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Aug 16, 2022

kind of attraction, one that he felt for his unwanted husband. Taehyung was, there was no denying it really, very beautiful. And Jungkook as a photographer, was a connoisseur of beauty. He chased it, captured it for a living. How could he possibly pretend that he wasn't attracted

To the damned omega. He couldn't and there were nights when no matter how much he touched himself, thinking of the man in his heart, he ended up reaching his pleasure while thinking of the man in the room next door. On those nights he was riddled with guilt and self loathing.

Because no matter how much he wanted to blame Taehyung for this, he knew it wasn't the Omega's fault in any way or form. It was Jungkooks wretched body that refused to understand that he was off limits. The one omega in the world he would never bring himself to touch willingly.

Jungkook stared at the envelope in front of him, feeling, for lack of a better word, guilty and confused. He wasn't sure why he had behaved the way he had, with Hyunsik and later with Tae as well. The feeling of guilt returned when he remembered how Taehyung had looked,

When he had mentioned that not everyone was trustworthy. He had made the comment at face value, referring to Hyunsik, but when he thought of the hurt on Taehyung's face, he couldn't help but wonder if the omega had thought he was talking about someone else. Perhaps Tae himself.

Jungkook opened the envelope tugging the photo out. It was the close up shot of Taehyung's lips and fingers. He remembered how mad he had gotten at the sight of it, how he hadn't quite waited for an excuse or an explanation, stalking over and punching Hyunsik in the face .

The look of stunned surprise on everyone's faces, the hushed whispers and the wide eyes. The disbelief hanging heavy in the air at the sight of him nursing his own fist while Hyunsik lay on the floor, clutching his jaw in pain. He had never punched anyone in his life.

He remembered a very vivid argument with Yoongi once, when they were dating. There had been a party, and Yoongi had insisted they attend, although both of them weren't fond of social gatherings. Yoongi had to keep the connections he insisted and so they had gone.

Someone had hit on Yoongi and the omega had curled up against Jungkooks side, throwing vicious glares at the other alpha. Jungkook had told the guy to read the room and respect people's boundaries and had turned away. That had been that. Later that night, Yoongi had been angry.

"Why didn't you punch him? " He had demanded, pushing him by the shoulders and Jungkook had just stood there, at a loss for words. He could see that Yoongi was upset, but he couldn't for the life of him, understand why. Because the answer to that question was simple.

Jungkook hadn't punched him because he hadn't wanted to. At no point had his blood turned hot with anger, his breath turning into fire in his lungs, burning with the need to scorch the guy into ashes. His fists hadn't clenched in fury, and his feet hadn't moved against his will.

" You're not worth the trouble you come wrapped in, Kim Taehyung. " He muttered, running a forefinger over the curve of the jaw. He remembered how smooth Taehyung's skin had felt against his fingertips earlier. He was so thin, he thought, carrying him had been like carrying wool.

His head hurt. The clock on the mantle read seven thirty. Taehyung was in the other room, sound asleep. Jungkook had changed back into his shirt and trousers, and had come out to the balcony for some fresh air before leaving. He had seen the envelope in the trash.

A sharp pang of guilt had lanced his heart at that. Fuck, he hadn't meant for the omega to throw all the pictures away. They weren't bad. Of course he could do so much better, but they weren't bad. And he certainly didn't want to deliberately ruin something Taehyung wanted.

He carefully placed the photographs back in his briefcase . Because if he left them in the garbage bag someone else would find them and it would be awkward. Yes, that's why he was doing this. He sighed before stepping out of his bedroom, closing the door carefully without noise.

His feet paused in front of the door leading to Taehyung's room. He leaned in, listening for any sound but only the gentle hum of the air conditioner greeted him. The omega was deep asleep, likely exhaust and maybe even a little hungover. His eyes fell on the bottle of water, by

the table and he licked his lips, fingers trembling a bit. He felt jittery and nervous willing himself to keep walking but he couldn't. His mother, he told himself firmly. His mother would be upset if Taehyung came home with a hangover and then all the lying would got to waste.

He couldn't let that happen now, could he? Jungkook moved to grab the bottle of water, uncapping it slowly before grabbing the phone on the table. "Get me some hangover medicine. I'm at the Royal Suite. " He said briskly before hanging up. He moved to the door, pushing it open.

At first the bed looked empty, the omega curled into a ball in a corner under the thick coverlet and quilt . He felt his nostrils flare at the scent, the sweet comfort of it momentarily bowling him over in its intensity. He took a few deep calming breaths before reaching the bed.

When he pulled the coverlet back, just enough to reveal Taehyung's face, his body jolted in surprise. Taehyung lay on his side, hands drawn up to his face, fore and middle finger resting on his plush lower lip, mouth gently parted enough to show the white of his teeth.

The pose was so eerily reminiscent of that damned photograph that he couldn't help but stare, eyes taking in the soft downy brown hair, falling into his eyes. There was a scattering of moles, on his eyes the curve of his lips, over his brows . He hadn't seen those before.

They hadn't been there in the photograph. Another spark of irrational anger shot through him. Hyunsik had no bloody right to edit out those moles. He had no fucking right to- "Jungkook? " He startled, recoiling in shock as Taehyung's wide brown eyes blinked up at him.

The omega had woken up. How? And then his eyes fell on his hand, resting gently on the mole right by Taehyung's lips. He had been tracing the beauty spots with his fingers, without even realizing it. His touch had woken Taehyung up out of his sleep. He pulled his hand away.

( a/n : this tweet will be deleted. I'm stopping here today because there's a lot of drama heading your way and i need to make it more angsty

I'll be back tomorrow at the same time)

Taehyung felt a bit like he was underwater, blinking back the cobwebs of sleep as they clung to his vision, hands furling and unfurling under the sheets as he tried to get his bearings. There had been a vague sort of dream.

A monarch butterfly, large and majestic, fluttering around him as he stood in a lush, flowered meadow, the beautiful thing moving close to his face, resting every once in a while, first on his eyes, then on the curve of his lips and then over his brows.

The touch of the featherlight wings against his lips felt so real, his body responded to it. The soft gentle touch against the plush folds rousing him out of his sleep and when he blinked awake, the last thing he expected was to see Jungkook,

hovering over him , hands lingering over his face. He stared, confused, mouth dry and tasting awful from the alcohol the previous night. His limbs ached and there was a very heavy air of exhaustion on his muscles. He was so tired. What time was it?

“Jungkook?” He croaked out and the gentle finger against his face drew away. He turned his head slightly, looking askance at the alpha who was staring at him like he had seen a ghost. “ I… You… You were talking in your sleep.” Jungkook said quietly and Taehyung frowned.

Really? He had never done that before in his life. “I was?” He shook his head, groaning a little when the movement sent sharp shards of pain shooting up his skull. “what did I say?” Jungkook looked away , scratching the back of his head.

“I don’t know but it sounded like you were calling for me. I was on my way out, actually. I heard you and just wanted to make sure you were okay.” Great. Now he was bothering Jungkook even while asleep. Taehyung felt a chill run up his skin.

He groaned, rubbing his palm over his face and shifting away from the alpha’s side, a dull sense of guilt pervading his insides when he remembered the events of the previous night.

He had made things so difficult for Jungkook with his irresponsible actions, a pattern in their entire relationships. Would there ever be a day when Kim Taehyung did not cause pain in some form to the people he cared about?

He wanted to crawl back into the bed and never emerge back. “You don’t hold your liquor well, do you?” Jungkook asked slowly. “ I remember you got sick on the night of our engagement as well.” Taehyung froze.

There had been an unspoken rule between them, where they didn’t talk about the past or anything that happened then. He was sure of it, because he had stuck to it quite faithfully. Their engagement? That had been … quite a while ago and well, Taehyung didn’t remember much of it.

Except Jungkook was right. He had been forced to ‘ celebrate ‘ by drinking with a lot of people and had ended up sick for a few days. How did Jungkook know? He wasn’t sure he wanted to know. So he shrugged, passing over the remark about their engagement.

“I don’t enjoy alcohol and maybe that’s why I never built a tolerance for it. I like tea. Chamomile tea. When I was around twelve I spent a few months in Japan with my father’s family and they taught me about the art of brewing tea. ”

Taehyung stopped talking abruptly, mind finally sobering up enough to remind him who he was talking to. Jungkook who possibly wanted to leave as soon as possible. And here Taehyung was revealing secret details about himself to a man who loathed him completely.

Why did he say that, anyway? That was an intimate part of him, a detail not many people knew, except for the ones he loved dearly. Jungkook wasn't the kind of person he should be sharing parts of himself with.The alpha couldn't be trusted with those precious aspects of his being.

He looked away, hands fumbling for his phone. He had to call in sick today as well, he thought miserably. His work was always a welcome distraction. Anytime he didn't go in, which wasn't often, he felt empty and miserable. And today would be spent with his mother. Oh, God.

"I'm going to Jeju Do. For two weeks. " Jungkook said suddenly and he paused in the middle of grabbing his phone from under his pillow. "What? " He frowned, confused why Jungkook was telling him this. He had already told him he was going away. What did it matter where?

"In case your mother asks. " Jungkook said stilted, and Taehyung nodded, glum. Right. His mother. The only one he could call his family. His mother who was dying and so deserved happiness although she had done nothing to earn it. Because she was dying, Taehyung would lie for her.

He remembered how it had felt the previous day, watching Jungkook and Yoongi talking. There was an intimacy there even though they were just talking. An air of two people who knew and cared for each other. It wasn't something you could fake. Why was he trying to?

His mother had never truly.... Been there for him. He remembered how vindictive and happy she had looked when rumors had begun about Jungkook and Taehyung. He remembered how she had preened at the thought of landing a rich, handsome son in law. She hadn't cared about him.

But here he was lying on the cold sheets of some hotel room, head pounding and body aching, feeling apologetic just for existing. It didn't seem fair. "Let's just tell her the truth. " He said softly, before looking up at the alpha. " Let's tell her the truth about us. "

"I... What? " Jungkook was staring at jim like he had grown an extra head. Taehyung shook his head, tugging the covers up to his chin. He stared at the alpha, holding his gaze. "Her and everyone else. Let's just tell them the truth and end this godawful farce of a marriage. "

"No." Jungkook said shakily. " We're not doing that. " Taehyung scoffed, looking away. "Right... I don't know why I thought for even a second that you would care at all about what I feel or want. " He whispered, burying his face in his arms. "We have a deal, Taehyung."

"You agreed to this. Your mother is-" "You do realize she's the reason you're stuck with me. " He said sharply. " Don't you remember how she screamed at your parents to take responsibility, all those years ago? You should be glad she's dying. " He spat out, eyes burning.

"It's not just about you. " Jungkook yelled. " Great, you hate your mother. Good for you. Did you forget I have parents too? And unlike you, I care about them. I will not hurt them anymore than I already have. I'm not going to walk up to them and tell them I'm getting a divorce."

Taehyung exhaled. "You will have to eventually. " He pointes out. " Six months remember. This ends in six months. " Jungkook crossed his arms, staring at him. "And I will. Slowly. I won't dump it on them with no warning. I don't want them to know I was unhappy. They will

Blame themselves and I cannot allow that to happen. You're not the only one in this godawful farce of a marriage, Taehyung. But you are the fucking reason for it. Your mother isn't to blame. You are! " Taehyung screwed his eyes shut. Back on square one, he thought shakily.

After a few seconds of silence, Jungkook exhaled sharply. Taehyung stayed quiet, his eyes aching from the effort of keeping his tears at bay. "You're tired. You need to rest. Get ready.. Let's go home. " He said quietly. "You do not have monopoly on unhappiness, Jungkook."

"I was unhappy as well. So much so I don't even remember what happiness feels like. I wouldn't even be able to recognise it if I felt it someday. Happiness has become a myth in my heart, ever since I tied myself to you. And you're right. It's my own fucking fault. "

"You're right. We're both unhappy. We're both miserable. We both want out. But do you think we'll get it if we just step of this fucking hotel and tell them we were lying for years? You think they'll believe us. And your mother... Are you strong enough to break her heart? "

Taehyung stayed quiet, the words hitting hard. "She's your mother. And when you have a mother you care about them. Whether we want to or not. Whether they deserve it or not. Isn't that how is goes here in Korea, Taehyung? If we walk out of our marriage they will never forgive

You or me. Are you strong enough to live with it? Because I am not." He shook his head. " You want to tell her? Do it yourself. I want no part of it. " "You think I won't? " He screamed, loud and ringing. " I can do it. I'm so fucking done with this! With you! " "Then do it."

" Fine. I will. " "Good." Taehyung threw the covers off, climbing off the bed and moving to the en suite. He would do it. Why wouldn't he? There was absolutely nothing stopping him from telling his mother that he didn't love Jungkook. That he didn't care about him.

Because that was the truth. The version of Jungkook he was in love with, didn't exist when it came to him. He would never get to see the sweet, gentle alpha, who had a kind smile for everyone. Who would rescue puppies and raise them behind the school buildings, who would help

Janitors clean up after hours, who would skip lunch to tutor friends who were falling behind. Taehyung had fallen in love with someone kind and thoughtful but circumstances had tainted his relationship with Jungkook before it could even form. If the foundation was rotten,

there was no point spending years building upon it. Nothing good would come out of it. And it was time he realized that. It was time he understood that there was no future here. He had to end this. For his own sake as much as Jungkooks. Because it must be hard,

For Jungkook as well. hating someone was hard work wasn't it? Someone like Jungkook wouldn't have enjoyed it. The alpha had probably never hated anyone else .How odd that he felt apologetic even for that? When had he become this pathetic? And why had he done this to himself?

Perhaps it was the alcohol and the evening with Seokjin, he thought despondently, dressing himself up quickly. When he stepped out of the shower his room was empty, and there was a fresh pair of clothes on his bed and a strip of tablets he recognized as the one people used for

a hangover. Disoriented , he dry swallowed one of the pills before moving to the mirror. He felt a bit like he was stuck in limbo, his mind and heart warring terribly. His mother was dying.

He would have to be a very cruel man to break her heart in the last days of her life here on earth. But he couldn’t trust himself to live through this charade for another six months. This would be better, right? She was a grown woman.

Why must he bear her share of emotional distress just to protect her when she had done nothing of the sort for him? Taehyung slipped into his clothes and stepped out when he felt he looked presentable enough. Jungkook was sitting on the couch,

elbows resting on his knees and head buried in his hands, fingers lightly gripping his hair. He looked up at the sound of him closing the door and Taehyung bit his lips when the alpha stood up, eyes more neutral and less antagonistic than before.

“I think,” Jungkook said carefully, these aren’t decisions we should make when we’re high on emotions. I provoked you, and I feel like I shouldn’t have. We decided on waiting for a reason Taehyung. I promise you that at the end of six months, we can walk away from each other.

Impulsive decisions only end in misery for everyone. Let’s think this through. Please.” Taehyung bit his lips. “What is there to think?” He said tiredly, “ My mother should know the truth at least before she leaves this world.

And as for your parents, you can tell them I left you. That I cheated on you. Or whatever else you want to say about me. I won’t refute it.” Jungkook exhaled, before moving closer. Taehyung flinched when the alpha reached for his arm and

Jungkook paused, before pulling back from him again. “Why do you think I would say such things to two people who love and care for you very much?” He asked quietly. “ That’s not the kind of person I am. But well, if you really want to do it, I suppose I can’t really stop you.”

“No, you can’t.” “Then let’s go.” Jungkook moved to the side, holding an arm out , gesturing him to leave,” After you.” The moment Taehyung walked past him, Jungkook reached out and gently gripped his elbow. "Tell her you fell out of love. It would be more believable."

Taehyung laughed shakily, " Believable? In what world, Jungkook? And just so you know, she told me she thinks you're halfway to falling out of love with me. She told me I should try harder because your face gives away your feelings. You think people assume we're in love,

but the ones who truly know us, can see right through the charade. I have always looked at you the way I do now. You don't have to act like you don't know about my feelings for you. " He tugged on his arm, but Jungkooks grip tightened. "The way you look at me has changed."

Taehyung stiffened, pulse kicking inside his chest, his heart squeezing tight as it trembled inside his ribs. It Was funny how his ribs were meant to protect his heart, but they were useless in front of Jeon Jungkooks razor sharp tongue. Everyday he felt more blows befall it.

"How do you know, Jungkook? Have you finally started looking at me? " He smiled bitterly. "If it bothers you that I don't look at you the way I used to, just stop looking at me. " He tugged his hand away. " It shouldn't be hard going back to ignoring me. You're good at that. "

Jungkook swore, hand moving up from his elbow to the flesh of his upper arm, tugging hima round when he tried to leave. "Why must you twist everything I say, Taehyung? " "I'm not the one doing the twisting here. It's you. You're twisting a dagger into my fucking heart! "

"Okay." Jungkook said quietly, dropping his hand away and stepping back. " Okay, Taehyung. Do whatever you want. I'm done. " He shook his head. " You're not my responsibility anyway. You can do whatever you want." He turned away.

Taehyung stood outside the door to their apartment, taking deep breaths. Jungkook stood just a few feet behind him, completely silent. They hadn't exchanged a single word on the drive over and Taehyung felt like he was on the edge of a precipice, with no idea how deep the chasm

was. But he had never been more ready to jump. He was going to do it. He was going to tell the truth. This was it. Enough was enough. He had suffered enough. There was no penance when the sin was unforgivable. He had to do this. He rang the door bell, holding his breath.

The sound of footsteps on the other side made him breath in deep and Taehyung took a deep breath. He closed his eyes shut for a second only opening them when the door swung open. "Mother." Taehyung froze. Because that wasn't him. It was Jungkook. "Tae." Mrs Jeon smiled.

Authors note : I'm sorry.

When Taehyung first met Jungkooks parents he had a very strong feeling of cognitive dissonance inside his head. All of his beliefs and past experiences when it came to how parents are, clashed very solidly with what he was seeing first hand. He couldn't come to terms with it.

The Jeons were for lack of a better word, ridiculously kind.They seemed to be caricatures of perfect parenting and he felt like he was floating in a pool of disbelief, watching them with Jungkook. They listened to the alpha, actually listened with the intent of understanding him.

He found it fascinating. Did parents like this exist? What was the catch here? There had to be a catch, right? They didn't hate him. That was a surprise in and of itself. Taehyungs mother hadn't been polite let alone kind, talking to them. But they still smiled at him.

Jungkooks dad shook his hand and patted his back. Jungkooks mother pulled him into a warm hug. They accepted him without a single ounce of hesitation, staying quiet and agreeing to everything his mother said. But they had looked at their son with a lot of sadness.

Taehyung supposed they had always hoped it would be Yoongi who would marry Jungkook. Yoongi who would make their apn happy. Perhaps in Taehyung's eyes they saw a lifetime of misery for their only son. That would make any parent sad, wouldn't it? But he was grateful.

His mother in law and father in law had never made him feel unwanted. They had always been there, open and friendly and accepting without expectations. It was something he wasn't used to: receiving affection without having to pay for it in some way. All love was conditional.

Taehyung himself hadn't had a very nice relationship with his mother. But it was only separation from her that had made him realise it. Out of the circle of her influence, he found a peace that hadn't been in his life before. A sort of weight lifting off his shoulders.

It was funny but Jungkooks disdain for him was a lot easier to bear, than the constant anxiety and worry that he had felt, growing up with his parents. There were times when only the reminder of what he had left, had kept him tethered to the marriage and to the alpha.

The feeling of being indebted to her in some way, simply because she had raised him, the feeling of owing her happiness, of being the cause of her unhappiness, it had all been so suffocating. And it was hard, because she had made it seem so normal, this environment where he felt

Like any small thing he wanted for himself, anything he desired for himself, could only be pursued if it fell in line with what she wanted for him. His desires couldn't exist if they didn't align with hers.

And it was a very twisted thing indeed, because a relationship with Jungkook had been the one thing that they had both agreed upon as something Taehyung could possibly want and pursue. For the first time, his mother had approved of something he had wanted. And it was Jungkook.

But it was clear that Jungkook hadn't grown up in a home like that. The relationship between Jungkook and his parents was one of understanding and respect, with healthy boundaries and open lines of communication. Jungkooks parents didn't make snide remarks or talk in riddles.

Taehyung, over the years had formed an attachment to them, not because he wanted to, but because they made it impossible not to. When he saw the look of warm welcome on Mrs Jeons face, he felt his heart take a steep dive. Because there on the fine wrinkles of her smile,

He found all the reasons why Jungkook didn't want his parents to find out this way. The soft kindness in her gaze and the cool soothing affection in her tone was enough to douse that fire inside him, the one that had fueled this need to end things with Jungkook right away.

"Are you alright? You look like you've lost weight, baby... " Mrs Jeon reached out to him, hands gently curling around his own, squeezing a little. The worry in her voice made his tongue run dry and he could only bow, his voice refusing to come out. His thoughts were a mess.

She stepped back in, taking him with her, but not before peering over her shoulders at her son. Jungkook stepped closer and Taehyung flinched when the alphas arm came around his waist lightly, almost naturally. "We didn't know you were visiting mom. Sorry we were out last night"

Mrs Jeon smiled a little at that , watching as they took off their shoes. "Taehyungs mother called us. She asked us over for lunch and mentioned that you were leaving on a work trip. For two whole weeks. " She hesitated, " Are you taking Tae along? You better, Jungkook. "

Taehyung felt the blood turn into icicles inside his chest. Blood draining from his face, he quickly shook his head, pulling away from Jungkook and stepping further into the hallway. "Oh no. I can't... My work... It makes it difficult.. For me to... Take a lot of holidays. "

"Nonsense." His mother's voice came from the hallway, and he closed his eyes in frustration. " Mrs. Jeon, you must explain to this child that some things are more important than his job. Like spending time with your alpha. Isn't that so, Jungkook ah? You want him there right? "

Mrs Jeon didn't say anything merely reaching out and gently brushing the hair off his face. "Taehyung isn't a child, Mrs Kim. " She said softly, fingers threading through his hair and putting the strands in place. It was a careful motherly gesture, one that made a

lump form in his throat, " Taehyung is a young man. A beautiful, successful young man with a career doing something he loves. And if he says that he can't afford it, we should respect his wishes. " She pulled away to cup his face, " how have you been, sweetheart? "

Taehyung on the verge of tears, could only nod, biting his lips so he wouldn't cry. The ache in his heart intensified. Her sweet words and gentle kindness were things that he ached and longed for all his life. And he only got them because he was married to Jungkook.

He imagined telling her he wanted to leave her son. That he wanted to end the marriage that had brought all of them together. Imagined the hurt that would flash through her eyes, the way she would be so confused, wondering if it was her fault in some way. How could he do that?

Her fingers against his cheekbones felt warm and so soft. He covered her small hand with his own, dredging up every single ounce of his energy to force his lips into a smile. "I'm well, mother. " He whispered, voice low and almost breaking apart. " Have you been well? "

She laughed lightly, shaking her head before linking her arms with his. She turned to Jungkook and smiled. " Your father is in the roof deck outside. He said he wanted to talk to you about something. Go find him. I'll catch up with Taehyung. " Jungkook hesitated before

stepping closer to her and wrapping his arms around her. "Oh! " She looked startled, but hugged him back nonetheless. " This is new. " She laughed. " You've changed him a lot Tae.. He would never hug me before. " Jungkook pulled back to look at him, his eyes sad but resigned.

"Do what you need to do, Tae. " He said quietly, before looking at his feet. " I'm sure every thing will be just fine. " The alphas words made him feel even worse. How could he possibly do what he needed to do? Especially like this? He looked away, head aching.

Jungkook gave him one last look before nodding and walking away to the wide bay windows that opened out into the deck on the roof. Mrs Jeon tugged him closer. "Your mother is making prawns and pork belly and I need help preparing the strawberries for dessert. Will you help? "

Jungkook found his father seated on one of the lounge chairs a small glass of Bourbon in his hand. The older aloha sat up straighter when he saw him, a smile forming on his face. "There's my boy. Come give your old man a hug. " He stood up, his arms wide open.

Jungkook smiled, but it was more mechanical than anything else. His mind was only on Taehyung Would the omega tell his mother that they wanted a divorce? What would he do then? How could he possibly explain things without hurting them? "You alright, son? "

Jungkook dragged himself to the present, playing with the ring around his finger, nervous. "Yeah, dad.. Something you wanted to talk about? " He managed a weak smile. His father watched him carefully. "How are you doing, Jungkook ah? You and Taehyung? Are things okay? "

Jungkook went still . Of all the things be was expecting, this wasn't it. He licked his lips, before running a hand through his hair, scratching the back if his head. "Uh... Yeah, dad why? " His father sighed. "Jungkook ah... You know I don't like talking about these things,

But your mother, " He shook his head, " She worries a lot. And you know. How she gets when she worries. " He sighed, " She talks about it all the time at home but when I tell her we can talk to you and Taehyung she immediately refuses. She thinks you will hate us for it. "

Jungkook held his breath, he had an idea what was coming and he felt like he was going to throw up because of it. "Dad please-" "Jungkook ah have you guys thought about building family? " He said quietly. the silence that followed was so loud that Jungkooks ears rang.

"Dad - " He began shakily and Mr Jeon stepped closer, gently gripping his shoulders. " It's just a question. You can say yes or no. You don't have to give me a reason for either of those. I never wanted to ask you this. It's your choice of course.. You and him.. we have no say."

" But it's just that... It's been a while hasn't it. And I know you must still be mourning what happened before... it's a loss that you can't easily forget. But I also remember you were... Ready to be a father back then. You told me.. You would protect the pup.. "

A pup that was never there, Jungkook thought bitterly. He swallowed the words that threatened to bubble up. The urge to come clean and tell them what had happened. But he couldn't. He couldn't just tell them that, not when they believed the best about Taehyung.

"And you know... We're old too. Your mother she was telling me that perhaps you've been trying but ut isn't working out. I just wanted to tell you, if there's any support you need from us, we're here for you. I know you want pups son. I also know Taehyung does too.. So if you-"

"Dad, we're not okay. " Jungkook said shortly, his voice soft but firm. " We're not... Things aren't good between us. " Mr Jeon went completely still. "What? " He frowned. " Between you and Taehyung? What do you mean by not good?" Jungkook took a deep breath.

"We're considering getting a divorce. "

(Authors note : I need to take care of the baby again

I'll be back in a few hours)

Please quote with your thoughts.. I feel like I was exceptionally evil with this...and there's more coming your way....

Jungkook’s father didn’t respond right away. In fact, he didn’t react at all, gaze steady and his expression even. Jungkook felt like he had stepped right off the edge of a cliff, the ground dissolving into ashes under his feet,

his heart squeezing tight because he didn’t want to do this. He never wanted to do this. But this was what Taehyung wanted. And Jungkook didn’t want them to hear it from Taehyung. If someone was going to break his parents’ heart, it had better be him.

He took another deep breath before finally turning to look at the man he had modeled his life after, the man he held in the highest of esteem , the one he had always relied on.

Jungkook’s father was the one who had taught him how to walk, how to ride his bike, how to value people, to treat them with kindness even when they didn’t deserve it.

And Jungkook knew, deep down, that there was nothing his father detested more, than people who ran away from their problems. He wondered if perhaps, this one statement of his, would make his father question decades of parenting.

Was he wondering right now, where he had gone wrong? Was he perhaps trying to understand, why the boy he had raised with such meticulous care and concern and so much love, would choose to break his heart so? He bit his lips, and exhaled.

“Aren’t you going to say anything, dad?” He asked, voice shaking so much he could barely recognize it himself. “I’m waiting for you to continue.” His father said evenly. “ I know you, Jungkook-ah." he said gently, " I know how I raised you, and i know how much you believe in

giving people second chances. You forgive and pretend things are okay, even when they're not. So , If you're bringing up something as…. serious as a divorce, then there must be something very distressing going on. What happened? Did …. Did one of you stray in some way?”

Jungkook hesitated, because for one second that seemed like a perfect out. Except he couldn’t do that to himself or to Taehyung. It just felt wrong. There really was no way to sugar coat this , he thought miserably.

He would have to fabricate a few untruths but he would have to make sure to base them on a foundation of truth. That way the whole structure wouldn’t come crashing down on them.

He didn't want to spin elaborate tales and make things worse. It would be like ripping a bandaid off. Fast but effective in the long term. And there was only one, irrefutable truth. “We’re not…. In love with each other.” He stopped, before swallowing, “ anymore.”

His father showed the first sign of emotion them, his lips curving into a small frown, eyes going just a bit dimmer. He looked troubled, deeply so and Jungkook flinched when the older man reached out, gently cupping his shoulder.

“Let’s sit down first.” He said quietly, leading him to the chair nearby and waiting for him to sit before pulling another one close. He reached out and touched both of his knees, “ How long have you felt this way, son?” Jungkook’s couldn’t breathe.

“i… I don’t know.”He said helplessly, every single fiber of his body rebelling against the thought of lying to his parents. He had shielded them from a lot of painful truths, because he knew they wouldn’t be able to bear it the way he did,

but he had never, in his life deceived them so deliberately. He felt sick to his stomach, his skin ice cold and head pounding. There was an ache somewhere in his chest, like an iron fist that got tighter and tighter, squeezing the breath out of his lungs.

His father seemed to understand his distress, gently squeezing his knees, before reaching out and cupping his face, " Hey, baby, look at me. Its okay. Youll be okay." He rubbed a thumb under his eyelid and it came away damp. He hadn't even realized he had been crying.

“Dad..” He choked out. “ Please don’t hate me.” “No… No baby, I could never . Why would you say that Jungkook ah… there is nothing you could say or do that would stop me from loving you with every fiber of my being.

You’re my son, my biggest treasure . The only thing in my wretched life I am proud of…. Why would you think for a second I would hate you?” His father moved to kneel in front of him, both hands cupping his face, before stroking his hair. " I love you and I love Taehyung."

Jungkook felt like he had been squeezed dry of every ounce of happiness. He took a deep breath. A hundred emotions ran through his head, a hundred different thoughts, he couldn’t keep up with or decipher. So many lies, so many deceptions. Why had he let it get this far?

He struggled to contain his emotions, before finally looking up at the older alpha. “When Taehyung leaves me, can I come stay with you guys for a while?” He whispered, voicing the first thought that struck him, " Just for a while.?" His father’s face softened.

“Taehyung isn’t going anywhere. And neither are you. This is your home. Yours and his… You live here, Jungkook-“ But the alpha was shaking his head, leaning forward and wrapping both his arms around his father’s neck, burying his damp face into his shirt.

“No. No.. You are. You’re home. You and mom … That’s where home is and I just… It just hurts so fucking bad sometimes I can’t breathe , appa.” He choked out. Mr. Jeon held him close, hands gently stroking his back as Jungkook cried.

As a parent, every single instinct in him screamed to make it stop. To stop his son from hurting, but he realized that he couldn’t. He had no idea how to. Helpless , all he could do was hold him .

He whispered assurances, that it would be alright. That he would always have him. That he would do everything to help him, over and over ,all while his heart cracked right down the middle. His son's tears had always felt like acid on his skin, right from the time he was a baby.

The sound of Jungkook’s misery was so loud and jarring inside him, the stench of despair and sadness so cloyingly unbearable , he couldn’t stomach it. He realized right then, how much he loved the boy in his arms. Because the sight of an unhappy Jungkook was enough to break him.

How long, he wondered. How long had his precious son been in such pain? How had he never noticed? As Jungkook cried, all his father could do was keep watch. And hope that he could fix it for him. Because that was his job. And he would do it faithfully, for as long as he had to.

Taehyung sat across from his mother in law, the short width of the kitchen counter between them. Mrs Jeon , despite having a lot of helpers at her place was a phenomenal cook, fond of taking complete control of the kitchen, involving herself in every small thing.

His own mother was out of earshot, having gone to take a quick nap while they fixed dessert. Taehyung was grateful for the respite in a way. He watched as the older woman carefully washed and peeled and sliced the berries with careful precision, her perfectly coiffed hair

early earrings looking a little out of place in their apartment. Despite being from a wealthy family, Jungkook had insisted on only using his own money when it came to their apartment.

The place was a modest affair by any standards, and Mrs. Jeon looked expensive and regal in here. “Your mother ….is unwell.” She said carefully and Taehyung went still, pausing in the process of slicing a berry.

He wasn’t sure how much his mother had shared, wasn’t sure if it was alright to tell them the entire truth. He supposed as Jungkook’s mother she deserved the right to that information, but his own mother was unbreakable with such things. He didn’t want to upset her in anyway.

But she reached out and lightly touched his hand, her gaze soft and tender, “ You have to know you’re not alone Taehyung. No matter what happens you’ll always have us.” Ah, so she had told her the truth then. Perhaps so she could have that small edge of power over them.

He nodded and went back to slicing the fruit, not sure what else to say. There was a short, terse silence and then Mrs. Jeon cleared her throat again. “Are things alright, with you and Jungkook?” She asked casually. Taehyung’s pulse picked up.

This was it. The most perfect opening. Here was the chance to tell her the truth. He could do it. He could casually look her in the eye and say , no, we’re not doing well. It was what he wanted. It was the best way to end the agony they were causing each other.

Taehyung took a deep breath, ready to spill it all, "You know we were so relieved when he agreed to marry you, because if not, he would have married Min Yoongi instead, and God, he would have made himself so miserable with him. You saved my son from that, Taehyung".

The words, fully formed and on the tip of his tongue, ready to spill out, died a quick death. He felt a little like he had been doused with ice cold water, and then with gasoline and then set on fire. His skin burned hot but felt icy cold. What did she just say? Had he misheard?

" You were also with him, weren't you? All of you, you were in college together. I don't know if you liked him, Min Yoongi. If you did, I apologize. But I have been thinking it for so long, and I couldn't ever say it out loud to anyone. " She shook her head."That boy.. Bad news."

"And I know the circumstances weren't... Ideal. You went through so much, that night and the days after, but you must forgive me for being happy that you came into my son's life. Please, consider it the madness of a woman who loves her son very much." She sighed.

Taehyung wasn't quite sure what to think, his thoughts in shambles, head starting to ache a little. "But you knew your son didn't love me. " He said shakily. " You knew that. " She bowed her head. "I was certain that he would. Eventually. Once he spent more time with you.. "

She looked up then, eyes a little cloudy. "And you, Tae? " She asked quietly. " I'm old and foolish at times. At times, I think I see you look at him with love, but I don't know if that's just wishful thinking on my part.A trick of the light. But I know you won't ever lie to me"

"So, Tae, please tell me this. Do you love my son? "

He felt the words pierce through his heart, sharp and throbbing. He couldn't quite breathe, because the truth was he didn't know. Young, naive Taehyung had loved Jungkook. Yes. But the Taehyung of today, wasn't sure if he was even capable of loving someone. He didn't know how to.

He had been so numb and miserable for so long, he didn't feel anything except a nagging urge to apologize, over and over again, to everyone around. Sometimes he felt apologetic for his very existence. Did someone like that deserve to love? Was his love even worth anything?

His love for Jungkook had never amounted to anything. It was worthless. Invalid. He only carried it in his heart because he was scared of the hollow emptiness it would leave behind, if he tried to get rid of it. A pained heart felt better than one that had nothing in it.

He stared at her for a few seconds, the openness of her gaze making him ache in many ways. She wanted him to say yes, he thought vacantly. But he knew that would only make things difficult. "I think you can love someone deeply, " He said carefully,"and still want them gone."

She didn't respond for a few seconds, her gaze still steady on his own. "Do you mean yourself, or my son? " She said finally. He sighed, shaking his head. "Mother, " He said quietly, reaching out and touching her gently, " I can't tell you what you want to hear right now..

But I can tell you this. Your son is easy to love, and so he will always be loved. By many people, in many ways. My love, " He bit his lips, " He won't even miss it. "

“So, I was right.” She said tiredly. “ you’re not happy. Neither of you. Taehyung, tell me how can I help? How do we fix this?” Taehyung blinked. Fix it? Fix what? You couldn’t fix something that wasn’t even there in the first place. “Mother I-“

“And please, don’t tell me we can’t. Because love doesn’t just disappear. If you leave, you will hurt just as bad, if not more than how you hurt now. Just tell me what’s bothering you.

Why are things bad… is it… does it have something to do with what happened before?” she looked hesitant. “ I never talked to you about it…Because Jungkook was just so… He was so quiet about it. He wouldn’t say anything… And I didn’t understand…”

“He didn’t say anything?” Taehyung went still, processing the words. “No… We tried to get him to talk to us, but he never said a word. We assumed it was his fault … that he made a mistake…

and we were just grateful you weren’t pressing charges and –“ she sighed shaking her head, “ we did what we thought was right. We told him that actions have consequences and if there was going to be a baby, he would have to do the right thing . And step up and be the father….”

“Wait…” Taehyung felt his head spin a little, “ He didn’t tell you that he wasn’t the father?” he blurted out, his words spilling out before he could quite think them through. As soon as they were out there, the effect was almost instantaneous.

Mrs. Jeon went completely still, before pulling her hands away from his. Her face drained of color, eyes wide and lips parted in shock. “I…what?” She whispered, staring at him in disbelief. Taehyung felt the implication of his words hit him like a truck. “I… I’m… Mrs. Jeon…”

“What do you mean by that?” She asked shakily. “ What do you mean he wasn’t the father?” Taehyung felt sick, bile rising to his mouth and he pushed the chair back, ready to bolt but she reached out, grabbing both his wrists.

“No! Taehyung! Wait! Don’t run! Please! Just.. I’m sorry! I didn’t mean to spook you! Listen to me… its alright… It’s okay just talk to me! Taehyung !” “No!No… No wonder you were so nice to me You don’t know… he never told you… I… I need to go…” He made to move again.

“No.” Mrs. Jeon’s grip on his wrist tightened. “ I am not being nice to you , Taehyung. I’m treating you with love and respect , because I love you and care for you.

There’s a difference between those two things. Being nice to someone is an act of kindness, something you show strangers and friends…. But treating someone with respect and affection…its an act of love.

Its reserved for people you let into your life and into your heart. People who matter to you. And you matter to me.. so please…

Please just listen to me. I trust you and And I love you. Nothing you say will change that… but you have to tell me the truth. What did you mean by that? If Jungkook wasn’t the father….? Then who was….?”

Taehyung stared at her and took a deep breath. He was tired. So tired of keeping it all in and he couldn’t keep up with the lies and the pretense anymore. “No one.” He said softly. “ there was no baby.” Mrs. Jeon seemed to be stunned.

“Taehyung…” she said shakily. “ You… Tell me you’re joking.” He stared down at his hands. “I thought there was.” He said shakily. “ There was a test… I took a test and it came back positive…..and I was so sick after that night… Everything just seemed to point that way …”

“Did you not go to a doctor?”She shook her head. “I did… they said it was too early to say… It had only been three weeks, so they wanted me to wait another couple of weeks but … my mother…” he trailed off

“But your mother wouldn’t listen.” She said shakily. “ She saw the test and she heard about you spending that night with my son and came knocking on our door right at once?” Taehyung stayed quiet. “When did you find out that you weren’t pregnant?” She asked shakily.

“Three days before the wedding.” There was a ringing silence then. “Did you tell Jungkook?” Taehyung felt his lips wobble. “No, I did not.” She pulled away again, and Taehyung watched as she buried her head in her hands. "If you had told him, we would have fixed it, Tae."

"I wanted to... " He said shakily. " I don't... I don't know why I didn't. " He shook his head. " Guess I was just scared that people would hate me. That they would accuse me of lying about the pregnancy and trapping him... so I just didn't tell him and the n three weeks later.."

"You told him you had a miscarriage. " Mrs Jeon groaned. " How did you think that was something you could lie about Taehyung? " She demanded harshly. " Because you call me mother, I'm going to be exactly that and tell you that was a horrible, horrible thing to do to Jungkook."

"And not just him. To yourself as well! You were young. Both of you... Way too young to deceive people with something of such gravity . " She gave him a look of utter disappointment. " I can't imagine Jungkook took that well. " "He insisted on us going to the doctor and well,

I couldn't pretend anymore. I had to come clean. " Taehyung closed his eyes, the memory of Jungkooks anger , the betrayed look on his face, so fresh in his memory. " He never forgave me for it. " " But why didn't he tell us the truth? He told us you did lose the baby."

"I don't know." Taehyung whispered. " I didn't question anything he did after that. I didn't think I had the right to. I just listened to whatever he said. " He swallowed. " And that's how I've been living the past three years." "Are you being fully honest with me? "

Taehyung looked up at her, holding her gaze before nodding slowly. “Yes , I am. I don’t remember what happened that night. I don’t know why the pregnancy test came back positive but I do know that if I could go back in time, I would tell Jungkook the truth.

I would tell him the truth and set him free, even if he hated me for the rest of my life.” Mrs. Jeon watched him for a second and then leaned in closer.

“Taehyung, I’m going to ask you one question. Just one. I want you to look deep into your heart and answer me , honestly. Between you and Jungkook, is there something left that is worth salvaging?” Taehyung licked his lips, confused. “I… what do you mean by that?”

“I’m asking you if you feel anything for him, other than a sense of guilt and debt.” She said softly. “ Are there any tender feelings left? If Jungkook forgave you for what happened, would that be enough for you to move on,

or is there a part of you that wants something more with him?” Taehyung felt his pulse quicken a bit at that. Without any warning, he had sudden , vivid vision of the dream he had dreamt that morning. Jungkook holding him close, looking at him with so much tenderness.

Talking about having more children with him. He remembered, jarringly, how soft the alpha’s hair had felt under his fingers, how real it had all seemed, despite it being nothing more than a dream.

He couldn’t stop himself from breathing out , his exhale shaky and unstable and his eyes welling with tears before he could stop himself. “Ah,” Mrs. Jeon said softly, leaning back and giving him a gentle smile. “ Your eyes tell me everything that your heart tries to deny.”

“It doesn’t matter how I feel.” Taehyung said quickly, swiping at the tears that brimmed over. “Jungkook deserves better than what happened to him and no matter how I feel, I have to let him go.” “You have to let him go? You think that is the right thing to do?” She asked gently.

“Yes. It’s the only way he can move on.” “Very well,” She said briskly. Then in all this, what you want the most is for Jungkook to move on?” “Yes.” “And you want him to move on but you think your feelings won’t affect his moving on?”

Taehyung stared at her in confusion. He shook his head. “See that is where I think you’re wrong. Your feelings not only matter, but they are the most important things to consider, if we want Jungkook to move on. You know why Taehyung? I know my son.

And he cannot live holding bad feeling towards a person. The only way he would ever move on is if he forgave you. And well, Jungkook cannot forgive you until he understands why you did what you did. And he won’t understand that till he gets to know you.

And you can never fully know a person, until you know what they feel. So, if you want my son to move on, you have to show him your real self. You have to tell him the truth. You have to tell him how you feel.”

She smiled softly, " So, Tell me Kim Taehyung, do you love my son enough to show him who you truly are? Because if you do, I'll help you. If you would rather cut your losses and end this here, well, I'll help you with that as well. It's up to you."

Taehyung didn’t respond for a few seconds. “Can I ask you for a favor?” He said shakily and she blinked before nodding quickly. “Anything, sweetheart.” “Don’t tell him what I said. About him knowing about the baby and the other stuff.

I don’t know why he didn’t tell you the truth but I know that he must have had a reason for it. Just, please don’t hold that against him. He really loves you guys the most. You’re everything to him.” Mrs. Jeon smiled. “Very well. I won’t tell him.”

They sat in silence, a quiet agreement between them. Taehyung stared at the table front till a cherry red fruit came into his line of vison. He blinked, because Mrs. Jeon was holding out a sliced strawberry near his lips.

“These are your favorite right?” She said gently. “ Go on, have some. They taste delicious.” He opened his mouth, letting her feed him the juicy fruit. As he chewed, savoring the flavors exploding on his tongue, she smiled.

He hesitated before smiling back, a small one but a smile nonetheless. “You really are the most beautiful person I’ve ever seen. Even more so when you smile. But I realize you haven’t been doing much of that , have you?”

She sliced another fruit before reaching for a small pot of honey. Taehyung watched her drizzle a bit of it on the berry before holding it out to him again, “ Well, I’m going to make sure you have many more reasons to smile from now on, Taehyung ah. Now eat up.”

Author's Note : We have officially hit 10k words for this chapter

another eight k? Max... And I'll wrap this up. Updates tomorrow

a lot of drama and fun coming up in the next chapter.... As these two slowly let down their guards and start getting to know each other.

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The drive home was silent and charged , the air heavy with unsaid words as Mr and Mrs Jeon sat quietly, the chauffeur having brought the partition up to give them privacy. Unaccustomed to keeping secrets, the couple looked distinctly uncomfortable, their bodies tense.

It was quite clear that they were both waiting for the other to start, unsure and worried, their love for their son making it very difficult to put feelings into words. "So," Mr. Jeon said finally, reaching out and lightly touching her knee. " Did taehyung talk to you?"

Mrs Jeon took a deep breath.She had never kept secrets from her husband when it involved their son. And she certainly wasn't about to start now. She carefully told him the things that Tae had shared, looking for any signs of shock, but none came. Her husband looked troubled but

he wasn't surprised. "I take it Jungkook told you as well. " She said thoughtfully. "Yes he did. Well, first he cried for a long time, but then eventually he told me about what happened back then. " "He cried? " Her heart ached" A lot? My baby. " Tears welled over.

"Its a good thing. " Mr Jeon said firmly. " He must've kept it all to himself, all these years. Both of them. It's good that they've opened up to us. Acknowledging hurt is the first step to healing from it, after all. Now that they agree something has to change.. We can help."

"How? " She sighed deeply. " Both of them want to sweep it under the rug. Neither of them is nowhere near ready to open up. I told Tae he needs to be honest with Jungkook but that's of no use if Jungkook doesn't trust him in the first place. " She shook her head. " What now? "

"I think.. something happened that night, Aera. " He said softly. " Jungkook can hold his liquor well and he insists that he was alone in that bed that night. How did Taehyung end up there with him? " He shook his head. " And why would a pregnancy test come out positive? "

"Do you think someone else was involved? " "That's the thing. " Mr Jeon sighed, shaking his head. " There's no way to know, now. The kids at that party are scattered all over the country, living their own lives. Most of them were drunk that night. How can we possibly find out?"

They stayed quiet, each lost in their own thoughts. And Mr Jeon turned to her after a few minutes, a small frown marring his features. "Was Yoongi there? That night? " " Yoongi ? I'm not sure. But if he was there Jungkook would have driven him back home and returned himself."

"Yes. Exactly . It was very rare for Jungkook and Yoongi to be apart back then. What's more? Remember what Mrs Kim kept insisting that night she came to see us the first time? She kept screaming about how Taehyung was a good boy who stayed away from parties. So why was he there?"

"I can ask him. " She said quickly. "Yes you should. But more importantly, I need to talk to Jungkook. " He said quietly. "Oh what are you going to tell him? " "I told him that he can't find peace unless he knows why Taehyung made the choices that he did, but, "

He nodded thoughtfully, " Now I think we need to find out why Taehyung was put in a position like that in the first place. Remember what our doctor said when we found out we were having Jungkookie... He said false negatives are common. False positives? Those are way too rare. "

"Some of Jungkooks friends from college still work with him don't they? Jaehyun and Yugyeom? There was another guy too. Minjae? Mingyu? " "Jungkook mentioned that he had a two week work trip to Jeju do. He missed hia flight today and asked me to book him one for tomorrow. "

"Just him? " Mrs. Jeon frowned, " Darling..." "I did suggest it..." Mr Jeon shrugged. " He turned me down. He said he couldn't do that because it would upset Taehyung. " "So that's the only issue? What if Taehyung wants to come along. " She grinned. "What are you upto? "

"Nothing darling. You can do all the brainwork... Do your sleuthing with your son. Leave the matters of the heart to me. They need to spend more time together. Talk and get to know each other. I'm going to make sure that they do. " She grabbed her phone and began texting.

Taehyung stared down at the phone, trying to make sense of what he was reading. It made zero sense. "So... " Jungkook was over by the closet, changing out of his clothes. Taehyung sat on the pull out bed that doubled as a couch , still staring at the text. "DId you tell her? "

"What? " Taehyung blinked, confused and Jungkook turned around , shirtless. "Your mother. Did you tell her? That you wanted to end things... Between us. " Taehyung took a deep breath. "No, I didn't tell anything to anyone. " He said quietly before looking away.

Jungkook seemed to watch him for a few minutes, a thoughtful look on his face. "I told my dad we were considering a divorce. " He said quietly and Taehyung felt his pulse quicken a little. "Did you tell him why? " Jungkooks face was neutral. "No, I didn't. "

"Right.. What did he say? " Taehyung watched as the alpha carefully climbed into his bed, slipping under the covers. He leaned back against the couch himself. "He said we shouldn't make hasty decisions. " Jungkooks voice came over. " To think things through. "

Taehyung took a deep breath. "I'm sorry. " He said finally. " I... I got overwhelmed today and I... I may have been unreasonable in many ways. I don't know why I did that. " He bit his lips. Jungkook didn't respond. "You missed your work trip too. "He said quietly.

"It's alright. " Jungkook said finally. " I'll leave tomorrow." "Right." Tae gripped his phone, the message in his inbox feeling like it was burning through his skin. Two weeks is a long time to be apart, Mrs Jeon had texted. What was he supposed to do? Ask Jungkook to stay?

"Will Yoongi be there? " He blurted out before he could stop himself. The minute the words left his mouth he wanted to kick himself. What on earth was wrong with him? "He's one of the models there, yes." Jungkook said shortly. "Right. And Hyunsik? " "Why do you ask? "

Jungkook sat up on the bed and Taehyung flinched, feeling the alphas annoyance in the air, his scent changing quite rapidly. He licked his lips nervously, trying to come up with a reason. "I left the photographs in the hotel. I thought I'd go meet him tomorrow and get a copy."

(Authors note : guys m sorry i need to go, the kids are making shadow puppets. More hands are needed

I'll be back later)

Jungkook cleared his throat. "I have another copy. You don't have to meet him." He said sharply. " And didn't I tell you those were bad photographs? I also told you , I have a friend who can do better ones. " Taehyung wanted to crawl under a rock and never resurface.

His brain was just wired to be ridiculous whenever Jeon jungkook was involved it seemed. He wasn't sure why he had brought up Yoongi and then Hyunsik. He wasn't interested in neither of those people. "He'll be there. " jungkook said suddenly making him glance over.

"What? " "Yugyeom will be there. If you want some more pictures... You can tag along. If you want that is.. I'm not... Insisting. You can say no. "the alpha added quickly. " Oh, okay. " He bit his lips. " I mean, it could be a good idea. Your father too. He'll be happy.

You can tell him we're working on the marriage. " He said hesitantly. Jungkook was staring at him now and Taehyung glanced away. "And when we get back? What do we tell him? " Jungkook asked quietly. " That we patched things up or that we're done for good? "

Taehyung flinched. Jungkooks question was a stark reminder that there really was only one way this marriage of theirs could end. But Taehyung hadn't lied to Mrs Jeon. He did want to help Jungkook move on. Without any lingering feelings of anger or hurt. "You tell me " He said.

"I know you didn't have any say in how this marriage began.... So I think it's only fair that you get to decide when and how it ends, Jungkook. " He whispered.

Authors note : that's all for today, see you guys tomorrow)

Tarhyung's words made Jungkook go just a little still. It reminded him of what his father had told him, after he had shared the truth about the baby. If Taehyung even for a short time believed that the pregnancy was real, he may have been just as devastated as you.

Jungkook stared at the omega, something churning in the base of his stomach. "How much of a say did you have? " He asked quietly. " In the way this marriage began? " Tae looked up then, eyes wide and hunted. "You haven't questioned that before. Wasn't I the cause of it all? "

Jungkook made a noise of impatience at that. "You lied to me Taehyung. You lied about.... having lost a baby. A baby I thought I'd help create.. a baby I had named in my head.... How do you think I felt, knowing that you had deceived me about something so precious? "

Taehyung shook his head. "Let's not talk about this-" "No." Jungkook growled, frustrated from all that had happened. " All we've ever done is not talk about it and clearly that is not working. So let's talk about it. Why did you lie to me? " "Because it wouldn't matter even

if I didn't. " Taehyung said shakily. " You had this idea in your head about me and you always saw me that way. Even if I had told you the truth you would have called me a liar. " "You don't know that. You don't know me. " "And you didn't know me either. But you agreed with

Everything your boyfriend and your buddies told you about me. That I was some kind of homewrecker who wanted to break you and Yoongi up... " "You fed the rumors Taehyung... Your scent.. " "You think I had any control over that?? You think I wanted to have feelings for you?! "

"How could you have feelings for someone you've never spoken to? Someone you've never spent time with? How does that work, Taehyung? " jungkook asked quietly. " You knew nothing about me. Who exactly did you have feelings for? A version of me you built in your head. "

“Yes.” Taehyung said quietly. “ I was. It was an idealistic, perfect version of you that I built in my own head. And I would have happily lived my entire life with just that. I never would have acted on those feelings , Jungkook.

Yes, I loved a version of Jungkook who was maybe, only ever real in the confines of my own fantasies and dreams, but since when did you have a say in what I dreamt?” Jungkook sighed and Taehyung watched as he pulled the comforter up to his chest.

“But the illusions slowly breaking.” Taehyung whispered, “ It’s clear that I’ve been quite a poor judge of character.” Jungkook chuckled without mirth.

“ So you realize, the person you fell in love with, isn’t real? ” Jungkook said finally. “ I hope you can get your feelings back, save them for someone worthwhile, once the illusion breaks completely.” “It will when you finally divorce me.”

"What are you running from Taehyung? ' Jungkook said suddenly. " I'm trying to understand ... Why Cant you just tell me what happened? I asked you why you lied but you keep talking in circles, and I don't know what to do any more. My parents deserve better than all the lies I

Feed them. And whether you know it or not, I tell them those so they don't end up hating you completely. Three years ago, when I found out you lied about the miscarriage, if I'd told your mother about it, if I told my mother about it... You would have been ostracized for life.

I didn't. Because I didn't want that on my head. No matter how much you may have deserved it, I couldn't bring myself to do that to you. All I'm asking is that you help me fix this. it's the only way we can put this whole thing behind us. You told me just now that you

Could have lived your whole life, never acting on those feelings you had for me. So why did you tell me that you were pregnant? " " Because I took a test and it was positive. I took three tests they were all positive. " Taehyung shook his head. " I was nauseous, tired.. "

Jungkook sat up fully, turning around to frown at him. "Really? " He asked in disbelief. "If you aren't going to believe me-" "I am. " jungkook said sharply. " I do believe you. When was this? " "What? " "The pregnancy test. When was it? " "About two weeks after... "

"You know we didn't have sex that night Taehyung. I keep going back in time to that night and I'm sure we didn't do anything... " Jungkook shook his head. " When I saw the pictures, and when you told me about the test, I felt like I was trapped in a fucking nightmare.. "

Taehyung shook his head. "I don't remember anything from that night. I know I got drunk... I don't even remember how. And when I woke up you were there... And I had no idea why we were in that bed together. And then there were the pictures and I didn't believe myself,

Till that test. I thought that maybe something did happen that night... I mean... Why else would there be a positive test? " He groaned. "I shouldn't have told my mother about it. I should have waited. I don't know why I told her... I was just so scared... And I had no friends. "

Taehyung looked up then, and finally caught the alphas eye. "You know Jungkook, you keep asking me why I lied, why I didn't leave you, why I didn't end things.. All of those questions, they have the same answer, really. I was scared. I was scared of being judged, of being

Abandoned, of being hated. " He licked his lips. " I was used to being ignored, or treated with indifference, used to not being loved or cared for but... I didn't think I could bear being hated. I just couldn't. So it seemed easier and safer to just stay quiet and endure. "

"Taehyung... " The alphas voice was low and heavy, weighed down by sympathy and Taehyung choked on his tears. "I was so scared of being hated by all those people, I didn't think about what I was doing to you. I was unfair to you, Jungkook and I treated you so badly

And I made you hate me. Now I realize I'd rather be hated by all of them than by you. It would certainly hurt less." He shook his head." But I know it's too late. I made my choice and I have to live with it. Just know that you didn't deserve any of it. You..you're a good person."

The sound of a footfall made him look up and he stared, surprised when he saw that Jungkook had stood up. Taehyung held his breath as Jungkook came around the bed, the alpha's steps hesitant but still firm. He inhaled sharply when Jungkook moved to kneel in front of him.

He went still when Jungkook brought a palm up to his face, flinching a little at the proximity. Jungkook hesitated, hand hovering just a hairsbredth away from his skin. "You always flinch when I come anywhere near you. Are you scared that my touch will hurt you in some way? "

Taehyung bit his lips before shaking his head. "No, Jungkook. I'm just scared I'll forget all the reasons why you shouldn't be touching me at all. " Jungkooks lips turned up in a wry smile. "You know what I've forgotten? " He said quietly, shaking his head,

"All the reasons I'm supposed to hate you. " He sighed, looking down at the floor, " Some people are easy to love, Taehyung, but some others... They're impossible to hate. I don't think I ever hated you. I don't think anyone ever could. That's just the kind of person you are. "

"We'll find out what happened that night. " Jungkook said softly, " I promise. Something doesn't fit right. With what you remember and what I do... We don't know the truth yet, but someone, somewhere does. And I'm going to find that person and make him talk. It's not just me.

"You don't deserve any of this either. " He made to pull away but Taehyung reached up, gripping his wrist and keeping his hand in place. Jungkook felt his mouth go dry as Taehyung slowly leaned into his palm, the omega closing his eyes, tears spilling onto his cheeks

And then onto Jungkooks hand as well. It was an act of despair more than anything else, he thought, a cry for some small comfort when the pain just got too overwhelming to bear. He kept his hand there, letting the omega press his cheek to the roughness of his palm.

And it didn't feel wrong at all.

Thank you @Jazz’s Inferno for the mood board

Taehyung woke up to the warmth of the early morning sunbeams, spilling in through a small gap between the curtains. He blinked awake, the large digital clock on the opposite wall flashing the time intermittently. 6.08 AM. Still very early.

But the bed next to him was empty , Jungkook’s scent gone, meaning the alpha had clearly left a while ago. He fumbled for his phone , finding messages from Jimin and a few other of his friends from the school, inquiring after his absence the past two days.

Taehyung shot a quick message to Jimin , letting him know that he would be coming in to work that day and they could talk. He climbed out of the couch and sat staring at the opposite wall for a few seconds,

his hands shaking just a little as he remembered what had happened the previous night. He pressed a finger to his cheek, where Jungkook’s hand had rested for a brief second, not entirely sure if any of that had been real. It was surreal, that Jungkook had believed him . How? Why?

And had he really meant it? Had he never hated him? Taehyung shook his head. No. Jungkook had to be lying. There was no way he didn’t hate the man who had ruined his life.

He was probably trying to tide things over, calm him down so he wouldn’t have another outburst and ruin things for the alpha. It was easier to believe that, he thought , trying to calm himself down. Yes, that was something he could live with.

The alternative, the idea that Jungkook actually meant what he said…it was too much for him to take in. Too much to process really. Because if Jungkook hated him regardless, he wouldn’t have to worry about how he behaved around the alpha.

He wouldn’t build any kind of stupid expectations around the man, he wouldn’t go back to hoping. To pining. Because Taehyung had been there, in that particular position for a long , long time.

Pining after a man who was in love with someone else, it wasn’t really a fun place to be. It was like being caught in a butterfly net, with no way to escape.

Taehyung was only just finding his way to the mouth of the net, just barely trying to break free of this miserable unrequited love .. He couldn’t just turn back around and fly right into it again. That would be foolish. Insane.

He would never do that to himself again. Jungkook wanted to find a way or them too separate for good, he reminded himself. No matter what Mrs. Jeon said, the truth of it was this : Jeon Jungkook would never fall in love with Kim Taehyung.

That fact was so irrefutable, so unchangeable, it might as well be written on the face of the moon itself. He would do well to remember it He stood up slowly, folding the sheets and fixing his pillow before moving to the bathroom.

His reflection looked pale , eyes wide and shadowed, signs of a troubled night’s sleep. Splashing coldwater on his face, he paused to stare at himself some more. Jungkook’s words rang in his head, so firm and confident.

The alpha seemed so sure and certain that they would find out what happened. But Taehyung knew that wouldn’t happen till he remembered everything that happened to him, that night. And that would mean reliving it, slowly and carefully.

Taehyung felt his mouth go dry a bit, at the very thought of it. Everytime he thought of that night, his pulse quickened, sweat beading up in brows and he had no idea why. There was a large gap in his memory.

He remembered certain parts of the night with ridiculous clarity but certain other parts were just…not there. They were hazy , murky like the waters in a muddy pond.

The ones where, no matter how long you stared at it, waiting for the muck to settle, you never truly saw what lay beneath it all. Taehyung grabbed a towel, patting down his face as he breathed in an out a few times,

trying to regulate his breathing, closing his eyes in an attempt to remember. What he remembered the most prominently was the scent of almonds.

It was a cloyingly sweet scent, insistent and almost overpowering. He didn’t like it. It was stifling. It made it hard for him to breathe. There were also a number of disjointed images : all of them blurry and distorted.

And the worst part was , the more he tried to focus on them, the more they faded out of his vision. It was impossible to remember. Taehyung felt terrible. Useless almost. Jungkook seemed to remember every detail from that night. So why couldn’t he? What had happened?

Taehyung felt a sudden burning anger against his mother. She had been the one to mess things up for him . She was just so unreasonable at times… and he was so malleable when it came to her.

Taehyung spent the next hour feeling troubled and anxious, and when he finally stepped out of the room, dressed for work , with his messenger bag on his shoulder, he found his mother sitting on one of the stools in front of the kitchen counter,

her eyes fixed on the open windows, that looked out onto the street. Taehyung paused for a second, because like this, silhouetted against the bright light from the window, the weight loss was really quite evident.

He hadn’t seen her in a long time, and he didn’t often think of her. Perhaps that is why he hadn’t paid much attention to the small signs of physical deterioration.

Her rich brown hair had definitely thinned out, and there was a definite tremble in the hand that rested on the countertop. “Good morning, mother.” He said softly . His voice seemed to startle her a little. She turned around, looking surprised.

“Taehyungah…” She said softly, her tone a little brittle. “ What happened last night?” Taehyung went still. “Last night?” He moved slowly to stand beside her, reaching out and lightly touching her shoulder.

“ You were exhausted. You said you wanted a small nap but when I tried to wake you up, you couldn’t get up. So I let you sleep.” “Oh.” She sighed, shaking her head. “ I should call Jungkook’s parents. I haven’t spoken to them in a long time.” Tae felt his stomach turn over.

“Mom… I.. are you alright?” He said in confusion. “ They came over just yesterday?” “What?” Her eyes seemed to go out of focus for a second and Taehyung felt his pulse quicken. “ Oh…” She laughed suddenly , shaking her head. “ Oh, I’m being so silly. Of course.. of course..

they came over. I must still be half asleep.” She stood up, her smile wide as she took him in. “ Where’s Jungkook?” Taehyung looked over her shoulder, at the cereal bowl on the counter. “He left already. You didn’t see him?”

“Oh.. I see.” She scratched her head for a second before glancing around her , her gaze a little unsteady. “Mom, do you want to lie down?” He asked gently and she looked back up at him. “Is it evening already?” She ran a palm over her face. “What time is it?”

“Its not evening. It’s morning. You just woke up, but you look pretty tired. I have to head in to work, but I’ll see if I can take half the day off. We can go see a doctor.”

“ A doctor?” She scoffed. “ Absolutely not. I’m perfectly alright. Don’t be ridiculous. You need to have breakfast. What would you like? Should I make you something spicy?” She grinned. Tae hesitated before shaking his head. He couldn't eat anything spicy. She didn't remember.

“I’m not really hungry.” He reached for her elbow, gently tugging her closer, “ Come with me mom, it’s still quite early. You can sleep in for a while .” She didn’t protest, and Taehyung helped her lie down in the guest bedroom,

tucking the blanket around her, staring at her with a hollow, empty feeling in his chest. It was like something had been carved right out of there, a vacuum in the place where his anger against her had been, just a few minutes ago.

He couldn’t hate this woman, he thought despondently. Jungkook was right. Some people really were impossible to hate. Reaching over , he brushed her hair back. "Ma." he said softly, " You love me right?" She blinked. "Why would you ask that? Of course i do, my baby bear."

The endearment made him smile a little. “I love you too.” He said quietly. “ And I don’t need a reason to love you, either. People… can love other people without having a reason to. Right?” he bit his lips, fighting the urge to cry.

She looked confused but nodded nonetheless. “Of course. Of course. You can’t choose who you love.” She smiled. “Yes. Yes, you can’t.” He hesitated before leaning over and kissing her forehead.

"If you have a reason, its not love. it's just gratitude, isn't it? Or sympathy." she said suddenly. Taehyung smiled at that. "You're right." "Taehyung ah..." She reached out and took his hand. " I'm sorry I came here. I feel like i shouldn't have. But ... I wanted to see you."

“I was thinking of your father…and just.. all of a sudden I couldn’t quite remember him right. He looked a lot like you, you know.” She chuckled. “ And at first I just wanted to ask you to send me a picture of him.

If you had any of it. In your phone or something. But then, I got scared. What if I …forgot how you looked as well…” she reached out and cupped his face, “ My baby. The most beautiful boy in the whole world.” she smiled gently. " That's why i came. To see you."

He pressed a small kiss to her palm. “This is your home.” She sighed deeply. “ You built it with Jungkook. I don’t have any right to it. I think, I can be selfish sometimes.” She shook her head.

“ I try not to be. But its hard. I want you to be happy Taehyung. I wanted to make sure you were. Sometimes, when i spoke to you, i felt like you were sad and it ... scared me. I just had to make sure. I’m sorry I came here but, please, don’t ask me to go away.” she whispered.

“I’m glad you did, mom.” He said quietly. Honestly. “You’ll always have a home here. With me. Of course I won’t ask you to leave. You can stay as long as you want to.” She smiled, wide squeezing his hand tightly.

"Thank you for saying that" she said quietly. " Everything is so confusing sometimes. I forget things.." she shook her head. " But I think I'll remember what you just said. A home. With you. Always." He couldn't stop the tears that welled, looking away so she wouldn't notice.

He stayed sitting, while she held his hand, keeping his gaze on the wall. He hadn't given too much thought to her diagnosis, because she had adamantly refused to share details with him . But now he felt betrayed. Losing her cognitive abilities, wasn't something simple.

How could he possibly care for her if she wouldn't let him? But then, it had always been that way with her. She didn't tell him everything. She had always firmly believed that she knew better than anyone else. That she could solve it all. Omniscient in every way.

A home, he thought vacantly. What was home really? He didn't know. He had never experienced something like that. What did people mean by having a home? Someone who would stick by you no matter how terribly you treat them? Is that who he was to her? He sighed deeply.

He wasn't sure why he felt the need to forgive her, even knowing that she would never apologize. It was just that, anger against someone was exhausting when the other person had no remorse or regrets. It was draining. And he had no energy left to hold grudges.

She meant well. It was something he had told himself over and over again, the past years, anytime she crossed boundaries or made decisions for him, choices that caused him pain or distress. She is my mother. I can't hate her. She just wants me to be happy. She means well.

The sound of her even breathing filled the room and Taehyung stood up slowly. He glanced at her again, feeling a swell of hurt inside his chest again. He didn't want her to die. He wasn't quite ready to say goodbye. There were things he had to say to her.

Old feelings he wanted to discuss. Old ghosts he wanted to put to rest. But what good would that do, he wondered, when she would soon forget it all anyway. It would be cruel to cause pain to someone who wouldn't even understand why you were hurting them.

"Taehyung? " Jungkooks voice startled him, making him stumble a little in surprise. The alpha stood by the door, dressed in a casual button down and blue jeans. He was staring at Taehyung's mother, brows creased in worry. "Is she alright? She looked a little ill, earlier. "

Taehyung rubbed furiously at his tears before turning around, keeping his gaze away from Jungkook’s, merely wrapping his arms around himself and moving to the door, silently asking the alpha to follow him out, so they wouldn’t wake his mother up.

Out in the hallway, Taehyung turned to Jungkook with a questioning stare. “I thought you left.” He said quietly. Jungkook was watching him carefully. “I thought you wanted to…come along.” He said hesitantly. Right. Two weeks. He felt a bitter taste on his tongue.

The text from Mrs Jeon had thrown him for a loop. He had promised her that he would do as she said, so when she had asked him to go along... he had just ... said those things. But now, he no longer felt like he wanted to. He was tired and he wanted some semblance of normalcy.

“I don’t really care much about the pictures.” He said finally. “ I don’t know if I want to come anymore. I’m sorry, if I caused trouble by saying that.” Jungkook looked surprised, eyes automatically flitting to the door. “Did she say something?” He asked , worried.

“What? No. Why?” “You wanted to come last night. What happened all of a sudden?” “Nothing happened. I just don’t feel like it.” Taehyung snapped, bristling just a little. “ Shouldn’t you be relieved. I doubt you want to spend two weeks trapped with me.”

Jungkook ‘s jaw went taut at that. “Did I dream what happened last night?” He said finally. “ You were infinitely more bearable when you were apologizing to me. Did you change your mind about that as well?”

Taehyung flushed, turning away, and making to walk away but Jungkook grabbed his arm. “Listen, Taehyung.” He said stiffly. “ Don’t overthink it. We need to find out what happened that night. Yoongi’s going to be there, and Yugyeom and Mingyu.

And they were there, at the night of the party. They may know something…” “If they do, why didn’t they say something all these years?” Taehyung snapped. “ Oh, that’s right. Because it was so much easier to believe that I trapped you..” “Taehyung….”

“If you think Min Yoongi will help you prove my innocence… you’re out of your mind.” Taehyung said stiffly. “ He would rather lie through his teeth than say one thing that would support me.” Jungkook sighed, running a palm over his face.

“Yoongi isn’t a dishonest person.” He said carefully. “ And … you can’t fully blame him for being antagonistic towards you.. You were…” “Chasing after his man.” Taehyung finished sharply, glaring at him. “ right I know. You’ve rubbed that in 7000 times now.

You think it hasn’t sunk in yet?” Jungkook sighed before shaking his head. “That is not what I was going to say. If you let me speak….What I was going to say was, you were a threat in his eyes. Always.

He was … I think jealous of you in many ways. Perhaps that’s why he dislikes you so much.” “A threat right…..” Taehyung scoffed. “ As if. He’s a supermodel and I’m… nobody.” “You do know that you’re far more beautiful than he is.” Taehyung went still. “What?”

“Objectively.” Jungkook said quickly. “ I mean.. you have a very classical beauty that perhaps he may be jealous of.” The conversation had derailed and Taehyung could no longer make sense of it. Jungkook cleared his throat before looking away. "I just think you should come."

“This would help both of us, wouldn’t it?” Jungkook continued, still keeping his gaze away from him. “ It would help you move on too. We can only find out what happened that night, if you help me , Taehyung. I need your help for this.”

Taehyung felt a familiar numbness in his heart, a feeling of helpless acceptance filling his mind as Jungkook’s words registered. He was so used to having his decisions overridden , he couldn’t even bring himself to protest anymore.

And Jungkook was right in a way wasn’t he? They would have to work on this together. “So, we just leave ? Now?” “Yes. I spoke to Kim Seokjin ssi as well. He mentioned that you’ve never taken any of your vacation days and that he’s glad you’re taking a break.”

“You what?” Taehyung frowned. “Why would you do that?” Jungkook blinked. “Well, I couldn’t really book the tickets before talking to him-” “You shouldn’t have booked them without talking to me either. And I’m the one who works there, why would you talk to him?” Taehyung demanded.

“At this point , I can’t help but wonder if you just want to pick a fight with me , Kim Taehyung.” Jungkook growled. “Just because you’re the alpha, you don’t get to decide…” “Oh, for the love of.. This has nothing to do with me being an alpha!”

“Then you should have talked to me and..” “We talked! Last night! Was that not a talk, Taehyung? Were our mouth not moving? Forming words? We talked to each other and we decided that you would come with me!”

“I…” Taehyung breathed out sharply. “ I don’t have the energy for this. But… next time.. Don’t make decisions for me without talking to me about it.” Jungkook looked like he wanted to say something but he hardened his jaw, nodding stiffly instead.

“Noted.” He grunted, before turning away. “ Flight leave in five hours. Just pack lightly. I can buy you more stuff there if you want anything.” “I’ll buy them myself.” Jungkook groaned.

“ Okay, Taehyung. You can buy them , borrow them, hell just fucking sew them yourself if that’s what you want. I am fucking done with you.” Taehyung flinched when the alpha stalked away, the door of the bedroom slamming shut a minute later. It was going to be a long two weeks.

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End of Chapter 4

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Authors Note : just like jungkook I'm also fucking done with this long ass chapter.... But also very proud of the progress between these two... They bicker a lot lol... But now we know it's a surface level animosity rather than deep rooted dislike or hatred. *crawls away*

( Chapter 5 will start in Mid September. Please don't message me about updates )

Taehyung sat pressed up against the door of the cab, intensely aware of being watched. The cabdriver wouldn't stop staring at him through the rear view mirror and while Taehyung was, to an extent used to unwanted attention, he had never felt so discomfited before.

"Are you worried about mother?" Jungkook's voice broke through the silence between them, " Mother will take good care of her. She'll be fine." Taehyung didn't respond, merely wrapping his arms around himself. He shifted awkwardly, before glancing at Jungkook and then at himself.

They looked so mismatched, he thought miserably. Jungkook was dressed like the A list fashion photographer that he was, with a fitted black t shirt and graphic bomber jacket, skin tight jeans and shoes that could probably kill someone. Tae wore an oversized sweater and jeans.

He glanced back up and the driver was leering again. "What do you want?" He snapped, losing his temper completely. Next to him Jungkook startled. "I.. what?" "Not you. Him." Taehyung bit his lips, feeling like his nerves would fray at any minute, as he pointed at the driver.

"Keep your eyes on the damned road." He yelled. Jungkook's jaw went taut next to him. "What is your name?" He demanded coldly, and the man spluttered. "I was just checking the rear view mirror, Sir. I swear." Taehyung laughed in disbelief. "You're lying!" "Tae..."

Jungkook reached out, grabbing his hand and squeezing gently. "We're there. It's alright." "It's not.. he..." "I know.. He was out of line. I'm going to file a formal complaint and he's going to lose his job.. It's okay.. just breathe."

Taehyung nodded pulling his hand away and going back to staring out of the window.His mother had looked so ecstatic, when he had mentioned that he would be staying away for two weeks with Jungkook. But would she remember it come evening? Early onset dementia, the reports said.

It was a result of whatever was eating away at her brain. Towards the end she would need round the clock care. Taehyung wasn't sure what this meant for him. He couldn't possibly afford all the things that had been written there . What was he going to do?

"We may need to ...get some clothes for you before we go." Jungkook said suddenly, startling him. They had paid the man and Jungkook had already filed a complaint. As they stood there loading the suitcases onto the cart for their luggage, Taehyung didn't miss the looks

that people gave them. He had never been to the airport before and he felt out of place and nervous. "New clothes?" He bit his lips, catching the eye of an alpha a few feet away. The man was watching them and whispering something to the woman next to him.

"everyone there is going to be wearing haute couture. i don't want you to feel out of place. But if you don't want to that's fine." Jungkook said quickly. Taehyung watched the couple across from them for another second , before turning to Jungkook.

What do you think people feel, when they see us?" He asked hesitantly. Jungkook paused in the middle of loading the last suitcase. "What?" "Do you think we look like we're in love?" Jungkook's body went stiff, his eyes shifting away from him. "Why do you ask that?"

Taehyung hesitated before reaching out and gripping Jungkook's wrist. "I can't meet those friends of yours without knowing what they think of me. Without knowing what they think of our marriage." Jungkook's face seemed to drain of color a little.

"They can be loyal to a fault, but I'll let them know that they would have to treat you with respect." He said vaguely, before moving to grip the handle of the cart starting to push it towards the entrance. "That doesn't answer my question at all." Taehyung argued.

"Have you been on a plane before? " Jungkook asked suddenly, hands closing over his own, pulling him closer. Taehyung swallowed, mouth a little dry as he shook his head. "No. Why? " "I'll get some ear plugs and sour candy then. Just in case. " Taehyung stated at him.

"Sour candy? " He asked confused. "It can help you with air sickness. In case you feel nauseous when we're up there. " Jungkook held both their ids out and Taehyung watched as they put tags on their bags before taking away the bigger suitcases. "I don't need new clothes. "

Jungkook looked up from the boarding passes, a small frown on his face. "What? " "I don't want to fit in with you or your friends. I'm alright being myself. And if they have a problem with that... If you have a problem with that... " "That's not what I meant, Tae.. "

"Sir, could you please come this way... " A sharply dressed woman with bright red lips, reached out lightly touching Jungkooks arm. " Security check happens over here. And you can use the other counter. " She smiled at Taehyung as well.

Taehyung nodded, making to move away but Jungkook gripped his wrist, tugging him back to his side. He felt his breath catch as the alpha wrapped an arm around his waist. "It's my husbands first time on a flight. We booked last minute so the seats are on different rows..

Can you help us out somehow? I'd rather have him by my side. " Jungkook offered her a charming smile. She looked surprised, glancing between them. "Oh... You're married? " "Yes." "I see... Well, I'll see what I can do... " She smiled at Taehyung, eyes not quite meeting his.

"We can use the same counter for security check right? " He smiled, " I don't want him getting nervous. " He chuckled. The woman bowed. "Yes of course sir. Please, this way. " She held an arm out. Jungkook reached for his hand again, linking their fingers together. "Come."

Taehyung exhaled sharply when they were out of earshot of the woman. "What are you doing? " He demanded trying to tug his hand away but Jungkook wouldn't let go.

"Answering your question. " The alpha said quietly. " What people think of you or our marriage depends on how we behave. It's not a vacation. I'm there to work and I'm bringing my husband along. You don't have to be nervous. " He said quietly. " I won't let anyone hurt you. "

Taehyung bit his lips, looking away. "I don't trust you. " He said shakily. " I can't afford to trust you, knowing you still call them your friends.. " Jungkook didn't respond. "They're more Yoongis friends than mine. They just resent you for what happened. "

"They don't know what happened. " He snapped. " They have no idea.. " Before he could continue, Jungkook was grabbing his forearms, pulling him into a hug. Taehyung went still, stiff as a board and skin icy cold. "I know..They don't know you. They also don't matter, Tae."

Taehyung trembled a little, so unused to being touched with any kind of gentleness, least of all by someone who had every reason to hate him. He tried to gather his thoughts but it was impossible. Jungkooks warmth and his scent had sent his senses scattering to the five winds.

When the alpha finally pulled away from him, his cheeks were flushed red and Jungkook was staring at him with worried, nervous eyes. "I need to know you're okay. " Jungkook said carefully. " Do you want me to get you some water? " Taehyung shook his head, staring at his feet.

When they were finally settled into their seats, Taehyung felt the first tendrils of fear beginning to coil up at the base of his stomach. Everyone was loud , noisy as they put away their carry ons, on the phone bidding goodbye, calling for the air hostess.

Jungkook lightly touched the back of his hand where it lay on the armrest. "All good? " He asked quietly, leaning forward so he could get a better look at his face. Taehyung flushed under the scrutiny, nodding quickly. Jungkook hummed, holding out the ear plugs. "Here."

"What are these for? " Taehyung asked nervously. " Does it get really loud? " Jungkook smiled a little before shaking his head. "It helps equalize the pressure in your ear so you don't experience any pain or discomfort during take off or landing. You'll also have to swallow."

Taehyung frowned at that, tilting his head in confusion. "Swallow what? " He asked nervously, licking his lips. Jungkook blinked at that, ears tinting red as he followed the movement of his tongue. "Nothing... Just you know... Swallow like you're.. " He cleared his throat.

"Like I'm.. ? " "Like you're dry swallowing a pill. " A voice said behind them, and Taehyung jumped. "Hyunsik ssi?! " He exclaimed, surprised. "What are you doing here? " Jungkook frowned. "Well, when you didn't show up yesterday for work they asked me to take over."

"Well, I'm here, now. " Jungkook snapped. " You can leave. " Hyunsik rolled his eyes. "Don't make me regret not getting your ass fired for assault Jungkook. " He said sharply. " Director Lee said an extra hand would be helpful. I'll be working with you. Get over it. "

Taehyung watched as Hyunsik settled into the seat on the next row, only the aisle between them. "Ear plugs? " He asked curiously, staring at the objects in his hand. " Do your ears ache during take off, Taehyung ssi? " "I don't know... This is my first time flying.. "

"Well, I'm no expert but I'm assuming you'd have to actually wear them, for them to have any effect. " He teased and Taehyung smiled awkwardly before glancing at Jungkook. The alpha was watching him with a stern look on his face. Taehyung stared at his knees. Right.

" Come here. " Jungkook leaned over the armrest, picking the ear plugs up from his palm. Taehyung held his breath as Jungkook carefully brushed the hair off his ear before carefully pushing it in. "Turn this way for me, Tae." The Omega's heart ached. He was so royally fucked.

He closed his eyes as Jungkook carefully held his chin between hid fingers before putting the other one in. When he finally looked back at him, their faces were inches apart. Taehyung could have counted every single eyelash on the alpha. He licked his lips again, mouth dry.

"If that doesn't work.. " Jungkook whispered gaze dropping to his lips, " Theres something else we could do. " Taehyung felt his pulse quicken. "We? " He asked, voice choking a little. Jungkook glanced back up at him, eyes locking with his, hand reaching for his wrist.

Taehyung stared as Jungkook carefully tugged his arm closer, his free hand moving to rest lightly on the sensitive skin, on the inside of his wrist. " There's a pressure point here, " He pressed his fore and middle finger against a spot, " That helps with motion sickness."

Taehyung felt the lurch beneath him as the plane slowly started moving, But he couldn't bring himself to care, all of his senses zeroed in on the spot where Jungkook was lightly tracing circles on his skin, with infinite care. "Just look at me, " The alpha smiled, " Just me. "

The plane lurched again, and Taehyung settled back against the seat, closing his eyes a little as the speed of the aircraft rose. The hand around his wrist loosened a little and Taehyung blinked one eye open, confused. Jungkook was staring at the floor, his face pale.

Taehyung sat up frowning, just as the aircraft ascended, but all he felt was a light lurch in his belly, a dull roaring in his ear, that went away the moment he swallowed. Jungkook however, slumped forward on the seat, knuckles white as he clutched the armrest.

"Jungkook.. " Taehyung gasped, reaching for him in a panic, gripping his shoulder and pulling him back. " Jungkook what.." "Fuck... I.. " The alpha slurred, his face ashen, " I.. Forgot my pill.." " Pill? " Taehyung leaned closer, cupping his face to keep him up " What pill? "

But Jungkook merely shrugged him away, reaching for his bag with shaking fingers, and Taehyung watched as Jungkook struggled to get a small box with a few white pills inside. "Here, give him some water. " Hyunsik held a bottled water out to him, " He gets vertigo on flights."

Vertigo? What on earth was that?! Taehyung turned to the alpha by his side, fumbling with his own seatbelt so he could wrap him in his arms, taking the box out of his hand and helping him lean back against the seat. " Here... The pill.Just one? " He asked. Jungkook nodded.

(Authors note : I'm judging y'all so hard right now... Why are you guys so chaotic

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Taehyung hesitated before carefully holding it up to his lips, helping him take it in, before pressing the rim of thr bottle against his lips. Jungkook took small sips, eyes still shut. He was breathing deeply. Sweat dotted his hairline, his face flushed and pale.

Taehyung hesitated, before reaching for his wrist, pressing the spot he had shown him earlier, stroking the alphas skin gently. He remembered how careful Jungkook had been with him, returning the gesture just as gently. When he looked back up, Jungkook was watching him.

"Does this help? " Taehyung asked quietly, still stroking the skin gently, pressing in with the pad of his fingers. "It doesn't usually.."Jungkook's voice was a little raw, " But, Now it feels good." Taehyung paused before looking at him with tear filled eyes. "Are you sick?"

Jungkook blinked as Taehyungs tears started falling freely, the Omega's eyes heavy with fear and worry and he sat up quickly, ignoring the pain that shot through his skull. '"Tae... What.. Don't cry.." "Why did that happen? You were alright... A minute ago and then you just.."

Taehyung shook his head in disbelief, lips wobbling. "Tae, it was my fault. " Jungkook said quickly, " I usually take my pills before I get on flights. I forgot... I'm sorry... Did I scare you too much? " " I... You just reminded me of my mother... She gets dizzy too.. "

Taehyung shook his head feeling foolish. But he couldn't help it. His mind had made the connection and just the fleeting idea of Jungkook being sick... Of something happening to him... It had torn his heart into shreds. He swiped his tears, feeling pathetic.

"It's nothing.. I've had it since I was a child... Its mostly under control but I just have trouble flying. It's nothing to worry about.. " Jungkook said quickly. Taehyung nodded, pulling his hand away, and settling back into his seat, still a little out of it.

Jungkook reached over, putting his seat belt on for him, and Taehyung exhaled, shaking his head. "You scared me. " He said hesitantly, " Why didn't you tell me? " "I forgot myself. " Jungkook admitted hesitantly. " It's not like me. I don't know why I did that. "

"Can I get my water back? " Hyunsik's voice came from the side startling him. Taehyung turned red before handing the bottle over. Hyunsik was watching the pair of them with curious eyes. "You know Jungkook, the more I look at Taehyung, the more I wish I punched you back. "

Taehyung frowned as the alpha settled back against his seat, closing his eyes right after. Jungkook was watching him carefully. "What did he mean by that?" Taehyung asked quietly, voice low and vulnerable. Jungkook shook his head. "You should rest now. Well be there soon. "

( this tweet will be deleted. Updates again tomorrow. Much longer one. And Oooh yes, the drama is about to begin. Hehehehehe)

Taehyung had no fond memories from childhood. There hadn’t been any family trips, no vacations or days at the beach. His mother sometimes took him out to the park , but all that had ever done was remind him that he was different from the other children there,

his clothes less flashy, his shoes more scruffy. He had never fit in, had never had friends to confide in. But oddly enough, he had never felt lonely either. For Taehyung , being lonely was just the way life was. Which is why Jeju Do was a shock in many ways.

