowledge it. Ever.โ€
โ€œI am not comparing, but falling for Hoba was so easy! I knew him since birth. He was my only friend for a long time. I was familiar with him, and he is like a comfort to me. But, you,โ€ Yoongi combs his hair back, frustrated, โ€œI hated the idea of feeling anything for you.โ€
โ€œBut, I was, and it was horrifying!โ€ Yoongi looks away from Jimin, โ€œI never wanted to love you, Park Jimin. I never planned on it. I would still tell myself you were my habit, I got habituated but, love is a habit too. You know? Choosing to love someone every day is a habit too.โ€
โ€œAnd, I didn't want to make that choice,โ€ Yoongi looks at Byung, his eyes shining, โ€œI don't want to make that choice because it will never be good. Right? We were wrong since the start. We were doomed since the start, and it will only hurt us. Loving him is not going to be easy-โ€
โ€œBut you love him anyway,โ€ Byung whispers, throat closing around the words, โ€œknowing it will hurt. Knowing nothing will come off it now, you love him anyway. Right?โ€ Yoongi looks at Jimin, his chest contorting, as if someone is holding his heart in their palm, tightlyโ€ฆ
Yoongi realizes with a start that maybe Jimin is. Maybe Jimin holds his heart in his palm. Without Yoongi's permission. He plays with it the way he wants. Maybe without him realizing it too and Yoongi knows it will break but he is tired of playing safeโ€ฆ โ€œYeah,โ€ Yoongi whispers.
Jimin stumbles back, shaking his head, โ€œyou don't mean it.โ€ Byung frowns, โ€œwhat?โ€ Jimin grabs the neck of his shirt and tugs it down to reveal the mating mark, โ€œit's his way of trying to do the right thing because he feels obligated now that there's a mating mark involved!โ€
Yoongi gives a hollow laugh, both of his hands combing through his hair frustratingly, โ€œmy god, you are so...โ€ Jimin steps back, โ€œI can't ever trust you! You agreed to marry me when you felt nothing for me!โ€ Yoongi curses, โ€œwhat do I have to do for you to trust me?!โ€
โ€œYou just called me names, you just said I am roping you into this,โ€ Jimin hisses, โ€œyou just said I manipulated you into whatever we had. You canโ€™t possibly think I will believe you now-โ€ โ€œHow about we do one thing,โ€ Byung chirps in, โ€œhow about you two give this another chance?โ€
Yoongi and Jimin look at Byung. Confused. Byung gestures, โ€œyou both clearly feel something for each other. Both of you do. How about you try courting? In the past, you both rushed into it and ruined it for both of you. How about this time you take it slow? A second chance?โ€
โ€œCourting,โ€ Byung smiles at them, encouraging, โ€œold-fashioned way of an alpha gaining an omega's trust back. How about you try that? A time span where you two give each other a chance to walk up to each other, not dive into it head first. Huh?โ€
Jimin looks at Yoongi, โ€œI don't want anything to do with him. Also, my heat is due-โ€ โ€œWhat? You are going to spend it with Jin hyung?โ€ Yoongi arches a brow, eyes sparkling red. Jimin hisses, โ€œsay shit like that again, I will slap you!โ€ Yoongi steps forward, โ€œgo on!โ€
Byung stands up, โ€œenough! Both of you! If you donโ€™t want to give it a chance, thatโ€™s okay. Just stop picking fights with each other and try to be civil because otherwise, you are going to blow your cover, and then I wonโ€™t be able to help you or your friend! At least, be civil!โ€
Jimin nods, โ€œI will be civil. I don't want to see his face anyway! Also? If I please, I can spend my heat with whoever the fvck I want! You get no say in this! If I want, and he agrees, I will bloody hell spend my heat with Jin hyung!โ€
Yoongi goes still, his jaw ticking. He watches Jimin fume and then he looks back at Byung. โ€œThank you for not blowing our cover,โ€ Yoongi bows, โ€œI will take your leave now,โ€ he looks at Jimin, โ€œall the best on your new target!โ€ Jimin and Byung watch Yoongi storm out of the room.
@/ksjinddy I WILL BE FOREVER GRATEFUL FOR SUGGESTING THIS SONG FOR THIS STORY. This is the perfect song for this story. I am so in love. It's Hindi. Idk if there's an English translation but, THIS IS THE OST of this story from now on โ€” youtu.be/A1fvWXogTLw
๐Ÿค๐Ÿค๐Ÿค ๐Ÿ”ฅ ๐Ÿค๐Ÿค๐Ÿค
โ€œI think we should talk,โ€ Jin comes to sit beside Yoongi. โ€œNo, we shouldn't,โ€ Yoongi busies himself with the preparation of the feast for that night, โ€œI don't want to create a scene, Jin. Leave me alone.โ€ โ€œWhat is wrong with you nowadays?โ€ Jin curses, โ€œyou are just so distant.โ€
โ€œIt's better than me feeling anything,โ€ Yoongi looks at the lights he is hanging around the field where the weekly pack gathering happens, โ€œI don't want to end up losing it, Jin. Justโ€ฆ let me be.โ€ Jin gives him a disappointed look, โ€œyou realize his heat starts tomorrow, right?โ€
Yoongi grips the hammer in his hand, looking at the stand where he is nailing the wires, โ€œwell, I am not sure why I need to know that.โ€ Jin lets out a long breath, โ€œthis pack knows I am his alpha. I will be locked in that damn house with him for these three days! Yoongi!โ€
Yoongi shrugs, looking at the people roaming around, โ€œwell, what do you want me to say? Enjoy? Do what he wants? See what he needs?โ€ Jin holds his breath, โ€œyou can't be serious.โ€ Yoongi slams the hammer against the pole, โ€œI am! I am very serious! What do you want me to say?!โ€
โ€œWhat should I do?!โ€ Yoongi barks, โ€œwhat do you want me to do?!โ€ โ€œByung summoned him,โ€ Jin looks around to make sure no one is listening in, "I think they are talking about it. I don't know, Yoongi. Staying with him during this time will be a disaster!" Yoongi looks away...
Jin shoves his hands in his pockets, desperate, โ€œyou realize this is his second heat, right? He will be just as inexperienced! I am not sure itโ€™s a good idea for meโ€”โ€ โ€œAsk him,โ€ Yoongi looks at his hand, tightly gripping the hammer, โ€œjust do what he says. Whatever he says.โ€
โ€œYou know what he will 'say,' in that state!โ€ Jin grits out, โ€œyou know very well what his omega will say! I am an alpha-โ€ โ€œThen talk to him now,โ€ Yoongi shrugs, โ€œask him what he says. If he wants you, go ahead. You don't need my permission. I am no one in this business.โ€
Jin gives Yoongi a long look, โ€œyou are ruinous. You know?โ€ Yoongi chuckles, โ€œI am ruined,โ€ he picks up the wires in his hands, โ€œhe is ruinous. Excuse me.โ€ He marches away from Jin. Leaves before the urge to tear Jin apart grows more. He leaves before his anger erupts.
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โ€œByung can't do shit, not when Yushik thinks we are mated,โ€ Jin looks at Jungkook, Taehyung and Hoseok, โ€œJimin is quiet. He didn't utter a single word, guys. I am so fvcking frustrated right now!โ€ Taehyung looks at Jin, โ€œwell, you can contorl yourself, right?!โ€
Jin glares, โ€œme controlling myself is not the problem here, Tae! He will be in heat! I am an alpha. Simply put, a knot! You realize that he will not be in his senses, right?!โ€ โ€œI talked to him,โ€ Taehyung bites his nails, โ€œhe was quiet with me too. He just said, it will be okay.โ€
โ€œHow will he be okay when he will not be in his senses and I will be the only alpha-โ€ โ€œYou can be the last alpha on this planet,โ€ they all turn to see Jimin by the doorstep, โ€œand, I can have my first ever heat, hyung. I would still not want you. I will be fine, trust me.โ€
Jimin looks at Jin, โ€œI will be fine.โ€ Jin stands up too, โ€œyou think so, Jimin. You remember what happened the first time, right?โ€ Jimin nods, โ€œI remember. That's why I am telling you, it will be fine. Calm down. Okay? Just control yourself, and you'll not be disturbed by me.โ€
Jimin goes to his room, closing the door behind himself. Taehyung looks at Jin, โ€œyeah, control yourself. I will call you every hour. Make sure you pick up. Otherwise, I don't care who thinks what or does what, I will come and break the damn door. Trust me.โ€ Jin nods, โ€œfine!โ€
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Yoongi sits by the waterfall. His eyes on the water while the night grows old around him. It's almost two in the night, and it's the first day of Jimin's heat. Yoongi sits on the boulder, willing himself to go back home. His muscles won't cooperate. He doesn't want to.
Yoongi lies down on the boulder, eyes on the sky. He feels the frustration seep out of him. Hot trails of tears silently roll out of his eyes to get lost in his hairline. He doesn't bother wiping them. He counts the stars instead, trying to will himself to just stay put.
He watches the sky till he can't. Till he reaches for his phone and dials the number. It rings. With each ring, Yoongi's heartbeat picks up. He thinks of cutting the call. Thinks of throwing the phone into the river. โ€œWhat?โ€ The voice is shaken. Yoongi feels it in his core.
โ€œHow are you?โ€ Yoongi watches the moon peeking through the clouds. โ€œWhy?โ€ Jimin coughs, his voice frail. โ€œAre you alone?โ€ Yoongi chews the inside of his cheek, feels fresh tears roll out of his eyes, โ€œplease, be alone.โ€ โ€œYou are so selfish!โ€ Jimin hisses, โ€œfvck you!โ€
โ€œJimin,โ€ Yoongi hears Jin's voice, โ€œroll on your side-โ€ Yoongi holds his breath, his eyes stuck on the sky. Jimin moans, โ€œlisten-โ€ Yoongi chuckles, โ€œno, forget it. Forget I called.โ€ He cuts the call and sits up on the boulder. The voices echo in his head...
Yoongi prided himself in not losing it like almost all alphas did. He liked to think he was better than that. But, he punches the boulder next to the one he is sitting on. He punches it until it hurts, bruises and blood starts to clot. Until it hurts more than his heart.
Until he can't anymore and then he dives into the water. The cold seeps into his bones, and he holds himself underwater. He swims till his skin is prune, and he can feel the cold almost freeze him. Then he gets out of the water and goes home to Hoseok who is sleeping on the bed.
Yoongi watches Hoseok sleep peacefully. He walks up to the bed, eyes stuck on the omega, whose scent envelops him now. Yoongi leans against the bedpost, the voices still echoing in his ears, and his eyes are stuck on Hoseok. This is the person he always wanted to come home to.
Hoseok stirs, turning on his side. He is wearing a T-shirt to bed and his boxers. The T-shirt is too big on him, almost falling off his shoulders. Yoongi watches how Hoseok slowly stirs, eyes fluttering. โ€œHyung?โ€ Hoseok sounds groggy, โ€œI was waiting for you to come home.โ€
Yoongi watches Hoseok sit up on the bed, the T-shirt falling off his one shoulder. Yoongi's eyes trail over Hoseok's figure. He ignores how Hoseok notices that too. He ignores how Hoseok's eyes roam over his soaked figure too. The night is too quiet. They are quiet too...
Yoongi feels the anger shimmer through his veins. He watches how Hoseok's lips part, a silent gesture that maybe even he doesn't notice. Yoongi does though. His eyes drop to those lips. He reaches out, hand cupping the side of Hoseok's cheeks. Hoseok sucks in a breath, โ€œYoon-โ€
Yoongi leans in, his forehead resting against Hoseok's and Hoseok grips his wrist, eyes on Yoongi. Yoongi's eyes closes, silent tears oozing out of his eyes, โ€œall I ever wanted is right here,โ€ he murmurs, โ€œin this room. This is all I ever wanted. You, like this. Waiting for me.โ€
โ€œBut, I stopped waiting for that dream, hoba,โ€ he breaks down, โ€œI stopped dreaming of you. I stopped, gave up, left this dream and walked out into my reality. Him,โ€ Yoongi sobs, โ€œhe became my reality and now that he is gone, I feel like I am walking into a nightmare!โ€
Yoongi feels Hoseok going still against him, and he pulls away to sit at the edge of the bed, โ€œI hurt him, I am hurting you, I am hurting myself,โ€ he holds his head in his hands, pulling at his hair, โ€œwhy can't I ever have what I want? Why am I so slow to realize who I want!โ€
โ€œI want to buy that damn house,โ€ Yoongi sobs in his hands, โ€œI want to go home to him. I want us to love each other slowly. I want us to be something,โ€ Yoongi looks at his feet, โ€œbut, here I am. There he is. With someone else. It hurts so bad! It hurts so fvcking bad!โ€
Hoseok crawls over to him, hugging him from the side, โ€œhyung,โ€ his voice comes out heavy too, โ€œbreathe. You are too riled up. Please, breathe. Okay? It will be fine. It's just a heat. Even if he is with someone, it doesn't mean anything. It's just a heat.โ€
Yoongi shakes his head, โ€œour entire relationship was based on him being in heat. How am I to forget that, and I can't,โ€ he looks away, โ€œI can't-โ€ โ€œIt will be fine,โ€ Hoseok rubs Yoongi's back, โ€œcalm down, okay? It will be fine. When he gets out of heat, talk. It will be fine.โ€
Yoongi stands up, โ€œyou sleep, okay? I will take the couch outside.โ€ Hoseok holds Yoongi's wrist, โ€œstay. It's okay. We can share a bed without it being awkward. Trust me.โ€ Yoongi shakes his head, โ€œno, hoba. I will take the couch outside. Just... sleep. Sorry for waking you up.โ€
โ€œAnd, hoba,โ€ Yoongi holds Hoseok's hands in his, โ€œI never apologized to you properly. Because, maybe deep down, I always thought I will come back to you. Maybe I held onto that hope that one day I will just return to you, and it will be all forgiven and forgotten...โ€
โ€œBut, now I know,โ€ Yoongi's face contorts, โ€œthat I will never return here. To you,โ€ he wipes Hoseok's eyes, shakes his head, โ€œI will never be able to turn back to you. So,โ€ Yoongi lets out a breath, โ€œI am sorry. For leaving you back then. Now. I am sorry for breaking it all off.โ€
โ€œI am sorry for leading you on, keeping you on my tail,โ€ Yoongi sniffles, โ€œI know that he will never want me back, but I can't pretend to not want him anymore. I can't pretend that if he doesn't want it, I can be yours. I can't. I might as well move on from both of you.โ€
Yoongi's lips tremble on silent sobs, โ€œI just... I wish,โ€ he tilts his head, tears rolling out of his eyes, โ€œI wish I didn't lose my best friend because of this stupid love shit!โ€ Hoseok bursts into tears, โ€œyou moron. You will never lose your best friend. He is right here!โ€
โ€œHe is not going anywhere,โ€ Hoseok reaches out to wipe Yoongi's eyes, โ€œhe never will because,โ€ Hoseok cups Yoongi's face, โ€œbecause he only has you too. Okay? Never doubt that.โ€ Yoongi breaks, he throws his arms around Hoseok and gathers the omega in his arms, โ€œthank you, hoba!โ€
Hoseok hugs Yoongi back, just as tightly, โ€œI will find someone better, you know?โ€ Yoongi laughs, nods while tears roll out of his eyes, happy, relieved tears, โ€œoh, I know! Someone way, way better. You always deserve the best. I never doubted that.โ€ Hoseok nods, โ€œgood.โ€
Hoseok pulls away, wipes Yoongi's eyes, โ€œnow calm down. Go and sleep. You look like a ghost of yourself. Come on. Rest. How long has it been since you last had a peaceful sleep?โ€ Yoongi gives him a rueful smile, โ€œmonths. Since he left.โ€ Yoongi turns and walks out of the room.
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Jimin drags himself to the river after those three days are over. He ignores Jin's protests and tells the alpha that he will be back after he cleaned himself of the fluids all over his skin. Jin had let him go, worriedly staring after him. Jimin ignored the alpha.
It's past midnight, so Jimin expects the waterfall to be quiet and empty. Just what he needs right now. He almost drops himself into the water, sitting by the shore and letting out a curse when the cool water touches his burning skin. Jimin lies down, eyes on the sky.
Jimin hears the footsteps and sits up. His eyes alert and on the jungle. He pulls the white, flimsy shirt he wore tightly to him and stares at the source of the sound. The footsteps draw closer and Jimin sits in the water, feeling nauseous. He still smells of his heat.
Jimin's heart stops in his chest when the person rounds the corner and steps around the boulders lining the shone. Yoongi looks up from where he was, hands in his pockets and black, sheer, shirt open till the last button. They both freeze. Eyes on each other.
Jimin pulls his legs up to himself, arms going around them while he watches Yoongi. Yoongi looks at him while slowly walking up to the river. The alpha stands by the riverbank, eyes fixed on Jimin. Jimin can hear his heartbeat over the sound of the waterfallโ€ฆ
โ€œYou don't smell like Jin,โ€ Yoongi blurts out, voice carrying over to Jimin. Jimin frowns, โ€œwhy,โ€ he blinks, confused, โ€œwhy'd I smell of him?โ€ Yoongi slowly steps into the river, eyes on Jimin, โ€œwhen I called, he was there with you.โ€ Jimin's confusion ebbs off to realization.
โ€œWhat?โ€ Jimin arches a brow, giving Yoongi a sardonic smile, โ€œI should smell of his cum or knot? Is that what you are saying?โ€ Yoongi growls, it tears out of him, โ€œcareful! I am fvcking at the edge.โ€ Jimin shrugs, โ€œyou asked. I answered. What's your next question? How was he?โ€
โ€œMight as well tell me,โ€ Yoongi shrugs out of his shirt, throwing it on the nearest rock, โ€œjudging by he is the first alpha after me.โ€ Jimin leans back, his legs stretching out in front of him, โ€œhe was better, actually. His knot felt better inside-โ€
Jimin stops when Yoongi moves, his hand grabs Jimin's ankle, pushes it to the side and the alpha steps between his legs. Jimin presses himself against the boulder he is leaning on, eyes wide and on Yoongi who is right in front of him. Yoongi's eyes are oozing fire...
โ€œChoose your words very wisely,โ€ Yoongi grits out, โ€œvery, very wisely, blossom,โ€ he hisses the endearment, โ€œI am in no mood to play your games.โ€ Jimin places his hands on Yoongi's bare chest, nails digging there, โ€œwell, you asked. Am I supposed to lie? He was better.โ€
Yoongi's arm goes around Jimin's waist, easily wrapping Jimin up in his arms, โ€œyou don't smell like any alpha. At all.โ€ Jimin arches his back, hand on Yoongi's shoulder now, eyes focused on those red irises, โ€œand?โ€ Yoongi's eyes trail over him, โ€œand, there are no bruises...โ€
Jimin shrugs, โ€œsome alphas are not controlling, you know?โ€ he chews out, โ€œsome likes it the other way around. Unlike some who are brutal and rough and doesn't stop to think it's the omega's first time-โ€ Yoongi arches a brow, โ€œwow, you remember a lot from the first time, I see.โ€
Yoongi leans in, lips pressing against Jimin's ear, โ€œhow about,โ€ he nips Jimin's earlobe, โ€œI remind you how you were on your first time, and you might realize how I felt. Hmm? How about I make you remember how it felt to be mine?โ€ Jimin sucks in a breath...
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โ€œThe thing is,โ€ Jimin's nails dig deeper in Yoongi's flesh, his voice comes out tight against Yoongi's ear, โ€œyou and I both don't forget. We never forget, and that's the reason we are here.โ€ He watches Yoongi, โ€œyou, with someone else,โ€ he looks away, โ€œme with someone else too.โ€
โ€œI am not with someone else,โ€ Yoongi whispers, eyes stuck on the mark against Jimin's neck, โ€œI am not with anyone else. I got out of it.โ€ Jimin freezes in his arms, eyes slowly shifting on Yoongi, โ€œwhat?โ€ Yoongi nods, watching how fresh blood coats the wound, โ€œyeah.โ€
Yoongi leans towards the wound, โ€œdid it hurt during the heat?โ€ Jimin shrugs, โ€œwhat do you mean you got out of it?โ€ Yoongi lets his thumb graze the uneven skin, โ€œtold him I can't pretend anymore. Told him I stopped loving him. Maybe ages ago-โ€ Jimin pushes at his chest, โ€œstop!โ€
He shakes his head, pressing himself against the boulder to stay away from Yoongi, โ€œdon't lie to me! Don't try to manipulate me into whatever you are planning!โ€ Yoongi reaches for him desperately, โ€œno,โ€ takes a hold of Jimin's wrist, โ€œI am not playing a game! I mean it!โ€
โ€œDon't lie to me,โ€ Jimin glowers, โ€œnot when it changes nothing! I am not going to go back to a person who told me I roped him into this. Not to a person whose first thought after hearing Jin hyung's voice was, I slept with him. Not to a person who doesn't trust me.โ€
โ€œYou didn't?โ€ Yoongi wonders, hand tightening around Jimin's wrist, feet moving him closer to the omega, โ€œyou didn't sleep with him?โ€ โ€œI don't owe you the answer to that,โ€ Jimin grits out, eyes turning Azure, โ€œI don't owe you shit!โ€ โ€œJust tell me,โ€ Yoongi begs, โ€œplease.โ€
Yoongi leans his head against Jimin's collarbone, voice coming out tight, โ€œI can't stop thinking about it. I can't stop imagining you with him, or anyone else. Just...โ€ โ€œImagine what you put me through then,โ€ Jimin snorts, โ€œput yourself in my shoes, and then we can talk.โ€
โ€œI never slept with anyone else since I promised to marry you!โ€ Yoongi growls, โ€œwhat are you saying?!โ€ Jimin glares back, โ€œemotionally?! What about that? You were never present. You were never-โ€ โ€œWhat do I have to do for you to forgive me?!โ€ Yoongi slams his hand on the waterโ€ฆ
โ€œNothing,โ€ Jimin shrugs, โ€œI am over you, Min Yoongi. I will book an appointment, now that the heat is over, and get this mark off me. You can do whatever you want. You are not my headache anymore. Now,โ€ he turns on his feet, โ€œexcuse me. It's getting late and I am cold.โ€
Yoongi reaches out to hold Jimin by his waist. He gets closer until Jimin's back is pressed against his chest. Yoongi presses his lips against Jimin's neck, feeling how Jimin tilts his head to the other side. โ€œPlease,โ€ Yoongi whispers, โ€œgive me one chance. Last chance. Please.โ€
โ€œI wish I could,โ€ Jimin turns his face to look over at Yoongi, their faces inches apart. A teardrop rolls out of Jimin's eye, โ€œbut, I can't,โ€ he looks at Yoongi with pain clear in his eyes, โ€œnot when I am mated to you. Not when I can't say if this is you or the mark talking.โ€
โ€œNot when I spent an entire heat in pain, emotional and physical, wishing it would stop hurting so bad. Not when the mating mark opened and it felt like my entire body was on fire. Not when your first thought was I spent it with Jin hyung. No, I can't. I can't do that to myself.โ€
Jimin searches Yoongi's eyes, โ€œI stayed awake every hour and wished I never met you, hyung,โ€ he lets the tears roll out of his eyes, โ€œI let Jin hyung bring me food, painkillers and drinks and cursed myself for wishing it was you,โ€ he looks away, โ€œI can't hurt myself anymore.โ€
โ€œI am getting this mark removed,โ€ Jimin wipes his eyes, โ€œByung said he won't be able to come with me. Taehyung wants to, but Sarangie sleeps around the clock now, and I can't ask him to bring the baby to the hospital. So, I will go alone. I need some rest. Let me go.โ€
Jimin watches him and Yoongi watches Jimin back. โ€œIs this your final decision?โ€ Yoongi asks, โ€œyou want to remove the mark?โ€ Jimin nods, โ€œyeah,โ€ his throat bobs, โ€œI want to move on.โ€ Yoongi's eyes roam over Jimin's face, โ€œfine. I will go with you.โ€ Jimin frowns, โ€œwhat?โ€
Yoongi holds back his tears, โ€œI always blamed myself for getting you into this,โ€ he nods, โ€œI was there to ruin your life, I will be there to free you too. I will go with you. If that's what you want, really want, then I will come with you and be there.โ€ Jimin watches him...
Then Jimin turns on his heels and gets out of the water. Yoongi turns away too, dipping into the water to let the tears blend with the tides. He comes up after a moment, combing his hair back and staring at the waterfall. Yoongi swims to the waterfall, standing underneath.
The water flow is heavy, but not too heavy to push him away or hurt him. Yoongi stands and lets it pour on him while tears roll out of his eyes. The water is not above his waistline. He stands and lets the cold water run around him.
The sound of footsteps on the water makes him look at the river, and Yoongi lets out a gasp when he sees the flash of white before Jimin slams into him. Before Yoongi can understand anything Jimin cups his face, tugging him forward to press his lips against Yoongi's parted ones.
It's not a kiss. Not a proper one, at least. Jimin is sobbing, his lips trembling against Yoongi's and Yoongi is still until he is not. He is reaching out to hold Jimin by his waist, crying himself. He feels his heart breaking between them. Because it feels like a goodbye.
โ€œYou owed me that,โ€ Jimin whimpers into the kiss, โ€œyou owed me a kiss where you fvcking felt something!โ€ Yoongi pulls Jimin closer, kissing him deeply, โ€œI always,โ€ he coaxes Jimin to open his mouth, โ€œalways felt something.โ€ Jimin bites down on his lower lip, โ€œnot enough!โ€
Jimin holds Yoongi while the alpha kisses down his throat, tongue pressing against the mating mark. Jimin hisses, looking down to see Yoongi lick at it, trying to clean it under the waterfall, โ€œI deserved to have a happy story to tell my kids about my mating, you know?โ€
โ€œI deserved to have happy memories with my mate,โ€ Jimin tugs at Yoongi's hair, pulling him away, โ€œI deserved better!โ€ โ€œThen let me be better,โ€ Yoongi pushes Jimin up against the rocks, desperate, โ€œour kids can learn that we still made it. Every first doesn't have to be happy!โ€
โ€œI am not having your kids!โ€ Jimin hisses, shaking his head, โ€œI will not have your kids! I am just saying-โ€ Yoongi kisses him again, pressing him against the rocks, โ€œstop saying. Please. I beg, one chance! Jimin, just one chance! I will make your every memory a happy one!โ€
โ€œI don't know how to trust you with this mark on me,โ€ Jimin pulls away from the kiss, turns his face away when Yoongi follows him, โ€œI don't know how to believe any word you say when I know you would do anything for your responsibilities, and you see me as one. For sure!โ€
โ€œI will take you to remove the mark,โ€ Yoongi murmurs, โ€œand then, I will court you. How does that sound?โ€ Jimin looks at him, confused, โ€œyou know that if we get the mark removed then we can't mate until I want, right? It has to be my choice this time.โ€ Yoongi shrugs, โ€œI know.โ€
Jimin tilts his head, โ€œwhat if I never want you again?โ€ Yoongi shrugs, โ€œI would still want this. I would still take a chance over nothing at all.โ€ Jimin watches him, โ€œyou would do so much for nothing? I won't be easy-โ€ โ€œYou never were,โ€ Yoongi holds back a smile, โ€œtrust me.โ€
Jimin lets Yoongi come closer. The alpha's lips pressing against Jimin's mark. Jimin lets Yoongi kiss it, lets himself feel the soothing pheromones surround him. โ€œIt will not be easy,โ€ Jimin whispers, โ€œpeople here still think we are mated to someone else.โ€ โ€œWe will find a way.โ€
โ€œDon't fuck it up, okay?โ€ Jimin whispers, โ€œif you do, I will never forgive you again. I swear.โ€ Yoongi pulls back to match Jimin's eyes, โ€œI will not fuck it up. I swear.โ€ Jimin nods, hesitantly letting Yoongi pull him towards the shore, letting out of the water...
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โ€œYou will be fine?โ€ Yoongi asks by the treeline before they enter the pack's locality, โ€œI can't follow you there.โ€ Jimin hums, wraps his arms around himself, โ€œyeah. I will be fine. Don't worry.โ€ Yoongi nods, โ€œI will go after you.โ€ Jimin turns and slowly walks away...
Jimin gets inside the house and Taehyung is right there, by the bedroom. His eyes are on Jimin and Jimin watches how Jin is asleep on the couch. Jimin walks up to the bedroom and gets inside, dragging Taehyung inside too, โ€œlisten, I told him about the operation.โ€
Taehyung looks at Jimin with worry colouring his eyes, โ€œshit!โ€ Jimin nods, โ€œyes. I just couldn't hold it back. I wanted to hurt him by saying that, but instead, he agreed to come with me.โ€ Taehyung goes still, โ€œwait, what?โ€ Jimin nods, infuriated, โ€œnow I need to find a plan.โ€
โ€œYou need to get the mark removed, otherwise you can't get married!โ€ Taehyung hisses, โ€œJimin! What were you thinking?!โ€ โ€œI wasn't, okay?!โ€ Jimin sits beside Taehyung, frustrated, โ€œhe was saying things that I always wanted to hear, and I just couldn't hold myself back. I am so-โ€
Jimin shakes his head, โ€œhe can't come with me. I can't take anyone with me! I need to leave on my own, and then I need to do as we planned!โ€ โ€œWe don't need to go through with this plan,โ€ Taehyung shakes his head, โ€œlisten, Namjoon will do something. We can just wait and it will-โ€
Jimin gives Taehyung a look, โ€œNamjoon alone can't solve everything. We need more people at our side. If I go through with this, my dad will be on our side, along with that alpha's family. You are not realizing, Tae. We need to figure this out as quickly as possible!โ€
โ€œI have brought enough shame to my family, you know?โ€ Jimin looks down at his hands, โ€œmum kept saying how much dad had to listen from everyone when I decided to marry Yoongi and then when I broke it all off, our family suffered again. This will be a little payback.โ€
โ€œDad sounded so happy, Tae,โ€ Jimin blinks back tears, โ€œafter so long, he talked to me. When I went to Byung's room, and he let me contact dad, he sounded so happy. I can do this, you know?โ€ โ€œYou are marrying a man you never met,โ€ Taehyung grips Jimin's hand in his, โ€œplease!โ€
Taehyung jerks Jimin's hands, making the omega look at him, โ€œyou are marrying a person you don't know. You have no idea how he is. You just know his family is powerful and that's it! I don't need you to do this to save me, chim! This doesn't sound right! It's not right!โ€
Jimin's jaw hardens, he glares at Taehyung, โ€œI am marrying him because his family is powerful and by doing this, I am gaining a favour from my dad! My dad will now help me find this person behind you and I will get you out of this. Just trust me, okay?!โ€
Taehyung feels tears brim his eyes, โ€œyou shouldn't need a favour from your dad, you know? He is your dad. He should support you. No matter what.โ€ Jimin shrugs, looking down at his hands, โ€œI didn't act like his son either. I kept bringing shame to the family. Repeatedly.โ€
โ€œWho cares?โ€ Taehyung sniffles, โ€œthey are horrible parents! Who cares?!โ€ Jimin meets Taehyung's eyes, โ€œI do. I left my house because I was so sure of him, you know? That he loves me and I love him, and I am making the right decision. Now look at me! Maybe they were right.โ€
Taehyung shakes his head, โ€œthey were never right! They were never right. Come on-โ€ โ€œNo,โ€ Jimin shrugs, โ€œI will go through with this. I feel guilty of it all, you know? I ruined so much of my family because I let my heart decide for me. I am done with that. I can do this.โ€
Taehyung looks at Jimin, giving up, โ€œwhat did he say? Yoongi hyung?โ€ Jimin's lips tremble, those eyes flickering away, โ€œthatโ€ฆโ€ Jimin looks over Taehyung's shoulder, โ€œthat he wants a future with me. He wants to try.โ€ Taehyung hears the heartbreak in that voice, โ€œdon't do this.โ€
โ€œDon't let me be the reason you are unhappy,โ€ Taehyung sobs, shaking his head, โ€œI will take death over that-โ€ Jimin snorts, โ€œat this point I am not even sure if I know what happiness feel like, Tae. If, by doing this, I can keep you safeโ€ฆ the only person who matters, I will.โ€
Jimin looks at Taehyung, wiping his eyes, โ€œyou have a family now. Sarangie needs you. Jungkook wants a future with you, just as you want that. I would be damned if I let anything stop that. I can do this, you know? Who knows, maybe I will come to like the alpha, yeah?โ€
โ€œYou already love someone,โ€ Taehyung begs, โ€œthat someone wants to try... how will you ever forget that?โ€ Jimin looks down at their joined hands, โ€œI kissed him, you know? I know it was selfish of me, but I had to. One last time. I will keep his memories and I will be fine.โ€
Jimin pulls Taehyung down beside him on the bed, โ€œnow sleep here, hmm? Tomorrow I am leaving, and I don't know when will we meet again. Sarangie is with her dad. You stay here.โ€ Taehyung lets Jimin hug him, lets the omega place his head on Taehyung's chest to sleep.
