PLAY ME A LOVE SONG
Kim Taehyung, a very famous DJ from Daegu, known as DJ V, is the source of all love songs for all kinds of people, from all walks of life. He used to be on the early morning show but when he turned 24, he moved at late night spot.
His nightly show where he talks to his listeners became very famous since people who were seeking love advice can sign up and be picked to be a caller of the night where Taehyung and his listener can talk about finding the solution for their heartaches, where they can +
freely play their songs and listen to a sound love advice.
Not until Jeon Jeongguk became the caller, the source of Kim Taehyung's pain, the ex-boyfriend, the one who fell in love with Taehyung's bestfriend after breaking up with him. He proposed to Taehyung's best friend only+
to find out that Jeongguk was cheated upon the said bestfriend not just once but twice and now as DJ V listened to his ex-boyfriend's woes, was torn whether or not he would reach out or not.
Jeongguk became a regular listener, talking to DJ V about his failure in love but when+
Jeongguk told DJ V about his first love, Kim Taehyung, DJ V automatically put down the phone, not knowing what to do, saying that there were having technical difficulty.
But luckily, DJ V had to go on tour for his book launch about the different love stories he had heard.
Both of them didn't know that fate had a plan for them.
Jeongguk is the PR Manager of the publishing house who published DJ V's book.
He was in charge of the promotions of his ex's book which make them interact a lot after a long time of talking to each other.
Will they be able to rekindle the spark of their love?
Or will their love just fizzle out because the mistrust and the doubt?
A prompt for now - inspiration from DJ V's guesting tonight.
Maybe I will write as a drabble. What do you think???
“This is DJ V of MBC Daegu, finally signing off for Beat the Morning Rush. It was a great pleasure to accompany you for the past three years. I will see you on Monday for my Late Night Love Talks with DJ V.
Here is Ed Sheeran’s Shape of You as the last song for my set. This is Beat the Morning Rush with DJ V. Thank you for tuning in."
Kim Taehyung finally turned off his microphone as he turned up the volume for Ed Sheeran’s song.
Taking up broadcast journalism at SNU was fun for him.
It was fun for him since it gave him peace.
And since he loved music so much, he felt that he could communicate better +
through his music.
When words fail, music speaks.
Kim Taehyung learned that as a child from learned from Hans Christian Andersen.
He learned to love music as he grew up without a television but the songs from the radio and being in a household of four generations.
He knew how to listen to all kinds of genre: classical, jazz, bossanova, rock n roll, sophistipop, house, rock n roll, metal, alternative, to name a few.
His passion for music did not resound by making them, although he knows he could sing, but instead he learned to share them,
express them through his radio show.
“Hey DJ V! Great set!” Min Yoongi, DJ Agust D smiled at him.
"Hi, hyung! Are you excited to start your morning show?" Taehyung asked as he stepped out of the booth.
"I don't know if The Early Morning Breeze with Agust D sounds good enougg compared to Beat the Morning Rush with DJ V."
"Come on, hyung! It sounds great!" Taehyung said giving him a quick pat on the back.
"What are your plans for the weekend?" Yoongi asked Taehyung.
"I have to go through the list of callers for my first love talk for my first episode." Taehyung said as he wore his back pack.
"Oh yeah." Yoongi said as he leafed through the pages of songs in front of him. "I am doing the same for Monday, so I wish you good luck!"
Taehyung stepped out of MBC Radio and was surprised to see someone familiar with flowers.
"Hey, Jimin hyung, how are you?" Taehyung asked as he went up to hug him
"Is Agust D at the radio station?"
"Yeah, he's there." Taehyung smiled. "When did you arrive?"
"Last night. I took the last train from Seoul." Jimin said.
"Okay, then, I have to go."
"Hey Tae tae?"
"It's nice to see you. I am sorry it didn't work out for you and Bogummy"
Taehyung gave him a tight lipped smile.
"We were friends, that's all."
Taehyung looked at the survey form and saw hundreds of people seeking advice and as meticulous as he is, he read them one by one.
He chose them one by one not necessarily wanting to choose the best one but he wanted to choose someone who he thinks
Taehyung perked up.
He thought that this would be definitely the best first letter to feature his first episode of Late Night Love Talk with DJ V.
He felt this guy Kim SJ. He empathized with his confusion.
Was he led on?
Was there really an interest?
Or was it just merely friendship?
He sent an email to their public relation officer, Choi Wooshik and attached sent a copy of the letter of Kim SJ.
Afterwards, he sent an email to Kim SJ confirming the selection of his form.
re: your letter had been selected
We are glad to inform you that your letter has been selected to be featured on Late Night Love Talk with me, DJ V.
We are expecting you to be available thirty minutes before the show begins, please expect a text reminder an hour before the phone call.
I would like to ask you questions on what part of your story I can mention.
Thank you for sharing your story and I am
excited to feature you on my show.
Hope to hear from you soon.
Monday came fast and Taehyung was able to choose six more stories to feature on his radio show.
He sent four more emails during the weekend and placed draft emails for the last two just in case one or two of the four were not available.
He was busy perusing through his favorite love song playlist and carefully curated them, choosing the best songs to feature for each night.
He looked outside his apartment window. It was Sunday and the sun was already setting.
The sky was emitting a purplish orange glow, creating the perfect mood to start his week.
He was already used to being alone after the so many years of breaking up with his one and only true love, Jeon Jeongguk.
How wonderful it was to be with him. He cannot forget his first love but did he forget about him?
The last time Taehyung had heard about him was when he proposed to his former bestfriend.
Was it intentional?
Were they cheating on him before he left Seoul?
He frowned maybe this isn't time to wallow on his miseries.
He will keep the pain of his heartbreak.
After all these years, he still lives in his own bubble, refusing to face the pain of his past.
How could he?
Because in the first place, he was the one who left Jeongguk.
He looked at his watch and the once purplish sky had now turned into a rich velvety blue.
A velvety blanket where millions of stars quietly hung.
Stars that kept a constant watch of his life.
Stars that somehow light the darkness that surrounded him.
He looked at his phone and took a look the time 11:36 and with a pang of loneliness, stared at his wallpaper.
He never had the strength to change his wallpaper after all these years, because well, it is the last picture he has.
A picture of them both after they celebrated Taehyung's birthday.
It was the only picture left when the rest were already deleted.
'Snap out of it Tae.'
He said to himself.
He stretched and decided to call it a day.
He lazily walked towards his bathroom and stared at himself.
"Forever in your favorite white tee huh, Taehyung?" He said to himself.
It is his favorite well maybe because it was a gift from someone special.
He washed his face then brushed his teeth.
He was ready to surrender the worries of his heart with a peaceful slumber but is it peaceful if he is not in peace with his past?
He turned on his moodlamp and stared at the calming lights with the sound of rain in the background.
He surrendered to the calmness that surrounded him as he closed his eyes and fell asleep.
The next evening he arrived early at the station in order to prepare his playlist for the night.
He made sure that the transitions were okay and the advertisements he would be playing.
Essentially, he would talk to his caller for five minutes, play a love song for 3-5 minutes.
Advertisements that would run for maybe 5-6 minutes. Essentially, he would play talk with Seokjinssi 5-6 times at the most.
At 9 pm, he called Kim Seokjin.
DJ V: Hello Seokjinssi, this is DJ V
KSJ: DJ V ssi, good evening. I am so happy you chose my story for your first episode.
DJ V: You have a good story to tell Seokjinssi.
KSJ: Seokjin will do.
DJ V: What do you want me to call you for tonight's episode?
KSJ: You can call me RJ tonight.
DJ V: RJ?
KSJ: Yes, RJ as in Radio Jin.
DJ V: Alright. What do you want to talk about?
At 9:35, "I guess that is all for now, don't hang up and after I played my two songs, I will talk to you, that would be around 10 after the hour."
KSJ: Okay, DJ V. Thank you.
Taehyung hurried to his booth and prepared his playlist and his song.
With 20 mins left, he stood up and went to the break room to get his bottle of water and his matcha tea latte from the refrigerator, something that he could sip throughout the night.
He placed all his essentials in his radio booth and went to the restroom.
He returned to his booth 15 minutes until he began and started preparing his radio equipment.
He combs his hair with his fingers and took a deep breath.
This is it.
"Good evening to all the listeners of Late Night Love Talk. This is DJ V and I would like to welcome you to the show's very first episode.
I am excited to bring to you love songs that would soothe the night as you accompany before going to bed or maybe on your way home.
So before anything else and before talking about the program for the night, I would like to feature Mikrokosmos by BTS as our first song. Again, this is DJ V for Late Night Love Talk."
DJ V: Hello, Seokjin? Are you there?
KSJ: Yes, I am here.
DJ V: To recap our program, I am going to read your letter and then I will welcome you. Okay?
KSJ: Yes! Perfect.
DJ V: Thank you again for doing this.
Taehyung played the first ad, maybe around 5 minutes long as he took out his phone and readied it to read the letter.
After the advertisement, he pressed his microphone on and spoke.
"The first letter I will be reading tonight is from someone named RJ and I am going to read the letter he initially sent to the station."
Taehyung reads the fervently yet softly as it is indeed a late night show.
DJ V: The letter sender is here with us tonight, everyone meet RJ.
KSJ: Good evening everyone.
DJ V: Before we discuss the specifics of your letter, I feel like this song is perfect for your situation, well some parts of it. Everyone, please listen to Seesaw by BTS Suga.
After three commercials...
DJ V: RJ, so we read your letter and I was wondering, what made you write your love problem for our Late Night Love Talk show?
KSJ: I have been listening to you DJ V and I feel you are very sensible to talk to.
DJ V: Ah, thank you.
DJ V: So, let's talk about you. Did Hope, was it Hope?
KSJ: Yes, it's Hope.
DJ V: When did you find out that you genuinely liked him?
KSJ: Well, during the project. We were talking about our personal lives and he started talking about his breakup.
DJ V: and then?
KSJ: We started texting and talking. And well I became a confidante and I was having problems with my ex at that time too.
DJ V: I see, so is it safe to say that you found solace with Hope?
KSJ: Yeah, you can say that.
DJ V: And when you first went out, was he still in a relationship?
KSJ: Trying to work things out, I guess.
DJ V: And how about you?
KSJ: Well I was on a break.
DJ V: Well the next song I am going to play is Falling by Harry Styles. This is Late Night Love Talk with DJ V.
DJ V: RJ, do you think that your feelings were maybe just you know confused? Because your boyfriend cheated on you?
KSJ: (chuckles) Well, at first I was angry, I mean I knew about it for months, but somehow had the courage to finally break up with him before talking with Hope.
DJ V: I mean not to discount your feelings for Hope, but how hurt were you when you broke up with your ex.
KSJ: I was really not hurt, well maybe because I knew what's coming. I was just maybe waiting myself to do it.
DJ V: So you broke up with him?
KSJ: I told him, I wanted a break, maybe to regroup.
DJ V: Let's talk about the part of the letter where you said that you thought Hope was jealous?
KSJ: yeah, I was talking to a friend and he just there, all the time.
DJ V: Do you think maybe he was just curious.
DJ V: Maybe, yes, of course and I have a song for you, I feel the desire with both of you so let's listen to Undisclosed Desires by Muse. You are listening to DJ V with RJ on Late Night Love Talk by MBC Daegu.
After another 3 commercials...
DJ V: Welcome back to Late Night Love Talk with DJ V. RJ is with me right now and we are currently talking about Hope. So RJ, I know you said in the letter, that Hope started dating someone else.
KSJ: Yes he did.
DJ V: So, during the happy hour Fridays with Hope, did he make any advances with you?
KSJ: Yeah. We shared a kiss one buzzed night.
DJ V: Did you ever talk about it?
KSJ: No, because after two Fridays, he brought her to our usual hang out.
DJ V: Maybe because he was confortable?
KSJ: They were holding hands and very close to each other and he was still looking for me as if seeking permission.
DJ V: And what did you do?
KSJ: I left.
DJ V: And have you cleared the air with Hope?
KSJ: I blocked him (chuckles nervously).
DJ V: Wow, well we do wonder with Hope constantly looking for you, maybe you are thinking if you ever crossed his mind?
KSJ: Yes, I do.
DJ V: Here is Sabrina Claudio from Fifty Shades Freed and her song, Cross Your Mind. Late Night Love Talk with DJ V will be back after the song.
After four commercials, Taehyung looked at the clock and saw that it was his final set...
DJ V: We are back and this is DJ V with our very first guest RJ for our very first episode of Late Night Love Talk. So RJ, right now, I wanna know, what is it that you want to do?
KSJ: I wanna know if I can do anything with Hope or if it is too late?
DJ V: I always think that hope springs eternal and love will always find a way. Maybe you should unblock him and gather enough courage to reach out to him. Because at the end of the day, you will never know+
if you don't ask, if you don't talk. (Taehyung's eyebrows furrowed, 'are you talking about yourself Kim Taehyung?' he wonders.) Love is a two way street and somehow, it would be amazing if you find out from the person the reason for his actions. I know it's a lot to think about,+
but you shared an intimate moment and somehow that moment can warrant a conversation. I am hopeful for you RJ and I am glad you have joined me for my very first episode.
KSJ: Thank you DJ V.
DJ V: I would like to wish everyone goodnight and thank you for listening to +
Late Night Love Talk. This is your host DJ V playing the last song for the night for RJ. Please listen to Only When I Sleep by The Corrs. This is DJ V signing off.
"Thank you Seokjin. I really appreciate the flow of our conversation." Taehyung said.
"Thank you DJ V, the songs were all beautiful, fitting in fact."
Taehyung let out a soft laugh, "I really thought hard about it."
"Well, thank you again DJ V. Good night."
It's 1:30 AM and I got carried away writing this.
So tell me, do you like it? Let me know please...
Forgive me for my typos.
This is Serena Waller, wishing you all good night.
TIME SKIP - SIX MONTHS LATER
Jeongguk was sitting at the Top Cafe inside Tower Records in Shibuya, Tokyo.
He was busy promoting one of his writer’s novels when his friend Kim Seokjin called him.
“Jeonggukie!” Jin said gaily.
“What’s up bro?” Jeongguk responded.
“How are you doing?
"Hanging on, busy with work. Hey I heard you called a radio station to seek advice?" Jeongguk asked his friend.
Seokjin is his boss's Kim Namjoon's best friend who eventually became very close with him, with the three years he had worked with the publishing company.
Well, Jeongguk thinks Namjoon likes him more than a best friend though. But Seokjin likes someone else.
"Word gets so fast. Who told you? Namjoon?" Seokjin asked Jeongguk.
"Yeah. Namjoon is actually interested in offering the radio program a chance to write about love problems. How long has the program started, hyung?" Jeongguk said as he sipped on the coffee he ordered.
"Yeah, that's great. I guess the program had been going for months already and yeah, I mean the DJ really helped me, but hey, the object of my affection is already taken unfortunately." Jin said frankly.
"Sounds interesting, how did you sign up?" Jeongguk asked curiously.
"I will send you the link." Jin said.
"I will ask Namjoon hyung if I can contact the program, pretend and ask for advice." Jeongguk said.
"How do they contact you?" Jeongguk asked.
"They receive a lot of requests but the DJ I think chooses it, he emailed me."
"Cool, do you need to talk to him?"
"Yeah, it's how it works, Gukkie." Jin said. "Well, I called to ask you, how are you and Seojoon?"
"Oh, my Joonie? I am thinking of proposing to him soon after I clear some stuff." Jeongguk said loudly.
"Wow, that's a big deal. Wait, are you sure you want to be with him? I mean wasn't he just a rebound?" Jin asked frankly.
"What do you mean, hyung?" Jeongguk felt shocked with his question.
"Because when I met you, you were still hung-up on your ex. What was his name again?" Jin asked.
"Cough*" Jeongguk suddenly swallowed the coffee in the wrong pipe.
"Yeah, listen, hyung, Eunwoo is here. We need to talk to Tower records for the release of his audio book." Jeongguk said.
"Oh, is that so? Are you just avoiding my question?"
"No, hyung really." Jeongguk said as Eunwoo approached the counter to order.
"Okay. I sent you the website." Jin said.
"Thanks, hyung!" Jeongguk said as he ended the call.
Why was he bothered, all of a sudden with the question that Seokjin asked him.
His eternal buddy, his twin, his first love.
They were inseparable when they were in college.
And then finally, they both felt something towards one another and they got together and then he broke up with him and left.
He left without a word and he just heard he moved back to Daegu.
Jungkook frowned. Why would he be thinking of Taehyung when he was the one who dumped him. Well Taehyung was trying to explain when Jeongguk walked out.
And then there came Seojoon, Taehyung's closest classmate in uni and there were so alike that Jeongguk just fell.
Eunwoo approached him and said, "So boss, what's the plan for today?"
"It's Friday and this is DJ V for Late Night Love Talk. We are currently having technical difficulty as our VOIP phone system is down so the caller for today will be moved on Monday."
"I wanna try something different today since it's going to be officially a year on Sunday for Late Night Love Talk with DJ V. But because I value my listeners, I would like to go through the grieving process."
Taehyung thought of this when he arrived at the station at 8 pm and found out that the phone system was down.
It is something worthwhile to talk about, well that's what he thinks, when he himself has not undergone it after his breakup so many years ago.
"But before we begin with our show, it's Friday night and I offer you all something upbeat. It's Lady by Modjo. This is DJ V and you are listening to Late Night Love Talk with MBC Daegu."
After five commercials…
"Welcome back to Late Night Love Talk with DJ V and tonight we'll be talking about the stages of grief. It's something different yes and maybe technical difficulties happen because there is a reason.
There are five stages of grief. Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression and Acceptance.
I remember watching a movie and I specifically remember a quote from one of its characters.
Professor Perlman in the movie, Call Me By Your Name stated, "In your place, if there is pain, nurse it, and if there is a flame, don't snuff it out, don't be brutal with it.
We rip out so much of ourselves to be cured of things faster than we should that we go bankrupt by the age of thirty and have less to offer each time we start with someone new. But to feel nothing so as not to feel anything—what a waste!
I am stating this because naturally, defensively, our body will be in denial when pain happens. It is difficult to make yourself think that we actually lost an important person in our life and it begins like that.
Don't Speak by No Doubt is a classic song of pain, of denial. Thank you for tuning in with Late Night Love Talk with DJ V."
Four radio advertisements later…
"Welcome back. I am DJ V and you are currently listening to Late Night Love Talk. So we are currently discussing the stages of grief most especially with a breakup. We are now on the second stage which is anger.
Well the word it self sounds dangerous but according to the website verywellmind.com and I quote.
'We are trying to adjust to a new reality and are likely experiencing extreme emotional discomfort.
There is so much to process that anger may feel like it allows us an emotional outlet. Anger also tends to be the first thing we feel when starting to release emotions related to loss.
This can leave us feeling isolated in our experience. It can also cause us to be perceived as unapproachable by others in moments when we could benefit from comfort, connection, and reassurance.'
Well, we get angry maybe towards ourselves or the other because well it isbhard to adjust and it's an additonal stimuli that we need to manage and sometimes, we refuse to.
We will take a short break aftee the next song, which is After The Love is Gone by Earth, Wind and Fire. This is DJ V and thank you for listening to Late Night Love Talk."
After three commercials…
"We are back and this is Late Night Love Talk with DJ V. Our topic tonight is very interesting, it's something that I am doing for the first time with our show and just to recap we are talking about the process of grief.
We have talked about denial & then anger & now we talk about bargaining.
Well as simple as it may sound, bargaining is something we do to make ourselves feel better. It's something we do because we feel helpless & as a way of coping, we bargain to take things back in control.
It's saying something like, I will love again if the next person I am going to date will be like this or can do like that.
We can't avoid doing things just to make ourselves feel better. And with feeling better sometimes we go around in circles. So the next song is Circles by Post Malone. This is DJ V and Late Night Love Talk will be back after the song and some commercials."
After two commercials…
"And we are back. I am DJ V with Late Night Love Talk and the next stage of grief is I think where we face our shadows and it's depression.
This is the time when we stop complaining and when we start to see things clearly now. We just feel so raw and vulnerable and we experience pain in its most organic form.
Although isolation is one of the facets of depression and is considered a natural process, we should make sure that we ask the help of our friends/loved ones. We practice self love & maybe talk to a counselor or seek therapy with the hopes of coming back stronger in the process.
The song Fix You by Coldplay is one of those songs about a friend or a loved one who wanted to help someone by fixing the hurt they experience as they go through depression.
Again, I am DJ V and I am glad to have you on our program Late Night Love Talk."
"This is DJ V and we are at the last segment of our show Late Night Love Talk. And the last stage of grief that we will talk about is acceptance.
Being sad or being regretful will still exist during this stage but there's a certain kind of peace. The word acceptance itself is defined by Cambridge dictionary as 'the fact of accepting a difficult or unpleasant situation.'
There are no due dates or deadlines as we go through the grief process. We have to be careful too because we don't want to commit rebound just to make ourselves feel better because we tend to hurt another person in return.
Elle Woods in Legally Blonde said, 'Most importantly, you must always have faith in yourself.' We have to trust ourselves that we are able to surpass this. We have to also be kind and forgiving to ourselves and in that, we experience the true acceptance.
Thank you for tuning in Late Night Love Talk. This is your host DJ V and the last song for tonight's show is 134340 by BTS. Thank you and have a good night."
Saturday night had become a ritual for Taehyung as he select his callers for the week.
And then he remembered, Wooshik shoved a letter to him Friday as a caller dropped off a letter.
He smiled as he received his first post.
He read throughout the letter and decided that maybe this is the best letter to feature for next week since the supposed caller for Friday's program rescheduled as he had final exams and needed to study, well thayt's understandable.
He smiled at the letter, it seems familiar yet it is not.
He continued browsing through his email, deciding what to feature on Tuesday when his phone rang.
"Hi, is this DJ V?" A man asked.
"May I know who's calling?"
"It's Kim Namjoon, I'm a book publisher and I would like to feature your program."
"Excuse me?" Taehyung asked.
"Well, your radio program is starting to get popular since it's making waves even here in Seoul." Kim Namjoon stated.
"Oh, that's interesting."
"So, maybe we would like to feature 50 of your stories & publish them and maybe label your collection as: Late Night Love Talk: a chronicle of heartbreaks and happily ever after, or something to that effect." He said frankly.
"Wow, can I talk to my boss, first?" Taehyung asked.
"In fact, I wanna set up a meeting with your boss." Kim Namjoon stated.
"Oh, sure, you can email me at email@example.com or you can find it on the website."
"Cool, you'll be hearing from me." He said.
"I am looking forward to it."
Taehyung was absolutely stunned.
He left Seoul years ago and he wasn't aware at that time what he really wanted in life.
Does he know now?
He selected the rest to be featured on Monday.
He had been doing this program for a year and everything seems to be falling into place, well except his heart.
"It's Monday night and happy anniversary to Late Night Love Talk with DJ V. And because truly it's a great night, let's get to it and start playing our love tunes to calm the night.
I heard this mashup and I would love to share it to all of you.
Presenting the first song of the night, it's Elise Truow's mashup cover of Bobby Caldwell's Do For Love and Foo Fighter's Everlong. Ladies and gentlemen, welcome to Late Night Love Talk with DJ V."
After three commercials...
"Welcome back to all of you to Late Night Love Talk. This is DJ V. I promised on Friday that we'll be featuring our caller from Friday to today, however due to personal reasons, they are not available so for the first year anniversary, I will be
featuring my first letter from the mail. It doesn't have a phone number or an email but the story is very compelling and it's nice to share it with everyone.
So here goes...
This is the first time I have written or will tell my story to anyone and I have not
gathered enough courage to include an email or a phone number so bear with me.
I am also hoping that you'll consider this letter, well, I think every letter or email count.
My name is Justin & I would love to tell you my story.
I started falling in love when I was a freshman.
I saw him for the first time and it felt my world shook with excitement. I mean I am a typical and ordinary guy, I am a quiet but my crush was not. You know I have never realized this until lately, my crush and I might be polar opposites but well, we fill the gap.
When I first saw him, everything seemed to be better, brighter, lovelier.
It does Justin and I cannot forget my first crush too. My knees became weak and my heart raced so fast everytime they were near and it was just amazing.
So as the first feature song for tonight's program, please listen to Adore Me by Harry Styles. You are listening to the first anniversary episode of Late Night Love Talk with DJ V."
After two commercials...
"Hello, it's me again, DJ V and you are listening live to Late Night Love Talk and for our first anniversary, we are featuring our first story from the mail and it's from our sender named Justin.
So let us continue...
I didn't realize that we have both became clingy to each other. Maybe because I was comfortable when my crush is around or rather, my best friend.
Like there isn't a day that passed thay I didn't seek him.
Literally, all day everyday, seven days a week, we were together. I sleep over, my crush sleeps over and it may just be a little too convenient but maybe because we didn't want other people, we just want ourselves. Is that selfish? Maybe I was.
Well, Justin, being selfish is inevitable most especially when someone makes you feel good and maybe with your crush you found home. So for our next song, let's listen to Home by BTS. This is DJ V and you are listening to Late Night Love Talk."
After five short ads...
"Welcome back everyone and thank you for listening to Late Night Love Talk. This is DJ V and right now we are reading a letter sent by Justin. So let us continue.
My bestfriend and I found each other's company the best company that we he decided to
ask me out for a date, I had to say yes.
It was a dream come true DJ V and it was priceless, spectacular. It is like the exhilaration and excitement from a roller coaster ride.
It is like the amazing and stupendous feeling one gets when witnessing fireworks in the sky.
It is like that feeling when you stare at the waves, so soothing and hypnotizing, like you'd never get tired of it.
That's how I felt for my bestfriend and if only I can relive those moments, I would.
Yes Justin. Dating, falling in love is very addicting, very fulfilling.
And it is something uncomparable, each look, each gaze, each kiss, each touch, it will never be enough.
Daniel Caesar's Best Part is one of the best and sweetest love song there is and we are playing it for you. This is DJ V and you are listening to Late Night Love Talk.
After two commercials...
"You are tuning in to MBC Daegu and you are listening to Late Night Love Talk with DJ V. Justin, our first postal letter sender is telling us a beautiful tale of love.
Let us continue.