Jungkook’s company had sent a large SUV to pick them up. Hyunsik was up front with the driver , while all the equipment and luggage was stashed away at the back. Jungkook and Taehyung sat in the mid section of the car, the omega watching the scenic view outside the window,

fingers curled around the window sill and eyes wide. There were quite a few people out and about, all of them with their phones out, taking pictures and capturing moments and memories.

“Most people don’t go back and look at these pictures ever again.” Jungkook’s voice came from right near his ear, startling him a bit. He had been quite certain that Jungkook was asleep , had even checked on him just a few minutes ago.

Taehyung made to turn back around, but froze when his back and elbows made contact with the soft fabric of Jungkook’s shirt. It was silky , cool against his heated skin, and Taehyung struggled a bit to keep his composure, because this close ,

Jungkook’s scent was mpossible to ignore. He pressed his thighs together, wondering if your feelings for someone affected the way you perceived their scent. Because there must be a reason why Jungkook’s alpha scent made him lose his mind so thoroughly.

The plush leather seat behind him seemed to shift, and Taehyung held his breath as Jungkook moved closer, one hand coming up to rest on the widow right next to his, till the omega was caged against the door, the seat and Jungkook’s chest.

Taehyung stopped breathing completely, because he could feel the heat radiating from Jungkook’s chest, hot against his back, and when Jungkook moved his hand closer, thumb moving to rest on top of his hand, he couldn’t quite bear it anymore.

“Um.. Can you just.. move a bit.” He choked out, stuttering a little. “Move? Like this?” Jungkook actually moved closer, now pressed right up against him, his hand curving around Taehyung’s shoulder, shifting him around till they were pretty much spooning against the window.

Taehyung physically felt a tidal wave of arousal wash over every inch of his brain, completely clearing it of all rational thought, leaving behind nothing but the wreckage of Taehyung’s shipwrecked soul.

“Is this okay?” Jungkook asked, leaning down till his chin brushed the hair by his ears.” We should stick together . That way we’ll smell more like each other.” Taehyung couldn’t trust himself to speak.

He let out a choked ' hmmm' and The alpha settled comfortably against him. After a few seconds of silence he cleared his throat. "Have you never been here before? " Jungkook asked curiously and Tae swallowed, eyes zoning in on where Jungkook's hand lay, right beside his own.

If he moved his hand just an inch to the left their fingers would touch. What would Jungkook do then? Would he pull away? If he did that would be the most humiliating thing to ever happen to him. He shuddered at the thought of it. He licked his lips staring at the fingers.

Jungkooks fingers were different from his. Not as long and slender, but thicker and rougher somehow. There was a small scar over his thumb and a mile near his wrist. ."Taehyung? " Jungkook said suddenly startling him. "I... Yeah? " He flushed, having spaced out completely.

"You're okay with us sharing a bed right? " He asked casually, " I tried asking for a room with twin beds but they were all taken. And well it would be weird if I asked the company to book us twin beds. You know we're married. " He chuckled lightly. "Right. Sure. Why not? "

Jungkook hummed. He was quiet for a few more seconds and Taehyung found himself relaxing a little against his chest. So much so that, When Jungkooks thumb rubbed over the back of his hand he didn't even scream.

"Taehyung" Jungkook said very softly, " Can you tell me what you remember about that night? "

Taehyung blinked slowly, the words barely registering for a few seconds. When they did, he felt a familiar panic, curling somewhere deep inside him, but Jungkooks scent was warm around him, his touch oddly comforting. "Only bits and pieces. " He said shakily. " I'm sorry. "

"Don't apologize, " Jungkook said at once. " It's fine. Bits and pieces is fine. It's a start. We can go from there. " Jungkook squeezed his shoulders a bit. " Did someone invite you to the party. " He asked carefully. " Do you remember a name? " Taehyung blinked at that.

" You did. " He said quietly, " You sent that text. That you wanted to meet everyone one last time before we parted ways. " Taehyung sighed. " If it hadn't come from you, I wouldn't have been there at all. All of my worst choices have your face behind them, alpha. "

Jungkook had gone eerily quiet behind him. "Taehyung, I never sent anyone any text. " He said firmly. " What made you think it was me? Was it from my number? " Taehyung sat up, confused. "It wasn't you? " He turned around in his arms, blinking up at him. " Are you sure? "

"Very much so. Why did you think it was me. " Tae tried to remember, but a familiar fog of confusion lingered over his senses. It was like seeing through a translucent curtain. He could make out rough shapes but no fine details. "I don't remember... " He bit his lips.

Jungkook sighes, pulling away from him and leaning back. Taehyung felt cold and empty at that, his body almost chasing after Jungkooks scent and his warmth. The frustration on his face made him wince. " I'm useless. I'm sorry.. I shouldn't have come at all... "

Jungkook frowned, rounding on him with narrowed eyes. "The next time you say that to me, I'm going to put you on a fishing boat back to the mainland. Self pity looks terrible on you Kim Taehyung. Have some dignity. " He growled.

Taehyung bristled, sitting up straight and glaring at him. "It's not self pity.. I was just feeling upset that I couldn't help you." "Us." He said sharply. " It's for us. Whatever happened that night, knowing about it is going to help both of us. We're on the same team Tae."

Before Taehyung could respond, Hyunsiks voice came from up ahead. "Inside voices, children. " The alpha said drily. " I much prefer watching you Canoodling near the window to watching you bicker. It's annoying. " Jungkook scoffed. "Stay out of our business."

"I would if I wasn't trapped in a car with the pair of you." Hyunsik grunted. " First your boyfriend and now your husband. You need to take a break from relationships Jungkook... You're terrible at them. " Taehyung frowned confused. "Boyfriend? " He glanced at Jungkook.

" What are you talking about? " Hyunsik chuckled. "You don't know? Loverboy here had a huge quarrel with lead model , Yoongi. Left the poor thing in tears, right Jungkook. Any alpha that makes an omega cry like that is an asshole in my opinion. Steer clear of him Taehyung. "

"You need to shut your fucking mouth, right now."Jungkook growled low and Hyunsik scoffed. " Oh shut up. Using your scent to lull him into a false sense of security, Taehyung may not have realized it, but I did. It's a shitty thing to do Jungkook. You shouldn't do that to him."

Taehyung felt his entire body go icy cold at that. "You... What? " "Taehyung he's spouting nonsense.. I didn't.. " "I'm not spouting nonsense Taehyung. " Hyunsik said firmly. " Weren't you feeling particularly lethargic right now... With him?? Like your inhibitions were low?"

Taehyung felt his head spin at that, recoiling away from Jungkook instinctively but the alpha chased after him, gripping his wrists. "Taehyung don't believe this fucking idiot... I did not do that... " "Your scent. " Taehyung frowned, " It was stronger. I did feel that... "

The car ground to a halt before Jungkook could respond and Taehyung yanked his hands away, eyes wide and hunted. "Taehyung you need to hear me out... " "Don't touch me. " The omega hissed, reaching for the door and tugging on it, moving out as soon as it opened.

He began walking away from the car, from Jungkook, wanting to get as far away from the alpha as possible, but Jungkook was on his heels in a second, grabbing his arm and tugging him around. "Taehyung stop! " "You're an awful human being. " Taehyung said shakily.

"Taehyung you need to listen to me okay? Hyunsik makes it seem like I was drugging you or something.. But I swear to God that is not what happened... Just will you hear me out.. " "You used your scent... Don't lie.. " Jungkook took a deep breath. "You're right I did..."

Taehyung made a noise of hurt, trying to pull away from him but Jungkook merely grabbed his other arm as well, hauling him close till they were pressed right up against each other. "But I didn't do it to manipulate you or control you in some way, I can't do things like that..

My scent was just meant to help upu relax because everytime you try to remember about that night, you get panic attacks. " Taehyung froze, eyes wide. "How did you know that? " He whispered. Jungkook sighed. "Last night, I called Dr--, remember him?"

"The guy who confirmed that I was never pregnant. " Taehyung said vacantly, looking away. "Yes, him.. I wanted to ask him about the possibility of someone getting a false positive in a pregnancy test. He told me that your mother.. Tried to get you to remember what happened

That night, and it made you panic. He told me that there was a chance that something happened and your mind is just blocking it off . Like a coping mechanism. And he told me I had to be careful when talking to you about it." He sighed. " I just wanted you to not panic."

Jungkook's hold on his arm relaxed a little bit but he didn't let go. "I can't control you with my scent Taehyung that's bullshit. Even if I could, do you think I would do something like that? " He sighed. " I would never hurt anyone intentionally, Taehyung, least of all you. "

Taehyung took a deep breath. "Everytime I try to trust you, " He whispered, " You find a new way to make me doubt myself Jungkook. It's just fucking exhausting, being with you. I want out. "

Something about the way he said it made Jungkook freeze. The words cut deep, although they had no right to, and Jungkook felt something primal stir inside him, something that felt very Close to anger. How dare you think of leaving me, some part of him seemed to say.

It shocked him, enough to let go of the omega, stepping back and away from him, his mind reeling from the way Taehyungs words had made him feel. What the fuck was wrong with him. He struggled to get his thoughts under control, hands shaking a little as he stared at the omega.

"I see... Then it's good that this relationship has an expiration date. " He said shakily. Taehyung looked away that. "Yes. I'm looking forward to not seeing you again. " Jungkook felt the words like sharp little paper cuts, stinging and unbearable.

" Are you certain you'll be okay with never seeing me again? " The words were out before he could think them through , spilling out of his mouth before he. Could complete the thought in his head. Are you certain you'll be okay with never seeing me again,

Because I'm not sure I'll be fine with not seeing you.

"Did you really just ask me that? " Taehyung whispered, staring at him in disbelief. " Do you even have a fucking heart, Jeon Jungkook? " He whispered. Jungkook looked away from him. "If that's what you want then fine... " He said softly.

" If that's what I want?? " Taehyung laughed in disbelief " Are you hearing yourself right now? It's not what I want...its what you want. What you've wanted from the time we got married . To be rid of me. " He snapped. Jungkook stared at him. "Are you saying nothing's changed?"

Taehyung laughed. "Are you saying something has? " "Of course it has! " Jungkook protested, " How can you say that it hasn't? The past couple weeks... Things have been changing. Between us... Don't you feel it, Taehyung? " "You're out of your mind. I can't listen to this."

He made to move away but Jungkook was quicker, coming around to stand in his way, holding both his arms up. "Stop running away for fucks sake. Can you just talk to me? For once? " " Move. " Taehyung growled. " Fine. Things may not have changed for you. But they have for me."

"Taehyung i wasn't fair to you. " He said shakily. " I understand that now. I let my own hurt blind me to a lot of things back then and maybe I held on to my anger because it made me feel. Righteous in some way. It was easier to blame you then question what happened.

And I'm fucking sorry I took that easy way out. I just... Everything seemed to point to you and I was just so overwhelmed and hurt that I didn't think of anyone or anything but myself. And that was wrong of me. I admit it. But I can't fix it if you don't give me a chance to. "

"And what exactly are you fixing? " Taehyung asked softly, his voice shaking a little. "There's nothing here to fix, Jungkook. You can't mend a relationship that was never there in the first place. " He shook his head.

Things may have changed for you...but you haven't changed...You're still the same guy who put me through hell for three years. You're still the guy who refused to believe me when I tried to explain what happened. You're still the guy who's in love with someone else. "

Jungkook made a noise of frustration, shaking his head. "That's not what I'm trying to say, Taehyung. Can you just please listen to me and understand what I'm trying to tell you? What on earth do you mean I haven't changed? Of course I have... I just....

I want you to realize that something happened that night to you. And what ever it was, it ruined both our lives. All these years, all I could think of was how you hurt me, how you lied, how you're the reason I lost so much... But you know what's changed.. I realized

that we're both victims here. Every choice we made these three years came from a place where we blamed each other for our pain and misery. And that's not fair to either of us. Whatever we said or did to each other, whatever hurt we've caused each other, it's because we

Thought we were getting back at the person who ruined our lives. When really it wasn't us at all. You and I we're not the bad guys here. The more I think of it, the more convinced I am that someone did this. Deliberately. And I want to find out who that was.

I'm here Taehyung. I'm here and what I'm trying to fix is our fucking hearts, okay? Yours and mine. Because I don't want to meet you on the streets ten years from now and think of you as someone who hurt me, someone who caused me pain, someone I hate... I don't want that.

When I say I want to fix this... I'm not saying I want to tie you to my side, force you to stay with me and live out a life of misery, alright? Of course this marriage is ending. We don't fucking love each other. But there's a difference between not being in love

With someone, and hating someone with every fiber of your being. I can live with us not being together...but I can't live knowing someone somewhere hates me for what I did to them...I can't. I'm sorry if that inconveniences you in some way but That's just who I am...

I've changed, Taehyung, because my idea of what happened that night, has changed. That was the glass I was looking at you through, and now those glasses are gone. And I see you for who you are . Someone who was hurt just like I was. And I'm not asking to fix our nonexistent

Relationship. All I'm saying is that, six months from now, when we walk out of each other's lives, I want us to be able to look each other in the eye and say, honestly, that we only wish each other well..

Please, just help me reach the point where, when the time comes, I can say goodbye to you without feeling like I've failed both you and myself. I don't want hate you and I don't want you to hate me either....because we deserve better than that. You and me. "

It was another hour before they finally stood outside the large reception lounge of the luxury resort, watching the valets load their luggage into carts. There would be more electric carts coming over, the manager explained, fuelled vehicles weren't allowed inside the premises.

Taehyung stood next to Jungkook, an awkward silence settling over both of them. Tae felt ill at ease next to the alpha, mostly because he felt like it was his turn to speak. Jungkook had told him all that and he had just not responded at all. He had just been too overwhelmed.

As he stood next to the alpha, shuffling awkwardly on his feet, he couldn't help but feel awful. Jungkook's words had been so desperate, a plea for him to. Understand and he wasn't sure if he was capable of understanding them right. To be able to wish each other well....

Did that mean he wanted them to be friends? Was he strong enough to give Jungkook something like that and not destroy himself in the process? Being friendly, sharing parts of each other, getting to know each other... And then parting at the end of it. It hurt just to imagine.

Taehyung didn't trust himself around Jungkook. The smallest things about the alpha, the most insignificant little details had engraved themselves on the walls of his heart, these few years. He remembered things about Jungkook, he knew what made him angry, what made him sad..

He knew how much pepper he liked in his soup, knew the flowers he preferred , how sensitive he was to certain scents.. These weren't parts freely shared with him by the alpha. These were details collected through stolen glances, quiet observation without the alpha knowing...

And Taehyung who hadn't gotten over these tiny details, would he ever get over Jungkook, if they actually became friends. The idea was laughable. And when Jungkook made him fall deeper in love only to walk out on him, " Wishing him well" ? Would he survive that?

"Have you ever been to a place like this? " Jungkook asked quietly, breaking him out of his thoughts. Taehyung glanced around, all the blinding opulence evident in every corner. Luxury was always loud and gaudy, Taehyung only knew the silence of barely getting by.

When you were poor, you were also invisible. Common. Without value. He had no experience in places like this. And if Jungkook knew him at all, he would know that at least. "I've never been anywhere but Seoul, Jungkook. " He said quietly. The alpha stepped a little closer.

"Where do you want to go? " He asked gently. Of all the things that Taehyung had expected him to say, that was on the bottom of the list. "I.... What? " "Paris? Venice? Or somewhere else? You must've wanted to go places. " Daegu, Taehyung thought. Back home.

Before he moved to Seoul, he had friends. Familiar faces who had cared a bit about him. Seoul had been a prison cell. "Paris sounds nice. " He mumbled under his breath. " Have you been there? " Jungkook turned to look at him, a thoughtful look on his face.

"No but, there's probably a photoshoot coming up there. I can volunteer. Do you want to come along? " Taehyung stared at the man in disbelief. Jungkook, he realised in shock, wasn't frightened of his own thoughts or feelings like Taehyung. That's why he said things like this.

Without thinking, without worrying about the repercussions of them. Jungkook wasn't afraid of showing he cared. Probably because he had never had it used against him like a bear trap. Holding him down under water, only letting him catch his breath when he did what they wanted.

And Taehyung struggled against the tide of his own fears, wanting to be honest with Jungkook for once. "Japan.. " Taehyung said without over thinking." I always wanted to see the cherry blossoms

in Japan. " A truth. He had always loved watching them on the news.

Jungkook seemed to light up at that. He turned around fully, reaching for his hand and squeezing it. "We'll go then. Next year. They bloom between march and may.. " He said firmly. " Cherry blossoms. You know what that reminds me of. There's a phrase, mono no aware. "

Taehyung blinked. "The sadness of things.. " He said easily, " It's a Japanese phrase. " Jungkook nodded. " Do you know what it means? " Taehyung shook his head. "It means that sometimes beauty is enhanced by impermanence. " Jungkook smiled. " Like the cherry blossoms."

"The flowers only last a very short time but that doesn't stop us from enjoying them. ' jungkook sighed, " Things change. Everything does. They change and they end and like the cherry blossoms they wither away...But that doesn't make them any less beautiful you know? "

" In fact.. " Jungkook turned to him again, " It makes them more precious don't you think? I guess it just means that Knowing that something is ending..shouldn't stop us from loving it while it's there... Does that make sense.. " Taehyung felt a lump in his throat. "Yes."

(A/n this is real. Btw)

"Endings are scary. " Taehyung said shakily. " When something ends, there's just... So much pain involved.. Don't you think.... " He bit his lips. Jungkook hesitated for a few seconds. "I ended things with Yoongi a while ago. " He said, looking away. " It wasn't scary. "

Taehyung felt like someone had doused him with icy cold water. "What? " He stammered, voice breaking a bit. Jungkook turned to him with a small smile. "You look more horrified than he did. " He chuckled lightly. " It was bound to happen, I suppose. We're not the same people."

we were when we met and fell in love. " He shrugged. " It's funny, I used to think that love won't ever disappear, you know. Once you love someone, a part of you will always love them. But, I don't think any part of me loves him anymore. " He sighed.

Taehyung stared at the alpha, not missing the slight wistfulness in his tone. There was definitely an ache there, impossible to hide from someone like Taehyung who could pick out the way Jungkook's emotions changed, just from the pace of his breaths.

Taehyung supposed he ought to feel some semblance of relief at the words. He had always felt like Jungkook deserved to be loved by someone who valued him more. Someone who saw how wonderful he was, a man who was good, through and through.

But all he felt at the moment was a sad ache somewhere in his chest. Jungkook looked like he was grieving the loss of whatever had kept him tethered to the omega. And Taehyung couldn't take joy in something that brought Jungkook sadness. So he merely bowed his head.

There was a beat of silence, during which they seemed lost in their own thoughts. Until the alpha cleared his throat. “Taehyung….” Jungkook said quietly, “ Is there a possible future for us, where you can see yourself as a friend of mine?

If there isn’t I’ll give you your space… I’ll take care of all of this by myself. I won’t bother you about anything beyond what’s necessary. But if there is… If there’s even a small chance of us putting this behind us, I want to try.” He took a deep breath,

“ I don’t know if you know this about me, but when I genuinely want something, I can be very persistent. And lately… a part of me is aching to know more about you. I don’t want to start wanting that…because once I do…

I’m not going to be able to stop. So, just… can you tell me if I’m allowed to? Am I allowed to want that….with you?” Taehyung breathed out, looking back up at him with damp lashes.

“You said you didn’t want to hate me… What if that’s what happens when you get to know me? People who get close to me… I don’t think they end up liking me much.” He licked his lips.

“ I’m not interesting or fun or pleasant to be with … I just… I feel like I’m just one of those people meant to be alone you know…all their lives.” Jungkook frowned deeply, tilting his head in confusion. “Tae… what…” He shook his head in disbelief. “ Why would you say that?”

Taehyung flushed, ears turning red. Had he said too much? Revealed too much. Something clawed inside his chest , that familiar fear that made him want to lash out at Jungkook , anytime he tried to get close and the urge to say something cutting,

something sharp and angry and uncalled for, it simmered under his skin because he didn’t know how else to protect himself, not when every tender word that came from the alpha, insisted on being carved into his mind.

But Jungkook seemed to sense the change in his emotions, because the alpha was suddenly standing right in front of him, taking both his hands in his own.

“Well, it doesn’t matter.” He said firmly. “ If the people in your life have made you feel that way, then they don’t belong there. You just need to meet better people, Taehyung. People who care enough to get to know you before passing judgements on your personality.

And not to brag but, I’ve had people say I’m a pretty decent guy. Four star reviews on yelp. You can ask anyone. Except maybe my ex boyfriend , don’t ask him.” He shrugged.

Taehyung felt a smile tug on his lips against his will, and he brought his palm up, instinctively but Jungkook caught his wrist. “I’ve never made you smile before, have I?” he asked quietly, eyes trained on his lips , gaze lingering just a second more than necessary,

before pulling back to meet his eyes again, “ what a pity… you have a lovely smile.” Taehyung stared at him, moving to tug his wrist back but Jungkook’s grip was firm. “You don’t like being touched?” he asked softly. Taehyung could only stare at him, a little stunned.

Jungkook glanced down at where his tattooed fingers lay wrapped around the omega’s slender wrist, “ I'm asking because I need to know...if that is a a boundary I should keep. I’m a very tactile guy so if you don’t like being touched you need to tell me, Taehyung.”

Taehyung had to swallow twice just to get his breath back. Jungkook’s fingers were rough, a little calloused probably because of his work and he could feel the ridges of his palm digging into his skin a little.

Taehyung had never met anyone who behaved less like an overbearing alpha, than Jungkook. But he had always noticed how that little bit of aggression and arrogance seemed to come out when he stared at people or when he touched them.

He’d never experienced it himself , but here under the alpha’s scrutiny, Taehyung realized that Jungkook was right. He was very tactile. And Taehyung really wasn't strong enough to be okay with that. Licking his lips, he cleared his throat.

He had to put his foot down a little , he told himself firmly even if there was a voice in his mind screaming at him to just take what he could get. Like the cherry blossoms, enjoy it while it lasts, the evil little voice seemed to stay and he shuddered.

“No.. i… I don’t mind that. Just… sometimes you.. your grip is too hard… I bruise easy…” He hesitated, “ so please be careful.” He glanced down pointedly at where Jungkook held his wrist, expecting him to let go but Jungkook didn’t .

Instead, he felt the subtle pressure of his grip tightening, the fingertips pressing in, and the fist small tingle of pain…he glanced up and Jungkook was watching him with his eyes narrowed, gaze so intense, Taehyung felt his insides churn .

The grip tightened again and he couldn’t help but whimper. “Jungkook…” his voice came out just a little to breathy, “ gently…I…” Jungkook’s eyes darkened even more at that, and Taehyung flushed when his scent grew stronger as well,

blood rushing to his face as the alpha leaned in, lips parting to say something but a loud noise behind them made both of them jump. Jungkook’s hand dropped away from his wrist as if he’d been burned and he was staring at Taehyung in shock.

“I.. Tae.. I’m so sorry… I.. Fucking hell… Did I hurt you?” He reached for his hand and Taehyung quickly shook his head, watching as the alpha held his forearm , this time his touch ridiculously gentle, eyes fixing on the slightly red flesh, his brows furrowed.

“Are you okay?” Taehyung asked nervously , genuinely concerned and Jungkook grunted. “I’m sorry. Uh…. I’m just not…feeling my best. “ He scratched the back of his head, not meeting his gaze.

“ But it won’t happen again. I’ll stop at a pharmacist’s tomorrow and get my suppressants. “ Oh. Oh, right. Taehyung looked away, not sure what to say. " I get a little ...impulsive around this time. " Jungkook said again. " I apologize. Don't hold it against me."

And What exactly did impulsive mean? Taehyung thought , a little wildly. He had no idea how ruts worked. Had never had an alpha friend or anything like that. He had tried asking Jimin once, simply out of sheer curiosity because the omega always looked like he's been wrung out

and left to dry after helping his boyfriend out with his ruts . But that thought had died a quick death. Jimin was his only friend. He didn't want to make things weird between them. And also, how would he explain not knowing what an alpha's rut was like, being married to one.

But that was just how it was. Despite living in the same home for nearly three years he had no idea what Jungkook did during his ruts or how he handled them.The alpha usually just disappeared for a few days every three months.And whenever Tae had his heat he booked a motel room.

They stood in awkward silence for a couple of seconds before the electric cart came rolling down the pathway once more. “Sir, your bungalow is ready… We have a complimentary High Tea and also a spot for couple’s massage open

in case you want to loosen up those limbs before dinner?” The manager said softly, looking back and forth between them with a bright smile. “Oh, will we be meeting the others then?” Taehyung asked even as Jungkook ran his forefinger over his skin.

The alpha looked genuinely worried , hunched over his arm and Taehyung reached out, lightly touching his hair. It was so soft he momentarily lost his train of thought , but when Jungkook glanced up, he got himself together.

“I have some salve in my luggage. It’s alright. It doesn’t hurt.” He said quickly. Jungkook seemed to be searching his face for something, perhaps any sign that he was lying. After a second the alpha nodded, pulling away from him.

“okay, we’ll get to the room first.” He said briskly, before turning to him. “ What did you ask me earlier?” “Will we be meeting the rest of your crew at dinner?” Jungkook shook his head. “They’re not staying here. They’re at a hotel a couple miles down the road.” “What?”

“We’ll only be shooting here . We have a session late night on the beach so they’ll probably be here after dinner.” Jungkook led the way as they moved to climb into the cart. " Have you ever seen an overwater bungalow." A what? "Why aren't we staying with them?"

Jungkook gave him an amused look. “You want to stay with them?” He shook his head, “ They aren’t really what I would call pleasant company, you know.” The cart began moving and Taehyung lurched, not used to riding in an open vehicle.

Jungkook’s arm came around him, wrapping him in an embrace, almost caging him against his chest. Tae fumbled, hand curving around the alpha’s thigh for balance , the muscles flexing under his grip. “Be careful, please. “ Jungkook barked at the driver who was chuckling lightly.

“Are you sure you want that, Mr. Jeon?” He teased and Taehyung felt his face flame. “ Are you here on your honeymoon?” “No.” Taehyung began just as Jungkook went, “Yes.” The alpha smiled at the man through the rearview mirror. “ I’m a lucky man aren’t I?” The man hummed.

“No doubt sir. You make a very lovely couple.” Taehyung glared at him. “Why do you have to lie?” He hissed and Jungkook grinned down at him, tugging him closer. “So we get the extra special treatment, “ he mumbled.

“ Rule of thumb, when you’re in a luxury resort always tell them you’re on your honeymoon.” By now, the sun had begun to dip below the horizon, the sky darkening and Taehyung sat up a bit straighter, eye going wide as the overwater bungalows came into view.

They looked like little cabins, perched on stilts in the ocean, each cabin with a set of stairs leading right into the water. Taehyung felt his jaw go slack, heart pounding in disbelief.

“That’s.. Oh my God..” He whispered in awe, and Jungkook leaned in till his chest was pressed flush against Taehyung’s back, chin resting on his shoulder. “Beautiful isn’t it?” He grinned. “ A beautiful place for beautiful people.” Taehyung wrinkled his nose in distaste.

"What?" Jungkook gave him a look of innocence, and Tae elbowed him in the chest, "stop being cheesy" he rolled his eyes. "I didn't come up with that, that's what it said in the brochure!" he protested, as Tae made to pull away from him, but the alpha kept his arm firm around him.

Jungkook watched as Taehyung went around the two storey bungalow which had a living space, a large bedroom and an open deck with an infinity pool.There was another deck on the opposite side, this one with lounge chairs and stairs leading down to the turquoise blue water.

One of the staff from the hotel helped him set up all his photography equipment in the living room, which had a nice oak work deal that would come in handy these two weeks. He grimaced. He was spending a lot of money on this ' work trip'. But he had his reasons.

" Where does all the water go?? " Tae's excited voice came from the deck, making him smile a little. The omega had found the infinity pool then. The large glass doors opening out into the deck from their bedroom slid open and Tae stuck his head in. "Theres a magic pool here. "

Jungkook grinned waving back as the omega went back outside. He felt a little bit disquiet watching Taehyung. He looked alright but Jungkook was so, so scared of messing up. The talk with Dr. Lee had somehow answered a lot of questions but also given rise to new ones.

"PTSD"The man had said right off the bat and just hearing the phrase had set off alarm bells all over his mind and body.Thankfully his father had been right there, taking over the conversation while Jungkook's mind took a deep dive into what was surely the seventh circle of hell.

The phrase terrified him. Trauma. It was a word that he really, really did not want to associate with Taehyung. No, it wasn't acceptable. It couldn't have happened. There had to be another explanation. But no matter how much he thought of it, it all came back to one thing.

Assault. His father had clearly had the same idea, because he had mentioned it to the man, tentatively. Dr. Lee had said firmly that he couldn't make any assessments without meeting Taehyung himself. For now all he could do was maybe share a few ways to help him.

Jungkook had tried to take it all in and it seemed there were just two things that kept coming up in the conversation. Trust, comfort, patience. Be someone the omega could trust, keep an eye on them to judge when something was making him uncomfortable, and be patient with them.

" That feels like manipulation somehow. " He had blurted out at once, not liking the idea of trying to earn Taehyung's trust with ulterior motives. Dr Lee had given him a rather sad smile. "Repressed memories never end well, son. Your husband can't run away from them forever.

"Someday he's going to have to face them. Don't you think it's better if he has someone by his side when it happens? Someone who can understand what he's going through? Someone he can trust to take care of him. I've seen people relive their trauma. It's never a pretty sight. "

"Jungkook." Taehyung's voice broke him out of his thoughts and he glanced up at the omega, who was wearing a cotton nightshirt that hung to his knees and seemingly nothing else. He smelled like green apple and pine. "I took a shower.. I need to lie down now. " He said softly.

"Are you alright? " Jungkook asked quietly , placing his files down and walking over to Taehyung's side. The omega looked exhausted, eyes rimmed red and hair still a little damp from the shower. " I have a headache. " Taehyung said tiredly. " I don't know why. "

"We've had a long day. It's still an hour or so to dinner. You should rest . I'll wake you up when we have to leave. " He said quietly. Taehyung was staring at his equipment. "I forgot we're here for your work. " He laughed before rubbing his eyes.

"This may sound creepy but I have a box full of all the pictures you've ever had published. Right from high school. " He smiled softly. Jungkook blinked, completely thrown. He licked his lips, not sure what to say and Taehyung seemed at a loss for words too.

"I'll just go then. " He whispered after a beat and Jungkook nodded, watching him move to the bedroom. He heard the door close behind the omega and sighed, running a palm over his face. Fucking hell. He had been putting off thinking about this for a long time now.

Taehyung's feelings for him. He didn't think about them because he didn't think he had the right to. When he couldn't reciprocate them, he had no business indulging himself in them. Right? But it was getting harder and harder to keep those thoughts at bay.

The idea of loving someone you didn't know was foreign to him. He couldn't quite wrap his mind around it. But then, after his marriage to Taehyung, watching Yoongi change into a stranger, he wondered if you could ever truly know someone, in all their honesty.

People changed all the time, didn't they? How could you trust someone with the most precious parts of yourself when there was every chance of them changing and trampling all over it, over and over again. He sighed, grabbing his camera , a welcome distraction from his thoughts.

As he stepped out of the living room and into the bedroom, his eyes caught on Taehyung's fluffy caramel hair, tousled and beautiful against the satin pillows. He felt his breath catch a little at the sight, hands coming up and eyes finding their way to the viewfinder .

He snapped pictures in quick succession, mind on auto pilot and it was only when Taehyung moved a little, shifting on the silk sheets, did he realize how terrible it was to take pictures of someone without their consent. He moved to delete them, thumb hovering over the button,

"Are you getting rid of them? " Taehyung's voice came from the bed, startling him considerably. "Ah... I... One of the themes for the photoshoot tonight is in a bedroom. I was just taking a few test shots. " He managed a weak smile. Taehyung's smile faded and he looked away.

"Right. Sorry I thought... " Tae trailed off, " Never mind. " Jungkook flinched, his heart clenching at the sight almost against his will and he cleared his throat. "Your hair's still wet. " He said quietly, placing his camera down on the counter and grabbing a towel instead.

Jungkook hesitated for just a second before climbing onto the bed, shuffling foward till he was by the omega's side. He reached out, ruffling the damp hair for a second before wrapping the towel around it, giving it a gentle rub. " Let me dry it for you. " He said quietly.

Taehyung however, sat up quickly, reaching for the towel and yanking it right off his hands. "You don't have to do that. There's a blow dryer there and.." "The heat could damage your hair. " Tae laughed a little. "You're confusing me with one of your models. I don't care. "

Taehyung made to crawl past him, but Jungkook grabbed his arm, tugging him around quickly. The omega looked angry and Jungkook knew it was well warranted. "I'm sorry." He said softly, meaning it wholeheartedly. " I didn't delete them. They're still in my camera. " He hesitated,

"Also those weren't test shots. I took those because you looked nice against the white pillows. I was only going to delete them because it felt wrong, taking your pics when you were asleep." That seemed to make Taehyung wilt a little. "It's fine. It doesn't matter either way."

As Taehyung pushed past him, Jungkook didn’t stop him. Not because he didn’t want to but because he didn’t know how to. Physically he did. He knew how to hug him, to touch him, wrap his arms around him.

He could make him smile with a bad joke or make him blush with a little teasing but he didn’t know how to stop him from feeling the things that he did. He knew how to comfort with his touch but he didn't know how to reach the part of Tae that was actually hurting : his heart.

More than anything else, he was afraid of doing more harm than good. Of saying the wrong thing. Of triggering something that would hurt Taehyung in some way. He had done enough of that the past three years. He didn’t want to go down that road again.

“Are you upset?” He asked quietly, hearing the desperation in his own tone and that seemed to make the omega pause. “ I’m sorry.” Taehyung seemed to consider his words carefully.

“Why are you sorry?” He asked finally. “ Me being upset has nothing to do woth you Jungkook. I’m not upset because of what you said.” He sighed, rubbing his palms into his eyes. And Jungkook saw the opening, rushing to take it before Taehyung closed off from him again.

“So why are you upset?” He asked quietly. Taehyung gave him a blank look. And Jungkook had the sudden , disturbing thought that perhaps Taehyung didn’t know why, himself.

“I mean…” He looked around the room, which cost almost a month’s worth of his salary. “Is something uncomfortable here? We can move somewhere else if you like.” Taehyung bit his lips then, wringing his hands together.

“ I can’t sleep here. It’s a new place and I feel … anxious.” He shook his head. “ But I don’t want to move. I like this place and I know you booked it for your job and I don’t want to bother you because of this…..You’re not responsible for my hangups.”

“Tae,” Jungkook said quickly, climbing off the bed and moving to stand in front of him.” That’s not a hang up. It’s pretty common for people to not be able to sleep in a new place. And the scent here is different so I understand why you feel anxious. It’s okay.. I.. hang on.”

Jungkook reached for the hem of his shirt, tugging it up and off him quickly. “ Here put this on.” He held his shirt out internally grimacing because it was a little damp under the arms and around the neck. He didn’t usually sweat this much but the air was humid out by the ocean.

Taehyung stared at the clothing, saturated with the alpha’s scent and stared at him in shock. “I.. what? “he looked stunned and Jungkook blinked. Okay, that was probably a bit too forward but they weren’t strangers right?

Jungkook wanted Taehyung to rest well. He really wanted to see the omega happy, without being worried over anything. And he couldn't imagine Taehyung enjoying his time here if he couldn't sleep.

“You’ve been sleeping in my room since quite a while .” He reminded him gently, “ And well, my room smells like me, doesn’t it? Maybe if you wear this… You’ll be able to sleep better.

You told me you had a headache Tae. I just want you to feel well rested before we head to dinner.” He hesitated, “ There’s a restaurant here where you can have dinner while dipping your legs in a natural pool, right next to a waterfall.

Dad booked the place for us for tonight, It’ll just be us. You’ll have fun, I promise. But only if you get rid of that pesky headache first.” Taehyung seemed to consider it before finally giving in . He nodded lightly and held his hand out for the shirt.

Jungkook turned around to give him some privacy only to realize that the glass walls pretty much showed him everything anyway. Taehyung was reflected there, clearly . Every single inch of him lit from the glow of the overhead lamps.

Jungkook clenched his fists, trying not to panic a little. Should he leave? But Taehyung was already starting to change. He didn’t want to startle him by turning around too fast. And well, he supposed he could close his eyes ,but…

Taehyung grabbed the hem of his nightshirt with deft fingers, tugging it up and off him in a second. Jungkook felt his mouth go dry as his body came into view , his mind grinding to a swift halt right after.

Taehyung’s skin was dipped in gold, there really was no other word for it. Dipped in gold and made to be worshipped, like one of those ancient idols in deserted temples.

He had always wondered how people risked their lives just to get their hands on it, but staring at the omega, he could understand why. He watched as Taehyung carefully wore his shirt instead, and the fabric was way too big on him,

falling open around his collar bones, the dip of them deep enough to hold water . He blinked away, not liking the way his thoughts went. As he stared at his feet, he tried to understand what he was feeling. He had always known that Taehyung was beautiful.

But Taehyung had never flaunted it in front of him. Jungkook had the sudden humbling realization that someone as gorgeous as Taehyung could really have any alpha he wanted, if he were to set his heart to it. He felt something twist inside his gut at the mere thought of it.

When Taehyung cleared his throat he turned around slowly. The sight of Taehyung in his clothes sent something primal through his nerve endings. His rut was approaching. He could feel his alpha wanting to reach for the omega who was so close at hand.

And it was the same thing over and over again inside his head. <<He's right there. Claim him. Make him yours. He's right there. He's always been there. Just claim him and he's be yours forever. He'll always be there. He can't leave.>> He had to get those fucking suppressants.

He shouldn’t be playing this game with Taehyung at all. But it felt less like a game for amusement and more and more like a game of survival. And he wasn’t sure what was going to kill him : losing Taehyung or having him in his life.

Additional tags for this chapter : manipulation, traumatic flashbacks, panic attacks, implied assault, The therapy techniques mentioned in the fic may not be completely accurate : they're mostly based on research and talks with my cousin who is a psychiatrist

Jungkook had never watched Taehyung sleep before. He had seen him sleeping, somewhere in the periphery of his vision, on those mornings when he left the house before him, but he had never paid much attention to how he slept. But as he sat on the chair near the bed,

prepping his camera for the photoshoot later that night, he couldn't help but keep glancing at the omega, who slept fitfully, tossing and turning every few seconds, mumbling every now and then, brows furrowed and fists clenching and unclenching every few minutes.

He wasn't sure what was the right thing to do, waking him up or letting him sleep, and all he could really think was, Taehyung had looked exhausted and the painkillers he'd taken for his headache would work better if he stayed asleep. So he stayed where he was.

His phone was buzzing every few minutes. Yoongi. Jungkook hadn't responded to him the past few weeks, mostly because he had been caught up with everything that was happening between Taehyung and himself. He had shot him a quick text a day ago just to let him know s

Someone else would be doing his shoot because he had missed his flight to Jeju. Yoongi hadn't taken it well. And while Jungkook had been prepared for some reaction from the omega, he hadn't expected him to refuse to shoot unless it was Jungkook who did the shooting.

Yoongi was the face of the company and Jungkook didn't want to put up a fight because he knew that would only make him act out more. Jungkook knew that Yoongi would take time to. come around but he wasn't sure how to navigate this. Especially because he needed Yoongi's help.

The more Jungkook thought about it the more his mind went back to the way things had come about that night. In general, Jungkook never went to these parties alone. But although no one knew it at the time, the reason Yoongi hadnt been there that night, was because the omega had

Broken up with him that very morning. Jungkook had been upset, obviously and he had only gone there that evening so he could get drunk and distract himself. And he had only had one drink before finding an empty room and crashing for the night.

That was all he remembered from that night. He knew he had seen Taehyung a couple of times during the night but both times the omega had been alone, looking lost and rather forlorn. He hadn't even had a drink in his hand and Jungkook had assumed he was waiting for someone.

What happened the next morning was seared into his brain. He had woken up with Taehyung by his side. The omega had been asleep and Jungkook had assumed he had gotten drunk and crashed there thinking the bed was empty. He had left him alone, and gone back home.

And then Yoongi had called him. He had been furious, saying how he had been right to break up with him, how he had always known that Jungkook had a thing for Taehyung, how he had seen the way he looked at him and a bunch of other nonsense before sending him the photos.

And that's what Jungkook wanted to know. The photos. Jungkook had them in his cloud, and he had gone over them very minutely. The more he looked at it, the more obvious it was that it had been staged. They were both fully clothed and while Tae's head rested on his chest,

There was no other connection between them in the pictures. But Yoongi had been furious nonetheless. Jungkook wasn't surprised. Taehyung had always been a very sensitive topic between them and he didn't begrudge the omega his feelings but..Why didn't he tell him who sent them?

His phone rang and Jungkook jumped, quickly turning down the volume and glancing at Taehyung in worry. The omega had stopped tossing around and the gentle rise and fall of his chest, under the fabricnof Jungkook's shirt, told him he was sleeping now. Peacefully. "Hi dad. "

"Son.. " His father sounded cheerful. " Enjoying the view, I hope? " He laughed teasingly. Jungkook stoof up, walking over to the glass doors that opened out into the sea. He turned back around to stare at the omega in his bed, the ocean breeze playing with his caramel locks.

He stepped closer to the bed, reaching down to brush the single lock of hair that brushed close to his eye. Why was he so fucking beautiful? "Yeah dad, " He said softly, " The view is pretty breathtaking. " He breathed out.

"Good. Is Taehyung alright? " His father asked gently and Jungkook took a deep breath before turning back to the doors and stepping out into the deck. He walked over to the edge, peering down into the dark waters. "Dad, I think I'm in a lot of trouble. " He whispered.

His father didn't respond for a few seconds. "Ah, I figured you might be. " He said gently, " That's why I called. Talk to me son, tell dad what's bothering you. Whatever it is we'll figure it out and we'll make sure everything is fine. Together alright? I'm here for you. "

Jungkook took a deep breath, wrapping an arm around himself as the cool ocean breeze caught his bare chest. He hadn't bothered with putting on a shirt after lending his own to Taehyung. "How do you know if you've forgiven someone for what they did to you, dad. "

"Hmm, is this about Taehyung? " "Dad I don't even remember why I used to be so upset with him. I just... I feel like I'm meeting someone new. For the first time. A stranger who makes me so curious about them. It's so confusing because I've known him for years but.. "

"Son,you know what I truly think? " His father said hesitantly. " I think deep down you forgave him a long time ago. Because that's the kind of person you are. You forgive people and give them second chances all the time. Even the ones who don't deserve it. Like that ex of yours"

Jungkook wrinkled his nose at once. "Dad.. " He said chidingly and his father grunted. "Right.. Right, of course. Shouldn't say one wrong word about that one. But to. Answer your question, Taehyung back then, must have been under a lot of pressure. It's understandable why

He decided to hide the truth, probably from fear of how you would react. " He was quiet for a second, " Of course that doesn't make it right. You were deeply hurt by what he did, Jungkook. And you should definitely let him know that. "

"I was ready to be a father. I wanted to be one just like you, dad. " Jungkook whispered. " I didn't realize how much I wanted it, till he told me it was all just a lie. "

" And you're right. " He sighed deeply, " I was hurt but these few days, I can't help but wonder... If Tae thought he was genuinely pregnant, perhaps... He might have wanted it too you know? To be a parent? " He bit his lips, " So maybe he was going through the same pain as me? "

Mr Jeon stayed quiet for a second. "Your mother says that Taehyung took three tests and they all came back positive. You know he must have fully believed it to be true, Jungkook. He was probably hurting more than you, because you know he was raised by a single mother. "

"He was probably frightened you wouldn't want anything to do with the baby and he'd end up being one too. That can be a very frightening prospect for a young man like him. Have you thought of that? " Mr. Jeon sighed deeply. " What happened to him that night son? "

" I don't know yet, but I'm going to find out. " Jungkook said softly. "Good. If you need help with anything, just let me know. You didn't answer me by the way, how is my other son? " Mr. Jeon teased. Jungkook hesitated before peering into the window again.

" He's... Asleep right now. He gets nightmares I think. I don't know... " He sighed. " I'm so scared of messing it up with him dad. He keeps saying he wants to leave after six months and.. " "Isn't that what you want to? " His father said quietly. " You told me it was mutual. "

"Yes.. But... " Jungkook sank his fingers into his hair, gripping it hard just to get his head on straight, " But i don't want him to want to leave.... I Don't know why but every time he says that I get so fucking angry... " He groaned. " Am I that awful to be with? "

His dad was quiet for a second and then he was chuckling deeply. "Ah I see.Well to answer your question, unless you give him a reason to want to stay, of course he's going to want to go.Because from what you told me, all these years, you've given him enough reasons to leave."

" I don't have any reasons dad. " Jungkook said quietly. " I don't have a single thing that could make him want to stay. He may have liked me onec but you should see him around me now. He looks like he's a second away from crying. I feel like the worst kind of monster. "

"I thought you would have learned your lesson about not making assumptions about him. " Mr. Jeon said quietly. " But if you don't know the reasons he should stay, it's best you stay away from him till you figure it out. Don't give him false ideas until you sort yourself out. "

"If I stay away from him he'll just assume I hate him, which I don't. " Jungkook said sharply. "Give me the phone," His mother's voice came from the background and a second later,

"Jungkook my baby , before you drive yourself crazy about giving him reasons to stay, have you actually stopped to think why you want him to stay...? " She said quietly. " Are you perhaps thinking of a future with him? A real marriage? " Jungkook felt his world grind to a halt.

He hesitated before exhaling a little. "No, mom. " He said honestly. " I've never thought of that. " "Okay." His mother hesitated. " So what do you want from him? "

"That's the thing mom.. When it comes to Taehyung the only thing I keep wanting is for him to stop looking so sad. " He said quietly, " He just has this look in his eyes mom, like he's scared to ask for what he wants, like his needs don't matter. I just

want to take that look out of there. I want him to look at me and ask me things. I want him to what he likes, what makes him angry, what makes him happy. I just want him to look at me and see beyond what happened between us. I want him to see me the way I see him. "

"I want him to get to know me. The real me. I want him to be curious about me the way I am about him. I want him to wonder about me the way I. Wonder about him. I just want a space in his heart and mind mom, because he's made a space for himself in mine. " He said softly.

"I want him to look at me and not think about how I hurt him. I want to be something more than just a regret. "

"Jungkook " His mother said quietly. " Baby, I want you to take a deep breath. Just take a deep breath and hear me out alright? " She said softly, " You can't play around with Taehyungs feelings just because you don't want to feel guilty about what happened the last three years."

"Taehyung is a lovely young man and I. See why you're so curious about him. Who wouldn't be? But being curious about someone isn't enough to want to keep them by your side alright? I know you don't want to label your feelings for him yet.. And that's fine. But be careful. "

Jungkook stayed quiet, the gentle sound of the waves crashing onto the shore aoothing him as he tried to take her words in. Did he have feelings for Taehyung? He certainly wasn't indifferent to him anymore... And that meant there were some feelings involved right?

"If I do end up like falling for him" He said softly, laughing a little, " I feel like Yoongi would be the first to say I told you so. You know he was always on my case about liking Taehyung. " His mother stayed quiet for a second. "He's not a bad guy mom. He was just scared."

"Baby, the only thing that made Yoongi special was the love you had for him.And that love was the only reason you saw him as kind, and sweet and perfect.And that's why anytime he thought of losing that love he tried to chain you to his side. And for that I'll never forgive him"

( I'm stopping here because the next update is long and I want to do it together. I'll see you guys tomorrow)

"That's not... " Jungkook sighed deeply, running a hand over his face, " Mom. You can't blame him for everything under the sun. I agree he wasn't right for me but, I did love him. And that was a choice. He didn't chain me to anything least of all himself. Come on.. "

His mother scoffed, " He used your tender heart to feed his own ego Jungkook. That's what he did. All he really cared about was having the Jeon Jungkook at his beck and call every second of the day. You didn't see it, because you're a gentle soul. I saw it right away. "

This was an old argument. One they had had a million times, or so it felt to him. He knew his parents never approved of Yoongi, but it was exhausting trying to make them aee reason. "Well, he's not in my life anymore. So let's not curse him out without reason. "

"Just don't hurt Taehyung because of him. " His mother said softly, " I want you to see Taehyung for who he is, Jungkook. When you got married, although he loved you deeply, I remember seeing the sadness in his eyes. At the time, I thought it was because he was pregnant,

But now I realize it was because he knew you didn't want him. Taehyung puts off his own pain to empathize with you, and I wish you would realize how rare it is to find someone who loves so earnestly. " Jungkook felt his pulse quicken at the words, his heart racing.

His mother was always so uncannily perceptive when it came to people, so he knew she was likely right about Taehyung. And it scared him, intensely, the idea of Taehyung choosing to neglect himself over Jungkook. He didn't want that. He would never encourage that .

"You.... You want me to fall in love with him, don't you? " He said shakily. " You don't hide it at all, neither of you. " His mother took a sharp breath. "I love you. " She said gently, " And I love Taehyung. And that is why, the question you just asked me, it isn't easy. "

"I know how Taehyung feels about you, and for his sake I want you to love him and show him what it's like to experience a love that comes without conditions or expectations. But, I love you too and so, I want you to make your own choices. And even if that choice isn't Taehyung,

I will love you and support you. It is your life Jungkook." She said tiredly. "I'm not ready to love.... Anyone yet." He said gently, not wanting her to get her hopes up. "In that case when he leaves you, I hope you accept it with good grace. And understand it's your choice".

"You say you're curious about him. You say you want to know him. So do that, Jungkook... But remember, it will be infinitely harder to lose him, once you understand exactly what it is that you're losing. If you aren't open to the idea of loving him, don't fall in love with him. "

Taehyung woke up after what felt like hours and when he blinked bleary eyes at the small digital clock on the side table, his heart fell right to his toes. 10.46 PM. He had slept for over three hours. He pushed the sheet off himself, stopping when he caught sight

Of himself in the mirror. He looked haggard but also small. That was probably because of the shirt. He ran a palm over his chest, the soft fabric worn and smooth against his fingers. Jungkook's shirt was well worn but expensive and he felt like he was wrapped in a cloud.

The cabin was eerily quiet and he wondered if he was alone. Had Jungkook just left him here? Je had mentioned having a photoshoot later that night. He grimaced, hating himself for being a bother within a few hours of being there. Jungkook was probably angry.

But as he moved to climb out of the bed, a hand shot out of the sheets next to him, gripping his wrist. He yelped, horrified and a second later, Jungkook's sleep ruffled hair and fave peeked out of the thick folds. "Where do you think you're going at this hour? "

Taehyung stared down at him, and felt his jaw drop for two reasons. One, Jungkook was in bed with him and he hadn't even realized it. Two he was pretty certain that the shirt Jungkook had on was his. What on earth? "I couldn't sleep too. Figured if it worked for you... "

Taehyung had to blink back sleep just to make sense of what he just heard. Trying not to let it get to him, he cleared his throat, reaching out and tugging on the sleeve. "You've stretched it out. It won't fit me right anymore. " He muttered. " Take it off. "

Jungkook smiled a little, giving him a cautious look. "You want it back, are you sure? " He asked carefully. "Yes." "What will I wear then? " He asked innocently. "Don't you have any other clothes . Your luggage is right there. Taehyung rolled his eyes.

"But I just told you I can't sleep and you're wearing my favorite shirt. " He said with a shrug. Tae narrowed his eyes before grabbing the hem of Jungkook's shirt, tugging it up and off him in a second. He held it out, shivering a little because the door to the deck was open.

But Jungkook didn't take it, instead he leaned back, eyes dancing over Taehyung's bare torso, without restraint. "Wow." He said quietly, " Is it really that easy, getting you out of your clothes? " He grinned. Taehyung felt the blood rush up to his face.

He grabbed the sheet by his side, looking to wrap it around him but Jungkook was faster, yanking the fabric away from him and tossing it off the bed. Taehyung stared at him in disbelief, holding his arms up over his chest, furious. "Give that back. " He demanded.

"Ahh.. Come on. You were just complaining that this shirt won't fit you anymore. " He smiled, " I don't think that those sheets are going to fit you any better. Here.. " He reaches down and pulled Taehyung's shirt off himself, "if you want it, come and get it. " He grinned.

Taehyung struggled to keep himself from combusting. Stop thinking about how you're both shirtless on a bed that smells like both of you, he told himself firmly. Don't. He held a hand out, enough to brush the sleeve , but before he could grasp it, the alpha tugged it away.

"How about this .. " Jungkook said softly, holding the shirt out of reach, " O ask you a question, you answer me honestly and I give you a chance to get your shirt back. " He smiled. " Honestly." Taehyung froze. "Jungkook..." "One question.. Just one. " He smiles, " Please."

The omega took a deep breath. This felt dangerous. Everything about this felt dangerous and terrifying but the look on Jungkook's face, so earnest and sincere, and the fact that he had just said, please... How on earth was he going to say no to the man who held his entire heart?

"What is it, " He asked quietly. Jungkook seemed to be steeling himself for it and a few seconds later the alpha breathed out. "If you could go back in time, would you still marry me? " He asked quietly, his grip on the shirt loosening. Tae felt the breath leave his lung.

He stared at the man in front of him, fighting the impulse to lookaway, the way he had conditioned himself to do all these years. Taehyung had never truly looked at Jungkook, because it always felt wrong. Felt like something he wasn't allowed to have for himself.

He had always looked away anytime their eyes met because he never felt strong enough to see the hatred he was certain he would find there. But for the first time he wondered, if perhaps that wasn't what Jungkook's eyes held, when they looked at him.

Because there was a quiet desperation in those words, that Taehyung somehow found himself recognizing, against his own will. And when he looked right into the alphas eyes he felt his breath catch just a little because he recognized that look on his face as well.

It was something he had seen in his own eyes, when he stood in front of his mirror as a teenager, thinking about the alpha he had found himself drawn so strongly to. It was the look Taehyung had when he looked at Jungkook. "No." He said shakily, instinctively. " No. Never. "

And it was perhaps poetic justice, that he saw the exact moment his words hit home, because the light in kook's gaze faded out so fast, his fingers going lax, Tae's shirt falling to the bed as the alpha recoiled. "You have no right, "Tae said shakily, " To look at me like that."

"Tae.. " The alpha whispered, soft and desperate reaching for him but Taehyung crawled back, tears falling. "You have no right to look at me like you..Like you... Want me... " He choked out, " You're a liar. A fucking liar..." He growled, grabbing a pillow and tossing it at him.

Jungkook caught the pillow and tossing it aside and moving to him but Taehyung kicked out, almost catching him right near the jaw. Jungkook swore, before grabbing his ankle and yanking him down, till he was flat on his back, the alpha straddling his waist. "Tae, listen.. "

Taehyung was so far past the point of civil conversation that it wasn't even funny. He lashes out with closed fists, growling amd kicking out, but Jungkook caught his wrists, both of them in one hand, pinning them over his head as he leaned. "Just hear me out.. "

Taehyung panted trying to use his leg to push him off but Jungkook's hand closed over his thigh, holding him down. "Taehyung... Please give me a minute to just explain-" "Get off me! " He screamed, " Get off me, Get off me, Get off me-" He was cut off by Jungkook's lips.

(Authors note. I'm sorry)

( lmao just kidding)

Tae's body went stiff, every nerve ending frayed as his mind tried to catch up with what was happening to his body. He was staring, eyes wide open and Jungkook was kissing him. Jungkook was kissing him. Kissing. Taehyung often thought the alpha was about to kill him, but kiss?

His body went limp in shock and Jungkook was pulling away, looking as stunned and horrified as he himself was. Taehyung stayed on the bed. Not moving, not breathing and not thinking. Jungkook was out of the bed and on the floor, looking like he was ready to run.

"Fuck." The alpha was saying, hands gripping his own hair as he growled" Fucking hell... Taehyung, I'm so sorry... So. Fucking sorry.. I shouldn't have done that... I shouldn't have... I don't know why I did that... " He was stammering and Taehyung felt like death.

"I just wanted you to listen to me ans you kept fighting me.... I just didn't like that you wouldn't listen to me and I... " Jungkook exhaled. "You need to get your fucking suppressants. " Taehyung said shakily, gripping the sheetd for leverage and pulling himself up, shaking.

Jungkook stood there looking distraught, and the look of confusion and hurt on his face sent Tae into another spiral, his wretched heart aching without a single ounce of self respect. He felt pathetic and worthless, choking on a sob. "I'm fine. " He whispered. " Just go away."

But Jungkook didnt move. " I can't do that. " The alpha said quietly. "What? " He frowned. "Tae, I'm so very deeply sorry but I can't. " He said, voice shaking. " It's okay if you hate me. It's okay if you yell and scream. You can hit me too if you want but I can't leave."

Taehyung groaned in disbelief and frustration, grabbing another pillow and tossing it at him. "What the fuck do you want from me, you lousy excuse for an alpha?!" He screamed, "All you've ever done is hurt me, confuse me and cause me pain all my life.. And it's not enough?!"

Jungkook stood still, staring at him with wide, vulnerable eyes and Taehyung scrambled to find something, anything to say that would make the alpha hate him. Because he could handle Jungkook hating him, he had lived with that for years. He wanted it back.

Because he could live with Jungkook hating him, but he couldn't stand that look of hopeful longing on his face. It wasn't real. It wasn't something he could trust. Never again. There was no world where Jungkook could look at him like that. And Taehyung wouldn't allow it.

"You're the worst thing to ever happen to me, Jungkook!! " He growled out, glaring at him." The worst most terrible thing... You're the reason I'm so fucked up and I wish you were never born!" Jungkook looked stunned for a second, face draining of all color, as white as a sheet.

Taehyung froze, the gravity of what he had just said... And to whom.... Sinking in like a pebble in a clear mountain lake. As it hit rock bottom, he felt nausea rise. "Jungkook-" He choked out. "I didn't realize you felt so strongly about me. " Jungkook's voice shook.

"I... I... " Taehyung couldn't quite get his words out, his throat choked up and his eyes burning. "I'll go. " Jungkook said quietly. " I'm sure the rest of my crew have a spare room I can use for the night. " He stared down at himself before moving to pick his own shirt up.

He paused, staring at it for a second before turning to Taehyung. "Here, you don't have to wear it but the scent may help you sleep. You... You're exhausted.. I don't want you to have trouble sleeping. " He said quietly. Taehyung stared at him before breaking into tears.

He sobbed into his fists, shaking uncontrollably, only pausing a bit when he felt the bed dip next to him, his body trembling as strong arms came around him, wrapping him in a gentle embrace. "Did you not hear what I told you," He choked out, "why are you still here?"

Jungkook held him tighter. "Well, I did pay for this room. " He said softly, " If anyone should leave it should be you. " Jungkook's voice was shaky and Taehyung felt the dampness dripping on his back. The alpha was crying too. "I hate you. " He whispered, shaking.

"I know. " Jungkook said quietly, hands moving up and down Taehyungs arm, his body warming him up like the softest fleece blanket.

" I know you do, Tae. And in many ways, I hate myself too. But you can't tell me I can't look at you with want, Taehyung. Because that's not something I can control. " Taehyung felt the press of lips against his hair,

" You don't ever have to want me back. But don't punish me for what I can't control. "

( author's note : don't we just love a son who has amazing insightful parents and then does the exact opposite of what they ask him to do heheheheh.)

( also I hope you guys can better understand Jungkook and his biggest, biggest flaw: impulsiveness. He doesn't stop to think of the consequences of his actions Or the weight of his words. This is what will cost him.

)

The moment the words left him, Jungkook felt something break inside him, like the chainlink fence around a rusty gate that had been locked away for years, just breaking and falling. He felt his mouth go dry, his heart beating faster. Fuck. Fucking hell.

He felt Taehyung go stiff in his arms, skin chilling in a way that he could physically feel. "You know this is probably the rut talking. " The omega said quietly. "You're going to look back on this and regret it with all your heart. " Jungkook didn't respond.

"You have no business wondering about whether I would marry you all over again, "Taehyung said suddenly. " It would be like me wondering if you would fall in love with me if you had met me before you met him."The omega said softly. "It's a pointless thought and only brings pain."

Jungkook went still. "Have you... Have you had that thought before? " He said shakily and Taehyung scoffed, before pulling away from him, reaching for his shirt. Jungkooks shirt. The omega slipped it back on and hesitated before moving back to lean against his chest.

"What do you think, Jungkook? It was the only way I could get through some days. Because the alternative was that someone like you would never fall in love with someone like me and well, that was too much for fifteen year old Taehyung to accept, you know. "

They had never talked about this, Jungkook thought cautiously. Taehyung's feelings for him had always been the elephant in the room, when they were together but they had never addressed it before. Ans Jungkook couldn't help but wonder why the omega was talking about it now.

"But.. After I married you, after I saw the way you looked at him.. The way you cared for him, the way you seemed to so... Enthralled by him. " Taehyung laughed without mirth, " I understood I never really stood a chance. " He sighed. " But I suppose that's for the best. "

Jungkook felt his mouth go dry. "What... What do you mean by that? " He asked quietly, heart pounding a bit, a feeling of foreboding in his gut. "It's for the best because, knowing you would never look at me like that. " Taehyung said softly, "Will make it easier to move on."

Jungkook felt the world tilt on its axis for a second. "Remember what you asked me Jungkook? " Taehyung said softly, " About us being friends.." The omega chuckled, shaking his head. " I was ready to say yes. But I realize that isn't possible . Not for us. We can't be friends."

"Because if we could be friends, it would just mean that I never loved you in the first place. And there's many things I can deny, but that is something I can't. Because it has been my truth for so long, Jungkook. I loved you. Truly madly and deeply. In every way I knew how to."

"The love I had for you, was easily the most precious thing I ever owned , the thing I cherished more than anything else, the things I guarded inside my heart. I kept it locked away, for my eyes only because the only one worthy of seeing it, "He looked at him, " Didn't want it."

I kept it safe because it was so important to me. And I never said it out loud even when alone because I couldn't trust even the wind with it. " He laughed. " But when I realized that this thing, this stupid wretched love was causing you hurt, I knew it had to go."

Jungkook felt the warmth of his hand closing over his own, icy cold fingers. The omega held his hand gently, thumb stroking the skin there. "It's alright for hate to turn into love. But its unbearable when love starts to turn into hate."Tae whispered. " I can't let that happen."

Jungkook took a few seconds, taking in all that he has just heard, Taehyung's words fell like hammer blows and he couldn't quite keep up with the pain each syllable brought him. There was a dull roaring in his head, and he felt his throat lie heavy in his mouth.

"You're lying.. " He said softly. Taehyung stopped touching his hand, pulling back. "What do you mean? " "If you were capable of hating me, you would have hated me in the last three years of our marriage. " He said firmly. " Not now when I'm trying to fix this for us. "

Taehyung made to move away but Jungkook held him close, wrapping his arms tight around his shoulder. "I heard you out. I listened to what you said...So you... You need to hear me out now, Taehyung. It's only fair... " "I don't... " "Yes you do... You do need to hear it."

"If you were trying to guard your love from everyone, if you were trying to hide it... You were doing a bad job of it, Taehyung. Because I could see it from day one. " He said honestly. " It wasn't something I didn't want... It was something I just couldn't afford. " He sighed.

"I had a boyfriend Tae. Someone I had known all my life. Someone older and someone I trusted. And when he told me that you were wrong for liking me, knowing I was already in a relationship, I believed him blindly. It was my fault. I accept that. I was young . "

"I did what he asked me to, and I never spoke up when my friends gave you a hard time . Not because I agreed with them but because I was terrified of change. I felt things for you that terrified me and I didn't want to leave the safety net that was Yoongis familiarity. "

"And by the time I was old enough to see Yoongis insecurities and untruths for what they were, it was already too late. My mind had been pretending to not care for so long, I didn't know how to change my feelings anymore. " He bit his lips. " And then we had that party and.. "

"I was watching you the entirely night.. " He admitted finally, his heart aching as he voiced the truth he had been denying the whole time, the one he had suppressed for so long, the one he had been too ashamed to admit. " Yoongi broke up with me that morning and then..

You were there in that party that night and you looked so fucking beautiful and I remember saying that to some giy next to me... I said it out loud and it was such a relief because Yoongi wouldn't even let me think it... " He licked his lips " And I remember thinking maybe

This is a sign...to ask you out..." He ran a hand over his face. " But then everything that happened afterwards, it just... It fucked me up so bad, Tae. You were there with your mother and she was screaming that I'd gotten you pregnant and you weren't denying it

And it was like my heart just shattered because you weren't denying it, although I knew it wasn't true at all. And I couldn't believe it... Because I was so sure that you would never do something like that... You were too good and pure to do something like that.. But you did. "

"Ans Yoongi was there saying how he knew all along you were after me and I wanted to prove him wrong, wanted to shout that you wouldn't do something like that but... But you wouldn't tell me the truth. You wouldn't speak to me at all. And it just made me question everything. "

"I wanted to do it. I wanted to say fuck it and tell everyone that I couldn't marry you, no way in hell... But then I overheard my mother mention how your mother had threatened to disown you if you had the baby out of wedlock and... I couldn't do it. I couldn't let that happen"

"So I lied. " He said shakily. " I lied to my parents that maybe I did sleep with you. Maybe the baby really was mine. And I was ready to raise them too, Taehyung. I would have done it ..as long as you didn't end up having your life destroyed, I would have done anything. "

Taehyung made a small noise of disbelief. "Jungkook... " "Itbwas my fucking fault for building castles in the fucking air... I started thinking about it too much, about being a father... About being with you... " He bit his lips. " I forgave you before you ever apologized. "

"I imagined a life that I was never meant to have... " He hesitated " And then you told me you had a miscarriage and I couldn't process it. It hurt me Taehyung. " He said honestly, " You must know this. Lying to me about losing a baby... You shouldn't have... "

" And of all the things that happened, that was what broke my heart the most. " He said shakily. " I couldn't imagine someone who would lie about something like that... Being a good person. I just couldn't. And it was easier to ignore you than think of what you had done to me. "

"Because like you said, there's nothing worse than love that turns into hate. " He laughed shakily. " And that was what would have happened with us. "

( authors note : this was too intense.. I need a break)

( I hope you guys enjoyed it this took a toll on me.)

They sat in silence, both of them worn out, not just from the conversation, but from years of hiding their own feelings. Taehyung in particular couldn't take in what he had just heard, because if what Jungkook said was true, he had quite possibly broken both their hearts

With his cowardice. He had always been a weak and cautious person, balking at the idea of taking chances. Hope wasn't something he had had growing up, and faith in people, as far as he knew only led to disappointment. He stared at Jungkook who spoke his heart without reticence.

They were nothing alike, he thought with a shudder. "I... I am sorry for what I did. " He said shakily. " I didn't know that you.. " He bit his lips. " That you wanted to get to know me. " Jungkook was warm and solid around him, and he felt brave for the first time in his life.

"Did you really think you were... " Jungkook trailed off and Taehyung felt a familiar ache inside him. "Can I be honest? " He said shakily, and the alpha hummed behind him. " I was certain that I was. " He trembled a little at the memory of it. " I took those tests and..

It never occurred to me that they could be wrong. " He sighed, shaking his head again. " I was a fool. I should have trusted you but I was scared you were lying because you didn't want anything you do with me. " He admitted. Jungkook snorted behind him.

" For someone who claims to have loved me, you sure are quick to believe the absolute worst about me. " He said drily. Taehyung didn't respond. "Don't you remember anything from that night, Tae? " The alpha asked quietly making him tremble a little.

"Whenever I try to, " He said softly, " I can't breathe. It's like something just comes to life inside my chest, starts choking me and I feel like I'm dying. It's like walking into a roomful of cobwebs, you're frightened but you don't have any idea why. " He sighed.

Jungkook ran his hands up an down his arms, calming him down just a little. "Did you come to the party to meet me? " He asked quietly. Taehyung hesitated before nodding again. "I got that text which you didn't send. " He laughed awkwardly, " And I wasn't going to talk to

You or Anything like that. I wouldn't dare to you know, with Yoongi there... But I just wanted to see you. One last time. Because graduation meant leaving Seoul and going back to Daegu. " He squeezed his own knees. " I was sure I would never see you again. "

"And you were fine with that? With never seeing me again? " Jungkook asked quietly.. Taehyung couldn't help but laugh at that. "You make it sound like I had a choice in the matter. There were no choices when it came to loving you, Jungkook. There was nothing except this

Feeling of hurtling at breakneck speed towards a pool of hurt.I had no control over any aspect of it. I didn't know how to stop loving you, I didn't have the courage to tell you about it and I was too scared too tell anyone else. It was my own personal hell that I built myself. "

"There was one time I came close to confessing, which is when I heard that you broke up with Yoongi. At the ime I didn't know that it was hustt something you guys did, breaking up and getting back together. I thought this was maybe a chance for me so I followed you after lunch..

And I ended up seeing you with Yoongi. " He sighed, looking around at the alpha with guilt. " He was showing you something on his arm and you were crying and I.. Stood there for a while but then you guys started kissing.. So I left. " He breathed out. " It hurt a lot. "

Jungkook was quiet for a second. "Can I trust you to keep a secret? " Jungkook said shakily. "What is it? " "Yoongi.... He was being abused by his dad. " Jungkook whispered. Taehyung felt his entire body go ice cold. At the words. "What? " He gasped, shocked.

Taehyung scrambled to his knees turning around so he could face Jungkook who was staring down at him with despondent eyes. "The man is in prison now. So its alright. " The alpha said quietly. " But back then there wasn't much I could do for him except to be there for him. "

"Donyour parents-" Tw : parental abuse

"No one knows. " Jungkook said quietly. " Not even Yoongis mother. I think Hoseok hyung knows but I'm not sure..... It was only verbal and physical at first... But then.. When we started college, Yoongi told me his father was looking

At him quite differently and it made him feel dirty. I didn't know what to do because Yoongi told me I wasn't allowed to tell anyone anything. And then... About two weeks later he broke up with me. He wouldn't tell me why. " Jungkook sighed. " But I kind of understood. "

"I knew he needed help but he wouldn't let me help him. I even offered to marry him you know... So he could leave that house. He refused. He would call me at all hours to talk and I always listened to him but then he would ghost me for days. I didn't know what to do...

I guess at some point I realized I wasn't what he needed. He needed help. Professional help. From people who understood things like this. It wasn't fair to use me like a crutch every time he was hurting than toss me aside afterwards. " Jungkook sighed. " It was painful. "

Taehyung shuddered a little. "I don't know what to feel anymore. " He said shakily. " It all feels like too much. God I used to think the worst of him... I hated him and I.. " "Hey.. " Jungkook reached out and gently cupped his face, " His trauma was no excuse to hurt you. "

Taehyung pulled away from his touch, shaking his head. "It's... No wonder he hated me. I was trying to take away the only support he had. " "You weren't Taehyung... You didn't do anything of the sort.. " "And I still am. " Taehyung said shakily. " You... Did you break up

With him because of me? " He blinked wide eyes at the alpha who looked stunned. "What are you talking about? " He reached for him again and Taehyung moved away again. "If he needs you, you can't.. " He looked around, guilt churning inside him, " I shouldn't be here... "

Jungkook made a noise of impatience, reaching out and grabbing both his wrists, tugging him closer till their faces were inches apart. "For the love of God, could you just stop blaming yourself for every fucking thing thats wrong with the world? ! " The alpha growled.

Tae blinked before glaring at him. "How can you say that? You claim to love him and you just... You left him just like that." "Tae what exactly do you think loving someone entails? " Jungkook demanded, voice low but serious. " Love has to be mutual. It wasn't with him and I. "

"Are you saying he fell out of love with you. that can't be true.. He still looks at you like you're the most important thing and I know he wants you back in his life.. And I know that you... " "I'm the one who fell out of love Tae... " Jungkook sighed, looking him in the eye.

Taehyung went still, eyes narrowing into slits. "Lies." He muttered sharply. " Upto a few weeks ago, I heard you on the phone with him. You always talk to him like he holds your entire heart... " Jungkook blinked. "You understood all that from one phone call? "

" One? " Taehyung scoffed. " What about the countless times you would run at his every beck and call. You can't hide that from me Jungkook, I lived with you for three years.. " "So in those three years did you ever realize I actually worked with him? I didn't run at his beck and

Call , I did my fucking job, Taehyung.. " He snapped back and the omega tried to yank his hands away, only for Jungkook to yug him closer, " I told you not to run away when I'm fucking talking to you.. It's the worst thing about you and it makes me want to... "

"Makes you want to.. What? " Taehyung glared, tugging his arm again, wincing because Jungkooks hold was like a vice. " Let me go... " "Not before you tell me what exactly has you so fucking mad right now?? We were talking... I told you what happened between me and Yoongi... "

"And I told you what I think... So. Let me go.. " He whimpered a little when Jungkook bought his wrists together gripping them with one hand before curling his other hand around his waist. "You think I should just stay with him, because I used to love him, no matter how

He treats me? Is that what you think? " Tae panted, slightly out of breath from trying to get away from him. "You're an adult " He said finally, exhausted. " You can do whatever you want. Now let me go. " He demanded. Jungkook's eyes narrowed at that. "What did you say? "

Taehyung went still, the change in Jungkooks voice and tone enough to get his senses on alert. He felt his eyes widen a little as Jungkook leaned into him, nostrils flaring a little, pupils dilating a bit. " Jungkook, the suppressants... Did you at least buy them? "

Jungkook hummed, bringing Taehyung's wrists down in front of his chest, one hand reaching up to cup his face. " Forget what I want to do with Yoongi. " He said softly, " And tell me what I'm allowed to do with you. " He paused, " Or should I say, do to you... "

Taehyung blinked caught off guard by the desire in Jungkooks tone. He had never heard it before and the depth of it surprised him. He licked his lips, only a little scared as he cleared his throat. "Jungkook... You need to let me go." He said quietly and the alpha hummed.

"Why? So you can run again? I told you not to run away from me. " He growled. " I don't like it. " Taehyung grimaced. Was this how alphas were during their ruts? Stupid? "I won't run. I promise. " Jungkook narrowed his eyes at him before slowly letting go of him.

When he tried to move, Jungkook grabbed his waist with both hands, stopping him at once. "You said you wouldn't run. " Jungkook pointed out. "There's a difference between running and climbing off the bed. I just want to climb off the bed and change my clothes. " "No."

Taehyung wanted to cry, flinching as Jungkook's hand found its way under his shirt. "You're wearing my clothes. I like that. So don't take them off. " Jungkook grunted. " Can I scent you.? " "Where are the suppressants?" Taehyung asked quietly, ignoring his question.

"I don't need them. I have you. "

see you guys tomorrow

Jungkook had never considered how lithe Taehyung was, body slender, but tall. He was just a little taller than the alpha himself, which is why it was a bit of a struggle tugging him onto his lap. Taehyung looked shocked, eyes wide as he stared at him. Jungkook smirked.

There was a fog settling over his senses, a clawing need scratching it's way to the surface of his skin. He felt stretched thin, like an elastic band on the verge of snapping, his blood burning hot and sweat beading on his forehead. He was already half hard , skin flushed.

Taehyungs skin felt cool to his touch, soothing against his burning hot skin, and he slipped both his hands up under his shirt, curling his hand around the omegas midriff, fingers splayed. He ran his fingers up and down his sides, basking in his touch. He glanced up. So pretty.

His hands moved up , thumbs stroking circles on Taehyung's skin as he rolled his hips up on to the space between his thighs and Taehyung squeaked. "Okay, hold up, this is not what we're gonna do. " The omega choked out scrambling as if he was going to run and no. No, just no.

"What do you mean no? " He frowned, " You're mine, now. " Taehyung gawked at him. "That's not how it works. " He said sharply, " That's not how.. " Not liking what he was saying, Jungkook shut him off the only way he knew how. Slotting his lips over Taehyung's.

Tae stayed frozen for a second, and Jungkook slowed down a little, teeth nibbling gently on the soft, plush lower lip, tugging softly. He moved his hand up his chest, thumbing gently at the small, perky bud there, rubbing until Tae seemed to melt a little into him. Perfect.

He felt Taehyung move, shifting closer, his hands moving from his shoulder to his bare chest. He groaned, the touch of his fingers cool against his heated skin, and he wanted that feeling all over him. His arousal soared so fast he felt a little light headed, trembling a little.

He pulled away, trailing kisses up his jaw, tasting his sweetness, and Taehyung cupped his face with gentle hands, cradling his face as he pressed kisses down to his collar bone, nipping the skin to mark him up. "Jungkook.. " Taehyung whispered and the alpha hummed, "Alpha."

Taehyungs sweet voice made him pause. He felt his nerves sing a little, the low deep tone of it, and he smiled into his skin, trailing more open mouthed kisses along the curve of his neck. "Say it again. " Jungkook whispered, licking into the small dip of his collar bone.

"Alpha, " Taehyung breathed out again, a small hitch in his voice, his fingers moving upnto thread through Jungkook's thick hair. Jungkook grinned before pulling back son he could stare at him. "My alpha. " He said gently. " Say it. " Taehyung looked hurt for some reason.

"Are you? " Taehyung asked softly, and Jungkook frowned. What did that mean? He narrowed his eyes at him, hands curling around his arm and squeezing. "Of course I am. I am yours and you are mine. Mine and no one else's. " He growled. Tae smiled but it didn't reach his eyes.

"You mean that? " Taehyung whispered and Jungkook stared at him, confused, the foggy arousal in his head only intensifying, now laced with worry because why didn't his omega trust him? Why would he lie about something like that? He pulled him closer, hugging him tight. "Yes."

Taehyung chuckled against his shoulders, hugging him closer, hands stroking his back, gentle and comforting. "Okay, Jungkook. "Tae said shakily, " I'll trust you. "He took a deep breath. " Because thats important right. Trust? " Jungkook nodded though he didn't understand.

Taehyung pulled back from him and Jungkook watched as the omega cupped his face softly, thumb stroking his cheeks. "You probably won't remember this, so I'll tell you now. " Taehyung said shakily. " I love you. No matter how much I don't want to, I do." Jungkook blinked at him.

Taehyung leaned in then, pressing a small, soft kiss to his forehead. His lios lingered, and Jungkook felt something damp drip onto his shoulders. When Taehyung pulled back his eyes were red rimmed. "I trust you. " He said softly, " Do you trust me Jungkook? "

Jungkook stared up at him, reaching for him desperately, wanting him close again, but Tae pressed a palm to his chest. "Do you ? " He demanded. " I can't do this unless you trust me, Jungkook. " Jungkook glanced down at his knees. "Why wouldn't I trust you? You're mine. "

"Good.... " Taehyung took a deep breath, before gently pulling Jungkook's hand off his waist. " I'm going to go out for a second. " He said softly. Jungkook frowned, already moving towards him but the omega pressed a palm to his chest. "You said you trusted me, Jungkook. "

Jungkook stared at him, torn. Of course he trusted him but he didn't want him to leave. But he couldn't make his omega think he doubted him. That was a terrible thing to do. "Okay." He said softly. " You'll be back at once right? " "You won't even notice I'm gone. "

"Okay." Jungkook pulled away from him. " But don't take off my shirt. You have to smell like me. " He said firmly Taehyung looked surprised but nodded. "I won't take it off. " He paused. " I like wearing it you know. " Jungkook perked up at that. "You do?" "I'll be back."

Taehyung stepped out of the room locking it gently behind him, his heart hammering against his chest so fast he felt like it would give out right then. He wasn't going to think about what had just happened. He couldn't. He took a deep breath, reaching for his phone.

The phone rang for a few seconds and the voice on the other end made him choke a little. "Taehyung? " Mr. Jeons voice carried over the line, " Son, is that you? What's wrong? " Taehyung trembled a little, dressed in just the shirt and tiny shorts. The ocean breeze was cold.

( why tf would he call yoongi? They don't even like or talk to Each other.. I swear to God...

( but since you wanted pain brace yourselves. Be back in ten mins.)

"Mr.Jeon... " He paused, and the man cleared his throat pointedly making him flush a little.." Sorry...Dad.. I just...I'm in trouble. Jungkook didn't take his suppressants and I think his rut came in early. I don't know what I'm supposed tondo.. I don't think he has any here.. "

"Wait.. Tae slow down... Where is here? Where are you? Are you back in the room? " "He's inside. I'm out on the walkway leading to the cabins. It's late so no one's here and I don't know whether they give them here without a prescription for it.. " He whispered.

"Okay, Tae listen carefully alright? " Mr. Jeon said softly, if his rut is already there, those suppressants aren't going to be of any use to him. They only prevent it , they can't stop it once it's there. Is he alone? " Taehyung felt icy cold. "Yes. I'm going to go back in."

"What... No. Taehyung. You can't go back in there. He has a hard enough time when he's on his suppressants.... It'll be much worse now. You have to stay of that room. You cannot go in there at any cost. I forbid it. " He said sharply. "Dad.. "

" You may think you're helping Taehyung, but I know my son. If something happened, if he hurt you somehow he will never forgive himself for it. You can't do that to him. " He said desperately, " Please don't do that to him Taehyung. I'm begging you. "

Taehyung closed his eyes, biting his lips. All he could remember was telling Jungkook he could trust him. That no matter what he would be back. "He .. He's waiting for me. I told him I'll be back... I can't.. I can't just leave him by himself... " He whispered, shaking.

" I'll call up the resort and ask then to send him some food. It's unfortunate, but he's going to have to ride this one out, Taehyung. I'm sorry.. He should have been more careful. It's not like him to forget I don't know how he did. " He sighed. "We'll move you to another room."

"Mr Jeon.. " He whispered, " I.. I can help him. " He said shakily. " I'm not scared of him. ... " His voice trembled skin icy cold and nerves frayed. " Please don't ask me to just leave him by himself.." "Tae, my son cannot consent. " Mr. Jeon said softly. " It's not right. "

Taehyung felt the fight leave out of him at the words, knees buckling a bit as he sank to the ground, shaking. His own hormones had hone haywire with Jungkook touching him so much, kissing him like that. He felt overwhelmed and terrified. "He'll be fine, Taehyung. "

"I'll take the first flight out. " Mr. Jeon was saying although the omega wasn't listening. " I'll be there by morning alright . I'll take care of him. You don't have to worry. He'll be good as new in two days . It's not the end of the world Taehyung. Are you with me, son? "

It may not be the end of the world, Taehyung thought shakily, but it would be the end of whatever fragile little trust they had built up between each other. Because Taehyung had promised. And Jungkook was waiting for him.

But what Mr. Jeon had said was seared into his mind. Jungkook was vulnerable. He had kissed him and said so many things that he probably didn't mean. What if he wanted more.. What if Taehyung gave in, the way he always gave in. He wrapped his arms around himself, shivering.

He thought about what had happened. The way it had felt to be kissed by him. How he had melted into his arms, like a taste of heaven that had always been out of reach. He had chased after his lips, desperate. He realized, shakily, that it wasn't about trusting Jungkook.

Taehyung didn't trust himself anymore.

Taehyung realized that didn't matter, if Jungkook remembered it or not.. Because he himself would. He would remember that if Jungkook was in his right mind, he wouldn't want this. He would remember that none of it was real. That it would be him taking advantage of the alpha.

And he couldn't live with himself knowing he had done something so unforgivable. "Taehyung... " Mr. Jeons voice broke through his conscience. " Are you there? Tae.. I need you to answer me. " "I'm here, dad. " He whispered. " I won't.. I won't go in. " He felt numb.

"Good. That's good. Just stay there alright. Mrs Jeon is trying to reach the hotel. They'll send someone to fetch you. Right away. " Taehyung couldn't respond, hanging up the phone and gripping the wall. He leveraged himself up before moving to the door. He knocked on it, twice.

Once and then again. Over and over till he smelled Jungkook, right on the other side, his scent strong and potent. "Tae." The alphas voice came from the other side and Taehyung flinched when Jungkook rattled the doorknob. " Tae what are you doing, come in. " He bit his lips.

He couldn't quite catch his breath, his heart beating wild as he tried to think of something, anything that would soften the blow. It didn't matter if Jungkook remembered this in the morning, just knowing that he was going to hurt him, even for a second, it was excruciating.

Because Taehyung knew how it felt to have his heart broken, he knew the feeling of worthlessness that came with people breaking his trust, how much it ached to have people treat him like he didn't matter. And he wouldn't wish that on his worst enemy, let alone the man he loved.

"Jungkook... " He said shakily. " I can't. I can't come in. " Jungkook didn't respond for a second. "What do you mean you can't? " His voice was slurred, breaking a little. " I.. I feel weird, Tae... It's.. Where am I? What is this place? "

Taehyung felt his breath catch at that, fingers curling into fists on the floor, nails scratching the wooden deck. "Jungkook we're here in Jeju... We came here for a shoot but you.. You're going through your rut... " Jungkook was panting, and Taehyung felt his heart clench.

"I don't have ruts.. " Jungkook slurred, " Suppressants... I.. I take those.. Tae... Can you come in... I wanna see you.. " The sound of Jungkook stumbling into something made the omega jump. "Jungkook , your father's on the way. " He choked out, hoping it would diatract him.

The door shook a little and Jungkook's voice came from closer to the ground. Taehyung realized the alpha was sitting on the floor, the door between them. " Tae... Taehyung.... Please just... I need to see you. " Jungkook whispered. Was this normal ?! Why did he sound ill?

" I can't come in. " He said softly. " You.. You're not yourself right now Jungkook.... You need to... Go back to the bed... Lie down for a while... " Thr sound of retching made him freeze. "Jungkook??! " He cried out, stunned. " Fuck." The alphas voice was barely a whisper.

The sound of footsteps made him jump and he turned, watching three men make their way over, one of them holding a tray. "Mr. Kim, we heard about what happened, we have-" " He's sick. " Taehyung said sharply, before reaching for the door but the man grabbed his wrist.

" Mr. Kim, we are going to need you to come with us. We have another room and-" Taehyung snarled, yanking his hand away but the man wouldn't let go. " Are you insane... That my husband in there. " He growled. " He's sick I need to see him! Let go of me, right now! "

"He's not sick... " The taller man in the suit said calmly. " He's just going through his rut.. He'll be fine. We have strict orders to have you escorted safely out of here. We'll take care of Mr. Jeon.." Taehyung couldn't understand what was happening as he struggled.