Taehyung lets Jimin cry. He looks at the ceiling, his own tears falling, while Jimin tries to stifle his own tears. When Taehyung feels Jimin is asleep, tired from his heat and the exhaustion of it all, Taehyung slowly slips out of the room. He leaves the house in the darkness.
The pack is asleep, but the guards walk the roads, keeping their eyes on the surroundings and whistling as they go to alert the other guards. Taehyung runs to the house, knocks as fast as he can and waits. The door opens after a few seconds. Yoongi frowns, โ€œTaehyung?โ€
Taehyung walks inside, closes the door and leans against it, โ€œyou need to listen to me very carefully, Min Yoongi.โ€ Yoongi stares at him, confused, โ€œwhat?โ€ Taehyung takes Yoongi to the couch, sits down and pats the place beside him, โ€œsit. We need to talk.โ€
Taehyung looks at Yoongi when he sits down, โ€œtomorrow, when you take Jimin to the hospital, no one will go with you, right?โ€ Yoongi nods, confused how Taehyung knows that. Taehyung's jaw hardens, โ€œrun away with him. Don't come back here. Take him somewhere else.โ€
Yoongi stares, โ€œwhat?!โ€ Taehyung nods, frustrated, desperate, โ€œlisten, Jimin's dad is manipulating him, guilt-tripping him into thinking that if he marries the guy his dad chose, that asshole will help him find out who is behind me. Jimin, being Jimin, believed him. I don't.โ€
โ€œI don't believe any word that comes out of my dad and his dad's mouths! They are all the same, liars. That's all. He just wants his reputation restored and nothing else. He doesn't care how Jimin feels, and he knows after the wedding, Jimin won't be able to do anything anywayโ€ฆโ€
โ€œSo, he is using me to get his ego restored,โ€ Taehyung grips Yoongi's wrist, โ€œdon't let that happen. Don't let him marry that guy.โ€ Yoongi gives a sigh, โ€œyou absolute fool, did you try to stop him? Jimin?โ€ Taehyung gives Yoongi a confused look, โ€œyeahโ€ฆ why?โ€
Yoongi sits back, legs crossed, โ€œdid he agree to that?โ€ When Taehyung says nothing, Yoongi curses, leaning forward, โ€œyou absolute mishap, did you make him agree to stay here?!โ€ Taehyung stares at the alpha, โ€œn-no. He is running away tomorrow.โ€ Yoongi lets out a breath, โ€œgood.โ€
Yoongi gets up, brushes his pant, โ€œdon't stop him. I swear, Taehyung, do not stop him.โ€ Taehyung grabs Yoongi's wrist, โ€œwhat the hell is wrong with you?! You heard me, right?! He said you wanted him. He said you would want him, and now that he is marrying another guy-โ€
โ€œI am that guy,โ€ Yoongi turns to Taehyung, โ€œI am that alpha,โ€ Yoongi nods when Taehyung gapes, โ€œhis dad is a manipulative, power-hungry asshole. You are right about that. When I offered him partnership with my business and promised to clear his name in that scandal, he agreed.โ€
โ€œWhy are you doing this?โ€ Taehyung springs up, glaring at Yoongi, โ€œwhy are you doing this?!โ€ Yoongi looks at Taehyung, face impassive, โ€œhis dad, your dad, people like them love their position, power and ego more than an omega son. You, out of everyone else, know that.โ€
โ€œI knew he already found a guy to marry Jimin off,โ€ Yoongi pushes his hands in his pockets, โ€œthe alpha he chose has a criminal record. Drugs, alcohol, other omegas, whatnot,โ€ Yoongi looks angry, โ€œhis dad didn't really care. The family was rich. He was ready to marry Jimin off.โ€
โ€œI couldn't let that happen,โ€ Yoongi looks at Taehyung, โ€œso I reached out. Offered the deals, money, hell, I offered him my clubs. The amount was too much for him to deny. Also, the media knew we were to marry. Now, if we do, they can brush off that breakup as a mere fight.โ€
โ€œHe has to sign a contract to stay married to me for at least two years,โ€ Yoongi shrugs, โ€œby then, I am sure he will hate me enough to want to be on his feet. I will stick with him as long as he needs me. As long as he is not financially stable, then we can divorce.โ€
โ€œHe will hate you for it,โ€ Taehyung lets out a breath, โ€œhe will hate you forever.โ€ Yoongi nods, โ€œI know.โ€ Taehyung curses, โ€œyou are forcing him into this.โ€ โ€œIf I don't, you have no idea what awaits him!โ€ Yoongi glares at Taehyung, โ€œyou have no idea how vile your fathers are!โ€
Yoongi turns away, โ€œJimin has nothing on his name. No power, no money, nowhere to go. He will fall into wrong hands. His own parents are wrong hands. I just want to keep him safe until he can be something on his own-โ€ โ€œWhat do you get from all this?โ€ Taehyung frowns.
โ€œWhy are you doing this? Why are you going and giving up so much to keep him safe?โ€ Taehyung grabs Yoongi's elbow and turns him, โ€œwhy are you going out of your way to keep him safe?โ€ Yoongi looks over Taehyung's shoulder, โ€œbecause... someone has to. Because I got him here.โ€
โ€œSay he is your responsibility one more time and I will punch you in the face!โ€ Taehyung swears, โ€œI swear I will! Just choose your words very wisely, Min Yoongi! I swear-โ€ โ€œI love him,โ€ Yoongi whispers, โ€œand, I want him to be safe. I want him safe, happy and independent.โ€
โ€œI want him far, far away from all this,โ€ Yoongi blinks back tears, โ€œhis father, his mum, his family, relatives, those business associates, and,โ€ Yoongi lets out a shuddering breath, eyes find Taehyung, โ€œme. I want to see him free and happy. I want him to feel happy. For once.โ€
โ€œI can't tell him the reason,โ€ Yoongi wipes his eyes, โ€œhe will be he and try to sacrifice himself and find a way. For once, I want him to not sacrifice himself to make everyone else happy. For once, I want him to be happy, and if he hates me for it, I will gladly take it.โ€
โ€œYou know him,โ€ Yoongi takes Taehyung's hand in his, โ€œyou know how he is. He will guilt-trip himself into thinking about others first. I am sick and tired of seeing that and being the reason of that too many times. Let him have it. Freedom. I promise, he will be free after this.โ€
โ€œOr,โ€ Taehyung wipes his eyes, โ€œyou find out who is doing everything. I hold Jimin back from leaving and then you two talk and come to a solution. How about you stop deciding for him and let him decide for himself once? You go and help Joonie hyung find out the culprit!โ€
Yoongi curses, โ€œare you not understanding?โ€ he rubs his temple, โ€œhis dad was never going to help. There's nothing to help, Tae. If it was so easy, I would figure it out. I have my men searching the culprit. We are coming up empty-handed. His dad was never going to help you!โ€
โ€œHe doesn't care you live or die,โ€ Yoongi grips Taehyung's biceps, โ€œhe just wants his family name intact and his profit! He saw a chance and took it. He doesn't give a fvck about you or this. That promise was fake. Use your brain! He just wanted Jimin in his control!โ€
โ€œI have no other ways,โ€ Yoongi curses, โ€œI have thought this through. Okay? This is not an impulsive decision. Trust me, if there was a way where I come out with Jimin staying with me, I would have taken it!โ€ Taehyung looks at Yoongi, โ€œyou are sacrificing yourself.โ€
Yoongi shrugs, โ€œjust go along with the plan.โ€ โ€œThis will break him,โ€ Taehyung sniffles, โ€œwhen he sees you, he will make up a story in his mind and I know you, you won't tell him the truth. This will break him into pieces. He will never trust anyone again. Hyung, please.โ€
Yoongi turns away, โ€œsometimes you have to break completely to emerge as a totally new person. You know? Maybe he needs that.โ€ โ€œNo, he doesn't.โ€ They both look at the bedroom and Hoseok glares at them. Yoongi and Taehyung startle, eyes wide, as Hoseok walks up to them.
Hoseok glares at Yoongi, โ€œno. He doesn't need to break more for loving you, for being from that hell-hole of a family. You need to tell him the truth. I don't care if you have to drag him down the aisle kicking and punching you, just tell him the truth! Then follow the plan!โ€
โ€œIf this is the only way, go down the path, but,โ€ Hoseok chews out, โ€œlet him walk down the path knowing what he is working with! He deserves to know what you are doing because you are doing that to him! He deserves to know! If, after that, he tries to self-sabotage, stop him.โ€
โ€œDo not be like his dad in a different shell,โ€ Hoseok shakes his head, โ€œyou want good for him, but keeping him is darkness is not good! Tell him this is what he needs to prepare for, and you never know, he might agree! For heaven's sake, stop being the boss all the time!โ€
โ€œIf you have to do this, do this, but make him aware,โ€ Hoseok holds Yoongi's elbow, grips it, โ€œdon't break him like that, hyung! Imagine his state when he finds out you shook hands with his dad, who is shoving him into this contract! He will be devastated! Tell him!โ€
โ€œBe his partner in crime and not his dad's, my god!โ€ Hoseok curses, โ€œshake hands with him. Tell him that this is the contract we both are going into, hand in hand and trust me, it will be better. Trust me, these two years will be better.โ€ Yoongi stares, โ€œbut-โ€
Hoseok shakes his head, urgency clear in his eyes, โ€œwith this plan, when you free him, he will fly away. He will be happy. But, if you choose to go with your plan, you will kill him tomorrow and then when you free him, he will be independent, yes, but dead. It won't matter then.โ€
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Jimin looks back at the pack, waving one last time at the others before he gets on the jeep beside Yoongi. โ€œYou would like to take the first turn,โ€ Yushik tells Yoongi, โ€œthen you can ask anyone and they will point you to the hospital.โ€ Yoongi nods, starting the jeep.
Jimin leans back against the seat, his eyes on the road while Yoongi drives them out of the pack. Yoongi's eyes follow the rear-mirror, and Jimin's eyes stay stuck there too. Until they take the turn and Jimin looks forward. โ€œThe right turn from here,โ€ Jimin mutters, โ€œthat one.โ€
Jimin frowns when Yoongi ignores the turn and the jeep moves forward. โ€œHey, they said the right turn!โ€ Jimin turns to Yoongi whose eyes are stuck on the road, โ€œwhere are you taking me?!โ€ Yoongi drives faster, his eyes on the road. Jimin looks at the alpha, terrified...
โ€œThere's something you need to know,โ€ Yoongi speaks, his eyes glued on the road, โ€œthere are a few things you need to know.โ€ Jimin frowns, confused, โ€œwhat?โ€ Yoongi risks a glance at Jimin and then looks forward again, โ€œI know about your escape plan. I know what you planned.โ€
Jimin goes very still, his eyes focused on Yoongi, โ€œwh-what do you mean you know about my plan?โ€ Yoongi shrugs, โ€œabout you planning to run away. Marry an alpha you never met. I know all that.โ€ Jimin grips his thigh, nails digging there, โ€œhowโ€ฆ how do you know that?โ€
Yoongi grips the steering wheel tightly, eyes focused on the road, โ€œI am that guy.โ€ Jimin doesn't say anything. He doesn't move. For a few seconds he just watches Yoongi and Yoongi lets the omega be. Then Jimin lets out a breath, โ€œsoโ€ฆ everything you said last night was a lie.โ€
โ€œPartially, yes,โ€ Yoongi nods, โ€œI am not taking you to remove that mark, Jimin. I am taking you to the marriage register,โ€ he risks a glance at the omega, โ€œwe are getting married in an hour. Your dad is in Paris. My uncle flew in too. They will sign as the witnesses.โ€
Jimin watches him, โ€œand, you don't want me to remove the mark because that's your leash around my neck.โ€ Yoongi takes a look at Jimin, his jaw tightening, โ€œwell, to put it directly,โ€ he nods, โ€œyeah. You can't stay away from me as long as it's there. I need you to stay with me.โ€
โ€œListen,โ€ Yoongi lets out a deep breath, โ€œyour father decided to marry you off to a drug addict, drunker, alpha who is too fond of different omegas every night and gambling and whatnot. I-โ€ โ€œYou think you are saving me,โ€ Jimin gives a hysteric laugh, โ€œyou think you are better!โ€
Yoongi takes a turn to get off the high-way, โ€œI don't care what you think of me. I need to do this to keep you safe-โ€ โ€œI can keep myself safe,โ€ Jimin hisses, โ€œI don't need your protection!โ€ Yoongi glares at him, โ€œhe won't care if you say no! Are you understanding what I am-โ€
โ€œHe's a typical alpha,โ€ Yoongi slams his hand on the steering wheel, โ€œhis family already wanted an heir and you know how alphas treat their mated omegas-โ€ โ€œOh, I am getting a taste of that,โ€ Jimin snorts, โ€œtrust me, consent is overflowing here!โ€ Yoongi curses loudly, โ€œdamn it!โ€
Yoongi parks the car by a deserted road that leads to the next town, he turns to Jimin, โ€œlisten, the mark will be removed after the wedding. I am not going to keep you tied to me more than those two years. Jimin,โ€ his shoulders sag, โ€œI don't want you to be in the wrong hands.โ€
Jimin tilts his head, โ€œwhat makes you think you are the right hands?โ€ Yoongi shrugs, โ€œI am not. I am just a placeholder,โ€ he looks at Jimin with something swirling in his eyes that Jimin can't decipher, โ€œwhen the time comes, you will leave. I give you my word.โ€
Jimin looks away, โ€œwhy are you doing this?โ€ Yoongi coughs, facing the front too, โ€œbecause there's no other way.โ€ Jimin blinks, turns his face away from Yoongi, โ€œif this is the only way, why didn't you choose someone you trust and not yourself? Why you?โ€
Yoongi shrugs, fidgeting with the steering wheel, โ€œbecause I didn't want it to be someone else.โ€ Jimin gives a garbled laugh, โ€œI am sick and tired of this,โ€ he blinks, โ€œwhat is the guarantee that after the wedding you will let me remove the mark? You can just lock me up-โ€
โ€œI am not a brute!โ€ Yoongi hisses, โ€œI won't lock you up! I have it all planned. Just... please, I beg. Go along with it. Please!โ€ Jimin leans back against the seat, โ€œdo I have any other choice?โ€ Yoongi hums, โ€œthat alpha is a choice if you want. Whom your dad chose for you.โ€
โ€œI would take it,โ€ Jimin looks at Yoongi, resentment, heartache, sorrow fill those eyes, โ€œyou know why? Because with that alpha, I would hate him with all my heart if he does me wrong. I can't,โ€ Jimin's face contorts, he looks away, โ€œI can't do that with you.โ€
โ€œAnd,โ€ Jimin lets out a soft laugh, โ€œyou keep doing me wrong.โ€ Yoongi closes his eyes, the shooting pain through his chest makes him breathless. He takes a glance at the omega, and Jimin is curled in on himself, tears rolling out of his eyes.
Yoongi leans back against his seat, his resolve breaking, โ€œI don't know, okay?โ€ he curses, โ€œI heard the news, and it terrified me to think of you with that guy! Or anyone your father chooses for you because he will choose someone powerful, and I know his choices suck!โ€
โ€œAfter the wedding is done, no one cares about the omega's choices,โ€ Yoongi hisses, โ€œthey will ignore your wishes and use you to produce an heir and force you to be a perfect omega who would hang from that alpha's elbow and be presentable! Like a show-piece!โ€
โ€œPark Jimin,โ€ Yoongi turns to look at Jimin, longing clear in his eyes, โ€œyou are not born to be just that. You are not to be just that. I still remember the first time I saw you dance! You were so mesmerizing on that dance floor, I told everyone you will make it big one day!โ€
โ€œI was so proud of an omega I just saw,โ€ Yoongi looks over Jimin's shoulder, a soft smile on his lips, โ€œyou were beautiful! So pretty and elegant while you danced. As if you were born for that! Born to be something huge. Someone on their own. Born to fly, spread your wings.โ€
โ€œI can't see them tear you apart like that,โ€ Yoongi shakes his head in frustration, โ€œI can't see them cage you like that. You,โ€ Yoongi reaches to grasp Jimin's hand in his, โ€œyou are not born to be a trophy omega, Jimin. So, don't settle for it. Please. I want you to fly. Please.โ€
โ€œBut, a butterfly can't fly at the first stage,โ€ Yoongi gives Jimin a tender smile, โ€œyou need to be in a shell before you break out of it and leave. I want to be that shell for you. For now, let me be your chrysalis phrase. Then you can leave. I will let you. I promise.โ€
โ€œBut, you are not ready now,โ€ Yoongi shakes his head, โ€œyou have no money, no means, no scopes. In this two years, get those. Take training. Do whatever you need to be independent. Then you can leave. I swear, I have it in my contract. You can sue me if I don't let you.โ€
Jimin looks at Yoongi, troubled, โ€œwhat do you get out of this?โ€ Yoongi gives him a soft laugh, โ€œsatisfaction. To see my butterfly spread his wings? To see the person I love find a life he actually enjoys living?โ€ Yoongi looks away, โ€œto see you safe. I just want you safe.โ€
Jimin feels goosebumps spread over his skin, the shiver running down his spine. He turns away from the alpha swiftly, clutching his hands together. โ€œBut,โ€ Yoongi lets out a sigh, โ€œif you want me to take you to that guy, if you don't want it to be me, then... just tell me.โ€
Jimin shrugs, โ€œdrive.โ€ Yoongi looks at him, โ€œwhere?โ€ Jimin bites his lower lip, โ€œto the wedding. I,โ€ he gives Yoongi a look, โ€œlet's get this over with.โ€ Yoongi lets out a deep breath, nodding, โ€œyeah,โ€ he starts the car, โ€œyeah, okay.โ€
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Jimin looks at the papers in front. The marriage registration office is empty. Except for his dad, Yoongi's uncle and the lawyers, along with the marriage officiant. Jimin sits on the chair, in his old jeans and T-shirt. Yoongi sits beside him, wearing a dress shirt and pant.
The alpha signs the papers first. Yoongi reads them all carefully before signing each one of them. Then he slides it over to Jimin and Jimin stares at the sign of the alpha. His lips curl in a sardonic smile when he thinks how he planned so much for his wedding and here he is...
With the same alpha, but nothing else is the same. Hell, Jimin doesn't even feel the same. He feels nauseous. He stares at the pen and back at the paper where he needs to sign. Yoongi watches him, waits, lets Jimin take his time. With a steady breath, Jimin picks up the pen.
He ignores the man who is recoding this entire thing. For memories, for proof, for whatever reason, Jimin doesn't care. Jimin writes down his name, flips the pages to sign each one before he holds them out for the officiant to take. Then he leans back, exhausted.
The officiant signs it, puts a stamp on it and smiles at them. โ€œCongratulations,โ€ he stands up, holds his hand out for the both of them to shake, โ€œyou are now husbands.โ€ Jimin shakes the hand in a haze, and Yoongi nods at the man with a tight smile.
Jimin's father pulls out a box from the pocket of his coat, โ€œthis is,โ€ he speaks, โ€œthe family ring for the alpha,โ€ he holds it out for Jimin to take, โ€œput it on him.โ€ Jimin takes the ring, looks down at the ruby shining up at him. The colour reminds him of Yoongi's eyes...
Jimin watches Yoongi's uncle hold out a box for Yoongi too. Yoongi takes it, plucks the ring out and stares at it for a few seconds. Jimin hesitates, thinking how it must be made for Hoseok, โ€œI don't think it will fit me.โ€ Yoongi looks at him, โ€œI made it for you.โ€
Jimin blinks, โ€œwhat?โ€ Yoongi takes his hand in his, nods, โ€œwhen we were to get married, this ring,โ€ he pushes it up Jimin's finger, โ€œI made it for you.โ€ Jimin looks down at the ring. โ€œThe stone reminds me of your eyes,โ€ Yoongi whispers, โ€œpretty.โ€
โ€œCongratulations!โ€ Jimin's father smiles, satisfied, โ€œnow let's take a few photos for the families and media. Yoongi,โ€ he looks at Yoongi, โ€œdon't forget about the deal, yeah?โ€ Yoongi nods, arm going around Jimin's waist, โ€œI won't.โ€ Jimin steadies himself for the camera.
โ€œWhere are you two going next?โ€ Yoongi's uncle asks while they walk out of the court, โ€œany plans?โ€ Jimin's dad nods, holding out two tickets, โ€œhoneymoon,โ€ he grins, โ€œHeechul wanted to go to Greece. The tickets are for it. If you want-โ€ Yoongi shakes his head, โ€œnot now.โ€
He looks at the two of them, โ€œwe will spend two or so days in Paris itself and then go back to Korea. Honeymoon can wait. Right?โ€ Jimin nods, โ€œy-yeah.โ€ Jimin's father shrugs, โ€œas you say, Yoongi. See you then.โ€ Jimin watches them talk, he zones out until the two are leaving.
Yoongi looks at Jimin, โ€œI have to call Namjoon. See what he is doing. Let's go.โ€ Jimin nods, โ€œyeah. But, we can't use our phones. Those are left in the pack. The cheap ones they gave us to use in the pack, we left those too.โ€ Yoongi shrugs, โ€œWe don't need our phones anyway.โ€
โ€œOur phones can get tracked,โ€ Yoongi pulls Jimin towards the pavement, โ€œJungkook is in the security team. He got a hold of our phones and wrote down all the numbers. We will call from the public booths.โ€ Jimin ignores how Yoongi holds his hand, โ€œand, money? Do we have enough?โ€
Yoongi nods, โ€œyeah. I got my uncle to make me a new account with a card. He left it with me. We can use that.โ€ Jimin rolls his eyes, โ€œsometimes I forget how insanely rich you all are.โ€ Yoongi gives him a look, โ€œyour father is rich too!โ€ Jimin hums, โ€œhe is. I am not.โ€
Yoongi locks their fingers together, pulling Jimin down the pavement, โ€œoh, your husband is loaded. You can stop worrying for now.โ€ Jimin lets Yoongi drag him down the road, his eyes on the alpha, โ€œmy husband...โ€ The words feel surreal in his mind. Yoongi is his husband now.
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Jimin feels breathless. His eyes follow his dance instructor and he is frankly mesmerized. The alpha moves with grace, swings his legs as if they are different from his body. Jimin feels his lips stretching on a smile when the man lands the perfect pose and bows at them.
It has been a week since his marriage. If Jimin can call it that. He registered for contemporary dancing and ballet. He registered as 'Park Jimin,' and makes sure to wear a scarf around his neck to not show off the mark that he is yet to remove.
Jimin claps, just like everyone else in the room. โ€œYou were so perfect,โ€ Jimin breathes out his compliment, moving along with the alpha on the beat, โ€œmy God, I might never be as graceful as you are!โ€ Sanghun blushes, gives Jimin a gentle smile, โ€œyou are my best student though.โ€
Jimin takes the turn, comes up to Sanghun, โ€œyou are a good liar!โ€ Sanghun laughs, quiet, reserved, โ€œoh, but you are. You dance like your soul aches with the tune, Jimin. You make every tune come alive under your feet.โ€ Jimin blushes, โ€œthank you, sir. It means a lot from you.โ€
The bell rings and they step back from each other, bow and Sanghun turns to the class to announce their next schedule. Jimin goes over to the bench, picks up his bag, turns to the alpha to say goodbye when Sanghun looks at him. โ€œIt's raining,โ€ Sanghun frowns, โ€œyou have a car?โ€
Jimin chuckles, holds up his umbrella, โ€œI will walk,โ€ he waves Sanghun off, โ€œI don't leave that far away.โ€ Sanghun shakes his head, โ€œnonsense. I can't have my best student falling ill now, can I? Wait a bit. I will drop you off.โ€ Jimin hesitates, looks at the watch.
It's almost nine in the evening. He looks at Sanghun and watches the alpha go towards the changing room. โ€œIt's really late,โ€ Jimin tries again, โ€œI should not bother you.โ€ โ€œYou are not,โ€ Sanghun makes a face, โ€œI know it's late. Let's grab some dinner, then I'll drop you off.โ€
Jimin looks back at the window to see it's really raining heavily. He bites his lip, thinking if he should call Yoongi and tell himโ€ฆ then he frowns to himself. For the past one week, they have not really talked. Yoongi just comes home, makes dinner and goes to sleep.
Jimin shrugs, looks at Sanghun and nods, โ€œokay, fine. I will wait here.โ€ Sanghun hums, โ€œI will change, and then we can go.โ€ By the time they leave the institution, it's already nine-thirty. Jimin gets home around eleven. He gets out of the car and smiles at Sanghun.
Sanghun gets out of the car, comes around it to stand in front of Jimin, โ€œthanks for dinner, Jiminie.โ€ Jimin's smile dims a little, that name bringing back memories he always tries to suppress. He shoves those thoughts at the back of his mind and nods. โ€œI should thank you.โ€
Sanghun waves him off, holding out a rose, โ€œI stole it from the table.โ€ Jimin laughs, taking the rose from Sanghun, โ€œyou are a dork. I never thought the cool alpha I am learning so much from, is a dork!โ€ Sanghun smiles, โ€œwell, it got you smiling.โ€ Jimin hums, โ€œit did.โ€
Sanghun nods to himself, โ€œI will see you tomorrow, Park Jimin.โ€ Jimin nods, watches Sanghun get inside the car and waves while the car drives off. Jimin turns towards the house and slowly walks inside. He closes the door behind himself and stops when he sees Yoongi.
Yoongi has a glass of whiskey in his hand, swirling it while he looks out of the window. Jimin frowns when he notices Yoongi is still in his office clothes. The shirt drenched, sticking to him, the trousers just as soaked. The coat is on the floor. Jimin lets out a curse.
โ€œCan't you change before you decide to drink?โ€ Jimin marches over to the coat and picks it up, โ€œgod, you are dripping water all over the floor-โ€ โ€œWhere have you been?โ€ Yoongi keeps his eyes outside, voice void of any emotions. Jimin throws the coat in the laundry, โ€œclass!โ€
โ€œAre you sure?โ€ Yoongi takes a slow sip of his whiskey, โ€œyou were in class till now?โ€ Jimin drops his bag on the counter, loosening the scarf around his neck, โ€œwhy are you suddenly so interested in my schedule?โ€ Yoongi keeps his eyes outside, โ€œwhat is that rose for?โ€
Jimin looks down at the rose, a small smile twitching the corners of his lips, โ€œit's a flower.โ€ Yoongi turns to him then, โ€œgift?โ€ his lips turn upwards, โ€œby your teacher? That alpha?โ€ Jimin nods, placing the rose on the counter, looking at it, โ€œhe stole it from the diner.โ€
โ€œWas it a date?โ€ Yoongi's question catches Jimin off guard. He turns to Yoongi with a frown, โ€œwhat?โ€ Yoongi's expression gives nothing away, he leans against the vast glass-window and stares right at Jimin, โ€œyou two. Were you on a date?โ€ For a second, Jimin just stares...
Jimin feels his anger pass through his confusion, and he is glaring at the alpha, โ€œI don't know,โ€ he chews the words out, โ€œalpha,โ€ he takes a step towards Yoongi, โ€œI have never been on one! You tell me,โ€ he advances with each word, โ€œyou are more experienced here. No?โ€
Yoongi keeps his eyes on Jimin, takes another sip of his whiskey, โ€œwell, you left the institution together. You came back almost at midnight with a rose. He dropped you off,โ€ Yoongi locks his ankles over each other, โ€œcame out of his car to talk as if you haven't had enough...โ€
โ€œNo, I haven't,โ€ Jimin comes to stand right in front of Yoongi, โ€œliving with you. In this gigantic house, alone, I haven't had enough. I don't owe you an explanation, Min Yoongi. If I feel like it, I will go on dates and I owe you nothing for it. Do you get it?โ€
โ€œYou said I am free to do whatever,โ€ Jimin snorts, โ€œwhat? You didn't think I can try out things I missed out on? Like dates,โ€ his hands come up to grasp at Yoongi's soaked shirt, โ€œlike an alpha doting on me? Like an alpha actually finding me charming enough to take me out?!โ€
Yoongi takes another sip of the whiskey, his eyes on Jimin's face, โ€œso, that's all it takes? One alpha to just notice you enough for you to let your guards down? A damn rose stolen from a diner-โ€ Jimin lets out a laugh, โ€œyou said I am free to do whatever. You said-โ€
โ€œI didn't say you are free to cheat on me,โ€ Yoongi whispers, yet his voice rings in the room, โ€œI didn't say I will be a doormat for you to walk all over. You can do whatever you want, Jimin, career-wise. But, for dating, sleeping around, you have to wait till I let you go.โ€
Jimin gives him a disbelieving look, โ€œyou are not serious right now! You can't be! First of all, you are no one to judge me for staying out with anyone. You are still doing it. You have no right to assume the worst of me, but you are. Second of all, I am not your pet!โ€
Yoongi's face stays impassive, but those eyes shimmer with anger, โ€œI went there to pick you up to hear you left with another alpha. Which, by the way, the receptionist told me with a smirk as if it was a gossip I am too late to find out. About my own husband!โ€
Jimin flinches when Yoongi throws the glass on the carpeted floor. It makes a dull noise before rolling away, leaving them both in the quiet afterwards. Yoongi heaves a breath, โ€œI refuse to be a joke because you want to act out or rebel right now, Jimin! I refuse to be a clown!โ€
Yoongi takes a hold of Jimin's scarf, tugs at it harshly for it to come undone in his grip, โ€œyou believe it or not, you are mated to me! Still!โ€ Jimin feels naked. The mark throbs under Yoongi's gaze, and Jimin refuses to let the alpha see how it still hurts him.