It was great DJ V, our relationship was absolutely amazing.
It was like a relationship like no other well, we are each other's first loves so I guess I cannot even complain.
I thought our days would never end until it did and I didn't have a say in it.
I immediately felt empty as if the world had swallowed me whole.
I felt as if I suddenly left all alone when I thought the world of my bestfriend.
I questioned myself, I hated myself and I was hopeless and the darkness of the world covered my soul.
Yes it was like that and it hurt so damn much that I just wanted to give up.
I just wanted to give up.
Justin, you know, well, everyone, I experienced heartache too and the wound I got inflicted with is so deep that you feel that it won't heal anymore.
This is DJ V inviting you to listen to Mariah Carey's Breakdown and this is Late Night Love Talk."
After three commercials.
"Hello and we are at the final part of our program. This is DJ V and you are listening to Late Night Love Talk's first anniversary special where we featured Justin, someone who we are not talking to but instead, we are reading his letter.
I gave up maybe for sometime and I just hated myself and even avoided looking at myself in the mirror.
Then someone came to save me from all the wretched feeling swimming inside my chest.
Someone saved me and I am grateful up to this time..
So, hopefully when you read this letter, I would have already proposed to my special someone and I hope they accept my proposal. I am grateful for them because somehow, somewhere they made me feel beautiful again.
Thank you DJ V for reading my letter.
Justin, yes, thank you for sharing your story of hope.
I am happy that you have found your special someone.
I am also glad that you are able to forgive yourself and learned to breathe again.
All is fair in love and war, you feel that it's not though when you are at the
Justin, I really hope you get your dreams fulfilled. Good luck man, I hope your special someone will say yes.
I dedicate Yellow by Coldplay for you. This is DJ V for Late Night Love Talk signing off."
Taehyung turned off his mic and packed up. For some reason he feel his heart heavy and disturbed.
He looked at the picture on his phone and traced Jeongguk's face.
He might be not be aware but Taehyung is still in love with him.
He might not be aware but Taehyung needed to go home because he had to take care of his father who was already sick.
He was going to explain to Jeongguk why they needed to separate but he walked away.
Taehyung was going to ask him if he was okay if we separate for a bit but he took it wrong.
The last thing he has heard was that his former bestfriend Seojoon and Jeongguk got together.
He didn't want to know anymore well, maybe because it hurts too much.
He needed to go back to Daegu to take care of his ailing father.
He was thinking of coming back to Jeongguk most especially after his father's chemotherapy.
"Hey Jeonggukie!" Kim Namjoon said as he picked up from Hong Kong.
"Hey, boss!" He said as he placed his luggage at the backseat.
The airport was definitely crowded as it was a bustling Monday morning.
Namjoon looked sharp with his eyeglasses ^ blazer.
He observed his boss's confidence, his boss for five years now. He got inside the car at the same time as he did and the glow in his face was mesmerizing.
"Namjoon hyung? How are you and Jin hyung?" Jeongguk said as he put on his seatbelt.
Namjoon then looked at his rear view mirror. He looked at the side mirror and merged into the road.
He focused driving and when they entered the freeway, he turned his head to Jeongguk. "Why'd you ask?"
"I feel something is different." Jeongguk said truthfully.
Namjoon grinned at him. "I was going to let him tell you the good news, well, let me call him instead.
"Hello, babe?" Jin answered on the third ring.
"Babe?" Jeongguk asked curiously.
"Oh, hi Jeonggukie." Jin said. "Yes, me and Namjoon are officially together."
"Finally!" Jeongguk exclaimed.
"Finally?" Namjoon looked at him.
"Umm nothing, it's just that you look sweet and cozy together." Jeongguk chuckled.
"Uh huh." Jin said with Jeongguk picturing him rolling his eyes. "Anyways, did you hear DJ V read your letter Justin?" Jin laughed loudly.
"Wait. What?" Jeongguk eyes widened with surprise.
His snail mail was read.
"When did he read it?" He asked them both.
Namjoon smiled, "maybe a month ago. Babe? It's a month ago right?"
"Yeah. Hey, Jeonggukie, stop being in the Stone age will you and have social media?" Jin said.
"Is it truly necessary?" Jeongguk sighed.
"Very." Namjoon said. "Why don't you just try one platform first."
"Maybe, start with Instagram." Jin suggested, "then if you can handle the noise, you can add Twitter. You do have email, right?"
Jeongguk said, "yeah, I do."
"Does Seojoon have social media?" Jin asked.
"Yeah, I think he has Instagram." Jeongguk reflected.
Yes he does.
"And you are not curious?" Namjoon asked.
"Yeah, not so much." Jeongguk shrugged.
Why wasn't he interested again? Maybe because his interest with photography halted the moment he broke up with Taehyung.
Kim Taehyung, somehow he brought with him the passion he once had.
And truth be told, he was afraid to see Taehyung happy with somebody else, it's something he hasn't prepared his heart for yet.
"Anything else?" Jin asked. "I need to work too."
Namjoon laughed, "okay babe, see you later."
"See ya. Bye Jeonggukie." Jin said before he hung up.
"How was the broadcast? Has anyone recorded it?" Jeongguk asked curiously.
"Umm.. heh... I think we forgot to do that but hey DJ V said he agreed writing the chronicles of love. I am meeting him next week actually. Wanna come?" Namjoon asked.
Jeongguk shook his head, "I can't hyung, remember, I am taking the week off?"
"Oh, yeah... are you proposing?" Namjoon asked.
"No. Just talk, spend time together. I missed him." Jeongguk said.
"Going anywhere special?" Namjoon asked.
"Just staycation. He doesn't know yet."
"Well. I do have the songs that DJ V played for your letter, say, why not write DJ V and used the form I sent you three months ago instead of snail mail." Namjoon chuckled. "Get out of your comfort zone kid."
"Maybe, I will tomorrow." Jeongguk said as they stopped at his place.
"You know you are more than an employee, you are also one of Jin's closest friends and mine as well. Honestly kid, I feel something unsettling and I can't pinpoint what." Namjoon said.
"I will be fine, hyung. I will see you tomorrow, okay?" Jeongguk opened the car door.
Jeongguk looked at his apartment wondering if Seojoon was here to surprise him.
They don't live together but Seojoon has keys to his apartment and he knew that he's arriving today.
Jeongguk opened the door with anticipation in his heart.
They have been together for more than three years now and for sure he was the one who fell in love first.
He fell in love because maybe of the familiarity.
Seojoon was Taehyung's bestfriend.
Jeongguk's breath hitched.
His breath usually does ever since he walked out from his apartment almost four years ago when Taehyung told him he was leaving him.
He walked out without an explanation because he was pained.
He already drew their future together.
Him and Taehyung.
He already planned for everything when all of a sudden he had the audacity to say he was leaving, him.
He dropped off his bag on the floor and took out his phone and called Seojoon.
"Hi, honey." Seojoon said, putting the phone on speaker.
"Hi!" Jeongguk smiled.
"What time is your flight tomorrow again?" Seojoon asked then spoke with someone else on the background.
"Oh, I arrived today. I am at the apartment."
"Oh. my. gosh. Honey, I am so sorry."
"It's okay. You're evidently busy." Jeongguk tried to hide the disappointment from his voice.
"Yeah, headlines, ugh. But babe, let me make it up to you, okay?"
Something was definitely not right.
He felt as if he was dipped in cold water.
All of a sudden he felt his heart froze in time.
For the first time with his relationship with Seojoon, he feels uncertainty.
Because for the first time in their relationship, Seojoon called him, BABE.
A FEW DAYS LATER
"Wooshik hyung, so I have to go to Seoul to meet with the publisher." Taehyung said. "That will be during the day, I should be back before the broadcast."
Wooshik waa looking at Taehyung who was getting ready for his broadcast.
"Never expected for your show to be big, you know. So proud of my dongsaeng." Wooshik smiled at Taehyung.
"Thank you, hyung." Taehyung said. "The person, Justin, who sent me letter a few months ago actually emailed."
"Oh, wow. What does he want?" Wooshik asked.
"He wanted to know if he could type his response. He said he's really shy." Taehyung said.
Who can be that shy?
"Well, try talk to him. You can say he can just listen in or maybe just read like the last time."
"I guess that works." Taehyung smiled at Wooshik.
"How's your dad by the way, DJ V?" Wooshik asked before heading out the door.
"He's on remission officially three years today." Taehyung smiled at his boss genuinely.
"That is amazing. Hang on kid, let me know if you need to talk, okay?"
"Thanks, hyung. I will."
Taehyung stood up and looked at the email from his phone.
He was intrigued.
Actually more than intrigued.
Somehow, he wanted to feature this on Monday when he returns back from Seoul.
Taehyung arrived in Seoul via train early Monday morning.
His train travel went seamless as he was able to sit at his favorite spot at the back of the train where he could rest, where his mind could aimlessly wander at the sights outside his window.
He was nervous for sure because an opportunity like this only happens once in a lifetime.
He gulped as he stepped on the platform. 'You can do it, Taehyung.'
It had been years since he last came to Seoul. The last time was when he hurried back home to take care of his dad.
He looked at the map on his phone and double-checked his way to the Korean Publishers Association, which is at Jongno-gu.
He took the light rail to the headquarters.
He smiled it as he reminisced his university days at SNU.
He wonders how a certain person must be doing right now.
For all he knew, he's very happy and content with Seojoon.
He used to be very close with his hyung. He was one of the people who he could totally confide with, well, not anymore.
For all he knew, he didn't know that his former best friend's attraction with his ex-boyfriend was so immense already.
Taehyung smiled bitterly. He was aware that Seojoon was not really particularly fond of Jeongguk, but what's ironic was he got together with him month's after+
T/W Mention of Illness
Was he to blame? Unable to communicate to Jeongguk immediately after finding out his father's debilitating illness, was that his fault?
Taehyung got off of the light rail and walked several minutes.
He arrived at the Korean Publishers Association building at a perfect time. He was thirty minutes early.
He walked in the grey brick building as he smoothed his clothes and combed his hair with his fingers.
He's ready, he thinks.
He looked at his reflection from the window before walking up to the reception area. He stared at his reflection and muttered to himself, 'You look perfectly fine.'
He went to the reception area and smiled, "I am here for Kim Namjoon."
"You must be DJ V. I didn't expect you to be dashing and very handsome." The receptionist said.
Taehyung's ears turned pink, flushed with embarrassment, maybe it was just sudden shyness.
He scratched his head & thanked her politely.
She gave him a temporary badge, "3rd floor."
"Thank you." He said and bowed.
He went elevator and rode it alone.
He was relieved, for he started becoming nervous when he got in the elevator.
The elevator dinged open, third floor,
He scanned the floor.
Grateful, he was him walking towards him.
"Welcome to KPA, DJ V."
Namjoon gave him a big smile and ushered him to his office.
"I am honored. Thank you for gracing us with your presence." Namjoon said the monent they walked inside.
Taehyung then replied, "I should be the one grateful and honored. Thank you for inviting me here.
Namjoon then gestured to Taehyung to sit down.
"So, as you have heard, we would like to feature, write a book based on your program. It had been a year and some months, & I honestly think that you have a lot of good content already. Maybe we can feature 30 of your stories."
Taehyung smiled widely at him and allowed him to continue.
"One of my managers even suggested that we feature an audio book together with the book with the actual recordings of the songs," Namjoon closed his eyes and smiled.
Taehyung was rendered speechless, so he just allowed Namjoon to speak. "Your radio show has become very popular, you know."
Taehyung just smiles at Namjoon.
He wonders, though, how all of a sudden his story comes to life.
"Umm, Namjoonssi, how did you find out about my show?
"You came highly recommended by your customer." Namjoon smiled, showing off deep dimples from his cheek.
"Oh, I wonder who?" Taehyung thought aloud.
Namjoon chuckled, "Well, he followed your advice, and truth be told, I am glad it didn't play out."
"I am sorry?" Taehyung uttered in surprise.
"Well, my boyfriend is Seokjin, your first feature. If he didn't tell Hobi he liked him and got rejected, then I wouldn't have a chance to pursue him."
"I am glad it worked out to your advantage."
"Yeah, and that's when I started listening in." Namjoon smiled encouragingly.
"So, how does this whole book contract work?"
"We'll draw up the contract and send it to your legal department, make sure the radio station agrees to all the stipulations stated in the contract. +
Then, you'll select thirty shows, and I want you to talk about them. Also, we will need to interview you as a part of the introduction, have a photo shoot, etc. Then, for book promotions, you'll be accompanied by your own manager from our company."
Taehyung can not process what's happening, "When you speak of promotions, what does that necessarily entail?"
"Really depends on the first two weeks in the market. Then we'll determine if we need to promote to Tokyo, Kyoto, Osaka, Hong Kong, Taipei, Singapore, etc."
"How long does the entire publishing take?" Taehyung scrunched his eyebrows, worrying if he is able to still tend to his father if ever everything will push through.
"Depends on your legal team. We'll visit Daegu to finalize the contract and maybe, I will bring one of your fans+
to your radio station."
Taehyung just nodded, "I honestly think it's a great project. Thank you for the trust."
"No, I should be the one who should he grateful. Your radio show is such a novel idea. It's really unique."
"Thank you, Namjoonssi." Taehyung smiled.
"I will send the contract to your legal department. One of the important things I need to discuss with you is your advance. When you sign the contract, the radio station receives 13 million won, and you shall receive 17 million won. Then you'll receive royalties the sales."
17 million won. That is almost 4 million won more of his annual income, and that is just the advance.
He can not believe his fortune.
Taehyung smiled at Namjoon as the latter stood up, "I am looking forward to introducing your radio show to the world."
Namjoon walked Taehyung to the elevator, "You will hear from me soon, and once the production of the book starts, your promotions manager will contact you."
Namjoon's cellphone started ringing.
"Speaking of which, he's calling me right now. I will see you soon."
The elevator door closed as Namjoon answered the phone.
"Oh, hey Jeonggukie."
"Hyung. I caught him. I was going to surprise him at work, but I caught him picking up his friend Hyungsik and locking lips with him."
"Do you wanna have lunch?"
"Hello, this is DJ V, and you are listening live to Late Night Love Talk by MBC Daegu. Tonight, tonight will be the first time that I will be chatting with a repeat caller from several weeks ago. Everyone knows him by the name of Justin Seagull.
But before I continue with the show tonight, let's set off the mood for tonight's show with a song by BTS. Let's listen to Love Maze. Again, this is DJ V, and you are tuning to Late Night Love Talk.
After three commercials.
"Welcome back, it's DJ V of Late Night Love Talk. But hey, wait, instead of chatting, Justin wanted to call instead. As the staff calls him, let me read the first part of his letter.
"Hi DJ V,
It's me again, Justin. Finally I get to write to you again.
Thank you for reading this letter from me.
But before anything else. Can I be honest with you? I have been traveling, and I only let one of my best friends narrate your response, I haven't actually listened to your show yet."
"It's okay, Justin, believe me. I haven't listened to my show either." Taehyung chuckled.
This guy is interesting. As to why Taehyung took interest in reading this letter is still baffling with him and that chat thingy which now turned to a live call which is outside protocol.
"Anyway, I have a boyfriend of three years. I am thinking of proposing to him, but lately, he has not been showing interest in me.
I have been busy too with work and all as I travel all over Asia, but I make sure I always make time with him.
Time is really a valuable factor in making a relationship work, making any relationship work. More often than not, people give time for things or people that matter, and that should be emphasized.
Justin is on the other line, but before we talk to him on the phone, let's listen to Torn by Natalie Imbruglia. This is DJ V, and thank you for tuning in to Late Night Love Talk."
While the music is playing, Taehyung picks up the phone, "Hello Justin? This is DJ V. Are you there?"
Jeongguk stilled. There was something oddly familiar about DJ V's voice.
Jeongguk took a deep breath. He wrapped his phone with a bandana, hoping it would muffle his voice.
"Hello, DJ V? This is Justin.' Jeongguk made his voice deeper.
His voice is muffled, as if he is trying to conceal his voice.
"Hello. so welcome to my show. What made you change your mind?"
"Well, my letter content, well my situation changed already."
"What do you mean?" Taehyung got closer to the phone, anticipating.
Something was familiar with Justin's voice. The more he spoke, the more curious Taehyung got.
"Well, my letter said he was busy with another friend. Well, I saw him this morning, lip-locked, with the friend."
"Hey, are you okay? I mean, with this call? Do you think we can push thru? I am kinda worried about you?" Taehyung asked.
The song just finished playing in the background, and he played the five advertisement recording.
"Yeah, I am perfectly fine." Jeongguk said.
"As long as you are Justin, I didn't want you to feel uncomfortable with the show." Taehyung's voice was laced with concern for the caller.
Jeongguk found this oddly sweet, never had Seojoon show affection to him like this.
Earlier had been a saving grace, though.
He was planning to bring Seojoon to the mall to choose rings, maybe a couple ring, but he saw him got out of the aparrment, picked up by Hyungsik, Seojoon's old school mate.
"Sure, I am not uncomfortable. In fact, I was quite relieved."
"Why is that?" Taehyung asked.
"Something was not right. For the past two years, I thought having a relationship with him was the best idea. In fact, he hardly gave me any time." Jeongguk said factually.
"Commercial is over Justin, I will put you live." Taehyung quipped, still fascinated with his voice.
DJ V: Welcome back, everyone. This is DJ V, and thank you for tuning in to Late Night Love Talk. On the other line, we have Justin Seagull. Hello Justin, welcome to Late Night Love Talk.
JS: Yes, good evening, everyone.
DJ V: So, originally Justin, your letter states that+
you have a boyfriend of three years and you were thinking of proposing to him but lately he has not been showing interest in you. How are you guys lately? Are you still in the same position?
Taehyung was out of breath.
This was the first time he had been excited.
He can not pinpoint why. He does not know where the exhilaration is coming from.
SJ: No, actually, because I finally confirmed that he was not interested in me anymore, just this morning.
Jeongguk's felt a little clammy. Maybe because he is not used to a situation like this.
However, there was something familiar with the DJ's voice that he felt comfortable talking with him.
DJ V: And tell me, Justin, let's rewind from a few weeks ago when you sent in the letter. You have expressed permanence with your boyfriend.
SJ: Yeah, well, one of my best friends said that I was still not over my first love, and my boyfriend was just a rebound. He meant the world to me. He was ideal and charming and amazing. He was confident for sure, and he was caring, well maybe in the beginning only.
DJ V: I see. It's hard when we, the other end of the rope, the other partner, have already put them on a certain pedestal. I mean, there's a saying that Love is Blind but personally, I think that we change our perception to make them fit our ideal image as a person.
But then when that thin film covering our eyes melts away, truth starts to take shape. We might experience it sooner or later, but I hope that somehow, when we do get into a relationship, it will be more trusting and less judging towards ourselves.
Justin, I will play 'Everything You Want' by Vertical Horizon. You are listening to Late Night Love Talk, and this is DJ V.
Taehyung doesn't usually speak to his callers during breaks, somehow. Usually, he takes the five minute breaks as a time to calm his mind, but tonight, something is different.
"I am here. Hey DJ V, you want what's funny? I still haven't listened to the +l
last episode I was featured in, my friend didn't record it." Jeongguk chuckled.
"Aww, I am sorry to hear that. Let me see if I can find the recording and send it to you."
"Your voice is calming, you know?" Jeongguk stated.
"Is it? I never thought of that."
The last thirty seconds of the advertisement played, and Taehyung's heart started beating rapidly.
'Stop it, Taehyung. He is just a caller who got his heart broken. Get a hold of yourself.'
Taehyung doesn't really know why he is feeling such a way.
DJ V: And we are back. Tonight, we have Justin Seagull on the line as our guest. I am DJ V, and thank you for tuning in to Late Night Love Talk. So, Justin, you said earlier that everything was in the beginning only. Can you tell me why you think that?
JS: Well, he swooped me off my feet after my first breakup, but it's not like that anymore, no. I don't think so. For two years, he's changed.
Taehyung frowned. So this guy, took advantage of a weak and vulnerable heart. How dare he! Instead of just providing support, he took +
advantage of it. What a troublemaker.
DJ V: What do you think you could have done?
JS: If I were to talk to myself from three years ago, I would welcome his friendship but not engage in a romantic relationship with him. I should have fought for my ex or followed him to where
he was from and left it at that. I was unfair to, to my ex, you know. I loved him so much that I was a coward. I was so blinded and insistent that it was his fault and didn't give him the chance. I jumped into a relationship, freshly hurt.
DJ V: Wow. I am impressed with this self-admission. And it's difficult, most especially, when we reflect ourselves and acknowledge that we made a mistake. But that's progress. Our next song is 'Barely Breathing' by Duncan Sheik. This is Late Night Love Talk & I am DJ V.
Taehyung took a deep breath as he set up the advertisements.
Will he talk to Justin?
Something about him really intrigued Taehyung, but he had to be level-headed, calm, cool, and collected.
Who are you kidding, Taehyung?
"Hello DJ V?"
"Yes, Justin, hi."
"I find your voice soothing, I was wondering, do you make friends from your callers?" Jeongguk asked, somehow hopeful, beside, he's going to meet the famous DJ when they do their promotions.
"I don't know, I mean, this is the first time that a caller is asking me."
"Oh, is it okay if I ask to email you or chat with you?" Jeongguk further inquired.
"Let's see Justin. Wow, I am honored. Let's get back on air."
DJ V: This is DJ V, and you are listening to Late Night Love Talk. Justin is with us, and he was telling us his love problem. Well, honestly, this night is full of surprises. With admissions and reflections, which I am grateful for. What do you think shall you do then?
JS: I want to have a clean break and heal for a while. Give myself the chance to breathe. Maybe reach out to my ex, you know, apologize. Well, I hope it's not too late to apologize. I was really in love with him that I got to be both inconsiderate and a coward.
DJ V: Yes. Heal first, then talk to the ex. Do you know how to reach out to your ex at least?
SJ: I think we have a common friend still.
DJ V: That's great. I mean, I am a proponent of second chances , especially when there is no cheating involved. It may be just maturity+
or maybe miscommunication. There are a lot of those. Well, will you give the guy you are talking about a chance then?
SJ: I saw him kissing someone. Is that worth saving?
DJ V: What I was trying to say, will you give him a chance to talk?
SJ: Well, maybe I am not sure.
DJ V: Well, thank you for being honest, Justin. This is DJ V, and before taking a break, listen to 'Lost Stars' originally by Maroon 5 but covered by JK of BTS. Thank you for tuning in to Late Night Love Talk.
"You have great song choices, DJ V." Jeongguk stated.
"Why, thank you." Taehyung smiled.
He smiled because it's been a while since he had other human interactions other than his family and his work friends.
He kept to himself most of the time.
Well, he was not like this before. Actually, he was a social butterfly, but something about his break-up made him like this, aloof.
"Hey Justin, there's only one commercial left, I have to go back on air. Thank you for reaching out and having this call with me."
"Oh, for sure. It had been amazing, DJ V. Thank you."
DJ V: We are on the last segment of our show. We were speaking with Justin Seagull, and this is DJ V for late night love talk. Relationships are not something to be taken lightly. It should be something that we grow with.
It should be something that we are delighted about.
It should be something that we look forward to at the end of the day.
There may be broken promises or relationships, but if you feel that a good talk can happen, then I say go for it.
There are breakups that are salvagable, and there are some that are not. And with you, Justin, you are absolutely right. Have faith, heal, and when you are ready, maybe talk to your first love. I dedicate this last song for you. It's 'Never Not' by Lauv.
This is MBC's Late Night Love Talk. I am DJ V wishing everyone a good night.
I would like to apologize for several reasons:
1) I fell asleep last night.
2) I updated this instead of Untwine (I felt so guilty. I am sorry - both ABOS have been updated, and this hasn't been updated for the longest time.
I created a playlist open.spotify.com/playlist/7sWpL…
TIME SKIP AFTER SIX MONTHS
Namjoon looked at the first sample draft of the book, cover, and all.
He smiled with satisfaction. This was the first time that they collaborated with a radio station and this is the first time they have featured a show.
It was a very interesting six months. Pretty much the book was already written.
Primarily what DJ V and the radio station needed to do was to choose the thirty episodes and from there, they needed to transcribe the recordings of the show.
Namjoon turned the book and re-read the foreword, how sad must it be to host a live radio program about love and being heartbroken?
Nevertheless, he is grateful. DJ V paved the way for him to somehow find his happy ending with Jin.
Namjoon looked up.
"Hey Jeongguk, what's up?"
"Is that DJ V's first book draft?" Jeongguk asked as he approached the table.
"Do you like it?" Namjoon beamed, proud of his work.
"Yeah, this is awesome." Jeongguk admitted as he turned the book to its foreword.
He skimmed through the passage and frowned.
"Why are you here, how can I help you?" Namjoon asked the younger. "Are you doing okay?"
Jeongguk just smiled at him.
He was more than okay because for three months now, he had been sending DJ V emails...
A modern-day pen pal, Jeongguk thought.
"Oh, did you send DJ V a copy of the book?" Jeongguk asked.
"Yeah, in fact, he is looking at it right now," Namjoon said as he looked at his phone.
"You spoke to him?" Jeongguk asked enthusiastically as he sat down in front of him.
"Why the sudden interest?" Namjoon asked curiously, leaning forward.
"I mean, he's awesome isn't he?" Jeongguk asked. "Hyung, when is the book going to be released?"
"2-3 months?" Namjoon looked at the project planner software, then looked up at Jeongguk.
"I sense something is amiss. Jeon Jeongguk, you have to spill!" Namjoon demanded.
Jeongguk was fiddling with his fingers, trying to avoid Namjoon's eyes as he shook his head, "it's nothing Hyung."
"Nothing? It's not just nothing!" Namjoon looked at Jeongguk's face closely.
"You are blushing!" Namjoon exclaimed.
Jeongguk covered his face immediately, "no, I am not."
"Why are you acting like this? Explain to me Jeon Jeongguk!" Namjoon urged the younger.
Jeongguk raked through his hair as he shook his legs, should he tell Namjoon?
"Do you have a crush on DJ V?" Namjoon inquired.
Jeongguk's eyes widened, "No, Hyung, it's not that." He was a blushing mess. "I don't even know him. I mean, I just know his voice."
