SAY YOU LOVE ME
"I'm okay.." Jungkook whisprs, smiling barely at Jimin.. "I'm okay hyung.."
He moves his gaze towards his front, watching Taehyung talk excitedly to his date..
Might add a smut scene
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Jungkook's heart thuds with excitement as they run backsatge..
He lets the make up artists pull him towards one of the mirrors, helping him get into his next out fits..
They just finished the first half of their set list..
But he is already filled with energy..
Cheeks flushed, he catches JImin's eyes trhough the mirror and blushes even more when the other smirks at him teasingly..
Jungkook couldn't believe what he did on that stage a few minutes ago..
He was still in surprise on his own..
Here is the thing..
Being the youngest of the group, he was always looked after on..
Always reached for..
He had never had to stretch his hand out and reach for something or someone..
Whatever or whoever he wanted was always there for him even before he asked..
So he had surprised himself today when he finaly reached out to someone..
He stretched his hand out for someone from where he was kneeling on the floor..
And that too for none other than Kim Taehyung..
His Taehyungie hyung..
The most handsome man he had ever seen..
The man who had taken him under his wing when he first arrived, help him get out of his insecurities and let him free his wings on his own pace..
The man that makes sure Jungkook has anything and everything that he wanted..
The man who taught him what friendship was..
The man who taught him what love was..
The man who Jungkook has been in love with ever since he knew what love was..
And when Taehyung hadn't hesitated to walk the few steps between them and take his hand, Jungkook had felt as if his heart would explode into twenty peices..
When Taehyung had held his hand so firmly and made a circle around him,
just like those couples did in silly romance movies, Jungkook felt like the happiest man on the earth..
The one time he had reached to someone, he hadn't been rejected..
The man he loved had accepted his hand, without doubt or hesitation..
"There comes the pretty boy..." Jimin teases Jungkook as he sees Taehyung coming out of the bathroom phone in his hands..
The rap line's voices boom through the walls, and if Jimin was hearing properly it was his boyfriend going off like that, as if he was in fire..
"Hyung.." Jimin chuckles as he hears the maknae whining under his breath..
"What.." he chuckles.. "You should have seen yourself on the stage. You were practically /dripping/ hearts from your eyes.."
Jimin snickers but he choses to keep quite as he sees his best friend making way to them with a beaming smile on his face..
"Why so happy Tae?" Jimin smiles sending a small wink to Jungkook as he did so..
Taehyung's smile widens as he rushes over and wraps his arms around Jimin and Jungkook, squeezing them and Jimin almost hollers at the way Jungkook blushes bright red, still obviously not over the previous shyness..
"Chim!" Taehyung giggles.. "My parents are on their way!"
Jimin makes a small confused noise.. "Weren't they alreayd here?"
Taehyung shakes his head.. "There making their way up to the dressing rooms! There is someone eager to meet me, they say!" Taehyung giggles a soft blush on his cheeks..
JImin sees the blush and he knows that Jungkook does too by the way he sees the maknae squirming in Taehyung's which goes unnoticed by the said male, who is still hyped about his parents' arrival..
"Oh? Who is that?" Jimin smiles softly..
Jimin's brows furros, along with Jungkook's. ..
"Sana?" He mumbles making Taehyung nod his head like a happy puppy..
"Who is that?" Jimin hears Jungkook muttering carefully..
"Oh Jungkookie!" Taehyung giggles, the blush rising high up on his cheeks..
Jimin suddenly didn't like where this was going.. He had a gut feeling and his gut feelings were never good, according to his boyfriend, to which he quite agrees..
"I've told you about her bun! Why? You don't remember?"
I've talked about her quite alot! Se was my childhood crush! How could you not remember?!"
And Jimin's boyfriend was proved right yet again..
He could feel his own heart dropping into his stomach when he sees the way Jungkook pales entirely..
He so baly wants to reach out and hug the hell out of Jungkook..
But before he couuld say anything else a shrill female voice echoes through the dressing room..
Jungkook stares at the mirror infront of him, with nothing but a white noice in his ears..
He doesn't hear anything else for a moment, just a buzzing sound, which at any other time he would find irritating but not right now..
Not right now as he watches through the mirror as a girl in a yellow sun dress, so pretty and so perfect waltz into their dressing room, Taehyung's parents arriving a beat later..
Not right now as he watched Taehyung seizing the girl up in a big hug..
He watches the way the girl giggles, over joyed to see her childhood friend, pretty arms coming to wrap around Taehyung's neck, face hidden the crook of it..
He sees it..
He sees how easily Taehyung holds her..
How easily she fits into Taehyung's arms..
And it's perfect..
"Hey.. You okay?" Jungkook flinches when he hears Seokjin murmuring right next to him..
He blinks before he looks at his eldest hyung..
Seokjin smiles at him but with a frown..
"You seem to be a little lost there bunny boy.."
Jungkook blinks again and he opens his mouth to string up a lie but Taehyung's parents beat him to it..
"Jimin-ah! Kook-ah! Seokjin-ah!" Taehyung's mother rushes over to them..
And it is comical the way the woman abandons her own son to wrap her arms around Jungkook..
But it's not like Taehyung would notice anyway. he is too busy with his childhood crush anyway..
Jungkook sinks into the embrace, closing his aching eyes, which he hadn't quite noticing were aching..
"Eomma.." He breathes out..
The woman smiles.. "My baby.. How have you been? Omo! I didn't see you in so long! Why did you never plan on visiting your poor old mother?! You said you would come last time!"
Jimin chuckles from beside them.. "Well he couldn't escape the clutches of his /real/ mother eomma.. Leave the poor boy be.."
He answers instead of Jungkook knowing that the younger wasn't in a place to give a verbal answer without crying..
Taehyung's mother makes an insulted noise..
"Are you insinuating that I am not a mother to you all you brat!"
"No one said that eomma!" Taehyung's voice could be heard.. "Kookie just had to go to busan.. His mother way sick.."
Jungkook pulls back, a small smile on his face to look at Taehyung's mother but the small smile drops as soon as he sees Taehyung's arms linked with the girl's..
He gulps harshly, averting his eyes, leaning back into Jimin's touch, when he places a hand on Jungkook's back..
"Jin hyung!" Taehyung speaks.. "Can Sana join us for dinner today? I haven't seen he for long! Please!" Taehyung almost pouts as the rap line fills into the room curiosly eyeing the new comers as they are ushered by the make up crew..
"Uh.." Jin hesitates..
Jin doesn't know what to do.. Their post concert dinners are strictly for them and them only.. To just enjoy the presence of eachother after every concert, sharing the satisfaction over the dinner table..
And as he stands next to Jungkook, he has an inkling as to why his youngest baby looks sad..
he knows.. Even if he had said nothing about it to anyone he had always known..
And he didn't want the younger one to be uncomfortable but neither did he want to seem rude..
The girl smiles comfortingly at him..
"It's okay if I can't, I completel-"
"Come on hyung.." both Jin and Jimin freezes as Jungkook speaks.. "It's just one dinner hyungie.. Come on.. Taehyung hyung is seeing her after a long time.."
Jungkook doesn't think it would hurt and it wasn't intetional when he called Taehyung "Taehyung hyung"..
The male would always whine and sulk whenever Jungkook calls him that, demanding him to call him by one of his numerous nicknames for him..
But of course, too immersed in the hapiness of the arrival of his crush Taehyung doesn't eve notice it today..
"See hyung? Even Jungkook agrees.. Come on.."
Taehyung might have not noticed the slip of names but Jungkook clearly does making his heart throb..
He looks away again, eyesbrows scrunching as he hears Seokjin finally agreeing having nothing else to do..
"2 minutes left boys! You are up!"
They hear their manager shouting and they all rush over to get the last seconds touch ups done, but jungkook is stuck in place..
"I'm okay.." Jungkook whispers, smiling barely at Jimin.. "I'm okay hyung.."
He moves his gaze towards his front, watching Taehyung talk excitedly to his supposed crush..
Jungkook is /not/ okay..
He is not..
He puts all of his emotions onto his performance, refusing to acknowledge any of it, pushing them as far as he could..
He goes /hard/ on the stage..
Hard to the point that has his body shaking by the end of it all..
He clambers down the stairs after the concert, trudging towards the dressing room on wobbly knees, a hand casually dragged along the wall for support, making it look like he was just doing it for the fun of it..
He plops down on a chair, listening to the blur of activities happening around him, barely raising an arm when someone tries to remove the mic from him..
"Jungkookie come on.. We are going to get late for dinner.." he hears a soft voice..
He watches as jimin smiles softly at him..
"Yes it's me darling.. All of us have changed.. Only you are left.."
Jungkook purses his lips.. "Can I skip dinner hyung.."
"Baby you know you can't skip dinner.. It's not healthy for you to not eat aft-"
"I will eat.." Jungkook says softly.. "I swear i will eat.. I will go into my hotel room and have them deliver my food.. I promise hyung.. Please hyung.."
Jimin observes the younger's face, his own heart aching when he sees the thin sheet of tears in his eyes..
"Oh baby.." he whispers.. "You promise hyung?"
Jungkook nods immediately..
"I will ring up room service.. I promise hyung.."
Jimin sighs before he gives Jungkook small smile, leaning forwards to kiss Jungkook's brow..
"Okay.. I will make up an excuse for you.. But you got to eat okay?"
Jungkook smiles, pained..
"I love you hyung.."
Jimin feels like crying..
"I love you too baby.."
Taehyung was happy..
He was talking animatedly with Sana, right from the start of the dinner, introducing her to the rest of the guys..
He was enjoying it..
He swears he was..
But he couldn't quite push away one thought in his head..
Was Jungkook okay?
Jimin had come alone to their car saying that Jungkook had left for the hotel, feeling too exhausted..
But if so, if it was only exhaustion why didn't Jungkook tell /him/?
Jungkook never went anywhere without telling him, didn't do anything without telling him..
Then why hadn't he told him before he left?
Not even a call? Not even a text?
Well of course Jungkook was a grown adult and he shouldn;t be bothered by it but he obviously was..
He had half a mind to follow Hosoek and Seokjin when the two had gathered some food after a few hours into the dinner, packing them upto bring them to Jungkook, knowing the maknae would fall straight asleep..
But he couldn't..
He couldn't leave Sana..
He couldn't leave since it's been years after he had last seen her..
Couldn't when he couldn't remember the last time he heard her voice, listened to her laugh, listened to the way she said his name..
It's been too long..
But all the while he listened to the way she did all of it his mind kept wondering to his Jungkookie..
'How was he?'
'Is he okay?'
'You should have gone with the hyungs..'
"Tae.. Are you listening to me?" Sana's voice makes him blink, breaking out of his thoughts..
He stares at her for a second before smilling at her, the smile not reaching his eyes..
"Of course I am Sana-ah! How dare I not pay attention to you?" He jokes half-heartedly, feeling bad when the girl pouts..
"Then tell me, what was I telling you?"
How was he gonna get out of that?
He stares at her, trying to rack his brain, to come up with something she could have possibly said, after when he had last paid attention to her..
But luckily.. Namjoon's loud voice interrupts them..
Taehyung's eyes flick over towards the startled voice, to find their leader on the phone, standing up in haste..
If there was something they all knew about Namjoon, their leader was never the one to be in a haste..
The man was always calm..
Okay, maybe the interuption might not be lucky as much as he thought..
He doesn't get a chance to ask Namjoon what's wrong as Jimin beats him to it..
They all stand up with Namjoon not even knowing what was happening..
But he wishes Jimin never asked the question when he hears Namjoon answer him..
"Jungkookie.." Namjoon breathes, something akin to fear and confusion in his voice..
"Jungkookie is missing.."
"Why is he not picking up?" Seokjin is close to tears as he furiouslt types into his phone again, trying to dial the youngest..
"Hyung stop that.." Namjoon mumurs wrapping Seokjin up in his arms..
They were all gathered up in Jungkook's hotel room..
They had been trying to find their youngest bandmate for almost 3 hours now, but they heard nothing from /anyone/..
Their managers, drivers, body guards were trying to search for the other male like crazy, trying their best to let it leak into the media..
Yet no one could come up with anything..
And they couldn't alert the police, or report a missing case cus it hasn't been 24 hours yet..
The more time that spent without their maknae the more restless they got..
Jimin was silently crying into Yoongi's shoulder, not knowing what to do, blaming himself for letting the maknae go alone, all the while his boyfriend tried to calm him down..
And the three other elders were making calls left and right, trying to locate Jungkook..
Taehyung was no better than Jimin..
Th only difference was that he wasn't crying.. He was just staring blankly at a wall, his brain empty with only one word echoing in his head..
Where was his Jungkookie?
Where did he go?
"Hyung stop.." Namjoon speaks carding his fingers through Seokjin's hair.. "He won't be back just because you panic.. let's stay calm.. He is alright.. I know he is.. He has to be.."
"But he never goes off like this.." Seokjin sniffles..
Eversince Jungkook had been brought home to them it was his duty take care of him..
And Seokjin took the job seriously..
He raised him up like his very own son, giving him everything he had..
And the two shared a bond that no one could explain..
Seokjin just knew that Jungkook wouldn't leave like this.. Not without telling him anything first..
His baby would never..
"He wouldn't Joonie.. Something must be wr-"
Seokjin was cut off, by the loud blaring of Jimin's phone,
who almost fell off from where he sat on the couch, hurrying to pick his phone up..
Eyes widening when he sa who it was..
"Eomma?" he breathes, voice hushed and scared as he heard Jungkook's mother's voice..
The others watch with bated breath as Jimin listened to the voice in the other end..
"He what?!" Jimin nearly squeaks..
"Oh eomma! Is he okay? How did he get there? The cars are all here!" Jimin speaks hastily throwing his free arm all around, trying to contain his emotions..
"By foot?!" Jimin speaks, horror shown clearly in his face.. "By foot at this time of the night?! Eomma please tell me he is okay.."
The others look at eachother, already having an inkling where this was going..
"Yeah?" Jimin's voice softened.. "Okay.. Okay Eomma.. okay.. Tell him I will come see him tomorrow.. Wait what?"
Jimin froze as he listened to the woman..
"Oh.." he barely whispered..
"Oh I understand Eomma.. But the concert tomorrow night.. Oh? Oh okay.. I'll let the management know.. yes Eomma.. Thank you.. I will.."
Jimin smiled with tears shinning in his eyes as he bid the woman good bye..
"I love you too Eomma.. See you tomorrow.."
He sighed as he disconnected the line before plopping himself down onto the couch with a heavy thud and blank look on his face..
Seokjin was on him in seconds..
"Who was that?" the eldest demanded.. "What did they say?"
Jimin sighed his lower lip trembling..
"Kookie's mom.." he whispered leaning into Yoongi's touch when the elder wrapped an arm around him...
"Kookie is home, hyung.. Kookie is hyung.." he mumbles closing his eyes..
"Kookie seems to be sick.. So he went home looking for his Eomma.."
Seokjin's eyes misted yet again..
Looking for his Eomma..
The phrase echoed in his ears..
Jungkook only looked for his mom when he was in deep heartache or exhaustion..
And the last time it happened was almost six years ago..
"He had gone there by foot.." Jimin rasps.. "And had gone straight into her arms crying before falling asleep.."
Seokjin bites his lower lip..
"He will come back tomorrow right?"
Jimin nods.. "He will.." he whispers.. "For the concert he will.. But after that. After Eomma said that she wanted him to rest, here in Busan for a few days.."
"A m-month?!" He practically shouted.. "But he can't do that? We have promotions! He can't! Why so suddenly? What appened? He can't do this!"
The others froze staring at him with wide eyes...
Taehyung had listened to the conversation, his heart twisting in a way he couldn't explain when he had hears that the younger male had walked home, almost a two hour journey, crying..
Yet he contained himself..
He will see him tomorrow..
And he will have time after the concert to know what happened..
Then he will have plenty of time to comfort the younger..
Atleast that is what he thought so..
But a month long hiatus? Without any one of them?
That is too much! Jungkook couldn't do this to him..
He couldn't just get up and decide to go on a hiatus on his own...
How the fuck was he going to bear the absence of the younger for a month?
He was his best friend for fuck's sake...
"He can't just leave yet?"
"No you do not understand! My grandma's birthday is coming in two weeks! he said he would be there! Why is h-"
Taehyung's entire being froze when a soft hand slips to his own, head snapping towards,Sana, who he was't aware was there iwth him..
What was she doing here?
Was she here all along here?
Then why hadn't he noticed until now?
"What are yo-" Seokjin's rather defensive voice could be heard from the other end of the room, trying to ask the question that echoed in Taehyung's mind from her..
But the firm grip on his shoulder, made Seokjin shut up, looking away, not being able to look at the girl knowing that she was part of the reason his baby was in pain..
He knew she had nothing to do with it, but he still couldn't hold his distaste back..
Taehyung blinks, staring at the girl as he stands up infront of him, smilling at him, somoewhat sadly as she cups his face..
"It's okay yeah?" She whispers, caressing his face..
Taehyung wanted to scream..
Nothing was okay.. Nothing..
"You are going to be just fine Taehyungie.." She speaks softly.. "Jungkook-ah must be tired.."
A petty side of Jimin wanted to snarl at her.. Who the fuck was she to call their Jungkookie, 'Jungkook-ah'.. She was nothing to them, but he looked away too,biting his tongue..
"If you don't want to be alone on your grandma's birthday then I will be here okay?"
Taehyung's eyes widened..
No.. No.. It was his and Jungkookie's thing to visit his grandmother's grave early in the morning..
Not with her..
But he didn't want to be alone on that day too..
And what was so bad in letting her stay with him? His brain tried to reason..
This was the girl he liked..
The girl had dreamt of having a future with eversince he was a kid..
So what's so wrong in spending the day with her?
Taehyung blinks, tears clinging to his eyes as she smiled ever so warmly at him..
"I promise.." She whispered coming closer to him.. The rest of them had deep frowm on theri faces, as they looked elsewhere..
Taehyung's mind echoed..
A promise sounded good right about now..
But Jungkook had made a promise too..
"I will be there with you every second of the day okay?" She murmurs gently, almost cauxing him like a toddler..
'I made a promise to Jungkookie too..' he wanted to say..
But then Jungkook had ignored it when he had agreed to a month of hiatus, knowing that he would be alone on that day..
Maybe he just should take what was in his grasp..
He sniffled letting a tear drop down his cheek..
"Oh Tae.. Just let me be there.. It's okay.." The girl mumbled.. "Jungkook-ah can't be with you forever anyway.. but I will be here okay?"
Jimin and Seokjin wanted to scream..
He was exhausted to rationalize anything.. So he just nodded..
If he was in a right mind to rationalize he would have seen the triumphant smile on the girl's face, or the disturbed looks on his band-mate's faces..
Or he would have been able to understand what he just did..
What he just gave the okay to..
But he wasn't..
So he just let the girl pull him into an embrace..
But it felt nothing like what he is used to..
It felt nothing like safety..
It felt nothing like Jungkookie..
But none of that mattered now..
Jungkookie wasn't here now..
And he won't be there for him..
The only thought that echoed through his head as he rested his head on her shoulder was..
'Atleast she will be there.. Sana will be there..'
Jungkook steps into the entrance of the stadium, bowing slightly to the guards that greeted him as he entered..
He still wasn't over what happened yesterday, and his mother had been reluctant to let him go even of she didn't know anything..
But he needed to be here..
The team came first..
They came first for him before anything..
He was not about to put the entire team in jeapordy on such a big day..
Their fans were waiting for all seven of them..
He was somehow glad that altleast he didn't have to see the girl today..
But that relief was soon washed away when he stepped into their back room and the girl was still there, hunched over Taehyung's figure, caressing his hair..
He stayed there frozen at the entrance staring at them, until JImin's voice snapped him out of it..
He doesn't have anymore time to stare at the pair as he is engulfed in a bear hug by both Seokjin and Jimin the two males fretting over him..
"Hyung.." He slowly interrupted them with a soft tired voice.. "What is she still doing here?"
Seokjin and Jimin both pulls back looking at eachother and Jungkook's eyes find the pair again..
He could see that Taehyung was asleep but the girl was not.. She was just on her phone, taking a selfie with the sleeping male, which somehow irked Jungkook..
And he was just about to look away when the girl sees him and he sees how her eyes momentarily widen, before she just flashes him a small smile, which seemed to be annoyed, looking at her phone again..
Jimin sighed before he explained what had happened yesterday..
Jungkook nodded, feeling sorry and beating himself up for causing the elder pain.. It was never his intention, his own heart ached as he listened to how Taehyung had broken down..
Of course... They were best friends before anything..
He should have been some more considerate..
"But that was yesterday.." Jungkook mutters softly as the staff started calling them for the mic testing.. "What is she still doing here?"
Jimin closed his eyes before smilling sadly at him..
"We.. Taehyung thought that you wouldn't come back until a month later.." he whispered.. "So he automatically assumed that you won't be there for his grandmother's birthday.."
Jungkook stiffened, pausing on his steps..
He swallows harshly..
Please let it not be what he was thinking..
"And.. And Sana was there.. She calmed Taehyung down, telling him that she would always be there for her.."
Jungkook's breathing deepened, trying to wrap his head around what was being said..
Jimin throat clogged up as he looked at the boy's ashened face, those big doe eyes looking like they would break into twenty pieces, shattering his heart along with them, any minute now..
"And.. And Tae agreed.."
Jungkook felt his world crumbling down, one stone at a time..
To say Taehyung was surprised was an understatement..
He had not expected Sana to be the one waking him up from his nap..
He hadn't expected her to visit her so soon..
But he had just smiled at her, feeling empty inside for some reason before walking off to the stage where he knew that the others were already on..
Ad he had then gotten the second shock of the day seeing Jungkook on the stage doing vocal warm ups..
But he hadn't had enough time to go talk to him as the rehearsals began..
And since the first half was purely based on chreography he couldn't even be near the younger as much as he wanted..
To make metters even worse the younger hadn't spared him a glance, just practising, occassionally smilling at Jimin or Seokjin whenever they made a mistake..
He wanted to talk to him..
He needed to talk to him..
He wanted to ask Jungkook what had happened yesterday..
He wanted to know why he had left just like that..
And why he had decided to go on a hiatus so suddenly..
Something a little hard to do when the said male avoided him like the plague..
Even when they took small breaks Jungkook would disappear to somewhere with Jimin and Seokjin, to where when he was about to follow was dragged away by a pouting Sana, telling him that he had to eat something..
He had looked to where Jungkook had left longingly before following Sana, to get something into his stomach..
And aybe it was his lucky day, cus he finally, /finnally/ got the chace to go to Jungkook when they were singing one of their encore songs..
He immediately hung onto Jungkook's bicep, sneaking his arm in like a hoops, wrapping his fingers around Jungkook's forearm..
A small smile curled into his lips when the familiar perfume of the younger wafted into his nose, making him feel safe and warm immediately..
Jungkook was singing into the mic, his eyes closed, and Taehyung was surprised that younger didn't even to make a movement to acknowledge his presence..
When Jungkook lowered his mic, Taehyung looked up at him with a smile, ready to greet him..
But he was surprised yet again, the younger just pausing for barely a second before brushing his hair back, a deep sigh leaving as he not so carefully untangeled his hand from Taehyung..
Leaving him to stand there in pure shock, tears springing into his eyes, in abandonce..
Not even sparing him a single glance..
Yoongi's eyes follows Jungkook as the younger enters the dressing room after their mic test, picking up a water bottle before sitting down on the make up chair beside him, waiting for his stylist..
Yoongi stares silently at him for awhile..
"You okay kid?"
He watches the way Jungkook pauses for a second before gulping down his water..
"Me?" Jungkook asks deattaching the bottle from his lips.. "Of course I am hyung.. I am okay..."
Yoongi stares at him some more..
"Every day same question and same lie for the answer no?"
Jungkook snorts as the stylists comes to him..
"If you know why do you ask hyung.." he sighs..
Yoongi chuckles.. "For courtesy purposes, kid."
Jungkook rolls his eyes.. "Why did you ask though?"
"You were not okay yesterday.."
Jungkook shrugs.. "That was yesterday hyung.. "
"Don't try to play macho man with me Kook.." Yoongi grimaces..
Jungkook frowns, before shaking his head.. "Macho man? I am not hyung.. I am okay.. really.."
"Hmm.." Yoongi hums.. "Is that why I saw you skipping
on the ice cream machine when you came here?"
Jungkook stills before he turns his head and stare at the silver coloured machine..
"Ah.. I am on a diet hyung.. you know that.." he mumbles looking at the machine..
It was Yoongi's turn to snort.. "When has a diet ever stopped you from ice cream?"
Jungkook sighed turning back from the ice cream machine, looking at the mirror..
"I'm just not in the mood for ice cream hyung.." he mumbled..
Yoongi nodded.. "The last time you were not in the mood for ice cream was when Guerum died.. Who died this time?"
Jungkook fell silent with that.. He had no reply for that..
He just stared at the mirror, eyes taking in the way the others just lounged around the room until him and Yoongi get their hair done..
Only Taehyung wasn't there..
Taehyung and Sana..
He wanted to laugh..
Jungkook's eyes snapped to the male beside him. staring at him through the mirror, while the elder just played 'piano tiles' on his phone..
"You should sometimes vocalize what you feel, kid.."
"When and to whom have you done that to hyung?"
Yoongi grins as he passes his last record on the game..
"Aren't I doing that now?" He mumbles.."I feel sad.. and I'm talking it out with you.."
Jungkook blinks.. "Sad? Why are you sad hyung?"
Yoongi pauses for awhile..
"My little prince is sad.." he says softly..
Yoongi simply shakes his head.. "I just hate seeing you hurt, Jungkook-ah.. I hate to see you sad.. And I hate it even more when I can do nothing to make you happy again or protect you from whatever that is making you sad.."
Jungkook swallows harshly before looking away..
"I.." He tries to speak.. "This is just a feeling hyung.. It will go away.. Just like everything else.."
Yoongi puses his lips.. "Feelings doesn't work like that Jungkookie.. I know you are hurting.. And you will hurt more, +
+ the more you stay silent.."
Jungkook's jaw ticks as his eyes start to burn, and before he could say anything to Yoongi, the door to the room opens again, Sana coming in a slightly smilling Taehyung coming in right behind her..
He just closes his eyes, tilting his head..
"I don't think voicing anything would do me anything good.."
Yoongi finally turns his head to stare at the younger.. "Why?"