" Mr. Kim, I understand you're worried but you need to be calm. Your father in law spoke to us and we have physicians at hand... If something goes wrong.. " "Something is already wrong . Open the damned door and you'll know! "

Taehyung heard the thump of something hitting the door and all of them froze. The man holding him let go, clearly surprised and Taehyung dived for the door, pushing it open with his heart in his throat. The door only opened halfway, coming to a stop as it hit Jungkooks body.

"Jungkook.... " Tae fell to his knees, crawling over to him, tugging his body into his arms, eyes going wide as he realized he was unconscious. There was small pool of vomit on the side and Taehyung pressed his wrist to Jungkooks mouth, cleaning it up. " Jungkook... Ggukie.. "

He glared up at the men who stood frozen by the door. "What the fuck are you doing?!! Help him up! We need to get him to a hospital! " He screamed. His voice seemed to startle them out of their trance and they rushed over reaching for the alpha.

It took a bit of maneuvering but they managed to carry him up to the couch, while one of the men called for a vehicle. Taehyung held the aloha close cradled against his chest, pressing desperate kisses to his hair, trying not to think of how cold he was to the touch.

"You're okay... You're going to be okay... " He exhaled , pressing kisses to his brow, sweat damp and icy. His hand reached for Jungkooks, and it felt surreal, to see them limp, instead of reaching for his own. He gripped Jungkooks hand sobbing .

"Mr. Kim... The ambulance is here. " One of the men said gently and Taehyung had to move back, as they carefully lifted him off the couch. "We have an in-house medic in the ambulance. They'll check him while we take him to the-" "I'm coming with you. "

The hospital was small but clean. It was one in the morning and Taehyung was the only one in the hallway, dressed in almost nothing, with his eyes swollen and limbs shaking. He felt on the verge of collapse. He hadn't eaten anything in a while and his head ached.

The chair he sat on was made of metal cold and uncomfortable and the sterile smell of antiseptic, the dull hum of the machines, all of them made him want to puke. He felt groggy and anxious for some reason. His body thrumming with nervous energy.

Jungkook was inside the room right in front of him and the doctor was with him. They had asked him to wait for a second. They would let him in soon. The omega couldn't stay still, feet tapping nervously as he tried not to think of Jungkooks face, pale and ill.

When the door opened, Taehyung scrambled to his feet in a panic. " He's alright. " The man said quickly, holding a hand up placatingly. " It's alright, Mr Kim. He's going to be perfectly fine. Please don't worry. " Taehyung felt a lump in his throat. "Is.. Is he awake? "

"He's sedated" The man said gently. " Your husband had a small seizure, Mr Kim. It's nothing to worry about... He was on suppressants and missed a doze? " He asked sternly. "I.. Yes." "I see. Its possible he needs them a lot more than the average alpha. "

Taehyung felt faint. "A seizure?? " He whispered" That.. That doesn't sound right..Why? " "I can't say right away. I would need to do more tests and well, since you guys are from Seoul, I'll give you references and you can have him checked out. For now he's fine. "

Taehyung felt his head start to pound, his eyes growing heavy with exhaustion. " I think it's a good idea to wean him off suppressants. " The doctor continued. " Why is he still on them? Aren't you married to each other? " Taehyung swallowed. "Long story. "

"You look dead on your feet, Mr. Kim. " The doctor said gently. "Have you eaten anything? You look pale. " Taehyung shook his head and the doctor made a noise of disapproval. "How are you going to take care of your alpha if you don't take care of yourself first? " He said.

As Taehyung lay down on the stiff mattress of the hospital bed, he felt uneasy without knowing why. His eyes fluttered shut and he heard the steady beep of Jungkooks pulse monitoring machine. Beep. Beep. Beep. He felt a spark of anxiety. That sound. It was so... scary.

He rolled around a bit trying to settle into the uncomfortable bed and the stench of antiseptic made him gag a little. His skin felt cold. His heart racing for no reason. He closed his eyes tighter. Beep. Beep. Beep. He was in danger. He had to get out of here.

But his limbs wouldn't move. He couldn't move. It was like someone had tied weights bto them holding him down. Beep. Beep. Beep. And there it was the scent of almonds, cloyingly sweet and nauseating. Footsteps. Voices. Someone touching him. He had to get away.

Nausea churned inside his gut, his body reacting violently as he tried to get himself to move, pulse skyrocketing and sweat breaking out all over his body. Mouth dry with terror, he clenched his fists, trying to get himself to wake up. Beep. Beep. Beep. But it wasn't a dream.

It was the demon who had haunted him for years. The one he ran from every night. And here at his most vulnerable, it had finally caught up to him.

( that's it for today.

and so it starts.)

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When I planned this fic, this was the point where the genre shifts from angst to heavy angst. The trigger warnings are to be taken very seriously.

I told you guys it would be as realistic as possible and the truth is real life can be absolutely terrifying .

“Mr. Min, I’m sorry. We don’t allow visitors at this hour, not even family. And even if we did, Mr. Jeon is under heavy sedation, you won’t be able to meet him or talk to him I strongly suggest you head back for now and come see him in the morning.”

Yoongi paced the length of the counter, hands shaking just a little, face damo with sweat. He glared at the woman behind the counter, blowing air out of his lips as he tried to calm himself down.

“Listen, I told you, I’m family. He knows me and I… He’s really, really, important to me alright? I was supposed to be meeting him tonight and he didn’t turn up and I had to go all the way to the place where he was staying and I found out he’s in the hospital and …

don’t you understand the kind of stress I’m under? Do you know what it feels like to have someone you love, in a hospital room, in God knows what state and then they just don’t let you go see him? Are you being fair to me right now?”

He demanded, face flushed red as the woman gave him an exasperated look. “Mr. Min, its not like Mr. Jeon is alone. He’s with his husband…”

“He’s not his…” Yoongi snarled, stopping halfway to run a palm over his face. “ Listen. Please. I’ve known him since we were babies. Literally. Just … Just let me go see him alright. I won’t even go in...I just want to look at him, just see his face…please.”

The woman, underpaid and overworked, finally seemed to decide that it wasn’t worth the hassle to fight him. She sighed deeply before mentioning the room number and the floor.

“If his husband allows you to, you can go see him inside.” She said finally and Yoongi exhaled in relief, turning on his heel and rushing to the elevators. He sank back against the metal walls, as soon as he was inside. Pulse pounding.

This was why Jungkook needed him, he thought feverishly. They needed each other to stay safe, to stay sane. Yoongi hadn’t been eating well, or sleeping the past few weeks, after Jungkook had cut him off.

Maybe it was the same for Jungkook. Yes. Of course. Jungkook loved him. He couldn’t possibly live without him. He knew that. The alpha didn’t give a shit about Kim Taehyung. And he was going to help him get rid of the omega once and for all.

He was going to tell Jungkook he loved him, that he would quit his career if that’s what Jungkook wanted. He remembered the many times Jungkook had brought up loving children and Yoongi had always scoffed, explaining how he couldn’t ruin his body like that because he was a model.

But now he didn’t care. If Jungkook wanted babies, they could have babies. All Yoongi wanted was the warmth of his embrace at the end of the day. A safe place. There was no place safer than the alpha’s arms and he belonged there.

He would hold onto him, apologize for everything, forgive him for everything and they would start fresh. Yes, a fresh start would do them good. They could even leave Korea. Start somewhere else. Jungkook was so talented. He had to get the alpha away from his parents first.

They were awful, awful people. Always accusing him of taking advantage of Jungkook. As if. Jungkook was happy when he was with him. They had been together and no matter how many mistakes Yoongi made, Jungkook understood that he didn’t mean them.

He always stuck by him. Even when Yoongi hurt him. Sometimes the omega had tried testing him. He had to do it. He didn’t enjoy it but how else was he going to know if Jungkook loved him. He would break up with him sometimes. He would accuse him of cheating.

Just to see if Jungkook had a breaking point. If he would draw the line somewhere… But the alpha never did. He always came back to him. And wasn’t that true love? Staying by their side even when they hurt you? Jungkook loved him.

He loved him truly madly and deeply. He was happy doting on him and taking care of him. So what exactly was their problem? They were just jealous, because no matter how much they asked the alpha to break up with him, Jungkook never did. Yoongi smiled, smug at the reminder.

If he could tackle those two, he could certainly tackle Kim Taehyung. Taehyung with his pretty face and beautiful body. Taehyung who thought he could just waltz in and destroy something Yoongi had built up for years. He would never let that happen. Jeon Jungkook was his.

And he would never, ever let him go. AS the elevator door opened, Yoongi realized that this was the VIP section and there was just one room in the entire hallway.

He frowned, stepping out into the corridor only to freeze in his tracks when he heard the sounds coming from inside the room. “No… No… Don’t.. No…No…” Yoongi felt the blood in his veins turn to ice, his body freezing in place.

The sounds that came from inside the room sounded loud, inhumane. Like someone was being killed in there. And Yoongi, he recognized the phrases, the desperation, the fear there. He recognized it because he had lived it, over and over in his head and in his dreams. No.

He took a step back as the voice went weaker, a groan , a whimper. That was Taehyung wasn’t it? Kim Taehyung was the one who was in there with Jungkook. So , why was the omega…. He felt cold all over. No, it couldn’t be. If it was, Jungkook would know.

And if Jungkook knew he would have told him. But that voice… that desperation, the fear and the anguish…. There was no mistaking it. It was the sound of helplessness, of wanting to fight but not being able to, of trying to protect yourself but knowing you can't.

The click of the door made him jump, and the door opened , revealing a catatonic Taehyung, eyes wild , pupils blown, lips bitten bloody and hands reaching out in desperation. He watched as the omega stumbled out into the hallway, barefoot and when their eyes met, Yoongi knew.

He didn’t know how, but he just knew. “Taehyung…” He breathed out and the omega stared at him, eyes glassy and a small rivulet of blood running down his chin. “Please…” his voice was a soft mewl. “ Which is the way out? I have to get out. Get out... Before they find me.”

Yoongi felt cold , horror disbelief and empathy warring inside him. He hated Taehyung. But he had been through this himself. And he wouldn’t wish this on anyone. He held a hand out.

“Taehyung…” He breathed out shakily, his hand shaking as he reached out. “ Taehyung they’re gone.” He said softly. “ You’re okay. You’re safe.” The omega wasn’t looking at him at all, his eyes staring at him but also through him.

“I need a ride.” He was saying, words slurred and broken, “ to the dorm…” The dorm? What dorm? Yoongi stared at him. “Taehyung… do you know where we are…” The omega was staring at him, blinking in languid exhaustion.

“Party… the party.. I… I came to the party..” he licked his lips. “ I … drank…” Party? Had there been a party tonight? What was Taehyung talking about? “Were you at a party? Did someone try to hurt you?” He asked feverishly, heart racing. Taehyung choked on a sob.

“I just wanted to say goodbye.” HE whispered, “ to Jungkook.” Yoongi flinched at the name. “What do you mean.. Good bye ? What… Where are you going?” “Home.” Taehyung blinked again.” College is over. So now we go home.”

The pieces fell into place so fast and so hard that Yoongi staggered, stumbling back and hitting the wall. The party. College. Was Taehyung having a nightmare about the night of the party. He stared at the omega, confused and disoriented and terrified.

Did people have dreams like this? So vivid and that they thought it was reality? “I wanted to leave but he…” Taehyung was swaying a little. “ I wanted to push but.. the bear… It was there…” “A bear?” Yoongi felt his heart racing. “ There was a bear.?”

“Leaning on a tree… It.. smelled like almonds and…” Taehyung stopped, eyes fluttering shut and a second later he was falling. Yoongi dived across the space between them, barely managing to catch him, but the weight of him was too much .

Yoongi grunted, landing hard on the floor with Taehyung in his arms. The omega had passed out, sweaty and cold all over and Yoongi stared at him, something closing around his heart, a fist made of iron, squeezing the organ till he felt like he would die. No, he thought shakily.

It couldn’t be. Had someone hurt Taehyung? Was the omega remembering something that had happened? He had no doubt that Taehyung wouldn't remember any of this when he came to. And that meant Yoongi would have to.

He tried to remember what he had just heard and scrambled to grab his phone, opening his notes and typing feverishly. What had Taehyung just said? They… Who was they? More than one person. Trying to get out… was he trapped somewhere. And the bear leaning against the tree.

What on earth did that mean? He groaned, pulling away from under the taller omega, wincing as every muscle in his body protested. He hesitated, before shrugging off his jacket, folding it into a lump and placing it under Taehyung’s head.

He stood up on shaky legs before moving to the intercom phone in the shelf in front of him. “Hello. Please…just I need help.” He exhaled.

When Taehyung came to himself, the room was blindingly bright. He blinked a few times, trying to get over the throbbing pain at the base of his skull. He tried to move his arm but it felt heavy, and when he licked his lips, they stung. "Tae? Son? " He exhaled. "Mrs.Jeon."

His voice was dry and scratchy, his throat aching as he tried to catch his breath. Where was he? What happened? He couldn't remember much, beyond the doctor telling him that Jungkook had had a seizure. Jungkook. "Where's Jungkook? " He choked out making her sigh.

"He's resting. Taehyung, do you remember what happened last night? " Last night? "I... I think I had a nightmare... " He said shakily. "I don't remember anything. " "That's fine." She said hastily, brushing his hair off his brow." It's perfectly fine. Don't worry baby.. "

"Was someone here? " He muttered groggily, " I remember... " He hesitated, as an image floated up to the surface of hia mind. " I was in a hallway... "He trailed off when the image sank back into the murky depths of his conscience. He wasn't sure if it was real or not. " No. "

"No one was here, Taehyung. You've been resting. Jungkook's going to be okay. He messed up a bit with the suppressants but the doctor says he's going to be fine. He just has to rest another day Or so. " "Are we going back to Seoul? " Mrs Jeon sighed. "I don't know yet. "

Taehyung shifted hands brushing against a jacket, wadded up by his side. He picked it up frowning. "This isn't mine.. " He said, confused and she reached for it quickly, taking it out of his hand. " Oh, that's mine. " She laughed, pushing it behind her, " You should rest. "

Taehyung even in his groggy state knew it wasn't hers. It smelled nothing like her. But he was too exhausted to understand or work out what she was hiding or why. His head throbbed and all he really wanted was to sleep. And when he woke up he would go find Jungkook.

(Authors note : if your son spent the better part of his life in an emotionally abusive relationship, would you willingly invite the abuser back into his life? She isn't a manipulative liar. She's a protective mother.)

"We need to talk. " Yoongi said sharply, punching Hoseok's shoulder, making the man grunt and roll over, blinking up at the omega with a frown. "Come.on hyung... It's too early.. " He whined and Yoongi hit him again. "Get the fuck up right now. " Hoseok groaned.

He pulled himself to a sitting position, finally waking up fully from the furious look on Yoongi's face. "Hyung what... " " What happened to Kim Taehyung on the night of the party? " He said coldly. " And if you lie to me Hoseok, we are done. " He growled. Hoseok blinked.

"What do you mean what happened to him? How the hell am I supposed to know? " He demanded, making to climb off the bed but Yoongi pushed him, hard, causing him to stumble back into the sheets. "Cut the crap. You sent me the pictures. Tell me what you saw that night. "

"I didn't see anything. " Hoseok protested. " I didn't even know Taehyung was there at the party till I found him with Jungkook the next morning. And I sent you th pictures because I fucking care about you. " He growled. "Hoseok." Yoongi said calmly. "This isn't a game. "

"That's rich coming from you hyung. If there's anyone who treats this whole thing as a game it's you. A game where you have to come out the winner, no matter who you hurt or harm in the process. " He scoffed. " You should be grateful I'm still here. Instead of accusing me. "

Yoongi stared at him, eyes narrowed. He wasn't sure what to believe anymore. "So you just saw them and took the pictures? You didn't see anyone else there? You didn't see Taehyung throughout the party. " "I didn't. If I did I would have told you. I was just hanging out. "

Yoongi ran a hand over his face. "The party was at Lee Hana's place wasn't it. Her brother was in the same year as us. Do you know where they are? " "Yoongi what are you even talking about? How the hell would I know where they are.. It's been three years!! "

"And it was the last party of the year, so everyone was there. You were the only one who refused to come. " Hoseok rolled his eyes. " And what exactly are you so mad about? Those two got drunk and fucked each other. That's all that happened that night. Accept it and move on."

Yoongi didn't respond, playing with the hem of his shirt. He wanted to meet Jungkook. He wanted to tell him that Hoseok was the one who had sent him the pictures. But he knew it wasn't going to be easy. His parents were hovering around the alpha, his mother had threatened

To get a restraining order against him just because he was in the hospital next to. Taehyung. He had walked out of there without a word but he had no intention of letting this go. "I think someone hurt Kim Taehyung, the night of the party. " He said sharply and Hoseok frowned.

"How do you-" " Don't ask me how. I have my reasons. " He said quietly "But I'm warning you right now. If I find out you were involved in something , if you helped someone hurt him... If you hid something.... I'm going to make sure you pay for it." he whispered, eyes sharp.

Hoseok flushed, turning red. "Strong words for a man you claim to hate. " He muttered. "I may hate him but he's still human " Yoongi said calmly. " But if someone assaulted him, they're not human. They're monsters. And there's only one thing you do to a monster. You kill it."

Hoseok seemed at a loss for words staring at the omega who looked deathly serious. Yoongi was staring out of the window, at the horizon, a far away look on his face. And Hoseok for the first time, felt afraid of him.

Jungkook woke up to a damp cloth on his face, gently wiping him down. He blinked, watching the room come into. Focus, gradually. He felt like his head had been stuffed with cotton wool. He made a small noise of discomfort, and the hand near his neck stopped. "Jungkook? "

"Tae? " He whispered, voice breaking a bit as he reached for him and there was a soft chuckle. "Should I be worried that you've already forgotten your mother's scent? " Jungkook groaned, eyes shutting close again. "Where's Taehyung? " He whispered. "Interesting."

"You think of him as soon as you open your eyes. " His father's voice came from the other side. " At least he's the same way. " Jungkook tried to move his body but his limbs still felt heavy. "You didn't answer my question. " He grunted. "He's in the next room. Resting. "

Jungkook went still. "Resting? From what? " He demanded and Mrs Jeon hushed him. " From taking care of you what else? " She chuckled. " Jungkook, I've taught you better than to mess with your medication, what did you do? " She demanded. The alpha groaned.

“My head hurts, really bad.” He said softly. “The doctor says you hit it on the door when you fell.” His father said gently. “Quite a mess you go yourself into.” Jungkook flinched, twisting a little on the uncomfortable mattress.

“I don’t know what happened last night. Everything was fine… I was … I was with Taehyung and I don’t know if I’m imagining this but he told me he loved me. I know he did. I was going to tell him that I cared for him too but then he left me.” “You were going to what?”

“Jungkook…” His mother said sharply. “Okay…” Mr. Jeon wrapped a hand around her shoulders, squeezing gently. “Calm down, honey.” “Okay, forget about that…Why did you miss your meds?” Mrs Jeon asked gently.

“I don’t know.. I had a lot on my mind mom. This thing with Tae…he’s …clearly going through something and well, I’m just scared. What is he trying to suppress?” He bit his lips. “ I just want to help him.”

“Of course you do and that’s generous of you, but, did you ask Taehyung what he wants?” “What does that mean…” “Did you tell him how you feel?” Mrs. Jeon asked cautiously.

“I did… I told him I cared about him, that I wanted him in my life… and I don’t know why but he …he didn’t seem to believe me at all… “ Jungkook whispered, his voice breaking just a bit and the hand over his face stilled.

“I see I’ve been asking the wrong questions.” Mr. Jeon said sharply. “ Jungkook, what on earth are you doing to that boy?” The alpha frowned, confused. His mother turned to glare at his father.

“What dad is saying is that…you were unwell…He probably thought you weren’t in your right senses…. I don’t think he’s ever been with an alpha during his cycle before… He was probably scared. ” His mother said gently.

“There’s no reason for him to be scared. I was still conscious….And I wouldn’t have hurt him. I just wanted to see him and he just left me–“ “I asked him to leave, Jungkook.” Mr. Jeon said bluntly. “He left because I told him to leave.” His mother made a noise of exhaustion.

“Okay, I think there’s no reason we have to talk about this now… you still need your rest, my baby…please just…” “What do you mean you asked him to leave?” Jungkook demanded. : Why would you do that?”

Mr. Jeon sighed, moving to stand next to him and Jungkook felt him reach for his hand. “Because he called me saying he had no idea what was going on with you. He sounded absolutely terrified and he wanted to go back in to help you.

But I knew that Taehyung was in no position to help you because he had no idea what was going on with you. And so I asked him to leave so I could get you the help you needed. Which, just so you know is how its supposed to be.

You can’t help someone when you don’t know what it is that they need help with.” The pointed look on his father’s face made Jungkook’s annoyance flare.

“What is that supposed to mean? If you’re trying to imply that I can’t be there for Tae, that is nonsense…..Of course I can help him.,. I’ve been trying to help him…” “How? By skipping your meds, giving him mixed signals? Confusing him completely?

You’re not doing him any favors by skipping on your meds, Jungkook. Do you realize that?” Jungkook frowned. “I just…, I just want him to be happy.” He took a deep breath. “ I want to take care of him. I want to protect him , I want to keep him safe…”

his voice grew louder with each phrase and his parents exchanged looks. Mr. Jeon exhaled, squeezing his hand a bit before pulling a chair, drawing it close to the bed. He sat down, and leaned forward, holding his gaze steady.

“ Jungkook, I’m going to ask you something. Do you understand that people aren’t projects?” Jungkook looked surprised. And when his face began to fall his mother intervened. “Alright that’s enough…” His mother said sharply, “ Stop it.”

“What is that supposed to mean…” the alpha muttered, looking hurt. “I don’t.. I don’t think of him as a project…that’s..” “You can’t make people heal at your pace.” Mr. Jeon said. “ You can’t force them to take help either. Did Taehyung at any point ask you to help him?

Has he ever shown any sign of wanting your protection…” “I said you need to stop.” Mrs. Jeon snapped. “Now.” Her husband glared at her, furious. “Let me talk. He needs to hear this.” He said angrily. Jungkook bristled.

“So , I’m just supposed to stand by and watch him suffer? I shouldn’t try to make him feel better?” Jungkook demanded and Mrs. Jeon turned to him, pressing a hand to his face.

“Baby, its alright. Don’t get upset okay. Taehyung and you, we know you care deeply for each other. And whatever it is, you’ll work it out, eventually. It’s going to be okay. Your father just worries for you… But, “ she turned to glare at her husband,

“ Now is not the time to be talking about these things. I want you to get better. Let’s put our energy into getting better. Nd whatever happens , we’ll support him too and -” “I won’t let anything happen to him.” Jungkook snapped.

“You’re one of the things happening to him, Jungkook!” Mr. Jeon shouted. “ And when you realize that , you’ll understand what I’m talking about.” Jungkook went still, the words catching him off guard. “Dad…” He whispered, recoiling and his father cupped his face.

“Missing your meds, forgetting about your cycle… that’s not normal. No matter how much you care about him, you shouldn’t be neglecting yourself for him.

We’ve been over this. Many times. This is exactly what you did when you were with Min Yoongi. And you’re doing the same thing all over again. ” Jungkook went completely still. “Taehyung is nothing like Yoongi.” He said shakily. “ If that’s what you’re implying…”

“I know better than anyone that Taehyung is nothing like Yoongi. Yoongi took pride in the control he had over you, but Taehyung? It would break his heart if he knew what you’re doing to yourself over his sake.” His father snapped.

“ You say you care about him, but if you really did, you’d understand that the last thing he would want is for you to act this way.” “I missed a med.. that’s all I did.. I didn’t…” He trailed off.

“Look at me Jungkook. It doesn’t matter if it’s Taehyung or Yoongi or someone else tomorrow. You can’t go into relationships wanting to rescue people. Wanting to help them with or without their consent.

You cannot fight someone else’s battles and you sure as hell shouldn’t be sacrificing your own wants and needs to do all of this. That’s not normal.” “You’re exaggerating…” Jungkook whispered.

“Am I?” Mr. Jeon demanded. “ The moment you found out Taehyung was hurt somehow that night, everything in you just flipped. You cut Yoongi off after years , and how can I possibly believe its not because you think you found a replacement for him in Taehyung?

You spent a decade trying to save the Min boy, trying to protect him as you say and now you’re doing the exact same thing with Taehyung. You call me on the phone talking about wanting to be with him, about being in trouble… about catching feelings for him and I’m confused.

Because where exactly are these so called feelings coming from? You don’t know Taehyung. You don’t know a single thing about him. You don’t know him in even the most basic of ways, Jungkook…. You don’t know what his story is…

You don’t know what the fuck he’s going through.. What he’s been through…. What on earth makes you think you’re qualified in any way to save him??” Jungkook closed his eyes. He felt a hand on his shoulder.

He looked up and his father was on his knees on the floor, staring at him with glassy eyes. “I’m not accusing you, my boy. I’m not blaming you either , Jungkook. You’re drawn to people in trouble. It’s because of your good heart.

It’s because you love so generously and so selflessly my baby but you cannot keep pouring from an empty fucking cup. If you do… this is how you end up. In a hospital room. You need to stop and understand what I’m saying Jungkook. Please.” He gripped his hands in a plea,

“I can’t see you go through this again. It damn near killed me the first time . Please don’t do this to us again. You have to be honest with him. If you actually want a relationship with him, it doesn’t have to be love even if it’s just friendship, it has to go both ways.

He has to want it as much as you do. And that’s not going to happen till he trusts you. And how can he trust you if what you’re showing him is not the real you?” Mr. Jeon brushed the hair off his face. Jungkook stared at them, confused and a little disoriented .

He knew his parents would always mean well. And as much as part of him wanted to dismiss their worries, the reminded that he’d done that once, and paid a huge price for it, it kept him quiet. It made him listen.

“Jungkook ah… What your father is trying to say is this… You don’t have to buy Taehyung’s love or presence in your life. You don’t have to earn it in some way either. That wouldn’t make it a healthy or equal relationship.

Taehyung isn’t asking you to prove that you care for him. If you really do, he’ll know it anyway. And you have to remember this : Taehyung loved you and cared about you, when you gave him nothing.

You don’t have to earn his love , or prove yourself to him, just to have him in your life. So stop trying . Stop saying and doing things that you think will keep him by your side. Stop confusing him . And just take a step back and get to know him.

Show him who you are. You have to be honest with him and before that, “ she cupped his face gently. “ You gave to be honest with yourself.” ~~~~~

End of Chapter 5

( A/N: I'm once again reiterating that this fic is for mature audiences only. What Tae and JK are dealing with are clinical mental health issues. I did as much research as I could to make it as authentic as possible. But if you feel like it's getting too much. Just stop reading.)

( it's alright if you guys are a little confused.. I understand the story is complex... But it is meant to show that trauma comes in many forms. Even someone who seems so endlessly kind, put together, successful and loving like Jk can have deep rooted issues that affect them.

My initial idea was to show the difference between empathetic parenting, and toxic parenting . But the characters sort of came to life on their own for this one. Especially JK. Although he is raised by amazing parents, he still gets trapped in a relationship that harms him

We know JK and Yoon have been together since childhood. And Yoon has been abused since childhood. Now put an abused child in the company of a child with healthy parents : you get envy, greed. Little Yoon decides that if Jk can have everything, he'll just have Jk himself.

Yoongi begins to use Jk as an emotional crutch/ punching bag. Jk learns to shape his words and actions in a way that doesn't upset Yoon who he genuinely loves. A toxic cycle.

As the story progresses, you'll understand more of Jungkook . And what happened between him and Yoon. And also what it is that Mr. And Mrs Jeon are scared to see repeating. There are many secrets. And what happened that night is just a small part of it.

I have put infinite care into building this story. It's not about two people but about life and how childhood trauma shapes you growing up. I am nowhere close to perfect but I am doing my best. If you could be patient and trust me, I'll take you to that happy ending

Dr. Lee Changmin had first met Jungkook , when the alpha was a young boy of twenty one. Jungkook’s father an old friend of his , had brought him home one summer evening , and the alpha had told him, very hesitantly that he had been feeling nauseous off late.

He also had trouble sleeping, a distinct lack of appetite and small episodes of breathlessness. His physical exams had come back normal. There was nothing wrong with him, healthwise. So, Jungkook’s father had brought him to Dr. Lee.

Right off the bat, Dr. Lee had recognized the very obvious signs of anxiety and depression. Jungkook’s mannerisms were careful, calculated almost, like he was scared of making the wrong move, saying the wrong thing.

Knowing how generously loving and forgiving the Jeons were, Dr. Lee had been very confused indeed. It had taken nearly eighteen months of bi weekly sessions for him to fully understand, what exactly was going on with Jungkook .

And he liked to think that they had done lot of progress over the years, even if Jungkook didn’t sit in for sessions with him anymore. Which is why he was a little surprised when Jungkook’s father called him om a weekday, asking him to fly out to meet him in Jeju, immediately.

He had an inkling it wasn’t anything serious, but he loved the boy deeply, considered him his own, so he took the first flight out.

Jungkook was asleep when he first came in but by noon the next day, the alpha was sitting up, while his husband , sat by his side , quiet and oddly subdued. Dr. Lee recognized him from three years ago but Taehyung didn't seem to remember him. He looked tired, he noted.

Some of his medical instincts perked up at the sight of the omega, but he stayed quiet, watching them interact ,awkward and stilted.There was tension there he realized. Jungkook’s parents sat on the couch looking tense and worried and he felt a sense of frustration.

Parents meant well, but more often than not, they let their fears translate into words or actions that could harm their children. “Taehyung, why don’t you come with me, there’s something I wanted to talk to you about…” Mrs. Jeon said casually and the omega looked up, curious .

Taehyung seemed to hesitate before reaching out and gently squeezing Jungkook's hand. The alpha whispered something and Taehyung nodded, before turning back to his mother in law. Dr. Lee watched them leave, followed by Jungkook’s father and soon it was just him and Jungkook.

For a few seconds they sat in silence. “Sorry you had to come all the way over here, Dr. Lee.” Jungkook said tiredly and Dr. Lee chuckled. He moved to settle into the chair by the bed, watching as Jungkook sat up straighter.

He looked a little thinner than the last time Dr. Lee had seen him, but otherwise seemed fine. “Still apologizing for things that aren’t your fault? Your father was the one who wanted me to come pay you a visit.” He reached for the medical file on the side table.

“I scared them a lot, I think. They must have been really worried if they called you.” Jungkook was quiet while he perused the notes from his attending physician. “ Do you think they want me start therapy all over again?”

Dr. Lee frowned, before placing the files back on the side table again. He turned to look at the alpha a small smile on his face. “Well, do you?” He asked casually. Jungkook seemed taken aback at the question. “I mean, aren’t you the doctor.”

“ Yes, but you haven’t been a patient in years. “ He leaned back, “ So you tell me. Do you feel like you want to start seeing me again.” “No but my mom and dad…”

“Jungkook ah… First of all, parents aren’t omniscient.” He said firmly. “ They like to think they know everything about their children but most of them don’t. And your parents, as much as they love you, aren’t exceptions to that.

So forget about them for a few minutes and tell mewhat happened.” “Nothing. I mean.. I missed my suppressants. It honestly just slipped my mind. And well, I don’t know they started saying all this stuff about me doing the same thing as I did with Yoongi

and now I just replaced him with Taehyung and…” "I see. And how do you feel about all that? ” “I think they’re wrong.” Jungkook said sharply. “ I don’t feel anxious with Taehyung… I mean… I feel anxious for him , I feel worried for him but its not like..

he’s not the reason you know…Not how it was with Yoongi… I mean.. that’s a difference right?” Dr. Lee stayed quiet watching as Jungkook ran a hand over his face. He sighed, looking defeated.

“But they’re right in a way. I tend to… Sometimes I just say things that I think Taehyung wants to hear.” He said softly. “ I .. .. I may have said a few things that I am not really …sure about... And well, they think I’m confusing him.

They think I don’t have real feelings for him and that I’m just playing around with him and they’re sure that Taehyung is upset and sad because of this. Confused and just… just hurt by me , I guess. ” Dr. Lee took a deep breath.

“You know Jungkook, I’m not going to talk about Yoongi or Taehyung or about what you feel for them or what you don’t feel for them. But I am going to say this : The only person who can possibly know what Jungkook’s feelings for Taehyung are…. Is Jungkook himself. Do you agree?”

Jungkook blinked. “Oh. Uh… Well..” “And in the same way, the only one who knows how Jungkook’s words or actions make Taehyung feel …is Taehyung.” He smiled.

“ So stop letting your parents confuse you. I for one don’t think you’re in need of anything more than a small smack to the top of your head.” He changed his tone to something just a little more firm, “ your medications aren’t just for your cycle, Jungkook.

They also help regulate the neurotransmitters in your brain and keep things tidy up there, you understand that? So I want you to promise me you won’t be complacent about taking them hereafter.” The alpha looked just a little ashamed, nodding with his eyes fixed on his feet.

“And about confusing Taehyung.. The only way to fix it is to talk to him and clear up any confusion you feel might be there. Lay out your cards. Tell him where you stand.” “I would if I could figure it out for myself.” Dr.Lee chuckled, before reaching out and riffling his hair.

“Jungkook, we’ve discussed this in therapy , so you probably know it already but I’m going to remind you of it nonetheless. All relationships are buildings. It doesn’t matter if its romantic, platonic or filial : the foundation has to be built on honesty and trust.

If you want something real with this boy, its important that you tell him the truth about yourself. And you can only know that if you ask yourself the very selfish question of : What do I want? ” Jungkook stayed quiet.

“I .. I can’t.. I’m….” He trailed off. “ I can’t be fully honest with him, I’m afraid. I mean, I can’t tell him I’m under medication for my mental health.” “Do you think he would judge you for it?” Dr Lee asked carefully. Jungkook didn’t respond.

“If that is the case, I’m not sure you should be building any kinds of –“ “No.” The alpha said quietly. “ No, that’s not true. I .. I know he’d never judge me for something like that. It’s just.. it’s hard to admit that there’s something wrong with the most fundamental parts

of you. And well, whether he judges me for it or not, I know that he’ll change the way he sees me. I won’t be the same Jungkook anymore in his eyes. And I’m just not sure if I’m ready for that yet. ” Dr Lee hummed. “I see, how do you think he sees you now?" Jungkook hesitated.

“I don’t know. He spent a large part of our childhood seemingly in love with me but…” “Seemingly? You don’t think he really was?” “I mean… He didn’t know me. We hadn’t spoken and well, there wasn’t any reason for him to like me let alone love me so.. “

“So you don’t think he ever loved you?” Jungkook held his gaze for a few seconds. “I’m just asking how you feel about it.” Dr. Lee assured him. “ It may or may not be the truth. That is something only Taehyung will be able to answer with certainly.

I’m just asking you, what you think. So don't be too pressured about giving me a right answer. ” “Well, I don’t think he loved me.” Jungkook said simply. “I see. That’s fine. So according to you he didn’t see you as an object of love and affection?”

“I don’t know. Maybe an object of attraction? Maybe he was attracted to me. Yes. Well his scent was always different around me so, maybe he thought I was handsome.” "Fair. But that was when you were young. What about now? You've lived together for 3 yrs. " He pointed out.

Jungkook looked restless again and Dr Lee waited for a few seconds. When the alpha didn't respond he nodded. "It's alright Jungkook. We don't have to talk about it. That's fine. " He said reassuringly. Jungkook seemed to relax just a little.

"I'm sorry. " He said shakily. "Don't apologize kiddo. " Dr Lee ruffled his hair again. " Remember how it used to be? If it makes you uncomfortable, it gets pushed to the back till you're ready for it." "It's not that it makes me uncomfortable... It's just... " He trailed off.

"Scares you a little? " Dr Lee prompted and Jungkook went very quiet again. "I wasn't... A good person these 3 yrs. " Jungkook sighed. "So even if he did love me, which I don't think he did, well, these 3 yrs would have changed his mind." He said softly.

"I see. And you think telling him the truth about your mental health would further put distance between you two. " " I just don't want him to look at me like I'm a monster. " Jungkook said quietly. " I don't think I could bear that." "I see. " Dr. Lee nodded. " You think that

Would be the outcome of telling him the truth? " Jungkook shrugged. " May I suggest an alternate outcome? Just a theory. I don't know Taehyung the way you do, so you'll have to tell me if that theory is possible. Can you do that for me? " He asked gently.

Jungkook stared at him curious. "Perhaps if you tell him the truth about yourself, maybe he would better be able to understand your actions these past few years. And then maybe he would be able to understand you, as well. Do you think that's possible? "

Jungkook looked surprised, and Dr Lee watched him worry his lower lip between his teeth. "I.. I suppose... " He said carefully. "Well there you go. Why don't you give it a try then? " He smiled. Jungkook exhaled a bit sharply. "Like tell him everything? "

"No." Dr. Lee said simply. " That's just too much pressure on you and him. For now, think about one thing, you feel comfortable with him knowing. When you open an honest conversation, you invite trust. And once the trust builds, the honesty comes more easily. "

“So, one thing.” He said thoughtfully. “One thing only.” “Can I tell him about the first time I had to come see you.” Jungkook asked quietly. Dr Lee blinked , momentarily surprised. “Ah, starting off strong then?” Jungkook exhaled a little.

“About the honesty thing…does it go both ways?” “What do you mean?” “If I’m honest with him, will he be honest with me too?” Dr. Lee considered it carefully.

“If he feels that his truth would be safe in your hands, that you won’t use it against him, then he will. But like I said for him to trust you enough to do that… you need to build that foundation. It may take a while though, fair warning. Rome wasn’t built in a day, you know. ”

Jungkook nodded and Dr Lee straightened. “Speaking of trust, can I trust that you will be more careful with your meds here on out?” The alpha nodded quickly and Dr. Lee hummed.

“I’m going to be sticking around here for the next couple of weeks. Your parents want me close by. And before you apologize, I’m just going to enjoy the beach and the sun. You…should rest up and take it easy, alright? “

He stood up slowly , fixing Jungkook’s blanket around his shoulders. “You’re going to okay son. And so is he. You know that right?” “Yes.” Jungkook nodded. “ Yes, Dr. Lee.”

The doctor carefully picked up his bag, heading back out of the hospital room. In the hallway, he found Mr. Jeon sitting in one of the chairs. He gave his friend a wave. "You never told me you got your certification as a psychiatrist." he said casually. "What?"

"Heard you went around diagnosing the poor kiddo. Told him all about how he's making the same mistakes... Falling into the same problems..." "Changmin - ah.." "No." Dr. Lee said firmly. " Don't ever do shit like that again. You aren't qualified to say things like that."

Mr. Jeon looked away and he sighed. "He's okay." He said firmly, placing a hand on his friend's shoulder."But if you make him doubt it, he's more likely to fall back. Your fears are valid. As parents its natural that you worry for him. But don't make him carry the weight of it."

Mr. Jeon sighed deeply before nodding. “So he’s okay?” he hesitated, “ I just don’t want him to wear himself out, trying to fight other people’s battles.”

“He’s always been okay. And you can’t fight his battles for him either. He has to navigate through his relationship with his husband by himself. Just give him space to make those choices. And remember you do not get to decide what is the right choice for him.”

“Okay , okay. I get it. I went overboard I guess. I’ll apologize to him .And you , make good use of that room huh? Cost an arm and a leg for me to book it for you.” Dr Lee chuckled, giving his friend a warm hug before turning and making his way down the corridor.

Perhaps if he hurried, he could get himself a late lunch at the seafood bistro he had spotted on the way over. ~~~~~~~

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ It was late in the evening when Jungkook’s parents finally dropped them off, back at the bungalow in the resort. Taehyung felt so much better, the crisp sea air invigorating in many ways. He was still drained, although he had spent the past two days resting.

And although Jungkook looked better, well recovered in every way, he couldn’t help but feel ice cold dread , everytime he remembered that evening. “I’m still not completely happy with you wanting to go back to work right away. “ Mr. Jeon said firmly.

“ Are you sure you don’t want to take a couple more days off. Go around the island, the pair of you, get in some sun.” Jungkook moved to hug his father. “Dad, I’ll be fine. I’m sorry I scared you guys , I’ll be more careful here on out, okay?”

He pulled back to smile at both of his parents. “ But now, I want you guys to go back home. I’ll be fine.” Mrs Jeon turned to Taehyung and smiled apologetically.

“I’m sorry we couldn’t bring your mother along. She does have people taking care of her though so don’t worry. I’ll have her call you as soon as we get back, is that alright?” she asked , holding her arms out.

Taehyung nodded, accepting her hug , warmth seeping into him when she ran her palms over his back. When she pulled back she had a worried look on her face. “Are you feeling better now?” She asked gently. Taehyung knew she was referring to the night Jungkook had been ill.

Apparently he had gotten out of the bed and collapsed somewhere in a hallway, found by the nurses there. Mrs. Jeon told him it was probably out of exhaustion but there were little pockets of memory still present inside his head.

And he was sure he had gotten out of that bed for a reason. “I’m fine now.” He reassured her, “ And its alright . As long as mom is doing okay, it’s all good.”

Once the Jeons left, Jungkook moved to open the door to the cabin , holding it for Taehyung but the omega moved to the side, closer to the railing .

From here they could see a part of the lighthouse across the way and even a few fishing boats bobbing along a few miles in from the coast. He leaned over the railing, catching sight of the glowing waters beneath them, lit by the setting sun’s golden glow.

He heard Jungkook’s footfall, and a second later the alpha was leaning in next to him, breathing in deep. “Hey.” He said softly. “Hey yourself.” Taehyung said tiredly. They stayed quiet for a few more seconds. “I’m sorry.” “I’m sorry.”

They both froze and Taehyung laughed despite himself. “Well I know what I’m sorry but, I’m curious what you’re about to apologize for.”

“For scaring you.” Jungkook said quietly.” For missing my meds. For forcing you to come here. For making it seem like you had to do everything I asked you to.” “Jungkook …”

“No.. Just… I’ve been thinking about the past few weeks and I can’t help but realize, I’ve been making all the decisions here. I just decide everything for you . That’s got to be infuriating.” Jungkook said quietly. Taehyung took a second to consider the words.

“Its less infuriating and more ….condescending sometimes.” He said finally. “ Like you don’t trust me to make any right decision. And sometimes I just wonder… that maybe because I screwed things up once, you expect me to screw up everytime.”

“Tae, that’s not it. I just… sometimes I think I know what’s best for everyone and I’m slowly realizing that’s not always true.” Jungkook placed one leg on the railing, looking like he was going to climb over it to sit on the wooden partition

but Taehyung grabbed him quickly, tugging him back to the ground. “Don’t do that.” He said sharply, “ It’s dangerous.” The alpha gave him a look but didn’t try to climb back up. “Dad told me what happened that night. I’m sorry you had to go through that.”

“You were the one who went through it. I was just the horrified bystander who had no idea what was happening. “ Taehyung whispered, voice trailing off. He didn’t add how much it had hurt, the not knowing part.

How the doctors and nurses had all looked at him in disbelief when he told them he had no idea what meds Jungkook was won, no idea how often this happened, no idea if Jungkook had ever had seizures before. Just no idea about him at all.

There in the hospital room, Taehyung had felt the distance between them so strongly. The awful truth had sunk in like a five inch dagger straight through his heart : He didn’t know a thing about Jeon Jungkook. “I’m sorry.” Jungkook said again.

“I just.. I wish I knew so I could have helped in some way, that’s all.” Taehyung looked away. “Do you want to know?” Jungkook’s voice was low. The silence that followed felt charged somehow. Taehyung hesitated. “If you’re comfortable telling me then… sure.”

Jungkook seemed to be struggling for words for a few seconds. And then he reached over and grabbed his hand. “Can we go down there?” He pointed at the waters. “ Out in the deck there’s stairs that lead down to the water. Can we go there?” “Now?”

“Yeah. I just.. I want to dip my feet in there. It looks like it would feel good don’t you think?” Taehyung stared at the alpha, worry slowly building. “Jungkook are you okay?” He asked with a frown and the alpha groaned a little. “The stairs. Out by the deck. Please.”

“Okay.” Taehyung made to move towards the door. The deck was only accessible from the inside of their bedroom. But he’d barely taken a single step when Jungkook grabbed his wrist again. “Or do you want to try the pool?” The alpha smiled, looking a little jittery.

“Try as in… get into it?” “Well, yeah. That’s kind of how pools work.” Jungkook laughed. Taehyung laughed along for a second. “I can’t swim.” He said firmly and Jungkook went still. “What?” He frowned. “ Why?”’

“ I don’t know. I just can’t.” Taehyung made to pull his wrist away but in true Jungkook fashion, the alpha merely stepped closer, the hold on his hand still firm. “Didn’t your dad teach you when you were young?”

Taehyung had no idea how to respond to that without revealing how fucked up and awful his entire childhood had been. And the last thing he wanted to do was talk about his terrible childhood with the poster child for the results of good parenting. "No, he didn't. Ow."

"Oh, sorry.." Jungkook dropped his hand, looking apologetic and Taehyung rubbed at the skin which was already pinking up. He glared at the alpha who had the good grace to flush. "Your skin is really ... sensitive." He said casually. Taehyung sighed. "Jungkook I'll be honest."

"i'm tired and also smell like the hospital. I was hoping to take a warm shower and sleep till its time for dinner. I genuinely would prefer that to...whatever this is ." he motioned between them.

" Listen if you're worried about all the stuff you said these past few days, just don't be. I know you were off suppressants, I know you didn't mean any of that nonsense about wanting me and all those words about how you needed me and i promise I won't hold you to them. "

"Right... " Jungkook stared at him. " Nonsense... Of course. " "I mean..The more I think about it these days, " Taehyung took a deep breath, " The more I realize, we're not really right for each other in anyway. " He laughed nervously. " I'm not what you need. I understand that."

Jungkook didn't respond, merely glancing at him once and then out at the ocean. "Yeah? " The alpha chuckled. "Yeah. And you're right. You do scare me sometimes. You're.... Too much. Sometimes. " He trailed off, not even sure what he was saying anymore. "Oh, okay. Wow. "

Jungkook took a step away from him. "Sorry. I just don't want to make this more difficult for us than it has to be. And I know you really want to help me remember that night but... To be honest, I don't really care much about it anymore. I just .. I want this over with. "

Jungkook hesitated for a few seconds before nodding quickly. "Okay. That's fine, Taehyung. I understand. Like I said, I'm sorry for... Being too much I guess. " He laughed, " But thank you for being honest with me. That makes me feel happy actually. And can I just ask you for

One thing? " Taehyung didn't respond, merely waiting. "Can I just ask that you be honest always? Like you are now. About what you want me to do? " "What? " " Like now, you told me you don't want to talk. I appreciate that. That way I won't make you uncomfortable. "

"So the next time I do Or say something that makes you upset, just tell me. And I promise I'll stop. " Taehyung felt an iron fist around his heart, squeezing so tight he couldn't breathe. "I.... Alright. " He said shakily. "Okay." Jungkook smiled, nodding. "Thank you, Tae. "

The alpha moved to the door, opening it wide and Taehyung felt stifled. Suddenly the idea of going in there and spending the evening locked with Jungkook felt like the worst possible thing to do. But before he could say anything, Jungkook was grabbing his camera.

"I'm going to take a look around the place. Scout the best places for photographs. "The alpha said casually, not meeting his eyes. "You should rest and I'll see you at dinner?" Tae could only nod. He watched Jungkook walk away an odd mixture of relief and misery in his veins.

After a long shower, Taehyung stayed tossing and turning in the bed for a good half hour before finally giving up his dignity to rummage in the alphas bag finding one of his t shirts. He slipped it on, curling into the mattress, only feeling worse when sleep came at once.

He only woke up when Jungkook shook him awake, the alpha freshly showered , hair still damp and dripping onto Taehyung's face. "Tae? It's almost time for Dinner... " He was saying gently and Taehyung groaned, blinking groggy eyes up at him. Jungkook was smiling at him.

Taehyung groaned, pulling himself up to sit, and Jungkook seemed to freeze. "Is that my-? " Tae felt his blood go cold, just as his face burned red. He had fully intended to change out of it before Jungkook came back. Oh no. "It's fine. It's fine .. You look good.. In it. "

Taehyung felt like a lemon was stuck somewhere in his throat. "So, we still have about an hour and a half till they serve dinner. And I asked them to serve it here, on the deck, is that okay? " Jungkook was smiling. Taehyung nodded. "Okay, so till then... Pool? "

Taehyung rubbed the heel of his wrists against his eye. "Pool? Jungkook I told you I can't... " "Swim. Yes. But, it's never too late to learn. " Taehyung stared up at him owlishly. "What? " "I'm saying, there's a pool, there's a person who knows how to swim" He shrugged.

"No." Taehyung said at one, heart jumping so bad he felt light headed. " Absolutely not.. I can't.. No. " "Oh come on.. I'll take care of you, I promise. " Jungkook insisted, already reaching for him and Taehyung kicked out, trying to crawl away but the alpha grabbed his ankle.

Taehyung yelped, landing on his face on the sheets, squeaking a little when Jungkook just dragged him down to the edge of the bed, ruthless. "No!! " He whined, hating the flurry of butterflies threatening to burst out of his ribcage. " Jungkook.. I can't do this... "

The alpha grabbed his waist, and Taehyung felt a whooshing sensation in his tummy as he got lifted up and off the bed, landing over Jungkooks broad shoulders. He was suddenly face to face with the alphas back. "I'm not a sack of rice, let me down! " He kicked out.

The flat of Jungkooks hand landed square on the curve of his butt, and the omega went completely still. It wasn't hard, not even firm enough to register as anything more than a touch, but the action was enough to turn his brain to mush. "Did... Did you just spank me? "

"Only because words don't seem to work with you." Jungkook said casually, moving to the large doors that opened out into the deck. " And you can't lie that you don't like the water. You said one of the items in your bucket list was to swim with dolphins .. " Jungkook said firmly.

Taehyung stopped struggling letting Jungkook carry him out into the deck The alpha lowered him to the floor slowly, Taehyung gripping his shoulders to balance himself, and when their eyes met, Tae felt like he was floating. "When? " He said softly. " When did I say that? "

Jungkook kept his hands on his waist, staring at him with an unreadable look on his face. Taehyung curled his fingers into the fabric of Jungkook's shirt. "Sophomore year in college. There was a debate and we had an ice breaking session before that and you said that. Yeah. "

Taehyung felt his pulse quicken, a pool of disbelief concealing at the base of his tummy and he gripped the alpha harder, teeth tugging on his lower lip as he exhaled out. "That's.. " He stopped, unable to find words. "Too much? " Jungkook whispered. "" Did I scare you again?"

Taehyung closed his eyes, shaking his head. "No.. " But the way you make me feel scares me. "Good." Jungkook smiled, "because I need you to trust me in there. " He nodded at the po. "Can't do that if I scare you." He was teasing now. Oh, he was going to regret this wasn't he?

The water was cool against his skin and Taehyung stayed close to the edge, gripping the metal railing built into the side of the pool, treading water as he waited for Jungkook to come out of the changing rooms.

Thankfully the depth of the pool wasn’t enough for him to accidentally drown or something like that. But he was still just a little terrified to go to the far end, which opened out into the ocean, giving the illusion of floating right over the deep and dark waters.

He could tell that the view was probably spectacular there but the safety railing was here. So here Taehyung would remain. He valued his life just a tad bit more than he valued the view. "Not getting in deeper?" Jungkook's voice came from behind him and Taehyung swallowed.

Part of him didn't really want to turn around and see Jungkook wearing just his swimming shorts, but he would look ridiculous avoiding eye contact, especially when it was just the two of them there. "What part of I can't swim, do you not understand, Jungkook? " He scowled.

The alpha chuckled softly behind him, and a second later a soft splash in the water told him he had gotten in. Turning a bit to the side, he got ready to tell him that they didn't have to do this when Jungkook all but crashed into him, wrapping both arms around him.

Taehyung kicked out instinctively, panicking and losing his grip on the railing, head going underwater before he could stop himself. Water went straight up his nose and he coughed, spluttering as strong hands dragged him back up to the surface. "You... You maniac!! " He yelled.

Jungkook who had both his hands curved around Taehyung's ribs was laughing hard. "Oh wow, when you said you can't swim I didn't think You meant you're the type to drown in nine inches of water. " He grinned, and Taehyung swung a closed fist to the side of his torso.

"I hate you. Unhand me right now. " He demanded, but Jungkook shook his head, tugging closer and moving around to stand behind him.. "Taehyung, come on... You told me you'd trust me." "When did I ever say that?! " He howled, terrified, even as Jungkook tried to pull him closer.

"Listen.. You need to relax... " Jungkook wrapped one arm around his waist turning him around, his other arm going underwater like he was about to swing him up into his arms. "What are you doing? " Taehyung panicked. "You need to lay on your back and try and learn to float..

Taehyung screamed kicking out again when Jungkook tried to lay him down on the water, catching the alpha right around the thigh and making him grunt in pain... "Oh for the love of -" The sound of the room bell ringing made both of them go still. "Is the food here already?"

Jungkook frowned deeply, glancing at his watch. " It's not supposed to be here for another hour and I specifically said no one was to disturb us for anything. What are these people upto?" "Wait, I'll go! " Taehyung jumped wager to get out of the water. He quickly moved to the

Edge of the pool, levering himself up and out. Grabbing a large fluffy towel from one of the lounge chairs, he wrapped it around his chest, moving to the bedroom door and slipping in. He made a beeline to the front door and opened it with a smile only to feel his heart stop.

"Min Yoongi. " He choked out. The omega on the porch gave him a level look. "Is Jungkook in there? I want to have a word with him in private. " Taehyung couldn't quite form Words. For some reason he felt guilt pool in his stomach. "He's in... The pool. " He said finally.

"The pool? " Yoongi scoffed. " Ah that explains your state. Wow, already letting him all over yourself huh? Are you that easy, Kim? Where's the dignity huh? But then you never were one for acting dignified. If you were you wouldn't have been panting after a man in a relationship"

Taehyung recoiled, heart picking up a bit, but his own anger simmering just beneath his skin. "If the relationship meant as much as you keep saying it meant, " He exhaled, " You'll be in here and I'll be elsewhere. Whatever it was between you two, Jungkook clearly didn't

Think it was worth saving, did he? " Yoongi chuckled at that. "Look at you baring your fangs at me. And here I was trying to help you. If you're doing so well, maybe I should just leave.. " He shrugged. "Help me? Help me with what? " "Jungkook." Yoongi whispered. " Hi. "

"What are you doing here? " Jungkook's growl was punctuated with hands curling around Taehyung's shoulder. Yoongis gaze shifted to where Jungkook held Taehyung, his jaw going tight. "There's something I have to say to you. It's about that night. " He said quietly.

Taehyung felt his skin go icy cold at that, breath leaving him in a sharp exhale and Jungkook shifted closer, wrapping one arm around him. "What night? " He said casually. Yoongi frowned. "The night everyone thought you slept with Taehyung. " He rolled his eyes.

"Really? " Jungkook's tone was even. Taehyung felt light headed, his head starting to ache little. But Jungkook merely hugged him closer. "Well, it doesn't matter. Taehyung and I have decided to put that night behind us. So, we don't want to talk about it. " He said firmly.

Taehyung felt the weight in his chest melt off, his panic dissipating at the words. Yes. Yes, he had told Jungkook that earlier hadn't he? And Jungkook had listened. Even though it was Yoongi here, now.. Jungkook had listened to him.. Had respected his wishes.

"Putting it behind? " Yoongi turned his gaze on Taehyung. " You think you can do that Taehyung? After what happened that night at the hospital, you really think you can put that night behind you? Don't be a fucking idiot. " He scoffed.

"The Hospital..? " Taehyung frowned. " What... What are you talking about? " "Stop talking nonsense, Yoongi hyung. You need to leave. " Jungkook said firmly. But Yoongi wasn't listening to him. His eyes stayed fixed on Taehyung. "It won't stop you know. " He shook his head.

Taehyung frowned. "What are you talking about? " He asked shakily. "The headaches... The dreams... The fear... It won't stop. It will however get worse. Worse and worse till you start fearing your own shadow. That what you want Kim Taehyung? " "Okay that's enough! "

Jungkook growled, pulling Taehyung in and stepping in front of him. "You're scaring him. You need to leave right now. " He growled, eyes flashing red as he glared down at the omega, his voice making Taehyung shiver. Yoongi flinched at the alpha voice as well.

" He doesn't know does he? " Yoongi said firmly. " He doesn't know about the dreams, the flashes of memory that confuse you ? The confusion where you don't know what's real and what's in your head.. You can't run from this, Kim. Trust me. "

"I... I don't know what you're talking about... " Taehyung said quietly, mind racing. He had no idea how to respond, because he had told Jungkook he didn't care about that night. And he meant it. Thinking about it only made him sick. "I.. Don't want your help. " He said firmly.

"Are you insane? After what happened that night? You were lucky I was there!! What if the next time, you're with someone who doesn't understand?! " He growled. "Yoongi either you leave or I call security. " Jungkook growled, furious. The omega laughed in disbelief.

"Kim Taehyung... You need to see a fucking doctor. " He growled. " Tell him about that night at the hospital... About the flashback you had.. " "What the hell are you even on about? Taehyung fainted because he was tired. My mother was there. Nothing else happened. "

" Your mother? You think I could tell your mother anything?! " Yoongi scowled. " I tried to tell her, but she was too busy yelling her head off at me to even listen. I came to the hospital that night. And I caught Taehyung reliving that night.. " He snapped. "What? "

"He's lying. " Jungkook growled. " Stop this hyung. You're only scaring him. You need to stop right now. Nothing happened to him that night. He's fine. " He snapped. " My mother would never do something like that. " Yoongi stared at him. "Okay then. " He stepped back.

"You're making all this shit up based. On what you went through... But just so you know , Taehyung isn't going through anything like that. He's fine and he's going to be fine. Both of us are. We don't need your fucking help. " Yoongi nodded. "Right. Of course. "

The omega looked up, staring right at Taehyung. "You aren't as smart as you look are you? After everything I just said, you're still going to deny that your repressed memories are starting to spill out now? " Taehyung stared at him in confusion. Spilling out?

"I don't know what you're talking about. " He said softly. Yoongi scoffed and turned on his heel. They watched as the omega stalked away. He stopped a few dozen feet away. "Come find me when you start smelling those fucking almonds again. " He growled. Taehyung froze.

"What the hell is he even talking about? " Jungkook scoffed and Taehyung clenched his fists. Almonds? How did Yoongi know about the almonds? "Taehyung are you okay? " Jungkook cupped his face, eyes worried. " I'm sorry you had to go through that. " The omega swallowed.

He couldn't tell Jungkook. And what would he tell him anyway? That he was smelling things that weren't there? That he was seeing things that made no sense to him? That he had dreams that felt so real he woke up shaking and trembling? He couldn't. That was his burden to bear.

Taehyung was the one who had told Jungkook he was too much for him. Taehyung was the one who had told him they weren't right for each other. That he wanted to get this thing over with. Taehyung was the one who had shut Jungkook down when he wanted to talk And now?

How could he possibly ask Jungkook to listen to him? What right did he have? He couldn't be that selfish. He was done being selfish when it came to Jungkook. He would never go down that road again. So he smiled, nodding. "I'm okay. " He lied, licking his lips. " I'm fine."

"Are you sure? " Jungkook asked gently, worry evident in his eyes. And Tae somehow felt unworthy of that worry. He felt unworthy, undeserving of all this kindness Jungkook seemed to have for him. And it made him greedy too. He found himself wanting more. And that was wrong.

"Yeah. I'm sure.. It's... All good. " He nodded. "If something's wrong... You'll tell me right? " Taehyung laughed a little. "Of course I will. " "Okay... Okay... I suppose we can't get back in the pool? " Jungkook grinned. " Let's just change for dinner then? "

"....And then, the giraffe just stuck its head in straight through mom's open window and licked her right in the mouth..... " "Oh.. Ew.. " Taehyung laughed, gagging mentally and Jungkook guffawed. "I know.. Dad refused to kiss her for the rest of the trip. " He laughed.

Taehyung took a bite of the soft crab meat. "What about you? Did you have trips like that with your parents? " Taehyung hesitated before shaking his head. "Other than visiting my mom in Daegu, I never traveled anywhere. " He admitted. "Hmm... I love travelling. "

"There's always something new to see and learn. And of course the chance to photograph beautiful places. " He hummed. " One of the best things about working with this magazine is the travel opportunities. " He smiled, " Also, that reminds me, I need to start work tomorrow. "

" You can stay here and rest if you like , or you can come with me. It's entirely up to you. " Jungkook smiled. Taehyung nodded. "I... I'll see how I feel about it in the morning. " He said hesitantly and Jungkook nodded before refilling his wine. "No problem. "

As Jungkook talked, Tae watched him carefully. He looked more handsome then ever, like this at close quarters. Taehyung looked around them, the luxury villa, the high dining cuisine, Jungkook looking at him like he was happy to be with him Things he had once only dreamed of.

Even though it was just the two of them, Jungkook had dressed up in a fitted button down and well tailored slacks. He had styled his hair and he looked so breathtaking, Taehyung wanted to sob at the unfairness of it all. ".. Take pictures of you too if you wanted. "

Taehyung nodded, absently, too caught in the moment, his gaze trained on Jungkook. The alpha was so, so handsome. And Taehyung felt that familiar pull, that tug straight inside his ribcage. The feeling of being so drawn to someone you couldn't breath anymore.

Taehyung had fallen hard and fast for him, even from a distance, and so like this up close ,with Jungkook right there, his inhibitions lowered from the wine, he couldn't quite remember all the reasons he shouldn't be thinking of him that way. He just couldn't stop staring.

"... The dunes by the water are absolutely gorgeous and we could... " Taehyung stared at his eyes, so bright and sparkly, like he carried entire constellations in there. His lovely skin, a little golden from the sun. His lips. The omega licked his own. He remembered them.

Remembered exactly how they felt against his own. " Are you okay? "Jungkook's voice made him blink. The slow buzz in his head made him smile. " Yeah.. Just... Tired I guess.. " "Oh then let's get to bed soon. " Jungkook grinned. "Let me just finish this... "

Taehyung watched him finish his food before carefully placing the fork down. He watched as Jungkook finished the last of the wine, smiling. He watched as he stood up , pushing his chair back before coming over to his side. The alpha bent over him, smiling as he came closer.

As his face came within a few inches of Taehyung's own, the omega had the sudden urge to check if he was remembering it right... Jungkook's lips. So he reached out, gently gripping the lapels of his collar, tugging him down till their lips met.

Mmm. Soft and plush. Definitely the way he remembered. But a lot less forceful. Jungkook had kissed him rather aggressively back then. Now he wasn't that firm. In fact he wasn't moving at all, it felt like. The alpha was frozen, not kissing him back. Kissing? Wait.

Kissing?!! Taehyung felt his eyes go wide, his mind sobering up so fast he almost felt faint. He dropped his hand from Jungkook's collar, pulling away to stare up at the alpha who looked stunned. "Uh... " Jungkook cleared his throat. " Wow. Okay. " He swallowed. " Right. "

"Sorry. I... Thought... You... You were just so close... I... " " I was just going to pull the chair so you could get up.. " Jungkook said shakily. "But I understand why you may have misunderstood... It's all good. It's fine. No harm no foul. " He laughed.

"Right... Of course.. " Taehyung laughed, gripping the edge of the table, his skin heating up as he felt Jungkook's scent change into something darker, more heavy. The first, subtle sign of arousal. Something that only happened in response to an Omega's scent. His scent.

Tae felt like his face was on fire as he stood up, really fast, wanting to run into the bedroom as fast as he could but he misjudged his step, nearly crashing into the alpha who hadn't moved an inch away from him. Jungkook caught him close, and Taes hands landed on his chest.

He curled his fingers into the fabric, crushing the silk before he could stop himself. "Fuck.. Sorry.. I'm clumsy.. " He laughed. Jungkook didn't. He didn't let go of him either. "Taehyung.. " The alpha whispered. He closed his eyes. "We... We shouldn't.. ".

But even as he said it, the omega leaned in closer, breathing him in. Jungkook smelled so good and he wanted more of it. He could feel desire pool at the pit of his stomach, liquid heat that made his thighs ache and his insides clench. " We can't.. " He whispered,

Arm coming up to wrap around the alphas neck, his lips finding their way to the junction of his neck and shoulders where the scent of him was the strongest. Tae buried his nose there, breathing him in, hand gripping the alpha 's trim waist. "We shouldn't do this.. " He trembled.

"Yeah... " Jungkook whispered, hand moving up to gently cup the curve of his waist. " We absolutely shouldn't... " His lips found the soft skin just below Taehyung's year, placing a gentle kiss there. " This is a bad idea... " He pressed another kiss to the side of his neck.

"The worst... " Taehyung agreed, gripping his bicep and squeezing a little before exhaling and drawing back to stare up at him. Jungkook looked like he'd run a mile, skin flushed snd eyes glassy. " We should stop. " Taehyung hesitated Eyes falling on jungkook's lips , " Soon. "

Something in his gaze seemed to tug on Jungkook's impulses, and the alpha stepped closer, gripping his waist and leaning down, one hand moving up to sink into Taehyung's hair, gripping gently and tilting his face up, so he could slot his lips over Taehyung's.

Taehyung melted into the kiss, hands coming up to grip his shoulders, even as Jungkook pressed him against the table, his tongue tracing the seam of his lips, begging entrance. Taehyung parted his lips on instinct, moaning a little as the alpha licked into his mouth.

Taehyung's hands moved from his shoulder to his chest, fingers catching on the bare skin at the base of his throat. He stroked the skin there for a second, but it wasn't enough, and he whined a little, frustrated because he wanted more, wanted to touch morenof Jungkook's golden

Skin, and Jungkook groaned, hand coming up to unbutton his own shirt, quick and efficient, tugging the fabric aside , before grabbing Taehyung's hand and pressing it to his body. "Fuck, more.." Jungkook growled, moving to tug Taehyung's shirt out of his slacks.

Taehyung arched into his touch, whimpering when Jungkook moved his palm down to the curve of his ass, squeezing a little before slipping his hand up into his shirt, tracing every rib and and every curve, moving up to his chest, before thumbing gently on his nipple.

Taehyung trembled, his body going lax at being touched so intimately, for the first time in his life. He felt his bones melt, his legs giving up almost as he leaned into the touch, panting. He could feel himself get wet, his insides clenching down and aching to be filled.

And then it stopped. Taehyung blinked confused as Jungkook went still. "Taehyung.. " The alpha breathed out shakily, " I think this is where we stop. " Taehyung sobbed out in frustration, body screaming at him to grab Jungkook and kiss him, make him change his mind.

"Please... Just a little... ". " Tae, I can smell you.. " Jungkook whispered, pulling him in and hugging him close, panting a little against his ear. ' if we go further , neither of us can stop. " "Yes... Right.. Remind me why that's bad again? " Taehyung choked out.

Jungkook chuckled. "Mostly because we're out on the deck and if we do it here they'll ban us from the resort. " He teased. Taehyung exhaled. "Right. " He laughed, body weak and trembling from being denied. " Can't have that. " "I'm sorry, baby. " Jungkook whispered.

Authors Note : There's something I noticed in a lot of qrts that I wanted to address. There's a lot of frustration and want for " Healing " For Tae. I understand you guys want him to get better but there's somethings I wanted to share about trauma healing.

Before I start, I'm also someone who has been through many of the things addressed in this fic. I'm also on a journey where I'm trying to get better everyday. I have many triggers, responses, I hurt people around me, I don't trust etc etc.

I have also been to therapy. First, something about therapy. It's not like a poll you pop and you get better in six months and your trauma and problems just vanish. No. Therapy is just getting tools to better handle your issues so you don't hurt yourself or the people

Around you. Second, healing is never linear. As in, even if you've healed, even if you've gotten much better, there will always be days when you fall back into old patterns. It doesn't mean your healing so far is. Pointless. It just means that you're also human.

For the fic : Taehyung is getting better. He's not the same guy he was at the beginning of the fic. He is slowly opening himself to the possibility of getting to know Jungkook. It won't happen at once. it may happen and then he may change his mind again... All of it is fine.

That's how people heal. Finally, The whole don't enjoy yourself like you're healed. Don't pretend like everything is okay. No. This is not right. There is no therapist in the world who will ask you to put your life on pause to heal. That's not how it goes.

They can get to know each other, they can learn new things about each other, they can explore what they want and need, without constantly being weighed down by the pressure to heal. I hope you guys trust me with this fic

I promise, they're making progress.

This is exactly how progress looks.

(This picks off right from the last scene.. So it's a continuation of the last tweet)

Taehyung wasn't sure if it was the wine or Jungkook's touch that made him feel so floaty and intoxicated, his skin heating up and legs trembling just a little as Jungkook held him. The little endearment didn't escape him but he was too winded to fully process it.

Jungkook was warm against him, his hands stroking his back and Taehyung felt stupid , because it was just a kiss. He shouldn't feel so ... Flustered over a little kiss. And why was it so hard to get his breathing under control again. "Is it always like this? " He laughed,

nervous and shaky, " When you start kissing and then stop? Does it always feel this... weird? " Jungkook hummed, stroking his hair for a second before gently running his fingers through the soft strands. "Weird? What do you mean? " Taehyung inhaled and exhaled.

"I feel like I really want something but I don't know what... " He whispered. " There's this sort of hunger inside me and I just.. I don't know why but my skin feels all itchy and I want to scream but I also want to kiss you again although I know it's not right.." He blurted out.

Jungkook's hands stilled for a second. "I mean.. I suppose we got a little caught up in the moment. " He laughed, " But it's not always... Wait a minute.. Taehyung. " The alpha pulled back, gently putting distance between them, " Are you saying you've never been kissed before?"

Taehyung stared down at the wine, glaring at it. Oh great. He stepped back, wrapping his arms around himself, rubbing over his bare skin and laughing awkwardly. "Uh... Sorry. That's weird right? I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable.. It's stupid. I know.. "

"No... No of course not. " Jungkook said swiftly holding his hands up and all Taehyung could take in was the fact that his shirt was fully unbuttoned, the fabric parted around his smoothly chiseled abs, and that was having a direct effect on his pulse rate, spiking it sky high.

"Can I just... " The omega smiled before moving forward and quickly reaching for the top button, closing it for him before moving down. " You'll get cold.. " He laughed nervously and Jungkook stared down at where his hands worked over the buttons. "It's not weird. It's just

surprising. " Jungkook said with a shrug. " I mean.. You are really beautiful. " He looked up at him, " And I mean, really, unfairly, breathtakingly beautiful. " Taehyung kept his gaze on his own fingers as he finished closing the last button. "Well..not enough apparently. "

He chuckled, pulling back and staring at him with a shrug. "It's not for lack of wanting it. " He grimaced. " I wasn't any different from other omegas it's just... I had this dream about my first kiss and it involved.. " He stopped, " Well I guess that dream did come true. "

The moment he said it he felt the blood rush to his face. Jungkook blinked , clearly not processing what he had just said, but when the realization hit home, the alphas brows shot up into his hair. "Oh.. You're dream first kiss was with... " "I'm going to go to bed now!! "

Taehyung turned on his heel, ready to run but Jungkook grabbed his arm tugging him back around till he crashed into him. Taehyung bit his lips, not enjoying the anxiety his own confession brought him, because he wasn't sure if it made Jungkook uncomfortable. "Hey...look at me."

"I can't.. " Tae choked out. Jungkook laughed but didn't push, wrapping one arm around him instead , a gesture that was fast becoming familiar. Tae pressed his palms to the alphas chest, trying to keep his senses. "Why not? " Jungkook pressed a kiss to the top of his head.

Taehyung bit his lips, trying to think of the right answer. Jungkook deserved honesty at the least. "Its just when I see you... I'm scared that I'll realize that maybe Something that means a lot to me doesn't mean much to you. " He shook his head. " I'm sorry. "

Jungkook didn't respond for a second. "It's the eyes. " Tae whispered. " They're the windows to the soul you know. " He laughed hesitantly. And then Taehyung felt the gentle touch of his forefinger right under his chin, tilting his face to the side so their eyes could meet.

Jungkook leaned in closer, finger still curled around his chin. "And what do my eyes tell you? " He whispered, holding his gaze. Tae blinked up at him, his stomach clenching because all he could see was raw, naked want and desire. He gripped his shirt. "You're killing me. "

Jungkook chuckled, his hand moving up to gently grip his chin, thumb rubbing over his lower lip. "Am I? " He sighed, leaning in till his lips barely brushed against Taehyung's own, " Because there's no word in the world that could possibly describe what you do to me Taehyung. "

Taehyung felt his breath hitch as Jungkook pressed in against him, both hands coming up to gently cup his face, " Taehyung when you tell me how you feel, I promise I'll never take advantage of that. " He said softly." I would never do that to someone I care about."

"Do you trust me when I say that you're important to me? When I say that I want to be here for you, in whatever way I can? Do you trust me Tae, even a little? " Taehyung felt something break inside his heart, the raw honesty in Jungkooks words and the heat of hia gaze

Making it impossible for him to say no, even inside his own head. Jungkooks sincerity and affection for him felt like the midday Sun over his face. No matter how much Taehyung tried to close his eyes, to deny it was there, The warmth of it just never went away.

He couldn't quite bring himself to speak, so he nodded hesitantly and Jungkooks face lit up when he did. "Good." The alpha said softly, "because you're going to have to put up with it for as long as you let me stay in your life. " He smiled, before leaning in closer,

"Now tell me, Tae, have you had any dreams for your second kiss? "

Taehyung blinked, surprised by the sudden switch and when he glanced back at him, Jungkook was already leaning in, his lips pressing against his own in a soft, almost feather light kiss. Taehyung reacted instinctively pushing back with more intent, but Jungkook held him back.

"No." The alpha said sternly. " Wait. " He grinned. " The last kiss left you feeling hungry and weird... Right? You asked me if that's how it always feels to be kissed... " He shook his head. " It doesn't have to. It can feel... Satisfying too. Want me to show you? "

Taehyung blinked at him, disoriented for a second. He felt that desperate yearning again, this dangerous need to get closer. It made him want to throw caution to the winds a little, made him want things he'd never even dreamed of before. And Jungkook was here, and he felt.. Safe.

He hesitated before lightly touching the alphas cheeks. "I mean... I didn't really mind the other kind... It felt good too. " He bit his lips a little. " And didn't you say we'll get banned from the resort if we stay out here? " Jungkook blinked, clearly surprised. "Tae... "

"Let's go back in. " Taehyung hesitated, before pressing a small kiss to Jungkooks forehead. " You have to rest too. Tomorrow's a big day. " Jungkook sighed deeply, before pulling away from him slowly. He gave him a small pout that made Taehyung laugh. "What? "

"That wasn't what I thought you meant when you said you wanted to get back in..." Jungkook sighed, " I hoped... " He trailed off. The omega grinned, grabbing his arms and turning him around before pushing him toward the bedroom. "What did you hope? " He laughed.

"That you could wear me tonight instead of my shirt. "

Taehyung squawked in disbelief, before punching his back. Jungkook laughed, moving to the door and opening it slowly, stepping back so Taehyung could enter first. "I'm not ready for things like that. " Taehyung said quickly trying not to imagine those ' things'.

"I know. " Jungkook smiled, moving to the closet and unbuttoning his shirt. He moved to place it in the laundry but Taehyung cleared his throat. "Can I have that one. " He asked softly. " It's really soft and it smells really good. I love... The perfume you were wearing."

"I wasn't wearing any perfume , Tae. " Jungkook chuckled, holding it out for him nonetheless, " So I'll take that as a compliment. "

Once they settled into bed, lying on their side and facing each other, Taehyung took a deep breath. "You wanted to tell me what happened. Earlier. Out in the porch. " He bit his lips, trying not to remember how rude he had been to Jungkook. " About what happened to you. "

Jungkook hummed, reaching out and gently picking something from the sloping curve of Taehyungs cheekbones. He held it up for him to see, before placing it on the back of his hand. "Make a wish. " He said quietly. "Jungkook... " "Quick... Make a wish" He insisted.

Taehyung hesitated, before taking a deep breath. He had stopped wishing for things a long time ago and didn't really know what he wanted anymore. Except the man lying right next to him. And the smile on his face to stay there forever. "I wish this night never ends.. "

Jungkook frowned a little. "Why did you say that out loud. You never say your wishes out loud. " Jungkook shook his head, before blowing the small eyelash off. He turned to Taehyung and took a deep breath. "The meds I take, they aren't just for my cycle." He said.

Taehyung stayed quiet, waiting for him to continue. "They're anti depressants. They help me regulate my... Well anxiety and depression. " He hesitated. " I've been taking them for about four years now. " "Oh.. " Taehyung wasn't quite sure what to say. "Do they... Help you? "

Jungkook seemed to consider that for a few seconds. "They do. They help me a lot. I need them" He said hesitantly. " Yeah." He laughed a little. " It's hard to admit that out loud, but it's the truth I guess. I need them. " Taehyung felt something clench inside his heart.

"I'm sorry I didn't know.. " He said quietly. " If I did, I would have reminded you to take them. " Jungkook gave him a stricken look reaching out and cupping his face. "Tae, no.. You didn't know because I never told you. Don't apologize for that. " He sighed. "I was an idiot."

Jungkook hesitated, before shuffling a little closer and taking Taehyungs hand in his own. "The meds help.. " He hesitated. " And you do too. " Tae blinked, confused. " M-Me? " "People make me anxious. " Jungkook said quietly. " Even my parents do sometimes. But not you."

Taehyung stared at him, stunned. He couldn't quite process what he was hearing. And he couldn't quite understand why his heart was caving in at the words. Jungkooks words felt real and honest. So much so that the voice of denial inside him was silenced. "Jungkook.. "

"It's not something I'm scared of anymore. " He said quietly. " It scared me at first. Because I didn't know how to deal with it. " Jungkook hesitated " But now, I do. " "You know how to deal with it? " He asked shakily.

"No, I realised it isn't something I have to deal with. It's just something I have to accept. Something I have to admit to myself." He smiled. " And I'm going to do just that. I'm going to accept that having you in my life makes it more bearable. Makes it... Easier to live. "

"So Taehyung, " Jungkook said quietly, "this is me apologizing for all the times I've made you feel like you made my life difficult. I made it difficult for both of us. And I know it's too much to ask. So I won't ask you to forgive me for that. But I wish you wouldn't remember

Them anymore. Especially when you leave this marriage, when you leave me...Don't remember anything I said these three years alright? Just remember tonight. Just remember that you made my life better. That's all I ask, really. "

Taehyung felt his breath catch, his heart twisting in his ribcage. He felt tears well in his eyes and his hands began to shake a little. He laughed, shaking his head. "You... You can't say that. " He whispered. " You can't say that with that look on your face it makes me..

It makes me want to believe you. " "I wish you would. " Jungkook said desperately " I would do anything to help you believe me.. I know you're hurting but..." "You don't know me. " Taehyung snapped, furious.

"You don't know me at all, Jeon Jungkook. You don't know how I feel. You don't know how much I hurt and you don't know what I want either. " He sobbed put, " Because if you did, you would know the only reason I wanted to leave, the only reason I wanted this marriage to end,

It was because you made me believe I was ruining your life. That I was making it hard for you to breathe in your own home. That you couldn't live the life you wanted because of me. And now... When you tell me you need me, how on earth am I supposed to bring myself to leave?!! "

"Tae... " Jungkook moved closer, pulling him into his arms. " That's not what I meant... that's not why I said it either.. " He said softly. " This isn't me forcing you to stay. I don't want you to feel like you have to stay, just because I need you...

But I don't want you to leave, if you can bring yourself to find happiness here. With me. Can you?" Taehyung closed his eyes. "I.. Don't know. " He said shaking his head. " I don't know what that means. Finding happiness with you.. How would I even... No.. I can't." He sobbed.

Jungkook nodded stroking his back and rubbing circles on his skin. "Okay.. It's alright. Don't worry about it Tae. We'll figure it out okay? Just please don't cry. I don't want you to cry. Not because of me. Never again. Please. " He kissed the side of his head.

"You don't have to worry about leaving or staying Tae. I'll do it for you.When you ask me to, I'll leave, alright? You don't have to. So stop worrying about it and stop crying. I don't care if this night ends, but I sure don't want it to end in tears." He said with a small smile.

( Authors Note : I'm stopping here for tonight

also don't worry no one

Thr angst between these two pretty much ends here in my opinion. From tomorrow we'll deep dive into the mystery of " That Night "

" . Maybe with some sexy times in between

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Taehyung woke up to warmth, the sun spilling onto his skin through the large bay windows, lighting the room and warming his body. And also the distinct click of a shutter going off. He blinked back sleep, a small smile on his face. "Didn't take you for a pervert, Jeon."

"Well anyone would turn into a pervert for someone this beautiful. " Taehyung felt his body go into shock, legs kicking out and hands reaching for the sheets as he squawked, sitting up and staring in horror. "You... You're not Jungkook. " He choked out. The alpha grinned.

"Last I checked no. But Rest assured I wasn't taking pictures of you. I was taking pictures of the deck. We have a shoot later in the day in one of these bungalows and I just wanted to-" "Who are you?! And why are you in our bedroom? " Taehyung snapped. "I'm Yugyeom. "

"Your husband let me in. He's in the shower by the way. " Taehyung glared at the man wrapping himself in his sheets. "To be fair I didn't know that you were actually sleeping here. You're buried under seventeen sheets I thought the bed was empty." "Well now you know. Get out."

" Alright alright " Yugyeom held his hand up, smiling. " It's nice to finally meet my best friend's husband. I'm sorry if I upset you. " He smiled. Taehyung glared at him, watching him retreat back into the living space. He groaned, falling back against the pillows.

Yugyeom. The name was vaguely familiar. Had Jungkook mentioned him sometime? And what did he mean best friend? Weren't Jaehyun and Mingyu his best friends? From college? They worked with Jungkook at the company didn't they? He rubbed the heel of his hand against his eyes.

He hesitated, rubbing the fabric of Jungkooks shirt, soft and silky against his skin. And then he blinked. Had Jungkooks best friend just walked in on him wearing nothing but the alphas shirt? Oh, for the love of.. The sound of the bath door opening made him sit up.

"Jungkook , a word! " He shouted, still holding the shirt up to his chest. A few seconds later the alpha stepped into the bedroom, and Taehyung's angry tirade died a quick death on his tongue. Jungkook was dripping wet, wearing nothing but a fluffy towel around his tiny waist.

"Tae? Everything okay. " Taehyung felt like his tongue had swelled up inside his mouth, too big for him to move around and form words of any kind. It seemed only his eyes were functional, roving over Jungkook's damp body while his limbs just stopped working altogether.

He realized that if his mouth was to work, his eyes had to look away. Clearing his throat he shifted focus to the television about three feet to the alpha's left. "Why is your friend in our bedroom taking pictures when I'm still in bed? " He demanded and Jungkook frowned.

"He what?! " He growled. " Yugyeom, what the fuck is wrong with you? " There was a muffled apology from the living room and Taehyung groaned. "He scared me half to death. " "Tae, I'm so sorry... I asked him to wait outside. I'm supposed to be in a meeting in ten minutes.. "

The alpha paused. " What are you staring at? " Taehyung cleared his throat. "What do you mean? " He saw Jungkook move closer from the periphery of his vision. "Tae, I'm here. What are you looking at the TV for? " "So I can't watch the Tv now? " He demanded. "It's not on."

"It... Doesn't have to be on. " Taehyung stammered, keeping his gaze off the alpha, but clutching the sheets, because Jungkook was moving closer. He started scooting back on the bed as Jungkook moved to place one knee on the bed, grinning. "Stop that. " He hissed. "Stop what? "

Taehyung made to crawl away but Jungkook grabbed his ankle with ease, although it was hidden under the sheets. He squeaked out in shock trying to kick out but Jungkook was already climbing onto the bed, moving to straddle his knees. "Tell me what I'm doing to you, husband. "

Taehyung opened his mouth, ready to yell when a loud cough came from the living room. "I'm sorry for walking in on your husband Jungkook, but I'd rather you just push me into the fucking ocean than make me listen to this shit. " Yugyeom's voice made him turn red.

Jungkook grinned at that, still making no effort to get off him, leaning in closer instead, shaking his damp hair in Taehyung's face, water droplets landing all over the Omega's face. "Then we'll just have to be quieter, right Tae? " He whispered, teasing and

Taehyung panicked, bringing his hand up to cover his mouth, Jungkooks lips pressing the back of his hand instead. The alpha pulled back, frowning. "I.. Uh.. Morning breath. " He choked out laughing nervously. " Sorry. I haven't brushed my teeth and.. " "Five minutes JK! "

"Hmm... You know, drunk words are sober thoughts, Tae. And last night you told me you enjoyed kissing me. Are you saying it's not true. Don't want me to kiss you anymore? " "No!! " Taehyung yelled. " I mean yes!! I mean... No don't stop. " "Don't stop what? " Jungkook grinned.

Taehyung flushed, fingers curling into the sheets again. "You know.... What. " "No I don't. Enlighten me. " "I... What you just did. " "What did I just do? " "Jungkook... " "You have to say it. " "Kissing." Taehyung blurted out. "Kissing who? " Jungkook grinned.

"Kissing my dead grandmother!! Get your ass out here right the fuck now or I swear to God... " Yugyeom roared and Taehyung laughed despite himself. "Fine! For the love of God! " Jungkook growled back before groaning. " I'm coming. " "Just from a kiss? " Taehyung asked softly.

Jungkook went still, eyes going wide as he turned back to stare down at him. "Did you just make a... Dirty joke? " Taehyung shrugged leaning back. "I don't know did I? " "Taehyung... " Taehyung cut him off with a quick peck to his lips and Jungkook blinked, surprised.

"You're running late. Go before your friend bursts a blood vessel. " He smiled, gently brushing the damp hair off his face. " Can I come see you later? " "I'll come pick you up myself. Just get something to eat and wait for me. I'll be gone for an hour or two at the most."