"And?" Namjoon squinted his eyes, trying to size him up.
"Just nervous to finally meet him I guess," Jeongguk said.
"Oh, yeah, you would tour with him, I get it. But hey, he is single, you are single, maybe, you know." Namjoon winked.
Jeongguk chuckled nervously, " I don't know Hyung, I'm still hurt from the last breakup."
"Oh yeah?" Namjoon said asked, looking at his buzzing phone.
Jeongguk just nodded. Namjoon doesn't need to know that he is exchanging emails with the DJ.
Namjoon doesn't need to know that his breakup was more tolerable this time around.
Namjoon doesn't need to know that he is grateful for his breakup with Seojoon because he had the guts to message DJ V and talk to him.
"Hello, DJ V?" Namjoon looked at Jeongguk smiling.
Jeongguk stood up from his desk and walked around toward Namjoon. He leaned in and tried to hear his voice.
"Hi Namjoonssi," DJ V replied.
Jeongguk took a deep breath and savored the coolness of his voice.
Namjoon turned his head slightly and looked at Jeongguk.
Jeongguk scratched the side of his head as Namjoon walked a little farther away from him.
It is interesting to see Jeongguk like this because when he was with Seojoon, he was never like this. He was always serious and stressed.
"You can call me Hyung," Namjoon smiled with his dimpled cheek, putting the phone on the speaker which made Jeongguk grin.
"Hyung, thank you for taking in my suggestion for the cover." DJ V softly said, " I really loved it."
"It looks cool, doesn't it?" Namjoon asked.
"It does. Anyway, Hyung, when are you expecting me to finish reviewing it?" DJ V asked.
"Oh, three-four weeks?" Namjoon responded.
"Okay, that is doable, and if I plan to remove or change an episode or two?" DJ V asked.
"As long as the episode is within the first year."
"Oh okay then. Thank you for taking my call." DJ V said.
"It's my pleasure. You'll be hearing from us soon as we start planning the logistics of your tour with your assigned manager." Namjoon said who just eyed a very anxious Jeongguk.
"Oh okay. Thank you." DJ V said.
Jeongguk grinned at Namjoon who was just shaking his head. "Jeonggukah, why are you grinning like an idiot?"
"Ah, me, no, was just happy to hear his voice again," Jeongguk said.
"Yeah, yeah, whatever." Namjoon said. "So what's your schedule for the week."
"Well, if you are saying 2-3 months then give or take 2 more months, we are shooting late winter/early spring release?"
"Just in time for when the cherry blossoms bloom..." Namjoon trailed.
He and Taehyung used to go just to see the cherry blossom festivals.
Get a grip Jeongguk, don't you have a crush with DJ V.
"Okay, I will start making reservations by early March then?" Jeongguk said as he started walking towards the door.
"Yes." Namjoon nodded answering.
"Thanks, hyung." He smiled genuinely at Namjoon.
Meanwhile, all the way in Daegu sat a DJ who just read the foreword he wrote months ago.
He feels that he is slowly forgetting about Jeongguk due to the constant rush of his busy life but because of a certain someone.
A certain someone who started paying a lot of attention to him.
A certain someone to who he first spoke on live radio.
A certain someone named Justin Seagull.
He knows though that Justin is a fake name for sure there is something about him that just intrigued him.
His phone notification then sounded.
He smiled because like clockwork, at 6 pm, his email from Justin would arrive.
date: november 26, 2019
Hi DJ V,
Just wondering how you are doing.
How I wish I could talk to you on a regular basis, is that even possible? I mean we have been emailing for a few months now, only if you want to. I hope you can consider.
Wishing you'll have a great episode tonight.
Taehyung leaned back his head on the headrest. He wanted to, really, just because somehow he wanted to move on from Jeongguk.
Maybe it was time to move on from Jeongguk and open himself up to the world again.
He had been isolated for so long now.
He looked at his watch, he needs to give this some serious thought, it was almost time for his show anyway.
"This is DJ V and you are listening to MBC Daegu's Late Night Love Talk. I hope you all had a great day before I begin, I would just like to let you know that our phone system is undergoing system maintenance and I am reading going to read a letter tonight.
But before I do, let's start tonight's mood with Lizzo's About Damn Time. This is Late Night Love Talk with DJ V.
You can do this Kim Taehyung, it's about time to let go.
Taehyung sat in front of his control panel, second-guessing himself.
Tonight's episode is an episode for him.
Are his feelings developing for Justin or is it about time to let Jeongguk go?
It's been something he had been avoiding facing.
He didn't want to face the pain of rejection well, maybe because, at the back of his mind, there was still a chance between him and Jeongguk, except when he saw Seojoon posted a picture hugging someone's back, extremely happy.
You are not getting any younger Taehyung.
The light flickered, signaling that the last advertisement was playing.
He took a deep breath, mustering all the courage he has gathered for himself as he tries to resolve this turmoil in his chest.
He smiled and exhaled and spoke on the microphone, "Welcome back to Late Night Love Talk with DJ V. Tonight we are reading a letter from Hansung.
Hi DJ V,
This is Hansung and I am from Daegu. I am here to not seek advice but to share it with your listeners. Is that okay?
Yes Hansung, when I read your letter, it was so unique that I had to read it. Anyway, let's continue.
You know when one falls in love, there are no words to describe the overwhelming happiness feels and that's how I felt about him, the ultimate love my life and I hope you
play one of my happy songs - it's Hall and Oates, You Make My Dream Come True. Yes, he did. He made my life a happy one when we were together.
Wow Hansung, it's amazing how you choose your song."
Taehyung chuckled quietly, amused at how he composed this letter.
Hopefully people will not figure out that this story is his love story.
"Anyway, yes, it's amazing when people first fall in love. Like everything around you is bright, beautiful, and wonderful.
So, yes, per his request, please listen to a classic.
This is DJ V and thank you for tuning in to Late Night Love Talk, brought to you by MBC Daegu."
On the other side of the country, Jeongguk was laying down on his bed, glancing at every chance he has, making sure that DJ V hasn't emailed him back yet.
It's weird though because for the first time, DJ V didn't respond at once.
He then glanced at the clock and saw it's 10 pm.
DJ V is just starting his segment.
He turned on the radio with Hall and Oates, Making My Dreams Come True.
He smiled. Remembering how Taehyung would listen to the song early Saturday mornings and dance while he cleaned their apartment.
After the song, he scrolled through his phone as he tried to look for hotel deals for his book promotion for DJ V's Late Nights and Love Songs, what a fitting title.
The commercials ended and Jeongguk braced himself.
He is going to listen to DJ V yet again.
"Welcome back and if you just happened to turn on the radio, thank you for listening. This is DJ V and we are reading a letter for tonight's feature for Late Night Love Talk.
We have our letter sender Hansung share with us his love story so let's continue."
Who was Hansung?
Why does it sound so damn familiar?
Jeongguk's mind raced.
"DJ V, my relationship was the love story of all love stories and I thought, maybe he was the one and I poured everything, mind, body, heart, and soul.
And Hansung is right, when you fall in love you get so blinded by the blissful emotions you feel especially when you are with that person and I cannot blame you Hansung and I am glad you felt that way anyway, let's continue.
I thought everything was doing great except
when I told him that I have to take a break because I had to figure stuff out for myself, not for the lack of love but just because I have to know answers and solutions to my problem but I wasn't given the chance to explain which hurt more than it should.
But again, it's my fault because if I became open with my dilemma right away then I would have been understood, I guess."
Jeongguk frowned, and he swallowed. Why does this story sound so familiar?
"The next song is not a break up song but more of an acceptance song.
Jeongguk listened closely to the lyrics, somehow empathizing with Hansung.
It's hard to be misunderstood and not given the chance to redeem oneself.
Jeongguk then wonders, how is DJ V feeling? With a different kind of format for tonight.
He took his phone out and quickly typed an email.
date: november 26, 2019
re: listening in
Hi DJ V,
You must be busy with tonight's broadcast.
I am sorry if I am overwhelmed you with my invitation to talk.
Is texting a better option?
Like I said before, I am still limited to texting and enjoying life with no social media.
I hope you consider this.
I love listening to your voice,
He pressed sent, hopefully, DJ V would be able to read it.
He really does like him even if he hasn't met him.
Something about DJ V makes his heart skip a beat and when they met, he is hopeful to confess that he is Justin Seagull, his number one fan.
Taehyung's email notification flashed, another one from Justin Seagull.
He smiled as he opened the email. He has two more commercials left anyway.
He began typing back quickly to respond to him.
date: november 26, 2019
re: listening in
Let me finish this seqment and I will send you my phone to text.
Taehyung smiled as he pressed send.
One more commercial.
He went to Twitter and tweeted something, a personald thought, an assuring reminder.
"Welcome back to Late Night Love Talk with DJ V. Let us continue with Hansung's letter, shall we?
It's challenging to live everyday these past years with a sliver of hope in my heart DJ V but I should know when enough is enough. They should be happy now right?
I bet my former best friend is making him happy, something that could never be compared with me.
It's funny right, how my best friend came into the picture, well maybe, they are the one that's meant to be and not me.
So as a final song of sorrow, I would like to
request for you to play Joji's Die For You.
Yes, I love him so much that I am letting my love die.
I know Hansung, the most painful part in grieving is acceptance or letting go.
It's more than facing your shadows, it is accepting the truth that everything has to come to 6 bitter ends.
But not for you, just take a breather and heal your heart.
This is DJ V and the next song is Die for You b Joji, and you are listening to MBC Daegu. Late Night Love Talk will come back after the short break.
Is it time to let go?
Taehyung looked at the last email he had received.
It looks promising but then fear suddenly gripped him.
His eyes started to become glossy with tears.
He is afraid to let go because his happy memories of Jeongguk are what drives him to be inspired.
Facing this heartbreak is something he tried to avoid for the longest time.
Because facing reality meant he had to let go of the happiest moments of his life.
He still blames himself why he decided to break up with him.
He blames himself because why break a good thing when they were both deliriously happy with the love they shared?
He knew it was his fault, yes, but for Jeongguk to move on and not look back hurt the most.
He opened his Instagram again and scrolled once more to Seojoon's page.
There it was the ultimate proof he needed.
Taehyung then went to Seojoon's profile, pressed the three dots then selected BLOCK.
It's about time he moved on.
He took a deep breath as it was the last part of his segment.
"Hello. Welcome back to Late Night Love Talk, this is DJ V and we are at the last part of our show.
Hansung, you are very brave and I admire you a lot for facing your shadows and meeting pain, head on.
I cannot say that it will be a cake walk for it is not.
But I do wish for you to find the happiness you deserve because I do believe that everybody is meant to have their own happy ending.
So as the last song, I dedicate to you, a song of hope. An invitation to love again.
It is originally sang by the Beatles and
Maroon 5 made a wonderful acoustic cover. Hansung, I wish you all the best. This is DJ V for MBC Daegu's Late Night Love Talk. Please listen to If I Fell.
Thank you so much for listening. Goodnight to all."
Taehyung stood up and gathered his belonging.
He is both sad and relieved.
Sad because he finally admits to letting go & moving on.
Relieved because he is being kind to himself somehow by unburdening the pain.
He took his phone and looked at his background for the last time.
He scrolled through his image gallery and with a sigh, he pressed the delete button.
Delete this image?
He took a deep breath and then did the most unimaginable thing he expected himself to do. He pressed DELETE & the last picture he has saved on his phone is finally gone.
Jeongguk finished the radio show with a certain pain in his heart.
Like he felt he could absolutely relate with Hansung.
He also knew that maybe, it is time for him to find the happiness he deserves as well.
Jeonggun took a deep breath and took his phone.
He started deleting picture after picture of him and Seojoon but then he stopped in the midst of deleting because there it was a picture of his first love, the one who broke his heart.
Should he delete it?
He got distracted by the email notification from his phone.
date: november 26, 2019
Here is my number, xxx-xxxxxxxx.
It's my work cell.
Hoping to hear from you,
After two minutes, Taehyung saw his work phone buzz with a notification.
Taehyung changed the name on his phone. Justin S or whoever he is.
Right now at least, he is taking the right steps.
He needed this somehow to move on.
That's why he doesn't have any form of social media just because introversion attacks him.
Well, except with his friends.
He scrolled through hundreds of pictures... hoping to find the right one...
One step at a time right?
Taehyung stared at the picture.
He leaned in, looking at his phone, as he walked slowly outside the building at 1130 pm.
Justin reminded him of Jeongguk... but Jeongguk was slender when he left Taehyung 3 years ago.
This guy Justin, is slim yet muscular with broad shoulders.
Is he doing the right thing?
Talking to someone he barely knew?
Is letting go of Jeongguk worth risking for the sake of opening his heart again to possibilities?
Too long of a word but it does contain a promise, a certain kind of hope.
He took a deep breath and texted back, attaching a picture of his back view as well...
He looked at the picture, is this him?
He hardly recognized his back profile, maybe because he hardly paid attention to himself at all.
He never expected his heart to pound faster than how he would have wanted to.
What is it with this DJ that has him completely enamored.
DJ V loves the beach too, he is guessing seeing the view in the picture.
He started typing a message and smiled.
How lucky must he be to have been entrusted DJ V's phone number but he doesn't want to end tonight's conversation yet. So he texts him back.
Taehyung just looked at his message when he got home to his apartment.
He smiled bitterly with a certain pang.
It's not distrust.
Maybe he gets too wary of people.
Most especially with his best friend being with his ex-boyfriend.
How can he trust other people easily?
He started typing away to text back.
To establish boundaries...
But being open to sharing?
Is that even possible for him?
Taehyung looked out his window with the city lights twinkling.
It's chilly now.
He put down his bag on the bench as he sat down and removed his shoes.
This day was eventful.
Not only did he receive the draft copy of his book but deleted Jeongguk's picture plus +
disarming himself to the world without saying it was him letting go of his past love because he wanted badly to move on, to be free from the clutches of his previous love.
He headed straight to his room and changed into his lounge clothes and took the book from his bag.
He took out the red pen from his book shelf and placed the book on top of his desk by the window.
He turned on the his laptop and lit the candle.
He turned on the lamp and the soft light filled the room.
So much for trying to create the perfect ambiance to read his book.
He went to the kitchen and turned on the teapot, he needed the tea to relax his mind, to take off the stress from the day.
His phone buzzed with another notification. It must be Justin again.
He took his teacup & poured hot water, it's time to enjoy a hot cup of chamomile tea.
He walked back to his desk and looked at the view from outside his window.
It seems peaceful in spite of the bright city lights.
Something is missing though.
Ah, his eternal companion.
Before settling completely at his desk with his tea, he walked to his turntable and re-started the record already played from last night.
It's Take 5 by Dave Brubeck Quartet, a jazz classic.
Listening to this provides him a different sense of comfort.
Like he is in charge of his life and nothing and no one could stop him.
But then he looked at his phone, with the notification lighting up again.
Is he really in control of his life?
He looked at the last thing he texted Jeongguk.
He wasn't like this before.
In fact, he trusts people easily but it's so hard just to trust anyone right now.
He'd rather listen to his music and play love songs for all.
He continued staring at his phone, expecting an answer to pop-up from his screen and then he eyed the book in front of him.
He turned the book to the Foreword portion and started marking it red and wrote on the side.
It's something he could send Namjoon hyung tomorrow.
After putting the red marks on the book, his phone lit up again, reminding him to read his text.
He smiled at the image Justin sent.
He's a sap, a sweet sap but then Taehyung doesn't want to believe it... seems too good to be true.
Jeongguk leisurely sprawled across his bed, waiting for DJ V to respond.
He's both excited and nervous.
Excited because who would not want to text someone he likes, you know, get to know someone better?
But nervous because he doesn't want to cross the boundaries.
He knew in his heart that DJ V really didn't want to talk to him.
He reached out more to him than DJ V responded but the fact that he gave him his number is such a big deal.
If it was only possible, he would have sped up the publishing of his book... why?
Then he would have already met him and somehow get his act together and woo him.
They will be staying together for long periods of time and somehow, his aim is to soften the heart of this awesome DJ who is slowly capturing his soul.
You don't even know him Jeongguk! He scolded himself.
And then, he could look him up, right?
No, Jeongguk, you swore to not use the internet if not necessary right? And besides, don't you want to be surprised?
He took a copy of the book he swiped from Namjoon's office.
He was curious about DJ V's foreword.
He didn't read it entirely earlier but somehow, DJ V intrigues him in general.
The huskiness of his voice is like being lulled in a hammock at the beach on a warm summer day.
The messages he speaks comes from a place of love and wisdom. Jeongguk knew that everything DJ V says is carefully and sincerely thought of.
He started reading the book and that is what made him frown earlier... the passage from the foreword.
DJ V is still in love with a person, someone who doesn't deserve his love at all.
Maybe that is the reason why he is avoidant.
Maybe it is the reason why he is reserved with his response even if Jeongguk felt that he wanted to open up more.
Taehyung got immersed in a few chapters when he realized that he was texting Justin.
He immediately picked up the phone and responded to him.
He has to admit, it's easy to talk to him but then again, this fear.
This fear that when people finally see him, will they be disappointed with the voice of DJ V.
For sure he knows MBC Daegu tweeted about him a year ago and he requested for them to delete, for which he was grateful for...
So maybe, Justin, since he admitted he was technologically backward hasn't seen his face yet but maybe he did. Who knows if what he's telling Taehyung is true at all?
He turned back to his phone and responded to Justin's text.
He turned the page to the foreword again and stared at the words.
Should he delete it?
Jeongguk looked at the text.
DJ V wanted to delete his message to whom?
Maybe it was his love.
He was about to text back but Namjoon texted him.
Taehyung looked at his phone repeatedly and still no reply from Justin.
Well, it's late, it's time to sleep.
He placed the book at his desk and turned his attention to his emails.
215 requests from last week. He needs to review them for next week's show.
Taehyung wonders, if he finishes checking the draft, the book tour would happen, who would take over the show?
He'd need to ask Wooshik tomorrow.
He frowned and looked at his calendar.
Namjoon said he'd be gone for at least three months. That is around what? 60 episodes?!
He has some work cut out for him.
Before he stood up, he went to his Twt app, to record today's event... something that he is looking forward to.
He swiped to see his text messages and quickly typed a goodnight to Justin.
Maybe tomorrow he will be better.
Maybe tomorrow he will be less afraid.
Maybe tomorrow, well tomorrow's another day.
The next few days were hectic both for Jeongguk and Taehyung, that they hardly had any time to talk.
Taehyung had to finalize plans for his 3 month book tour by finishing his review of the book draft two weeks earlier which Namjoon was highly appreciative of.
After a month, Namjoon just got off of the phone with his boyfriend Jin when he remembered that Jeongguk was flying back from Singapore with Park Hyoshin in two days which was perfect timing because they would have a photoshoot with DJ V for his book launch.
He immediately dialed Jeongguk's number, "Jeonggukah!"
"Hyung!" Jeongguk said as he stepped out of the Zall Bookstore where balladeer Park Hyoshin was signing autographs.
"Jeongguk, can you send me a message what time you'll be back on Friday?" Namjoon asked.
"The usual, hyung." Jeongguk wondered why is he asking.
"I am asking because I will be sending the driver." Namjoon said.
"You are not picking me up?" Jeongguk pouted, clutching his heart on his chest, "are you getting tired of me?"
"No. Silly." Namjoon shook his head, chuckling. "I will be managing DJ V's photoshoot at MBC."
"Wait, what?" Jeongguk almost dropped the phone from his hand. "Hyung, Hyoshinssi will drive straight to MBC because of some meeting he needed to attend. I should go with him then?"
"That's a great idea. I will see you in two days?" Namjoon said.
"Yes." Jeongguk responded as his heart pounded with excitement. Will he finally see DJ V?
"Okay, hyung. I will see you!" Jeongguk said as he scrolled through his message to send one to DJ V.
Hyoshin suddenly texted him saying that he's done, so Jeongguk put away his phone to attend to the artist.
"Jeongguk, we are done for the day!" Hyoshin said as they walked out of the bookstore.
"You had such a long line of fans Hyoshinssi." Jeongguk opened the door for him.
"Thank you for being patient Jeonggukah." He said as they walked towards the hotel.
"Ummm. Can I ask you something?" Jeongguk asked a little too eagerly.
"Sure, what is it?" He asked.
"Umm, Namjoon would be at MBC Seoul when we get back and I know you are driving directly, +
I was wondering if I can drive there with you?"
"Of course. I am excited about the meeting. It's a collab with someone I know from the university." Hyoshin smiled.
"I knew you when you were at SNU." Jeongguk looked at him.
"You did, how?" Hyoshin asked.
"Umm... my boyfriend..." Jeongguk started saying when Hyoshin held out his hand.
"I have to take this call Jeongguk." Hyo-shin said as he walked faster towards the hotel.
Jeongguk just nodded.
Of course, he knew Hyo-shin. He was the TA who Taehyung was talking on and on about.
How could he forget how he looked at his best friend during that time all starry-eyed toward Park Hyo-shin?
Of course, Jeongguk just realized that later when he was listening to one of his interviews.
He was THE Park Hyo-shin who was graduating when they were freshmen.
Well enough about Taehyung.
What he is looking forward to is spending the rest of the night hoping to text DJ V, well maybe because he would see him sooner than he anticipated.
He arrived at his hotel room and immediately changed his clothes and laid down on the bed.
He stared at it because he still needed to review some books to be released in the next few months.
Then he remembered, yes, DJ V. It's about time to text him.
Taehyung bit his fingernails as he called his old friend, Park Hyo-shin.
"Hello, sunbaenim?" He took a deep breath.
"Hi! Well, wait give me a second." Hyo-shin said as Taehyung heard footsteps.
"Am I catching you at a bad time sunbae?"
"Oh no, just got finished signing autographs." He said.
"Oh, I am glad then. Hey sunbae, are you sure about meeting in two days, aren't you just flying back?" Taehyung asked.
"Of course. C'mon, who did you intern for?" Hyo-shin chuckled.
"You!" Taehyung laughed.
"So, don't say no about guesting on my show DJ V," Hyo-shin exclaimed.
"Aren't you busy with your book tour?" Taehyung asked.
"I am usually back in Seoul on Thursdays and Fridays. I am only busy weekends until Wednesdays."
"Oh, okay. If you insist." Taehyung smiled.
"And then we can go to dinner after?" Hyo-shin suggested.
"Most definitely," Taehyung said.
"We have years to catch up, Kim Taehyung, I mean DJ V." Hyo-shin said as he walked back to the hotel.
"Okay, then. Listen I have to go sunbae. I will see you on Friday, okay?"
"I can't wait!"
Taehyung smiled as he hung up the phone.
Going back to Daegu after graduation and bumping into Park Hyo-shin at the train station was amazing.
He was just rising to stardom at that time while working as a DJ for MBC in Seoul.
Hyo-shin insisted on working as a DJ. It was something he felt indebted to and with that, Taehyung interned for him. He taught him everything he knew & Taehyung was grateful.
He had a huge crush on him before Jeongguk but somehow, that crush turned into a close friendship.
As he put on his earphones and tried to find songs suited for the segment he was going to tape later.
His phone buzzed with a notification.
Oh, it's Justin.
They've been busy but somehow, he's glad that Justin never forgot to message him.
Several times a day in fact and what he actually likes about Justin is that he was always patient with him.
He smiled. What he likes the most about him is his thoughtfulness, making sure he is never a bother.
Taehyung propped his phone on the shelf and timed it to take a picture to send back to Justin.
He smiled at the picture...
He is guessing that should suffice as a response.
Jeongguk didn't answer right away.
Taehyung went back to writing and finding songs for his taping when Jeongguk texted back.
Taehyung laughed out loud.
How can his feelings not grow fond of this guy when he amuses him every single day.
After two days, Jeongguk was fiddling with his fingers. He was going to finally see DJ V.
He was sitting quietly at the back with Hyo-shin who was just busy smiling and texting.
They were so busy yesterday that he just fell asleep when they got back to the hotel.
Jeongguk took his phone.
Is it time for him to download social media? But if he does, where should he begin?
His trance got interrupted when they arrived at the radio station.
Deep breaths Jeongguk, please calm down.
"Jeongguk, I need to rush. Don't want to be late."
He just nodded.
Jeongguk stepped out of the car and took his luggage from the trunk.
He dialed Namjoon with sweaty palms as he is too excited to see DJ V.
"Hello, Namjoon hyung, I am back."
"Oh, hi Jeonggukah. Perfect timing, we just wrapped up."
"Did DJ V leave?" Jeongguk swallowed nervously.
"No, he had to meet with management." Namjoon responded seriously.
"Oh. Why is that?" Jeongguk asked curiously.
"Well, he's going to be featured here at the main station." Namjoon said briskly.
"Where are you hyung?"
"Outside of the conference room. I need to give DJ V the final draft before printing." Namjoon responded. "4th floor."
"Okay, I am on my way."
Jeongguk rushed to the elevators to finally meet DJ V.
Should he reveal himself to be Justin Seagull?
"So tell me, have you reviewed the books you brought with you?" Namjoon asked.
"Yeah, will send you my recommendations," Jeongguk responded when he saw his phone buzzing.
He pressed decline.
He really didn't need this right now.
Namjoon looked at him. "Answer it Jeonggukah."
"Why? It has been six months." Jeongguk annoyingly responded.
"He wouldn't call without a reason," Namjoon said.
Jeongguk rolled his eyes at Namjoon, "okay fine." He said as he walked away.
"Hey Seojoon, what's up?"
"Thank you for coming DJ V! It will be an awesome episode," Hyo-shin said as he walked out of the conference room with Taehyung.
"Let me see the picture again, sunbaenim?" DJ V asked.
Hyo-shin smiled at him, "I will cover your face and say you are a special guest."
"DJ V!" Namjoon said.
"Oh, hyung. Why are you still here?" He asked.
"I was going to give you the final draft of the book." Namjoon responded.
Hyo-shin smiled widely at the DJ. " I am really proud of my dongsaeng."
"Namjoon, do you think our picture would help with marketing our books?" Hyo-shin asked him.
"Please send it to me." Namjoon said.
"Will do. I will walk DJ V out." Hyo-shin said as they walked toward the elevator.