Jungkook mere shrugs before smilling ruefully..
"When you love someone with everything you have, and they still doesn't notice you, nor choose you..." he whispers..
"What makes you think that they would notice mere words, hyung.."
Taehyung would be lying if he said he wasn't hurting..
He was hurting so bad..
Through the whole concert..
The only thingthat kept him smilling and going was their screaming fans..
And he hoped that no one noticed how hurt he was feeling..
When the concert finally came to an end, Taehyung felt like lying down on that very stage and crying..
Jungkook hadn't looked at him once..
He hadn't interacted with him, outside of choreo, for once..
What had he done?
Why was Jungkook ignoring him so bad?
What did he do?
"Where is your girl friend?" Taehyung reels back when he hears Jimin's voice from behind him..
He hadn't expected anyone in the bathroom since the others were all done, and he was too busy into his head to notice anyone entering..
He blinks.. "My girl friend?"
Jimin smirks.. "Yeah? Sana? I didn't see her anywhere.."
Taehyung frowns before turing back to the sink and starting to wash his hands..
"She is not my girl friend mimi.."
"Oh? No? Well she was sure behaving like one.." Jimin shurgs..
"What are you on about Jiminie?" Taehyung sighs making Jimin shrug..
"When did we ever allow an outsider into our private conversation, regarding /our/ family? and when did we ever let an outsider be with us during mic testing? You tell me Tae.. What are you on about?"
Taehyung grimaces as he pulls back and wiped his hands..
"She wasn't outsider to me Jiminie.. You know who she is to me.. And I hadn't seen or spent time with her in years.. She wanted to spend time with me as much as she can before they leave for Daegu again.."
JImin chuckled without any warmth in it..
"So what.." He mumbles.. "So she is to be allowed in ever conversation we have from now on? She might not be an outsider to you Tae, but she is to us.. Why are you doing this?"
Taehyung sighs.. "Well I don't think she will be a stranger anymore to you guys.. You will have to get used to seeing her more often than not.."
Jimin freezes.. "What?"
Taehyung shrugs.. "She wanted to go to Seoul with me for a few days.."
JImin blinks.. "What in the.. Why would she want to come to Seoul?"
"Why do you sound so irritated Jiminie?" Taehyung souded deffensive.. "She said yesterday that she was going to spend my grandma's birthday with me.. And she said she wanted to see the city.. "
"She wanted to see the city?" Jimin echoes.. "So what? She asked you out? Are you two dating now or something?"
Taehyung drops the towel before gritting his teeth.. "Again.. Why the fuck do you sound so annoyed.. What did she do to you? And yes she did ask me out.."
"And you agreed?" Jimin ignores the first two questions.. "You agreed just like that to be her fucking chaperon? And what more would you agree for? hold her hand? Hold her? Kiss her? Go to bed with her? What more Taehyung?"
"Why? Does it sound absurd to you?" Jimin hisses...
"So what if I do? I have liked her since I was Kid Jimin.. So what if I did?" Taehyung bites back glowering at his friend..
"Taehyung for the love of god! You do not like her like that!" Jimin presses, angrily..
"And how do you know that?" Taehyung grits.. "My feelings are mine! Fucking mine! How do you know that I don't like her? She is everything I liked! She taught me what it was to feel and fall in love! How can you tell me that I do not like her!"
"Because I am your best friend!"
"Because I am your fucking soulmate and I have been there with you through thick and thin.. I have seen! I have seen it all! How you look at your friends, how you look at someone you love! How you behave with someone you love! I have seen it all! "
"And you do not look at her like you love her! You do not behave with her like you love her! you do not look at her atleast the warmth you hold for us! You look at her like you would look at any one of your close acquaintances! She is nothing special to you!"
"You look at me with more love and warmth than her!" Jimin pushes at Taehyung's shoulder.. "Open your eyes.. You do not love her! And nor does she! She doesn't love you! Not in the least! You just don't see that you don't like her anymore Tae! Get your head out of the past!"
"If I knew more! I would dare to say that you were already in love with someone else!"
Taehyung freezes.. "What? What the fuck Jimin?"
Jimin scoffs.. "You do not know? You do not know the way you look at him? The way you behave with him?"
"Who the fuck are you talking about?!" Taehyung nearly roars..
"Jungkook! I am talking about Jungkook! Have you seen
how smitten you are with him? You look at him like he hung the stars on the sky!"
Taehyung's entire body freezes..
"what the fuck are you talking about?"
Jimin laughs.. "I am talking about the truth! Ask from any of the hyungs! Anyone who knows us on a personal level! Ask them and they will say the same!"
Taehyung stares at him, mind emptying out completely, before bursting out into laughter..
"Jungkook?" He heaves out amidst the laughter like it was something absurd.. "Jungkook? Me? Love Jungkook? Our maknae? Jeon Jungkook?"
Jimin stares at his best friend without any emotions..
"Are you.. Are you crazy! That's.. he is Jungkook!"
Taehyung laughs harder and harder, he doesn't notice the way tears spring into his eyes..
"He is my baby brother! My best friend! Why would i love him romantically? Jimin are you cr-"
Taehyung's rant is cut off by throat being cleared, making them both jump..
JImin opens his mouth to say something after the initial shock wears off, but Taehyung beats him to it..
Taehyung races to the other, gripping him by the shoulders..
"Jungkook!" He speaks trying to jostle the younger... "Jungkook! Jimin thinks that I love you!"
When the younger stares at him silently, doing nothing to stop the way he was shaking him, his hands inside his hoodie pockets, Taehyung gets more restless..
"Tell him Jungkookie! Tell him that I do not love you like that! He won't believe me! Tell him we are only friends.."
"Tell him that you are my little baby brother! How could I ever look at you like that?! You are my innocent Jungkookie.."
"Taehyung I think you should stop.." Jimin's voice shakes as he tries to walk towards them, but Taehyung doesn't stop, he keeps shaking the younger..
"Tell him how much I used to rant about Sana to you! Tell him how many nights we spent awake listening to me talking about her when we were trainees! Tell him Jungkookie! Tell him we are nothing but best friends!"
Taehyung stares at Jungkook, desperate..
And the way jungkook stares back at him make him burn..
"Why are you not saying anything Jungkook? Tell him!"
Jungkook barely blinks as he holds his gaze before smilling slightly..
"Yes Jimin hyung.." He speaks, but he is not looking at Jimin..
He stares right into those brown eyes as he speaks..
"We are nothing.." He mumbles, his voice lowering into a whisper.. "Taehyung hyung doesn't love me.. I am his baby brother.. How can he ever love me that way?"
His smile deepens, and it hurts Taehyung..
Taehyung eyes follow the way Jungkook's eyes roams all over his face, as if the younger was trying to memorise every nook and corner of his face.. And he feels naked, heart twisting in a way that he couldn't explain..
Jungkook's dimples pops out, his nose scrunching up as he looks Taehyung right in his eyes, smilling..
That bunny smile..
but today for some reason Taehyung hated that smile..
It felt cold and hollow..
"We are nothing but friends.."
Taehyung stills when those words are said..
He doesn't feel the satisfaction that he was supposed to feel when he heard them..
He doesn't get the confirmation he needed..
What he was desperate for..
What was he even desperate for..
He tries to reach out automatically when Jungkook steps back..
He feels as if someone ripped away a part of him when the younger puts several feet between them turning to Jimin..
Jungkook smiles at Jimin, walks to him, and cups his face..
"Why are you crying hyungie?"
JImin grasps at Jungkook wrists desperately..
"I'm sorry.." he whimpers.. "I'm so sorry.. Baby i-"
"Shh.." Jungkook chuckles.. "I just came to say that I'm leaving hyung.. I'll see you soon yeah?"
"I'll come back hyung.. I promise.."
"I'll come back soon.. And It's not like I'm fleeing the country.. Just a few weeks hyung.." Jungkook smiles before hugging Jimin..
"I love you.." Jimin hiccups hugging the younger tightly, and Jungkook laughs..
"Love you too midget.." he mumbles making jimin laugh wetly..
"You brat.." Jimin sniffles when Jungkook pulls back..
Jungkook smiles at him, and Jimin tries to read is eyes, but he fails..
It's like Jungkook had put a mask over his eyes, cus he knew the younger was hurt.
But he couldn't see an ounce of hurt in those eyes..
Jungkook just squeezes his shoulders before turning to Taehyung again, who was staring at his two best friends this whole time as if he was in a trance..
When Jungkook looks at him, Taehyung expects the younger to some and hug him too..
But he doesn't..
Jungkook merely smiles at him..
"I'll see you soon Taehyung hyung.."he speaks before turning around to leave..
Taehyung's heart throbs..
"Jungkook!"He calls out making Jungkook freeze, looking over his shoulder at him..
"Where is my hug you brat.." he asks, lips trembling..
Jungkook stays still,before chuckling and turning towards Taehyung..
He stares at him for a few seconds his head tilted..
When he was satisfied, he moves slowly towards him, wrapping his arms around him gently, as if Taehyung would break if he tightens his hold a bit too much..
"I'm sorry hyung.." he mumbles softly.. "I'll see you again.."
Taehyung wraps his own hands around the younger, melting into his embrace..
"I will miss you so much.." He whispers.. "I love you kookie.."
Taehyung stills when the younger just laughs, lightly..
Despite him trying to tighten his hold the younger pulls back, staring at him..
"I will miss you too hyung.." Jungkook smiles before turning around again, walking away..
He pauses by the door, his hand on the door handle, eyes on the door..
"Hope Sana make you happy hyung.."
Taehyung flinches when the door falls shut behind the younger with a thud..
He couldn't explain the hurt that was clawing at his heart making his entire body bleed and writhe in pain..
He keeps staring at the door Jungkook just left..
And tears flow down effortlessly...
Jungkook hurries over to the car that was waiting for him after bidding all of his hyungs goodbye..
"Let's go.." he mumbles as the bodyguard closes the door after he gets in..
He sighs as he leans back against the seat as the car starts to move, eyes glued to the stadium..
He suddenly chuckles as the entrances gets smaller and smaller the more the car moved away..
He lets out a long sigh..
"I guess I was the fool for reading things the wrong way.." he murmurs to himself, the tears he had been holding in, springing to life.. "I'm sorry hyung.."
"You are right.." he whispers.. "I am nothing but the boy that you took under your wing,the little kid who could do nothing without you..You pitied me and let me hand on to you and I am sorry for taking advantage of it.. I'm sorry for mistaking your kindness for something else.."
He keeps his eyes glued to the building until it reduces into a dot..
Taking in a shuddering breath, he chokes on a sob..
"I love you.." he cries, not holding anything back anymore.. "I love you so fucking much hyung.. I love you so much.."
"But we are nothing but friends.. no?" he sniffles.. "I fucked up.. I had no right.. I had no right to take your kindness for granted.. I'm so sorry.."
He pulls out his phone and stares at the lock screen, studying the male on it, staring at that boxy smile..
He runs his finger on the screen, over Taehyung's face..
"I got my answer today.." He cries.. "Don't worry hyung.. I understand.. We are friends.."
He squeezes his eyes shut as sobs wreck through him..
"Nothing but best friends.."
He brings the phone upto his lips, pressing them over Taehyung's forhead..
"I don't what will hurt me more hyungie.. Letting you go because you do not belong to me or.." He whimpers..
Taehyung, Seokjin and Hosoek who were already sitting in the living room in their shared apartment jumps at the sudden voice od Namjoon..
The male did not sound pleased..
Taehyung frowns turning around slightly watching the male walk towards where they were sitting..
Taehyung's eyes moved to the tablet Namjoon was holding, tilting his head in question..
He slightly flinches when Namjoon drops the tablet, unceromoniously onto the couch, beside where he was sitting..
Yoongi and Jimin coming out of there room, hearing the comotion..
"What is going on?" Yoongi asks, sleepily pushing his hair back..
Namjoon looks pointedly at Taehyung.. He then points to the device..
"Why don't you tell all of us what is indeed going on, Taehyung.." the leader sounded calm, but he also sounded like he was holding onto the last thread of sanity..
Taehyung's confused eyes moved from Namjoon to the tablet before freezing, eyes running over the article..
Taehyung stared at it as he started to shake his head..
"This is not real.. Yes I did go out with Sana, but we never went to a restaurant.. We always had meals at my private apartment.." He mutters looking at Namjoon..
Namjoon raises a brow.. "And when were you planning to tell me that you were going out with Sana, Taehyung?"
Taehyung blinks.. "I.. I didn't think it was important.."
"Of course it is important! At the end of the day I am the one who has to do damage control, +
+ so I should know whether my bandmate is dating or not, atleast if you are doing it openly!" Namjoon grimaces, sighing..
"You are dating Sana?" Hoseok asks staring at Taehyung as if he had never seen him..
Jimin chuckles before taehyung could answer Hoseok..
"Hyung of course they are dating.." he mumbles.. "Why? Have you never seen how smitten they are with each other? She was his childhood crush after all.. Of course they would be dating.. How dense could you be hyung.."
Taehyung gritted his teeth..
"We aren't dating.." he grits out.. "Not yet.."
"Not yet? So.."
"She asked me out.." Taehyung mumbles.. "And I asked for sommetime, but I see no reason to say no to her.."
Jimin snickers making Yoongi sigh.. "Jimin-ah.."
Namjoon tilts his head.. "So you are telling me that there is no point in the company denying these claims?"
"No.. I don't want the company to deny nor confirm.. Just.. Just let us take things slowly.." he speaks eyes moving to his best friend who was glaring at the floor..
Hoseok frowns again..
"Taetae.." he speaks softly.. "Baby.. Baby are you sure about this?"
Taehyung looks at him.. "I am hyung.. Why do you ask me that?"
He shakes his head.. "No it's just tha-"
"Hyung.." Jimin snaps.. "What do you not understand?"
"He said he already likes her, and that they've agreed on taking things slowly.."
"Yeah I know.. But she i-"
"Let Taehyung date whoever he wants to hyung!" Jimin bites out, eyes holding an emotion Taehyung can't place his finger on..
"It's his feelings! What do you know about it? What do we know about it? If he thinks that she is someone he can love the who are we to question it? Let him make decisions on his own!" Jimin spits out before turning around and storming away into his room again..
Taehyung stares after Jimin, tears springing into his eyes, he looks back at Hoseok and Seokjin, who simply looks away, trying to look at anything but at him..
he had never felt more alone.. Never..
He wants to curl into himsel and sob..
He was so confused..
Why were they all being like this..Why were they so against him being happy?
Why can they just not understand? He just want to enjoy his life, with the person he likes and wants to love..
Namjoon sighs and pats his head..
"I'll let the company know Tae.." he smiles slightly at him.."Be careful yeah? We don't want you to get in trouble.. Like you said.. Take things slowly.." he murmurs gently before picking the tablet up and leaving back to his office room..
Seokjin and Hoseok looks at him before smilling at him slightly and getting upto to leave too..
"Oh!" Namjoon paused on his way.. "Jungkookie is due back in three days.. get ready to go into work mode... Free time is over.." he simply says before going into his office room..
Taehyung stiffens at the sound of the name..
He watches the way Seokjin and Hosoek nod before leaving, and he notices the way Yoongi stares at him from where he stood..
He bit his tongue hard, trying not to cry..
"Are you going to tell me no to date her too?" Taehyung whispered staring at the wall infront of him..
"No one is telling you not to date her, kid.." Yoongi grunts.. "We are all telling you to be careful.. None of us want to see you get hurt.. By any means.."
Yoongi slowly walks towards him..
"If you want to date her.." he speaks gently carding his fingers through Taehyung's hair.. "Then you can.. But just promise that you will take care of yourself.. That is all what we want.. if she is your happiness, then be with her.."
He smiles at him softly..
"But.." he pauses holding Tae's eyes for awhile.. "If you will like she is not your happiness, then don't hesitate to find it and chase it.. Just don't hurt yourself.. We hate it.." he mumbled ruffling his hair before turning around and walking away..
Taehyung stares at Yoongi's back, watching him enter his and Jimin's room, letting his words sink in..
He closes his eyes, a tear trailling down the length of his face..
"But you guys are already hurting me.." he whispered to himself..
The sound of the waves crashing against the shore raches his ears, soothing his body while his eyes which were trained on the phone, burned with tears..
He stares at it for a little while longer before, locking the phone, putting it away before looking up at the sky..
The moon is out tonight, not fully, but enough to give light to his sarroundings, lighting up the darkness..
Yet it does not succeed in lighting up the darkness inside him..
He giggles staring at the moon..
"It hurts.." he sighs, tears spilling over the corners of his eyes..
He brings his hand beneath his head, making a pillow out of them, on the sand where he lays..
"I know..." he mutters with a pained smile.. "I know you are not even mine.. You don't belong to me.. Then why does it hurt like I lost something that belonged to me? Why?"
"I have no right.." he shakes his head..
He lazily blinks up at the moon. trying to ignore his twisting heart, swallowing harshly..
The moon.. He watches it gets covered by the clouds, darkness falling over him again..
Fr a moment his world turns black.. Pitch black..
But he does not feel the darkness, intensifying..
Cus he was already in the darkness, without his moon in his life..
"Moon.." he snickers at himself.. "My moon.."
He purses his lips, trying to blink away his tears..
"I do not blame you.." he rasps.. "I do not blame you my moon.. It's my fault.. It's not anyone's fault but mine.. I shouldn't have got ahead of myself.. I should have known better.."
He smiles ruefully..
"She is perfect for you hyung.. No wonder you fell for her at such a young age.. and no wonder you never looked at anyone else like you did at her.. You both are so perfect.."
"I hope she is it for you.. I hope that she is your person hyung.." he lets out a shaky breath.. "I hope you find your person in her like I found my person in you.. I hope you learn to love her as much as I learned to love you.. I hope you love and live happily..."
He lets the silence of the night, apart from the waves, wash over him silently for a moment..
"And me?" he smiled.. "I will live and love too.. I will let you be happy and feel happiness through that.. it's a previlege to love you even from a distance.. "
" and I will love you as long as I can.." he sighs out.. "Even if it hurts me in my bones to do so, I will forever find noth peace and chaos in loving you.. And just like an addict to it I will keep loving you.."
"I love you.."
"What are you doing?" Taehyung asks sleepily rubbig at his eyes as he comes to the living room, seeing Jimin on the couch, watching something on his phone..
He stands still in the middle of the room, but he gets no answer..
"What are you doing?" he asks again.. "Jimin.."
The said male finally looks up at him, staring at him silently..
"What are you doing?" taehyung asks again..
"Watching a video.."
Jimin sighs.. "On how to make a snow globe.."
Taehyung's eyes slightly widens.. "Oh?" he sounded a bit excited.. "What is the special occassion? Are you planning to try and make one for Yoongi hyung?"
Jimin blinks going back to his phone..
"Yes and no.."
He grimaces.. "Yes I am trying to make one but It's not for Yoongi hyung.. It's for jungkookie.." he mutters nonchalantly..
"Jungkookie?" Taehyung frowns.. "But it's not his birthday?"
Jimin tsks.. "I am seeing my friend and brother after a month Taehyung.."
Taehyung bites his lower lip..
It hurts him..
The name hurts him..
The space on the couch between them hurts him..
The way Jimin doesn't even bother to look at him, hurts him..
"It doesn't need to be his birthday.. There is no time limit nor special occassion that you can do something nice for your friend, Taehyung.."
Tae's lower lip wobbles as he gulps harshly, trying to wet his already dry throat..
"Am I not a friend then?"
Jimin freezes.. "What?"
Taehyung snorts, blinking back his tears..
"Am I not your friend anymore Jimin-ah?" he whispers harshly, eeys blurring.. "Cus when was the last time you did something nice for me? looked at me properly? Talked to me properly? Am I not your friend anymore?"
Jimin tilts his head.. He stares at Taehyung until Taehyung startd to fidget, the gaze making him feel nervous..
"You wanna tell me that again Taehyung?" Jimin says calmly, /so/ calmly, it makes Taehyung terified..
Jimin shook his wrist.."Whatever you just said.. Care to repeat it for me?" he mumbles turning to Taehyung.. "Go ahead, darling.. I'm listening.."
Taehyung pauses, mouth opening and closing for a few times..
"Jimin what is wrong with you?"
Jimin stares at him before he throws his head back and laughs..
And Taehyung gets almost gets a whiplash with how fast Jimin's expression changes, from laughing to practically screaming mvrder..
"You.." he seethes.. "You tell me what is wrong with you first.."
Taehyung straightens, eyes widening for a second..
"What the fuck do you mean?"
"I can't believe the fucking audacity Taehyung.." He shakes his head.. "I thought I was disappointed enough that day, but damn.. You keep proving me wrong.."
Taehyung feels his anger rising with the way Jimin was talking..
"Disappointing?" he grits out.. "Why? How did I disappoint you? By not acceping your claims of me not loving Jungkook? Is that it? Why are you hurt that you were wrong? You dreams of being always right shattered?"
"Did it hurt your ego minnie?" he mocks, glaring at Jimin.. He didn't know why or how he got this angry.. It's like something pent up was about to explode.. "Does it irk you stupid fu-"
"Shut the fuck up!" Jimin growls standing from the couch, face red with anger..
He points an accusing finger at Taehyung..
"Do you think I would stoop that fucking low? If you don't have feelings for someone then what the fuck can I do about it? I tried telling you about it but then if you keeps denying that strong then it is none of my fucking problems!"
Jimin heaves, his eyes tearing up..
"Do you think I am you? Huh? Do you think I am like you who is so ready and willing to throw away ten years of fucking friendship for a girl that was barely there? Do you think that I am a petty moron like you?! Do you Kim Taehyung, do you?!"
"What the fuck are you on about? What the fuck did I do to do something to damage our friendship? You are the only one doiong that! You and the others are the people who keeps ignorinng me like I dont exist, what a-"
"We ignore you cus you told us to!" Jimin yells, crying..
"What... I told you to ignore me? Jimin what are you saying?"
JImin laughs wiping his tears.. "No.. you didn't tell us to ignore you.. You told us to quite literally fuck off and mind our own fucking business!"
Taehyung'sjaw drops open..
"When.. What.. When the hell did I say that?"
"Don't.. " Jimin seethes.."Stop lying! Stop lying or else I'll shove it in your fucking face! Stop pretending!"
"I don't know what you are talking about for fuck's sake!"
Taehyung throws his hands up in exasperation..
"Whatever that you are gonna shove in my face, please do, cus I do not fucking for the love of my mother do not know what you are fucking talking about!"
He feels frustrated enough to pull his hair out when he sees Jimin laughing reaching for his..
"Yeah? You don't?" Jimin glowers, pressing his phone before shoving it onto him.. "Then take a look at this! ook at it and remind your heroic fucking self what you fucking did!"
He stares at Jimin, his heart pounding in his ears as he took the phone out of his hand..
And he quite literally feels his world tilting side ways when he reads the chat..
He pales like someone who had seen a ghost, hand shaking as he held onto the phone for dear life..
(sorry for taking so long but i quite literally forgot the chat would be in chim chim's pov so i had to go and remake it and anyone who knows me knows how much i HATE making soc med parts..)
He starts to shake his head, as he looks up at Jimin with widen eyes..
"This is not me!"He says hurriedly.."Chim please! I didn't say these.."
"Who the fuck are you kidding here?" Jimin hisses.. "Are you telling me that someone else sent it? Even i don't knkw your password!"
He pushes at Taehyung's shoulders..
"The only person who knows your password is Jungkook!" Jimin scowls at him.. "Are you telling me he magically appeared beside you and took your phone and messaged us? He is in Busan! Stop fucking lying!"
"And congratulations /Kim/.." Jimin smirks, despite his tears... He reaches out and snatches his phone out of Taehyung's grasp.."The only person who would have believed your shit ass lie.. You hurt him too.. Confuckingratulations!"
"Stop calling me that!"
"But I didn't do it!" Taehyung cries..
"Then who the fuck did it?" Jimin screams at the other.. "Are you saying that one of us did it? or are you saying your beloved girlfriend did it!"
Taehyung freezes, horrified..
"No!" He gasps stumbling back.. "No.. She.. No!"
Taeyung shakes his head frantically, tears pouring down his face..
"Sana.. She is not that kind of girl.." He hiccups.. "She.. She doesn't even know my password! It is not her! It couldn't have been her!"
"You supid fucking moron!" JImin snarls.. "If she is not the one who did this, then the only who could have done is you!"
He flinches back when Taehyung tries to reach for him..
"Don't you ever fucking come infront of me.. I thought I knew, but apparently.. I was wrong, /Kim/.."
JImin storms out of the living room, leaving Taehyung crying, calling after his best friend desperately..
He is left alone..
There is not even a sound of a dropping pin, when Jungkook enters into the apartment, a luggage in hand..
He frowns as he removes his shoes and hangs his coat by the door..
"Where is everyone?" he mutters to himself as he takes his baseball cap off, walking into the apartment..
Jungkook walks past the small sitting area in the entrance, which serves as the waiting area for any visitors, frowning slightly when he sees all the lights of the house are switched off..
He walks further into the house switching the lights on, and sighs entering the living room, thinking that the others must have gone out for dinner or something cus he did comme home before the date he said he would be coming..
He starts to remove his leather jacket, with a grimace when he suddenly freezes, when he hears a soft sniffle..
Is he hearing things?
What the fuck?
Who the fuck is crying if no one is there?
He stays silent listening to see if he was indeed hearing things or that sound was real..
He tilts his head,when the sound doesn't come again..
"You are hearing things.."he mumbles to himself proceeding to remove his jacket only to freeze again when he hears a soft cry,again..
He whirls around, eyes wide..
"Hyung?" he calls out, waiting for any one of his hyungs to reply back but the only sounds he could hear was the soft sobs..
He blinks confused..
Were they coming from the balcony?
But it was rainning.. who the fuck?
Before he could think anymore his feet are hurrying over towards the first set of balcony doors of the house, ripping them open..
And the sight that greets him, makes bile rush up his throat..
Curled in a corner of balcony..
Soaked like a dog..
Body shaking violently with sobs, hands clutching his hair, harsh enough to rip them out..
"I didn't do it.. Di-didn't do it.."
Jungkook stared at the way the male kept muttering to himself, looking absolutely destraught and out of it..
HIs own lips wobbles as tears welled in his eyes..
He takes a shaky step forward as lightening flashes across the sky, startling crying male..
The harsh, cold rain water soaks Jungkook, without his coat, as he takes quick strides towards his youngest hyung..