โ€œIn your damn ego and hurt, you are setting yourself up for more pain!โ€ Yoongi hisses, โ€œthe moment you let another alpha touch you, the mating mark with start to act up. It's not a healed wound, Jimin! It will be infected and can easily escalate! Why don't you understand?!โ€
โ€œThe moment your body detects another alpha pheromones around you, or,โ€ Yoongi curses, looking away, โ€œmixing with your pheromones during,โ€ he gestures... โ€œSex,โ€ Jimin nods, jaw hardening, โ€œsay it. You think we had sex. Go on, say it!โ€ Yoongi gives him a glare, โ€œJimin...โ€
Jimin shoves Yoongi, โ€œno, say it!โ€ his voice rises, โ€œyou think if it took this long, we probably fvcked. Yeah? Is that it? You think he took me somewhere, and we hooked up because there's no way an alpha can be responsible, and you don't trust me anyway. So, yeah, we fvcked-โ€
Yoongi lets Jimin shove him, shout at him. His eyes stay focused on the omega and then Jimin has Yoongi pressed against the window, their eyes lock on each other. Jimin heaves for air, his eyes red with tears, โ€œsay it! You don't trust me. Say you think the worst of me.โ€
Yoongi takes a hold of Jimin's wrists then, pulls Jimin in his arms silently and hugs him tightly. Jimin stands still, his eyes wide and his nose pressed against Yoongi's neck. โ€œI didn't mean that,โ€ Yoongi whispers, voice clogged, โ€œI just mean, the mark, Jiminie...โ€
โ€œIt will hurt,โ€ Yoongi whispers, lips pressed against Jimin's hair, โ€œyou know it will. I know, it hurts you. I hear you up at night, treating it. You have to let me take care of it until we can do something for it,โ€ Yoongi rubs Jimin's back, โ€œyou have to let me near you.โ€
Yoongi looks at the omega in his arms, prepping kisses all over his face, โ€œblossom,โ€ he urges with that one word, โ€œyou have to let me take care of you. You can't do this alone. On your own. You are hurting, and you are scared, I know. I know. Please, let me do this right.โ€
โ€œI was just asking if it was indeed a date,โ€ Yoongi lets out a breath, โ€œjust don't do something because you are not thinking right.โ€ โ€œYou said you refuse to be a joke,โ€ Jimin murmurs, โ€œyou sounded like my dad there. As if, all you care about is your image. I hate that.โ€
Yoongi closes his eyes momentarily, โ€œyeah, for a second I really let my alpha take the wheel,โ€ he looks at Jimin, โ€œit hurt to hear someone gossip about my husband. Sorry.โ€ โ€œIt wasn't a date,โ€ Jimin's shoulder sags, he hides his face against Yoongi's chest, โ€œit was just dinner.โ€
Yoongi nods, โ€œokay.โ€ Jimin lets out a breath, โ€œI mean, I have no idea how dates work and he is not the person I would want to go on a date with-โ€ โ€œWould you want to go on a date with me?โ€ Jimin freezes, his whole body locking, โ€œ...what?โ€ Yoongi nods, โ€œyeah?โ€
Jimin stares, โ€œnow?โ€ Yoongi nods, โ€œyeah. Now,โ€ he looks down at himself, โ€œI will change, and we can go for a long drive. You just had dinner-โ€ โ€œYou are drunk, no?โ€ Jimin frowns, โ€œis this you drunk talking?!โ€ Yoongi stares, โ€œno! This is me sober talking. Go on a date with me.โ€
โ€œWhy?โ€ Jimin frowns, โ€œwhy now?โ€ Yoongi shrugs, โ€œwhy not now? I want to have our first date, blossom. Please?โ€ Jimin steps away from Yoongi, โ€œwhat are you playing at?โ€ Yoongi gives him a low chuckle, โ€œI'll be back after changing. Wear something casual. Be here in ten minutes!โ€
Yoongi changes into a white shirt and black slacks. He gets out of the room to see Jimin getting out of his bedroom. Jimin is wearing a black tank-top, a red blazer over it and skin-tight black jeans. Jimin hesitates, โ€œdid I over-dress?โ€ Yoongi's heart skips a beat, โ€œno.โ€
Jimin nods to himself, still conscious, โ€œo-okay.โ€ โ€œWait here,โ€ Yoongi says and then jogs out of the house. Jimin frowns at the closed door, hesitates and startles when the doorbell rings after a few seconds. He slowly walks up to the door and opens it to Yoongi. โ€œWhat are yo-โ€
Yoongi holds out a leaf from the ivy that grows on the wall of their house, โ€œI am here to take you out on our first date, Park Jimin.โ€ Jimin's breath hitches, his eyes on the leaf and back at the alpha. Yoongi waits. Jimin reaches for it slowly, โ€œth-thanks.โ€
Yoongi holds his hand out then, โ€œsorry, that was lame.โ€ Jimin shrugs, โ€œI wouldn't know. Right?โ€ Yoongi watches the omega put the leaf in his pocket, taking Yoongi's hand hesitantly. Yoongi holds on tight, leading Jimin to the car. โ€œOh, you look very pretty,โ€ Yoongi whispers.
Jimin's eyes widen for a second before he looks away. Yoongi feels air fill in his chest when he notices the red hue dusting over Jimin's cheekbones. โ€œYou look good too,โ€ Jimin murmurs, not matching Yoongi's eyes. Yoongi opens the car's door for Jimin, โ€œyou drive us. Yeah?โ€
Jimin nods, getting inside the car, โ€œwhere are we going?โ€ Yoongi gets in too, โ€œnowhere in particular,โ€ he smiles at Jimin, โ€œjust...โ€ he chuckles, taking Jimin's hand in his, โ€œyou might forget, blossom, but I have never been on a date either.โ€ Jimin stills, his eyes on Yoongi.
Right. Yoongi was going to ask Hoseok out. But, they never went on dates. Jimin's fingers twitch in Yoongi's grip, and he feels his heartbeat pick up speed. โ€œHow about Busan?โ€ Yoongi murmurs, โ€œthe beach?โ€ Jimin looks at Yoongi, โ€œit's raining.โ€
Yoongi gives him a small smile, โ€œwould you call it romantic if an alpha kisses you on the beach with the sea at your feet and the rain over you?โ€ Jimin's breath hitches, โ€œwho told you the alpha will get a kiss?โ€ Yoongi leans back in his seat, eyes soft, โ€œhe wishes, blossom.โ€
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The phone keeps ringing. Jimin frowns at it and tries to concentrate on driving. His eyes move to the device and back to the road. Yoongi leans against the seatrest, โ€œwho is it?โ€ Jimin shrugs, โ€œcheck for me.โ€ Yoongi reaches for the phone, his brows furrowing, โ€œDaejung...?โ€
Jimin gives the device a quizzical look, โ€œDaejung?โ€ he changes the gear, โ€œwhy is he calling me?โ€ Yoongi shrugs, โ€œcheck? Stop the carโ€ฆ?โ€ Jimin glances at Yoongi and then back at the road, โ€œyou pick up and see what he is saying.โ€ Yoongi picks the call up, keeping it on speaker.
โ€œHello?โ€ Yoongi asks cautiously, โ€œDaejung?โ€ โ€œHe-hello, Yoongi?โ€ Daejung sounds panicked, stuttering and rushed, โ€œYoongi, where's Jimin?! Where's Jimin?!โ€ Yoongi's eyes find Jimin, alert, โ€œuh, he is driving. Right beside me. Why?โ€ Daejung curses, โ€œshit, where are you two?!โ€
Jimin turns a corner, โ€œwe are going to Busan. Why?โ€ Daejung's line is disturbed. The rain is picking up speed, and Jimin thinks the clouds are getting ticker because the darkness grows around them. โ€œGo back home,โ€ Daejung shouts, his line freezing, โ€œtheyโ€ฆ youโ€ฆ for Taeโ€ฆโ€
Yoongi looks at Jimin, alarmed, โ€œwhat do you mean, Daejung? What-โ€ โ€œTae... Jimin...โ€ Daejung sounds desperate, โ€œgo back. Go back!โ€ Yoongi blinks down at the phone when the call disconnects, โ€œJimin-โ€ โ€œWhat was he trying to say?โ€ Jimin wonders, โ€œhe sounded so frantic!โ€
Yoongi shrugs, โ€œjust turn back. Let's go back.โ€ Jimin frowns, โ€œbut, his voice was disturbed and the call disconnected. We don't even know what he meant.โ€ Yoongi shakes his head, โ€œhe was frantic, and he told you to go back. Turn back, Jimin. Let's go home!โ€
Jimin looks at the one-way road, โ€œfine, fine. We will take the next turn,โ€ he speeds up, hands grasping the steering wheel, โ€œtry him again?โ€ Yoongi nods, dialling Daejung again, โ€œI am.โ€ Jimin looks at the rear-mirror, there is only one car behind them. Almost right behindโ€ฆ
Yoongi lets out a breath when Daejung picks up the phone, โ€œDaejung-โ€ Jimin sees the next turn and signals for the turn. Then it happens too fast. One second Jimin is taking the turn, the other second the car behind them is hitting the side and lurching their car forwardโ€ฆ
Jimin watches, horrified, how their car loses its balance and skids into the next lane. Jimin grabs the steering wheel, trying to get the car back on its line, when he hears it. The blasting horn and Yoongi's terrified scream of his name. He sees the blinding headlights.
TW// accidents, blood, wound
Jimin feels his head hitting the steering wheel, making his vision spin and fade out for a second. The next second, he sees Yoongi's body, lurching forward and breaking the windscreen and rolling out of the car. Jimin tries to scream, his voice lost somewhereโ€ฆ
Jimin tries to reach out with his hand, but the last thing he hears is screaming and horns and sees the lights of other carsโ€ฆ โ€œ๐‘Œ๐‘œ๐‘œ๐‘›โ€ฆโ€ Jimin whispers in his mind, โ€œ๐‘Œ๐‘œ๐‘œ๐‘›โ€ฆโ€ his eyes try to focus one last time, โ€œ๐‘Œ๐‘œ๐‘œ๐‘›โ€ฆโ€ It all goes black.
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There is a sound. A beeping sound. It's constant. It irks him. He tries to open his eyes, tell someone to stop that sound, but it keeps going. There are voices, someone talking. Jimin forces his heavy eyelids to blink and see who they are. The voices sound calm yet stressed.
Jimin tries to call them. His throat is too dry. He wants something to drink. He gulps, tries to move because his back hurts. It feels like he is sleeping for too long. Jimin hears someone's footsteps. His eyes focus on the sound, and he forces himself to see. A man walks in.
The man pauses by the door, his eyes widening for a second before he smiles wide, โ€œoh, you are awake!โ€ Jimin tries to say he is thirsty, but the man hurries over to his bedside, checking some machines Jimin can't really see or care about. He sees two women follow him in.
โ€œYou look fine, let me check you once,โ€ the man, doctor, says, leaning in too close, โ€œcan you tell me your name?โ€ Jimin frowns, his voice is too dry when he tries to speak, โ€œP-Park Jimin.โ€ The doctor breathes out, nodding, โ€œdo you know what month it is?โ€
A/N โ€“ Your writer is terrible in medical stuff, so DO NOT search for reality or shit like that from this whole encounter and whatever is to follow. WE WING IT HERE, PEOPLE!
Jimin frowns, โ€œAugust. It's August.โ€ The doctor gives a relieved sigh, โ€œyou remember what happened two nights ago, Jimin?โ€ Jimin blinks, the memories slowly coming back to him. He hears the beeping sound intensify, but his eyes are on the doctor. โ€œYoon!โ€ he coughs, โ€œYoongi-โ€
The doctor picks up an injection, โ€œhe is still unconscious. One of your friends, Daejung? Yeah, he came here to sign for you two after you were admitted. Your friends are outside. But, you need to rest for now.โ€ Jimin sees the doctor push the needle in the saline bottle...
Jimin tries to fight the sleep, but it consumes him again. โ€œYoon...โ€ he drifts off to sleep again. ---- The next time he wakes up, it's the same routine. This time, Daejung is there, along with Namjoon. Jimin falls asleep while crying about Yoongi.
The third time he wakes up, he feels a lot better. He feels someone caressing his forehead and combing his hair. When he opens his eyes, Jimin feels air fill his chest. Taehyung's tear-soaked face stares back at him. Jimin tries to smile, reaching out for the omega...
Taehyung grasps his hand and presses it against his moist cheek, โ€œMimi!โ€ Jimin tries to sit up and Taehyung looks at the nurses for permission. One nurse comes up to check up on Jimin and nods before helping the other nurse to sit him up with the help of the bed.
โ€œWhen...โ€ Jimin coughs, feeling much better but thirsty, โ€œwhen did you come here?โ€ Taehyung holds his hand, โ€œthe moment we got the news. I almost died hearing about it, Mimi! I had to shout at the pack-leader to let us go.โ€ Jimin shakes his head, nauseous, โ€œwhy...?โ€
The door opens, Jin, Namjoon and Jungkook walk in. All of their faces are filled with worry and tension. They all stop when they look at Jimin, awake and talking to Taehyung and then back to each other. โ€œI had to,โ€ Taehyung wipes his eyes, โ€œyou would do it for me too. No?โ€
Jimin would. So he squeezes Taehyung's hand in his and looks over at the others. โ€œHow is Yoongi?โ€ Jimin murmurs, frowns when the three, along with Taehyung looks troubled, โ€œwhere is he? How is he?โ€ โ€œHe woke up early this morning,โ€ Taehyung tries to smile, โ€œhe is fine.โ€
Jimin watches how they slowly come up to his bed, smiles at him reassuringly. But Jimin can see the tension, feel it. โ€œHow is he?โ€ he asks Jungkook, voice trembling. Jungkook doesn't match his eyes, โ€œhe is good. Talking to Hoseok hyung right now. He is doing really better.โ€
Jimin stares at Jungkook, โ€œwhat are you hiding?โ€ Jungkook's startled eyes flicker up to him and the alpha forces a laugh out of his throat that sounds too hollow, โ€œwhat? Nothing! He is fine! Ask anyone!โ€ They all nod together, as if on cue. Smile at the same time.
โ€œTell me,โ€ Jimin grips the edge of the bed, โ€œtell me what is it?โ€ Taehyung grabs his hands, shaking his head, โ€œn-nothing! He is fin-โ€ โ€œLet me see him,โ€ Jimin feels the mating mark sizzle against his skin, the pain coming back, โ€œlet me see him. Now! Let me see him!โ€ He screams.
The nurses try to force him down on the bed, the others look terrified and Taehyung looks like he is in physical pain. Jimin screams, his mating mark throbbing, โ€œlet me see him! Let me see him! Let me-โ€ โ€œYou can't!โ€ Taehyung shouts over him, trying to hold him down on the bed.
Taehyung hugs Jimin to himself, sobbing as he watches the nurses strap Jimin's legs to the bed. Taehyung presses his lips against Jimin's hair, โ€œcalm down, please. It's not good for you to-โ€ โ€œLet,โ€ Jimin grips Taehyung's elbow, โ€œme,โ€ he glares at the others, โ€œsee him!โ€
The doctor comes rushing while Jimin thrashes on the bed, trying to free himself. The doctor waves them off, โ€œyou all will give him anxiety attack! Stop it!โ€ he sits down on the bed, โ€œJimin,โ€ his voice is soft, โ€œyou have to listen to me very carefully. Okay? For Yoongi. Okay?โ€
Jimin nods, grips Taehyung's hand in his, โ€œI- I will.โ€ The doctor gives him a painful but soft smile, โ€œyour mate, Yoongi?โ€ he looks at the others and then back at Jimin, โ€œhe took the hit of the accident the most. Idiot wasn't even wearing his seatbelt properly. So...โ€
โ€œWhen the accident happened, he hit his head and his temporal lobe was affected the most,โ€ the doctor squeezes Jimin's knee, โ€œresulting in his memories fading. To a certain time frame. His brain froze before the last huge shock of his life-โ€ โ€œMating me,โ€ Jimin whispers...
The doctor gives a solemn nod, โ€œthat was a shocking turn of event in his life. His brain took that incident like a hit, too. Now, his brain screeched to a halt right before it. He remembers leaving his house to pick up Hoseok. That's where he thinks he caused the car accident.โ€
Jimin feels blood drain him, his body giving up against Taehyung. Taehyung gathers him up in his arms, crying silently. โ€œIs it permanent?โ€ Jin urges, his eyes tearful, โ€œis he never gonna remember?โ€ The doctor shrugs, โ€œright now, we are running the tests. You have to wait.โ€
Jimin gives a hollow laugh, โ€œwe were going on our first date,โ€ he giggles, ignores how everyone looks at him with worry clear on their faces, โ€œhe said, he hopes I kiss him. Hey,โ€ he grasps the doctor's shirt, โ€œdo you see? How good my memory is? Do you know how it feels?โ€
โ€œDo you know how it feels to be in my shoes?โ€ Jimin throws his head back, laughing, โ€œto carry all these memories of us alone from now on?โ€ he looks at Taehyung, โ€œdamn, Tae. Call Daejung! Ask him, ask him why he brought me here? Why couldn't he let me bleed out there?! Ask him!โ€
Jimin shudders, โ€œwhy is it him who always gets to go away?!โ€ he screams, โ€œwhy can't it be me, for once, who gets to be so oblivious and happy?! Why can't it be me who doesn't suffer for once?!โ€ Jimin curls into himself, turning in Taehyung's arms, โ€œwhy is it always me?!โ€
Jungkook takes a hold of the doctor, โ€œrun those tests fast! You have to do something! Jimin is mated to him! We have to tell him-โ€ โ€œNo!โ€ the doctor stands up, โ€œhe is too weak, brain wise, for him to know all this. You cannot tell him. Not now. Not until we get the results.โ€
Taehyung holds Jimin to his chest, whispering sweet nothings in his ear. Jimin feels the exhaustion pulling at him and the last thing he hears is Taehyung telling him things will get better. Yoongi can forget him, but his wolf will remember. Jimin wants to laugh again.
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โ€œWhen you see him, please don't mention anything,โ€ Jin whispers, walking along with the wheelchair Jungkook is pushing. Jimin sits on the wheelchair, his eyes focused on the path, โ€œI won't.โ€ Taehyung is on his other side, holding Jimin's hand in his in a death grip.
Yoongi wanted to see him. When he heard Jimin was with him in the car, he wanted to see Jimin. Their friends told him Jimin was in the dance class and Yoongi was giving him a ride. Jimin holds his breath when the door opens, and he is pushed inside.
The first thing he sees is Hoseok sitting by Yoongi's side, talking to him softly. The next thing he sees is how Yoongi holds Hoseok's hand in his. Then Hoseok is looking at Jimin and those eyes are swimming with tears. Hoseok bites back a sob, looking away. Yoongi turns to him.
Jimin holds that gaze. Yoongi's eyes flicker all over him before coming to rest on his face. โ€œJiminah,โ€ his voice is scratchy, โ€œI am sorry. Whatever happened,โ€ he gives Jimin a rueful smile, โ€œI don't know what to say.โ€ Jimin breathes out a soft chuckle, โ€œyou don't have to.โ€
He looks at where Hoseok's hand is in Yoongi's clutch, โ€œyou two made up?โ€ Yoongi gives him a startled look, glancing at Hoseok and at Jimin, โ€œwe,โ€ he blushes, giving Jimin a soft smile, โ€œI asked him out here. Shitty place, no?โ€ Jimin leans back on his chair, โ€œyeah. Terrible.โ€
Yoongi still looks at him with worry, โ€œlisten, I am taking care of the bill, okay?โ€ he reaches for Jimin, lets his hand rest on Jimin's, โ€œI can't apologize more if I tried. You have no idea how sorry-โ€ Jimin gives a short laugh, โ€œyou have no idea how sorry you should feel.โ€
Jimin looks over at Hoseok, โ€œdid he say yes?โ€ Hoseok crumbles, visibly breaks. Yoongi gives a soft laugh, โ€œwhy would he say no? You walked in right when I asked him, you know?โ€ Jimin snorts, โ€œoh, that's not new.โ€ Yoongi frowns, confused, โ€œwhat?โ€
Jimin holds Hoseok's gaze, โ€œsay yes, hyung,โ€ he feels nothing as he speaks, โ€œsay yes, because there's no reason for you to say no. No reason at all.โ€ Hoseok shakes his head, โ€œJimin-โ€ โ€œFor him,โ€ Jimin hopes Hoseok understands, โ€œfor his sake, say yes.โ€
Hoseok wipes his eyes, looks at Yoongi, โ€œwe can talk about this later, hyung,โ€ he forces a smile on his lips, โ€œwe will talk about this when you get better. I want my grand proposal and not one where you are in a hospital bed. I can't accept it,โ€ his voice breaks, โ€œdon't make me.โ€
Hoseok looks at Jimin, shaking his head, โ€œI can't do this,โ€ he begs almost, โ€œI can't do this. Don't make me.โ€ Jimin feels his own eyes tear up, he shakes his head, โ€œhyung,โ€ he looks at Yoongi and back at Hoseok. Yoongi reaches to wrap his arms around Hoseok, โ€œhey, it's fine.โ€
Yoongi kisses Hoseok's forehead, โ€œI will wait forever for you, hoba,โ€ he smiles, looks at the omega with a fondness that's so unfamiliar to Jimin, โ€œI promise, you and I, we are made for each other. Even if we drift apart, we will find each other down the road, okay? It's fine.โ€
Jimin smiles, tugs at Taehyung's hand to make the omega lean forward, โ€œcan you ask the doctor,โ€ he looks away from Hoseok's troubled eyes, โ€œif he can remove the mating mark?โ€ Taehyung gives him a worried look. Jimin nods, โ€œlet's start all over again.โ€
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Yoongi's cabin is plain in the hospital. The walls have a few framed paintings that lose its charm after a day or so. Yoongi looks out of the window, trying to see the outer world, no matter how less he sees. He just sees the sky, gloomy, raining almost all the time.
There is another building across from the hospital. It belongs to the hospital too. Maybe a lab or some other wards. Yoongi watches how rain pours on it, soaking up the ivy that wraps so beautifully around the building. Yoongi's eyes trace each one of those leaves...
Yoongi watches an ivy leaf flutter while raindrops continuously fall on it. It bends, springs up and bends all over again. There is an itch in his veins the more he stares at that leaf. There is a sense of discomfort that grows the more he watches the leaf. Yoongi frownsโ€ฆ
His eyes stay glued on the building. On that leaf and he feels the itch grow. The door of his room opens and Yoongi startles, looking over to see Jungkook and Jin coming in with the doctor. The doctor, Mr. Kim smiles at him, โ€œhow are you today, Yoongi?โ€ Yoongi shrugs, โ€œfine.โ€
Doctor Kim hums, sits on the stool beside Yoongi, โ€œI got your reports, Yoongi. You are doing much better. We will discharge you in about a week. Is that okay?โ€ Yoongi nods, smiles at Jin and Jungkook, โ€œthank you.โ€ Doctor Kim hums, โ€œis there anything you want to tell us?โ€
Yoongi shrugs, โ€œhow...โ€ he fiddles with his fingers, โ€œhow is Jimin doing?โ€ Doctor Kim shares a glance with Jungkook and Jin. Jin coughs, โ€œhe is going to be here for a few more days-โ€ Yoongi frowns, โ€œwhy? I thought he was doing better than me?โ€ Jungkook nods, โ€œhe is.โ€
โ€œThen?โ€ Yoongi looks at the doctor and back at his friends, โ€œwhat are you all hiding?โ€ Jin sighs, โ€œhe is removing his mating mark,โ€ the alpha's face contorts, โ€œso... for that, he needs to stay longer.โ€ Yoongi stops, blinks, โ€œJimin...โ€ he leans forward, โ€œwhen did he get mated?โ€
Jin shrugs, โ€œit was a lousy affair,โ€ he looks uncomfortable, โ€œthe alpha left. So,โ€ he doesn't match Yoongi's eyes, โ€œit's better to remove it and start anew.โ€ Yoongi frowns, โ€œwait, Jiminie got mated, and the alpha flew?! What the fvck?!โ€ Jungkook tries to smile, โ€œhe is fine.โ€
โ€œWho was it?โ€ Yoongi grips his duvet, โ€œhow can he leave just like that?โ€ Jin waves him off, โ€œthat's not really something you need to worry about right now, Yoongi. Calm down.โ€ โ€œHe must be heartbroken,โ€ Yoongi looks down at his hands, โ€œhow can anyone just leave like that?โ€
Yoongi thinks of the omega, his eyes fixed on his hands, โ€œJiminie... can I see him before leaving?โ€ Jin shakes his head, โ€œno,โ€ he gulps, looks away, โ€œhe doesn't want to see anyone except for Taehyung. We all are making him feel irritated.โ€ Yoongi gulps, nods, โ€œI see.โ€
Yoongi looks outside towards the ivy, his eyes tracing the lines of that one leaf, โ€œI hope he moves on and finds someone better. He deserves it.โ€ Jin chokes, when Yoongi looks at him, the alpha's eyes are moist, โ€œsorry. Excuse me.โ€ Jin walks out of the room.
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โ€œIf he doesn't remember it, we have to remind him!โ€ Mr. Park thunders, โ€œhe signed a deal with me and I will not hear a word about it!โ€ Jimin clutches his father's hand in his, โ€œplease, dad! Please! This is not the time! He is fragile right now. You cannot-โ€
Mr. Park shakes his head vehemently, โ€œI will not hear a word, Jimin! He forced me to sign the deal and I will be damned if I let him rob off of this opportunity!โ€ โ€œCalm down,โ€ Jungkook sits on the couch, his glare fixed on Mr. Park, โ€œif he doesn't follow through, I will. Relax.โ€
Jin nods, โ€œyou won't face any losses, Mr. Park,โ€ he gestures between him and Jungkook, โ€œwe will fulfil the deal Yoongi made. You keep your silence.โ€ โ€œWhat about the wedding certificate?โ€ Taehyung looks at Jimin, โ€œlegally you two are still married!โ€ Jimin shrugs, โ€œdo something.โ€
Jungkook nods, โ€œMr. Park will have the profits of the deal and I will see if we can annul the marriage.โ€ โ€œOn what basis?โ€ Taehyung frowns, โ€œyou need a reason.โ€ Jin shrugs, โ€œwell, we will find something. We have to.โ€ Hoseok squirms, โ€œwhat if one day he comes to know?โ€
Hoseok shakes his head, โ€œwe cannot erase everything, guys! He will see the dates! Two whole years went missing! He will ask questions! He will hear about it. He is from a prestigious family. He can search up the news! It's everywhere. We cannot just turn back time!โ€
Hoseok looks at Jimin, โ€œyou two's mating scandal is still on the news! You two's breakup was all over the news! You two are always a hot topic in this country. How the hell is he going to just never find it out? And, if he does on his own, from these sources, imagine the damage!โ€
Hoseok shakes his head, โ€œI know the doctor is saying we have to take it slow, but you all are totally shutting it off and that's not how it should be! What do you all want? To go back in time? For me to just accept him and get married and knocked up and what? Are you serious?!โ€
Hoseok clutches the edge of the bed, โ€œWhat? Now Jin and Namjoon will get back together because that's what Yoongi remembers?! Two years went missing from his life, guys, he will seek answers and are you all so stupid that you think he will never figure it out?โ€
Hoseok glares at Jin, โ€œout of all of us, you know how he gets when he is angry! I won't face that when he finds out! You have to find another way. Also?โ€ Hoseok risks a glance at Namjoon and back at Jin, โ€œI don't deserve to be thrown into the mix like this. Think about me!โ€
โ€œSo, I get it that you want to remove your mating mark,โ€ Hoseok looks at Jimin, โ€œI get it that you want to move on, but this is not the way. He will figure it out and then you have to face that wrath for no reason. Justโ€ฆ find a better way. Tell him. I say, we tell him.โ€
Taehyung nods, โ€œI agree! We need to tell him everything! Slowly, but we need to feed him all the details. We can't just erase two years like that, guys! Come on!โ€ โ€œI will be damned if he calls me his responsibility one more time!โ€ Jimin glares, โ€œso, whatever you do, not now!โ€
Jimin looks at Taehyung, โ€œI will remove this mating mark, and then we will tell him and then whatever happens, happens.โ€ Jimin looks at the others, โ€œhow does that sound?โ€ Namjoon nods, โ€œthe doctor said, we have to be very gentle and cautious. His brain is just recovering.โ€
โ€œWe can take our time,โ€ Hoseok shrugs, โ€œfirst, let's tell him about the time. He thinks it's still twenty-twenty. Let's tell him about that. Then we can feed him little by little.โ€ Jungkook shakes his head, โ€œlet me discuss it with the doctor first.โ€
โ€œWhat if he says no?โ€ Taehyung frowns at Jungkook. Jungkook looks down at the omega, โ€œthen, we don't. No,โ€ he holds his hand up in the room, looking at Hoseok and back at Taehyung, โ€œno, I don't care what you say, but if it puts hyung in danger, I won't let you do it!โ€
โ€œThat man in that cabin?โ€ Jungkook's voice chokes up, โ€œhe raised me! I will be damned if I let you all ruin him because you want to hurry it and go back to your lives! It can be very risky, okay?! I need to discuss it. If the doctor says, it's not the time, it's not the time!โ€
โ€œIf the doctor says it will damage his brain, I won't let you do it!โ€ Jungkook shakes his head, โ€œI don't care. I will bury the news of mating and whatnot, I will make sure never figures out he ever met Jimin like that. I will make sure to do whatever it takes to keep him fine!โ€
Jungkook shakes his head, โ€œthe doctor said we can tell him about the memory loss but feeding him all this at the same time and overwhelming him just because you all have your reasons, I won't let you. You all can act for at least a few months! I don't care!โ€
Jungkook wipes his eyes, โ€œI don't care. You all have your reasons, but to damage a man's already weak brain and to play with his health because we have our selfish reasons, that's not okay! He needs time to heal! Can we give him that?! Just... don't be so quick! Please!โ€
โ€œSo, help me, God,โ€ Jungkook stands by the door, โ€œyou have to fight me if you think you will march in there and vomit everything to him just because you want to feel good and relieved! I was about to lose him,โ€ Jungkook's voice breaks, โ€œI saw him like that... I...โ€ he sniffles...
โ€œI refuse to lose him,โ€ Jungkook shakes his head, trembles where he stands, โ€œI thought he would never wake up! I thought he would never be able to,โ€ he chokes, tears brimming in his eyes, โ€œto...โ€ he sniffles, โ€œso, all I ask is for you all to give him a few weeks at least!โ€
โ€œPlease,โ€ Jungkook looks around the room, โ€œeither you all listen to me, or you have to physically fight me to get in his room because I am going to be there from now on. With him, and I will not allow you all to expose him to that much so soon! Choose.โ€
โ€œLet's talk to the doctor,โ€ Jin reaches out for Jungkook to take a hold of his wrist, โ€œyeah? Kookie?โ€ his voice goes soft, โ€œlet's talk to the doctor and see what he suggests. They are right too, bub, we can't keep him in the darkness forever. Let's discuss a middle ground.โ€
Jin slowly pulls Jungkook in his arms, blinking back his own tears, โ€œhey, he is like my brother,โ€ he sniffles, โ€œdo you really think I will let anything happen to him? Let's talk and figure out a way. Until then, no one is going to his room or saying a word to him. I promise!โ€
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โ€œWe have to take it slow,โ€ Doctor Kim nods at the reports, โ€œhe is very weak right now. We will have to be cautious. We will tell him about his condition first and how many years he forgot from his life. What those years took from him, that has to wait for now.โ€
โ€œLet him digest the fact that he lost two years of his life,โ€ doctor Kim looks at them all one by one, โ€œthat's a huge shock, guys. Make sure you all give him time to breathe. Make sure you don't suffocate him. He is sure to feel a lot of emotions. Let him. Feed him slowly.โ€
โ€œGive him the happy news first. Likeโ€ฆ Jungkook and Taehyung got married. They have a baby together. His achievements in these years. All that. Then you can move from there. Make sure to be gentle. Understanding. He is learning two years of his life, okay? Just treat him wisely.โ€
โ€œAre you sure you want to remove the mark now?โ€ Doctor Kim looks at Jimin, โ€œI would suggest you keep it. Let him come back to an unchanged reality. Something he can find solace in. You know? Too much change can cause trouble right now. Is the mark healed?โ€
Jimin shakes his head, โ€œno. It's not.โ€ Doctor Kim winces, โ€œthen... then it must hurt.โ€ Jimin shrugs, โ€œwell, it does.โ€ โ€œHow long before we can tell him everything?โ€ Taehyung looks at the doctor, โ€œhow long before he can digest it?โ€ โ€œAt least a few months,โ€ Doctor Kim sighs.