Namjoon looked at the picture. How cute.
"Hyung, I am back." Jeongguk said.
"Oh. Gukkie, you just missed DJ V and Hyoshin!"
Aaaahhh he is so annoyed now and it's all Seojoon's fault.
"Why did you want to see DJ V again?" Namjoon asked.
"I haven't met him yet." Jeongguk said exasperatedly.
"Oh. Is that so? Wait Hyo-shin just sent me a picture wait." Namjoon said as he took his phone. "Here!" He shoved it at Jeongguk.
Jeongguk just shook his head, "but hyung! I cannot even see his face."
Namjoon smiled sheepishly, "oops, sorry. You can watch their live broadcast here next week."
Jeongguk took a deep breath, too annoyed at missing the chance to meet DJ V.
Taehyung smiled upon seeing Hyo-shin.
He had a huge crush on the elder when he was a freshman and he was a senior in college but Jeongguk grabbed his attention, and time, until he swept him entirely away.
Taehyung looked at Hyo-shin earlier.
He took a look at him that maybe he could take things forward. Something that he wasn't able to do, well, because he was with Jeongguk.
Maybe it is time to move on from his ex-boyfriend, something that he must have done when he found out that Jeongguk and Seojoon got together.
Hyo-shin smiled warmly at him and Taehyung smiled back.
"It's nice to see you Taehyungah." Hyo-shin said as he removed an eyelash from Taehyung's cheek.
"Sunbae..." Taehyung said from under his eyelashes.
"Would you like to go out with me for drinks after the show?"
Taehyung nodded, too eagerly, in his opinion, "yes, I would love to."
"Still not in a relationship?" Hyo-shin asked Taehyung.
"No, just barely moving on," Taehyung stated, too honestly.
Hyo-shin then smiled at him, "well, maybe it's time for you to move on."
Taehyung looked down as he was enveloped with shyness, would he take this chance?
Letting go of Jeongguk finally would be the culmination of self-inflicted pain.
The elevator opened and they both walked toward the lobby door.
They stood face to face with Hyo-shin reaching out, giving Taehyung another hug. "I am really glad to see you!"
Taehyung closed his eyes, searching for his feelings.
They stepped back. Taehyung waved before turning around and walking out of the building.
Jeongguk arrived at his apartment both antsy and excited.
Why did Seojoon call him at the same time when DJ V and Park Hyo-shin finished their meeting?
Jeongguk hates Seojoon for that interruption and for what?
Telling him he needed to get some of the clothes he left?
Jeongguk placed his head in his hands with an exasperated sigh.
He walked into his room and dropped off the luggage by the closet, took some clothes from the drawer, and went to the bathroom to take a shower.
He stripped himself still annoyed by the interruption, how dare Seojoon disrupt something good.
He scrubbed himself from head to toe, under the warm water pelting down his body.
Calm yourself Jeongguk, there are other chances.
But what if there's none?
He did mentally prepare himself to meet the DJ finally but the truth to the matter is, it was just when Seojoon called that he realized that he may not have fallen completely in love with the man.
He turned off the water and toweled himself dry.
There's next week right? And if he really wanted to, he could invite DJ V to dinner, well, after introducing himself as Jeongguk his manager, and maybe, just maybe, admit to being Justin Seagull.
He lay in bed and took the pillow and hugged it really tight, what is it with DJ V that makes him wanna know him more, so much more.
He looked around the room and tried to remember where he placed his phone at.
Excited, he grabbed it from the bedside table.
He opened the messenger app and typed a message to DJ V, hoping he is not busy.
And he was not, so with a deep breath, he messaged him with boldness, hoping not to chicken out and ask him for a date.
Taehyung looked at his phone, is being candid a bad thing?
It's about time that he opens himself up to the possibility of finally beginning anew.
So with a certain boldness, he braced himself and texted something, more personal.
He stepped onto the train platform, seeing that his train will arrive anytime soon.
Should he ask Justin for a picture? To mentally prepare himself just in case he decides to see him next week?
The train arrived which interrupted Taehyung's train of thought.
Train of thought with the train arriving at the station.
Taehyung, you are too much, he scolded himself.
He found a seat and looked at the time. It's past 5 and with this, the station might just play one of his taped recordings just in case he doesn't arrive on time.
Taehyung pinched the bridge of his nose.
It's just right, right?
At least he'll have Hyo-shin who is very familiar with and he'd have someone new, someone who he is somehow willing take a leap of faith for.
Taehyung scrolled through his gallery, something revealing but not...
His heart thumped furiously as he was about to do something impulsive but it's about time he did.
It's about time he did because he had boxed himself for three years with the thought of not letting an old flame go. An old flame where the embers of the flame already died, three years ago.
Taehyung selected a picture that is not too revealing.
Yes, he's decided...
With one quick breath, Taehyung closed his eyes and just pressed send, hoping that he was not making a wrong decision.
Taehyung stared at the text and chuckled.
What a coincidence, to have sent almost the same thing.
He shook his head and texted Jeongguk.
Taehyung just typed away, he was just so amused by the synchronicity of how they felt toward each other.
Is Justin or whoever he is someone worth to take a chance with?
Taehyung already knew the answer.
He already knew the answer the moment he sent him his number.
Taehyung just looked at the text.
Who in his right mind would be willing to take a chance with him when in fact, Jeongguk didn't give him any chance at all?
Stop it, Taehyung! Didn't you say you are letting him go?
Taehyung was already sweating, with the honesty, he had continued to express.
How is he doing this?
Lowering his boundaries to someone he barely knew.
Screw it and live a little Tae!
And so he did as he allowed himself to be a little vulnerable with him.
The week flew by so fast for both Jeongguk and Taehyung.
They had this certain thrill, a certain excitement in their hearts as they looked forward to Friday.
For Taehyung, Friday is such a big deal because he will be allowing himself to go out again.
For Jeongguk, Friday is such a big deal because finally, he will see who the man behind DJ V really is.
The excitement in Jeongguk's heart was unequal because with DJ V, he definitely felt alive again.
Jeongguk was pacing in his office when Namjoon knocked at his door.
"Hey Jeonggukah," Namjoon said.
"Hey, hyung! What's up?" Jeongguk asked.
"Are you excited to attend the live event tonight?" Namjoon asked as he took the phone from his pocket.
"Quite nervous, honestly," Jeongguk said.
"Oh, did you see? I tweeted about the event?" Namjoon said.
"Tweeted? Is that posting on Twitter?" Jeongguk asked as he approached the elder.
Namjoon shook his head and opened the app and showed Jeongguk the post.
"Oh, so that's what Twitter looks like." Jeongguk mused loudly.
Namjoon laughed out loud, "so, are you interested in maybe, you know creating your account?"
Jeongguk, heat creeping from his ear, looked at Namjoon and boldly asked, "does DJ V have a Twitter account?"
"Let me see," Namjoon said. "Yes, he does and most probably, since he will be finally revealing who he is tonight, then he'd change his pfp."
"Profile picture." Namjoon said, smiling and very amused with the younger.
"Want me to help you create one?"
After some tinkering on Jeongguk's phone and after 21 questions, Jeongguk looked at his Twitter profile.
"Hyung, what's private?" Jeongguk asked.
"Well, only people who follow you can see your tweets," Namjoon responded.
"Oh, I see." Jeongguk responded.
"Thanks, hyung!" Jeongguk exclaimed.
"You are welcome. By the way, can I ask you the biggest favor ever?" Namjoon looked at Jeongguk after looking at his watch.
"Anything, hyung." Jeongguk responded.
"I need to be at MBC in an hour but the show starts at 10. Your Jin hyung's shift ends at 9. He wanted to meet DJ V as well, I was wondering if you could pick him up?" Namjoon pleaded.
Jeongguk's face cast a look of worry. He doesn't want to miss DJ V this time.
"Where am I picking him up at?" Jeongguk asked.
"He works at Seoul Cancer Hospital in Jung-gu." Namjoon responded.
"So, if I leave at 8:30, I will be there at 8:50, 8:55, and be back at 9 30 ish?" Jeongguk computed in his head.
"Yeah." Namjoon said as he put out DJ V's book.
"Oh, is this the final draft?" Jeongguk asked.
"No, it's not. It's the first print." Namjoon responded.
Jeongguk took it from the table and immediately turned to the foreword of the book.
He wonders, if DJ V indeed removed what he said he would.
And he did.
Wow, he definitely removed his dedication to his ex, his first love, he wants to move on.
Somehow, Jeongguk wanted to believe that DJ V wants to give him a chance, because well, they never talked about past relationships, not until last week.
Truth be told, Jeongguk stared at the picture for hours.
Trying to make out what DJ V looks like.
He must be handsome because even when the picture was quite blurry, his features still stood out.
He has smooth skin, a perfect jaw, and kissable lips.
He looked at Namjoon who stood up and patted his back, "Thanks Jeongguk! I owe you one."
Jeongguk just gave Namjoon a thumb-up. He just hopes everything will flow seamlessly and be able to finally meet DJ V who he will be with in the next few months.
Jeongguk tapped on the steering wheel as he waited outside the parking lot for 20 minutes now.
Twenty fcking minutes.
Kim Seokjin, where the hell are you?
He looked at his watch.
But then Jeongguk remembered, he hasn't texted DJ V yet.
Jeongguk was about to answer him back when Jin finally showed up at 9:20 pm.
Patience Jeongguk, you'll see DJ V.
Jeongguk smiled at Seokjin.
"I am so sorry Gukkie, the nurse was late. I wasn't able to discharge my patient at once."
"It's okay, hyung." Jeongguk said.
Fate wasn't definitely on Jeongguk's side because there was a traffic jam just before the ramp entering Gangnam.
But Jeongguk just took a deep breath, 'you are just a few blocks away Jeon Jeongguk.'
They arrived at MBC by 10:05.
The program started and of course, there was no parking spot.
"Jin, hyung, just go up, I will follow." Jeongguk was already on the verge of giving up with tears of frustration starting to build up.
"Thanks Jeonggukie." Jin said as he got out of the car.
After five minutes, he finally found a parking spot.
He drew a sharp breath, and let everything go well.
He rushed to the lobby where the live broadcast was held.
He had to push through the crowd and at this rate, he would not be able to go inside the room.
He was fighting his way through the crowd when he finally saw a guy wearing a snow cap and bright yellow cardigan sitting beside Park Hyo-shin.
The crowd was so packed that he tried to take a good look at the DJ V's side profile.
He is very attractive.
He finally got through the crowd holding out his staff badge.
When he got nearer, his heart jumped off of his chest.
DJ V is Kim Taehyung.
Kim Taehyung is DJ V.
His eyes were about to bulge out from his sockets.
Sweat formed on his forehead with clammy palms.
The Kim Taehyung from four years ago was very different from the Kim Taehyung sitting and smiling with Park Hyo-shin holding his chin inside the booth.
The Kim Taehyung in front of him is the most beautiful person he has ever seen in his life.
Jeongguk's heart sank with the realization that he was the idiot that he talked about.
The Kim Taehyung in front of him had a sliver of love for him 3 months ago.
The Kim Taehyung in front of him just deleted the foreword in his book that was originally dedicated to him.
The Kim Taehyung in front of him is still smiling toward Park Hyo-shin who was also beaming at him, touching him as if he wanted to own him.
What the hell is he going to do now?
Namjoon and Jin approached an ashen faced Jeongguk.
"Jeonggukie? Why are you so pale?" Namjoon asked.
Jeongguk, who was still in shock, looked at Namjoon slowly, "Hyung, DJ V is Kim Taehyung, my ex-boyfriend, Seojoon's former bestfriend."
Jeongguk just watched DJ V the entire program with hundreds of thoughts swimming in his head.
He's definitely fcked up now, most especially as Justin and Taehyung have definitely gotten a lot closer.
What should he do?
"Are you okay?" Seokjin asked as Namjoon was called inside.
Jeongguk's eyes stayed glued to Taehyung who was just constantly engaging with Hyo-shin and the fans.
"I am hyung. Just trying to gather my marbles." Jeongguk responded still staring at Taehyung.
It's amazing how personable he still is but then he just realized that DJ V is serious, shy, tentative, and aloof.
Jeongguk just watched him, in awe of him.
His voice definitely became deeper now. Its huskiness is very calming but still he doesn't know what to do.
Seokjin chattered beside him, with him just absently nodding and agreeing. He was just hypnotized by his presence.
Not only will he work with him, but he will also need to tell him that he is Justin.
Taehyung stood up with Hyo-shin, and the show is done.
Namjoon got Jin and Jeongguk and brought them to a conference room.
Jeongguk's heart started pounding in his ears and he was right.
Park Hyo-shin entered the room with Taehyung and Jeongguk just froze.
"There you are! I was just telling DJ V the best book promotions manager." Hyo-shin said.
Taehyung stood still in front of him.
He just looked at him smiling.
"Jeongguk, please meet DJ V." Namjoon said nervously.
Jeongguk held out his hand to him, "Hi DJ V, I'm a big fan."
Hyo-shin then turned to DJ V and said, "Taehyungah, it's time to take some pictures. Namjoon, Jeongguk, please have some refreshments."
"Yes, sunbaenim." Taehyung said as they posed for a picture.
They tried to re-enact the picture they took last week.
Namjoon brought Jeongguk to the table.
He took some food and started sulking, watching Hyo-shin and Taehyung take pictures.
Hyo-shin's hands wrapped around Taehyung.
It's like in SNU all over again, but this time, he doesn't have the upper advantage.
Taehyung was hyper-aware of the man watching him right now as he continued smiling for pictures.
Of all the times and places, the circumstances, they really needed to see each other again right now, when he thought he was ready to move on.
Taehyung continued looking at the man in front of him discreetly as he could.
The man who he knew eats a lot when he is stressed or nervous or annoyed.
Jeongguk is doing that right now as he continued eating and glancing at him.
His heart though kept beating furiously.
They are not together anymore but he still has the same effect as he did 8 years ago.
Jeongguk looks great.
Happiness suits him. He must be very blissfully happy with Seojoon.
Since Jeongguk is the promotions manager, maybe, this is a great way for him to finally move on.
They can finally talk and clear the air and somehow get that peace of mind, that healing he needed.
The photographer was taking pictures with Hyo-shin when he suddenly remembered Justin. He should tell him he's done.
Is he here? Did he watch him?
He started texting Justin when he saw Jeongguk take his phone out and walk away.
Maybe Jeongguk needed to talk to Seojoon, it's Friday and Seojoon loved going out on Friday nights.
But Justin answered & it made him smile.
Justin saw him earlier. Is he still here?
Taehyung was waiting for Justin to respond.
Oh maybe, it's time for him to show who he is to the world.
So he went to Twitter and changed his profile picture and tweeted as well.
Well, it's true. He is so torn and confused right now.
Hyo-shin approached him and whispered to him, "ready?"
Jeongguk just entered the room and started walking to him.
"Taehyungssi?" He asked hesitantly.
"Yes?" Taehyung turned to him, "you know you can call me by name right? Jeonggukie?" He smiled genuinely.
If he needs to move on, then he needs to be honest and forgiving.
But the truth to the matter is, Taehyung doesn't even know if what he is doing is right.
"Yeah, that's right, I just thought..." Jeongguk smiled back.
"It's already been years, right?" Taehyung smiled at him.
Namjoon and Jin then approached them, "oh, DJ V, I would like you to meet your very first caller. Kim Seokjin." Namjoon said.
"Oh my gosh, it's such a great pleasure to meet you!" Taehyung said as he walked and pulled Jin for a hug.
"Aaaaahhh, I am such a big fan!" Jin said.
Namjoon then turned to Jeongguk and looked at Taehyung, "do you think you two could work with promotions and all?"
Jeongguk looked at Taehyung. He held his breath waiting for a reply.
Hyo-shin then walked to them, intrigued of what's going on. "Why would they not be okay?"
Taehyung turned to Hyo-shin and to Namjoon & then finally to Jeongguk, "I don't see a problem, I mean, it's been years and besides, Jeongguk must be very happy with Seojoon."
Jin suddenly interrupted and looked at Jeongguk. "Don't tell me you got back with that cheater Seojoon?"
Jeongguk's eyes widened as Namjoon looked away, actually, he directed his eyes toward the ceiling with Jin's eyes looking directly unto Taehyung.
Seokjin has been observing Jeongguk when they arrived in the room and the elder was already aware of Jeongguk's ex before+
Seojoon. His ex named Kim Taehyung.
Seokjin saw how uncomfortable Jeongguk was, constantly stealing glances at the famous DJ who was posing with another celebrity. Jeongguk was insanely uncomfortable.
He knew how Jeongguk must be feeling because Namjoon confessed the same kind of emotions one drunken Saturday night.
Namjoon declared the pain in his heart as he watched Jin every time he was with Hoseok and it was not a pleasant feeling at all.
And was also aware of how distraught Jeongguk was when they went out for drinks after he caught Seojoon kissing another guy.
He remembered Jeongguk crying not over Seojoon, yes, never about Seojoon.
He was always lamenting over someone before Seojoon, someone named Taehyung.
He kept saying on and on about how Taehyung broke his heart into millions of pieces because he left him without saying anything.
Seokjin was known for being too frank, and too outspoken sometimes, but only to people, he is close with.
Seokjin remembered clearly one time before Jeongguk fell unconscious because of a drunken stupor. He actually asked the younger, nay, demanded why he was being like that.
Jeongguk admitted that he was being a brat and was expecting Taehyung to run after him and became very salty because he did not.
So, he decided to have a good time with Seojoon and their other university friends and the rest was history.
Taehyung was in deep thought upon learning about Seojoon cheating on Jeongguk.
He scrunched his eyebrows, then who was the guy Seojoon was saying I love you too on social media before he blocked him?
Uncomfortable silence surrounded them as Jin looked into Taehyung's confused look.
He must get answers, Taehyung thought but then again, should he?
Because he was finally going to give other people a chance only to find himself back to square one.
Namjoon took a deep breath, "Who's hungry?" He looked at everyone.
Everyone turned their attention to Namjoon only to confuse Hyo-shin even more.
He doesn't even know what's happening between Jeongguk or Taehyung and he doesn't really give a damn.
Hyo-shin took a bold move as he pulled Taehyung in, looking at him smiling, then looked at the others, "Taehyung and I already made plans."
Taehyung looked back at Hyo-shin who was just smiling at him with adoration.
Taehyung immediately blushed, smiling at Hyo-shin who was just showering with so much attention.
He, then, noticed Jeongguk's feet shuffling uncomfortably.
He screamed internally, he was being pulled into so many directions right now.
Sure, he really wanted to move on.
Sure, he wanted to give Hyo-shin a better chance, to get to know him more somehow.
But evidently, he wanted to reach out and talk to Jeongguk as well, because he wanted to know the truth.
'What the hell are you thinking about Tae?' He thought, 'it's not your fault that Seojoon cheated on Jeongguk.'
Overall, it was Jeongguk's choice anyway, his choice not to give Taehyung a chance to explain.
Taehyung just smiled at Hyo-shin & leaned back in, "Yes, I am sorry guys, I promised Hyo-shin sunbae that I will go out with him."
Jeongguk's face fell.
Taehyung was choosing Hyo-shin instead of him & he can't blame him because Jeongguk knows Taehyung thinks he abandoned him.
Jeongguk didn't give the chance to explain why he needed a break and now that he knows, Jeongguk should be the one who should do everything to win him back.
He needs to find a way to let DJ V know that he is Justin.
Jeongguk knows that he has a lot of work cut out for him so even in annoyance he should accept this.
He had to win him back.
He wants to win him back.
He needs to win him back.
And if Taehyung decides not to, at least apologize and ask for his forgiveness.
Nevertheless, Jeongguk wants both DJ V and Kim Taehyung back in his life.
Seokjin was just looking at Jeongguk. He knows how he must be so pained right now.
He might have been in a relationship with Seojoon but there were a lot of conversations about Kim Taehyung as well.
Seokjin turned his attention toward Taehyung, who inspite of his smile, is not really ecstatic of his outing with Hyo-shin.
Seokjin knows this because being a doctor and bringing both good news and bad news to patients, he knows when one is extremely happy.
The smile on Taehyung's lips did not reaxch his eyes, so Jin must do something about it, or try to.
"How about tomorrow?" Seokjin suddenly exclaimed.
"Are you doing something tomorrow DJ V? I mean, I hope you don't find me too forward but I really want to treat you to thank you," Jin took Namjoon's hand into his, "you have been instrumental to our happiness."
Jeongguk snapped his head up, looking eagerly at Seokjin, hoping he'd be invited too.
Taehyung then smiled, genuinely, at Seokjin with his eyes smiling too.
Good, Seokjin thought.
"Of course, Seokjinssi, it will be my pleasure." Taehyung responded gladly.
"Yay! And call me hyung." Seokjin looked at Jeongguk before speaking again, "And Jeonggukie is coming with us if you don't mind, he has been a very good friend."
Taehyung finally looked Jeongguk in the eyes who at the same time met his eyes.
Taehyung missed him and it's refreshing to see him finally again, it's been a long time.
Jeonggguk just nodded at him, as if encouraging him to say yes.
Jeongguk wanted him to come, maybe 4 years were good enough to make them both mature a little.
Taehyung nodded saying, "okay. We can go out, maybe, brunch?"
"And maybe after too?" Jeongguk asked hopefully.
Taehyung looked at him, surprised with his sudden boldness.
"Let's do brunch first, because, I may have some plans to meet up with another friend," Taehyung responded wistfully.
Jeongguk gulped nervously, was he referring to Justin?
Either way, Taehyung will be meeting with Jeongguk, what explanation should he give him?
Jeongguk's mind was now in an absolute state of confusion, how will he reveal himself to DJ V?
How would he tell him that they have been talking for months?
How would he tell him that he was always on his mind?
How would he tell him that his heart beats a little faster especially when they start texting? Or when they were sending each other pictures?
Tomorrow or maybe, in the next couple of months, he'll figure out what to do, or what to say, because right now, he doesn't want to miss this chance, to show Taehyung he has his entire attention.
Hyo-shin grabbed his hands once again, "As much as we would love to stay and chat, Taehyung and I have a lot of catching up to do."
Namjoon just nodded and smiled. The manager was keenly aware of Jeongguk's pained smile.
Ah, what a small world.
It's such a small world.
How could he have missed that Kim Taenyung is DJ V when all along he has the name written in the contract?
Hyo-shin and Taehyung said their goodbyes, leaving the three of them with Jeongguk's eyes lingering on them both.
The moment they completely left, Jeongguk turned to the two with anxious eyes and sweaty palms.
He turned to both of them and said, "You need to help me both, please. I think I am screwed. I don't know what to do."
Hyo-shin and Taehyung decided to go to Hyo-shin's flat instead.
Taehyung was really trying his best to reel back his thoughts to his former TA but right now, all he is thinking about is Jeongguk and Justin.
Most especially with the invitation that was extended to him.
They stepped into Hyo-shin's place. It was huge and pleasant.
Taehyung was tentative because his mind was somewhere else.
"Make yourself feel comfortable," Hyo-shin said as he excused himself.
Taehyung took his phone and texted Justin who instantaneously responded.
It took a while for Justin to respond because Taehyung already counted the books on Hyo-shin's shelf and when he looked back at his phone, there was still no response from him.
So, Taehyung decided to take the initiative, to ask if he would get invited tomorrow.
Hyo-shin came back. He changed his clothes.
"Tae, do you want to join me in the kitchen?" He asked.
Taehyung smiled & followed the elder.
Hyo-shin gestured for him to join him at the island counter where he placed the drinks.
"It's been a while since I drank," Tae admitted.
"Why is that?" Hyo-shin asked pouring him a drink.
"I don't go out that often," Taehyung stated honestly.
"So, tell me Taehyung, I hope you don't mind me asking something personal," Hyo-shin asked.
"Yes, sunbaenim, what's your question?" Taehyung asked as his phone buzzed.
"I am intrigued," he asked, sitting closer to Taehyung.
Taehyung both felt intrigued and nervous, about what was his question going to be.
"Who is Jeongguk to you?" Hyo-shin looked at him intensely.
Taehyung held his breath, "Sunbaenim,"
Hyo-shin gazed at him, "tell me, I won't judge."
Taehyung's phone buzzed again, reminding him of maybe Justin responding to his text.
"He was my ex," Taehyung said after taking downing his drink.
He needed some liquid courage for sure.
"And now?" Hyo-shin asked.
"Hoping to be a friend," Taehyung said candidly. "I really want to move on."
"Really?" Hyo-shin gazed into his eyes.
"Yes." He looked back at him.
Hyo-shin touched his cheek, "that's nice. What are you thinking to do?"
"We are going to work together, sunbae. I don't want bad blood. I want to sit down and talk to him and just close that chapter in my life." Taehyung said as Hyo-shin stood up to get something from the refrigerator.
Taehyung took a quick peek from his phone.
Why is Justin avoiding him?
He was looking forward to seeing him tomorrow.
So Taehyung, buzzed a little, sent him a reply.
Hyo-shin snuck up behind him and placed a cheese and grapes platter.
"Oh, Taehyungah, let's take a selfie for Twitter," Hyo-shin suggested.
Taehyung nodded. He wanted to forget about Justin who was unwilling to meet with him.
They took a selfie and Taehyung posted it on Twitter before looking at Justin's response.
Should he be forward with Hyo-shin? Is the elder even interested in him?
He doesn't feel it but his actions says otherwise, like the picture he took.
Jeongguk sat on his couch, all confused, shocked, and suprised.
He was not expecting to see Taehyung earlier.
He was not expecting DJ V to be Kim Taehyung, the ultimate love of his life.
He knows this now.
He realized that the reason why he was drawn to DJ V was because of his quiet sincerity.
Taehyung is quiet but he is very sincere, he is the type of person who you can lean on and will never let you fall.
He is absolutely the same as DJ V.
He was texting Taehyung earlier and until he finds the right headspace, he would not reveal himself to be Justin just yet.
He was finding the right words to respond when his Twitter notification popped up, DJ V posted.
He responded with something, hopefully, Taehyung would not see it yet, right?
Namjoon said earlier that once you are private, it would not be seen until the person follows you back.
Then he saw Taehyung post another notification.