"Don't forget your meds. " Tae said quietly. " I don't know when you take them so.. Just in case it's in the morning... " Jungkook's gaze softened and he leaned in to gently kiss his cheeks. "Okay. I'll see you soon? " "Okay." Tae grinned, watching as he climbed off the bed.

He watched Jungkook disappear behind the small partition near the closet and fell back against the pillows heart racing a little inside his chest. He laughed a little turning around to the side, just as Jungkooks phone on the bedside table buzzed, the screen lighting up .

It was a photo of Yoongi and Jungkook kissing and Taehyung felt for a second like someone had dipped him in an ice bath. Sweat broke out on his skin, and his heart felt like it had been stabbed with a dagger. Breath hitching he sat up, limbs shaking a little. What was he doing?

Breathing in and out swiftly, he dug his nails into his palm, hoping the physical pain would distract from the mental anguish growing inside his chest.He exhaled , trying to get himself together but it was impossible.Tears sprung before he could stop himself and he hated himself.

The phone buzzed again and while he knew that nothing good could come off it, morbid curiosity made him lean in again, staring at the message. Should I send you more? He swallowed. He was going to throw up. "There's a private beach nearby Tae. We could go check it out. "

Taehyung wrapped his arms around himself, settling back against the headboard, his heart racing too fast as he watched Jungkook step out from behind the closet door, dressed in a plain grey t shirt and jeans. He was smiling and Taehyung wanted to scream. "Taehyung? "

The omega looked away, trying to swipe at his tear soaked face and Jungkook was by his side in a second, cupping his face and wiping away the tears, a look of stunned disbelief on his face. "Tae what happened why are you cry-" His phone buzzed again. They both went still.

Jungkook frowned, grabbing his phone and Taehyung watched as the alphas eyes went wide. "What the fuck? " He growled, opening the phone and staring in disbelief. " Tae this isn't.. " "You need to go... I'm fine... You're getting late.. " "Taehyung, listen to me...! "

"It's fine you don't owe me an explanation... " "Shut up! " Jungkook growled. " Just shut up for a second and listen to me alright? What do you mean I don't owe you an explanation... Do you think I go around kissing people just for fun?!! This photo is from three years ago. "

Taehyung felt his head start to ache a little and he swallowed. "Jungkook.. I... " "I don't know who is sending this.. I can't recognise the number. I think they're using some kind of a messaging service. " He frowned. "Fucking hell. " He looked up at him. " Tae, please... "

"I... I'm sorry for overreacting. " Tae stammered, his fingers trembling a little as he tried to get himself to calm down a little."I was surprised. I know I don't have the right to-" "You do. " Jungkook said firmly, reaching out and cupping his face. " You have every right to."

Taehyung shook his head, disoriented but Jungkook pulled him closer, hugging him tight. "I want to make this marriage work. " He said shakily. " I don't know how long it's going to last but until the time it ends, I want to make it work, Tae. I don't care if it's selfish but

I want you to get mad when you see things like this. I want you to get upset when you think of me with someone else. And if it happens you can yell at me, scream at me, be mad at me but don't cry. Please don't cry, I'm not worth it. " He choked out.

Taehyung felt his body go lax at that, relaxing into Jungkooks arms, his mind emptying out and his heart slowly expanding again. The words felt like a balm, soothing over the many little cuts that one message had left on him and he tried to catch his breath so he could talk.

"Why would you say that... " He whispered, wrapping his arms around the alpha and hugging him close. " You know you're the only one I've ever cried for. Are you saying it wasn't worth it? Because I think it was. " He gave him a watery chuckle. Jungkook trembled at that.

"Tae... " He whispered, fingers digging into the curve of his waist, as he pressed kisses to the bare skin of his shoulder. "I'm going to find out who it is.. And when I do I swear I'll make them pay.. " It's alright." Taehyung said softly. " Just...hold me for now. Please. "

Jungkook nodded, pulling him closer till he was pressed right up against him. Taehyung closed his eyes, savoring the warmth and the intimacy of it, trying not to think of how terrifying it was, having Jungkook like this. It was all he had ever wanted, but now that he had it

The fear of losing him filled him with terror. What if it was all an illusion? What if Jungkook changed his mind? He wasn't anything like Yoongi. What if Jungkook got tired of him...He had barely survived without him. How could he possibly survive having and then losing him?

"It is easy. " Jungkook said softly, breaking him out of his thoughts. " Feeling this way for you. Telling you about it. Holding you and kissing you and wanting you... It is the easiest thing I've ever had to do. " Taehyung choked on a sob, shivering a little. "Jungkook... "

"Don't leave me. " Jungkook whispered. " I don't know what kind of storms we might end up facing but I'm asking you... Begging you...to not leave me. " Taehyung swallowed. He took a deep breath before nodding. "Okay." He whispered, shakily. " Okay, I won't. "

Jungkook pulled back a bit, just enough so they could look at each other, and Taehyung felt an ache in his chest when he saw the glimmer of tears in the alphas eyes. "You can't ask me to not cry and then cry yourself. " He laughed, leaning to wipe at them but Jungkook caught

his hand, gentle but firm. The aloha held his gaze, eyes steady and intense as he slowly brought it up to his lips pressing a kiss to the top of his fingers. Taehyung felt the soft touch all over his body, gooseflesh breaking out all over him. Jungkook hesitated before

pressing another kiss, this time on the curved knuckles. Taehyung felt his mouth go dry, swallowing as he moved closer, another gentle kiss this time to the inside of his wrist. Tae felt his heart start to pound again. "Can I kiss you some more? " Jungkook whispered .

"You.. Yugyeom.. " He stammered, and Jungkook pressed another kiss this time just over his elbow. The alpha looked up at him, smiling a little. " He left a long time ago. Meeting remember? " "Oh no.. You have to go too, I'm so sorry... I.. " Jungkook moved over him,

maneuvering him around till he was lying flat on the bed, the alpha hovering over him. Taehyung shivered a little when Jungkook leaned in, gently tugging the flowy fabric of the shirt to the side so he could kiss his shoulder. "It's fine.. I'm sorry you had to see that, Tae. "

Jungkook said sincerely, his eyes wide. " I don't know who it is but I will find out. " "You said that already. " Taehyung whispered. " Shouldn't you at least let them know you aren't coming.. " "They'll know when I don't turn up.. " He brushed the hair off Taehyungs face.

Tae blinked as Jungkook pressed a kiss to the side of hia jaw. "Is.. Is that alright? " He asked worried, hands coming up to grip the alpha's shoulders. " What if they fire you? " Jungkook chuckled against his neck. "Then I'll just stay home. You can take care of me."

Taehyung felt his breath hitch as Jungkook kissed the corner of his mouth. "Taehyung ssi. " He said softly, " Your body drives me insane, did I ever tell you that? " Taehyung felt the blood rush to his face, panic making him lurch as he turned beet red.

He made to squirm away, purely from embarrassment, but Jungkook grabbed his wrists, tugging him back under him, gripping him just a little tight. "No. I need you to hear this. If no one ever kissed you no one ever told you how gorgeous you are either and that is a crime. "

Taehyung tried tugging his wrist away but Jungkooks grip was strong. "Do you... Like this? " He asked hesitantly. " Being... Rough? " Jungkook blinked. Once. Twice. And then he cleared his throat. And then he let go of him and pulled away. Taehyung frowned. "What's wrong?"

The alpha cleared his throat, shaking his head. He moved to climb off him and Taehyung sat up, confused. "What happened? Did I say something wrong? " "No.. No... Not wrong. " The alpha laughed. " Just um... You're right.. I should go to that meeting. " Taehyung bit his lips.

"Oh... Okay. " He couldn't keep the disappointment out of his tone and Jungkook hesitated, running a hand over his face. "Its not because I don't want to... This... " He pointed at the bed, " But just.. I think I need to... Just go. For now. " "Okay."

Taehyung curled into himself holding the sheets up to his neck and Jungkook groaned. "Its because I don't think I can stop. " He blurted out. " I.. I'm just.. You make me want to... " He closed his eyes trying to compose himself, " And I know you aren't ready. So I need to go."

Taehyung felt something warm bloom inside him at that, a grin tugging on his lips against his better judgement. "Are you smiling right now? " Jungkook scowled. " You just asked me if I like it rough, and now you're smiling?" The omega giggled a little. "You like me that much?"

"Don't use your powers for evil Tae. " Jungkook grimaced, watching the omega crawl out of the sheets to kneel on the bed, bare thighs and long legs on display as he licked his lips. "Powers? " He fumbled with the hem of the shirt. "What powers? "

"Put those away unless you want them covered in bruises and bite marks. " Jungkook growled, glaring at his legs and Taehyung flushed, turning red again. "Fine... just go. " He muttered. Jungkooks gaze softened. " I'll be back to pick you up. Private beach remember? "

Taehyung felt a small pang as he remembered the photo and tried to keep his smile intact. "Yeah. Okay. " He whispered. Jungkook hesitated before walking over, grabbing him by the arms and tugging him up into a deep kiss. Taehyung barely took it in before it ended. "Bye."

( authors note : I need to go because it's the weekend

I'll be back on Monday mostly or Sunday if I have time)

Since you guys asked for visuals for this fic,

Here's Teacher Kim who all the toddlers love

And photographer JK that all the models are crazy about

After Jungkook left, Taehyung spent the next hour or so in an oddly foggy trance. His head felt stuffed and heavy, a throbbing headache all over his skull and the jittery feeling of nervousness that usually came when he met unfamiliar alphas. Yugyeoms scent still lingered.

He felt numb, going about the motions of washing himself and getting ready, trying not to think too much of what was happening with Jungkook. He didn't feel ready enough to face it. It was all so sudden he half expected himself to wake up in his bed in Seoul.

But staring at the mirror told him this wasn't a dream. This was real. Jungkook had said he wanted to work on the marriage. The marriage. Their marriage. The marriage that wasn't even real. His tongue felt too thick in his mouth as he pressed fingers to his lips.

What did Taehyung know about marriages? About keeping an alpha happy? About being a good mate? Nothing. He knew nothing. Did Jungkook have any idea how burdensome he could be sometimes. His mother often told him how hard it was for her to love him because he was so closed off.

"I don't know what you're thinking, Taehyung. " She would sigh deeply, " You're always looking at me with that vacant look on your face and it frustrates me to no end. What are you thinking? " He swallowed. He knew he still had the same vacant face that said nothing.

He hadn't even said anything when Jungkook had been so honest and nice and sweet to him. When Jungkook had held him and kissed him and made him feel beautiful, all he had done was, take it all in like a selfish,greedy person giving nothing in return. He felt sick to his stomach.

He had loved Jungkook for years, still loved him with an intensity that terrified him sometimes, but he didn't quite know how to show it.

After spending a decade trying to hide his love for the alpha, smothering it under tear soaked pillows every night, he didn't know how to bring it out again.

It was there locked away deep in the recesses of his heart, weighed down by fears and feelings of worthlessness. He couldn't quite get it out. When Jungkook held him all he felt was stark terror that he would do something wrong. That Jungkook would realize it was all a mistake.

The part of him that wanted to reciprocate was buried under the part that was terrified of losing him. And he wasn't sure how to get it out either. For years his love had felt like a burden that would only annoy the alpha and he wasn't sure how to change that.

The water in the shower was warm and gentle on his skin and when he stepped back out, wrapping himself in the towel, his mind shifted back to the picture he had seen, that someone had sent to Jungkook. It made his throat clog up just to think of it. He wanted to throw up.

Taehyung had always felt too much, too deeply when it came to Jungkook. Even when the alpha wasnt his in anyway, the sight of Yoongi with him had always made him so miserable he could never function. But now. With Jungkook offering to make space for Taehyung in his life, the

thought of sharing any part of the alpha with the other omega made him feel faint. He didn't like it at all. But he couldn't do anything about it could he? Jungkook was with Yoongi right now, probably. The omega might tell him something about Taehyung. Jungkook may believe him.

If he did, there wasn't anything Taehyung could do about it was there? Jungkook didn't know him well enough to trust him over someone he had known all his life. He moved to dress himself, feeling cold and lonely. The sound of the waves outside felt ominous.

He felt like his mind and heart were fractured right down the middle, part of it reminding him that Jungkook had wanted nothing to do with Yoongi, but the other part reminding him of that damned picture. They looked so intimately wrapped around each other. Did that just go away?

Did Jungkooks feelings for Yoongi just disappear? And if they did, would these feelings the alpha claimed to have for Taehyung now, would they also disappear? Change? Would Jungkook stop looking at him the way he did now? Taehyung wouldn't survive something like that.

He glanced at the clock. It would be another ten minutes before Jungkook came back. He could go out in the deck. The sun was out and it was warm and pleasant. Perhaps the sunlight would help him feel a little better. He kept the door open incase Jungkook came early.

He moved to sit on one of the pool chairs, closing his eyes against the sunbeams heating up his face. He felt warm , the sea air invigorating in a way. He took a few deep breaths, relaxing against the softly cushioned chairs. He felt his limbs go a little lax as he drifted off.

( Author's Note: Taehyungs dream sequences will be posted as screen shots. Please note that dreams aren't 'memories'. They may or may not be real)

"Taehyung!! " The sound of Jungkooks loud voice, calling for him pulled him straight out of his nightmare and into Jungkooks arms. He blinked up at the alpha, eyes flinching from the blinding sun, but his skin so cold he felt like he was frozen into ice. "Tae, baby...it's me. "

Taehyung was panting, his breathing uneven as he tried to take in great gulps of air. It took him a few seconds to realize he wasn't in a pool drowning. No. He was here. With Jungkook. At the waterfront bungalow, in Jeju. The party.... It wasn't real. It was a dream. Right?

"I...i had a bad dream... " He whispered and Jungkook looked troubled."I was....hurt. I'm sorry I scared you.. " He whispered. "You.. You were calling out for me. Was it... Was it me? Was I hurting you in some way? " The alpha asked, sounding worried. "Tae, I'm sorry.. "

( when both your main leads are addicted to apologizing for no reason

)

Taehyung felt his heart ache at the look on Jungkooks face and something inside him just broke.. Jungkook looked so stricken at the thought of hurting him, even in a dream. God, he didn't deserve him at all. "No.. no.. I was in trouble and I just wanted you. I wanted you. "

Jungkook looked surprised. "Really? " He whispered, drawing him closer. " Well, I'm glad at least dream Taehyung wants me. " He smiled. But Taehyung stayed quiet, hands tracing Jungkook's features carefully. "Did you see me with someone, the night of the party? "

Jungkook frowned. "Someone? Who? " "I... I don't remember. " Taehyung said shakily. "I mean.. It was someone I knew... But... " "Wait... What is this about? The dream or.. Did you remember something from that night? " "The dream was about that night. " Taehyung whispered.

"Oh." Jungkook blinked. "Yes and.. Was the pool anywhere near the bar? You were sitting at the bar right? You said you saw me. I don't remember being near the pool at all but.. " "You were sitting by the pool. You had your feet in the water I think. " Jungkook frowned.

Taehyung felt his heart drop at that. He closed his eyes, trying to focus on the face. The alpha in the pool. He was so familiar... Someone he knew. Someone he was seeing after a long time. He swallowed. "And I was alone? " "The place was crowded. The pool too. "

"But I don't think you were with anyone. " He said softly. " You.. You were alone Tae. I'm sure of that. I.. I watched you till you got up and left. You were only there for a few minutes at most. " Taehyung frowned. "What? " He shook his head. " No.. I.. I fell in.. "

Jungkook frowned. "Taehyung, I don't think it's real. Your dream... You didn't fall in. I'm sure of that at least. " He said firmly. " You don't know how to swim. If you fell into the pool people would have noticed. " Taehyung groaned. "I just... It felt so real. "

"Nightmares can feel that way. " Jungkook said cautiously, rubbing a palm over his back, gentle and soothing. "Doesn't necessarily mean they are. It's probably just a dream Taehyung. I doubt it means anything." "I just.. I think this happened before.. The night at the hospital."

"What do you mean? " "Yoongi... He.. Remember he mentioned almonds while leaving. I remember the scent of almonds. I always did. But there's no way he could have known that unless I told him. Which I think I did. Either that Or he heard me say it when I was asleep. "

Jungkook looked stunned. "Taehyung, why didn't you tell me about this when Yoongi was here the other night? " He asked shakily. " He was telling us the same thing! " Taehyung bit his lips. "Please don't be mad at me. I'm sorry. " Jungkook closed his eyes, groaning.

"I'm not mad Tae... I just... I'm confused. " He shook his head. " My mother told me you were just exhausted and that you fell asleep. And you told me you didn't think anything happened and when Yoongi turned up yesterday we pretty much kicked him out and now... "

"I'll talk to him. " Taehyung said quietly. "To Yoongi. I'll go see him myself. " Jungkook hesitated. "By yourself? " "Yes." Taehyung nodded. " By myself. I think... I need to do this myself. "

Jungkook stared at him, and Taehyung didn't miss the look of discomfort on his face. "What's wrong? " He asked quietly. Jungkook seemed to consider his words carefully before clearing his throat. "I just- I don't think that's a good idea. Going to Yoongi. " He said finally.

Taehyung sat up a bit straighter, shifting on the lounge chair and frowning a little. Jungkook reached for the large umbrella shifting it around so it kept the sun out of their faces. "What do you mean? He was the one who was there that night. " He said shakily.

"Yes, but I don't think... He'll be helpful. " Jungkook said firmly. " I.. I know him. He's not going to help you unless there's something in it for him. " Taehyung frowned. " You... You really hate him don't you? " He said with a shake of his head. "It's.. scary. "

"I don't hate him, Tae. I just hate what he did to me.. He fucked me up okay? And yes.. I understand that... To an extent it was because of what he was going through but, he... He's not even a little remorseful for it. He still thinks I owe him... Everything. It's fucked up. "

There was so much fury in Jungkooks voice that Taehyung didn't quite know what to say. He made a mental note to never make Jungkook feel like he owed him anything. "Hey... " He said quietly, reaching out and gently pressing a palm to his face. "It's alright... "

Jungkook sighed. "I just know nothing good could possibly come out of involving him in this. He's.. He's messed up and he needs help but he'll never admit it. He'll never make an effort to fix himself in anyway either. And everyone around him just has to suffer for it. "

"I don't want him anywhere near you. Taehyung... " Taehyung sighed, not sure what to say. Yoongi had come to them. Of his own volition. He hadn't demanded anything from them he had just wanted to tell him what happened that night. And he had warned him that running from it

would only make things worse. Taehyung couldn't help but feel that Yoongi somehow understood what was happening with him. He had mentioned dreams and headaches and he was right. Taehyung had always had them. But he had never given them much accord. It hadn't seemed important.

Taehyung had been so miserable, so filled with grief for a relationship that wasn't even real, so filled with self loathing and regret and guilt, the headaches and nightmares had felt like a way of atoning for all of his mistakes. They had felt like his just rewards.

But now, now it was different. He wanted to be able to sleep next to Jungkook without scaring him with his nightmares. He didn't want to miss pockets of time, didn't want to feel irrational fear over scents and people. He wanted to be normal. Jungkook had just told him

how being with someone who was hurt and broken had messed him up and made him miserable. The least he could do was fix himself before starting new with Jungkook. And as he stared at him, Taehyung realized how badly he wanted this. A fresh start. A new beginning. Another chance.

"Taehyung... These nightmares.. You can.. You know you can talk to someone about them. " Jungkook said hesitantly. " Remember the doctor who came to see me. He's my therapist. He's still here in Jeju.. We could.. " "I don't want to talk to a therapist. " Taehyung shook his head.

"I'm not saying you should talk to him like.. As a patient or something .... Just... He probably knows about things like this, way better than anyone else don't you think? " Taehyung didn't respond. Doctors weren't trustworthy, as far as he was concerned. He didn't trust them.

They refused to believe him. And made him out to be some kind of a manipulative liar when he wasn't. "Tae.. Please don't shut me out. " Jungkooks voice made him startle. "What?" "It's just... Sometimes you have this look on your face and I don't know what you're thinking."

Taehyung felt cold all over. The words, so close to what his mother told him, hit home and he felt that familiar headache begin to form at the base of his skull. He pressed his palm against the alphas chest, pushing him away. "Move." He said sharply."let me go. "

Jungkook pulled back looking surprised and Taehyung made to get off the chair. But the alpha grabbed his wrist, eyes wide. "Wait... What happened? " "Nothing.. " He shook his head. " Just let me go! " "Taehyung, I can't help you if you-" "I didn't ask you to!! " He snapped.

Jungkook swallowed but the hold on his wrist loosened before dropping off. He held his hands up. "Okay. I'm sorry. " He said quietly. " I just... I don't want you to get hurt. " Taehyung laughed in disbelief. "Do you have any idea how the world fucking works, Jungkook? "

"You think it's possible to live in this wretched, miserable place without getting hurt? Getting hurt is the only constant in life. You know why? Because people are selfish and greedy and cruel and hurtful. You don't want me to get hurt... Wow, how noble of you!

Let's just completely ignore the fact that you and your so called friends and your so called boyfriend all of you hurt me for years on end! " He choked out, stepping back and wrapping his arms around himself. " And yeah, maybe I deserved it. Maybe I deserved all the

Pain you gave me, all the disdain and all the tears but... Just because I knew I deserved it, didn't make it hurt less, okay? The pain was there, and I still felt every single miserable ounce of it. " He swallowed. "Don't talk to me about hurt. Just don't. "

The silence that followed was loud. Jungkook didn't respond, his gaze turned away from him, while Tae tried to process what he had just said. He felt the icy guilt begin to grow in his chest again. What was he doing? Why was this so hard for him? He wanted to move on but...

Why did his mind keep dragging him back to the past? Jungkook cleared his throat. " I know I hurt you. But I'm here because I'm sorry. And I'll keep saying I'm sorry till you believe me. With my words and with my actions. If you think you can scare me away, you're wrong."

Taehyung felt the fight drain out of him at the words, a sort of. Numb exhaustion taking its place. "Jungkook, you.. I don't deserve you. " He shook his head. " And you deserve better. This thing... No matter how I look at it, it's not going to end well. "

"You're right because it's not going to end at all. " Jungkook snapped, moving to stand in front of him. Taehyung blinked as the alpha gently held his face between his hands. " Tell me you want to be with me. That's all I want to hear Taehyung. Nothing else matters to me. "

Tae stared at him, trying to look for answers in his eyes but finding none. "Why? " He asked finally, exhausted. " Why do you want to be with me, Jungkook. I... I can think of a million reasons why you should leave but not one reason for you to want this... " He shook his head.

Jungkook stared at him, fingers still pressed against his skin, his eyes heavy and intense. "Because I like who I am when I'm with you. " Jungkook whispered. " This past hour all I could think of was you and now that I'm here I feel like I can breathe again. " He sighed.

"Is there a word for that Taehyung? When you find your thoughts and your emotions wrapped so closely around another person, their pain becomes your own and their happiness just becomes... your purpose? If there is tell me. Because that's your reason right there. "

Tae stared at him, the words sinking in and taking root somewhere in the deep recesses of his heart, along the cracks and crevices of it. For a moment he remembered the Jungkook of his childhood, the one he had fallen so hard for. The boy who always wore his heart on his sleeve.

It was hard to believe that this was the same boy. Now grown. A man. Someone he had wanted with all his heart but never dared imagined himself with. All of his fantasies were safe inside his head. Because inside his head, they were safe from shattering.

The thought of bringing them to life, making them real..it terrified him. Would he able to protect them all by himself? But Jungkook's words made him wonder, if perhaps he wasn't by himself after all. Perhaps he wasn't the only one with fantasies of happily ever afters.

And perhaps , together, they could keep them safe. Nurture them and protect them.

“I don’t know the word for it.” He said shakily, hands coming up to rest lightly on Jungkook’s chest. Fingers smoothing over the fabric as he licked his lips. “ I don’t think there is….But I do know the feeling. “ he exhaled,

“ I’ve felt it too Jungkook, for the better part of my life, its how I’ve felt about you…. and God, considering how much this particular feeling has screwed me over, I wish I could warn you away from it. But I know better than anyone else it doesn’t work that way.”

He smiled softly. “ Once you start feeling that for someone, you can't stop even if you want to. Even if it hurts you.” Tae smoothed his hands on his shirt. " So you better think twice before you claim it, Jungkook. The thing about this feeling...If its here, it’s here to stay."

“ I want it to stay. “ Jungkook said at once. “ I want it to stay and I want it to grow stronger till one day you’ll look at me and that’s all you’ll be able to see, Tae. Not the hurt or the anger or the lies or the misunderstandings. Just me and the way I feel about you.”

Taehyung stepped closer before slowly wrapping his arms around the alphas broad shoulders. He sighed, staring out into the bright blue waters of the ocean as it lapped at the shore. "Even if I make it hard? " He said carefully. " Even if I remind you of it at every turn? "

Jungkook chuckled. "Well, if you remind me of it, it's only because you're reliving it, Taehyung. And that can't feel good for you either. So yes, tell me when you remember the things we should be moving on from. And we'll deal with it together. " Taehyung closed his eyes.

"Am I beautiful? " He said shakily the words spilling out of him before he could quite think them through. " You capture beauty for a living so you know. So, tell me the truth. Am I beautiful? "

"Someday I'll show you just how beautiful you are, Tae. But not with words because I don't think words could ever do justice. " He whispered, pressing a soft kiss to his cheeks. "I'll show you how beautiful you are and I'll make you believe it too. I promise. "

"If Yoongi apologizes, will you go back to him? "

When Jungkook made to pull away, Taehyung clung to him, gripping the back of his shirt, face buried into his shoulders. " No! Please just... Just answer this for me. Please... I can't look at you when you say it... Just be honest with me... " Jungkook sighed deeply.

"No." He said firmly. " Even if I wasn't madly in love with you, I wouldn't go back to him. " Taehyung went completely still. His nails dug into Jungkook's back and he felt himself start to shake. ".... You... Take that back. " He said shakily. " Take it back right now. "

"No can do. " Jungkook said softly, his voice firm and even. It wasn't even a little shaky. " It's out there." Taehyung made to pull away but this time it was Jungkook who pressed a hand to the back of his head, holding him close. "Hear me out, Taehyung. " He whispered.

"Remember the night I fell ill?You came back for me that night, even though you knew I wasn't in my right mind and you could be in danger. I remember everything you said that night, Taehyung. I heard you tell me that you love me."

"I couldn't understand it. How do you love someone you don't know? But then I remembered these past years. You did things for me, things I took for granted. We fought but you never threw your hurt in my face the way I did mine. " He sighed. " You loved my parents, made them

your own. I've never been loved like this Taehyung. Because with Yoongi, he just... He only loved me when I did everything his way. When I gave him all my time and all of myself. But you.. You... Didn't play fair. You loved me and it felt like a debt I owed you.

And I didn't like that. I didn't like feeling indebted to you. I wanted to hate you but I couldn't. I just couldn't. Because for the first time in my life, I felt like I was enough. That I could be loved just for who I was and not for what I could give.

So when you told me you wanted to leave me, " He said shakily, " I panicked. I... I couldn't lose you. I.. It was selfish of me. I admit that. And then there was the fear.. That you didn't love me anymore. And I knew it wasn't right, but it upset me. I didn't want you to fall

Out of love with me. Not yet. But there was nothing I could do. It.. It was happening. Remember the night my parents came over to visit us. I told my dad I wanted to live with them for a while. " He sighed. " I think that's when he realized I may have feelings for you"

Taehyung went completely still. "What? " "Dad told me I was falling for you. He told me I had to think and act carefully or I would lose you forever. He told me to think carefully about what I wanted. And more than anything I wanted to know if you still loved me...

"So I asked you how you could love someone you didn't know..And that night you told me about the pregnancy test. About why you lied about the baby... About how you would rather be hated by everyone else than by me... And it just struck me, just how fucked up our relationship was.

Just how blind I had been to my own feelings . I was so busy being hurt, I didn't even stop to think of how you might be feeling. I didn't lie that night Tae. I told you I never hated you. It's the truth. I could never hate you. But I did lie to myself. A lot. "

Jungkook was quiet for a few seconds. "When you agreed to come with me to Jeju,I promised myself I would stop fighting it. Whatever I felt for you, I would feel it and I would show it. If it wasn't enough, if you left me after, so be it. But I wouldn't lie to myself anymore.

"I think, I fell in love with you... " He whispered, " When you cried for me on the plane.. Do you remember that? No one's ever cried just at the sight of me having a fucking headache Tae and I just.. I felt like this had to be it, you know. No one else could ever care for

me to this extent. You only get a love like this, once in a lifetime." He swallowed. " I told you didn't I? Feeling this way for you...It is easy. Even telling you this feels easy. And falling for you was easy too. All I had to do was let myself fall. " He sighed.

" So that's it. I love you. It's my truth. You don't have to believe me. I won't blame you if you don't. I've done nothing to make you trust me. You don't have to say it back either Tae.But just, let me love you. Don't ask me to take it back. Dont ask me to stop. Because I cant."

( p. S : don't forget we have 9 chapters left

. That's it for today

I'll see you guys tomorrow

jks confession seems honest... But is it the right time?

more importantly will Tae actually believe him

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( and once again : no one is perfect. Not even Jk with his perfect words

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For me the best part of writing this fic is I see how different people react to different things

I'm going through the quotes and one person calls JK childish for being impulsive, and the other calls him mature for being honest about his feelings.

Jungkook, to Taehyung had always been a study in contrasts. In all the years that he had known him, Taehyung had struggled to sort his emotions, had struggled to keep his feelings in check, to understand his own feelings,

because Jungkook insisted on messing it all up, every single time. From the moment he had first laid eyes on him, Taehyung had felt that Jungkook was somehow, at once, both too much for him to take in and yet not enough to sate the longing in his heart.

Like the blinding summer sun you couldn’t quite look at, but also the starry sky you couldn’t tear your eyes away from.

The alpha had always been handsome , kind and so attractive , the perfect mate in every way….but he was also in love with someone else, so wanting him was just not right.

Even the moments Taehyung had spent watching him, memorizing his gestures , the way his mouth quirked when he smiled , the way his fingers ran through his hair when he was distracted, even those were confusing.

Stolen moments spent listening to him singing in the music room, watching him play with puppies in the back of the campus.

They were memories that he cherished, ones that brought him joy and yet somehow, they were also the ones that made him ache and hurt in the solitude of his room, perhaps because he knew they were all he would be allowed to have.

Jeon Jungkook had always been, everything he ever wanted, and yet the one thing he could never have. The best and worst thing to ever happen to him. The cause of his hurt and somehow the source of his comfort as well.

And so it felt kind of fitting, that when Jungkook told him he was in love with him, Tae felt both the tenderness of the confession, like a soft feather running over his skin , as well as the weight of it , like a rock right on his chest, squeezing the air right out of his lungs.

As the words left Jungkook’s mouth, Taehyung felt his world tilt right on its axis, up was down, and the sky was falling. He was staring up into the ocean waves, dipping his feet into the fluffy clouds.

He could feel his heart pounding somewhere at the back of his skull, while his mind and his thoughts lay scattered somewhere at the base of his feet. And he was in no shape to gather them into his hands at the moment, piece them together enough to respond, so he stayed quiet.

His tongue felt just a bit like sandpaper inside his mouth and he had to swallow twice just to get rid of the dryness, to get his vocal chords working again, although he had no idea what he was going to say. Because he had to say something, right.

Yes. He had to respond. Make himself clear because like everyone said his face was just so vacant people didn’t know what he was thinking. He couldn’t retreat into the safety of silence, the way he always did. He had to say something because-

“You don’t have to say anything.” Jungkook said firmly, hands rubbing over his back in soft insistent touches. “ You just have to know it. Remember it. You don’t have to respond.” Okay, apparently he didn’t have to. Which was good. Relieved he sagged a little in his arms.

"I'd rather you not stay alone hereafter. " Jungkook said quietly, " You were thrashing around so much, so close to the pool, what if you'd fallen in? " The alpha muttered, " I have a shoot in ten minutes, I want you to come with me. " He said firmly. He's in love with me.

Taehyung watched as Jungkook pulled back , just enough to gently cup his face. " For the record I don't think we should talk to Yoongi at all but, if you want to...he'll be there at the spot today. You can try to get him to talk." Are you lying to me? Is this a trick?

"I just... I don't trust him to not hurt you. " Jungkook sighed, shaking his head as he moved to stand up holding a hand out for him to take. " I won't put it past him to try and hurt you deliberately, and I wish I could be there. Can I?" Doesn't love scare you?

Taehyung swallowed the lump in his throat. "He may get upset if he sees us together. " He said cautiously. "Why do you say that? " Because I would get upset if I see you with him. "I'd rather do it alone. He did tell me to come find him again. I think he'll help me. "

"Okay. It's your call. " Jungkook nodded. " I'll be close by anyway. That shirt looks good on you by the way. " He smiled, " But maybe we could just- " He leaned carefully closing up two of the buttons he had left open. Tae frowned. "It's hot." "So are you but keep it closed."

"But-" He reached for the button again but Jungkook grabbed his hand, linking their fingers together. "We should probably get going, Tae..My boss is already kind of pissed off." He grimaced, leading him over to the bay windows. He glanced back at the pool, and felt a shiver.

Somewhere in the depths of his consciousness, he could feel bits and pieces of the nightmare he had just had. Jungkooks confession had scrambled his mind a little but it was still there. A face. A voice. Low and musical. Tae Tae. "Taehyung... " Jungkooks voice

Broke him out of his thoughts. "Yeah.. let's go. " He swallowed, turning his back on the pool and the deep blue waters and all the secrets they seemed to hide from him.

When they arrived at the beach, which was tucked around a beautiful cove, most of the crew were already in place. Taehyung noticed a few large trailers and beach umbrellas with models lounging beneath the shade, getting their make up done. He felt trepidation build and

Jungkook wrapped an arm around his waist, squeezing tight. "I need to go. Will you be okay with hanging out with Yugyeom? " He asked gently. Taehyung grimaced but nodded. "Excellent... Wait, where did he run off too... Just wait here for a second Tae.. I'll be right back. "

Jungkook pressed a gentle palm to his face, eyes roving over his features for a second too long, enough to get him flushing. "I.. What? " He choked out and the alpha shrugged. "You're beautiful." He said casually." Why? Am I not allowed to look..? " "I... Didn't say that. "

"So I can look? " Jungkook grinned, teasing. Taehyung had no idea how the conversation had steered into this particular lane. "Jungkook... " "Just the face or-" "Jeon!! I'm not paying you to flirt with the models. Get your ass over here! " A voice rang out, startling them.

"Oh, this isn't one of your models chief. This one is exclusively mine. " Jungkook called back grinning and Taehyung turned red as a tall distinguished looking man in expensive looking clothes and sunglasses made his way over. "Wait this is your husband? " He blinked.

" Enchanting isn't he? Before you ask... No, he doesn't want to model for you. " Jungkook stepped in front of him and the man rolled his eyes. " Considering I don't pay him, that's fine. But I do pay you, so go get your gear and meet the creative director. The tide is out. "

Jungkook nodded glancing around again. "Where's Yug? " He asked casually and the man groaned. "He was trying to get Yoongi to shoot with him but that one insists on doing it with you and no one else. Get it over with Jeon. He's the main model. I don't want him upset. "

"Jungkook ah! " A voice called out behind them and Taehyung turned, watching as Yugyeom waddled over on the hot sand, barefoot and wincing. "It's so fucking hot today. " He growled. " Hey princess." Yugyeom winked at Taehyung making him recoil and glare. "You-! " He glowered.

"Jeon... Five minutes. " The chief warned before walking away and Jungkook nodded before rounding on Yugyeom. "I need you to stay with Taehyung. Don't leave him not for a second. " He insisted. "I'm not three. " Taehyung frowned. " Stop acting like I'm a toddler. "

"Baby, who called you a three, you're definitely a nine point five. " Jungkook grinned making Yugyeom chuckle. Taehyung blinked before rolling his eyes. "If you're going to act the fool-" He turned on his heel but Jungkook quickly grabbed his arm tugging him back.

"Okay.. Okay I'm sorry.. " He said quickly. " It's just we're close to the water, you can't swim and I just want you to be safe. Yugyeom is the only one I trust. And you'll be safe with him. And once the shoot ends you can talk to Yoongi. " He said softly. "Please? "

Taehyung hesitated before nodding. "Can I come watch? " He said carefully and Jungkook's smile fell a little. "What, the shoot? With Yoongi? " He looked hesitant and Taehyung felt uneasy. "Yeah, I can't? " " It's.. Not that fun to watch . " He looked hesitant. "I want to."

Yugyeom cleared his throat behind him. "Taehyung there's some beautiful caves right there with a lot of really pretty aquatic life. The water is really shallow too, barely knee deep.. We can... " "Do you not want me there for some reason? " Taehyung choked out.

Jungkook exhaled before shaking his head. "No.. That's not it... I just.. Okay. Okay you can come watch. " He looked upset and Taehyung felt terrible. "You told me I could... " He said shakily. " In the morning you said I had every right to.. " He trailed off.

There was another loud whistle and Jungkook flinched. "Just go.. I'll bring him there. " Yugyeom said firmly and Jungkook nodded before giving Taehyung a soft kiss on his forehead. "You do have every right. I promise. Just remember what I said. " He said quietly. "I love you."

( a/n the way y'all responding in the qrts saying ily too..

you're all gone for this man I see. )

Yugyeom coughed a bit and Taehyung turned a little red. Jungkook smiled and turned away walking off and Yugyeom sighed. "No I love you too? Not even a goodbye? You sure are cold princess. Or should I call you ice princess? " Taehyung glared at him before turning back.

"Jungkook!! " He called out insistent, running after him with unsteady feet, the sand making it impossible for him to get a grip. The alpha turned around looking confused and Taehyung took a deep breath before grabbing his collar and yanking him down for a kiss.

He pulled back and away before Jungkook could react, putting distance between them quickly. "Go!! You're late. " He called out . "I think you just pressed the factory reset button, " Yugyeom chuckled. " Your name is Jeon Jungkook. You're a photographer. Go. " He yelled.

Taehyung watched him stumble away down to the nearest truck and wrapped his arms around himself, Yugyeom moving to stand close to him. "Tae, Yoongi can be a bit.. Too much sometimes. He's just trying to protect you. You know that right? " He said carefully.

Taehyung frowned, turning to look up at him. "You know about Yoongi and...Jungkook? " He asked hesitantly. Yugyeom smiled a little. "Well, Jungkook is my best friend.. " He said gently. "So he tells you stuff? " He swallowed. " What did he tell you about me? "

"Nothing." He said softly. " He said you guys had to get married because of unfortunate circumstances. That you worked as a preschool teacher. That you're pretty. That's all he ever said." Taehyung blinked. "And Yoongi? " He asked carefully." What about him?"

"Taehyung...." Yugyeom said quietly. " Do you not see the way Jungkook looks at you? " Taehyung turned away at that. "Yoongi is in love with your husband. " He said finally. " I can't deny that. But other than that there's nothing between them. " "Is that not enough?! "

Taehyung exhaled shakily. " He can't have him. " He licked his lips. " Jungkook deserves better. " Yugyeom sighed before gently gripping his shoulders and turning him around so they could look at each other. "He does. " He nodded. " He has you now. So it's okay. "

"I don't like the idea of him bothering Jungkook.. " He said hesitantly. " It's just.. It's not right. " "Okay... Princess, how about this? We'll go check out the shoot and if Yoongi is acting out, I'll let you fling wet sand at his face. That okay? "

Taehyung smiled despite himself, some of his ire disappearing. He bit his lips. "You just think I'm crazy. " He sighed. "No, I just think you're in love and want to protect the person you love. " He shrugged. " It's pretty normal. You're not special. "

Taehyung watched as Yugyeom fixed his camera before holding his arm out, signalling for one of the beach buggies. "Come on, Taehyung ssi. Let's go kick some model butt. "

By the time they arrived part of the shoot was already done and Jungkook was under a large umbrella monitoring the pictures. Yoongi stood pressed up against him and Tae felt his hackles rise. The model wore a sheer lacy kaftan over plain white shorts, looking insanely beautiful.

Taehyung watched as Jungkook said something pointing out parts of the picture and Yoongi pressed in even closer, chest to cheat almost, his hair tickling Jungkooks chin and reminding him so much of the photo he had seen that morning. Something felt lodged in his throat.

Jungkook paused muttering something and Yoongi placed a hand on the alphas chest and something inside him just snapped. He felt a growl build at the back of his throat, ready to stalk over but Yugyeom grabbed his wrist. "Don't." He insisted. "This is why he didn't want you here"

" Let go of me.. " He said sharply and Yugyeom sighed but let him go. " If Jungkook speaks up, Yoongi will drag the shoot out and make it difficult for everyone involved. " He said quietly. Jungkook is just enduring it so he can end it sooner. Just stay calm. "

"Enduring it..? " Taehyung frowned. " Does this happen often? " He demanded. " Because there's a name for this and I'm pretty sure it's against the law. " Yugyeom flinched. "Tae.. " "He does this often? Makes my husband uncomfortable and he just... Endures? "

Before Yugyeom could respond, Taehyung was already picking his way over, kicking his shoes off in the sand so he could walk faster. "Get your hands off him! " He shouted, making everyone look up. Yoongi frowned while Jungkook looked stunned. "Tae.. " The alpha whispered.

"What is he doing here? " Yoongi said sharply and Taehyung scoffed. "What am I doing? I'm watching you touch my husband without his consent when he's clearly uncomfortable. There's a name for that kind of thing Yoongi ssi. " He snapped. Yoongi rolled his eyes but steeped aside.

"This is giving me a headache... I need some water.. " Yoongi said quietly and Jungkook stiffened. "There's only one shot left... " "So? I'm not shooting with a headache. Where's my assistant? " He turned away and Taehyung swallowed, fingers and toes turning cold.

Taehyung watched the model walk away and bit his lip, glancing at Jungkook who looked tired. "Okay everyone, " The director called out. " We'll take a small break and be back. " Taehyung turned to Jungkook. "He's not going to help me I think. " He whispered.

Jungkook stared at him for a second before laughing out loud. "Probably not. " He smiled. " But thank you for defending my honor. Or should I say... Marking your territory? " He grinned, winking. Taehyung frowned glancing at where Yoongi sat. "He's always touching you? "

Jungkook paused in the middle of fiddling with his camera, glancing around for a second. Most of the technicians were busy fixing the set while the others huddled around the model and the large display screens that had the photos up.

“ It’s just something he does.. I… I’ve talked to him about it. “ He sighed. “ It’s not worth the hassle he makes afterwards you know and it usually isn’t this bad. Its gotten worse the past few weeks and-“

“Are you going to do anything about it?” Taehyung asked shortly. “ Did you make a formal complaint?” “Yeah right… Taehyung, I’m the alpha photographer and he’s the omega supermodel, no one is going to take that complaint seriously.

And If Yoongi twists it around on me I’ll lose my job in a second.” Taehyung laughed in disbelief. “Are you.. serious? So you’re just supposed to stand around? Let him maul you like that?” He demanded, voice going just a little louder than he intended.

Jungkook was staring at him with an intense look on his face, eyes unblinking, trained on him with intent. Tae watched as the alpha carefully placed the camera on the side table , his eyes still fixed on him. Tae swallowed, toes curling a little on the rough sand under his feet.

“I.. I just think that’s wrong. That he touches you when you don’t want him to..” He said shakily. Jungkook didn’t say anything, still watching him as he carefully stepped over a few wires, getting closer.

His eyes moved, sweeping over his body in a slow, sensual drag, eyes seemingly taking in every curve and dip, and Taehyung felt like he had just been stripped bare in front of everyone. He blinked, not sure if he was reading too much into it, but Jungkook's scent hit him a

second later, making his eyes go wide . He felt the air between them shift into something electric and made to step back but Jungkook’s hand shot out, gripping his wrist before he could run. He felt his face flare red, heat rushing up his body ,looking around in a panic.

“Jungkook there are people here!” He hissed in disbelief as the alpha smirked, slow and purposeful. Jungkook reached for his other wrist as well, tugging him forward till Taehyung crashed into his chest. He hummed, leaning in till his nose brushed the curve of Tae's jaw.

Over Jungkook’s head, Taehyung watched as Yoongi turned around, freezing at the sight of them. “Yoongi’s watching…” he exhaled shakily and the fingers on his wrist tightened , enough to make him whimper just a little.

Jungkook hummed, gently rolling the fragile bones between his fingers, thumb rubbing circles on the translucent skin there. Skin that was probably already bruising from his grip. Jungkook pulled bac to look at him, “Wanna hear something interesting?” His smile was slow and feral,

"About-?" he stammered and Jungkook hummed. "About your body." Taehyung choked as Jungkook grinned,leaning closer and nipping at the skin just below his ear, sharp and quick.

"Sometimes, " he whispered, " when you're really aroused, " he squeezed his wrist again, this time far from gentle, and Taehyung felt a spark of pleasure run up his spine. "pain registers as pleasure." He hummed, leaning in and catching the tip of his earlobe between his teeth,

"And sometimes, when you're in love with someone," he continued, " their anger on your behalf, registers as a confession of love..." he smirked, kissing his cheeks. “You won’t fight for yourself.” The alpha whispered, “ but you’ll fight for me, huh ,baby?”

Before Taehyung could respond , there was a hand tugging on the alpha’s arm. “I’m ready to get the shot done.” Yoongi glared , shooting daggers at Taehyung who was too disoriented to even recognize the omega. Jungkook pulled his arm away, giving him an even stare.

“ Then go get into position. You know the pose.” He said with a shrug. Yoongi exhaled before moving to his spot. “Well look at that, I found a way to get him to co operate.” Jungkook said casually, “ All I need to do is get you all hot and bothered in my arms.”

Taehyung exhaled before glaring at him, punching at his chest a little weakly. "I hate you." He said , voice shaking as he turned on his heel, but he'd barely taken a step before Jungkook was on him, his broad chest pressed up against Tae's back, chin rubbing against his neck

The alpha wrapped both his arms around him, squeezing tight as he blew air against the side of his face, making him shiver.A second later Tae felt the press of his lips near his ear. "And I want you." Jungkook whispered quietly. " So much, I don't even care that we aren't alone."

"Let go of your pretty husband and get to work Jeon." A loud voice came from the other side of the makeshift tent and Jungkook groaned. Taehyung feeling just a little like his bones had been grinded down into fine dust, carefully pulled away from him.

"I'm going to go check out the cove with Yugyeom," he said shakily. " Call me when the shoot is done."

Warnings: graphic description of sexual fantasies, mild violence, use of degrading names. This is possibly triggering for a lot of people so you can skip it and dm me for a summary of what happened. The starting and ending of this passage will be marked by

The flat rock on the side of the narrow cave entrance, served as an excellent perch for him to keep watch. He liked the beach and wished they had one back in Seoul. The water was always calming to him. He always felt at home in the water. His feet stayed submerged as he watched.

The small beach buggy was parked a few dozen feet away and Kim Yugyeom was kneeling on the sand taking pictures of his pretty Tae Tae. Neither the photographer nor Taehyung had noticed him. Which was good. He liked watching Tae like this. Without him being aware.

( A/N : Read carefully people. The guy narrating is watching Taehyung and Yugyeom.)

His pretty Tae Tae. He looked exceptionally pretty today. Sunkissed and hair a fluffy mess on his head. It reminded him of days spent in Daegu. The omega looked just as frail and innocent and pure as he remembered. He missed him fiercely but held himself back. Soon.

Taehyung stood on a tiny rock, posing like a swan. He watched the dip of his waist, the soft curve of his ass, and his mind flashed back to that night three years ago. When he had held him right against his chest, when he had breathed his scent in, the omega helpless in his arms.

"Tae, hold your hands up like this! " Yugyeom was yelling, " Like you're a ballet dancer. " Taehyung listened, stretching his long legs and arms, looking like one of those dainty dancing girls in tiny music boxes. So pretty and perfect. He wanted so badly to touch.

He could already imagine how it would feel, that soft silken skin under his fingertips, like satin. He could imagine how well it would bruise and bleed when he held him down. He could imagine the years, the cries for help. He got hard just thinking of it. Breath. In and out.

He couldn't think that way, he reminded himself gently. He couldn't hurt Tae Tae. He shouldn't. He had to just... Steal him away. Keep him to himself. After getting rid of that disgusting alpha of course. He felt his rage glow at the thought of him. The way he had touched him.

( I'll be back tonight. Once again this part is really disturbing. I'm sorry

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"Tae, come on there's a cave here, I want you to see. " Yugyeom's voice was clear and loud, reaching for the omega and taking his arm gently, helping him walk towards the mouth of the cave where he sat. He watched as Tae stumbled on the sad. Pretty baby. "Oh... You're here. "

He smiled politely, nodding and bowing the way he was supposed to, a lowly handy guy that he was on the crew. The unassuming, unimportant job gave him the invisibility he needed. No one saw him. No one noticed. No one realized there was a wolf amidst the sheep. "Oh, who's this?"

Taehyung was staring right at him, all sweet smiles and polite curiosity. Your lover, he thought sweetly. That's who I am. I'm going to be the one who takes care of you. The one who gives you pretty pups. I'm going to love you and hold you and touch you. Your alpha.

"Uh... I don't remember his name. " Yugyeom's chuckle was awkward. " Sorry about that dude. " He bowed his head again. "He can't speak. " Yugyeom said gently and Taehyung's eyes widened in sympathy. He hates being pitied. He had half a mind to just call him" Tae Tae" .

But he couldn't do that. It wasn't time yet. A lot of things had to be taken care of before he could hold him and call him by his sweet name. Even this pleasant little encounter wasn't a part of his plan. Fate had just taken pity on him, and offered him a small treat.

"Oh, it's nice to meet you. " The omega was smiling. He bowed again, polite as always. He wished he could say the things he wanted to. Wished he could reach out and touch. "Tae just sit here for a second. There's a vantage point over there, I think I'll get a beautiful view "

The omega looked surprised for a second, a flash of discomfort passing over his features. It was only natural. Even the most oblivious of prey could sense when it was in the presence of a predator after all. He smiled as the omega blinked, nervous. "Okay..but hurry. "

He wanted to laugh a little. As if Yugyeom stood a chance against him. His trusty little switchblade would slit that bastard's throat in a second. If he wanted to that is. But he didn't want that. He wasn't a violent man. At least not when people didn't deserve it.

Now Jungkook. He deserved it. If he had been here, maybe he would have put a dent in his own plans and gone for his jugular. Quick and easy. But he wasn't. So that would have to wait. He watched Yugyeom turn the side of the cave, over the rocks. And now it was just them.

"This place is beautiful. " Taehyung's voice was low and mellifluous. He had missed it. "So, do you work with the crew? " Sweet kind Taehyung. Always wanting to make everyone feel included. Even someone as invisible as him wouldn't miss his beautiful baby's kindness.

He nodded gently. Taehyung hummed and moves to sit on the rock next to him. This close he could probably smell him. He sighed. Would he remember? He wanted to lean in but he stayed still. Taehyung's gaze met his, again. The omega laughed, before glancing at his neck.

"Oh that's a really pretty locket. " He pointed at his neck. He glanced down, at the large square locket, silver with stones set into it, carved and engraved. He took it off gently, holding it out to the omega. You can keep it, he signed. Taehyung looked stunned.

"Oh.. No.. No I can't.. " He shook his head. But he kept holding it out, and the omega finally took it, running his fingertips over the engraving. "Is this a bear? And a tree? " He smiled. "It's really detailed. So beautiful really. " He looked up at him. " But I can't take it"

"Taehyung! Let's go! " Yugyeom's voice broke through the air and Taehyung startled. The omega dropped the locket back in his palm standing up quickly. "Thank you. This place is lovely. Have a nice time here. " He said sweetly. He nodded, watching him leave. He smiled. Soon.

As the day stretched on, the mid noon sun and its heat became quite unbearable. Tae sat under a large beach umbrella, a wide brimmed hat perched on his head, as he sat with his lips wrapped around a sweet lemon flavored ice lolly. He sucked on the treat, watching his husband.

Jungkook however hadn't spared him a single glance. He had back to back shoots and Taehyung realized just why Jungkook was the highest paid and most sought after photographer. He worked the models to their last breath, over and over till he got the perfect shot.

Yugyeom was his assistant and Taehyung, left to his own devices was struggling not to fall into the trap of overthinking. No matter how much he wanted to act like it hadn't happened, he had to accept that it did. Jungkook told him he loved him. Loved.

The safest thing to do, of course was to take it with a grain of salt. Perhaps, what Jungkook really wanted to say, was, I don't hate you anymore. Yes. That was an acceptable alternative to what the alpha had told him. He had forgiven him. He no longer hated him. That was it.

It felt easier, to accept Jungkooks affection that way. A friendship. Yes. Like a friend. His gaze fell on the light, finger shaped bruises on his wrist, the phantom sensation of Jungkooks touch still there on his skin. Right. Friend. Who on earth was he kidding?

Groaning he buried his face into his own arms, folded over his knees. He was in trouble. Trouble. Trouble. Trouble. Everything about Jungkook was trouble. Jungkook himself was trouble. Taehyung had never wanted to get naked with trouble in a hot tub till at this moment.

Groaning some more he sucked on the sweet candy,so lost in his thoughts he didn't hear the smaller figure moving to settle into the sand next to him. "He'll never love you." Yoongi said casually as he fixed his sunglasses. " Save your dignity and leave him before he leaves you."

"Speaking of dignity, perhaps you should keep yours, by keeping your hands off my husband. " He said quietly, not even looking at the omega. Yoongi scoffed. "He didn't seem to mind much." He shrugged. " So I'm okay. " God, how infuriating. Taehyung cleared his throat.

"Why are you here? " He asked stiffly, keeping his gaze on the man in front of him. Yoongi made himself comfortable next to him, leaning back enough to rest his elbows on the sand. Taehyung blinked, taking in the model's figure, his beautiful face.

You do know you're more beautiful than him right? The thought came with Jungkook's voice behind it. It took him a second to realize it wasn't wishful thinking . It was a memory. Something Jungkook had actually told him. Jungkook - "- told me I'm more beautiful than you. "

"What? " Yoongi frowned deeply and Taehyung blinked, confused. He stared at the other omega who was looking at him suspiciously. Had he just said that out loud? Good God. "Nothing." He snapped turning back to look at Jungkook. "You can never take my place you know. "

" You mean the place of an ex boyfriend he happens to hate? " He shrugged. " I don't want that place. You can keep it for the rest of your life, Yoon. " Yoongi scoffed. "You talk big game for someone who knows damn well that Jungkook can't be trusted when it comes to feelings."

Taehyung wanted to ignore him, but some part of him seemed to be on edge and he couldn't stop himself from turning to look at him. The omega was watching him carefully. "Remember I have nothing to lose Tae. According to you, I've already lost Jungkook. So why would I lie?"

"What are you talking about? " He said quietly and Yoongi hummed, sitting up. "Tell me Taehyung, how long did it take you to fall in love with Jungkook? The love you have for him now... How many years did it take you to reach that point? " Taehyung stayed quiet.

"And yet look at our handsome alpha over here, acting like he loves you back just as much? When two weeks ago he couldn't stand the sight of you. I mean, love is blind I know, but I hope it didn't turn you into a complete fool. " He laughed. Tae wrapped his arms around himself.

Yoongi hummed for another second or so. "Jungkook doesn't understand love. He only knows obsession. "He grinned. " He was obsessed with me yesterday, And now he's obsessed with you. Tomorrow, who knows ?" He groaned sitting up. "Love that doesn't take time to grow, won't last."

"He was with you for years. So why did it end for you? Are you telling me a decade wasn't enough for your love to grow? " Taehyung asked, voice steady although inside him he could feel the first stirrings of uncertainty. "It would have been if you didn't turn up with your lies"

"What is that supposed to mean? " He said shakily. "You lied to him about that night. " Yoongi said sharply. "You lied about being pregnant . Your entire relationship started with lies. You think that's something you can depend on. Jungkook was with me because he loved me.

He's with you because you guilted him into it. Think about it. If you hadn't lied about that night, Jungkook wouldn't be here right now. He wouldn't give a single damn about you. So your marriage is a lie. " He smirked. " Don't forget that." "I did not lie. " Taehyung whispered.

"Didn't you? Then tell me " Yoongi leaned in. " Tell me what really happened that night. " Tae felt that familiar feeling of breathlessness. His skin going just a bit icy. He hugged himself, shivering even as he glared at the smaller male. "I don't have to tell you a thing. "

"You're right. " Yoongi sighed, " You don't owe me a thing. But what about Jungkook? " He gave him a smirk. " What about the guy who you claim to love so ardently. The guy whose life you pretty much ruined. You remember what you put him through?Don't you owe him the truth?

Taehyung watched as Jungkook went around the set, taking difficult shots with an ease that was admirable. He remembered the job that Jungkook had lost because of what had happened that night. If it weren't for him, Jungkook would be so much more successful. "He'll resent you."

Yoongi said firmly. " He won't say it because he's terrified of being alone. He wants you there by his side because if not, he'll have to confront all of his own demons. It's easier to focus on you, than look inside his own messed up head. " Yoongi shook his head.

"So tell me.. Do you think he'll ever be able to love you, if a part of him is always going to think you lied. There's only one way to know what happened that night. You need to remember what happened. " He said sharply. " It's the least you can do after all the mess you made."

Taehyung stood up, unable to take anymore of it. He glared at Yoongi who looked unrepentant. "I.. " He swallowed. " Don't remember what happened that night. And Jungkook knows that I don't remember. And he also knows that when I do remember, he'll be the first one to know. "

Yoongi didn't respond, merely watching him . "And I don't need to know about Jungkook from you. I.. " He swallowed, " I can learn all about him by myself. Now. Together. And it... " He swallowed. " It's alright if he doesn't love me. I love him enough for both of us. "

"How touching. " Yoongi smiled. " Tell me Taehyung... Are you losing time again? Nightmares... " He leaned in. " The scent of almonds? " Taehyung frowned. "How do you know about that? " Yoongi sighed. "I saw you acting all crazy the night at the hospital.

Does Jungkook know you're so messed up? " Taehyung swallowed, mouth a little dry. "The night at the hospital? " He stared at him. " What do you mean? " Yoongi shrugged standing up. "Do you know why you can't remember? " He asked quietly, voice oddly subdued.

Taehyung bit his lips. "I got drunk. " He said softly. "Really? " He sighed. " Do you remember being anywhere near the bar?" He didn't. "What are you saying? " He said quietly. "I'm saying, you should stop walking around like all is right with the world. Because it isnt."

"What? " He frowned confused as Yoongi grabbed the small bag by his side, sliding it onto his shoulders. "What do you mean by that?" "Pretending everything is okay, won't make it okay. You're remembering that night, in bits and pieces because you're meant to remember it. "

" Now I don't particularly care how this ends for you.... But I do care about the man I love. " He glanced at Jungkook. " Don't hurt him just because he's made the mistake of trusting you. " Taehyung ran a hand over his head. "Five minutes with you and I want to drown myself."

"No wonder Jungkook can't stand the thought of going back to you. " He said quietly, before turning on his heel and walking off. Yoongi watched him leave, his thoughts a mess. Was he making a mistake, he wondered?

Taehyung spent another half hour, walking around the set, a dull throb in his skull and exhaustion beginning to hit his limbs.His mind flashed to the clean white sheets and soft silk coverlet in the bungalow. He wanted nothing more than to take a nap. Jungkook was still working.

Taehyung noticed the man from the cove working with some of the others, moving things around for different shots. The models kept changing as well, and Yugyeom and Jungkook took turns around the podium, kneeling and crouching. "Hey gorgeous. " He startled. "Hyunsik ssi."

The photographer grinned. "Are you all alone? Where's that husband of yours? " He looked around, eyes landing on Jungkook who was now reviewing his photographs. " Ah.. Busy. Taehyung ssi, what do you say we ditch this place and take a ride around town? " He smiled.

Taehyung smiled politely, gently shaking his head. "I'm not feeling very well enough for all that. I was actually hoping to just head to the room and take a nap. " He said tiredly. Hyunsik's smile faded into a look of concern. "Oh, are you alright? " He asked worriedly.

Tae nodded, before glancing at Jungkook. He watched as he finished talking to someone, hoping he would glance up at him. But the alpha stayed stubbornly unaware of him. He felt jittery and ignored, a bit peeved as well. Why didn't Jungkook just leave him back at the bungalow?

"Do you want me to drop you off at the resort? If you need to rest? " Taehyung groaned before nodding. The head ache had intensified to an incessant pounding inside his skull. It made him nauseous. He needed some painkillers and sleep. "Yes. I.. I would like that. "

He glanced around again, gaze landing on the alpha, who was finally looking at him. Taehyung didn't miss the deep frown on his face, gaze shifting back and forth between him and Hyunsik. He waved slowly. Jungkook whispered something to Yugyeom before leaving his equipment,

And making his way over to them. Taehyung waited till he was within earshot before holding a hand out to him. "Jungkook, I'm exhausted. I'm going to go back and take a -" He was cut off by Jungkook's lips on his own, hands gripping his arms as the alpha hauled him close.

Jungkook's lips were firm but soft, his hands slipping to his waist as he hugged him closer, cradling him against his chest as he kissed him deeper, only pulling away when Taehyungs legs started shaking a little. The omega stared disoriented. "I missed you, baby. "

Taehyung just stared at him, having forgotten what he wanted to say in the first place. The alpha cleared his throat. "Oh.. Oh yes. " He swallowed, trying not to think of the way Jungkook's hand felt on the curve of his waist, " I.. I'm sleepy and... "

Jungkook leaned in, rubbing his nose against the curve of his neck, the alphas wrist moving up and over Taehyungs scent gland in a gentle rub. He was scenting him. Jungkook was scenting him. "And? " It was like the teleprompter in his mind had been wiped clean.

"And Hyunsik wanted to... " He swallowed, " Take me to bed... "

Jungkook went still, and next to them Hyunsik let out a strangled squawk "I... What the hell... Jeon that's not what I... " "You have ten seconds before I rearrange that face of yours. " Jungkook growled. "Room! " Taehyung yelled, mortified. " I meant room. oh god.. "

"Ten.. " Jungkook smiled, " Leave. Now. Nine... " "Jungkook, he's not well and said he wanted to.. " "Eight.. " "Jungkook stop it! " Taehyung groaned. " I asked him to.. " "Seven.. " "For the love of God just hear me out, he-" "Six... " "I want to go to bed! "

Jungkook stopped counting. " What? " He frowned. "I'm tired. " He whispered. "I just need to lie down. " Jungkook hesitated before pressing the back of his palm against his neck and jaw "Are you feeling ill? Should we get you to a hospital? " He asked, worried.

"No... Just.. He'll drop me off at the hotel. You'll be done soon right? I'll take a nap till then. " Jungkook frowned. "I'll come with you. " He said firmly. "What ? No...! You need to be here! " "Not really, Hyunsik, you need to go take my place. " The alpha groaned.

"Jeon, come on! " He protested, but Jungkook was already taking off the small tag around his neck and handing it over to Hyunsik. "Yug will file you in on what's happening and I want the pictures sent to my work email by tonight. Don't mess this up. " He said quietly.

Taehyung watched as the other alpha sighed in defeat before walking off in the direction of the set. "Jungkook, I'm-" "If you apologize, I'll shut you up the only way I know how. "

Taehyung felt a small smile tug on his lips and he laughed a little. "Is that a threat? Jungkook... " He whispered and the alpha hummed, stepping closer and trapping him in the curve of his arm. Taehyung bit his lips and Jungkook hummed. "No, baby. It's a promise." He grinned.

Taehyung smiled a little smoothing his palms over Jungkook’s shirt, flinching when another bolt of pain shot through the base of his neck and around his skull. He felt the first stirring of nausea and swallowed.

“Its alright if you take time off?” he asked hesitantly, peering around him at the set and Jungkook followed his gaze, before smiling. “Wow, you watched me work my butt off all day and still want me to work more? You’re cruel kim Taehyung ssi…”

Taehyung sighed, shaking his head, before reaching out and gently pressing a hand to his face. Jungkook blinked clearly surprised at the gentle gesture. He smiled softly, turning his face a little so he could press a kiss to the inside of Taehyung’s palm.

The omega sighed deeply at that. “You.. You make my life so hard. You know that.” He whispered. Jungkook grinned. “Well, you make me hard so-“ “Oh, God.” Taehyung punched his chest, turning away but Jungkook was laughing, tugging him back into a hug again.

“okay.. okay.. I’ll stop. I’m sorry. Tae, you want a nap? We’ll go take a nap. It’s alright.” He said softly. “ I don’t have to be back here until we go over all the shots tonight with the Creative Director. That's at least seven hours away. We'll get lunch, take a nap.

Jungkook smiled, wrapping his arm around him and gently pulling him along. "Come on, let me take you to bed. You know, because unlike Hyunsik, I’m allowed to do that.” He muttered under his breath . “You said you’ll stop!!”

"When did you first meet Yoongi? " Taehyung asked casually, watching as Jungkook took a bite of the tender meat, dipped in sauce. The alpha looked up at him, curious. "Yoongi? " He hesitated before taking a sip of water. " When I was around eight I guess. " "Wow."

"Yeah. It's a long time." Tae swallowed. "Do you remember me from high school? " He asked hesitantly. " I mean I understand if you don't. " He laughed. " I wasn't really very popular or even liked so-" "I do. You wore your hair a little longer back then and you were more tan."

Taehyung smiled a bit at that. "I used to spend a lot of time at my grandmother's farm so , you know... All that exposure to the sun.." He shook his head. " I used to like you a lot back then. You were really sweet to everyone. Kind. " "Used to like?" His brow went up.

"Yeah." He said with a shrug. " I learned something surprising, in the years that we spent together. You can want someone deeply, even think yourself in love with them, but still dislike the person they seem to become, when they're with you. " He licked his lips.

Jungkook stopped midbite, hands stilling in the air and Taehyung watched as the alpha carefully placed his spoon down before looking up at him. "Tae... " "I can't pretend the last three years didn't happen. For some reason you can but I can't. " He said quickly.

"I'm not trying to pretend they didn't happen. " Jungkook said quietly. " They did and they did for a reason. We were both hurt and.. I just..I don't want that to be the way our story ends." He said quietly."I just wish you would trust me when I say-" "That's the thing. I cant."

"Taehyung... If this is about what I said earlier.. We can forget it ever happened... I told you I don't need you to say it back or respond.. I just.. " "You just what? You just say it to anyone? First Yoongi and then me and then... Who?! " Jungkook froze. "That's not fair."

"Right? What does that feel like Jungkook? To be treated unfairly? Doesn't feel very good does it? " Jungkook laughed in disbelief. "Are you implying I haven't been treated unfairly? Did you forget what happened after that night? What I had to go through? " Tae stared.

"He was right. You do resent me for that night don't you? " He whispered. Jungkook sighed running a hand over his face. "Taehyung, listen... I don't resent you. I told you, neither of us was to blame for what happened... I wasn't lying when I said I wanted to move on. "

"But you were lying when you said you. Loved me right? Admit that. " He said shakily. Jungkook stared at him. "No." He said quietly. " If you don't love me that's fine but-" "I don't. " Taehyung said sharply. "I can't love someone who... Just falls in and out of love... "

"Taehyung what happened... Things were fine this morning.. You kissed me... What the hell went wrong... Just.. " "I tried okay? " Taehyung said shakily. " You looking at me like that. You wanting me, touching me, kissing me... Its all I ever wanted. And I tried to accept it.

But the truth is it's hard. It's so hard to let myself enjoy any of this. You... Your words.. Your touch... Everything feels so... Difficult to take in and... I don't think love should be difficult. It shouldn't feel so.. Constricting. I feel like I can't breathe around you. "

Jungkook recoiled at that. He bit his lips glancing down at the food and laughing softly. "Okay." He said shakily. "I mean, if that's how you feel, I don't.. Want to force you into anything.. " "I don't think you love me. " Tae said tiredly. " I just.. I don't believe you. "

Jungkook nodded, head bowed. "Okay. " He said quietly. " I.. I understand if that's how your heart feels about me..I won't try to tell you to change your heart. Because that's not something anyone can do right? "He exhaled. " So what do you want me to do? Leave? "

"Wouldn't that be for the best? " Tae said tiredly. " I want to not think about this, Jungkook. And you make that difficult because you're just so... Loud about your feelings and they overwhelm me and make me want to hide and never come out. And it scares me. "

"I can't live like this. " He said shakily. " I can't keep comparing myself to your ex boyfriend. I can't keep wondering if you will change your mind about him. I can't keep feeling like this is just a cruel prank that life's playing on me and you'll leave me like everyone else."

"Tae... What can I do to convince you that I don't love him. I never loved him. I don't want to leave you. I want to be with you. If you let me stay, I promise I won't leave you. Ever. Tell me how I can prove that, and I will. I'll do anything.. I.. " "You can't. " He whispered.

"Because it's not you. You.. You're perfect. I know that better than anyone else because I've loved you with my everything. " He felt his lips wobble, " But I think in the process of trying to have you.. I've just lost myself. Completely. I don't know who I am anymore. "

"I don't know what to say, what to feel, and I'm so terrified of doing something wrong, I don't even care about what I want to do. Do you know how pathetic that is? Being so, unsure you can't even bring yourself to want something? I.. I am not made for being loved by anyone. "

Jungkook swallowed. "Youre right. You weren't made to be loved by just anyone, baby" He said quietly. "You were made to be loved by me. " Taehyung stared at him quietly. "But you don't believe me right? " The alpha whispered. " And there's nothing I can do to convince you. "

"I want to back to Seoul, tonight. " Taehyung whispered. "Can you get tickets for me for the earliest flight? "

"Taehyung... " "I'm taking my mom back to Daegu. " He said shakily . " I think she would like to spend her last days there... And well, I think my school will let me quit if I explain the circumstances. " Jungkook stared at him. "Do I get a say in this? "

"Yes." Taehyung said quietly. " Of course you do. Are you going to force me to stay? Forbid me from leaving? " Jungkook stared at him. "Will you let me come visit you? "

Taehyung didn't respond and Jungkook sighed. "I suppose that answers it. " He stood up abruptly, the sound of the chair scraping the floor making Taehyung flinch. "I'll get your tickets. When do you want to leave to Daegu? Right away or will you wait till I get back? "

I don't see why we should wait. "

Jungkook stared. "Please don't do this" He said quietly. " I want to be the cool guy who lets you go without trying to change your mind, but I can't. Because I love-" He stopped, " I just.. I don't know how to fix this.But if you help me, I can try. Just please don't leave."

Tae hesitated before slowly standing up and moving to stand right in front of him. He hesitated, before leaning over and pressing a soft kiss on Jungkooks forehead. "I think we've reached the point where we can say goodbye and wish each other well. Isn't that what you wanted? "

"No." Jungkook said quietly. " You don't get to turn this one on me, Taehyung. You want to leave, you leave but you better own it. I have told you over and over that I want you here. With me. By my side and in my arms. You can't twist it around like you're leaving for my sake. "

You can say you don't trust me but you don't get to say I don't love you. You can say you want to leave me but you can't make it sound like a favor for me.yoi don't get to speak for me Or my feelings Tae." Tae flinched, throat going dry at the look on the alphas face.

"You're upset now but someday you'll thank me for-" "Didn't I just tell you, you can't speak for me? " He said quietly " You made it clear that you find it hard to breathe around me. I don't need you to let me down slowly. Or make it seem like you're doing it for my sake. "

When Taehyung didn't respond Jungkook sighed, shaking his head. "Okay. If this is what you want then.. You can pack. I'll get the tickets arranged and have someone drop you off at the airport. " He said quietly. "Mom and Dad will pick you up from Incheon. "

Mrs Jeon heard the phone ringing across the hallway and groaned. She always kept forgetting that thing there. Sighing, she placed the folded clothes in the laundry basket before moving over to take the call. "Hello? Jungkook?" "Mom? .. I.. Uh.. Need you guys to do me a favor."

" A favor? Is everything okay? " "Yeah... It's just uh.. Tae isn't keeping too well. He's been down with a headache and well.. I think it would be better if he came home ." Mrs Jeon blinked. "Alone? Are you sure? " "Yeah. He's pretty bored out here. He'll feel better there."

"That's unfortunate. And of course baby, you want dad to send the jet? " "Yeah. Could he? And just.. I don't want him to be alone so.. Could you come along mum? " "Wow, you really care for him huh? " She chuckled." I suppose there's no harm in me dreaming of grandchildren."

".... You'd like that right? " "Who wouldn't? But baby this is so sudden. Do you want Dr. Lee to check up on him? About the headaches? He's still there you know? " "No.. Uh.. I think it's just the climate here isn't sitting right with him. That's it. So you'll come? "

"Well, I'm not sure if I can. His mother's not doing too well, these days. " She said softly. " Darling, were you aware that she was losing pockets of time. And having trouble remembering things? Taehyung mentioned it to me but I didn't think it was that bad. "

"But dad will be there so don't worry. He won't be alone. And when are you getting back? " "As soon as I get this shoot done. I'll try to wrap it up as soon as I can. So, when can I expect him to be there? " "I'll talk to him. jungkook is everything alright? You sound.. Odd. "

"I'm fine mom. " Mrs Jeon sighed. "I don't like it when you hide things just because you don't want me to worry. " She said quietly. Jungkook chuckled "Well, won't stop me from doing it. I love you. " "I love you too baby. Did you take your meds? " "Yeah. I'm fine. "

"That's good. I'll go pick Tae and your dad at the airport and first thing tomorrow morning I will get his headaches checked out. I don't like the idea of him being in pain. " She said firmly. "Yeah mum. You're right. He doesn't deserve to be in pain. "

"Baby... Are you sure you're alright? You just sound.. " Like you used to when you were with Yoongi. Defeated. Helpless. Miserable. She swallowed, her heart aching. "I'm fine mom. " She sighed deeply. "Okay.. I love you. You are loved Jeon Jungkook. Yes? " "Am I? "

She felt her heart drop down to her knees. "Jungkook?! Baby what.. Why would you ask.... Jungkook? Jungkook? " The ominous beeping of the line made her breath catch. It took her a second to realise he had hung up. "Jungkook." She whispered softly, confused and worried.

"Tae, your mother's unwell. I think I should come alone with-" Jungkook began but the omega cut him off. "No." Tae said firmly, watching the valet load his suitcase into the car. Yugyeom stood next to him a blank look on his face. "You're being a real asshole right now."

"Yug... Don't. " Jungkook said quietly, placing a hand on his arm but the alpha shrugged him off, glaring at him "What? You're too nice to tell him the truth. But someone should. You.. " He said sharply. " You want to walk all over him? Then why the fuck did you kiss him? Huh? "

Taehyung didn't respond and Jungkook tugged his friend aside. "Don't." He said sharply. "Its not.. " "Oh shut up he needs to hear this. You know what Taehyung? Your theory about love being easy... It's stupid. Loving someone maybe easy. But relationships... Those take work. "

"They take work and they take effort no matter how much you love the person you're with. And if you can't do that, the fine. Good bye. Good riddance. " "Okay that's enough. " Jungkook said sharply glaring at the other alpha. "Listen there's a private lounge they'll take you to.

And dad will come pick you from there okay? Call me if you need anything else. " Taehyung stared at him for a few seconds before biting his lips. "I'll wait. " He said shakily. " Before leaving to Daegu.... I'll wait for you to get back. " Jungkook hesitated before nodding.

( taehyung is already changing his mind I think if you're like him you'll understand him. Perfectly. Because I have done the exact same thing.

)

Once Taehyung climbed into the car, the door slamming shut behind him, Jungkook exhaled shakily. Every instinct in him told him to follow Taehyung, to not let him leave alone but there was nothing he could do. This was Taehyung's choice. And he had to respect it.

Jungkook watched the car pull away and Yugyeom wrapped an arm around his shoulders. "You'll get through this . " The alpha said quietly and Jungkook grunted. "Not sober, I won't. " He sighed. " I really need a drink. "

(A/n : a few of you guessed it. Kudos. Warning : Non graphic depiction of violence)

It was a little past eleven in the night when Jungkook finally stumbled into the patio of the bungalow, groggy and numb. He wasn't completely drunk but well on the way.

It took him two tries to get the door open and all he really wanted was to sink into the bed that still smelled like Taehyung.

He stumbled a little as he moved into the living space, placing the key card on the side table and blinking a little to get the haze of alcohol of his eyes.

The room was cloaked in darkness, and a small pool of moonlight fell on the hallway from the large bay windows of the bedroom.

He groaned, running a hand through his hair before taking a step towards the hallway. He probably should have turned the lights on. If he had he definitely would have seen the blow coming.

"Fuck . " He whispered, pain shooting up his leg as his toes hit the corner of the coffee table, making him hop for a second. God he hated these things.

( lmao. Sorry)

As he made his way to the bedroom the cool sea breeze made him pause. Not just because it was pleasant on his skin. But because it wasn't supposed to be there. He had left the Windows locked. Every instinct came alive and he felt a shiver run down his spine.

He stopped in the hallway, gripping the walls as he tried to get his head on straight. Fuck why had he drunk so much. His vision was shaky, his head throbbing. He saw a shadow creeping along the hallway and his pulse quickened. When he turned on the light it didn't come on.

He flinched. Was the power off? In a resort this expensive that was unlikely. He should probably call the front desk and let them know. Where the fuck was the phone? His own phone had turned off a half hour ago. He felt along the walls, trying to get back to the living room.

As he stepped into the room reaching for the phone he realized the phone was powered by the electric outlet. Fuck.

Let's get out of here, Jungkook. A voice that sounded surprisingly like Taehyung made him pause. Great. Now his conscience was talking to him using Taehyung's voice? How the fuck was he going to get over him then? Fucking hell.

He blinked, head still spinning as he tried to work out where the front door was. There. Front and a bit to the left. He could do it. He took a step forward and then froze. Creeeeeek. That was the sound of the window opening in the bedroom. What the fuck.

He closed his eyes, trying to fight his own exhaustion enough to focus and then he heard it. The unmistakable sound of soft footsteps. In the deck. There was someone here. And the loss of power was intentional. Jungkook, run. Get out of here. He swallowed.

But as he took a step forward , his legs gave out a little, his body hitting the side bar with a thud. He flinched, scrambling to grip the wooden surface, the sound of breaking glass echoing around the empty room. Soft laughter came from somewhere behind him. He froze.

His hands closed around the neck of a bottle and he lost no time breaking it against the side of the bar, the drink fizzling out as he held the jagged broken mouth of it up in front of him, eyes straining to see in the dark. He saw the shadow again moving back into the bedroom.

As he took a step to the side, trying to focus, on the small bit of light in the hallway, he heard it, a soft footfall right behind him and he stumbled back, panic making him lose his balance as he crashed to the floor. The lights came on and Jungkook stared in disbelief.

"Taehyung?!! "

Taehyung stood in the doorway next to one of the valets, staring at him in disbelief. "I.. I came back. " "There's someone here. " Jungkook slurred. "In the bedroom. I saw them. " The man looked stunned. "Someone had cut the wiring leading to your bungalow sir. "

"Go look in the fucking bedroom. " He growled. " Tae... Please.. Stay there... Don't come in. " Fuck his Head hurt.

"You're bleeding. " Taehyung whispered moving to kneel next to him, reaching for his hand but Jungkook yanked it away, shaking his head. "You have a flight.. " He whispered, eyes heavy. " You need to leave. "

"Sir, the bay windows were open but there's no one here or on the deck. " The valet returned, looking troubled. "But there's wet footprints leading down to the water."

Jungkook groaned. "You know I hate to pull the father card but... The truth is my father will sue you guys for this. " He shook his head. " Where's the security guard? CCTV footage? Call the fucking cops. " "Sir, please, there's no need to " "What if my husband was here? "

"What if he got hurt? " He demanded. "Jungkook.. " Taehyung whispered, pressing a hand to his arm. " You're bleeding. We need to get your hand checked out. And please get the manager in charge. We can't stay here for the night. "

The man nodded before looking back and forth between them. "We have a VIP lounge near the reception where you can wait and get some first aid for your hand sir. We'll clean this place up and move you to a bungalow with betterment security right away. "

Jungkook felt the energy drain out of him as he sagged against Taehyung, the omega quickly wrapping both his arms around him. It was going to be a long night. But at least they were together. He closed his eyes, exhaustion taking over him.

Two hours later, Jungkook was relatively sober. He nursed a headache and his body still felt oddly wired and on edge but he had full command of his faculties and could carry their luggage up to their new bungalow, despite the bandage wrapped around his palm.

Taehyung stayed by his side, quiet and subdued and Jungkook had no idea what to say or do. He was just so tired, and confused and sleepy. He had called his father, had told him that Taehyung had changed his mind and his father was understandably annoyed.

But he had agreed to stay back . They would meet the next afternoon for lunch so Jungkook could explain what happened. As the guest service staff looked around the room making sure everything was perfect, Jungkook moves to the bar, pouring a small glass of water.

He moved to stand beside the omega holding the glass out for him to take. Tae looked surprised before taking the glass, downing it quickly. He licked his lips and stared at him. Jungkook took the glass . "More? " He prompted, turning to get more water but Tae grabbed his arm.

Jungkook raised a brow at him and Taehyung looked stricken, licking his lips again, clearly nervous and something inside him caved. He sighed, running his palm over his face. "Are you alright, Tae?" He asked carefully. Tae hesitated. "I'm sorry." He said softly.

That word was beginning to lose all meaning and sense, Jungkook thought miserably. "Okay." He said softly. " I'm... Just confused. What happened? " Taehyung looked over his shoulder and the staff cleared his throat behind him. "Everything is fine here sir. "

"There's extra security for tonight and we'll launch a thorough investigation tomorrow with the local police." The man assured him. " We'll also be offering you a full refund and the rest of your stay here will be completely complimentary. " He smiled wide.

Jungkook nodded, and once the door closed behind him, he locked it carefully, checking twice. As Tae watched, he carefully checked out the deck, the pool and the windows and doors leading into the bungalow. "You should go get some rest. I'll sleep on the couch." The alpha said.

Taehyung looked up confused. "The-The couch? " He asked hesitantly. Jungkook nodded, making his way over to the bedroom. This room was certainly bigger. But the sight of the bay windows made him flinch. That soft laughter. He moved to grab a pillow from the bed.

When he turned back around Taehyung stood framed in the doorway. He looked worried. Jungkook took the pillow and made his way to the door waiting for Taehyung to move but the omega stood still, blocking his way. "Taehyung... " He sighed. "I'm sorry. " He said again.

"You don't have to apologize for being honest Taehyung. " He said quietly. " I don't want you to ever feel like you can't share your feelings with.....someone. " He sighed. "It's fine. I'm not upset. I'm just... Well confused. But it's fine if you don't want to explain."

Taehyung stepped closer, reaching for his face but he pulled back, grabbing the omega's wrist before it could touch him. "Tae.. You need to stop. " He said quietly. "You can't build these huge walls around your heart to keep me out and then scale them yourself. It's not fair. "

"Either you let me in, " He said quietly "or we stay on our sides. I can't do this.... Back and forth thing where you feel safe with me but you don't trust me. Where you confess you love me and then tell me you could never love someone like me. I can't live with that. "

Taehyung hesitated before nodding and stepping away to the side, letting him pass. The alpha nodded. "Okay. Just get some sleep. We'll talk in the morning."

Jungkook brushed past him, moving to the couch and placing the pillow there. When he turned back around Taehyung stood there with another pillow in his hand. He stared at the omega in confusion. "What's wrong? " "Can I sleep here? The bed is too big. " Jungkook frowned.

"Are you sure? " He hesitated before taking his pillow and slowly standing up. But as he moved past him Taehyung grabbed his wrist. "Can I wear your shirt? " He asked hesitantly. Jungkook glanced down at his t shirt. "This one? " He hesitated before reaching for the hem.

When he held the shirt out, Taehyung grabbed it quickly and Jungkook felt heat rush up his face when the omega pressed the fabric to his face, breathing in deeply. A second later he seemed to realize what he was doing. He went still. Jungkook cleared his throat.

"You can wear that and sleep in the bed then. " He said firmly. Tae nodded and Jungkook moved to get back on the couch. "Do you need mine? " Taehyung asked, voice a little shaky and Jungkook was sure he had heard wrong. "What? " He blinked. "My shirt. Would you like it? "

Jungkook stared at him for a second. "You are ridiculously endearing. " He said tiredly and as much as I love the idea of having your scent on me....I would rather have an explanation for what happened today. " He said quietly. "Is that something you can offer? "

Taehyung continued to look at him and Jungkook exhaled, shaking his head. "Tae, you're in no shape for this. Perhaps we can just call it a night and tomorrow-" "Ask me. " Taehyung said softly. " Whatever you want to know. Ask me and I promise I'll answer honestly. "

Jungkook stared at him for a second before shaking his head. "I can't. The whole reason you left, you told me it was because I was too much and that I overwhelmed you. Clearly I have no idea what your boundaries are. I'm not going to ask something only for it to scare you more"

Taehyung wrapped his arms around himself. "Okay." He said quietly. The silence that followed was stifling, and Jungkook could barely breathe. He felt helpless and just a little lost. Taehyung was so... Hard to understand. So impossible to decipher. He was two feet away but

a million miles out of his reach. Hating the suffocating silence he cleared his throat. "I just have one question." He said hesitantly. "I hope you'll answer me honestly." Tae nodded, wide eyed. "Did Yoongi ask you to leave me? " He said carefully. "I saw you talking to him."

Taehyung seemed to consider the question for a second. "Yes he did. " He said finally and Jungkook couldn't stop the crushing feeling of disappointment and despair that took over his senses. It was like someone had hollowed out his heart and poured something acrid inside.

It felt for a second like he was eighteen again, helpless and confused. Yoongi had always had such a ridiculous amount of control over his life and Jungkook had gone to the brink of death trying to get away from him. He thought he was free. Apparently he never would be.

"And you found it easier to trust him than trust me? " Jungkook said quietly.