Jimin looks at the doctor, โ€œis there a slight chance of him ever remembering?โ€ Doctor Kim looks at Jimin, gives him a small smile, โ€œ10%.โ€ Everyone groans in the room. Jimin nods to himself, โ€œthen I am removing the mark. We can just not tell him we ever mated. Right?โ€
Jungkook opens his mouth but Jimin holds his hand up, glares, โ€œthe mark is on my body. I am going through the pain. I am bearing everything, and you have no say in it, Jungkook. I don't care what you think, I am suffering here! I am removing it!โ€ Taehyung nods, โ€œI agree.โ€
Everyone looks at each other. โ€œWho is going to tell him about the memory loss?โ€ Hoseok looks at them one by one. โ€œI will,โ€ Jin nods to himself, โ€œit should come from me. I will tell him. Justโ€ฆ be there, you all.โ€ โ€œTomorrow?โ€ Jungkook asks, looking terrified. Jin nods, โ€œyes.โ€
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โ€œSo...โ€ Yoongi stares at Jin, โ€œyou are saying I forgot two years of my life?โ€ Jin nods, watches the alpha, โ€œyeah. Two years and a few months.โ€ Yoongi blinks, โ€œthis is 2022?โ€ Jin nods. โ€œWhat...โ€ Yoongi's heartbeat picks up, โ€œwhat changed in these past two years?โ€
Jin looks at Hoseok and Hoseok nods, fearfully looking at the machines beside Yoongi's bed. The doctor and the nurses are monitoring those. Jin gulps, โ€œwell, you bought a house,โ€ he forces a smile on his lips, โ€œyou shifted there.โ€ Yoongi looks at Hoseok, โ€œwith you?โ€
Hoseok shakes his head, โ€œn-no. You just... you just bought a house.โ€ Yoongi frowns, looks back at Jin, โ€œwhat use I have of a house only for myself?โ€ Jin's face contorted, โ€œwell... you always wanted to settle down.โ€ Yoongi nods, โ€œand...?โ€ Jin tries to smile, โ€œyou earned-โ€
Yoongi shakes his head, his eyes focused on Jin, โ€œwhat did I lose?โ€ Jin stops, โ€œwhat?โ€ Yoongi leans closer, โ€œwhat did I lose?โ€ he takes a hold of Jin's hand, โ€œin these past two years, tell me what did I lose?โ€ Jungkook glances at the monitors and back at Yoongi, โ€œa few deals-โ€
Yoongi glares at them, his eyes turning reddish, โ€œtell me,โ€ he hisses, โ€œwhat did I lose?โ€ Jin lets out a shudder, โ€œyou have to calm down, Yoongi. You are too weak-โ€ โ€œDid I lose something?โ€ Yoongi whispers, his voice filled with hesitance, โ€œor... someone?โ€
Jin shakes his head, โ€œno. No, you didn't. You didn't lose anyone. We all are here. No?โ€ โ€œYou are lying,โ€ Yoongi murmurs, โ€œyou are lying.โ€ Jungkook takes a hold of Yoongi's hand, โ€œwhy do you think we are lying? We are no-โ€ โ€œYou are!โ€ Yoongi hisses, โ€œyou all are! You are lying!โ€
Yoongi shakes his head, his face setting on a glare before he looks at Hoseok, โ€œhoba? Are we engaged?โ€ Hoseok blinks, caught off-guard, โ€œwhat?! N-no!โ€ he risks a glance at Jin and Jungkook, โ€œno. We are not.โ€ Yoongi looks at Jin then, โ€œSo, there is someone else you are hiding.โ€
Jin chokes on a breath, โ€œwhat?! What do you mean?โ€ Jungkook almost stands up, โ€œno. No! There is no one! What are you talking about?!โ€ Yoongi holds his hand up, his irises dark red, โ€œyou see the tan line on my ring finger? I wore a ring enough for it to leave a tan line.โ€
Yoongi chews out, his voice echoing in the room, โ€œI hate wearing anything constantly! But, I wore this ring long enough for it to leave a mark. Where is it? My family has a rule of not wearing anything on our ring-finger unless it's a wedding or engagement ring. Remember?โ€
Yoongi looks at Namjoon, Jin and then Jungkook, โ€œI noticed the mark yesterday. Since then, I am trying to remember if Hoba has the mark, and he doesn't. None of you do, thankfully,โ€ he makes a face, โ€œbut, I kept thinking. So, tell me. Who is it? What are you hiding?โ€
Yoongi lets out a tired smile, โ€œyou know, even with half my memory gone, I can out run you all. Just...โ€ he breathes out, โ€œI will figure it out. Might as well tell me. I can take it. I swear. Are,โ€ he gulps, โ€œare they dead? Were they in the car...? Tell me. Please.โ€
Yoongi's eyes move from one to another, โ€œtell me! Who is it?! Was there another person-โ€ he freezes, eyes slowly widening. Jin gulps, grabs Yoongi's hand, โ€œokay, calm down. Dude, calm down. Whatever you are thinking-โ€ โ€œJimin is mated,โ€ Yoongi murmurs, โ€œhe... he is mated.โ€
Jungkook looks at the doctor, โ€œis he okay?!โ€ The doctor stares at Yoongi, โ€œhe is not forcing himself to remember these. He is just... connecting the dots. His brain is working fine.โ€ Yoongi grabs Jin by his shirt, โ€œtell me! I am tired of connecting dots! Tell me what's wrong!โ€
โ€œListen, I can't remember why and how and what went down for me and Jimin to mate! But, is that it?! Tell me! I can't remember that, but I think I said the right things-โ€ Hoseok chokes on a teary laugh, โ€œwell, you just left us speechless. Give him a moment. My God!โ€
Jin coughs, โ€œyeah. Exactly! I had all the templates planned on how to slowly feed you the details. Now I have to make those all over again-โ€ โ€œIs this in any way amusing to you?โ€ Yoongi bites out, โ€œI am not finding this funny.โ€ Jin shrugs, โ€œI just... God, where to start?!โ€
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โ€œThe operation is successful,โ€ the doctor smiles at Jimin, squeezing his hand, โ€œyour bond is broken now. You are recovering, and soon you will not feel any pain.โ€ Jimin nods, a trail of tears rolling out of his eyes, โ€œthank you.โ€ Taehyung holds his hand, โ€œMimi...โ€
Jimin closes his eyes, โ€œI am fine. Just...โ€ he bites the inside of his cheek to not sob, โ€œI need a moment.โ€ Taehyung feels his eyes tearing up, โ€œtake as long as you want.โ€ Jimin nods, trying and failing to hold back the sob that tears out of him, โ€œit feels so weird, Tae.โ€
โ€œIt feels like I am finally closing my door on him and I feel like I am betraying him somehow?โ€ Jimin frowns, crying, โ€œit feels like I am leaving him behind when he is not in his right mind, and I am like... leaving him when he needs me, but he doesn't need me, right?โ€
โ€œHow can he need me when he doesn't even remember me?โ€ Jimin sobs, holding Taehyung's hand, โ€œhe doesn't even remember me...โ€ โ€œCalm down, mimi,โ€ Taehyung holds Jimin in his arms, โ€œplease, calm down. You are exhausted and this is not going to help. Please, try to calm down-โ€
A nurse walks inside the cabin, her eyes fixing on Taehyung, โ€œyour husband wants to talk to you. He is waiting outside.โ€ Taehyung nods, โ€œyou can bring him here.โ€ โ€œNo,โ€ the nurse denies, โ€œthe patient is weak after the operation. No alphas are allowed to see him for a day.โ€
โ€œGo,โ€ Jimin nods, looking through the window, โ€œI need some time alone for myself.โ€ Taehyung hesitates, โ€œI will be right back.โ€ Jimin nods, closing his eyes. Tears trail out of his eyes. He wipes them, trying to even out his breath. Taehyung slowly walks out of the room.
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Yoongi sits on the wheelchair, too weak to move on his feet yet. He feels Jungkook anxiously hovering over him. โ€œCalm down,โ€ Yoongi murmurs, โ€œI am fine.โ€ Jungkook doesn't say anything right away, โ€œjust... he is weak too, you know? You are, you both are. So, you should wait.โ€
โ€œHe removed the one-sided bond,โ€ Jungkook speaks in a low voice, โ€œso, nothing is really binding you two together. You can take your time-โ€ โ€œI just want to know from him if that was the only thing binding us together or there was something more,โ€ Yoongi whispers, sitting taut.
Jungkook stops at the door of Jimin's cabin, โ€œplease don't stress yourself out, or him,โ€ Jungkook looks at the door and reaches to knock on it, โ€œplease take it slow. You both are weak.โ€ Yoongi nods silently, watches Taehyung open the door, nod at Jungkook before letting them in.
โ€œWait outside,โ€ Yoongi says, eyes on the omega who is sitting on the bed with the support of the pillows, โ€œI will call if we need anything.โ€ Taehyung and Jungkook share a look. โ€œBut-โ€ Taehyung stops when Yoongi holds up his hand. โ€œDo as I say,โ€ Yoongi rolls the chair inside.
Jimin looks pale. His eyes follow Yoongi while the alpha rolls the chair beside his bed. โ€œThis is too much effort,โ€ Yoongi tries to smile, โ€œalso, I don't know how to navigate this shit.โ€ Jimin's lips twitch a little, โ€œyeah, they should make one with steering and all.โ€
โ€œNot sure if I would like to drive after what happened,โ€ Yoongi arches a brow, โ€œor, you forgot that one?โ€ Jimin huffs out a snort, โ€œno, you took the forgetting role here. I remember.โ€ The silence falls upon them. Their eyes on each other.
โ€œIf you remember,โ€ Yoongi starts, โ€œthen why didn't you try to remind me?โ€ Jimin gives him a long stare, then he looks away, โ€œbecause what we had, is not worth reminding.โ€ Yoongi stares, โ€œ...what?โ€ Jimin nods, chuckles to himself, โ€œwe, to be honest, had nothing going on.โ€
โ€œThe entire affair was, you feeling guilty for mating me, and trying to take my responsibility while I was madly in love for a long time before I realized one-sided love can't save a relationship and wanted an out. That's all frankly was there between us. Nothing else.โ€
Jimin gives Yoongi a small smile, โ€œyou frankly forgot only that part because, maybe, it was the most straining part of your life, you know?โ€ he looks down at his hands, โ€œyour brain shut down on that part because that was painful for you. I think. I also think it's for the best.โ€
โ€œStraining,โ€ Yoongi nods to himself, โ€œmaybe. It makes sense that I would want to take responsibility of what I did, but,โ€ Yoongi looks at the omega, โ€œare you sure that was all? Why did we get married?โ€ Jimin shrugs, โ€œtold you. Responsibilit-โ€ โ€œWas that all?โ€ Yoongi begs almost.
He reaches to grasp Jimin's hand in his, โ€œwas that all between us?โ€ Jimin's lips quiver, he looks away, โ€œyeah. What else-โ€ โ€œWhere were we going that night?โ€ Yoongi tugs Jimin's hand, asking silently for the omega to look at him, โ€œwe were going somewhere. Right? Where?โ€
Jimin gulps, โ€œon a stroll...โ€ โ€œIt was past midnight!โ€ Yoongi frowns, โ€œit was raining! You can't be serious. Jimin,โ€ he lets out a breath, โ€œI am struggling to remember someone who is my husband! I can't do it if you don't help me. You are lying, and I don't know why, and it's-โ€
Jimin fears that. He fears telling Yoongi everything. He fears opening up because he knows then Yoongi will again try to mend things together because he would think Jimin is his responsibility.
Jimin looks at the alpha and wants to scream that if not for those proofs, Yoongi would still want Hoseok. If not for those proofs, he would still want Hoseok and Jimin doesn't care where they were going or whatever the small development was, he is not sure if Yoongi loved him.
He doesn't know if Yoongi will ever get his memories back or not. So right now, this Yoongi woke up wanting Hoseok and this Yoongi is here beside Jimin now because he thinks he married and mated Jimin so Jimin is his responsibility and Jimin would rather die than accept it again.
โ€œ๐ผ ๐‘™๐‘œ๐‘ ๐‘ก ๐‘š๐‘ฆ ๐‘Œ๐‘œ๐‘œ๐‘›๐‘”๐‘– ๐‘ก๐˜ฉ๐‘Ž๐‘ก ๐‘›๐‘–๐‘”๐˜ฉ๐‘ก, ๐ผ ๐‘ค๐‘–๐‘™๐‘™ ๐‘ก๐‘’๐‘™๐‘™ ๐‘š๐‘ฆ๐‘ ๐‘’๐‘™๐‘“ ๐‘ก๐˜ฉ๐‘Ž๐‘กโ€ฆโ€ Jimin thinks, tears brimming in his eyes, โ€œ๐‘ค๐˜ฉ๐‘Ž๐‘ก๐‘’๐‘ฃ๐‘’๐‘Ÿ ๐‘ค๐‘’ ๐‘ค๐‘’๐‘Ÿ๐‘’ ๐‘ ๐‘ก๐‘Ž๐‘Ÿ๐‘ก๐‘–๐‘›๐‘” ๐‘ก๐‘œ ๐˜ฉ๐‘Ž๐‘ฃ๐‘’, ๐ผ ๐‘™๐‘œ๐‘ ๐‘ก ๐‘–๐‘ก ๐‘ก๐˜ฉ๐‘Ž๐‘ก ๐‘›๐‘–๐‘”๐˜ฉ๐‘กโ€ฆโ€ he wipes his eyesโ€ฆ
โ€œ๐‘€๐‘ฆ ๐‘š๐‘Ž๐‘ก๐‘’ ๐‘‘๐‘–๐‘’๐‘‘ ๐‘ก๐˜ฉ๐‘Ž๐‘ก ๐‘›๐‘–๐‘”๐˜ฉ๐‘กโ€ฆโ€ Jimin nods to himself, eyes on Yoongi's face, โ€œ๐˜ฉ๐‘’ ๐‘–๐‘  ๐‘›๐‘œ๐‘ก ๐‘ฆ๐‘œ๐‘ข, ๐‘ฆ๐‘œ๐‘ข ๐‘›๐‘’๐‘ฃ๐‘’๐‘Ÿ ๐‘š๐‘’๐‘ก ๐‘š๐‘’โ€ฆ ๐‘ฆ๐‘œ๐‘ข ๐‘‘๐‘œ๐‘›'๐‘ก ๐‘Ÿ๐‘’๐‘š๐‘’๐‘š๐‘๐‘’๐‘Ÿ ๐‘š๐‘’, ๐‘ข๐‘ . ๐‘ƒ๐‘Ÿ๐‘œ๐‘๐‘Ž๐‘๐‘™๐‘ฆ ๐‘›๐‘’๐‘ฃ๐‘’๐‘Ÿ ๐‘ค๐‘–๐‘™๐‘™.โ€ Jimin chuckles, โ€œI have to say it, huh?โ€
โ€œ๐‘‡๐˜ฉ๐‘–๐‘  ๐‘–๐‘  ๐‘š๐‘Ž๐‘ฆ๐‘๐‘’ ๐‘ก๐˜ฉ๐‘’ ๐‘š๐‘œ๐‘œ๐‘›๐‘”๐‘œ๐‘‘๐‘‘๐‘’๐‘ ๐‘ ' ๐‘ค๐‘Ž๐‘ฆ ๐‘œ๐‘“ ๐‘”๐‘–๐‘ฃ๐‘–๐‘›๐‘” ๐‘ฆ๐‘œ๐‘ข ๐‘Ž ๐‘ ๐‘’๐‘๐‘œ๐‘›๐‘‘ ๐‘๐˜ฉ๐‘Ž๐‘›๐‘๐‘’ ๐‘Ž๐‘ก ๐‘ก๐˜ฉ๐‘’ ๐‘™๐‘–๐‘“๐‘’ ๐‘ฆ๐‘œ๐‘ข ๐‘ค๐‘Ž๐‘›๐‘ก๐‘’๐‘‘, ๐ผ ๐‘ค๐‘œ๐‘›'๐‘ก ๐‘ ๐‘›๐‘Ž๐‘ก๐‘๐˜ฉ ๐‘–๐‘ก ๐‘™๐‘–๐‘˜๐‘’ ๐ผ ๐‘‘๐‘–๐‘‘ ๐‘™๐‘Ž๐‘ ๐‘ก ๐‘ก๐‘–๐‘š๐‘’. ๐‘๐‘œ.โ€ Jimin bites the inside of his cheek...
โ€œI am having an affair with my dance teacher,โ€ Jimin murmurs, looking down at his hands, โ€œso, you were pissed, and you wanted to leave me at my parents' because you were done with me, our marriage,โ€ Jimin looks at the alpha, โ€œso, we were going to Busan.โ€
โ€œYou were drunk, so you made me drive and in your haste you forgot to wear the seatbelt,โ€ Jimin doesn't match those eyes, โ€œwe were fighting in the car too. That's why the accident,โ€ he shrugs, โ€œwe were not looking at the road. It's all a mess, really.โ€
โ€œSo, even in that drunk, pissed state, I remembered our safety to make you drive?โ€ Yoongi arches a brow, โ€œand, where is this alpha of yours who you are having an affair with? Did he come to visit you after hearing about your accident?โ€
โ€œI decided to drive because I wasn't keen to die, you see,โ€ Jimin chews out, โ€œalso, yes. He came to visit me. We both decided this is the right time to finally remove the mark and I did it. I am free from you, Yoongi, something I wanted for so long finally happened.โ€
โ€œSo, do me a favour and let me go,โ€ Jimin begs almost, โ€œthis is life's way of giving us both a second chance. Take it! You were to get our divorce papers, I say you make that, and we sign and then-โ€ โ€œI didn't love you?โ€ Yoongi wonders, โ€œduring our time together, did I love you?โ€
โ€œNo, you didn't,โ€ Jimin shakes his head, โ€œyou can read your own diaries, you have those. You will see how you feel about me in those. Well, you will see where your heart was. Also, we didn't have anything physical going on, too. That's why I sought him out. For myself.โ€
Yoongi nods, thinking something. Jimin waits with bated breath, his eyes following the alpha's hand when he reaches for the bag hanging from the chair's hook and pulls out his laptop. Jimin blinks at the device, confused. Yoongi opens it wordlessly, โ€œI can't open my laptop...โ€
Jimin stares in confusion, and he can't think why a laptop is important now. โ€œWhat?โ€ he stares at the alpha. Yoongi nods, โ€œthe hint is a heart but my name, hoba's name, your name, nothing opens it. Do you know the password?โ€ Jimin blinks, โ€œI am not aware. You never told me.โ€
Yoongi bites his lower lip, thinking, โ€œI have a few files I need to see, but I can't remember the password and no one knows. I changed it because the last one was my name. My own date of birth. But I changed it during this time period, and that's why I thought you would know.โ€
Jimin frowns, โ€œI have no idea. Why-โ€ โ€œI used to keep things important to me written in my files, notes, those are saved here and not on any drive. So, I can't open it with other devices and it's killing me. I need to see those notes. There has to be more details,โ€ Yoongi curses.
โ€œDon't force yourself,โ€ Jimin shakes his head, worry clear in his eyes, โ€œit's not good for your health. You should just rest-โ€ Yoongi gives him a small laugh, โ€œfor an omega who is having an extramarital affair, you do care a lot for me, I see?โ€ Jimin freezesโ€ฆ
Then he shrugs, โ€œonce I loved you, madly,โ€ Jimin whispers, looking down at the laptop, โ€œblindly. Of course, I care.โ€ Yoongi is quiet for a few seconds, then he looks at the laptop again, โ€œit doesn't make sense to me. None of this. At all. If I never felt anything for you, then-โ€
He turns the laptop towards Jimin, and Jimin freezes. โ€œThen how come the wallpaper is you?โ€ Yoongi whispers, โ€œwhy is it you?โ€ Jimin stares at the photo, his eyes glued on himself. He feels his heartbeat escalate in his chest, his hands trembling in their clutch...
Jimin blinks up at the alpha, โ€œI-โ€ he looks down at the photo, โ€œI don't know.โ€ โ€œWhere was it taken?โ€ Yoongi asks, looking at the photo himself, โ€œyou look so beautiful.โ€ Jimin stares at the photo too, โ€œI invited you. It was a competition. Right after we mated. But,โ€ Jimin frowns
โ€œMated?โ€ Yoongi arches a brow. โ€œI mean, right after we shared my heat,โ€ Jimin shrugs, โ€œbut, yeah. You said you won't come because you were too busy with work, and I was upset but,โ€ he frowns at the photo, โ€œyou didn't come to the competition. Where did you get this photo?โ€
โ€œIt's not,โ€ Yoongi leans in to check, โ€œit's not clicked by professionals. There are no watermarks.โ€ Jimin snorts, โ€œI am not popular enough to get professional photos of me. Also, the competition wasn't that big of a deal.โ€ Yoongi stares at the photo, โ€œso it's a personal click.โ€
Jimin feels his heart squeeze in his chest, โ€œI never saw this photo though.โ€ Yoongi looks at him, โ€œso... I did show up.โ€ Jimin's eyes flicker over to him, โ€œwhy didn't you tell me? I waited. I cried when I thought you didn't.โ€ Yoongi's throat bobs, โ€œI don't know.โ€
Jimin chuckles, โ€œyeah. You don't know.โ€ Yoongi looks back at the photo, โ€œdid I ever call you something other than your name? A nickname?โ€ Jimin snorts, โ€œmaybe trouble.โ€ Yoongi gives him a look, โ€œI am serious.โ€ Jimin bites his lower lip, โ€œwe were not that close. Ever.โ€
Yoongi nods, opens his mouth to say something when the doctor walks in. โ€œSorry to disturb, he needs to go for an examination,โ€ he points at Jimin, โ€œyou two can talk tomorrow again. You also need some rest, Yoongi.โ€ Yoongi looks at Jimin who is already looking at him. He nods.
โ€œI will be back tomorrow,โ€ Yoongi squeezes Jimin's hand. Jimin pulls away, โ€œyou shouldn't. I have nothing more to say.โ€ โ€œI might,โ€ Yoongi shrugs, nodding at Jungkook who comes to push the wheelchair out of the room. Taehyung walks in then, nodding to Jungkook who looks at him.
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Yoongi stares outside of the window. The lamps are the only things he sees in the darkness of the night. He counts them, again and again. Anything to distract himself. There is a knock on his cabin's door. He turns towards it and sees Namjoon walking in with a packet.
Namjoon stops by his bed, โ€œI,โ€ he hesitates, โ€œyou told me to bring you your phone as soon as I get it,โ€ he walks up to Yoongi, nodding to himself, โ€œit came back from repairing. The lock is your fingerprint or face. So, this will open.โ€ Yoongi takes the phone...
He opens the phone and stares at the blank wallpaper, โ€œthe data...โ€ โ€œIs intact,โ€ Namjoon nods, โ€œit was all saved in drive. So, thankfully, those are still there.โ€ Yoongi nods, โ€œthanks, Joon.โ€ Namjoon hesitates, โ€œJin will kill me if he hears I got behind his back to do this.โ€
โ€œHe doesn't want to overwhelm you like this, but he has no idea what a persistent as'hole you are,โ€ Namjoon glares at Yoongi. Yoongi snorts, โ€œwhat he doesn't know won't hurt him.โ€ He opens the gallery to see his photos sorted by files. He starts scrolling.
Yoongi stops, his thumb hovering over the file name, 'blossom.' โ€œSince when I took interest in flowers?โ€ he wonders aloud. Namjoon is over the other side of the room, pouring himself a glass of water, โ€œno idea.โ€ Yoongi ignores him, pressing his thumb over the file...
Yoongi stills when the file opens. There are only four photos. One is Yoongi's laptop wallpaper. The other three don't look like Jimin was aware that Yoongi took those photos. Yoongi stares at each one of them, trying to think what was he thinking when he clicked those...
Yoongi stares at those photos one by one. He doesn't force himself to remember why he clicked only four photos and what they mean but he looks at them for long. Then he is reaching for his laptop to open it. He inhales deeply, before he types... ๐‘๐‘™๐‘œ๐‘ ๐‘ ๐‘œ๐‘š
โ€œWhen was this?โ€ Yoongi whispers, stares at the photo of his homescreen. Namjoon walks over, looks at the photo and lets out a long breath, โ€œit was when you bought the house where you and him were supposed to move in after the wedding. On the day of the house-warming party.โ€
โ€œHe was so excited,โ€ Namjoon's voice drifts off, โ€œalmost begged us to gather the flowers you two got so he can click some photos...โ€ โ€œI didn't love him,โ€ Yoongi tastes those words on his tongue, โ€œhe kept insisting I didn't love him. If I didn't, explain all this to me.โ€
โ€œIt's all perspective, you know?โ€ Namjoon murmurs, โ€œmaybe he does believe you never loved him because you never showed him? Your actions or words didn't reach him? Maybe he believes what he is saying. Maybe he thinks you didn't love him, really. He has his reasons, you know?โ€
โ€œMaybe, now,โ€ Namjoon squeezes Yoongi's shoulder, โ€œI don't know how to say this, but take the positive side of this accident. You can learn your side of the story with him. You can discover Min Yoongi in these past few years with him and how Yoongi felt with him too. No?โ€
โ€œMaybe the things that old Yoongi feared or hesitated to open up about, you and Jimin can learn now,โ€ Namjoon comes to sit beside Yoongi, โ€œdiscover him with Jimin too. Because, you forgot, Jimin never knew. This is probably your second chance at starting a fresh with each other.โ€
โ€œHe doesn't want anything to do with me,โ€ Yoongi snorts, eyes tracing Jimin's face in the photo, โ€œhe has an affair-โ€ โ€œDo you believe it?โ€ Namjoon wonders. โ€œI don't know any better, do I?โ€ Yoongi chuckles, โ€œI don't even know myself, how can I know him?โ€
โ€œThen know yourself,โ€ Namjoon squeezes Yoongi's hand in his, โ€œknow yourself and let him know you too,โ€ he nods at Yoongi, โ€œif, after learning it all, he still lies-โ€ โ€œWhy do you think he is lying?โ€ Yoongi wonders. Namjoon pauses, chuckles to himself, โ€œbecause he is. I know.โ€
โ€œHe is my brother's best friend. I know him since he was a kid. He,โ€ Namjoon hesitates, โ€œgod, he was so smitten with you since he met you, hyung. You have no idea. I introduced you two. I told Jin hyung how you were Jimin's first crush, hell, first love too...โ€
โ€œHe didn't know about you and Hobi,โ€ Namjoon murmurs, eyes on his hands, โ€œhe would come to our house whenever you visited. Go so pink whenever you would tease him. He loved you silently. For a long time, hyung. He loved you from afar for a long time. Without expecting anything.โ€
โ€œA love like that doesn't chance, hyung. A person who loves you without expecting anything in return doesn't change so quickly. He loved you madly. I was always worried that one day you will break him, and you did. I hated you for that, but...โ€ Namjoon sighs, โ€œyeah...โ€
โ€œMaybe he got tired of waiting,โ€ Yoongi whispers, โ€œmaybe I drove him away, and I get it. You know? How long can you love someone before you realize they will never be yours, and you move on?โ€ โ€œForever,โ€ Namjoon whispers, โ€œlove is destructive like that. I know.โ€
Namjoon chuckles, โ€œI know because I love Jin like that,โ€ his eyes meet Yoongi's, โ€œI know because I don't care if Jin moves on or finds someone or what, but I know I will always love him. It's terrifying. It's horrible, but it's true. Some love lasts forever. You want or not.โ€
โ€œAnd, Jimin's love felt like that to me because I felt the same,โ€ Namjoon chokes out, โ€œI felt the exact same for a person. I hated you because you reminded me of Jin, and I hurt for Jimin because he was like me. Is like me. We never moved on. We so desperately want to, though.โ€
โ€œSo, maybe I am selfish, but I want Jimin to have his first love,โ€ Namjoon whispers, eyes on the photo, โ€œthat kid with starry eyes and blush high on his puffy cheeks as he looked at the alpha of his best friend's hyung's friend, I want him happy. He suffered enough. You know?โ€
โ€œSo, please,โ€ Namjoon holds Yoongi's hand in his, โ€œlearn about the past you. About his feelings and if you can, love him because he suffered enough. Just because he loved you. He doesn't deserve it, hyung.โ€ โ€œHe doesn't want to though,โ€ Yoongi murmurs, โ€œhe doesn't want to.โ€
โ€œIf Jin ever comes back to me, I won't accept him, you know?โ€ Namjoon murmurs, โ€œI think, my insecurities will stop me. My anger, hurt will stop me. I will tell him to leave because how dare he leave me just because the society thought two alphas can't be together...โ€
โ€œI would shout at him, ask him why I wasn't enough, why our love wasn't enough. I will ask him why couldn't we just adopt a kid when the time comes. I will tell him to go away because for ages he made me feel like I wasn't enough, but I still want him to try. To win me back.โ€
โ€œDeep inside me, I still hope Jin will come back,โ€ Namjoon sniffles, โ€œI still imagine scenarios where we will fight for hours before I let him hug me and I finally go back home. To him. I know Jimin feels the same. We want to fight you, make you realize how much you hurt us...โ€
โ€œBut, deep inside us, we still hope and imagine a future where we finally go home to you because we always wanted that, prayed for that. I know how it feels to be hurt by a person you love so madly. I know how Jimin feels. So, yeah. He will make it difficult, but please, fight?โ€
โ€œNo one will fight for me,โ€ Namjoon chuckles, โ€œbut I want you to fight for him. I am selfish, hyung. I want to see at least one of us get their happy ending. Through him, I want to have a closure. You know? Try, hyung. Try to understand where he is coming from.โ€
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โ€œBusy?โ€ Jimin looks up from where he is reading a book Taehyung left with him. He arches a brow at the man in wheelchair and shakes his head. Yoongi slowly moves the chair inside, on his lap, he has his laptop and phone. Jimin eyes those things, curiously frowning at the alpha.
โ€œWhy ask a question when you won't wait for my answer?โ€ Jimin marks the page and puts it down beside him, โ€œwhy are you running around with your laptop?โ€ Yoongi shrugs, โ€œI wanted to talk.โ€ Jimin folds his hands over his lap, โ€œdamn, since when you want to talk?โ€
Yoongi gives him a look, โ€œI went through my phone last night. There are a few photos, I would like you to tell me where they are from.โ€ Jimin frowns, watches Yoongi open his phone, โ€œnow, how would I know where you-โ€ he stops when Yoongi holds out the phone for him, โ€œthat's me.โ€
Yoongi nods, โ€œcan you tell me where this is from?โ€ Jimin doesn't reach for the phone, he sits on his trembling hands, โ€œyouโ€ฆ where did you get this photo?โ€ Yoongi shrugs, โ€œI clicked it.โ€ Jimin's eyes flicker over to him, โ€œimpossible. We were not talking at that time.โ€
โ€œIt was the day,โ€ Jimin gulps, looking away, โ€œNamjoon hyung and Hobi hyung announced they were seeing each other,โ€ Jimin looks down at his hands, โ€œyou were upset. Rightfully so. I asked you if you would like to go on a cruise dinner party. You didn't want to come. Butโ€ฆโ€
โ€œAt the last moment, you agreed because Jungkook and Jin hyung wanted to go too. We all kind of dragged you there. You spent the entire night on your own. Quiet, distant, upset. I don't think you were even looking at me for you to click that photo. I think someone else did.โ€
โ€œI have a note from that day the photo was clicked,โ€ Yoongi whispers, opening his laptop, โ€œI keep notes of things that are important, or something I don't ever want to lose, I did it that day too. I-โ€ Jimin chuckles, โ€œwrote how much it hurt to know Hobi hyung was moving on?โ€
Yoongi's eyes flicker over to the omega before he clicks on the note, โ€œread it for me.โ€ Jimin lets out a long breath before he takes the laptop, โ€œwhy on earth... what are you doing?โ€ Yoongi hoists himself up on the bed, his face scrunching up with pain, โ€œmove. Let me sit.โ€
Jimin stares, โ€œare you allowed to move like this?โ€ Yoongi shrugs, โ€œI am an alpha. I heal quicker than normal. Remember?โ€ Jimin shrugs, looking back at the laptop, โ€œagain, between the two of us, you are the one in forgetting department.โ€ Yoongi's lips twitch, โ€œread it for me.โ€
โ€œ๐‘Š๐˜ฉ๐‘Ž๐‘ก ๐‘ข๐‘๐‘ ๐‘’๐‘ก๐‘  ๐‘š๐‘’ ๐‘–๐‘  ๐ผ ๐‘‘๐‘œ๐‘›'๐‘ก ๐‘“๐‘’๐‘’๐‘™ ๐‘Ž๐‘  ๐˜ฉ๐‘ข๐‘Ÿ๐‘ก ๐‘Ž๐‘  ๐ผ ๐‘Ž๐‘š ๐‘ ๐‘ข๐‘๐‘๐‘œ๐‘ ๐‘’๐‘‘ ๐‘ก๐‘œ. ๐‘Š๐˜ฉ๐‘Ž๐‘ก'๐‘  ๐‘ค๐‘Ÿ๐‘œ๐‘›๐‘” ๐‘ค๐‘–๐‘ก๐˜ฉ ๐‘š๐‘’? ๐ผ ๐‘™๐‘œ๐‘ฃ๐‘’ ๐˜ฉ๐‘–๐‘š. ๐‘Š๐˜ฉ๐‘Ž๐‘ก'๐‘  ๐‘ค๐‘Ÿ๐‘œ๐‘›๐‘” ๐‘ค๐‘–๐‘ก๐˜ฉ ๐‘š๐‘’?โ€ Jimin reads the lines. His brows furrowing. He reads it again. โ€œWhatโ€ฆ?โ€
โ€œ๐ธ๐‘ฃ๐‘’๐‘Ÿ๐‘ฆ ๐‘ก๐‘–๐‘š๐‘’ ๐‘ฆ๐‘œ๐‘ข ๐‘™๐‘œ๐‘œ๐‘˜ ๐‘Ž๐‘ก ๐‘š๐‘’, ๐‘ฆ๐‘œ๐‘ข๐‘Ÿ ๐‘’๐‘ฆ๐‘’๐‘  ๐‘“๐‘ข๐‘™๐‘™ ๐‘œ๐‘“ ๐˜ฉ๐‘œ๐‘๐‘’ ๐‘Ž๐‘›๐‘‘ ๐˜ฉ๐‘’๐‘ ๐‘–๐‘ก๐‘Ž๐‘›๐‘๐‘’, ๐‘š๐‘ฆ ๐‘Ÿ๐‘’๐‘ ๐‘œ๐‘™๐‘ฃ๐‘’ ๐‘๐‘Ÿ๐‘’๐‘Ž๐‘˜๐‘ . ๐ผ ๐˜ฉ๐‘Ž๐‘ก๐‘’ ๐‘Ž๐‘›๐‘‘ ๐‘“๐‘’๐‘Ž๐‘Ÿ ๐˜ฉ๐‘œ๐‘ค ๐‘“๐‘Ž๐‘ ๐‘ก ๐ผ ๐‘Ž๐‘š ๐‘๐˜ฉ๐‘Ž๐‘›๐‘”๐‘–๐‘›๐‘”. ๐ผ๐‘ก ๐‘š๐‘Ž๐‘˜๐‘’๐‘  ๐‘š๐‘’ ๐‘ค๐‘Ž๐‘›๐‘ก ๐‘ก๐‘œ ๐˜ฉ๐‘Ž๐‘ก๐‘’ ๐‘ฆ๐‘œ๐‘ข...โ€
Jimin reads the lines again and again. Yoongi sits beside him, quietly watching the omega. Jimin checks the date, just to make sure Yoongi is not making it up. Yoongi lets the omega fret over it, go through the lines one by one. โ€œI see,โ€ Jimin says at last, voice empty, โ€œnext?โ€
Yoongi shows his phone, โ€œthe next photo was clicked after two months from that date. Can you tell when this photo was taken?โ€ Jimin gives Yoongi an unimpressed look, โ€œthat's me sleeping and like a creep you took a photo. Even if I look past that, how the hell am I to know?โ€
Yoongi rolls his eyes, shrugs, โ€œmy notes say, it was at the destination wedding of Jungkook and Taehyung. We shared a room, and it was the first time since your heat we shared a room.โ€ Jimin looks at the photo, โ€œyeah. Now that I think, yeah, those pillows are not mine.โ€
Yoongi reaches to click on the dates to find the notes for that day. He gestures for Jimin to read it. Jimin inhales deeply before he looks at the laptop screen with the same date as the photo. Yoongi waits. His eyes on the omega who is reading the lines.