The cold water felt like blizards against his skin, but it did nothing to hurt him as much as it hurt him to see Taehyung like this..
HIs hands shake as they reach for the crying male, and he doesn't know whether they were shaking from the cold or from pain..
He only says the word "hyung" over and over again as he bends down slightly to just pick Taehyung up in his arms,the male too out of it to even notice..
He doesn't stay there to try and coax the male out of his thoughts or crying, he just carries him inside, wetting the entire apartment with how much both of them were dripping..
He knew Seokjin would go out of his mind, but right now, he could care less..
Taehyung was freezing..
And the only thing in his mind was to get him out of those clothes and into a bath..
He didn't care for anything else right now..
If Seokjin has a problem with wet tiles and carpet then they could solve it later, not now..
It takes him barely three minutes to get to the bathroom in Taehyung's room, carefully placing the male inside the bathtub before letting warm water fill into the tub..
"I'm sorry hyung.." he whispers, shaking on his own as he quickly strips Taehyung down to his boxers..
Any other day, seeing him without his clothes would have made him blush down to his roots, but now he is almost close to weeping his heart as let the water fill around Taehyung..
And it's like the warm finally awakens the other cus Taehyung is suddenly jolting forward, gasping.
Jungkook makes a noise at the back of his throat, clearly surprised and before he can think he is surging forward, cupping Taehyung's cheek..
"Tae.." he mumbles, trying to get the male to look at him.. "Taehyung hyung.. It's me.. breathe.. It's Jungkook.. Come on hyung.."
It takes Taehyung a minute, but as soon as he has a clear view of his sarrounding he is grasping at Jungkook's wrists, nails digging harshy into the skin of the younger..
"J-Jungkook!" he speaks, his eyes widened, in a haste, afraid..
Jungkook nods hurriedly, heart aching, an urge to hurt anyone who hurt Taehyung this bad coursing through his veins..
"It's me.." he tries to smile.. "It's me hyung.. It's Jungkook.. Your Jungkookie.. You are okay hyung.. You are okay.. Yeah? trust your Jungkookie.."
Taehyung shakes his head, trying to struggle, water sloshing everywhere..
"N-nothing is okay.. n-nothing is okkay.." He cries, trying to breathe properly.. "They t-think I did it.. I d-didn't! I didn't!"
"Hey.. shhh.. Okay.. I understand hyung.. but can you please breathe for m-"
"You don't understand!" Taehyung almost screams, deriliously.. "They think I did it! I didn't! I didn't!"
Jungkook fumbles... "Did what?" he asks finally.. "Did what hyung? What do they think you did? Hmm? What is it? Tell Jungkookie.."
"They think I did it.. T-texts.. G-group.. They s-say it's me.. But I didn't!"
"Texts?" he whispers, eyebrows furrowed together as he tries to think.. "What texts.."
Taehyung shakes his head, now full on sobbing again..
"Jim-jiminie.. he said.. h-he said I s-said those things.. b-but I didn't.. I.. Y-you guys are m-my family.. would never.."
The word crashes against his brain like a wave, memories of that day rushing in..
He swallows harshly..
He shakes hia head, starting to rub Taehyung's arms up and down..
"It's okay hyung.."
Taehyung whines, sniffling..
"'s not! No one b-believes me.. It wasn't me!" he trembles, and Jungkook jus pulls him in, uncaring for the way he the water splashes against him..
He tucks Taehyung's head under his chin, running a hand up and down his naked back..
"I do.." he whispers.. "I believe you hyung.. If hyung says hyung didn't do it, then Hyung didn't do it.. I believe you.. I always will.."
Taehyung's whole body shudders..
"You do?" he asks, his voice meek, still crying..
Jungkook chuckles, ignores the way his eyes well up..
"Of course I do.." his voice wavers.. "Who would I believe, if not for you hyung.. of course your Jungkookie believes you.."
"But t-they don't.." Taehyung whimpers.. "They think I did it.. J-Jungkookie.. I didn't.. They hate me now.. m-my family.."
"Hyung.." He presses his mouth to Taehyung's wet hair.. "They are gonna believe you Tae.. trust me.. they will.. They have to.."
"How?" Taehyung's lips tremble.. "I.. I p-practically begged Jiminie.. H-he told me never to come infront of him.. b-but how c-can I tell him I d-didn't do it?"
Jungkook closes his eyes...
"I'm here aren't I? Everything will be alright hyung.." he whispers, memories from years agon rushing back in, but he ignores them all.. "Jungkookie is here to make them believe you.. We will fight them if we have to.. okay? Until they listen to us, let's fight them.."
The bathroom falls silent after them..
"L-like fist f-fight?"
"Yes I will strangle every one of them down to the floor for you.."
A beat of silence passes before the sullen air of the bathroomis intercepted with teary giggles..
Jungkook releases a shaky breath of relief, eyes closed, before he pulls back to look Taehyung in the eyes, and a pang runs directly across his heart when those innocent tears eyes gaze back at him..
He lets his thumbs wipe the corners of Taehyung's eyes as they keep spilling tears non-stop..
"There is that pretty giggle.." he whispers, smilling softly.. "You okay now hyung?"
Taehyung releases a breath.. "I didn't do it Kookie.. "
Jungkook stares at the elder..
"Hmm.." he hums, smilling.. "I know hyung.. I believe you okay? Stop crying now.. I told you.. We will fix this mess.. It's all gonna be okay.."
Taehyung averts his eyes, lips visibly trembling..
"Jiminie hates me.." he whispers..
Jungkook grunts, rolling his eyes..
"Please.." he chuckled.. "that midget can never hate you.. You are his soulmate.. That must have been his anger speaking hyung.. Bubble gum prince doesn't have bone of hatred in his body, and especially not for you.. trust me.."
Taehyung sighs, chosing to stay silent, tears falling down occassionally..
Jungkook sighs.."come on.. now that I know you won't get hypothermia.. Let's get you to bed.. You are tired.." he mumbles scopping Taehyung up from the bath..
Taehyung lets the younger wrap him in a fluffy towel before carrying him into his room..
He silently watches the way Jungkook walks to his closet after placing him on the bed, returing with a pair of Taehyung's sweatpants and a hoodie..
Taehyung usually sleeps shirtless but now, seeing the hoodie a shiver runs down his body, goosebumps risinig on his skin..
Jungkook smiles down at him..
"Here.. change and get under the blankets.." he mumbles handing the clothes to Taehyung..
Taehyung stares at him simply before taking the clothes..
He watches as the other turns around to leave..
"Where.. Where are you going?" he whispers, but he is loud enough for Jungkook to hear him clearly..
He doesn't want jungkook to leave..
He doesn't want to be alone..
Jungkook halts on his steps, looking over his shoulders..
Taehyung swallows sharply..
Jungkook's gaze softens..
"I am not going hyung.. I will just dry myself and have a change.. I'll come back okay? I promise.."
"Promise?" Taehyung echoes softly..
Jungkook's already broken a promise, so he is not so sure about this one..
"Yes.. I swear.. I will back before you know it.. Just change and get into bed okay? I will be back really soon.."
Taehyung looks down at his hand.. He finds it hard to believe, eyes squeezing shut..
But he nods nonetheless..
And he doesn't look up when the door closes behind Jungkook...
Neither does he dwell on the emptiness he feels suddenly...
Taehyung silently gets up, discarding the towel and his wet boxers before changing into the dry clothes that Jungkook handed him before he slips into his covers..
He places his head on the pillow with a heavy sigh, eyes staring at the door..
And as the minutes pass by without the door opening, nor him hearing any sounds, he starts to wonder..
Was it all a dream?
Was Jungkook not there?
Did he just see and feel things?
Does Jungkook hate him too?
If he really came, then he should be beside him by now, right?
Almost thirty minutes and Jungkook still hadn't come..
And his eyes ache just as much as his heart does, but they are getting too heavy for him to stay consious..
He waits, hoping that Jungkook would open the door and walk in any second now..
But he doesn't..
'I imagined it all..' his mind whispers as his eyes begin to shut, trying to pull him into a land of darkness..
He grits his teeth trying his very best to stay awake, but his body began to give the fight up, eyes starting to droop..
And just as he is about to go fully unconsious, he hears the door gently opening, closing a second after..
He listens to the way soft feet pad across his carpet, slowly yet firmly before the bed dips right beside him..
"Jungkook.." he whispers, almost falling asleep..
And he doesn't make a sound when he is pulled back into Jungkook's body, his arm curling around his waist..
"Hmm.." he hears the whisper of a hum near his ear..
the body presses firly against his back..
"Kept your promise.."
"I always do hyung.."
"You don't... You left me alone, when you swore you wouldn't.." he mumbles before giving up and succumbing to the darkness completely..
"I always do hyung.."
"You don't... You left me alone, when you swore you wouldn't.." he mumbles before giving up and succumbing to the darkness completely..
Jungkook stills when he hears the soft whisper..
He blinks, trying to decipher what Taehyung meant..
And when he does, he chuckles his eyes welling up yet again..
He cards his fingers through Taehyung's hair..
"Your grand mother's birthday.." he mumbles.. "That is what you are talking about, no?"
He waits as if the sleeping male would answer him.. But when he doesn't he chuckles..
"I broke it didn't I?" he lets a tear a drip down his eye, onto the soft pillow..
He sighs, sniffling...
"But... How can I stay with you? That was our day hyung.. But you invited someone else.. How can I still stay?"
"𝐻𝑜𝑤 𝑐𝑎𝑛 𝐼 𝑘𝑒𝑒𝑝 𝑚𝑦 𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑚𝑖𝑠𝑒 𝑤ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑏𝑟𝑜𝑘𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟𝑠 𝑓𝑖𝑟𝑠𝑡?"
Jimin's face blooms into a smile when he sees the coat tand the pair of boots as soon as they enter the apartment afer coming back from dinner..
"Kookie is back!" He giggles as he deattached hismself from Yoongi and almost runs into the house..
But he stops on his tracks when he enters the living room, dim lights illuminating the dark room..
"Jimin?" Yoongi comes in but he, just like his boyfriend freezes..
The entire living room is soaked..
"What the fuck?" JImin could hear Seokjin's pissed voice..
But his eyes were not on the messy living room but on the mal sitting behind the mini-bar counter, a glass of whiskey infront of him..
A cigar held in between his fingers..
Eyes red rimmed..
JImin's mouth opens and closes a few times like a fish, and he was sure the others were gaping in surprise too..
"Jungkookie?" he speaks slowly as he takes a tentative step forward but retracts immesiatley when he sees the glare on the younger's face..
They all watch with bated breath as the youngest of them inhales a drag of smoke puffing it out in rings, gulping back his whiskey down in one go before slamming the glass down on the counter making the rest of them flinch..
"Are you all fucking stupid.." he growls..
Jimin blinks as he stares at the youger..
"What the fuck?" He hears Yoongi grunting from beside him, annoyed..
What the fuck indeed..
He had never seen their maknae like this..
Not this angry..
Not this hurt..
He watches the way the younger glances at Yoongi, before letting out a sarcastic snort..
"I think that should be question.." Jungkook sounded extremely calm.. But Jimin knew it was the calm before the storm.. "Hyung.."
Seokjin hissed from behind them.. "Either you tell me what ever the fuck is wrong with you and why the fuck is my house in a mess or you get your shit together and clean this fucking mess up.."
Jungkook merely blinked before his gaze moved to Seokjin..
"How about all of you tell me first where you have been for more than five hours?" he mumbled releasing a puff of smoke again..
"We went out for dinner.. why? Got a problem with it?" Seokjin sounded extremely deffensive..
When the other didn't reply Jungkook nodded his head..
"I see.." he mumbled.. "Did all of you eat? Had a good meal?"
Jimin opened his mouth.. "Jungkookie.."
"Did you?" Jungkook ignores Jimin.. "Also, did you bring food for the one you left home?"
Namjoon sighed.. "We didn't know you were coming Jungkookie.. if we knew we wo-"
"Oh wow.." he snickered. "So, I'm the one who you guys left in the house? I wasn't even fucking here!"
"What are you talki-"
"I'm talking about the person you all left to die in the balcony in the fucking rain!" Jungkook's voice raises, effectively cutting Hoseok off..
"I'm talking about the person that you ignored cus you are too blind to fucking open your eyes and see shit!"
"Hold the fuck up..." Yoongi murmurs.. "If this is about Taehyung, then he wasn't even here when we left.. He was out with his so called date, doing god knows wh-"
"Stop fucking lying!" Jungkook snaps, his eyes furious..
"Just say you weren't bothered enough to check before you fucking left, and took it the easy way out when you couldn't find him inside the apartment, cus then you can assume something in your head and can continue on being angry for something he didn't even do!"
"Fucking watch your mouth!" Seokjin almost growls.. "Yes we didn't check before we left so what? Did he care about when he said all those things? What is gonna be that bad if w-"
"What is gonna be that bad?" Jungkook grits out glowering at his eldest hyung..
"What is gonna be that bad is if I hadn't come home on time, then we wouldn't be here but probably outside of a fucking ER as the doctors try to safe his fucking life!" he seethes, getting up, the stool he was sitting on falling onto the floor with the force he gets up..
"What is gonna be that bad is when it goes out to the media how Kim Taehyung of BTS almost had hypothermia cus his hyungs were too clouded with pettiniess and anger and had missed to see that they had locked the fucking idol out in the balcony withouut fucking checking!"
He looks at them, his gaze burning with shame and anger..
"What is gonna be so bad.." he growls.. "Is that one of your own fucking brothers getting traumatized because none of you listens and tries to believe him.. what is gonna be so bad is the way you abandoned +
+ten years woeth of friendship, for fucking text.. for a fucking text that he claims he didn't even send! was it worth it? Was all of this worth it?"
Jungkook's breath heaves as he stops speaking when he noices the way the others had gone pale, mouth clamped shut..
"What?" he laughs emotionlessly.. "Are you all surprised? Hmm? Are you all surprised that he almost was sent to hopital cus none of you were careful enough to check on him? Even if he went out with Sana, we are his team members! You should have atleast called him and see!"
He looks at the eldest two of the group..
"You.." he croaks.. "You promised his parents when he joined the grouop that you would take care of their son! How were you going to give them the call and say and their son got hyperthermia, if I hadn't arrived earlier!"
"How were all of you gonna stand infront of the hospital room, fucking shamelessly, and look his parents in their eyes and say 'We are sorry, we will be more careful next time'.. What would have happened if there wasn't a next time?!" he shouts..
"He was barely breathing when I came! Sitting in a fucking rain, curled into himself and muttering over and over again that he didn't do it! What if something had happened and he stopped breathing! What then? What were you going to then?!" he throws his hands up..
He holds his hand up wen Yoongi tries to speak..
"I don't want to here anyone of it.." he mumbles shakily eyes welling up at the mere of thought of a wrold without Taehyung.. "I get it! I fucking get it! I know you guys were angry! But how can you be so fucking careless?!"
"Yes, those texts hurt me too, and yes every single one of you had the right to be angry!" Jungkook rasps, a tear slipping down his face.. "But when did we ever take our anger on a personal level? When? Atleast one of you could have told him that you believed him!"
"Even if you didn't, you could have been there for him! listened to him!" he looks at Jimin sharply.. "and you told him to never come infront of you?! What were you thinking when you said that? you know! You fucking kow how sensitive he is!"
"Your anger is reasonable.." Jungkook releases a hracy breath.. "But when did you guys forget that we were a fucking family first.. When did our bond become so weak that, you guys were so willing to let a girl get in between us hyung? when? "
"I can't believe you guys let this happen.." he whispers smilling to himself disbelievingly... "You.. all of you.. You guys were the ones to oteach me all about friendship and emotions.. Teach me what love was.. Teach me how important we are to eachother.. "
He laughs shaking his head.. "Teach me that family doesn't always have to be blood.. Teach me that we were a family..teach me that friends would be there for eachother no matter what..Then were the fuck was his friends today?! Where! Where was his fucking family?!"
"His family got fucking hurt too.." It was Yoongi who spoke first, tears shinning his eyes like Namjoon while the rest of them had tears running down their faces.. "his family had never expected him to say that his well being didn't mean anything to us.."
Namjoon laughs, pained, as he brings his hands up to quickly wipe his tears off before they fell..
"He.." he rasped, throat clogged.. "Yes.. we promised his parents.. yes we did.. and we protected him everything we had, didn't we? We brought him up.. Him, you and Jimin.."
"We brought you guys up, forgetting our own childhood.. we forgot the fact that we ourselves were young.. we ourselves were kids.." he sniffled.. "but we didn't let that fact stray us from letting you three enjoy your youth.. and after all that.. when he-"
"But he didn't!"
Jungkook storms towards Namjoon, fisting his shirt in his grip..
"If you.." his voice shakes a she looks at the man that had taught him everything he knew.. "If you brought him up! If you knew him so well! Then you would have fucking figured out that it wasn't him!"
He releases the grip on Namjoon's shirt making the leader stumble back a little..
"Ten years.." he whispers harshly looking at each and everone of them.."Ten years of you bringing him up and protecting him,but you couldn't figure out that wasn't the way he normally texts.."
Jungkook laughs again.. "Ten years worth of fucking friendship and brotherhood thrown down the drain cus not one of you wanted to open your fucking eyes.."
"When has he ever sent us single fucking lines for texts!" Jungkook yells..
He spins on his heels to point an accusing finger at Jimin..
"You.." he spits out.. "You call yourself his fucking soulmate, but you didn't immediately notice that it was strange? How there we no paragragh of him fussing? or there were no punctuations marks used?!"
"He.." Jungkook hiccups.. "He never sends texts without punctuation marks, most importanlt that damned full stop of him cus he.. cus he wants to look intimidating and thinks the fullstop makes him look intimidating! You know this! You know this Jimin hyung!"
"He is so used to using that thing, now that he uses it almost unconsiously.. So even if he was seething and angry at every one of us, he would have atleast used it once..and he never uses the fullstop twice in a row.. it was always one after each sentence.. Why did you not see?"
"Take your fucking phones out and check!" Jungkook cries.. "I left the group chat that day thinking you all would figure it out at one point how strange those texts sounded.. how they sounded so rushed as if there was a time limit to send them.. why didn't you notice? "
He watches as Hoseok scrambles to pull his phone out, reading through the chat, face scrunching up in pain..
"You know what's worse?" Jungkook chuckles.. "I just checked his phone.. And.. and the texts aren't even there in the phone.. To him, that conversation never happened.."
"So imagine his surprise when he is suddenly ignored and ghosted, without a single word.." he mumbled wiping his face, tired.. "And when confronted about it, his fucking soulmate doesn't even believe him.. He tells him to fuck off.. How were you all so fucking heartless?!"
"I.. I..." Jimin tried to speak amidst the tears.. "I asked hi-him who would have done it if it was n-not him.. a-and he immediately denied t-that it couldn't h-have been Sana.."
"Of course he would!" Jungkook cries.. "He grew up that with that girl!"
"She was all what he knew of love and friendship before we formed our family.." Jungkook exclaims.. "She taught him what love was.. Of course he would beleive her! there is a reason why I always say he is innocent!"
He chokes on a sob.. "He's so, /so/ innocent.."
"And he thinks that the rest of the world is like him too.." he sniffles.. " He thinks, if we love someone enough and cherish someone that we can keep them by ourside forever.. He doesn't think twice to beleive him friends be a close one or a long lost one.."
"He does that cus he doesn't want to believe that everyone changes.. There is a child trapped in him, and a fucking innocent at that too.. and all of you.." he looks at them disappointed.. "All of you hurt that little child today.. You hurt him so bad.."
"You hurt that little child who thinks people never change and that if he gives enough love to them, they will always love him back.. cus you know why?" He mumbles.. "Cus to that little child, you, his family, mattered the most.. and now.. His family fucking changed, first.."
"HIs family hurt him first.. His family left him first.." Jungkook takes in a deep breath before throwing his head back and laughing.. "and knowing him.. Knowing him he would forgive all of you in a heartbeat.. He would say it's fine, eventhough you ripped him apart, today.."
"If it was upto me.." Jungkook barely hisses when the forgotten ciagr in his hand, burn upto his fingers, burining him.. he throws it down onto the wet carpet watching the way the way the lit end sizzles cus of the water before leaving a black mark on the carpet..
He stares at it.. "If it was upto me.. I would make all of you beg down on your knees.. I would make all of you gravel for his forgiveness.." he points at the black mark on the wet white carpet..
"If this white rug was his soul, if his soul was pure like this, then just like what that burning cigar did to this carpet, all of you left an ugly black spot in his soul.." he mutters.. "So if it was upto me, I would have made you beg him the rest of your fucking life.."
"But I know he wouldn't do that.." Jungkook snorts.. "I know when he finally figures it out who did it,he will blame himself for bringing her into the family..he will balme himself for giving her a chance to hurt his family, for the hurt /she/ caused.."
"And then he will be the one to beg for /your/ forgiveness.." He smiles..
Tired and pained..
"He will be the one to live the rest of his life thinking that he opened a gateway that almost tore his family up in two.."
"I know for one that he will forget all the heart ache you caused him the moment he figures it out..He wouldn't care for the way he nearly lost his life, nor will he care for the way that there were many ways you could have gone about this issue, to prevent him from seeing her.."
"He will forget all of it.." he shakes his head looking at the others..
"And that is why I want all of you to remember how much you were blinded by anger.. and how it almost cost an innocent life.."
" I maybe exaggerating this, and you might think i'm doing this cus I have feelings for him.. But no.." Jungkook shakes his head.. "My feelings be damned,cus I haven't forgotten how we are a family first.. I would have done the same for each one of you.."
"I would tear everyone apart, who hurt anyone of you.." he breathes in.. "So don't you dare to rationalize what happened with my feelings for him.."
"I want all of you to remember this day for the rest of your life.. and I want you to never let this happen again.."
Jungkook lets out a sigh..
"This is not the family I was brought up in.. Yes i know.. You were hurt and angry.. Rightfully so.. But.. Please.. never do this again.. Don't be reckless like this.. ever again.."
"I once said that seeing my hyungs in pain, hurts me the most.. That I wish that it would be me writhing in pain instead all of you.." he smiled looking down.. "So just imagine how painful it is for me to stand and watch my family tearing up in two.."
"I don't want this hyung.." he shakes his head.. "Please don't ever let this happen again.. Punish the ones in the wrong yeah? Just think before you do something.. we know eachother the best.. we know eachother's weaknessess and strengths, eachother's heart and habits.."
"So please stop and think twice before we fight amongst ouorself.." he lets out a shaky breath.. "Cus romantic feelings or not, at the end of it all, us seven, even is we loose it all, only we would and should be there for eachother.."
He stops and stares at them all..
"I love each and everyone of you more tha everything in this world.. I hope you understand where I'm coming from.."
He smiles, blinking back tears..
"This not coming from the Jeon Jungkook who is in love with Kim Taehyung..."
Taehyung breathes in deeply as he blinks his eyes open, his eyes hurting badly when he tried to focus..
He lets out a sigh humming as he focused his gaze out of the slightly opened curtains..
Oh.. It was sill dark.. and rainning...
He blinked slowly remembering what happened..
Gulping harshly he tried to forget it about it for awhile, not willing to cry again, so soon..
He noticed that the air in the room was pretty chill, but somehow he was feeling warm..
He tried to to turn the other way..
There was an arm around his waist, and he didnt need to look to know who it was..
Did he stay with him the entire time..
He slowly turned the other way around, a small smile drawing on his lips when he saw the other sleeping beside him..
He silently stares at Jungkook, eyes running on every feature on his face..
When did his Jungkookie get so big and handsome?
He softly chuckles to himself before bringing a hand upnd cupping his cheek, thumb caressing the sharp jaw line..
Releasing a soft breath, he watches the way Jungkook's eyes lashes rest on his cheeks perfectly soft..
The way those lips pout every now and then..
Jungkook looks so peaceful and calm..
And there is this urge in him to jus wrap the male up in his arms and never let go..
But he smiles to himself sadly when he remembers that he can't do it..
Jungkook, isn't his to cage him like that..
He knows that if he cages Jungkook, the younger would stay..
But a golden cage is still a cage and Jungkook isn't meant to be caged..
He is meant to be free..
The day he took the younger under his wing, he swore to himself that he would protect this innocent boy with everything he had..
That he would be the best older brother and friend for him..
And when he remembers that he's failed to do that, he feels a part of him slowly dying..
He remembers the texts Jimin showed him..
And the words that were meant for Jungkook flashes infront of him..
'This doesn't concern you..'
Taehyung doesn't know, if it doesn't concern Jungkook then who would it?
Jungkook was there with him for everything..
They were attached to the hip, from the very beginning..
So if his life doesn't concern Jungkook, then his whole life would be a huge fraud..
He sighs, watching as Jungkook's eyes slowly open, meeting his own the second they open fully..
They just stare at eachother..
Taehyung thinks Jungkook will jerk back, seeing how close they were..
Jungkook was never a fan of physical affection, and he waits for the moment the younger would pull back khuffing and puffing about him being wrapped around him like a wine..
But the younger just smiles..
"Hi.." he whispers and Taehyung doesn't know why his heart squeezes in his chest..
"Hey.." he mumbles, raising his hand up higher to run his fingers through Jungkook's hair.. "Did you drink?"
Jungkook does huff this time..
"I brushed my teeth! How did you know that? You always know when I drink.." he grumbles..
"I know because..." Taehyung trails off a for a second.. "Your cheeks are adorably flushed.. And that happens only if you are drunk or have a cold.."
"And since you do not have a cold.. my only guess would be that you drank.." he smiled at the younger when he grumbles and rolls his eyes..
"Yeah yeah.. I drank a little so what?" Jungkook huffs..
He chuckles shaking his head.. "No.. Nothing at all kookie.. Nothing at all.."
Jungkook smiles at him..
"Did you sleep well?" he asks softly..
Taehyung hums.. "Yeah.." he mumbles.. "Why did you drink?"
Jungkook purses his lips.. "No special reason hyung, I was tired from the journey, and needed a drink.. nothing much..."
Taehyung knows, from the way the younger avoids his eyes that he is lying to him.. But he doesn't push.. He simply hums..
"You said you were coming on friday.. No?" he mumbles softly, caressing his head..
"Ah yeah.. but my parents went on vacation and it felt unecessarily alone in that big house so I came back.." he smiled and stared at him for awhile.. "and I'm glad I did.."
Taehyung blinks before he nods gently..
"Thank you, Koo.."