"No." Taehyung said sharply. Firmly. " He.. I would never trust him. I would never believe him over you. " "Right. Alright. " He shook his head. " Thank you for answering that. " "He's not the reason I left. " Taehyung said shakily. " I didn't believe anything he said. "

"Of course. You told me all the reasons why you were leaving Taehyung. They're still there. Right on the forefront of my mind. They're probably all I'll think about for a good long while. How I make it hard for you to breathe. How I'm too much. How I don't love you. "

"You don't have to remind me of that. They're pretty much seared in my brain. "He said quietly. Tae didn't respond. "You shouldn't have told me you loved me. " He said shakily. "I wasn't ready to hear that." Jungkook closed his eyes. "Well, you certainly taught me a lesson. "

"Now that I know how you feel about it, I'll make sure you never have to hear those words from me again. You can breathe freely Tae. " Jungkook turned away, tired and weary and done. "Jungkook.. " Taehyung said softly. "I spent a decade, waiting to hear those words from you. "

Jungkook paused, biting his lip. "But you only wanted to hear them on your terms. " He said quietly. " Fine. I understand that. Those words are too much for you. " "I don't care about those words Jungkook. I just... I don't know why I'm so terrified of all this but I am."

Tae shook his head. "You told me that the words I said, they're seared into your mind. You know what's seared into my mind? The words I heard from you the last three years. " He shook his head. " Tell me how to get rid of those. Then ill make space for your confession."

"I remember the first time you said you hated me. I remember it because hearing it made me hate myself too. " He whispered, " I remember the first time you told me I ruined your life, because I wanted nothing more than to disappear forever. I remember every single thing. "

"So tell me, how am I supposed to just trust you when you tell me you love me? When nothing else has changed between us. I'm the same person you hated three weeks ago... Why are things different now? I just.. I can't come to terms with it. "

"You lied to me. " Jungkook said quietly, " About having a miscarriage. You made me believe I'd lost a pup that I was ready to call and raise as my own. I said those things because I was hurt, Taehyung. Not because I meant them! I didn't hate you.. I hated what you did.

You didn't ruin me, but your actions... The consequences of those actions... They ruined both of our lives. " He whispered. " Your mother was there telling me I had r*ped you when you were drunk and you didn't say a single word. How do you think that made me feel? "

Taehyung stared down at his feet and Jungkook felt his heart start to ache. "Are you telling me that there's no way for you to forgive me for what happened? " He asked quietly. "Is this it?" Tae glanced up then. "You're not the one I'm struggling to forgive Jungkook."

Jungkook went still at that. "I forgave you a long time ago... But... The things you said... They just.. I still believe them. " He whispered. " They still make sense to me. And when I see you with Yoongi I.. " "I broke up with him three fucking years ago. "

"Why do you keep bringing him up? " He shook his head. "Do you think it makes any sense, even for a second that I would want to go back to the person who is the reason I had to get therapy for four years?! " He whispered. " He's the worst thing to happen to me Tae. "

"You.. You kept talking to him.. You would go whenever he called. " Taehyung said quietly. Jungkook shook his head. "Most of the times you assumed I was with him... I was with my therapist. " He said quietly. " Yoongi and I.. What we had was very unhealthy. "

"How was I supposed to know that? " He whispered, and Jungkook felt his shoulders sag in defeat. How indeed? He moved to sit on the couch burying his head in his hands. "We don't know each other at all. " Jungkook said quietly. " That's what makes this so difficult. "

"Jungkook, " Taehyung said quietly, moving to kneel in front of him, hands coming up to gently take the alpha's in his own. " Do you know what scared me the most? " He whispered. Jungkook stared. "Last time.. You told me I wouldn't have to leave. That you would leave instead."

Jungkook blinked. "What? " "I know, you didn't mean it that way." Taehyung sighed shaking his head. " But just.. The way you said it.. It made me think. It was easy for you... To leave me. That it wouldn't break you the way it would break me. " Jungkook groaned. "Tae-"

"I'm not saying it makes sense. " He said miserably. " But that's just who I am. It's who 've always been. Someone who doesn't make any sense. Someone you can't understand. Someone you can't read.. Why else do you think I grew up without a single fucking friend?! " He sniffled.

Jungkook went still at that, reaching out and cupping his face, cradling it gently. "Hey, now. Stop that. " He said sternly and Taehyung hesitated before nodding. More silence. "I think I need to stop talking altogether around you. " Jungkook muttered under his breath.

Taehyung gave a small watery chuckle. "I came back because I wanted to." he said shakily. " I.. I was sitting in that airport lounge and I kept thinking of the last time I was there.. With you... You took such good care of me and I.. I just wanted to see you. "

Jungkook sighed. "You don't have to tell me why you came back. I'm just glad you did. " He said finally. "Really? " "Yes." "I'll do better. " Tae whispered, " I'll.... Stop running." "I would like that." Jungkook nodded, brushing the hair off his forehead.

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Taehyung's mind had always oscillated between perfect clarity when it came to certain things and complete and utter confoundment, when it came to certain others. He felt certain and immovable about a few things, rather fickle and easily swayed with a few other things.

Confrontations were always terrifying. He didn't like those at all. Honest talk was even worse. Baring his soul to someone felt like the mental equivalent of taking off all armor and kneeling in the middle of a raging battle, a surefire way to get a dagger to his chest.

He didn't make friends for this very reason. There was a certain entitlement that came with being a friend, one that made him uncomfortable. He was sick of people wanting to ' fix ' him. He didn't want pity. He didn't want sympathy. What he wanted really, was acceptance.

There was comfort in being alone. He liked being able to think whatever he wanted without people judging him for it. But all that had changed when he met Jungkook. Taehyung lay on his side, watching the alpha carefully. Jungkook was fast asleep. This was creepy. But..

Jungkook wasnt much like what he had imagined him to be. Taehyung had always imagined him to be naive and easily swayed. But the Jungkook he had come to know these few days seemed different from the one in his fantasies. He wasn't sure if that was good or bad.

He stared at the handsome alpha, taking in his features,even more perfect than usual, like this. Poetry when in motion, art when in repose, he thought vacantly. Confusing in the best way, exhilarating in the worst. Someone he loved deeply, but couldn't let himself be loved by.

He sighed, shaking his head at that last thought. What did that even mean honestly? Letting someone love him? What did that entail? The truth was no one had ever actually tried to love him. He didn't know what that felt like at all. He didn't know how that worked.

He drew his knees up to his chest feeling cold and empty. He wasn't quite sure he was the kind of person made to be loved by someone like Jungkook. He could think of people who would melt and give their entire world to Jungkook, I'd they experienced what Taehyung had.

And yet all Taehyung felt, everytime ge thought of Jungkook saying he loved him, was stark, stark terror. How fucked up was that? On a scale of one to ten, ten being most suited to dating someone like Jungkook, he wasn't even a zero. He wasn't even in the running.

it was pretty sad that he hadn't considered this when he fell in love with Jungkook. Maybe that would have stopped that feeling from growing into the gargantuan monster that it was today. A living breathing, ancient thing, its claws sunk far too deep into his skin.

He exhaled slowly, his breath shaky. Well, it was too late to get out of its clutches now. He couldn't even if he wanted to. Which he didn't, sadly. Sometimes, loving Jungkook had been his only purpose in a sad, lonely wretched life. It had made him feel a little less useless.

Come to think of it, it was rather jarring how far apart the two of them had been on the social ladder of high school and college. Taehyung had been the quintessential loner, only catching the eye of alphas because of his looks. He shuddered a bit at the memories.

It wasn't easy, turning people down when you didn't have anyone in your corner. In the college cafeteria or the lawns outside or even the coffee shops around the campus, he would often get accosted, alphas 'informing' him they wanted to date him. Like he had no say in it.

He hadn't handled those well. For him it had been Jungkook, Jungkook and only Jungkook. The idea of anyone else near him, touching him or kissing him, it felt repugnant. But you couldn't say that to people. Especially not pig headed alphas who took everything personally.

Someone somewhere had seen him watching Jungkook and connected the dots. And then the rumors had started.

Subtle but still insistent enough to spread far and wide. They were all ridiculous. This idea that he wanted to break Jungkooks relationship. That he was looking to seduce him in some way. That he thought he was better than Yoongi and Jungkook would fall for him easily.

The worst of it was, Taehyung knew that Jungkook had heard these things too. Because the alpha , who up until then had pretty much ignored his existence, started watching him back. It was subtle but also impossible to ignore. Taehyung had registered on Jungkooks radar.

Just in the worst way possible.

He reached out and touched the fringe of hair falling into Jungkooks eyes. The alpha wrinkled his nose in his sleep, groaning and shifting closer, arm coming up to drape over his waist, heavy and unbearable. Taehyung gulped a little. He ran because it was easy.

And sometimes he was just so... so exhausted from it all, his brain just begged him to do something easy for once. Like fantasizing about an alpha who would never in a million years look at him anyway. Or running away when the same alpha did, indeed start looking.

Jungkooks eyes fluttered open right then and Taehyung felt his breath catch. "What's wrong? " The alpha asked voice groggy and deep. He swallowed. "Nothing. Did I wake you up? " "No. But.. Why are you up? " "I can't sleep. " Taehyung said quietly. " I.. I'm feeling hot."

Jungkook frowned pulling away from him and glancing around the room. The air conditioning was still on. It was a chilly night as it was. Taehyung rolled over to lie on his back. "My mother isn't going to make it to six months. " He said quietly and Jungkook went still.

"Why do you say that? " He asked carefully. Taehyung shrugged. "Just a feeling... She's... Well, she would never admit it but... I think she's very unwell." "Taehyung we can go back if you want. Dad's still here. I'll come with you. " He said seriously. "And what? "

Taehyung turned to look at him. "If I tell you that I sometimes wish she would be dead before I get back home... Would you still love me? " He said quietly. " Tell me Jungkook. Be honest. "

Jungkooks face drained of color alarmingly fast. Taehyung laughed a little shaking his head. "I've shocked you. I'm sorry. Go back to sleep. " He said bitterly. Jungkook sat up, reaching for the small light on the side of the bed, turning it on and dousing the room in gold.

Jungkook was staring at him, an ashen pallor to his face. "What was that about? " He asked shakily. "What was what about? " "Taehyung, I'm serious. Why the fuck would you say that? " He demanded. Taehyung stared at him, not responding. "That's your mother. Why would you-"

"Yes. She's my mother. " He said quietly. " But you know what she did in our second year in college? She invited an alpha who claimed to be dating me, and made him wait in my room and went ' shopping ' , " He said bitterly. " I walked into my room and found him on my bed. "

Jungkook looked horrified and Taehyung felt his mouth go dry as he remembered. "He was jerking off on my bed. He was facing away from me so I just left the house without him realizing I was there. But my room stank of him for weeks and when I confronted my mother, do you know

What she said? She said she was helping me 'make friends'. That if I kept ' overreacting ' and getting upset over ' small things' no one would ever want to be with me. Tae bear, I just want you to be happy, can't you see that? " He mimicked in her soft voice.

Jungkook looked just a little sickened. "So yes... Sometimes, I wish she would pass away without me there, forced to grieve a woman who doesn't really deserve it...Does this change the way you look at her? Or does it change the way you look at me? " Taehyung asked quietly.

Jungkook didn't say anything, merely watching Taehyung as he watched the shadow from the pool dance across the ceiling. "I wish I could hate her. " He said softly. " It would make it all so easier you know. Hate Or love, it's never black and white. " He sighed.

"Who was it? " Jungkook asked after a few beats of silence. " The guy in your bed? " Taehyung laughed. "Why? Are you going to beat him up for me? " He smiled. "Maybe." "Well, you can't. Who will write the Editorial for your magazine then? " He asked quietly.

Jungkooks entire body seemed to go taut at that, his eyes widening and fingers curling around the fabric of the sheets. He stared at him in disbelief and Taehyung nodded. "That's right. " He said shakily, " Your friend isn't he? " He shook his head, " Basketball buddies. "

"Taehyung... " His voice shook, almost vibrating a little from tension and Taehyung felt drained. "Don't." He said quietly. "Whatever you're about to say... Whatever meaningless platitude you think will make me feel better... Just keep it to yourself. Can you do that? "

"I didn't know. " Jungkook said shakily. " Taehyung how could I possibly have kno-? " "You should at the least have asked yourself why they were so obsessed with me. All those rumors... All those taunts. You were there weren't you? And you never did a thing."he sighed.

"Taehyung... I was.. " He sighed shaking his head. " You know what. I have no excuses. You're right. I should have spoken up. I should have said something. " The omega nodded. "I saw him today. " He said shakily. " At the airport. He was talking to your father."

Jungkook inhaled sharply. "Is that why you came back? " Taehyung stared at him, defeated. "I had to get out of there..." He whispered. "I wanted to get somewhere safe. " He choked out. "And I just... I couldn't think of anywhere I've felt safe except.. " He shook his head.

"There's a meeting tomorrow. He's supposed to be here. He must've taken the flight out from Seoul. " Jungkook said quietly. " Taehyung, has he tried to contact you over the past few years? " He asked seriously, eyes narrowed. "He turned up at my school once." He looked away.

"Why didn't you tell me? " Jungkook said sharply, and Taehyung scoffed. "Because he told me you sent him. " He retorted. " And you know what else he told me? That you wouldn't be home that night because you were going to go home with Yoongi and you did stay out that night."

Jungkook was gawking at him. "Taehyung I've stayed behind at the office when I'm editing photos... I have never, not even once spent the night with Yoongi, since the night of that party. " He said shakily. Taehyung blinked. "I.... How was I supposed to know that. "

They stared at each other, both of them just a little disoriented, their world rocked in a way they hadn't anticipated.The air seemed heavy with hurt, both inflicted and endured and Jungkook was the first one to break the silence. "I'm going to tear him to shreds " He whispered.

"Stop it. " Taehyung said with a shake of his head. " You can't. You'll lose your job. " He exhaled. " It's just... You deserve better friends. " He said quietly. " Like Yugyeom... Hes fine. He's alright but everyone else. " He shook his head. " They're awful Jungkook. "

When Jungkook was around twenty one and about three weeks into His therapy sessions, his therapist told him about a very interesting thing. Cognitive dissonance. He had first mentioned it when Jungkook had expressed the deep, almost suffocating head aches he had.

It made it hard for him to breathe sometimes, his appetite gone and just this constant state of discomfort and unrest in his head. He was in therapy. But still dating Yoongi. And well, everyday he realized, more and more how much the older was harming him,

Only to head back home, right into his arms. It was disorienting. His actions at complete odds with his own beliefs and convictions, with no way to break free or change. It had been so draining, shifting his thoughts and making them align with his actions.

And staring at Taehyung now, Jungkook felt the same, debilitating feeling of confusion and discomfort and deep, deep guilt. Taehyung's words rang in his head and he wanted to curl into himself, and hide, because there was a reason, a valid one why he never spoke up.

But there was also this other part, this jarringly loud voice in his mind that said it didn't much matter. Taehyung was right. He should have spoken up. He should have known they were harassing the omega. It was inexcusable, unforgivable that he had turned a blind eye to it.

And well, Dr. Lee had also told him quite clearly that feeling that way wasn't a sign of mental illness. Cognitive dissonance was just a common psychological phenomenon that everyone experienced at some point or the other. He stared at Taehyung, wanting nothing more than to

Tell him the truth of what had happened with him and Yoongi back then... How messed up his own head and heart had been. How waking up each day felt quite literally like a punishment in and of itself. How absolutely exhausted and miserable he had been and not even realised it.

But it wasn't about him. He didn't want to make it about him. Not now when it was Taehyung who had taken this step towards him. Who had told him something so painfully heavy and awful, something that must've weighed him down for years. Taehyung was trusting him with his truth.

And he would honor that trust by giving him what he clearly needed at the moment: someone who would listen without wanting to fix things. Taehyung wasn't looking to get avenged. He just wanted someone to listen and understand. And Jungkook would do just that.

"Was she always like that? " He said quietly, steering the conversation away from his friends. He would deal with Jaehyun later. Taehyung seemed to be lost inside his own head. "My mother? " He intoned dully, " Like what? " "Abusive? " Jungkook whispered.

Taehyung blinked at that, frowning deeply. "What? " He swallowed. " Where did you get that? " He chuckled lightly. " Well, I suppose it's not surprising you think thats abusive. I mean your mother is ...." He shook his head. " My mother is just...misguided in her beliefs."

"Tae... " "She's going to forget me soon you know. " Taehyung said quietly. " I read all about it. I'll walk into her room and she won't even know who I am. " He licked his lips. " Maybe then I could look at her and not feel this way. Not feel this helpless sort of anger. "

"I'm not sad that she's dying Jungkook. I'm just angry that she'll never know what she did to me. She'll never feel remorse for the way she treated me. And there's nothing I can do about it. "

He turned to Jungkook. " The same goes for your friends. " He said quietly. " They won't ever feel bad about what they did. Because as far as they're concerned they never did anything bad at all. It took me a long time to realize that there's no such thing as karma. "

"People do terrible things to other people, and then go on to live happy healthy lives, with no repercussions at all. "

The silence that followed was loud. Jungkook watched the shadows dance across Taehyungs face. He couldn't help the chill that ran down his spine, the soft contours of his profile triggering memories long buried. He had watched him a lot, like this when Taehyung wasn't looking.

"Did they.." He asked hesitantly. " Did they try to hurt you? " His heart began pounding a little in his chest, because now the dots were starting to connect. Taehyungs trauma from that night. That positive pregnancy test. The way Dr Lee had mentioned the possibility of assault.

"What do you mean? "Taehyung gave him a confused look. "Taehyung... " Jungkook said carefully, " Can I just ask you.. Did any of my friends approach you that night? " Taehyung stiffened visibly at that. "Not you too. People wont let that night go. First Yoongi and now you! "

Jungkook frowned. "Yoongi? What do you mean by Yoongi? What did he say? " Taehyung sighed. "I don't even know what he was trying to say. Just that apparently I can't keep running from whatever it is that I keep dreaming about. " He sighed. " I get bits and pieces of

that night in my dreams and I know it's weird but it's not that big of a deal. " He muttered. " I... I'm sure that if something genuinely worthwhile had happened, I would remember it. And if I don't remember it, it's clearly not important enough. " He shook his head.

Taehyung looked up at him then, licking his lips and there was a gaunt, haunted look to his face, one that told Jungkook quite clearly that Taehyung didn't believe the words coming out of his own mouth. The omegas pallor was ashen and grey, his eyes dimmed a little,

He wasn't quite meeting his eyes. Jungkook glanced at the bandages wrapped around his hand and he remembered the man who had been in their room just a few hours ago. He remembered that sinister laughter, soft but definitely eerie. And for the first time he felt fear.

Was Taehyung in danger? He thought shakily.

In the quietness of the room, the lamp by the bedside flickered, once and then twice. Outside the sound of the waves crashing into the shore was a dull hum. Jungkook watched the light flicker again and swallowed. "Taehyung, we should go home tomorrow. " He whispered.

Taehyung looked surprised. "What?" Jungkook couldn't quite describe the urgency inside his chest. This clawing urge to get as far away from this place as possible. "Let's go back to Seoul. " He said quietly. "I'll talk to my boss. " Taehyung shook his head. "Why? "

"Dad's waiting for us anyway. We'll meet him tomorrow and just go back." "You're scaring me." Taehyung said quietly. "Tell me what's wrong? " "I don't know. " Jungkook said shakily." I just-" The lamp flickered one last time and died, plunging both of them into pitch darkness.

Taehyung groaned, climbing out of the bed and moving to the windows. "God, what on earth is wrong with this place? " He whispered , voice a little shaky, "you would think the power supply at a resort like this would be-" He stopped short. "Wait... What? " He narrowed his eyes.

"What is it? " Jungkook was by his side, peering out the window as well. Taehyung groaned. "It's just us. " He said quietly, " At this point I'm half convinced someone is doing this on purpose. " He shook his head. Jungkook looked troubled as he gently took his elbow,

tugging him away from the window and moving to lock it securely. Taehyung watched as the alpha drew the blinds as well, cutting off the view and the meagre light from the moon as well. "What are you doing? " Taehyung stared at him and Jungkook merely shook his head.

"Taehyung, I need you to lock the door to the bedroom on the inside. " He said quietly. "I'm going to go look around the patio, and try and contact the staff on my phone okay? I'll lock the door on my way out, but just to be safe, close this door too alright? " He said quietly.

Taehyung felt a little troubled at that. He glanced at his own phone. The reception was a little bad here but they could get a clear connection out on the patio, yes. "I don't want to stay here by myself. Let me come with you. "He said hesitantly. "I'm just making a call, Tae."

"Besides your hand is hurt. Why don't I go make that call instead? " He said quietly. " You can stay here. " " You didn't just suggest that. " Jungkook stared at him in disbelief. Taehyung shrugged. "Sure I did. I can take care of myself, you know. "

Jungkook groaned. "Now is seriously not the time to... " "Wait, you don't think I can't take care of myself, do you? " The omega frowned. " Because that's not something I'll put up with. " "Tae... " The door bell rang startling both of them. "Oh." Taehyung smiled.

"Good to know they aren't fully incompetent. " Jungkook muttered under his breath, before moving to the door and then into the hallway. Tae followed close behind, watching as Jungkook peered out of the viewfinder. "Sunggyu? " The alpha looked surprised, "what is he doing here? "

Jungkook opened the door and Taehyung blinked, surprised to see the alpha he had met at the beach earlier. The one who Had offered him the locket. He smiled in recognition, bowing politely. The other nodded before holding a file out to Jungkook. "Oh, it's the test shots."

"Did the director send these to me? " He frowned. "This late? " Sunggyu bowed his head before holding up his phone for Jungkook to see. 'He gave it in the evening but you didn't come back to the set'... It read. "Oh." Jungkook ran a hand through his hair. " Sorry about that."

"But this really could have waited till the morning... Oh he wants my feedback before nine in the morning?? " jungkook frowned. " This is messy. I'm sorry you got caught in the middle Sunggyu.. " He smiled politely, before bowing. The man kept his gaze on Taehyung.

"Jungkook, I don't think there's anyone here" Tae said quietly peering out into the patio through the windows, before brushing past the man by the door. The pathways were deserted. Not a soul in sight. The wind picked up a little and the moonbeams made the water look sinister.

Taehyung knew the water wasn't deep, but the pitch black surroundings made it look bottomless. He felt a chill run down his spine, glancing at the door where Jungkook was talking to the crew man. He glanced at his phone and his frown deepened. Here there was no reception at all.

"Jungkook i can't make calls out here. " He called out and Jungkook frowned. "Really? " "The reception is awful. " He grimaced before squinting down the pathway. " The reception is just around that corner right? Why don't you send Sunggyu away, I'll go see if someone is there?"

Jungkook looked hesitant. "Tae, I'll feel better if you stay here. I'll go check-" But Taehyung wasn't listening, merely waving quickly, and taking off down the steps and onto the pebbled pathway. Jungkook watched him go in disbelief. "God, he's a menace. "

"Sorry about this... You should go now. I need to go follow my husband-" Jungkook began urgently, moving to get the key card to the room, but Sunggyu moved closer holding up his phone again. Jungkook blinked. "You need some water? " He hesitated glancing down the path.

"Well okay, uh... Come in I guess. I'll get you a glass. "

( remember jk isn't inviting a stranger in. He has worked with this guy for years. Jk considers him trust worthy. And well, you see Yugyeom also talks to him kindly. Sadly, they all think he's harmless. A colleague that they know well)

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Taehyung made his way to the small reception area, frowning when he realized the security guard was slumped over the bench snoring lightly. He cleared his throat and the man jerked awake, looking lost. The incompetence in this place was startling.

"Is the night manager here?" he asked sharply." There's an electric outage in our cabin. i need someone to come look at it right away. My husband's hurt and we're seriously reconsidering our stay here." He said sharply. The man mumbled something, apologetic and Taehyung sighed.

He glanced at his phone and did a double take. The reception was perfect here and his cellphone buzzed with new messages. What on earth? Just fifty feet away by their cabin the reception had been completely gone. "I'll call him right away, Sir." The man muttered.

"Tell him to get here soon." Taehyung dialed Jungkook's number, frowning when the dull beeping told him Jungkook wasn't reachable. Of course he wasn't. Apparently their bungalow was the one place where no electrical device would work. Ever. "You can go wait in your cabin sir"

"No." He said quietly. " What I want is for you to send someone with me to fix it as soon as possible. I have no intention of going back there and sitting in the dark while you guys take your sweet time." He said quietly. " And whatever happened to the extra security?"

The man looked guilty. "Uh.. That would be me." Taehyung closed his eyes in disbelief. "Do you want me to come drop you off sir, the manager will be here in twenty minutes at the most..." "I'll wait." Taehyung said firmly. "Ask him to hurry up."

The alpha had his back to him, and Sunggyu felt the burn of the knife in his pocket, the itch to reach in and grip the familiar handle, to tug it out and sink it into his neck, just at the right angle , enough to ensure he would die, but not so quick as to make it unsatisfying.

But he couldn't do that now. It wasn't the right time. He had been so patient , for so long. He could wait a little longer. Of course he could. He wasn't an animal, for fucks sake. He had self control. "Here you go." Jungkook held the glass out for him, smiling.

He took a sip of the water, slow and didn't miss how restless Jungkook was. Was it because Taehyung wasn't here? Quite the concerned husband wasn't he? He scoffed. It was all an act. He knew that better than anyone else. He had seen Taehyung ache and long for Jungkook or years.

Jungkook didn't deserve the love that Taehyung showered him with. He didn't deserve anything but pain and anguish for what he had put his pretty Tae Tae through. And Sunggyu would give him exactly what he deserved. He held the glass out, and Jungkook took it, turning back around.

He lost no time, reaching for the thin metal chain in his jacket, something he had picked out carefully and deliberately at a hardware store in Daegu. It was almost ridiculous, how easy it was to wrap it around Jungkook's neck, yanking him up and off his feet in a second.

The alpha had one hand wrapped in bandages, the other wrapped around a glass and that little disadvantage was all it took for him to get the upper hand, hand moving deftly to loop the chain around his neck twice tugging back till he began choking.

"Don't make a sound." He said softly, his voice low and rough from disuse, throat a little achy from the hours spent faking his muteness, and his arms hurt, because Jungkook was by no means weak. "Stop struggling," He grunted, tightening the chain and reaching for his knife.

The alpha kicked out, hands clawing at his wrist, but he knew what he had to do. Jungkook was a hindrance. He had to go. it had to be done. Besides , he deserved it. Taehyung would thank him for this. In the long run it would all be worth it.

It was easy, bringing the knife up over his own shoulder before plunging it straight into the place where he knew the alpha's wicked heart was. it was poetic in a way , because that heart had caused Taehyung so much pain. He felt the tip of the knife hit bone and frowned.

Fuck did he miss?? But the knife sank in and he twisted it around, anger spiking inside him. No.. Fuck.. he couldn't have missed. it was because the fucker was facing the other way... he couldn't see and he missed. He pushed the blade in deeper, furious.

"Fuck its like that night all over again." He growled, yanking Jungkook back and away, aware that the alpha had slumped, had stopped struggling. " You can't stop screwing up a simple thing. You let Tae get away and now this..." He watched the alpha crash to the floor.

He breathed out sharply, staring at the knife in his hand and the prone figure on the ground. There was blood. A lot of it. Enough of it, he thought vacantly, rubbing the blade on his shirt. He would bleed out. It wasn't ideal but... he groaned. "I had to do this."

he kicked the alpha's side, pushing him out of the way before stepping over his body. " Taehyung doesn't learn his fucking lesson. Doesn't understand when something's bad for him. He needs to know that you're the worst thing to happen to him."

He took a deep breath, trying not to remember all tyhe ways that Taehyung had defied him over the years . Running away from him in Daegu. Running away from him that night. "I was going to give him pups." He said sharply. " The most precious gift in the world."

"And did he have the good sense to accept me? No..." He rolled his eyes. " That little slut. " He shook his head. "Fought me so much, I couldn't even..." He sighed, running a hand over his face. " If I finished what I started that night, you wouldnt have to suffer like this."

"So really, if we're going to blame anyone for this...": He pointed at the mess in front of him, the blood and the prone figure on the ground. " We really should be blaming Taehyung. Yeah... its his fault. All of this. Fuck..." He kicked out again." Where is he?"

He stared at the door, frowning. Taehyung should be back by now. He wanted to see the look on the omegas face when he saw what he had done for him. Maybe for once, Taehyung would be grateful. He moved towards the door, stepping over Jungkooks body.

A second later something sharp and long plunged straight to the flesh on the inside of his thigh. Blood spurted out, spraying the wall in front of him and he blinked, confused as his knees gave out, making him tip forward, face first on the floor.

He gurgled a little, confused, and moving just enough to see the handle of an ice pick sticking right out of his thigh. He felt cold. Icy cold, his lower body drenched from the blood that was splurting out of him. His eyes met those of Jungkooks. "You-" He choked out.

Jungkook shifted, moving just enough to press a knee to his chest. "You want to know what happened that night? " Sunggyu muttered, eyes wild. " I can tell you.. I can tell you all about it.. " Jungkook didn't respond, merely watching him. He coughed, head starting to ache.

"No." He said quietly. " I know enough. " Sunggyu frowned. "Taehyung has to know. " He said desperately. " He has to know what I did for him... That night... I saved him... " Jungkook scoffed shaking his head. "Whatever you did to him that night, it dies with you, tonight."

Sunggyu felt his heart lurch. No. No that couldn't happen. Those two monsters had tried to hurt Taehyung. He had been the one to save him. He had done it for him.

"Taehyung will never know of your existence. " Jungkook whispered. " For him, you'll just be the crazy bastard who tried to hurt his husband. You won't hold a single square inch of space in my husbands mind. I'll make sure of it. " He swore. His vision blurred.

( a/n remember the flashback Tae had with yoongi

)

"You're quite the lucky man. " The doctor said carefully, watching as one of the nurses wrapped the blood pressure cuff around his arm. " People think shoulder stab wounds are not that serious but it's a miracle he missed the three big blood vessels you have there. "

Taehyung seemed to jerk in his seat a little at the remark, his ashen face going even paler. Jungkook tried to give him a reassuring look but the adrenaline was wearing off and pain was beginning to make itself known. His neck was on fire, the chain having dug into his skin.

Outside the door, two cops stood talking with his father. Mrs Jeon was already on a flight to Jeju. Han Sunggyu had succumbed to his injuries on the way to the hospital. "You're going to have to rest. That's all we can tell you at this point. " The doctor stood up.

Jungkook watched him leave and Taehyung shifted closer, gripping his wrist. "Jungkook... Why would he do that... I... I don't understand... " He choked out, confused and clearly! In shock. Jungkook ached with the knowledge that he had to hide. "Hey.. It's alright. It's okay."

"Nothing is okay. " Taehyung said sharply, "you.. You got stabbed. " He was shaking. " What part of that is okay?!!' "Taehyung, the police are going to investigate and they'll find out what happened. I don't why that guy did what he did but he's gone now. And I'm fine. "

The knock on the door made them both look up. It was Jungkooks father looking gaunt and drained. "They're going to go through his stuff here in his room and also his apartment in Seoul. " He said tiredly. " They'll let us know what they find. " He shook his head.

"You leave Seoul for one lousy work trip and end up in a hospital twice. What is this Jeon Jungkook? " He demanded. Jungkook shook his head exhausted. "Dad... Please. I just want to rest. " He turned to Taehyung. " Stay with me tonight Tae. " Taehyung sighed, nodding.

Once the door closed behind him, Jungkook gave Taehyung a small smile. "Tae.. " He said gently. " You don't remember seeing Sunggyu before? Nothing about him seems familiar? " "Why do you ask? " Jungkook hesitated. "I was just wondering. " He said softly," It's nothing."

"I met him on the beach earlier. With Yugyeom. " He said hesitantly. " He.. He seemed like a nice guy... He... He even offered me a locket... I.. Come to. Think of it... The locket... It seemed a little familiar... But I don't remember where I saw it... " He bit his lips.

Jungkook fought to keep his expression even. Taehyung had met him. Taehyung had been within touching distance of that psychopath. He felt like there was an iron Fist squeezing his heart at the thought of it. "What's wrong? You look so scared.. " Taehyung whispered.

Jungkook took a deep breath. "There's something I have to tell you Tae. " He sighed. "I thought I could pretend I don't know... That it would go away... But I don't think it's going to go away. Taehyung...The dreams and the nightmares. " He sighed. " The memory of that night."

"What do you mean? " "This is something my therapist explained to me. There's every possibility that the reason you don't remember anything from that night... It's because of what happened that night. " "Nothing happened. " Taehyung snapped. " Stop it. " "Tae... " "Don't."

Jungkook winced when he tried to move, pain shooting up his arm. Taehyung bit his lips, helping him lie back down and when the omega made to move he quickly grabbed his arm. "Just hear me out. " He begged. " Please... Just listen to what I have to. Say. "

"When something traumatic happens... " He began carefully, trying to remember what Dr. Lee had told him, " Our brain kind of tries to protect us from what happened. Because... Thinking of it... Of the way it made you feel... It's too much. So.. It stores the memory away somewhere

You can't reach. Somewhere you don't normally go to. Like a dark part of your brain that you don't really use. " Taehyung frowned. "I don't understand.." "You don't remember that night because something happened that traumatized you. Because whatever happened, it hurt you."

"I... " Taehyung shifted away. " That's absurd.. I.. People forget things all the time." He argued. "Not like this. Not one entire night with no recollection of anything. " "What about people who get black out drunk. They have no recollection of the night... It happens. "

Jungkook nodded and waited for another beat. "Yes but those memories don't resurface as nightmares or flashbacks. " He said carefully. " They don't make you feel clammy and afraid. And I know that's how these memories make you feel Tae. I was there at the pool remember? "

"So what... You.. You want me to remember... This...Night. Whatever awful thing that happened" "No." Jungkook said easily. " I don't want you to remember it. Ever. " He swallowed. " Because the only way to remember a repressed memory. " He took a deep breath, " Is to relive it."

Taehyung blinked. "What? " " The part of your brain that has the memory of that night tucked away.... The only way to access it... Is to make your mind believe you're back there. Back at that party. Facing whoever hurt you that night. " He shook his head. " I won't allow it. "

"Jungkook... " He said softly. "There's all these complex terms that Dr. Lee used... Like hypnosis and neurolinguistic programming and a bunch of other stuff but... I don't think any of that is worth you going through something like that all over again. "

"Why do you say it like that? " Taehyung asked quietly. Jungkook went still. "Like what? " "Like you know... " He whispered. "Tae.... " "Wait.. Do you! " He licked his lips. " Do you know what happened to me that night? " Jungkook went completely still. "Tae."

"Why else would you react so strongly to the idea of me remembering it? It's like you're afraid of it... And why would you be afraid of it if you didn't know what it was... " "You're right. " Jungkook said quietly. " I am afraid of it. But not because I know what it is. "

He held the omegas gaze, breathing deep. "I'm terrified because I don't know, Taehyung. " He whispered. " I opened the door tonight and let a monster walk into our life. Because I didn't know he was one. I'm terrified because I don't know what I'm protecting you from. "

Taehyung stared at him. "So it's true. " He said quietly. " He was here because of me. " Jungkook didn't respond. " I suspected it, because the way he was looking at me at that beach, it was like he knew me. Like he was seeing right through my head. Was he there that night?"

Jungkook hesitated before shaking his head. "I don't know. " He said quietly. "He didn't say anything. " "No." Taehyung took a deep breath. "Is this you protecting me again? " He asked quietly. Jungkook didn't respond. "I suppose I have no choice but to believe you. "

"I would rather protect you with a lie then put you in danger with the truth Tae. I'm sorry if that makes me a terrible alpha but that's who I am. " He said quietly.

"So the truth is dangerous? " "No, but your past is. " He said quietly. He reached out then gripping his wrist. Squeezing a little. " I like the Taehyung of today. " He whispered. " I don't want the Taehyung from three years ago to hurt the man in front of me now. "

(A/n : I'll stop here for today and I'll be back tomorrow

Experiences like this aren't universal.

For now, I won't go into the argument of whether Tae should be forced to remember or not

but just keep an open mind and remember different things work for different

People. The main danger with forcing people to remember repressed memories is that what they 'remember' may be false. I did do my research for this ( and spoke to an actual psychotherapist) so I hope you guys enjoy it.

) ( We'll meet Dr. Lee soon

and he will help.)

But I can assure you, by the end of the fic, Taehyung does come to term with his trauma. And he makes peace with it.

It was a little past ten when the doctor came in for one last round of visits, with instructions for Jungkooks pain meds to be upped, so he could get a good night's rest. Taehyung sat by his side, watching as the nurse went about his duties. Once the door closed

Behind him, Taehyungs hands started to shake. It was a light tremble, but it came with a curious feeling of weakness, a feeling of helpless fear. He had to wrap his arms around himself just to get himself to stop shaking. Jungkook lay back on the bed, arm in a sling.

The alpha was staring up at the ceiling, a blank look on his face. His complexion was ashen, pallid almost and Taehyung remembered the blood in the room. There had been so much of it. His knees weak and skin icy cold, he slowly walked to the chair by his side.

Jungkook glanced at him when he settled in, his face completely devoid of emotions. "I killed someone tonight. " He said quietly . " Someone I knew. Someone I talked and laughed with, countless times at my work place. " Taehyung swallowed. "You did it to protect yourself."

Jungkook sighed, shaking his head. "He wanted to hurt us. You and me. And just... He walked into our room. I let him in. " He stared at him. " Shouldn't I have known, Tae? I didn't have the slightest inkling that he meant any harm. Not even a small bit of doubt. "

Taehyung remembered how he had sat next to him, on that rock by the cove. He hadn't suspected a thing either. "I suppose the scariest things about monsters, " He whispered, " Is they don't look anything like one. " Jungkook closed his eyes. "I don't regret it. "

Jungkook stared down at his hands, remembering how it had felt to fumble around on the floor, till his fingers had closed around the ivory handle of the ice pick from the bar. He remembered the weight of it, the sharp glint of it in the dark.

He hadn't thought much after that. Sunggyu's words had killed every good will inside him, and he had felt something primal and ugly come to life inside him. It was funny, because if the guy had kept his mouth shut about Taehyung,

Jungkook wouldn't have even dreamed of doing something like that. But the moment he had described wanting to hurt Taehyung, Jungkook had wanted blood. "I don't regret it. " He said quietly, eyes meeting Taehyung's" Not even a little, Tae. Does that make me a monster? "

"No.. " Taehyung said quietly, moving to sit on the bed, gently cupping his face," It just makes you brave. So incredibly brave. " "I wasn't brave.. I was so fucking terrified.... " "But you still did what had to be done. That's what bravery is isn't? Doing what you have to

Even when you're terrified out of your mind. Speaking your mind even when you know they may not be received well...." Taehyung whispered. " Ask me. I've never been brave in my life. I'd rather swallow it all down than ..." He trailed off. " You were brave. I'm so proud of you."

He leaned in pressing a soft kiss to his forehead, tears springing up as his mind finally went where he had tried to keep it from going. What if it wasn't Jungkook who survived this night. " If I lost you, I would have lost everything. " He whispered.

Jungkook moved his free hand, letting it rest ont he curve of his waist, tugging him into his chest so he could hug him properly and Taehyung shiftes on the bed, curling up by his side and laying on his chest, the tears falling undeterred. He pressed his palm over his chest,

The gentle beating of Jungkooks heart making him sob a little. When he bad found him on the floor slumped, the alphas pulse had been so weak. He swallowed. "Thank you for fighting for this. " He said quietly. " Thank you for coming back to me. " He sobbed .

"You know what I was thinking, lying there... " Jungkook whispered, pressing a kiss to the top of his head. " I was thinking how if I didn't kill him, he would be there when you came back and... He would hurt you. I... I couldn't muster up the strength when it was just me

But then I thought of you and... " Jungkook took a deep breath. " You're the one who makes me want to be brave, Tae. I've never wanted to be brave for anyone else before. Not even myself. " He paused, kissing him again. " So I should be thanking you. You make me strong. "

Taehyung settled in closer, holding onto the alpha with a strong grip, his body shaking just a little. A million thoughts ran through his head and he clung to the alpha, not wanting to let him go. "I was so used to being alone. " He whispered " You shouldn't have shown me what

Its like to have someone by your side. " He bit his lips. " Because now my heart just.. It just doesn't want to let go of you. This is all your fault. " He choked out. Jungkook shifted a bit, gently moving them both till they were cuddled on the bed. "Is that so? "

Taehyung turned around then holding his gaze. "These aren't just words Jungkook. Someone like you, so loved by so many... You could never understand what it's been like for someone like me. I don't know how to give people a reason to stay with me. They always leave. "

He bit his lips. " And I've never known why. " He blinked back tears. " So. If you do want to leave me, you just tell me why. So I can change that.. But just... Don't walk out on me. I realized tonight that I can't beat losing you. And it's selfish of me because I can't give you

what you want but-" "You're so warm, Taehyung. " Jungkook cut him off, burying his face in the curve of his neck, their chests pressed together, "did anyone ever tell you that? " Taehyung blinked, hands coming up to rest on the back of Jungkooks hair. "I... No? "

"Good.. " Jungkook said softly. " It's good that I'm the knoy one who knows. The only one who will ever know. " He said firmly. "Jungkook... " "This is all I want from you. " He said softly. " The warmth of your body against mine. Your fingers in my hair. Your voice .

Your scent. I can hear you heart beating against mine . I don't want anything more Tae. Just this. You and me. Together. I could live out the rest of my life, happy and content, if you only give me this Taehyung. "

Tae glanced back at him, nodding. "Okay." He said quietly. " You can have that. " He pressed closer to his side. " You can have me. " Jungkook hugged him closer, shifting away so Taehyung wouldn't see the tears that sprung up . He took a deep breath. "Thank you" He whispered.

(A/n : now that these two have decided to give each other a chance... They're going to be unbearable. So brace yourself for the fluff.

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Taehyung woke up first, the early morning sun shining through the washed out curtains of the hospital room. He was curled up against Junglooks side, and he took a second, just staring at the alpha. He felt a pang at the sight of the sling, keeping his arm from moving.

He climbed out of the bed carefully, taking care not to jostle the alpha in any way. The doctor would come in to check on him in a couple of hours. Jungkook could rest till then. He didn't have any clothes here, and the room was cordoned off by the police. What now?

But once he came out of the small en suite, he found Mr Jeon on the chair, a few small bags by his feet. "Ah, Taehyung. "He said gently, " I spoke to the doctor on the way over. He says Jungkook can fly out as soon as we want. He just needs to rest once we reach Seoul. "

( pls note that I have taken creative freedom to describe how the case is handled. This is just based on some very vague research done when I was drunk on two glasses of wine

)

"It's possible they'll take him into custody when he lands there. " He said casually and Taehyung went completely still, eyes wide and lips parting in shock. "They'll what? " He demanded, stunned. " What do you mean by that?" Mr. Jeon looked at him, surprised at his outburst.

"Well, it's just how they do things. Don't worry. I spoke to a lawyer and there's no danger of them pressing any criminal charges. It was self defense. The doctor agrees that an inch to the side, and the stab wound would have been fatal. " Mr. Jeons voice shook just a little.

Taehyung glanced at the bed where Jungkook lay curled under the white sheets. He felt something clog his throat again. It was odd, this overwhelming urge to wake Jungkook up just to make sure he was okay. He had woken up twice during the night and pressed his palm to the

Alphas chest, listening to his pulse while his own skyrocketed in worry. He wanted to wrap himself around the alpha, to have his warmth around him, an affirmation of life, an assurance that it was okay. Like a bad dream it had passed. Jungkook was okay. "He's okay, son. "

His father in law had a soft look on his face and Taehyung felt his mouth go a little dry. He cleared his throat. "Did the police tell you something about the man? " He asked hesitantly, counting on Mr. Jeon to tell him the truth. "For now, we only know he was from Daegu. "

Taehyung felt the words hit him hard. Yet another thread unraveled from the fabric of his mind, disrupting the careful balance he had fought to keep. He remembered Jungkooks words about protecting him with a lie, and it was easy to connect the dots. That knife was meant for him.

"They're not sure why he went after Jungkook yet but there maybe a reason. Something they might find after going through his things. " Mr. Jeon shook his head, " But i doubt they'll find anything. He was very careful if he managed to hide this close for so long. "

"Will they tell us what they find? When they go through his things? " Taehyung asked quietly and Mr. Jeon nodded. " The officer in charge agreed to keep me informed. But like I said I don't think we'll find anything worthwhile. In any case he's dead. It's over." Was it?

Mr. Jeon looked suddenly old and haggard. Taehyung notices the lines around his brows, the tiredness in his gaze and he realized the man hadn't slept in the last two days. What with Taehyung asking to leave for Seoul and then Jungkook getting hurt. He suddenly felt sick.

He couldn't keep doing this he thought miserably. The Jeons had only ever treated him with kindness and yet it felt like from the time he had come into their lives all he had brought them was misery and inconvenience. He wanted more desperately than anything else to make amends.

"I'm sorry for all of this." He said quietly, moving to sit next to him, hands wringing together in his anxiety, " I feel like I do a terrible job, taking care of Jungkook and I know you must think I'm not someone you can trust with your son. " He whispered. Mr Jeon frowned.

"My son is a grown man. " He said with a small smile. " I don't expect you to take care of him Taehyung. Neither, I'm sure, does my wife or my son. That's not your job at all. " Taehyung licked his lips. "Still, I left him last night with that man and-" "You did good."

Mr Jeon turned around ruffling his hair softly. " If you were there Jungkook would have been worried more about you. He wouldn't have been able to focus. And who knows what that man might have done. I don't believe in what ifs, Taehyung. It's an awful road to go down. "

He turned to look at Jungkook. "My son is fine. And so are you. I won't have you sitting here feeling guilty that you didn't get stabbed along with him. " He grinned mischievously, " I can tell you from experience, it is not a fun feeling. " That made Taehyung pause.

"From experience? " "Ahh.. Your mother in law stabbed me once when we were dating. It was a box cutter and she didn't do much damage but still... Not a fun day for me. " Taehyung blinked rapidly. "Mrs Jeon stabbed you? " "I was surprising her at her apartment." He grimaced.

"She claims she thought I was an intruder but my shoes were right there so I have my doubts. But she hasn't tried it again in the last twenty years so I give her the benefit of the doubt. " Taehyung smiled inspite of himself. "You love her very much. " He said without thinking.

"Ah, Tae.. " Mr Jeon laughed. " Love is such an inadequate word for what I feel for her. " He grinned. " Because love only talks of affection and fondness and respect. Not the frustration, the annoyance, the exasperation. It's impossible to only feel good things for a person."

"She is a strong, fascinating woman. " He continued. " Even now after decades, I find new things about her. She is headstrong sometimes but also ridiculously empathetic. She forgives even when it isn't deserved and well, I worry that people take advantage of that. " He shrugged.

"I don't think a lifetime is enough to know a person, " He said firmly. " But it is enough to love them" He grinned. " And so far I have no trouble with either of that. " Taehyung nodded, turning back to look at the man in the hospital bed. "Give him a chance."

"He's a little like me, " He smiled" You know impulsive and rather foolish when it comes to certain things. The kind of guy who thinks it's a good idea to surprise someone in their apartment on the third date, only to get stabbed." He grinned. " But we mean well. I promise. "

Taehyung leaned back against the chair, closing his eyes , testing them a little. It was Jungkooks face that swam across his mind, his scent and his smile, the glint in his eye and the way they seemed so openly honest no matter what the circumstance He wished it were that

easy for him. To be honest about all that he felt, to ask all that he wanted,stand up for himself. While he was nowhere near enough to admit all of his feelings, maybe he could let himself have this. This thing where he stayed by Jungkooks side and learned more about him.

The door opened and a loud "Oh, my love! " filled the room, startling them both. Mr. Jeon perked up, " Yes darling, I'm here-" But she was making a beeline for Jungkooks bed and her husband rolled his eyes. " This is why I didn't want another pup. It's bad enough with one."

Taehyung watched as Mrs. Jeon paused by the bed, tears springing up at once. She looked up and caught his eye and her gaze softened even more. "Oh, Taehyung. " A second later he was wrapped in her warm embrace, her gentle fingers stroking his back.

"My baby, you must've been so frightened. " She whispered. "I was just telling him about how I too was stabbed rather ruthlessly when we first met. " Mrs Jeon pulled back to glare at him. "Yes, but you deserved it. My precious baby.." She turned away, moving back to the bed.

Taehyung watched as she brushed the hair off the alpha’s head, the gesture so full of love that Taehyung felt something inside him clench. He wondered what it must have been like for her, to hear her son had been hurt so badly.

He moved closer, till he was standing on the other side of the bed watching her as she stared at the alpha. She looked up at him and he saw a troubled look on her face. “You’re feeling better now, Taehyung?” She asked casually. He blinked confused. “Better?”

Something passed over her face. “Your headaches?” She prompted. Taehyung frowned, not understanding and she sighed, turning back to Jungkook.

“Jungkook told me you wanted to leave and return to Seoul because you weren’t feeling well. But , I take it from the look on your face that wasn’t true.” She shook her head. “ You weren’t trying to leave Jeju, you were trying to leave my son.”

Taehyung’s stomach flipped , what felt like a few dozen times.

Mrs Jeon was staring at him and there definitely was hurt there and he felt speechless, his heart clenching because he hadn’t thought for a second about what Jungkook would have had to tell his parents , to explain his sudden decision to leave.

“But he came back.” Mr. Jeon’s voice came from behind him and an arm wrapped around his shoulder, squeezing. “ Need I remind you of all the times you’ve walked out of the door on me.

It’s not uncommon in a marriage to want some space when things get overwhelming right Tae?What’s important is that you came back.” He said gently. “What’s more important is why?” Mrs. Jeon said quietly. “Why did you come back?” she exhaled, " And also, will you keep doing this?"

“Dearest….” “No, you don’t understand.. He called me and he sounded broken. And I knew something was wrong but he wouldn’t say a single word. And now I’m here and he’s in the hospital again and I just… I don’t know what’s going on here.” She whispered.

“ Taehyung , is Jungkook forcing you to stay in this marriage? Do you not want to be here? If that is the case, you can tell me right now and I’ll make sure my son understands that you don’t love him anymore. He can be a bit dense when it comes to such things…

He doesn’t quite understand when he isn’t loved by someone, but if you fell out of love and want out , you have to tell me. I will make sure you never see him again.”

“I do love him.” he blurted out, the words getting drawn out of him against his own will. “ I'm still struggling to accept that he might care for me but I came back because I wanted to.” He swallowed. “Its just that- I only like myself when I’m with him. I won't leave him again.”

"It's hard for me.. to trust people." He said shakily. " But i do trust him. I want to be with him and I know its going to be hard but... I want to try and I... I know he deserves better than me just trying but i think , I just want to-" "Kiss me?"

Taehyung recoiled, surprised, stepping back but Jungkook's hand shot out, gripping his wrist. "If you only like yourself when you're with me, I'll just have to make sure i never leave your side yes?" Taehyung turned red, staring alarmed at Mrs. Jeon who looked just as stunned.

Jungkook moved his hand, linking his fingers with Taehyung's own and squeezing gently before turning to his mother. "Mom.." He said softly. " I'm alright." Mrs. Jeon let out a choked sob, before reaching down and kissing his forehead, taking care not to jostle his shoulder.

Taehyung felt the heat radiating off his own face as he tried to gently pry his fingers away but Jungkooks grip was strong. "I just worry for you. " Mrs.Jeon whispered. " And you know I love Taehyung. I just.. I don't want you to hurt each other. "

"Hmm.. " Jungkook brought their linked hands up kissing the back of Taehyungs fingers. "The only thing hurting me right now is the fact that I asked for a kiss and I'm yet to-" "This is our cue to leave I believe. " Mr. Jeon said firmly, coming around to gently hold his wife.

"We'll go back to Seoul tonight? " Mrs Jeon asked, worried. " I want him home... Right away.. " "We'll discuss that over breakfast. Come along.. " Mr Jeon shushed her, before tugging her towards the door. Once the door shut behind them, Jungkook tugged him closer.

Taehyung pressed a palm to his chest, to keep himself from toppling right over him. "How are you feeling?" He asked worried, glancing at his shoulder. Jungkook hummed, wincing a little as he shifted closer. " This isn't going to work unless you get into bed with me."

Taehyung frowned before swatting at his knee. "The nurse wanted me to call them as soon as you wake up. You need to get your next round of antibiotics and-" "Taehyung lock the door and get in here." Jungkook said softly. " I'm serious." Taehyung glanced at the door, nervous.

"The door? I... Jungkook if I lock the door people are going to think it's weird. " He whispered, mortified. "So? " He ran his thumb over the inside of his wrist. " Taehyung I almost died last night and now you're making me beg for a kiss. This is a bit too cruel even for you."

Taehyung groaned before leaning over him quickly, pecking his lips and drawing back a second later. "There. You've had your kiss. Now let me go and get the nurse. " He tugged on his hand again and Jungkook glared. "That's not how you kiss your husband, Taehyung. "

"I'm not making out with you in the hospital bed. " Taehyung said firmly, "you can wait till we get home. " He said firmly. "No I can't. " Jungkook shook his head. " I absolutely can't... Come on.. Just one kiss. One... " He pouted and Taehyung wilted.

He leaned in, gently gripping the alphas arm and shifting closer, eyes fluttering shut as he slotted his lips over Jungkooks. The alpha wrapped his arm around him and- "Is there a room in this God forsaken place that I can enter and not witness you two sucking your faces off."

Jungkook groaned even as Taehyung jumped away from "I knew the day I offered you a ride home, you were going to be a pain in my butt." He muttered and the other alpha grinned, carefully locking the door behind him. "Hey princess, good to see you again." he winked.

"I'm just... Going to go get the nurse." Taehyung muttered, moving to the door in quick steps. Jungkook watched the door close behind him before turning to Yugyeom. "So?" He asked carefully. "I've spoken to the director and you have six weeks off to get better."

"That's too much." Jungkook said at once. " I can't stay away that long." Yugyeom gave him a look. "Okay, let me rephrase that. You have six weeks to stay home and kiss your beautiful husband as many times as you want, without making me a part of the proceedings."

"Oh." Jungkook grinned. "Yes, " Yugyeom smiled. " Oh. And i also told the investigating officer to contact you and not let Taehyung or your parents know about what they find. They were a little suspicious but he agreed." "Thanks Yug." "You sure you guys are going to be fine?"

"Yeah." Jungkook said firmly." We'll be just fine." He would make sure of it.

- End of Chapter 6 -

Authors Note : chapter six word count is actually 42 k... Which is

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#taekookau Being in love with your straight friend is easily the most devastating thing in the world. It's a different kind of ache, the kind where your heart runs from and aches for the same thing. The same gaze, the same touch, the same voice. Ask Jungkook.

( new emoji because the Sakura have started blooming already

and with it their love as well)

Taehyung hadn't thought much about what returning to Seoul would entail. His mother of course was deteriorating, perhaps at a slightly faster rate than they had anticipated. She had bouts of depression followed by lengths of time where she seemed lucid and active.

Taehyung spent two nights at the Jeons place, before deciding to move back to their apartment with his mother. Jungkook of course wouldn't hear of it . Once the adrenaline of it all wore off, Jungkook had to come to terms with the fact that he was seriously injured.

The doctor had made it clear that he risked severe nerve damage if he didn't give his shoulder a chance to heal. And that meant no strenuous activities. That had been said with a stern glare in Taehyungs direction. The omega had been stunned. Did he look like a nymphomaniac?

But the doctor had been very serious. Considering Jungkooks job, any injury to his shoulder would have serious consequences. And that meant complete rest. Mrs Jeon hadn't taken the news very well. And Jungkook had been all but chained in his childhood bedroom.

"I'll be heading back to work in a couple of days anyway. " Taehyung tried to assure him. " And I promise I'll come visit you in the evenings. " "Am I a victorian maiden you're courting Kim Taehyung? I want you here. In my room. In my arms. In my fucking bed so I can- "

Taehyung yelped, pressing a palm to his mouth and looking around frantically. Jungkooks mother sat less than ten feet away, chopping leek and onions for dinner. "It's Jimins wedding in two weeks. " He said gently. " He needs to take time off. I have to be there at the school."

"You said you wouldn't run. " Jungkook protested. "You promised me that you wouldn't run from me. " Taehyung sighed, eyes closing. He reminded himself that Jungkook was on enough painkillers to fell a horse. "Two weeks. Just two weeks and you can come back home. I promise. "

Jungkook shifted on the bed, giving him a calculative smile. Taehyung smiled back uncertain. "So, two weeks. What if I miss you... " Taehyung felt something warm and pleasant bloom inside him. "I'll miss you too Jungkook-" He began but the alpha held his hand up.

"I didn't ask if you would miss me. I asked, what if I miss you? As in, since this whole moving thing is your idea.. How are you going to make it up to me? You know compensation for the emotional distress I'm being put through.. What are the terms? Tell me, Kim Taehyung ssi. "

Taehyungs smile faltered just a little. "Um.. Compensation? " He tilted his head, confused. " Uh.. Like money? " Jungkook smirked. "No, I have enough of that. But I am really starved for something else, Tae... What do you think that is? " Tae frowned. "Onion pancakes?"

Jungkook sighed deeply and Taehyung sat up quickly, reaching for him and gently taking his hand. "Whatever it is, I'm sure your mother will make it for you. She's so much better as a cook than I am. " Jungkook grimaced at that. "Tae, this is something only you can give me."

Taehyung considered that carefully. "Yes only you. My husband. This is something only my husband can give me. " He whispered, reaching out and stroking Taehyungs cheek with the back of his hand. Taehyung felt his face flush in realization. "Oh." He whispered.

Jungkook smiled, cupping his face. "Yeah. Oh. " He chuckled. " So are you going to give it to me? " He grinned. "What now? " Tae frowned. " Really?" "Yeah. What's wrong? " Jungkook frowned. "You want my virginity now? " Tae tilted his head in confusion. " Are you sure? "

Jungkook coughed, choking, eyes wide as saucers. "I... What?!!! " He hissed in disbelief. " Taehyung I meant a kiss!! " Taehyung turned red, scrambling back. "You said it was something only I had and I assumed... " "For the love of-" "Taehyung ah.. " Mrs. Jeon called.

Jungkook groaned, relaxing back against the pillows and closing his eyes. "Fine. Just go. " He said shortly. Taehyung bit his lips fighting a smile. He nodded, before moving to the door. He peered out, catching sight of Mrs Jeon on the kitchen island..

"Mrs.Jeon, I'm really tired, can I take a small nap? " He asked cheerfully. Her gaze softened at once. "Oh, of course darling. I just wanted to ask if you were alright with mushrooms in your soup. Jungkook doesn't like them. But if you do I can add them for you. "

"Oh uh... I'll have it the way Jungkook has it. It's no problem. " "Alright then, you can rest, baby. You must be exhausted. I'll let you guys know when dinner's done. " Taehyung smiled, before carefully closing the door shut. He hesitated before locking it. Just in case.

When he turned back around Jungkook was watching him carefully. "What are you doing? " He asked suspiciously. " Why did you lock the door? " And then his eyes widened. " Wait, do you really want me to-" "No." Taehyung said firmly. " Because your mother is on the other side. "

He hesitated before moving to the side of the bed. Jungkook was watching him with a small grin on his face. "Your shoulder. " Tae said firmly. " We can't risk hurting your shoulder. " "There's only one part of me that's hurting right now and it sure as hell isn't my shoulder."

Tae laughed a little before carefully climbing into the bed where Jungkook sat with his back to the headboard. "I think there's a way for you to get your kiss without hurting your shoulder." He said softly. And then he quickly climbed onto Jungkooks lap, settling on his thighs.

He brought his hands up, cupping Jungkooks face gently, running his thumbs all over the perfect cheekbones, eyes drinking in his handsome face. His gaze shifted to his shoulder and his mouth went dry. "I'm glad you're safe. " He whispered.

Jungkook brought his free hand up to gently grip his waist. "And I'm glad the door is locked. " He whispered, before leaning in and catching Taehyung's lips with his own. The first touch of it made Taehyung float, the soft pillowy feel of it making his heart swell.

Heat coiled, gentle but insistent somewhere in the pit of his stomach, and he brought his hand up, gently threading it through Jungkooks hair, soft and thick. Just like he'd always dreamed of. Except this time it was real. And Jungkook wanted it as much as he did.

The alpha's hand slipped up his shirt, fingers tracing patterns on the skin of hua bare back, and Taehyung shivered a little, the touch foreign and unusual. He shifted closer and Jungkook pulled back, just enough to meet his eyes. "You're the most beautiful man I've ever seen."

"You're the most beautiful man I've ever kissed. " Taehyung whispered back, smiling and pecking Jungkooks nose. Jungkook hummed, tugging him closer still. "You're the only man I ever want to kiss. For the rest of my life. " He said fervently. "That can be arranged. "

This time, it was Taehyung who reached for a kiss, less careful than Jungkook, his lips parted and wet, closing over Jungkooks own with the kind of innocent hunger that came from inexperience. Jungkook reveled in it, savoring the curiosity in Taehyung's eagerness.

Jungkook felt the omega's palm brush over his chest and he hesitated, before carefully, letting his tongue slip out, the tip of it gently touching the seam of Taehyung's plush lips. Taehyung went still for a second, but then his lips parted, offering entrance.

Kissing had always been a means to an end for Jungkook,but something about the way he melted in his arms made him want to kiss the omega for hours, reduce him to a trembling,shaking incoherent mess with nothing in his mind except thoughts of Jungkook and what he was doing to him.

Taehyung whispered a little as he slipped his hand further up, stroking the soft skin just below his chest, thumb moving close to the little nub there but not quite touching it and Tae pulled back, eyes tightly shut and breathing erratic. He gripped the fabric of Jungkooks shirt.

Jungkook hesitated before pressing a soft kiss to the top of his head. "You want me to stop? " He asked gently and Taehyung shuddered a little. "Can I touch you? " Tae asked quietly and Jungkook smiled at how nervous he looked. "I would never say no to that, beautiful."

Taehyung hesitated before reaching for his hair, threading his fingers through the locks, soft and gentle. Jungkook watched him, as the omega touched his hair with an odd look on his face. "I always wanted to touch your hair. " He whispered. "My hair? Why? "

Taehyung paused in his ministrations, glancing at him . Some of the spark in his eyes seemed to die down a little and Jungkook frowned. "What's wrong? "He asked worried and Tae swallowed. "I don't want to ruin the mood. You look happy. I don't want to upset you. " He whispered.

"Taehyung, you trusting me with your feelings makes me more happy than anything else, I promise you that. " He said softly, reaching out and brushing the hair off Taehyung's forehead. " Tell me what you're thinking. " Tae took a deep breath. "Yoongi used to touch it a lot. "

Jungkook went still. "Yoongi? " "It's silly. " Taehyung said quickly. " This was when we were in high school. " He hesitated. " I've seen him running his fingers through your hair and I just always wished it was me instead... Pretty pathetic right? " He looked away.

Jungkook just stared at him, unsure what to say. Taehyung took a deep breath. "I know I shouldn't think about him anymore. " He said quietly. " And I promise I'll try not to. It's just... Sometimes I can't help it you know. I spent too many years wishing I was him. "

Jungkook watched him for a few seconds, before touching the side of his face. "Tae, the best thing about you.. " He said quietly, " Is that you're nothing like him. He was... He was terrible for me. Someday I'll tell you exactly how but for now, I want you to know something."

"I would gladly trade all the years I spent with him, for a few minutes of having you like this, in my arms. That's the honest truth. "

Taehyung stared at him for a second, before leaning closer and wrapping his arms around him, resting against his chest. He took a deep breath before lightly gripping Jungkooks arm, bringing it up to his own waist. "Hold me." He whispered. " Don't let go, okay? "

Jungkook smiled at that, shifting into a more comfortable position, before closing his eyes, resting his chin on top of Taehyung's tousled brown locks. He felt Taehyung go lax, heard his breathing even out. The omega was falling asleep. "As you wish, my love. "

"Are you pregnant? " Jimin's loud voice made Taehyung jump about half foot up in the air. Around him a few of the little pups perked up at once. "Pernant? " One of them yelled." My daddy's pernant too and I'm going to have a baby brother. " Taehyung glared at Jimin.

"Could you keep it down? I'm not in the mood to explain what being pregnant means to a bunch of four year olds. " He hissed. Jimin grinned unrepentant. "I only ask because you're glowing. Like an actual firefly in the middle of a forest. Beautiful and enchanting. "

Taehyung rolled his eyes. " I'm not pregnant. " He said firmly. " I'm just... Happy. " He smiled a little. " And why are you here? Aren't you supposed to be out preparing for the mating ceremony? " Jimin groaned, sitting down on one of the chairs. "Namjoons mother is crazy."

"Tell me Tae, how on earth did you survive your wedding. I swear if I didn't love Namjoon I would call off the wedding simply because of how that woman meddles in everything. "He grimaced. Tae laughed at that. "Jimin just let them do whatever. I don't even remember my wedding."

"Well, I don't blame you. Bet all you remember is the wedding night huh?" Jimin grinned waggling his eyebrows. Tae grinned a little, shaking his head. "So what do you have planned. For your wedding night. " He asked casually. He was always terrified Jimin would guess his truth.

The other omega shrugged. "The usual. Namjoon likes it when I wear sexy stuff so.. " "Sexy stuff? Like.. Clothes? " Jimin grinned. " Well among other things. He actually likes... " Jimin beckoned him closer, " Cat stuff. " Taehyung frowned. "Cat stuff? Like yarn? "

Jimin frowned. "What do you mean yarn? " "You were the one who said cat stuff and all I could think of was yarn or laser pointers. " "Is Jungkook that boring in bed? " Jimin frowned. " Like do you guys not talk about this stuff? " "Neither of us is attracted to cats."

Jimin groaned. "Tae... Not actual cats... Just the cute parts you know.. Like the tail and the ears. And a collar. With a bell. " Taehyung stared at him. "Do you like to wear that? " "Uh huh. " "How do you wear a tail? " Jimin bit his lips. "Why don't you ask Jungkook? "

Taehyung grimaced at that. As if he would ask something like that to the alpha. Jungkook would probably laugh in his face. He sighed, playing with the ends of his hair for a few seconds. He didn't know how to ask Him in what he really wanted to ask him.

Because for all that Jimin knew, Taehyung had been in a proper marital relationship for years. And while he did have a vague idea that jungkook and Taehyung had issues, the omega had never gone into the details. So he couldn't just ask, what does one do during sex.

As Jimin moved to start helping some of the kids, Taehyung moved to his desk, taking a breather. It wasn't that he didn't know about sex or that he didn't understand what happened. It was just that he was half terrified he would do something ridiculous and unforgivable.

It was a rather irrational fear. They were both adults and Taehyung had always wanted Jungkook, had always dreamed of being intimate with him. But he just wanted it to be perfect. Not just for him but for Jungkook too. He couldn't do that without at least a little research.

Jungkook was recovering. It would be a while before they got to that point but he didn't want it to be something spontaneous. That would just make him anxious and worried. Google told him he should just ' let it happen' but Tae had learnt the hard way that it was just disastrous.

He would feel better if he could be a little prepared for it. Even if it was in small ways like what he would be wearing or where they would be... His phone buzzed just then, breaking him out of his thoughts. He glanced at the messenger and frowned. ~ hey beautiful.

He smiled a little glancing around. It was right after lunch so the kids were all getting ready for their nap.They wouldn't be up for forty minutes and Jimin was busy dimming the lights and turning on the soft music. He was also checking the pups to make sure they were tucked in.

Shaking his head, he quickly typed back. ~ you can't type with your left hand. So I'm assuming you're using your right hand. The one you're not supposed to be using at all. He pressed send. A minute later, Jungkook responded. ~ wow. Missed you too husband.

Taehyung couldn't help but smile a little at that. Husband. It felt good to have Jungkook call him that. But he couldn't help but wonder if they really were what you would call 'husbands'. Because there were still a lot of things weighing heavy in his heart and mind.

He had, at this point picked out a pattern in the way his thoughts and feelings ran. They tend to ebb and stay back, when he was with Jungkook, because the alphas sweet words and gentle kisses took over all of his senses. But alone, they washed over him like waves at high tide.

But the flow of them had definitely changed. Where once he worried about whether Jungkook loved him or not, now his worries centered around whether he would be able to make this work. He didn't want to mess up. He couldn't mess up. He couldn't survive losing him.

~ I was thinking of you all morning. He sent the message, hoping that Jungkook would understand how much he meant in those words. A few seconds later, he couldn't help but add. ~ it's like I'm eighteen again. And all I think about is you. Except now I'm allowed to.

There was a minute of silence before his phone buzzed again. ~ Tae. You can't just say things like that and not expect me to come over and kiss you right now. He bit his lips a little. With anyone else they would just be words. But he knew the alpha meant it seriously.

~ don't. You have to rest well and get better soon. He hesitated. Would it be too much if he added something else? Something a little.. Suggestive perhaps? He hesitated, unsure. But Jungkook was always talking to him with suggestive undertones. So maybe?

He bit his lips. ~ you have to rest well and get better soon. You know, so you can kiss me and touch me. Properly. He pressed the send button, feeling his face flame red right after. His eyes fell on the sleeping pups. Oh he was doing this in school. In front of toddlers.

There was silence for a second and then when his phone buzzed he was almost too terrified to see. But well, he had set the tone of the conversation. Whatever happened, it would be on his head. Lip tucked between his teeth. He opened it. ~ and how is that?

He stared confused. ~ what? He licked his lips waiting and the next came soon after. ~ you told me once how you wanted to be loved. So now I'm asking you, how do you want to be touched? Taehyung dropped the phone and Jimin glanced up, frowning. "What are you upto? "

Taehyung opened his mouth ready to lie but his phone buzzed again and this time it wasn't a text. His phone rang for a few seconds. "Aren't you picking that up? " He couldn't. But Jimin was frowning now, clearly suspicious and he panicked a little. "I.. Yeah. "

He took the call, staring right at Jimin. "I'm in class Jungkook. Jimins here with me. " He said quietly, hoping the alpha would get the hint and hang up. Jungkook was quiet for a second. "You weren't worried about that when you were asking me to touch you properly. "

Taehyung fought to keep his expression even. "I'll call you later. " "Tae, I'm so fucking hard right now. " He felt his thighs clench in disbelief and Jimins eyes went wide. "Oh you fucking perverts. Now?!! " He shook his head. " I'm out of here. " He turned on his heels.

Taehyung flinched. "Jungkook, I'm hanging up.. " He said desperately and the alpha groaned like he was in pain. "Baby, come on. Don't do that to me. " His voice was low and shaky, " Please I just want to talk. You don't even have to. respond just hear me out yeah? "

"Jungkook... " He bit his lips , torn between the part of his brain that told him he shouldn't be doing this in his classroom. And the other part that really just wanted to be back in Jungkook's lap right away. "Just yes or no, okay baby? Nothing else.. I promise. "

"Okay." He whispered finally, breath hitching a little. Jungkook hummed. "Tae, do you know how much I want you? " He asked quietly and Taehyung felt his heart clench. "Yes, but tell me again. " He whispered. Jungkook breathed out. "I want you so much it makes me ache."

Taehyung ducked his head ad Jungkook took a deep breath. "Everything about you turns me on Tae. Your gorgeous face and your golden skin and God your long long legs. I remember how you looked wearing just my shirt. Like you were begging for my touch. Would you let me Tae? "

Taehyung hesitated, before pushing away from the seat, moving from the table to the door. He closed the door gently behind him, leaving it a little open so he could hear if any of the kids woke up. Outside the hallways were deserted, in the late afternoon. It wasn't private but-

He leaned against the wall, next to the doorway, hand curled around his phone and heart beating just a bit faster. The cadence of Jungkook's voice and the memory of how it felt to have his hands on him, all led to just one answer. "I would let you touch me any way you wanted."

There was a small bit of silence, a few seconds really but long enough to make him nervous. " Taehyung it's not wrong to want things. " Jungkook said quietly. The words made his throat run dry. "Why do you say that? " He asked confused. " I.. I do want things. "

Jungkook made an impatient little noise, one that clearly expressed his disbelief. Taehyung licked his lips trying to understand what Jungkook was so skeptical about. "Okay, tell me three things you want. " "Now? " Taehyung hesitated. " I don't want anything now... "

"Tae... " Jungkook said warningly and he straightened up, swallowing. He racked his mind but there was a block there. He simply couldn't think of a single thing. "Shall I try? I want to get better soon. I want to go back to work. I want to watch the Sakura bloom. With you. "

Taehyung felt his breath catch a little. "I want those things too... " He said quietly. "Tae, I mean for yourself. Things you've always wanted to do Or have .. Things you want simply because they would make you happy. " He said quietly. Taehyung felt his lips wobble.

There was something about Jungkook's words that made him feel broken. Jungkook sounded so sure, so confident as he spoke but here Taehyung was, unable to gather his thoughts into any semblance of coherency. Did Jungkook find him tiring? "Are you upset with me? " He whispered.

He wouldn't blame Jungkook if he was. Taehyung realized he was going to be hard work for someone like Jungkook who wanted to give back whatever love he received. Taehyung was so used to giving and not receiving anything in return he'd forgotten what that felt like. "Tae, baby.."

Jungkook's voice was soft and gentle. " There's nothing you could do to upset me. " He said quietly. " You must know by now that I'm quite, quite deeply gone for you. " The alpha paused, " But I do want you to see yourself the way I see you." "The way you see me? "

"Deserving of all the love and happiness in the world. Someone who should only ever wear a smile. " Jungkook said earnestly. " Someone who deserves to see all the desires of their heart come true. "

Tae gripped the phone harder. "Jungkook... " He whispered, " Don't put me on a pedestal. I'm not deserving of that. " "Too late. I've not only put you on a pedestal bit I've also built a temple for you inside my heart. All that's left to do is worship you the way you deserve."

Taehyung closed his eyes, his breathing quickening just a little. "I want to kiss you all the time. " He whispered. " When I kiss you.. I feel... I feel like nothing else matters. And all these loud thoughts in my head just go away. And all I think of is you. "

"You can kiss me anytime you want. You have me now. All. Of me. Every single part. " Jungkook said quickly. " What else do you want? " Taehyung felt a thought surface, a fleeting thought that had once come up inside his head. A desire. "I want to take pictures of you. "

The moment he said them, he felt it deeply in his bones. "Do you mean, you want me to take pictures of you? " Jungkook sounded confused. " Because we can do that.. As soon as I get better we'll-" "No." He said softly. " I want to take pictures of you." Jungkook was quiet.

He remembered rather vividly the exact moment he'd had that thought. It was graduation and Jungkook had of course been designated the photographer and Taehyung had watched him take photos upon photos, following people around, asking them to pose and smile. Taehyung had watched.

And he had found it ridiculous that the most beautiful of them all, the one with sparkling galaxies for eyes, skin that glowed like the moonbeams, a smile that felt like the warmest hug on the coldest winter night... No one was taking pictures of him. It seemed a crime.

"Why would you want that? " Jungkook sounded confused and Tae closed his eyes considering the words carefully. It was just that sometimes he wondered if Jungkook hid behind his lenses. "You can't lie in front of that which you love. "He whispered "And you love the camera."

Jungkook's laughter. "I can't lie in front of you either. " He whispered. Taehyung licked his lips. "Will you let me? " He asked quietly, " Take pictures of you that is... " " Of course I will Taehyung. " Jungkook said softly, " I'll do whatever you want. "

"Mr. Kim? " A voice to his side made him startle, and he bowed quickly to the temp standing by his side. "There's someone here to see you. " "Tae? What's wrong? " "Jungkook hold on. " He said quickly. " Who is it? " He asked, confused. "They say they are from -"

The man named Jungkook's company and Taehyung blinked. Yoongi. "Tae? " Jungkook sounded worried. " What's wrong? " "Nothing Jungkook... Just something came up. " He whispered. " I.. I'll drop by in the evening. " He said softly. "Stay the night. " Jungkook said quickly.

"I will. " He whispered, smiling into the receiver. "Jungkook... I... " He hesitated. " I miss you. " He finished softly, hoping Jungkook would hear what he wasn't quite ready to say yet. "I love you too. " The alpha said quietly and Taehyung bit his lips before hanging up.

He nodded to the temp, who moved to watch over his class. The late afternoon sun was a little bright as he picked his way across the school grounds to the visitors lounge on the other side. He reached the place, pushing the door open looking for Yoongi. The omega wasn't there.

Instead he came face to face with Im Jaehyun. There was a moment of stark, stark terror, his body reacting rather violently to his presence, such icy cold fear filling his veins that he felt lightheaded from it. His throat went dry as his feet refused to move. "Taehyung ah.."

The familiarity in the tone made him nauseous. He had never confronted Jaehyun for what he did in his room, on his bed all those years ago. He never had the courage to because he came from a wealthy, powerful family. He wondered if the alpha knew that Tae knew about what he did.

He stayed where he was willing himself not to crumble as the alpha took two steps towards him, his face blank but eyes roving over him in a way that made Taehyung feel dirty. He wrapped his arms around himself, tasting bile. "What are you doing here?" He asked shakily.

"I went over to your apartment actually. I was hoping to meet Jungkook. " He said casually. " But he wasn't there and I only met someone else. They said they were there to care for your mother. " Jaehyun tilted his head, " Is she alright? "

Taehyung ignored him, merely shaking his head. "Whatever it is, it would just have to wait. " He said sharply. " Jungkook isn't well and he needs to get better first. You.. You can't meet him. " Jaehyun scoffed. "This is something serious. I need to talk to him right away."

"What is it about? " He asked casually. " Tell me and I'll pass the message on. He'll call you if he wants. " Jaehyun watched him. For a second. "Jungkook called the HR dept to pull an enquiry with regards to sexual misconduct. I wanted to ask him why he would do that ? "

"An enquiry on who? You? " Jaehyun turned an ugly shade of red. "Yes. Me. And I'm wondering if he's hit his head on a wall because friends dont do things like that to each other. They have each other's back. " He growled. Taehyung licked his lips. "So you aren't denying it."

Jaehyun rolled his eyes. "These omegas are all ridiculous. "He said sharply, "They flirt and make eyes at you, play with their hair and seduce you and then you make one move and it's suddenly harassment. You should know. You were exactly like that in school. A little cocktease."

Taehyung recoiled, stunned. "Get out. " He snapped furiously turning on his heel and moving to the door. He'd barely taken a step before fingers wrapped around his arm, gripping so hard he cried out in pain, Jaehyun yanking him Back around with a force that was scary.

Taehyung didn't think, using his free arm to smash his elbow right against the side of the man's head with enough force to make him let go. His skin burned where he had touched him and he glared, furious. "Keep your hands off me" He hissed out. Jaehyun looked furious.

"Look at you all brave. Grew a spine since that night have you? " He whispered and Taehyung stared at him. "What? " "You think Jungkook will stick around? Yoongi is the one he loves. You don't have to pant after someone who doesn't want you. " He licked his lips leering.

"There's plenty of us here who do want you. " He smirked. " Pretty little thing like you deserves better than what Jungkook can give. " Taehyung had never felt so physically ill at the sight of someone. He clenched hia fists before yelling out loud, " Security?!! ""

The man appeared at once and Jaehyun was straightening himself, moving away ro the side, with his gaze still fixed on him. "Mr. Im is done. Please escort him back to the main gate. " Taehyung said shakily. "This isn't over. " Jaehyun said quietly. " Tell your husband too. "

"He's not going to be around for long." Jaehyun said darkly. " He should know better than to make enemies with people he can't take on." Taehyung felt his heart take a steep dive at that. "Stay away from him. " He said sharply and Jaehyun scoffed. "Oh he's not the one I want."

Taehyung shrank against the wall as Jaehyun stalked past him, his heart rattling against his ribcage. He felt sick and dirty, the way he did all those years ago and he just knew he couldn't stay here another minute. He had to go home. He had to get to Jungkook.

"Taehyung?" Mrs. Jeon's face registered her surprise as she opened the door for him, eyes wide and worry clouding her features. " You're early , darling. Is everything alright?" Taehyung still shaking a little from what happened earlier, managed a weak nod. "Is Jungkook up?"

Mrs. Jeon helped him take his coat off, shaking her head and still looking worried. "No.. About that actually, the doctor came in and upped his pain medications. He's asleep. Taehyung are you alright? You look really pale?" Taehyung flinched .He didn't really want to worry her

And even if he did tell her what happened, he had no idea where he would begin. Taking a few deep breaths, he turned to Mrs. Jeon. There was something that that had weighed heavy on him. He had wanted to ask her about it. "That night at the hospital, was Yoongi there?"

Mrs. Jeon paused in the middle of hanging his coat up. "Yoongi?" She looked away. He didn't miss the fact that she wouldn't look him in the eye. "The jacket. There was a jacket on the bed that i was on and you told me it was yours. But ... it wasn't right? It was his."

She made a small noise of impatience. " Taehyung why does that matter. After everything that happened , he was shameless enough to turn up at the hospital asking to see my son, like he hadn't hurt him in so many ways. I just didn't want him anywhere near you." She said sharply.

Taehyung flinched at the vehemence in her tone , trying to soothe her with a placating gesture. "i understand" He said quietly, " its just... Did he mention anything." She stared at him for a second. "What is this really about Taehyung?" She asked quietly.

Taehyung wrapped his arms around himself. "I think i need to know what happened that night." He said quietly. She looked troubled. "The night of the party?" She shook her head. " Does it matter? You're alright now. You and Jungkook, you're getting better." He shook his head.

" Its not about that.... It's just i don't remember anything about what happened that night but there's certain things that I do remember. Yoongi mentioned one of those things. And i don't remember tell him about it. I want to know how he knew. " She frowned.

" Are you saying you think you told him something that night? You were exhausted." "I was, yes. But if I told him that, maybe I told him something else as well." "Taehyung he will not help you." She said quietly. "He's more likely to use it against you." "Yes well, I'm desperate-

"I can't help but wonder if ... I'm putting Jungkook in some kind of danger by not... remembering what happened." She stared at him. "What do you mean danger? Do you mean someone is trying to hurt him? Still? " She shook her head. "The man is dead, Taehyung. He cant hurt him."

There wasn't much else to say , because Taehyung himself was running on nothing but instincts. Something told him that Sunggyu wasn't just some random stalker who had lost his mind and decided to stab a person he had worked with for years. it made no sense to him at all..

And Jaehyung had mentioned that night... And there was only one night he could think of. The night of the party. What was he talking about? And the sexual harassment complaints? What were those? Why hadn't Jungkook mentioned anything about them to him. "i need to go."

He reached for his coat, quickly grabbing it out of the closet. Mrs Jeon looked surprised as he shrugged it on. “Go where? Where are you going?” she asked worriedly and he just smiled, giving her a small reassuring half hug.

“There’s just some things I need to find out. Let him rest well.” He glanced at the hallway that would lead to Jungkook’s room. He wanted to go look at him but he didn’t want to end up waking him .

“Will you come back later?” She asked as he slipped his shoes on again. “ For dinner. Jungkook would really want you here Tae..” There was a quiet plea in her tone that made him pause. She looked worried, haggard and he remembered their conversation in the hospital.

He wondered if perhaps a part of her no longer thought he was a good thing in Jungkook's life. He licked his lips, the thought hurtful. “Yes.” He said firmly. “ Of course I’ll be back Mrs. Jeon. Really soon.”