โ€œ๐ผ ๐‘ค๐‘œ๐‘˜๐‘’ ๐‘ข๐‘ ๐‘ก๐‘œ ๐‘ฆ๐‘œ๐‘ข ๐‘ ๐‘™๐‘’๐‘’๐‘๐‘–๐‘›๐‘” ๐‘œ๐‘› ๐‘š๐‘’ ๐‘Ž๐‘›๐‘‘ ๐‘š๐‘ฆ ๐‘™๐‘ข๐‘›๐‘”๐‘  ๐‘“๐‘ข๐‘™๐‘™ ๐‘œ๐‘“ ๐‘ก๐˜ฉ๐‘’ ๐‘ ๐‘๐‘’๐‘›๐‘ก ๐‘œ๐‘“ ๐‘๐˜ฉ๐‘’๐‘Ÿ๐‘Ÿ๐‘ฆ ๐‘๐‘™๐‘œ๐‘ ๐‘ ๐‘œ๐‘š.โ€ Jimin grips the duvet, looking away from the screen. Yoongi watches the omega, โ€œwhat? Go on.โ€ Jimin's throat bobs...
โ€œYou didn't talk to me throughout the day,โ€ Jimin whispers, โ€œkept your distant and I busied myself with the wedding. I tried to remember if I crossed any lines during the night and-โ€
โ€œIt felt like you were bringing spring in my life when I was not ready to move on from winter yet,โ€ Yoongi murmurs, โ€œI wasn't ready to feel happy, but you were forcing me out of that state. I hated it,โ€ he points at the screen, โ€œthe next note says that.โ€ Jimin reads it, โ€œohhh.โ€
Jimin looks at the note, โ€œyou were not ready...โ€ โ€œTo be happy, yes,โ€ Yoongi whispers, eyes on the screen, โ€œit felt too soon. It felt like I was moving on from Hoba too soon, and I wrote how I feel like I am betraying him and what I thought was my first and last love.โ€
โ€œI felt frustrated that I was feeling anything for you and I guess, the notes speak volume about my conflict. You,โ€ Yoongi looks at Jimin, โ€œI think my old self will agree too, that you were probably too easy to love, blossom.โ€ Jimin chokes, startled, โ€œdon't- don't call me that.โ€
โ€œ๐‘‡๐˜ฉ๐‘’ ๐‘๐‘Ž๐‘ก ๐‘™๐‘œ๐‘ฃ๐‘’๐‘  ๐‘š๐‘’,โ€ Yoongi reads, โ€œ๐‘ฆ๐‘œ๐‘ข ๐‘ ๐‘Ž๐‘–๐‘‘ ๐‘ก๐‘œ ๐‘š๐‘’, ๐‘Ž๐‘  ๐‘ ๐‘œ๐‘œ๐‘› ๐‘Ž๐‘  ๐ผ ๐‘ค๐‘Ž๐‘™๐‘˜๐‘’๐‘‘ ๐‘ข๐‘ ๐‘ก๐‘œ ๐‘ฆ๐‘œ๐‘ข, ๐‘”๐‘Ÿ๐‘–๐‘›๐‘›๐‘–๐‘›๐‘” ๐‘’๐‘Ž๐‘Ÿ ๐‘ก๐‘œ ๐‘’๐‘Ž๐‘Ÿ. '๐‘Š๐˜ฉ๐‘œ ๐‘ค๐‘œ๐‘ข๐‘™๐‘‘๐‘›'๐‘ก?' ๐ผ ๐‘ค๐‘Ž๐‘  ๐‘Ž๐‘๐‘œ๐‘ข๐‘ก ๐‘ก๐‘œ ๐‘๐‘™๐‘ข๐‘Ÿ๐‘ก ๐‘œ๐‘ข๐‘ก ๐‘Ž๐‘›๐‘‘ ๐‘ ๐‘ก๐‘œ๐‘๐‘๐‘’๐‘‘ ๐‘š๐‘ฆ๐‘ ๐‘’๐‘™๐‘“.โ€
Yoongi turns the cursor towards the drive then. Opens a file that has two more notes with attached photos. One of a group photo. โ€œYou remember this? You would. I am relying on my notes,โ€ Yoongi says, clicking one open. โ€œThe group trip after Tae's wedding,โ€ Jimin whispers.
Yoongi nods, โ€œyeah. Apparently, we stayed at a villa and-โ€ โ€œIt was booked by Jungkook's dad,โ€ Jimin murmurs, โ€œwe all spent a whole week there. Just the seven of us. It was,โ€ Jimin smiles to himself, โ€œit was fun.โ€ Yoongi smiles, โ€œI guess, it looks like it was.โ€
Jimin smiles, โ€œI loved the river. It was right by the resort and I would drag Jin hyung and Tae there. We would enjoy the cold water. I can't remember I many times I splashed those two-โ€ โ€œYeah,โ€ Yoongi murmurs, โ€œI guess you loved being there.โ€ Jimin looks at the next photo.
โ€œ๐ผ ๐‘™๐‘œ๐‘ฃ๐‘’ ๐˜ฉ๐‘–๐‘šโ€ฆ ๐‘†๐˜ฉ๐‘–๐‘ก, ๐ผ ๐‘™๐‘œ๐‘ฃ๐‘’ ๐‘ฆ๐‘œ๐‘ข. ๐ผ ๐‘™๐‘œ๐‘ฃ๐‘’ ๐‘ฆ๐‘œ๐‘ข.โ€ Jimin freezes. His eyes stuck on the photo where he is giggling with Jin. He remembers Yoongi being around, but he doesn't recall this click. He doesn't care. He reads the line over and over again.
* .ยท:ยท. โ˜ฝ โœง โœฆ โœง โ˜พ .ยท:ยท. *
Then Jimin is closing the laptop, his eyes closing too. He rubs his hands over his face before he opens his eyes and looks at Yoongi with a pained expression. โ€œYou woke up asking for hobi hyung,โ€ Jimin whispers, โ€œwhatever you felt in the past, does that even matter anymore?โ€
Jimin shakes his head when Yoongi opens his mouth, โ€œno, hyung. I am not trying to pick up a fight. I am not trying to look past what you are saying, but you tell me, now, right at this moment, if you don't look at that past Yoongi,โ€ Jimin's voice softens, โ€œdo you love me?โ€
Yoongi opens his mouth, just to close it. He can't quite bring himself to say anything. Nothing true at least. Nothing he can say that will assure Jimin, he knows. Jimin gives him a small smile. It's not rueful, it's not sarcastic, it's nothing resentful. It's resigned.
โ€œIt's like you are watching yourself through a screen and telling yourself just because that Yoongi felt like this, you should too,โ€ Jimin shakes his head, โ€œhyung,โ€ his voice cracks with urgency, โ€œI would never want that. I don't want that.โ€
โ€œAlso?โ€ Jimin points at the closed laptop, โ€œyou might never go back to being that Yoongi again-โ€ โ€œYou are that Jimin still,โ€ Yoongi whispers. Jimin chuckles, soft, โ€œthat Jimin doesn't know how being loved by you feels like, hyung. Trust me. He has no idea. I have no idea.โ€
โ€œAll you need to know is,โ€ Jimin takes Yoongi's hand in his, โ€œyou woke up feeling something for Hobi hyung, and I was just your friend and let me be that. Just that. I can't,โ€ Jimin gulps, โ€œI can't be something more to you just because of a few notes. I can't.โ€
โ€œYou are forcing yourself to fit in the shoes you think is for you, but that's not how it works,โ€ Jimin pulls back, looking away, โ€œthings ended between us for a reason, hyung. The reason is, you and me both deserve a new start. A fresh one. Let's have that. For now. Please.โ€
Jimin reaches to cup the side of Yoongi's face, โ€œyou are my first love, hyung,โ€ a single tear rolls down Jimin's cheek, โ€œthat doesn't mean I have to be your last. Let it be. We both deserve a rest. We tried, yeah? Both of us. It didn't work. Maybe because we are not meant to be.โ€
โ€œOtherwise, trust me,โ€ Jimin smiles, rueful, โ€œthe amount of times we tried, we would reach somewhere. It's just not meant to be. Us. Otherwise, why,โ€ Jimin's face contorts, he looks away, โ€œwhy, out of every day, that night it had to-โ€ he stops himself, a sob tearing through him.
Jimin holds Yoongi's hand in both of his. He leans to press his lips against Yoongi's knuckles, โ€œI hope you find someone with whom you don't have to remind yourself to love them. I will pray that you fall in love again. Just as naturally as you did with Hobi hyung.โ€
Jimin smiles at Yoongi, โ€œnow stop going around with your laptop and give yourself a rest. Yeah? See forward. Let it be, hyung. Both of us are tired of walking around the same loop. Let's break out of it. We are not it, we never were.โ€
โ€œI don't remember you being so mature,โ€ Yoongi whispers, โ€œI remember the teenager who I met at Namjoon's house. The boy who would trail me like a lost puppy. The boy whose dance was a talk in the college. Taehyung's friend. I remember you very differently, Jiminie.โ€
โ€œThat's me,โ€ Jimin smiles a little wide, โ€œjust remember me like that, and I am fine. I had a crush on you since forever. That's that. Your junior. A lost puppy, yeah. I don't need to be something more. Please.โ€ Yoongi watches him, eyes moving all over his face, โ€œyou were happy.โ€
Jimin blinks, โ€œwhat?โ€ Yoongi's eyes are shiny, โ€œyou, the one I remember, were happy around me. I can't stand the thought that I did something to make you this,โ€ he gestures, โ€œthis sad. Mature-โ€ Jimin huffs, โ€œI am older now, hyung. I can't be a kid for the rest of my life.โ€
โ€œI made you sad,โ€ Yoongi looks away, slowly pulling away from Jimin, โ€œI made you grow up and out of the happiness you always carried with yourself. That's something I will remember.โ€ Jimin pats Yoongi's back, โ€œstop taking responsibility for everything. I am fine, I promise.โ€
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Yoongi gets discharged from the hospital two weeks after Jimin does. Enough time for Jimin to pack up his things and move out of the house they were sharing, but the omega hesitates. โ€œI'll just stay to make sure he is getting a hang of everything before I move out,โ€ Jimin says.
Yoongi comes home to the new house. His wandering eyes taking in everything. Jimin stands by the door, welcoming the alpha, whose left leg is still in a cast. Jimin smiles when Yoongi points out the house is really huge, and they should get an elevator inside it for him.
โ€œStay at the guest room,โ€ Jimin rolls his eyes, โ€œno need to show off how rich you are.โ€ Yoongi looks up at him, tilting his head to see Jimin while the omega wheels him to the guest room, โ€œwhere do you live? Did we share a bedroom?โ€ โ€œNo,โ€ Jimin chuckles, โ€œwe didn't.โ€
Yoongi settles in pretty quickly. Busying himself with office work, learning about the past few years through his secretary and Jin. He works from home, cooped in his room. The only time he comes out of it is when Jimin takes him out on evening strolls down the park.
The only three times Yoongi sees Jimin are these three times. Once, after his shower. Jimin helps him shower with the cast and change into his clothes. Then the omega leaves for the day. Comes back to take him out for a stroll and then they have dinner together.
โ€œWhat?โ€ Jimin asks, busy buttoning Yoongi's trouser, โ€œwhat are you staring at?โ€ Yoongi stands leaning against the wall, โ€œnothing.โ€ Jimin squints up at him, โ€œwhat is it? You keep staring?โ€ โ€œWell, sue me if I am staring at a pretty omega kneeling in front of me,โ€ Yoongi teases.
Jimin stops for a second before his cheeks are heating up, and he is swatting at Yoongi's stomach, โ€œshut the fuck up, hyung!โ€ Yoongi bites back a chuckle that turns into a soft smile, โ€œwhat's your plan today? It's Sunday.โ€ Jimin fixes the pant, stands up, โ€œnothing fancy.โ€
Yoongi lets Jimin fuss over his hair. He lets the omega wheel him back to his room and when Jimin turns to leave, Yoongi reaches to grab Jimin's wrist. โ€œWhere are you going?โ€ Yoongi knows he sounds a little breathless. Jimin frowns, confused, โ€œupstairs. To my room.โ€
โ€œSanghun hyung is coming over, we will go through some routines,โ€ Jimin counts on his fingers, โ€œwe have a performance tonight. I asked hobi hyung to come over. Jin hyung might be here too. Jungkook too. I will be out-โ€ โ€œCan I come?โ€ Yoongi sees how Jimin freezes.
โ€œWhere?โ€ Jimin gulps, eyes on the alpha. โ€œTo your performance?โ€ Yoongi asks, tentative, โ€œI know you are dating the alpha and you or him might not want me there and all that, but I just...โ€ he shrugs, โ€œI just want to see you perform. Once.โ€ Jimin looks troubled, โ€œwhy?โ€
Yoongi shrugs, โ€œI just want to.โ€ Jimin looks away, โ€œit's going to be a long night. I will go to the after-party with him and if you-โ€ โ€œI can be back on my own,โ€ Yoongi assures him, โ€œI will be fine. You don't need to worry about me. Yeah? I will take my secretary with me.โ€
Jimin cannot say no after that. Yoongi finds himself in the audience, sitting with his secretary and staring at the stage where Jimin comes out with the alpha. Yoongi watches them. They are performing tango, the beats are fast and catchy and the dance is intimate...
Jimin looks gorgeous in his white fit. His blond hair fluffy and curled are his face. His eyes never wavering from the alpha's who is clad in black from head to toe. Their eyes on each other. For a second, the alpha's lips move and Jimin breaks character, a smile on his lips.
Yoongi watches how the alpha's hand circles that waist, pulling the omega closer. His eyes flicker over to Jimin's face to see Jimin's lips parted, eyes on the alpha while the alpha smirks at him. Then they are breaking apart, just to come right back for each other...
Sanghun buries his face against Jimin's neck, Jimin's back pressed against his chest as they move. Jimin tilts his head back, resting it on the alpha's shoulder.
Sanghun turns them next. Easily picking up Jimin and ending the dance with Jimin's one leg wrapped around his waist, the other outstretched. Jimin's one hand on his shoulder and the other cupping the side of his face. Their breathing heavy as the curtain drops...
Yoongi claps, watches how everyone stands up to do so. He leans back against his seat, eyes still on that closed curtains. โ€œSir, would you like to leave?โ€ his secretary asks then, โ€œthe car is ready.โ€ Yoongi nods, his throat bobbing, โ€œyeah. Let's go.โ€
โ€œI will let Jimin ssi know before-โ€ Yoongi shakes his head, eyes still on the curtain, โ€œno, it's okay,โ€ he turns his eyes away, โ€œhe must be busy. Let's leave. Let him enjoy the after-party. He already,โ€ his voice waver, โ€œalready sacrificed enough for me as it is. Let him enjoy.โ€
His secretary hesitates, looks at the stage and back at him before nodding. Yoongi lets her wheel him out of the venue. He leans against the chair, eyes on the exit until they are in the parking. His guards are fixing the car to get him inside. Yoongi thanks them mutely.
Yoongi frowns, leaning back against his seat while he looks at the roof of the car. The sting in his chest intensifies the more he thinks about the performance. He tries to reason it was just a performance. A practised skit for the audience. Then he frowns harder...
Even if it was not, why does it bother him? Even if it was really them, as it should be, why did it matter to him? Yoongi frowns, tongue caressing the inside of his cheek. Jimin was dating the alpha, so it is natural that they have chemistry. It is natural that they look so...
โ€œ๐‘Š๐‘Ž๐‘  ๐‘–๐‘ก ๐‘Ž ๐‘‘๐‘Ž๐‘ก๐‘’?โ€ โ€œ๐‘Š๐˜ฉ๐‘ฆ ๐‘‘๐‘œ ๐‘ฆ๐‘œ๐‘ข ๐‘๐‘Ž๐‘Ÿ๐‘’?!โ€ Yoongi flinches. The words come like a thunder-strike. They flash across his mind and vanish just as quickly. He sits up straight, frown deep. It feels like he can hear those words in his head. As if he lived those...
Yoongi feels like dรฉjร  vu. As if he lived those words. As if what he is feeling is not new. He felt it. As if those words- โ€œHyung!โ€ Yoongi blinks, eyes wide and at the person who is right beside his car. He stares at Jimin's face, still not sure if he is dreaming orโ€ฆ
Jimin is still in his costume. He pants, steps closer to the car's window, and bends to look at Yoongi. โ€œOh, you,โ€ Jimin breathes out, โ€œI was searching!โ€ Yoongi blinks, โ€œwell, it was over, so... I left.โ€ โ€œI told you to inform me!โ€ Jimin hisses, โ€œwhat the fuck, hyung!โ€
Yoongi rolls the glass of the window down, tries to smile, โ€œyou shouldn't have worried, Jiminie, I am fine.โ€ Jimin looks at him, eyes moving over Yoongi's face, โ€œwhere are you going?โ€ โ€œHome,โ€ Yoongi murmurs, โ€œI feel a little tired.โ€ Jimin nods, stepping away, โ€œyeah. Okay.โ€
Yoongi reaches blindly then. He takes Jimin's hand in his, flips it and presses his lips against Jimin's wrist, right on his pulse. Jimin goes still. Yoongi looks up at the omega, โ€œyou were so beautiful up there,โ€ โ€œ๐‘๐‘™๐‘œ๐‘ ๐‘ ๐‘œ๐‘šโ€ฆโ€ Yoongi doesn't call him that, โ€œprettiest.โ€
Yoongi knows it's a gesture common between mated couples. A scenting tradition that he so selfishly took from Jimin. Yoongi watches how Jimin stands there, immobile. He holds Jimin's wrist in his hand still, rubbing his thumb over the pulse. โ€œI was?โ€ Jimin whispers, โ€œprettiest?โ€
Yoongi nods, โ€œyou are.โ€ Jimin blinks, takes his hand away from Yoongi's hold and clutches it closer to his chest, โ€œright.โ€ Yoongi leans back against his seat, โ€œenjoy, okay? Don't worry about me. I will just go and sleep.โ€ Jimin nods jerkily, throat bobbing, โ€œyeahโ€ฆโ€
Jimin's eyes start to water then. He blinks, looking sideways to wipe his eyes. โ€œWhy did you come?โ€ Jimin whispers, taking a step away, โ€œwhy do you always...โ€ his lips quiver, he sniffles, โ€œshit, why can't you let me go?โ€ Then he is turning on his heels and running away...
Yoongi feels the tears when they roll down his cheeks. He wipes them, looks down at his hand with a frown as his palm glisten. He looks up at the omega, who almost rushes inside the building. โ€œBecauseโ€ฆโ€ Yoongi leans back in his seat, โ€œthis Yoongi is falling for you too.โ€
โ€œWhere to, sir?โ€ his secretary speaks from the passenger seat. โ€œHome,โ€ Yoongi murmurs, closing his eyes while more tears spring out of his eyes, โ€œtake me home.โ€ He wipes his eyes. He would be damned if he blurts that shit out and ruin whatever Jimin has with Sunghun now.
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Jimin comes home exhausted. It's past two in the morning, and he almost drags himself inside the house. While he closes the door, he hears it. The soft plucker of keys. Jimin stands by the door, eyes on the silhouette of the man who plays the piano by the window.
Yoongi sits on the stool, leisurely moving his fingers over the keys of the piano. A glass of scotch sits idly on top of the piano. Jimin watches the alpha. His shirt open till three buttons, the tie hanging loosely around his neck. He is still dressed in his evening clothes.
Jimin slowly walks up to the alpha. His eyes on the man whose eyes are on the piano. Jimin stands across from him, watches how Yoongi doesn't stop playing. He watches how Yoongi's hands are so steady with the tune. โ€œWhat song is it?โ€ he asks, not sure if he should have or not.
Yoongi looks up at him, smiles a little, โ€œCan't Help Falling in Love.โ€ Jimin's eyes move across the man's features, โ€œnever heard it.โ€ โ€œThat's a crime,โ€ Yoongi pats the seat beside him, โ€œyou should be punished.โ€ Jimin breathes out a smile, โ€œand, how exactly that will happen?โ€
โ€œBy listening to me sing,โ€ Yoongi smirks, there is something glossy in his eyes, โ€œby the end you will cry and beg me to let you go. Also, Presley will cry in his grave too.โ€ Jimin's lips twitch, โ€œyou are that bad, huh?โ€ Yoongi nods, โ€œterrible.โ€ Jimin rounds the piano, โ€œgo on.โ€
Yoongi shakes his head, โ€œno. I respect that man too, mcuh to ruin his song like that. Just,โ€ he leans to click on a button, โ€œlisten to him singing it.โ€ Jimin sits beside Yoongi, moonlight cascading down on them through the vast window. The voice fills the room slowly.
โ€œOne day I will produce a song, and you can dance on it,โ€ Yoongi murmurs, smiling at the keys of the piano, โ€œI can't dance with you, so... I hope the song-โ€ he stops when his eyes fall on Jimin. Jimin's eyes are wide, his lips trembling. โ€œWhat?โ€ Yoongi asks, confused.
โ€œ๐‘‚๐‘›๐‘’ ๐‘‘๐‘Ž๐‘ฆ ๐ผ'๐‘™๐‘™ ๐‘š๐‘Ž๐‘˜๐‘’ ๐‘ฆ๐‘œ๐‘ข ๐‘Ž ๐‘ ๐‘œ๐‘›๐‘”, ๐‘๐‘™๐‘œ๐‘ ๐‘ ๐‘œ๐‘š, ๐‘Ž๐‘›๐‘‘ ๐‘ฆ๐‘œ๐‘ข ๐‘๐‘Ž๐‘› ๐‘‘๐‘Ž๐‘›๐‘๐‘’ ๐‘œ๐‘› ๐‘–๐‘กโ€ฆโ€ Yoongi's voice echoes in Jimin's ears. Jimin looks back at the piano, closing his eyes. โ€œWhat is it?โ€ Yoongi asks. Jimin shakes his head, โ€œno-nothing.โ€
He tries to smile at Yoongi, โ€œplay the tune for me, yeah?โ€ Yoongi lets Jimin stop the music system, lets out a breath before he starts to play the piano. Yoongi's breath hitches when Jimin's head comes to rest on his shoulder. His eyes start to blur as he continuesโ€ฆ
โ€œDo you think people can be meant to be like that?โ€ Jimin wonders, his voice low, โ€œlike a river flows to the sea? No matter what? Do you think,โ€ his voice wavers, cracks, โ€œsomeone's love can be strong enough to bring their loved one back to them? No matter how long the route is?โ€
โ€œLike a river flows. Surely to the sea...โ€ Jimin sings the lines to himself, tastes the words on his tongue, โ€œdo you think love can be like that too? No matter how far the distance, how long the path, the hardships, do you think they can meet at the end? Is that possible?โ€
โ€œSome things are meant to be,โ€ Yoongi whispers, blinks, โ€œsome loves are meant to be.โ€ Jimin looks at him then, โ€œdo you think mine is one of them?โ€ Yoongi freezes, โ€œhuh?โ€ Jimin looks back at the window, head resting on Yoongi's shoulder, โ€œbecause... I still wait.โ€
โ€œIt's like a sea, I wait,โ€ Jimin's voice clogs, โ€œhelplessly wait for the river to find its way to me. Wait for the river to push past the barriers, hills, deserts... pray for it to not lose its way and come to me. I keep waiting, hyung. It feels like I am waiting forever.โ€
Yoongi tries to breathe through the pain that squeezes his heart. He takes Jimin's hand in his, watches, mesmerized, how his hand swallows Jimin's hand up. He pulls it up to his lips, โ€œthe river is born to find the sea, blossom. A river's only purpose is to find the sea.โ€
โ€œNo matter the hardships, no matter the distance, no matter the efforts,โ€ Yoongi knows his eyes are teary, โ€œthe river pushes along to find the sea. That's the only reason it flows. The sole purpose it's born. It might take time, but the river always finds the sea.โ€
โ€œThen how come mine got lost?โ€ Jimin whispers, choked voice reaching only Yoongi, โ€œtell me how long do I have to wait? Or, in our case, you are the sea who forgot this river because he has so many rivers flocking it, and he doesn't care if one doesn't reach him at all.โ€
โ€œBecause it feels like I was born with the sole purpose to love you and try my best to reach you while you don't even care,โ€ Jimin sobs, โ€œit feels like I am running to you my entire life while you stay busy with the others. As if I am trying so hard to reach you when you don't-โ€
โ€” Blame this song because it's my fav and fits the story too well โ€” See you tonight at 23:00 pm again open.spotify.com/track/44AyOl4qโ€ฆ
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โ€œYou are not dating him?โ€ Yoongi asks, voice not above a whisper, โ€œthe alpha. You are not with him?โ€ Jimin stops, eyes watering some more, โ€œhe,โ€ he looks away, โ€œtonight, he asked me out. Tried to kiss me.โ€ Yoongi's breath catches in his chest, โ€œoh?โ€
Jimin looks away, โ€œit was so easy. He made me feell comfortable. It was a sweet proposal,โ€ his eyes close, โ€œthen he leaned in and kissed me. Right on the lips.โ€ Yoongi looks away, blinking faster. His hands ball over his thighs. Jimin chuckles, โ€œyou know what I did?โ€
โ€œI thought of how you asked if you could kiss me the first time we kissed after my heat,โ€ Jimin whispers, โ€œhow you sought my permission and it's so stupid. It was not like he was forcing himself on me but,โ€ Jimin shakes his head, โ€œyou asked. You waited for me to say yes. I...โ€
Jimin chuckles, โ€œwhatever I know about alphas, were based on knowing my father and Tae's father. I didn't grow up with a lot of expectation from alphas, you know? They were always this terrible, hideous things that terrified me. Then you came along...โ€
โ€œDifferent,โ€ Jimin chuckles, โ€œyou were everything I have never seen in a typical alpha. Maybe that's where my silly crush came from. You were,โ€ Jimin shrugs, โ€œlike, tonight he kissed me as if he knew why would I stop him? As if, he never thought of that. My permission.โ€
โ€œYou raised my standard, hyung,โ€ Jimin smiles, a lone tear rolling down his cheek, โ€œthen made me realize, you were not common. You were hard to find and since then I am ruined. You know? Since then, I feel like I will never find someone who would be you. Ever again.โ€
โ€œMin Yoongi, you kind of ruined me for others,โ€ Jimin lets out a deep breath, โ€œI guess, that's why I pushed him away,โ€ Jimin smiles, โ€œrealized his proximity makes my skin crawl. I don't want him, you know?โ€ Yoongi watches him, โ€œyou left him there?โ€ Jimin nods, โ€œyeah.โ€
Jimin wipes his eyes, โ€œI should be moving on by now. It has been so long since everything crumbled. I should be over you by now, you know? I have no idea-โ€ โ€œLove doesn't have a certain expiry date, Jiminie,โ€ Yoongi chuckles, โ€œit's not easy like that. It's not easy.โ€
โ€œI don't know how far I can run before I exhaust myself out of this loop,โ€ Jimin looks down at his wrist, โ€œI don't know where on this earth I need to go to stop feeling this gut-wrenching pain every time I think of you. There is this part in me, that still hopes...โ€
Jimin looks at Yoongi, โ€œthis is how I always was. A nagging pest. Always begging you to love me. Pathetic, no?โ€ he looks ahead at the window, โ€œalways hoping, praying, wishing you would love me and that Yoongi didn't. You don't. I don't know what I can do to move on.โ€
Jimin stands up, frustrated, โ€œwhy am I so pathetic?โ€ he wipes his eyes furiously, โ€œwhy can't I just kiss him and finally feel how reciprocated love feels like? Why can't I just move on and not look back at you over and over again? What is wrong with me? What's wrong with me?โ€
Yoongi takes a hold of Jimin's hand, โ€œwhen you were breaking inside, in the past, according to everything I read, that Yoongi was breaking too. He loved you, Jiminie. He loved you just as much. You believe it or not, it changes anything or not, he loved you.โ€
โ€œTonight,โ€ Yoongi gulps, skin breaking with goosebumps, โ€œthis Yoongi loves you too.โ€ Jimin stills. His eyes wide, fearful, startled. Yoongi nods, slowly, โ€œI love you. Park Jimin, I am in love with you. Not because anything binds us. Not because you are my responsibility...โ€
โ€œNot because there's a mating bond,โ€ Yoongi shakes his head, โ€œnot because I feel guilty. Hell, I don't remember shit to feel guilt. I just remember how you made me feel these past few weeks. You,โ€ Yoongi ignores how tears roll out of his eyes, โ€œyou make it so easy to love you.โ€
โ€œI loved you when you stayed with me throughout the night the first day I came home because I couldn't sleep,โ€ Yoongi pulls Jimin to sit beside him, โ€œI loved you when you cancelled your plans to help me settle here. I loved you each time you helped me shower. I loved you...โ€
โ€œEvery time you told me it will get better. I loved you when you took me on those strolls. Sat beside me to watch the sunset. I loved you each night when you sat beside me while we finished our dinner and talked until it was way past midnight. I loved you in bits and pieces.โ€
โ€œEvery time you smiled at me,โ€ Yoongi gives a wobbly smile, โ€œevery time you giggled so hard you were falling off the seat. Every time you pouted because your cooking was too bad. I loved you. I loved you every time you told me to move on. I loved you each day. Every day.โ€
โ€œThat day, when Hoba came over, and you left, so we have our privacy,โ€ Yoongi chuckles, โ€œI realized I was not the same person who woke up asking for him. I looked at him and realized I moved on. I realized, I moved on a long time ago. You have to know that, Jiminie.โ€
โ€œWhy?โ€ Jimin whispers, โ€œwhy are you telling me this now?โ€ โ€œBecause that Yoongi didn't,โ€ Yoongi sniffles, โ€œand, I refuse to be him.โ€ Jimin's face contorts, โ€œhyung...โ€ Yoongi wipes his eyes, โ€œyou don't have to accept me. I just want you to know that I love you. I love you.โ€
Jimin gets up, a sob escaping him. Then he is rushing up across the hall to the stairs and sprinting up and out of Yoongi's view. Yoongi turns towards the piano then, rests his elbows on the edge and holds his face in his palms. It's a rejection. Yoongi knew it would come.
Still it hurts. It hurts terribly. Yoongi hides his face in his hands and lets the silent tears fall. He hunches over while tears run down his face to smear across his palms. He doesn't know how long he stays there. Maybe hours. Maybe minutes. Then he gets on his wheelchair.