"Shh.. no thanks and sorries needed.."
Taehyung chuckles before nodding..
"Are you okay?" Jungkook mumbles looking at him..
Taehyung stays silent.. He wordlessly snuggles closer to the younger..
"I am.." he mumbles.. "Now that you are here.. I am.."
Jungkook stares at him with a soft frown, before smilling slightly..
"You know I'm always with you hyung.." He whispered.. "I promised I would.."
Taehyung looks at him, chewing on his lower lip..
"But you broke that promise.. no?" he whispere slowly..
Jungkook pauses.. "No.. I didn't.." he mumbles heart aching atthe way Taehyung smiles sadly..
"You did.." he whispered.. "You left me alone on that day.. You left me alone on my grandma's birthday Kookie.. You promised not to.. but you did.."
Jungkook licks his lips staring into Taehyung's eyes..
"I remember my promise hyung..." he smiled cupping Taehyung's cheek.. "And yes.. I swore on my life I wouldn't leave you..."
"And just like I swore..." he whispered.."I was there.. in the grave yard.. "
Taehyung pauses before he tilts is head to look at the younger better.. Eyes wide with surprise..
"What?" he whispers, eyes desperately trying to search Jungkook's..
Jungkook sighs, shaking his head..
"No.. No you tell me what you meant! Jungkook! Tell me!"
Jungkook frowned.. "I came hyung.." he mumbled.. "I came all the way from Busan to make sure I wouldn't be breaking my promise.."
Taehyung stares at him silently before staggering to sit up on the bed.. "Why didn't you come to me.." he heaves out, eyes wide.. "I was waiting!"
Jungkook sighs.. "You.. There was no need for me to be there, hyung.."
"What the fuck does that mean?"
Jungkook blinked at the ferocity of the words.. He looked at Taehyung..
"You weren't alone.. no?" he spoke slowly.. "I promised I wouldn't leave you alone, and you won't.."
Taehyung stares at him, before his eyes gloss over his hear aching..
"You.." he whispered.. "It was our day! No matter who was there I wanted you to be there! You p-"
"If it was our day!" he cuts Taehyung off.. "Why did you invite someone else?" he asks calmly..
Taehyung scrambles back a little, his lower lip wobbling..
"I didn't invite her!" he presses.. "She invited herself!"
Jungkook grunts.. "Hyungs said you gave the okay, Tae.. and I'm not mad at you for that.. don't worry.."
"I gave the okay cus I was scared!" He mumbled.. "You left out of the blue! I didn't know whether you were coming back or not! And she was my friend and I didn't know what to do!"
Jungkook shrugs.. "And she was there with you... End of story.. you weren't alone.."
Taehyung makes a noise at the back of his throat, before slapping his chest..
"I told her not to come after I came to my senses!" he hisses.. "I told her not to come and I even left before she could come here so that I would go alone!"
Jungkook rolls his eyes..
"If you told her not to come, then why was she there? if you left before she came, how did she know where to find you? that land is private property!"
"She came because you told her to!" Taehyung half cries, making Jungkook go stiff..
Taehyung's tears fall involuntarily..
"She came and said how you phoned her and told that you can't be there.. and that you were the one who gave her the directions! And told her not to leave me alone!"
Jungkook frowned.. "Hyung what in the fucking hell? Me? Call her? What?"
"Hyung, you bloody well know I only have the numbers of the closest people to me.." Jungkook sits up, the sheet pooling around his bare torso..
"I don't even know anything apart from her fucking first name! How in the world would I have her number? How hyung, how?"
Taehyung holds his breath for a second..
"Then how.." he stutters, his eyes wide and teary.. "How did she know where to find me?"
Jungkook tilts his head.. "The same way she knew your password.."
Taehyung falters.. "What?"
"Hyung.." Jungkook turns towards Taehyung.. "Can you really not think about the posibility of it being her? Only I know your password.. and if she managed to find the location of a private property, do you think a password would be difficult for her?"
Taehyung looked lost..
"But why would she.." he mumbled.. "She has no reason to hurt all of you like that!"
Jungkook shrugs.. "All the hyungs were pretty against you dating her, hyung.. I think she got paranoid.. That is a posibility, no?"
"Paranoid?" Taehyung whispers.. "But.. but why?"
Jungkook shrugs.. "I don't know.. Maybe of losing you? or something else? I don't know hyung.." He stays silent for awhile " You don't believe me do you?"
Taehyung's head snapped up. "I.. I.. W-what?"
Jungkook smiles.. "You don't believe me when I say that she might have done it.. Do you?"
Tahyung sjaked his head furiously.. He grasps at Jungkook's hands..
"I do!" he rushes.. "I do.. But.. I just can't think of /why/.."
"Why would she do it.." he sighs, sniffling..
Jungkook frowns.. "Emotions.. they are a dangerous thing hyung.. and so your mind.. when they join hands, it can be the most fatal thing ever known to human kind.. She might have a had a motive, driven by her emotions.."
"Be it love.. Be it pride.. or her wanting to have what you have in life, acheive what you have achieved.. Shine in the lime light.. Create her own world, by the help of you.." Jungkook mutters..
"Or.. Be it that you are her obsession.."
"We never know.. only she has the answers as to why she did what she did.." Jungkook mumbles.. "And it is upto you, whether you want to stop her from taking things further or not.."
"I.." Taehyung closes his eyes.. "It's really hard for me to imagine.. she wasn't like this.."
"People change hyung.." Jungkook whispers.. "Every single day, every single hour, every single minute, every single second.. They change.. No one stays the same, yeah? I am not the same thirteen year old boy you met and you aren't the same fifteen year old boy I met.."
Jungkook smiles before cupping Taehyung's face..
"You are innocent.." he speaks.. "So innocent that you don't see how vile the people around you can be.. You always see good in everyone.. BUt hyungie.. not everyone is like you.. Not everyone is pure like you.."
"Some people change for the better, while some do for the worse.." Jungkook whispers.. "Humans are easily swayed by their emotions, and it could lead them into drastic changes and sometimes those changes causes harm to them and the people around them.."
"I know it's hard tp believe hyung.." he smiled gently at him.. "But no one will ever stay the way they were in their childhood.."
He flicks Taehyung's chin..
"Everyone won't ever stay an angel for their whole life.. Not like you.. " he chuckles.."You'll always be an angel.."
Taehyung's lower lip wobbles..
"Why does no one love me genuinely.." he whispers.. he asks himself that question, voice barely audible..
But Jungkook hears it and he freezes..
"Why does no one ever want me for me?" Taehyung sniffles.. "Everyone want something from me.. Money, fame or just me as a trophy.. Why would no one ever see me.."
Jungkook stares at him.. He has to bite his tongue to prevent himself from saying anything..
"I want someone to love me for me.. I want someone to see me for me.. i want someone to hold hands with, laugh about anything and everything, bask in the warmth of eachother.. I want someone to make me feel cared for, cherished and loved.."
'And that person is rigt here..'
'That person is sitting right infront of you..' Jungkook wants to say.. 'He is right there but you just refuse to see it hyung..'
"You will find someone some day hyung.." he whispers insted.. "You will find the person god himself created for you.. You will.. Trust me.."
He pulls the elder into his lap, craddling him..
"Trust Jungkookie, yeah?" he tries to smile, hiding his face in Taehyung's hair.. "You will find them one day.. I will make sure of it.. Until then I will always be here.. Right by your side.. I promise, hyung..."
Taehyung hugs the younger tighter..
"You will? until I find someone?"
"Hmm.. I will.."
"Then does that mean.." his voice breaks.."You will leave once I do?"
Jungkook closes his eyes.. "No.." he rasps..
"Whether you find someone or not.. I will always be here.. By your side.."
Something cracks inside him, shattering a second later..
"Cross my heart hope to die, angel.."
The peaceful atmosphere of the apartment is broken when the next morning when suddenly they hear the elevators ding outside..
The ones sitting in the living room..
Seokjin, Namjoon and Hosoek look at each other with wide eyes...
No one was scheduled to come over, nor were any of the members out..
Tthey lived in the top most penthouse, highly secured so there was no way anyone could come in without knowing the passcode or one of the members accompanying them..
Who the fuck was it then?
All three of them leap to their feet when they hear the front lock of their apartment opening with a loud beep..
And they run down the few steps to the front door, only to freeze seeing who entered..
Seokjin feels rage coursing through his body..
"What the fuck are you doing in here?" He growls as he slowly walks down the few remainning steps..
"Me?" Sana blinks.. "Why are you guys looking at me like you've never seen me before? I came to see Tae.."
Seokjin's face contorts into a silent snarl..
"To see Taehyung?" he hisses.. "Let me rephrase that then.. How the fuck did you get in? Who told you the passcode? "
"Oh.." she mumbles.. "Didn't Tae tell you? He gave me the passcode.. Of course he would.. We are going to date.."
"Oh cut the fucking crap.." Hoseok mutters joinning Seokjin.. "Even if Taehyung gave you the passcode which I'm pretty sure he didn't, females are strictly prohibited in here without permission if you aren't immediate family! He didn't tell you that?"
"Oh come on.." Sana rolls her eyes.. "What part of 'We are going to date' did you not understand? I /will/ become immediate family soon.. So I don't see any problem?" she snorts.. "Besides.. Aren't you people the same who boasts about gender equality?"
"What happened to that now?" she mocks.. "What is so bad in a female coming in here? According to you, all genders are equal after all.." she giggles..
"Gender equality?" All of them spin around to see Jimin strutting down the stares, body,
black robe wrapped toghtly around his body, hair ruffled as if he just woke up, Yoongi, Jungkook and Taehyung right behind him..
"You wanna talk about gender equality to me babe?" he smirks as he comes to stand infront of her..
He watches the way the girl stares at Taehyung, her jaw ticking when she notices how Jungkok's arm is lazily wrapped around Taehyung's waist..
Jimin sidesteps, effectively blocking her view..
The members all grimace..
An angry Jimin was never good..
"If you are so keen about our discussions of gebder equality and agrees with us so badly.." he husks smirk deepening as he stares right into her eyes..
Satisfaction curls inside him as the girl flinches when he raises a hand and pushes a strand of her hair back..
"You wouldn't mind me, a man, slapping the fucking nose jobs out of you, a woman's face, now do you sweetheart?" His smirk widening, venomously, with each word he speaks...
"Men and women are equal after all.."
Sana blinks, before she hisses at Jimin.. "Stay away from me!" he slaps Jimin's hand away making Seokjin snort..
"How ironic.. That's all we've been trying to tell you sweetheart.." He smirks.. "If you never get the hint.."
She glares at the eldest.. "I am here for Taehyung!"
"You guys literally have no business coming inbetween him and me like this.."she grits.. "What are you? His bodyguards?"
"You can think whatever you want little girl.." he smiles.. "But you can get to Tae in your wildest dreams.. now scram! The door is that way!"
"Again, I am here for Taehyung.. Just get out of my fucking way Jimin-ssi.." the girls mutters, annoyed.. "I have no business with you.."
"And I'm telling you that you don't get to see him.. Not today.. Not ever, again.. go cry to mama.." Jimin snickers..
Sana glares at him before she looks over his shoulder..
"Taehyung!" she calls out to the male who was leaning on Jungkook, more like covering half of his body with his.. "Please tell me to let me come to you baby.. I just want to talk to you!"
Taehyung stares at her, hand gripping tightly onto Jungkook's bicep, nails digging onto it unconciously..
Looking at Sana now, and the way she was talking to the rest of them, he slowly starts to see that she was not the same girl he knew anymore..
HIs voice shakes as he speaks, and oly grounds himself when Jungkook's arm around his waist tightens..
He could see the way it irks the girl, and he sees something akin to anger in her eyes..
"Please leave, Sana.." he speaks more firm..
The girl's face flushes red as they all watch..
"What the hell is wrong with you?" she seethes.. "Do you not see what they are doing? They are trying to manipulate you into letting me go!" she tries to push past JImin, but a tight grip on her forearm stops her..
"Take one more step towards him.." Jimin grits.. "I swear I will forget you are a girl, Sana-ssi.. "
The girl hisses in slight pain..
"Get your filthy hand off of me!" she pushes Jimin harshly, but the make doesn;t even budge..
"Let go of me!" She tries to get out of Jimin's grip, when she couldn't she looks at Taehyung..
"Do you not see this?" her lower lip wobbles.. "They don't want me to obe with you, cus they don't want you to achieve greater things than them!"
"They don't want me to show you how much better you could be! They don't want me to tell you how pathetic they make you! Why are you acting like a fool! You know I love you! I want you to get better! You derve more than this shithole! They are controlling you! They are only mak-"
"You fucking bitch!" Jimin growls throwing her back, making the girl stumble back..
"Who the fuck do you think you are talking to.." he snarls stalking towards her.. "Get better? Get better? the only one who needs to get better here is you, you fucking psychotic bitch!"
"What.. scared that your piss poor plan didn't work? Hmm? Scared that your plans are all out in the open now?" he grins "Sad that the dreams of taking him away from us shattered? Wanted him to yourself so bad didn't you, you fucking witch!"
"Thought you could seperate him from us from a bunch of texts? hmm?" Jimin snickers.. "Well.. Yeah.. you might have fooled us, but, don't ever forget that there is someone her that knows him more than his own fucking parents.. so no matter what you try.." he breathes..
Sana breathed looking at Jimin with widened eyes, chest heaving harshly with how hard she breathed..
There was something that flockered dangerously in JImin's eyes and his smirk, that kept her rooted the spot..
"You will always be a fucking condescending gold digging whore.."
"So before I drag you by your fucking hair.." his voice droped down to a low rumble.. "And make a fucking joke out of you before the whole damned world, get you and your pathetic two cent worth self out of here! I swear to god little girl.."
" If I see you with a ten mile radius of my best friend.." he hisses taking a threatening step towards her.. "Trust me.. Fucking trust me.. The whole world will know what a desperate mentally fucked up witch you are, and it won't be good for you! Leave!"
Tears gleam in Sana's eyes as she looks at them with tears burning in her eyes, in pure fury and humiliation..
"This." she shakes.."This isn't fucking over!"
Taehyung's grip on Jungkook automatically tightens, cus the girl wasn't glaring at him..
It was trained on Jungkook..
Taehyung feels a shiver run down his spine..
No.. No she can't do anything to Jungkook..
Not to his Jungkookie..
And he is about to open his mouth to say something but flinches when he is interrupted with Jungkook's laughter..
Taehyung grabs onto Jungkook desperately thinking the male would move but the younger doesn't move an inch..
"Yeah?" he drawls out.. "It ain't over?"
He laughs again, while his hyungs watch, how terrfyingly he goes from laughing to a blank face..
"I'll be waiting then.."
He smirks when he sees how the girl flushes deeper, Jimin pushing her back again when she tries to charge at him..
"I need to get my angel back to sleep.." He winks at her.. "if you could please start right now and fuck off out of here? The door is right there.. Thanks.."
The girl goes to say something but the front door swings open again, three burly men decked in suits filling into the rom, two of them grabbing her by her arms..
"What the fuck?" hse struggles.. "Let me go! How dare you grab a woman?! I will sue all of you!"
"Gender equaliy baby girl.." Yoongi smirks holding his phone up.. "And yes, step into the courts before us.. You will do us a favour.."
Seokjin looks at the guards who drags her out..
"Anyone who was downstairs in duty for security that let her in without perission.." he grits out walking towards the door.. "Tell them that they are fired, get them to pack their shit and leave immediately before we get them behind bars for breach of contract.."
And as the JIn throws the door shut on the girl's screamming face, Taehyung finally lets out a shaky breath..
He watches the way they all turn to look at him..
He stares back at them, face ashened..
"I.." he tries to speak, only to feel his throat getting clogged up..
Jimin stares at him before starting to walk towards im, only to freeze when Taehyung immediately takes a few steps back..
He blinks furiously, trying to keep the tears at bay..
"I.." he whispers harshly, trying to speak again.. "I'm sorry.."
The tears drip down his face,while his body trembles..
" I'm s-so sorry.." he chokes out.. "All of you... All of you got troubled bcause of me..sorry.."
Jimin tries to speak failling to keep his own tears but before he couldhe's turning on his heels and dashing to his room..
Jungkook blocks Jimin when he tries to follow the other..
He shakes his head..
"Not now.." he mutters with a frown.. He looks at each one of them slowly.. " I told you didn't I? When he figures out the truth, that he will be the first one to aplogize? I was right.. wasn't I?"
"You saw what I meant now?" he speaks calmly.. "You saw how much it hurt him to see you guys so disturbed and bothered over his actions.." he sighs before turning around to follow Taehyung..
"You guys better be readey to grovel at his fee for forgiveness.."
And for forgiveness do they try to beg...
Jungkook watches everything silently..
How the others tries to get taehyung alone to apologise and beg for him to forgive them..
And how the said male keeps avoiding them like the plague..
Either pulling Jungkook in a for a conversation or just locking himself in his room if he is not performing or practising..
Taehyung doesn't face any of them apart from Jungkook..
And Jungkook knows..
He knows why Taehyung avoids them..
It's not because he doesn't want to forgive them..
Rather,because he doesn't know how to face them after all that has happened with Sana..
And in all honesty,he was sick of watching the hyungs going behind Taehyung, look like kicked puppies when they don't get to talk to him..
He sighs yet again when Taehyung runs off, away from Jimin..
They were in the states, for a shoot and it's kind of obvious how much Taehyung tries to avoid the other..
He grunts before he follows Taehyung..
He opens the bathroom door without a words cus he knows that Taehyung is just sitting there and not using it..
And just like he predicted he finds the other perched up on the counter top..
He croses his arms over his chest looking at him..
"When are you gonna stop running?"
Taehyung looks up at him, blinks for awhile before he pouts..
"I am not running away.." he mumbles softly and Jungkook sights hard to maitain a stern face..
"Yeah? Then what are you doing, hyung?"
"I am ashamed to look at them.."
Jungkook stares at him..
"And why? They've practically seen you naked? what's there to be ashamed of?"
Taehyung bluches furiously..
"Yah!" he grumbles.. "You know i's different! I just! They went through so much trouble for me.."
Jungkook takes in a lung full of air before promptly choking on his breath because of the sharp burst of the air freshner in his lungs, making Taehyung laugh..
He rolled his eyes before walking towards him..
"Why do you think they would find it a burden hyung? You are their brother.. They are bound to protect you.." he murmurs coming to stop infront of Taehyung..
"Besides.. They just wanna say sorry.. The more you avoid them, the more they will think that you hate them.."
Taehyung looks at him with widened eyes..
"What? No! I don't hate them! It should be them w-"
"Hey.." Jungkook frowns walking closer, placing his hands on the counter on either sides of Taehyung.. "We are a family.. There should be no hate in here, nor will I ever let it be.."
He smiles lightly at the other..
"They did try to hate you.. No?" he whispered gently.. "And then they saw what happened to you, what happened to out family.. They saw the results firstand.. And you know they never meant to hate you that badly.. They were just.."
Jungkook sigh.. "I'm not making excuses for them.. But I do get where they were coming from.. They raised us.. you me and Jimin hyung... and Jimin hyung is basically your platonic other half.. So when they saw all those things, and believed it was you, it hurt them.."
"But.. But why did they believe it was me?" Taehyung asked softly..
"Because they thought they were talking to you.. They didn't know that it was you.." Jungkook smiled.. "They didn't notice the subtle differences cus they were angry and hurt.."
"But I promise you, they've never regretted anything more in their life than hurting you.."
Taehyung frowns.. "How.. how do you know?"
"I know.." Jungkook chuckles.."They just want to make it up to you... will you give them a chance? To say sorry?"
"We are a family yeah?" he says softly.."There is no point in us being angry at eachother..they know that now.This is what Sana would have wanted.. To break us apart.. let's not give h er that satisfaction yeah?"
Taehyung shudders at the mere name.. He stares at his hands..
"Okay fine.. How about you talk to them.." he mumbles slowly.. "and after the shooting is done, I take you to the beach for a midnight stroll? a little birdy told me that we have access to a private beach stretch.."
Jungkook watches the way Taehyung's face blooms, a smile drawing onto his own face as he stares at the elder..
"You would do that?" Taehyung whispers, eyes lit up in wonder..
'I would do anything for you..'
He nods instead.. "We can watch the sunrise.."
And his heart soars when Taehyung, after days smiles genuinely, thin lips spreading in a boxy shape, a child like elation in his eyes..
He nods frantically..
Jungkook chuckles.. "Fine then.. how about you talk to them?" he asks pushing Taehyung's hair back.."You can start by the little midget who is eaves droppig behind the door.."
They both laugh when Jimin shouts through the door..
Taehyung sighs softly..
"I suppose I should.."
Jungkook smiles.. "That's my angel.." he mumbled before leaning in and placing a soft kiss on Taehyung's forehead before turning around and opening the door to find a red faced Jimin standing infront of it..
He stops and stares at Jimin for awhile..
"he is still sensitive to certain topics, so be careful.."
Jimin nods wordlessly..
"You better not fuck this up, Jimin-ssi.." Jungkook grumbles walking off..
Jimin licks his lips nevously before taking a step into the washroom..
"Can.. Can I come in?" he asks softly..
"When did you ever take permission to come in?" Taehyung mumbles.. He doesn't look at him.. "Besides.. aren't you already in?"
Jimin sighs before fully stepping in and closing the door..
He pauses for a while, staring at the man that is his best friend, before he coses the bathroom in three long strides, wrapping his arms around Taehyung in a bone crushing hug..
"I'm sorry.." his voice shakes..
Taehyung stiffens at first before slowly melting into Jimin's embrace, having missed the warmth for weeks..
"I'm so sorry, baby.." Jimin whispers, trying his very best to not let his voice break.. "I have no words to tell you how sorry I am.. I am so fucking sorry.."
"Why.." Taehyung rasps, burrying his face in his neck.. "Why did you not believe me?"
Jimin makes a wounded noise..
"I was a fool.." he mumbles closing his teared up eyes.. "Minnie was a fucking fool to not believe in his Taetae.. Please forgive me?"
Taehyung stays silent for awhile..
"How did you figure out it was not me?" he asks softly..
Jimin chews on his lower lip.. "We didn't.." he mumbles, ashamed.. "We were all too angry to notice anything.. But Jungkook made us open our eyes.."
"Oh?" Taehyung whispers, quite syrprised.. "He did?"
"Hmm.. He did.." Jimin hums.. "And he had a very colourful choice of words for us so that we would get down from our high horses and listen to him.."
Taehyung pulls back slightly..
"What?" he asks blinking..
Jimin chuckled nodding, ignoring his tears.. "Yeah.. God you should have seen him.. I've never seen him angrier.. I was kinda terrified.. not gonna lie, thought he would snap all our necks.."
Taehyung tries to process the new infromation..
"Yeah.." Jimin mumbles before cupping his cheeks.. "And even if he did, I wouldn't have blamed him.. He was absolutely right.. We are family.. first and foremost.. atleast one of us could have tried to listen to you.."
"Especially me.. since I am.. I am your bestfriend.." he looks at Taehyung, staring into his eyes..
"I am right? I am still your soulmate right Taehyungie? right?"
The helplessness and vulnarability in Jimin's voice makes tears spring into Taehyung's eyes..
He silently nods..
"Thank fuck.." Jimin heaves.. "I thought.. I thought I lost you forever.."
Taehyung sares at him..
"You were the one who said you hate me.." he rasps, letting a tear fall.. "You were the one who told me never to come in front of you.. I never.. I can never hate you.."
Jimin whimpers.. "I know.." He cries silently trying to wipe Taehyung's tears.. "I know I did baby.. and I'm so sorry.."
"I will beg for your forgiveness for the rest of our lives, please believe me when I say that this would never happen again.. Please.."
"It shouldn;t have happened in the first place.. This should have never happened.." Taehyung mumbled and Jimin stills, thinking that Taehyung was still mad..
"I'm sorry.." Taehyung sniffles.. "I'm sorry that I ever let her into our personal spaces.. I'm so sorry.."
"No! No Taehyungie no.. Don't you dare aplogizes.. It was that girl's faul.. never yours.. she took advantage of you.. That bitter wench.. never take the blame for her.. it's all her fault and honestly she was your friend.. she was all you knew for a friend when you were a kid.."
"So you should never say sorry for trusting her.." Jimin smile letting out a silent hiccup.. He leans their foreheads together.. "We won't blame you for being in love.. never.. she taught you love, and even if you weren't in love now, we will never blame you for trusting her.."
"Still.. I'm sorry.."
"Shhh you brat.. Stop saying sorry.. We are the ones who should be.." Jimin mumbles bringing Taehyung in for a hug again.. "We have a lot to talk about yeah? Let's akll sit down and talk, get it all out of our chests.. Tomorrow.. let;s do it tomorrow.."
Taehyung nods.. "Okay.. We can do that.."
jimin sniffles before smilling and caressing Taehyung's head..
"Thank you baby.."
"Minnie.." he whispers after awhile..
"That day.. in the bathroom.. About Jungkook.."
Taehyung sighs shakily onto his shoulder..
"So I really look at him like that?" Taehyung asked softly..
Jimin stayed silent for a long while..
"You do.." he mumbles gently..
Taehyung's heart stutters painfully..
He closes his eyes..
"And.. And what about Jungkook? Does he.."
"Oh Tae..." Jimin whispers.. "You really have no idea how far that boy can go for you.. Don't you?"
Taehyung stills.. "Huh?"
Jimin sighs.. he contemplates for awhile..
"It is not my place to tell you anything Taehyungie.." Jimin says softly.. "But, I know that you do have an inkling about all of it.. Why don't you talk it out with him yeah? Everything is going to be okay.."
Taehyung frowns, gulping harshly..
"Right.." he whispers..
JImin smiles before leaning in prepping Taehyung's face with soft kisses, as you would a toddler..
"Don't be too scared.." he mutters.. "It's only your Jungkookie.."
"That is why I am scared, the most.." Taehyung whispers.. "I do not want to lose him.."
Jimin stares at him.. "If that was the case.. YOu would have lost him ages ago Taetae.." he smiles slightly.. "Whatever happens.. Just don't hesitate to chase your happiness okay?"
Taehyung looks up at Jimin..
JImin's smile beams.. "My taebear deserves to be happy, more than anyone in the world.. I only want him happy.."
"Stop it.." Taehyung grumbles..
Jimin frowns.. "Stop what?"
"Stop talking like your boyfriend.. You ain't that wise.." Taehyung grins, giggling when a smack lands square on his shoulder..