He felt pained.
Jeongguk was not prepared to see Taehyung that close and intimate with another.
How could he be so blind?
How could he be so insensitive?
Seeing Taehyung now only proves that he never not stopped loving him.
It doesn't matter if he is DJ V or Kim Taehyung, all Jeongguk knows right now is that he loves him.
He sprawled on his couch and took a deep breath, it's time to text Taehyung.
Jeongguk took a deep breath, he doesn't know if Taehyung will figure him out but at least tomorrow he could explain when he meets him for breakfast.
Hyo-shin was talking about his latest Singapore trip.
He was narrating to Taehyung what the weather was like and the food.
Hyo-shin even told Taehyung that he doesn't need to pay anything because KPA will pay for everything.
He saw his phone buzz with a notification.
He was antsy.
He does not know what picture Justin would send him.
Hyo-shin was in the middle of telling his Hong Kong book tour when Taehyung stood up, "Sunbae, I need to go to the restroom."
Taehyung entered the bathroom and opened the app on his phone.
His eyes bulged.
Justin is hot.
Taehyung bit lower lip as he sent him a response.
He pulled up his Twitter app.
A blush crept up Taehyung's face.
His heart started pounding.
His brain started getting hazy.
His palms started to become sweaty.
He had not prepared his heart for something like this.
Hyo-shin knocked, "are you doing okay, Tae?"
Taehyung immediately opened the door and stepped outside.
"Yeah, sunbae, I think I need to go back to the hotel." Taehyung responded. "I feel weird."
"Are you okay?" Hyo-shin looked at him worriedly.
"Just tired, I guess," Taehyung responded, getting jumpy for Justin's reply.
"Let me drive you home." Hyo-shin offered.
"No. Please, it's near. I might just take a cab." Taehyung said as he walked towards the door and put on his shoes.
"Talk to you soon?" Hyo-shin asked.
Taehyung smiled and nodded at him.
"Let me walk you to the elevator at least?" Hyo-shin asked.
"Of course," Taehyung said.
After a few steps, they reached the elevator and Taehyung immediately stepped inside when the door opened.
He felt his phone buzz once again with Justin responding to him.
He's asking him if he liked what he saw.
Is that even a question?
Taehyung leaned his head back against the elevator wall and took a deep breath as he responded.
His mind was in a total blur right now.
Those tattoos are hot.
This is the first time he's ever salivated on someone like this.
He quickly typed something in his Twitter when the elevator doors opened.
How could he respond to something like this?
It was a bold move, yes and Taehyung doesn't even know about his tattoos or the fact that he worked out a lot after their break-up but what is he doing?
Isn't he supposed to win him back and not push him to Justin?
He'll tell him soon after he wins him back.
If Taehyung got flustered with that, Jeongguk knew what to do next.
He is slowly forming this action plan in his head, how he will win Taehyung back into his life.
So Jeongguk texted back and said good night.
Taehyung arrived at his hotel room, disappointed because Justin already bid him good night.
He was mentally prepping himself to bring his A-game, you know, flirt back, maybe convince him to meet him before he goes back to Daegu on Sunday morning.
This was something unlike him because, for all he knew, the last time he flirted back was when he first met Jeongguk, when they were in uni.
Was seeing Jeongguk start the flame in his heart once again? Taehyung wonders.
He quickly took a shower to prepare for bed.
His hotel room was very nice and not that expensive as well.
Namjoon insisted that he choose a more expensive hotel but Taehyung wanted to make sure that his book sells first before even demanding for a more expensive accommodation.
After a shower, he went back to bed and took the phone from his bedside table, and saw a text notification.
His heart leaped.
Could it be Justin?
He opened his messaging app only to see Namjoon confirming their brunch thing tomorrow.
The next day, Jeongguk left early from his house to pick up Taehyung's favorite stuff.
He needed to make sure that he does everything he could just to win him back.
Because Kim Taehyung is everything he needs in his life and nothing can stop him.
He first stopped at the flower shop, then picked up his favorite strawberry cake & strawberry desserts from Taehyung's favorite bakeshop near uni, strawberry milk, and some bungeoppang, one of his favorite street foods.
Jeongguk entered the restaurant, with flowers in one hand and a bag of goodies in the other.
His heart was in his throat as he was nervous to death but then somehow he knew he has something up his sleeve, something that will be to his advantage.
He saw Taehyung sitting down, beautiful in green.
His heart started pounding, totally enamored by his presence.
He was talking to both Namjoon and Seokjin without his eyeglasses but the moment he saw a glimpse of Jeongguk, he put them on.
"For you," Jeongguk said as he handed Taehyung the flowers and the gifts which he gladly accept.
"Thank you," Taehyung said as Jeongguk sat across from him.
Jeongguk removed his jacket before sitting down.
Seokjin was totally amused with what he is seeing right now.
Taehyung paid full attention to Jeongguk as he spoke and Jeongguk just continued making cute faces.
Seokjin looked at Namjoon smiling.
The inevitable and palpable attraction is very evident.
"Thank you Taehyung for choosing my story!" Jin exclaimed.
Taehyung just smiled at him, "it's challenging to choose the best story and yours was very unique."
"Tell me, you have been giving love advice, Tae, it seems that you have so much experience," Jin said.
"Yes, how do you even choose your stories," Namjoon followed up.
Taehyung took a sip of his tea, "it's challenging actually," as he answered Namjoon and Seokjin, stealing glances at Jeongguk whose muscular physique was distracting him.
Jeongguk just lovingly gazed at Taehyung who just answering Jin and Namjoon hyungs' questions.
He's totally smitten with the person in front of him.
Seokjin noticed Jeongguk's eyes not leaving Taehyung and he had a crazy question.
"Tae, I have a question," Jin asked.
"If Jeongguk would seek advice from you, about trying to get back with his first love, what would you tell him?" Jin asked.
Taehyung was stunned by his question.
Jeongguk looked nervously in front of him.
"What will you say?"
Jeongguk shifted in his seat, blood flowing in his cheeks.
He doesn't even know how to react.
Taehyung fiddled with his fingers thinking of a way he'd be able to respond correctly and logically, yes.
And Jeongguk wanted to show that he was mature enough and maybe, make Taehyung feel and see that he is a changed character.
"Hyung, that's unfair to Taehyung," Jeongguk turned to him and said, "Don't answer him Tae," Jeongguk was hoping that he was saying the right things.
But Taehyung, he was curious too as to why the sudden question.
He knows that Seojoon and Jeongguk are not together anymore but that doesn't mean he is allowed to bank on a non-existent hope.
"Wait, I do think I have some advice for him," Taehyung boldly stated.
Jeongguk's eyes widened, nervous and unsettled with Namjoon looking at him and Seokin who started to hold his breath.
Taehyung for the first time after a long time smiled at Jeongguk and he did feel the sincerity coming from him, in the attempt to save him.
"I don't know if you all have been listening in to my show, but, I remember, maybe it was three or four months ago, when a caller asked me the same thing, I mean almost the same thing," Taehyung responded thoughtfully.
Namjoon leaned forward, placing a hand on his chin, with Jin hooking his hand on Namjoon's arm, also nervous about his impulsivity.
Well, Jeongguk, he was holding his breath for a few minutes now. He'd scold Jin hyung later for sure.
Taehyung continued, "The caller's name is Justin Seagull, and if I remember correctly, he got cheated on by his lover, I am sorry, I have to listen again to the recording," Taehyung faced Jeongguk, he was both unfazed and nervous at the same time.
"Anyway, if I remember correctly, my advice for him was to have faith, heal, and when he's ready," Taehyung looked directly at Jeongguk, "talk to his first love."
He then looked at Namjoon and Seokjin, smiling, "and this is DJ V. You are listening to a live broadcast of Late Night Love Talk."
Taehyung's eyes widened like quarters, excited with an awesome idea, "Hyung!" He truned to Namjoon who looked excited too.
"Maybe, I can do a live broadcast of my show!" Taehyung exclaimed.
Namjoon nodded excitedly, "Yes, maybe as the culmination of your book tour."
Jeongguk finally released his breath, relieved but now, his mind started working, there is some form of hope.
Taehyung just declared in front of his friends, there might be some chance.
"Thank you DJ V," Seokjin said as Jeongguk threw daggers at him.
Seokjin gave him arrogant look as he arched an eyebrow.
Jeongguk just shook his head.
"I wonder if my friend would be willing to do a live with me though," Taehyung wondered aloud.
Namjoon's curiosity got piqued, "You have a caller friend?"
"Yeah," Taehyung smiled at him, "in fact, he and I have gotten pretty close."
Namjoon knew where this is heading and for sure, he is more nervous for Jeongguk now.
Jeongguk who was tapping his feet with tongue in cheek.
Taehyung frowned, "Yeah, I hope Justin Seagull would agree to do a live with me."
Taehyung bit at his lip, memories of last night returning to his mind.
Seokjin looked at Jeongguk worriedly, Taehyung who might have replaced him with someone else already.
"Tell me Taehyung, what do you think of this Justin guy?" Seokjin sipped his iced vanilla latte with the waiter finally bringing in their order.
Seokjijn turned to the younger and said, "Jeonggukie, I ordered chicken and waffles for you."
Taehyung took a deep breath and glanced tentatively at Jeongguk and then directed his gaze back to Seokjin, "well, we are in the process of getting to know each other."
Namjoon nodded somehow relieved.
But Jeongguk just sat there & started eating, trying to conceal his horror.
He knows he is in trouble. He's officially screwed.
They ate, they laughed and after thirty minutes, Taehyung wiped his mouth and turned to them, "Thank you for lunch, brunch, I mean, you know what I mean."
"Oh no, no. THANK YOU! Thank you for gracing us with your presence DJ V. We are strangers and yet you agreed to spend some time with us!" Seokjin smiled widely at him.
Taehyung put down the napkin on the table and smiled.
He turned to Jeongguk and said, "well, excluding one."
Jeongguk took it as a sign, something favorable, for both of them.
Is this an indication that Taehyung forgave him already?
Namjoon smiled as he looked at the two, hoping that what he planned for his friend would work, "DJ V, I mean Taehyung, are you doing anything after? Because I remember you told us that you had something else to do."
"Oh, my friend is busy. I am kind of bummed about it actually," Taehyung admitted.
"Why is that?" Jeongguk asked.
Taehyung looked at him, surprised at his boldness.
Jeongguk wonders if Taehyung's just feigning interest or if he's really interested.
Taehyung smiled, "I was actually looking forward to spending time with him."
Seokjin asked, "Is this friend perhaps, somebody you are interested in?"
Taehyung blushed furiously, being reminded of the revealing picture that was sent to him last night, "I just don't know yet."
"I see," Jeongguk said, taking a bite of the banana creme pie he ordered.
"Anyway," Taehyung turned to Namjoon, "why were you asking, hyung, if I was going to do anything after?" Taehyung asked.
Namjoon looked at him then at Jeongguk and thought, here goes.
He grabbed the portfolio bag beside him and Seokjin. He smiled at the both of them then turned his attention to Jeongguk, "I have to bring Seokjin home, he has a previous engagement."
"I do?" Jin asked Namjoon with wide eyes.
"Yeah, remember, you do?" Namjoon gave him a look.
"Oh yeah, I do," Seokjin said, nodding absentmindedly at Namjoon.
"Can you show Taehyung the itinerary for the next two months?" Namjoon asked.
Jeongguk scratched his head, when he asked Namjoon to help him, he didn't think it was going to be this fast.
Jeongguk looked at Taehyung and smiled nervously, "Is that okay?"
Taehyung touched his red ears, all warm from the blood rushing to his face. He was definitely feeling hot and cold and it was driving him nuts.
He looked at Jeongguk who was nervous as well, but Taehyung promised himself, to end his misery, so he took a deep breath, "okay."
Jeongguk released his breath yet again, somehow relieved.
"Are you sure you guys are going to be okay???" Seokjin asked as he and Namjoon stoodup.
Taehyung just smiled anxiously, "I think we'll be okay," he said as he nodded and winked at the both of them.
Jeongguk stood up as Namjoon and Seokjin left to move nearer Taehyung.
He sat down in front of him and asked, "Where do you want to talk, Tae?"
Taehyung looked at Jeongguk, his emotions swarming him all at the same time. It was being unfurled at him with chaos unexpectedly.
He was giddy, nervous, & hesitant. He doesn't even know what to do or what to say for sh!t especially with Jeongguk looking so hot and so single.
He hurt you Tae, he reminded himself.
He looked at Jeongguk and said, "I don't know if it is actually a good idea for us to talk."
Jeongguk's face was indecipherable, he doesn't know what to think about what Taehyung just told him.
He started panicking.
He thought they were okay.
He thought he has a chance.
But now, what is Taehyung trying to tell him?
He doesn't even want to talk to him.
Speechless, Jeongguk looked at the napkin on the table, how should he proceed?
"Sorry," Taehyung said.
"I am so sorry," Jeongguk said.
They both spoke at the same time.
"You first," Jeongguk said after two minutes of silence.
"I mean don't get me wrong, it's actually nice to see you after all this time," Taehyung said, "but I was not mentally prepared to talk to you."
"Oh, is that so?" Jeongguk looked at him, trying to know what Taehyung is feeling right now.
Taehyung looked at him, frowning, "Yea, I mean you walked out without allowing me to explain. I don't even know if you are still angry at me or if you still despise me when all I was asking before was just a break." Taehyung said truthfully, "but I don't think I deserved that."
"But Tae, I..." Jeongguk started saying.
Taehyung turned his head sharply towards Jeongguk yet avoiding his eyes, "let me finish first, please, before I lose my nerve."
Jeongguk leaned on the table as he placed his elbows on the table, looking down at his fingers.
Taehyung took a deep breath and closed his eyes, words swimming in his head.
He bit his lips as he placed his elbows on the table and closed his eyes. "I always had this idea of still being in love with you after all these years," Taehyung said, swallowing, steadying himself.
"In fact, I was still banking, hopeful of that idea I painted in my head about you and me when we haven't been together for 4 years now." Taehyung touched his lips.
He opened his eyes & crossed his arms, still avoiding Jeongguk's eyes, "I realized I was still living in a world of illusion that I created for myself because I didn't want to face the pain but you know what?" Taehyung placed his elbows on the table, finally meeting his eyes.
"You treated me like shit when all I asked for was a break." Taehyung said trying to control the tears from falling from his eyes, "and earlier when I was asked what advice I would give you about wanting to get back with me?" He looked at him wildly.
"I am not a switch you can turn on and off when you want to Jeongguk. I am sorry to say this but I cannot deal with how you want me to, so please, don't expect anything from me." Taehyung said, eyes wet from tears. "We can work together but that's it."
Jeongguk was about to say something when Taehyung just continued, "Please don't show me anything that will bring my hopes up because I just don't want you to smother me with affection causing me to lower my boundaries, then the next thing you know, you walk away."
Jeongguk just stared at Taehyung, shocked by the revelation he just heard.
Reality bites and it sucks for sure.
Jeongguk felt as if he was run over by a ten-wheeler truck, his plans already faltered even before he even began.
For the first time ever, Taehyung expressed his thoughts because he hardly did even when they were together before.
If they fought, he would just stay silent and say sorry and they will fall back into their old routine but this time, he's different.
Jeongguk didn't have any words to say because the pain in Taehyung's eyes was something he was not expecting to see.
"I am sorry..." were the only words that came out of Jeongguk's mouth.
Taehyung just looked blankly at him and it was heart-wrenching for Jeongguk because that time when Taehyung wanted to talk to him, he was already crying and what he did was despicable, because Taehyung needed someone that time but Jeongguk was just a jerk who failed him.
And then it dawned on him, he was the first one who was supposed to be there but he was first one to walk away, "I... am... I... I am really sorry Tae. I am just so sorry." Jeongguk said as he buried his face in his hands.
Taehyung just fiddled with the fork in his hand, as he toyed with the strawberry pie.
It was good to get it off of his chest, but Jeongguk wasn't the only one at fault, he decided to keep it to himself instead of asking for help.
Jeongguk's muffled sobs continued.
He deserved this somehow but he already knew this when he saw Taehyung yesterday. He already knew what to do as he promised himself last night, he would do anything to win him back.
Jeongguk removed his hand from his face with a tissue in front of his face.
He looked up at Taehyung and instead of taking the tissue, he took Taehyung's hands, "I will do anything. I swear I will do everything for you to forgive me."
Taehyung sought Jeongguk's eyes, searching for hesitancy, for apprehension but all he saw was sincerity and a glimmer of hope.
Jeongguk kisses his hand as tears continued falling, "tell me Tae, what do you want me to do, what do you need me to do for you to forgive me?"
"I don't know yet," Taehyung said with a little tenderness.
Jeongguk just squeezed his eyes shut as he held on to his hand, his lips still giving Taehyung's hand feather kisses. His mind swimming with a lot of things.
At least he didn't say no, there's hope somewhere, somehow.
Taehyung pushed his hands toward Jeongguk's face, wiping his tears with the tissue.
Jeongguk gave him a teary smile, "does this mean there may be a chance, a small one perhaps? A sliver? An ounce? Maybe even 0.1%?"
Taehyung smiled a little more, with a minute amount of hope flickering in his heart, "Can we take it a day at a time?"
Jeongguk nodded furiously as he sat up, "okay that is good, thank you."
Taehyung sat up straight, mirroring Jeongguk, wiping his own tears.
He looked at Jeongguk and said, "okay, tell me Mr Jeon, what is our itinerary?"
An hour later, Taehyung arrived back at the hotel with Jeongguk, who insisted to drive him.
Knowing Jeongguk, if he didn't say yes, he would not stop badgering him.
He is still a brat, Taehyung thought, amused with how Jeongguk insisted on carrying his stuff.
Jeongguk insisted on carrying the stuff that he bought him.
"Remember Tae, you have to be here Friday next week..." Jeongguk started.
"Because our flight is on Saturday morning." Taehyung continued as he opened the door.
Taehyung placed the flowers on the top of the table and took the bags from Jeongguk.
Jeongguk just smiled brightly at him, "Okay, I will stop," he peeked inside Taehyung's room, hoping to be invited.
Taehyung looked at him with an arched eyebrow, "really, Jeongguk?"
"What?" Jeongguk feigning innocence.
Jeongguk then raised both his hands in surrender, "Okay, I know, I promised, one day at a time."
Taehyung closed his eyes and then smiled at him, "good."
"Oh, before I forget. Namjoon texted me to tell you. You have a new phone inside the bag." Jeongguk stated. "It has Namjoon's number & mine and," Jeongguk rolled his eyes, "Seokjin hyung."
"Okay, thank you!" Taehyung stated.
"Do you want me to show you the phone?" Jeongguk said, taking a step inside the hotel room, testing his boundaries.
Taehyung rolled his eyes and shook his head in amusement.
"No, Jeonggukie. I am good. You can leave now." Taehyung said, holding him by the shoulders.
He turned him around and pushed him out.
"You have my email and contact information, okay?" Jeongguk stated.
"Yes, Jeonggukie, I know," Taehyung said as he removed his hands from his shoulder.
"Bye, Taehyung, and thank you," Jeongguk beamed at him.
"Bye and thank you, too."
Jeongguk whistled as he went back to the elevator.
That was the sweetest thing he has heard after a long time.
After half an hour, Taehyung sat on his bed after taking a shower.
He felt refreshed, relieved, and unburdened.
He felt light because, after a long time, he can hear silence in his head, and a comfortable one at that.
He didn't say he forgave him yet & somehow he is hoping he would be able to.
Not today but someday.
He took the paper bag that Jeongguk gave him and to his surprise, every dessert he loved was inside the bag, even his favorite street food.
Jeongguk must have thought of that.
He smiled and opened a bottle of strawberry milk.
He took the portfolio bag and opened it.
Inside it was a new phone, his book, and a folder.
On the top of his book was a post-it note.
Taehyung turned his book to the foreword, did Jeongguk read the foreword yet?
Should he be worried?
He took the phone box and opened it.
He turned it on and the moment the system loaded, a message notification popped up.
Taehyung read his message.
He is glad that he is respecting his boundaries, except for what he tried to do earlier.
But that was Jeongguk, that is one of the reasons why he fell in love with him, and maybe that is the reason why it's hard to let go.
After a week, Jeongguk and Taehyung were already off to Tokyo.
To Taehyung's surprise, Jeongguk handed him everything he needed, earphones, water, pillow. All of which he never asked Jeongguk.
Taehyung was so busy taping his episodes that he hardly texted Justin who was extremely busy too.
Their rooms were next to each other.
Jeongguk walked Taehyung first, "dinner later?"
Taehyung just nodded.
Taehyung put his bag and lay on the bed, for two nights with Jeongguk.
Do they need to talk?
Do they need to get along?
Can he just stay in the room?
Taehyung reached for his bag to check what time they'll fly back when he realized that his plane ticket was with Jeongguk.
He grabbed his room card and decided to ask Jeongguk for his plane ticket.
Jeongguk opened the door with an unbuttoned shirt, one hand leaning against the door frame and one on his back, "Hi Tae, what's up?"
Taehyung's eyes widened.
His heart pounding.
His blood rushing.
His ears ringing.
His mouth starting to drool and all he muttered was, "oh, I am sorry for disturbing you," turning around immediately to run to his room.
Jeongguk was genuinely amused for he was preparing to go to the shower when he opened the door he almost forgot that he sent Taehyung a picture of his tattoos as Justin.
He smirked at Taehyung's flushed cheeks.
He saw his eyes travel from his neck to his torso.
When Taehyung turned around and walked away, he immediately grabbed a hoodie from his bag.
He was going to shower later.
He took his key card and exited his room.
He knocked, "Tae?"
Taehyung was startled as he was leaning his head back against the door he just shut.
"Yes?" He responded meekly, filled with embarrassment.
"Hey, Tae, open the door please?" Jeongguk said gently as he stepped nearer the door knowing what Taehyung is doing right now.
Taehyung took a deep breath, there was no escaping this.
He took a deep breath.
"You can do this Kim Taehyung."
He opened the door slowly, with Jeongguk leaning against the door frame.
Phew. He thought for Jeongguk was wearing a long-sleeved shirt.
"Hey Tae, why did you run away?" Jeongguk said gazing teasingly, stepping forward.
"Jeongguk," Taehyung said pushing Jeongguk gently in his chest.
His chest is very muscular.
"I will stop if you stop walking on eggshells around me." Jeongguk said frankly.
Jeongguk looked at Taehyung's hand on his chest.
Taehyung snatched his hand quickly, all now flushed red.
"I am sorry if I am nervous, I mean, it has been a long time," Taehyung stated honestly.
Jeongguk's absolutely right.
He should stop avoiding him.
He should stop running away from his feelings.
Jeongguk had nothing but nice and friendly toward him and he deserves to be treated nicely too.
"It's been a long time and you don't know what to say?" Jeongguk asked.
Taehyung nodded, biting his lower lip.
"I don't know what to say either but we can start somewhere right?" Jeongguk said as he lifted Taehyung's chin to meet his eyes.
Jeongguk smiled at him.
Taehyung smiled back, remembering how shy Jeongguk really is.
"Yes, you are right." Taehyung nodded.
"In all honesty, I clam up when I see you looking at me," Jeongguk looked down at his feet.
"Why?" Taehyung asked him.
"Have you seen how gorgeous you have become?"
"Oh, shush, don't tell me that Jeonggukie." Taehyung pouted. "Have you seen yourself?"
"What? About me?"
"Jeongguk, you're hot." Taehyung said instantaneously.
He immediately put his hand in his mouth.
'Kim Taehyung, hold your thoughts!'
Jeongguk took it as a positive sign.
He took a step forward and looked at Taehyung smiling, "So, you think I am hot?"
Taehyung bit his lip.
Why does Jeongguk have to be so damn attractive?
His heart started racing as Jeongguk stepped forward into his personal space.
Taehyung put his hand on his chest again and looked into Jeongguk's eyes, faces mere inches apart, "Gukkie, you promised."
Jeongguk took a deep breath and took a step back, "okay, I know, I promised."
Taehyung started catching his breath as he tried to regain his composure.
Taehyung took a step back as well, there was no use running away now.
"I was just going to ask you for my plane ticket." Taehyung said, "do you want to come in? I have a few questions about the schedule."
Jeongguk nodded, enthusiastically.
His face brightened up. Finally he got an invitation, a good indication of allowing him to step within his personal space.
"Of course," Jeongguk said, noticing their rooms were adjoined with a door.
"Jeon Jeongguk, stop with your thoughts."
"I wasn't thinking about anything," Jeongguk tried feigning innocence.
"Yeah, yeah, whatever," Taehyung said as he took the folder from the bag.
Jeongguk just chuckled, "You haven't changed Tae."
"And you are still a menace." Taehyung smiled at him sincerely.
"Jeongguk, so we go to Tokyo, then Osaka?" Taehyung asked.
"Yes and then we go back to Seoul for a week, then go Singapore, Jakarta," Jeongguk said.
"Then go back to Seoul again for a week?" Taehyung asked curiously, "why is that?"
Jeongguk looked at him, "because we have to make sure that the bookstores get their book supply first. They talk to Namjoon who talks about advertising strategy. They play maybe two of your shows and then get the audience feels."
"That's too much work huh?" Taehyung asked.
"Yes and no. Your show had been featured all over Southeast Asia now," Jeongguk stated.
"It is?" Taehyung looked at him both surprised and amazed.
"Didn't Wooshikssi tell you?" Jeongguk frowned.
"He must have told me, I was just not paying attention." Taehyung responded, "I had been very busy the past few months."
"Taping?" Jeongguk asked.
"Yeah." Taehyung nodded.
"I am proud of you, you know?" Jeongguk said honestly.
Taehyung looked Jeongguk, his eyes were full of questions but they both know, sooner rather than later, they have to talk about their personal lives.
"Why is that?"
"Because you have made a name for yourself while taking care of your dad," Jeongguk responded.
"Oh." Taehyung said as he sat on his bed and leaned at the headboard with Jeongguk sitting at the edge of his bed.
"Yeah, I am glad he's better though." Jeongguk added.
"Thank you," Taehyung said solemnly.
Jeongguk's stomach rumbled which made Taehyung laugh.