Yoongi turns on the music. The song he was playing. He keeps it on repeat and looks at the balcony. He slowly takes himself out on the open balcony. His eyes on the sky, clouds moving around. It's going to rain. Yoongi sits on his wheelchair, watching the dark horizon.
Yoongi sits there for hours. Sits there like a lifeless statue. Sits there, too numb to move. His eyes water while the horizon start to fade, the sun slowly peeking through the dark clouds. The first droplet falls on the tip of his nose, Yoongi closes his eyes.
The rain slowly picks up, silently drenching him. Yoongi watches the sun, rising lazily. The horizon fading to a soft yellow glow. โ€œ๐‘Š๐‘–๐‘ ๐‘’ ๐‘š๐‘’๐‘› ๐‘ ๐‘Ž๐‘ฆ ๐‘‚๐‘›๐‘™๐‘ฆ ๐‘“๐‘œ๐‘œ๐‘™๐‘  ๐‘Ÿ๐‘ข๐‘ ๐˜ฉ ๐‘–๐‘›...โ€ Yoongi hears the footsteps. He keeps his eyes on the sun, barely there.
โ€œ๐ต๐‘ข๐‘ก ๐ผ ๐‘๐‘Ž๐‘›'๐‘ก ๐˜ฉ๐‘’๐‘™๐‘ ๐‘“๐‘Ž๐‘™๐‘™๐‘–๐‘›๐‘” ๐‘–๐‘› ๐‘™๐‘œ๐‘ฃ๐‘’ ๐‘ค๐‘–๐‘ก๐˜ฉ ๐‘ฆ๐‘œ๐‘ขโ€ฆโ€ Yoongi's vision is blocked when Jimin rounds him, standing between him and the sun. Yoongi doesn't look up at that face. He keeps his eyes on Jimin's abdomen. Jimin doesn't utter a word either.
โ€œ๐‘†๐˜ฉ๐‘Ž๐‘™๐‘™ ๐ผ ๐‘ ๐‘ก๐‘Ž๐‘ฆ? ๐‘Š๐‘œ๐‘ข๐‘™๐‘‘ ๐‘–๐‘ก ๐‘๐‘’ ๐‘Ž ๐‘ ๐‘–๐‘› ๐ผ๐‘“ ๐ผ ๐‘๐‘Ž๐‘›'๐‘ก ๐˜ฉ๐‘’๐‘™๐‘ ๐‘“๐‘Ž๐‘™๐‘™๐‘–๐‘›๐‘” ๐‘–๐‘› ๐‘™๐‘œ๐‘ฃ๐‘’ ๐‘ค๐‘–๐‘ก๐˜ฉ ๐‘ฆ๐‘œ๐‘ข?โ€ Jimin slowly kneels in front of him, sits on his knees so they are eye to eye. Yoongi watches how mascara runs down Jimin's eyes, his makeup a mess.
Those eyes are puffy. Tears cling to those lashes. Those irises are red-rimmed. Yoongi knows he is not any better. He knows he looks just as drained. Jimin reaches then, his trembling hand cups the side of Yoongi's face. Yoongi sucks in a breath, eyes still on the omega...
โ€œ๐ฟ๐‘–๐‘˜๐‘’ ๐‘Ž ๐‘Ÿ๐‘–๐‘ฃ๐‘’๐‘Ÿ ๐‘“๐‘™๐‘œ๐‘ค๐‘  ๐‘†๐‘ข๐‘Ÿ๐‘’๐‘™๐‘ฆ ๐‘ก๐‘œ ๐‘ก๐˜ฉ๐‘’ ๐‘ ๐‘’๐‘Ž ๐ท๐‘Ž๐‘Ÿ๐‘™๐‘–๐‘›๐‘”, ๐‘ ๐‘œ ๐‘–๐‘ก ๐‘”๐‘œ๐‘’๐‘  ๐‘†๐‘œ๐‘š๐‘’ ๐‘ก๐˜ฉ๐‘–๐‘›๐‘”๐‘  ๐‘Ž๐‘Ÿ๐‘’ ๐‘š๐‘’๐‘Ž๐‘›๐‘ก ๐‘ก๐‘œ ๐‘๐‘’.โ€ Jimin surges forward then, pressing his lips on Yoongi's and Yoongiโ€ฆ Yoongi moves. His hands reaching out to hold Jimin.
Behind them, the sun is breaking out through the dark clouds, giving Jimin a halo like an angel. Yoongi kisses Jimin with the urgency he feels deep in his bones. Jimin kisses him just as intensely. The rain pours on them, soaking them both up while a new day begins around them.
โ€œ๐‘‡๐‘Ž๐‘˜๐‘’ ๐‘š๐‘ฆ ๐˜ฉ๐‘Ž๐‘›๐‘‘ ๐‘‡๐‘Ž๐‘˜๐‘’ ๐‘š๐‘ฆ ๐‘ค๐˜ฉ๐‘œ๐‘™๐‘’ ๐‘™๐‘–๐‘“๐‘’, ๐‘ก๐‘œ๐‘œ ๐น๐‘œ๐‘Ÿ ๐ผ ๐‘๐‘Ž๐‘›'๐‘ก ๐˜ฉ๐‘’๐‘™๐‘ ๐‘“๐‘Ž๐‘™๐‘™๐‘–๐‘›๐‘” ๐‘–๐‘› ๐‘™๐‘œ๐‘ฃ๐‘’ ๐‘ค๐‘–๐‘ก๐˜ฉ ๐‘ฆ๐‘œ๐‘ข.โ€ Yoongi tugs Jimin up by his hands, on his lap, kissing him greedily. Jimin tries to pull away, hesitant, but Yoongi doesn't let him.
โ€œYou are hurt-โ€ Jimin stops, arms on Yoongi's shoulder. โ€œDon't leave,โ€ Yoongi begs almost, โ€œblossom,โ€ his voice cracks, โ€œdon't leave me ever again.โ€ Jimin looks down at him, face crumbling as he cries, โ€œI never did. I can't. I tried. I can't.โ€
โ€œ๐ฟ๐‘–๐‘˜๐‘’ ๐‘Ž ๐‘Ÿ๐‘–๐‘ฃ๐‘’๐‘Ÿ ๐‘“๐‘™๐‘œ๐‘ค๐‘  ๐‘†๐‘ข๐‘Ÿ๐‘’๐‘™๐‘ฆ ๐‘ก๐‘œ ๐‘ก๐˜ฉ๐‘’ ๐‘ ๐‘’๐‘Ž ๐ท๐‘Ž๐‘Ÿ๐‘™๐‘–๐‘›๐‘”, ๐‘ ๐‘œ ๐‘–๐‘ก ๐‘”๐‘œ๐‘’๐‘  ๐‘†๐‘œ๐‘š๐‘’ ๐‘ก๐˜ฉ๐‘–๐‘›๐‘”๐‘  ๐‘Ž๐‘Ÿ๐‘’ ๐‘š๐‘’๐‘Ž๐‘›๐‘ก ๐‘ก๐‘œ ๐‘๐‘’.โ€ โ€œI love you, I love you so much,โ€ Yoongi murmurs against Jimin's lips. Jimin sniffles, โ€œI love you too. I love you more.โ€
Yoongi pulls Jimin down for another kiss, โ€œI think I love you the most.โ€ Jimin kisses back, shaking his head into the kiss, โ€œnot possible. Not at all possible, alpha.โ€ Yoongi's heart flutters in his chest, โ€œyeah?โ€ Jimin nods, โ€œI loved you since I was barely a teenager.โ€
โ€œYou are my first love,โ€ Jimin leans to join their foreheads, โ€œyou are my first ever love.โ€ โ€œYou are my last,โ€ Yoongi whispers, holding Jimin closer, โ€œyou are the last because I can't think of loving someone as intensely as I love you, blossom.โ€
โ€œWhat I feel for youโ€ฆ it's terrifying, you know?โ€ Yoongi murmurs, seeking Jimin's lips out to kiss him again. โ€œI know,โ€ Jimin nods, kissing him right back, โ€œI know.โ€
* .ยท:ยท. โ˜ฝ โœง โœฆ โœง โ˜พ .ยท:ยท. *
Jimin is not used to this. The soft kisses before he leaves for the day's work. The homemade food when he gets back. He is not used to a dotingโ€ฆ husband? Lover? He is not sure how to brand Yoongi at this point. So he doesn't. He just basks in the attention and love.
โ€œHow is he?โ€ Taehyung asks one day, both of them coming out of the court after the case's first hearing, โ€œnow?โ€ Jimin looks over at Yoongi who is now walking side by side with Jungkook, the cast finally off, โ€œI don't know,โ€ Jimin sighs, โ€œnew? Like a dream I fear?โ€
Taehyung frowns, โ€œa dream you fear?โ€ Jimin looks down at his feet, โ€œI am not used to happiness, Tae. It got taken away from me more than once. I fear...โ€ he gulps, โ€œwhat if one day he wakes up with his old memories back, but he forgets these past few months?โ€
Taehyung holds Jimin's hand in his, โ€œthat's ridiculous, mimi,โ€ he squeezes Jimin's hand in his, โ€œthat won't happen. Trust me. Okay? Just let yourself go. Live a little.โ€ โ€œYou are the one to talk?โ€ Jimin snorts, looks at Taehyung, โ€œyou and Jungkook look distant too.โ€
Taehyung looks away, eyes downcast, โ€œhe asked, hinted, that maybe we should reconsider the marriage.โ€ Jimin blinks, โ€œmarriage?โ€ Taehyung nods, โ€œhe wanted us to get married again.โ€ Jimin stops, โ€œwell, what?!โ€ Taehyung huffs out a chuckle, โ€œI said no.โ€ Jimin pouts, โ€œwhy?โ€
Taehyung gives him a look, โ€œI am not sure, okay? I don't want to. Not yet. I am not sure if that's a good idea. Marriage is not a joke. I don't want to go wrong this time.โ€ Jimin looks over at Jungkook, โ€œdid he take it well?โ€ Taehyung looks at the alpha too, โ€œno, I guess.โ€
โ€œHe never argues,โ€ Taehyung looks away when Jungkook turns towards them, โ€œhe just accepts whatever I say and then keeps it all to himself until his breaking point. Then he explodes. That's a problem. I wish he would just say when he wants to disagree.โ€
Jimin is about to say something when an arm circles around his waist, โ€œhi.โ€ Jimin startles, looking at the source of the voice with his wide eyes, โ€œhey.โ€ Yoongi gives him a small smile, โ€œlet's go. We will be late.โ€ Jimin frowns, โ€œwhere are we going?โ€ Yoongi shrugs, โ€œcome on.โ€
Jimin looks at Taehyung, hesitating. Taehyung smiles, waves him off. โ€œGo, we will talk later,โ€ Taehyung pats his back. Jimin follows Yoongi to his car, โ€œwhere are we going?โ€ Yoongi shrugs, โ€œyou will see.โ€ Jimin doesn't argue and gets inside the car. Sitting beside Yoongi.
โ€œWhere-โ€ Jimin holds his breath when the car turns towards the same road they once took. His breath hitches when the car crosses the spot where it all went down. Yoongi holds his hand, giving him a small smile. Jimin looks away from the road, closing his eyes...
โ€œIt's okay,โ€ Yoongi holds him closer, lips brushing against his ear, โ€œblossom, it's okay. I am here.โ€ Jimin nods, still hiding his face against Yoongi's neck to inhale the alpha's pheromones. He doesn't say a word throughout the ride until the car stops.
โ€œI promised you a date,โ€ Yoongi's words make Jimin flutter his eyes open, and he is looking outside. Jimin's eyes brim with tears, he holds the door of the car, โ€œYoon...โ€ Yoongi exits the car, rounds it to open the door for him. Jimin sucks in a breath, slowly coming out.
The sound of the tides and the fresh ocean breeze welcome him to the beach. Jimin feels tears brim in his eyes when Yoongi takes a hold of his hand. โ€œSorry,โ€ Yoongi murmurs, โ€œit took us too long to reach here.โ€ Jimin burst out in tears then, โ€œshut up! Shut up!โ€
Yoongi holds Jimin in his arms, pressing soothing kisses over his cheek and jawline, โ€œI wish I remembered what else I promised. Thank you for telling me we were coming here.โ€ Jimin looks at the man, sniffling, โ€œyou are horrible.โ€ Yoongi smiles, โ€œcome on.โ€
They walk hand in hand, the sun is setting over the horizon slowly. Jimin holds Yoongi's hand tightly, feeling the tides on his feet. Yoongi watches him while Jimin watches the sea. โ€œIt's so pretty,โ€ Jimin smiles at the sun. Yoongi hums, eyes fixed on Jimin's face, โ€œyeah.โ€
Then Yoongi is rounding him, halting Jimin on his path. Jimin looks at the alpha curiously. Their hands locked together. Yoongi leans in, kisses Jimin right on the mouth. Jimin sucks in a breath, still not used to these kisses. He melts soon, letting the alpha pull him close.
โ€œI love you, Park Min Jimin,โ€ Yoongi whispers, โ€œI love you so much.โ€ Jimin feels the goosebumps on his skin, a slow smile curving the corners of his lips, โ€œI love you too.โ€ It's easy. It's so easy to let himself go when Yoongi looks at him like that. So in love. So in awe...
โ€œI see you are the cheesy romantic type,โ€ Jimin giggles when Yoongi takes him to their destination. Yoongi pulls the chair for him, rolls his eyes, โ€œjust accept that you love it.โ€ Jimin sits down, looks around the tent and looks back at the sea, โ€œI do. Thank you.โ€
Jimin accepts the drink, non-alcoholic, and the food the waiters serve him. He looks at Yoongi who slowly sips from his glass. Those eyes are fixed on him. Jimin takes a sip of his mocktail, humming to himself before starting to eat. The night is quiet around them.
The soft music plays. Jimin holds his breath when Yoongi reaches out, taking a hold of his hand across the table. Jimin looks at the alpha, whose eyes are already on him. There is a certain intensity that leaves Jimin breathless. He looks down at his food, eating quietly...
โ€œDo you like it?โ€ Yoongi asks, his thumb rubbing over Jimin's knuckles. Jimin nods, wipes his mouth before looking at Yoongi, โ€œI do. The food is delicious. Drinks too.โ€ Yoongi nods, โ€œand, this place?โ€ Jimin looks around, โ€œI love it.โ€ โ€œAnd, your alpha?โ€ Jimin chokes, โ€œhuh?โ€
Yoongi's lips are curved at the corners, a little smirk plastered there, โ€œwhat about your alpha? Do you like him?โ€ Jimin rolls his eyes, cheeks flaming red, โ€œhe is a confident prick. So, no.โ€ Yoongi tilts his head, โ€œno?โ€ Jimin shakes his head, pinching Yoongi's hand, โ€œno."
Yoongi stands up then, coming around the table to hold his hand out, โ€œso, let your alpha appeal to you for a dance, blossom. Maybe you will like him better afterwards.โ€ Jimin takes the hand willingly, letting Yoongi pull him closer, โ€œI doubt that.โ€
The song is slow. The beat is soft. Jimin lets his hands rest on Yoongi's shoulders, and Yoongi's hands are on his hips. They sway side by side. Eyes on each other. Yoongi doesn't look away from Jimin's face, and Jimin just can't match those eyes, no matter how hard he tries.
โ€œNow,โ€ Yoongi steps closer, whispers the words in Jimin's ear, โ€œwho can't match whose eyes, blossom?โ€ Jimin closes his eyes, face hidden against Yoongi's neck, โ€œshut up.โ€ Yoongi breathes out a chuckle. His arms tighten around Jimin, lips pressing against Jimin's jawline.
Jimin turns his head a little, their lips ghosting over each other. Both of them wait, for the other to take the initiative. Both of their eyes find each other and Jimin feels how fast his heart beats. He feels how the alpha's grip tightens on him. Then Yoongi is moving...
โ€œ๐ฟ๐‘œ๐‘ฃ๐‘’๐‘™๐‘ฆ, ๐‘›๐‘’๐‘ฃ๐‘’๐‘Ÿ, ๐‘›๐‘’๐‘ฃ๐‘’๐‘Ÿ ๐‘๐˜ฉ๐‘Ž๐‘›๐‘”๐‘’ ๐พ๐‘’๐‘’๐‘ ๐‘ก๐˜ฉ๐‘Ž๐‘ก ๐‘๐‘Ÿ๐‘’๐‘Ž๐‘ก๐˜ฉ๐‘™๐‘’๐‘ ๐‘  ๐‘๐˜ฉ๐‘Ž๐‘Ÿ๐‘š ๐‘Š๐‘œ๐‘›'๐‘ก ๐‘ฆ๐‘œ๐‘ข ๐‘๐‘™๐‘’๐‘Ž๐‘ ๐‘’ ๐‘Ž๐‘Ÿ๐‘Ÿ๐‘Ž๐‘›๐‘”๐‘’ ๐‘–๐‘ก? '๐ถ๐‘Ž๐‘ข๐‘ ๐‘’ ๐ผ ๐‘™๐‘œ๐‘ฃ๐‘’ ๐‘ฆ๐‘œ๐‘ข ๐ด-๐‘—๐‘ข๐‘ ๐‘ก ๐‘ก๐˜ฉ๐‘’ ๐‘ค๐‘Ž๐‘ฆ ๐‘ฆ๐‘œ๐‘ข ๐‘™๐‘œ๐‘œ๐‘˜ ๐‘ก๐‘œ๐‘›๐‘–๐‘”๐˜ฉ๐‘กโ€ฆโ€ Their lips finally meet for a kiss.
Jimin kisses shyly while Yoongi kisses ardently. As if he waited so long. As if he craved Jimin's kisses since forever. They kiss each other breathless, kiss until they both have to pull away to breathe. Their foreheads joined. Both of their eyelashes soaked in unshed tears.
Jimin looks at the alpha, wiping his eyes. Yoongi tries to smile, taking a hold of Jimin's wrist and kissing him on his palm. Jimin sniffles, pulling Yoongi back in another kiss. The song slowly moves around them, wrapping them up in a soft and warm cocoon till it ends.
Then Yoongi is taking a hold of his hand and starting to walk. Jimin follows, his eyes stuck on the alpha. Yoongi leads him down the path that's filled with rose petals and lanterns lining the sides. Jimin watches how the staff bows to Yoongi and him, leading them forward.
Yoongi guides him to a door that leads to the inside of the resort, apparently the alpha booked. Jimin follows Yoongi inside, watching breathless how beautiful the room is. He can see the sea from here. It's almost on top of the sea. Jimin walks up to the window in awe...
โ€œThis is so beautiful!โ€ Jimin whispers, hands on the glass ceiling-to-floor window, โ€œYoon-โ€ Yoongi's arms circle his waist, lips pressing against his neck, โ€œyou like it?โ€ Jimin looks over at Yoongi, โ€œyeah. Yeah. I do.โ€ Yoongi nods, turns Jimin to face him, โ€œgood.โ€
โ€œLet's take a bath,โ€ Yoongi murmurs, hands always playing with the belt of Jimin's pant, โ€œyeah?โ€ Jimin sucks in a breath, โ€œbath?โ€ Yoongi points to the side, โ€œyeah. There.โ€ Jimin looks over at the open bath, โ€œohhh.โ€ Yoongi slowly pulls back, โ€œjoin me, yeah?โ€
Jimin stares after the alpha. Yoongi takes off his shirt first, dropping it by the bath. Then he unbuckles his belt. Jimin looks away until he hears the sloshing of the water. When he looks back, Yoongi is inside the bath, pouring himself a glass of champagne. The alpha waits.
Jimin slowly unbuttons his shirt. He ignores how Yoongi watches him, fingers trembling while he goes through each button. Then he shrugs out of the shirt and looks at the alpha. โ€œTurn away,โ€ he says pointedly. โ€œWhat?โ€ Yoongi arches a brow, โ€œI can't see my own husband naked?โ€
โ€œNo!โ€ Jimin makes a face, โ€œeither you face outside or I am not getting in.โ€ Yoongi gives him a long sigh before he turns away to watch the scenery. Jimin slowly gets out of his jeans and pads over to the bath. He dips his foot in the water first and then steps fully in.
Yoongi is bobbing on the water, arms resting at the edge, while he sips his champagne. โ€œPour me a glass,โ€ Jimin nudges Yoongi for the champagne. Their elbows touch, eyes meeting. Yoongi watches him while taking another sip, โ€œright.โ€ Jimin arches a brow, โ€œwhat?โ€
Yoongi takes a long sip of the champagne, reaches for Jimin's neck to pull him closer. Jimin's eyes widen, hands flailing until they find Yoongi's shoulders to hold onto. Then Yoongi is kissing him, the liquid flowing from his mouth to Jimin's and Jimin whimpers into the kiss...
His hands tighten on Yoongi's shoulder while Yoongi's tongue licks inside his mouth. Jimin pulls back first, panting for breath. His eyes are wide on Yoongi. Yoongi takes him in, his eyes trailing over Jimin before it settles on his face again. Jimin turns away quickly...
He grips the edge of the bath, eyes screwed shut while he tries to regulate his breathing. It's impossible when the alpha's scent is so thick in the air, pheromones surrounding him like a cloak. Jimin feels Yoongi crowd him from behind, hands coming to rest on his at the edge.
He feels those warm lips press at the junction of his neck, right where his moon tattoo is. Jimin sucks in a breath, bowing his head when he feels those lips trailing down. He watches Yoongi's hands cover his on the edge of the bath, their fingers tangling together...
Yoongi's lips trail down the tattoos on Jimin's spine and Jimin feels goosebumps slowly making its way down his spine too. โ€œYoon,โ€ he bites back the moan that tries to escape his mouth when Yoongi goes underwater, the last kiss right between the dimples of his spine.
Then Yoongi is breaking the surface of the water and pressing himself back up against Jimin's spine. His hands rest on Jimin's hips, face buried in Jimin's neck. โ€œYou smell so good, blossom,โ€ Yoongi purrs, โ€œso, so delicious.โ€ Jimin tries to even out his breathing, โ€œplease.โ€
โ€” ๐Ÿ”ž๐Ÿ”ž๐Ÿ”žโ€”
โ€œCan you feel me?โ€ Yoongi whispers near his ear, โ€œcan you feel how hard you get me?โ€ Jimin has no idea what he is supposed to say. He is not sure if he can speak at all. He looks at the alpha, his eyes vulnerable. Yoongi stops for a second, eyes taking in Jimin. โ€œBlossom...โ€
โ€œYou can say no,โ€ Yoongi nods, encouraging, soothing, โ€œyou can always say no. If you don't want this, we can stop,โ€ he squeezes Jimin's hips, โ€œyeah?โ€ โ€œIt's fine,โ€ Jimin shrugs, โ€œyou already booked all this and-โ€
โ€œHey,โ€ Yoongi chuckles, cups his face, โ€œI can be in you, and if you still say no, we will stop,โ€ he nods, assuring, โ€œif you want to stop, we stop. I don't care what I did or how far we go. Okay? Just voice it and I will stop.โ€ Jimin stares at the alpha, his eyes glistening...
He shakes his head, turns fully to wrap his arms around Yoongi's neck, โ€œno,โ€ Jimin whispers against Yoongi's lips, โ€œno. I want this. I want you,โ€ his lips press against Yoongi's, โ€œI justโ€ฆ I am not sure what to do. I haven't done this since my heat and even then, I wasn't fully-โ€
Jimin's face is heating up while he tries to say it, โ€œin my mind to, you knowโ€ฆโ€ Yoongi's eyes are on him, โ€œI know,โ€ he kisses Jimin again, โ€œand it's okay, yeah?โ€ his lips quirk up teasingly, โ€œnot going to lie, that pleases the primal side of me.โ€ Jimin swats him, โ€œright!โ€
Yoongi laughs, kissing Jimin again. He holds Jimin in his arms, crowding him up against the wall of the bath. Jimin lets out a startled breath when Yoongi takes a hold of his waist and pushes him up on the edge of the bath. Water splashes all over the place...
Yoongi lies Jimin down on the wooden floor, hoisting himself up to hover over him. โ€œYoon,โ€ Jimin parts his legs, letting Yoongi settle between them, โ€œwe'll catch cold.โ€ Yoongi shrugs, โ€œwerewolves, blossom. A little water won't break us.โ€ Jimin sucks in a breath, nodding.
Jimin closes his eyes when Yoongi's hand wander down his body. Slowly parting his legs to feel between them. Jimin's c0ck twitches over his stomach. The pungent smell of his slick slowly thickening in the air. โ€œYou are wet for me,โ€ Yoongi whispers, fingers probing his entrance.
Jimin bites back a moan when one of those thick fingers slowly enter him, his inner walls gripping the digit. Yoongi leans down to pepper kisses all over Jimin's face while he pushes in another finger. โ€œShit, you are so wet, blossom,โ€ Yoongi groans against his mouth.
Jimin throws his head back, gasping for air, when Yoongi pushes in the third finger. His mouth falls open while the alpha's head bows to take one of his nipples into Yoongi's mouth. Jimin's fingers tighten in Yoongi's hair, a few choked moans leaving his mouth.
Yoongi pumps his fingers inside of him, slowly working him open. Jimin sniffles, his insides churning. โ€œIf you,โ€ Jimin gasps out, โ€œif you think,โ€ his fingers tighten in Yoongi's hair, pulling the alpha's face up to meet those eyes +
โ€œI will have my first time on the floor, you are mistaken,โ€ Jimin whines when those long fingers press against his prostate, โ€œtake me to bed, alpha.โ€ Yoongi watches him for a second before he is surging forward to kiss Jimin breathless, โ€œshit, you are so-โ€ he cursesโ€ฆ
โ€œI am so?โ€ Jimin asks, spreading his legs more. Yoongi pumps his fingers harder, eyes wild on Jimin's face, โ€œso hot. Sexy. Bratty,โ€ he leans to bite on Jimin's lips, sucking the lower one in his mouth, โ€œso perfect.โ€ Jimin moans, โ€œgood. Now take me to bed.โ€
Yoongi shakes his head, โ€œnot before I make you cum. Come on.โ€ Jimin squeezes his eyes closed, feeling those thick fingers move faster in him. Almost pressing up against his prostate at every try. It doesn't take long for him to reach his orgasm. Yoongi leading him through it.
Then Jimin is falling limp on the wooden floor, his breath caught in his chest. He feels Yoongi pull out of him, reaching for a towel to wipe his hand before the alpha wipes him too. Then Yoongi is standing up, scooping Jimin up in his arms. Jimin gasps, โ€œcareful! Your leg-โ€
Yoongi rolls his eyes, carrying Jimin back to the room, โ€œyeah, yeah. Alphas are stronger generally and we heal faster too. Did you forget or what?โ€ Jimin holds Yoongi by his neck, makes a face, โ€œdone bragging?โ€ Yoongi's lips twitch, โ€œoh, I will just show you.โ€
He puts Jimin down on the bed, climbing right after him. Jimin scoots up the bed, watching the alpha. โ€œHow do you want this?โ€ Yoongi asks, โ€œthere are many positions-โ€ โ€œWhat is it, gymnastic?โ€ Jimin deadpans, โ€œis this your dirty talk?โ€ Yoongi stares...
Yoongi sits on his knees, eyes on Jimin, โ€œI can't-โ€ he combs his hair back, a smile tugging at his lips, โ€œokay, you suck at dirty talk too! I was just asking.โ€ โ€œI don't know?โ€ Jimin waves him off, โ€œdo whatever. I don't know!โ€ Yoongi rolls his eyes, smiling, โ€œfine, goodness!โ€
โ€œYou suck at dirty talk, if this was that-โ€ Jimin stops when Yoongi kisses him mute. Yoongi laughs into his mouth, โ€œyou are such a brat. Continue and I will take you across my lap.โ€ Jimin's eyes widen, โ€œthat's-โ€ his arms tighten around Yoongi, โ€œnot a bad idea.โ€ Yoongi chokes.
โ€œOkay, let's get into kinky stuff next time,โ€ Yoongi waves him off, pulling back to reach for the side table where his wallet is, โ€œthis time let's keep it soft.โ€ Jimin plays with his fingers, a playful smile he tries hard to hide. โ€œWhat?โ€ Yoongi rummages through his wallet.
โ€œIf you are soft, I don't know how we will do it,โ€ Jimin bites back a laugh when Yoongi pauses and looks up at him with an unamused expression. โ€œSeriously, go on, and I will be soft forever,โ€ Yoongi pulls out a packet of condom, โ€œgo on. You really help a lot, blossom!โ€
Jimin giggles behind his hands. His eyes following the alpha as Yoongi puts the condom on. Then Yoongi is giving him a bored stare. Jimin shrieks when Yoongi grabs his ankle and tugs it with force, almost dragging him forward so they are face to face. Yoongi kisses him again...
Jimin goes silent, feeling how the alpha's scent spreads in the room. He inhales deeply, mewls when he picks up on his scent too. Slick gushes out of him while Yoongi pushes at his shoulder to make him lie on the bed. Jimin squirms, โ€œthese petals were needed?โ€
Yoongi shrugs, settling between his legs, โ€œI told them it's like a honeymoon kinda thing, and they arranged the room.โ€ โ€œYou told them we will have sex?!โ€ Jimin lets the alpha arrange him, โ€œeven before telling me?! So, those staffs knew and currently know that we are-โ€
โ€œI am starting to like the idea of a gag,โ€ Yoongi hums to himself, โ€œthe more you open your mouth, the more alluring the idea gets. Huh!โ€ Jimin clamps his mouth shut, โ€œso, tomorrow we will walk out and do the walk of shame. I hate it here-โ€ Yoongi slowly pushes in himโ€ฆ
Jimin chokes on his words, his hands flying out to grab at Yoongi's shoulders. His eyes are wide on the alpha, and Yoongi looks down at him while he slowly bottoms out. Then Yoongi waits, giving Jimin some time to adjust to him. Jimin nods, โ€œyeah,โ€ he shudders, โ€œgo on.โ€
Yoongi slowly pulls out, and then he is slamming back in. Jimin curses, throwing his head back while he feels Yoongi fill him up so good. His nails dig into Yoongi's back, breaking the skin there. Yoongi grunts, lips pressing against Jimin's neck, sucking there...
Yoongi controls the thrusts. Slowly building it up. Jimin holds onto the alpha, kissing him, whispering how good Yoongi makes him feel against the alpha's ear, pulling him down for more kisses. Yoongi growls into the kisses, speeding up. Their moans and grunts fill the room...
The sound of skin slapping against skin, slick making the thrusts sloppy, the sound of Jimin's cries and Yoongi's grunts fill the room next. Jimin bites back a whimper, his eyes squeezing shut, while he feels his orgasm building in him. Yoongi kisses him deepโ€ฆ
โ€œCome for me, blossom,โ€ Yoongi whispers against Jimin's neck, โ€œcome for me.โ€ Jimin does. With a sharp cry, he comes between them. Then Yoongi speeds up, chasing his own release. It's not long before he is releasing too.
Yoongi freezes when his knot swells, slowly locking them in place. He looks down between them. Eyes wide and on Jimin. Jimin looks blissed out, โ€œwhat?โ€ Yoongi frowns, โ€œI-โ€ he gulps, โ€œI wore the condom.โ€ Jimin blinks, โ€œyeah?โ€ Yoongi bites on his lip, โ€œI still popped a knot.โ€
Jimin squirms, โ€œis this the time you worry about that?โ€ Yoongi shakes his head, โ€œno, but-โ€ Jimin pulls him down for a kiss, โ€œI am exhausted. Can we fret over your knot tomorrow?โ€ Yoongi tries to shake his head, โ€œno- blossom. That's not-โ€ Jimin closes his eyes, sleepy...
Yoongi lets out a deep breath, slowly fixing them so Jimin is on his side, and he is spooning Jimin from behind. โ€œJust curious,โ€ Jimin whispers over his shoulder, โ€œhow long does it take for the knot to go down?โ€ Yoongi holds Jimin closer, โ€œa few minutes.โ€ Jimin nods, โ€œokay.โ€
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Jimin pants, falling in Yoongi's arms after riding him to orgasm, โ€œokay, that's enough. I can't move anymore.โ€ Yoongi chuckles, his eyes on the horizon as it fades into a new day, โ€œgood morning to you too, blossom.โ€ โ€œWe are not doing this for a month,โ€ Jimin complains...