He leans forward hugging Jimin..
"I missed you mimi.."
JImin sighs, hugging him back..
"I missed you too baby.. I missed you too.."
Taehyung turns to look at Jungkook, observing the side of his face, as they sat on the sandy beach, watching the water crash against the beach a few feet infront of them, a small lamp beside them illuminating their faces..
"Jungkookie?" he whispers aster a few seconds..
The said male looks at him, staring at him before smilling at him..
And Taehyung finds his heart skipping a few beats as he stares at the bunny smile..
He lets out a small breath..
"Can I ask you a question?" he asks softly..
Jungkook tilts his head with a soft frown, watching him..
"Of course angel.. What is it?"
Taehyung searches those galaxy filled eyes, under the sft glow of the lamp..
"Do you love me?"
He tenses when he physically feels Jungkook going rigid beside him before the younger lets out a nervous laugh..
"Of course hyungie.. Why would I not love you? Of course I love you? Who does-"
"Kookie.." he interrupts him, making he younger still..
Taehyung stared at him for a few seconds..
Jungkook felt so near, yet so far away, even though he was sitting right beside him..
"Do you.." He gulped harsly, feeling his throat already burning..
"Do you love me?" he asks again.. "Do you love me, like a lover?"
Jungkook's breath hitches, as he feels the oxygen in his lungs practically being squeezed out..
He stares at Taehyung unblinkingly..
"What.." he rasps, trying to gather his thoughts.. "What brought this on, hyung?"
Taehyung doesn't give him an explanation.. "Do you?"
Jungkook takes in a deep breath, turning his head away from Taehyung, looking at the ocean and staring at it..
He could hear his own thoughts crash in him, just like the sea waves did on the beach..
He lets out a sigh..
It's now or never, isn't it?
Jungkook hears how Taehyung's breath stutters, and he feels that burning gaze on him..
But he keeps on staring at the sea..
He smiles lightly..
"Why?" he whispers.. "Are you repulsed? By the fact that someone you see as your brother loves you?"
"W-what?" Taehyung gasps.. "Of course not! Jungkook wh-"
"I know you don't love me hyung.." Jungkook smile turns sad.. "You made it clear in that bathroom, that day.. We are nothing but best friends.. I know.. And I'm sorry that I couldn't control my feelings.."
He falls silent after that,closing his eyes and pulling his legs up to his chest, trying to will the sea breeze to keep his tears at bay..
He didn't know what to say anymore.. He hadn't planned on confessing his feelings for the elder today..
"Why?" Taehyung whispers harshly..
Jungkook opens his eyes, slightly turning his towards Taehyung..
He looks at him for awhile..
"Why what, hyung?" he asks..
Taehyung opens his mouth with a start, but closes it again before shaking his head..
"Why me.." he pushes out.. "Why me Jungkookie?"
Jungkook ponder for awhile, before softly chuckling..
"As much as I want to say I don't need a reason to love you.." he mumbled with a soft frown.. "I'd be lying if i didn't say that There weren't a thousand little reasons that made you fall for me, every day.."
"And I understand hyung.." he sighs.. "You've seen me like your brother, your best friend your whole life.. you've helped me grow, held me through sleepless night reading me bed time stories as you would do for a younger brother.. You've never seen me romantically.. I know.."
"I know it's hard for you to imagine me as anything other than your little Jungkookie.. I understand h-"
"No you don't.." Taehyung wheezes.. "You don't! You can't love me! I can't cage you to me like that! You are me-"
"Cage me?" Jungkook marvels..
Jungkook shakes his head..
"I am caged hyung.." Jungkook mumbles.. "This world.. The band.. My family.. The fans.. The expectations.. the mistakes I made.. The people I meet.. All of these things cage me.."
"But one glance at you.." Jungkook smiles.."I'm free as a bird.."
"You asked me why I love you.." he let's out a breath.. "That is why I love you.. You make feel free, You make these binds of mine snap... You make me breathe.."
Jungkook chuckles, tears finally invading his vision..
"There are.. There are peices of me that are broken so bad hyung.. But just.. you make those broken peices unbreak.. If that even makes sense.." he laughs throwing his head back, ignoring the way his heart palpitates..
"I'm not someone that likes hoping.. But you make me hope.. Your smile makes me hope for a better day.. I wake up sad and alone and I see your smile.. It's like everything that is broken in me peices back together.. You pull me out of my own misery.."
"Jungkookie.." Taehyung chokes on a sob..
"You say you can't cage me.." Jungkook merely whispers.. "But how would you think a caged heart could fall in love? I fell in love cus I am free with you.. You free my heart.. I tried hyung.. I tried so bad hyung.."
"I tried to hide my heart so bad.. I tried to cage it, make myself stop falling for you, deeper and deeper everyday, cus I knew that it would lead us here.. But you.." he takes in a shuddering breath.. "You are so beautiful.. Inside out.. And it's just hard not to fall for you.."
He ignores the way Taehyung keeps on sobbing beside him, caged in his own sadness as he gazed at the ocean..
"I think I fell for you the moment I saw you.. Yeah I know.. Love at sight is first sight sounds like bullcrap.." he laughs thickly..
"But you got me loving you from day one..I didn't know what it was back then.. I was a little kid, and whenever my hart would just skip a beat whenever you smiled at me, I thought there was something that was wrong with me.."
"Sounds like a joke doesn't it.. But it kept happening through the years.. and as I grew up, I realized that I lost my heart to you, even before I knew what love was, even before I knew anything about emotions properly.."
Jungkook sighs running a hand through his hair..
"I was scared at first... When i figured out.. I didn't want it.. Love was something that I didn't want.. i never wanted to fall in love.. I've seen firsthand what it does to people.." he smiles..
"But all those efforts to restrict my heart from going deeper were futile.. The more I tried to protect my heart from slipping through the crack that you made in my cage, the more i found myself slipping.."
He sighs looking at Taehyung finally..
"And then I let go.. I let my heart free, completely.." he whispered smilling through his tears.."I lost my heart from within my chest in a second.. It fell for you harder and harder.. And.. And it was so beautiful.. Loving you.. Is beautiful hyung.. "
He moves closer to Taehyung, wraping his arms around him, pulling him into his arms..
"Though I wish it never hurt.." he whispers, placing his lips ontop pf Taehyung's messy hair, hugging him tighter letting the male cry into his arms..
"And it was so , so easy to regret, falling for you, I would never.. I will never be sorry for falling for you.. I will always be proud that my heart fell for someone like you.." he sniffles.. "I would never change a thing, hyung.. I don't think I'm me, without loving you.."
"I don't want a new start.. Cus.. cus even though it was painful when you never noticed.. I found beauty in that pain too.." Jungkook mumbles caressing Taehyung's back.. "Like a rainbow after a storm, I found beauty in your smile amidst my heartache.."
"It was like a butterfly effect, you know?" He smiled letting his tears fall freely.. "Falling for you was like the butterfly effect.. It started from your smile.. My heart flapped it's wings to that smile and every other little detail of you, created a typhoon in me.."
"A speck.." Jungkook chuckled.. "It only needed a speck of my heart to cause a whole typhoon.."
He held Taehyung's shaking form tightly..
"I love you.." he whispered, pained.. "And I will keep loving you.. As long as I can.."
"And I want you to remember.." Jungkook chokes on a sob.. "That I am asking you nothing in return.. It's my feelings.. Feelings that I never want to change.. So don't feel guilty for not returning my feelings.. okay? I am happy loving you.."
"Don't you dare to tell me that I deserve better and I should try to move on.." he almost whimpers.. "I know what I deserve.. And if someone deserves my heart, my love and my soul.. I's you.. You deserve my everything.. And no matter what.. You will always have my everything.."
"The only thing I ask of you.." he shudders.. "Is to let me keep loving you.."
He shakes his head.. "Never take that away from me hyung.. I beg of you.."
"Let me keep loving my angel, silently and in my own way.." he whispers, crying silently into the night sky..
"Jungkook-ah?" The soft voice makes Jungkook snap out from his own thoughts, before his eyes automatically finding the eyes of his stylist through the mirror..
"Noona.." he mumbles softly smilling at her..
The woman blinks.. There was something wrong in that smile..
She smiles back at him slightly, placing her hand on his shoulder very carefully..
"You okay bun?" she asks, voice merely a whisper so that only Jungkook could here her, slightly squeezing his shoulder..
Jungkook smiles a little wider...
"Of course noona.."
He sighs when those watchful eyes remains unchanged, only a brow rising at him in question..
He looks away..
"Bun.." the woman presses.. "Tell your noona, what happened? You have a concert today and you are so distracted.. I don't want you to go up on stage like this.."
Jungkook frowns, lips pursing into a thin line..
"Okay fine.." his stylist mumbles picking up a wet wipe to clean his face first.. "You don't have to tell me.. Okay fi-"
She freezes, the wipe paused on Jungkook's cheeks as her eyes flick upto find his..
She watches the younger go through a myraid of emotions..
She suddenly remembers the day she found about his feelings for Taehyung..
It was a music show, and Jungkook was in the dressing room, getting his make up done, but his entire focus was on the small TV,
where Taehyung's live solo performance was broadcasting..
"You look like you are in love.." she had teased him... Having always acted like an elder sister to the young boy ever since the start, she never hesitated to play around with him..
And she had expected him to blush and huff and puff at her..
Not for the younger to stare at the TV even harder before meeting her gaze through the mirror, just like now and say,
"That's because I am, Noona.."
And oh well.. She would be damned if she didn't milk out every single peice of information from the youngster..
Having thought of it as a puppy crush in the beginning, she quickly changed her view as she listened to the younger talking about his love for Taehyung..
She knew that Jungkook would never come forth with his feelings if he is not reached out to at first..
So when the news of Taeyung possibly dating a girl broke out she knew Jungkook would be heart broken..
She didn't expect this..
Jungkook hums, nodding.. "Yeah.."
She opens and closes her mouth a few times not knowing what to say exactly..
She looked around the room, eyes trained on Taehyung who was at the opposite end, his eyes on his phone as his stylist worked on him..
If he knew about Jungkook's feelings then why is he acting like usual and like nothing happened?
What was going on?
How did he get Jungkook to confess?
"But how?" she finds herself blurting out..
"He asked me.." he mumbles.. "I took him to the beach last night.. and he asked me.. and I.." he shrugged..
"I didn't see a reason to hide it anymore.. I knew it would come out sooner or later.. and to be honest sooner is better than later, no?"
She blinks licking her lips.. She slowly places the wipe down, before starting to massage his shoulders gently..
"And?" she asks quietly.."What did he say?"
Jungkook smiled tightly before looking down and shaking his head..
"He cried.. cried in my arms until he fell asleep.."
He then tsks..
"And wakes up and pretends like nothing happened.."
The woman can't protect her own heart from twisting harshly in her chest..
"Oh bun.." she whispers, eyes filling with sadness.. "Did you try talking to him?"
Jungkook shakes his head yet again..
"No.." he sighs.. "There is no point in talking about it noona.. He's been through a lot these past few days.. and honestly.. I would have never told him, if he didn't ask, so actually it doesn't matter.." he rasps..
The stylist frowns.. "Bun..."
"No.." he leans in when the woman runs a hand thorugh his hair.. "I will not burden him with my feelings.. I love him, noona.. And i want him to be happy, and if it is not with me who the fuck am I to stop him?"
"If he one day loves me back.." he shrugs "I will love him to the fullest it humanly possible to love another human, but if he finds it in someone else, Then by all means.. The only thing that matters to me is his happiness and wellbeing, noona.. That is what love is.. to me.."
The stylist stares at his face for awhile silently before cupping his face gently, smillig at him sadly through the mirror..
"I can't believe you.." she whispers, eyes actually tearing up slightly.. "how can you be selfless? Hmm?"
Jungkook ponders for awhile..
"Hmm.. What do you call it?" he narrows his eyes before grinning at her like a fool, wiggling his brows.. "They call it the power of love, noona. The power of love.."
The woman pauses before throwing her head back laughing at the younger's expense..
She shakes her head as she pulls on his cheeks..
"You silly boy.." she sighs starting to do his make up..
"Well in that case.. The power of love can make you go insane too.. Drag you into the depths of an ugly blackhole, where you will be left in constant pain.."
She smiles at him when Jungkook looks at her momentarily startled..
"It can also turn you tpxic real quick.. Make you want to do anything to get the one you love by your side.. Make you obsessed.. Make you sick.. Power of love can make you crazy in the worst possible ways.."
She bends down to palce a soft kiss on Jungkook's head..
"Your love is the purest form of love I have ever seen on a person.." she mutters gently "The most purest and the most innocent.. But feelings change just as fast as people do.."
"So my baby bun.." she mumbles scratching under his chin..
"Never let the power of love control you.." she ignores the burning gaze on the back of her head, knowing exactly who it was..
"Cus as much as it has the power to make you, it has the power to break you too..."
Taehyung doesn't know what has over come him..
he's been acting normal eversince he woke up in the morning when he damn well remembers what had happened the night before and wasn't confident enough to look Jungkook in the eyes and talk to him..
And somehow he knew that he would only be hurting the younger more, but he just couldn't bring himself to speak to him about it..
He was afraid.. So, so scared..
Why? He didn't know..
He tried to convince himself to talk to the younger, give him an indication that he remember, but every time he tries, he somehow backs out like a coward..
No, he doesn't ignore Jungkook.. Rather, he talks and smile at him every time he sees him but just avoids the topic..
He just avoids the particular talk but tries to talk about everything esle with the younger..
And when they had to get ready he just silently sits by himself in his chair, eyes trained on the phone, not having a mood to goof around with the others..
That is until his attention is seized by loud laughter, making his eyes snap up from his phone to see what was going on..
And when his eyes fall upon the sight of Jungkook and his stylist goofing, the womans hand on Jungkook's face, Taehyung feels something unfurling in him..
He doesn't focus on the way his own stylist fusses over him, much interested in rather watching the interaction between Jungkook and the woman..
When the woman slightly bends down, he holds his breath hoping to god that she wasn't about to do what he thought she was about to..
BUt when she does exactly that, and kisses Jungkook's head, it has Taehyung's fingers closing in on his palms, nails digging into his skin..
he doesn't understand the roaring flame in him..
Doesn't understand the intensity of how unsettled he was feeling..
What was happening?
"You okay?" Jimin's voice startles him and he gapes at him...
"You okay? You look like you are about to muder someone.."
Taehyung blinks, before clearing his throat..
"Nah.. Nah I just remembered something.. Don't worry.." he smiles slightly at him..
He smiles slightly before he finds himself gazing back at Jungkook's way..
And things got even worse when he sees how genuinely the younger was smilling at her, that unny smile, very reserved and rarely shown..
Why was it so hard to see this? Why was he confusing himself?
And when they goup on stage that day, he finds himself glued to the younger..
He feels so guilty cus he knew of the younger's feelings and refused to talk about them but the younger doesn't even care about it as he put's an arm around Taehyung's shoulder and perform with him..
And Taehyung feels himself grounded with Jugkook's contact..
The roaring flames inside him that he felt earlier is no where in him when Jungkook holds him..
When Jungkook is near him, he no longer feels unsettled..
He no longer feels bound..
He feels free..
"𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑖𝑠 𝑤ℎ𝑦 𝐼 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢.. 𝑌𝑜𝑢 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑓𝑒𝑒𝑙 𝑓𝑟𝑒𝑒, 𝑌𝑜𝑢 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑠𝑒 𝑏𝑖𝑛𝑑𝑠 𝑜𝑓 𝑚𝑖𝑛𝑒 𝑠𝑛𝑎𝑝... 𝑌𝑜𝑢 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑚𝑒 𝑏𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑡ℎ𝑒.."
Jungkook's voice from the night before echoes in his ears and he pauses right there on the stage..
And when the younger turns around from the other end of the stage, his eyes widens..
He finally realizes as he holds that gaze..
𝐽𝑒𝑜𝑛 𝐽𝑢𝑛𝑔𝑘𝑜𝑜𝑘 𝑓𝑟𝑒𝑒𝑠 ℎ𝑖𝑚..
So was the feeling earlier he had felt.. Was it jealousy?
To see someone else touch him?
He watches, frozen as the younger smiles at him, right from the other end of the stage, those soft lips pulling into a deep smile, eyes brimming with an unkown emotion..
And with a start he realizes something else..
Earlier.. Seeing Jungkook with that woman..
He wasn't jealous..
The feeling that had coiled inside him, gripping his heart in a deadlock wasn't Jealousy..
He was possessive of Jeon Jungkook..
That soft laugh..
He was possessive of him..
Jeon Jungkook belonged to him..
He was his..
And Kim Taehyung was in love with /his/ baby..
And he couldn't wait to tell him, but for now..
He just smiles at him..
Satisfaction burning in his when the younger's smile beams..
And his heart sings..
"𝐼 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢.."
Darkness sarround her as she watches them from farthest seat, head covered in a cap and face covered in a mask..
The lights from the bog screen and the lights flash in her face, almost mocking him..
The blood in his veins screams when the screen shows her two males smilling at each other..
Gazes filled with love..
It sickened her..
Made her thirsty..
Thirsty for blood..
She stands up from her seat with a spring to her step, silent snarl drawn beneath her mask..
She stares at the male with the box shaped lips as he sings, brown eyes shinning on the screen..
"𝐼𝑓 𝐼 𝑐𝑎𝑛'𝑡 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢, 𝑛𝑜 𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑐𝑎𝑛 𝑚𝑦 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒.. 𝑁𝑜 𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙.."
Jungkook laughs as he watches Taehyung on the screen..
They were doing their ending ment and Taehyung, despite seeming a little off in the beginning was now making weird pauses at the camera without doing his speech..
He shakes his head, turning around to watch the male on the big screen..
He sighs sofly as he stares at Taehyung through the screen..
He really did fall a perfect man..
Taehyung was so beautiful that his heart actually ached, making him loose his breath every now and then..
He watched him with a soft smile, endeared by Taehyung's silly shenanigans, listening attentively to him when he starts to speak..
Maybe it's cus he was watching him through the screen, or maybe cus he often noticed the smallest detail..
But something he sees makes him still..
His eyes fix on the small red dot on Taehyung's brown T-shirt..
He tilts his head, eyes narrowing behind his shades as he stares at it..
Was it there before?
But his breath gets seized out of his lungs when he sees the dot moving around..
It takes him only a split second to realize what it was, and he stares at it with wide eyes..
He knows the other's wouldn't notice his expressions, cus one, he was wearing shades, and two, he had his back to them..
He keeps watching the red dot, frocen in his spot as it fixes itself right over Taehyung's heart..
A beat passes and Jungkook is abandoning his mic, making it drop to the floor with an ear peircing screech, running towards Taehyung as fast as he could..
The loud noise from the mic and his speed makes it impossible for anyone to process what was happening, and it makes it easier for Jungkook to cover Taehyung's body with his own, hugging the male tightly to him in the last second..
He watches the way Taehyung startles when he hugs him all of a sudden, and he stares at him as his ears ring loudly..
Suddenly everything goes silent, bl00d splashing across a shocked Taehyung's face, before an excrutiating pain spreads through his entire being..
tw// sh00ting, bl00d, hospitalization
(anyone who is easily triggered by near death experiences and will find it an opening for a paincking or depression, please don't read.. I don't want anyone to hurt themselves..
Also don't worry, no MCD..
Safe reading.. )
Taehyung is at a loss..
He was doing his speech, after being a goof for a few minutes..
He was extremely happy..
Happy after almost figuring himself out entirely..
Happy that he could confess to Jungkook, end his baby's suffering and ask for forgiveness for all these years..
He was waving at the fans with a happy smile while speaking when all of a sudden he grunts when a weight slams into him..
He is disgruntled for awhile, eyes widening in surprise, pleasant surprise, when he sees who is hugging him..
He starts to smile, his own arms circling around the younger's waist..
But the pleasan feeling in his chest only lasts for a second..
He gets cuts off when the younger jerks in his arms with a pained grunt..
He is unable to process anything as he jerks with the young, something wet splashing on his face, each time the younger jerks..
He stares at him with wide eyes and bated breath, holding his breath..
Before he can say anything else, Jungkook's whole weight is on him, making i nearly impossible for him to hold them both up, and his knees buckles carrying them both to the floor,silently, as the younger sags against him..
He hears their hyungs scream, along with their fans..
It was chaos around him..
But suddenly,e everything goes still around him, for him, as he sares at Jungkook's face numbly..
The younger was struggling to stay awake, blood pouring from his shoulder and back..
What was happening?
He couldn't understand..
He was happy..
He was /happy/, then why is he holding the body of the man he loves, barely breathing, struggling to keep his eyes open, right where he was happy just a few minutes ago..
He removes a hand from around Jungkook's waist, to cup the male's face, only to freeze..
There is bl00d on his hand..
And he suddenly touches his face, where he felt something wet splashing on his before..
Then he looks down at the younger..
Even more bl00d..
This can not be happening..
This wasn't real..
He is having a nightmare..
Why is no one waking him up?
'Wake me up'
he screams in his head..
But no one does..
He jalts when the rest of the members croud around him, building a wall around him and Jungkook, away from the prying eyes, away from the cameras..
And he stills when someone grips on his hands..
His eyes move to his hand to find, Jungkook weakly gripping on his arm..
And finally it all rushes in..
He feels like a male protaganist of a romantically tragic movie, holding onto the body of his lover while the said male takes his last few breaths..
Jungkook's bleeding in his arms..
Jungkook is injured..
Jungkook is shot..
HIs baby is shot..
Not once, but thrice..
his love is hurt..
And the man is trying to talk to him..
Trying to tell him something..
"Tae.." Jungkook heaves out..
Taehyung shakes his head, eyes wide and heart pounding in his throat..
"Shhh.. no.." he rasps through his dry throat.. "Shh baby.. please.. don't.. You are gonna be okay.. they are on their way here.. Help is coming.. Please.."
"Baby no.." Taehyung whimpers, but his eyes are dry, painfully.. He just holds onto Jungkook for dear life..
The male's eyes are heavy lided, barely open, and the stars and light one those beautiful black eyes completely sucked out..
Taehyung feels himseld losing breath..
He hears the medical staff rushing onto the stage, shouts of 'The ambulance is here, hurry!' echoiong all around him but his entire focus is on Jungkook, uncaring of anything else..
Jungkook's nails dig onto his hand, as two medics work to get him off of Taehyung's lap..
And Taehyung almost doesn't let them take the younger away, if not for Yoongi and Namjoon both grabbing his shoulders..
"T-tae.." Jungkook chokes out, bl00d rushing out of his mouth, splattering all over his face, and Jimin, Hoseok and Seokjin wails somewhere behind Taehyung..
"I told you to stop talking!" Taehyung shouts, heart aching..
Taehyung freezes, before he is crawling desperately towards where the two males lay him face down on a stretcher..
he grabs onto Jungkook's already bl00died face in his own bl00died hands..
Thunder rollls across the sky..
"Yeah?" Taehyung feels a shudder run through his entire body.. "You love me?"
He feels as if someone keeps stabbing and edged blade into his heart again and again..
"You want to hear it back?" he raises his voice when he sees Jungkook listening to him with difficulty..
"You want to hear me say it back to you?" he wheezes, eyes glossing over finally when he sees Jungkook painfully blinking..
"Stay alive for me then.." he grits out.. "I'm not saying it back until you come back to me.. Stay alive.."
"Come back to me alive and breathing.." he almost growls out with the intensity of pain he was feeling all over him..
"I will say it again and again when you come back to me, util you get sickof it and me.. I promise.. So you have to comme back to me.."
"Do not die on me Jeon Jungkook.." Taehyung cries out as they lift Jungkook's stretcher..
"I will hate you forever if you do! I swear!" Namjoon and Yoongi holds him back..
"You have to live.. Do you hear me?" he speaks with determination as the medice take Jungkook away..
He struggles against Namjoon and Yoongi to hold onto Jungkook some more but they keep a death grip on him as Jungkook gets carried away, farther and farther away from him..
He helplessly watches the way, Jungkook bringing a hand up with difficulty reaching out for him..
He yells at Yoongi to let him go, until he sees Jungkook's hand falling limp, eyes finally closing, unconsious..
He freezes, watching them take away the younger hurriedly before giving up his fight..
"I love you.." he whimpers as he Jungkook disappears from his sight..
"Jeon Jungkook's family?"
The five of them leap onto their feet, while Taehyung keeps being seated, eyes trained on the floor, dry and aching..
He never saw the time,but it was a long time since they arrived at the hospital having followed the ambulance..
They had waited outside the ICU, for what Taehyung felt like days, in reality five to six hours, Seokjin and Jimin cryng on either side of him, both of they hugging him, trying to comfort him..
"Don't worry.." Jimin had whimpered.. "We are in the stated and they are giving him the best of the doctors they have here, so he will be okay.."
"Of course he would.." Seokjin had spoken through his sobs..
The 'I hope he doesn't die in that operation theatre' having left unsaid..
But in all honesty Taehyung couldn't even try to concentrate on their voices, mind too busy replaying what happened on the stage again and again..
He sat there, numb to all of what was happening around him,mind blank exept for the bloodied image of Jungkook..
He had heard the doctors come out and speak but he didn't have the energy left in him to get up nor look at the doctor..
"That's us!" He hears Yoongi's shaky voice..
Namjoon's mouth dries as the doctor's eyes find them.. He knew he had to step up and talk to the doctor.. He was the only one fluent in english here, but he found himself standing behind Yoongi, motionless..
He felt like a small kid at that moment..
A little kid that is afraid of losing his baby brother, so e hides behind hyung,fists clenched on Yoongi's shirt for moral support..
He feels like a failure all over again..
He had failed to protect his family, now he even fails to step up and ask how his youngest brother was..
He stares at the doctor's emotionless face, trying to guess what the doctor would say..
Already expecting the worse possible outcome..
He is ready to burst into tears, having let go of all the hopes he had let hold him together..
But a shaky breath releases through his lips, when he sees the doctor smile softly at them..
"The patient is out of danger.." And Namjoon feels all the fight in his body leaving, shoulders slumping in relief..
"He had three bullets lodged in hid body.. One in his shoulder blade, one to the side of the mid area of his back.. and the other on his lower back.."
They all stare at the doctor, when he pauses for a long while before smilling at them again..
"He was very lucky.."
Yoongi's brows forrow..
"What do you mean?" he asks, his accent thick, conjuring up whatever he could remember of the foreign language, having used to always letting Namjoon speak for him..