"What?" Jeongguk looked at him wildly.
"Your stomach hasn't changed either," Taehyung said jokingly.
"I have fast metabolism!" Jeongguk exclaimed.
"Do you wanna grab something to eat?" Taehyung stood up.
"Really?" Jeongguk giving him puppy eyes.
"Yes, I'm hungry too!"
It was already 2 pm when they stepped out of the hotel.
"Are we walking?" Taehyung asked as they joined the people on the streets.
The light spring breeze gently touched their faces when Taehyung turned to Jeongguk.
Jeongguk looked back at him and asked, "Tae?"
"Thank you," Taehyung said as he started walking.
"What for?" Jeongguk responded.
"For remembering..." Taehyung said as he squeezed nearer Jeongguk because of people passing him.
Jeongguk stopped walking, he turned to face him amidst the people passing them by.
"I booked the hotel in Shibuya because I know how we dreamed of going when the Cherry Blossoms bloom," Jeongguk said, cupping Taehyung's cheeks gently.
"That's why I am thanking you," Taehyung said, holding Jeongguk's hand for the first time.
People bumped into Taehyung making him lunge forward to Jeongguk who just caught him.
Their faces were so near that they forgot to breathe.
They looked into each other's eyes forgetting their surroundings until someone else bumped into Jeongguk, breaking their trance.
"I guess it's time to go now," Taehyung said, finally releasing his breath.
Jeongguk nodded smiling, giddy and happy.
Slow and steady wins the race Jeonggukie, he thought as he took Taehyung's hand, guiding him, crossing Shibuya together.
They stepped inside Han no Daidokoro Bettei, a Korean bbq place where they serve Wagyu.
Taehyung turned to Jeongguk, so excited that he grabbed his hand and walked inside the restaurant.
Jeongguk just smiled.
Savoring this feeling.
His hand on his and it was just simply sublime.
An inch can be an inch but sometimes it can also be a mile.
The attendant led them to their booth.
Both of them sit across one another.
Taehyung then wondered about who was going to pay for this.
He looked around just looking at how fancy everything is and he is aware too that they had food allowance but this was just expensive.
"Jeonggukie, who's paying for all this?" He asked, looking up from the menu.
"I am. I am treating you." Jeongguk said, his attention unfazed by the question.
"Oh, but why?" Taehyung asked.
Jeongguk looked from the menu, "remember a day at a time?"
"I promised you I will do anything to win you back. Do you remember that?"
"Oh," Taehyung covered his face with the menu, trying to hide his blush.
He's both overjoyed and overwhelmed.
It's not that he doesn't know what to do, it's more of allowing him to react
how he wanted to.
There was still fear and apprehension but how would he know if he would not give Jeongguk the chance he's asking?
The waiter approached them and asked, "what is your order?"
Jeongguk chose three meats, Taehyung doing the same.
They ordered rice and banchan and before doing so, Jeongguk asked the waiter if they had mild kimchi or spicy ones which made Taehyung smile.
"Yes, we do have mild because not all like spicy."
"Can we get that, please?"
They ordered soju which made Taehyung nervous.
He knows how he is when he gets buzzed but to hell with it. He only lives once right?
Jeongguk took charge of the grilling while Taehyung was watching him, amazed because it was as if that time didn't pass.
"So Gukkie, how did you get into publishing?" Taehyung asked.
"My awesome personality," he said, trying to conceal his smile.
"Really?" Taehyung shook his head as Jeongguk placed the meat in his place.
"Tch." Jeongguk made a face which made Taehyung laugh.
"Okay fine!" Jeongguk rolled his eyes which made Taehyung laugh even more,
"Namjoon hyung took a chance with me." Jeongguk responded seriously.
Taehyung's eyes sparkled, proud of what Jeongguk had become too.
"That's great and do you love what you do?" Taehyung asked.
"It has good and bad. You know, I am usually flying, and yeah, it's tough sometimes." Jeongguk paused, hypnotized by the fire from the grill.
Taehyung felt the uneasiness so he poured soju into Jeongguk's glass.
"A toast?" Taehyung raised his.
"Okay," Jeongguk lit up.
Jeongguk cleared his throat, "for the success of your book, safe travels, and second chances." He gazed lovingly into Taehyung's eyes.
And surprisingly enough, Taehyung didn't protest because all of what he said were real.
Their meal was delicious.
They caught up a little.
They left the restaurant.
They had good laughs and good food and that was absolutely incomparable.
They just walked and talked about music, food, books, Jeongguk's travels, Beat the Morning Rush, and prepping for a show just to name a few.
Their feet walking without any directions led them to the Meguro Sky Garden where Cherry Blossoms are beautifully blooming.
"How pretty!" Taehyung exclaimed as he looked around.
"Very pretty indeed," Jeongguk said, his eyes not leaving Taehyung's face.
Taehyung turned to him and suddenly looked down blushing.
"Hey, Tae, why are you still shy?" Jeongguk asked lifting his chin to meet his eyes.
Taehyung looked at him from under his lashes, "I never had a relationship after you, so, I am not used to it anymore."
Jeongguk searched Taehyung's eyes and he saw hope with a tinge of fear and he couldn't blame him.
"I am sorry, Tae, I... have no excuse for what I did," Jeongguk cupped his cheek, "I know it's not easy just to say you forgive me and I will not force you."
Taehyung's heart was flooded with gladness but something was still holding him back, he's still afraid.
Taehyung just nodded and said, "Yes, please be patient with me if you meant what you said, you'll wait for me to be ready."
"I will," Jeongguk said, holding himself back because he wanted to kiss him and show him that it's still in his heart.
The wind started to blow as grey clouds started rolling in.
Jeongguk and Taehyung both looked at the sky.
"I guess it's time to walk back?" Taehyung asked.
"What are you doing when we get in?" Jeongguk asked as they started walking faster.
"I was thinking of watching something in Netflix." Taehyung answered.
"Is it okay if I join you?" Jeongguk asked.
Taehyung looked at him quickly and concentrated on walking.
There's nothing wrong with it, right?
"Okay," Taehyung said walking faster as it started drizzling.
Jeongguk stopped walking, he said yes.
Everything is going the way he wanted.
He does not want to lose his chance now.
He knows what to do more than ever.
Taehyung turned around, "Jeonggukie?"
They got back to the hotel right before it started pouring.
They were wet but not entirely drenched.
But what they wore was seen in both their faces, the smiles were just very bright, and to others, everyone will say that they are nothing but in love.
It was 6 pm when they got back and Jeongguk took a quick shower, excited of what's to come.
Taehyung said to swing by around 7:30 and
Jeongguk stretched and suddenly sat up.
He hasn't messaged DJ V and it has been a long time.
He took his phone.
He needs to come clean to DJ V if he wants to win over Kim Taehyung entirely.
He started composing a text, hoping he was doing the right thing.
Taehyung just came out of the shower.
His head filled with thoughts about Jeongguk.
How he cut his meat and cooked it.
How he put rice in the bowl and blew it before handing it to him.
Everything that Jeongguk did, well, it was how he was. The only difference?
The only difference was that they were older and he's more handsome and muscular.
And Taehyung was trying really hard.
Harnessing all the willpower he could muster and he thinks he is slowly losing it.
His phone buzzed, oh, it's Justin. He almost forgot about him.
He knew a week ago he had been invested to get to know him more most especially with the picture he sent.
The muscles, the tattoos.
Truth to be told, Justin's delicious but so is Jeongguk.
He looked at Justin's response suddenly interested in the call to honesty.
Taehyung's heart started pounding, what if Justin declares his love for him?
He has plans to invite him to the show and if he denies him then who would be his guest?
He took a deep breath, his phone buzzed becoming very antsy about Justin's response.
Taehyung looked at Justin's message, what advice was he talking about?
About moving on?
Was he being honest with his feelings toward him?
Goosebumps spread throughout Taehyung's body, why is he feeling disappointed with himself for leading Justin on.
Then his phone buzzed.
Taehyung smiled because essentially they are in the same boat but he was happy for Justin and himself too because who knew his advice would work when Seokjin hyung's didn't?
And like the DJ V that he is, Justin asked for some advice once again but he is glad that he didn't succumb to temptation.
Taehyung snickered, didn't he just advise himself to move on as well?
He shook his head smiling as he typed in his response, what kind of moving on included pining for his first love?
Can the term moving on mean that he is just letting go of the pain of the past and looking forward to a promise? A chance?
He put down his phone and smiled.
He's happy for Justin.
He's hoping he'd get the same kind of happiness too.
He's hoping too that he is making the right choices.
He looked at the clock on his nightstand, it was almost 7:30.
So he cleaned up his clutter and swallowed nervously.
His heart started pounding, anticipating for the doorbell to ring anytime soon.
The doorbell rang and when he opened the door, Jeongguk was wearing a leather jacket, droplets of rain on his hair and a dozen of red roses.
"Jeongguk, you didn't have to," Taehyung said as Jeongguk handed him the roses.
"Wait," Jeongguk said as he ran out of the room and went to his.
Taehyung tried to peek only to see Jeongguk with a tray filled with Kawaii treats.
"Aww, Kookie!" Taehyung exclaimed.
"Wait, not yet," Jeongguk said.
Taehyung was already feeling very thrilled about what Jeongguk was doing.
"You might get hungry later when we watch Netflix so I just got a little of everything." Jeongguk said as he placed more on the table.
"Wow," Taehyung smiled, very delighted with what Jeongguk got him.
"Where did you get them?" Taehyung said, gently fiddling with the rose petals, "and when?"
"There's a store near the hotel and the flowers from the hotel florist," Jeongguk said.
He was really trying.
And Taehyung gathered his marbles, hoping what he's doing is still not rushing.
He took a step forward and kissed Jeongguk on the cheek, "Thank you."
Jeongguk grinned, he must be doing everything right.
"I love your room!" Jeongguk chuckled.
"We have the same room!" Taehyung rolled his eyes.
Taehyung comfortably sat on his bed, leaning on the wall with Jeongguk still standing.
"What are you doing Gukkie? Sit!" Taehyung ordered him.
Jeongguk sat on the other side of the bed, "what are we watching Tae?"
"I am thinking between Alchemy of Souls or Our Beloved Summer," Taehyung answered turning on the TV.
"What do you feel watching?" Jeongguk looked deeply into Taehyung's eyes.
"Our Beloved Summer?"
"Okay." Jeongguk said.
They started watching.
Why did they watch it again?
Wasn't it like them as well?
They were already at episode 4 when Netflix asked them if they wanted to continue watching.
Taehyung turned around at the same time as Jeongguk.
They looked up...
And the moment their eyes met, electricity passed.
Taehyung held his breath as he stared into Jeongguk's lips, those lips that kissed him tens and thousands of times.
Jeongguk's heart was racing as he licked his lips.
Taehyung's mind was a total mess, unable to think anymore.
Taehyung looked into Jeongguk's eyes. It was sparkling and dreamy and Taehyung's body just tingled all over.
Jeongguk tried catching his breath as he saw Taehyung's pupils dilate.
His heart was already pounding in his ears as the surroundings disappear.
"Taehyung?" Jeongguk asked as their heads move forward closer.
"Is this okay? Are we okay if...?" Jeongguk asked, seeking permission.
Taehyung just stared into his lips, unable to answer while their heads moved even closer.
Taehyung's eyes fluttered.
Jeongguk could feel his face already as he smelled his sweet scent.
Jeongguk's heart started pounding.
He felt as if he was on a roller coaster ride, slowly reaching the top.
Adrenaline. It's slowly surging and Jeongguk doesn't know if he can keep his promise.
"Taehyung?" Jeongguk asked breathlessly.
"Will you get mad at me if I break my promise?" Jeonghuk said as his hand automatically cupped Taehyung's cheeks, lips merely centimeters apart.
Taehyung held his breath without thinking, the air was suspended in his throat.
Jeongguk saw Taehyung part his lips, ever so lightly.
It was parted, slightly tingling.
Taehyung's eyelashes fluttered before closing his eyes, "I am breaking my promise too."
And Jeongguk's lips finally touched Taehyung's.
Taehyung started melting as Jeongguk's lips touched his with the lightest pressure, then a soft, warm exhale with an imperceptible hum.
And the world stopped because for the first time in years, Jeongguk felt right back home.
It was slow.
It was soft.
It was perfect and Taehyung could not ask for anything more.
Jeongguk broke the kiss and looked at Taehyung who was blushing.
Taehyung finally released his breath when Jeongguk leaned his forehead against his and lightly kissed his nose.
"Hi," Jeongguk said, smiling at him.
Taehyung felt shy as he looked down.
His heart was still pounding with excitement because, well, he missed him and his kisses.
"Hey," Jeongguk lifted his chin up and stroked his cheek, "Tae..."
And Taehyung felt his cheeks reddened.
"Are you mad at me?" Jeongguk asked him gently.
Taehyung shook his head, "I..."
Jeongguk continued stroking his cheek.
"I feel wonderful," Taehyung finally said and Jeongguk smiled widely as he kissed his forehead.
Jeongguk gathered Taehyung in his arms, "I missed you."
Taehyung just smiled as he curled himself in his chest.
"You are not soft and fuzzy anymore." He said.
Jeongguk gently laughed, "what do you mean?"
"Look at you all muscular with no ounce of fat in your body!" Taehyung exclaimed, looking up at Jeongguk.
"I worked out when I travel, that's what I do." Jeongguk said.
Jeongguk then looked deeply into Taehyung' eyes, "Are we okay though? Or do you want to take a step back?"
"I don't know yet, I am so confused!" Taehyung said covering his face with his hands.
"Hey, Tae. Talk to me. Don't hide your pretty face from me, please?" Jeongguk asked as he took Taehyung's hand and slowly removed it from his face.
"What are you confused about?"
"All these feelings, Gukkie. It came rushing back in." Taehyung said, "And I am so overwhelmed."
"I am overwhelmed too, Tae. Like I want to smother you all at once. I want to make up for lost time. Four years were long and dark." Jeongguk said.
Taehyung's brows furrowed. "It was not for you."
Taehyung sat up and looked at Jeongguk, "Unease my burden?"
Jeongguk knew what was coming and somehow, somewhere, he had to face this.
"Tell me how you and Seojoon became a couple?" Taehyung asked, "then maybe it will help me too."
Jeongguk looked at Taehyung who was serious yet tender, "okay, if it helps for you to forgive me, I will."
Taehyung then slowly wriggled out of his arms which made Jeongguk pout.
Taehyung turned to look at Jeongguk and smiled, "Your muscles are distracting me."
Jeongguk laughed, "Is that so?" He said flexing his muscles all the more.
"Stop!" Taehyung giggled.
"Okay, okay, I am stopping." Jeongguk said, "are you hungry?" He asked Taehyung who placed a pillow on his thighs and nodded.
"What do you want?" Jeongguk said as he stood up and brought the Kawaii treats.
"The strawberry!" Taehyung gushed excitedly.
Jeongguk smiled and handed it to him.
"Yum!" Taehyung said, eyes smiling.
Jeongguk smiled too because this is what he missed with Taehyung. He has this generally happy persona who light up the room everything he walks by.
Jeongguk handed him the fork & the moment he did, Taehyung immediately snatched it from his hand.
He took a strawberry, placed it in his mouth & closed his eyes, "this is delicious!" Taehyung said, the look of satisfaction can be seen his face.
Taehyung then looked at Jeongguk.
"What dessert are you getting?" He asked as he chewed.
"I will grab something later, I am still full," Jeongguk responded.
He was hungry though but he does not want to miss the chance to watch Taehyung eat.
Taehyung had the fork in between his lips when he looked at Jeongguk.
He knew he was watching him eat as he used to when they were in uni.
Taehyung shook his head, looking down, a blushing mess.
"Stop it, Gukkie," he said as he toyed with the dessert.
"What did I do?"
"You are staring at me," Taehyung said, looking squarely at him.
Jeongguk was just smiling, his heart dizzy with happiness.
"Eat or we are not talking," Taehyung said.
Jeongguk took a snack from opened it, "satisfied?"
"Hmmm," Taehyung said as he placed another forkful of strawberries in his mouth.
Taehyung then said, "I remember when we were studying before, you never got anything done because you'd just stare at me."
Jeongguk clearly remembers those days and he just loved them.
Jeongguk went back to where he was sitting earlier beside Taehyung on the bed while Taehyung finished his dessert.
He placed the plate and fork on the bedside table and took a drink of water.
Jeongguk just leaned on the headboard watching Taehyung.
And it was pleasantly unnerving.
"At this point, there's no stopping you huh?" Taehyung asked after drinking water and placing it back on the table.
Jeongguk just shook his head.
"Okay, tell me," Taehyung said as he took his phone and opened his music app.
He connected it earlier to the Bluetooth speaker.
He turned off the TV and played music, it was from his slow jams playlist.
Taehyung turned to Jeongguk, "how did you and Seojoon get together?"
"Are you sure Taehyungie?" Jeongguk asked.
"Don't Taehyungie me, spill."
Lauv's Paris in the Rain softly played in the background as Jeongguk took a deep breath as he gathered his thoughts, he closed his eyes and pinched the bridge of his nose.
What did DJ V say? Be honest and natural.
Okay, got it.
"Let's start when you told me you wanted a break and I was lost. We just graduated and I was going to ask you to move in with me and you just told me you needed a break and go away. I felt hopeless, and rejected so I didn't want to hear your explanation anymore."
Taehyung closed his eyes & listened to his words & the song in the background.
Why didn't he say he needed to go because of his Appa? It would have been different if maybe he had been honest with him.
He looked at Jeongguk who was leaning on the side of his temple, facing him.
"I was just hurt so I walked out and I was waiting for you to reach out to me, you know, when we fight you were usually relentless and bug the hell out of me, regardless of who made the mistake. I was waiting for that and then you didn't come back." Jeongguk said carefully."
Taehyung watched him, and gazed at him tenderly, trying to say that he was willing to listen.
"I looked for you one time but you were not in the dorm anymore and you know, I was immature and shallow so I went drinking with Seojoon and the others."
Another mellow song started playing. It was You by Regard and Troye Sivan. Taehyung thought how fitting. This playlist must be created for this night.
"Well, I was hanging on to Seojoon and he was just being sympathetic and there for me and it became a regular thing."
"We became each other's regular habit because you know, we bonded because you left. I think it was the familiarity that drew me in and I have to admit I should have looked for you, but you know, pride got in the way." Jeongguk with a strained smile looked directly at Taehyung.
Taehyung just listened, his emotions were slowly surfacing as he listened to Jeongguk.
"And to think of it right now, instead of enabling me to cling on to him, he should have communicated with you two. You were best friends but he just took advantage of it." Jeongguk added.
The song continued playing and Taehyung chuckled internally at how destiny was choosing the songs randomly in his playlist most especially when Ariana Grande's Boyfriend started playing.
Jeongguk chuckled lightly, "this playlist is fitting, don't you think?"
Taehyung nodded with his fingers playing with his lower lip, "I was actually just thinking of the same thing."
Jeongguk smiled at him then looked at him solemnly, "would you want me to continue?"
"Yes, please," Taehyung answered.
"Are you okay so far?" Jeongguk asked, his voice filled with concern.
"I am okay, Jeonggukie." Taehyung said assuringly.
"Okay, so, where was I?"
"About Seojoon not being objective?" Taehyung suggested.
"Yeah." Jeongguk gave him a small grin. "Here I am grinning while I am talking about my sob story when we were not together."
Taehyung sucked his upper lip, controlling the urge to smile. It had been weirdly pleasant.
"Seojoon became a routine until we went out and dated and since we were both busy, I think he got bored." Jeongguk suddenly looked at Taehyung. "What I am about to say may make you angry at me, so, please if you could listen until I finish my story."
"Six or seven months ago, Seokjin hyung was raving about how this radio program from Daegu was helping people with their love problems."
Left and Right by Charlie Puth and Jungkook of BTS started playing.
Taehyung leaned forward as Jeongguk suddenly became a little too serious. He held his breath as he listened to his words.
"Namjoon suggested for me to call in but my introverted self came over me so I typed a letter instead."
Taehyung's eyes widened, "Justin Seagull?"
"Yes, and I wrote the letter and never got to listen because I was on one of my business trips until Seokjin and Namjoon finally told me they got together." Jeongguk looked at Taehyung, beseeching for his understanding.
And Taehyung's face became serious yet non-judgemental as he still paid attention to Jeongguk.
"Okay, so yeah, and then I was going to chat with you about my plans to propose when that same day I caught Seojoon in a liplock with your guys' old friend..."
Jeongguk nodded, "I was upset but never angry. Maybe it was pride?" Jeongguk shrugged then continued talking, "so I decided to call in and got hypnotized by your voice not knowing that DJ V was actually you."
"Oh." Taehyung was all he could say.
"And then there was something with you that continued pulling me in and I just loved talking to you. Like your text, your messages, no matter how short, your voice soothed my heart and I," Jeongguk looked up at Taehyung, "started falling in love with DJ V."
Fijii Blue's Affection softly played in the background as Jeongguk explained.
"I saw you, of course, during the live broadcast and after so many years, I finally realized what a jerk I must have been to you." Jeongguk looked at Taehyung, his hand moving nearer Taehyung's.
"And then I saw you with Hyo-shin and I got ugly jealous and so I sent you the half-body picture." Jeongguk looked down at his fingers.
"You have tattoos now?" Taehyung exclaimed.
"Tae, I am explaining here, can you focus please?" Jeongguk scolded him.
Jeongguk has tattoos now and he was the one in the black buff shirt that had him salivate when he was at Hyo-shin.
"Did you do that deliberately?" Taehyung arched an eyebrow.
"Yes," Jeongguk sighed loudly, "I did because he was all over you and I didn't want to lose my chance."
Jeongguk covered his face with his hands and continued talking, "And I didn't know how to tell you how I felt until earlier after we went out. I was just trying to find the words to tell you the truth because I want to be honest with you and listen to DJ V's advice."
Taehyung was quiet, relieved, confused, and happy. Feeling all sorts of emotions.
He looked at him and removed his hands from his face.
Taehyung smiled at him.
Double Take by Dhruv started playing and the lyrics were just overflowing with love and so was his heart.
"You were going to propose to Seojoon?" Taehyung looked at him worriedly, "are you still in love with him?"
Jeongguk looked at Taehyung whose eyes were slowly brimming with tears.
Jeongguk reached out for Taehyung and hugged him.
Taehyung wept silently.
"No, initially I thought I was going to until he started changing, becoming colder, not even aware of when I was coming back from my business trips." Jeongguk said, rocking Taehyung gently.
"Are you sure you want me back, maybe I am Seojoon's rebound?" Taehyung said, his fear slowly surfacing.
"Taehyung, baby, listen," Jeongguk said, looking at Taehyung, wiping the tears from his eyes, "you can ask Jin or Namjoon hyung, you were all I talk about."
"Even after all these years?" Taehyung asked.
"Even after all these years." Jeongguk said, gazing lovingly in his eyes.
Taehyung leaned on Jeongguk's chest, inhaling his scent.
His scent that he missed.
"I always thought that you were going to be the one who got away," Jeongguk said.
"How come you didn't follow me?" Taehyung said, sitting straight.
"Pride? I didn't know what to say. I was wallowing in self-pity. I had this picture in my mind that I will move in with you."
"And then you told me you needed a break and then all of a sudden everything became dismal, I became angry at you without knowing why." Jeongguk said.
"I am sorry, I should have told you about my father. I just didn't because I didn't want to burden you with my problems."
Both of them shifted in the bed, as Jeongguk moved closer and Taehyung sat in between his legs, all curled up, his head leaning on his chest.
They were silent for a bit. Just listening to songs playing.
When Get Me started playing (Justin Bieber and Kehlani), Taehyung took a deep breath, "do you want to know something?"
"What is it?" Jeongguk asked.
"I decided to let you go." Taehyung said.
"I know, you told me remember? As DJ V to Justin." Jeongguk said, resting his chin on Taehyung's head, "and I saw your foreword revision. When I saw you as DJ V, I realized that I referred to your ex as an idiot, well, me and kind of gotten sad when you removed your dedication+
"Yeah," Taehyung said.
Taehyung sat up straight and looked at Jeongguk, "I don't know how to process my emotions right now, both as me and DJ V."
Jeongguk just looked at him, in awe of him.
"I was stupid for my inability to communicate," Taehyung said.
"And I was stupid for that too. I mean I know you to be level-headed and have a reason for everything, I should have just demanded why instead of sulking like a brat." Jeongguk stated.
"So, what do we do now, Jeon Jeongguk?" Taehyung asked him frankly.
Jeongguk inched forward, looking at Taehyung's lips, "if I were to be asked, I want you, right here, right now. I need you 100% back in my life. How about you?"
"Take things slowly still but not a day at a time anymore," Taehyung responded honestly.
"Okay, that sounds good. Any chance is 6, as long as you finally know my truth." Jeongguk said, lips lightly brushing against his.
Taehyung nodded and surrendered himself to the kiss, his heart and mind at peace.
Jeongguk felt the same, being able to tell his truth because somehow he was able to express how he really feels and that's the most important thing of all.
"Kookie?" Taehyung asked in between kisses.
"Yes, Tae?" Jeongguk asked breaking the kiss.
Taehyung looked at him with eyebrows furrowed, looking down thinking.
"What is it?" Jeongguk asked worriedly.
"You have tattoos?"
And Jeongguk laughed and kissed Taehyung once again.
"This is your captain speaking. Our flight will be arriving 20 minutes earlier our expected arrival. The inland temperature is 23 degrees Celsius with a slight breeze. Ladies & gentlemen, as we start our descent, +
please make sure your seat backs & tray tables are in their full upright position. Make sure your seat belt is securely fastened & all carry-on luggage is stowed underneath the seat in front of you or in the overhead bins. Thank you for flying Korea Air."
It had been the third leg of the book tour and Taehyung and Jeongguk are arriving from Hong Kong.
It had been absolutely delightful for the both of them, rekindling their love, getting to know each other once again.
It had been 6 weeks since their confession and they are still taking things except for the constant kisses, hand holding, and hugs and movie dates but as far as intimacy is concerned, they have not crossed that line just yet.
Jeongguk has been the perfect gentleman and Taehyung cannot be any happier.