He slipped out of the door before she could protest more, his mind set on the only person who could help him out with all the questions in his head. and it was about time he talked to him.

~~~~~~~~ It felt odd, knocking on his principal’s door in the middle of a work day. But the man was in school and it was the roommate he was hoping to catch. He had wanted to go down to Jungkook’s workplace but the danger of possibly running into Jaehyun again kept him away.

He rang the bell again, holding his elbows and staring up at the doorway. It was an expensive apartment complex, and the security was tight. The ride there had taken him the better part of an hour.

He felt a little foolish , remembering the times when he had accused Jungkook of going to Yoongi’s place after work. He realized now that it would take Jungkook a couple hours to accomplish that even if he spent less than five minutes at the omega’s apartment.

But that was how fear and insecurities worked with him. They took over the rational side of his brain and things that seemed so obvious and clear ,here and now, hadn’t even registered on his mind back then. Only one thing had: Jungkook hates me. He loves Yoongi. He wants me gone.

And there was one particular occasion that stood out in his memory. It had been after a particularly vicious argument with Jungkook the previous night, Taehyung had been determined to end their marriage for good.

But he couldn’t bring himself to, his heart clenching in fear and apprehension at the prospect of uprooting his entire life . It felt easier to bear a few odd words of anger and the hurt he got from Jungkook , rather than go back home and endure his mother's disdain.

But then, that evening Jungkook hadn’t come home on time and Taehyung had gone numb, fully convinced the alpha was with Yoongi. After that his body had gone on auto pilot and he had just run out of the apartment, taken a cab and driven down here.

His mind flashed back to that particular moment, a year and a half back, when he had been here in the same hallway, staring at the door but not quite having the courage to knock. Back then he had been so utterly convinced that Jungkook was in there with Yoongi ,

and that maybe if he caught them in the act, he would come to his senses and leave Jungkook for good. But he had never knocked. Because Taehyung’s courage was fickle, his bravery a bit like dandelion seeds. Blown away at the first gentle gust of unease.

Taehyung would never be the one to act through his feelings or wishes or wants. He would never bring to fruition any of his dreams. He just didn’t have the substance for it. So much of who he was, so much of what he felt had been shaped by his firm ,

firm belief that Jeon Jungkook would never ever love someone like Kim Taehyung. To have Jungkook refute them with ease left him in limbo. He believed the alpha, of course he did.

But the remnants of those emotions, the hurt and all that ache ,it still clung to him like a second skin. Because under all the whispered assurances and gentle touches and soft kisses, Jungkook was still the man who had once loved Yoongi , deeply.

And if really was that easy to fall out of love and love another, Taehyung would do well to guard himself a little. He pinched himself, wanting to scream. Everytime this thought came up ,he wanted to claw his insides, wanted to yell and scream at himself to stop being so scared.

But how could he not be scared. Losing Jungkook would always be the biggest , biggest fear of his life. How could he possibly stop himself from being scared of it. He knocked on the door again. “Just a second,” An unfamiliar voice called out.

The door opened and it wasn’t Yoongi. Taehyung recognized Jung Hoseok, a dance major from his time in college and he felt his eyes go wide. He remembered his dream about the night of the party. Hoseok had been there right? In the dream he had been talking to Yoongi.

“Taehyung?” Hoseok’s face drained of color, his expression shuttering down at once. Taehyung licked his lips, glancing over his shoulders into the apartment. He couldn't catch sight of anything and he didn't know if Yoongi was in there.

“Is Yoongi there?” He asked quietly, hands sinking into his pockets as he stared at the beta. Hoseok’s jaw went a little taut at that. “What do you need him for?” He asked sharply. “ You and your husband have made up right? You’re all in love and stuff?

So why don’t you leave him alone now? Both of you. First your husband keeps calling him and now you turn up at his doorstep? What is wrong with you?” “Jungkook called him?” Taehyung blinked, frowned.

“That’s right. A dozen times probably.” Hoseok shook his head. “ Yoongi is resting. He has a shoot tonight and he needs to look well rested. I’m going to have to ask you to leave.” Taehyung exhaled, throat a little dry. "If he wakes up will you ask him to come see me?"

He hesitated before adding “Tell him its about the night of the party.” Hoseok stared at him. “Party, what party?” He asked suspiciously. “Our graduation party. He’ll know. Just tell him to come see me at my school. He knows where. Please.”

“What about that party?” Hoseok leaned in, his eyes somehow darker. “ Do you remember something? About that night?” There was no mistaking the anxiety in his tone. Taehyung stared at him. “How do you know I don’t remember that night?” He asked softly.

Hoseok recoiled a little. “I mean, you were pretty drunk. You and Jungkook. Isn’t that how you ended up sleeping together?” He shrugged. " It was all over the bulletin boards in the school forum. The pair of you wrapped around each other." "I remember you were there."

Hoseok's face lost a lot of color at that. " What exactly are you insinuating?" he demanded. "I'm not insinuating anything. i just want you to know that i do remember certain parts of it." " it was an open party. I was there. So what?" he crossed his arms.

"So nothing, Jung Hoseok ssi." He said softly, stepping back and away. " Just tell Yoongi i came by." He turned around walking briskly back down the hallway. When he reached the elevators, he turned back around. Hoseok was in the hallway watching him. He felt cold.

When he stepped out of the elevator and walked out into the lobby, he stopped short at the sight of a very familiar face. "Hey princess." Yugyeom was grinning, holding up a helmet and dressed in a leather jacket. " Fancy a ride back home?" Taehyung stared before laughing.

"why are you here?" He shook his head, glancing around the lobby that was mostly deserted. "You texted me to confirm Yoongi's address. i figured if you're here I might as well save you the cab fare." Yugyeom shrugged. "You ever been on a bike? or am I going to be your first?"

Taehyung smiled a little glancing back at the elevator he had just gotten out of. "I'm not sure I'll enjoy being on a bike to be honest." He muttered, " Can't i just take a cab back?" "No can do. You look chilled. " He stepped closer , taking his hand in his own." Gloves?"

Taehyung watched as the alpha shrugged off his own gloves, tugging his hand over and slipping them onto his fingers. "So, did you meet him?" He asked casually, tugging Taehyung's thumb through the gaps in the fabric. Tae hesitated before shaking his head. "No, he was asleep."

"Ah, tough luck. What did you want to talk to him about anyway?" He finished fixing his left glove, moving to his right. " Why not just ask Jungkook, whatever it is?" Taehyung didn't respond, uncomfortable all of a sudden. Yugyeom was a very intelligent guy. He felt cornered.

" i mean..." He laughed, " I can have a life outside of Jungkook." He said quietly. " its not like Jungkook tells me everything he does." Yugyeom paused in the middle of tugging the gloves down his hand. "He loves you." He said simply. Taehyung didn't respond.

"Yes." He said softly." You can love someone and still hurt them. In fact it hurts more when the pain comes from someone who supposedly loves you." Yugyeom took both his hands in his own. "Jungkook would never want to hurt you. He only wants to protect you."

Taehyung laughed out loud at that. "Well.." He swallowed. " I wish him good luck and godspeed with that because.... there are some things i can't run away from. " He turned back to the alpha," Why did Jungkook ask to investigate Jaehyun?" Yugyeom hesitated. "How do you know?"

"He came to see me." Taehyung said without thinking. " In my school. and he was very angry." "That fucker." Yugyeom swore." I'm going to rip him to shreds." He turned to him, eyes worried. " Did he touch you?" The anger in his gaze made Taehyung recoil a little.

"It wasn't anything I couldn't handle. " The omega said quietly, giving his hands a reassuring squeeze. " Don't get all worked up on my behalf. " He laughed. "He had no business coming anywhere near you. " "Yug, don't tell Jungkook. Please. " He said softly.

"It's only going to worry him. And I'm sure it didn't mean anything. " He said hastily. " He needs to get better. If you tell him he'll want to run right at that guy. I don't want him to do that. And i know you don't want that either. Please at least for these two weeks. "

Yugyeom looked hesitant but Taehyung pouted, the gesture unconscious but enough to make his resolve crumble a little. "Fine. But only if you promise to call me if he comes anywhere near you. And only till Looks shoulder gets better. You're going to tell him the truth. "

"I will. " Taehyung said firmly. " But first you need to tell me what Jaehyun did. " Yugyeom shrugged. "It was mostly speculation. Jungkook had a hench there might be harassment cases against him over the years. Turns out there were almost a dozen. All of them swept under. "

Taehyung shuddered. "Of course he did. He was a pervert from the time we were in high school. " He shuddered. " And even before I always felt uncomfortable around him." "You knew him before? " Yugyeom hesitated before reaching for his coat. " Take this off. "

Taehyung stared at him. "What do you mean take it off? I'm not taking anything off. " He said sharply. Yugyeom rolled his eyes. "You want that flapping in the wind when you're riding behind me.? " He shrugged off his jacket. " Wear this. You won't get cold. "

Taehyung stared at him and the alpha waved his jacket in his face. "Hurry. It's getting late and Mrs Jeon offered me dinner tonight. " He said sharply. Taehyung glared but shrugged the jacket on nonetheless. It was warm and smelled nice. He cleared his throat. "So? "

"So what? " Taehyung asked confused. "So, you were telling me about Jaehyun. Jungkook told me you met Jungkook in high school. How did you know Jaehyun before? " "He's from Daegu. " Taehyung whispered. " Or at least his birth mother is. He used to be there during vacations. "

"Interesting." Yugyeom hummed. " Did he know you as well? As in.. Was he fond of you? " Fond wasn't the word, Taehyung thought miserably. Obsessed was more accurate. "My mother was fond of him. " He whispered. " She always wanted me to meet someone very well off. "

He hesitated. " She sent me to Seoul on his parents advice. They actually wanted me to live with them during high school. With him. " Taehyung felt sick as he remembered that conversation. "But I refused. I had to stay in the school dorms but that was better than being near him."

Yugyeom stared at him thoughtful. They walked out to the parking lot in silence and Taehyung watched as he fetched the bike. He hopped on behind , wrapping his arms around him. "Tae, you remember when we met Sunggyu that day at the beach? " He asked carefully. "Yeah? "

"Did he show you something? " He asked quietly. " I was standing too far away to actually see it but, he was giving you something wasn't he? " Taehyung yelped a little when the bike jerked forward a little. "Yes. It was a locket. Why? " "A locket. Weird. Okay hold on. "

Taehyung gripped him hard, squeezing him tight and burying his face into the hard muscles of his back. He sniffled as the wind hit his face through the helmet. Oh God he hated it already. "Having fun princess? " Yugyeom called out laughing and Taehyung head butted him.

Taehyung held on tight, letting the wind numb his face as he felt his breathing even out a bit. He felt oddly relieved, like there was a weight off his chest. He hadn't wanted to tell Jungkook about what happened. But telling Yugyeom helped ease his anxiety. A lot.

Tae's experience with friendships had never been good. It wasn't that he was a terrible friend or that he was shy or introverted or hesitant when it came to meeting strangers. It was just that oftentimes, his overthinking and anxiety made him act in ways that could be stifling.

He had had a few friends growing up but he'd always felt like a burden and annoyance, especially when calls weren't returned right away or invitations to hang out were turned down too often. His mind immediately told him he wasn't pleasant to be around, that's why people left.

Afterwards, making friends became difficult because Taehyung just didn't have the courage to be himself in front of people. He was quiet, withdrawn, only saying what he thought people wanted to hear, never quite venturing out information that could reveal more of who he was.

He didn't think there was a person in the world who knew him. Who knew the things he liked, the things he enjoyed, or the things he wasn't fond of. It was a little sad but also liberating in a way. Taehyung found solace in his loneliness, his isolation a form of shield from hurt.

It was always better not to let people too close, his track record told him. Because close enough to care also meant close enough to hurt and he could do with a little less hurt in his life, even if it came at the cost of companionship of any kind. But Yugyeom seemed different.

They had met under unusual circumstances, Taehyung thought, as the alpha navigated through the busy streets of Seoul, his loud motorcycle drawing curious glances from everyone around. Yugyeom was Jungkooks best friend and Taehyung was Jungkooks husband but theyd only met now.

After years of knowing of each other. And even there, the quality of information wasn't equal. Taehyung only knew that the photographer was someone Jungkook spent a lot of time with. Whereas Yug seemed to know a lot about hum, possibly from Jungkook. What else did he know?

The wind was a little rough against his skin and he buried his face into the thin fabric of Yugyeoms shirt, wondering how cold the alpha probably felt, having lent him his jacket. Alphas ran warmer in general, so he probably didn't feel it much. Yugyeom slowed down.

Taehyung watched as the alpha pulled the bike to a smooth gliding stop near a large Patisserie,carefully balancing both of their weights with his long legs. "Hops off, princess. Let's get your husband some treats. " Taehyung blinked but climbed off slowly, thighs shaking.

He was never getting on this thing again, he thought rather furiously. "Jungkook likes cupcakes. " Yugyeom said casually, " And Mrs. Jeon likes ice cream cakes. We should get some for dessert. Come on... " He started walking towards the entrance. Tae followed quickly.

"Oh did Jungkook ask you for those? " He asked curious and Yugyeom hummed, shaking his head. "Well, no but he's in a lot of pain and probably bored. I just want to make my best friend feel better. It's either this or his favorite porn movie in Blu Ray but, he has you now. So.. "

Taehyung kicked him in the shin and the alpha laughed, grabbing his arm and tugging him close. "Come on, let's go pick some exotic flavors for him to try and then we can buy Mrs Jeon some flowers. You can pick those. " He pulled him along to the display case with the cakes.

Taehyung stared up at the sample sized cakes, eyes wide and mind whirring, because he'd never imagined some of these flavors. They were all really pretty, with soft sugary frosting layered on top, and he watched as Yugyeom went around taking small bites of them.

The alpha seemed to consider each bite with due diligence, brows furrowed in concentration . After about eight or nine samples, Yugyeom made a small sound of approval. "Yes. This one. It's perfect. Just perfect. " He gushed before turning to Taehyung. " Come here, taste this."

The omega went over, taking a bite of the sample himself. It had a slightly nutty, strong taste, not very sweet but definitely a little tart. He wasn't blown over or anything but Yugyeom seemed certain that Jungkook would love it. And Yugyeom knew the other alpha better anyway.

So he nodded, silent and Yugyeom smiled. "Not fond of walnuts and buttercream? It's Jungkook's favorite but I suppose it's an acquired taste. " He waggled gis eye brow. " No matter, we'll get you something that you enjoy? What's your favorite flavor? "

Taehyung opened his mouth ready to respond but Yugyeom held his hand up. "No. No hold on... You know what.. I'll guess it myself. You know Jungkook didn't even know this was his favorite flavor until I introduced him to it. I'm a genius when it comes to these things. "

Yugyeom grinned. " There's a florists two doors down. Why don't you go get some flowers for Mrs. Jeon, and I'll get you something for dessert. Something you'll hopefully enjoy. " He waved him off. Amused, Taehyung shrugged, moving towards the exit. Yugyeom was oddly endearing.

Taehyung stepped out of the store walking up and then down the street, before finally finding the florist in question, a tiny little store tucked between a minimart and a toy store. He stepped into the place, breathing in the sweet scent of the flowers. "How can I help you? "

The beta by the counter was occupied with a few ruby red roses, carefully trimming the stems and coaxing the petals into full bloom. He gave Taehyung a bright smile. "Flowers for yourself or for Your alpha?" He asked cheerfully. "Uh.. For my mother in law actually. " He smiled.

"Oohh.. Is she partial to any particular ones or do you have a favorite of your own? Maybe a particular kind you like receiving yourself? " He smiled. Taehyung had never gotten any flowers from anyone. He told the man as such, without thinking and the beta blinked "Really? "

He shook his head before holding a finger up, asking him to wait. Taehyung watched him disappear into the back of the shop and a few minutes later, the door opened and Yugyeom came in. "Did you pick any? " "Oh... No... I.. " "What do you think of these? "

The store owner had returned with a small but very beautiful bouquet. "These are Rosy gardenias, these little ones are called gypso or baby's breath, these are santini chrysanthemums and these are avalanche roses. " He paused to stare at Yugyeom, " And this must be your

alpha. You, " He pointed fiercely at Yugyeom, " You should be ashamed of yourself. You're a terrible man. " The alpha blinked. " You're probably right. ' he drawled, " But I'd still like to know the reason why you think so, complete stranger I've never met before in my life. "

Tae elbowed him in the ribs. "This is because you made me wear your stupid jacket. " He hissed, glaring daggers at the alpha before turning back to the florist. "This is not my alpha. " He shuddered. " My husband is at home. He's twice as handsome and only half as annoying."

Yugyeom spluttered in disbelief. " Oh, you can't be serious.. You.. ' he glared back, " As if you would ever have a chance with someone like me. The last omega I dated was Koreas top model three years in a row. " He scoffed. Taehyung ignored him reaching for the bouquet.

"This is really pretty. I'll take this one. ' he said with a smile, running a forefinger over the fresh blooms. The florist nodded before heading back to prepare the bouquet. " I'm serious. You are not my type. " Yugyeom said sharply. Taehyung grinned. "Okay." He shrugged.

"I mean, sure you're like.. Pretty or whatever but... Other than that.. You're way too tame for my taste. I like my omegas a little rebellious, you know, prone to taking risks, making a few bad decisions. " " I mean, if they choose to date you, that's kind of obvious. "

Before Yugyeom could retort, Taehyungs phone rang, and the omega quickly took the call, sticking his tongue out at the other alpha for good measure. He grinned at the affronted look on his face before making his way out the door so he could take the call. "Hello."

"I woke up and you weren't there. " Jungkook's voice was low and raspy from sleep, " And I realized that not waking up to your face, makes me really, really upset. " He paused. " Take responsibility. " Taehyung rolled his eyes. "You're becoming a bit too demanding, alpha. "

Jungkook chuckled a bit at that. "Baby, you have no idea how insufferable I'm going to get. " He teased. " Where are you? " "Oh, I'm with Yug, actually. I... Uh.. Ran into him here. " He floundered for a second. " Well, he told me that he's also heading home so... "

"Oh, what are you guys doing? " Jungkook asked cheerfully. " Tell him he owes me a gaming night. I can't sit in this place and not do anything else, I'll go crazy. " Taehyung laughed a little. "If you need a gaming partner, I am willing to offer my services. "

"You wouldn't be a partner, Tae. You would be a terrible distraction. " Jungkook muttered. " How am I supposed to concentrate on a game if all I can think of is-" "Fine!! I'll tell him. " He hissed, ears burning. " We're buying some flowers for Mrs. Jeon. " Jungkook laughed.

"That's sweet. Will you guys be long? " "No, we're done. We'll head home soon. " "Okay, I'll be waiting. " Jungkook said softly. " Spend the night? " Taehyung hesitated unsure. "Jungkook, your shoulder-" "Please...or else I'll be up all night thinking of you".

"You drive a hard bargain. " Taehyung said softly. "Okay, fine. But this wont become a habit. Just tonight. " "Anything you say baby. "

"But that's the thing.. " Mr. Jeon said firmly, " Jungkook has always been a very demanding, clingy child and I think it's pretty on brand for him to be attention seeking when be feels he isn't being adored enough. My advice is that you don't indulge him too much."

"Dad, I'm right here. " Jungkook protested. " Also, I'm 26. Don't talk about me like I'm a toddler. " "I'll stop talking about you like you're a toddler when you stop acting like one. Taehyung has been working all day. He's probably exhausted. How dare you demand he come over? "

Tae watched, amused as father and son went into an argument about whether or not Taehyung was being hassled. "Yugyeom, what is this? " Mrs Jeon asked brightly, opening the large bag from the florist and pulling out a bouquet. " Oh this is so pretty." "They're for you, mom."

Yugyeom smiled waving from where he sat next to Jungkook. The alpha gave his buddy a sharp little nudge in the ribs. "Stop trying to woo my mom. She's too old for you. " He grinned and Yugyeom rolled his eyes. "Don't be bitter just because she prefers me to you. "

"Oh, wait there's another one here... " Mrs Jeon exclaimed, reaching for another bouquet from the bag. " Oh this is lovely. " It was a beautiful arrangement of lilies and carnations, with white satin ribbons and pearl beaded strings woven through the branches.

She read the card and paused, " Oh these are for you Taehyung. " The omega went still and so did Yugyeom. Taehyung blinked at the alpha who looked like he'd been shot. "That's... I'm not.. I wasn't.. " He groaned. " Shit, I fucked up. " Jungkook was staring back at him.

"Listen, I may put up with you wooing my mom but I'll definitely draw the line for this.. " He grinned and Yugyeom glared at him. "I was actually going to give those to you. So you could give them to Tae later. " He said quietly. "Tae said he's never gotten flowers before."

Taehyung groaned. "Yug, you didn't have to.. do that. " He said gently, shaking his head. " I promise, I've never had any sort of wish to receive them. I've never been sold on the idea of bouquets. They look better growing in gardens. " He smiled. " But thank you. "

Jungkook grinned. "Should I buy my baby a whole garden then? " Tae flicked his nose. "I would rather you rest and get better soon and then we can go visit a lot of parks and gardens together. " He smiled. Yugyeom glowered. "Okay but pay me back for the stupid bouquet. "

As dinner progressed, Taehyung found himself actively listening and engaging with both the alphas, the depth of their affection soon evident to him. He moved around helping Mr Jeon with the dishes while Mrs Jeon set up the dessert. Yugyeom and Jungkook were

busy discussing a photo shoot that Yugyeom was working on, the technical terms of it, flying right over Taehyung's head. Yugyeom's phone rang and the alpha stood up quickly. "I need to take this. " He said quietly, before moving to the balcony. "Who is it? "

Jungkook demanded but the alpha merely made a shushing gesture before walking away. "Probably another top model looking to make some bad decisions. " Taehyung said cheekily and Jungkook tilted his head in confusion. "Sorry." Tae smiled. "Just... Something he told me earlier."

Jungkook left the dining area, moving over to stand next to him. "You guys seem to be getting along well. " He commented. " I'm glad. " Taehyung nodded. "He's starting to grow on me, yes. " He smiled. "But I would still rather not have him in high doses. " Jungkook laughed.

"I understand. " He hesitated. " Where did you run into him? " Taehyung paused in the middle of putting away a large gravy ladle. He stared at the ceramic edged sink for a few seconds before wiping his hand on the nearest towel. "At Yoongis place actually. "

Jungkook didn't look very surprised. "I see. " He held his gaze for a moment. " What happened? " Taehyung sighed. "I didn't see him. He wasn't home. " "Yeah? " Jungkook waited. " And then?" "And then I came down and Yugyeom was waiting for me. He drove me here. "

"Am I allowed to be relieved? Because I am. I don't want you to meet Yoongi." And I don't want you to call him, Taehyung thought vacantly. "We don't always get what we want. " He shrugged."I have things I want to talk to him about." "You mean about the night at the hospital?"

"Among other things yes. Is that a problem? " "I mean, the last time you spoke to him, he convinced you to leave me. Which you did. So do you blame me for being a little nervous? " Taehyung turned to him, eyes steady and unwavering. "You can't blame him for everything. "

Jungkook laughed at that shaking his head. "I can actually. I can blame him for pretty much every fucked up thing that has ever happened to me. I can and I will. " Tae shook his head. "I still need his help." "Why? " Jungkook demanded. " Why on earth do you need his help?"

"Is everything alright boys? " Mrs Jeon asked casually and Taehyung turned away moving to the table and taking a seat. Jungkook was by his side in an instant, taking the seat next to him. "Taehyung-" "Not now. " He said quietly. " Let's talk later. " "Ooh these look good. "

Mrs Jeon held up the cakes, smiling. She also held a small box, carefully opening the paper wrapping. " Wait is this a strawberry tart? " She smiled" That's sweet." Taehyung blinked, astonished. No way. "From the look on your face, I take it I guessed right. "

Yugyeom slipped into the chair next to him, grinning and Taehyung could only gawk at him. "This is impossible. Unless you've been stalking me somehow, there's no way you could have guessed this right!! " He protested. Yugyeom shrugged. "I told you, I'm a genius. "

When Taehyung continued to glare at him the alpha wilted. "Fine! " He rolled his eyes. " I texted Jungkook. He told me. " Taehyung turned around to stare at Jungkook. "How do you know? " He demanded. The alpha flushed, shrugging. "No, you tell me right now!" He demanded.

Jungkook stared at him for a few seconds. "You buy them often. " He said softly.. I used to find the recipts and the boxes in the kitchen or in the trash can. It was always a tart. And it was always strawberry. I didn't know anything. I just made an informed guess. "

Taehyung could only stare at Jungkook, something about his matter of fact tone, rendering him speechless. Jungkook didn’t seem to be phased by what he had just admitted but Taehyung couldn’t stop his mind from dwelling on all the implications of what he had just said.

He could think of a number of occasions when he’d bought a strawberry tart and Jungkook was right. He did it when he was hurt or upset. And he was usually hurt or upset because of Jungkook. The aftermath of fights and arguments and stone cold silences. He shuddered.

Sighing, he poured himself some water watching as Jungkook and Yugyeom talked, his mind whirring at a million miles a hour. it wasn't healthy, how many details of the past three years stayed fresh and immaculate in his mind. He remembered almost all of it.

Why was it so much easier to remember and relive all the times that Jungkook had caused him pain, than it was to envision a future where they could be happy together? He didn’t want to run again. He didn’t , at all, but sometimes, he wondered if he deserved to stay.

Didn't Jungkook deserve someone who had moved on from the past the way he did? He didn't deserve to be haunted by those memories just because Taehyung was too broken to let go of them? What if he took it so far that Jungkook wanted to run from him? He couldn't survive that.

Jungkook deserved someone who could be happy with him right? Taehyung didn’t know what happy felt like. He didn’t know what it was like to enjoy and relish something without the underlying anxiety that came from the fear of losing it.

It was hard to kiss Jungkook, to drown in his warmth without remembering how cold it had once been without him. He remembered the mocking, the taunts, the endless abuse he’d had to bear from Jungkook’s friends, the constant reminder that someone like

Jungkook would never settle for someone like Taehyung. Those phantom voices from his past still rang inside his head , and the echo of that ache still lingered. His hands started shaking a little as he tried not to remember it all

and he didn’t even realize he was trembling till he heard the scrape of Jungkook’s chair, glancing up to see the alpha on his feet, moving towards him with a look of distress on his face.

Taehyung blinked, suddenly aware of damp cold all over his dress shirt and it took him second to realize he had dropped the glass of water on himself. His entire front was drenched , the glass having fallen somewhere by his feet.

“oh no.. Oh.. I’m so sorry..” He choked out but Jungkook was helping him up and out of the seat, hand gentle on his arm. “Come let’s get you changed. You’ll catch a cold.” The alpha said firmly, holding his hurt shoulder at an awkward angle.

Taehyung felt terrible clenching his fists because the whole point of being here was to take care of Jungkook and not the other way around. He gripped the alpha's shirt, tugging himself away . "I'm fine. Its just water.. I... I'll change. You should go back to the table."

“Tae, what happened?” Jungkook whispered, voice low so only he could hear. “ You became really pale and your hands started shaking…” Taehyung swallowed, mouth as dry as sandpaper. Jungkook looked so worried and he felt so undeserving of it. "Its nothing." He exhaled.

“I.. I didn’t sleep much. I must’ve been tired.” He whispered but Jungkook stepped closer, wrapping on arms around his waist, tugging him closer. “Baby, please don’t lie to me.” Jungkook leaned in burying his face in the juncture of his neck, and Taehyung breathed him in.

"i'm sorry." He said softly. "Don't be ." Jungkook said quietly. " Just tell me what happened. I want to help you fight these demons. But you have to tell me all about them. I can't so this unarmed, Taehyung." Taehyung felt his lips wobble. "Am i enough?" He whispered.

Jungkook pulled back to stare at him. “What?” He looked confused, “ Tae…” “I feel like there’s parts of me that are just missing you know. Parts that are supposed to be there in people. They’re just not there inside me. I don’t know what I want, I don’t know how to be happy….

I want to be happy with you but I don’t know how. I just keep thinking of what happened before and I...” He trailed off. “ What if you get tired of me? What if you get tired of being with someone who can’t sit through a dinner with your best friend without causing a scene?”

Jungkook sighed running a hand over his face. "Tae, Im not asking you to be happy with me. Just be with me. "He said quietly," Happy, sad, angry, furious, upset or miserable. You can feel anything.All that matters is that you let me share it with you. Happiness is relative. "

"Listen.. " He bit his lips. " It's okay if we're not happy now alright. It's fine. We'll get there. Someday. Someday we'll be out somewhere in a garden maybe having a picnic with our pups and just you'll realise you are happy. It will happen. Just stay with me till then. "

Taehyung turned to look at him and when their eyes met, Taehyung felt some dark tangle come undone inside him, making breathing easier. Jungkook's eyes looked earnest, not even a little guile in them, and Taehyung felt a wave of overwhelming affection wash over him.

It seemed absolutely imperative that he kiss Jungkook right then and there. He couldn't not kiss him. It had to be done. As he moved, eyes fluttering shut and lips parting in desperation, Jungkook met him halfway, his lips closing over Taehyung's own with gentleness.

It was sweet, the taste of strawberry tart on Tae's tongue making Jungkook hum, and he laughed a little on the inside, because this wasn't how he'd imagined sharing his favorite pastry with Jungkook. Jungkook pulled back after a few seconds just to stare at him.

"When I kiss you, I feel complete." He whispered." You fill all the emptiness inside me, Tae. It's like you were made just for me. You're not just enough, Taehyung. You are exactly what I need. "

Warning :

( this is partially inspired by how Jungkook genuinely needs only one hand and couple of seconds to strip Taehyung naked

as demonstrated in the busan concert.)

It's a little past eleven in the night when they finally drag themselves to the bedroom, locking the door carefully behind them. Taehyung is completely bushed, his muscles aching a little as he watched Jungkook take his meds. "I need a shower. " Taehyung whispered.

The alpha turned to smile at him. "I believe this is the part where I suggest we save water by showering together. But, " He grimaced, pointing at his shoulder. " So you're on your own in there tonight, Tae. " Taehyung smiled a bit at that. "Can I borrow a shirt? "

Taehyung went to the closet, gaze flitting over Jungkook's clothes. There's a black satin pj set there, one he'd never seen Jungkook wear before. It was smooth as silk against his fingers and he couldn't help but stroke the fabric, enjoying the texture. "It's a gift. "

Jungkook was right behind him, watching him pick something to wear, and Taehyung felt the alphas chest press up against his back, one hand gently holding his waist. "I got it from a designer I was shooting for. It's high end actually. Costs a lot of money. "

Taehyung pulled away from it, surprised but Jungkook squeezed his waist, before reaching for it himself. He tugged the fabric out and pressed it into his hands. "Put it on. I wanna see how it looks on you. " Jungkook whispered, " Soft Silk on your smooth satin skin."

Tae flushed, moving back but Jungkook wrapped his arm around his waist, pinning him in place. "You said it's expensive.. I can't.. " "You're the most expensive thing I've ever touched. " Jungkook said softly, kissing the back of his neck. "Indulge me a little baby, please? "

Taehyung sighed closing his eyes as Jungkook placed soft open mouthed kisses along his neck, a little wet against his skin, teeth nipping gently in between. "Is this why you wanted me to stay the night? " He whispered, biting his lips as Jungkook pulled back a bit.

Jungkook grinned, shrugging casually. "What can I say? I'm just really in the mood for onion pancakes tonight. " He waggled his brows. Taehyung turned red , pushing him away and glaring. "You're hurt. We're not going to do anything tonight. " He said firmly.

Taehyung ignored Jungkook's pout, brushing past him and making his way over to the bathroom. He closed the door carefully before moving to stand under the shower. He scrubbed himself clean, feeling pink and tender afterwards, his skin glowing when he stepped out.

The Silk PJs felt like water on his skin, so delicate that he barely felt the fabric on himself. He towel dried his hair before stepping back into the bedroom. Jungkook was asleep, his eyes closed and hand held stiffly near his head. He swallowed, suddenly overwhelmed.

He couldn't help but think of how close he had come to losing Jungkook that day. How if the knife had been a few inches to the side , he would be grieving his husband right now, instead of watching him sleep, safe and at touching distance. He moved to climb into the bed.

He didn't want to jostle Jungkook in any way, and the alpha seemed deep asleep. So he curled up in front of him, letting his own eyes flutter shut, as the day's exhaustion caught up to him. Sleep came swiftly and a few seconds later he dozed off. ~~~~

When Taehyung woke up again, it was still dark out, the curtains shadowed and dull hum of the air conditioner making him blink into full consciousness. He felt hot and a little sweaty, and then he felt the arm draped over him, holding him flush against a warm, hard chest.

Jungkook's palm lay right over his belly, and Taehyung hesitated before lightly linking his fingers with Jungkook's, careful not to put too much pressure. But the alpha shifted behind him, closer, till. He was flush against Taehyung's back. "Are you awake? " Taehyung whispered.

Jungkook's voice was a low hum, right behind his ear. "I am now. " He said gruffly. " What time is it? " The small clock on the side table read 3:45 AM. Taehyung licked his lips, swallowing a little as his mouth went dry again. He was nervous. Anxious. "Baby."

Jungkook's voice was low deep and soothing. He closed his eyes, squeezing his fingers. "I get so scared when I wake up like this and it's just me. " Taehyung whispered. " I'm glad you're here. " Jungkook shifted closer. "What you need is a distraction." He whispered.

Taehyung closed his eyes, shivering just a little when Jungkook lightly touched the side of his thigh. He trembled a little when the alpha moved his hand up, gentle shaping the curve of his waist with his fingers.

Jungkook pressed a soft kiss to the back of his neck and Taehyung went a little stiff, his pulse kicking up and heart pounding. Jungkook paused, lifting his hand and linking it with the omega’s, careful. “You’re shaking.” He whispered, “ What’s wrong?”

Taehyung exhaled, sharp and shaky. “Nothing… I just… It’s so quiet.” He bit his lips. “ Like.. so still… and just … I’m sorry.” He trailed off. “You sound frightened. Tae , you have nothing to be afraid of . Not with me.. You know that right?”

Yes, he knew. But the darkness of the room and the warmth of Jungkook’s body against his own, coupled with the scent of him so close, it terrified him. Not because he didn’t want it… but because he didn’t quite understand it. It was new and intense and overwhelming.

He wanted Jungkook to touch him, wanted to feel his hands moving over his fare skin, tracing the dips and curves of his body but he was so terrified of what that would do to him. Of how it would feel to actually experience it.

“Tae… baby..breathe…” Jungkook whispered, shifting so he could wrap his arm around him , drawing him close. “ Hey.. come on… This isn’t something you should be frightened of. I’d never hurt you. You know that right?”

“Can I ask you something?” Taehyung whispered. “ It’s just something I always wonder about and I .. I thought you might know…” “You can ask me anything…” Jungkook said softly, nuzzling into the soft skin near his neck. “Do people in a relationship have sex …everyday?”

Jungkook coughed, choking a little. “That’s what you wanted to ask me?” “Is it a silly thing to ask? I’m sorry, I just…” “No.” Jungkook said firmly.” Don’t apologize. It’s just… not what I was expecting.” He laughed a little.

“Well, some people do. More in the beginning of the relationship I think . When …you know the sex is new and exciting.” “You’ve had sex before though…” Taehyung said softly. “ So it won’t be exciting for you?”

“Taehyung will you let me finish?” Jungkook’s teeth caught on the lobe of his ear, biting down gently , but enough to make him go still. “ What I mean is… when you touch someone for the first time,” his hands moved to the hem of his shirt,

lightly playing with the tiny button there, “ it’s magical. That first contact, your fingertips against someone’s skin, your warmth against theirs… it feels so special…” he carefully gripped the button between thumb and forefinger, “ Can I take this off?”

Taehyung nodded, toes curling and thighs shaking a little as Jungkook unbuttoned the silk shirt, easily. " It's like the difference between looking at a beautiful rose and then actually reaching out and touching it. Yes the blooms look beautiful but, "

His fingers traced small patterns on the soft skin of his belly, " When you touch the petal, feel how soft and delicate it is against your fingertips, " His fingers moved up, stroking his skin in gentle, searching movements, " It makes you fall in love all over again. "

Jungkook's touch felt feather light against his skin, barely there but hard to ignore, and Tae squirmed, his lips parting a little and his legs shifting, thighs rubbing together. Jungkook pressed soft kisses to the back of his neck, hands working open the rest of the buttons.

Jungkook was quiet as he worked up the shirt, his lips soft and wet against his skin and Tae felt breathless. When the alpha made to tug the fabric down and off his shoulder, Tae grabbed his wrist, stopping him gently. "Jungkook can you..." He hesitated, " Keep talking to me? "

Jungkook pulled back, gently moving to turn him around but Taehyung stiffened. "No.. Please.. I don't want to turn around. " He whispered. " I just want to hear your voice. It makes it easy for me.. To focus on you .. When you're quiet my mind gets too loud. "

Jungkook pressed another kiss to the base of his neck, right where it met his spine and Taehyung shuddered a little. He let go of Jungkook's hand, and the alpha hummed, tugging the fabric down before kissing his shoulders.

"I would love to keep talking, beautiful," He whispered against his skin, " But can I talk between kisses? Because I want to keep kissing you." His hand moved to tug the shirt off him entirely and Taehyung shivered, naked from the waist up. Jungkook inhaled sharply.

"You have a lot of pretty moles on your skin Tae.. " He said softly, kissing them one by one. " You know they say your moles are just spots where the angels kissed you before sending you down from heaven. The angels must've loved and adored you, sweetheart. " He kissed him again.

Taehyung felt the blood rush to his skin, his body heating up as Jungkook pressed his palm right over his belly button, forefinger dipping into it for just a second and making him jump a little. His hands traced a path up to his chest, soft and curious. Taehyung closed his eyes.

He felt like he was floating, his body slowly going lax, melting under Jungkook's chest, while the heat in his belly began to grow, slow but steady. Arousal that wasn't controlled by his thoughts but by someone else's touch. It was so new, so exhilarating. He couldn't breathe.

"Every inch of you is soft and perfect, Tae," Jungkooks voice was a low whisper, right against his ear, " So delicate to the touch... " The alpha brushed the pad of his thumb, lightly over the tip of his nipple, a gentle, barely there touch. Pleasure shot up his spine.

He felt the heat inside him grow, as Jungkook rubbed his finger back and forth on the sensitive nub, slow and deliberate, feeling it pebble up under his touch, swelling into a hard little bud. "It's a shame I can't see you right now.. I bet these look like little rosebuds. "

He used his thumb and forefinger to gently hold the tip of it, rolling it back and forth and back and forth, just enough pressure to keep him squirming, thighs pressed together as he felt himself harden under the silk fabric. The heat in his belly intensified. "Pretty baby. "

Jungkook shifted a little behind him, and a second later Taehyung felt his knee nudge the back of his thighs, "Spread your thighs for me, angel. " Jungkook whispered, voice low and rough and Taehyung swallowed, parting his legs so Jungkook could push his own leg in between them.

Taehyung gasped a little, feeling the hard length of Jungkooks muscled thigh right against his arousal, making him grind down on it before he could stop himself. The friction felt delicious against his skin, and he felt the heat pooling there, right at the base of his belly.

"Does this feel good? " Jungkook asked gently, playing with the soft nub of his nipple, fingers pinching in a little harsher, and Taehyung bit his lips, before grinding down on the alphas thigh again, seeking more of that delicious friction. Jungkook chuckled, hand moving down

to gently palm his arousal, a caress that made Tae shake, all the heat inside him finally spilling out, wetness coating the inside of his thighs as he whimpered. "Fuck.. " Jungkook whispered, sounding awed, " Did you get wet just from me playing with your nipples? "

"Jungkook.. I need... " He choked out, " Touch me more. Please.. " Taehyung's voice was low and scratchy, his thighs shaking a little and Jungkook hummed, kissing the side of his neck, before hooking his thumb on the waistband of the silk pjs. "Lift your hips for me. "

Taehyung did as asked helping Jungkook tug the fabric down and off him, leaving him completely naked against the alphas chest. Jungkook was fully clothed and Taehyung felt heat flood his body, as he wrapped his arms around himself. He had never been naked in front of anyone.

But Jungkook was wrapping his arm around him, drawing him close, and Taehyung whimpered a little As the alpha gently gripped his chin, tilting his face just enough for him to catch his lips in a kiss. Tae moaned into the kiss, aching and swelling in all the best and worst ways.

He felt Jungkook's hand move over his own, fingers linking with his. The alpha pulled back, and pressed a soft kiss to the corner of his mouth, before nipping at his lip with his teeth. Taehyung moaned a little, and Jungkook hushed him, soft and gentle. "So good for me. "

"Tae....I did my fair share of talking. " Jungkook said softly, " So now, it's your turn..." He squeezed his hand, tugging it gently down ," I want you to show me how you touch yourself and tell me what you think about when you do it. "

Taehyung felt his entire body go taut at the words, his eyes wide and lips parting in shock. He squirmed away, instinctively rather than with intent but the alpha caught him close, laughing. "Taehyung when you come into my bed you have to leave your shyness at the door. "

Taehyung flushed at that, but Jungkook didn't relent, leaning in and blowing air against his earlobe, making him yelp a little. "Should I go first? " Jungkook whispered, "Tell you what I think of when I touch myself? All the things I imagine myself doing to you? "

Taehyung whimpered as Jungkook moved the omegas hand down, till he was brushing it against his own cock, hard and leaking precum against the downy hair on his thigh. Taehyung bit his lips, as Jungkook helped him wrap his fingers around himself.

It wasn't new, it was something he had done countless times, but something about Jungkooks fingers over his, showing him how to touch, controlling the way he moved, made the omega in him bloom in delight. He felt himself melt against Jungkooks chest, aching to obey and be good.

"I want to mark you up. " Jungkook whispered, moving Taehyungs hand over his cock, stroking gently, " Leave little souvenirs all over your skin so people know who you belong to.. " Taehyung shivered, " And I want to mark you on the inside too, fill you up with my cum... "

Taehyung felt his insides clench, a hollow empty ache starting somewhere inside him, alick spilling out of him and Jungkooks words registered. "Jungkook..." He gasped and the alpha pulled his hand away. "Keep touching yourself. " He said quietly, before touching his thigh.

Tae felt his fingers shake, hand trembling as he tried to do what Jungkook asked, but he could barely breathe, all of his focus on the hand now stroking his thigh, soft but firm. "I've thought about fucking your pretty thighs.Just lubing them up and sliding my cock in between."

Taehyung shivered as he felt Jungkooks hand slip in between his legs, his face flaming a little when the alpha ran his fingertips all the inside of his thighs, the skin coated in slick that kept dripping out of him. He'd never been so wet , never felt so empty.

"I've thought about holding you close and worshiping you, Tae... " He whispered, the tip of his finger finding his entrance, rubbing gently till more of hia arousal spilled out of him. " But I also want to hold you down and fuck you to tears. Have you begging for me... "

The alpha’s finger traced the edge of his entrance and the touch made Taehyung seize up, his entire body going stiff and taut with tension, legs tensing up and curling a little, breath hitching and eyes shutting tight.

The touch was intimate, way too intimate for him to casually accept. Maybe because Taehyung himself didn’t touch himself there outside of his heat. And it felt terrifying, to have Jungkook touch him there, because just the brush of his fingertip made his heart stop in his chest.

“Jungkook…” He whispered, shaking a little and squirming.” I… Oh fuck..” Jungkook chuckled, pulling back a little and gripping the curve of his ass, squeezing a little. His voice was a little rougher now, and Taehyung swallowed

as he felt the alpha wrap his hand around his own clothed length, squeezing a little before touching his thigh again. “You’re really wet…” Jungkook whispered, lips brushing over the curve of his ear, “ it won’t hurt, I promise… I’ll be really gentle.” He moved his hand again,

this time to the back of his thighs, stoking the skin there gently, damp and slick from how much of his arousal had spilled out of him. Taehyung closed his eyes, trying not to think of how Jungkook was coating his finger tips with his wetness, trying not to think of the why.

His fantasies had always been vague, more about their bodies wrapped together, kissing , and hands in his hair and soft touches on his torso. He had never thought to much of the finer nuances of it, the gritty details that defined sex.

The raw filthiness of the act had never really dawned on him till now. Jungkook shifted closer and Taehyung felt the wetness of his tongue against his nape, the small prick of pain as he bit in right after, before suckling on the spot, with his plush pink lips.

His toes curled at that, and his body opened some more , more wetness spilling out, and he felt embarrassed trying to close his legs shut but Jungkook was quicker, gripping his thigh and forcing his legs open. “Talk to me..”

The alpha whispered, slow, casual, before moving his finger between his legs again, finding that secret spot with ease, tracing circles around it with carelessly gentle movements, “ tell me how often do you touch yourself here??” he pressed the tip of his finger right against

the wrinkled skin and Taehyung tensed up again, shaking as he squirmed. “ I… only when I’m in heat..” He admitted, trying not to jump as Jungkook used his thumb to rub his skin gently. “When you’re in heat?” Jungkook hummed, “ What’s that like Tae…. Do you get desperate?

Aching for something to fill you up?” Taehyung closed his eyes. The worst part of his heat was how sad it made him, how it reminded him that he didn’t have an alpha to take care of him. But he wasn’t going to tell Jungkook that.

Instead he focused on how it felt once the coherent thoughts left, the aching emptiness, how wet he got. “Sometimes…” He said softly, before biting his lips as Jungkook rubbed over his entrance again,

this time putting pressure, making the skin furl open just a little, just enough for his fingertip to slip in, but also enough to make Taehyung’s thighs shake, a low whine leaving his mouth. “You’re tensing up on me, baby…” Jungkook whispered,

“ You need to relax and let me in. Let me in so I can make you feel good…” he rubbed his forefinger over the delicate skin again and Taehyung felt more wetness seep out of him, dripping onto the thick digit.

Jungkook rubbed it back on him, using it to push a little deeper, finger sinking in just up to the first knuckle, making Taehyung clench down on him.

He moaned a little legs parting so he alpha had more room to work with, gut clenching as he pulled his finger out, just to push it back in.

“I want to taste you..” Jungkook whispered, “ Once my shoulder gets better the first thing I’m going to do is throw your legs over it and taste that honey dripping heaven you have between your thighs. What do you taste like, Tae?” Taehyung blinked, stunned. “I.. what?”

“Don’t tell me you’ve never tried tasting yourself….” He whispered, chuckling as Taehyung relaxed a little, using his distraction to push his finger in again, this time almost down to the hilt, curling the tips a little, rubbing against his slick, wet walls .

“I… no…” Taehyung whimpered, the feeling of Jungkook’s finger inside him, curling and stroking and rubbing his inner walls, making him writhe and leak even more, his cock twitching and dripping precum all over his thigh.

“That’s too bad.. “ Jungkook whispered, “ I bet you taste really sweet tae… Maybe you can taste yourself off my tongue after I finally eat you out.” He pressed the tip of another finger against his entrance,

rubbing the skin and coating the tip with more wetness so he could push it in alongside the first.

Jungkook’s fingers weren’t as long as Taehyung’s but they were thicker and the omega felt the stretch as Jungkook pushed the second one in deeper and more firm before starting to pull the digits out again.

His entire body felt like it had been set aflame, heat licking up his spine as Jungkook fucked his fingers into him, slow and deliberate, letting him feel the stretch and push and the drag of it inside him, stroking his walls, making him wetter and softer. A little more pliant.

“Fuck, that’s it.. you’re doing so well baby, taking my fingers so good, so wet and warm for me.” Jungkook groaned ,” Fuck..you smell so good Tae…So sweet and decadent…” He pressed his hips in closer, rubbing himself against the curve of his ass and Taehyung whined, trembling.

The sound went straight to Jungkook’s cock , and he felt the hard length of it twitch against the curve of his waist as the alpha rutted against him. Taehyung exhaled, shaking and Jungkook swore, breathing harshly against his neck.

“ Baby, I ‘m dying here… Can you give me a hand?” he whispered and Taehyung tried to get his bearings, trying not to think of how Jungkook’s fingers pressed into him, rubbing all the best spots inside him.

He reached back a little awkward because of the angle and he closed his hand around the thick length of him, eyes shooting open right away because, oh god, he felt so big. Too big… he clenched down on Jungkook’s fingers and the alpha grunted.

“Don’t worry baby, we’ll work you up to take it… soon. Not now… I’d rather have both my hands and my tongue when I take you for the first time because I’m going to worship you when that happens.”

“You’re so big…” Taehyung whispered, inhibitions dropping because of his surprise, fingers curling around the hardness under the fabric, weighing the girth of him, “ Fuck..”

“You scared it won’t fit?” Jungkook panted, sucking more bruises against his neck as he rubbed a third finger against the sopping wet skin, pressing In just a little but not fully, “ Are you thinking of how I’d feel inside you? How well, I’ll fill you up?”

“Jungkook…” Taehyung hooked a finger into the waistband of the alpha’s trousers, tugging it down till the hard length of his cock came free. Taehyung wrapped his hands around it, his mouth watering before he could get himself under control and it was new and exhilarating ,

this desperate ache to taste him, to wrap his lips around him and make him feel good. “Have you thought of having me inside you?” Jungkook whispered, “ Of taking my knot? ” he rubbed over that spot inside him,

reaching deep and curling his fingers up and prodding against the spongy skin there till Taehyung’s hips jerked, another gush of liquid heat spilling out of him when a sharp almost painful jolt of pleasure shot straight up his spine.

Taehyung gasped and squirmed, stunned that he had found that spot inside him so quickly. “That’s it.. Right there, huh baby?” He chuckled, “ so fucking beautiful for me Tae, Fuck..” He kept fingering him, curling and rubbing ,

soft and gentle and then harder slow first and then in quick little movements that had him clenching from overstimulation. Taehyung felt swollen and wet, and his insides throbbed, wrung out and tender and he hadn’t even had the alpha inside him yet.

“Jungkook..” He whispered, thumb lightly rubbing over the soft head of Jungkook’s cock, wet and slick from precum, “ I need more..” he exhaled shakily, and Jungkook groaned, licking a small drop of sweat that trickled down the side of his neck,

before sinking his teeth lightly into the kin just below his ear. “You’re so tight baby.. .. How are you going to take my cock like this?” He whispered. “ You’re going to have to stay over every night now, just so I can work you open for me…” he whispered,

shifting his fingers inside him, curling and rubbing as he pressed the third finger right up against him. “Too much…” Taehyung whimpered. Jungkook made a small noise of disappointment. “Too much? What about when I knot you? How will you take that if this is too much?”

Taehyung whimpered, when the shock of the words made him clench and relax, enough for the fourth finger to slip right in and Jungkook leaned into the movement, three fingers pressing deep inside him, right down to the knuckle.

Taehyung felt like he was being torn apart and getting stitched together all at once, a desperate sort of pleasure starting to build inside him. “You’re getting wetter, “ Jungkook whispered, “ Your body knows how much you need me inside you… Soon, I promise.”

He pulled all three fingers out , and Tae felt himself clench around nothing, empty and aching as he tried to rut back but Jungkook merely gripping his thigh spreading it apart before grabbing his own cock, pressing the thick, long length of it into the gap between Tae’s legs.

Taehyung blinked, as the alpha slipped his fingers up inside him, just a little , collecting a bit of his wetness, before coating the inside of his thigh with it. He flushed when Jungkook pressed his thighs together again. “Oh my God..” He choked out. “Jungkook...”

“Keep your thighs together and let me fuck them, yeah?” He whispered, before slipping his fingers back inside him, “ Wrap your hand around your cock , Tae…. I want to feel you cum around my fingers…” he began rocking his hips gently and

Taehyung felt the silky length of this cock drag across the sensitive insides of his thighs, the sheer depravity of it making him ache and swell and spill more slick. His eyes fluttered shut as pleasure began to build,

his hands reaching down to wrap around his cock, stroking himself as Jungkook fucked his fingers in deeper. “I want this..” Jungkook whispered, right against his ear as his fingers sped up, “ every night for the rest of my life, Tae…” He breathed harshly,

“ Want to see you fall apart in my arms… just like this…” Taehyung whimpered, clenching down on the thick digits as he came, pleasure knocking him out for a second, his vision blacking out as he spurted over his own fingers, so wet, Jungkook’s fingers nearly slipped out.

The alpha soothed him through the after shocks and Taehyung sobbed out, stunned when he felt wet tear tracks on his face, shaking life a leaf caught in the storm.

Jungkook gripped his waist, holding him still as he began jerking himself off against his thigh and a second later he felt ropes of warm cum hit the side of his thighs and the curve of his ass, the alpha groaning as he pressed in closer.

Tae flushed as Jungkook scooped up his own release before moving his cum coated fingers to his entrance, pressing it into him and making him shake in disbelief. He squirmed as Jungkook pushed his cum into him, letting it mix with the omega's slick, and he felt his face burn.

“Jungkook, what are you doing..” He hissed, stunned but the alpha hummed, moving back to collect more of his sticky release, pressing it inside him. “I told you I want to mark you on the inside. Now any alpha who comes near you is going to smell me on you.” He said gruffly.

Tae whined a little as Jungkook moved his finger inside him, slow and careful, rubbing his cum all over his insides making him squirm as his spent body trembled a little. It was sticky and messy, foreign inside his toes curled because he was still so sensitive from his orgasm.

But Jungkook didn’t seem to be done, lips closing over the tip of his earlobe, teeth tugging on the sensitive skin as he rubbed inside him, humming. Taehyung closed his eyes, shivering as the alpha curled his finger inside hi, rubbing gently and making him jump a little.

“Jungkook , please..” He begged, “ It’s too much… and so messy… ” “Messy?” Jungkook smiled, “ That’s the first rule of sex, Tae. The messier it is, the better it feels.” He pulled his finger out, spanking his ass lightly. “ Roll over for me.”

Taehyung blinked, before shifting to finally face him. Jungkook was grinning at him. “Not like this.” The alpha chuckled, “ Face down on the bed, so I can clean you up.” “Oh,” Taehyung did as he was asked, rolling onto his front, fingers curling onto the fabric of the sheets.

“ Or I could just go get cleaned in the bath-“ he yelped when Jungkook climbed over him, straddling his hips right at the base of his spine. He grabbed Taehyung’s wrist, placing it over the pillowcase. “Keep your hands here..” The alpha whispered.

Taehyung felt his eyes widen as Jungkook pressed a kiss to his spine, before slowly crawling down his body . When he felt the alpha’s lips right over the swell of his ass, his hand gentle parting his thighs, he realized just how Jungkook intended to clean him up.

“Jungkook ! No!” He rolled back over, kicking out fiercely. The alpha caught his ankle , laughing. “Why?” He grinned, tugging him down but Taehyung shook his head, horror and embarrassment making him turn red.

“Why?? Did you just ask me why? One its filthy… Two… your shoulder and three, I will literally die if you touch me there again!” “I won’t be using my fingers though…” The alpha grinned but Taehyung merely kicked him again, grabbing the sheets and wrapping himself in it.

“I would rather just sleep with your..” he trailed off. “ I’d rather just sleep without cleaning up “ he mumbled. Jungkook laughed, moving back up to spoon him, wrapping his arm around him. "Well, I won't complain about that. You smell like mine." Taehyung groaned, spent.

Mr Jeon stepped into the living room, exhausted after a day at work. He shrugged off his coat, eyes instinctively searching for the sight of his wife. Coming home to his family was the best part of his day, and it was unusual for her to not be there to welcome him. "Dearest?"

He called out, and from the kitchen came the sound of pots and pans rattling. A few seconds later she stuck her head out, giving him a wide smile. "Darling, I'm making some fried chicken for Jungkook. I'll be right out. How was your day? " She called out.

He sighed, moving to settle into the couch, leaning back and closing his eyes. He stared at the ceiling for a few seconds. "You remember Han Jaeho? " He asked casually. " His son was a friend of Jungkooks from college. He offered to invest in one of my projects and i refused? "

Mrs Jeon stepped out of the kitchen, frowning. "Jaehyun's dad? " She frowned. " Doesn't he work with Jungkook now? " "Not for long apparently. There's a sexual harassment lawsuit coming down on the boy's head as we speak. He's going to lose his job by the end of the week. "

Mrs Jeon gasped. "Oh Good God! Wasn't he that tall, handsome kid? " She shook her head. " He seemed like a nice boy. " "You think everyone is nice. " Mr Jeon said with a fond smile. " But yes, the same. His father was there asking for my help. Apparently Jungkook is involved."

Mrs Jeon went completely still. "What? " She yelled, " there's no way-" "Hear me out. Jungkook apparently was the one who looked into the whole thing. Han wanted to know if Jungkook would consider not testifying during the actual enquiry. " He grimaced.

"That's odd. Why would Jungkook testify? " Mr Jeon didn't respond. "That wasn't just it. Did you know that Han sponsored Taehyungs education, from high school to college? " Mrs Jeon blinked rapidly. " No I absolutely did not know that. " She said softly.

Mr Jeon sighed. "I'm assuming his mother was involved somehow. It wasn't a scholarship. Although I have a feeling Taehyung was made to believe it was. " He shook his head. " He says Taehyung should be held liable for not repaying him and he would hate to take legal action."

Mrs Jeon's face drained of all color and she rushed to his side. "Darling-" "Don't worry. I already told him I'll repay him the entire amount. " He said softly, taking her hand in his and squeezing. " That isn't what bothered me. " He shook his head. " He implied something. "

"Did Taehyung have a relationship with Jaehyun in college? " Mrs Jeon looked surprised. "What? Of course not. Taehyung was fond of Jungkook and I know he didn't get along with Jaehyun. " "I see. " He shook his head. "How very odd then. "

"What is? " "Han claims they were. And that it was quite serious. And that he has evidence. " He shook his head. " It's ridiculous really. I don't know what the man is playing at. " "What evidence? " "That I'm unsure. "He shook his head.

"What on earth would he do with evidence? Even if it was true.. They were kids. Taehyung is married now. " "I know. But the way he said it. It felt like a warning of some kind. I'm just worried he would bother the kids somehow. You know publicly. Because that would be bad. "

"And another thing. " He gave her a troubled look. " Kim Sunggyu. The guy who tried to hurt Jungkook. The cops called me. By the time they reached his apartment , everything was emptied out. Not a single trace of him left anywhere. They think he did it himself but I'm worried. "

"There's no record of him anywhere. It's like he sprouted out of nowhere. " He shook his head. " They're going to close it as a case of him being mentally unwell and having stalked Jungkook earlier but.. I don't know why I feel like there's something else going on. "

Mrs Jeon gave him a worried look as well. "Do you think it was deliberate? "She whispered."Someone tried to hurt our baby on purpose?" "If it was, it's obvious who it is. " Mr. Jeon said with a shake of his head." But I don't want to scare Jungkook yet. I need to look into it."

"I'm scared. " Mrs Jeon said at once. " Jungkook is out meeting Yugyeom and I just... I'm worried. Is he in danger? Truly? " Mr Jeon quickly tugged her into a hug. " Dearest all of this is just speculation. Jungkook is perfectly capable of taking care of himself. "

As he comforted his wife, Mr Jeon stared out of the window of the living room. Outside storm clouds brewed over the horizon, the threat of an incoming storm hanging in the air. He closed his eyes, trying not to focus on the pounding in his chest. Something was very, very wrong.

Jungkook sat in the corner booth of the café, his shoulder stinging just a little as he took a sip of his coffee. He was tired, mostly from the run he’d taken that morning. After more than a week of staying in bed, he’d finally convinced his mother to let him out of the house.

It felt good to be out and about, especially because he had things to do. He glanced at his watch frowning. The model was late. He shifted on the seats, foot tapping against the floor, a hollow ball of anxiety starting to roll around inside his chest cavity.

Talking to Yoongi was something he didn’t ever want to do again. But this conversation had to happen. His happiness with Taehyung depended on it. The door to the café opened, the small bell over the frame ringing to signal it and Jungkook glanced up.

He frowned because Yoongi was wearing one of Jungkook’s old t shirts from college. He remembered it vividly. Back then he used to adore seeing it on the omega, but now it just made his skin crawl a little.

He watched as the omega came over, eyes hooded and a soft smile on his face. His hair was damp and he looked beautiful, in the way a venomous snake would. Jungkook watched as Yoongi slid into the opposite side of the booth, bumping his legs against the alpha’s.

“Hi, alpha.” He said softly, voice low. “ So many calls.”. He held his phone up, “ it’s almost like we’re dating again and you can’t get enough of me.” Jungkook stared at him for a second. “How long has Han Jaehyun been stalking my husband?” He asked softly. Yoongi went still.

“Jaehyun?” He scoffed. “ Our Jae? Have you lost your mind?” Jungkook leaned in. “I never liked him. I only tolerated him because he was your best friend.” He exhaled. “ And now, said best friend of yours is being investigated for sexual harassment and

you wanna know who is incharge of compiling the evidence against him ? Yugyeom.” He breathed out. “ Now, imagine my horror, when Yugyeom told me that he found photographs of Taehyung, dating back to when he was in college….stored in carefully sorted folders in Han Jaehyun’s

personal computer at his fucking workplace.” Jungkook’s fingers shook as he reached into his backpack, pulling out a folder and tossing it in front of Yoongi. The omega stared at it, frowning. “What is this?” “Why don’t you take a look yourself.” He said firmly.

Yoongi frowned, before opening the folder , pulling out a large sheaf of blown up photographs. “What are these-“ The omega froze as he stared at then, blood draining out of his face. “ Jungkook.. ” he swallowed, glancing up at him in disbelief. “ I had nothing to do with this.”

“You expect me to believe that?” Jungkook asked angrily. “these are fucking surveillance shots of Taehyung, Yoongi. Photos of him out and about in the city. Jaehyun’s either hired someone to follow him or followed him himself. I want to know what the fuck is going on here.”

Yoongi shook his head. “Listen, Jaehyun used to tell me stuff about Taehyung but .. I just.. I didn’t think he was doing it for some perverted reason. He told me they were friends growing up and that Taehyung was always throwing himself at alphas

and that he was just a bad person in general. He told me Taehyung broke his heart . And that he didn't respect when people were in relationships and still went after them.” Yoongi exhaled, “ And he was right wasn’t he? You were mine and he had no shame panting after you like-“

“Shut the fuck up.” Jungkook said coldly. “ The next time you say a word about him, I swear to God, I’ll make sure you never set foot in front of a fucking camera again.”

Yoongi closed his eyes at that. “You’re out of your mind if you think Jaehyun has anything to do with what happened that night. Whoever assaulted your Taehyung –“ “Assaulted?” Jungkook said softly. “ You think he was assaulted?” Yoongi stared at him before sighing.

“That night in Jeju when you had a seizure. I came to your hospital room to visit you. I tried to tell you about what happened with Taehyung that night but you wouldn’t let me speak. Maybe if you’d listened for a second you wouldn’t have that cast on your shoulder right now.”

“What does that mean…?” Yoongi gave him a measured look. “Taehyung has been having nightmares and flashbacks of that night. Clearly he has repressed memories from that night. Something traumatic happened to him and just…” he paused.

“ Some of the things he said.. the way he acted…It made me feel like.. It just felt very familiar to me.” He whispered. Jungkook stared at him. Yoongi bit his lips before grabbing his phone and unlocking it.

He slid the screen to him and pointed out the small note pinned to the corner. “Read this.” He said firmly. Jungkook frowned. “ Almonds? Bear leaning on a tree? What does this mean…” "Its just stuff that Taehyung said. When he spoke to me, he was reliving that night."

“Tell me exactly what happened.” “He was running from people. More than one person I think because he kept saying, ‘they’. And then he told me he ran into someone else and here’s the thing… Sunggyu… the guy who hurt you….

He was helping me out with my wardrobe that evening and he left this behind on my vanity.” Yoongi reached into his pocket, tugging out a chain and a locket, placing it on the table. “Look at the motif on that locket.” He said firmly.

Jungkook stared down at it, running his finger over the embossed carving. “A bear leaning on a tree.” He said thoughtfully, before glancing up at him. “It was him, that night. Not Jae. I don’t know what these photographs are or if he had anything to do with them

but I know it wasn’t Jae who hurt Taehyung that night. It was the psychopath who tried to kill you. And I bet he came back that night because he wanted to kill you and Taehyung and he got you alone.” he pointed at the locket. " This is too much to be a coincidence."

“Okay… But who was he running from then? You said just now…he said he was running from someone that it was more than one person… so who was that?” Yoongi wrung his hands together in frustration.

“I don’t know.” He said shakily. “ I don’t think it was anyone dangerous. Think about it. People used to give him a hard time back then. It was our last night there Jungkook. Maybe someone was just playing around and Taehyung just overreacted…He was such a loner back then.

He wouldn’t talk to anyone. He had no friends either. And it was his own fucking choice. People always tried to get through to him but he just went around acting like he was too good for anyone. Of course someone tried to mess with him on the last night of school.”

"Are you serious right now? You're blaming him for what happened to him that night? Considering what you've been through, I would have hoped you would have more compassion inside you. " Jungkook stood up. "Wait, where are you going? " "I have nothing else to say to you. "

Jungkook grabbed the folders again slipping them into his back again. "Does taehyung know you're meeting me here? "Yoongi asked sharply and Jungkook paused. " That's none of your business. " "So no? " Yoongi smiled. " He still doesn't trust you does he? I don't blame him. "

"What is that supposed to mean? " "Oh, just that he knows you don't trust him either. " Yoongi smiled. " Did you know he came home the other night looking for me. Pity I wasn't there to welcome him. Maybe I should pay him a visit, see what's bothering him. Offer some advice. "

Jungkook gave him a small smile. "Hyung, you're trying to hurt someone you dislike because he took something you imagine is yours. . Whereas me? I'm trying to protect the man I love more than my life. Between the two of us, I'm the one who is stronger. " He turned away from him.

Taehyung stepped into the elevator leading up to their apartment, leaning against the wall and closing his eyes in exhaustion. Today had been particularly grueling and he couldn't wait to sink into bed for the night. He stepped into the hallway, making his way to the door.

The day nurse who kept an eye on his mother left at six. She locked the door behind her and on most days, taehyung was back before six. But today he'd been delayed a bit, prepping for a picnic the next day. As he opened the door, stepping in, he heard a familiar voice inside.

His blood ran cold, the hair on his skin standing on end as he gripped the handle to the door, knuckles turning white from the force of his grip. Not missing a beat, he stepped back out into the hallway, holding the door open. "Taehyung ah?" His mother's voice came from inside.

He clenched his fists, staring up and down the hallway. "I'm here mom. " He whispered shakily, watching as Han Jaehyun stepped out into the living room, sipping coffee in Jungkook's coffee mug and wearing one of the Taehyungs t shirts. Taehyung felt bile rise in his throat.

"Ah Taehyung ah.. I spilled some coffee on my shirt and your mother was kind enough to lend me one of yours. I hope you don't mind." He drawled, leaning against the wall and smirking at him. "What are you doing here? "He snapped, furious. His mother came in. "Don't be rude."

She said firmly, before carrying a small bow of cut fruits up to the alpha. "It's been so long since I saw him. You know he's always been fond of you Taehyung. He always wanted to play with you and he didn't like it when you played with anyone else. " She laughed. "Precious."

Taehyung stared at his mother, his gut clenching and head starting to pound a little. What must it be like to live life with such oblivious ignorance? Such selfish disregard for everyone around her? Even her own son. He turned to Jaehyun. "Get out before I call the cops. "

Jaehyun grimaced. "So hostile. " He said with a shake of his head. " Taehyung, your mother is sick. I came by to see her. I remember how fond she was of me when I was in Daegu. Back before you even knew who Jungkook was, remember? It was me." He smirked. " I had you first. "

Tae stared at him in disbelief. "You don't have me. You never had me and you never will. Jungkook does. He has me. All of me. Get out of our house, right now. " He growled out. Jaehyun blinked, before laughing. "Well he may have you now, but I still had you first, Tae Tae."

"What are you-" "Oh, that's right... You don't remember." Jaehyun sighed shaking his head. " Such a pity really. But just so you know, Tae... You came to me. You wanted me. I don't want anyone to twist that around later. You wanted me. Get that straight, alright? "

Taehyung blinked, the words registering just a second later. He felt his insides clench, nausea hitting his senses as he stumbled back glaring at him. "You sick fucker. "He choked out. " Get the fuck out of my house right now. " Jaehyun smiled "Your husband is going to know."

"He's going to ask and I'm going to tell him all about it. Maybe we can compare notes.. See who made you feel better, yes? " He smiled. " I think I did.. Tae Tae.. You were so pliant for me.. " "Taehyung? " Jungkook's voice came from down the hallway and Jaehyuns eyes widened.

The alpha placed the cup away, before standing up, making a beeline for the door. But before he could go through it, a pair of hands pressed up against his chest shoving him back into the living room with enough force to send him stumbling. "Hi , Princess."Yugyeom winked at him.

Jaehyun glared, straightening up and growling low. "Get out of my way. " He muttered, trying to move again but Yugyeom stepped in the way, holding his arms out to stop him from leaving. "Leaving so soon? You sure had a lot of shit to say when Jungkook wasn't around. "

Jungkook stepped in with a grin, eyes finding Taehyungs at once. "Come here. " He said quietly, holding his arm out. Taehyung went straight into hai arms wrapping his arms around him and hugging him close. " Jungkook.. " He whispered. " Fuck.. I'm so glad you're here. "

"So... You were saying something? Something about comparing notes. " Jungkook grinned shaking his head. "But before that you'll be glad to know Yug finished compiling all the evidence against you today. You're going down buddy. " Jaehyun glared.

"Your father's defence team is actually at the office now and you know something interesting I found. A medical report of yours from when you were 18. One that says that you" Jungkook paused, " Aren't actually capable of taking notes in the first place, let alone comparing them."

Taehyung went still. What? "Shut the fuck up. " Jaehyun growled. "Why? " Jungkook laughed. " Embarrassed. I always thought it was ridiculous. The way you bragged about fucking omegas. Should have known you were overcompensating. Isn't that also why you're here? "

"Spouting all tha bullshit about what? Being Taes first? " He laughed shaking his head. " His first what, motherfucker? Disappointment? " He pulled his fist back, before pushing forward , the force of it knocking Jaehyun straight off his feet. " Fucking disgusting piece of shit."

Jaehyun made to get up but Yugyeom was right there digging the heel of his shoe right into his ribs, holding him down. Jungkook crouched over him, grabbing his collar and lifting his torso off the floor. "You know I didn't even consider it till, I realized you weren't alone

That night. " He said softly. " Two of you... To hurt one helpless omega? Why? Why? You wanted to hurt him didn't you... You wanted to hurt him in the most traumatizing way possible but why bring someone else in? And O realized why... " He shook his head,

"Even death is too merciful for evil monsters like you Jaehyun. "

He punched him again before wincing, one hand reaching his shoulder. He flinched before straightening up. "Tae, " He said softly, " Don't believe a word this fucker said alright. He is so full of shit, it's unbelievable. " He turned back to him. " Boy, must make you mad huh? "

"This is why you're so hateful and furious huh, Jae? Must suck, knowing that even of Taehyung did want you... " He placed his foot right over his crotch, heel digging in, " You're too fucking useless to do a thing about it. No wonder you're so frothing mad, bro. " He grinned.

"Jungkook ah.. " Yugyeom said softly, " Relax. " Jungkook glanced up at his best friend, exhaling sharply. "I should just kill him. Should I? My dad will probably take care of it right? " "Jungkook, what... " Taehyung finally spoke, his voice trembling. " Don't. "

Jungkook sighed pulling back to stare down at the man on the floor. "You're pathetic. " He said softly. " The most pathetic, useless piece of shit I've ever known. " He shook his head. " You know even though you didn't hurt Tae that night.. Just the fact that you came here.

Into our home. " He pointed at himself at Taehyung, " The home where I intend to love him and build a family with him... Just because you stepped into It... Just because you made him feel unsafe in this place...I'm going to destroy you. "

"This is just the beginning, Jae. Count your days. When I'm done with you there won't be enough of you left to fill a fucking matchbook. "

( a/n when the third mystery person gets revealed everything will fall into place. Hint : the guy who smelled like almonds)

Yugyeom watched Jungkook for a second before reaching down and yanking Jaehyun to his feet by the collar of his shirt. "Get out. " He said sharply shoving him towards the door. "Gonna go make sure he gets home safe. " He winked before following him out the door.

Taehyung watched the door shut behind him before turning to Jungkook a confounded look on his face. "What on earth just happened? " He whispered. Jungkook sighed before going straight into his arms, wrapping himself around the omega. "I love you. " He said quietly. "So much."

Taehyung held him close, wrapping both of his arms around him, his mind threatening to cave in on itself. He didn’t understand what was going on. But Jungkook felt so warm and strong against him, his scent calming him down, his hands rubbing soothing circles on the omega’s back.

He closed his eyes, basking in all the love and affection Jungkook poured into him with his touch. Taehyung felt like the most delicate porcelain doll in jungkook’s hands, so precious and cared for,

and he knew right then that he would never seek anyone else for the rest of his life. All those years, it seemed his soul had known right away. Jeon Jungkook was the only one in the world, capable of loving, holding and touching Kim Taehyung the way he needed to be loved.

They stood there for a long, long time and when Taehyung opened his eyes, he met those of his mother. She was on the floor, sitting cross legged with her back to the wall. He watched her and felt that familiar fist around his heart squeezing tight and stopping his breath.

She looked lost, staring up at him with confusion. Sighing he pulled away from Jungkook, the alpha looking at him in question, before following his gaze down to his mother in law. “Mother!” Jungkook said quickly, rushing to help her up to her feet.

Taehyung watched as the alpha held her elbows, gently lifting her up onto her feet. He held her carefully, guiding her to the hallway that led to the guest bedroom. Taehyung sighed , closing his eyes shut. He wondered what Jaehyun had told his mother and more importantly,

what she had told him. He remembered the shirt that Jaehyun had been wearing and felt that cloying sense of nausea again. \ What else had she given him? How much more would she take from Taehyung? Biting his lips, he made his way over to the bedroom.

Stopping short in the doorway, he stared as Jungkook helped her lie down. She seemed lucid enough, staring at him balefully. Jungkook fluffed her pillow before covering her up with the sheet. “I’m going to go get the caretaker. I’ll drive down and pick her up and bring her over.

I want you with me tonight.” Jungkook said softly and Taehyung smiled softly, gently cupping his face and leaning in to give him a small kiss, soft and reassuring. “Alright.” He whispered. “ Lock the door on the outside.”

“Okay, baby.” Jungkook sighed before kissing his forehead and moving past him. He stood still, waiting to hear the sound of Jungkook picking up his keys and leaving, the door closing behind him, before turning to his mother.

They stared at each other for a couple more minutes and then Taehyung chuckled, softly. “You made me go to that party.” He whispered. “ I wouldn’t have gone at all but you made me go. You told me how I would never see Jungkook again, how we would never come back to Seoul ,

how I owed him this one last goodbye at least. You told me it would give me closure. You told me it would help me move on. But you didn’t mean any of that did you?” He shook his head. “ That bastard made you do it.”

She kept her gaze even. He wasn’t sure if she understood what he was saying. “He sent that message didn’t he . He sent it and then he told you to make sure I go to the party. And you being you, did exactly what he asked you to.” His mother gripped the edge of the coverlet.

“I did what I had to do.” She said softly. “ Jungkook never wanted you. And I had to get you mated to a rich alpha. Someone who could take care of you and me.” “I would have taken care of you.” Taehyung said shakily.

“ Why would you sell your son to the highest bidder over something like that?” “Don’t be crude. It’s not my fault you couldn’t make friends. You couldn’t make friends and you couldn’t get alphas and you were a complete and utter failure.

You would have ended up alone and poor and miserable in some bastard’s basement if I didn’t find an alpha for you. Jaehyun would have made a fine husband. But as always you messed all of it up.” Taehyung moved closer to stand over her. “Did you ever take money from them? “

He asked softly. “Promising them something. Promising them that I would do something?” She turned away laughing. “Darling, you’re being too dramatic for no reason. I was only ever trying to give you a good life. You know after your father died, not one single person stood by us.

Nobody was there to help me with you. I raised you and I gave up all of my dreams for you. I would have thought you would have at least a few ounces of gratitude for me in return but all you want to do is pin all your troubles on me.

If you were normal, if you could just be like the other omegas and get yourself a fine alpha, I wouldn’t have had to intervene. But you will never understand. Well, maybe one day when you have a child of your own and you do the same things for him, you will.”

Taehyung laughed in disbelief. “Do the same things? You think I would do this to my child?!” He stopped himself from saying further, turning away and moving to the door. He closed it lightly before heading to the living room.

His eyes fell on the cup with remnants of the coffee that Jaehyun drank. I had you first. You don’t remember that night right? Just remember you came to me. Taehyung felt sickened as he gripped the edge of the wall. He moved to the kitchen,

grabbing a glass and pouring himself some water. He remembered what Jungkook had said. Was Jaehyun impotent? He took a long sip of the water. From the time he was fifteen, the alpha had always been close , disturbingly so.

He would smell his hair, steal his things and the time he sneaked into his bedroom was still vivid in his head. He shuddered. The click of the door opening made him jump a little, hand diving for the knife on the counter but Jungkook’s voice made him relax.

He sighed as Jungkook and the caretaker came in. putting on his people face, tucking away his fears and anxieties, Taehyung moved to the living room, a small smile playing around his lips. The caretaker, sweet as she was, reassured them that she would take care of everything.

Jungkook held his elbows , tugging him aside and wrapping his arm around his waist. The cast was off and his pain meds had been lowered. Taehyung smiled as the alpha moved his hands all over his sides and his shoulders as though checking if everything was intact.

He cupped his face and then fixed his hair before thumbing his lower lip. “Are you tired?” he asked softly. Taehyung grinned a little, shaking his head. “Only by how relentless you are at this.” He flicked his nose. “ No sex till the doctor says you’re alright.”

Jungkook feigned a hurt look, “ you wound me , sweetling.” He whispered, “ It’s like you think I only want you for your ass.” He moved his hand down from his waist, down to the curve of his pants, gripping and squeezing for a second and making him squirm.

“ Are you saying my ass isn’t that great?” He smiled and Jungkook hummed. “Your ass is glorious but it’s certainly not my most favorite part of you.” He leaned in and blew air against his earlobes, whispering softly, “ Your mouth is.”

“My mouth?” Taehyung chuckled, gripping his shoulders to steady himself as Jungkook crowded him against the counter behind them. “ Really?” “Yes.” Jungkook pressed a trail of kisses down his jaw and a little further up to the corner of his mouth,

he gripped the omega’s chin with one hand, thumb finding the seam of his lips and slipping. “ Your mouth and all the amazing sounds it’s going to make for me tonight.” Taehyung swallowed, hands dropping down to gently grip Jungkook's slender waist. " Jungkook..."

“Call in sick tomorrow morning?” He asked softly. “ I want to wake up to you . We’ve never done that, you and I .. waking up in each other’s arms. Last time you left before I woke up.” Taehyung smiled, shaking his head.

“I think you know quite well, that I cannot say no when you get this way.” He whispered. “ Fine. Let’s wake up in each other’s arms tomorrow.” Jungkook grinned, before leaning in capturing his lips in a kiss. And Tae pushed his mother and Jaehyun out of his mind. It could wait.

As they drove across the streets of Seoul, Taehyung finally cleared his throat. “Are you going to tell me about what happened today?” He asked finally. Jungkook gave him a small smile before reaching out and squeezing his hand.

“Okay. But , just remember, you’re not responsible for anyone elses actions, Tae.” He said gently, “ Not your mother , not Yoongi, not any of the other sick fuckers who messed things up that night. None of it was your fault.” He rubbed his thumb over the back of his hand,

“ And I’m sorry for all the years I made you believe that it was.” Jungkook’s hands shook a little over his. “ I’m sorry for not finding the truth, sooner.” Taehyung felt his lips tremble a little. “Don’t apologize to me.” He said shakily.

“ You.. You aren’t responsible for that night either you know…” Jungkook took a deep breath before shifting lanes. He then began talking slowly but with careful details. He told him, carefully about meeting Yoongi, about Sunggyu and the locket,

about the flashback Taehyung had had at the hospital. Taehyung felt his face drain of color. “i.. I don’t remember…” He mumbled and Jungkook gripped his hand again. “Its alright.” He said firmly. It’s okay.” Taehyung licked his lips. “And Jaehyun…. He … He said…

that he had me first.” He bit his lips. “ What did that mean.” “Nothing.” Jungkook gritted out. “ it meant nothing at all, Tae. I promise you that. The man is impotent. I have medical documents that prove it.” Taehyung shook his head.

“He was in my room… He…” He shook his head. “ What was he doing?” “Crudely?” Jungkook shook his head, “ He was probably just trying to get hard and failing. He probably thought lying on your sheets, surrounded by your scent…” Jungkook exhaled sharply,

“ Fuck I really want to break his jaw right now.” Taehyung quickly squeezed his hand back. “Jungkook, its alright its fine.” He whispered. “ I’m just glad its over. Its over right?” “Yes. He’ll never come anywhere near us again.”

Taehyung smiled and settled back against the seat. He stared out of the window and frowned. “Wait…” He said quietly. “ This isn’t the way home.” Jungkook grinned, switching lanes again and pulling into a side road.

Taehyung felt his gaze widen as his eyes fell on the large hotel looming over them. “Remember the last time we were here?” He grinned. “ I do believe we did not take full advantage of the view, the sheets or the bathtub.” Taehyung bit his lips. "I remember the fight." he sighed.

Warnings

very filthy

Jungkook hummed, pulling the car up to the parking, smiling at the valet. " Yeah? The fight were you told me you wanted to leave me. " Jungkook whispered. " Did I change your mind about that yet? " He teased, smiling at him. Tae glared. "Don't even joke about leaving. "

Jungkook chuckled before leaning over the console between them, gripping his chin and kissing him, hard. Taehyung shivered, hands scrambling to grip his arm as Jungkook nipped at his lower lip. "I won't. " The alpha whispered. "You're mine Tae. Mine for life. "

Taehyung flushed as Jungkook pulled away, getting out of the car. He did as well, curious when Jungkook went to the trunk, pulling out a suitcase. "Whats in there? Clothes? " He asked curious. Jungkook grinned. "You don't need clothes for the stuff I have planned baby. "

Taehyung felt the blood rush to his face, the red hue in his cheeks staying put as they walked into the hotel and Jungkook checked in, Taehyung not meeting anyone's eye. He had the terrible feeling that people knew exactly what they were there for. "You can be loud tonight. "

Jungkook whispered against his ear and he elbowed him, frowning. "Please, stop. We're in public. " He whispered. "I know. " Jungkook said softly, grabbing the keys and pushing up against him with zero shame. " So what? " He muttered. "They can look all they want."

He leaned in, " But only I get to touch and taste , right baby? " Taehyung pressed a palm to his chest pushing back and turning on his heel, all but running to the elevator. Jungkook chuckled before following. Finally, he thought with a groan.

The moment the door to the room closed behind them, Taehyung found himself pinned against the wall, Jungkook's deft fingers tugging the ends of his shirt out of his slacks. He moaned as the alpha kissed him, reaching for him, only to have his wrists grabbed and restrained.

He blinked as Jungkook's grip tightened, just enough to sting. He bit his lips, skin heating up. "You're.. " He hesitated, " Being rough... " Jungkook hummed, pushing both his wrists up over his head and pinning them there. "You told me you bruise easy. I wanna see how easy."

Taehyung bit his lower lip, thighs squirming close. Or at least trying to. Jungkook pressed a leg between his, pressing in till he was almost straddling the alphas thigh. "Tae... " Jungkook muttered, " You've never done this... And I should be gentle but.. " He groaned.

Taehyung felt his mouth go dry, closing his eyes. He felt his heart pound, a feverish excitement simmering right under his skin. Jungkook held him down with just one hand wrapped around hua slender wrists and it felt oddly arousing. He couldn't move and didn't want to either.

"You wanna bruise me up a little? " He whispered softly, looking at him from under his lashes, " Hold me down and do dirty things to me? " His voice shook a little on the last few words. He wasn't used to this and his words felt awkward to him. But Jungkook pressed in closer.

"Dirty, sexy things. " He muttered, "things that you won't ever be able to think of without getting wet. " His free hand moved to the back of his pants squeezing. Tae groaned as Jungkook nipped at the skin on the side of his throat. "All I need to think of to get wet is you. "

Jungkook groaned at that, fingers moving to unbutton his own shirt, maddeningly slow. Taehyung stared at the long ivory digits , his insides clenching as he remembered how they felt like inside in, arousal pooling quick in the base of his belly making him ache ,

empty and throbbing for some kind of friction. A little whine spilled out of him as he tried to rub his straining erection against the curve of Jungkook legs where it pressed up against him, and the alpha laughed a little.

“I love seeing you like this..” He whispered, “ But I want to hear you talk, Taehyung. Go on, tell me what about me gets your wet.” Taehyung’s gaze went back to his fingers, now working through the last few buttons of his shirt. He swallowed , mouth dry and parched.

“You’re hands. I… I stare at them a lot.” He admitted. “My hands?” “Yeah…” “What do you imagine my hands doing?” Holding his own, mostly. But Taehyung bit his lips, trying to access the parts of his mind that only came to life in the dark of the night under the safety

of his covers. Forbidden thoughts he kept hidden from everyone, thoughts that felt deliciously wrong and wickedly tempting. “I imagined them touching me…” He whispered. “ Down there….” Jungkook hummed, reaching for Taehyung’s belt buckle, working open his pants with ease.

Taehyung bit his lips as the alpha tugged both his underwear and his slacks down, prompting him to get out of them . Taehyung flushed, now wearing just his dress shirt, which was just slightly too big on him, barely covering his hard cock.

Taehyung pressed his thighs together jumping a little, when Jungkook wrapped one hand around the length of him, stroking gently with a loose fisted grip, no real friction to be hand, just a light brush of his callused palm on the delicate, sensitive skin of his cock.

There was no pleasure, just a swelling of hunger, a desperate need for more, another low whine falling from his lips before he could contain himself. Jungkook loosened the grip on his wrists, letting go of them, but Taehyung kept them up for some reason.

Somehow, it didn’t feel right, moving his hands when Jungkook had asked him to keep them there. That little act didn’t miss Jungkook’s attention, and the alpha glanced up at where Taehyung kept his hands, a small smile on his face.

“Look at you being so good for me,” He whispered,” You like being good for me , tae?” Taehyung flushed, biting his lips a little and squirming some more. He nodded just a little shy, jumping a little when Jungkook, pulled his hand away from his cock, cupping his face instead.

“I’m going to kiss you now.” Jungkook said carefully, “ I want you to open your mouth for me and let me taste you… Will you do that for me?” Taehyung nodded, already moving forward but Jungkook pressed a hand to his chest holding him against the wall.

“Slowly… Have you ever tasted an expensive dessert in a fine dining restaurant , Taehyung?” He whispered. “ You don’t rush and hurry and eat it all up in a minute.” He gripped his chin, rubbing a thumb over the omega’s plush lower lip, rubbing back and forth on it