But he knew that Namjoon is in no condition to talk as he felt the grip on his shirt..
So he does what he has to do as the second oldest member of the group..
The doctor hesitates for a few seconds..
"If the bullet on his lower back had gone an inch deeper.." the man says gently.. "The patient would have had to stay bed ridden for the rest of his life.."
Seokjin covers his mouth in horror, a whimper leaving his mouth..
Having brought up Jungkook since the boy was 13, Seokjin knew exactly what it would do to Jungkook if he had gotten the news that he wouldn't be able to move his body for the rest of his life..
He knew how much Jungkook liked to move is body around, never being a fan of staying in one place for long, and getting his hands into any extreme activity the first chance he gets..
And the image of what would have been Jungkook's devastated face+
+ if they had to tell him that he would have to remain immobile, makes every single nerve in Seokjin's body twist, painfully..
"The mic belt he had on his body.." the doctor continues in the same gentle tone..
"You guys can thank the heavens that he was wearing it, cus it had caused and extra barrier between the bullet and his organs.. and it had minimized the speed of the bullet restricting it to cause sever damage.." He sighs..
"He under heavy anesthetics.." he smiles at them.. "So he is asleep and he would wake up whenever his body is ready to embrace the pain on it's own.. He is being transfered into a room as we speak, so you guys can visit him now.. But I advice you to not cause any loud noises.."
"Let his mind and body rest.. Let the sudden shock and trauma wear off completely before he opens his eyes.." he smiles gently at them.. "I know it's hard.. But do it for him.. "
"The room is in this floor itself cus we need to monitor him close for atleast two more days for internal bleeding.." he then pauses for a second.. "He.. He will not be able to walk for a few weeks, so no more performing for awhile.."
Hoseok and Jimin curl into themselves, whimpers threatening to erupt out of them..
The doctor smiles sadly.. "Maybe for atleast four months.."
Hosoek closes his eyes in pain, he feels Jimin's hands curling around on his own..
They knew how much Jungkook loved performing..
This would absolutely destroy the younger..
They were scheduled to shoot a dance video of their dance unit, the three of them and Jungkook had been pumped about it, and now..
They just can't beleive it..
Everything was fine..
They were performing on that stage, uncaring for a thing about the world, only focused on their art, on each other and their fans..
How did they end up here?
Almost losing their youngest member?
What did they do to deserve this?
"I'm not going to keep you waiting anymore.." the doctor smiles with a soft sigh.. "You can go and see him now.. Just be very careful.."
He speaks looking at each one of them, Taehyung in particular, straing at the man for a long time, seeinng the state he was in..
The man felt sorry for him.. The nurse had briefed them through what had happened while he was getting ready for the surgery..
So seeing one of them, so numb, and devoid of any emotions, he knew he was bound to break, sooner or later..
He pursed his lips, wanting to say something but smiles at the rest of them one final time before turning around to leave instead..
He just hoped that everything would be alright for them, soon..
Yoongi takes a step forward to walk towards the Younger's room, when the clutch around his short tightened..
He turned around slightly, facing Namjoon, confused, only to see the rest of them staring at Taehyung..
He frowned, before sighing understandingly..
"Taehyungie.." he calls out softly..
But the male doesn't even give an indication to let them know that he heard them..
"Tae!" Yoongi speaks louder and this time Taehyung does look up..
Dry and red..
Staring at him..
Yoongi is reminded of the first day he met him, as those big eyes stared at him..
Ten years ago, they had stared at him the same way they were doing now..
The only difference was, back then, those warm brown eyes were filled with wonder, excitement and admiration on meeting his fellow trainees..
The sma epair of eyes were staring at him, filled with pain, numbness and fear..
There was a gaping void in those orbs..
Yoongi smiles at him, the best he could manage..
"You can go in first, Taehyungie.." He mutters gently..
Taehyung watching himfor a second before slowly shaking his head..
"You guys go first.." he rasps.. "I need to.. I need to.. I.. I will come in a few.. you go.."
Yoongi opens his mouth to tell Taehyung to come in with them, when he feels a hand slips into his own, interlocking their fingers..
He looks to the side at Jimin..
And the man smiles at him through his tears, shaking his head..
Yoongi silently stares at him for awhile before sighing..
He nods his head, glacing at Taehyung once more before gripping onto Jimin's hand and walking towards the room..
Hoping that Taehyung would be okay..
Yoongi feels the rest of them, except for Taehyung following him as he gently opens the door stepping in..
He isn't prepared for the sight that greet him..
He hears the sharp intakes of breath behind him and a second later sobs erupting out of a few of them, or all of them..
Yoongi can't pin point..
He would have been able to any other time..
But not now as he stares at the male on the bed..
He blinks, hard trying to keep the tears at bay, but a traitorous tear trickles down his cheek, agonizingly slow..
"Oh little prince.."
Taehyung sits there as the rest of them staring at the floor..
He doesn't feel a thing..
God he wants to..
He wants to cry..
He wants to scream..
But nothing comes out..
He can just feel the pain, all over his body, but not let it out..
He moves his eyes from the floor to his hands..
He had come straight from the venue to the hospital and sat in that seat ever since he arrived..
So he didn't get the chance to wash the blood off of his hands..
And now looking at it he felt suffocated..
He stares at his hands, bile rising up his throat..
Jungkook's blood everywhere..
he wants to peel his own skin off..
He looks up, wide eyes searching and he sees what he was searching at the end of the corridor..
He gets up on shaky feet to walk as fast as he could to the bathroom..
When he enters, he refuses to look in the mirror..
If he does, he knew he would be disgusted of himself..
So ohe walks straight to wash basins, opening the tap..
He thrusts his hands under the running water, watching the way the dried blood starts to wash off, bit by bit..
The sight of the white marble of the wash basin turning pink, pimk with Jungkook's blood makes him want to claw his insides out..
He removes a hand from the under the water and presses on the soap dispensor as hard as he could, almost breaking it before lathering his arms up with the soap, letting the foam cover all the trails of the blood, nails scratching on his skin as if to get rid of the imprints..
He scratches at his skin harsh enough to know that he would be leaving his nails marks, but he didn't care..
he just wanted the blood out..
'he's alive..' his mind reminds him..
'Jungkookie is alive.. he is okay..' it speaks to him..
'Our baby is okay..'
'Go..' his mind yells at him.. 'Go to him.. He needs you..'
"No!" Taehyung yells back in that bathroom, shaking his head frantically as he tried to wash himself squeaky clean.. "He doesn't need me! He gut hurt because of me! He doesn't need me!"
'You are insane!' a voice in his mind screams at him.. 'He took the bullet for you! He saved your life! and you are going to run now? What a coward..'
Taehyung slams his hands down on the wash basins..
"I am a coward!" he screams.."A coward that is scared of the man he loves being in danger again because of him! He doesn't need me! He can get better and be safe if I wasn't there!"
'But he loves you!'
Taehyung freezes, and he snaps his head up , finally looking at the mirror..
There's water dripping down his face, from him having slamming his hands down, and there is dried blood..
He furiously wipes off of the blood, listening to the voice in his head..
'he loves you! You promised him you will love him back if he comes out alive and now you are going to abandon him thinking he is safe?' the voice thunders.. 'Leave him? Hurt him? When will you stop hurting him?'
tw// mentions of self-hatred and self harming thoughts
Taehyung heaves, he grips his hair, mouth opened in a silent scream..
He hates himself..
He loathes himself..
He wishes that it was him who took that bullet..
Wishes that it was he who got injured and eventually die..
'You will hurt him more if you leave! Be grateful! Go to him! Give him the love he deserves!'
Taehyung yells out, kicking the hard wall before he wrenching the door open, and running as fast as his legs would carry him..
"Watch out!" a nurse snaps at him as he almost crashes into her, but he doesn't give a shit..
There is only one thought in his head..
Get to Jungkook..
When he finally arrives at the room, he bursts through the door, stratling the hyungs inside, letting the door close behind him..
And when his eyes fall on the sight before him, he immediately falls back, back hitting the wall behind him harshly, +
+ before collapsing on to his knees..
He feels all built up pain in him, boilling up like lava in a volcano that's been asleep for years, about to erupt and destroy anything and everything on it's path..
As he takes in the male on the bed, bandaged, a ventilator attached to his face, heart monitor echoing loudly in the room, too loud, emotions swirl inside him like brewing lava..
he could feel the others staring at him..
But he is too busy being choked up in his own emotions to care..
he trembles on his knees, the tight knot in his chest tightening by the second making it diffult to breath..
He takes one last look at Jungkook's unconscious face..
And he finally breaks..
He doesn't know when he was left alone in the room with the unconcious body of Jungkook..
He had numbly felt the others collectively embracing him when he had fallen onto his knees, gut wrenching sobs escaping his mouth,
but at some point they had decided that it was the best to leave him alone, for him to cry his heart out..
He was still on his knees, rocking back and forth as he cried, now silently, praying to the heavens above to help him stop the pain he was feeling..
Begging in the name of each and every god he knew..
But with each second that passes in the hotel room, him staying alone with Jungkook, and the male remainning unresponsive, the pain doubled in spades..
He didn't know how long he was gonna stay like that but he looks up when the heart monitor makes a loud beap, straing at it as it quickened up a little before going back to normal..
his gaze moves from the monitor to finally towards Jungkook and he whimpers pathetically..
He holds a hand up reaching for the male from where he sat on the floor, and he hated the distance between them..
He wanted to be closer to the younger..
He wanted to hold him..
So he tries with everything in him to stand up to go to him, only to fall back onto his knees..
He cries out, desperately, his cry echoing in the room louder than the pelthing rain outside..
He wants to go to him..
So he does the only thing he could, droping onto his hands and knees, before crawling towards Jungkook..
He hald crawls and half drags himself across the floor until he right next to Jungkook's bed..
When he reaches it finally, he sits up on his knees before his hand lunges out to latch onto Jungkook's uninjured arm..
"Jungkookie.." he whines shuddering..
He hangs onto the hand like a life line..
"Baby wake up.." he cries, pressing his lips onto the pale cold hand.. "Come on look at hyung... your Taehyungie is waiting baby, please.."
He sons, chewing hard on his bottom lip, hard enough to draw blood..
"They say you are okay!" he mumbles.. "But please, I can'.. I do't.. Just open your eyes and look at me! Tell me you are okay yourself! Baby please!"
"I know I made a mistake! I should have seen it all before.. I should have fucking figured my pathetic self out sooner and saw that you were all that I wanted all along.." he sniffles.. "But i'm only human baby.. It hurts.. It hurts!"
He falls off of his knees, dropping onto the floor, long fingers still wrapped around Jungkook's hand.
"It's so hard.." he barely flinches when lightening gstrikes outside the hospital window.."It's so hard to breathe.. Please open your pretty eyes for me Jungkookie.."
"I'm getting fucked up over and over again every second
I don't see you looking at me.." he sobs.. "Hyung will do better.. I promise. I will give you the entire fucking world.. Please.. just look at me once.. Tell me you are okay.. Tell me that everything will be okay.."
He lets out a shuddering breathe leaning against the hand..
"If you want me to leave you after that I will.. If you see that you are safer as long as you steer clear of me, I will stay as far away as you want.. Just once is all I need.."
He closes his eyes his whole body sagging, exhausted..
"I'm begging you on my fucking knees, please wake up.. It hurts.. It hurts to breathe and look at a world where your eyes aren't there.. Please.." he whispers..
"I love you so fucking much, baby star.."
Jungkook feels as if he had been run over by a truck as he gently pries his heavy eyes open..
He doesn't make a single noise as he takes in a lungful of air, breath stuttering painfully when another wave of pain at the movement..
He blinks his eyes at the white ceilling, above him, before grimacing...
He hated them..
But yeah, ofcourse after playing the hero card and taking those bullets of course he would need the hospital..
He bit back a snort letting his eyes woder around them..
He takes in the sarrounding of the hospital room carefully before freezing as his black orbs collided with empty and watchful brown orbs..
His heart stuttered as he watches , Taehyung who was sitting on the small couch, no expressions on his face, staring at him..
Jungkook stares back at him for a second, before a slow smile spreads across his face..
"Tae.." he whispers, but the elder doesn't move an inch..
H epouts.. "What?" he rasps.. "Not happy to see me awake?"
He only gets a blank stare in response making him frown softly..
"Hyungie?" he mumbles trying to get Taehyung to respond to him..
BUt the only thing that moves is Taehyung's eyes, as they roam all over Jungkook's face..
Jungkook licks his lips nervously before trying again..
"Tae!" he raises his voice and Taehyung's eyes snap to his, but he still doesn't utter a word..
Jungkook groans as a wave of pain hits him, but literally being ignored by the older hurts even more..
He holds that gaze, taking a good look at Taehyung..
He looked like he was devastate, eyes red and dry, hair astray, clothers rumpled..
"Did you not want me to wake up?" Jungkook asks with a shaky breath, heart lurching at the way Taehyung's eyes filled with tears..
He smiles at the elder sadly..
"Are you angry with me?" he whispers, his own eyes stinging.. "Won't you greet me? tell me it's good to see me alive? Hyungie? Should Jungkookie go back to sleep?"
A high-pitched whine escapes Taehyung's throat, shocking Jungkook to his roots..
He falters for awhile..
"Hyung.." his lower lip wobbles.. "Come here? Please?"
But he squeezes his eyes shut when Taehyung doesn't move a mucle..
"You are too far away hyungie.. I'm cold.." Jungkook whispers..
It should work, Taehyung never leaves him cold, it should work..
But when he is met with a blank teary stare again, Jungkook lets out a shuddering breath, a tear rolling down his cheek involuntarily..
"You don't want to make your kookie warm?" he tries to smile.. "Okay okay then.. It's okay.. but still.. can I hold taetae's hand?"
Jungkook bites his lip to prevent the whimper that threatens to break out..
"Are you mad at me for what I did?" Jungkook asks ignoring the way everything hurts..
"I see.. But do you know why I did that?" he mumbles..
"Because I was scared.." he whispers.. "Scared that I would have to wake upto a world where you won't be there anymore.. Even apart, I didn't want to know how to live without you in my world.. If you took that bullet, it would have gone straight through your heart.."
He watches the way tears drip out of Taehyung's eyes like little diamonds..
"You know how much you mean to me Tae.." he breathes.. "And if I had to die to keep you alive one more day, I would do it in a heart beat.. I wouldn't hesitate to die for you.. I won't.."
Jungkook lets out a choked chukle..
"I know.. I know it must have been hard to see me like that.. For all of you.." he sighs.."But I always prefer it would be me rather that any of you, espectially rather than you.. I'd gladly take the pain if it would make it easier for you.."
"So please.. don't be mad at me.." Jungkook whispered.. "I don't regret a thing.. If we werein that situation again, i would gladly repeat whatever that happened today.."
He reaches out again, uninjured hand out-stretched..
"Come here.. You promised me something.. no?"
He smiles at the other gently..
"You told me if I fight hard and come back to you, you will tell me something.. you promised.. and see? I came back to you.." he rasps, blinking the tears back.. "Won't you come keep your promise? Hmm?"
He lets ot a pained smile..
"Or did you say it so that I would fight harder for my life? Did you just say it for the sake of saving my life, Tae? Did you not mean it? Did you not mean your promise? Do you.. Do you not.. " he swallows the rest of the words..
Jungkook finds as if his heart is being weighed down by a stone..he hums..
"I see.. That is what you did huh? Do what you had to do to keep me alive? Hmm? Yeah?" he mumbles with a tilt of his lips, but no warmth behind that smile.."I think I understand why you did it.."
he closes his eyes..
"Well.." he chokes our.. "I'm alive now.. I fought harder for you.. you see that right? It's all okay now.. I am alright.. If that's all what you had in mind when you made that promise to me Tae, you can leave now.."
"Taehyung ah Taehyung.." Jungkook wonders ignoring his tears.. "It's been hard enough all along, please spare the remainning shards of my heart.. Please.. That's all I'm asking from you.. Leave.. If this was all a plan for you to get me to stay alive, then lea-"
Jungkook almost gets a whiplash with how fast Taehyung moves..
One second he perched up on the couch and next second he is by his head, hand pressed trightly against his mouths, stopping his from talking, tears of pain and anguish dripping out of his eyes..
"I love you.."
"I love you.."
Taehyung all but yells, his hand clasped tightly over Jungkook's chapped and dry lips..
"I love you.."
He shudders, images of Jungkook's bloodied body in his arms flashing infront of his eyes..
"I love you! I fucking love you!" he cries..
"How dare you!" he growls, ignoring the way his tears drop down onto Jungkook's own tear stained face.. "A plan? A fucking plan? Do you think that I'm that fucking cheap?! Are you fucking sane?! You were dying in my fucking arms! You think I was in a place to formulate plans?!"
"you.." Taehyung whimpers.. "You were not the one who was so happy one moment after realising that he was in love with the person he cherishes the most in his life, even more than his own life and the next moment to hold the said person as he gets shot,"
" blood splattering on his face as bullet after bullet hit that person.."
Sobs wrack through Taehyung's body, as his face contorts in pain..
"You weren't the one to hold onto the person you loved, bathed in his blood and watch as the life drains out of his eyes!"
"You weren't the one to watch the boy you took under your proection when he was thirteen fucking years old, watch him grow, bloom like a fucking flower, wither in your own arms, while you cry helplessly, not knowing what to do!!"
"It was me!" Taehyung shouts despite himself..
He knows he shouldn't, but as he stares into Jungkook's tear filled eyes he couldn't stop himself..
"It was me who was restrained when the man i love was taken away from me, without knowing anything!"
"I didn't know where they took you, while Namjoon and Yoongi held my arms, retraining me like a fucking feral animal! I didn't know whether you were alive as you reached the ospital! I didn't know whether the doctors here would save you! And you dare talk about plans?!"
"You talk about being scared of waking up in a world where I am not there!" he wails like an injured animal..
"But do you know how hard it was to.." he stops himself.. "You were there, you were just there, smilling, dancing and singing on that stage!"
"you were there doing what you love the most.. And I.. And I saw how beautiful you were! How.. how at peace you looked performing infront of that crowd.." he cried.
"It made my heart sore with happiness seeing you like that, for a moment I even forgot I had to perform.."
"And then.. And then when I was reeling of happiness cus the concert was ending, which meant that I get to confess to you soon! For the first time, ever since we began performin, I was happy that the concert was ending, but then.. but then.." Taehyung shudders violently..
"But then I see all that laughter, happiness and /life/ drain out of your eyes! I was waiting for a chance to make you happy, but I.. It hurt! It hurt to breathe Jungkookie..Those bullets..were meant for me! They.. It hurts!" he whimpers,hand slipping off from Jungkook's face..
"Those eyes.. those eyes you are looking at me with right now were closed.." he hiccuped staring at Jungkook's shoulder which was abndaged..
"I didn't know whether they would open again.. I didn't know whether I would have the fortune of seeing those galaxies your eyes hold.."
He giggles, deriloious with pain and an aching heart..
"The confession I was very eager to blurt out.. It died in my fucking throat, not knowing whether I would ever be able to make you hear those words.."
"I cried. I cried for hours here, begged on my bloody knees for you to wake up.." he gasped for breath.. "But you wouldn't wake up.. The only thing I could do was, hope.. Fucking hope that you would hear me, or feel my hand as i gripped onto yours like a fucking life line.."
"That heart monitor.. that was the only thing that told me you were alive.." Taehyung ets out a deep shuddering breath..
"It ate me up alive, the mere thought of not being able to tell you how much I love you, how much i /have/ loved you, all these years.."
"How my brain refused to believe something that my heart already knew, that I was irrevocably and utterly in love wih the sweet boy who gave me a purpose to live and made it easier for me to breathe.. That I unkowingly held onto your love like a lifeline.."
Taehyung's knees buckled, exhausion clear in his eyes..
"I couldn't.. I couldn't even say sorry to you for all the hurt I've caused you.. Because of my obliviousness, blindness and bloody ignorance.. To tell you I'm sorry for.. for taking you for granted.."
Taehyung shakes his head..
" I love you so much.. I'll keep saying it to you every second we breathe, cus.. the thought of you flying away from me one day like the free butterfly you are meant to be, without knowing the intensity of the love I hold for you, terrifies me.."
"It fucking swallows me up in whole, burn me painfully, ruins me inside out.. The fear. The fear of you not knowing what you mean to me.. I don't want to feel it ever again.. never.. Not again, please.. i can't.. I'll just di-"
"Then love me.. Keep loving me, please..."
Taehyung's head snap up, his rant cut off..
Jungkook tries to smile at him while crying..
"If you love me that much, then please don't keep me waiting anymore hyung.. If you love me that much then please make me see it.."
"If?" Taehyung's voice is small "Why if?"
Taehyung grasps onto Jungkook's hands..
"Do you not believe me when I say I love you? Is it that hard to believe?" he mutters, voice immensely pained..
Jungkook shakes his head slowly..
"I..I've always thought that you will never see me like anything apart from a brother.."
"It's not that I don't believe you Tae.." he whispers, sniffling..
"But just like you said that it took your brain longer to figure out what your heart already knew.." he pauses.. "My brain needs time too.. My heart, already accepts your love, but my head.." he smiles sadly.
He holds Taehyung's pained eyes with his own, his heart twisting in a painful manner..
"I've convinced myself, ever since I figured out that I was in love with you, that I will never be good enough for you.." Jungkook chuchkled, head pounding with all the crying..
"The only time..The only time that I got some kind of hope that there might be a chance that you love me the way I love you was when you took my hand on that stage when I reached out.." he sighed "You know how I have never reached out for anyone.. But when you accepted my hand.."
"I was.." He gently shook his head..
"But that hope was shattered in mere minutes when Sana arrived.. and it was like my brain confirming that you will never see me like a lover.. and now I believe that.. my heart still listens to my brain.. to protect itself.."
Taehyung releases a pained whimper at that..
"You.." he choked.. "You were always good for me.. almost /too/ good for me.. You could have literally had anyone you desired.. you, the golden maknae of the biggest boy band in the world, a multi millionaire at the age of 23.. "
anyone.. you could have had anyone, heck you do you even see how much our fans love you? how perfect they think you ar-"
"But that's the thing.." Jungkook tired eyes roam around Taehyung's face..
"They see me as the perfect man, but not you.. you've seen my dark side, you know each one of my flows, my bad habits, you know it all.."
He turns his hand around, closing his fingers weakly over Taehyung's own..
"We don't want love from the people who think we are perfect hyungie, they already love us.." he let's his thumb caress the back of Taehyung's hand.. "We want the people who knows our deepest darkest secrets to love us.."
"Cus then you know that no matter how fucked up you are, how bad your flaws and demons are, no matter how imperfct you are in reality, that they would always stay.. That they would love you despite everything.." He whispers..
He lets go of Taehyung's hand and raises his hand to softly to grace his finger tips under Taehyung's jaw..
"And that is why.." he whispered.. "Despite all the love I was receiving from everyone, I searched for you the most.."
"And that is why I was so convinced that you would never fall for me.." he chuckles"like you said, you've watched me grow up, you knew how imperfect I am, all my demons, insecurities,You knew them all.. And there was no way that my mind believed that you could ever fall for me.."
Taehyung alughs softly, it was not j0oyous, nor was it empty..
it was sad..
He reached up, holding onto Jungkook's hand before turning his face and pressing a kiss onto it..
"You.." he smiled.. "You are the most imperfectly perfect man I've ever seen baby.."
He slowly entwines their fingers together, keeping his lips pressed onto the back of Jungkook's hand, eyes on the younger..
"Your imperfections are worth all my love, every little scar you hold, every demon you have in your head, evry insecurity you hold in your heart.."
"It's all worth it baby.." he whispered, eyes holding a softness and an affection for the younger which Jungkook had never seen in his eyes ever before.. "I fell in love with you despite all of it.. It just took me a little more time to understand myself.."
He sniffles softly..
"And I can't thank you enough for being so patient with me.. You waited for me for a long time.. eother way, whether you've lost hope or held onto a string of hope, you stayed.. You never tried to deny your feelings for me.. You embraced them.. Thank you"
"Never think that your insecurities and imperfections will ever be a hindrance for someone who falls in love with you.." Taehyung sighs softly..
"I love you my little star... and there is no one else like you.. No one.."
The raw honestly in Taehyung's voice and eyes makes Jungkook's heart lurch..
"I know that you've felt like I did, but I promise you, I always loved ad cherished you.. You were the most important person in my life, ever since I knew.. still is, and always will be.."
Jungkook's smile widens, he doesn't restrain the tears that kept falling off of his red rimmed eyes, nonstop..
"That is why I am asking you to show me Taehyungie.. I can't just jump into your arms,as soon as you said that you love me, I need my head to believe that you do.."
"Just like I convinced myself that you do not love me, I need to give my heart and mind time to fully convince themselves that you love me.. I've fought all along hyung.. I want to be fought for, for once, I want you to fight for me.. Can you?"
Taehyung nods without hesitating..
He wipes off his tears with his free hands, proceeding to wipe Jungkook's eyes..
"I will my little star, I will.. I will do everything I can to make you see it.. I will.. Swear on my love.."
"So show me?"
Taehyung stares at the younger for a while before throwing his head back in laughter, feeling all the fear and the exhaustion wear off of his body..
He then looks down at Jungkook with a soft gaze..
"I'll show you.."
"What, What are you looking at me like that for?" he mumbles after feeling a little shy under under Taehyung's gaze..
Taehyung sighs.. "Nothing.."
"Yeah.." he mumbles looking away before looing at Jungkook again.."Can I kiss you?"
Jungkooks putters, his eyes widening, pale cheeks dusting pink..
Taehyung gukpes softly..
"Can I kiss you?" he asks again.. "I was.. I was going to kiss you senseless last night after telling you how I felt, but well.. I couldn't.. so.. Can I?"
"What makes you think that I would let you?" he mumbles blushing deeper.. "i just told you to convince me first.."
"That is what i'm doing! Let me start it with a kiss.." Taehyung smiles.. "Please.. Just once.."
Jungkook stares at the other male for a long while silently and Taehyung almost gives up, saying it was okay but Jungkook beats him to it..
"Fine.." he grumbles.."only this time, and that too cus I've waited so log for i.. Give me a kiss.. You can.."
And he smiles as Taehyung wastes no time in bending down and plantion his lips on his own chappedones..
Jungkook's eyes fall shut..
There are no fire works, no butterflies whatsoever..