โ€œFour times in a night should be a record,โ€ Jimin speaks tracing patterns on Yoongi's chest, โ€œyou know? I will brag about this to Taehyung!โ€ Yoongi winches, โ€œseriously could have done without his face popping up in front of my eyes!โ€ Jimin swats him, โ€œdon't think then!โ€
Yoongi wraps the blanket around them, kissing the top of Jimin's head, โ€œyeah, yeah.โ€ Jimin is quiet for a second, then he peers up at Yoongi and Yoongi knows the omega wants to ask something. He waits and Jimin waits too. Yoongi lets out a sigh. โ€œWhat is it?โ€
โ€œDo you think I should have waited before removing the mating mark?โ€ Jimin whispers, burying his face in Yoongi's chest. Yoongi stills for a second, thinking, โ€œwellโ€ฆ no. I think, I think it should be mutual. I think this time I would like to remember it.โ€
Jimin nods, playing with Yoongi's hand, โ€œokay. Yeah...โ€ Yoongi looks down at the omega, a small smile on his lips, โ€œwe can do that for your next heat, you know?โ€ Jimin looks up at him, โ€œor, your next rut. Whichever comes first.โ€ Yoongi nods, โ€œyeah. Don't worry, okay?โ€
โ€œIf you get pregnant, you won't have heat for nine months,โ€ Yoongi whispers, โ€œthen, we can do it on my rut.โ€ Jimin pauses, โ€œand, why am I getting pregnant?โ€ Yoongi gives him a pointed look, โ€œI told you about the broken condom.โ€ Jimin sighs, waves him off, โ€œyeah, yeah. Got it.โ€
โ€œWhat?โ€ Yoongi pinches Jimin's side, โ€œyou sound dismissive.โ€ โ€œIt's just funny that you think you can knock me up in one try!โ€ Jimin giggles, โ€œno disrespect. Just... it's tough.โ€ Yoongi's lips twitches, โ€œyeah, yeah. I know. Let's pray that I didn't.โ€
Jimin frowns, โ€œwhy? You don't want kids?โ€ Yoongi sighs, โ€œthat's not the case, blossom. But, we just started off. Do you think we need kids right now?โ€ Jimin's lips jut out, โ€œso... how long before you will be ready for kids?โ€ Yoongi gives him a stare, โ€œa year? Maybe?โ€
โ€œI want to be mated to you properly by the time we plan pups and all that,โ€ Yoongi pulls Jimin to his chest, snugly pressed against him, โ€œyeah?โ€ Jimin nods, burying his face against Yoongi's neck, โ€œrelax, alpha. We are not pregnant.โ€ Yoongi hopes they are not.
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โ€œOkay, it's nothing,โ€ Jimin wipes his mouth, looks at his pale face in the mirror, โ€œyou are just exhausted and it's nothing else. It's nothi-โ€ the nausea hits him again, making him double over the sink to empty his already empty stomach. His head swirls, making his steps falter.
Jimin wipes his mouth, splashes some water on his face and sits on the toilet seat. His head hurts, he holds it between his hands and lets out a curse. โ€œOkay, let's do this,โ€ Jimin bites his lower lip, โ€œit's just a test. It's just a test. It's just a test-โ€ he stares at the kit.
โ€œNo matter how many times you repeat, it won't change it's a pregnancy test,โ€ Hoseok looks at him from the doorframe, โ€œjust go with it, Jiminie.โ€ Jimin glares at the omega, โ€œwhat if it comes out positive?!โ€ Hoseok blinks, โ€œso? You will have a baby. So what?โ€
Jimin holds his face in his hands, โ€œI am not sure it's the right time!โ€ Hoseok lets out a breath, โ€œlet's not start panicking. Test first. When was the last time you had sex?โ€ Jimin shrugs, โ€œthis morning.โ€ Hoseok gives him a deadpan look, โ€œbe serious!โ€
Jimin stares, โ€œwhat? I had sex this morning!โ€ Hoseok curses, โ€œJimin! No matter what, you can't get pregnant this morning and have the symptom right after!โ€ โ€œYou asked when I had sex last time!โ€ Jimin gets up, pouting, โ€œI was just answering you!โ€ Hoseok glares, โ€œjust do it!โ€
โ€œOkay, get out,โ€ Jimin pushes Hoseok out of the washroom, โ€œI am not peeing in front of you!โ€ Hoseok makes a face, standing right outside, โ€œyeah, but you can vomit right on me!โ€ Jimin slams the door on Hoseok's face, โ€œwe were dancing!โ€ Hoseok chuckles, โ€œfine, fine.โ€
After ten minutes, they both stare at the result. โ€œGo and buy me a few more kits,โ€ Jimin murmurs, eyes stuck on the two lines. โ€œThis one's faulty?โ€ Hoseok hovers over his shoulder, โ€œlooks fine to me.โ€ โ€œIt says I am pregnant,โ€ Jimin whispers back. โ€œYeah, and?โ€ Hoseok frowns.
โ€œGet me one that says I am not pregnant,โ€ Jimin elbows Hoseok, โ€œgo on!โ€ Hoseok blinks, โ€œthat's not how these kits work!โ€ Jimin glares at him, โ€œI can't be pregnant! That's impossible!โ€ Hoseok stares at him, slowly his eyes widening, โ€œYoongi is impotent?โ€ Jimin blinks, โ€œno!โ€
โ€œThen why can't you be pregnant?!โ€ Hoseok throws his hands up, โ€œI am not getting it!โ€ Jimin glares, โ€œbecause we always used protection?!โ€ โ€œAre you sure?โ€ Hoseok presses, โ€œthink about it!โ€ Jimin furrows his brows, โ€œI think?โ€ Hoseok stares, โ€œwhat do you mean you think?!โ€
โ€œWe had sex too many times to keep count, but I think we used protection every time?โ€ Jimin shakes his head, โ€œthis doesn't make sense!โ€ โ€œI will get a few more kits, but I think you are pregnant!โ€ Hoseok walks out of the washroom, โ€œwait here. I will be back soon.โ€
Ten kits stare back at them. Hoseok leans on the counter, eyes flickering from the kits to Jimin who is staring down at the kits too. โ€œSo... you are pregnant,โ€ Hoseok murmurs, โ€œall these kits are positive.โ€ Jimin blinks, โ€œit's not possible!โ€ โ€œAre you impotent?!โ€ Hoseok sighs.
โ€œNo!โ€ Jimin curses, โ€œcan you not? That's not the case!โ€ โ€œThen what is the problem?!โ€ Hosoek throws his hands up, โ€œI am not seeing a problem. We should be hugging and laughing and calling our friends to tell them this now. Instead, you look paler than a ghost!โ€
โ€œHe doesn't want kids,โ€ Jimin whispers, grips the edge of the counter, โ€œhe doesn't one pups right now.โ€ Hoseok blinks, โ€œwho, Yoongi?โ€ Jimin nods, eyes squeezing closed, โ€œshit, I should have gotten on the pills. I thought it's not important. Shit! Now what do I do?! Fcuk!โ€
โ€œWell, let's not freak out, yeah?โ€ Hoseok rubs Jimin's back, โ€œhow about you sit down and try to relax?โ€ โ€œShit, what if he doesn't want the kid?โ€ Jimin sniffles, โ€œoh, God, hyung! What if he agrees to keep it because of his responsibility-โ€ โ€œStop it,โ€ Hoseok sighs, โ€œcalm down.โ€
Jimin stumbles, lets Hoseok lead him out of the bathroom to the bed, where he sits. โ€œOkay, tell me, be honest, do you want the kid?โ€ Hoseok sits beside Jimin, โ€œthen who cares what he wants, you keep it.โ€ Jimin bites his lower lip, โ€œI... I don't know?โ€
Hoseok frowns, โ€œwhat do you mean?โ€ Jimin leans on his knees, holding his face between his palms, โ€œI don't want to burden him, but I don't want to give up the baby either. I don't know.โ€ โ€œOkay, let's not decide for him,โ€ Hoseok waves him off, โ€œyou need to tell him first.โ€
โ€œTell him and see how he reacts, okay?โ€ Hoseok rubs Jimin's back, โ€œit will be fine, yeah? Jiminie, it will be okay.โ€ Jimin gulps, โ€œyeah. Yeah, okay.โ€ ------ He doesn't tell Yoongi. Not when the alpha comes home. Not when they go to bed. Not for the next one month.
@/shnarts_ thank you so much for this beautiful art! You have no idea how much I loved this. Any art made on my story always makes me feel so special, and this one is so gorgeous. I frankly have no words! Thank you so much, angel. I love you! ๐ŸŒธ๐Ÿค (I reposted with her permission)
โ€œAre you okay?โ€ Yoongi asks, crowding Jimin up against the closet in their bedroom, โ€œblossom, you are worrying me. Is everything alright?โ€ Jimin shakes his head, โ€œyeah, yeah. I am fine. Trust me.โ€ Yoongi stares at him, โ€œyou smell different, blossom. You know?โ€
Jimin chuckles, nervously pulling at a shirt before he looks over his shoulder at the alpha, โ€œI am good, Yoon. Don't worry.โ€ Yoongi's arms slowly wrap around him, โ€œblossom, you can tell me. Whatever it is, I should know, don't you think?โ€ Jimin shakes his head, โ€œnothing, Yoon.โ€
Yoongi leans in to kiss Jimin on the lips, โ€œfine, then,โ€ he trails kisses down Jimin's throat, unbuttoning the shirt Jimin is wearing, โ€œlet's go to bed. We won the case. Let's celebrate. Yeah?โ€ Jimin closes his eyes when his alpha's hands slowly travel down to hold his hips...
Jimin shakes his head, turning away, โ€œno, Yoon. I am tired as hell. Let's go to bed. Please.โ€ Yoongi watches the omega almost run to the bathroom with his clothes. He lets out a breath, frown deep. When Jimin doesn't come out in a few minutes, Yoongi goes to bed.
It's the next morning. Jimin is fast asleep beside him. Yoongi gets up and goes to the closet to get some clothes for his jogging. He opens the drawer where his clothes are and frowns when he sees Jimin's drawer open a little, something preventing it from closing.
He opens the drawer to see the mess Jimin has made of the undergarments he keeps there. With a small chuckle, Yoongi starts to arrange them one by one. He eyes a few, thinks how Jimin might look in them, and carefully folds them into the drawer. Then he sees it. An envelope.
It has a red cross over it. The hospital's name in a bold font across the white folds. Yoongi takes it, frowns and looks over at where Jimin is sleeping. He holds his breath while he opens the envelope to pull out the papers inside. He opens them to read. โ€œAbortion procedures.โ€
Yoongi freezes. His eyes scanning the paper to see Jimin's name on the 'patient's name' block. He grips the papers in his hands, skimming through the lines to read everything written there. Yoongi's eyes focus on Jimin's signature at the last page. Neat and confident.
Yoongi is not sure how long he stands there, his eyes zeroed on the papers. He is not sure how he misses the omega getting up and slowly making his way towards him. He doesn't move when with a shocked gasp Jimin snatches the papers from his hands. โ€œWhy are you looking here?!โ€
Yoongi stares ahead of him. At the drawer, his eyes stuck there. โ€œWhy are you going through my drawer?โ€ Jimin's voice trembles, โ€œit's mine for a reason. You can't just-โ€ โ€œDid you go through with it?โ€ Yoongi asks, each word cuts the tension between them, โ€œare you done?โ€
Jimin falters, โ€œI-โ€ he grips the papers closer to his chest, โ€œlisten, you said you don't want kids now-โ€ Yoongi looks at him, those eyes are bloodshot red, โ€œdid you abort the pup, Jimin?โ€ Jimin shivers, โ€œYoonโ€ฆโ€ Yoongi turns to face him fully, โ€œdid you do it?โ€
โ€œI signed up for it,โ€ Jimin whispers, looking anywhere but at Yoongi. Yoongi stares at him, โ€œthey didn't ask you for the alpha's sign? You are married.โ€ Jimin bites the inside of his cheek, staying silent. Yoongi snatches the papers from him, looking for the other signature.
โ€œKim Namjoon,โ€ Yoongi reads, anger slowly igniting in his system, โ€œyou,โ€ he looks over at Jimin, โ€œyou registered him as your husband?!โ€ his voice rises, โ€œyou realize when they do the document check, they will figure it out?! Forget that, Jimin, why did you do this?!โ€
โ€œThat's my baby!โ€ Yoongi screams, making Jimin almost jump, โ€œyou don't go around me to abort them when you don't even tell me! What's wrong with you?!โ€ โ€œYou kept saying you don't want a kid!โ€ Jimin tries to reach for Yoongi, โ€œyou always mention that. You kept telling me-โ€
Jimin grips the hem of Yoongi's shirt, his voice shaky, โ€œyou kept saying how big of a deal it would be for you and how you are not sure if you want that this soon. I got scared, okay?! I thought you will feel obligated, and I didn't want to put that pressure on you in this stat-โ€
โ€œStop thinking my parts for me!โ€ Yoongi shouts, throws the papers on the floor, โ€œdo you hear yourself?! That's my baby! How dare you put Namjoon's name in that damn document?! How dare you decide for the both of us?! It's mine too! That's my baby too, Jimin!โ€
Yoongi stumbles, rounds Jimin, โ€œI can't even look at you right now! God, you,โ€ his face crumbles, โ€œyou are- you-โ€ he shakes his head. Jimin takes a hold of Yoongi's wrist, โ€œYoon, listen to me-โ€ โ€œNo, you should make Namjoon listen to you,โ€ Yoongi jerks his hand free, โ€œyeah?โ€
โ€œMake him listen to your trouble because apparently, he is more trustworthy to you than your own alpha!โ€ Yoongi thunders, โ€œmade it look like it's his baby, make him listen to you. F'ck you! F'ck you!โ€ Jimin shakes his head, โ€œYoon, please. Listen to me-โ€ Yoongi storms out.
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It's late night. Jimin comes back after helping Taehyung move out. He finds himself alone in the house when he walks in. Yoongi nowhere to be found. With a resigned sigh, Jimin goes to sit by the balcony. The swing there, newly installed, moves while he sits on it.
It's almost an hour or so later when the main door opens. Jimin sits on the swing, body going taut. He holds his breath when he hears the alpha lock the door and slowly drag himself towards the stairs to their master bedroom. Jimin stays where he is.
A few minutes later, Yoongi comes to the balcony. He doesn't sit beside Jimin like he always does. Instead, he stands in front of the swing, his eyes on Jimin. Jimin is too scared to match those eyes. โ€œI punched Namjoon,โ€ Yoongi whispers, โ€œfor the first time in my life.โ€
Jimin sucks in a breath and looks up at the alpha. Yoongi is looking down at him. โ€œWhat?!โ€ Jimin feels nauseous. Yoongi hums, looks away, โ€œI am not the violent type. But, the thought that he went behind my back like thatโ€ฆthen he was defending you and this decision. I lost it.โ€
Yoongi shrugs, โ€œJungkook had to struggle to pull me away from him otherwise,โ€ Yoongi lets out a long breath, โ€œalpha instinct, I guess. He came off as a threat to my pup.โ€ Jimin shakes his head, โ€œhe was just trying to help. He-โ€ Yoongi's eyes shift to Jimin, silencing him.
Yoongi then lets out a long breath and reaches out to hold Jimin by his arms, โ€œtell me,โ€ his voice breaks, tears brimming in his eyes, โ€œtell me you didn't do it,โ€ he shakes Jimin, โ€œtell me you actually didn't do it. Tell me the baby is fine.โ€ Jimin's vision blurs too, โ€œYoon-โ€
Jimin shakes his head, voice coming out in a whimper, โ€œthey are fine. I couldn't do it. Not without telling you. I chickened out at the last moment. I was going to tell you, but I got so scared, and I kept thinking-โ€ โ€œThey?โ€ Yoongi's voice comes out winded, eyes a little wide.
Jimin takes his phone from the swing and holds it out for Yoongi after opening a photo. The sonogram stares back at Yoongi as he takes it. Jimin grips the sleeves of his shirt, โ€œwe are,โ€ his voice breaks around the edges, โ€œwe are having triplets.โ€ Yoongi chokes on a sob, โ€œoh!โ€
Yoongi looks down at the picture, his eyes trailing over the three dots. He traces the dots with his fingers, his eyes going from the photo to Jimin and back to the photo. โ€œThe doctor said they are healthy,โ€ Jimin bites his lower lip, โ€œdoing good.โ€
โ€œI can't believe you took the chance from me to be there for our first sonogram,โ€ Yoongi whispers, tears rolling out of his eyes, โ€œI can't believe Namjoon got to be there. I want to kill him.โ€ โ€œHe is important now?โ€ Jimin murmurs. โ€œOh, I am mad at you too,โ€ Yoongi whispers...
โ€œBut then,โ€ Yoongi reaches to circle his arm around Jimin's waist, โ€œyou are carrying three of my pups and already going to suffer enough.โ€ Jimin glares, โ€œis this what making the pregnancy enhancing to you?!โ€ Yoongi shrugs, โ€œlet me be a little rude. You hid this from me!โ€
Yoongi then slowly reaches for Jimin's flat stomach, hesitates and looks at Jimin, โ€œmay I touch?โ€ Jimin's eyes brim with fresh tears, โ€œyes,โ€ he breathes out, begs almost, โ€œplease.โ€ Yoongi slowly places his hand over Jimin's abdomen, sucks in a breath, โ€œoh, lord...โ€
Yoongi drops on his knees, lips pressing against Jimin's stomach, โ€œhello, babies,โ€ he murmurs, lips slowly moving over Jimin's abdomen, โ€œI am your appa,โ€ he whispers. Jimin chokes on a sob, his hands slowly coming to rest on Yoongi's hair, caressing his face.
โ€œI am sorry for greeting you all late,โ€ he presses soft kisses over Jimin's abdomen, โ€œyour pa didn't tell me about you until now. We will be mad at him for a long time, yeah?โ€ Jimin lets his nails scrape Yoongi's scalp, โ€œhe is sorry, he swears.โ€
Yoongi looks at Jimin, then back at his stomach, โ€œI didn't want you to come so early. Your appa thought he wasn't ready but trust me, I would never turn my back on you or your siblings, when they come. I promise, I will try to be the best father you have. I swear on it.โ€
Jimin shakes his head, โ€œno siblings! We are not having more than three kids!โ€ Yoongi slowly gets up, pulls Jimin flush against him, โ€œwe will think about it later,โ€ his voice turns cold, hands tightening on Jimin's hips, โ€œnow, we need to talk about your communication issue!โ€
Jimin lets Yoongi sit on the swing and pull him down to straddle the alpha. Jimin looks at Yoongi with wide eyes. Yoongi looks up at him, hands squeezing Jimin's sides, โ€œmy memories are coming back in bits and pieces, blossom. You know that, right?โ€ Jimin nods, gulps, โ€œI-yeah.โ€
Yoongi glares at the omega, โ€œwhatever I seem to remember, there's always something common, and that's you hiding stuff from me. That's not going to cut it, blossom,โ€ he slaps Jimin's ass, โ€œyou have to learn to talk your fears out with me. Okay? You can't shut me off like that!โ€
Yoongi lets his hands squeeze Jimin's cheeks, pulling Jimin flush against him, โ€œwhatever it is, whatever you are feeling, let me know. Don't think how I will react. Don't think how others will take it. Or how you think I will take it, just tell me. Please try to, okay?โ€
Jimin nods, his arms slowly circling around Yoongi's neck, โ€œyes, husband,โ€ he leans to press his lips against Yoongi's ear, โ€œlet's start communicating now, shall we?โ€ Yoongi nods, feels Jimin's hot breath against his neck, โ€œwhat do you want, blossom?โ€
Jimin bites down on Yoongi's earlobe, โ€œthe doctor said it's perfectly fine to have sex during the pregnancy.โ€ Yoongi's hands tighten around Jimin, โ€œyou asked?โ€ Jimin hums, โ€œyeah. So... can we?โ€ Yoongi looks at him, โ€œthat doctor thought Joon is your alpha!โ€
Jimin huffs, โ€œthen what do you want? Me to go and ask him?!โ€ Yoongi's eyes shift to golden, โ€œdon't even try to go there, blossom, for your own good.โ€ Jimin shivers, goosebumps breaking on his skin, โ€œthen, come on, alpha. We haven't done it for a month almost. Please?โ€
When Yoongi just glares at him, Jimin takes Yoongi's hand and presses it against his stomach. โ€œI am carrying your pups,โ€ he hisses against Yoongi's lips, โ€œwhat more assurance do you need to know I am yours?!โ€ Yoongi gets up then, holding Jimin by his ass, โ€œis that so?โ€
Yoongi slowly carries Jimin inside the house, โ€œthen let me show you how angry you got me, blossom. Let me remind you that what you did wrong. Yeah?โ€ Jimin ruts against Yoongi, kissing him breathless, โ€œyeah, okay. Okay.โ€ Yoongi closes the bedroom door behind them...
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โ€œI want to have some chicken nuggets.โ€ Yoongi stares at the omega and back at the clock. It's past two at night. He slowly sits up, looks at the omega, who is already pouting at him. โ€œBlossom, it's past two,โ€ he rubs his eyes, sleepy, โ€œcan't we go tomorrow morning?โ€
Jimin is three months pregnant now. His belly slowly filling up. Yoongi looks at the omega and notices how restless Jimin looks. โ€œI can go on my own,โ€ Jimin murmurs, petulant, โ€œthe driver will get me there,โ€ he looks away, โ€œyou just told me to ask you first.โ€
Yoongi lets out a breath, a slow smile spreads on his lips, โ€œfine,โ€ he swings his legs off the bed, โ€œanything else, my lord?โ€ Jimin's lips twitch around a smile, โ€œand some ice-cream?โ€ Yoongi nods, bows dramatically, โ€œanything my blossom wants. I will be right back. Yeah?โ€
Jimin gets up too, โ€œI am coming with you. I want to go out too. Please?โ€ Yoongi hesitates until Jimin is jutting his lips out. Something he learnt works every time on the alpha. Yoongi nods, โ€œfine,โ€ he wraps a jumper around Jimin's frame, โ€œbut, wrap yourself up nicely.โ€
โ€œOh, I want another thing too,โ€ Jimin says while they make their way out of the house. Yoongi stops, โ€œyes? What is it?โ€ Jimin reaches, wrapping his arms around Yoongi's neck, โ€œa kiss?โ€ Yoongi stares at him for a second before he kisses Jimin right on his mouth, โ€œyes, sir!โ€
The hoodie makes him sweat, but he is not comfortable wearing anything else. The yoga pants are scratchy against his skin too, he rubs his belly one more time before looking over at Yoongi who is smiling at something his secretary said. Both of them too busy working.
Jimin watches how the secretary looks at Yoongi. All wonder and starry eyes. His lips part to let his tongue wet his lower lip. Jimin's eyes skim over the tight jeans the man wore, the shirt is too flimsy for coming to the boss' house. He keeps touching Yoongi while talking.
He is beautiful if Jimin can say so. Loud pink hair, glasses of a nerd that might be sexy to some, those full lips always so plump. That figureโ€ฆ Jimin tries hard not to compare but so shaped and curvy. Unlike Jimin, who is getting heavier day by day. Stretch marks all over him.
God, Jimin looks down at his feet and curses, even his toes are getting swollen. He watches how Yoongi stares at the secretary, Jeong, and listens to everything he has to say. Jimin grips the side of the couch to get up. He already feels exhausted. He pulls himself up to leave.
He feels nauseous time to time. The heaviness makes his back hurt almost all the time. Jimin takes a hold of his stomach and tries to leave as silently as he can. โ€œShit, are you alright?โ€ Yoongi whispers, already behind him, โ€œyou want me to carry you-โ€ โ€œNo!โ€ Jimin hisses.
โ€œI will be fine,โ€ he waves Yoongi off, โ€œjust get him out of here soon. You two's voices irk me,โ€ he hates how he comes off nowadays. A little distant, a lot snappy. Yoongi never utters a word, but it hurts him and Jimin knows, but he can't help it. โ€œBlossom,โ€ Yoongi sighs...
โ€œYou know he is here because I am not going to the office, right?โ€ Yoongi tries, follows Jimin with his arms outstretched around Jimin just to make sure, โ€œhe just came here to drop by some files.โ€ Jimin stops, looks over his shoulder at Yoongi, โ€œis that a bother?โ€
โ€œUh?โ€ Yoongi arches a brow, โ€œwhat?โ€ Jimin gestures vaguely, โ€œyou not going to the office, is that a bother for the two of you? Then, please, by all means, go. Don't stop on my account. I can manage on my own. I understand how important working with him might be.โ€ Yoongi stares.
Jimin gets inside the bedroom. He goes over to sit on the bed, feeling drained. Frustration prickle his eyes, making him grip the edge of the bed. โ€œClose the door,โ€ Jimin tells Yoongi who stands by the door, โ€œwhen you leave.โ€ He grunts, drags himself up on the bed.
Yoongi walks in instead, much to Jimin's misery. โ€œDo you need me to do something, blossom?โ€ Yoongi asks, reaches out to touch Jimin, and Jimin swats him away. โ€œDon't touch me!โ€ Jimin hisses, โ€œyou have done that enough! Now leave and let me rest! I am sick and tired of you!โ€
Yoongi stops himself, โ€œyou want me out of the house?โ€ Jimin is not sure what he wants. He just wants to feel like himself again, wants to feel comfortable in his skin again. He shrugs. โ€œDo whatever, just leave me alone here.โ€ Yoongi watches him for a few seconds, then leaves.
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โ€œIt's hard for him now,โ€ Hoseok sits curled up on the couch, a mug of steaming coffee in his hands, โ€œhis body is changing, his hormones are acting up, he is going through so much, Yoongi. He feels insecure.โ€ โ€œOf what?โ€ Yoongi frowns, โ€œhe has nothing to be insecure about!โ€
โ€œHis changing body?โ€ Jin shrugs, sits behind Hoseok, โ€œhis inability to do something as comfortably as he used to? He is probably seeing himself and your secretary and comparing how gorgeous the secretary looks-โ€ โ€œJeong is nowhere near as pretty as him,โ€ Yoongi frowns, โ€œwhat?โ€
โ€œThen tell him that,โ€ Hoseok reaches to flick Yoongi on the forehead, โ€œyou stupid alpha. Tell him that every day. Every hour. Tell him how beautiful you find him. Tell him how he makes you feel. Tell him he is-โ€ โ€œPrettier, if that's possible,โ€ Yoongi looks down at his coffee.
โ€œTreat him to dates,โ€ Jin makes a thoughtful face, โ€œtreat him to whatever he wants to eat or watch. Don't make a face, I know you don't, just saying. Take him-โ€ โ€œHe can't move from one room to the other without feeling nauseous,โ€ Yoongi gives Jin a look, โ€œtake him out? Really?โ€
โ€œArrange those at home,โ€ Jungkook drops on the couch next to Yoongi, โ€œdates don't have to be at an extravagant place. Arrange something at home for him.โ€ Yoongi stares at Jungkook and back at the others, โ€œthis kid is giving me advice now!โ€ Jungkook rolls his eyes, โ€œYeah, and?โ€
โ€œI had a kid before you did,โ€ Jungkook elbows Yoongi in the stomach, takes the cookie Namjoon holds out for him, โ€œI am already ahead in this race!โ€ โ€œYou only have one kid,โ€ Yoongi counters back, โ€œI already got three,โ€ he dodges the kick Hoseok aims at him, โ€œwhat? I am winning!โ€
Namjoon swats Yoongi on his back, โ€œnot a competition!โ€ โ€œAlso, I will have longer time to have more kids, you are already old,โ€ Jungkook squints at him, โ€œyou just watch!โ€ โ€œYeah, okay, keep telling yourself that!โ€ Yoongi rolls his eyes, โ€œwe will see. I am already ahead!โ€
โ€œYeah, him and Daejung both are younger than us,โ€ Namjoon snorts, โ€œthey have more chances of pups than we do, hyung.โ€ The room goes quiet and Yoongi's smile slowly dims. The playfulness leaves him to leave behind a sense of ache for the younger who Yoongi sees as his brother.
Yoongi looks over to see Jungkook looking down at his coffee, jaw tight. He places a hand over Jungkook's knee and squeezes. Jungkook looks up at him, those eyes are somewhat glossy. He breathes out a chuckle, looks away from Yoongi. โ€œNo, I am fine with just Sarangie.โ€
Yoongi smiles, โ€œshe is enough. For now.โ€ Jin nods too, glares at Namjoon and looks back at Jungkook, โ€œyep! She is more than enough.โ€ Jungkook traces the edge of the mug, โ€œI always wanted four kids, you know? Now... I think one is fine.โ€ Yoongi's heart aches, โ€œyeah...โ€
โ€œIf it's not with the right person, it's not worth it,โ€ Yoongi whispers, nods when Jungkook's eyes flicker over to him. Jungkook gives him a small smile, โ€œI might never have another kid then, hyung. You already won the competition.โ€ Yoongi watches Jungkook get up to leave.
โ€œYou had to bring Daejung in this!โ€ Hoseok swats at Namjoon, โ€œwhat's wrong with you?!โ€ โ€œI was just trying to ease him into the thought of a future with him!โ€ Namjoon holds his hands up, โ€œI can't see him and Tae go back and forth for both of them to hurt so much!โ€
Yoongi gets up too, โ€œyou can't ease into the thought of another person when you are still in love with someone else,โ€ he gives Namjoon a look, โ€œlet him ease himself into whatever he thinks is fine. Yeah? Leave him to it. Anyway, I will go too. Jimin must be waiting.โ€
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Jimin sits in the bathtub, the slow music plays in the room and the darkness makes him feel invisible, out of public eyes. It feels good. Jimin sips the apple juice, hums to himself while he leans back against the marble to watch the moon through the window right beside the tub.
Jimin traces patterns on the glass, smiles when he feels his muscles slowly relaxing. He rubs his hand over his swollen tummy and sighs to himself. The sound of the bedroom door opening makes him flinch and sit up in the bath. Yoongi's voice carries over to him next. โ€œBlossom?โ€
Jimin curses, tries to hide himself by turning away from the bathroom door when it opens. Yoongi turns on the lights. โ€œShit, don't!โ€ Jimin hisses, โ€œturn the damn lights off!โ€ Yoongi does as told, โ€œyou are having a bath?โ€ โ€œYeah, now get out,โ€ Jimin tries to pull his legs up.
Jimin doesn't want Yoongi to see him like this. So heavy, so pale and stretch marks all over him. So chubby. He feels frustration build in him when the alpha walks in, slowly comes over to the bathtub. Jimin looks up at the man over his shoulder to see Yoongi.
Yoongi is still in his office clothes. The black shirt is crinkled, the sleeves folded till the elbows. The tie is hanging from his neck loosely, the buttons of the shirt open till his midriff. He lost the jacket on his way here. Yoongi kneels by the tub. Jimin glares.
โ€œI don't get a kiss?โ€ Yoongi murmurs. โ€œYour secretary isn't giving you that?โ€ Jimin bites his tongue after saying that. Yoongi chuckles, reaches to take a hold of Jimin's face, โ€œdidn't ask him. Don't want him.โ€ He slowly pulls Jimin to him, their lips inches away...
โ€œIt has been ages since you last let me be near you,โ€ Yoongi murmurs against Jimin's lips, โ€œI can't respect your boundaries anymore, blossom. Forgive me.โ€ He kisses Jimin, holds him in place and kisses him right on the mouth. Jimin whimpers into it, grasping at Yoongi's shirt.
Jimin wrenches his face away from the alpha's and wipes his lips. He heaves for air, looks anywhere but at the alpha. โ€œYou have done what you wanted, now go,โ€ Jimin murmurs, protectively hugging himself, โ€œleave me alone.โ€ โ€œNo,โ€ Yoongi answers right away, โ€œI am not leaving.โ€
Jimin looks over at him, โ€œwhy not? What else do you want, and what can I possibly give you?โ€ โ€œDo you regret the babies?โ€ Yoongi murmurs, ignores how by leaning over the bathtub, he is letting his shirt soak up the water, โ€œblossom?โ€ Jimin's eyes are wide, glossy, โ€œno. No!โ€
โ€œDo you regret they are mine?โ€ Yoongi leans closer, eyes holding Jimin captive, โ€œis that it?โ€ Jimin shakes his head, looks away, โ€œI don't.โ€ โ€œThen walk me through it, blossom. What's wrong?โ€ Yoongi tries to make Jimin look at him, โ€œwhat's wrong? Am I doing something wrong?โ€
โ€œI get you whatever you want, I go to bring you whatever you need, no matter what time it is, and I don't want to count those as something you need to be grateful about. No. But, I am just saying, if I still need to do more, tell me. If you still need something more-โ€
โ€œIn this chaos of me needing things from you, you stopped 'needing' me,โ€ Jimin whispers, looks down at the water, โ€œyou don't need me anymore. Haven't wanted me in months. Am I,โ€ his voice wavers, โ€œdo I look that heinous to you now?โ€ For a minute, Yoongi stops.
