Realyn Trisha Mae Carreon Where do I begin with you as the most immature, toxic and insensitive girlfriend I had?

It all started on October 24 of 2022. First days were great and sweet. They were really helping me to dig up more inspiration. You were an angel when I first laid words with you on socials.

November 16, 2022 I asked you out and be my girlfriend. That was the most happiest moment I felt since I had no one that time. You even said to me personally that no matter what, you will not let out “toxic traits” and “be the most mature girlfriend” as much as possible.

December of 2022 We had an argument. I had to understand her knowing she had anger issues and tried calming her down before. But in my case, I wasn’t feeling like I did my best to let her be calmed. Instead, she blew up a fuse even more to let her anger out even more.

January of 2023 Had an argument again through assumptions. This was stressing for me because I was trying to open up my worst case scenarios emotions on her because I knew I would trust her when I said it. But no, she invalidated it and made me feel like I’m the one at fault.

February of 2023 I knew now here that she has something wrong with her anger issues. For valentines, tried to cheer her up by giving her a crochet na wala man lang kapalit. I thought you already started changing your trait when you said this. But I was wrong.

March of 2023 Another argument have spawned. Im sensing a pattern already because she does not show signs of remorse now here. Even got jealous of my friends for no apparent reason. Ang sakit mo magsalita.

April of 2023 Exams. We were discussing lang how things were and then until we got into an argument again. This is where my traumas began to fume back. I have been physically abused by her :) Yes her. Siya pa talaga.

Even confessed na nasugat niya talaga ako. You said sorry but the damage has been done. You made my traumas even scarier than I expected. Had to say “im okay” para hindi niya ioverthink kasi may mga gagawin pa siya that time and I don’t want her seeing like that.

To my surprise, May of 2023 is not good :) By not good, I mean really not good. A lot of arguments. What’s worst, she even cursed me multiple times na “I hope I’ll die”

Ang sakit mo magsalita sa totoo lang. Thank you for the traumas Thank you dahil pinaguilt trip mo ako on spending things na hindi dapat Thank you for being the immature girl that heavily impacted me din :)) To wrap this up, gusto ko lang po ipakita kung gaano siya kasakit.

Kaya sorry ha? If ganyan ugali mo. Inintindi kita. Pero you damaged me ng buo ngayon. I cannot stand you anymore. I tied fixing it completely, extended my patience sayo and still nothing was resolved.

I just want to know what to do right now. I am hurt and left with more traumas she dealt sakin. I know I made mistakes too. Pero why it had to be this worse?

Araw araw arguments. Ang sakit sa ulo. Simpleng bagay napapalala dahil sa false assumptions lagi. Pero wala. You were insensitive sa words mo. I considered you as one my safe spaces. It turns out, you used them all against me.

Tapos a lot of people are praising you for you fake “ugali” na shinoshow mo sa school? How can someone be that kind of a person pero at the same time be cruel sa sarili niyang boyfriend? Sakit mo mahalin.

I’m sorry for bursting out like this. I just felt invalidated from the actions she did to me. A simple sorry won’t fix this anymore because of the what she did and what she can do in the future.

I kept silence for how many months. You only repaid me for this sort of doings. Napupuno din ako.

I am done with this. I don’t deserve every bit of what happened. I deserve to be happy.

I hope your parents know about your attitude. Thanks to you, nadamay ako sa mga ugali mong ayaw kong iadapt pero dahil sa takot, nagagawa ko na.

As to anyone’s concern, No I’m not making this up. I can show you the evidence of her confessing everything she did sa akin through call. Because gusto ko lahat may evidence haha jk

In conjunction to that, mahilig din siya manira ng gamit ko. Thank you for demonstrating me :)

Also. To reiterate my mistakes din understand her side I became unruly when she committed on doing immature things to me. Every arguments, she would not pay attention and let herself get distracted. So i got things from her because it’s so disrespectful to even-

Do that. But can you blame for the traits she’s been showing? She really hold me up like something im not din. Napakarestricted ko that time pero ganyan pa din ang kalabasan.

All the things I did, was for just ti clear up, not to worsen the feeling. But she always misinterpreted it. ALWAYS.

Just an update: She’s trying to tell din na I’m at fault when clearly she started the scenario to swell it even more. Why do people just admit their mistakes and call it quits??? I’m so frustrated. Ako pa talaga binabaliktad.