“ You take your time. Savor it, taste it properly so it lingers …on your tongue and on your mind, yes?” Taehyung felt his mouth go dry just at the implication. He licked his lips before nodding again.

“You’re so quiet…” Jungkook smiled, “ You know Tae, I’ve wanted this for so long… To find out what you enjoy in bed… what you like… And so far, I realize, you don’t like talking much but when you do, you say the dirtiest things,

you don’t like talking but you like dirty talk, and you like being told what to do…” He leaned, in, grabbing his chin and tilting it up for a kiss. Taehyung closed his eyes, as Jungkook clotted his lips over his own, slow and deliberate plush folds meeting his own soft ones,

in a gentle caress, tongue licking at the seam of them, begging entrance. He opened his mouth, slow and carefully like Jungkook had asked, letting his own tongue venture out, tentative, a little apprehensive, jumping when it touched Jungkook’s own. Jungkook pressed in,

licking into his mouth, hands gripping his waist. Taehyung melted, warmth flooding his insides, legs turning to jelly as he went lax against the wall, only held up by Jungkook’s grip on him. Jungkook pulled back. “Baby,” He whispered softly, “ Should we take this inside?”

When Taehyung nodded, Jungkook bet low, one arm coming around him and lifting him up into a bridal carry. Tae blinked surprised as the alpha grinned, carrying him towards the private balcony instead of the bedroom. He yelped, surprised, as Jungkook walked over to the jacuzzi.

Jungkook lowered him to the floor before reaching out to turn the jets on. "I can't swim. " He said shakily and Jungkook grinned, fixing the temperature of the water and the flow. He glanced up at him with mischief. "You won't be swimming baby. You'll be riding me. "

Taehyung kicked him in the hip, making him laugh. "Jungkook I'm serious, I'm not going in there. " He whined. Jungkook hummed, before kneeling in front of the omega, grabbing his waist and pulling him close, nuzzling his face into Taehyungs tummy, humming a little.

"You know last week I had a dream. You were carrying our pups, all soft and swollen here, you smelled so delicious and you were so horny all the time. I was in my office but you were so desperate, you got under my desk and wrapped your lips around-" Taehyung grabbed his hair.

yanking it back and glaring down at him. "Ow... " Jungkook yelped, eyes squinting in pain as Taehyung shook him by his hair a little. "I would never do something that depraved. " He said sharply and Jungkook shrugged. "You know in the dream, I was the one yanking your hair."

Taehyung let go of him, yelping and making to get away, but Jungkook wrapped an arm around his waist tugging him down and pulling both of them into the water. Taehyung screamed as the water closed over him but a second later he found his footing, standing up on shaky legs.

Jungkook was lounging back against the side of the tub giving him a grin. Taehyung felt foolish staring down at the water. " Thats right. " Jungkook grinned. " You're not going to drown in two feet of water. Now come here so I can kiss you properly. " He whispered.

Taehyung hesitated before moving over to him. He caught sight of Jungkook’s clothes tossed at the side of the pool . The alpha had probably taken them off while he was flailing under water. He moved close to his side, before lowering himself into the tub closing his eyes

in pleasure as the jets hit his skin, the days fatigue melting away with ease. Jungkook grabbed his waist, guiding him closer and then caging him against the side of the tub, before gently holding his face and kissing him again.

Taehyung scrambled to hold onto his chest, still a little nervous because he was almost floating from the neck down, but Jungkook’s kisses distracted him . And when the alpha slid his hand between his thighs, he felt himself quake.

The sensation of the warm water jets against his skin, coupled with Jungkook’s fingers seeking out the delicate skin between his thighs made him slick up, wetness flooding his lower belly. He let out a low whine when the tip of Jungkook’s finger found his entrance, pressing in

without much care, the slide aided by how wet he was. “Fuck..” He whispered, panting a little as Jungkook pulled his finger out, wrapping his hand around his cock instead. He stoked him gently and Taehyung trembled. “Feel good?” Jungkook asked, smiling a little.

“Yeah.” Taehyung whispered before licking his lips and grabbing Jungkook’s wrist lightly. “I… Can we try something else?” He asked quietly. Jungkook’s brow rose up. “What?” Taehyung bit his lips. “I want to kiss you too.” He said softly.

Jungkook’s lips parted in a fond smile and he leaned in, “ of course baby.” “No.” Taehyung pressed a hand to his chest. “ Not your mouth.” He licked his lips. “ Your-” He glanced down , ears red, “ Your cock.” Jungkook lost his footing a little, swallowing water and spluttering.

Taehyung yelped, grabbing the alpha’s arm and helping him back to his feet. “Jesus, there should be storm warning for whenever you open your damn mouth.” Jungkook whispered, making him flush. “Can i?”

“Taehyung the day I say no to you asking to suck my dick, I want you to hold me face down in a bowl of water and kill me yourself.”

Taehyung laughed before wrapping his arms around Jungkook's neck, tugging him close till their foreheads met. "Jungkook... You asked what part of you turns me on. " He whispered, kissing the tip of his nose, " The truth is everything about you does. Every part of you. "

Taehyung ran his fingers through his hair, before brushing the long fingers over his shoulder, where the scar from the knife still looked a little raw. "I want to touch all of you. I want to see you fall apart too. "He bit his lips, using the same words Jungkook had said to him.

"Youve been taking such good care of me and I love that but I want you to feel the things you've made me feel. I want you to feel loved and desired too....So for tonight, will you let me take care of you instead? "

Taehyung remembered the bed, the patterns on the sheets the cold feeling of misery that had engulfed him the last time he was here. Hoe Jungkook had been so mad about that picture and flung a few careless words at him as well and it felt odd, being here in the same bed,

wearing a pair of silk pajamas ( supplied by the hotel ) watching as Jungkook settled into the bed, lying on his back, nestled against a number of pillows. The alpha only wore his boxers, his toned body a little flushed from the Jacuzzi, hair damp and face flushed.

His eyes followed Taehyung’s curious, eager almost and Taehyung felt inordinately shy, although he was supposed to be the one taking care of Jungkook. It was just the way Jungkook looked at him, he supposed, the depth of his feelings always so naked and raw.

It had been overwhelming even when it was just affection and concern but like this…when it was just the pair of them and Jungkook let his attraction and desire show through, Taehyung felt like he would melt into a puddle just from the intensity of it.

He watched as the alpha groaned, sinking into the soft pillows around him before folding his arms behind his head. “Do you want me to keep my hands here?” Jungkook asked gently and Taehyung blinked , taken aback.

He stared at the way Jungkook stretched his arms up over his head, the way his muscles strained a little. “You can even tie me up if you want. Just to make sure I can’t move.” The alpha said casually and Taehyung jumped a little, confused.

“Tie you up?” he felt his eyes widen, “ like they do in the movies?” Jungkook grinned. “Like they do in certain kinds of movies, yes.” His eyes twinkled a little. Taehyung shook his head, alarmed. “Oh, no… That’s… I don’t want to hurt you. I want to make you feel good.”

He said firmly. Jungkook gave him a thoughtful look. “What if I tell you , that might actually make me feel good?” “What? Being tied up?” Taehyung just stared at him shaking his head. “ Why would you like that?” Jungkook seemed to consider that for a second.

“Well, consider it this way. You’re on a long drive with your friend and you’ve been driving for a really, really long time. Your muscles are sore , and you’re tired and you’ve been working so hard taking control of the vehicle.

But then your friend says, hey, why don’t you come over here just sit back and relax and I’ll take care of everything. “ Jungkook smiled, “ Wouldn’t that feel good?” Taehyung stared at him for a few minutes. “

"Are you telling me your shoulders hurt and so you want to get tied up?” he shook his head, “ Jungkook did you hit your head in the Jacuzzi?” Jungkook groaned. “You know what let’s skip the tying up for now. We’ll try it again maybe after a year.” He sighed,

“ For now. Why don’t you come here and give me a kiss.” He held his arms out. Taehyung frowned, not really wanting to listen. This was supposed to be his night. He was supposed to be the one doing things and it wouldn’t be fair if Jungkook kept asking him to do stuff.

Tie me up, kiss me… why couldn’t he just lay still? Taehyung crossed his arms, glaring at him and sitting back on his heels in the middle of the bed. “ I didn’t think this had to be said, but you told me I could take care of you.

And that means, you don’t get to tell me what to do. I tell you what to do.” He said sharply. Jungkook grinned at that. “Ah, I see. If that’s what you want , sir.” He said demurely. “ I’ll do exactly what you ask me to.” Taehyung gave him a suspicious look. "You promise?"

Jungkook gave him a solemn nod and Taehyung shuffled forward, straddling the alphas waist before holding out his pinky finger, curling it in front of his face. "Okay, pinky swear that you will. " He said firmly. Jungkook choked on his laughter. "Taehyung.. Thats-"

He bit his lips before linking his finger with Taehyung's own. The alpha guessed it was probably something the omega did with his toddler charges in the preschool. Taehyung smiled a little and reached out gently brushing the hair off Jungkook's forehead, before kissing his brow.

Taehyung pulled back to stare at Jungkook, carefully running his forefinger over his strong eyebrows and then down his cheekbones, to his jawline. He carefully traced the shape of his lips, and then booped his nose.

"You're so handsome, Jungkook. " He whispered, " I could never tire of looking at you." The omega said fervently. Jungkook stared back at him. "That's rich coming from the most beautiful creature on the planet. " He whispered and Taehyung blushed red.

"You're just saying that... " The omega said softly, before settling down on Jungkook's chest, cradled against his body. Jungkook wrapped his arm around him, keeping him in place as Tae ran his fingers over his face and his shoulders, tracing his clavicle with his fingertips.

"No." Jungkook said honestly. " I always felt that way. Even when... " He trailed off. " Even when I didn't know how amazing you were, I remember thinking you were the most beautiful thing on the planet. " He sighed. " I don't think anyone who has seen you would disagree. "

Taehyung bit his lips, feeling oddly warm at the compliments. The truth was despite the fact that he was attractive, he had never believed himself to be beautiful. And while he still didn't believe he was beautiful, Jungkook's words sounded so honest. And oddly it was enough.

"I've only ever wanted to be beautiful for you. " The omega said softly. Jungkook went still at the words, and Taehyung looked up at him. "Am I making you uncomfortable? " He asked, voice shaking a little, " I know you wanted tonight to be special.. I'm sorry, I'm ruining it. "

Jungkook gently grabbed his arm and pulled him on top of himself again. Taehyung yelped as he straddled the alpha, just over his navel. "Taehyung, for me, the only ruined night would be a night spent without you. " He said quietly. " Tae... You.. You're my happiness. My joy. "

Jungkook looked up at him, eyes bright and sparkling. " You make me so happy, Tae. I just..I don't just love you, I love being able to love you. Just this, being here with you, feels like more than I deserve and I want you to know, that being with you is all I want."

"Yeah? " Taehyung asked softly, leaning down to hover right over him, cupping his face and looking him over." You really mean that? " Jungkook nodded. "I absolutely do. " Taehyung smiled. "Okay." He leaned down and kissed him, soft and gentle. " Okay, thank you. "

Kissing was a curious thing, Taehyung realized. If you thought too much about what you were doing, it felt awkward and a little weird, but when you let yourself relax, it felt incredible, like warmth and joy being diffused right into your system,

a euphoric , blissful feeling that just spread all over your body. Kissing Jungkook was exhilarating, not just because of how it made him feel, but because of all the things he stopped feeling in those fleeting seconds.

The heaviness in his chest, a constant for years seemed to dissolve away into his veins. The anxiety that was usually coiled tight around his ribcage, seemed to come undone, one knot at a time and he breathed deep,

letting himself taste the alpha, letting his fingers flutter down his side, before lightly grasping his waist. He pulled back a second later, eyes meeting Jungkook’s as he smiled. “I stared at you a lot. In gym class.” He muttered, scooting back a bit,

till he was straddling his waist, palms pressing down on his pecs. “ Got my first heat the day you took your shirt off after winning that match in senior year of high school.” The words slipped out unbidden and he felt himself turn red at it.

It wasn’t something he’d ever planned on letting anyone know, let along Jungkook himself. But the alpha seemed to like it. A lot , if the hardening length between his legs was any indication. Jungkook was watching him with a hunger that was equal parts tempting and terrifying.

“Your first heat?” He whispered, “ Are you telling me I sent you into heat?” “Is it so hard to believe?” Taehyung sighed, running a hand over his chest, slowly , stopping over the small slope of his muscled pecs, thumb rubbing curiously over the small nub of his nipples,

making Jungkook jump a little. “Tell me more.” Jungkook whispered and Taehyung giggled, shaking his head lightly, before rubbing back and forth on the pebbled tip. “About my heat?” He glanced up at him, “ What do you want to know…”

“When was this? Tell me what happened.?” Jungkook asked softly, hands moving up to lightly grip his waist, and Tae hummed, leaning down , curious. He stopped a couple of inches away from Jungkook’s chest, before sticking his tongue out , a tentative lick to the hard tip.

Jungkook groaned out a muffled ‘ fuck ‘ and Taehyung smiled, before licking the tip again, this time witj more force, the flat of his tongue rubbing over him, wet and a little scratchy.

Taehyung got his tongue wetter, and licked at it again getting the skin nice and damp before closing his lips over it, sucking. He paused a little, before using his thumb to smear the wetness onto his skin. He glanced up at the alpha, smiling a little.

“You don’t remember? There was this other school you were competing against. You made the winning goal…..or hoop or whatever you call that.” Taehyung sat back up , staring down at Jungkook, wrapping his arms around himself as his cheeks reddened. “

Everyone was cheering you on and then someone lifted you onto their shoulders and you sort of, grabbed the hem of your shirt and just pulled it off…” he trailed off, biting his lips, as he ran his palm over the alpha’s abs.

They looked different now, with a light dusting of hair , and definitely were more defined, he thought. “Yeah…” Jungkook leaned up just a little, grabbing the hem of Tae’s top and tugging it up and off him with ease, leaving him shirtless on top of him, “ like this?”

Taehyung trembled a little, the cool air in the room making him shiver a little, pink nipples hardening right away and catching the alpha’s attention. “You like that?” Jungkook whispered, “ Liked seeing me with my shirt off?”

“Yeah… and just..” Taehyung bit his lips, not sure if he could say it, terrified that Jungkook would think he was weird, “ I really liked that..” he waved his hands vaguely and Jungkook grabbed his wrists, tugging him down till their lips were just inches apart.

“Tell me.” The alpha said softly. “You were sweaty and your skin glowed a lot and your hair was damp and I just.. I wanted to…” He closed his eyes turning his face away, ears burning red and face on fire, “ Oh, don’t make me say it!” "Too late to back out now.."

Jungkook grinned, " Come on baby, tell me what you wanted ? Tell me what did you wanted to do to me?" Taehyung bit his lip, closing his eyes tight before breathing out shakily. "I wanted to lick you... a little. Oh, This is embarrassing." He made to clamber away

but Jungkook caught him around his waist, rolling them over till Taehyung was pinned face down on the bed, laughing as Jungkook rolled over him, grabbing his wrists and holding him down. "Lick me...? Lick me where? " he caught Taehyung's earlobe between his teeth.

Taehyung giggled, shoulder jerking up from Jungkook’s lips near his ear, and he bit his lips. “Well, if you let me up, I can show you.” He said softly, turning his face to the side so they were face to face.

Jungkook stared down at him for a second, before kissing his nose and rolling back away. “Okay. Show me then.” He whispered, and Taehyung climbed over him again, this time pressing a kiss to the side of his neck.

“Here.” He said softly, swallowing,” I wanted to taste you here.” He pressed a kiss to the skin there, tip of his tongue touching for a second before withdrawing. Jungkook groaned, holding his waist. “Baby, you wanna mark me up?” He whispered, “ I can teach you how.”

( warning : this isn't a manual, don't go try this on someone and then complain that they called animal control on you or something

)

Taehyung hummed against his skin. “okay, tell me how…” He whispered. Jungkook swallowed a little. “First you press a little kiss, over the skin…” Taehyung did just that, “ And then you sort of suck on the skin a little…”

Taehyung puckered his lips, suckling on the skin lightly, catching it between his teeth and letting them sink in. “ Fuck, just like that.” Taehyung breathed him in, jungkook’s scent flood ing his senses and making him wetter, his thighs shaking a bit as he pulled away,

trailing kisses up the alpha’s law, to his lips. He kissed him again, harder this time, more desperate and Jungkook groaned into the kissing, cradling him close. “What else did you think of?” The alpha whispered, “ Must’ve been really dirty if it sent you into heat….”

Taehyung panted a little, running his hand through Jungkook’s damp hair. “I imagined going up to you..after the game…” He whispered, “ in the locker rooms.” He played with the wet strands, “ Everyone was already gone. It was just us … you were standing near the showers,

in just a towel…” Jungkook growled, kissing him again, a lot more fiercer this time, the alpha’s hands slipping down to cup his ass, squeezing lightly before spreading his legs, till he could slot himself between them, his hardness pressing up against Taehyung’s own.

The omega’s hips jerked up , seeking more of the delicious friction and Jungkook gripped his waist, grinding down into him, back and forth till he whined. “ Yeah… And what were you going to do for me, in the locker room, huh baby?” he whispered, kissing the corner of his lips.

Taehyung trembled, gripping Jungkook’s shoulders , licking his lips. “I don’t know… “ He whispered. “ I just… I was going to tell you I liked you and I… I hoped you would kiss me. Maybe.”

Jungkook’s face dissolved into fondness and he groaned, burying his face into the curve of Taehyung’s neck. “Kim Taehyung you make my heart and my dick ache in equal measure.” He grunted.

Taehyung cupped his face with both hands, licking his lips. “But then..” He whispered, “ That night?” HE ran his palms over the breadth of the alpha’s shoulders. “ I thought of you, in my bed. “ He swallowed.

“ I imagined you just like this.” He panted, “ over me, holding me down, looking at me like I meant the world to you…” His lips trembled a little, “ Just like you are now..” Jungkook went still, staring down at him and Tae held his face in his hands, "I love you." he whispered.

Jungkook's entire body went taut at the words, his eyes going wide and his lips parting. "Tae-" he breathed out. "I do." He shook his head, " I'm terrified and so fucking scared of this.. Of all of this but... I love you. I've loved you for years and I don't want to ever stop."

( A/n I'll be back tonight , because I'm crying a lot. Taehyung saying I love you to Jungkook is just... I'm sorry.. it changes everything )

Jungkook had only ever heard the phrase, I love you, from his parents. With Yoongi it had always been, ‘ you know I love you right? ‘ or ‘of course I love you, why else would I put up with you’ and of course his personal favorite, ‘ knowing I love, you still treat me this way?’

Yoongi’s love always came with a qualifier, and a condition. At a price that Jungkook had to pay over and over again. But Taehyung’s words sounded so very different. Because they came with a promise. A promise that felt like a warm blanket of security, something he could trust.

Jungkook felt his mouth go dry as he brushed the hair of Taehyung’s face, eyes dancing over every curve feature, the soft brown eyes and the perfectly sloped nose, the lush pink lips, edged with a deeper plum shade that made it all the more delicious looking.

He ran his thumb across the delicate skin right below his lids, catching tear drops and wiping them down on the pillowcase next to him. “Tae…” He whispered, “ Thank you for telling me this. Your truth..It’s safe with me, I promise.” He leaned down, lightly kissing his cheeks.

“ And I love you too. So much so that I feel like I could die from the ache of it.” Taehyung trembled a little at that. “Don’t die, “ He said with a weak little chuckle. Jungkook pressed another kiss to the corner of his lips, before running his thumb over his lower lip.

“Do you want to keep going?” The alpha asked quietly and Taehyung nodded, before biting his lips and running his palm over the alpha’s arms, eyes trained on his muscles, flexing from the strain of holding himself up over Taehyung’s body.

Taehyung felt his mouth go a little dry at the corded strength in them. Jungkook looked really strong. He gripped his bicep, squeezing a little before meeting his eyes. He licked his lips, and ran his fingers lightly through the alpha's hair.

“I haven’t been taking my pills though.” He muttered under his breath. “ I .. don’t.. I mean, we’d have to use protection.” He caught his lips between his teeth. "Or you know.." he laughed hesitantly. " I'll end up in trouble." Jungkook hummed at that. "Trouble?"

“What kind of trouble are we talking about here?” Jungkook asked carefully, nudging Taehyung’s legs apart with his hand , so he could settle between them, fingers moving to tug on the drawstring knotted into a bow right below his belly button.

He let it unravel before hooking his fingers on the waistband, tugging it down and over the curve of his ass, helping the omega shimmy out of them with a little wiggle. Taehyung kicked his pants aside before bending his knees and pulling Jungkook closer, till the alpha

pressed right up against him. Jungkook nipped at his ear making him giggle. Taehyung hummed, cupping his arms again before smiling softly. “The kind of trouble that would need you to spend a few years staying up all night changing diapers and making formula.”

Jungkook grinned at that, before slipping a hand between his thighs, fingers rubbing circles over the soft skin over his thighs, before dipping low and finding slicked entrance at his center. Taehyung’s breath hitched

as Jungkook carefully traced the skin before slipping his finger in, right down to the knuckle, making his thighs twitch at the intrusion. Taehyung felt pleasure bloom , bright and heady inside his skull, his skin glowing warm and his fingertips heating up,

toes curling just from that little touch. It felt so good to have a part of Jungkook inside him, so intimate and special. “You know when I think about pups, I don’t worry much about the sleepless nights or the smelly diapers. Wanna know why?” He whispered, curling his finger

inside him, rubbing his walls slowly, smearing the wetness inside him and making it leak and spill around the thick digit, damp and hot. “Hnng..” Taehyung squirmed, pushing forward, trying to get more of the friction on his cock, but Jungkook pressed his hips down,

pinning him against the bed and making it hard to move. “Because, that’s quite the small price to pay , in return for what I’ll get from you..” The alpha mumbled, leaning down and nudging his lips against the side of his pecs, “ You’d look so beautiful pregnant, baby.”

Taehyung felt blood rush to his face, his ears heating up at the words, hands flying up to grip the alpha’s shoulders. He felt his breath hitch as Jungkook nuzzled into his chest, pressing kisses all over the darker skin of his areola,

before letting his plush wet lips close over the small nub of his nipple. The alpha suckled, softly and with infinite care, but the little action set his nerve ending on fire, more slick dripping out of him

as Jungkook worked him over, finger curling inside him , while his teeth nipped at the sensitive tip. He tried to catch his breath, but he couldn’t eyes fluttering shut as Jungkook pressed another finger,

slipping it in alongside the first, before twining and then spreading them inside him , stretching him out for something bigger. He gripped the hair at the back of Jungkook’s head, whining a little as the alpha bit down on his nipple,

stinging sharp before soothing the ache with his tongue, warm and wet and insistent over the sensitive flesh. He tugged on Jungkook's hair, while pushing up into the heat of his mouth, legs going lax as Jungkook fingered him open, his long , thick digits soaked with his wetness,

dripping onto the omega's thigh and staining the sheets underneath them. Jungkook hummed around the swollen nub, pulling away just enough to catch his eye. "Someday i'll drink from here and i bet it will taste so very sweet.." The alpha whispered, eyes dancing with mischief,

and Taehyung's eyes went wide, and he punched his back even as his ears burned red in disbelief. "You're so ..." He shook his head and Jungkook laughed, crawling up and gentle tugging his fingers out of him, before slotting his lips over Taehyung's slow and insistent.

He pulled back, just enough to catch his eye, gaze intense and very serious. "What, you won't let me?" He asked , completely serious and Taehyung closed his eyes, turning away in embarrassment , but Jungkook gripped his chin, a little harsh , tugging him back to face him.

Tae blinked at him, toes curling at the little bit of harshness, so out of place in Jungkook's kind gaze, but exciting because of how different it felt. Like a different side of the same coin, something he wouldn't mind seeing more of perhaps. "Maybe that's just for my alpha."

Taehyung said demurely, holding Jungkook's gaze and letting his teeth catch the soft flesh of his own lower lip, a challenge in his gaze as he smirked up at the alpha. Jungkook's brows shot up at the small gesture of defiance. "Your alpha?" he whispered, " and who might that be?"

"Well" Taehyung said with a shrug," it sure isn't you, is it, alpha?" He leaned in, pressing his lips right against Jungkook's ear, before catching the tip of his lobe between his teeth in a playful nibble, " at least not yet, right?" Jungkook groaned, turning and kissing him.

He reached down wrapping a hand around his own hardness stroking himself for a second before moving to settle between his legs, gripping the back of his thighs and spreading them wide, before kissing down his jaw and slowly trailing kisses down, to his neck and then his chest.

Found something that reminded me of them

Taehyung glanced down as Jungkook kissed the center of his sternum, before tracing a circle around his belly button, and then kissing the skin right over it. The alpha glanced up at him, brows raised as he stared him down.

“Turn over for me?” He whispered and Taehyung blinked before rolling over. His face pressed against the cool satin sheets, and he gripped the fabric, turning his face to rub against the cool silk. He felt Jungkook move over him, gripping his hips and holding him up,

before slipping the pillow under him. Taehyung flinched as Jungkook, pressed a kiss right at the base of his neck. A second later the alpha’s hands closer over his own, both of them. Taehyung exhaled shakily, as Jungkook lowered himself,

till every part of him pressed against every part of Taehyung, hips grinding down over the curve of his ass, and feet playing with his own. Jungkook kissed the back of his shoulder, and then pressed kisses over the expanse of his back, all the way to the center of his spine,

before slowly going further south. Taehyung bit his lips as Jungkook pressed a kiss right over his tail bone, before squeezing the fleshy curve of his ass, spreading him open. He inhaled sharply as Jungkook moved lower, before hovering right over him.

Taehyung gulped, not entirely sure what he was gearing himself up for, and it was just as well, because nothing could have prepared himself for the touch of Jungkook’s tongue over his entrance, teasing and tentative. He felt himself jump, so hard the alpha had to hold him down.

He panted, stunned by the way his body reacted, and Jungkook chuckle, before burying his face down , this time more sure and certain. Taehyung clawed at the sheets, legs bending up and away in shock as Jungkook pressed the flat of his tongue against him,

before slipping two of his fingers in. Taehyung whimpered, the sound loud and jarring in the silence of the room and he bit his lips, trying to contain his whines, only to have Jungkook spank him, lightly.

“Be loud.” Jungkook pressed a kiss to his reddening skin, “ that way I’ll know you’re enjoying this.” he pressed another finger in, spreading them in a V before slipping his tongue in, licking into him, tasting him and Taehyung cried out, thighs shaking in pleasure.

"You taste so good Tae." The alpha whispered, pulling back just enough to bite the flesh of his thigh, making him yelp, " tangy and sweet and delectable. My favorite dessert from tonight. Something i intend to feast on every day,..."

It gets too overwhelming and Taehyung cant stop himself from pushing away from the pleasure, his skin sweat damp and heart racing too fast, as he pulled back and away. Jungkook didn't chase after him, merely grinning and letting him turn onto his back , clutching his chest.

"Too much? " Jungkook pressed a kiss to his thigh, before teeth closing over the flesh, tugging on it till Taehyung whined. The omega stared down at him, tears soaking his cheeks from how good it had felt and Jungkook cooed a little, moving up to hover over him, kissing his eyes.

"Hey, what's wrong? " Jungkook asked gently, cradling Taehyungs face in his hands, rubbing at the tears gently, " Didn't feel good? It's okay if it didn't Tae, we don't have to do it again... " He said softly and Taehyung sniffled. "No.. I... It felt good. Too good.. "

The omega bit his lips... "It's just, I don't like it much when you're too far .. I just... Just for tonight could you please... " He wrapped his arms around the alpha holding him tight, " Could you stay right here? I want to see you.. Keep seeing you when we do this. "

And it was true... Taehyung liked the the electric pleasure that came from Jungkook's sensual kisses, but his arms ached to hold the alpha close, his senses begging for his scent and his fingers yearned to touch his skin. He bit his lips, feeling unsexy as he said it.

But Jungkook was gathering him close, holding him tight and kissing his hair. "Okay." The alpha said softly, "if that's what you want, that's what we'll do. How does my baby want to do this? " He whispered, " You want me on top? Or do you want to ride me? " He smiled softly.

Tae scrunched his brows together at that, lips jutting out in a pout. "Well, I've never done either of those so how can I possibly pick? " He asked softly, making Jungkook grin. "And I find that incredibly hot. That everything you ever know about pleasure you'll learn from me."

Taehyung flushed again. "I do want that, you know. " He whispered quietly. " I want to do this with you... A lot. " He blushed red, " And I want to learn what makes you feel good too and I want to try new things and just, I want to love you in every way possible, Jungkook. "

Jungkook tugged him closer and roled them over till the alpha was on top of him. He gently gripped the omegas waist and squeezed before grabbing the waistband of his boxers and yanking them slowly. Taehyung blushed as Jungkook's hard length pressed up against him.

"You already have loved me in every way possible Tae, and in wants I don't deserve. " He smiled , " I want your first time to be special, so we'll do it like this. This way you can see me, and touch me and you can tell me exactly how you're feeling. " He whispered.

Taehyung grabbed his shoulders, squeezing lightly and nodding, closing his eyes as the alpha gently pressed his fingers against his entrance, dipping them in and opening him up. Just that was enough to make him tremble and Jungkook was so much bigger. "Will it be painful? "

Jungkook kissed the tip of his nose and then the corner of his lips. "I'll be as gentle as I can. If it gets too much we'll stop, order pizza and watch your favorite movie afterwards.... Alright? And then we'll try again tomorrow. " He grinned. Taehyung laughed at that.

He shook his head though, holding Jungkook's hand and linking their fingers together, before bringing his hand up to kiss the back of it "No. I don't want to wait another day. It's okay if it hurts. I want this. Tonight. Now. I want you, Jungkook. So, so much. " He whispered.

Jungkook kissed him, slow and careful, ame Taehyung felt the stretch of another finger inside him, even as Jungkook rubbed a thumb over his nipple, before reaching down and stroking himself to full hardness. Tae felt the blunt tip of him, closing his eyes and bracing for pain.

Except it didn't come. At least not in the way he imagined. Jungkook pressed in, just a little and his body opened up, with an ease that surprised him. Taehyung felt his legs part, his body cleaving open as the alpha moved deeper, slow and careful but firm.

There was an ache, more a stretch really, a dull throb as his insides shifted to make room for something new, and he gripped the alphas shoulders, nails digging in as he stopped, eyes trained on him, heavy with worry. When Jungkook stopped moving, slowly the ache grew.

He whimpered a little, breath hitching. "Tae, do you want me to stop? " Jungkook asked, sounding worried and the omega shook his head, frantic. "No, no... Keep moving please... " He begged, tearing up a little, *don't stop. Just don't stop. " The alpha swallowed.

Jungkook kissed his cheeks tasting his tears and the alpha shuddered, trying to hold himself back as he moved again, slow and careful hand coming up to thumb at his nipples, lips pressing kisses wherever they could reach. "You feel so good, baby angel. " He whispered.

Tae parted his lips, a soft sigh leaving his lips as his eyes focused on Jungkook, the alphas face painted in strokes of pleasure, his eyes open and wide and it was then that his body relaxed, as the weight of the moment sank into him. "Jungkook " He whispered, " I love you."

Jungkook pressed in further, and Taehyung felt his muscles relax as he cupped the alphas face, relishing the fullness, closing his eyes because this was the closest two people could get physically and he had it with the person he loved the most. His heart bloomed at the thought.

"I love you so much, " He whispered, as Jungkook finally bottomed out, straining to hold himself still as the omega pulsed around his hard length, every instinct screaming to pull back and fuck in, but he couldn't, he couldn't hurt him, "Tae.. Fuck... " He choked out.

As Jungkook shifted, slowly pulling out, Taehyung winced, but the pleasure was right there, his insides soaking wet and his body thrumming with each slow drag. "You can move faster. I want to watch you fuck me. " He whispered, " Show me how much you want me, alpha. "

Tae gripped his biceps and Jungkook pulled out, before pushing back in, the wet squelching sound making Tae blush, even as pleasure shot up his spine, the pain nothing more than a distant memory. "Show you How much I want you,? " Jungkook groaned. " Would a lifetime be enough? "

( a/n : I'm stopping here for today

because the next part is really filthy and my eyes are burning. I'll make it spicy for you guys

)

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Even as the words spilled out his lips, Jungkook realized how much of a rhetorical question that was. a lifetime would never be enough. It would barely scratch the surface of all the things he wanted to do with Kim Taehyung. And on the heels of that thought came the aching

thought of loss of the years that had been wasted, at arms length of each other but with great wide chasm between their hearts. He wondered now, why he had hurt so much, when all the aches and pains of his past dulled and faded to nothing at the sight of Tae like this, under him.

He brushed the omega's hair back as he held himself still inside him, the warm walls pulsing around him , making him hurt, but he wanted this to last. To savor it. Taehyung was glassy eyed but so brave, looking up at him, holding his gaze, fighting tears and holding him tight.

He wondered if the omega hurt, because something told him that even if he did, Taehyung would never let him know. Taehyung seemed so used to bearing pain in silence, neither his voice nor his face betrayed it and so Jungkook stared deep into his eyes, searching.

But all he could see was warmth and affection, an open gaze that reflected all of the omega's feelings for him. Affection that he felt unworthy of, even as he leaned in and caught his lips with his own.

"How does this feel for you? " Taehyung asked, eyes wide and curious, " Do you... Do you like it..? " The naive question made something squeeze inside him, his heart clenching in a way that made it hard to breathe. He pressed another kiss to his lips, tasting him deep.

He pulled back and slowly began moving inside him again, feeling the way the omegas body opened and bloomed for him, making space for him to fit right in, like he belonged there. "Taehyung, " He said softly, " Let's never leave this bed. Or this room. " He whispered.

Tae laughed at that, eyes sparkling as he cupped his face. Jungkook pulled out and slid back in and the Omega's eyes rolled back a bit, a soft whine leaving his lips. He gripped his waist, squeezing. "You're so warm and soft inside. " He whispered, "I want to knot you, baby."

Taehyungs skin bloomed pink at the words, hands curling around his bicep at the words. "Jungkook.. " He bit his lips, "I.. Are you sure.. I mean.. " He looked away, even as Jungkook pressed in deeper. Something in his gaze made him pause, "What's wrong, Tae? "

Tae looked scared and hesitant. "I want pups. " He whispered softly, " I... I dream of them all the time. You and me.. I.. It's a dream that I can't run away from. " He licked his lips. " But I don't know... " He closed his eyes. " I don't know if that's something you want."

Jungkook hesitated before carefully pulling out of him, and when he made to move away taehyung grabbed his arms, stopping him, eyes wide and fearful. "Don't go.. I'm sorry... I... I know it's something that I've hurt you with before but please... Don't leave me. " He whispered.

Jungkook swallowed, before gently wrapping an arm around him, pulling his close. He pressed a kiss to his hair. "I'm not going anywhere, Tae. " He said softly. " I... I'm not upset about what happened.. " He paused, " I mean... I am in the sense that I'm sorry it happened.

But it never just happened to me, did it? " The alpha pulled back to stare at him, " You probably believed it too. That you were having a baby. Did.. Did that scare you? " Taehyung seemed to slip into the past for a second, a painfully hurt look passing over his face.

Jungkook tugged the blanket over both of them, letting the cool sheets cover them both, before spooning Taehyung from behind, wrapping his arm around him. He pressed as close he could, the warmth of Taehyung back against his chest. He knew it was easier to talk when you didn't

Have to face the person you were opening up to. So he pressed a kiss to the back of his neck, and waited. The omega shifted, moving his legs a bit and surprising him by reaching back and linking their fingers together. "Could you.." He whispered, hesitant," Inside me? Please?"

Jungkook smiled against his skin, struck again by how much of Taehyung's innocence translated to what anyone would call shamelessness. And he held him tight, a wave of possessiveness shooting through him. This would be his. This part of Taehyung would be his and only his.

He pressed another kiss, right below his ears, and moved his hand over his thigh, squeezing the plush thickness of it before gently lifting his leg a little, sliding himself between the long slender limbs. Taehyung was still wet and open and he pressed in with ease,

both of them sighing as he slid home, Taehyung's fingers gripping his arm tight. "I love this. " Taehyung said suddenly. " I love having you inside me, I... It doesn't hurt at all. It hurts when you pull away. It hurts and I feel so empty... But this.. This feels so good. "

Jungkook wrapped himself around him, holding him close with one arm around his waist, moving gently without jostling them too much and Taehyung sighed, melting into his embrace. "Tell me. " Jungkook whispered, " What happened back then. " Taehyung stayed quiet for a moment.

"About a month after the party. " He whispered, " I started feeling nauseous. My mother, she bought me some tests.. I took them and they were all positive. " He sighed. "And everyone said we slept together. I was so confused. " He shuddered. " I hated myself because I couldn't

remember. And I wondered how that could be. " He whispered, " I'd.. I never believed you were the father. Because if you'd touched me that night I would have remembered. No matter how drunk... If it was you.. I couldn't have forgotten. " He bit his lips.

"But i couldn't tell her that." he sighed, squeezing his hand a little. " Because then i would have to tell her i didn't remember who I was with. and what would that make me Jungkook?" He paused for a moment. "I've always been a bit of a coward. When you agreed to marry me i just

took it as an easy way out you know? Maybe some stupid part of me even romanticized it , convinced me that i could tell you the truth on our wedding night and you would understand that it wasn't my fault and then we would just fall in love and be happy but..you didnt believe me."

Jungkook held him tighter. No he hadn't believed him. He had yelled and screamed and thrown stuff that night. Accused him of ruining his life. Of destroying his happiness. He flinched at the memories, so vivid in his head and he wondered how much clearer they must be for Tae.

"But i don't blame you." The omega whispered, pushing back against him and linking their fingers together over his belly. " I wouldn't have believed me either." he played with jungkook's fingers,

but I dreamt of it , a lot." he finished. " Of a baby. Your baby. In here." He pressed their linked hands over his flat stomach. " I imagined how they would look, how they would act. Who they would prefer..." he laughed softly, " a baby girl and a boy and maybe another pup too."

Jungkook held him close, listening to the Omega's words carefully. He knew how difficult it must be for Taehyung to do this, to share things that he had kept safe in his heart all these years. And he wondered if, although unseen and unheard, Taehyung's love had kept him alive.

"Taehyung.. " He whispered softly, " Is it too late for me to share that dream? Because I want to. I promise. All of your dreams, from today, I would love to have a part in them because, " He paused, " You're going to be the center of every one of mine. "

Taehyung trembled in his arms at that. "I'm sorry. " Jungkook whispered"for the times I hurt you. If you let me I will spend the rest of my life making it up to you. To you and to your dreams and all the love you spent on me, even when I gave you nothing in return. "

"But you did. " Tae said softly. " You gave me a lot in return, Jungkook." Jungkook blinked confused. "Didn't you hear what I said, alpha. " Tae's voice was soft and gentle, " You gave me something to dream of. Something to hope for. A family. You gave me a reason to live."

Jungkook felt a lump in his throat. "Tae..." "I didn't have one, Jungkook." Tae said quietly, " Till I saw you for the first time. I had no reason to live at all. My mother sent me to Seoul for money. And I was lonely and miserable and I wanted to die but then.. I saw you."

"I saw you... The most perfect alpha I'd ever seen in my life... So beautiful and so kind and so full of life and I just wanted to spend a moment by your side. To see what it was like to be happy and loved and accepted. " Jungkook felt the damp wetness of Taes tears on his arm.

"You were perfect. " Taehyung whispered. " But you were so out of reach. Because in my kingdom, I was a wretched, miserable creature, and you were the crown prince. There was no hope for me to ever reach you but I couldn't stop myself from wishing for it. Because if I did...

If I didn't have that dream, I would have drowned in my own misery. " He shuddered. " And I know everyone thought I was shameless, and heartless and awful for liking you when you had Yoongi, but the truth is.. I was just desperate, Jungkook. I was lonely and desperate. "

"So don't be sorry. " Tae whispered bringing their linked hands up and pressing soft, wet kisses, on his tear soaked skin. "You kept me alive. " He whispered. " Even when we fought. Even when we hurt each other.... " He pressed another kiss to his knuckles. " You kept me alive."

It felt cathartic, saying it out loud. Tae felt the tight knot in his chest come undone as he talked, all of the hurt from his past unraveling at the seams as all of his suppressed emotions spilled out of him. And Jungkook held him close, grounding him as he set all of it free.

As Jungkook held him close, Tae felt like he was setting himself free from the past. Finally breaking the shackles of all of those past wounds. The past was gone. The only remnant of it was Jungkook. His alpha. His present and his future. He closed his eyes and let it sink in.

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They spend a long time kissing, afterwards. Taehyung had only ever kissed Jungkook, and all those other times it had been frantic and desperate, like chasing down the last bus home, fueled mostly by lust and eagerness but now, now it felt slower, deeper and more intense.

Jungkook held him tight, one arm around his waist, keeping him pinned to his chest, the other in his hair, gripping lightly and holding him in place, so he could kiss him thoroughly, his tongue tracing the inner contours of his mouth. Tae felt bold enough to let his hand wander.

He traced a hand over the alphas chest first, feeling the slight pulse of his heart, beating against his palm. It made him oddly emotional, being able to touch Jungkook like this, and he smoothed his palm down over his abs, curious. He was built like a Greek God, he thought.

And When Jungkooks hand came over his own, gently tugging it down towards his lower belly Taehyung grinned into the kiss. He rubbed a thumb over the alpha's nipple, light and teasing, enjoying the way he jumped. Jungkook had sensitive nipples and Taehyung found it fascinating.

He ran his fingertips lightly over his sides and then down to trace a small circle over and around his belly button, a barely there feathery touch over the soft downy hair light below his lower belly. Jungkoot jerked back before grabbing his wrist and squeezing hard.

"Don't." The alpha grunted and Taehyung laughed a little. "Is the big bad alpha ticklish? " He teased" You remind me of my kids back in school. They're so jumpy. " He giggled and Jungkook grunted before grabbing both his wrists and pinning them over his head.

"I'm not a kid, Tae. " He whispered, before rolling his hips onto him, grinding down and letting him feel the thick length of his arousal against his inner thighs, " Haven't been one in a long long time. So , stop teasing. You won't be able to take it if I return the favor. "

Taehyung smiled up at him, utterly nonchalant about being held down and rendered helpless, batting his lashes up at the alpha before tracing the tip of his foot up the length of Jungkook's bare leg, up and down and then back up again. "Let me touch you, alpha. " He whispered.

Jungkook squeezed his wrists together, the bones shifting under thin skin and aching a little , making the omega whine rather sweetly, in his opinion. Taehyung gave him a mock glare, accentuated by a small pout on his pretty pink lips,

and Jungkook couldn’t resist leaning down, licking at those plus folds, dampening them a little, before sinking his teeth into them, just enough of a warning to keep the omega in line, in his opinion. Couldn’t have him getting too bold now.

Taehyung moaned , soft and low as he nipped at his lips, once more for good measure before letting go of his wrists and shifting back to give him space. Taehyung surprised him by rolling right over him, straddling his waist before grabbing both of his wrists and

tugging them up over his head. Jungkook grinned as Taehyung made a valiant attempt to squeeze his wrists together the way he had done to him, but his gentle baby didn’t have a single harsh bone in his body and all Jungkook felt was genuine amusement. Taehyung glared at him.

“Keep your hands up here.” He said sternly and Jungkook licked his lips before nodding. The omega gave him another stern glare before lightly pinching both his nipples at the same time twisting till he whimpered, kicking out in overstimulation. “Taehyung, for the love of-“

Satisfied, Taehyung shuffled back and ran his palm down his midriff before down, further down till he could press a kiss right over his hip bone, hand coming up to wrap around Jungkook’s hardness, firm but still a little tentative.

Jungkook’s breath hitched as Taehyung stroked him gently, slow and careful, and he folded his knees, spreading his legs so the omega could lie down between his thighs, one hand wrapped around his cock and the other running up and down his thigh, careless.

Jungkook swallowed before grabbing a few pillows and propping the up behind him so he could sit up a bit, not wanting to miss the view of Taehyung between his legs.

Warning : really explicit like honestly doesn't get more explicit than this.

Jungkook watched as Taehyung settled on his front, comfortably before staring at his hard length, curious as he stroked it slowly, before rubbing his thumb gently over the tip, the pad of fingers rubbing against the tiny slit on the crown,

the little touch making him drip more precum, and Jungkook felt his heart leap to his throat when Taehyung leaned down, the tip of his tongue licking at the small amount of it, brows furrowed as he tasted him. The omega grimaced at once.

“It’s a little sour.” He said by way of complaining and Jungkook groaned, settling back and staring up at the ceiling. “Baby, it’s not like I can get you a different flavor..” He muttered. Taehyung giggled at that before wrapping his lips around the head and suckling.

He kept one hand wrapped around his length, before sucking on the head, slow and cautious and Jungkook couldn’t stop himself from thrusting his hips up a little, making the omega jump a little.

Taehyung glared at him, the gesture kind of ruined by the hard cock stretching his pouty lips wide and Jungkook felt his cock twitch inside the omega’s mouth at the sight. Taehyung pulled back before frowning up at him. "its always so wet and messy in porn , why is it so dry?"

Jungkook wasn't sure why he had never considered the very real possibility that Taehyung watched porn. Of course he did. Of course he did. And now he thought Jungkook didn't measure up. Grunting a little he sat up straighter, before grabbing the omega by his arms and tugging him

up onto his lap till they were face to face. "open ." He said firmly, flicking his lower lip and Taehyung blinked but did as asked. Jungkook slipped his thumb in, rubbing the pad of it all over his tongue before slipping another finger in. He smiled as thev omega suckled

spreading his fingers around and rubbing the inside of his cheeks, nice and careful till he started drooling just a little, eyes wide and glossy as he got into it. "Is this wet and messy enough for you, baby?" Tae nodded. "Good now do that on my cock." he whispered, kissing him.

Taehyung was a quick student, and Jungkook leaned back against the soft pillows watching as the omega moved back down to hover over him, pumping the alpha’s thick cock, slowly, once and then again before glancing up and meeting his eyes.

Jungkook watched as Taehyung carefully opened his mouth , still a good few inches over the head of his cock, before slowly letting his spit , drip on to the pink cockhead, the wetness coating the tip .

Jungkook felt his mouth go dry as Taehyung gave him an impish smile before wrapping his lips around the thick breadth of it, suckling gently before taking more of it into his mouth.

The alpha groaned, hand reaching down and finding the back of Taehyung’s head, sinking into the luscious brown locks and forming a loose grip, just the promise of control hovering in the air.

Taehyung had full control, and what he lacked in skill, he made up with enthusiasm, the sloppy wet sounds echoing around the room as he took him as deep as he could before gagging.

Jungkook helped him wrap a hand around the part he couldn’t reach and groaned when the omega stuck his thumb into his own mouth, just so he could rub the head that pushed up against his cheeks

and it was so fucking hot Jungkook nearly came, balls drawing up so fast he had to grip the base and squeeze, staving off the orgasm and using the other hand to yank Taehyung off his cock, by his hair.

The omega whined like he’d taken his candy away and Jungkook rolled him over without any preamble, pressing a hand down on his chest to hold him down, before reaching for his thigh and spreading him open.

He gripped his cock, before pressing it right up against the omega’s entrance, sopping wet and coated with slick, pushing forward and burying himself to the hilt in a second. Taehyung gasped at being filled so suddenly,

And Jungkook moved his hand from his chest to his throat, not gripping but just holding, liking the sight of his fingers wrapped around his neck. He slammed his cock in, hard enough to have the omega slide up the bed by a few inches , a low whine in his throat .

He grinned, reaching down and pinching one hard nipple, twisting it a little till Taehyung whimpered, before pulling back and fucking back in. The slide was slippery and wet, and Taehyung’s eyes were wet and glossy.

“So pretty “ He whispered, wrapping a hand around the omega’s cock and stroking gently, a complete contrast to how fast his hips pistoned in and out of him, each pull , drag and push leaving him quivering.

Taehyung lips stayed parted, eyes wide and fingers clenching on the sheets, but Jungkook could feel how much wetter he was getting, dripping all over the sheets as the alpha pounded into him..

Jungkook slipped his fingers back into the omega’s mouth, soft and kind , just to give him something to suck on, and Taehyung wrapped his lips around the digit fervently, tongue playing between them, licking and suckling and stroking as he started moving his hips as well,

chasing after the hard friction of Jungkook’s cock inside him. Jungkook smiled at the little furrow between his brows, the frustrating need for more, the ache to be filled, reflected in the omega's eyes and e felt cruel, just a little, stilling his movements and pulling out.

Taehyung whined, a high keening voice that went straight to jungkook’s cock and he watched, fascinated , as the omega jerked up a bit, glaring at him before slipping his own fingers between his legs, finding his swollen,

slicked entrance and thrusting three of his fingers inside himself, a desperate plea in his gaze as he fucked himself with his long slender fingers, but Jungkook was quick, wrapping his hand around the omega’s wrist,

tugging his fingers out before they could slide in completely, grabbing his wrists together and pinning them over his head again, grinning down at him as he squirmed, thighs wide open, hips jerking, eyes begging .

“What’s wrong, baby angel?” He whispered , voice so soft and gentle , a soothing caress almost compared to how hard he gripped the omega’s slender wrists, pinning him down and keeping him in place, with just one hand,

while he wrapped the other around his own cock, stroking lazily. Taehyung’s eyes followed the movement, falling on the straining thickness of the alpha’s arousal and Jungkook saw his pupils dilate, and the sweet scent of his slick intensified,

as the omega dripped more of it onto the sheets, his entrance clenching around nothing, begging to be filled. “Please… put…inside me…” Taehyung chocked out, still squirming, still trying to free his hands and Jungkook hummed,

crawling closer and letting his cock slide through the slick coated skin between his legs, the head of his cock catching for a second on the omega’s wet pink hole,

and Jungkook groaned as the muscles clenched along the sides of his cock, as thought begging for him to get back in where he belonged. Who knew innocent Taehyung had such a lewd body? "Jungkook please..." "Thought i wasn't your alpha yet ..." Jungkook whispered. " right angel?"

Jungkook watched as tears welled up in Tae’s eyes, lashes wet as he stared at him, betrayal writ large over every feature and he grinned, unrepentant, stroking his cock again before moving the head of it, right to the omega’s slick hole, pressing in, just the tip

and pulling out when Taehyung’s hips jerked, chasing the fullness and the stretch. “You are..” Taehyung choked out.” It’s you.. I swear just please…You’re my… please..” “Your what?” Jungkook growled, pressing into him again,

a few more inches than before but nowhere close enough to what Taehyung wanted, but Jungkook felt he deserved this, he deserved to hear Taehyung call him… “My alpha…” he whispered, tears spilling over wet lashes, “ You’re my alpha…”

Jungkook smiled, wide and sweet and altogether innocent, as he nodded. “That’s right baby.” He whispered, before grabbing a pillow and lifting Taehyung’s body, just enough to slide it under, tilting the omega’s hip up and sliding right into him,

burying himself to the hilt, letting the tip of his cock hit that sweet spot high up inside him. Taehyung’s eyes flew open at that, breath hitching and Jungkook’s grinned, pulling all the way out before sliding back in, watching

as Taehyung lost all coherent thought, lips parted as he panted, eye rolling into the back of his head as he pounded into him, and Jungkook wanted him closer, wanted him a little more alert , so he grabbed his waist and lifted him right of the bed,

making the omega yelp and cry out, grabbing his shoulders as Jungkook knelt down in the center of the bed, with Taehyung sitting on his cock, grinning as he fucked up into him with very little effort, each thrust hitting deep inside the omega,

and Jungkook leaned down a little catching one pink nipple between his teeth and tugging on it….. and he grunted as Taehyung clenched around him, his orgasm hitting him hard , his cock spurting cum as he came all over Jungkook’s abs, spilling white over them.

Jungkook fucked him through the after shocks, before lowering him to the bed, kissing the corner of his mouth as he gripped his waist, holding him close as he chased his own high, hips beating out a staccato as he fucked into him.

Taehyung whimpered, hands curled around the alpha’s arms, as Jungkook groaned into his ear, a soft whispered, “ You ready for alpha’s knot baby?” Taehyung's breath hitched at the words and he licked his lips. "yeah, want you to put a baby in me." he whispered, sweet and shy.

Jungkook growled at that, pulling out just enough to tug Taehyung around till he was lying on his side, before slicing back into him from behind, keeping his arms wrapped around him as he fucked into him, one hand pressing down overt his belly, as he fucked into him.

“Fill me up,” Taehyung whispered, “ Wanna feel you inside me for days Jungkook.. i…” He whimpered as the alpha gripped his chin, pressing a sloppy kiss on to his mouth as his hips stuttered.

“Tae fuck …keep talking..” Jungkook whispered, grinding into him, hands coming up to prod and play with the omega’s nipples, making him whine. Taehyung moaned a little, reaching back gripping the alpha’s thigh, grinding back against him.

“Want you to cum in me and knot me..” He stammered, “ I want to feel it dripping out from between my thighs, want everyone to smell you on me and know that you’re my alpha…”

Jungkook groaned hips stuttering as he felt himself swell , his orgasm crashing over him as he gripped the omega tight, knot forming and catching on the sensitive rim of Taehyung’s entrance and forcing him to stop moving,

pleasure washing over him in waves as he trembled against the omega’s back. Taehyung was shaking, his body trembling as Jungkook spilled inside him, so much that it spilled out from around his cock, sticking on the curve of his ass and the inside of his thighs.

Taehyung whimpered, hands reaching down to press between his own legs, and Jungkook felt his cock jerk a little as the omega scooped some of the dripping cum up, before bringing it to his lips, wrapping them around and licking it all up.

“This tastes better.” He mumbled and Jungkook felt his mind short circuit a little. “Fuck.” Taehyung sighed deeply, his insides clenching on Jungkook's knot , squeezing every last drop out of him and making him whine a little from oversensitivity. "A baby. i think we made one."

Jungkook could barely breathe let alone respond. "But just to be sure, you should knot me a few more times tonight." The alpha went still. "What , in one night?" He shuddered at the very thought. " Tae I can't.. do that." "what, why?" "i can't." "what do you mean you can't?"

"i just can't." Jungkook growled. Taehyung sighed again. "You know in that video i watched, the alpha knotted the omega like five times in one hour and he didn't say he couldn't --" Jungkook closed his eyes, exhausted. What he really needed was sleep. ~~~~

Taehyung woke up to the sound of Jungkook’s voice right near his knee., low but still loud enough to rouse him out of his sleep, the alpha’s tone annoyed and bordering on anger.

Taehyung tried to roll around, because he was face down with his cheeks squished into the fabric of the pillowcase, the white satin soaked a little with his drool ( oh dear god how embarrassing ) and legs straddling on of Jungkook’s thighs.

But moving felt like a big no no, all of his muscles screaming in protest as he shifted , a firm reminder that last night, while incredibly enjoyable had also been exhausting. He whined a little pouting when Jungkook pulled his thighs away, making his leg his the bed with a thud.

The alpha gave him an apologetic smile before blowing him a kiss and getting up from the bed. He was clearly talking to his boss and Tae stretched and straightened, taking note of all the places he was sore. Wincing he blinked over at Jungkook. "Jungkookie..." he whined out loud.

The alpha paused for a second, glancing over at him in surprise and Taehyung grinned, holding both hands up and making little grabby motions with his fingers, beckoning him over. Jungkook’s brows shot up a little , but he held one finger up, a silent pleas, asking him to wait.

Taehyung pouted, suddenly feeling the urge to burst into tears at the small rejection. He felt unaccountably emotional and hurt and his lips stuck out, wobbling a bit. He was naked , body covered by the soft sheets and he wanted Jungkook back in bed. Right away.

He glared at him before slowly sitting up, plopping a pillow against the head board and leaning back against it, before letting the sheets fall to his waist, revealing golden beige skin, set aglow by the sunbeams spilling in through the window right next to him.

He ran a hand through his hair and smiled, beatific, tilting his head a little to give the alpha a view of his neck. It worked a bit. Jungkook’s gaze landed on the length of his neck, littered as it was with little bite marks and hickeys,

but Jungkook didn’t move away from the window. Infact he merely blew him a small kiss before turning back away and continuing his conversation. Taehyung blinked, this time the sting of it even more harsher. He caught his lips between his teeth, feeling oddly bereft.

Wrapping his arms around himself, he wondered if he should just get up as well, maybe head to the bathroom and get on with his day but his body protested at the mere thought of it. Really, what he genuinely, desperately needed was Jungkook.

Jungkook’s scent and his arms and his warmth. Like last night. He remembered how amazing it was. How wonderful it felt to have the alpha’s fingers all over him. He ran a palm over his belly, rubbing the skin lightly.

When he glanced back up, Jungkook was watching him , although he was still on the phone. Tae felt a small idea form. Eyes dancing with mischief, he brought his hands up, fingers lightly brushing over his own nipples, tracing circles around them, tongue peeking out as he smirked.

Jungkook’s eye narrowed a little at that, his lips mouthing out a firm, ‘ Stop it.’ . Taehyung smiled. “I’ll stop if you stop.” He called out, loud and clear. Jungkook whispered something into the phone before holding his palm over it,

“Baby, this is important. I’m on a call with a client.” He whispered, “ Behave.” Tae shrugged. “Okay.” He stuck both his fingers into his mouth getting them nice and wet before touching his nipples again, this time letting his head fall back against the pillow with a groan.

Jungkook blinked rapidly before muting his call and turning to him. "Tae, baby.." The alpha said softly. " Take your hands off what's mine. "

Taehyung felt his insides clench at that, a now familiar heat spreading all over him, a jolt pf pleasure sparking inside him at the words. He gave Jungkook a small smile, but took his hands off his nipples, only to slip them under the sheets,

lightly wrapping his hand around his half hard cock. Jungkook inhaled sharply at the action. “Don’t tell me this is yours too.” Taehyung pouted, licking his lips and getting them wet and shiny. “ that’s just being greedy.” "I'm going to have to call you back, Mr. Han."

Taehyung smiled , triumphant as the alpha hung up the phone. Happy to have his way, he sat up, holding his arms out with a smile , ready to take his husband back into his arms for some cuddles.

But Jungkook didn’t seem to be smiling, eyes still narrowed as he stopped at the foot of the bed. “What was that?” He asked sternly and Taehyung blinked, innocent. “Nothing. I was just bored.” He pouted. “ You were ignoring me.” "Oh, so its my fault now?"

Taehyung blinked at that, eyes going wide and lips parting. "Oh, no.. I didn't mean.. " He bit his lips. " Are you mad? Please don't be mad. " He whispered. Jungkook stared at him before groaning and climbing onto the bed, moving closer and tugging him into his arms.

"How the fuck am I supposed to be mad when you're so damn adorable, baby? " He whispered, smothering him with kisses, all over his face. Taehyung laughed at that, hugging him back and squeezing a little tight. "Mine." He said softly, and Jungkook grinned. "Yours." He agreed.

Jungkook kissed Tae's nose, before trailing kisses down his neck and onto his chest. He lightly tweaked one nipple, making the omega squirm , even as he wrapped both arms around Jungkooks neck, panting a little. Jungkook could smell his arousal, could feel how eager he was.

"Sweetness, " He said gently, pressing a soft kiss to his midriff. " We can't do anything. You're probably still too sore and-" "No I'm not. " Taehyung said quickly making him smile. "Okay, but still.. " "Please.. " Tae gripped his shoulders, hips canting off the bed.

"Give me this, Jungkook. " He said softly, "it's alright if it hurts a little I can take it. " He bit his lips. " I just want you inside me again. " Jungkook groaned a little at the words, moving over him and slipping a hand between the other's legs, the slick soaked skin

Making him rock hard in a second. He presses two fingers in with little resistance, rubbing back and forth and making him whimper a little. "You're so beautiful. " Jungkook whispered. " I could never tire of saying that. The most handsome man I've ever seen. " He pushed in.

Taehyung was soft and tender on the inside, but also eager and open, his inner muscles clenching down on Jungkook’s fingers as the alpha moved them gently, spreading the digits and working him open.

He pressed soft kisses, to each of Taehyung’s closed eyelids, savoring the sight of his breathtaking husband, naked and vulnerable in his arms, so eager to have him inside.

Taehyung’s words were always so raw and honest and arousing, making him want to do unspeakable things to the omega. “Please…” Taehyung mewled again and Jungkook shushed him, gently, before moving over and spreading the omega’s thighs open,

gripping his own hard length and letting the head rest against his entrance. He grabbed Taehyung’s wrists, linking their fingers together and pinning his hands down against the sheets as he slid into him, catching the soft whines that spilled out of his husband’s ruby red lips.

He licked into his mouth, letting his own moans mingle with Taehyung’s soft little mewls. The sun spilled over the bed and onto their bodies, warm and gentle on bare skin.

The sheets felt pleasantly cool against his skin, a perfect foil to the warmth of Taehyung’s body around him. And Jungkook felt a mantle of peace settle over him, like some part of him that had been restless for years, finally found its calm.

Like the ocean after a storm, there was nothing but sparkling clear blue waters, fresh breeze and serenity. Because here in Taehyung’s arms , the alpha had finally found peace. one that he would protect with his life.

The nightmares faded. So did the headaches. They didn’t disappear completely, of course but over the next few weeks, Taehyung knew he slept well. Really well. He woke up rested instead of tired and there was no waking in the middle of the night with his heart racing,

because he always woke up to Jungkook’s warmth and his arms around him. He was, he realized a little shamefully, a little addicted to both the sex and the cuddles and the alpha’s scent and his body and his voice and his… Well, addicted to Jungkook in his entirety maybe.

But it wasn’t an unhealthy addiction, like it had been for years. No, now it felt easier because Jungkook was clearly, just as eager to stay by his side. Taehyung felt elated in a way that he hadn’t ever felt in his life

but in the wake of this came the anxiety that things would go wrong. That this was so much more than he deserved and surely, surely something would happen to remind him that he didn’t deserve this. To remind him that he shouldn’t have gotten his hopes up.

But unlike before, the omega didn't keep his thoughts to himself. instead he shared them with his husband, who was quick to wrap his arms around him , kissing him softly and assuring him it would be okay. "lets enjoy the cherry blossoms while they last , sweetness." he said.

Jaehyun lost his job , along with his reputation as tabloids printed stories about the alpha being impotent. He lost the sexual harassment lawsuit , barely escaping prison but leaving Seoul in desperation.

Yugyeom was certain he would come back, that there were too many unanswered questions that needed to be asked, but for now, they would enjoy the peace that came with the man’s absence. Jungkook’s shoulder healed, completely. But Taehyung wasn't sure if it was a good thing.

Mostly because exactly seven weeks after he joined work, Jungkook got an overseas assignment for a week and a half and Taehyung couldn’t go along because of his work.

The omega wanted to burst into tears but held himself together, curled up in a corner of the bed, watching Jungkook pack his clothes into the large suitcase open on the bed.

“When will you be back?” He asked for the eleventh time that day and Jungkook gave him a fond smile, placing his shirt into the case before walking over to place a gentle kiss on top of Taehyung’s head.

“I’ll be back before you finish munching through all the snacks I got you.” He said with a grin. “ Also, I've asked Yug to buy you a strawberry tart everyday , so you can taste those in lieu of my kisses." he winked.

Taehyung buried himself further into the pillows, already feeling morose and upset. His moods dipped high and low these days and he knew he was being difficult as he refused to let Jungkook touch him or kiss him in the two days leading up to the alpha’s departure.

He told him that it would only make him more upset and miserable and Jungkook had been disappointed but he had agreed, settling for just forehead kisses before he stepped in through the airport terminal.

The moment he disappeared into the crowd, Taehyung promptly burst into tears , wailing that he should have kissed his husband goodbye and really what if something terrible happened and he never got to kiss Jungkook again? Jimin hugged him, stroking his back comfortingly.

Yugyeom however was a lot less patient. The alpha turned up at Taehyung’s school the day after Jungkook had left, clad in his leather jacket and straddling his motorcycle,

attracting awestruck looks from all the toddlers as well as looks of distrust from the parents who had come to pick them up. Taehyung himself , merely rolled his eyes, finishing with putting away the stuff he had used that day.

“Hurry up princess, your carriage awaits!” Yugyeom called from the courtyard, letting the engine growl a little insistently and Jimin gave him a grin. “Another impatient alpha? Don’t you have enough of those in your life?” he teased. Taehyung merely groaned.

“He’s taking the whole ‘ keep an eye on him’ thing that Jungkook said, quite evry seriously I’m afraid . I told him I’m fine but he insists on taking me out.” “He’s really hot.” Jimin muttered, checking the alpha out through the window. “If you’re busy can I go instead?”

Taehyung gawked at him. “You’re getting married in two weeks.” He whispered, scandalized. Jimin rolled his eyes. "Yes and i am well aware of that. Being married doesn't mean you can't enjoy the company of a good looking alpha." He sighed, turning back to the window.

"I don't know. Joon's been so very busy lately." He shook his head, " i'm not entirely sure if the wedding is still on because I haven't even spoken to him properly in a week." "What...Jimin..." Taehyung whispered , worried. The omega smiled and gave him a reassuring smile.

“Ahh, Tae.” He grinned. “ Did I scare you? I’m just being dramatic. Joon is realy busy with work because he’s taking three weeks off for the wedding and the honeymoon. It’s just a small price to pay , I supposed but I miss him a lot.” He exhaled, shaking his head.

“ Once you get used to sleeping in someone’s arms, its hard to go back to being alone.” This Taehyung could agree with. He hadn’t slept a wink the previous night. “Oye!” Yugyeom’s voice came again, “ The heck are you doing? My legs are going numb out here!” Taehyung groaned.

“I’m not sure if Jungkook loves me or hates me, seeing as he left me with this one.” he muttered, before placing the last of his stuff into his bag. He slung the strap over his shoulders before moving over to hug Jimin. "Take care of yourself." Jimin said softly.

Taehyung stepped out into the hallway and glanced up instinctively when he saw a small gaggle of teachers hiding behind a pillar ogling the alpha on the motorcycle. He shook his head before walking over to Yugyeom.

“You’re really annoying you know that. Annoying and impatient. Is this why Miss Top model from Korea ditched you?” Yugyeom held a hand out for Taehyungs’ bag and slung it over his own shoulder, before reaching for a smaller bag he had on the side.

Taehyung watched as the alpha pulled out a folded jacket, quite similar to the one he was wearing. “Ta da.” Yugyeom grinned. “ I bought this for you. Try it on and see if it fits. Take off that coat and give it to me.”

Taehyung slipped his coat off, handing it over before taking the jacket. He shrugged it on, smiling at how warm and cozy it was. “This is actually really nice.”He said excitedly. “Wonderful. Now put on that helmet and hop on. We have places to be , strawberry tarts to eat and..”

He paused, “ we can watch the light show on the waterfront before heading home.” Taehyung glanced back at the teachers behind the pillar, all of them now watching him with curiosity. He felt uneasy at the attention, hesitant a bit and Yugyeom followed his line of vision.

"Hi, there!" He called out loudly making them jump. " I'm his husband's best friend. Taehyung's cheating on him with me. Does that make your day better?" Taehyung flinched, punching the alpha in the shoulder. "What is wrong with you." "Just giving the audience what they want."

Taehyung smiled awkwardly at his colleagues before climbing onto the bike and wrapping his arms around the alpha’s midriff. “ Don’t you own a car? Must you always go around in this death machine?” Yugyeom laughed, the sound rumbling through his body.

“I own seven , actually.” He said casually. “ Well, my parents do. But, well, this is more fun. And you’ll learn to love it. One of the things I hope to do in these ten days is to teach you how to ride this bike.” Taehyung shuddered as the alpha revved the engine again.

“That is the single most horrifying thing you’ve ever said to me.” Yugyeom scoffed. "Taehyung you live life too cautiously. There's so many things you should be trying and having fun with. I know my buddy can be a bit boring, but you have me now. Let's live a little."

Yugyeom, Taehyung soon realized was completely different from Jungkook. Where Jungkook was calm and cautious, leaning more towards open affection and kind words, this one was just high energy chaos. Jungkook would have enjoyed a quiet dinner in and expensive hotel.

Yugyeom insisted on doing every possible , ridiculous touristy thing on the Han river , dragging Taehyung along for the adventure. "My legs hurt." Taehyung whined, trying to pedal harder on the tandem bike the alpha had rented them. "You should start running in the mornings."

"Build up a little stamina." "Your best friend's the one who should be building up his stamina." Taehyung muttered. "What's that?" "Nothing." Tae sighed, closing his eyes as the cool river breeze whipped across his face. It was pretty late and the crowd had dwindled a little.

Taehyung felt some of the weariness seep out of him as he leaned forward a bit, resting his face against Yug’s back for a moment. The night air was invigorating in a way and he felt a small smile growing on his face as they drove closer to the river bank.

He felt his muscles going a little lax, eyes falling on the couples sharing drinks and food on the waterfront. He missed Jungkook fiercely. “Yug.” He whispered softly, rubbing his nose back and forth on the alpha’s back to get his attention. “Hmm?” “Buy me something delicious.”

The alpha chuckled. “What do you want to eat?” he asked gently, one hand reaching back to lightly touch his shoulder. " Don't doze off on me, princess. You sound sleepy." Taehyung pouted, but straightened up. “something spicy and hot.” he said, " Tteokbokki."

"No." Yugyeom said softly. " You can't eat spicy stuff. You'll buy it and then make me eat it." Taehyung frowned, affronted. "How did you... Wait... Did Jungkook actually tell you that?!" Yugyeom chuckled. "He tells me everything." he grinned.

"Does he now? " Taehyung poked a finger into the alpha's side. " Did he tell you how he thinks you suck at bowling and he only lets you win because you become absolutely unbearable if you lose. " The bike ground to a halt. "He what? " Yugyeom yelled, affronted.

Tae laughed, before hopping off the bike. "He also told me about the avocado and chilli sauce incident with your last girlfriend that made her dump you. " Tae shook his head in disapproval. " Really, Yug... At her parents house? Isn't that a bit too much? " Yugyeom spluttered.

"This fucker. " The alpha muttered. " And for the record, that was not my fault at all. Her mother's cooking tasted like death in a bowl. " Taehyung laughed, walking backwards to the side of the road. "What about the Apple Pie disaster? " He teased. Yugyeom turned red.

"Okay, that's enough. And where are you going? Get back here. " He yelled. " Don't you want to get back at home? Come on, tell me what he told you about me. " Taehyung called out, now a few feet away. "Taehyung, come on... I can't do that.. " "Why not? He did it.. "

Yugyeom sighed. "Taehyung.. " Taehyung settled back on a small culvert, giving him a grin and patting the space next to him. "Come here. Let's talk more.. " He called out. Yug gave him a small smile. "Tae, jungkook would never say anything Bad about you. " He smiled.

"He loves you too much to do that. " The wistfulness in his tone made Taehyung pause. He felt his heart leap a little at the remark. As he stared, something seemed to shift in Yugyeom's face. The playfulness replaced by genuine honesty. "He does you know. He loves you. "

Taehyung opened his mouth, ready to respond when he caught the movement out of the corner of his eye. The car on the opposite lane sped up, too much too fast, and before Tae could blink, it had crossed over the tiny barricade between the two lanes, speeding up towards them.

"Yug- Taehyung stared in horror as the car hit the bike, Yugyeom's face registering stunned shock as he crashed right into the windshield, the glass shattering into smithereens on impact. The air got punched right out of Taehyung's lung as he watched his body hurtle

Right over the roof of the car before hitting the rough gravel, a good dozen feet away. The car didn't stop or slow down, and Taehyung could only stare, frozen as the sound of screaming started echoing in his ear. It took him a second to realize it was coming from him.

"I want him dead. " Mr Jeon looked up at that, eyes meeting those of his son's. Jungkook's eyes, bloodshot and swollen, held so much fury in them it was staggering. "I mean it dad. He pays for this with his pathetic worthless life. I won't accept anything less. "

"Jungkook... " He said tiredly, glancing at his wife who looked pale as a sheet. " I know you're distressed but.. It's too soon to be drawing rash conclusions" "What if he doesn't make it? " Jungkook said shakily." What if my best friend dies tonight? " "He won't. "

Jungkook shook his head, looking away. "You don't know that. You don't know that he won't. The doctor... He... " Jungkook swallowed. " He told me to send for his parents. That we should prepare ourselves. " He exhaled, hands shaking. " What does that mean? It means he's dying "

Mr. Jeon ran a hand over his face. "Son, I know you're hurting. But we can't just can't walk into something without knowing who we're dealing with." "A murderer. " Jungkook gritted out. " A fucking murderes is who we're dealing with. " "He's out of the country. "

Jungkook got ready to respond but Mr. Jeon held a hand up. "Let me finish." He said firmly. " Jaehyun is out of the country and I don't think that's a coincidence. He left because of this. Because he was planning this and this gives him a clear alibi. " "He hired someone."

"That would be the obvious conclusion.. But we still don't know why... " "Isn't it obvious? Yugyeom found out all of that stuff about him. " Jungkook said sharply. " He was clearly looking for revenge. " "I know Jaehyun and his dad, kook. They are important people. "

"If they wanted revenge, ruining Yugyeoms life wouldn't take them more than a second. Killing someone over a workplace lawsuit? That's just ridiculous. " He shook his head. " No, this isn't something they did for revenge. I feel like this is something they did out of fear. "

Jungkook frowned at that. "What does that mean? Fear? Like to scare me? Because I'm not scared. I'm fucking furious and I'm going to tear that bastard limb from limb when I get my hands on him. "He growled. "No Jungkook. " Mr Jeon said firmly. "I think they're the ones afraid."

"What? " "What was Yug doing the past few weeks. Did he find something about Jaehyun? Something incriminating? " Jungkook frowned, shaking his head. "No. I mean he found that doctors report about Jaehyun being impotent. But that was it " "How did he find it? "

Jungkook hesitated. "He hacked into Jaehyun's personal computer here at the office. " The alpha said hesitantly. "There were pictures of Taehyung on there, Dad.. That sick bastard had him followed and stalked and-" "What else did he find there? " "Nothing. Why? "

"Are you sure? " Mr. Jeon asked firmly. "How sure are you that he didn't find anything else? " Jungkook stared at him, biting his lip. "He didn't mention anything else. He would have told me if he found something else, dad. " "Not if he thought it wasn't important. "

Jungkook frowned, confused. "What do you mean? " Mr Jeon took a deep breath. " I mean, Yugyeom may have had access to information that Jaehyun couldn't afford anyone finding out. Listen carefully, " Mr Jeon leaned in, " Did you know Jaehyun's family sponsored Taes education?"

"Yes, you told me. " "Well, what with his father threatening to sue us over it, I looked into it. My lawyers were given access to certain records and.. I found something interesting. " He reached out and touched Jungkook's knee. " Jaehyun's family also sponsored Kim Sunggyu. "

Jungkook blinked rapidly. "What? " He swallowed, " The guy from the resort? " Mr. Jeon nodded. "He used a different name of course, but I asked my men to look into it. It's him. Jaehyun's father was paying for his mother's medical treatment and for his living expenses. "

"What... What does that mean... Like he's known him for a while? " " I think Jaehyun sent Sunggyu to kill you. " Mr. Jeon said quietly. " I think if you hadn't killed him that night, Jaehyun would have done it anyway. Because the moment Sunggyu left for Jeju,

Jaehyun got rid of any and every evidence that the man even existed. The cops here found his house empty. There were no records of him anywhere. Only a very powerful someone could have done that. And they did it before Sunggyu attacked you. "

Jungkook stared, shaking his head in disbelief. "What... " He exclaimed. " That... Just.. Why would he do that? " "Exactly. Why? " Mr. Jeon leaned in, " Because you had something he wanted really badly Jungkook. Someone he was quite terribly obsessed with. " "Tae? "

Jungkook said softly, glancing up at the door where a tired, gaunt looking Taehyung stood, gripping the wall with trembling hands. His eyes we're blood shot. Jungkook stood up, worried, reaching for the omega and Taehyung managed a weak smile. "He woke up."

Jungkook felt the air get knocked out of his lung from sheer relief, a tight coil of anxiety coming undone right in the center of his chest. He closed his eyes for a second before breathing in and reaching for the omega. "Come here, sweetheart. " He pulled him close.

Taehyung went willingly wrapping his arms around the alpha's shoulders, and hugging him close, body still trembling a little as Jungkook stroked his back. "Hey, did you eat the sandwich I got you? " The alpha asked gently, and Taehyung sighed. "I thought we lost him."

Jungkook closed his eyes, his own lips wobbling a little as he felt Taehyung shake from silent sobs. "Shush. He's fine. He's a fighter. " "He was going to teach me how to ride his bike. " He whispered. " We were just laughing and he was teasing me and just... I don't know why"

The omega trailed off, shaking his head and pulling back to stare up at him. "They didn't even a top, Jungkook . Didn't even check if he was okay... Who does that? How can someone be so cruel to another human being? " Jungkook sighed. "It's okay, baby. Don't cry."

Mr Jeon reached out and lightly touched Jungkook's shoulders. "You should go stay with Yug. I'll take Taehyung home so he can take a shower and rest. Yes? " Jungkook hesitated, not wanting to leave Taehyung. But the omega had been here for over 24hrs now. "Okay, dad. "

But Taehyung grabbed his arm, fingers digging in and an almost wild look on his face. "No. Please. " The omega whispered, voice shaking. " Jungkook, don't leave me. " Mr. Jeon looked surprised and Jungkook hesitated. "Baby you need to sleep.-" "With you. "

Mr Jeon coughed before chuckling lightly. "Well, in that case.." He grinned before stepping out of the waiting room and moving to the ICU where Yugyeom was. "Let me stay with you. Here. Please. I'll sleep better with you anyway. I haven't slept since you left."

Jungkook couldn't help but draw him closer at that. The Taehyung he once knew would never say something like that, would never admit to wanting something, let alone ask for it and Jungkook felt privileged to be able to see this side of him. He kissed the top of his head.

"Okay baby. We'll stay together. " He assured him, linking their fingers together. " I'll take the chair, and keep an eye on Yug. You can take the bed and rest, okay? "

Yugyeom was responsive but not completely conscious. The deep sedation they had used had helped bring the swelling down in his brain quite a bit and he was out of danger. But he still had a long road of recovery ahead of him. Jungkook watched as they administered the last dose

Of painkillers into his IV and once the door closed behind the nurse, he settled into the chair by the bed. Taehyung was already asleep in the narrow bed next to Yugyeom, wrapped in a thin white sheet. Jungkook glanced at his best friend. His pulse began to pound in anger

Yugyeom looked broken, lying there on the bed with so many wires and tubes hooked to his body. He looked nothing like the strong, vibrant man who had been Jungkook's lifeline since the day they met. If it weren't for Yugyeom, Jungkook never would have cut Yoongi out of his life.

Jungkook stared at him, feeling the anger swell inside him in waves. Yugyeom had always hated Jaehyun. Had gone out of his way to. Make sure Jungkook cut ties with him. Had offered his friendship in exchange

"These fuckers only want you for their own selfush reasons. " He had growled at him a week after they had met. "Stick by me, Gguk. " He had said gruffly. " I'll show you how a true friend treats you. Anything you need, you let me know okay? I'll be there for you. Fuck them all."

Jungkook closed his eyes, fists clenched . The need to hurt and maim and tear to shreds, whoever had dared to hurt his buddy... It simmered right under his skin. But his father was right. They couldn't jump into this without knowing what they were up against.

"Let me go... " Taehyungs slurred voice broke him out of hia thoughts. Jungkook sat up, frowning. "Taehyung? " He whispered, confused. " Baby? " As he watched, Taehyung sat up, eyes wide and glassy, staring at the opposite wall in unadulterated terror. "Tae? "

The omega was clawing at the sheets and then at his throat. "What was that? " He yelled, staring wide eyed and terrified. " What did you just give me? " Jungkook was on his feet, rushing to his side. "Taehyung, wake up! " He said sharply, grabbing his arms and shaking him.

But Taehyung didn't respond, his eyes hazy and his breath uneven as he gripped Jungkook's shirt. "Taehyung? " Jungkook whispered, scared and the omega glanced at him, blinking despondently. " Tae, baby? " "He's lying. " Taehyung said shakily. " He's not my boyfriend. "

"What? " Jungkook shook his head. " Baby.. What are you saying... " "He's lying, doctor. " Taehyung muttered. " I don't... I'm not... We've never... " Taehyung groaned, clutching his head, fingers sinking into his hair and gripping the strands hard, tugging wildly. "My head. "

Jungkook held him, wrapping both his arms around him, prying his hands off his hair and holding him tight, rocking back and forth as Taehyung whispered, body stiff as a board and gibberish spilling out of his lips. "He's not my boyfriend. He's not. Don't believe him. "

Taehyung was sobbing now, wild agonized sobs that wracked his body and Jungkook could only watch as the omega shed tears, crying so miserably it felt like someone had ripped Jungkook's heart to ribbons. He held him through it, horrified and helpless as he watches Taehyung cry.

Jungkook held him close as the omega continued to cry,low and hesitant, stroking his arms and his back, watching as the sobs slowly went down, to soft mewls and then little sniffles. Jungkook held him as he slowly went limp.And when he finally looked at him, the omega was asleep.

"He's settled in. " Taehyung's low voice came from the doorway, making Jungkook look up from the laptop in front of him. The omega stood framed by the door, dressed in a loose white shirt, long and hitting his thighs. He looked like he was naked underneath and the alpha stared.

"Come here. " He held a hand out, and Taehyung stepped in cautiously and hesitantly, glancing around Jungkook's home office with curiosity. During their marriage Taehyung had stayed out of this room explicitly. And although Jungkook told him he was welcome, Taehyung stayed away..

The omega walked over, staring at the screen , and giving him a hesitant smile. "It's pretty late. Are you busy? " He asked carefully. Jungkook closed the laptop, turning away and holding his hands out, lightly touching his waist. He felt fabric underneath. Not naked then.

Jungkook smiled, shaking his head. "Thank you, Tae. " He whispered. " I know it's a bit of trouble, asking you to accommodate him but-" "Shut up. " Taehyung said softly, hands slipping into his hair, gripping tight and giving his head a little shake. " I care for him too."

Jungkook hummed, gripping his waist and squeezing lightly. " What's for dinner? " Taehyung considered the question. "Hmm... Spaghetti and egg rolls a d your mother sent some leftover fried chicken. It tastes really nice. " "I know something that would taste better. "

Jungkook let his hands slip from his waist down to the curve of his ass, squeezing lightly. Taehyung smacked his arm, frowning. "Your best friend is unconscious in the next room. " "If his disembodied spirit is floating overhead right now, he would be cheering me on, Tae. "

Taehyung grimaced. "I do not want to think of Yugyeom floating over us when we're having sex, why would you put that mental image in my head. " He shuddered. "Hmm... We could do it under the covers if it bothers you that much. " Jungkook grinned. The omega rolled his eyes.

"What about the car? Did they find out who it was? " He asked nervously. " I'm sure they hit him deliberately. I saw them cross over into the biking lane and just speed up. It was intentional. I'm sure of it. " Jungkook hummed, non committal. "I thought so too, but.. "

"The owner reported the vehicle stolen two days ago. The police think it was probably some guy, drunk or on drugs... Yug doesn't have any enemies Tae. I don't see someone hurting him deliberately. They'll catch the guy hopefully. " He looked away. Taehyung frowned.

"Are you lying to me? " He asked softly. Jungkook went still. "What? " Taehyung turned away, walking in the direction of the door but Jungkook was on his feet, grabbing his wrist. " Taehyung what? " He demanded. "I've been lied to all my life. I can sense when it happens."

Jungkook swallowed, but shook his head. "I'm not lying to you. " He insisted. "Everything I said was true.. " "If you don't trust me just say that. " Taehyung said quietly. " I don't want fake platitudes. You can't just sweet talk me into ignoring things. I'm not stupid. "

Jungkook gave him an even tempered look, face devoid of emotions. "Trust goes both ways. " The alpha said quietly. " I would hope you would trust me too... Trust that I wouldn't make certain choices without good reason. " Taehyung scoffed. "That's bullshit. "

"If you trusted me you wouldn't be making choices on my behalf in the first place " He said quietly. " Just tell me the truth. What do you think I would do? I'm on your side, aren't I? " Jungkook sighed. "Tae, can we just go eat? " He said softly. " I promise it's nothing."

Taehyung felt a sinking feeling of defeat, blooming somewhere inside him. Jungkook looked like ge didn't want to talk about it anymore and Taehyung really didn't want to be the one starting an argument. He didn't do well with those. Besides what could he even say?

He glanced over Jungkook's shoulder at the laptop. The alpha had closed it shut the moment he'd come near. What exactly was he hiding? "You think what happened with Yug was just an accident? " He asked finally and Jungkook shrugged. "The cops will decide that, Tae. "

The alpha said quietly. " There's so much stuff to consider before jumping to certain conclusions. You and I... We can't just get involved in stuff like this. " Taehyung nodded. And then he hesitated. "You know Jung Hoseok, right? " He said casually. " He called me earlier. "

"Called you? " Jungkook frowned, " What for? " "I don't know... He said he wanted to meet me for coffee later today. " "Okay.. " Jungkook hesitated. " We'll go together. " Taehyung glared at him. "That wasn't me asking for permission or inviting you along Jungkook. "

Jungkook flinched at that. "Taehyung, please don't.. " He began but the omega shook his head poking him in the chest with his forefinger. "No. I'm tired of half truths. I want to know what happened that night. And it's not fair that everyone knows something about it except me."

" They're all lying " Jungkook said sharply. "Don't you get that Taehyung? These bastards, they didn't like you. None of them. Hoseok, jaehyun and yoongi... None of them care enough to tell you the truth. Nothing happened that night. I.. It's over. Why does it matter anymore? "

Taehyung blinked at that, narrowing his eyes at Jungkook. "It may not matter to you.. " He said shakily. " But it does to me. Because I... Every time I think of that night, it's like I'm falling headfirst into an abyss. " He shook his head. " Why would it feel that way? "

Jungkook sighed, reaching out and pulling him close, hugging him against his chest. Taehyung stayed stiff finding no comfort in the embrace because of how much his mind was racing. The alpha stroked his back before pulling away. He took a deep breath. "Okay." He said softly.

"Okay, you can go meet him. " He muttered. " Just promise me that whatever he tells you, just don't believe him okay? I'm just worried that he's going to try to protect Jaehyun somehow by lying to you about things." Taehyung frowned, confused. "Protect Jaehyun? "

"Protect him from what? " He demanded. "What are you talking about? " Jungkook looked hesitant. "There was someone else that night? Right? " He said softly," you keep telling me about the almonds. None of us smell like that. That's a distinct scent."

Jungkook gave him a cautious look. "Do you remember when you first sensed it? Was it earlier in the night or later? " Taehyung shook his head. "I don't know. " He said hesitantly. " I don't remember. " "Okay.. " Jungkook nodded. " It's just that till we know who that is.."