Of course there may be some qualm and slight hesitation not because of the lack of familiarity but because of their 4-year separation.
"Hey Tae?" Jeongguk said as he touched Taehyung ever so lightly.
He had his ear phones on, napping on his shoulder.
He slowly opened his eyes and smiled.
He loved this feeling, of being close to Jeongguk.
"We are landing soon." Jeongguk said.
Taehyung tried his best to stretch his long legs in the cramped space but he still won't complain because travels with Jeongguk was absolutely nice.
They are rediscovering each other at other places with beautiful sights which make it more special.
After Tokyo, he had been to book tours at Osaka, Singapore, Jakarta and their most recent stop was at Hong Kong.
Every new sight, new experience for Taehyung became much more special with Jeongguk in charge of the book tours.
"Tae?" Jeongguk turned to him.
"Did the publishing house get you a room again tonight to stay in Seoul?" Jeongguk asked.
"Yes they did." Taehyung said, putting his headphones in his backpack.
"Tell Namjoon you won't need it next time." Jeongguk said.
Taehyung looked at him with a questioning look, "And why is that Mr Jeon?"
"Maybe, just maybe, you'd consider staying in my flat instead." Jeongguk said, licking his lips nervously.
Taehyung smiled, sucking in his lips, is it time to take the next step? It had been a long time.
"I will think about it." Taehyung said, looking outside his window, staring at the clouds, blushing.
Jeongguk touched his shoulder lightly, "Am I being too forward?"
Taehyung shook his head, "I am just surprised with your request." His cheeks turning redder.
Jeongguk clasped his hand against his and looked deep into his eyes, "whatever you are comfortable Tae, it's just that I miss the cuddles during sleep. Having you back in my arms again, well it has been sublime and for me to wrap my arms around you when we sleep will be heaven."
"How about cancelling my room next time when we go to Taipei and I just stay with you?" Taehyung suggested which made Jeongguk smile.
"Okay, I will take care of that." Jeongguk responded happily.
"Are you ready for MBC anniversary gala tonight?" Jeongguk asked.
"You are invited too right?" Taehyung asked.
"Yes but you have your book signing at Daegu tomorrow afternoon." Jeongguk said. "What time will we leave tomorrow if the gala is until midnight?"
"We'll just leave early." Taehyung said. "Do you want to leave together or do you need to take care of things in the office?" Taehyung asked as he put his chair in the upright position ready for landing.
"I may have some things to take care of but I will let you know."
They exited the airport with Namjoon and Seokjin already waiting in the arrival area.
"Hyungs, you should not have." Taehyung said.
"Yes, we can grab a taxi or a ride share." Jeongguk responded.
"Ah, we insist. I am just excited I was instrumental with you getting back together." Namjoon said.
"Nope, nope, nope." Seokjin threw a angry glare at Namjoon.
"What?" Namjoon asked.
"It's all my brilliant idea. Stop grabbing the credit." Seokjin said laughing.
Taehyung smiled at Seokjin who had been a great friend this past few weeks.
When the laughter subsided and they got in the SUV.
Taehyung looked at the both of them and asked, "Did my employment invite you to their gala?"
"Yes, we are going. Do you want to go together?" Namjoon asked.
"I have to leave early, because my boss Wooshik and the other radio jockeys are going to be there from all over the country, so yeah, my presence was requested to come earlier." Taehyung said.
Jeongguk was quiet, pretending to play with his phone.
His thoughts and emotions were all over the place.
Do they need to attend this gala?
Taehyung noticed Jeongguk's silence, so he nudged him lightly, "are you doing okay?"
Jeongguk just smiled, "a little tired."
Taehyung kissed his cheek lightly.
Jeongguk grinned at him.
"For you to feel better." Taehyung said.
"Can we go to lunch first before dropping Taehyung off?" Jin asked loudly.
Jeongguk sat up suddenly, "yes, I am hungry!"
Taehyung leaned on him, biting his nails, "is that why you are quiet? I notice you get quiet when you are hungry." He chuckled.
Jin turned around, smiling brightly, seeing them sweet and comfortable, "He's always hungry ain't he?"
Jeongguk grinned, "Hyung!"
The gala was held at Lotte Hotel Seoul.
It was MBC's founding anniversary (a/n it's first air date is September actually but for the intents and purpose of this story, we are doing it in May) and it was a great event for the broadcast community in Seoul.
Taehyung was talking to Wooshik his boss about how the taped shows have been working well.
"We must have something ready to do just in case, though." Woo-shik told Taehyung.
"Oh, how big is a radio equipment?" Taehyung asked curiously.
"There are portable ones. The station can provide you that and maybe your own wireless router." Woo-shik thoughtfully said. "That's very smart. I like that idea." He said giving him a pat on the shoulders.
Other MBC bosses started talking to Woo-shik so he excused himself.
He started walking to the lobby and saw Yoongi and Jimin taking a portrait photo.
He smiled and waved excitedly at them.
"Hyung!" Taehyung exclaimed.
Yoongi ruffled Taehyung's hair, "nice to see you kid."
Jimin smiled widely at him, "I heard you might have gotten a love life."
Taehyung laughed, "Hahaha." He turned to Yoongi, "Why are you spreading news about me?"
"Only to Jimin, kid. It's nice to see you smiling." Yoongi said sincerely.
Taehyung stretched his neck to see if Jeongguk already arrived but he has not yet.
"Excuse me, I will just go to the restroom." Taehyung told Yoongi and Jimin.
He was walking when Seojoon and Hyungsik just finished taking their photo.
"Kim Taehyung!" Seojoon called.
Taehyung closed his eyes, dreading this moment. He forgot Seojoon is a broadcast journalist.
He turned around and smiled at the both of them.
"It's been a long time!"
"Hey guys, nice to see you together." Taehyung just gave them a polite smile.
Seojoon interlaced his finger with Hyungsik and looked at Taehyung, "It's been a process."
"I see, care to elaborate?" Taehyung already controlling his anger.
Seojoon touched Taehyung's arm gently, "It had been a process because we realized it after Jeongguk and I..."
"Yeah I know about it. Why did you have to string Jeongguk along?" Taehyung spoke to Seojoon frankly, they have been best friends in the past.
"I know and I am sorry. I should not have." Seojoon said.
Hyungsik then spoke, "It was my fault too Taehyung."
Taehyung looked at Hyungsik exasperatedly, "Why is that?"
"If I became honest with Seojoon in the first place then he and Jeongguk should not have happened."
"Calling all staff members, your presence is requested in the ballroom." An announcement came through the speakers.
Taehyung just shook his head. "I have to go."
"Taehyung I am really sorry," Seojoon said.
Taehyung just shrugged.
Jeongguk just arrived with Namjoon and Seokjin at the same time the announcement requested all the MBC staff member to go inside the ballroom.
"Hyung, why do you have to be so slow, I wasn't able to see Taehyung!" Jeongguk groaned as they walked inside the lobby.
"Dr Kim!" someone called out.
Namjoon stiffened, giving Jeongguk a knowing look.
"Hi Dr Jung," Namjoon nodded.
"Hey doctor, what are you doing here?" Jin said smiling brightly at him.
"Just checking out. I saw you and I just wanted to say hi." Hoseok said.
"Oh, wait, please meet Namjoon from Korea Publishing Association." Jin said.
"And Jin's boyfriend." Namjoon added holding out his hand to Hoseok.
"Nice to meet you. Listen I have to go. It's nice seeing Dr Kim." Hoseok said as he turned around and waved goodbye.
"Wow," Jeongguk said with wide eyes as they walked toward the ballroom. "We get a warm whiff of drama already." He said.
Namjoon chuckled. "You got that right."
Because the moment they entered, Seojoon turned his head and met his eyes and waved at him.
Taehyung was listening to the speech looking bored.
Where the hell is Jeon Jeongguk?
He had already seen Seojoon and Hyungsik and he was particularly very annoyed already and with Jeongguk taking longer, at this point, he started to become more irritable.
He finally saw Jeongguk entering the ballroom and he smiled.
Relieved that he's already here and that his boredom would dissipate, especially when Jeongguk is around.
'What's gotten into you Kim Taehyung?' He thought.
But his smile slowly disappeared from his lips when he saw Seojoon approach Jeongguk.
He cannot just stand up and go to him, well, because he was in the front and sitting with some of the directors, well, because they were happy with his book launch.
Park Hyo-shin was then introduced and his eyes immediately turned to Jeongguk who was nowhere to be seen.
He should have just agreed with Jeongguk and not attend this gala.
Everything is turning bad every minute.
He doesn't need any drama right now.
"How come you are not returning my calls?" Seojoon asked Jeongguk as they stepped outside of the ballroom, with Hyungsik standing 10 feet behind.
"Seojoon, you cheated on me, why should I call you?" Jeongguk looked at him incredulously.
"What are you talking about?" Seojoon said.
"The day I told you we were done was the day I saw you pick up Seojoon and kissed on the lips." Jeongguk told him frankly, "don't worry about it, I am happy for you both."
"You are what?" Hyungsik approached Jeongguk.
"I. am. happy. for. you. both." Jeongguk emphasized.
He then looked at Seojoon and told him as honestly as he could, "You and I should have not gotten together in the first place Joon."
Seojoon nodded, "I know."
"That doesn't mean we are okay though." Jeongguk said, "you still cheated on me."
Seojoon looked at the ground & nodded, "I understand."
Hyungsik then told Jeongguk, "I am sorry, man."
"You should have snatched him away in the beginning hyung. I know you liked him back then."
They were interrupted by the applause from the ballroom.
"I should go back inside." Jeongguk said.
"Yeah, Taehyung is inside." Seojoon sincerely smiled at him.
"Yeah, I know." Jeongguk answered smugly.
SAW A MISTAKE, FORGIVE ME
"The day I told you we were done was the day I saw you pick up HYUNGSIK and kissed him on the lips." Jeongguk told him frankly, "don't worry about it, I am happy for you both."
"What are you talking about?" Seojoon said.
"The day I told you we were done was the day I saw you pick up Seojoon and kissed on the lips." Jeongguk told him frankly, "don't worry about it, I am happy for you both."
"You are what?" Hyungsik approached Jeongguk.
Jeongguk was already tired though, seeing Seojoon and Hyungsik.
He didn't want his logic to be thwarted by the intense emotions starting to grow bigger by the second.
Jin approached Jeongguk, "What's up bun?"
"Hyung, I..." Jeongguk looked at Jin.
"Are you overwhelmed, upset, worried, angry?" Jin asked.
"I don't know, it's weird hyung. Some thing tells me I have to be here but then again, I shouldn't, does that make sense?" Jeongguk looked at Jin, then they were joined by Namjoon.
"Gukkie, what time are you leaving for Daegu?" Namjoon asked Jeongguk.
"I was planning to leave with Taehyung." Jeongguk said looking at Park Hyo-shin approaching Taehyung, giving him a tight hug.
He then looked at Namjoon, "why, what's up?"
"Taehyung, you came." Hyo-shin said as he walked towards him and gave him a hug.
Taehyung just smiled, his eyes moving in all direction, looking for the man he was expecting to see tonight.
He saw the back of Jeongguk's head walking out of the hotel.
Taehyung took the phone in his pocket and furrowed his eyebrows even more, what the heck is happening?
Where the hell are you going, Jeon Jeongguk?
"You owe me a drink Taehyung," Hyo-shin stated after the hug.
"Oh, I am so sorry sunbaenim, I have an early day tomorrow. I can't." Taehyung said, "maybe some other time, please?"
"Okay," Hyo-shin smiled.
Taehyung turned around and walked away.
He hurried to the lobby doors to see if he can catch Jeongguk.
He doesn't know what Jeongguk had seen but if he saw him hugging Hyo-shin and he got jealous, Taehyung is not allowing him to walk out of his life once again.
They have suffered so much in the past already and they deserve their happiness and right now, Taehyung is running after him.
"It will be ₩1,000,000 monthly rent. We need a deposit and an advance." The rental manager said before Jeongguk left the apartment loft.
"And when is it available?" Jeongguk inquired.
"It will be available in two months."
"Okay, thank you!"
Jeongguk left the apartment complex excitedly because he finally thought of what to use with his graduation gift from his family. He could move in with Taehyung.
His parents and relatives gifted him with ₩10,000,000 for graduation. It's worth 9 months of rent and at least he is hoping that before the nine months is over, he would have a decent job already.
He arrived home, eager and excited to tell Taehyung about the good news but when he arrived at Taehyung's dorm, Jeongguk saw him with red puffy eyes and packing.
"Taehyung, what is the meaning of this?" Jeongguk asked.
Taehyung looked at Jeongguk and just burst into tears.
Jeongguk immediately went to him and wrapped his arms around Taehyung who immediately removed it.
"Jeongguk, we have to talk." Taehyung said, his voice hitching from the sobs he was trying to control.
Jeongguk took a step back, the bubble of happiness bursting in an instant. "What is Tae? Tell me, what's wrong?"
Taehyung just looked at him, tears continuously flowing in his eyes, "We have to take a break."
Jeongguk felt as if a bucket of iced cold water got dumped in his head.
"What are you talking about Taehyung?" Jeongguk was shaking in disbelief.
Taehyung with his swollen eyes looked at him and sat, "We have to take a break." He buried his face in the palm of his hands.
Jeongguk just shook his head, no, this was not happening.
Why do they need to break up? Did he do something wrong?
Was it something he said?
Jeongguk had been nothing but entirely devoted to him and this is what he gets?
Jeongguk crumpled the apartment brochure in his pocket, tears of anger brimming from his eyes, "is this what you do to me? After all these years, huh, Tae?"
He looked at him with disappointment, trying to control the dam of tears that was about the break.
"Please Jeongguk, please understand me... I need this... my father..." Taehyung started saying in between his sobs.
"You know what? You want this break? You got it. Goodbye, don't ever talk to me again." With that, Jeongguk stormed out of his room and out of Taehyung's life.
Jeongguk left Taehyung there crying.
Taehyung just found out that his father was diagnosed with stage 2 lung cancer.
He lost his mom when he was in high school & the thought of losing his father just devastated him so he decided to leave Seoul at once and take care of his dad.
And his decision to leave Seoul, to leave Jeongguk was only until after his father gets better, but Jeongguk didn't give him the chance to explain.
His father was his priority at that time and nothing and no one can stop him.
END OF FLASHBACK
Taehyung arrived at his apartment in Daegu the next day, still wasn't able to talk to Jeongguk.
Because he left his phone charger with Jeongguk when he was using his battery pack at the airport.
Okay, Kim Taehyung, later at the book signing, you have to talk to Jeongguk.
At this point, he knows that Jeongguk was someone he wants in his life and no one else.
And for whatever reason Jeongguk might be angry with him, he would do whatever it takes to talk to him.
He looked at his watch, it's already 2 pm and his book signing starts at 4:30.
His train ran late because another train broke down.
He charged both phones and immediately stepped in the shower.
He lathered his hair with shampoo as he closed his eyes, remembering Jeongguk's face when he stormed out that day.
If Taehyung didn't get overrun by his emotions, they would not have fought or broken up.
He quickly rinsed and carefully chose what to wear.
He wanted to look his best, and be presentable in front of his audience, most especially Jeongguk.
He needed him to be there.
Taehyung has a lot of them and right now, as he styled his hair his heart started beating, wanting to escape from his chest.
Taehyung looked at the clock, it's 3 pm and he should hurry because he wanted to talk to Jeongguk before the event.
His cellphone rang.
His heart lurched.
He looked immediately at it and saw Namjoon calling.
"Hello, hyung?" Taehyung said.
"Jeongguk asked us to pick you up." Namjoon said.
"Us?" Taehyung asked.
"I am here at Daegu to see you!" Seokjin said aloud.
"Where is Jeongguk, hyung? I have been trying to call him." Taehyung said as he placed his cellphone on his shoulder as he put on his socks.
"He has a lot of things to do before the book signing," Namjoon said.
"Oh, I have been trying to call him." Taehyung said.
"Where are you? We are here in front of your apartment!" Seokjin exclaimed.
"I am coming out." Taehyung stated grabbing his watch, wallet and keys.
Does he need anything else?
Just himself and his courage. He needs a lot of it.
They arrived at Kyobo Book Centre and Taehyung was both nervous and worried.
Nervous because his co-workers and his boss will be there.
Worried because he hasn't contacted Jeongguk yet.
Everything was already prepared though, it must mean that Jeongguk was here.
Namjoon smiled at Eunwoo who was fixing the display.
"Eunwoo, where's your boss?" Namjoon asked.
"He said he needed to pick up something important for the book signing event." He responded.
Eunwoo smiled at Taehyung, "You must be DJ V!" He approached to shake his hand.
"Yes I am." Taehyung smiled as he shook his hand.
"My boss has a fine choice." Eunwoo said, grinning at Taehyung.
"I have been trying to reach your boss, do you happen to know why he hasn't answered his phone?" Taehyung asked.
"He had his phone with him earlier but I don't know why," Eunwoo shrugged.
People started gathering at the area which made Taehyung more nervous.
He didn't even have enough time to look at himself in the mirror.
Jin started walking toward where Taehyung was standing with a bouquet.
"For you DJ V!" He said smiling, "from your number one fan, me."
Taehyung grinned back at him, "Thanks hyung! You make me less nervous."
"Why should you be nervous?" Jin asked.
"I haven't talked to Jeongguk yet, I am worried." He said frantically.
"Calm down Tae bear," Jin said, "everything will be fine."
"Hyung, it's not fine."
"Tell me," Jin stood nearer him.
"The last time I saw him walk out was when we broke up," Taehyung said.
"Why do you need to worry?" Jin asked.
"Hyung, I saw him speaking to Seojoon then he saw me with Hyo-shin, what if?" Taehyung lowered his head, sounding dejected.
"Tae, he loves you more than anything," Seokjin said.
"I don't even know what I look like," Taehyung stated.
"Taehyung you are handsome, although I am a bit more handsome than you are you are in that category, you know?" Jin said.
Taehyung tried to smile but his nerves is just eating him away.
Jin stepped forward and fixed his necktie.
Woo-shik, Yoongi, and Jimin were already approaching when Namjoon cleared his throat.
People were seated and patiently waiting for the event to begin.
Eunwoo additional chairs at the front and placed the reserved on them.
"Ladies and gentlemen, thank you for coming."
"Late Night Love Talk with DJ V is a unique program that started here in your hometown. It had gotten so famous that most South East Asian countries are already aware of the awesome radio program."
People clapped excitedly and Namjoon was very pleased.
"Without further ado, let me present to you, your very own homegrown DJ, DJ V." Namjoon announced.
Everyone stood up and applauded.
Taehyung stood at the podium and looked at the audience seriously.
His hands were shaking until he saw someone from the edge of the crowd.
Jeongguk was looking at him from the back of the room and was turning his head as if waiting for someone else.
He's here. Somehow Taehyung felt a little relieved.
He opened the book to the last feature of the book, the stages of grief.
Taehyung started reading, "Being sad or being regretful will still exist during this stage but there's a certain kind of peace. The word acceptance itself is defined by Cambridge dictionary as 'the fact of accepting a difficult or unpleasant situation.'+
There are no due dates or deadlines as we go through the grief process. We have to be careful too because we don't want to commit rebound just to make ourselves feel better because we tend to hurt another person in return.
Elle Woods in Legally Blonde said, 'Most importantly, you must always have faith in yourself.' We have to trust ourselves that we are able to surpass this. We have to also be kind and forgiving to ourselves and in that, we experience the true acceptance."
He looked up and saw Jeongguk and his father seated in front.
His father was wearing a suit and so dashing and handsome and he felt more complete than ever.
"I am DJ V, son of Daegu and the host for Late Night Love Talk. Thank you all for coming."
Everyone applauded, even his father and he closed his eyes, savoring the sound, the moment, and the happiness he is feeling.
He opened his eyes with Jeongguk smiling widely at him with sparkling eyes and his worry disappeared in his mind.
People started lining up and his father lined up too.
"Appa, why are you lining up?" Taehyung said standing up and hugging his father.
"I want to experience the full event, even if it means that I needed to line up to get an autograph from my son."
"Appa," Taehyung was just speechless with happiness.
"Sorry if we were almost late," Jeongguk said, handing Taehyung another bouquet. "This is from me and your Appa."
"Yeah, Jeongguk can't decide what flower to give you." Kim Taesung said. "He's panicking, his phone's broken."
The line was getting longer.
"Talk later okay?" Jeongguk said, kissing him on the cheek.
Taehyung just nodded.
"I will catch up with Jeongguk so don't worry about us, okay?" His father said.
Taehyung looked at Jeongguk, filled with awe, with love.
The feeling of exhilaration filled him as he signed book copies by so many people who purchased his book.
Some were his high school classmates, old neighbors.
It was just a heartwarming event.
"Congratulations Tae!" Wooshik stated when their turn came.
"We have our own resident celebrity." Yoongi exclaimed.
Wooshik's smiling face turned serious all of a sudden, "Can you come early on Monday morning? I need to talk to you."
"Okay, I will. Thanks guys for coming!"
The event was successful.
"Dinner on me," Jeongguk announced to their friends.
"Are you sure?" Taehyung asked shyly.
Jeongguk took his hand and kissed it gently, "I promised your father to treat him to Saemaeul Sikdang. He said the last time he's been there was with us!"
Taehyung just smiled at Jeongguk whose face just made his heart giddy with happiness.
"Yes, baby?" Jeongguk responded.
"You call me baby again?" Taehyung asked.
"Yea, only if you don't mind," Jeongguk said. "Do you?"
"Wait, it depends. Why is your phone broken?" Taehyung asked as they walked toward the car, his dad talking to Namjoon.
"I don't know?" Jeongguk said handing it to Taehyung.
Taehyung looked at the phone and back at him and laughed out loud.
So much for getting worried and paranoid.
Jeongguk looked at him crazily, "Tae?"
"Kookie," Taehyung continued laughing, "it's still in airplane mode."
Jeongguk looked at Taehyung whose laugh was just pure bliss. It's music to his ears.
His father approached Taehyung, "Kim Taehyung what was that laughing about?"
"Appa, I was paranoid since last night thinking Jeongguk was angry at me because he hasn't contacted me."
Jeongguk bit his upper lip, trying to conceal an embarrassed smile.
"His phone was in airplane mode AND my travel charger was in his bag. So, I wasn't able to talk to him since last night," Taehyung pouted.
They got in the car with his father in the front passenger seat.
His father turned around and looked at him with a wide smile, "I am really proud of you Tae."
"Wait, Appa, how did you know?" Taehyung asked sitting in the middle back seat.
"Oh, Jeongguk stopped by this morning and asked me to come as a surprise for you." He responded.
"I was wondering when the book launch would be, I haven't talked to you as much too because we were just busy with work as well." His dad responded.
"I am sorry Appa, if I wasn't able to call you as much," Taehyung stated.
"It's okay. I feel more relieved now that Jeongguk is back in your life, well, wait, are you back together?" Kim Taesung asked.
Jeongguk shook his head, "not yet Uncle Taesung,"
"I told you earlier, stop calling me uncle. Call me Appa like you used to."
Jeongguk smiled as he drove towards the bbq place.
Hopefully, somehow, Taehyung would allow him to stay with him tonight because he didn't book a hotel.
Dinner was amazing as Eunwoo, Yoongi, Jimin, Wooshik, Namjoon, Jin, Jeongguk, Taehyung, and his dad shared a meal.
It was a hearty meal filled with laughter and good food.
They left the restaurant after two and a half hours with Jin and Namjoon driving back to Seoul.
"Thanks Namjoon hyung, Jin hyung," Taehyung said, hugging them tightly, "this means the world to me."
"Aww, it's nothing Tae. Besides I am famous too," Jin said.
"How?" Jeongguk asked as they stepped out of the restaurant.
"My story was published too you know?" Jin responded.
Namjoon rolled his eyes, "it isn't about me though."
"Maybe I should feature your love story."
"Nice meeting you Jeongguk," Yoongi said as they all stood outside the restaurant.
"It's nice meeting you and Jimin hyung," Jeongguk stated.
"Take care of Tae, okay?" Yoongi said, ruffling Taehyung's hair.
"Hyung!" Taehyung exclaimed.
Yoongi just chuckled.
Jimin hugged Tae, "I am really happy for you Tae."
"Thanks hyung!" Taehyung said.
Jeongguk then stepped closer to Taehyung and whispered, "it's time to bring your appa home."
They arrived at their old house.
Taehyung got out and walked his dad to the gate.
"Good night Appa," Taehyung hugged his dad very tight. "Thanks for the surprise."
"Of course, son. Breakfast tomorrow? Here at home? I will cook you your favorite." Kim Taesung looked at his son.
Taehyung then complained, "but dad I am so tired, can we do brunch instead?"
His Appa just shook his head, "Okay come over at lunch."
"Yay, I love you!' Taehyung said hugging his father once again.
"Thanks Appa for accepting me at your home earlier." Jeongguk hugged him too.
"Jeongguk, you both have been in love with each other for the longest time and the moment I saw you earlier, I still know that you are still the same Jeongguk who love my son so much." Kim Taesung told him sincerely before opening the gate.
They waited for Taehyung's father to enter the house before returning to the car.
Jeongguk pulled Taehyung in, kissing him at the temple, arms around him.
"Hi." Taehyung said, leaning closer to Jeongguk.
"Umm, Tae?" Jeongguk asked.
Taehyung turned to him and took a deep breath.
He looked at him and asked, "Do you want to stay at my place for the night?"
Jeongguk kissed Taehyung's nose and said, "I thought you'd never ask."
"How come you do not stay with Appa?" Jeongguk asked when they got in the car.
"Well, I worked early for a few years, and knowing I love to sleep, Appa suggested just getting an apartment near the station," Taehyung responded as Jeongguk clasped his hand against his.
They arrived at the apartment after a few minutes with butterflies fluttering wildly in Taehyung's heart.
Is he ready?
To be intimate?
The last time he was intimate with someone was four years with Jeongguk.
Jeongguk got out of the car and jogged to open Taehyung's door.
"I insist," he said as he took the flowers from the backseat.
Taehyung's heart was beating furiously now, ready to jump off of his chest.
They went up the stairs and headed to the unit at the end.