The kiss feels familiar..
Taehyung's lips feel safe..
Taehyung feels like home..
He feels like he could easily breathe, wih the comfort that Taehyung's lips bring him..
And he revels in the feeling as he softy kisses him back..
There is no hunger nor lust behind it..
Just pure feelings..
Feelings what they've gone through the past few days.
He lets himself enjoy it..
FInally his first kiss..
It's nothing extravagant, just a simple kiss, but he knows he will remember it for the rest of his life..
And after a long time, he could feel hapiness bubble inside him..
He was happy..
And he had a feeling that he will be happy in the near future, no matter what he will be happy as long as he gets to feel and see Taehyung's smile..
he is starting to believe that everything will be alright..
He will be alright..
They will be alright..
Jungkook hears the sound of thunder crackling across the sky, even before he opens his eyes..
It's been a month since the incident, and he was finally let out of the hospital after two weeks, with the promise of letting the hyungs take very good care of him..
He still remembers their reaction when they saw him awake..
After him and Taehyung had spoken, he had made Taehyung call the rest of them and tell them to come saying it was an emergancy..
Both of them, ever the two pransters, hadn't let them know that Jungkook was awake..
And Jungkook, he did expect them to be emotional when they see him, but he was never ready for what really went down after they saw him..
As expected they did break down, but it shocked him who broke first..
He watched with bewildered eyes as Yoongi, who had entered the room first, stumbling back onto the wall, his eyes wide, pure shock written in them, while Namjoon just froze staring at him..
Not even a beat passed before both of them took quick hurried steps towards him,
+ enclosing their arms around him safely before breaking down completely, muttering apologies left and right for not being able to protect him properly..
Jungkook didn't know what to do as he let him cry, his own eyes filled with tears while the others cried too..
It was a very rare sight to see, Namjoon and Yoongi cry, let alone wail like that..
He had to let them stay like that for atleast an hour, ignoring the little uncomfort he was feeling, until Taehyung had forcefully ripped them away from Jungkook..
Jungkook hadn't cared much about the pain whenever they were around cus seeing his hyungs alive and happy gave him comfort like nothing else.. They took care of him, gave him everything he wanted in the two weeks they had to be in the states with him..
He had practically begged the doctors to let him go, he was sick and tired of staring at the white ceiling and doing nothing..
So when the doctors said that he was safe enough to take the flight to Korea, but only under the promise of taekig care of himself properly,
He readily agreed..
Not knowing how serious his hyungs took 'taking care of you Jungkookie', and sometimes he had honestly wished that he was still in the hospital, cus good god, the doting they were doing on him..
Not even a new born needed that much pampering..
For the first week of return, they had literally pulled three extra matresses into Taehyung's room (in which he was resting cus Taehyung refused to let him out of sight) and piled onto them to sleep, for seven whole days.. What an absolute cluster fuck that was..
But nevertheless, Jungkooks sucked up all the attention and caring he was given greedily..
The man hadn't left Jungkook's side for the whole of this month, only going out of sight when he has to bring food for Jungkook or use the washroom..
True to his words, Taehyung was taking care of Jungkook the best way he could, not letting Jungkook do anything in his own..
the first two days Jungkook had to fight with him to get some sleep, cus the idiot wouldn't just sleep, fearing Jungkook would disappear..
Just like Jungkook requested, Taehyung did give him time..
He hadn't kissed him once after their first kiss..
And as much as he wanted Taehyung to just grab his face and kiss him sensless, he was actually glad Taehyung didn't..
Cus then he could confirm on the fact that Taehyung indeed was not with him cus he was physically attracted to him..
Any anyway, Taehyung had made it all up, by kissing Jungkook all over the face, every chance he got (except for his lips of course), and Jungkook was happy..
Jungkook sighed as he opened his eyes slowly, loving the sound of the rain pelting down onto the window a few feet away from him..
He frowned as he looked around searching for the one he hadn't seen leaving him for even a second the past few weeks..
Where was he?
Jungkook paused for a second when he remembered what had happened the night before..
He had started walking slowly a few days ago, and he could now slowly, very slowly walk with the help of something or someone, without injuring his half healed wounds...
And he had slowly walked out with JImin, who was taking care of him while Namjoon had said that he wanted to talk to Taehyung..
Both of them were giggling while whispering to themselves, down the hallway when they heard the sound of glass breaking..
"What the fuck do you mean she is not found yet?" Taehyung's voice roared from the living room making them stare at each other way absolute shock..
Cus neither had him nor JImin heard Taehyung /that/ angry..
"It's been a month! A fucking month! Where the fuck is she?!"
"We are paying you heaps of money to find her!" Taehyung had growled.. "Your first job first to protect us! But you clearly failed to do that when you couldn't stop someone from bringing a laser gun into the venue and now you can't do this?! I want her behind bars!"
"And I want that done by hook or by crook! It's been a month! If you don't find where she is then you better fucking leave the job before I get the company to fire you all and black list you so you won't find a job elsewhere.."
Jimin had slowly taken Jungkook back to his room, not wanting to alert Taehyung that they had seen him..
Jungkook was still in shock when Taehyung had come to him after an hour like nothing had happened, in a goofy mood, trying to make him laugh..
Jungkook slowly sat up, his still healing wounds protesting as his muscles strecthed..
Slowly letting his legs down from the bed, wiggling his toes and hissing at the coldness before getting up with a groan, hanging onto the side table for dear life..
Was Taehyung still angry?
He wanted to go in search for Taehyung, but there ws literally no one to help him right now..
If his mother saw him right now, he would have gotten an earful just like he did the day they came back from the states..
But he wanted Taehyung, sue him for being a needy baby..
He slowly tries to walk while holding onto every peice of furniture he could get his hands on, and by the time h reaches the couch, his dead beat..
So without wasing a second he just carefuly sits on the couch, sqeaking lightly when he sits on a peice of paper..
He lets out a breath, huffing and puffing like he ran a marathon but whenin reality he walked the distance from Taehyung's bed to his couch..
He wanted to laugh as he reached back to grab the peice of paper that he sat on..
And any laughter that bubbled up directed towards himself , died right down his throat when he opened the paper up and began to read what was written..
Tears sprang into his eyes, hand shaking as he held onto he paper..
What the fuck?
Jungkook desperately held back in the sob that was begging to break out of his throat..
He just couldn't believe..
He knew what was written in this paper was for /him/..
And he knew that the hand writing belonged to Taehyung..
He runs his eyes over and over trhough the lines written, trying to grasp the meaning of them, to carve them into his sould, when the door opens, making him snap his head up..
"What the hell are you doing out of bed Jungk- Woah woah, are you crying?!"
Jungkook lets out a whimper when he sees the man..
"W-why?" he croaks holding up the paper..
Taehyung's eyes fall from Jungkook's tear stained face to the paper before his eyes widen, freezing by the door..
And before Jungkook knows, Taehyung is crossing the room, grabbing the paper out of his hands..
He looks at the paper before looking at Jungkook again, breath a little uneven..
"What.." he mumbles, almost scared.. "What were you doing with this?"
"That was for me!" he cries pointing at the paper..
Taehyung quickly shakes his head..
"Then who was it for? huh? Who?!" Jungkook glares momentarily forgetting the tears.. "You love someone else now?!"
Taehyung opens and closes his mouth like fool for a few minutes before closing his eyes and sighing out..
"Okay fine.." his shoulders slump.. "It is for you.. But it is not that go-"
Taehyung stops himself when fingers dig into his sweater, a pair of bambi eyes looking up at him, pleading andgleaming with hope (minus the tears of course).. Jungkook looked so pretty and fuck Taehyung's heart was weak for this man.. He was screwed..
"Sing it for me?"
Taehyung could feel himself sweating as he stared at the younger..
He opened and closed his mouth a few times not knowing what to say.. He's always been a sucker for those bambi eyes, but he didn't know whether he could do this..
"Baby I-.." he closed his eyes..
"It's not that good baby.."
He slightly flinches when Jungkook glares at him, eyes still filled with tears..
"Kim Taehyung!" Jungkook sniffles.. "Have I told you never to underestimate yourself?! What is this? You wrote a song for me and now I can't listen to it?!"
Taehyung shakes his head, a choked off sob erupting out of his lips along with a little laughter..
"No.." he husks shakily, face scrunching up as he cups Jungkook's face with one hand.. "It's just.. it's gonna be hard.. and I.. I'm supposed to be strong right now and I-"
"Hey.." Jungkook cuts Taehyung off.. "You are supposed to be my comfort.." he whispers smiling.. "You are supposed to make me comfortable Tae, but how can you do that if you are uncomfortable in your own skin? Hmm? Let it all out?"
Taehyung stares at the younger..
"Besides!" Jungkook pouts, sniffling.. "If I remember correctly, you yelled at me as soon as I woke up! You screamed at me! The poor baby who took a bullet for you! So now you gotta sing for me to make it up to me!"
"Are you blackmailling me?"
"Damn right I am! hmph!"
Taehyung looks up at the ceilling..
God what is he going to do with this boy?
"Bay it's not that goo-"
"I don't wanns hear it!" Jungkook grumbles.. "I wanna hear the song! Either you sing it to me or I spend the whole week with JImin hyung, you know he would like that!"
"God you are such a brat!" Taehyung grunts.. "So you really want me to sing this? I can't believe you!"
"You better do then!"
Taehyung throws his hands up.. "Fine.."
Jungkook sqaks, face spreading into a lovely warms smile, uninjured hand excitedly slapping his thigh..
Taehyung stares at that smile for a second.. He thought that he would never be able to see that smile again..
His heart aches at the pure elation in Jungkook's eyes..
God, Taehyung would do anything for this boy..
He smiles at him before walking to his keyboard before bringing it over to the couch, so he could play it while he stays close to the younger..
"I wrote this.." He whispers swallowing harshly.. "I wrote this while I waited for you to wake up.. I hope you like it baby.."
[A/N: Like I said yesterday, the lyrics are not taken from any song.. they were written by me right from the scratch, so please don't copy.. okay? enjoy!]
Jungkook smiles at Taehyung, his heart beating in overdrive..
"I will never dislike anything you do Taehyungie.." he whispers, adoration for the elder clear in his eyes..
Taehyung's lips lift at the corners.. "Yeah?" he mumbles.. "Then I guess, enjoy?"
"I will Tae.."
Taehyung nods before he looks at the keyboard for a few seconds in silence, before placing his fingers on the keys..
He closes his eyes as he starts to play the inntro of the song, the sad melody bringing tears into Jungkook's eyes even without any lyrics, sung..
Taehyung's voice wavers as he starts to sing..
All the memories from his past, how he's been literally begging every god he could think of to give him someone to love and to be loved..
And how he had found Sana, and the way he started loving her so blindingly,
+ grabbing at the first chance he got..
They were kids, and yet Taehyung's heart had given into the name of love, something that he wove around her, looking at everything she did with adoration, cherishing her at any given opportunity..
He didn't know what love was back then.. He grew up with his grandma, not even seeing the love between his mother and father, who were near to breaking up when he left for his grand mother's house..
He had no one to teach him what love was..
He thought she was love, when he found her..
And even if she hadn't given him the time of her day when they were kids, moving with the popular crowd at school, he always thought that if he loved enough she would ultimately love her back..
A dream which he thought had gotten shattered when he moved into Seoul to join the band..
But even if he moved miles apart from her he tried, with everything in him to hold onto her..
Hold onto the love that he had for..
He remembers the day he met Jungkook..
the by who had become his everything since day one..
Protecting him, watching him grow up, hanginng on to him as if his life depended solely on Jungkook..
Taehyung remembers it all..
And the mere memories that crossed infront of his eyes, as if they happened yesterday,the way he had igonored most of the instances in his life hoping to hang onto something which he had unconsiously removed from his life the moment he had met the doe eyed boy, made him ache..
It killed him inside as he now finally realized, as he was singing, all the things he had pushed away, even the thoughts of anything close to romantic with Jungkook, what his heart must have begged his mind for the past couple of years, just because he was hung up on his past..
He remembers the way, he doesn't know when, but how his world had slowly begin to spin around Jungkook..
Like Jungkook was his axis of rotation..
Grounding him, so he wouldn't stray of his orbit, holding on tightly to him..
He got so used to it, the warmth Jungkook had provided, how Jungkook could make him smile with the simplest thing he would do, that he even unkowingly reached out for Jungkook, whenever he felt cold or unhappy, as if Jungkook was his little personal engizer..
'V!' Taehyung remembers Jungkook exclaiming goofily one evening after a concert, wanting to share a car with him..
He remmembered how he was upset after the concert cus he had messed up on stage..
But Jungkook, that doe eyed silly boy had managed to somehow bring a smile onto his face..
'The most handsome man in the world, eh?'
Taehyung remembered how his lips had tilted at Jungkook's goofy voice..
'I'm not wearing any make up, Jungkook..' he had muttered..
'Still, you are the number one! Number one handome man in the world! M-.. Kim Taehyung!'
He had finally siled, unable to contain the joy he had felt inside him..
He had probably heard that alot, but what made him happy was the person who was saying it..
And with a jolt he realizes what Jungkook had stopped himself from saying back then..
Fuck, he closes his eyes briefly, fingers faltering a little on the keyboard..
He was so, so stupid.
He realizes now, how he's always been gravitating towards the younger, for the littlest compliment he wanted to hear..
Cus he knew..
he knew Jungkook would give him everything..
Give without hoping for anything in return..
He whimpers, voice breaking when that particular day played in his mind like a damned movie..
It was the day he had figured out he loved the younger..
How much, he loved the younger..
And that he was nothing without the younger..
And to think that all that happiness was snatched away from him at once, in just mere seconds, it still gave him nightmares..
Even after a month he still couldn't get the feeling of Jungkook's blood out of his hands..
No matter how hard he tried to move on, he was still stuck on that day..
Stuck on the what ifs..
What if the bullet had struck somewhere fatal?
What if Jungkook never wokr up?
What if he ever got to see his smile nor his eyes?
What if.. Just what if?
He felt like he couldn't escape..
He keeps on telling Jungkook that he loves him, like a broken recorder nowadays..
but what id he hadn't ever got the chance to do so?
Had never been able to confess and give Jungkook the love he deserved..
And all because of his fault?
He could almost hear the way he screamed for Jungkook as they took him away..
the way he cried after seeing Jungkook basically breathing on life support..
The way he had crawled on his knees and begged for him to wake up, just for the boy to lay still on the bed..
He knew that is when he had figured out how much Jungkook meant to him, and how bad it would be for him if Jungkook was to ever leave him in this world all alone..
It would have been like ripping the axis of rotation off from the earth..
There would be no grounding force to hold him down..
Make him sane..
The thought alone of living in a world where there is no Jungkook, terrifies him..
That day he realized he has never feared anything like he fears losing Jungkook..
the man he loves..
He turns to Jungkook as he sings, tears streaming down his face, body shuddering..
Jungkook was no better.. The younger was crying so much not even bothering to hide his sobs..
Taehyung wanted so bad to reach for him and comfort him but he just couldn't stop singing..
He wanted so bad for Jungkook to know how much he meant to him..
He needed him to know what he is to him..
And he hoped that the song would tell him exactly that..
That he wasn't in it just for the fun of it or for the sake of being in a relationship..
That he wasn't loving him just cause he was pitying and didn't want to hurt the younger..
That he wasn't with him just for the physical attraction..
What ever that he wasn't strong enough to tell him verbally, he wanted Jungkook to hear it in the song..
He knew that he had a lot of mistakes and insecurities to work through..
But he wanted Jungkook to wait for him..
He wanted to be his..
He wanted him to be,
as much as he was,
He wanted it so bad..
He stares right into Jungkook's eyes as he sings the last few lines..
He wishes there would come a day where he could hold the younger to his heart's content..
A day where he could shout to the entire world that this precious boy,
+the man that took bullets for him, that would probably go to more miles for him, just to see him happy, was his..
A day where he could hold onto his hand and could just roam around the streets at night, share a drink at a small bar, dance together to their hearts' content..
A day to proudly claim, Jeon Jungkook as his, move into their own house, adopt a few kids, grow old togther..
Have his future with him..
Cus Jungkook was his future..
And if he didn't have him, there would never be a future for him..
But tno matter how bad he wanted all of these thing, he would wait patienly until the younger was ready..
He damaged the younger for years, played with his self-confidence..
So if he has to wait his whole life, make up to him his entire life in this life time, then he would gladly follow him to the next so he can finally make him his..
Claim his heart, grab onto his selfishly and never let go..
But in this life time, he would wait..
Just like Jungkook had waited for him..
And he wanted him to know that..
His body was shaking violently as he finishe playing the last few notes of the song..
"I love you.." he sobbed.. "I love you so much.."
He puts the keyboard aside and hastily grabs onto Jungkook's thighs, as he kneels on the floor infront of him..
"You know that right?" he whimpered, fingers digging into Jungkook's thighs, trying to ground himself.. "You know I love you right?"
Jungkook cries as he nods, not being able to form out a proper word, he can't even bring a hand upto clean his face, he just let the tears and the snot run down his face, pathetically as he shakes his head as hard as he could..
Taehyung hides his face in Jungkook's lap as he weeps..
"Please don't ever leave me like that again.." he hiccups.. "It was so hard trying to pretend that everything was okay these few weeks.. nothing is okay with me.. Nothing.. Please don't.."
He feels the way Jungkook's shaky fingers card into his hair, nails scratching against his scalp as they both cried..
"I still have nightmares of you.. of you bleeding in my arms.. I still look everywhere to make sure that you are safe, flinch at the slightest sound.."
"Baby please don't leave me here all alone.." he shudders, fighting to breathe thorugh his hicupping..
"I love you so much, and I.. And I know I'm not good with words, but i will tell you everyday, try my best to love you.. Please.."
"I will hold onto you with every last cell in my body.." he gasps.. "I will wait eons for you.. but please don't leave me.. Wherever you go, please take me with you.. or better yet, send me off before you leave, then I can still wait for you.. Please.."
"Dying while looking at your eyes, is a thousand times better than dying in a world where you aren't there.. Please baby.. Please let me write our story.. Don't let it stay incomplete.. I will give you as much time as you need..."
"If not in this life time, then in the next.. but please, don't leave me hanging.. I'm sorry.." he begs, tears dripping heavily onto Jungkook's sweats..
"I'm sorry for all the pain I've caused you, but please.. Give me all the pain in the world, but never leave me.. I will di-"
"I love you.." Jungkook sobs, body slightly bent forwards so he could press his face into Taehyung's hair..
It hurt his wounds but he didn't care that much of it..
And Taehyung's heart stop for a second..
He is hearing it after a month..
Taehyung.. He just lets everything go and /wails/..
He half screams his sobs out as he hears it..
"I love you.." Jungkook cries out again.. "I love you.. I love you.. I love you so much.. I love you.."
He keeps repeating those three words into Taehyung's skin like a mantra..
And he wants to keep hearing it..
He knew he would never tire of hearing those words..
He thought it would take him years for him to hear them from Jungkook again..
But there he was, a month later, the younger crying it again and again to him..
Jungkook starightens up before pushing Taehyung's face off his lap gently, cupping his wet cheeks..
He lens forwards and presses his lips against the male's forehead, mumbling 'I love you' over and over again..
He wanted to engrave it into Taehyung's skin..
Keep drawing it on Taehyung's skin until the elder understands that he had understood what he tried to say with the song..
And that he was not that patient of a person to keep him waiting for an year..
Cus honestly, Jungkook was a selfish person..
He's always wanted Taehyung to himself..
And now that he's finally gotten him, and the song having managed to convince his mind of the same things that his heart believed in, he would be an utter fool to not let Taehyung know that he understood him..
He pulls back slightly staring at the older, who had his eyes screwed shut, whole face red as he cried, before bringing his face forward and crrashing their lips togther..
He swallows the startled gasp that Taehyung lets out as he keeps kissing him..
This wasn't like their first kiss..
Where their first kiss was gentle and soft, everthing a first kiss should have been, this was just filled with passion..
It was raw..
It was bruising..
It was salty cus of the tears..
It was painful..
Yet, It was perfect..
They both ignore everything around them mas they keep kissing, Taehyung holding onto Jungkook's waist gently, so unlike their kiss, as he continues to kiss him deeper..
He kisses him, exploring his mouth, and there is a haunting ache that they can not quite seem to let go..
It was borderline desperate..
As if they were trying to convince each other how much the other means to them..
How much they would suffer if either one was to just leave..
And how much deeper their bond runs..
It was beyond a friendship, a relaionship..
They couldn't put a tag onto what it was between them, cus they didn't know..
What they had was far beyond than anything they've seen so far..
Not with their parents, not with their firends..
Their love was unique to them, and none of them knew how to explain it..
And they didn't want to explain it to anyone else as long as they understood..
And they hoped, hearts beating as one, soaring to the skies above as they kissed that they would understand eachother's unspoken words..
It was like, sealing a bond, pinky promising over a promise to never part, swearing on their lives to keep loving eachother in ever lifetime they live..
It was a promise..
A promise of eternal love and warmth..
Eternal promise of them being eachother's heart, mind, body and soul..
'𝐼'𝑚 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟𝑠.. 𝐼'𝑚 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟𝑠.. 𝑎𝑠 𝑙𝑜𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑠 𝑒𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑛𝑖𝑡𝑦, 𝐼 𝑎𝑚 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟𝑠, 𝑖 𝑎𝑙𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝐼 𝑎𝑙𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑏𝑒..'
They both spoke in their minds, letting the kiss speaks for them..
They pull back when their lungs burn for oxygen, gasping for breath as if they had ran for their entire lives..
They probably did..
Until they met in the middle, panting, broken, yet lips interlocking in a promise of life long comfort and mending..
They rested their lips over eachother, eyes closed as they inhales the same bouts of air..
When they opened their eyes, both of them were still crying..
But this time, looking into eachother's made a beautiful smile spread on their lips, beaming at eachother..
They were happy..
"I love you, my love.."
They whisper together, just as their hearts beat together..
[The full song all together for anyone who wanted to read it as a whole.. hope you enjoyed it ]
It was two months later that Jungkook finds himself alone at their apartment..
The company had been asking for a meeting of the six of them, actually seven of them, but knowing that Jungkook was under strict doctor's orders,
+ they didn't force him to come, eyt the other six, they needed them..
And these six silly hooligans had been dead set on not leaving him alone in the house with all six of them gone..
Jungkook couldn't stand them and their antics sometimes..
Don't blame him, his wounds were almost compleetly healed, and he could now walk like a regular person for a few hours without any help before he got tired, so he didn't know why the others just wouoldn't listen..
It was for only acouple of hours...
"You don't understand!" Taehyung had argued.. "We almost lost you withing minutes and right infront of our eyes, and this a couple of hours /apart/ from us!"
"Exactly!" yoongi had backed him up.. "We are not going! If they want, Bang PD's ass can come here!"
Jungkook literally had to beg them to leave the house, threatening them with silent treatment, and leaving for Busan if they didn't listen to him..
and finally after many more scoldings and extra unnecassary safety precautions the six had left, much to Jungkook's relief..
Don't get him wrong, he loves the attention and the coddling..
But they can be extremely tiring sometimes and Jungkook just needed to beathe..
Jungkook laughs as he sees Taehyung's texts..
He walks to the kitchen slowly, while sending hima quiick reply that he was fine..
There were atleast fifty body guards surrounding the apartment right now..
They had nothing to be worried about..
He places his phone on one of the lower counters and turn towards the fridge, pulling some meat out and walking to the stove..
Damn.. He was hungry..
He hums as he starts to clean a pan before oilling it, and starting to fry some meat..
He knew Taehyung would flip if he got to know that Jungkook ate friend meat without him, and the thought made him giggle..
Ah.. He loved that man..
He continued to cook with a smile on his faze, when a slight sound caught his ears..
He pauses, listening carefully before turning around to look around, but finding nothing he just shrugged going back to cooking his food..
And only when he had finished cooking and plating the food did he understood what the sound was,
+ cus he knew the person who made it was right behind him, just outside the kitchen..
"What do you have.." the voice shakes.. "That he is so obssessed with, that I don't?!"
Jungkook sighs before closing his eyes for a second..
He groaned, before slowly turning around, eyes widening for a seond..
At gun point again..
If this physcho wasn't gonna kill him, Taehyung surely would..
He smiles at the girl who was standing in the living room, gun pointed towards him..
Jungkook freezes as soon as he turns around..
And he hopes to every living god that the surprise isn't clearly shown in his face..
What the fuck is this?
He tilts his head, shooting the girl a quick small smile..
His eyes takes in the sight of her..
Dressed in a black suit, a white shirt underneath, in-ears attached, shades tucked in her collar..
She was pretending to be a security..
No wonder they never found her..
"When did you have time to get a plastic surgery?"
Jungkook sees the look of surprise in her eyes and he sees the slight waver of the gun..
"I'm not Sana.."
Jungkook laughs as he rolls his eyes..
"Oh come on.." he mumbled as he abandons the mitten in his hand, proceeding to remove the apron..
"For someone who managed to get in a laser gun into a concert and pretended to be security of what, months? You sure are dumb.. You think having a plastic surgery would automatically change your voice or something? Come on girl.. thought you were better than this.." he smirks
He threw the apron away, leaving himself only in his sweats, a bandage still wrapped around his shoulder so he wouldn't get the almost fully wound wet by accident..
He stares at her before slowly taking a step forward making her take a few steps back..
"Stay back!" she grits..
"This is my house?" he clears his throat proceeding to walk towards the kitchen island.. "I can do whatever I want in my house, no? Why are you here Sana? You know they are going to catch you right?"
The girl jerks the gun, taking the safety off..
"I said stay back!" she spat..
Jungkook snickered keeping his hands on the counter behind the island, hidden underneath it, making it seem like he was leaning against the island..
He stared at the girl as he slowly wrapped his fingers around his phone..
"I'm not gonna come to you.. don't worry.. I don't have a death wish.." he looked sideways at his shoulder.. "Meh.. maybe I do, but I promised a certain someone that I would live so yeah, "
" He'd be angry if I suddenly die, without atleast telling him bye.. He'd be pissed.." He smiles at her..
"Do you think I am a fucking joke?" she hisses, rage swimming in her eyes..
"Frankly?" Jungkook shrugs.. "I kinda do.. I mean.. You'd make a great clown.."
"I'm going to k!ll you!"