โ€œWhat?โ€ he whispers, โ€œwhat did you say?โ€ Jimin shrugs, looks out at the moon, โ€œyou just do whatever I ask of you and that's all. You just... you stopped caring.โ€ Yoongi sits up on his knees, โ€œI stopped caring?! What the-โ€ he holds in a breath, โ€œwhat are you saying? That's not-โ€
โ€œYou did,โ€ Jimin frowns, doesn't turn to match those eyes that bore on his face, โ€œwhen was the last time you hugged me while we slept? When was the last time you looked at me like I was,โ€ he shrugs, โ€œwell, I don't blame you. I am not desirable any more. I know.โ€
โ€œI don't hug you because you said that makes you feel suffocated,โ€ Yoongi forces himself to calm down, โ€œyou told me to not look at you when you change, and you barely let me be anywhere near you throughout the day. Hell, you stopped taking off clothes in front of me.โ€
โ€œYou won't let me massage your feet or stomach like the doctor said,โ€ Yoongi grits out, โ€œI want to throttle that servant of yours who does that for you! Do you know how hard it is for me to know he gets to touch you, see you like that when I am not allowed to?!โ€
โ€œHe is not a servant,โ€ Jimin frowns, looks at Yoongi, โ€œhe works for me as a masseuse!โ€ โ€œAnd, he is just my secretary,โ€ Yoongi arches a brow, โ€œworks for me as one.โ€ Jimin glares, โ€œhe touches you like you belong to him!โ€ Yoongi glares back, โ€œso does that boytoy of yours!โ€
Jimin grips the edge of the bathtub, โ€œhe has a mate!โ€ โ€œYou have a husband and carrying his kids!โ€ Yoongi reaches to grasp Jimin by his neck to pull him closer, โ€œI have a husband who is carrying my pups! I don't look at anyone else when all I can think about is him!โ€
โ€œAnd, if you are talking about why I didn't want you in the past few months, it's because you won't let me touch you, Jimin!โ€ Yoongi hisses, โ€œit's you who don't want that. You have no idea how much I want you. Damn, you have no idea how much I want you right now!โ€
โ€œYou look so fucking delicious to me right now,โ€ Yoongi leans to press his lips against Jimin's neck, tongue flat over the pulse, โ€œso plump and pretty. Only for me. Because of me. You have no idea how much I want you. But you are six months pregnant! I don't want to jostle you!โ€
Jimin bites back a whimper, stays quiet when the alpha starts nipping his throat. He watches how Yoongi unbuttons his shirt with one hand, swiftly shrugging out of that. He gets the tie off him, throws it over his shoulder.
Jimin lets Yoongi undress before the alpha sinks into the bathtub behind him. Yoongi pulls Jimin flushed against his chest. Jimin holds still, watches how the alpha's arms sneak around him to spread over his belly. So possessive in their hold on him.
โ€œMine,โ€ Yoongi whispers against his ear, โ€œmy omega. Carrying my pups. The prettiest omega I know.โ€ Jimin's eyes flutter closed when Yoongi trails kisses down his shoulder. He arches his neck, looks sideways to let the alpha carry on. โ€œYou want to?โ€ Yoongi asks, โ€œblossom?โ€
Jimin looks over his shoulder, โ€œyou sure?โ€ Yoongi chuckles, โ€œthat if I want you or not? Yeah. I do.โ€ Jimin looks away, โ€œyou don't have to force yourself-โ€ โ€œEveryday I set my alarm a little earlier than necessary,โ€ Yoongi whispers, โ€œso that I can wake up a little early and...โ€
โ€œHold you to me,โ€ Yoongi presses his lips against Jimin's neck, โ€œbecause that's the only time you let me near you. When you are sleeping. I hold you close and watch how beautiful you look while you sleep so peacefully. Then I get up to make you some juice in bed.โ€
โ€œI make sure your clothes are warm and there's no scent on them because you got so sensitive to any type of smell. I make sure to tell the cook to make you something with less spice. Then I get back to the bedroom and you are up by then, you look so comfortable at that moment...โ€
โ€œDrinking the juice while the duvets pool around you,โ€ Yoongi nuzzles closer to Jimin, โ€œeyes blinking back sleep. God, how many days... how many days I wanted to go up to you and pull you in a kiss, but I know you won't want that. So, I kept my distance. I held myself back.โ€
โ€œI would come back from the office to see you getting massages from that guy,โ€ Yoongi's arms tighten around Jimin, โ€œso many days I wanted to snap at him to leave. So many days I thought of asking you if I can do that instead-โ€ โ€œMy tummy,โ€ Jimin whispers, โ€œit's... ugly.โ€
โ€œThere are too many stretch marks,โ€ Jimin feels his eyes pool with tears, โ€œthere are too many blemishes,โ€ he wipes his eyes, โ€œI can't look at myself properly in the mirror, how can you-โ€ โ€œThose stretch marks are normal,โ€ Yoongi whispers, โ€œthey show how your body is changing.โ€
โ€œYou are carrying the weight of three babies all the time,โ€ Yoongi speaks in awe, โ€œyou are so strong, and you have no idea how you make me feel whenever I look at you. If you want, I will show you how beautiful you are. Yeah?โ€ Jimin looks over his shoulder at Yoongi, โ€œI am?โ€
โ€œYou are,โ€ Yoongi nods, โ€œcome on.โ€ Jimin lets Yoongi pull him out of the bathtub, sit him down on the sink counter. Yoongi takes a towel, wipes Jimin down till his feet before he picks up the T-shirt Jimin kept for himself after the bath. He helps Jimin into it. โ€œWait here.โ€
Yoongi goes to dress himself and Jimin wears the shorts he kept there too. Yoongi comes back in his grey t-shirt and joggers. He opens his arms, Jimin eyes him and quirks a brow. โ€œI'll carry you back to the bed,โ€ Yoongi gives him a gummy smile, โ€œcome on.โ€ โ€œDon't,โ€ Jimin warns.
Jimin lets out a gasp when Yoongi picks him up, โ€œyou will drop me or break your own back,โ€ he grabs the alpha by his neck, โ€œyoon! Stop!โ€ Yoongi carries Jimin back to the bedroom, rolls his eyes, โ€œI am strong, for god's sake!โ€ He slowly sits Jimin down on the bed.
Yoongi is about to speak when they hear the knock on the bedroom door. โ€œSir?โ€ the guy speaks, โ€œare you done? Shall I come in?โ€ Yoongi looks at the door and back at Jimin. Jimin shrugs, โ€œhe massages me. You know!โ€ Yoongi glares, โ€œnot anymore.โ€ He goes over to the door.
โ€œI will do it,โ€ Yoongi speaks, โ€œyou can go to sleep.โ€ The guy blinks at him, โ€œare you sure? I mean-โ€ โ€œYes,โ€ Yoongi lets the word rumble out of him, โ€œI am sure that I can give my omega a massage he needs. Go.โ€ The guy nods, scurry away. Jimin rolls his eyes. โ€œYou are so-โ€
Yoongi ignores Jimin's words and waves his hand. Jimin leans on the bedrest, lets Yoongi help him with a few pillows behind his back. โ€œI have read about this too,โ€ Yoongi lets him know, โ€œnever massage a pregnant omega on their back or front. This is fine.โ€ Jimin's lips twitch.
Yoongi goes over to pick up the bottle of oil, โ€œI have read that the best oil is lavender, mixed with coconut.โ€ Jimin nods, โ€œthat's exactly what you are holding right now.โ€ Yoongi nods, โ€œgood! That guy is not robbing me off my money and my place for nothing then.โ€
Jimin bites back a laugh. He watches Yoongi come up to sit in the bed. Their eyes match and Yoongi gives him a silent nod. Jimin lets out a shaky breath, slowly tugs his shirt up to reveal his stomach. Yoongi's eyes flicker down, and Jimin holds his breath. Yoongi reaches outโ€ฆ
He traces the lines with his fingertips. Jimin lets out a breath, eyes stuck on Yoongi's face. Yoongi looks fascinated, his eyes trailing over the finger he uses. The alpha leans in, Jimin watches, feels, how Yoongi kisses his stomach, preps kisses all over it.
Jimin holds back a sob when Yoongi looks up at him, โ€œI don't know what you are talking about, these marks make you prettier to me.โ€ Jimin sniffles, bites back a whimper when Yoongi noses his stomach, rubs his cheek against it. Jimin reaches out tentatively to hold Yoongi's hair.
He combs his fingers through Yoongi's long hair, scratches his nails on the scalp. Yoongi hums, buries his face against Jimin's stomach, kisses him over and over again. โ€œI love you,โ€ Yoongi whispers, buries those words against Jimin's stomach, โ€œand, I love our babies.โ€
Jimin holds back a sob when Yoongi nuzzles him there. Then the alpha slowly sits up to pour a little oil onto his palm. He rubs his palms together and then Yoongi is slowly rubbing the oil down on Jimin's stomach. Jimin lets out a slow moan, closing his eyes. Yoongi watches him.
As Yoongi's fingers work over Jimin's stomach, Jimin finds himself relaxing. โ€œYou are so beautiful!โ€ Yoongi whispers, โ€œso, so pretty.โ€ Jimin's eyes flutter, he looks at the alpha, โ€œI am?โ€ Yoongi nods, rubbing the oil all over Jimin's stomach, โ€œso much. So much, blossom.โ€
Jimin absorbs those words. Silently watches Yoongi massage him down till his toes. He lets Yoongi knead his feet, the pads of his feet. Yoongi works slowly, makes sure Jimin feels his muscles relaxing. By the time he is done, Jimin is almost sleepy.
Yoongi places the oil beside their bed and comes up to pull Jimin in his arm. โ€œWas I good?โ€ he asks, lips pressing against Jimin's temple. โ€œYes,โ€ Jimin hums, snuggles closer to the alpha, โ€œyou were so good.โ€ โ€œNice,โ€ Yoongi holds Jimin to him, โ€œgood night, blossom.โ€
โ€œYou don't want anything for it?โ€ Jimin asks, voice suggestive. Yoongi chuckles, โ€œnot tonight. Sleep. We can do it tomorrow morning.โ€ โ€œAre you sure?โ€ Jimin arches a brow, โ€œI can blow you.โ€ โ€œFuck,โ€ Yoongi curses, โ€œtomorrow. I want to have you. Tomorrow.โ€ Jimin blushes, โ€œfine.โ€
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Yoongi watches how Jimin thrashes on the hospital bed. He grasps Jimin's hand, feels the pain in his bones the more he watches the omega. โ€œJust a little more, blossom,โ€ Yoongi murmurs the same words helplessly, โ€œit will be fine.โ€ Jimin nods, face bright red, โ€œit hurts, Yoon!โ€
โ€œIt will be fine,โ€ Yoongi rushes with the doctors to the OT, but they stop him, shakes their head, โ€œbut,โ€ Yoongi begs, โ€œbut, I am his alpha! I can stay-โ€ โ€œNo,โ€ the doctor shakes his head, โ€œhis condition is too critical for that, Mr. Min. He might get infected. You stay here.โ€
tw// Implied death in childbirth, mention of blood,
Almost thirty minutes later, the doctor comes out to talk to Yoongi. โ€œThe patient has high-blood pressure as of now,โ€ the doctor murmurs, โ€œalso, the bleeding is excessive. We have only got one baby out. I am not sure if he will survive the other two.โ€ Yoongi stares.
โ€œWe will try our best,โ€ the doctor squeezes Yoongi's bicep, โ€œbut, you have to sign a bond. Choose whose life we should prioritize.โ€ โ€œ๐‘Œ๐‘œ๐‘œ๐‘›, ๐‘–๐‘ก ๐˜ฉ๐‘ข๐‘Ÿ๐‘ก๐‘ !โ€ Yoongi feels the pain surge in his chest. That cannot be Jimin's last words to him.
โ€œJimin,โ€ Yoongi grips the doctor's hand, โ€œget my mate safely out of there,โ€ his voice cracks, โ€œI can't do this without him. I can't do this!โ€ The doctor pauses, โ€œI see.โ€ Yoongi nods, wipes his eyes hurriedly, โ€œdo anything, but bring him back to me,โ€ he feels his heart crack.
โ€œPlease follow me, sir,โ€ the doctor, Mr. Lee, requests and Yoongi does. He follows the doctor lifelessly to his cabin. The doctor sits him down, lets out a rugged breath and looks at him. โ€œSir, the patient is bleeding excessively,โ€ he starts, โ€œI am afraid, it's out of control.โ€
โ€œWe couldn't do C-section because of his high BP,โ€ the doctor pulls a drawer open, the sound too eerie in that quiet room, โ€œhe is weak because of the days' long contractions. He fell unconscious too. We are trying,โ€ he holds out a paper for Yoongi, โ€œbut, you have to sign this.โ€
Yoongi lets the paper fall in front of him, his eyes traces the lines. Those lines don't register with him. His mind takes him back to another time. He was just like this. Sitting in a chair, in front of another man. Mister Park. Asking him to sign the NDAโ€ฆ
The memories surface time to time. He absorbs them and talks to his doctor about them. Tonight it's the memory of the first contract he signed for Jimin. To not disclose they spent Jimin's heat together. To just say they were in love. Yoongi stares at the page. He is in loveโ€ฆ
โ€œWhat are the chances of him surviving?โ€ Yoongi whispers, โ€œwhat are the odds?โ€ Doctor Lee gives him a long look, shrugs, โ€œ5% maximum.โ€ Yoongi grips the pen in his hand. His mind is back in Mr. Park's office, him sitting where the doctor sits. Yoongi right where he is.
โ€œ๐‘Œ๐‘œ๐‘ข ๐‘›๐‘’๐‘ฃ๐‘’๐‘Ÿ ๐‘˜๐‘›๐‘œ๐‘ค,โ€ Mr. Park had given him a small smirk, โ€œ๐‘ฆ๐‘œ๐‘ข ๐‘š๐‘–๐‘”๐˜ฉ๐‘ก ๐‘“๐‘Ž๐‘™๐‘™ ๐‘–๐‘› ๐‘™๐‘œ๐‘ฃ๐‘’ ๐‘ค๐‘–๐‘ก๐˜ฉ ๐‘š๐‘ฆ ๐‘ ๐‘œ๐‘›.โ€ Yoongi remembers being mad, โ€œ๐‘‡๐˜ฉ๐‘’ ๐‘๐˜ฉ๐‘Ž๐‘›๐‘๐‘’๐‘  ๐‘œ๐‘“ ๐‘š๐‘’ ๐‘“๐‘Ž๐‘™๐‘™๐‘–๐‘›๐‘” ๐‘–๐‘› ๐‘™๐‘œ๐‘ฃ๐‘’ ๐‘ค๐‘–๐‘ก๐˜ฉ ๐‘ฆ๐‘œ๐‘ข๐‘Ÿ ๐‘ ๐‘œ๐‘› ๐‘–๐‘  ๐‘ง๐‘’๐‘Ÿ๐‘œ, ๐‘€๐‘Ÿ. ๐‘ƒ๐‘Ž๐‘Ÿ๐‘˜.โ€
Jimin worked with zero in the past. Yoongi picks up the pen, begging to the universe for a miracle. Yoongi signs his name and begs for a miracle. For someone to guide Jimin back to him as always. Becauseโ€ฆ he realized ages ago, Jimin doesn't need him, he needs Jimin. To live.
His sign looks distorted, the lines too shaky. Yoongi sits on the chair while the doctor files the paper away. โ€œWe are trying our best, sir,โ€ doctor Lee sounds sad, utterly so, โ€œtrust us. We don't want ill of our patient, either.โ€ Yoongi nods, sits there lifelessly.
The doctor rushes out, ready to try one last time. Yoongi looks at the world outside through the window, his eyes grazing the night sky. The longing is like dรฉjร  vu. It consumes him. Yoongi sits there and thinks he felt like this before. As if he is losing his loveโ€ฆ
There is a part of him that feels like he felt this pain before. Of his blossom leaving him. It's not new. It's something he dealt with. Yoongi frowns, tries to remember if anyone mentioned of that before. Another time when Jimin's life was at risk. No one ever mentioned that.
That feeling is old, it carries in his veins. The fear of losing the person he loves. It consumes him as if he once went pretty close to that fear and Yoongi tries hard to remember when, where, howโ€ฆ His brain doesn't recall, but the fear is there. Yoongi frowns at the window.
That grief that feels like it runs in his veins. For ages, years, decades, centuriesโ€ฆ โ€œ๐ด ๐‘๐‘™๐‘œ๐‘ ๐‘ ๐‘œ๐‘š ๐‘ค๐‘–๐‘ก๐˜ฉ๐‘’๐‘Ÿ๐‘’๐‘‘ ๐‘“๐‘œ๐‘Ÿ ๐‘ฆ๐‘œ๐‘ข.โ€ Yoongi frowns, feels the goosebumps on his skin. As if he hears that right now. As if someone said it to him before.
It's a whisper against his ear. In Jimin's voice. The heartache intensifies. Yoongi feels like the pain he feels in his veins is not new. He felt that before. He gets up, shakes his head, โ€œno,โ€ he frowns, โ€œwhat the fuck are you thinking? That never happened. He never said it-โ€
Yoongi smells the ocean breeze, feels like he can pick up on the scent of cherry blossom. Yoongi shakes his head, gets out of the room to follow the doctor. He walks down the aisle, feels that weird feeling in his mind. Still there. Still right there.
Yoongi watches a team of doctor get inside the OT, pushing past Taehyung, who clings to that door. Yoongi walks up to him, feels his friends right beside him. He keeps his eyes on that door, trying to ignore that nagging dรฉjร  vu in his mind that still races.
โ€œWh-what did they say?โ€ Taehyung stutters out, breaking Yoongi out of that spell. โ€œThe choice is a pretence, there isn't anything to choose,โ€ Yoongi murmurs, โ€œthe babies are healthy so,โ€ he stops, looks like he stops breathing too, โ€œso, they are focusing on getting them out.โ€
Yoongi feels his heart break in him, that weird nausea comes back. He sways as if he is on a ship, underneath him the ship sways and Yoongi stumbles, almost falling backwards, but Jungkook is there, holding him up. His friends are all around him.
Yoongi gives a delirious laugh, sways on his feet before he leans over the door to support himself, โ€œI just signed a paper that says it's okay with me if my mate doesn't make it. I,โ€ he giggles in Jin's arms when Jin rushes to hold him up, โ€œsigned his death certificate.โ€
Yoongi watch the OT through that small glass. The green curtain moves, the doctors moving around in a flurry of activities. Through their moving figures and the curtain's gap, Yoongi sees Jimin's almost lifeless face. His heart lurches to his throat, the fear intensifying.
It's not intentional. He is not even sure what it means. He is not sure why it comes out of his mouth. But it feels like something so easy to utter. Something he said before. Yoongi leans on the door and stares at that face. โ€œ๐‘€๐‘ฆ ๐‘๐‘™๐‘œ๐‘ ๐‘ ๐‘œ๐‘šโ€ฆ ๐‘๐‘™๐‘œ๐‘œ๐‘š ๐‘“๐‘œ๐‘Ÿ ๐‘š๐‘’.โ€
Yoongi leans his forehead against the door, tears prickling his eyes. He grasps the doorknob. Hears how Jungkook drags Taehyung back to sit on the bench, but he doesn't move. โ€œI will leave with you,โ€ Yoongi murmurs, โ€œor, I will go where they take you.โ€
โ€œAn alpha can't live without his mate,โ€ Yoongi whispers, โ€œand, in some cases, it's not just a mating bite that holds the bond together, blossom, ours,โ€ he gulps, tears brimming in his eyes, โ€œours feel like a bond for ages. I can't be without you. In any universe. Come back.โ€
Yoongi stays there, waiting. It feels like he waits for hours. Hours before the door is opening. Another nurse comes out, holding a baby in his arms, โ€œa boy,โ€ he murmurs, his eyes glossy somehow, โ€œwe will have to keep him in ventilation though.โ€ Yoongi nods, watches him go.
He turns back towards the door, holds his breath while he waits. His body feels limp when after a few minutes he sees the last baby. Another boy. He follows his brother to the ventilation too. Yoongi feels Taehyung come to stand beside him, both of them holding their breath.
Yoongi feels Taehyung's hand seeks his out. They grasp each other's hands. Both of their palms cold. Their both stare at the curtain, the shadows behind it moves frantically. Taehyung's grip on Yoongi's hand tightens, โ€œhe will be alright.โ€ Yoongi can't speak. He can't.
The others are right behind them, waiting just as breathlessly. Taehyung's nails dig into Yoongi's palms. Yoongi mentally forces himself to focus on that feeling, otherwise he feels numb. The doctor opens the curtain a little to get out and starts walking towards the door.
The doctor comes out, looks at them with tired eyes, โ€œhe is still unconscious,โ€ a slow, satisfied smile lifts the corners of his lips, โ€œbut, he pulled through. The bleeding was indeed heavy, but we managed to stop it. He will be in ICU for now, he, hopefully, will be fine. Butโ€ฆโ€
โ€œBut?โ€ Yoongi urges, โ€œbut, what?โ€ The doctor shakes his head, โ€œwe have to tie his tubes,โ€ his face looks remorseful, โ€œhe can't carry any more pups.โ€ Everyone looks at Yoongi and Yoongi watches the doctor. โ€œYou really think,โ€ Yoongi murmurs, gulps, โ€œI would let him after this?โ€
โ€œI will never live this nightmare again!โ€ Yoongi shakes his head, โ€œif I get him back,โ€ his lips wobble, โ€œI was going to personally ask him to agree to tying the tubes. I don't need more kids! Three are enough! I just need him to be fine. He will be, right?โ€
โ€œHe will be,โ€ the doctor smiles, โ€œdon't worry. I think you got a fighter in there.โ€ Yoongi watches Taehyung wipe his eyes, hiding his face against Jungkook's chest. He knows he is crying too. โ€œYeah,โ€ Yoongi breathes out, โ€œI got a fighter in there.โ€
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He feels sore. His whole body aches, but the intense pain in his lower abdomen makes Jimin wince. He blinks, eyes fluttering open to welcome more darkness. Except for the dim light of the lamp on his bedside table. He squirms, looks around the quiet room. No one is there.
The fear is sudden. The confusion is right there. Where is he? Where are his babies? What is he doing- Jimin tries to shake his arm, and then he feels it. Something heavy on his arm. He looks down to have his breath caught in his chest.
Yoongi sleeps on his palm, his cheek resting on Jimin's palm while he sleeps. Jimin's eyes travel over the alpha's tired face. There are dark-circles around his eyes. That complexion is too pale. Jimin lets out a small smile, thumb caressing the alpha's pouty lips.
Yoongi's lips part, hot breath caresses Jimin's thumb. He traces the lower lip, nail digging there. Then the silence breaks around them. He hears the shrill cry of a baby. Jimin startles, his heart tugs in his chest. He looks around the room frantically.
โ€œI am up, I am up,โ€ Yoongi murmurs, yawns and gets up, without noticing Jimin, โ€œhere, baby, appa is right here, bub.โ€ Jimin watches Yoongi go to the corner of the room where a crib is. The alpha leans down to pick up a bundle. Jimin's heart lurches to his throat. Their baby.
Jimin tries to reach, say something. But his throat is dry, and he can't move his entire arm. So, he watches, helpless, how Yoongi walks back and forth with the baby. The small bundle wrapped protectively in his arms. โ€œYour pa will be up soon, okay?โ€ Yoongi whispers, โ€œI know.โ€
Jimin chokes on a sob, he coughs, startling the alpha. Yoongi whips around, the baby held tightly to his chest. Jimin watches how the alpha's eyes widen, and then he stills. Jimin tries to reach, โ€œY-โ€ he whines, โ€œYoonโ€ฆโ€ Yoongi stares, saying nothing. โ€œBabyโ€ฆโ€ Jimin whimpers.
Yoongi startles, breaks out of his shock to rush over to Jimin. โ€œOh, my God, you are up!โ€ He panics, โ€œoh, my god, you are awake! Wait!โ€ He presses the bell, twice, thrice, and then he sits down on the stool, โ€œblossom. You are up!โ€
Jimin stills when Yoongi almost grasps him in his arms, lips pressing against Jiminโ€™s hair. Jimin feels the pain in his abdomen. His entire body aches. He slowly wraps his arms around Yoongi, buries his face in his alphaโ€™s neck to inhale his scent.
Yoongi keeps chanting โ€˜thank youโ€™s and Jimin realizes the alpha is thanking him for coming back. Jimin remembers now. In that operation theatre, how the doctors were so worried. How painful the entire process was. He remembers them saying he is losing too much blood.
Jimin holds the alpha tightly, โ€œI am fine. Yoon, I am fine.โ€ Yoongi shakes his head, โ€œlet me be. For a long time you werenโ€™t. Do you have any idea how you made me feel?โ€ Jimin smiles, tired, looks up at the alphaโ€™s face, โ€œsorry?โ€
Yoongi cups his face, peppers tender kisses all over Jiminโ€™s face, โ€œI am sorry,โ€ his voice comes out hoarse, โ€œfor making you go through this. Never againโ€”โ€ Jimin holds Yoongiโ€™s hands, โ€œcan you not? I wanted our pups. I,โ€ he looks over at where the crib is, โ€œcan I see them?โ€
Yoongi nods, โ€œyes. But first, I need to call the doctors. Then you can hold them.โ€ Jimin sits through it all. The doctors drawing his blood, sending it for tests. The nurses giving him a few injections. Asking how he is feeling.
At last, Yoongi lets him hold the babies. The alpha carries the babies up to him one by one. Carefully place them on Jiminโ€™s lap and sits right beside him.
โ€œWe have a baby girl and two baby boys,โ€ Yoongi whispers, smiles down at the babies as they squirm, โ€œarenโ€™t they pretty?โ€ Jiminโ€™s eyes pool with tears, โ€œthey are,โ€ he sniffles, โ€œoh, Yoon, we have our babies.โ€ Yoongi nods, his throat bobbing, โ€œour babies.โ€
Jimin leans against Yoongi, his eyes moving from one face to the other. He smiles and pulls them all to his chest. Kisses each one of them on their head. They are his babies. Jimin turns his neck to pull Yoongi down for a kiss too. His alpha.
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โ€œDo you think we should talk about the mating?โ€ Yoongi asks one night, both of them cuddled together in their master bedroom. Jimin lies on Yoongiโ€™s chest, draws patterns on the alphaโ€™s chest, โ€œwhat about it?โ€
Yoongiโ€™s arm tightens around him, โ€œhow I want to mate you?โ€ Jimin smiles, buries his face against his alphaโ€™s neck, โ€œwe have three kids who are just three months old. I think you should trust me when I say, I am not going anywhere.โ€
Yoongi snorts, โ€œthatโ€™s not the point and you know it.โ€ Jimin hums, โ€œwhatโ€™s the point, then?โ€ Yoongi pulls Jiminโ€™s face up to kiss him, โ€œyou know how I am almost there, right? My memories are recovering steadily, and I remember almost everything by now?โ€
Jimin hums into the kiss, โ€œand?โ€ Yoongi shrugs, โ€œI remember our first mating, and it was,โ€ he frowns, โ€œI want to do it right, this time.โ€ Jimin looks up at his husband, still a little winded from the sex they just had, โ€œwell, we can do it. Are you sure?โ€
Yoongi looks at him, eyes moving all over Jiminโ€™s face, โ€œI donโ€™t think I will ever be more sure.โ€ Jimin chuckles, closes his eyes while he cuddles up to Yoongi, โ€œgood. Letโ€™s talk it through tomorrow and set a date.โ€ They go to sleep.
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โ€œWhat are you doing?โ€ Jimin walks inside the home office of his husband, who is sitting on the carpet with a bunch of papers all around him. A few scissors, glue and diaries are scattered around too. Yoongi looks up at him, startled, and then smiles with his gums out.
โ€œThe babies are asleep?โ€ the alpha asks. Jimin nods, โ€œyes? Yoon, what are you doing?โ€ โ€œThe babies are asleep?โ€ the alpha asks. Jimin nods, โ€œyes? Yoon, what are you doing?โ€ Yoongi shrugs, points at the journal, โ€œjust something.โ€
Jimin sits beside Yoongi, makes sure not to get glue on himself, โ€œwhatโ€”โ€ He stops. Stares. Yoongi flips through the journal. Showing him the photos he stuck there, writing a few lines here and there.
โ€œ๐’ฏ๐’ฝโ„ฏ ๐“ˆ๐“‚๐’ถ๐“๐“ ๐“‡โ„ฏ๐’ธโ„ฏ๐“…๐“‰๐’พโ„ด๐“ƒ ๐’ถ๐’ป๐“‰โ„ฏ๐“‡ ๐“Œโ„ฏ ๐’ธโ„ด๐“ƒ๐’ปโ„ฏ๐“ˆ๐“ˆโ„ฏ๐’น.โ€ Jimin reads. โ€œโ„‹โ„ฏ ๐“โ„ดโ„ด๐“€โ„ฏ๐’น ๐“ˆโ„ด ๐“ˆ๐“‰๐“Š๐“ƒ๐“ƒ๐’พ๐“ƒโ„Š, โ„ ๐’นโ„ด๐“ƒ'๐“‰ ๐“‡โ„ฏ๐“‚โ„ฏ๐“‚๐’ทโ„ฏ๐“‡ ๐’ถ๐“ƒ๐“Ž๐“‰๐’ฝ๐’พ๐“ƒโ„Š โ„ฏ๐“๐“ˆโ„ฏ ๐’ป๐“‡โ„ด๐“‚ ๐“‰๐’ฝโ„ฏ๐“‡โ„ฏ.โ€
โ€œโ„‹๐’พ๐“‚ ๐“‰โ„ฏ๐“๐“๐’พ๐“ƒโ„Š โ„ฏ๐“‹โ„ฏ๐“‡๐“Žโ„ด๐“ƒโ„ฏ ๐“Œโ„ฏ ๐’ถ๐“‡โ„ฏ โ„ฏ๐“๐“…โ„ฏ๐’ธ๐“‰๐’พ๐“ƒโ„Š. ๐’ฎโ„ด๐“‡๐“‡๐“Ž, โ„‹โ„ด๐’ท๐’พ ๐’ธ๐“๐’พ๐’ธ๐“€โ„ฏ๐’น ๐“‰๐’ฝโ„ฏ ๐“…๐’ฝโ„ด๐“‰โ„ด ๐’ถ๐“ƒ๐’น โ„ ๐’ฟ๐“Š๐“ˆ๐“‰ ๐’น๐’พ๐’น๐“ƒ'๐“‰ ๐“ƒโ„ด๐“‰๐’พ๐’ธโ„ฏ.โ€
Jimin snorts, feels his eyes tearing up, โ€œwhy are you looking at me? I didn't realize, either.โ€ Yoongi traces the photos he has. A few more. He chuckles. โ€œLooks like I was always looking at you, blossom. You never noticed.โ€
Jimin picks up those photos. Clicked in different occasions. By different people. One thing is common in each one of them. Yoongi's eyes are always on him. Jimin blinks back the tears that gather in his eyes, places the photos down while Yoongi flips the pages of the journal.
With each page, Jimin feels his heart break a few more times. He leans his head against Yoongi's chest by the time he sees the photo of him with the babies in his lap. He lets Yoongi pull him closer, smiles at the photos. Yoongi kisses the top of his head, โ€œdo you like it?โ€
Jimin nods, wipes his eyes, โ€œI do. The babies can go through this some day and read how their pa met their appa.โ€ Yoongi laughs, fixing the last photo on the journal while he thinks of the caption. Then he shrugs with a small smile. โ€œI don't need to make up lines for this one.โ€
โ€œโ„ณ๐’พ๐“ƒ๐’พ-โ„ณ๐’พ๐“ƒ๐’พ.โ€
Jimin laughs, lets Yoongi pull him in a kiss while he giggles. โ€œMiniminies,โ€ Jimin laughs harder, โ€œI can't believe you remember our friends calling us that.โ€ Yoongi smiles into the kiss too, โ€œI promise to never forget anything related to you ever again, blossom.โ€
They kiss, their hands laced together, the photos and their memories all over the floor around them. Some are scattered and some are saved into a journal they both know they will come back to. To revisit and to add more. To add so many more.
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