Taehyung took his keys from his pocket and with trembling fingers slowly opened the door.
"Wow Tae, how cozy!" Jeongguk exclaimed as he followed him inside the apartment.
"It's small and manageable and it's not as expensive. It's near enough for me to walk to work."
Jeongguk placed his bag on the couch and followed Taehyung as he got a vase for the flowers.
He felt behind him, goosebumps rising at the back of his neck.
He turned around and Jeongguk was there in front of Tae.
Taehyung looked at him and smiled, "hey, what's up Koo?"
"I just missed you!" Jeongguk said embracing him.
Jeongguk then looked at Taehyung, both hands on the shoulder, "I am sorry I didn't get to talk to you last night."
"I thought you were mad at me," Taehyung said, moving closer, his chin on his shoulder.
"Why would I be?"
"Maybe because you saw me with Hyo-shin and then I saw you leave so I ran after you because I don't want to lose you again," Taehyung said as Jeongguk started slow dancing, swaying to the sound of their hearts.
"No, baby, I left because Namjoon said half of the books were not delivered to Kyobo so I just got them from the printing press and brought them with me when I drove here earlier." Jeongguk said feeling Taehyung's embrace tightening around him.
"I love you Tae, please know that," Jeongguk said, resting his cheek against Taehyung's cheek, still gently swaying to the calmness of their heart, the peace that Jeongguk had been missing for some time now.
"I love you too, so much," Taehyung said, his eyes closed, savoring his presence. His heart was swimming with happiness.
Jeongguk stopped moving and just turned to face Taehyung, "so, are we....?"
"Yes, we are. I can't think of anything better to do if I am not with you."
Jeongguk grinned a big grin.
Taehyung's heart skipped a beat as Jeongguk's face moved towards his.
"You make me so happy, Tae, so happy," Jeongguk said, his lips inches away.
"Thank you for being honest ever since you confessed to me," Taehyung said as he closed his eyes.
A warm hand cupped Taehyung's cheek and the next he knew, Jeongguk's lips were on his and he immediately got lost in them.
Kissing him never felt so right as they renewed their love for each other.
Jeongguk's soft lips were pressing against his insistently, pulling him closer.
The hot slide of Jeongguk's tongue was continuously causing goosebumps all over his body.
Jeongguk broke the kiss and held his hand and led him to the couch.
"No, Gukkie, my bed."
Jeongguk's gaze turned darker at every step toward the bed and when they reached the foot of the bed, Jeongguk kissed him harder.
All Taehyung could think about was the way Jeongguk was kissing him.
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Taehyung slowly removed Jeongguk's coat as Jeongguk removed his tie.
Taehyung cannot contain this excitement because he can already feel his muscles as he slowly unbuttoned his shirt.
"Kookie?" Taehyung asked as Jeongguk's lips started trailing down his neck.
"Yeah?" Jeongguk asked as he peeled Taehyung's suit jacket.
"You know? When I saw Justin's chest and tattoos?" Taehyung said as he tried catching his breath, slowly removing Jeongguk's shirt, his chest, and his arms finally bare.
"And then when you told me you were Justin?" Taehyung said as Jeongguk finally removed his shirt.
Taehyung unbuckled his belt and let his pants fall on the ground and Jeongguk did the same.
"I jerked off imagining you touching my body, making love to me finally."
Jeongguk stepped off his pants & slowly crawled while Taehyung moved back toward the bed, "yeah? Did you miss me so bad?"
There was a flush on Taehyung's high cheekbones, his lips were red & swollen, his pupils were blown wide and Jeongguk was blown away by his beauty.
Taehyung just nodded and Jeongguk kissed him like there was no tomorrow.
Jeongguk's arms went around him as Taehyung slowly lay beneath him, their breaths were unsteady they looked into each other's eyes.
Jeongguk slid his hand into his hair. It was as soft as it looked. In fact, it was softer.
Jeongguk's fingers explored further, down the side of his face then stroked his thumb over his jaw. “You’re so gorgeous.”
"Is this real? Are you real?” Jeongguk whispered.
Taehyung licked his lips, nodding, "yes."
Jeongguk lowered his head again, lifting his thumb and pressing a kiss to the place on his jaw where it had been resting, "I don't think I would be able to stop."
"Don't stop." Taehyung responded.
Jeongguk kissed him in the same spot again and then kissed across his chin and back to his lips.
Their thighs entwined as Taehyung wrapped his arms around Jeongguk's neck.
It was a feeling they had both longed for and now that they found each other, they both cannot conceal their feelings to each other.
Jeongguk ducked his head down to Taehyung's throat, gently nipping at his skin. “I miss you so much, Tae, if only you know how much.”
"Show me," Taehyung said, his eyelashes fluttering with his desire for Jeongguk increasing with every passing second. Taehyung's hand moved up to the nape of Jeongguk's neck and then into his hair.
He tugged it so that Jeongguk had to lift his head to meet Taehyung's gaze.
Jeongguk smiled at Taehyung then, and that free-falling feeling was back as if he was at the top of the roller coaster and they were falling fast.
Their lips met again.
Jeongguk tugged Taehyung's plush lower lip between his teeth, and Taehyung let out a sexy moan.
Their arms were around each other as Jeongguk rolled Taehyung to be on top of him, their lips not breaking from each other.
Jeongguk's hand fingers traced Taehyung's spine as it moved toward his gorgeous round ass.
Jeongguk's slid his fingers between the band of Taehyung's underwear and his abs, as he saw the wet edges, his c*ck all swollen and hard.
"Baby, I want to see you," Jeongguk said as he tapped Taehyung so he could remove his underwear.
Taehyung's heartbeat increased its pace as he moved to the side and within a split second, he was back on the bed, kissing Jeongguk.
Taehyung moved his mouth to his ear, his tongue ran across his lobe and Jeongguk's breath hitched.
"Make love to me Kookie," he whispered in his ears and Taehyung felt him swallow hard, his Adam’s apple bobbing, and without thinking, Taehyung's mouth moved to his neck and licked it.
Jeongguk removed his underwear and when he felt Taehyung's skin, he released the breath he was holding.
"You are so sexy, so hot," he whispered, staring at Taehyung with dark, hungry eyes.
His erection was a rock-solid length and Taehyung touched it without any shame.
"Nggggh, baby." Jeongguk groaned as he wrapped his fingers around Taehyung's swollen member.
Their eyes met, and their pupils were blown so wide.
Time stood still as they gazed hungrily at each other.
Sucking in a deep breath, Taehyung went on top of him, straddling him and Jeongguk touched his chest which made Taehyung release an indecipherable sound.
Jeongguk raked his gaze, finally seeing Taehyung's honey-colored skin.
Jeongguk lovingly enjoyed looking at Taehyung's soft, wavy hair, now tousled and messy, over the planes of his face with those stunning almond-shaped eyes framed with long lashes.
Taehyung's lips are now fully reddened and swollen and Jeongguk wanted to kiss them again.
His body was long and lean and his beautiful c*ck was already leaking at the tip which made Jeongguk salivate as he touched it, then slowly stroking it.
"Kookie, wait," Taehyung said as he moved up, leaned down, and kissed him with all fervor. And Taehyung was bold as he slid his tongue into his mouth.
"Baby," Jeongguk said in between kisses.
Jeongguk wanted to touch more of him. So, he held him by the hips and Taehyung was now under him, "I want to pleasure you, make you moan, make you whimper. I want to make you mine again."
Jeongguk started kissing his nose, then across his face, and down his throat.
Jeongguk licked, nipped, & bit and Taehyung either arched his back or rolled his hips in ecstasy.
He started moaning again, louder & a wave of possessiveness hit Jeongguk.
"Tae," he said as he started sucking on a nipple. "I will be the only one who will get to hear you moan."
Jeongguk hovered over Taehyung with their c*cks touching each other both damp from precum.
Jeongguk's thighs were spread and Taehyung just breathed out, "more."
The way his c*ck was rubbing against his felt so good and Jeongguk wrapped his fingers around the both of them.
He kissed Taehyung ferociously as he rocked back & forth, both stroking fast, chasing bliss.
"Baby, you feel so fcking good," Jeongguk rasped with Taehyung rolling his eyes reaching the peak of ecstasy.
"Nggggh, oh my, oh gosh Jeongguk, fck..." Taehyung squirted.
And Jeongguk's eyes just went wild as he went down and licked the tip of Taehyung's member with Taehyung grasping the sheets.
"Kookie, it feels so good, don't stop," His c*ck hardened once more.
Jeongguk breathed across the tip, watching his dick jerk again.
Jeongguk wrapped his fingers around the base of his cock, and angled it up and then he licked across the head.
Taehyung's hips arched upwards, his dick in Jeongguk's mouth.
"Tae, baby, you taste so good," Jeongguk said with Taehyung grabbing Jeongguk's hair, gripping it.
Taehyung whimpered in blissful rapture as Jeongguk became more and more turned on.
He finally touched his hole and Taehyung moaned louder.
His mouth left his cock with his tongue licking his hole and Taehyung let out the sexiest groan.
He moved his head to his pink hole, "baby? Lube?"
"Drawer," Taehyung said and like a bolt of lightning, Jeongguk took what he needed and spread a generous amount on his finger.
Taehyung watched him wildly as it had been a long time since someone was inside him.
A finger entered his pucker and Jeongguk immediately curled it, making Taehyung's back arch.
So sexy, Jeongguk thought.
Jeongguk suddenly was circling his finger around his hole and pressing on his perineum, "sh!t Kookie, yes, there, I need more." Taehyung moaned.
He added another finger and scissored it, "Koo, I need you inside me, I need you."
Jeongguk slowly withdrew his fingers and he suddenly got out of bed and quickly grabbed something from his pants pocket.
Taehyung heard plastic ripping as he stroked his c*ck, watching Jeongguk unroll it on his.
When the head of his cock was lined up with his hole, Taehyung exhaled nervously.
Jeongguk slowly entered him while kissing him gently on the lips.
He slowly entered him with tiny increments as Jeongguk's other hand stroking his dick.
It burned a little but when Taehyung saw Jeongguk's lustful gaze, he moved himself so that he could take more of him.
Jeongguk's hot, thick length filled him up finally, "you okay, baby?"
Taehyung just nodded, his chest rising and falling, trying to catch his breath, overwhelmed with the fullness he's feeling.
"Tae, so tight." Jeongguk said as he started moving slowly, steadily.
Taehyung started stroking himself while Jeonguk moved.
“You feel so good, baby, ” He said as he started moving faster.
They moved against each other.
"Baby, nggggh," Jeongguk moaned as pumped deeper and harder and his cock hit Taehyung's erogenous zone, sending zaps of pleasure fizzing through his entire body.
Jeongguk's hips started moving faster, and Taehyung met him with equal force.
Their eyes met, both with heady gazes, pupils dilated, Taehyung stared at Jeongguk's swollen lips, all slick and reddened from their kisses.
And then Jeongguk moved faster, harder.
Coming in & out.
Pounding, with the sounds of skin slapping against each other.
Taehyung rolled his eyes as he was sent over the edge, "Kook, I am coming!" He said as a blinding orgasm hit him, ribbons of cum spurting all over his chest.
Then Jeongguk's finger started tightening on his hips, "Tae, baby, I... I am coming, nnnnnggggh..." He climaxed, filling him entirely.
Jeongguk rode his climax until there was nothing left and he slumped on top of Taehyung.
Jeongguk faced Taehyung & smiled.
"It felt as if it was our first time all over again." Jeongguk said kissing the tip of his nose.
Taehyung just smiled at him, his face so bright, so beautiful, so Taehyung.
"I love you Kim Taehyung," Jeongguk said, kissing him gently once more.
"And I love you too," He said.
"Do you think if we didn't break up, we would have been like this?" Jeongguk asked, stroking Taehyung's cheek.
"I believe everything happens for a reason, Koo. We may not understand it now, but, you know love has reasons which reasons cannot understand." Taehyung gazed at him.
"Are you staying with me the entire weekend?" Taehyung asked as he took Jeongguk's hand and used it as a pillow.
"Do you want me to?" Jeongguk asked.
Taehyung just nodded.
"Do you want to come with me to the radio station on Monday? Boss said he needed to tell me something."
"Sure. Umm, Tae?" Jeongguk spoke softly.
"Are we boyfriends again?" Jeongguk looked at him with dreamy eyes.
"Of course we are," Taehyung responded, his heart so giddy, so elated.
"Okay, so umm, I haven't taken time off for years, I was wondering, is it okay if I spend time with you until we go back to our book tour?" Jeongguk said, lovingly staring at the beautiful person in front of him.
Taehyung gave him the sweetest smile, "I might do that too."
"This is DJ V and tonight is our pilot episode. Late Night Love Talk is now here in Seoul. Thank you for your support, for the love, and since we just finished our book tour and we are back on regular programming, tonight is a special night for our show."
"But before we begin the program, here is Bruno Mars' Just the Way You Are. This is DJ V and thank you for tuning in to MBC's Late Night Love Talk.
Taehyung turned to his special guest grinning, "Are you sure you are okay to be here?"
His guest just nodded.
Taehyung adjusted his headset and asked, "Are you comfortable?"
Taehyung just chuckled.
"This is DJ V and welcome back to Late Night Love Talk. Tonight, we are having our first real live guest in the station. He was the first person to send us mail nine months ago and then became one of our callers. So without further ado, welcome Justin Seagull."
"Hello, everyone this is Justin."
"Hello Justin, thank you for guesting tonight. How are you?"
"I am doing good. In fact, I am doing great!" He exclaimed.
"That's good. So, tell me Justin, the last time we spoke, you just broke up, how's your heart?"
"My heart was confused for a bit but then I remembered what you said DJ V, you know to heal, forgive and then love myself."
"Oh I am super glad for you. And have you healed?"
"I think so, for the most part. I still have some regrets, you know decisions about decisions in+
the past, but I think I have come to accept circumstances and coincidences."
"And what is your biggest take-away during the healing process?"
"Well, you have to learn to forgive yourself too... you know the stages of grief." He chuckled.
"I see, I have an avid fan?" Taehyung mused.
"Your biggest fan."
"So before we take our commercial break, it is important for everyone to know that being kind to ourselves is important because, at the end of the day, we face ourselves in the mirror."
"While it is not an easy task, we can take a step at a time, a day at a time to be more accepting. Let's listen to Justin Bieber's Love Yourself. This is DJ V together with our special guest Justin Seagull and you are listening to Late Night Love Talk.
"So this is how it feels like when you do your shows," Jeongguk said as he reached for his boyfriend's hand.
Taehyung looked at him with twinkling eyes.
At first, he was nervous two months ago because he was already thinking of a long-distance relationship with Jeongguk.
But when they arrived Monday that time, Woo-shik informed him that MBC management decided to move his radio program to Seoul.
He was worried for his father but he assured him that he'll be fine.
Taehyung fixed Jeongguk's headphones with Jeongguk was playfully biting his lips.
"You doing okay, baby?" Taehyung asked and Jeongguk nodded.
Taehyung looked at the cue and saw one more commercial left.
"I love you!" Taehyung looked at him, blowing him a kiss.
Jeongguk just smiled.
His heart just filled with happiness.
He cannot express how great it is to be with Taehyung again and now that he is in the process of moving to Seoul, it was the best time for him to make a move.
"Welcome back and this is DJ V. You are listening to the pilot episode of Late Night Love Talk here in Seoul and with us, we have our special guest, Justin Seagull joining us live tonight."
"So Justin, you were saying when you called that you were going to reach out to your first love, were you able to?"
"Yes, I did."
"And how was it?"
"I was nervous at first because of how unique it was when we saw each other again."
"How did you feel upon seeing him?"
Jeongguk arched an eyebrow as he withheld a laugh, instead he gazed at him lovingly, adoringly, "I was crazy nervous. You know that feeling when you are excited let's say to go to the beach and then when you arrive, you feel a sudden calm?"
"Wow, that is so beautiful." Taehyung looked at him, his heart overflowing with happiness.
"What else did you do after?"
"I made sure myself that I am sure of who I am really in love and it's always him, so I decided to tell him how I felt but of course, there were wounds."
"Of course, and that's understandable. And in relationships, if both are willing then they have to face the bitter truth, the real cause for the wounds and from there, if both are willing to give it another try then both are willing to listen."
"Personally, I think relationships are all unique that there are no techniques or any rulebooks or guidelines but with heartfelt conversations with honesty and commitment, I think relationships can have good second chances."
"The next song is BTS song Stay which is perfect because what you have together I am hoping will stay. This is DJ V and you are listening to Late Night Love Talk. We will be right after the song."
"That was beautiful, Koo." Taehyung removed headphone and went to Jeongguk to give him a kiss, "you really felt that way?"
"How I feel for you would always be beyond words." Jeongguk said looking into his eyes, kissing him gently.
"You sound really comfortable talking inspite of your introversion." Taehyung beamed at him.
"Only when I am with people who I am comfortable with." Jeongguk said, nuzzling his nose on his cheek.
Taehyung stood up as the light started flashing, last 30 seconds.
Taehyung immediately went back and wore his headphones and smiled to himself because of the man before him.
"Welcome back Late Night Love Talk. This is DJ V and I am with a special guest, Justin Seagull. So Justin, can you tell me, are you back with your first love?"
"Yes, I am and I cannot be anymore happier!" Jeongguk said.
"So, I am gathering he has forgiven you completely?"
"I don't want to take things for granted you know. We have been apart for 4 years and I don't want to be assuming when we have a lot of work to do."
Taehyung smiled at him, "wow, I think he's lucky to have you."
"No, I am lucky to have him. He's the most gorgeous, kind-hearted, considerate and the most selfless person I know." Jeongguk said.
"I don't think you need DJ V." Taehyung chuckled. "So, what's next for you and your first love?"
"Oh, I was thinking of inviting him to move in with me?" Jeongguk looked shyly at him.
"That's amazing and what do you think he'll say?"
"I will leave the decision to him. But I wish he'd consider, because I cannot leave a day without him and since we are in the process of healing, then, I believe being together and facing our problems would be very fruitful."
Taehyung looked at him from under his lashes.
"Well, I wish you all the best and hope that you would hear something favorable from him. I dedicate Adele's cover of Lovesong, originally by the Cure. This is DJ V and you are listening to Late Night Love Night after a few reminders playing after the song."
Taehyung stood up so fast, headphones falling on the ground. He sat on Jeongguk's lap & allowed him to wrap his arms around him. "Are you really going to?"
"Yes! I cannot contain my happiness anymore & like what I said, I want to seize the chance. Strike whilst the iron is hot."
Taehyung buried his face in the crook of Jeongguk's neck, "I love you."
"Does it mean, yes? Are you going to? Move in? With me?" Jeongguk asked as Taehyung faced him with tears in his eyes.
"Yes, I would love to," Taehyung said with tears in his eyes, slowly falling, heart full of immense bliss
Jeongguk kissed his tears away, "you make me happy, thank you, my love."
Taehyung stood up, rushing to his chair with 15 seconds left.
Jeongguk blew Taehyung a kiss and he just scrunched up his nose.
"And we are at the last segment of our program. You are listening to Late Night Love Talk and I am DJ V. Thank you to our special guest, +
Justin Seagull for gracing us with your presence. I hope you'll accept our invitation in the future."
"Yes, thank you for having me. It's my pleasure."
"Blaise Pascal once said that love has reasons which reasons cannot understand and so with second chances."
"No one is perfect and people are susceptible to making mistakes especially when you fall in love at an early age. Breakups are more often than not necessary in order to discover ourselves more."
"And in that path to self-discovery, we face our fears and shadows and learn from the many tests and trials in life. When that time comes and we face ourselves and see that we ache for someone who used to be in our lives, if healing and forgiveness is achieved, +
acceptance will then be inevitable and the hope for forgiveness. I always believe in that because as Alexander Pope once said,
"to err is human, to forgive is divine."
Forgiveness may give one a certain peace of mind and with love and second chances, maybe just maybe, +
it will be much better the second time around.
Thank you for listening to Late Night Love Talk brought to you by MBC. +
And for our last song, a song fitting for the love of Justin Seagull to his first love, ladies and gentlemen, please listen to The Script with their song, The Man Who Can't be Moved. This is DJ V, wishing you all goodnight."
This time it was Jeongguk who stood up and rushed to wrap Taehyung in his arms.
Kim Taehyung, his best friend, his first love, and his last love.
"Yes, I am the man who can't be moved because we may have some hiccups, some roadblocks but my love for you cannot be moved."
"I love you so much, Jeon Jeongguk," Taehyung savored the feeling of contentment, of happiness.
"I love you more DJ V, my Kim Taehyung." Jeongguk said kissing him gently on the lips.
They rested their foreheads on each other with Taehyung grinning ear to ear.
His journey with Jeongguk was one of a kind. It made him grow as a person, a partner, a best friend, and a boyfriend.
Like what he said no one is perfect but for him, his love, their love, might be a work in progress but it's perfect because they are perfect for each other.
Jeongguk stared into his eyes and smiled. "Thank you DJ V for giving my letter a chance."
"And thank you Justin for taking that chance," Taehyung said just right before their lips once more met with the sweetest kiss.
Happy Birthday Kim Taehyung!
Thank you so much for joining me as we unravel the love story of DJ V and his first love Jeon Jeongguk.
It has been an amazing journey with a lot of you cheering and motivating me as I finish this story.
It's my first year as a writer. It was on his birthday when I decided to give writing a chance.
Thank you to those who have been with me since the beginning.
I have met a lot of people & it's been a great journey as I discovered myself even more with the hopes to become a
Live writing SMUT is the hardest thing I have done as a writer.
I ask for apologies for the errors, grammar errors and typos.
Please forgive me.
I love you all,
Taehyung gently touched his chest, then traced his tattooed arm. He slowly started kissing Jeongguk's chest, then moved to his NIPPLES, and then his shoulder.
EIGHTEEN MONTHS LATER
"This is DJ V and welcome everyone to the premiere of Love Talks with V and Justin."
"Hey everyone, it's been a while," Jeongguk stated.
Taehyung smiled at his boyfriend who got offered to do a Friday night show with DJ V.
"Yes, it's the first Friday when DJ Justin will join us to offer his thoughts about our listeners," Taehyung stated.
"With the powerful convincing powers of DJ V, I said yes to hosting this nightly show with him."
"And for the first song this evening before we start with this show, we offer to you This is What Falling in Love Feels Like by JVKE," Jeongguk stated.
"This is DJ V,"
"And DJ Justin and you are listening to,"
"Love Talks with V and Justin."
"You are doing great baby," Taehyung told Jeongguk.
Jeongguk removed his headphones and smiled, "promise? Am I doing ok, baby?"
Taehyung leaned and gave his boyfriend a grateful kiss.
"Why did I sign up for this again?" Jeongguk said smiling in between kisses.
"Because you love your boyfriend?" Taehyung grinned at him, leaving Jeongguk's heart extremely happy.
"Are you sure I am in love with my boyfriend?" Jeongguk teased.
"You are helplessly in love with your boyfriend." Taehyung kissed him once again as he sat and pressed live.
"You are tuning in to Love Talks with V and Justin brought to you by MBC Seoul," Justin said.
"And we are back. So, DJ Justin? How are things between you and the boyfriend?" Taehyung smiled.
"Everything is doing great DJ V, I cannot ask for anything more." Jeongguk smiled.
"For our show tonight, DJ Justin's boyfriend reached out to us tonight," Taehyung stated.
"He did?" Jeongguk started to conceal his laughter.
"Yes, he did!" Taehyung grinned back at him.
"And what did he say?" Jeongguk asked.
"Well, I asked him how he felt about when they first broke up," Taehyung said.
"And what did he say?" Jeongguk looked at him seriously.
"Like everything was a dream, hard to accept. It was like he was stuck." Taehyung said.
"Why was he stuck?" Jeongguk asked.
"Because he had to make rash and fast decisions without thinking of the repercussions," Taehyung said.
"It must be very difficult for him I guess, and what song have you chosen for him?" Jeongguk asked.
"Let's listen to Stacie Orrico's Stuck. You are listening to DJ V,"
"And DJ Justin. And we will be right back after a few commercials after the song. Thank you for listening to Love Songs with V and Justin."
"Ah, baby, were you really stuck?" Jeongguk gathered him in his arms.
"Yeah, I wanted to call you but I couldn't. I decided not to because I hurt you, and knowing how stubborn you may get..."
"I am not!"
"You are too!"
"Nevertheless, none of it matters now, because I have you back in my life now," Jeongguk stated.
Taehyung smiled at his boyfriend.
"Why did you decide to talk about yourself for tonight, baby?" Jeongguk asked.
"Well, it's a great way to invite listeners, I guess."
Jeongguk placed his headphones while Taehyung pressed the live button.
"And we are back everyone. Thank you for listening to Love Talks with V and Justin," Jeongguk stated.
"And this is a Friday segment of Late Night Love Talk," Taehyung said.
"So what else did my boyfriend tell you?" Jeongguk arched an eyebrow.
"Well, pretty much he told me that he was still very in love with you and that he really wanted to call you and say how okay he was after he heard you being with his bestfriend."
Jeongguk looked at him, his heart piercing, he knew how much he hurt Taehyung and he did get hurt too with how Taehyung just decided to leave but it was all in the past now and they have been back together for a year and a half now.
"Please tell him I am really sorry about that, it was familiarity & an easy escape out." Jeongguk said.
"I know, he told me and he has forgiven you for it," Taehyung said.
"It might take a while, but I do my best every day to show him that he is worth my love & attention."
"He must be very lucky to have you back in his life. Justin's boyfriend asked me to play this next song. It was his go-to song when he was not with you. Please listen to Cross My Heart by Everything but the Girl. This is DJ V,"
"And DJ Justin and you are listening to Love Talk."
"Baby," Jeongguk said as he stood up and walked over to Taehyung, "I love you! Thank you for giving me another chance."
"We deserve this chance, don't you think?" Taehyung said as they swayed to the song.
Jeongguk just smiled as he closed his eyes.
"I love you Kim Taehyung," he said as the song finished playing.
The advertisements started and Taehyung sat back down with Jeongguk following him, kissing the top of his head.
"I love you, too, baby," Taehyung said.
Jeongguk went back to his seat.