He paused, " It's not wise to trust anyone. Hoseok, Jaehyun... Yoongi. I feel like everyone has their own interests to protect you know. The things they say, the excuses they give.. It's all just so selfish.. I don't trust them. And I don't want them anywhere near you. "

Taehyung shook his head. "You said Hoseok might try to protect Jaehyun. What does that mean? Protect him from what? " Jungkook sighed at that, shaking his head. "Taehyung I don't know what I'm saying alright? All of this is just speculation and I don't want to scare-"

"It's too late. " Tae snapped. " I'm already terrified alright and not knowing is so much more terrifying than anything else that might have happened." Jungkook hesitated. "I can't.. " He said softly. " I can't do that to you Tae. Not over something that may not even be true."

Taehyung stared at him. "What is it? " He said finally. " What did you find? What exactly do you think happened to me that has you lying and hiding things from me and- " " Sexual assault " Jungkook said quietly, eyes glancing away from him. " I... That's what scares me. "

Taehyung felt a sharp swooping sensation in his stomach, like he had stepped right off the edge of a cliff. It was an odd sensation, heat filling him up while his skin turned icy cold. He stared at the alpha, shaking his head quickly. Instinctively. "No." He said firmly.

Jungkook merely looked at him, lips caught between his teeth, eyes brimming with helplessness. "Taehyung,. I'm sorry-" "Sorry for what? " He snapped. " There's literally nothing to be sorry about. Because nothing happened. I... If it had I would know. " He shook his head.

"Okay." Jungkook said softly. " I believe you. " He reached out, gripping his shoulders but Taehyung shrugged his hands off. "No you don't. " He snapped. " You've been lying to me and you've been treating me like I'm some kind of weak and fragile.. thing... Is this why? "

Taehyung held Jungkook's gaze, eyes wild and hunted, a desperation in them that was terrifying to look at. It looked so out of place on the omega, this overspill of emotion when Taehyung was usually so withdrawn, so hesitant to reveal what he felt. Jungkook felt helpless.

" Taehyung, I'm just trying to help you.. " He whispered and apparently that was also the wrong thing to say. Taehyung laughed, an ugly scoffing sound, dripping with derision. " Trying to help me? What makes you think I need your help? " He demanded.

He shook his head. "You want me to be victim just so you can feel good about saving me. " He said sharply. Jungkook flinched at that. " Taehyung... " " He was your fucking friend Jungkook. " Taehyung screamed. " And here you are telling me he could have done something

So fucking evil... And yet... Yet you stayed friends with him. You stayed friends with him for years. What does that tell about you?! "

" That's not fair.. " Jungkook said shakily. " I had no idea that he could do something like that... I swear... " "Don't talk to me about what is and isn't fair. " Tae said quietly. " The only unfair thing here is how you have some kind of autonomy on what I can and can't know."

"This is exactly why I didn't want you to know. I knew you wouldn't be able to handle it like a rational person. " Jungkook snapped. " You're making it sound like I'm just as bad as the guy who did this to you and that's so fucking unfair, Tae! " "Oh so now I'm irrational?"

Taehyung felt his lips wobbling at the words. "Asking my husband to be honest with me. How much more irrational could I possibly get? Right? " He laughed. " You're a horrible person. I hope you know that! " He whispered. "Taehyung I don't want to fight-"

"Of course you don't. ' Taehyung whispered. " You don't like fighting. You don't like it when anything even remotely inconvenient happens in that perfectly utopic world you want to live in. Where nothing ever goes wrong, yes? Well guess what. I can't live there with you. "

Taehyung took a deep breath wrapping his arms around himself. "I don't live in a world like that. And more importantly, I don't trust people who think that way. The world I know.. The one I've lived in.. It's not kind, it's not fair and it most certainly isn't perfect. "

"You... " He said shakily, hands trembling a little as he pointed at the alpha. " You don't know what it's like to be lied to and deceived and cheated out of every kind of happiness. You think hiding the truth will protect me.

But the truth is that uncertainty is so much more awful than anything you might be protecting me from. But of course, someone like you... You'd never understand. No one's ever lied to you. No ones ever used your affection as a weapon against you. You don't know what it's like. "

Jungkook stayed quiet. Taehyung was breathing harshly, his eyes blazing and the alpha waited for him to calm down a little. "Taehyung... I'm on your side. " He said finally, " Your mind is obviously trying to keep you from remembering that night. It has to be for a reason."

Taehyung shook his head at that. "You don't know that. People get drunk and forget things. It doesn't mean something awful happened to them. Yeah, I thought we had sex back then. Yes, I took a few pregnancy tests and they came out positive. But there's probably an

Explanation for that. " He said shakily. " One that doesnt involve... " He swallowed, " Whatever awful thing you're trying to make up. And you should be helping me find that explanation. You should be helping me put this whole thing behind us so we can start our life together! "

Jungkook reached for him, taking his hand on his own. "I do want that. " He said quietly . " I want that more than anything else, Tae. I want us to be happy together but I'm just so terrified that.... " He bit his lips. " I'm just terrified that you'll end up hurting yourself. "

Taehyung slowly pulled his hand away from him. "You know Jungkook, in the years that I've been here, the countless times I've been hurt.. " He paused, licking his lips, " It was never me who did the hurting. I don't hurt myself. People hurt me. My mother. Your friends. You. "

"So while I really appreciate your concern.. I also want you to stop acting like I'm some kind of a naive little kid you're responsible for. " He shook his head, " Don't try to save me from myself. Because I'm hurting right now and it certainly isn't because of me. "

Taehyung held the alpha's gaze for a few more seconds. "I'm still going to try and find out what happened. And I'm going to do it myself because clearly I can't trust you to be honest with me. I'm going to meet Hoseok and I'm going to hear what he has to say."

Jungkook nodded. "Taehyung , I want you to find closure too. Just... be careful, its all I ask really." Taehyung wrapped his arms around himself, running his hands up and down his arm, trying to sooth himself. He hated when this happens, this helpless feeling of anxiety.

They stayed quiet, at an impasse because they weren't quite sure what to say. Taehyung was the first one to turn away, because the entire exchange had left a sore, miserable taste on his tongue. He felt disoriented, confused because of what Jungkook had said. "Tae.."

Jungkook's voice made him pause in his tracks as he started walking away. He stopped but didn't turn around to look at him. "Whatever happened that night, it doesn't change anything between us." Jungkook said softly. " I love you. I don't want you to forget that. Please."

Taehyung clenched his fists. It was meant to be reassuring, he thought miserably. But it wasn't. Something about Jungkook's words made him feel cold and alone. Like he was leaning over the edge of an icy lake, his fall inevitable. How deep was it? How cold?

Taehyung licked his lips before closing his eyes. He had to get away from here. He had to think and put his thoughts in order. Jungkook watched his husband leave, a sick feeling of despair taking over him. It was debilitating , this feeling of helplessness. He couldnt breathe.

The cafe was crowded for a weekday afternoon, and Taehyung only had to look around for a minute or so before he spotted Jung Hoseok , waving him over from the corner booth. On his way over, Tae had been quite certain that Yoongi would be there as well. But the beta was alone.

Taehyung took a deep breath before walking over, careful to keep his expression neutral, not betraying the turmoil inside him. He didn't want to seem too invested, or Hoseok could use it against him. maybe his nonchalance would prompt Hoseok to be honest.

(a/n : the update will be sporadic. both my kids are sick and so am I so I might pause between tweets. I hope to finish this update by this weekend so, you guys can read the whole thing on Monday <3 )

Hoseok looked up as he approached the table, the beta's shoulders straightening as he sat up, hands moving to grip the table. Taehyung became intensely aware of himself, his fingers shaking a little as he slowly slid into the seat opposite. They spent a minute just looking.

"You came." Hoseok seemed so much more subdued than he had been the last time they had met. There was an air of discomfort between them, which Taehyung supposed was only natural. For a brief second, he wished Jungkook were here. But who was to say Jungkook would be of help.

Taehyung remembered what had happened with Yoongi back in Jeju. The other omega had wanted to tell him something but Jungkook hadn't let him get a word in, so determined to chase him away, so certain that he knew what was best. Taehyung loved Jungkook , yes. But he needed space.

"What did you want to talk about?" Taehyung asked swiftly, linking his fingers together under the table, holding the beta's gaze. There was an air of defensiveness in Hoseok's posture, that made him wary. "First of all , i didn't know what Jaehyung was upto that night."

Hoseok's voice was firm and insistent. " I want to put that out there and I swear it's the truth. I had no idea he was trying to..." he trailed off. " All he did was ask for my help so we could break Yoongi and Jungkook up." He looked away. Taehyung stared at him, confused.

"What ? He was trying to what?" He demanded and Hoseok stared at him. "You know he liked you a lot." He muttered, not fully meeting his eyes. " He was always like... watching you and stuff." Taehyung felt his skin crawl. "So what?" He demanded. " What was he trying to do?"

Hoseok sighed. "Drug you, I guess." He muttered under his breath." But i swear I didn't know, alright? All he told me was that he wanted to talk to you and you were always running away anytime he tried to approach and so he said that maybe if you had a drink..." he groaned.

"Are you saying you drugged me?" Taehyung demanded, horror coursing through his veins. Hoseok's head shot up at that, eyes wide in very honest shock. "What?! No.. No... I didn't.. I just... I was supposed to get you a drink at the bar when you came there , thats all."

"So I stayed by the bar , during the whole party ..I was there and I was waiting for you to come there but then, Jungkook came over and well, you didn't come anywhere near the bar for the rest of the night." He muttered. Taehyung remembered that. Jungkook sitting near the bar.

Hoseok sighed deeply. "I wouldn't have done anything, Tae, if it weren't for what Jungkook kept saying that day. He was going on an on about wanting to break up with Yoongi, about not wanting to be with him anymore about how he wanted to ask you out..." Hoseok shook his head.

"He was saying all that shit but I knew he wouldn't go through with it. He wouldn't fucking break up with Yoongi , instead he would just keep going back to him and it just pissed me off because Yoongi deserves better okay? Jungkook never loved him. And I did!" Taehyung stared.

"Wait..." he trailed off." Jaehyun asked you to buy me a drink from the bar?" he frowned. " Just that... a drink?" Hoseok nodded. "Yes. That was his exact words.. Just get him to the bar and let him get his drink." Taehyung felt something nag at the back of his mind.

"Who was tending the bar that night?" He asked quietly. Hoseok blinked. "What?" "The bar? Who was giving out drinks?" The beta frowned. "I don't remember why?" "Listen Jaehyun isn't an idiot. One drink won't do anything to me unless it was spiked." he pointed out.

" And if you weren't the one spiking it, it must've been whoever was handing out the drink." Hoseok looked surprised. "Oh... That's..I didn't think of that." he muttered. Tae suddenly felt another puzzle piece fall into place. Jungkook telling him that he had had just one drink.

"Wait... Did Jungkook get a drink when he sat next to you?" Taehyung asked quietly. Hoseok frowned deeper. "I...think so? I mean..yeah... he was definitely sipping something a few minutes later. I think , yes. The bartender gave him a drink.." Taehyung felt his skin go cold.

"You're a whole idiot." He said thoughtfully and Hoseok bristled. "What? What did i do?" "Jungkook drank just one drink that day at the party and he passed out. Jungkook who can hold his liquor pretty damn well. Why do you think that is?" "Wait.. are you saying that-?"

Taehyung shook his head in disbelief, hands clenching into fists. "Do you not have a single ounce of decency? Any of you? Are you human, even?" Hoseok recoiled. "Taehyung..." "I'm a person." he said sharply. " Not some kind of toy you can just play around with!!"

Hoseok looked away, ears tinged red and his fingers going pale as he gripped the table hard. "I... We didn't think he meant any harm." The beta muttered. " He was our friend you know and we just..." Taehyung made a noise of disgust. "So," he demanded, " Why did you call me?"

Hoseok turned to look at him. "The photos." He said softly. "The ones that came up on the student messenger board and got sent to a few people...." he swallowed. " That was me." Taehyung closed his eyes. "I only did it because I thought you guys slept together!"

The beta exclaimed. " i was just checking the rooms after the party looking for my wallet and I found you and Jungkook sleeping together in a room that was locked from the inside, what the hell was I supposed to think?!" Taehyung's eyes flew open. "Locked from the inside?"

Hoseok nodded. "I had to use a key to get inside. I just... I'm sorry i did that okay? it was fucked up and i have no excuse for it. I can only say that I was young and stupid and in love." He swallowed. " I just wanted Yoongi to break up with Jungkook, Taehyung. Thats all."

But Taehyung's mind had zeroed in on one thing only. "Are you telling me that Jungkook and I , we were in a room , alone....and the door was locked on the inside?"He whispered. The implication sunk into him in increments. On the inside. Then it must've been one of them who..

"Are you lying to me?" He said shakily. " Please just...don't fucking lie to me Hoseok." The beta blinked back at him, his gaze softening. "I'm not, Tae." He whispered. " I just... I wanted to tell you my truth. Its why I came here. I don't know what else happened that night."

Taehyung buried his head in his hands. Everyone seemed to be involved with what happened that night and yet no one seemed to know what exactly had happened. The only one who probably did know it all, was the one who had lived through it. Taehyung himself. He sighed.

Why couldn't he remember? Why did all of his memory come in bits and pieces? Why did his mind choose to shut itself off that night? Jungkook's words echoed in his head again. Sexual Assault. He glanced up at Hoseok. "Do you think someone hurt me that night?"

Hoseok looked taken aback by the question, eyes a little wide. Taehyung searched, desperate to see atleast a hint of denial, a small trace of negation in his features but Hoseok only looked surprised. "I... " "No, right?" the omega demanded. " Nothing happened to me , right?"

Hoseok didn't respond, merely shaking his head and Taehyung felt frustration bubble up. "Because I would know..." he snapped. " If something happened to me...something awful... I would know! I would have put up a fight!" He growled. " Don't you think so?" "Taehyung..."

There was a note of pity there, in the betas voice as he stared at him and Taehyung felt his hackles rise even more. "I'm not weak. " Taehyung whispered, shaking his head. " I'm not... I don't need anyone to feel sorry for me. So stop looking at me like that! "

Hoseok didn't respond right away, merely bowing his head. "I'm sorry. " The beta said softly and Taehyung scoffed, standing up abruptly. "What are you even sorry about? " He shook his head. " My guess? Nothing. You're just sorry you have to act like a decent person. "

When Taehyung stepped out of the cafe, he felt miserable and lost. Hoseok's words had only stirred up the murky depths of his memory. Everything was foggy, everything hidden behind a veil of deception. No one could be trusted. He stood in the middle of the pavement, alone.

Around him the crowd milled about, busy with thir day, walking hurriedly to where ever they were going, a clear direction and purpose in their steps, but Taehyung had nowhere to go. He didn't want to go back home. He was sick of being lied to. Of being disregarded.

Was it his fault? He wondered miserably. Had he been too trusting? Had he put himself in danger that night? What had happened? He remembered the scent of almonds, and ran a hand over his face. Who was it, that man? His phone rang, startling him. "Jungkook? "

"Where are you, Tae? " The worry in his voice was evident and Taehyung hesitated. "I'm out. " He said shortly. " I might be late getting back. " "I'm coming to get you. " Jungkook said quickly. "That's not necessary-" "Jaehyun is back in Seoul. " Jungkook said quietly.

Taehyung froze. " How did you find out? " He asked quietly, "what does that have to do with me? " Jungkook didn't respond right away. "Just tell me where you are, Tae, I'll come-" "You really are no different from the people who messed with me that night. " He hissed.

Jungkook made a noise of derision. "Taehyung, just... " " The most fucked up thing about that night is the fact that people have been lying to me for years. And the only thing I want at this point is some clarity about what the fuck is going on and you're not talking to me! "

"Okay , we'll talk. " Jungkook said briskly. " Just tell me where you are, now. " Taehyung sighed before sharing his his location. "I'll be there in ten minutes. Just stay put. " The alpha said before hanging up. Taehyung stared at the phone, angry and upset.

Everything inside him burned hot and heavy. He was angry. More than he'd ever been in his life. Who were these people? What gave them the right to just control him like this? Jaehyun with his sick obsession. He has seen it from the time he was in high school. His leering gaze.

His touches that were never quite innocent. Taehyung had always felt his skin crawl in the olders presence but no one had tried to keep him safe. instead his mother has pushed him to get closer to the rich alpha. Jaehyuns family had been in on it too. None of them had cared.

And now this? He just wanted to talk to you... He was our friend... We didn't think he would hurt you... He gripped his hair, fighting tears of disbelief. How could people be so heartless? How could they just not care about how their actions would affect him and his life?

And Jungkook... Could he not see how much Taehyung was distressed from being kept in the dark? Could he not see how desperate he was to learn the truth? How could you claim to love someone and watch them flounder like this? What kind of love was that? He didn't want it.

He had half a mind to go to Jaehyun himself and demand answers.What had happened that night? He licked his lips as his stomach clenched. A sinking feeling of despair took over him. Had he been violated somehow? Had someone just destroyed his life and moved on like it was nothing?

No. He couldn't accept it. He wouldn't accept it. The idea that he had lived through something like than and just...not realized it. It was impossible to take in. It made his head spin in circles. But Jaehyun... What had he said? I had you first. Bile rose in his throat.

Jungkook said he was bluffing. That it didn't mean anything, but now Taehyung wasn't sure. Was there some truth to the words? When Jungkook finally pulled up to the curb, Taehyung was on the verge of tears. He stayed quiet, moving to the back seat of the car and climbing in.

He crossed his arms, settling against the door and staring out the window and Jungkook stared at him through the rearview mirror. "Tae.... Please don't shut me out." Taehyung sat up, furious. " You're the one shutting me out!" He said sharply." You havent told me a thing!"

Jungkook gripped the steering wheel. "What do you want to know?" He said softly and Taehyung scoffed, shaking his head. "This is what you do. You answer questions with more questions. I want to know what you know...about that night. About everything that happened later."

"What makes you so certain that I know?" Jungkook said shakily. " Taehyung I'm not going to tell you things that I have no proof of. I can tell you a hundred different theories I have about that night. But that's all they are, theories. I don't know what happened."

"The reason I'm so terrified of telling you is because all of my ideas, they're just my worst fears come to life. And the last thing I want is for you think they're true. I can't do that to you.." Taehyung sat up. "You think he rapεd me, don't you?" he whispered. " You do."

Jungkook swore, running his hands over his palm. "You've been thinking it from the time you found out I have nightmares." Taehyung said shakily. " Right? You almost believe it completely." "I don't know if he had someone else with him that night." Jungkook said quietly.

"And if he did...him being impotent it makes no fucking difference." Jungkook swallowed. " Because what if he just paid someone to-" He trailed off and Taehyung drew his legs up to his chest, hugging his knees. "Why?" He choked out. " What did I ever do to him?"

Jungkook looked up at that. "Tae, baby.. it's not... You didn't do anything!" Taehyung stared out of the window hands clenched into fists. "And you.." He said shakily. " What do you think of it?" He choked on his words. " Does the thought of it disgust you?"

"What?" Jungkook sat up, whirling around, " Taehyung, what are you even saying?" The omega stared at him, his lips wobbling. "Don't lie to me. You ... You can't possibly be okay with it." He laughed in disbelief, " You can't tell me it won't change the way you see me."

Jungkook gripped the steering wheel harder. "Taehyung, I love you." He said quietly. " I love you because of who you are. I told you this. No matter what happened that night, the way i feel about you won't fucking change..." Taehyung shook his head. "I want to go home."

Jungkook swore, tugging his seat belt off and reaching for him but Taehyung pressed back. "Don't touch me." He whispered, voice breaking. " Please don't touch me." Jungkook felt his lips wobble. "Tae... Listen to me. I'm going to kill him. I am. I promise. Just.. Please."

Taehyung stared at him. "Would that make a difference?" He whispered. " Would that change anything?" Jungkook could only stare. "He was your friend." Taehyung whispered. " They all were. What did I ever do to any of you?" Jungkook closed his eyes, "Tae..." "Leave me alone."

Jungkook stared at him for a few more seconds. When he looked at him, he couldn't recognize him anymore. Or maybe he could and that was what terrified him. It was like he was looking at the Taehyung from months ago. The one who wanted nothing to do with him. "Tae..."

The omega didn't turn around at his name. He kept his gaze on the road , his body curled up and Jungkook realized that all the walls he had tried bringing down, they were up all over again. Twice as tall and so much more stronger. He swallowed. He didn't know what to say.

But he had the sinking feeling that there was nothing he could possibly say to change things. Taehyung had shut him out for good. He gripped the steering wheel and closed his eyes. "Let's go home, then." He whispered.

They drove home in silence. Jungkook kept looking at him through the rear view mirror but Taehyung couldn't bring himself to say anything or acknowledge him. Everything was crashing around him and he couldn't think straight. When they pulled up into the parking lot,

Jungkook got out of the car,. Coming around to open the door for him. Taehyung made to move past him but Jungkook blocked his way. "No." He said quietly. " We're not going back in there till we talk this out. I won't spend a night under our home with you mad at me. "

Taehyung closed his eyes. "Jungkook.. " "The night Yugyeom got hurt... You had another nightmare. " He said quietly, " But I think it was more of a flashback than a nightmare. You were talking to a doctor. " Taehyung stared at him, frowning. "A doctor? "

"I don't know what that means, let me go.. " He made to push past him and Jungkook pressed in closer. "You said, you weren't his boyfriend. But I don't know who You were talking about. " He said softly. " There were no doctors at the party. "

Taehyung shook his head. He closed his eyes, trying to conjure up an image. A doctor... A man? That night?.... Was he a doctor... Yes because he was wearing a white coat... Right? A white coat. He blinked. "A white coat.. He was wearing a white coat. " "What, who? "

Taehyung blinked. "I don't know. " Jungkook sat up. "He was wearing a white coat? " He hesitated, " So you thought he was a doctor.? " "What does that mean.. I.. Jungkook, I'm not sure if I'm remembering right.. You said doctor and I just.. Am I imagining things? "

"Hey.. " Jungkook said quickly. " Take deep breaths... It's okay.. " Taehyung did as he asked, breathing in and out. "White coat... What else? " What else.. What else... "I don't remember. " He whispered. "Okay." Jungkook said quietly, " That's fine. "

He was quiet for a few seconds and Taehyung sighed. "Let's just go-" Jungkook sat up quickly. "I don't think it was a doctor. " Jungkook said quietly. " Taehyung, we had white lab coats in the photography department. Do you think it was one of the guys from college? "

Taehyung frowned. "I... What? " "Taehyung if you were drowsy and out of. It, it's possible you saw the white coat and assumed he was a doctor. I don't think he was. " "Oh.."He swallowed, " What does that mean?" "If he's from the photography department, it's someone I know."

Taehyung blinked up at him then. "They smelled like almonds." He whispered, " I remember that. I'm sure of it." "I don't remember anyone having that kind of a scent." Jungkook sighed, shaking his head. " But if we look up the college website there's probably an alumni page."

Taehyung stared at him. "I don't remember his face." He protested. " I don't think I can-" "Tae, you didn't remember the white coat either but then when I talked about a doctor and a hospital you just remembered the white coat. What if the phot triggers a memory?"

Taehyung reached out, gripping his arm. "What if I do remember? What happens then?" "Then I hunt him down." Jungkook said firmly. " Tae look at me." He whispered, " I'm sorry for being an idiot. I ... i thought I was protecting you but.. I realize you don't need my protection.

"What you need is my support." Jungkook cupped his face, leaning in and resting his forehead against Tae's own. " And I'm here to give that to you. You want to find out what happened that night. We'll find out. We'll find every last detail and we'll make every one of them pay."

He breathed in , before leaning closer and kissing him, a soft, barely there kiss but a kiss nonetheless. "I love you." He whispered, " And you're right. This thing does change the way I see you. But not in the way you think. It makes me realize you're so much stronger than me."

He rubbed his thumb across his cheeks, back and forth, wiping up a few stray drops of tears. "I'm sorry for being such a sad excuse of an alpha. But please, just give me another chance, baby. I promise I'll do better." Taehyung leaned forward, wrapping his arms around him.

Jungkook's warmth was familiar and Taehyung didn't remember how that had happened. But as he let it seep. Into his. Own skin, he was grateful for it. Grateful for him.

Taehyung couldn't remember. The faces all started to Blur and his head began aching but none of them looked or seemed in anyway familiar to him. He squinted, over and over again at the small photos, but nothing clicked. " This is pointless. "He groaned.

Jungkook looked up from where he was digging through Yugyeoms laptop. "No luck? " The alpha asked worried, " No one seems familiar? " Taehyung shook his head. He had told Jungkook about the bartender and Jungkook had told him the man was a hired help.

If the drink had been spiked, it wasn't the bartender who did it. "There's a few folders here that Yug has locked. None of his usual passwords work. It must be something important. " Taehyung nodded. "We can ask him when he wakes up right? " Yug was still on painkillers.

They kept him drowsy and half unconscious and while he did blink up at them and offer small smiles, he was far from alright. "Why do you think he came back to Seoul? " Taehyung asked nervously. " He left for a reason so why is he back?" Jungkook turned around, looking troubled.

"My guess? " He sighed, " Because Yug survived the accident. " He linked hus fingers together before leaning forward. " Dad thinks I'm jumping the gun with this theory but it is what makes the most sense. Yug is a threat. I don't know how, but he is. And that's why he's back. "

Jungkook looked completely certain and Taehyung felt disquiet. "So Jaehyun paid someone to hit him with the car? " He swallowed. " Is that what you think? " "No cctv footage, a stolen car, they waited for you to step away from him... It's too much to be a coincidence. "

Taehyung felt cold all of a sudden. "Are you going to go back to work from tomorrow? " He whispered. Jungkook blinked, taken aback. "Well, yes. " He smiled, " I have to, Tae. " "What if he's trying to hurt you too? " Taehyung demanded. Jungkook laughed at that.

"No, listen." Taehyung said urgently, " Remember what happened in Jeju? What if he was responsible for that as well?" Jungkook gave him a thoughtful look at that. "If he does try again, we have to make sure we get enough evidence." He said simply. Tae made a sound of disbelief.

"No, we make sure he doesn't hurt you!" He said sharply, " Are you insane?" Jungkook grinned . "I'm a big boy, baby. I can take care of myself." HE winked before moving back to the screen . Taehyung reached out, grabbing his arm. "I'm serious, Jungkook. This is.. scary."

"You don't have to be scared, Tae." Jungkook gently squeezed his hand, smiling softy," I'll make sure you stay safe." "Can you stop with the meaningless platitudes and actually pay attention to what I'm saying?" He snapped, " If he's dangerous we shouldn't take any undue risks."

Jungkook sighed before shaking his head and reaching for him. Taehyung watched as the alpha took both of his hands in his own. "Come now," He said softly, " We're not going to run and hide from that bastard okay? He can't touch us. He doesn't have the balls to."

Taehyung shook his head, " Your friend lying in the next room should be proof enough that he can hurt us." He whispered, " Why are you being so stubborn about this?" "Because I can't step back." Jungkook said shortly." The only way this ends is if I bring him down."

"Jungkook-" "Taehyung, I trusted him." He said softly. " You're right. He was my friend. We spent so many hours together and in all that time he was out there thinking of harming someone so important to me." He shook his head, " I'm not letting him get away with that."

Taehyung didn't have anything to say to that. So he stayed quiet, looking down at his lap. Jungkook turned back to the computer and Taehyung stared at a stain on the floor. He was starting to feel a bit sleepy. Until, "Oh fuck, look! We have pictures from the night of the party."

Taehyung sat up at that, surprised. "Yug, my boy, i knew you'd come through." Jungkook whispered. " He must've gotten these from Jaehyun's cloud when he confiscated his personal computer last week. " He whispered. "Oh.. " Taehyung leaned in. His heart began racing.

He stared at the screen, the rows and rows of tiny icons and he felt a little faint. "That's a lot of pictures." "His family hired a professional photographer for that night. Tae, what if the guy in the white coat is here? And the guy who smelled like almonds too."

The alpha turned around to look at him and Taehyung gripped the edges of his seat, his pulse quickening as he stared at him and then at the screen. "What if they're there and I don't recognize them at all?" He said softly. " What if we'll never find out who they are?"

"They're not phantoms." Jungkook said sharply. " They're flesh and blood and we're going to find them. I don't doubt it at all." His fingers shook as he moved to open the first picture and Taehyung grabbed his wrist. "If we don't , I don't want you to blame yourself."

Jungkook stared back at him, eyes wide and vulnerable. "I don't need you to fight my battles and I certainly don't need you to win them for me." Tae smiled softly. " I'm just glad you're here. Just... Whether this works out or not... I don't want you to think you're to blame."

Jungkook held his gaze for a few seconds. And then he nodded, before leaning in and kissing him. "I love you." He whispered and Taehyung cupped his cheeks, smiling a little. "I love you too." He whispered. Time seemed to slow down as Jungkook opened the slideshow of pictures.

The first picture was a wide shot of the mansion. And Just like that, Taehyung was back there, all those years ago, standing in the driveway, looking up at the palatial building. The memory came alive inside him, so vividly he could feel the gravel underneath his feet.

Then came the lobby, the milling crown , all those scents. He gripped the edge of the table, eyes glued on the screen. The potted fern by the hallway leading to the side. Taehyung had stepped up to it and touched the leaves, soft and velvet like. "That's a fake plant."

He whispered and Jungkook glanced at him. Taehyung licked his lips. "Yeah?" The alpha asked, sounding worried. "You remember?" Taehyung nodded. "I do." He bit his lips. " I remember touching it." "Should I go on?" Taehyung took a deep breath. "Yeah".

More rooms and hallways. Faces, some familiar and other complete strangers. He wasn't there in any of the shots and neither was Jaehyun. On the seventeenth picture, Jungkook paused. "Is that-" He swallowed. Taehyung clenched his fists. "Yes." He whispered, " That's me."

Taehyung stared at his younger self, who stood to the side of the pool, watching the people in there. He had a small glass in his hand,his gaze trained on the water. "Look." Jungkook said softly , moving the small arrow onto the upper corner of the photograph. " There's me."

Jungkook was by side of a pillar, also nursing a drink, his gaze trained on Taehyung. Taehyung looked up at the alpha. "You were watching me." He said softly. "You were very beautiful." He sighed. " I remember this. Standing there, catching sight of you. Then i had to leave."

And when I came back you weren't there. " Jungkook sighed, running a hand over his face." I looked for you. Couldn't find you." "You were looking for me?" Jungkook nodded. "I told you. I wanted to ask you out." He scratched the back of his head. " I was nervous."

Taehyung stared at him, surprised. "You were nervous? About what? Asking me out?" He laughed in disbelief. " Don't be ridiculous. Everyone knew I was crazy about you." He whispered. "i wasn't nervous that you would say no. i was nervous you would say yes and then.."

"And then?" Taehyung asked, curious. "And then we would go out and you would realize how much I wasn't worth your time at all and how much you deserved better and then you would tell me that you regretted wasting all that time thinking of me." He finished. " I was nervous , yes."

Taehyung stared at him in disbelief. "You're joking." Jungkook turned to him. "No, I was desperate for a chance to undo a lot of things." He sighed, " To make better choices and just be with better people." He sighed. " It didn't work out that way though." Taehyung turned back.

"What next?" He asked softly. Jungkook moved to the next picture. More strangers. Then the next. And then the next. And then he paused. "Wait... Look!" Taehyung exclaimed, pointing. " Isn't that a white coat?" Jungkook frowned, zooming in. "Yeah that's..." He went still.

He pulled back, the movement sharp and rough. "Jungkook-" The alpha was staring at the screen , his eyes wide. "That's my coat." He whispered. Taehyung blinked rapidly. "What?" "My coat .. I lent it to my lab partner that day." He looked up. " His name is Yoon Jihoo."

Jungkook was looking at him now with a deep frown on his face. "Tae..." He whispered, " The almonds...was it like sweet or overpowering? Bitter?" Taehyung licked his lips. He knew what a sweet almond scent felt like. Seokjin smelled like that. But the scent from that night..

"it was bitter." He said softly. "Really strong and pungent. I couldn't breathe because of it and it was all over me... I.. I hated it. It was suffocating." Jungkook's face was pale as a sheet. "Tae... Fuck.." He whispered, " Fuck..." "Jungkook... Wait.. What's wrong?'

The alpha had stood up and was backing away from him. "Tae, that was me." he choked out. " I was the one who smelled like that."

Taehyung felt the ground give out from under his feet. "What?" He choked out. " No. Are you insane...? What are you saying..." He stood on shaky legs reaching for him but Jungkook was stumbling back, hitting the door. "My project.. " He choked out." it was.."

"Jungkook stop it," He said shakily, " You're not making any sense... That's not.." "The project that I did for my final assignment." He said shakily, " It involved a presentation on photography techniques throughout history" Jungkook swallowed. " One of those involved Cyanide"

"Cyanide?" Tae stared his heart racing and his mind fogging up. " What does that mean?" "Theres a technique where we use potassium ferricyanide to enhance highlights on greyscale prints." Jungkook whispered,"i worked on that and the scent..of it... it smells like bitter almonds."

Taehyung stared at him, his hands and feet going cold. Jungkook was staring at him. "Tae... Fuck... Was it me?" He whispered, eyes wide and Taehyung's entire body rebelled at the very thought of it. "No!" He screamed, glaring at him. " Are you out of your damned mind?!"

"i don't remember that night." Jungkook said shakily. "i don't fucking remember...What I did..." He shook his head. " What if I..." "Listen to me..." Taehyung said sharply. " Are you listening to yourself? You can't remember because someone spiked your drink. !"

He turned back to the picture. "Yoon Jihoon." He said shakily. " He's wearing your coat. Its him." He breathed in. " It has to be him. The scent probably came from the coat." He shook his head. "It has to be it. " He glanced back at Jungkook and the alpha looked lost.

"The scent wouldn't be on the coat." Jungkook said dully. " I told you. It was my project. My personal project i... I did it at home." He swallowed. " Tae... I... I think I fucked up." Taehyung stared at him. "No." He said shakily, holding a hand up[ and pointing right at him.

"Jungkook, stop that." He said sharply, his voice shaking. " That is a ridiculous idea and I want to punch you in the face for even thinking it." He growled. " There's an explanation for this. An explanation that makes sense. We need to find him." he pointed at the screen.

His fingers shook as he reached for the laptop, shaking as he opened a few social media sites. He would find the guy. It would be easy. They would find him and then everything would be clear. "Yoon Jihoon. SNU." He typed in, filtering through the search. He popped up at once.

He clicked on the link and froze. Because right there on his facebook page in block letters, Remembering Yoon Jihoon. Gone too soon. Celebrating a passionate young man. Taehyung felt the defeat wash over him in a wave. He stared at the page in disbelief. "What?"

Jungkook was watching him with pained, frantic eyes. Taehyung swallowed. "He's dead." He whispered.

Jungkook looked at him, his hands curled into fists. "Jungkook..." Tae whispered but the moment he moved towards him the alpha stepped back. "Tae..." He whispered, " I'm so fucking sorry." "Shut up." He snapped. " Don't you dare say it. Don't you dare think it, Jungkook."

But it was evident from the look on his face, that not only did Jungkook think it. He fully believed it. The alpha pressed a hand to his face. "i need to be alone." He said softly and Tae went still. "What?" He demanded, stunned, "No!" "I'm going to ask dad to pick you up."

Before he could respond, Taehyung was on him, arms wrapped around his shoulders , lips pressing against his, pinning him to the door. Jungkook grunted, taken off guard, hands instinctively gripping his waist. Taehyung pulled back till they were eye to eye.

"If you had hurt me that night, my body would remember it." He said sharply, " Even if my mind didn't, my body would. Everytime Jaehyun comes near me my skin crawls, although I don't remember what he did , I can fucking sense that he means me harm." Taehyung exhaled shakily.

"Look at me, baby." He whispered, cupping his face, " I've only ever felt safe when I'm in your fucking arms." He bit his lips, " Don't take that away from me, Jungkook, I'm begging you." He pressed in closer, " I need you here by my side, Jungkook. Don't leave me, please."

( A card given by Dr Lee to Jungkook during therapy)

The effect of it.

Tae stood in front of the mirror , staring at his reflection. There were dark shadows under his eye, and a greying pallor to his skin. Exhaustion was writ large on his features, and he could see the helplessness evident in his eyes. Through the reflection, he could see Jungkook.

The alpha lay on his side, curled under the sheets, knees drawn up to his chest, with his arms wrapped around his legs. He was asleep, although it was midday already and Taehyung had tried rousing him for breakfast. He had merely brushed him away and pulled the blanket closer.

It had been that way for about a week now. Ever since they had gone through the photos , Jungkook's withdrawal from him had been so painfully obvious, that Taehyung couldn't cope. He had never considered it possible, to have someone so close, to have them right there

in his arms, in his bed and yet feel like they were a million miles away. it felt like the early days of their marriage, except that Jungkook kissed him, yes, he hugged him and held him but Taehyung could feel him holding back, could feel the apprehension. He clenched his fists.

He doesn't deserve this, he thought shakily. Jungkook didn't deserve to feel like this. But there was nothing he could say or do , that seemed to get through to him. Jungkook's blank look whenever Taehyung told him that nothing happened between them night... it chilled the omega.

Jungkook didn't seem to believe him at all. Jungkook you didn't hurt me. You don't know that. Jungkook you would never hurt anyone. You don't know that. Jungkook that night it was someone else. You don't know that. Jungkook it's not your fault, How can you be sure.

He ran a hand over his face. He wanted to fix this. He had to fix this. He was the only one who could , but how? Jaehyun was here in Seoul. Taehyung didn't think he had returned without reason. There was something going on. And it all came down to that night.

"Mr. Kim?" A low voice said softly from the doorway, making him glance up. The caretaker stood by the threshold hesitant. Taehyung didn't miss the way her gaze flitted to the figure under the sheets. "What is it?" He asked quickly. "Yugyeom ssi is up. He's asking for you."

Taehyung nodded quickly, glancing at his reflection before moving to the bed, He leaned over Jungkook, brushing the alpha's hair back before kissing him firmly on the side of his head. "I love you." He whispered shakily, voice breaking a little. " Please come back to me, baby."

( is no one here? Live updating is only fun when you guys interact :'( )

He straightened quickly, tugging the blanket back onto his shoulders, and smoothing the pillows before turning to the door. He moved quickly to the guest room , smiling softly when he saw Yugyeom sitting up against the bed, swearing like a sailor as he tried to fix the pillow.

Taehyung chuckled, moving to his side and carefully tugging the pillow up against the headboard, before adding another as well. He helped the alpha lean back against it, holding onto his elbows. and Yugyeom sighed sinking back and groaning. "How are you feeling?"

He glanced up at Taehyung. "Like I got run down by a car and spent a few weeks unconscious." He grunted. Taehyung grinned, flicking his forehead and making him wince. "Stop being cruel princess , am I not in enough pain?" He glowered, " Where's Jungkook?" Tae swallowed.

Yugyeom had only started sitting around and talking the past week. Taehyung was wary of overwhelming him with anything. But he was also desperate. "He's ... " he paused, " resting for a bit. Yug, Jaehyun is back in Seoul." He muttered. The alpha grunted. "Yeah, I heard."

He held his phone up. "Where's my laptop? Its safe?" "Yes." Taehyung said quickly. " Its all safe." "And the videos?"Yugyeom asked quickly. " Did Jungkook make backups of it?" Taehyung stared at him. "Videos? What videos?" Yugyeom paused. "Oh, fuck." He closed his eyes.

"Where's Jungkook?" He asked urgently and Taehyung growled. "Yugyeom, Jungkook is convinced that he was somehow involved in whatever happened that night. That he somehow hurt me in some way and he's just...he's not even talking to me right now, so if you know anything, please..."

"They're encrypted videos that I got off of Jaehyun's computer." Yugyeom said quietly. Taehyung stared at him. "Did you decode them?" He asked shakily. "I was going to ." He sighed. " The night of the accident, I was supposed to get a hacker friend of mine to help me."

Taehyung licked his lips. "You think they're videos from that night?" He asked quietly. Yugyeom held his gaze. "Tae, there were over a hundred videos there." He whispered. " The first one dating back to nearly five years ago." Taehyung stared, thrown. "What does that mean?"

"I don't know." Yugyeom said with a shake of his head. " But its something huge if he's out there killing people for it." Taehyung wrapped his arms around himself. "The guy in Jeju do. The one who tried to hurt Jungkook. Do you think he was involved." Yugyeom nodded.

"There's no record of him anywhere, Tae." He said quietly. " And I think that's because , once he did what he was supposed to do... Jaehyun had every intention of killing him as well." Taehyung nodded. "We need to see whats in those videos." He said firmly. Yugyeom stared at him.

"Tae.." he said softly. " I need to talk to Jungkook." Taehyung stared right back. "I need to see those videos," he said carefully, " even if I'm in them." Yugyeom's face drained of all color. "So you... he told you." He whispered. Taehyung nodded.

"Yes." He said shakily, "And you know what?" He smiled shakily. "I'm not going to be scared. I'm not going to be traumatized by memories that aren't even there " he tapped his forehead. " I'm going to focus on what matters. And right now, the only thing that matters is Jungkook."

"I won't have my husband thinking that he's some kind of a monster. And the only way to do that is by bringing down the real monster. And I need your help for it." he bit his lips. " Please. I know you love him just as much as me if not more. I can't.. I can't lose him."

"Jungkook?" Taehyung called out hesitantly, knocking on the door to Jungkook's office. The bedroom was empty , as was the large open balcony. Taehyung hadn't heard the front door opening and so he assumed Jungkook was in there. "I'm busy, Tae." The alpha's voice was blunt.

( author's note : This particular arc is going to be quite painful ( and long ). So um.... brace yourself , I guess? )

Tae closed his eyes, emotions warring inside him. He could feel his mind, fractured right down the middle. One part telling him that Jungkook needed his space and the least he could do was give him what he needed. But the other part said if he didn't go in, he would lose him.

"Jungkook, I need to talk to you. And Yugyeom wants to talk to you too" there was a pause and then the sound of slow footsteps. Taehyung held his breath as the door opened. Jungkook stood dressed in his work clothes, camera around his neck. "I'll see him later. is that all?"

They stared at each other for a second and Taehyung could feel his lips start to wobble, because he didn't want Jungkook to look at him like this. He wanted the Jungkook who stared at him like he had hung the moon and the stars. "Don't do this. " He whispered. " Please. "

Just for a moment something seemed to flash over Jungkook's face. "Taehyung, " He said quietly. " You should go. " Taehyung reached for him and Jungkook stepped back. "Don't make this hard for me. " The alpha whispered. " You.. You should go. " "Go where, you bastard?! "

He growled, clenching his fists. " You can't do this to me. You... I was fine with not having you in my life. ' he snapped. " I was fine with just pining for you like a lovesick fool. You were the one who came to me. You told me you loved me. " He bit his lips. " Please. "

"You can't just take it all away from me. Don't you understand that I'm here because I love you. Because you're the most important thing to me.. " "You're here because you don't remember what happened that night. " Jungkook said quietly. " So what happens when you do? "

Taehyung stared at him. "So what? " He bit his lips. " This is it? You're just going to give up on us? " "I love you. " Jungkook said softly. " I don't deserve to but I do. And I just.. " He shook his head. " I can't do this. I can't look at you and not wonder if I.. "

Taehyung stared at him, before finally looking away. He nodded, fists clenched. "Okay." He said shakily. " Okay.. But... I'm not going anywhere. I'm going to remember what happened that night. Every single thing and I'm going to prove it to you that you weren't involved. "

Taehyung watched as Jungkook looked down and then away, and it hurt phyiscally, the way the alpha seemed to distance himself from him. Taehyung couldn't accept it. It stung and he wanted to reach out and shake some sense into him, but in a moment of devastating clarity,

he also knew that Jungkook was retreating, not because of Taehyung, but because of the voices in his own head. The ones that tell you that you're an intruder, that you're a burden, a bother, a nuisance. That nagging voice that tells you people would be better off without you.

The voice that told you that it was better to stay alone and not form meaningful connections, than to love someone deeply and then watch them leave. It was a voice that fed all of your insecurities, all of your fears and all of your worries, and ideally, it shouldn't be too loud.

Ideally, the voice from your family and friends and from the people who love you, it ought to drown out that particular voice but sometimes it was just too loud. And that was it really. Taehyung could yell himself hoarse, telling Jungkook about how much he loved him but,

there wasn't much to be done, was there, if the voice in Jungkook's head drowned it all out? But he wasn't going to give up. Jungkook had managed to get through the voice in Taehyung's head. Well, Taehyung would do it too. "I'm not going anywhere." He said again,

"I'm not leaving you , now or ever and I don't care if it takes you a decade to believe that." He swallowed, before turning away from him. As he walked away from the alpha, Taehyung felt a small tendril of hope that he would call him back. But Jungkook didn't.

The omega stepped out into the hallway and out of sight from him, before leaning back against the wall and closing his eyes.He clenched his fist, trying and trying to think of that night but as always there was nothing there that seemed to make any sense. What a fool he had been?

Running away from that night the past three years, telling himself that it wasn't important, that nothing had happened, that if he didn't remember then it wasn't worth remembering. Who knew? Maybe if he had tried to find out what happened three years ago, things would

probably be a lot different. Instead here he was on the verge of losing Jungkook. Because at the heart of it, that was what he feared the most. What if even if he remembered, it didn't really absolve Jungkook at all? What if, it was Jungkook he had smelled that night?

Two days later, Taehyung found Jungkook in their bedroom, throwing his clothes into a duffel bag. His heart leapt straight to his chest and his immediate thought was that Jungkook was leaving. Taehyung had refused to leave so, Jungkook was leaving instead. He stood frozen.

Jungkook glanced up at him, watching him for a second as he stood near the door. "i have an assignment," he said quietly, before Taehyung could say anything else. " I'll be gone for a couple weeks." Taehyung stared at him, licking his lips. "Where are you going?" "Aruba."

Tae blinked, not even sure where that was. "How far is that?" He asked shakily. Jungkook paused in the middle of slipping his clothes in. "About 9000 miles." He said casually and Taehyung felt his mouth go dry. "Don't go." He said shakily. Jungkook exhaled, standing straight.

"Taehyung this isn't..." He hesitated. " This isn't me running or something. This is my job. This is what I get paid for." He said quietly. " I've been missing a lot of photoshoots and if I don't get back in the game I'll lose my position in the company."

"Dad and mom are going to be here with you." He said firmly. "And I've asked Dad to have someone drop you off at school and pick you up after. Someone by your side all the time and" "And you? Are you taking a bodyguard too?Because last I checked,you were the one who got stabbed?"

Jungkook rolled his eyes. "Glad you think I can't take care of myself." He said casually, going back to the clothes and Taehyung fought to stay calm. "Jungkook just-" he hesitated. " Don't you want to find out what happened that night?" He demanded. Jungkook clenched his fists.

"Can you just-" He began but there was a knock on the door. It was the caretaker and she smiled at them, bowing in greeting. "Yugyeom ssi is asking for you, Mr. Kim." Jungkook glanced between them. "You should go." He said , turning away." Don't keep him waiting."

Tae blinked. "What is that supposed to mean?" He demanded. Jungkook looked up, his face just eerily devoid of any emotion. It was so reminiscent of the Jungkook he had known years ago that Tae felt chilled. "Nothing." He said casually."If he's asking for you, must be important."

He took a deep breath, closing his eyes. " You better not be implying something with that." he said shakily. " Because that's just... not fair at all." Jungkook chuckled at that shaking his head. "Taehyung , I didn't imply anything. Not my fault if your mind goes there."

Taehyung clenched his fists. "You know what..." he said sharply. " If something does happen between us, you'll only have yourself to blame because at least he listens to me . At least he's here for me instead of running away ." The moment he said it, he regretted it.

Jungkook went completely still at that and Taehyung made a sound of despair. "I didn't..." he said shakily, " I shouldn't have said that." He took a deep breath. " That's you best friend and I would never...he would never ..." He trailed off when Jungkook closed the bag harshly.

when the alpha made to move past him, Taehyung grabbed his arm. "I was angry" he whispered. " And upset and just.... Jungkook I miss you. That's all it is.. I would never do something like that, you know it." Jungkook shrugged. "Well, like you said, if you did, I wont blame you."

Tae stared as Jungkook reached for his hand, gently tugging it off his arm. "Jungkook..." Taehyung begged. "I'm going to greet your mom before leaving. Flight leaves in four hours. i need to go." he turned on his heel, walking away. Taehyung watched him leave, heart breaking.

"You don't have to do this." Yugyeom said softly, glancing at him out of the corner of his eye. Taehyung didn't say anything, merely staring right ahead. Yugyeom's friend was hunched over the laptop, while the pair of them sat on the couch.

Taehyung glanced at his phone, instinctively at this point, the way that he had been for the past week or so. Jungkook had texted him every other day, letting him know he was fine. Busy. But fine. Yugyeom had just started moving, albeit with a lot of help. "I'm fine."

He wasn't. Not really. He was angry , upset and frustrated. He was also heartbroken and miserable and feeling so fucking guilty. He hadn't told Yugyeom about that last exchange with Jungkook. He didn't think the alpha would ever forgive him for what he had said.

"I'm almost in." The guy had been throwing glances at Tae for a while now, " They've used a pretty innovative encryption method here. But child's play for someone like me." Yugyeom sighed. "He's married, jerk-off. Just get it done and stop flirting before I punch you."

The man rolled his eyes at that. "Whatever. If his marriage actually means something, maybe he shouldn't be cheating on his husband." he said with a shrug. Taehyung sat up at that. "What is that supposed to mean?" he demanded. "What? Anyone can tell you two are fuck-"

"If you finish that sentence, I swear to God, I'll come over there and rip your tongue right out of your mouth." Yugyeom said with gritted teeth. " Remember, you're here because you fucking owe me. So shut your fucking mouth and do you job and get out of here." The guy scoffed.

Taehyung buried his face in his hands. It was like his head ache hadn't dulled, not even a little, since that particular argument with Jungkook. And everyone around him seemed intent of exacerbating it with their words and actions. "Hey." Yug said softly, reaching out to him.

He lightly squeezed Taehyung's hand, drawing back quickly. "Sorry about that, he's such a dickhead, I know. But he's the best in his trade." he sighed. " And he owes me a huge favor so I know he will keep quiet about this." Tae smiled, "i understand." he said softly.

Taehyung stared at a small stain on the wallpaper, light brown and close to the windowsill. " Do you want to talk about it?"Yugyeom asked after a few more minutes. Taehyung glanced at him. "Whatever's bothering you." the alpha responded at once. Tae watched him for a second.

"Why?" he said softly. "What do you mean?" "Why do you think there's something bothering me." Yugyeom scoffed. "Princess, you can't be-" "Why do you call me that?" Yugyeom paused, staring at him. "It never bothered you before." he said casually." What's changed?"

Taehyung sighed, rubbing the heel of his hand against his eyes. "It doesn't bother me." he said softly, " I just want to make sure that things are okay between us." Yug stared. "I care about you. Deeply. Because I love Jungkook and you're the most important person in his life."

Taehyung nodded. "I know." he said quietly. " It's just that-" "I'm in!" The guy stood up, punching the air with a whoop. " Oh, wow that's a lot of videos. Is it porn?" He leaned over . "Get away from that." Yugyeom snapped and the man straightened, holding his hands up.

"Okay! Home videos then." he grinned glancing back and forth between the pair of them. " Have fun, you two." he stared at Taehyung. " When's the husband getting back? Not for a few weeks I guess?" "Get out." Yugyeom snapped. The man packed his stuff up and Tae watched him leave.

They stared at each other for a few seconds. " What do you think is in there?" he asked quietly and Yug sighed. "i don't know. Something that's worth killing for clearly." Taehyung swallowed. "If its something illegal. Can we press charges? Would be not remembering it matter?"

Yugyeom hesitated. "I think we should watch the videos first. Don't you?" Taehyung nodded. "Yeah." He took a deep breath. Yugyeom hesitated. "Are you sure? I can watch it myself. You don't have to-" "No..I just...wish Jungkook was here." he whispered." That's all."

Yugyeom nodded. "I know. I've been trying to call him for days. He won't pick up my calls." Taehyung felt his heart drop at that. "Yugyeom, I'm-" "Don't apologize." the alpha said firmly. " He'll come around. Eventually." He smiled. " Most idiots do." Tae laughed.

"Hey." Yugyeom smiled. " I know him. Really well, I'd like to believe. You're all he thinks about. Even when things were rough between you two. His mind was filled with you. understandable. You're a beautiful person, inside, out." He reached out and squeezed his hand.

Taehyung nodded. "Thank you for saying that." he turned back to the laptop. " Let's do this then."

"This is the first one?" Taehyung asked softly. "Yes. Dates back to a long time ago." Yugyeom said hesitantly." very pixelated. Probably recorded on a flip phone." Taehyung nodded. As the video played he felt revulsion creep up his spine. "Come on. Just a little kiss."

Jaehyun's voice was recognizable even over the poor quality video. The other person in the video wasn't visible. It was clearly a girl. A young one at that. She giggled. "Oppa.. i can't." "Just one. Please. Don't you like me? I bought you all that stuff you wanted."

Taehyung tuned himself out at that. Because he knew exactly what was coming. It was how Jaehyun had always been. Entitled and arrogant and uncaring of boundaries between right and wrong. Consent and non consent. "This perverted fuck." Yugyeom whispered, as the video ended.

"Next one?" Taehyung said softly. "You sure?" "he sounds young in this. 15, 16 at most." he sighed. " We don't even know if he's recording it with her consent or not." "Okay. Let's see the next one" It was the same girl. Sitting on a bed.

Taehyung didn't miss the reluctance , both in her pose and her gaze as she looked around the bedroom. "I don't think I should be here." she said quietly. "It's alright. My parents are out . We'll have more privacy here." Jaehyun responded, shifting closer to her on the bed.

(tw : this is some pretty disturbing stuff please don't read if it makes you uncomfortable.)

Taehyung turned away, closing his eyes, not wanting to see anything else. The sound of it was enough. He sighed deeply, listening to Jaehyun violate and coerce someone who didn't really understand what was happening to her. He glanced back at Yugyeom who was watching.

"Revolting, isn't it?" he whispered. Yugyeom gave him a blank look. "The next video?" Tae nodded. "What other choice do we have?" he muttered , closing his eyes again. This time the girl was on the bed crying. "Please don't make me do this.. I don't want it." she was sobbing.

Taehyung had a brief flashback to himself, pushing him away. Telling him much the same thing. But No didn't mean anything to Jaehyun, who only ever cared about one thing. "Next one?" Yugyeom's voice was shaking. Taehyung hesitated. "This is hard for you. Are you alright?"

Yugyeom closed his eyes, running a hand over his face. "How did he get away with this for years?" he muttered. "Money." Taehyung said simply. " Power. No body holds you accountable for your actions, this is what happens. You lose all sense of what's right and what's wrong."

"He has no remorse." "Most abusers don't." Taehyung smiled." Play the next one." In the next video, Jaehyun blackmailed the girl with threats of sending her parents the videos he had made. Taehyung sighed. A 16 year old boy doing this to another human being. It was unfathomable.

They went through the videos. More assaults. More girls. On the seventeenth video, Yugyeom paused. "Hey, look at this." He muttered and Taehyung leaned in at the two figures on the bed. "That's not him." He said softly. " Who is it?" "I don't know." The two young people kissed.

Tae felt sick. "They don't know they're being recorded." he whispered. Yugyeom looked stricken as well. "Look at the blurred edges to the video. Something blocking the full view. It looks like fabric." Tae noticed the smudged boundaries. "The camera's hidden in the closet."

"Great. Voyeurism. " Yugyeom grunted, shaking his head in disbelief. " What next, I wonder? " Taehyung watched the video play out, skipping most of it. A few more videos down , they had to pause again. "These people look older. " Yugyeom said softly. "I know them."

"You do? " Taehyung nodded. "That's... Wait... It's that guy.. Oh God... It's.. Jungkook's lab partner. " He said shakily. "What? " Yugyeom frowned. "Wait.. Look closely... " He said sharply. " He's acting a little weird.. It doesn't look natural. "

A few more videos down, it became obvious why. "Kiss her. " Jaehyun's voice came over the video. On the screen, Yoon Jihoo did as he was asked. " Harder. Make it hurt... " Taehyung felt bile rise inside him. "Fuck... That's enough. Turn it off. " He choked out.

Yugyeom's hands shook a little as he did just that. "This is so fucked up. " He muttered. "So what, he couldn't get it up so he just made this other guy act out his fantasies? " He shook his head. " That's just so fucking sick. " " No wonder he killed him. "

"He what? " Yugyeom stared at him in disbelief. "He's dead. I don't know how but this kind of tells us why. " He licked his lips. They stared at each other. "Do we need to watch more? " "We need to see if there are any from that night. " He swallowed.

Tae closed his eyes as Yugyeom skipped a few videos and played one. And then they both went completely still. The figure on the bed was small curled up against the headboard shaking a little. The figure by the bed was taller, broader and menacing. Tae felt his breath catch.

"Is that...? " Yugyeom said shakily. "It's Yoongi. " Taehyung whispered in disbelief. " It's Yoongi and his dad. " The churning in his gut intensified and he couldn't hold it in anymore. The omega stumbled up and away, moving to the bathroom and retching violently.

He gripped the edges , heaving again and again, emptying the contents of his stomach. He felt dirty and tainted. Forever impure just by virtue of what he had seen. "Tae.. " Yugyeom called out. " You alright? " "This is it. " He said shakily. " That's what he's been hiding. "

Taehyung stumbled out , back into the room. "He put the cameras up in Yoongis room. " He said shakily, pointing at the screen. " Like he did with those other people... He wanted to record Yoongi but then..." He swallowed. " He probably didn't expect to see his dad there. "

Yugyeom hesitated. "Do you think he was trying to record Jungkook and Yoongi.. " He whispered. Taehyung went still. "Fuck... I can't do this.. " He said shakily. " This is sickening... And unfair... " "Do you think Yoongi knows? " They both stared at each other.

"No." Taehyung shook his head. " There's no way he knows. " Yugyeom nodded. "He trusted him. " He said quietly. " I know he did. " Tae wrapped his arms around himself. "He was preying on every single person around him. " He whispered. " Even the people he called friends."

"Well, his friends would be the ones least likely to suspect a thing. The closer you are the less clear the flaws appear." he sighed. Taehyung stared at the screen for a few more seconds. "What's the latest video?" he asked quietly. "Its not the night of the party."

"No? " "No. And it has a password. It's the only video that has one. " He said quietly. Taehyung frowned. "Really? " "I called Yong again. He told me to send it to him and he'll let us know. " "There's no video from that night then? " Yugyeom seemed hesitant.

Taehyung had seen that look on Jungkook's face enough times to not recognize it. "Oh, please for the love of God, don't.. " He said sharply. "Tae, you don't know what could be in it. I don't think you should rush into.. " "Play it. " He said sharply. "Tae." "Just play it."

Taehyung stared at the length of the video and frowned. "Over two hours? ." he felt sick already. " Okay. I'm ready." He wasn't . He didn't think he would ever be. The screen flickered to life. Three guys stood crowded around the camera. Taehyung recognized Hoseok, Jihoon.

"this angle." Yugyeom frowned, pressing pause and then leaning in. " Its like the camera is ..." "In his pocket." Tae said simply. " Probably in a pen or something like that." "Fucker really went around recording people without their consent." Yugyeom swore. "Play it."

"You had one fucking job!" Jaehyun's voice was loud. "Hey , don't get mad at me. You told me to hand the drink over to whoever came with Hoseok." the third guy said with a shrug. " I did exactly what you asked me to do." "Did you spike the drink?" Hoseok demanded," Be honest!"

"He probably recorded it so he could take the others down with him if he got caught for it." Taehyung muttered. "Yeah, whatever, Hoseok. If you're going to act all high and mighty now, just get the fuck out of here." Jaehyun snapped. " You hate Jungkook anyway."

"Doesn't mean I want to drug him up. What the fuck..." He snapped. "Whatever. It wasn't for him anyway. You screwed up. The guy's unconscious in that room. Just go punch him or something if you're that pissed." Jihoon chuckled. "Whatever, just give me my money, Jae."

Taehyung watched as Jae handed over a wad of bills to the third guy, who promptly sauntered away. The bartender, he realized. "This is fucked up. I'm done with this." Hoseok shook his head before turning on his heel but Jae grabbed his arm. "Don't breathe a word about this."

Hoseok was staring right at him. "If you do...that video of your beloved Yoongi getting roughed up by his own dad? Gets plastered all over the college forum. You understand?" Hoseok closed his eyes. "Right. Fuck you." Tae watched him leave , an icy cold fist squeezing his heart.

And then it was just Jihoon and Jaehyun. Taehyung stared at the labcoat the other had on. The JJK embroidered on the lapel. He recognized the style of it. Jungkook's mother had done that for him probably. He suddenly felt unaccountably furious. None of these people deserved him.

"So, what now?" Jihoon asked casually. Jaehyun didn't respond right away. "He's still around here somewhere." He said with a shrug. " Let's just find him." "And what about Jeon?" Jihoon frowned. " Just leave him there?" "Why? You wanna have fun with him?" he grinned.

Jihoon chuckled. "Tempting but no. Alphas aren't my type. But now that you mention it...maybe someone else would want to?" Jaehyun laughed. "Maybe some other time. For now, I need to find that omega of mine." "Yours?" Jihoon scoffed." Yeah, right. He hates you."

They began walking and the camera shifted around, before plunging into darkness. "The pen must've moved." Yugyeom muttered. "Maybe that's a good thing." Taehyung whispered. The screen was dark now with just the sound from the party and casual empty conversations between

Jaehyung and random people. Taehyung realized that no one guess just how fucked up the alpha was. As far as they were concerned, he was a rich , handsome alpha, intelligent and smart. The minutes ticked by. They sat in silence, listening. And then after a whole forty minutes,

came a familiar voice. "No thank you. I don't want anything to drink." Taehyung heard himself and sat up. So did Yugyeom. "Since when do you not drink, TaeTae?" Jae's voice was low and almost affectionate. " Come on, loosen up a little." Tae closed his eyes.

"I drank already." Taehyung heard the slight slur in his own words. I sound drunk, he thought miserably. Had he gotten drunk? He didn't remember. There was a pause. "Are you a doctor?" he was asking. "You should have a drink with your boyfriend." Jihoon insisted.

"He's lying." Tae heard himself say. " He's not my boyfriend." "Are you sure?" Jaehyun chuckled. " i think I am." "He's lying , doctor." Tae could hear the drowsiness in his tone. " I don't... I'm not his... We've never.... Ow.. my head hurts..." "Fucking hell." Yug whispered.

"Let's get you some water." Jihoon said slowly, like he was talking to a child and then there was the sound of shuffling, the muffled sound of someone being tugged along. Taehyung turned, holding Yugyeom's gaze as the audio faded into nothing but the sound of footsteps.

"i was drunk." he whispered. Yugyeom sighed. They turned back to watch the dark screen, the sound of the party starting to fade. "They're taking you somewhere secluded." Yugyeom whispered. Taehyung didn't respond. He kept his gaze on the monitor. "Don't touch me."

It felt odd, watching something , knowing it was real, knowing it had happened, happened to him, to be more precise and yet not feeling a thing, not remembering a thing. Deep down, a small part of Taehyung had truly believed, that just a glimpse of this video, would

trigger his memory, would make recall all those things he had supposedly buried deep inside him. But as he watched the pitch black screen, heard the muffled, subdued sound of breathing , the sound of someone inebriated, trying to put up a feeble protest, all he felt was numb.

The soft whispers, interspersed with little chuckles and laughs, made it all the more unnerving, because it reminded him that to Jaehyun and his friend, he was merely a game. He was just a joke. A thing of entertainment. They had no reticence, not even a little bit of hesitancy.

No regrets, either. No remorse. "You think this will work?" Jihoon was saying. "Of course it will. I switched out his suppressants months ago." Taehyung felt his heart drop straight down to his knees at that. "Dude, how the fuck did you do that? " "His mother. "

"No way. Really? " Jihoon laughed out loud. " That's fucked up." "Not really when you think of it. She's a good mom. Looking out for her kid. Making sure that he gets together with a good guy. That's good parenting right there don't you think? " Jaehyun muttered.

"I can't listen to this. " Taehyung said quietly. Yugyeom reached out, stopping the video right away. "Tae, I'm so fucking sorry. " The alpha whispered. "This can't be right. " He said shakily. " He's lying. She wouldn't do something like that. Right? "

"We don't have to watch this. " Yugyeom said softly. " It's okay. We can turn this off... " "Would that undo it? " Tae said shakily, turning to stare at the alpha." How does it matter if we turn it off now? This.. " He pointed, " Already happened. They already did this to me."

"Taehyung... " "No." He said shakily. " It's alright. It's fine really. I'm okay. I need to know. " The omega reached for the laptop again, turning the video back on. "wait what the fuck is this bastard doing here? " Jaehyun swore. "Who? " Jihoon asked. Footsteps.

"Someone's running towards them. " Yugyeom said softly. "What are you doing here, Sungyyu? " Jaehyun's voice was loud and harsh. " Fucking creep I swear to God. " Yugyeom coughed in disbelief. "Look who's talking, " He muttered under his breath. "Sunggyu..? " Tae frowned.

"What the fuck... He was there? " "Your father sent me, Jaehyun-ah.. " The voice was low and oily almost. "He wants to see you right now. Right away. " "What the fuck, man? " Jihoon frowned. " What does your old man want? " " Fuck. I don't know. Tell him I'm busy. "

"No... He's waiting out there. He wants you to come see him right now." "Fuck." Jaehyun swore. " Wait... Jihoon, you and Sungyyu, go put him somewhere.." He muttered. "What do you mean somewhere? Where?" "Go put him in the room with Jungkook." Jaehyun snapped. " I'll be back."

"You'll be back?" Jihoon demanded. " Are you sure ?"? Just go be useful for once. Put him there and I'll come back in a few. " More shuffling, movement and then silence. "You better not be fucking lying, Sunggyu." Jaehyun muttered. Taehyung paused the video.

"I'm not there anymore." he said quietly. "No." "They put me in there with him." "Yes they did." "So that's it?" He shook his head in disbelief, " They didn't.. No one touched me." Yugyeom exhaled shakily. "I don't think they did." "Okay." Taehyung breathed out. " Okay."

"there's still a lot of the video left." Yugyeom pointed out. "Should we play it then?" Taehyung whispered. "Yeah. And I have a feeling, I know exactly what we're going to be hearing." "What do you mean..." "Listen..." Yugyeom pressed the play button. The sound of a car door.

"What the fuck have you been upto, you useless piece of shit?" "Is that?" Taehyung whispered, "Jaehyun's father. Yes." "The girl's parents are up my ass, threatening to file rape charges." "Whatever, she wanted it." Jaehyun muttered. The sound of flesh hitting bone.

"How many fucking times do I Have to tell you? You want to fuck her, do it but don't fucking leave evidence behind. What if he takes it to the cops? " "If he was going to, he would have already. He came to you cos he wants money. Just throw some at his face and let me go. "

"Don't you understand what I'm saying, you fool? " The older man growled. " She recognizes you. She wants to press charges, they don't want our money. You're coming with me. We're going to talk to them and you're going to fucking apologize for what you did. " The car turned on.

The car ride was silent. Silent but the air was so charged with tension, Taehyung felt like he was right there with them, in that enclosed space, listening to their breathing. His hands curled into fists. What must it be like, he wondered, to be this cold? To be this cruel?

Heartless and uncaring of whatever pain they caused other human beings. The silence was stiffening but it was also loud. Seemingly echoing with the aches and whimpers of everyone Jaehyun had ever hurt in his life. He closed his eyes for a second until he heard the car door again.

"What is this place?" Jaehyun demanded. "Shut up and walk." More silence, footsteps. "I'm going to go out on a whim and say they're heading to meet the father and the girl." Yugyeom said softly. Taehyung turned to him for a second. He then paused the video. "Hey." he said.

"what's wrong?" Yugyeom looked worried. " You alright?" Taehyung smiled softly, before reaching out and lightly squeezing his hand. "Nothing. I'm fine... Just... Thank you for doing this with me. I appreciate it." Yugyeom stared before chuckling. "Don't make it weird, princess."

Taehyung smiled a bit at that, before shaking his head and turning back around. "I care about you." Yugyeom said softly. " You're... Jungkook's husband. And there's no one here on earth I care about more than your husband so , some of that spills onto you too. you know?"

Taehyung laughed a little at that. "Well, I am quite grateful for any scraps of affection that fall from the master's table." he teased , making the alpha roll his eyes a bit. "Shut up and-" The sound of gunshots ringing made both of them freeze. Yugyeom stared.

"What the hell was that?" he whispered, staring at the screen in disbelief. Taehyung felt his hands begin to shake as he carefully rewound the video to a minute earlier. There was chatter, indistinct. A lot of yelling. "You think you can pay me to shut my mouth?!"

"Never. I'll have you behind bars for what you did to my daughter you-" Gunshots. "Oh fuck. Oh fuck.." "What the fuck did you do, Jaehyun!!" His father's scream rang through the screen. "There." Jaehyun's voice was eerily quiet. " Problem solved."

The recording ended. Taehyung couldn't breathe. He couldn't think or breathe. "This is it." Yugyeom said shakily. " This is what he's been trying to hide." He shook his head. " Oh, this murderous son of a bitch..." "This is evidence, right? Enough to get him arrested?"

"This is what happened that night ." Taehyung said shakily. " This is what he's been hiding. Not me. Not something he did to me. But this. Murder. He murdered someone in cold blood." He stared up at Yugyeom. " We need to go to the cops." Yugyeom shook his head. "Not yet."

"What?" He shook his head in disbelief. " What are you talking about? We need to..." "We need to talk to Mr. Jeon. And we need to get to Jungkook. If it's this serious, Jaehyun's going to go after him." "Yes, so cops?" "No." Yugyeom shook his head, " Tae...Trust me?"

Taehyung stared at him, confused and disoriented. "I..what??" "Do you trust me?" "I don't... know." He shook his head. " I mean... yeah... I think..." "Good enough for me. I need you to take this video and head to Mr. Jeon's office. " Tae stared at him. "I'm not leaving you."

"Well you have to because in case you didn't notice, I can't fucking walk." Yugyeom snapped. " Listen okay? Jaehyun's back in town today. Mr Jeon left a security guy here to watch over the apartment right? You're gonna take him and go over to the office." "Don't do this to me.."

"Don't worry about me, okay. We let Jaehyun's father know we have this video it gives us tremendous leverage. And we need that right now. We take this to the cops, the man has enough power to bury it so deep, it will never see the light of day. I need time . "

"Time? Time for what?" "Time to find out who he shot." Yugyeom said softly. " Who was the girl? Who was the father? Did he kill both of them or did the girl survive? You don't hear her in the audio. She was probably not there because if she was, there would be screaming."

Taehyung wrapped his arms around himself, his skin turning ice cold and fingers starting to shake a little. "Yug.." "Hey..." The alpha whispered, " Its okay. This is good. We're on the right path. We know the monster's weakness. We just have to play it smart, and we'll get him."

Taehyung clenched his fists, nodding shakilybut his heart was racing and his skin felt like ice. "I'm scared..." He whispered. " I.. I wish Jungkook was here." Yugyeom swore at that, before reaching out and cupping his face hesitantly.

"It's okay. I'm here. " He said. " You're going to be okay. And this guy." he pointed at the screen. " This guy deserves to rot in hell for what he did, don't you think?" Taehyung nodded , tears welling a little. "For what he did to you and to all those other people.

"We're going to make sure he pays for it, okay , Tae? But i need you to help me out here. I need you to get this to Mr. Jeon, and I need you to tell him to get Jungkook back home, yeah?" Taehyung closed his eyes and nodded. "Okay..." he whispered. " Okay. I can do that."

"Are there more copies of this?" Mr. Jeon asked quietly. Taehyung sat on the couch with his hands clasped together on his lap, fingers linked and trembling just a little. "Yugyeom said there's enough of them." He whispered. Mr. Jeon nodded. "I'll take care of this." he said.

He looked up, staring right at him. "I don't want you, Yugyeom or Jungkook to get involved with this anymore. This.." he pointed at the video playing on the screen. " This is dangerous territory Taehyung. I will not have my children getting hurt. Do you understand me?"

Taehyung swallowed. "Will you ask Jungkook to come back here?" His voice shook, " I... I'm worried for him." Mr. Jeon glanced up at him and sighed deeply. "He's not alone. I have people looking out for him. He's safer out of the country. At least till this dies down."

Taehyung bit his lips. "Can i go to him, then?" He whispered. Mr. Jeon looked surprised. "Why didn't you? Earlier?" Taehyung looked away. The answer was painful to think of. He hadn't gone with him because Jungkook hadn't wanted him to. But saying it out loud was difficult.

"I miss him." He said instead. " I.... Its only been a little while , I know but I miss him. A lot." Mr. Jeon gave him a small smile. "You're part of the evidence here, Taehyung." He said gently, pointing at the video. " It would help if you stayed here. I'm sorry."

Taehyung felt cold all over. For how long? HE couldn't ask. What if it was long enough for Jungkook to realize he could live without him after all. "Are you alright?" Mr. Jeon asked carefully. Taehyung managed a small smile. "I.. yes." He cleared his throat. " I understand."

He made to stand up but Mr. Jeon held a hand up. "I would rather you stay here. With us." he said firmly. " I can keep an eye on..." "No." Taehyung said shakily. " Please... I need to go home. Our home. I... I have to be there." The apartment had Jungkook's scent, at least.

Mr. Jeon looked like he wanted to argue, but something in Taehyung's gaze seemed to make him change his mind. "Alright. I'll send someone to drop you off. Don't go anywhere, both of you. I'll let you know how things are progressing." He hesitated. " Are you sure you're fine?"

Taehyung managed a weak smile. "I will be. Thank you, father." He bowed politely. Mr. Jeon smiled. "It feels good when you call me that, Taehyung ah. I wish you would do it more often." Taehyung smiled at that, nodding again.

Mr. Jeon watched him leave, feeling oddly troubled. His wife was usually much better at picking out feelings and emotions than he was , but he couldn't shake the feeling that Taehyung's worry and fear ran deeper than he let on. But he didn't know why.

"What do you mean, we can't get involved?! We were the ones who found the video." Yugyeom said sharply, eyes blazing a bit. "He thinks its unsafe." Taehyung reasoned and Yugyeom swore, fists clenched as he leaned back against the bed. "Fuck.. i just want to watch him burn."

"I know." Taehyung said quietly. He glanced at the clock. "Are you hungry? Do you want me to fix you something, to eat?" Yugyeom turned to look at him. "You okay?" He asked. Taehyung shrugged. "I'll be fine. Food?" Yugyeom didn't respond. "Did Jungkook call you?"

There was something in his tone that made Taehyung pause. A hesitance, almost worry. He stared at the alpha for a second and it took him a few more moments to understand why he looked so wary. "He called you." He said thoughtfully. " Right?" Yugyeom groaned. "This fucking idiot."

Taehyung felt something ugly bubble up inside him for some reason, a bitter feeling of frustration and anger , spreading all over him and making him sick. He tasted bile on his tongue and had to physically stop himself from screaming at the unfairness of it all. "Tae.."

He stood up, ignoring Yugyeom's voice calling for him and made a beeline for the kitchen, and the smaller door that led out into the balcony. He opened the app that would let him send Jungkook a voice message and took a deep breath. "Do you want to break up with me?"

The moment the words left his mouth , the sobs he had been fighting spilled right behind them and he couldn't quite breathe as he cried. "If you do, you have to tell me now, so I'm gone by the time you get back. If you can't talk to me, if you want to shut me out,

then do it properly , you coward. So I don't waste every second of every day, hoping and aching for something that I no longer even believe in." He swallowed. "If you don't respond to this, I'll be gone by the time you get back, I swear to God , Jungkook-" The doorbell rang.

Taehyung jumped a little, startled by the sudden sound, nearly dropping his phone. He frowned, pulse quickening a bit. Mr. Jeon had said his men wouldn't let anyone up to the apartment at all. Then who... He picked his way to the front door before staring out of the peephole.

His heart dropped straight to his knees as his eyes took in the familiar form of his husband, standing there right outside the door. He threw the door open, mouth still parted in surprise . Jungkook looked a little thinner, his hair messy and his shirt wrinkled. "Tae... "

Taehyung felt himself sag a little in relief, but his anger was still there, remnants of his emotional outburst still clinging to the forefront of his brain and he choked on a sob. "How dare you.. " He whispered. " You cruel, heartless.. " Jungkook tugged him close.

He felt the tears brim over as the alpha placed a hand on the back of his head, stroking his hair and holding him against the warmth of his chest. "Tae, I'm so.. " "No." Taehyung snapped. " Don't..don't apologize. " He choked out. " You have no right to apologize to me. "

He closed his eyes, fingers gripping the back of Jungkook's jacket in a vice-like grip. "Don't apologize because I am nowhere ready to forgive you for what you did to me. " He whispered. Jungkook swallowed, hugging him closer and pressing his lips to the curve of his neck.

"Okay.. " Jungkook whispered. " Can I tell you I love you instead? '

Taehyung felt his lips wobble at that, more tears spilling down his cheeks as he held him closer. "If you leave me again, I won't be there when you get back.. " H whispered. " I want you to remember that. I'll fight for us but I won't do it alone, Jungkook. "

Jungkook nodded, pulling back just enough so he could stare at him, hands coming up to cup his face.His thumbs wiped at the tears staining Tae's cheeks, his eyes heavy with exhaustion. Tae sighed, pressing a palm to his chest. "Did you eat? " He whispered. " You've lost weight."

Before Jungkook could reply, a loud voice rang out of the guest room. "If you're done making out, come and greet me too you bastard. " Yugyeom yelled and Taehyung rolled his eyes. Jungkook grimaced. "Now it feels like I'm home " He grunted.

Taehyung pulled away from him already feeling bereft and Jungkook hesitated before stepping closer and hugging him again. Taehyung sighed as the alpha breathed in his scent, trembling a little in his arms. "I missed you. So much I thought I would die from the ache of it. "

Taehyung smiled softly at that. "You did that to yourself. " He muttered and Jungkook chuckled weakly. "Yes, I did. " He whispered. " I'm not very smart at all." "Won't argue with that. " Tae pulled back to stare at him. " Don't do that again. We deserve better. You and I. "

Jungkook looked away, dropping to the floor as he nodded, hands reaching out to gently grip his waist. "I..." he hesitated. " I skipped my meds." He swallowed. " I'm sorry." Taehyung felt his heart drop at that. "You..what?" "I didn't mean to. It was only for a few days."

Taehyung felt words bubble up inside him, laced with upset and anger, but he had to bite his lips to swallow them down. He didn't want to accuse Jungkook right now. He was lucky the alpha had even chosen to get back to him. Jungkook's comfort took precedence to his feelings.

"I...alright." He exhaled. " You've started taking them again?" Jungkook gave him a small shrug. "I guess." Taehyung felt his breathing go erratic at the dismissive tone to the words. "You..guess?" He demanded. " Jungkook...what are you.." "Can we talk about this later?"

The last time you skipped your meds you had a seizure, Taehyung wanted to shout. But he held his tongue, nodding hesitantly. "Okay." He nodded. " Later. But we are talking." Jungkook smiled a little. "Its nice to see you worry about me." He whispered. Tae didn't smile.

"It shouldn't be." He said softly. " It doesn't make feel good. Worrying about you. It feels like my insides are twisting together in knots , like I can't breathe. It really hurts me when you make me worry about you, Jungkook. I don't know why it should feel nice to you."

Jungkook recoiled a bit at that. "I'm sorry." He said quietly and Taehyung shook his head, wrapping his arms around himself. "I... " he paused. " There's nothing I wouldn't do for you Jungkook. There's no one i have loved more than you. . I want you to remember that."

"I didn't forget that, Tae." Jungkook whispered. " How could I possibly forget that." But you still ran, Taehyung thought miserably. You knew how much I loved you but it wasn't enough to keep you by my side. He nodded. "Alright. Just... you should wash up. and then we'll talk."

( also it's been a while so I will repost this warning : if I find anyone attacking any of the characters in this fic I will block you. This fic is intensely personal to me. Any comment that sounds rude or dismissive of anyone will be blocked. Sorry but thats' how it is.)

Tae found his mother out in the balcony, staring out with a blank look on her face. She looked peaceful, her hair washed and blow dried, her dress neatly pressed. There was a ball of yarn on her lap, and she ran her fingers over it, while the caretaker sat at her feet, knitting.

Taehyung leaned against the frame, watching her for a few seconds before straightening. After watching the video, a number of things had begun to clear up inside his head. Disjointed scenes, that once made no sense, now did. He moved closer to her side, before smiling a little.

"Can I have a few moments with her?" He asked carefully and the caretaker nodded at once, standing up and packing up the scarf she was knitting, before lightly touching his mother on the shoulder. Taehyung waited till she had left before moving around to take her place.

He picked the small ball of yarn and gently ran his fingers over it. He felt upset all of a sudden at the unfairness of it all. All his life, she had controlled him. Controlled his thoughts and his feelings and his emotions. And now, even in this state, she controlled him.

Because how could you accuse someone who was stripped bare of all the things that made them human. How did you demand reparations from someone who no longer remembered the debt that was owed? Hos did you fight a predator who was already dying? "Taehyung ah.." she said softly.

He turned to look at her. "Mother." He said softly. "My son." She smiled. " My beautiful son. Is Jaehyun here? Did you come with him?" Taehyung felt his mouth go dry, his skin crawling. "I'm married to Jungkook." He whispered. She didn't respond to that, merely turning away.

Taehyung laughed bitterly at that. "Yes, I suppose you didn't like him much." he stared down at his lap. " You called me pathetic and weak for loving him, didn't you?" He sighed. " Jungkook has Min Yoongi. Why would he ever look at you, Taehyung... right mother? Well, surprise."

"But then..." He leaned forward. " When you found out we spent the night together, you were pretty eager to tie him to me, weren't you? It makes me wonder... Did you really think of me as nothing more than a shiny little trophy, to be sold to the highest bidder?"

He shook his head. "Look at me." He said sharply, grabbing her arm and tugging her around. She winced at the force, glaring at him. "Taehyung" she snapped, looking furious, " let go of me." He felt his lips wobble. "Those pills." he spat out. " The suppressants. What were they?"

She looked at him blankly. "Pills. Did you take your pills. " She shook her head. " I left them on your table. Jaehyun bought them for you you know. He does everything for you. If he asks you to go out with him you better not refuse, Taehyung. Be grateful, for once. "

Tae stared at her. She looked perfectly normal. Not even a little hesitance in her. She was merely reliving something that had happened a hundred times, over and over. And Tae realized how easy it had been for Jaehyun to reach him. How little his mother had tried to protect him.

"How could you not see him for what he is? " He whispered, voice breaking. "Or did you see it and just not care enough about me to do anything about it? "

Her gaze drifted back to the ball of yarn and Taehyung watched as she reached for it, taking it from his hand roughly. "when will you give me grandchildren?" she demanded, turning the yarn around in her hands. " you're getting older, Taehyung. And so am I." "Taehyung?"

Jungkook's voice came from the doorway and Taehyung turned . Jungkook stood by the entrance, wearing a loose white shirt and shorts, his hair a little damp and face flushed. "I ordered dinner for us." The alpha said softly, stepping out, " Good evening, mother. How are you?"

Taehyung stood up, swiftly and with abruptness, making a beeline for the door but Jungkook caught him by the elbow. "What's wrong?" he asked worriedly and Taehyung closed his eyes. "Nothing. I need to get Yugyeom his meds before dinner." Jungkook frowned. "I already did."

Jungkook tugged him around, staring into his face. "Are you crying?" He asked softly, eyes going wide and Taehyung laughed. "Why won't she die?" he choked out. " Why must I live here, with her...pretending I am fine with everything that she did?"

"Tae-" "Don't say it." He snapped. "Don't tell me how terrible it is to wish death on my own mother. I don't care. I just-" He paused "Jungkook, how could you possibly forgive me for what I did to you?" he whispered. "Deceiving someone, its such a terrible thing to do, isn't it?"

Jungkook held his gaze. "I don't believe you wanted to deceive me Taehyung. I think you were just trying to protect yourself." he hesitated. " Why are we talking about this?" Why indeed. Taehyung didn't know anymore. He didn't know how he could begin to explain.

"i wish our past wasn't tainted." He said finally. " I wish that all of your memories of me, were good .I wish there wasn't a time when you hated me." Jungkook leaned forward, brushing the hair off his face. "I don't think there was." He said finally. "i don't think I ever did."

Jungkook sounded honest, an earnestness in his tone that made it almost impossible to doubt him in any way. Tae wanted more than anything else to believe him. But he couldn't. Not when he had lived so many days and months and years, watching the look of hate on Jungkook's face.

"You don't have to deny it. It was well deserved is what I'm trying to tell you," he said quietly, turning back around to stare at his mother. "She was cruel to me, but I wish I had been brave. At least brave enough to protect the man I loved ." he whispered," I'm so sorry."

Jungkook walked around to stand in front of him, reaching for him with both hands, pulling him into a hug. "Protect me from what?" He muttered, voice muffled into the curve of Tae's shoulder, breath warm on the omega's skin. "Don't you realize ,Tae? Marrying you saved me."

Tae went lax in his arms, eyes fluttering shut and a sense of weariness settling over him. "I'm so scared to live." he whispered. "Everytime I try to forget or move on, there's this voice in my head that says I don't have the right to. I don't know how to make it stop, Jungkook."

Jungkook stayed quiet and Taehyung pulled back to look at him. "Did you see everything he did? Jaehyun?" He shook his head. "how can someone like that just have friends and family and be perfectly successful after hurting so many people? How is that fair?" "He's going to prison."

Taehyung nodded, turning to stare at his mother again. "She loves him." He said shakily. " She thinks he's the most amazing man on this planet. I don't know how much of that night was her fault, but I know she could have stopped it. I know that if for a second she had

cared, even a little about me, she could have stopped it. All of it." He swallowed. " How do I forgive her for that, Jungkook?" Jungkook took a deep breath. "You don't have to." He said softly. " I... you know, i felt the same way about Yoongi, during my therapy sessions."

Jungkook ran a hand over his face. "I kept wondering why someone I loved so much would care so little about me, and the way their actions hurt me. Its even worse when they don't feel any remorse for it, right?" He stared down at his feet. "Its not fair, I know. But it is life."

Taehyung stared at him. "Did you forgive him?" He said quietly. Jungkook hesitated for a few moments. "Parts of me did." he admitted finally. " A large part of it was because I couldn't help but empathize for him. I... I feel like he couldn't help doing, you know, what he did."

"I'm not saying you should forgive her." Jungkook added quickly. " That's not a burden you should put on yourself. She's dying." he said softly. " Forgiveness is hard enough when you receive and apology, Taehyung. It's pretty much impossible when there is no remorse at all."

"But..." Jungkook cupped his face, " carrying anger and resentment , it is exhausting. Its exhausting and tiring and I don't want you to feel that way. I want you to be free from it. " he bit his lips," Its your choice and i know you said you didn't want to see him, but

if you ever change your mind, Dr. Lee can help. A lot." Taehyung didn't respond right away, merely nodding vaguely. "What's going to happen to Jaehyun?" He asked quietly. "Dad won't tell me." Jungkook grimaced. " He's pretty mad that I came back here. He thinks its not safe."