Jungkook chuckles.. "You tried that already.. Try something new.." he shrugged.. "Oh wait though.. That;s right.. You weren't going to k!ll me.. You were aiming for Tae, were you not? Why did you aim for him? You love him, right?"
Jungkook runs his tongue over his teeth..
"You see, this is what I do not understand.." he mutters looking at her.. "If you loved him truly, then why would you try to shoot her? Why Sana? You don't just go and shoot a person that you love.. Why did you do it?"
"If you loved him honestly, and he loved you back, I would have let him go in a heart beat, cus if he loves you that means you make him happy... And that is what a person who loves someone geuninely would do.. Do everything to make that someone happy, not k!ll them.."
"You.." her voice wavers slightly.. "You have no right, to talk to me as if you know everything.. you have no right! I did what I had to do!"
Jungkook stared at her..
"You did what you had to do? You had to k!ll Tae? But why?"
"Cus then he wouldn't leave me for someone else!"
Tw// mental illnesses, mentions of mental/ physical abuse and cheating
If you find these topics triggering then please don't read further..
"But if he dies, then you.. you would be alone anyway.." he mumbles trying to understand what the girl was saying..
"No! not if I plan to follow him.."
"You.. you what?"
He could see that the girl wasbarely holding onto her tears..
"Yes.." she gris out.. "I was going to follow him to wherever he would go.. If I couldn't have him in this life, then I will in another and no one will have him until then! BUt you ruined my plan! You ruined it all!"
Jungkook couldn't believe what he was hearing.
"That is.. Sana that is not the way-"
"You don't get to tell me how things are supposed to go!" she yells.. "I know! I know how things are supposed to go!"
Jungkook shakes his head.. "I'm not telling you how it should be done, but how.. I don't get this Sana.."
"You had your chance.. He conffessed to you.." he speaks.. "He conffessed to you when he was 13 and you rejected him? You said you would never like him.. and now you want to k!ll him and follow him into his next life?! What.. This is not love this is obsession!"
"I love him!" she breathes, shaking.. "He is mine! You! You won't ruin this anymore! I should have him! He belongs to me! He said he would love me forever! He is mine! Mine mine mine! If I can't have him then no one will!"
Jungkook's breath hitched..
This girl is /sick/..
He slowly let's the phone go before stepping back, starting to round the island towards the girl while she backed up, fury clear in her whole stance..
"So his happiness wouldn't matter to you?" he asks softly..
"His happiness should be me!" she cries..
"Stop walking! I will shoot you!"
Jungkook looks at her, stopping for a second..
"Sana.. Have you ever wondered why Taehyung doesn't like you anymore? Has the thought that he would have moved on never crossed your mind?"
"He is not an object Sara.." he says gently.. "You can't treat him like one.. He is a living, breathing human and he deserves to be happy.. Don't you think so?"
"I deserve to be happy to!" she yells, tears starting to drip out of her face.. "I deserve to be happy!"
Jungkook nods.. "Of course you do Sana.. But forcing Taehyung to be with you would not make you happy.. It just wo-"
"Stop trying to tell me what makes me happy!" she screams.."That's what he did too! You do not know what makes me happy! Only I know! "
"All I've been is a plaything! Thrown around! Told what to do how to behave! Used again and again like a cheap towel, thrown aside when I am deemed dirty and being told that it is all for my happiness! I was never good enough as I am to anyone! "
"They all tried to shape me to be perfect and then tell me that everything is for my own betterment! They never listened to me when I said I was wronged! They told me I was just a kid and I don't know anything! Said he was trying to make me happy! Give me the best fucking life!!"
"But I was never fucking happy!" she cries.. "Taehyung is my hapiness! I had to let him go once but not again! Not again when I finally found him! I came for him! I came for the man I love! He is mine!"
Tears sprang to Jungkook's eyes, looking at the state of the girl..
He shakes his head..
"Sana.. Please.. You know you don't have to do this.. We can get you he-" Jungkook flinches when the glass table explodes into peices..
His heart beat picks up as he stares at the gun.. There wasa silencer attached to it..
"I don't need help!" She shouts, marching forward, iolently shaking as she pressed the gun to his forehead.. "I need Taehyung! And you! Either you are going to step back and let me have him! Or I am going to have you disposed! I don't need help! I am not crazy!"
Jungkook goes stiff with the gun pressed to his head..
"I am fine! Do not call me crazy! I a f-"
"I didn't tell you that you are crazy.." Jungkook whispers..
"You did! You siad I needed help! Only the crazy needs he-"
"No.." Jungkook whispers harshly..
"Everyone needs help.. I do.. Taehyung does.. I was ifghting for my life a few months ago, if the doctors didn't help me I would have been dead Sana.. You don't have to be crazy to need help.." he mumbles.. "I do not know who did what to you bu-"
"My father! My fucking father!"
Jungkook's eyes widened..
"He was the one who started it all.." the girls cries. "He started controlling me! Controlling what I wore, what I ate, my friends! The person that I loved! I was in love with Taehyung when I rejected him! I rejected him because of my father!"
"I wasn' allowed to date whoever I wanted so I had to reject him! I thought he would wait for me! But he left the next week!" she sobbed.. "He was my only source of escape, a relief! But no! He left too!"
"Y-.. Taehyung said you started dating after rejecting him.."
"I dated who my father wanted me to date! So that his business could grow!" she screams like an unhinged animal.. "He got me married to that bastard.. Didn't listen to me when I said the man was hurting me, didn't even look at the marks on my body, let the man cheat on me!"
tw// non-con drug usage, mentions of r@pe
"He told me it was all because he wanted what's best for me! Liars! They tormented me! They sold me to their business partners, let them use me! again and again! consiously and unconsiously! They laughed as I screamed!"
"And for what? For my happiness! The only thought while i went through all of it was to get to Taehyung finally.." she growls, like a scared animal.. "I wanted him! And I am finally here for him! For my happiness!"
Jungkook gulps, tears flowing down his cheeks..
A sob threatened to break through his lips..
"W-What.." he whispered.. "Where is your husband?"
The girl stares at him for awhile silently before laughing, cold and evil..
"The fucker is where he is supposed to be.." she laughed even harder like a maniac
tw// mentions of murder
Jungkook felt a shiver run down his spine..
"You.. You k!lled him?" he muttered as if he was in a daze..
"He deserved it.." she smirked evilly.. "Ch0pped him and his bitch into peices, bathed in their bl00d.. "
" and put bullet after bullet into the man I call my father.." She snickers.. "You know, I carved the shape 'fuck you' into his body with the bullets.. Very artistic if you ask me.. holes with bl00d running out of them? Very pretty.."
She steps up closer to him..
"Just like I am going to do to you now.." She throws her head back and laughs..
"What do you like little Jungkookie? To be cut into peices and served on a plate to my little dogs? Or shall I draw a flower on your body with bullets.. What do you prefer? Tell me sweetheart.."
"I want my Taehyung back.." She whispers, looking right into Jungkook's eyes.. "And if I have to kill you to get to him, make him mine, I will! Tell me!"
Jungkook doesn't even flinch when she presses the gun in harder..
"He will hate you if you k!ll me Sana.."
He gulped harshly, as he stared at her..
He was looking for an opening to disarm her..
"If you k!ll me, hurt his best friend, he will never love you, ever again.." his voice shakes a little.. "He will hate you.."
The girl just giggles..
"There is a very thin line between hate and love Jungkookie! Don't you know?!" She smiles sweetly at him, the previously traumatized and wounded girl replaced by a complete unhinged person..
"If he doesn't love me, I will make him love me.." She shrugs..
"He.. he won't ever love you as long as he remembers me and the way you ripped the person he treaures the most in this world away from him.. He won't be happy San-"
"That is if he remembers you!" she screams.. "He won't! I will make sure of that! He won't!"
Jungkook let out a shuddering breath..
"You want to k!ll me?" he husks out..
The girl smirks.. "Nothing would make me feel better.."
"Then go ahead.." he mumbles squeezing his eyes shut.. "Shoot me.. k!ll me.."
"It's okay.. K!ll me.. Come on.."
He could feel the girl hesitating, before pressing the gun harder into his skin, tampering with the safety of the gun..
"Put that gun down.." A voice sneers.. "Right. Fucking. Now."
Taehyung's leg bounces up and down as their driver steps on the gas towards their apartment, all of them in dead silences..
They could easily cut the tension with a knife..
They were all lost, not knowing what to do and what happened..
They were all gathered in Namjoon's studio, discussing over an interview the company wanted them to take part in when yoongi's phone suddenly rang..
he had grunted in confusion before pulling it out, making all of them confused seeing Jungkook's name flashing across the screen..
Yoongi had gone to pick the call up when Taehyung held his hand, his stomach clenching with in an unpleasant way.. Why was Jungkook calling Yoongi and not him?
"Put it on speaker hyung.." He had rasped, and Yoongi had barely nodded before answering and put the phone on speaker..
" - angry if I suddenly die, without atleast telling him bye.. He'd be pissed.." All of them had tensed looking at eeachother with widened eyes..
"Do you think I am a fucking joke?"
Taehyung could feel his blood drainning right out of his body when he heard the voice..
"Frankly..I kinda do.. I mean.. You'd make a great clown.."
"I am gonna k!ll you!"
"Wait that.." Seokjin had started, but Taehyung didn't wait for the male to finish as he stood up and bolted right out the door,
Yoongi right behind him, the phone still clutched in his hand, voice coming out of it..
He could hear Jungkook taunting the girl over the phone and it seemed as if the younger was trying to buy himself sometime with the nonsense talk..
"I'm coming.. I'm coming baby.." He muttered to himself as they ran out of the building, jumping straight into the SUV, the other four following right behind them..
"Fucking hurry up!" Seokjin had roared at their driver when the man had hesitated to start the car +
+ without any body guards..
And while the driver started to drive, the only thing they could do was sit their and listen to the conversation..
And the more Taehyung listened, the more he felt like he was going puke his guts out..
"What do you like little Jungkookie? To be cut into peices and served on a plate to my little dogs? Or shall I draw a flower on your body with bullets.. What do you prefer? Tell me sweetheart.."
Taehyung had never /ever/ felt so violent in his entire life..
But lucky for him they didn't have to wait much cus the SUV pulled up their apartment complex merely two seconds after, and Taehyung is jumping out even before it stops, racing straight towards the dtairs, not wanting to wait for the elevator to come down 16 floors..
He was right behind their apartment door when he heard Jungkook's voice again..
"It's okay.. K!ll me.. Come on.."
And he almost breaks the door down..
He bursts inside when the door cicks open, freezing over the sight of his lover being held at gun point..
Here is the thing..
Yes, Taehyung had only acknowledged his love for Jungkook just a few months ago, and that too in a very inconvenient way..
One minute he was thinking pf him as a friend, and then Jungkook issmilling at him from across the stage and suddenly he is in love..
It was just a minute, for him to notice the way his heart would beat a little harder and faster whenever he looked at Jungkook, and how his smile could brighten up Taehyung's whole world..
Yes it took only a minute for him to realize that he was in life, but now as he stands there, watching his lover's life in danger yet again, and he figures /how much/ he exactly loves the younger..
He knew he would do anything to save Jungkook, pull him out of danger..
And he vaguely wondered whether this is how Jungkook felt while seeing the laser gun was pointed at him three months ago..
And now he understood why Jungkook did what he did cus Taehyung would literally k!ll Sana for Jungkook if it comes to that point..
He didn't care for the fact that he might get injured or might end up in prison for it..
Jungkook commes before anything, and he would rather k!ll himself, than watching Jungkook getting hurt, again..
"Put that gun down.." he sneers.. "Right. Fucking. Now."
Taehyung watches all of it as if it was played in slow motion..
San's head snaps to him when he hears him, eyeswide, filled with tears and fear evident in them but Jungkook doesn't even spare him a glance..
The younger just seizes the opportunity to grab Sana's wrist twist it around and disarm her, a click sound resounding the apartment as the rest of them filled in with their body gaurds, while Jungkook removed the bullets from the gun in record tim before throwing the gun away..
And Sana, finally figuring out what happened, blindly kicks her leg back, twisting his whole body back to throw a punch at Jungkook, which the younger ducks perfectly before kicking out his own leg, kicking Sana's legs from under her making her lie flat on the floor..
"I told you that you didn't have to do this Sana.." Jungkook mutters but holds his hand up just as their security points the guns at her..
"Don't.." the younger mumbles and Taehyung's had enough..
"How fucking dare you?" He spits out, walking towards the girl on the floor..
"Tae.." the girls trembles..
"Don't you dare.." He shakes his head, eyes watering as he stared at hr, memories of their childhood rushing trhough his head.. "Don't you dare 'Tae' me Sana.. You lost that right a long time ago..."
"Why.." he whispers harshly.. "Why! Why Sana WHY?!"
The girls shakes her head, tears rolling out of her eyes..
"I just want you.. want your love.. You are mine Tae.. Please.." She cried.. "I'm sorry.. But I came back for you! See? I came for you my love.."
"You came for me?" Taehyung chuckled his eyes empty.. "And what good did that do for me Sana? Almost losing
the person I love? not once but twice? Is that it? oh and not to forget that I almost lost my family because of you?"
"No Tae pl-"
"Save it Sana.. Please.." he whispers.. "I don't want to hear any of it.. I heard everything.. I know everything.. I do feel sorry for you for everything that happened to you.. The innocent tittle 11 year old girl didn't deserve ay of it.. She deserved the world.."
"I'm sorry.. I;m sorry that he did that to you.." he murmurs, pain evident in his warm brown eyes.. "But that doesn't give you a reason to hurt an innocent person Sana.. What you do is, yoou get help! If they damage you that much then you get help!"
"Why can't you see that what you are doimg is wrong? You are sick! You are sick Sana! You need help! open your eyes! You are not the same anymore! And I am not your Tae! I probably never was.." Taehyung lets a tear out..
"I don't think I even knew what love was preoperly when I confessed to you.. It might as well would have been a silly crush, cus with the intensity that I love the person I am in love with today and the love I supposedly had for you are in two different ends of the spectrum.."
"Yes.. Yes I'm sorry for what happened to you, but where we left off, I wouldn't change a thing.." he shook his head.. "I wish you never went through all that pain and trauma, but your love isn't as important to me as Jungkook... The man I love and the man you tried to hurt.."
"And i will never forgive you for that.. no matter how much you beg me to forgive you, I will never.. They say forgive and forget, but I will never forgive nor will I forget.." he releases a shaky breath.. "You deserve to be
behind bars.. and that is where you will be.."
He gives the girl a sad smile..
"I will make sure of it.. for what you did to me and my family I will be damned if I don't put you behind bars.."
"Tae.." Jungkook starts.. "She needs help first Tae, hel-"
"You shut it!" Taehyung snaps, angry tears running down his face..
"She hurt my family! Innocent people! And she will get what she deserves!"
"No! Bars.. she deserves to be behind bars.."
"Taehyungie.. please.. i didn't mean to.. I just love you so much.. I couldn't bear to see him take you aw-"
"I WAS NEVER YOURS!!"
"I was never yours.." Taehyung breaks down... "I'm sorry I gave you falso hope.. but I was never yours.."
"This is all your fault!" The girl screams at Jungkook "You took him away from me! I hope you d!e! You bast@rd you don't deserve hi-"
"Take her.." Taehyung speaks, vioce suddenly rid of any emotions.. "Take her away... right now.. Get her behind bars somehow.. whatever help she needs the court will decide.. We are not helping her.. Take her.. Now!"
"N-no!" Sana begins to struggle as the body gards pick her up.. "No! Let go fo me! Taehyungie please! Save me! They are gonna hurt me! Please!! Stop them! Taehyung! They will hurt me!! I don't want to hurt anymore! Please!!" She thrashes around..
He squeezes his eyes shut, a hand over his mouth to prevent the ugly sob that was about to rip out raw out of his throat as the girl screamed for him, but the struggle was invain cus the moment Jungkook curled a palm over his neck and pulled him into his chest, Taehyung breaks..
He lets out all his fear, sadness, guilt and pain into Jungkook's chest as his nails digged into Jungkook's skin.. He cried for what felt tlike hours until the police came to take a statement from them, which they turned down and asked them to come another day..
They were all still in the living area, Taehyung in the kitchen as he tried to fill a glass of water with shaky hands..
"Tae.." he tensed as he heard Jungkook.. He ignored him a first.. "Tae please.. Look at me.. i'm sorry.. Taeh-"
Taehyung spins around, eyes blazing with fury as he stares at the younger before he abandons the glass on the sink and grabs the hand of the younger, dragging him towards his room, not bothering to utter a single word..
He slammed his door shut behind them before locking at it and pushing Jungkook onto the bed..
"Kill me?!" Taehyung shouts at the younger.. "Kill me?! Who the fuck did you think you were Jungkook?!"
"Your life belongs to me! How dare you think you can make decisions about it alone?! It's mine! It's fucking mine!" He snarls at the younger..
"Not once but twice! I told you you are fucking mine!!"
Jungkook swallows harshly trying to think of something to calm the elder down with..
"Hyung, Come on.. She was a woman and I didn't want to raise my hand on her, I was trying to be patien-"
"Patient?! You wanted to be patient?!"
"Is that why you asked to be k!lled?" he shudders, tears springing to his eyes again..
"Fine!" he hisses as he basically rips his clothes off, adrenaline high in his body..
Jungkook gets cut off when the elder struggles to get a word out when the elder straddles him, only clad in his boxers, crying..
"You wanted to be patient didn't you?" Taehyung whispers, beyond angry.. "Let's see how you be patient now.."
[A/N: Alright peeps.. lets get down and dirty.. Minors you already know what to do.. Incase you don't know..
Please stay the hell away okay? This is not for you baby..
[tags: dry humping, dirty talking, handjob, oral sex, rimming, spanking, hair pulling, fingering, light bondage, orgasm denial, name calling, begging, angry, Service top kook, Power bottom Tae, possessive behavior, body worship, multiple orgasms, Top kook, bottom Tae]
[Oh I forgot to mention Body worshiping.. hehe..]
Jungkook freezes completely, whatever he was about to say getting stuck in his throat as he stared wide eyed at the male on his lap, his mind reeling..
"Tae.. Hyung what are you doing?!"
Taehyung smirks as he places his hands on Jungkook's shoulders, fingers digging into the skin there..
He grinds down once, tilting his head to side, blinking innocently and smirking internally when he feels Jungkook's cock twitching..
"Am I doing anything Kookie?"
Jungkook grits his teeth, resisting the urge to close his eyes as Taehyung keeps subtly grinding his ass down on him..
"Taehyung.." he grits.. "For the love of everything that's holy.. This.. I.. right now?!"
A soft laugh leaves Taehyung's lips.. And Jungkook sees that the laughter doesn't reach the male's eyes..
They are dark..
"Right now." Taehyung murmurs, running his palms up Jungkook's shoulders, reaching his neck and letting his lomg fingers wrap around it..
He leans forward a little, plush ass continuing to grind down on the younger..
"What's wrong with right now Kookie? Hmm?" he husks, dropping his face low and placing his lips right above his fingers, on Jungkook's neck, tracing them up and down, tongue slightly poking out..
Jungkook's breath stutters as he feels that tongue, ever so lightly drag up and down on his skin, up the vein prominent on his neck and under his jaw..
His eyes fluttered shut, body finally moving as he let his hands grip Taehyung's waist..
"Get your fucking hands off me.."
Jungkook stills, before he let his fingers dip into Taehyung;s hips as the fingers around his neck tightens a bit..
"I said.." Taehyung grits.. "Take your hands off me Jungkook.. Or.. I swear I will tie you up.."
Jungkook bites his lip making no move to take his hands..
Taehyung snickers when he actually feels Jungkook hardening beneath him..
"Oh you little sl*t.." he whispers, fingers of one hand curling into the hair on Jungkook's nape.. "You like that don't you? Being tied up?"
He smirks when Jungkook grunts, speeding his hips a little, grinding down hard on him, his own cock starting to swell at the thought of tying the muscular male up..
"Want that baby?" He rasped, watching Jungkook's face, as those pink lips fell open..
"Want to be tied up? Want whatever I tie you with dig into your skin while I ravish you? Hmm?" he grins when Jungkook whines, tugging on his hair.. "Oh you want it to be painful don't you? Like pain that much? Huh darling? Is that why I always find you at gut point you moron?"
[I'm saying this again, minors PLEASE stay away.. Also, enjoy you horny people.. hope you like it.. ]
For the people who said the link doesn't work.. Try scanning this..!!
Jungkook opens his eyes to find Taehyung already gazing at him, in a high daze, as if he was floating in the clouds of heaven..
A rush of love and warmth curse through Jungkook’s veins as he pants above Taehyung..
He did fuck him like a two cent wh*re..
And now the only things left..
He groans as he clashes their lips together, in a deep kiss, smiling into it when Taehyung kisses him back with the same vigor yet lazily..
Jungkook drops down onto the bed, beside Taehyung, still inside him and kissing him.. He immediately gathers the male up in his arms, rough hands running up and down his body, so gently, feather-like, almost as if he was scared that +
+ one hard press would make Taehyung break like chinaware.. And he could feel Taehyung doing the same for him..
They were fucking like animal a few seconds ago..
It was a war zone..
Yet here they were touching each other like they were the most precious things in the world for each other, nobody else in the world besides each other mattered right now..
Now it was a paradise..
Jungkook holds onto Taehyung like a lifeline..
Tight yet gentle..
As if he feared that Taehyung would disappear.. He didn’t want to let go tonight.. Not ever.. He wanted to hold him like this forever..
Taehyung felt like home..
A place where he could let go of all his fears and sadness..
A place where he kept wanting to return..
Somewhere he never wanted to leave..
He wanted him to be the last thing he saw when he went to bed and the first thing he saw when he woke up..
Taehyung pulls back from the kiss with a loud smooch..
“What are you thinking?” He rasps, voice tired and barely a whisper..
Jungkook gazes at him silently, hands drawing patterns on the curve of his back.. He smiles gently at him..
“I love you..”
Taehyung’s breath hitches, tired eyes widening for a second as he stares at the male.. He didn’t think he could flush even more, but he somehow did.. The sudden confession making him shy..
Jungkook laughs softly.. “Are you getting shy on me now? After begging me so hard for my cock and my cum?”
Taehyung lets out a startled noise, hitting Jungkook’s chest..
“Shut up!” he hissed, before he stared at the male for a few second, gaze softening as a smile graced his thin lips.. He cards his fingers through Jungkook’s sweaty hair, using it to til his face up and place a sweet kiss on his lips..
“I love you too, Kookie..”
Jungkook stares at him, heart feeling light as it pounded in his ears, and they were pressed together so tightly that he could feel Tae’s own heartbeat, beating with the same intensity..
They beam at each other, basking in the warmth of each other, in their own little paradise..
A paradise which is shattered with the loud banging on Taehyung’s door..
“YOU FILTHY DOGS IN HEAT!!” Yoongi’s voice screams from behind the door.. “FUCK YOU TO HELL!!
They stare at the closed door with surprised widened eyes, before looking back at each other..
They hold that stare for a few more seconds before bursting out in laughter..
“No thank you!!” Jungkook shouts back, pulling Taehyung tighter against him and placing a kiss on his forehead..
“We already fucked eachother..”
“D!E YOU SPAWNS OF SATAN!! WHO THE FU-” Yoongi is cut off by a loud thud..
The next second they hear the loud whines of Yoongi and agitated grumbling of Jimin..
“I told you to fucking let them be!!”
They laughed some more as they heard Jimin dragging away a very obviously sulking Yoongi..
Jungkook looks at Taehyung with a soft sigh, a smile evident in his eyes..
This is all he ever wanted..
His family to be happy.. With him..
He stares at Taehyung..
Looks back on the journey they've come so far..
How they almost lost eachother, barely managing to hold onto eachother..
He shudders at the mere thought of living without Taehyung, right here in his arms..
And thinking of that, he thinks that everything they went through to get here, to bask in eachother's warmth in peace, is wroth..
It's worth every single bit of their struggle..
Eventhough he wished they never went through that paint, he would never change a thing..
Not when he has the man he loves right where he wants him to be..
In his arms..
As his boyfriend..
Maybe a few years down the lane ever more..
Yes, their story was bittersweet, yet he regrets nothing..
Jungkook hated too sweets things with a passion anyway..
Jungkook had never wanted love..
He hadn't even known what love was..
Until Kim Taehyung entered his life..
Love in the form of a person..
And he fell deep into the rabbit fall, as sudden as how Taehyung appeared in front of him..
It was really hard for him in the beginning, when he realized that Taehyung was the last person he thought about before going to bed and right when he wakes up..
But the more he began to wonder when and where had fallen so deeply in love with him..
How long since it was that Taehyung had made a permanent spot in his mind, residing in t quitely..
That's when it occurred to him..
He reserved a part of his mind, just for Taehyung, the instance he met him...
Since then, Taehyung had never left..
He whishes he could just simply get up and scream to the world how Taehyung's eyes ground him, free him from his caged life..
Explain how his voice brings butterflies to his stomach..
How his smile makes him whole again, gives him hope to wake up for one more day, just to see that smile again..
He wishes he could just tell everyone how just simply being with Taehyung makes him feel special..
Taehyung was the person who taught him how to live..
How to love..
And how to look at someone and smile for no apparent reason..
He had lost his heart to Kim Taehyung even before he knew it, lost right from within his chest..
No, he didn't fall in love with him cus he was the firsts person that held his hand, everso willing to guide him through this dark world when he was a kid, to not make him feel abandoned or alone..
He fell in love with him cus, he knew that without Taehyung, that there would be no meaning to his life..
He wanted to make him a permanent part of his life..
He fell in love with Kim Taehyung, cus he /is/ his life..
He leans forward placing his lips on Taehyung’s own..
“Say it again?” he murmurs against Taehyung’s lips..
Taehyung cups his face and kisses him back.. “Hmm?”
“Say you love me..”
He watches the way Taehyung pauses for awhile before, those warm big eyes shimmer in delight..
His heart aches, with the sheer amount of love he holds for this man..
He has never loved anyone this much, nor will he ever do..
Taehyung stills for a second before he pulls a little back, staring right into Jungkook’s eyes.. He caresses Jungkook’s face silently for a few long seconds before, letting his lips stretch into the boxy smile Jungkook loves very much..
“I love you..”
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"I'm okay.." Jungkook whisprs, smiling barely at Jimin.. "I'm okay hyung.."
He moves his gaze towards his front, watching Taehyung talk excitedly to his date..